#especially of these teachers who i barely recall LMAO

[jichanxo]

sunday six! (not kuwagami edition 😔)

poke poke @four-white-trees @passthroughtime @overdevelopedglasses @skysquid22

back onto my itokura writing for senseific! been taking some notes and poking at the wiki to fill in some gaps, thank goodness 🙏 here's a staffroom discussion about itokura's absence from school, pre-canon of course. thank goodness the wiki was there so i didn't have to make up new teacher names just for this one scene.

“Well, she’s still opening her door for you, right?” Kitakata tried to speak. “That’s still something. We should think about if we can do something with that. Maybe that’s an opportunity.” 

Fujita crossed her arms. “So instead of her parents or any authorities, we should be trying to work with her? Is that what you’re saying?” 

She sounded skeptical, though not outright dismissive, which was as kind of a response as he could have expected. 

“Plenty of people tried to speak to her in the lead up to the summer festival. We already know how that went.” Akuta interjected again. Know-it-all. 

Kitakata bit back. “Well, yeah, but she would’ve been so stressed in the lead up to the festival, of course she wouldn’t be responsive to—” 

“I think it’s good to think about how we might be able to approach Itokura-san.” Sawa interrupted, calm voice easily silencing him. “We’ve been giving her nothing but schoolwork, and she has no reason to enjoy coming to school. Of course she’s been absent. It’s that mindset we need to think about.” 

“Incentive. I ought to remind her of her scholarship. The chairman has been asking me about that...” Fujita sighed.

“Yes, but for a student, that’s not going to be her priority, I think. Something more...” Sawa trailed off. 

“Something simpler than that, right? A way to remind her of the joys of schooling... Friends and hobbies. Addressing her social needs...” Ara sounded like he was thinking out loud. “She has wounds on her heart. Counselling sounds like the natural suggestion...” 

Everyone turned to look at Hakase-sensei, the new nurse. She hadn’t even been here that long. 

Murmurs went through the room. 

“Perhaps not.” Fujita said decisively, and nobody was interested in fighting it.

[kawaii-mxllow]

ᯤ     𓈒     vent pt. 1   🍬   ᰋ      ݁      ੭

(symbol not mine)

soo there’s this person whose very existence has been bothering me for a long while

doubt anyone would find this (which is a good thing) but anyway for privacy reasons we’ll call her kaida, no offense to those who have that name of course

my childhood memory

kaida has been my classmate since kindergarten. i was sensitive and shy, and cried a lot so i doubt i had many friends which wasn’t much of an issue since i preferred being alone anyway, i didn’t quite stand up for myself at that time lmao. but for a 3 yo kid, kaida was a fucking cunt and a bully to those around of her (fun fact: i asked a younger student and apparently she stole candy from him?!?!?)

from what i remember, i avoided kaida as much as i could, though we were on the same school bus and she kept talking to her friend (forgot her name)

i don’t remember much about her since we didn’t interact much, but one of the most vivid memories were her telling me to sit with her and she gave me a piece of candy, but then we barely talked (this memory was so unforgettable to the point i remember what we talked about)

talk about lunchbox friends. /ref

the other memory of her was her calling me an idiot, which is pretty vulgar in our language especially for 5 yos. i don’t remember how i reacted, but i’m pretty sure i looked away and probably was close to crying. i’m pretty sure i took whatever she said to heart

current

before substitute

this section is the present, or mainly things kaida did not too long ago

after years of not interacting, kaida got assigned to my class and boy was it a fucking disaster. the first week, i kept hoping ‘she probably changed!’ or ‘maybe she’s more mature now?’ turns out, that never happened. growth happened, but that didn’t make her nicer or more mature - it made her worse.

for the whole year, i’ve been struggling with mental health and kaida being in my class made it worse since we were stuck with basically the same people for the school year. (sucks to be in my country i guess LMAO)

the first semester kicked off pretty well, i socialized with people and met new friends. i was praying i could avoid kaida since she was already stirring up trouble occasionally for the first few months. a lot of us kinda agreed that no one liked kaida at all

it genuinely wasn’t so bad until i got assigned to her group for activity class, basically we get parted into groups of 4-5 people and went to different activity rooms and such. as i recalled, we had a debate class for our activity and she made me cry a lot

i know it sounds super lame, but i’m just really touchy and she made me feel so bad, like i was trying to ask the teacher to turn off the air con and she straight up made me feel like what i asked was unreasonable??

anyway, she kept doing all these yoga ass positions and it was pretty distracting and irritating tbh, i hated snitching but had to after a bit. kind of regretted sitting behind her and my group members and i had to find all these weird ways to avoid kaida in the next bunch of activity lessons.

substitute arrival

oh boy, here comes the substitute - where everything terrible happens. again for privacy reasons i’ll be calling her ms c and she was also a little asshole

kaida felt bitchy and kept dissing the teacher and told on us constantly, so each day ms c shouted at us during class, victimizing herself. genuinely none of us liked it, and kaida clearly hated her scolding sessions too. and yet she kept on telling and telling and doing the shittiest things too herself

it didn’t make much sense either but i’m just really sick of her, i’m so glad she’s not in my class anymore

[rosemarypasta]

monday afternoons ♡ 10 (end)

➤  pairing : oikawa tooru x female reader (karasuno manager)

➤  chapter warnings : slowburn (?). teensy tiny manga spoiler that you probably won’t even notice

➤  summary : You just recently joined the Karasuno boy’s volleyball team as their first year manager. As you grow closer to your teammates, you also unexpectedly grow closer to one of their biggest rivals, Oikawa Tooru

➤ chapter word count: 1708

♡ masterpost ♡

-ˏˋ chapter tenˊˎ-

FRIDAY

5:48 PM

“All right everyone! Let’s start cleaning up!” Daichi announced after Coach Ukai finished wrapping up the day’s training session. You got up from the floor and did as you were told, grabbing the first crate of water bottles so you can clean them in the tap outside of the gym.

“Today is more peaceful than usual huh, Y/N-san?” Yamaguchi smiled, bending down to pick up the second crate of bottles, “Of course Noya-san and Tanaka-san was loud as ever but Hinata and Kageyama’s noisiness is just on a whole ‘nother level right?” He chuckled at his absent teammates. “Yeah.” You smiled back as you thought of the two first years who got held back by their teacher because they flopped in their test big time. Both you and Yamaguchi would kill to see the duo’s faces when Ono sensei told them that they would have to skip club activities and retake the test.

“But since Kageyama got held back, that would mean you would be going home alone again! Will you be okay? I’m sure Tsukki wouldn’t mind if you walked home with us!” He furrowed his brows, looking at you with concern. “I’ll be fine! Nothing happened yesterday anyway.” You lied through your teeth, recalling your memories of the third year Seijoh student waiting for you in front of the school gates. Though, you weren’t in any imminent danger so you comforted yourself with that thought as you lied to your friend.

The clean up session went by smoothly as usual and you said your goodbyes to your teammates to welcome the weekend. Yamaguchi was still concerned over you as you waved at him but thankfully Tsukishima dragged him off before he could ask you to walk home with him again.

The walk home was relaxingly quiet, only filled with the sound of your own footsteps and muffled car sounds from a distant street. You’ve been distracted the whole day as your brain kept replaying your encounter with Iwaizumi. And as if the world hasn't given you enough of your daily dose of Seijoh students, they decided to throw in another one different from last time.

Your feet stopped moving as the image of a brunette boy standing with his face down in front of your house. You couldn’t see his face and his hair was slightly different from usual but you knew who he was.

“What the fuck.” was all you managed to say as you stand steps away from the uninvited moping boy. As soon as the words left your mouth, the boy whipped his head up towards you, showing his dark circles even from afar.

“Y/N! I-” He started, about to run towards you but stopped last second as he saw your bewildered expressions on your face. You hated how seeing his hurt expression made you subconsciously feel bad for him. You weren’t supposed to feel any pity for him whatsoever but staying angry felt like the hardest thing to do in the moment.

Oikawa looked up towards you once again, his eyes slightly red, hesitating before speaking again. “Please let me explain. I know I’m supposed to do this ages ago but p-please.” His voice breaking towards the end.

You bit your lip as you let him continue.

“I was an idiot. I know I was. I took out my childish and petty anger towards Kageyama onto you because I’m such a selfish asshole.” He took a deep breath before continuing, “I don’t know how much you know but considering how you ghosted me, I guess you know the main idea. Yes, I did want to mess with you and pretend to be interested in you.”

Your breath hitched as all the thoughts in your mind were true. He had always been faking it and never found you remotely attractive. He only saw you as a toy to play with. You didn’t know who to be more mad at. Him or you for getting ahead of yourself and thinking you even had a chance with Oikawa.

“And I never meant to fall in love with you,” His voice was soft but was still plenty loud enough for you to hear.

“But I did.”

You cocked your head forward in shock. You stared at the boy in front of you without blinking, “I-I’m sorry, what?”

“I love you, Y/N.” His voice broke again. “I know what I’m saying is so unfair and so ridiculously insensitive but I’m telling the truth. I do love you.”

He took a deep breath as he fiddled with his fingers. His breath was shaky and his shoulders sagged low. “I only meant to go out with you a couple of times but time flies by so fast and I unconsciously kept asking you out because I wanted to see you so much. Being with you was so unexpectedly fun and you were just amazing to spend time with. I loved being with  you so much that every Monday afternoon I would sprint my way to the station so I could see you quicker. I would fall on my way sometimes but I didn’t care. I just wanted to see you.”

You were speechless. All you could do was stare at him with your mouth hanging wide open. You were feeling an array of emotions ranging from confusion and glee.

“So please, Y/N.” He cried out softly as he started to slowly walk over to you, “let me make it up to you.”

“Give me a chance to make it up to you.” He grasped your idle hands and brought it up to his face where you felt his hot cheeks and tears against your bare hands.

MONDAY 3:10 PM

“Eh? Brazil? That’s so far away!” Yamaguchi stared at the red haired boy with bewildered eyes.

“Yep! I guess I won’t be attending get-togethers in the future.” Hinata smiled.

Two and a half years have passed. The third years and second years have long graduated and left the club in the first year’s hands. You’ve gone through all highs and lows of high school with the other four boys.

Two and a half years ago, you wouldn’t think you could fall in love with a sport you can’t even play. No matter how hard the boys tried their best at coaching you, you still can’t manage to spike a ball without somehow hitting it out of bounds.

“You sure you don’t want to come with us instead and get ramen, Y/N?” Hinata pouted as the five of you were inching towards the school gates.

“I’m sorry guys, but I really have to pass.” You sighed though a soft smile was evident on your face. “And Hinata, don’t get too attached to me, a certain someone will get jealous.”

“Nah he wouldn’t get jealous, that’s ridicu-”

“I would tho.”

The four of you stopped in your tracks to turn towards the setter who evidently looked confused. “Wow, never thought the king would be the jealous type,” Tsukishima scoffed, “gross.”

“What! How could you get jealous over that! I’ve watched you walk Y/N home for three years now and I’ve never said anything!” The red head bickered, punching the setter playfully on the stomach.

“T-That’s because I’m a man!”

“Damn, Kageyama, did Nishinoya-san teach you that?” Yamaguchi laughed at the odd character the raven haired setter had adopted last second.

“Sorry guys, I gotta run.” You loved spending time with your teammates especially how they get to be their rowdy selves since they finally got away from their juniors after retiring from the club but you forced yourself to pull away just for the day as you caught a glimpse of the familiar man waving at you from outside of school grounds.

“Hmph, fine.” Hinata pouted, crossing his arms dramatically.

“Later.”

“See you tomorrow Y/N!”

“Bye.”

You waved back to all of them before turning at your heel to run towards the man up front. “I’m sorry, Hinata forgot his wallet so we had to wait for him.” You explained out of breath.

“It’s fine, don’t worry about it.” Oikawa hummed as he patted your head. “Should we go?” He smiled at you, opening the passenger seat of his door to which you smiled back and nodded at.

The rest of the boys watched as the car they were so used to seeing picking you up grew smaller and smaller in the horizon. Yamaguchi’s eyes wandered over to his blonde friend who looked more fixated at the car than the other two were.

“Tsukki? You okay?” The retired captain said softly over the background of the bickering middle blocker and setter.

“I’m fine.” Tsukishima sighed, a forced smile crept up his face.

6:49 PM

“Hey.” You called out.

“Hm?” Oikawa’s muffled voice replied.

“Remember how we first met?” You said absentmindedly as you scrolled through your phone. OIkawa’s head finally left the crook of your neck and his brilliant brown eyes met yours.

“I wish I could. I was such an idiot.” He muttered before diving under the covers of his bed. You sighed in satisfaction. You loved bringing that topic up because you knew how much he hated it and how he acts all flustered about it. It was truly one of the rare ways to see the different and vulnerable side of Oikawa you rarely get to see.

“But you’re my idiot.” You hummed, diving under the covers as well before showering his head with kisses.

“You’re cruel.” He pouted. Though it was dark under the covers, his perfectly soft lips still glistened. You leaned in to give him a soft peck, “But you love me”

Oikawa’s fingers traced your jawline before cupping your cheeks, bringing them closer towards him before giving you a long sweet kiss. The butterflies in your stomach went crazy as soon as your lips got in contact with his again. No matter how many times you’ve done it before, the butterflies never seem to disappear.

“I love you, Y/N.” He messily slurred out as he pulled out from the kiss, a string of saliva connecting your lips to his.

“I love you too, Tooru.” You giggled before going in for another kiss on another fine Monday afternoon.

previous:  -ˏˋ chapter nine ˊˎ-

A/N:

Gah! It’s finally done! My first ever Haikyuu fic is completed :’)

I started to write the plot three months ago and I never knew it would get any attention what so ever lmao. And honestly, I don’t know how my first fic would be a reader x oikawa one cause I truly hated Oikawa’s guts three months ago but I guess that hatred translated a bit to the plot. (I don’t hate him anymore uwu he’s baybe to me now)

I even impulsively added a lil kagehina for some spice HAHAHA and um someone get a love interest for Tsukki ASAP!!!

But thank you so much for reading this! I never thought I would get so much support on this and I plan on making even more fics!

I’m sorry if there was more drama and minimal fluff with Oikawa :’) And sorry if you thought the ending was rushed but I tried my best and I’ll try even harder next time!

Though I plan on making more x reader content, I’ll probably release more ship ff (mainly tsukkiyama, kuroken & bokuaka maybe?) Since that’s what im more good at.

Thank you everyone and I hope to see you in my next project!

(also i haven’t proof read this cuz i’m sleep deprived rn and i have school tomorrow so forgive me for any mistakes)

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[brief-candle]

ᴡɪɴ - Tooru Oikawa

just a rewrite of a pretty old fic i did that i disliked for a long time,, not as long but i think it’s a small price to pay for better writing. my old one draggedddd lmao

series: haikyuu!!

notes: yandere themes.

⊱ ────── {.⋅ ♫ ⋅.} ───── ⊰

Why were you even there? Where was the appeal in the bright, searing lights? In the screaming of the audience that seemed to shake the very foundation of your bones with the sheer noise of it all? You never did quite understand why you were there; a faceless nobody amongst a sea of faceless nobodies all competing to see who could shout loudest. As if that would earn them endless respect and fulfil every dream they'd ever had.

However, as the ball flew into the air for the first time in that game, it all clicked. You knew why you were there. Maybe you weren't the most passionate volleyball fan in the world, but you'd be his most passionate fan. Plus you'd have to be three times as passionate as usual, seeing as your parents were unable to make it.

You almost groaned at the effort before rising to your feet, leaning against the metal railings as you cupped your hands around your mouth, almost hoping- begging- that he could miraculously hear you over the roaring sea of your school around you, even if it would cause endless embarrassment,

"Go on, Wakatoshi!"

However, despite how much you tried to compete with the booming and sheer vocal power of Shiratorizawa, the only acknowledgement you noticed that you got was off a teacher nearby. The scowl alone that lay on their face said it all: sit down and shut up. And, disheartened, you complied. Not without being a little stroppy, however, in the way that you cupped your face in your hands and visibly pouted.

It all began to feel a bit too much at the moment. Perhaps it was a little selfish of you to hope that your emotionally stunted mess of a brother would notice you trying to support him and be a little thankful for it. Or to even give you any positive attention at all, like regular older brothers did every so often- or even tease you and mess around, for crying out loud! That's what your friends' brothers did. Even being a pain in the backside was better than being like acquaintances, and sometimes you couldn't help but doubt if you were even considered that. You could barely remember the last proper conversation you'd had before yesterday, in which he'd tried to stop you coming to today's game for some reason he didn't explain.

It must've been stupid, you thought sourly, it's not like he comes up with anything valuable, anyway. Unless it was related to volleyball, Wakatoshi was as much use in conversation as a brick. And even when it was related to volleyball, he wasn't exactly the most riveting conversationalist.

Still, something seemed a little off to you. Maybe it was the look in his eye as he tried to talk you down from trying to act like siblings for once, the hardness as he spoke so harshly with such unnecessarily cold words. He probably didn't mean it, you knew how blunt and socially inept he was like the back of your hand, but that didn't stop the sting. He'd never been so adamant when you'd suggested it before, only brushing it off nonchalantly, but you just couldn't figure out why it was the case with today's game.

After all, it was just another win against Aoba Johsai. No big deal, really. Just another effortless, total win that pretty much everyone could see coming. Sometimes you wondered why they even tried, really, and how they could end up looking so downtrodden by the end of each match; surely they were aware that they'd just keep losing unless they had some sort of miracle, right? It was like they never seemed to learn.

You pursed your lips at that train of thought, furrowing your eyebrows slightly as you did so. Though you soon stopped upon realising that you were doing such things, blinking before rising from your seat to collect your things. You'd have to hang around for a while afterwards for your brother, anyway, if you wanted to get home, and so felt to need to rush out of there like a bat out of hell.

That was what you'd originally thought. But when you looked back onto the court to see the players leaving from their lines, you found a pair of brown eyes burrowing right into you. Intense and swirling with an emotion you couldn't quite describe. Or perhaps didn't want to, for the mere idea of thinking or looking into that gaze for any longer was not the most enticing. In fact, the moment you'd registered such a stare, you soon whipped your head in another direction. Even then it didn't seem like it was enough; you could feel his eyes lingering still upon you, until it began to suffocate you.

Never before did you think that you'd end up fleeing a room from the stare of the Seijoh captain.

From the moment you escaped the room, rushed and worried, the intensity left immediately. It was like it was never there, more of a pipe dream than reality, though the rational part of your mind (you were always so grateful for its existence) frantically insisted otherwise. Jokingly, you couldn't help but mentally note that for a boy with such soft, boyishly handsome features, he could certainly be quite intimidating. Especially with a gaze like that.

Perhaps if you didn't look away at the moment that you did, you'd be stuck in those eyes until he deemed that it was time to stop. You knew that a couple of your friends probably wouldn't have minded that, and some part of you wondered if you'd have minded that either, with such dreamy eyes. It was quite cringey, yes, but you couldn't help it! Anyone with eyes could see that he was way too attractive for his own good.

"You're Ushiwaka's sister, right?" You were ripped from your thoughts suddenly, and very nearly let out an unholy screech at the suddenness of it. However upon realising who you were talking to, you were exceptionally glad that you didn't do such a thing. To embarrass yourself in front of Tooru Oikawa was many a girl's worst nightmare, and you were darned if you were to live out such a moment.

Still, that didn't stop the feeling that your heart was going to burst out of your chest, and so you rested a hand upon it and let out a dramatic sigh, "You almost gave me a heart attack... but yeah, that'd be me."

Tooru chuckled at that, all sweet sounds and cheeky grins, "I'm very sorry to hear that! It'd be so unfair for such a lovely girl like yourself to fall so untimely... I don't know how I'd live with myself."

As unflattering as it was, you practically barked with laughter at his display of dramatic flair. Though you could have very easily been imagining it through the sheer humiliation of such a sound leaving you, you could have sworn that you saw his smile brighten just a little bit more, "Oh, please! Don't tell me- you say that to every girl, don't you?"

"I do not!" He seemed almost offended, gasping as he laid a hand upon his own heart, "Oh, how you have wounded me so! I fear I will never recover!"

Again, you laughed at his little act, almost flattered that he was even bothering to spend time and joke with you. After all, you were the sister of his volleyball nemesis at this point, having seen him lose to your brother's team again and again and again. You pitied him, really, because he was just so clearly talented. It was just that your brother's team was better.

For a moment, you debated on responding with a 'I'd soon be following if your fanclub found out' or something similar, but you feared that it was a bit too snarky for someone that you couldn't even recall properly conversing with in the past. And so, instead, you stuck with words that were more tame and less likely to land you in hot water with anyone like your snide remarks could so often do.

"Oh, spare me!" Then a pause, in which you chuckled politely, "So, is there anything you need from me, Oikawa?"

As soon as you spoke his name, his ears and cheeks seemed to be tinted with a pale shade of pink. It was a pretty colour, and even prettier on him. Though that's probably to be expected, really. You doubted anything couldn't look pretty on him, to tell the truth.

"Oh, you know my name? I'm flattered!" As if any of you expected you not to know his name, but Tooru was nothing if not sly, "Well, I should probably get straight to the point, shouldn't I?"

It was rhetorical, and you knew it, and so waited patiently for him to continue. When he raised a hand to the back of his neck, rubbing rather timidly and (purposefully) seeming to avoid your eyes, you began to get a little confused. You couldn't help but wonder what exactly he was waiting for, or what exactly he wanted to tell you. It struck you as a little odd, really; Tooru was known for being talkative and extroverted and everything but timid and shy, yet the Tooru before you was very much appearing to be the latter two things.

"Ah... this is harder than I thought," he muttered, barely audible enough for you to catch fragments of what he said.

"I'm sorry?" Your eyebrows knitted together, creasing the space between them slightly in concern.

"It's nothing!" He waved his hands in front of him, though quickly continued, "I was just wondering if you were free this weekend!"

You blinked. Then again. And even then, what he was saying didn't seem to sink in at all. Even he caught onto this, and though he was frustrated at it, he hid it seamlessly behind a bright smile and soft words.

"Y'know, to get coffee or something? It's just... I've liked you for a while, but never actually got the chance to talk with you before. So I-"

"The bus is here." There was a deep voice from behind you, cutting through your conversation effortlessly and without a hint of common decency. To be fair, if your brother had a hint of common decency then he would have waited for your conversation to be over or at least not interrupt anyone. But there was nothing to be done now, so you merely groaned internally as you waved him off with a, "I'll be there in a sec."

When you turned back to excuse yourself, you couldn't help but start at the daggers Tooru was glaring into Wakatoshi's back. If looks could kill, then he'd probably be six feet under by now.

But when you blinked, it was gone without a trace. You couldn't tell whether it was an effort to soothe yourself or not, but you couldn't help but wonder if you'd imagined it; if a look so ugly could ever have been on a face as pretty as Tooru's in the first place.

"Well, I should probably get going," you'd started with after a few moments of insufferable silence, gathering yourself and smoothing out imaginary creases in your prestigious school blazer, giving your skirt the same treatment after. A few steps down the hallway and away from Tooru later, you briefly turned on your heel to comment, "Sunday works for me!"

You were surprised that you didn't go blind from the bright, beaming smile on his face then. It was like he'd just won his way through Nationals, or something, and you wondered if he even remembered how badly his team lost that day. Though perhaps it was better if he forgot that for a little bit.

After all, you'd all but forgotten that intense stare that had been following you every free moment of the match.

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #312

“robert’s got a quick hand  /  he’ll look around the room, he won’t tell you his plan.”

Do you kiss your pets? Yes. Have you thought about whether or not you're gay? I actually have briefly questioned if I'm just purely lesbian due to how incredibly averse to simply seeing penises I am, but considering I'm still perfectly capable of being attracted to everything else, I'm obviously not. It's just this weird disgust I naturally have. Have you ever had gay thoughts for your best friend? Well I dated her, so like- Have you ever had an STD? No. Would you say you are addicted to texting or to the person you are texting? Nah, definitely not. I always enjoy texting Sara, but I'm not addicted to doing so. Would you date someone who still lived with their parents? Yes; I still live with my mom, so it'd be very hypocritical not to. Would you have to sleep with someone before marrying them? Nah. Sexual "talent" just doesn't matter very much to me, and besides, before or after marriage, you discover what you like together. Would it bother you if your bf/gf flirted with someone else? ???????????? yes????????????? Would you enjoy a night of playing video games? Oh hell yeah. I honestly really miss doing that with Jason. We were both gamers and would do that frequently. How much does intelligence turn you on? Not like, immensely, but being very smart is definitely attractive. Do you search someone on the Internet before a first date? That shit's kinda creepy, imo. Then again, it could be smart for your safety, but idk, something about doing that seems invasive and just weird. I feel like you should learn things directly from their mouth. Could you date someone who had children from a previous relationship? I really don't think I could at this age, at least. I need to be more stable and a figure to look up to. I could probably be a stepmom to like, a teenager or something, but I'm not dating anyone with one of those at only 25. I would have to really, REALLY like the person to even consider dating them with a younger kid. Would you consider donating your body to science after you die? Yeah, go for it. Do you like to be friends with someone before dating them? Yes, definitely. I think waiting too long can make this hard and an awkward change, though; this was the exact situation with Girt. I had a pretty big crush on him my freshman year before Jason, but we were just friends too long. He became my "brother." Is it more fun to go out just with your date or on a group date? Both are fun. Do you enjoy risk? N O P E. How often do you go dancing/clubbing? Never. Not my jam. Do you meditate? No, but I'm considering trying it thanks to group therapy. Have you ever been fired from a job? No. Do you have a problem with racist jokes? Um, fuck yes I do. Is there anything you think science will never be able to explain? Yeah, like the soul. Do you cook fancy meals for dates? Lol no, I can't cook. Do you litter? No. Don't even fucking dare to in front of me. Do you have a career plan? Yes. Could you live with someone who was really messy? How messy? And would they listen if I asked them to clean up? Do you have any shameful fantasies? Yes. Is art important to you? Art is absoluely vital for my happiness in life. Do you believe in fate or destiny? Nope; you carve your own path. Have you ever called your friend a slut? Ha, jokingly. It's gone both ways. Doing nothing all day makes you feel...? That's me pretty much every day, and it makes me feel awful by the end of it. Do you shower everyday? No. It's bad for your skin and hair. Is work important to you? It clearly is when you consider how stressed I've been for years trying to find a job I can handle. Have you had cosmetic surgery? No, but I probably will have some things done if/hopefully when I lose the weight I want to. Do you only date people who have jobs or are full-time students? My past has proven that not always, no. What I really care about is whether or not they show the intention of getting somewhere, like working on themselves and having plans they're making baby steps towards. If the person is without any motivation to get somewhere in life, no, I can't date them. Could you date someone who does drugs? Absofuckinglutely not. Do you enjoy watching sports? Only dance. Are you a cat or a dog person? Cat, I think, but I love both. Should evolution be taught in schools? Yes, definitely. Separation of church and state, my friend. Are you kinky? I mean I can't say I'm unwilling to try some things that would be considered so, but my sexual experiences so far have been pretty vanilla, and I'm fine with that. Would you do a striptease for your partner? That'd be so fucking awkward lmao. Would you date someone who doesn't have a car? Yeah; again, I don't. It may be problematic if they never wanted to, especially with me being so afraid of driving, but idk. Do you enjoy dancing? If I wasn't so horribly out of shape. Do you think men should pay for everything on dates? Lol, wow. What year are we in again? Have you ever met someone in person you met online? Only Sara so far, but I do wanna meet a few others! Last person you kissed, are they into any type of sports? Which ones? No. Do you ever read your old surveys? No. They're really just a momentary distraction for me. What was the last series you finished watching? Do you have any plans to begin another? Ginga Densetsu Weed was fantastic. I'm now anxiously awaiting Meerkat Manor to come on air again this year!! :') When writing stories, do you have trouble coming up with character names or do they come to you easily? I struggle with coming up with completely original names; I used to be good at it back in the day, now I feel like almost anything I come up with sounds stupid. Real words coming up for OCs that somehow fit them come easy for me, though. Did you ever call any teachers by their first name? Who? Yes, because some preferred it. Have you ever shoplifted, even just once? What did you take? Nope. Have you ever witnessed someone else shoplifting? Did you say something? I don't recall. Is your hair thick, thin, or somewhere in between? it's thick as hell. Do you own a bean bag chair? No. Have you ever touched a caterpillar? Oh yes, I loved letting the harmless ones wander over my arms as a kid. Is there a YouTube channel whose videos you always watch? No. What a shocker when you think of Mark, I know, but I've kinda been drifting from enjoying let's plays, especially of random games I don't know or think will be good, so I don't force myself. Have you ever witnessed something burn down? Yes. Diagonal to my childhood house, down the road, there was a huge house fire once. Only the foundation of it is left today. Well, maybe they've rebuilt it, but they sure didn't for a long-ass time. Have you ever won a game of chess? Don't know how to play, so. Have you ever picked strawberries or apples? Strawberries, yes. Are you any good at Ping-Pong? No better than the average joe. Have you ever had to put an animal to sleep? Three dogs, and my rat Tezzeret. Where on your body did you/would you like to get your first tattoo? I got mine on my right wrist. What’re some movies you love that people wouldn’t expect you to like? The Notebook surprises a lot of people. I adore that movie. Does your shower have a glass screen or a curtain? It's a curtain. What was the last pill you swallowed? I don't remember; I take a lot of meds in the morning. Where’s your dad from? Ohio. Other than yourself, who was the last person that took a picture of you? Whoever took the picture of my sister Misty and me hugging. What are you usually doing if you're up late at night? On the rare occasion I'm up late, I'm probably really into doing something in World of Warcraft at the time. I go through spells. Right now I'm barely playing it at all. What do you get when you go to the movies? Popcorn and a drink, always. Do/did you enjoy living with your parents? Yeah. If you were to write a story right now, what would it be about? I'm not interested in starting a new story. The continuous stories in RP are enough for me. If you were to paint something right now, what would it be? I'm unsure. I have a lot of art ideas I want to do, but idk what I'd do first, and besides, I prefer drawing over painting. Do you believe you have a calling? I don't believe in "callings." I believe in natural talents, but I don't feel there's some supernatural or purposeful tactic to it. If you could sing a song before an audience today, what one would it be? Oh god. If I had a choice, I wouldn't. If I didn't, I'd have to think more about this. Do you enjoy public speaking? Fuck no. What pet do you want to have? The pet I want most right now is a plains/western hognose, probably of the lavender morph. I adore those lil piggies. Who do you want to be in your life that is currently not? I go back-and-forth about Jason, even though I know it wouldn't be healthy for me for him to have any part in it. PTSD is a motherfucker. Who do you want to be out of your life that currently is in it? Nobody. What do you have to do to achieve your dream? Most likely for someone(s) with considerable influence or popularity in art to highlight photograph(s) of mine. It's why I enter competitions once in a blue moon if Mom's okay with paying the small fee; it's very, very seldom I even ask, though. I hate asking for things, especially non-necessities with our financial position. Are you ambitious? I think so. I'm determined as a motherfucker to be successful with photography, for one. Do you sell things online? Extremely rarely. Speaking of which, I keep forgetting to take pictures of my flute and guitar since I wanna try to get rid of them. I never played the guitar much, and my sentimental affection for my flute has long since faded, so I might as well make a bit of cash off them to go towards Venus' terrarium upgrade. Do you look the way you want to look? Hell no. Do you pray daily? I never do. Have you been through anything traumatic? Oh yes. Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? No. What is a medical condition you used to have but don't anymore? I had this very weird spell of frequent vertigo that kinda just... vanished. Do you look your age? I suppose I do. What has made you itch the most? Shaving my legs I guess, considering I would scratch them so badly it left me with permanent scars. Is there anything you're avoiding? If so, what? Probably. Well enough that I can't even think of it right now, haha. What quality do you admire most in others? Empathy. Do you believe that things will get better? Yes. I hope. Have you ever seen a double rainbow? I have. How old were you when you started swearing? I was in the 7th grade. I don't know the actual age group for that. Do you have any Indian in your blood? No. What is your favorite sunset color? Pink. Have you ever had dreadlocks? No. Have you ever wondered if your house was haunted? Two houses ago, yes. Does the idea of having servants bother you? Yes? Do you like crab? NOOOOOO NO NO. It's mushy and just ew. What song gives you chills? Hell, most music I listen to can. I get chills from music very, very easily, and I'd say either "Terrible Things" by Mayday Parade or Disturbed's "Sound of Silence" cover does it the best, but I could very well be forgetting one. Ah, Bad Wolves' cover of "Zombie" is another very high contender, especially knowing the story behind it with how the original singer was supposed to write it with them, but the day of scheduled recording, she died. What color is your favorite hoodie? It's mostly gray, just with a Pikachu graphic on it. Do you have a string of lights in your room? No, but I've always thought those were really pretty. If you were a writer, would you have a pen name or use your real name? My real name. What is your friend's cat's name? Sara has a cat named Winter. Did you ignore the last Facebook post that bothered you, or did you comment? Probably rolled my eyes and scrolled by just to avoid conflict. I normally have to be HEATED to start something. If you were a famous singer, what would you want your hit song to be about? Peace, most likely. Do you have a blog? No. Do you think you are good at writing poetry? I think so, but it takes more thinking than it used to. Do you take gummy vitamins? No, but I wish I took vitamins. Would probably do me some good. If you could do research right now for an essay, what topic would you choose to write about? Hm. I'm always up for arguing for LGBT rights. There's a good handful of topics I'd enjoy writing about, though. Have you ever been tempted to commit a crime? Well, I've pirated things before, so... I kinda crossed that threshold. Other than that, no, not to my memory. Have you ever started writing a suicide letter? I wrote one and am forever humiliated by it. ...and then realized you wanted to live? No, I OD'd afterwards. Well wait... I was kinda on the line I guess, considering once I did it, I panicked and told Mom. If you have a class ring, what color is the stone? I didn't get one. Do you like apple cider hot or cold? I can't remember the last time I had either. Do you use window clings (stickers for your window)? No. Have you ever found a secret compartment? I don't remember ever finding one anywhere. Do you read horror stories? Sometimes RP pretty much turns into horror stories, haha. Do you ever comfort eat? I am VERY bad at that. Do you have your wedding planned in your head already? No, only skeletal basics of it. Does sunlight make you happier? Yes. This is a scientific fact. Do you feel depressed in the winter? No. What's your favorite shade of green? Like a pastel mint color. What channel is your TV usually on? Mom always has Netflix or Hulu on, I think. Do you drive with the windows down or the air on? I strongly prefer AC. How many pairs of jeans do you have? Zero. Do you sleep with a comforter or quilt? A comforter. Who is your favorite American president? I don't know nearly enough about any of 'em to make a fair judgment. Do you jump right in a pool or do you get in slowly? Whew, my jumping in the pool days are long over. Do you use one swimsuit for the summer or do you have many? I just have a single black one-piece. Do you use the bumpers when you bowl? Nah. Sorta affects the fun for me since it's less reason to focus. Do you put eyeliner on the top, bottom, or all around your eyes? All around. Will you refuse to listen to music if you find the lyrics degrading? Depends on how degrading, but usually, it doesn't play a part in deciding if I like the song itself or not. Can you do a cartwheel? I never even tried; I was always too afraid of breaking my neck. Do you have tornadoes where you live? Occasionally, but they're not a big thing here. What's your favorite type of frosting? Chocolate. What's the most expensive crafts tool that you own? Miss Tobey got me a big pack of Prismacolor pencils one year that I really cherish. Have you ever woven baskets of any kind (wicker, paper, cardboard etc.)? No. What's the most exotic spice in your spice rack? I don't have the slightest clue. Do you have a favorite television host? Steve Harvey is The Shit. What's something you're opinionated and very vocal about? LGBTQ+ rights and the pro-choice ideology lead the bunch. The lack of morality in hunting for sport, too. What's something you regularly order online? Nothing regularly. Do you like elevators? No; quite the opposite, actually. When you're angry, does it ever get physical? Absolutely not. What's the weirdest video YouTube has suggested to you? I don't really know. I'm certain I've seen some wild suggestions, though, given just how much of a heavy user I am of YT. Do you like the smell of tar? Ugh, no. Never understood that. Do you have any flags on display? If so, what flag(s)? I'd like a rainbow flag for my room to hang somewhere.

[thetpot]

I just read you 10 stories post and I never knew you wrote Once upon a play and inconveniences. For some reason I realy love Once Upon a Play since it is such a fun story! So I had a question, since I think that I can safely assume you won't finish any of your old work. How were all you old stories supposed to end? So inconvenieces, on the sands of time (which is also a good story but just never got that far), etc. And maybe even what happened with Aang and Zuko later in Once Upon a play, since being gay illegal was in the fire nation.

oh my god, i’m screaming that someone who read my old work found me. biting my fist and screaaaming. 

first of all, i’m glad you enjoyed them :) all those stories have big (huge, gargantuan, unavoidable!!!) issues but writing them brought me joy too. once upon a play especially was such a shitshow lmaoo, i was hammering out like 4000 word chapters a day and then doing the whole shitty “comment for an update thing” in the a/n. ew lol, anway :)

yes, it’s safe to assume i’ll never finish them. maybe i’ll adapt the concept for once upon a play and revamp it with more of an understanding of how ember island players was imperialist propaganda rather than just a cutesy fun play. something like: what might it mean for certain earth kingdom political figures, who perhaps were doing better under the fire nation (currying the fire nation’s favour by weakening the earth kingdom’s infrastructure), to leverage something outrageous like a play claiming the scion of the fire nation and the last airbender are in an illicit affair, and use it to weaken specifically zuko’s position back home and threaten to destabilize the peace. something along those lines.

i also quite like on the sands of time, but i’m iffy now on divorcing the characters from the world of atla and dropping them in some ahistoric middle eastern setting. i’d have to think long and hard on what kind of cultural and religious influences i want to include and what i want to ignore. it’s unlikely but if i was to work on any of them again, i’d pick those two. 

as for how they were going to finish (or at least what was planned next, because i did not used to entirely outline all my fics, i think that might be obvious on re-reading once upon a play especially lmaooo), some elements i wanted to explore in inconveniences was that toph and iroh had an existing friendship that aang and zuko didn't know about, big party at sokka and katara's house, shenanigans with jet at that party, zuko and jet finally ending their fling at some point. aang's central arc within that story was basically this (taken from an old zipped file in the depths of my google drive, i didn't even remember i had this anymore lol): aang is tired of the sheltered life has been forced to live under gyatso’s wing. dissatisfied with his life, he is convinced that the answer lies in the conventional teen life – in parties, girls and alcohol. almost everything he does throughout the course of the story is in an attempt to live life to the fullest, to find the key to making himself feel whole for the first time in his life. however, as the story progresses, aang realizes that the void in his life does not need alcohol or drugs or parties or girls to fill it. he realizes that the only thing lacking in his life may have been maturity on his part.

which is yaknow… some characterization? not  sure how i feel about it now, but at least, it's something lol.

as for zuko, he comes to realize the full extent of his disillusionment from life and considers that aang may be the key to fixing it once and for all. as the story progresses, zuko tries to find with jet the connection he feels with aang but is disappointed when he realizes that jet is nothing like the person he imagined him to be.

even though jet initially appears to only be a conventional villain, he is later fleshed out as we see that zuko is his safe zone, the only person with whom he relaxes. this connection, however, is negated by the fact that jet constantly does things to sabotage his relationship with zuko.

the thing about jet is interesting because it's more nuance than i gave him within the story in the first 8 chapters. i'm not convinced how well i would have been able to execute those layers of his characterization but yaknow, i guess it's nice to know i wasn't just trying to demonize him? i can promise you that i had no intention 11 years ago of extending even an ounce of that same nuance to the female characters, sadly.

anyway, the story was intended to wind down with aang being really reckless with his freedom, gyatso returning and aang needing to reckon with the fact that his actions have consequences (probably something to do with accidentally outing zuko since he treated his relationship with jet with a lot of disregard in the story, as far as i remember), and aang needing to repair his relationship with gyatso once he returns.

i'm iffy on the characterization of aang, looking back, but i won't say much on it coz it's a characterization, i guess? just not the one i'd go for if i was writing aang today.

as for on the sands of time, the next phase of the story would have been zuko realizing that azula is hot on their heels and separating from the group, realizing he cannot best azula on his own and so deciding to play double-agent with azula and string her along long enough to allow aang a chance of survival. azula and zuko would then chase them to the edge of the desert and gyatso dies before he can tell aang he is the avatar. to escape azula (and zuko), aang ends up bending both water and air. 

as per gyatso's instructions, aang, katara and sokka venture deeper into the desert and along the way run into suki and the kyoshi warriors (who guard the boundary deeper into the desert), jet and his pals (who guard a part of the desert with huge geoglyphs of animals in exchange for the spirits granting them reduced dependence on water and food) and also zuko as the blue spirit. as they progress through the desert, they are aided by two mysterious figures who seem to be aiding them (surprise, it’s zuko and azula because the ozai actually does want aang to end up at the spirit gathering, he just wants to engineer that arrival to exploit that spirit energy for... something?). 

end of the story, zuko and azula finally catch up, big fight between azula, zuko, the gaang, the freedom fighters and the spirits, and zuko almost dies. aang goes into the avatar state for the first time. and apparently, according to my bizzare notes, that's the end of volume 1 (?!!!). i literally forgot until this very moment that it was supposed to be a multi-volume story (lmao what). basically volume 1 was supposed to build this attraction between zuko and aang which comes to a head at the end of volume 1, when aang's distress at seeing zuko hurt activates the avatar state, and zuko nearly gets aang killed by revealing his hand to azula.

and then there's volume 2 (?! i still can't get over 12 year old me's ambition lmao). after the gaang and zuko flee from azula, both he and aang acknowledge their feelings for one another but iroh back in the white lotus is well aware that zuko is endangering the avatar because of his feelings and assigns someone else to protect the gaang.  zuko leaves without telling aang, but instead of recalling zuko back to the city where iroh is, he makes zuko stay in the same city where aang is. aang tracks him down and they run into each other constantly while aang masters earthbending, and tension builds between zuko and aang as they resist their feelings for one another. the major conflict of this volume is when iroh tries to assign someone else as aang's firebending teacher. shenanigans ensue, tension galore. meanwhile, azula moves in to attack the city and once again, zuko and the gaang run (definitely sensing some repetition here lmao).

and then i never outlined volume 3 because i was a moron - an adorably ambitious one, but alas, one lacking the discipline to write what i think was supposed to be a 150k+ saga (?!).

as for what comes after once upon a play, i can promise you i barely thought about what was going to happen next in that story, much less what would happen after it. 

anywho, i hope that answers your question :). it was nice to pull out my decade old notebook and realize i still had all these notes squirreled away somewhere lol. 

[eldritchsurveys]

689.

When and where was the last time you took a picture of yourself? >> Mid-November, at the Wayland house. It was technically a photo of me with Ursula, who is a cat.

Have you ever been scolded by a mall cop? >> No.

How often do you catch yourself daydreaming? >> I don’t really catch myself daydreaming. Sometimes I follow a train of thought and get lost, which I guess is the closest thing to daydreaming for me.

What's your favorite thing to think about as you're falling asleep? >> ---

Is there anything that you want to do, but won't because you're too afraid? >> I mean, probably. Can’t think of anything right now, though.

Who was the last person to yell at you? >> Fortunately, people don’t yell at me these days.

Who gets up the earliest in your household? The latest? >> Sparrow gets up before me because she goes to work in the morning.

Have you ever had a pet walk across your keyboard while you were typing? >> Sure.

What political issues do you think deserve less attention/worry? >> ---

Which political issues are you most passionate about? >> ---

You're going to your favorite foreign country; what landmarks do you go see? >> I don’t have a favourite foreign country.

What is the longest amount of time that you have spent away from your home? >> Since I’ve been in this apartment, the longest time I’ve been away from it is 2 weeks.

Did the last movie you watched have any emotional effect on you? >> The Wicker Man was engaging and kind of funny, but I don’t think it was emotionally moving. Great acting, though, especially at the end.

What motivates you to go to school? >> ---

How much caffeine have you consumed in one day? >> Probably a lot, back when I had a high stimulant tolerance.

Are you more hyper and up-tight, or laid back and relaxed? >> I don’t think I’m particularly one or the other.

When was the last time you heard someone talking about you? >> I don’t remember.

How did you pick out your last outfit? >> I just grabbed the first pair of pants and t-shirt I saw.

When buying shoes, what do you look for in the product? >> Good materials, strong sole, stuff like that. Of course I want them to look nice, but I’m not buying shitty shoes just because they’re cute.

What happened to cause the last mess you made? >> What was the last mess I made...?

Are you embarrassed to bring people into your bedroom? >> No, I’m not embarrassed. I’m territorial.

When was the last children's b-day party you attended? >> I recall going to one last summer for a 1-year-old in Sparrow’s family. It was in a park, so that was nice.

Are you good at reading other people's body language? >> I mean, maybe. It’s not a priority for me, though.

If you're sick, do you go to school or do you stay home [ usually ]? >> ---

Does chicken noodle soup really make you feel any better? >> I don’t know, I don’t really like chicken noodle soup so I don’t eat it when I don’t feel well.

What is one meal that you like to eat whilst sick? >> Anything spicy, to clear out my sinuses and shit.

Think of the last survey you filled out; did you enjoy it? >> It was fine. Had a lot of questions I had no answer for, though.

Have you ever fed bread to ducks or geese? >> When I was young, probably.

Is it hard to imagine you were ever as small as a 1-2 year old? >> Kind of, but also, like... not really. It’s difficult to imagine the state of being a two-year-old, of course, but it’s not difficult to understand that I was a two-year-old once.

What set the tone for your mood today? >> My emotional hangover from last night and my immense disappointment that I didn’t get a dream to help chill Sam out.

Have you ever set out to ruin someone else's day? >> I don’t think so.

Has you ever felt like the whole world was against you? >> Probably.

The name of the last video game you played? >> Elder Scrolls Online.

The name of the last board game that you played? >> Uh... Gloomhaven, way back when?

What was the last thing that you told yourself? >> *shrug*

How many times a day do you wash your face? >> Once, if I even remember.

Do you remember your D.A.R.E. officer's name? >> Hell no???

Someone throws hot coffee on you; how do you react? >> Violently, obviously.

Is there a high school or college that you would rather be attending? >> ---

Have you ever lived in an apartment or duplex home? >> I’ve lived in several apartments and I live in one now.

Has anyone ever commented on your weight? >> Yeah, I got a lot of comments when I was skinny. Mostly favourable ones, as one would expect -__-

Where do you stand when it comes to sexual intercourse? >> Er... like... what lol

Name a show from the 90's that you miss? >> ---

Who provokes your sarcastic side the most? >> ---

Have you ever thought about joining the military? >> Fuck no.

When you were little, did you ever stare at disabled or "different" people? >> I don’t know, I barely remember being little at all, let alone the minutiae of my behaviour.

Could the contents of your bedroom get you in any trouble? >> With who?? Who cares what the fuck is in my room lmao

Do weather patterns sometimes have an effect on your health? >> They have an effect on my well-being, sure. I need frequent sunny days to maintain equilibrium.

If it snows a lot where you live, do you experience cabin fever? >> Kind of. Mostly I experience lack-of-sun fever.

When was the last time someone disapproved of something you were doing? >> *shrug*

How good are you at getting along with other people? >> I don’t know. Passable, I guess, when I have the energy.

Do you consider yourself to be approachable? >> I don’t know if I’m approachable or not. Doesn’t that depend on the person looking to approach me?

Do you know anyone that's a little emotionally unstable? >> *shrug*

Have you ever felt like you were going out of your mind? >> Of course.

Has anyone ever suggested that you might need "help"? >> Like, therapy? Of course. But if they’re not going to pay for it, then who cares.

Do you take offense to things easily? >> No.

How do you respond to cheesy pick-up lines? >> I don’t.

Do you like to give people a taste of their own medicine? >> Meh.

How was the service at the last restaurant you visited? >> It was fine. I’ve never had bad service at a restaurant, actually.

Are you ever jealous of happy couples? >> No. I’m envious of people who can feel connected to other people.

Describe a thought that is sticking with you today? >> ---

Lately, who has spent the most time on your mind? >> Heartman.

In a car: air conditioning, or roll the windows down? >> Roll the windows down, unless it’s just that unbearably hot.

When was the last time you did anything to your playlist? >> I don’t know, I add songs to it on occasion, I guess?

Is there a new song or band you've discovered? >> Dreamcar is a new one.

What teacher gives you the most homework? >> ---

What type of personality do you find most annoying? >> *shrug*

How did you hear about Bzoink? >> I don’t remember now.

How long did it take you to sign up for an account - if you have one? >> Like two minutes.

Are you punctual? >> Most of the time, if I can help it.

Have you ever howled at the full moon? >> No.

Have you ever seen yourself on camera? >> Yes.

Do you give any consideration to what's said in your horoscope? >> I don’t read horoscopes.

When was the last time you felt like you were being followed? >> I don’t remember.

[koios]

Help, Whole, Almond

this is ALSO over a year old I am SO SORRY again. depression really makes u put off an ask for a year huh… sorry pal.

from these asks: https://koios.tumblr.com/post/183060740485/milk-asks

Hemp: Talk about one of your happiest moments.

My memory is super shotty so frankly I am not recalling any super duper significant ones but here goes a happy moment that I do remember! In August just before 10th grade my mom and I were at the pet shop I had spent all summer volunteering at (I work there now!) looking to get me a pet bird. Birds are… pretty expensive so I had figured I’d only be able to afford a parakeet with everything else I had to get (cage, food, toys, etc.). I’d really wanted a different type of bird (green cheek conure) though, because I’d been playing with them during the summer and they really grew on me (they’re such sweet little rascals!). The manager told my mom and I that I could use the employee discount!!! I ended up being able to afford one of the green cheek conures (that discount saved us like. $400 total.) and now that little rascal is my baby bastard Basil!!!

Whole: Which do you prefer: the smell of lavender or the smell of the ocean?

Just answered this one! https://koios.tumblr.com/post/619101089143422976/whole-chocolate-coconut-milk

Almond: Describe the prettiest sky you’ve ever seen.

As said before my memory is HELL (especially visually) so this isn’t going to have a lot of details but once I was looking out the window and the sky was pastel pink and orange with some sparse thin clouds. It was SO FREAKIN PRETTY!

Side note: Just realized the English language is worse than I thought. “I’d” can mean  “I had” or “I would”… w h y 

Second side note because I didn’t wanna be sappy in the main post: An alternative happiest moment is literally any time I see my friends get something they’ve been working hard for. I fucking LOVE my friends bro. (Another alternative was when my history teacher who I had convinced myself Barely Knew I Existed actually complimented me in front of the class. Pro tip: If you want ppl to notice you… have crazy bonkers hair lmao.)

[romantic-barista]

I was tagged by @scribbledstars!

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST…

Drink: a&w root beer

Phone call: pretty sure it was @old-qrow on discord

Text message: my last actual sms was with @non-binary-royalty! 

Song you listened to: This Will Be the Day - Casey Lee Williams and Jeff Williams

Time you cried: fourth of july,, haha

HAVE YOU…

Dated someone twice: ... i’ve dated the same person like fifty times over what are you talking about

Kissed someone and regretted it: yeah, it was my first kiss and any times i’ve kissed anybody irl at this point

Been cheated on: it’d be easier to ask when i haven’t been cheated on tbh

Lost someone special: yup, i’ve lost a lot of people special to me in the last few years

Been depressed: you mean, like, currently?? in the past??? in the future?? yeah.

Gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t like throwing up, so no! 

Made new friends: I did make friends recently and I’m glad we are because they’re so great??? 

Fallen out of love: multiple times, with multiple people.

Laughed until you cried: only a couple times, especially if I haven’t gotten enough sleep.

Found out someone was talking bad about you: uhhh, so you mean my whole high school life and my last relationship? right???

Met someone who changed you: tbh, i wouldn’t be where i am without @scribbledstars @novice-heartbreaker @iesousdeasous and @old-qrow

Found out who your friends are: Yeah, I think I know who my real friends are now.

Kissed someone from your Facebook list: no, but I kissed a friend of a friend, lol. 

Kissed a stranger: kinda?? kissed someone i barely knew one night.

Drank hard liquor: haha no i’d die.

Lost glasses/contact lenses: i don’t lose them necessarily, more so i pull a velma for like 10 mins in the morning.

Turned someone down: yeah, it sucks doing that because i hate hurting people but i don’t wanna hurt people

Sex on the first date: uhhh, i don’t recall ever having sex or going on dates that were in places where it was ok to do that lmao

Broken someone’s heart: yeah, a couple times.

Had your heart broken: haHAHA, HAVE I EVER???

Been arrested: nope

Cried when someone died: I cried when I lost my grandma, both my cats Midnight and PJ, and when my grandpa Gilson died along with my great uncle Rick (and a couple other family members I was close to died). I also cry when people die in tv shows.

Fallen for a friend: well, i’m bi and i’ve known straight friends that didn’t feel that way back along with friends who did so yeah

Kissed on the first date: nope! 

GENERAL

List 3 favorite colors: orange, pink, purple

How many Facebook friends do you know in real life: huhhh, well, to give an actual number... 28 of my 36.

Do you have any pets: four cats and a dog! 

Do you want to change your name: I used to want to change it to Jade since that’s my middle name and I got upset about people saying it wrong, but people i love saying it made me change my mind tbh. it feels too good when they call me my name

What time did you wake up: ... 1pm! 

What were you watching at midnight last night: I don’t think i was watching anything at midnight last night huh

Name something you can’t wait for: traveling to California and New Zealand to see my friends! 

When was the last time you saw your mom: last night tbh because she hasn’t tried to come into my room today yet

What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I wish I could be over a certain somebody rn.

What are you listening to right now: As If It’s Your Last by BLACKPINK! 

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: there is probably a customer i’ve met named tom but i don’t ask names, so i’m gonna go with PROBABLY.

Something that is getting on your nerves right now: knowing someone I wanted a future with threw that shit away like immediately.

Most visited website: this hellsite

Mole/s: a couple, but none that are raised or like bad.

Mark/s: huh, i have like a birth mark on my neck that’s very faint and i have some acne and old wound scars. (i used to skin pick so the scars are from those)

Childhood dream: teacher or social worker

Do you have a crush on someone: @old-qrow 

What do you like about yourself: I like how I’m always trying to find ways to make things work and how I’m never ready to give up.

Piercings: I have my ears pierced, but I want a monroe.

Blood type: uhh,, probably O?

Nickname: Kas, Kasumi, Yang, Ghost, Milk

Relationship status: uhhh, technically single, technically with someone? it’s hard to explain, haha

Zodiac: gemini 

Pronouns: she/her

Favorite TV show: FRIENDS, like honestly if people don’t know this by now i swear lol

Tattoos: one on my right ankle that is a heart that says daughter under, and i want a couple more.

Right or left hand: left

Surgery: none! 

Hair dyed in different color: I’ve had black, red, and blonde.

Sport: i only like soccer and hockey

Vacation: I’ve been to Hawaii, Japan, and some other places for vacation but I don’t have any I’ve been to this year. I miss going to Pentwater in the summers :(

Pair of trainers: nope? 

Current and all-time best friend name: Jeff

Eye color: emerald

Favorite movie: Jurassic Park, babbbbyyyyy

WHICH IS BETTER?

Hugs or kisses: oh god, kisses, yes.

Lips or eyes: that’s a hard choice,, but I’m gonna go eyes

Shorter or taller: neither?? i don’t prefer one over the other! 

Nice arms or stomach: ... stomach for sure uHHH

Sensitive or loud: ... sensitive?

Hook up or relationship: Relationship !!

Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker haha. (totally not because i liked acertain kpop duo)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

Yourself: I try to!

Miracles: used to, not sure I still do.

Love at first sight: that’s not real lol.

Santa Claus: I did when I was little.

i tag @old-qrow @iesousdeasous @etherqueen @non-binary-royalty and @kouhai-i you guys don’t have to do it but it’d be fun to read your answers

[poorbasil]

Thank you APUSH mom for the help!! The exam is this Friday, just took the mock today (and there was a question about reagan and Gorbachev on it and I almost screamed in the middle of the test). Dude I'd love it if you could tell me about post-Revolution stuff since I lowkey know nothing about then lmao. And the influence of reaganism and new conservatism because my class barely spent any time on that either since my teacher hates Reagan >_

Holy heck, beingcalled APUSH mom made my day!! You’re too sweet.

Everything is under the cut (it’s kinda long). Let me know if you need further clarification. 

Post-Revolution Until Constitution (tell me if you need more info since I stopped at this point):

Last battle: Yorktown, Oct. 1781;

Treaty of Paris 1783 formally ends war, provisions:

·        *US recognizedas independent from Britain*

·        fishingrights off Canada coast

·        US to payback individual debts to Britain

·        Boardersfrom Canada to FL to Miss. River

Britain keeps itsforts (is also suspected of aiding Natives w/ weapons)- becomes big issue w/War of 1812

Articles of Confed. had been adopted by Congress Nov. 1777(ratified March 1781)

Issues:

·        Noexecutive (no central gov. to regulate economy)

·        unicameralCongress

·        1 voteper state regardless of population + size

·        canmanage postal service + coin money

·        USstruggling to build up weak economy after living under mercantilism but can’tlevy taxes (relied on donations for states which contributed to rising nationaldebt)

o   early econ. v. bad b/c states were printingtheir own currency which lead to inflation + states were taxing each other

·        can  make treaties + trade alliances (US had w/Prussia + Sweden)

·        @ thispoint, the US was a Confederacy w/ states maintaining their individual powerand the central government acting as a last resort (v. weak central gov)

Success under AOC:

Northwest Ordinance of 1787: provides that all new territories beincorporated as new states, not added onto existing states (was v. unique +revolutionary)

Social Concerns:

Women:

·        “RepublicanMotherhood”- image of the virtuous American woman who is responsible forteaching her children morals + dedication to country

o   results in idea that women needed to be morevirtuous than men leading to disenfranchisement as they had to maintain theirvirtue

Religion:                                                                                      

·        b/fChurch of England/Anglican Church was main rel. and was state church (publicfunds went to support church )

o   gradual disestablishment of church by 1820s

·        Statesbecome more lax w/ rel. -remove compulsory attendance laws, etc.

·        Formationof new religions: Methodists, Episcopalian, Baptists, etc.

·        VA Stateof Freedom  (written by TJ) becomesstandard for separation of church and state (an ongoing issue which ppl likeMadison agreed w/ while Patrick Henry disagreed)

African Americans

·        Start toinclude themselves in the ideas of the Revolution +  natural rights (apply Dec. of Ind. to them)-becomes even more significant after Haitian Rev.

·        New AAintellectuals (Phyllis Weatley + Benjamin Banaker)

·        Questionsab. slavery arise

o   Penn. Abolitionist Society formed 1787

o   Decline in slavery in south (looks like it willdisappear b/c it’s not profitable)- this is reversed w/ invention of the cottongin however

·        Propertywas  a natural right Americans stronglybelieved in- complicating slavery issue as they were seen as property

·        Immediateemancipation in New England (never really much slaves there b/c it wasn’t economicbenefit); gradual eman. in middle states

·        Somestates abolish slave trade (not domestic trading however) (u may find itsurprising that TJ, as 2nd governor of VA, initiated this act in VA)

General Unrest:

·        Shay’s Rebellion: angry debtors in MA., illustrates strugglingeconomy affecting citizens welfare

·        NewburghConspiracy (Mar. 1783): attempted coup against Washington (failed b/f it never really took off)

Annapolis Conven. 1786: gathered to discuss“revisions” of AoC but really they end up to scrap the whole thingand convene in a year at the Constitutional Conven. which was technicallyillegal under the AoC

Con. Coven. May 14, 1787

·        somefounders refused to come b/c they realized the false pretenses of the conven.

·        Madisonis the star here (most of the knowledge we know about this is from his ownnotes b/c the secretary sucked)

·        EnterRoger Sherman’s Great Compromise b/w the VA and NJ Plans (bicameral leg w/representatives based on population and senators equal w/ 2 per state)

o   also 3/5 compromise

·        Create 3branches of gov. + checks and balances (idea taken from Enlightenment)

o   @ this time, ppl were afraid of too stronglegislatures

·        ElectoralCollege: used to check “rampant democracy” aka mob rule

Constitution ratified Sept. 17, 1787 but debatefor this was v. bitter

·        the wholeanti-Federalist vs. Federalist issue emerges

o   Anti: Main leaders: Patrick Henry, Sam Adams,Richard Henry Lee (TJ was in Paris during this time and cannot be considered amajor player during this debate- ik many texts say he was an anti-Fed but boiwasn’t even there)

§  believed Con. was encroaching on monarchicalideas

§  was made by elites in secret

§  some parts were considered anti-democratic

§  didn’t like creation of a national capital

§  opposed standing army

§  no mention of God

o   Feds: Main Leaders: Madison, Ben Franklin,Hamilton, Washington

§  recall Federalist Papers written to informpublic about Con., and pushing for it to be ratified

o   Billof Rights: first 10 amends,included to appease Anti- Feds

This was my question from the APUSH 2015 DBQ:

Explain the reasons why a new conservatism rose to prominence inthe United States between 1960 and 1989.

Main points from the documents in myDBQ:

·        States’Rights + Federal government infringement into affairs which they don’t have jurisdictionover

·        Failureof government intervention and gov. reforms aimed at helping poor \

·        Generalpublic sentiment in working middle class that they’re not receiving any benefitfrom the government while resources are being allocated to help drug addictsand the likes

·        Lack of“morality” in youth

·        Decreasingdisplay of American strength in foreign affairs

Reagan Conservatism:

·        supply-sideand trickledown economics:

§  release the power of American free enterprisefrom regulations, then the inherent free market will make the economy grow andincrease the nation’s GDP and the profits gained from the wealthiestbusinesses, the profit will move down (trickle) to the other classes ofsociety. Stands as an unrestricted form of free enterprise unhindered bygovernment regulations or helped by subsides.

o   plan was encouraged by tax cuts across allclasses and especially businesses since those are the ones who hire everyoneelse, businesses can then make more money and invest it in human capital and resources

·        peace throughstrength:

o   maintaining a very strong military, which, ifthis image is portrayed across the globe, it would basically intimidate anddeter others from attacking the US

o    disapprovedof defense cuts

·        socially:was a very traditional conservative (if you’re familiar w/ modern politics,think more like Ted Cruz than a John McCain) 

[fuckstudy]

Hello! First off, I would like to say that I just recently started following you, and your blog is so well-informed and nice! So I am bad at math. It's mostly the basics of algebra (I and II) and geometry, especially when it comes to slopes, functions, domain, range, etc. I can grasp trig well enough though. I was wondering if there was anything that I can do to improve my math skills. I tried asking my teacher, but I barely understand math lingo. If you could help, i appreciate it. Thanks!

Hey! Thank you for the follow, I’m glad you’re enjoying (or hopefully still enjoying) the stuff that’s on here 

I was pretty rubbish at maths as well back in high school, but here’s a few resources that may help, from people who love the subject more than I ever will: 

math resources and links 

math 

maths masterpost

maths masterpost

What really helped me through studying maths was simply repeating loads of practice questions and exams. There’s a certain pattern to each ‘style’ of question that will become familiar with routine. 

In the interests of ‘actually learning shit’ as opposed to wrote learning/ mindless application of maths (as I did), I’d say putting the question into a broader context really helps. Whether it be by comparing different types of questions or finding a ‘real life’ scenario to apply it to. Textbooks attempt to do this, but sometimes they fall short (I recall always having a weird ‘boating/ sailing/ orienteering question for an aspect of trig, and that never helped me because I’ve never been in that kind of situation lmao) find an example which is applicable to you/ that you readily understand. 

I also found explain things in ‘plan english’ helped. Whether this be with friends, to my dog or screaming it in frustration at the mirror. 

Having that ‘comprehensive’ understanding will help if you’re ever “stuck” in an exam. 

All the best hun, 

[all-of-your-mercy]

I’ve been thinking about it for a while, mostly set back from the thoughts because of on personal in denial of the possibility -- But, I might have adhd? It’s nothing new that I always had a set of difficulties performing even the most basic chores; even school work. Even now, I’m aware I’m supposed to do a lot of writing but that’s what I said to myself 2 hours ago. Now It’s 00:15 [edit, it’s 00:36 now] and I have 5-6ish hours to sleep. RIP. I never considered of a mental illness solely because I never got officially diagnosed. Then again, my country [i say country because..we’re still old fashioned from the soviet times.] LOVES covering up the fact the fact some people might have these things, so you hardly ever find much information on these things, aside from psychology/suicide hotline/other websites. Basically, only from those that are talk about it; but rarely there is a single flyer that could mention these places even exist. A simple click of a button with google can bring the information, but honestly? I keep forgetting about it x10000 times;; Initially I believed I had depression, back in the day. Mostly because there where some traits common with a depressed individual [inability to perform tasks; losing interest in a lot of things..] I thought I self loathed myself too, but It was just a bit of insecurity. Now, I don’t really care as much/eventually forget in a couple of seconds. Day dreaming was a factor of my assumption, until I accidentally hit up some sources (eventually help of a school psych to disclose some things) about adhd: Hyper focus. Constantly day dreaming; even at times you’re trying to get your full attention but then you realize you haven’t heard a single thing; Messiness? I thought I was just a slob but most of the time, I’m like, I literally can do this? But I can’t start from everywhere? I’m not sure if I make sense with that BUT anyways Inability to stomach a lot of text -- And It’s coming from a roleplayer. Even though I enjoy writing and receiving lengthy replies, I tend to look at the bare minimum of information. I struggled to reply for days because, I just saw that I needed to write a lot on particular things, and I can’t just get away with responding to 1-2 events/reactions and writing a shit load of what is my oc going through and what action they’re attempting to perform. + I’m relieved that my s/o has a particular rp writing style that I can get my full attention on, because It’s usually broken down to the main parts of a thread and such. I like rping, but since I’m lately not able to do the slightest thing.. I chose to keep it off a little or do the bare minimum. [Already this post that I’m writing, the only thing I looked at was the hyper focus word LMAO] I forgot to disclose the fact, that I kinda fidget. I don’t fidget that it looks like a spasm or as someone who could seem as having a seizure (because those where either options I was told that exist), but I did notice a lot of occasions where I keep tapping my foot at a rapid speed, at classes. And alone from that I get distracted and think about the tapping. RIP. ++++++ info; I noticed I am good at things that actually take my interest. I’m always perfect at English, but I tend to be close to failing at Lithuanian/Native language. Especially when the subject focus is literature. Literature has a tendency to have books and cut paragraphs of some books, and HIDE some sort of meaning. I don’t know if that has something to do with my assumed ML, but I never, never can see the hidden meaning in the given information. Like, ever. I still remember how my old lt teacher got always mad for me and called me incompetent, while the vague translation could be something as a retard, tbh. I got hooked on a game that was pretty much horror porn. Obsessed it over days and ruined my sleep even more than I ruin it now. I only stopped with It when I got all of the endings from my favorite characters and got some mini bonus thing for it. I enjoy playing overwatch, but I feel insecure continuing. I get called on my sudden decisions of an act so often, It’s getting really fucking tiring. It doesn’t help I tend to be really talkative and comment over a lot of things on the mic + over things that are outside the game. So, I’d rather not play at all because I’m a burden to others, at a multiplayer game. I have a vague memory of my mom bringing me to some institution, and I’m pretty sure that place had to do with figuring out issues with your kid. Since my mom was pretty lame as a parent of a young kid, she never brought me up for the last sessions. I still recall doing some math quiz with some worker while she was asking me some math-unrelated questions. I don’t know what to do, in the finale of my words. Can’t really say this to my mother because It’s questionable that she’ll take it seriously. Always unavailable to communicate or tends to ignore me (not even subtly, sad), so It’s... Kinda pointless to do begin somewhere from a close relative. I’m just, I just need to know. I’m bothered about it because I feel like this could be also a placebo effect and all really I’m experiencing is just a form of lack of responsibility and has nothing to do with ML.