#draft dumps incoming

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i am going to be posting some drafts I have sitting in my computer because I don't know when I'm going to be able to upload again (new work schedule that has me working six days a week but I want to get some stuff out) plus it all silly, brain rot stuff that I don't think I would put in an actual fic

[happylandfill23]

sometimes i look through my drafts and i genuinely cover my mouth with my hand like girl you did NOT just say that

[littleeyesofpallas]

Koyoi, Tsuma ga[今宵、妻が。]

Tonight My Wife will...

[sundogsandrainbows]

Hi, I'm sorry to write to you out of the blue, but Of Elves and Humans was the first DA longfic that got me hooked back in 2011 when I, as a dumb teen, happened to pick up DAO. Ever since then, the DA universe has been a constant fixation of mine and my admiration for you as a writer as well as someone who isn’t afraid to call out the franchise's flaws has never wavered. Now that Bioware decided to take a massive shit on everything pre-DAV and their oldest fans specifically, I'm really devastated and feel like a fool for having been so invested in DA and its lore for those past 13 years. It’s incredibly encouraging, however, to see you keep on keeping on. "So since they spat in my face like this I ignore this atrocity of a game even exists" is where I hope to be at soon, too. Thank you.

(First of all apologies for the late reply, I put it in my drafts when i was too tired to complete it, and then my adhd brain forgot it existed due to being distracted by new shinies 😂☠)

But aww omg i cannot believe i was the gateway drug into dragon age, or rather the old version of my story on FFN was. I am so very honored <3 And nonnie, I feel you. I am invested in DA as a series since DA:O's release in 2009, like I bought it on a whim for XBox because I liked Mass Effect 1 sm. So that is 15 yrs of my life i spent loving and discussing a thing while still being critical of the thing, but now i feel so very protective of the world, lore and its characters that "New Bioware" has decided to take a massive dump of shit on, and not only the games but the old fans I feel are treated with disdain too and do not matter to them any longer.

Long, subjective rant about current bioware aka the shambling corpse of its former self and talent incoming. Spoilers for Veilguard bc i don't give a fuck to avoid them :D You (general you, not you in particular dearest nonny <3) should use your time better than to play this shit anyhow 😂

It feels like calculated malice of new Bioware to apply the scorched earth tactics to offscreen destroy everything that old fans and fans of the other games in general held dear, and was supposed to suck out the enjoyment of DAO, DA2 and DAI. Like it is obvious they plan to create a sequel on DA's scorched bones, but jfc, you can do so story-wise without spitting everyone loving what old bioware has built in the face after dropkicking them. But to me that is part of the problem, since if i remember correctly and i wish i could find the bit... they praised Veilguard as "The best Dragon Age game ever", with the most interesting companions and best most improved combat system, comparing it to the other three games in a near smug fashion. There is marketing and there is putting the other games down to prop up your most favorite and only child mattering and they were definitely doing the latter. And don't get me started on the whole "Who is Zevran" debacle or we are gonna here all day.

Bottom line is new/current devs and writer do not give a shit about and very possibly have never played any other game than Inquisition, and you cannot tell me otherwise. And since a lot of devs/writer have left since the start of this project that would become this abysmal game, I also have the impression that there is a lot of underlying resentment toward what these former colleagues have created and so they piss on it in order to make it fully theirs now. Like dogs marking their territory, and well that did not work out, imo. At all.

Ever since they announced respecting our past choices by ignoring them (????) it was clear to me that I would not play Veilguard but just watch a playthrough and all spoilers and then move on. And everything i saw before release was shocking... like i was flabbergasted at how baaaad the dialogue was, which as a writer myself is super important to me in my story. There was no subtext, characters just blurt out everything they think and feel, like a lifeless doll you squeeze and words tumbling out and just as natural. It is stilted, awkward and 80% of it exists for info dump or info dumb rather as they keep repeating the same shit they just told you a few seconds ago as if you as the player are braindead. Here is a good example of what i mean.

Jfc, who edited this crap? There is so much superfluous dialogue that adds nothing to a scene but annoyance for the player and says nothing at all. Just pure senseless yapping in the most cringy way. Why was no one there to trim this nonsense as you should as a writer/editor? Hell, they really disregarded every simple and basic writing rule (everything is told never SHOWN for example especially in dialogue) which really made me question their competence in what they were doing and thus the quality of the upcoming game but i still held out hope for it to not be that bad.

Well shit, it was even worse. In all regards. Especially the writing that cringed this writer into a new dimension with its incoherent incompetence. Jfc. they got paid for that? I'm convinced the majority of fandom writer can do much better, even unpaid. Hell my cat just by walking over the keyboard can manage a better draft and script...💀

But I digress. That is a rant for another time. Point is, nonny, despite my defiant words, I struggled too for days after i got to know the full extent of Bioware's spiteful fuckery to even look at anything da related, in my case my Alistair/Mahariel longfic. I was really down for a few days, ngl. Then again, there is nothing better than spite fueling my creativity to prove "i can write better" soooo in the end and with the help of the much better first version of DA4 in the artbook, I was able to exorcise the demons and feverdream-mindfuck of mediocrity sold to me as a turd with gold-glitter that is this game.

I have successfully now rejected its existence, filled the void with the version that should have been from the artbook and vowed to give no fucks what bioware is doing or saying and infinitely more fucks when writing my own version of thedas and the version of DA4 that should be. REWRITES BBY hell yeah. So OEAH:R is just the beginning of a verse-wise rewrite. But if you need a pick me up, nonny, you are very much welcome to take a trip down memory lane to Dragon 9:30 and see how much this iteration of the story differs from my first one back in the days. Because in this house of mine, we grow and learn as writers, unlike bioware where writer ego reigns surpreme (oh boy and does it ever show in VG) aka eating their own turds and tell themselves it is the finest chocolate 💀

There is still a lot of good about DA out there, but we have to accept it does not come from Bioware any longer. Instead it came, comes and will come from the fans and creators of art and texts and words defying their bullshit with their love and respect for the world, its lore and characters. Also very unlike Bioware.

As we should <3

[pearlescynt]

Back, Better, Rebranding!

This is a bit of long post, not too crazy but a lot of info dumping! I would very much appreciate it if you gave it a thorough read through! I will put the shortened version first though, to give you the gist 🫶🏾

TLDR;

New name. 2 new fics to be posted, hopefully, within the month. New upcoming content for both readerxmember fics & memberxmember fics (chaptered & one-shots). New discord server incoming that is revolved around skz fanfiction recommendations & EPUB file sharing. I am looking for a mod on my discord server to help me work through it all (because I am old and unknowledgeable on discord if I am being honest, but I have picked up quite a bit).

Read below for more info!

You may formerly know me as ‘kaysungshine’, but I have a few updates you 🩷

• I am rebranding myself/my online alias as Pearlescynt, but you can call me Pearl 🫧

• I am still going to be writing out all the ideas I have drafted, outlined and waiting to be edited for reader fics (y/n fics, etc. whatever you want to call them). In fact, I have two almost ready to be posted, but I just have to push through editing them!

However after those two fics, I will be mainly focusing on my member ship fics.

I AM NOT ABANDONING MY READER FICS.

I want to make that clear. This is where I started my journey in writing for kpop groups, (I mean I’ve only written skz so far lol) and I will never walk away from this person view. I just have SO MANY outlines of member ships as well, and I want to work on them more at the moment. I haven’t been able to post any of them anywhere yet.

• I will also be posting regularly (*hopefully*) to AO3. I would like that to be my main fic source, but I know that is unrealistic. I quite enjoy the simple formatting on AO3, and I like the ability to create EPUBS automatically as well. I read fics of all kinds frequently on my kindle, as many others do. If you’d like to know how or would like to learn more about this & EPUBs; stay tuned 😉

• Now this has more to do with chaptered fics than anything. Every fic I write will be on AO3, but not all will be posted here. MEANING: all my one-shots will be posted here. And I have A LOT, of one-shots drafted and outlined as well. But I will not be posting the content of each chapter of a chaptered fic here. As it’s looking like some of my chaptered fics will easily reach 75k-100k+. Not all, but some (most?). And with the way we lay out our fics here on tumblr, it would be too much for me to handle the formatting of the same fic on two different websites, at the same time. But again THIS IS FOR CHAPTERED FICS ONLY. All oneshots, imagines, drabbles, or text fics etc. will remain posted and sourced on here.

That being said, I will still have posts for my chaptered fics on here, and I will still make new posts for each new chapter. (And I will still make things aesthetically pleasing because thas jus me 😏) It is just that the post will not contain the entire chapter, and instead link you to read the chapter on AO3.

• Now back to EPUBS:

It has come to my attention that there is really no space , that I have found at least, that contains links/files of all skz related fics.

For example: my history in reading/writing fics we all know goes back over a decade. We always had group chats, or Facebook groups, or some space that allows us to share recommendations of fics we enjoy and love. Or allows us to even self promote our own fics. For my old band fic days, it was entire tumblr accounts called “networks”. People would code their own themes with TONS of links to provide these files and links to (usually Wattpad, Miba, or ffnet) fanfiction. When I moved into, the HP fanfic world, it was mainly Facebook groups that’s were being used to share them. And I like the idea of the Facebook group the best, because 1. The coding on tumblr isn’t the same as it used to be. I am not up to date with it, therefore my knowledge is basically useless to make a “network”. So it felt like a Facebook group was the way to go. HOWEVER. I’m finding there is not a large kpop following on there, it definitely exists. But not on the same level as tumblr, X (twitter), threads, or instagram.

So this brought the question of: what platform can I use that is widely accessible, somewhat a controllable environment, but still open enough to be a safe space?

Discord.

Most everyone at least has an account. And while I’m learning to properly navigate my own server, and it is a work in progress. It will be going live at some point this year.

When I have more info on that, I will update you with it.

My whole point in creating this discord server, is to have a space to share both links to fanfics to read inline, as well as EPUB files to be able to read on an e-reader. Such as a kindle, the kindle app, google books, or iBooks. There are more devices and apps you can read epub files on.

And the whole point of having a space to share both these things, is 1. Organization, always being able to find what you’re looking for, or find something new to read with like minded individuals that match your interests. 2. Never losing a fic again.

Many fics can become unavailable, whether they get locked, deleted, placed in private collections. Whether an author leaves a fandom, or deletes their accounts. Whether an author decides to publish their works into an actual book, and therefore has to delete their copies of the fanfic. Many things can happen for some fics to disappear from the web altogether.

Saving EPUB files = saving your favorite fic forever.

It’s become such an integral part of many fandoms for me, I was honestly quite shocked that I couldn’t find much on it within this fandom.

I will also do a breakdown/mini tutorial on how to save these files. And how to use them on e-readers/apps. As well as more informational tutorials regarding them overall.

• I am also looking for a mod to help me out on this endeavor. If you are interested please reach out to me! Thank you!

•With all this finally being said:

I hope to receive a warm welcome back. And I hope this discord server can bring us closer. If there’s one thing I struggled with the most in this community, it’s finding friendship. And while I have my close few, I’d love for it to feel like a more positive and bonding (no pun intended) space for everyone. Even if that just means providing a small space for the few of us. I hope you all look forward to the fics I have planned, and the fics soon to be posted! I do work full time, and have other things going on. But all my free time has been going to getting back into things. I also missed you all, and this community so much! And I can’t wait to get back to regularly scheduled posting 🫶🏾🩷

[uncreative-cryptid]

Valerian Info Dump

most of this is draft stuff so do not mind it too much

anyways fun fact did you know many metals found in your blood are also found in space so therefore you are made of star stuff my friend

Basics

Valerian is an unusual freelance mercenary, who is known to work often with escorting researchers to various areas. Despite his unusually eccentric attitude, many will notate his expansive knowledge on the many minerals of Solaris-3.

Gender Male (He/They)

Birthplace New Federation

Affiliation Jinzhou

Attribute Spectro

Forte Circuit

[ Node 1 ] Resonance Skill: Man Made

- When 'Shards' are full, Valerian's Resonance skill is replaced with Man Made. Casting Man Made will consume all 'Shards' and enter the Fortified Aura state.

Fortified Aura

The character in the Fortified Aura state has greatly increased resistance to all DMG. When Valerian is in this state: - Basic Attacks: Launches coordinated attacks, dealing Spectro DMG up to 20% of Valerian's Max HP every 4 seconds. - Dodge Counters: Increases Spectro DMG by 19%. - Use Basic Attack within 4s after a successful Counterattack to cast Suncatcher, dealing Spectro DMG, considered as Basic Attack damage. Valerian does not recover 'Shards' in this state.

Shards

Valerian can hold up to 120 shards. When Resonance Skill hits a target, recover Shards. When Intro Skill hits a target, recover Shards.

[ Node 2 ] Inherent Skill

Damage of Resonance Liberation: Blood of the Ruby Aura increased by 20%.

[ Node 3 ] Inherent Skill

Resonance Skill Metal Bond increases healing bonus by 20%.

An Aura of Flame — Normal Attack Basic Attack

Valerian fires up to 5 consecutive shots, dealing Spectro DMG.

Heavy Attack

Valerian enters the aiming state for a more powerful shot. The aimed shot fired after charging finishes deals Spectro DMG.

Mid-Air Attack

Valerian consumes STA to perform consecutive shots at the target in mid-air, dealing Spectro DMG.

Dodge Counter

Use Basic Attack after a successful Dodge to attack the target, dealing Spectro DMG

[ Node 2 ]

Healing bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3 ]

Healing bonus 4.20%

Song of the Aqua Aura — Resonance Skill

Attack the enemy and deal Spectro DMG, triggers Metal Bond to all characters on team.

Metal Bond

All characters on team receive a shield of 200% of Valerian's Max HP and will continuously heal all characters on nearby teams once every (1) second.

[ Node 2 ]

DEF bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3 ]

DEF bonus 4.20%

Blood of the Ruby Aura — Resonance Liberation

Create Diamond Dust Aura, dealing continuous Spectro DMG to all targets nearby continuously once every (3) seconds.

When casting Blood of the Ruby Aura, Valerian will consume 55% of his HP to increase other character's CRIT DMG by 55%

[ Node 2 ]

DEF bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3]

DEF bonus 4.20%

Aura of the Sun — Intro Skill

Attack the target dealing Spectro DMG.

[ Node 2 ]

healing bonus 1.80%

[ Node 3 ]

healing bonus 4.20%

Kaleidoscope — Outro Skill

The incoming resonator gains Kaleidoscope, granting the following effects: Resonator gains a temporary shield that is 10% of Valerian's max HP. Upon being hit, Kaleidoscope will explode, dealing Spectro DMG to nearby enemies. On a successful Dodge or Counter Attack, Kaleidoscope is destroyed and grants the resonator a 10% bonus to Normal Attacks for 5 seconds.

[ Intimacy Levels | Cherished Items | Voice ]

special thanks to @hobbysognodilibri , @unrealistic-ideas-for-writers , @isthissarksouls , and everyone who continues to support my writing and insane rambling of this game , including but not limited to @shatteredsonance for the art , and the anons and lurkers who are supporting from a distance. you guys are the best.

[judjira]

heyo it is ur friendly neighborhood joo !

it has been Quite A While since i last posted anything, whether on tumblr or ao3, but worry not! i am not dead yet, and i have no plans on being dead. i've been stuck for a while on writing, but i'll get to that in a bit.

for some reason, now that it's the end of the year, i took a moment to sit down and really just think about things, and i've come to one conclusion.

god, 2024 really sucked for me.

now, i know mindless rants and thought dumps like this aren't why you follow me or anything, but honestly, this is a writing blog, so i'm going to write. if you don't like that, boohoo (jk feel free to stop reading and go send that ask about when im going to update (fic) haha)

a lot of my friends like to say i give main character vibes, and that's not me boasting. genuinely i wonder what it is they see in me that makes them think that. maybe it's the way i tell stories about what happened to me, or how i can manage to keep up a conversation and seem like an extrovert, or just genuinely the way i live my life.

for context, i'm a freelancer doing events and theater, which means i have really, really strange work hours, and even stranger income. i suppose, to someone else, my life seems cool, leaving for work at 11 pm, going to different cities for shows, getting to meet celebrities in the industry and whatnot. and yeah, if i didn't work in this industry, i'd think that's pretty cool too.

but i do work in this industry. and god does it suck so bad. i try a lot to find the reasons why i keep doing my job, and it happens a lot like this:

i do a gig with a lot of hiccups, problems in management, toxic people, underperformance, and i consider quitting. then, something really great happens at the end, and i gaslight myself into ignoring my imposter syndrome and i keep working, waiting for another job.

so it's a lot like someone only giving me food when i'm desperately starving, just enough to keep me going for one day.

do i enjoy it? hell no. is it worth it? somehow, for some reason, at the end of it all, yes.

but the one thing i really don't like about it all is how it's affected my personal relationships. i take all responsibility for the way i act and the way i behave, but i'd be a liar if i said my workplace didn't influence me the way it did.

this year has been so full of ups and downs with my parents, my siblings, my girlfriend, my friends. i feel like, somehow, in gaining independence for myself financially, i somehow realized in the first place what i was so dependent on in my relationships. which sucks.

and to make it full circle, another thing i really don't like about it is how it's taken me away from my favorite hobby, which is writing.

i have missed out on writing for so long that it physically pains me sometimes that i'm away from my laptop and clicky keyboard, unable to pour my heart out onto some weird ass twice fic that barely anyone's gonna read. it might seem shallow to someone else, hell, probably to most people, but damn if writing isn't the one thing i come back to each and every year.

which, i think, brings me to my next point, which is i think i have to apologize for not being so active. i've made a lot of promises that i haven't been able to keep with my fics, and i have so many drafts that haven't seen the light of day. and i don't think it's just you people who read my fics that i have to apologize to, but also myself. i think i took writing too seriously and ended up having it weigh down on me more than it should have.

the whole point of this damn thing is to have fun, and to make sure other people have fun, and i don't think i've been having a lot of fun recently, honestly.

so, yeah. an apology. to you guys. and to myself. i think. im a fuckin weirdo.

but yeah, that's it for this rant. if you made it to the end, congrats! i'll be posting a s'agapo update soon, and i'm also working on the next out of bounds. after that, god knows what i'm updating. i'm gonna stop lying to myself and saying that i have an update plan when in reality i just write whatever's on my mind.

anyway, thanks for reading, and i hope you all have a very happy new year. love ya

[notsocheezy]

Brain Curd #402

Brain Curds are barely-edited fiction, poetry, or just about anything else - drafted in a day or less. I’m sorry, is this a social network or a business major circlejerk competition?

Rise and grind, sigma army! That’s right, it’s time for another Advice Dump from your favorite LinkedIn buddy, Durk Turger.

Today, I want to talk to all of you about what’s really important: getting that bag. And you already know how important getting that bag is, but did you know the more bag you get the easier it is to bag more bag? Let me explain: it’s called “passive income.”

Okay, so hear me out, the gist of it goes like this: When you have enough money in your bank account, you can just buy stuff you don’t even need. Like, yachts are a good example. But some things you can buy that you don’t even need are things that other people do need! And then you can charge them money just to use them!

Ever have a landlord? That’s right, that was their apartment you lived in, and you paid them just to live there! That could be you, sigmas. That could be you. But to buy a whole house, you might need more capital than you can scrounge from your average low-tier crypto rugpull or dropshipping scam. What’s a sigma to do?

Well, your old pal Durk just found an exploit in the system. What you gotta do is, you go into a bank and tell them you want a loan. Then, when they ask you about your income to see if you can afford to pay the loan, you just show them some documents with extra zeros on ‘em. You know, just massage the numbers, catch my drift? They’ll be begging you to sign their loan contracts! They might even offer you a credit card or a bank account on top.

Then, when you buy the house, all you gotta do is rent it out right away. You can use that money to pay off the loan, and you don’t even have to do anything!

I know what you’re thinking, sigmas: “Won’t that just pay off the loan? What about my money? That all just goes to the bank!” And you’re right, but you’re forgetting one thing: once you have tenants, you can just tell them they need to pay you more rent and they’ll just do it! Isn’t that crazy?

I’ve done this like, five or six times now. And even though each house is only making me a few hundred on top of the loan payments, it all adds up. I bring in two grand a month doing nothing, and I can cut down on costs by living in my dad’s vacation home since I know he hides the key under the doormat.

This is the life, sigmas! And you can feel good knowing that you’re helping the world go round by helping people who can’t get a mortgage find someplace to call their own. I mean, it isn’t their own because it’s mine. But they can feel like they’re moving up in the world, which is just as good since they’re too stupid to know the difference.

Anyway, I gotta wrap this up. I just got a letter in the mail saying I’m wanted for questioning. I bet the government is just jealous of how big a success I am, so I’ll tell them how to do it themselves to get them off my back. So long for today, sigmas!

Penned 2025.05.09

Please reblog, like, and follow if you enjoyed, and leave a reply even if you didn’t! See you again soon!

[jaggybot3000]

hm. was about to make a joke about hitting the stage where i stared at my drafts instead of posting them but then i was like. wait a second. i dont need any reason to post. i can just post! pencil sketch dump incoming hang on a sec

[icaffs]

Hello i have been sent by @seaweedbrain12 to dump advice on you

Publishing:

For your book, there are independent presses like MindStir Media, Black Rose Writing, or Invisible Publishing, which focus on new authors and have comprehensive support. Also, platforms like Amazon KDP let you self-publish.

Getting there:

Academically, you'll probably have to go for Literature and Psychology in university. It'll be harder to back out of in future if those career paths change, so pick up a teaching degree to fall back on. Find a small publisher and wait until they have reviewed your manuscript, a mostly complete, already advised draft that the publisher needs to deem worth investing in.

Financial:

Authors live off royalties. Can't have income before you're published. Get a separate job while you write your first book, preferably while still in university, so you can pay off student loans. Do not quit that job until you are certain that you have steady income.

Staying there:

Hire editors and be in constant contact with your publishing team for promotional work, public relations, and partnerships with book stores. The more traction your book gains, the easier it'll be to screw up royally on the public relations. Always save, when profit depends on people. People are fickle things, and people will fail you.

Have fun writing.

Omg this is so helpful thank you sm I can't believe people acctually tried to help thank you so much

[sejanusarchive]

Many people have enabled me (thank you so much guys <3) so draft dump incoming, apologies in advance

[happylandfill23]

i'm actually so funny sometimes

[yuyamuya]

vocabs i learned from 알쓸별잡 ep. 7

허물다: remove, get rid of, abolish 사회적으로 이미 주어져 있는 규율이나 관습 등을 없어지게 하다. To make a given rule or custom in a society disappear.

허물다: pull down, throw away, eliminate 심리적으로 이미 주어져 있는 생각이나 믿음 등을 없애다. To get rid of a given thought or belief.

화석: fossil (비유적으로) 변화하거나 발전��지 않고 어떤 상태에서 돌처럼 굳어 버린 것. (figurative) A state of remaining firm in a certain state like a stone without showing any change or progress.

혼잡하다: chaotic, crowded, jammed 여러 가지가 한데 뒤섞여 어지럽고 복잡하다. Many things being mixed up to make a person feel chaotic and complicated.

획일화: uniformity, standardization 모두가 하나와 같아서 다름이 없게 됨. 또는 모두가 하나와 같아서 다름이 없게 함. For everything to become identical without any differences; or to make everything look identical without any differences.

공급하다: supply, provide 요구나 필요에 따라 물건이나 돈 등을 제공하다. To provide things or money in response to demands or needs.

부양하다: support 수입이 없어서 혼자 생활하기 어려운 사람을 돌보다. To take care of someone who cannot live on his/her own because he/she has no income.

기발하다: ingenious, original, novel 놀라울 정도로 재치가 있고 뛰어나다. Witty and surprisingly brilliant.

되새기다 ruminate; meditate 지난 일을 다시 떠올려 곰곰이 생각하다. To recall something past to one's mind and think it over.

못지않다: not inferior, as good as, almost equal 다른 것과 비교했을 때 뒤떨어지거나 못하지 않다. Not falling behind or being inferior when compared with other things.

삭막하다: dreary, bleak 쓸쓸하고 황폐하다. Solitary and desolate.

조율하다: compromise (비유적으로) 여러 입장의 차이에서 생긴 문제를 해결하기 위하여 정도를 조절하다. (figurative) To adjust the degree to resolve an issue arising from differences in position.

담보하다 어떠한 일이 잘못될 때 그 잘못을 대신하기 위해 무엇인가를 내놓다. To present something to make up for a situation in which something has gone wrong.

처연하다: sad, sorrowful 쓸쓸하고 구슬프다. Lonely and mournful.

거론하다: mention, bring up 어떤 것을 이야기의 주제나 문제로 삼아 논의하다. To bring up or mention something as a subject of discussion or an object of criticism.

탁월하다: excellent, distinguished 남보다 훨씬 뛰어나다. Far superior to others.

순전히: genuinely 순수하고 완전하게. Purely and absolutely.

절묘하다: be marvelous, be great 비교할 데가 없을 만큼 아주 놀랍고 신기하다. To be incomparably surprising and amazing.

불길하다: ominous, inauspicious 운이 좋지 않고 나쁜 일이 생길 것 같은 느낌이 있다. Having a feeling that one will be unlucky and something bad will happen.

징조: omen, sign 어떤 일이 일어날 것 같은 분위기나 느낌. A vibe or feeling that makes one think something may happen.

터무니없다: absurd, groundless 황당하고 믿음성이 없어 전혀 근거가 없다. Something having no foundation, as it is ridiculous and lacks credibility.

타파하다: break down, destroy, overthrow 좋지 않은 관습이나 제도를 깨뜨��� 버리다. To break and dump bad customs or a bad system.

실마리: clue, lead 일이나 사건을 해결해 나갈 수 있는 시작이 되는 부분. Something with which one starts to resolve a case or problem.

의기소침하다: depressed 자신감이 줄어들고 기운이 없어진 상태이다. Being in the state in which one has lost one's confidence and energy.

지독하다: tenacious, persistent 의지나 마음이 매우 크고 강하다. Having a strong will.

초고: draft 처음 쓴 글. The preliminary version of writing.

[lilworms]

draft dump incoming

[nochiquinn]

this post is probably gonna end up in drafts for a while, bc I'm about to dump a lot of stuff and I'm not putting it behind a cut.

I've talked about the stuff with our property tax, but I don't think I've really laid out what it means. If we cannot pay our property tax, they will evict us from our home. We will be homeless. I've said that part. here's what I haven't laid out.

I have someplace to go. My parents will take me back in. My depression will skyrocket and I'll lose my only means of making a living due to their substandard rural internet, but I'll have a roof over my head. But my partner can't come with me. While they'd probably gladly also take in my kid, I am not her legal guardian in any sense. Her parents would have to sign over custody so I could make necessary decisions wrt her medical care, school stuff, etc etc. All the parent stuff I can't do.

I am in a polyamorous relationship. My partner is married to someone else. "My kid" is legally and biologically their kid, I am a legally "unofficial" third parent. (We usually introduce me as her godparent.) For this reason, my lack of any legal ties to any of them and their status as a legal nuclear family, any temporary housing they find will not allow me to come with them. I would have to apply on my own, and my employment status doesn't give me great odds. The one place they can possibly go doesn't have room for me, just the three of them.

In extremely plain language, if we lose our house, I lose my partner. If we lose our house, I lose my kid.

My partner is currently not working. We can survive on his wife's income, but just barely. Our plan was to take a little off the top of each of her paychecks, so 4-5 times a month, and use that to pay. We can't do that now. As it stands now we would need around $800 a month to make the payment in time.

I don't know. I just needed to lay out the actual stakes I'm facing, I guess. We have tried so, so hard - my partner has tried so, so hard and we just keep getting knocked down. Not to sound petulant, but it's not fucking fair. and I don't know what to do anymore.

[trivijoy]

draft dump incoming