#entry 16

[kuboyesuu]

I'm on entry #16, and I'm pretty confused?? Comments mention an operator, I feel very empty headed right about now. Binary code and stuff. I still think this series is incredibly interesting. I like it thus far :) Need to watch a video that can put it into terms I'll understand. Alex was creating a student project, which led to other events taking place??? At one point he scribbles words and phrases, along with pictures, someone please dumb it down for me.

[miradanii]

Beast Wars S1 Ep10

Let Big Bot Optimus say "fuck"

[hornets-dream-journal]

had a dream that i visited this meatsuit's piece of shit blood relatives for some reason to eat dinner with them. n i left my breedable boyfriend plushie on my chair to do something else for a moment. n when i got back he was in a plate completely covered in borscht. n i was like what's up with that why did you do that. and parental unit was like "ahaha sorry i didn't know you Don't want me to pour borscht all over your plushie" as if that wasn't immediately obvious to anyone who has at least vaguely heard of borscht and plushies. n i went to get him cleaned up as much as i can in the sink instead of eating anything.

[entry333]

love how jay gets a tip on brian , shows up at (presumably) his house in the middle of the night and when he doesnt answer the first couple knocks literally breaks in ??? brother what is your problem

[shisasan]

Sorry to interrupt your scrolling, but may you always walk in rooms that feel like home and meet souls that speak your language. 🜍 ⟡ ⟢

[a-reason-for-existing]

I just realized something. I have a superiority complex. It's a coping mechanism. I know I'm different. That's why I'm alone. For so long I thought I was the problem. I thought everyone hated me. Why? Nowadays, I tell myself, it's because I'm better. I'm kinder. I know something no one else does. I'm not the one in the wrong. Everyone else is wrong. And it works. For the most part, it works. But, every now and then, those old thoughts slip in. Why am I lying to myself? Why am I trying to convince myself I'm anything more than a fuck up? It's like having a superiority complex and an inferiority complex at the same time. I'm better and I'm worse. I'm amazing and I'm an idiot. What is the truth? Why can't I just be normal?

[cottaegecore]

sylvia plath (cinematicfella on x)

[mythalism]

im actually kind of surprised how at peace i am with this unofficial but inevitable end of dragon age. obviously im sad. for the people who just lost their jobs with seemingly very little notice, and also just a general sense of sadness for how capitalism is so relentlessly dedicated to crushing every last shred of human creativity and passion under its bloody boot. but personally, i actually think dragon age served its purpose in my life, and i'm not sure how much more i could have continued to get out of it. outside of providing satisfying closure on a story i waited 10 years for, which was a necessity, in order to actually carry on and reignite the passion i had for the franchise and reincarnate it into something that could last another decade in my mind palace... da4 would have had to have done something really groundbreaking for it to resonate with me at 26 the way it did with me at 16. even if i really enjoyed veilguard and thought it was great, i am not sure it would have carried over into the next phase of my life unless it was really special. think it could have easily been possible, for example i think if they went back to the full da2 greek tragedy vibe that would have absolutely gagged me and had me by the balls, but i also didn't necessarily ever expect that. i would have loved to see it, but i was never counting on it, and as i waited for the game to download on the morning of the 31st, even then it felt a long cycle finally coming to an end, rather than the exciting beginning of something new. what excited me was finally getting closure and catharsis, not starting a new cycle. loving dragon age primarily from ages 16-22 was genuinely so profound, the stories were so meaningful to me as a young adult and carried me through so much. it was exactly what i needed when i needed it, and though these games got me to this destination of who i am 10 years later... i'm honestly not sure they could have carried me any further. veilguard was the last leg of a very long trip. a cigarette-smelling, reckless-driving, overpriced Uber ride following a wonderful life-changing vacation and a 10 year long turbulence-heavy flight, but it got me where i needed to go in one piece. it could have been a much more pleasant ride, of course, but i made it. and now i have to find new destinations to travel to

[dunderella]

sfw entry for day2 of kinktober: roleplay

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

Today I found out there was just a wholeass stageplay for FF16 that was announced in 2023 for 2024. And, so far as I can tell, it's received crickets since the initial hype/announcement

The troupe who were putting it on don't even have the web page of details for the announced performance up anymore

Based on what little I can find I assume it was...quietly canceled?

[miradanii]

Beast Wars S1 Ep9

This part was kinda sad but also I laughed...really hard...I'm sorry.

The glimpse of Cybertron is nice. Looks like it's a night covered city. And they're already called Maximals so what do they transform as on Cybertron then?? Is it still cars or other type of animal like species??????

Ratrap and Dino Bot are friends and I'm here for it.

That Megop moment lmao.

Rhino paws can't do the job :((((

The ending of the episode was sad but whoever did the animation with the signal ray blowing up...I think I know what you were going for...but I don't think even 2024 standards of high quality CGI would have helped either.

[kitkatstu-dies]

6/6/2025

I am having so much fun!!! I have been able to work with things that I've learned about, but never got to use (Gel electrophoresis/Western Blot). I feel a lot less anxious about life/everything in general. It's so mind-boggling because this is the feeling that I've been chasing since I was a teen. Just somewhere that feels right? Somewhere where I don't feel ashamed or judged. I know I'm only going to be here for the summer, but I am so grateful for this experience.

[remembertheplunge]

Journaling Journey evolves.

My journal entry August 16, 1991

I suppose that my journals represent my ongoing philosophy, and they remain quiet and safe, rarely shared. I pour liquid thought onto the day's rough and tumble blizzard, but the essence left behind on her benevolent white pages are spared our deep scrutiny.

End of entry

Notes 10/19/2024 Saturday: On February 5, 2023, I began my blog in which I post entries from journals I have kept since 1977. What gestated in solitude in 1991 was ready to speak to the world by 2023.

[shisasan]

@apoloadonisandnarcissus

This analysis is nothing short of brilliant, deeply discerning, rich in psychological insight, and built on a clear understanding of Jungian archetypes. The exploration of Ellen’s Persona, Shadow, and ultimate individuation is exceptionally strong, offering a layered interpretation that doesn’t merely dissect but truly animates the forces at play within her psyche.

I would only expand on a few key elements to add further depth:

In classical Jungian terms, Orlok is not just Ellen’s object of lust but also her Thanatos drive (death drive), a longing for dissolution, for the abyss. This adds complexity to her attraction to him, as it is not purely sexual but existential. The scene where Ellen dreams of marrying Death (Orlok) could also be understood as an initiation into a mystical union with the unconscious, a surrender not just to desire but to transformation itself.

Ellen’s journey is not solely about accepting her Shadow, it is about moving toward the Self, Jung’s term for total psychic integration. By the end, Ellen is neither the Victorian maiden nor the repressed woman projecting her darkness onto Orlok. She has become something more, her Self in the Jungian sense, dissolving the duality between purity and corruption, between control and surrender.

Contrary to Freudian assertions, it might be more accurate to say that from a Jungian perspective, Ellen’s father figure (whether real or internalized) represents the restrictive laws of her upbringing, a rebellion against patriarchal control.

If Orlok is seen as both animus and devouring father, the tension comes from Ellen’s struggle between submission and autonomy.

This exploration doesn’t just interpret, it initiates a dialogue with the unconscious, which is precisely what Jung would have intended. I absolutely enjoyed reading it.

🜍 ⟡ ⟢

[just-in-cays]

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