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Killing Eve Fandom Masterlist

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[upat4amwiththemoon]

🌻 Killing Eve masterlist 🌻

Villanelle

Surprise date

Everyone wants a fun first time meeting story.

The red means I love you

Red is the color of love.

Family

Babies should have knives.

I'm sorry

Never leave to a mission during a fight.

Failed mission

Murder attempts and dates.

A package deal

It’s either both of us or neither of us.

VillanEve

Bilingual beauties

Eve tends to stay out of her wife and daughter’s fights, because usually they happen in Russian.

[ao3feed-sheriarty]

THE GAME III - « Sic Itur Ad Astra. »

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/pEHy3YQ

by AMAZINGmadness

Les Jeux. Petits, grands, sans conséquences, mortels. Les Districts, le Capitole. L'Académie, l'Université, les Hunger Games. James aimait les jeux. Il avait appris à jouer, très tôt, appris à survivre. Les Jeux, de toutes sortes, lui avait permis de s'élever, de briller, de rayonner. Les Jeux, oui, avaient détruits tout ce qui restait de bon, d'humain, en lui.

Jusqu'aux 75e Hunger Games. Jusqu'à Sherlock. Jusqu'aux complots, aux plans, à cet espoir qui était revenu germer en lui, s'était implanté, inflexible. Aujourd'hui figure emblématique de la rébellion portée par le District Trois, il se doit de continuer à se battre pour cet espoir, continuer à jouer pour les autres.

Et, peut-être, pour sauver ce qui lui reste d'âme.

(Hunger Games AU. Crossover Sherlock x Killing Eve) Suite et fin - de THE GAME I - « Memento Mori » & THE GAME II - « Forget Me Not ».

Words: 10090, Chapters: 1/12, Language: Français

Series: Part 3 of Before We Drift Away

Fandoms: Sherlock (TV), Killing Eve (TV 2018), Hunger Games Series - All Media Types

Rating: Explicit

Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death

Categories: F/F, F/M, M/M

Characters: Sherlock Holmes, Jim Moriarty, Villanelle | Oksana Astankova, Culverton Smith, Charles Augustus Magnussen, Sebastian Moran, Eve Polastri, Irene Adler (Sherlock Holmes), Victor Trevor

Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/Jim Moriarty, Eve Polastri/Villanelle | Oksana Astankova, Sherlock Holmes/Victor Trevor, Past Carl Powers/Jim Moriarty

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Hunger Games Setting, Inspired by The Hunger Games, War, Rebellion, Survival, POV Jim Moriarty, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Angst, Character Death, Blood and Violence, Implied/Referenced Torture, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, James is not a monster, James has a plan, Eurus has a plan, James and Eurus are plotting, Mycroft had a plan, Oksana is a psychotic sweetheart, Established Eve Polastri/Villanelle | Oksana Astankova, Sherlock is a Mess, James Has Issues, Protective Jim Moriarty, Protective Eurus Holmes, Sherrinford is the 4th Holmes sibling, Enemies to Allies To Lovers, again ?, Smith is the real monster here, Redemption

read it on the AO3 at https://ift.tt/pEHy3YQ

[i-likeitdark]

E: I should have done this when we first met.

V: Done what?

[wingedog]

More artsy killing eve stuff

[hauntingofthirteen]

the killing eve girls and their disguises

maid villanelle // ex-girlfriend eve

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killing eve // season 4, episode 3: a rainbow in beige boots

[alotoftvtrash]

I'm back on my Suki trash again :)

Fic inspired by next week's spoilers but probably not at all accurate to what will actually happen lol enjoy anyway😭

Not a killing eve fic just incase people think that by the title although I really should write for villaneve soon before season 4 ends

[caroldanversenthusiast]

I’m so excited now for Season 4 of Killing Eve knowing Laura Neal is the head writer.

I mean she wrote arguably the best episodes this season (ep 3&7) She gave us the bus kiss and the scene at the train station. VILLANEVE WILL RISE.

[haughttopics]

i just rewatched killing eve 3.08 again, and i just wanted to talk about something from that scene. you know the one. 

all throughout there’s a very visual foretelling of how it’s going to end. about them standing on the other side to each other but never crossing.

here’s where we first see it, by eve’s hand on the bridge (we’ll come back to the actual bridge itself later):

doesn’t seem like it’s much at first. but her hand is intentionally placed to not cross that gap in the railing. 

a few times we then see this next one, of villanelle and eve standing side by side:

and again, both very purposefully placed and separated visually by the line on the ground.

we also get a different angle from the front:

it’s not as clear here, but by now having picked up on the theme, you can tell neither have yet to cross over this line.

when eve starts to ask villanelle for ‘help’, this is where the visuals become much stronger: 

it’s now a lot more obvious, front and centre of the shot. 

and then we get this angle:

this is probably the strongest visual we get for this whole thing, as even looking through the railings here there’s still this very clear line keeping them separated. 

when eve turns around:

you can see this ‘line’ now represented by the two of them. and during this whole thing, this is the closest they’ve actually come to touching. they’re so close...

until villanelle decides it’s best for them to walk in the opposite direction:

this is the final shot of the episode, and there’s the line that’s been prominent throughout the whole scene, right up until the very end. 

it’s a visual representation of how they’ve changed over the three seasons, how their relationship with each other has grown over this time. they’ve reached the point where they’ve mutually addressed how they feel about the other, and it seems how they’re in the same place. they’re so close, and yet still, they can’t cross that ‘line’. 

remember how i said we’d come back to that bridge? well as a born and bred londoner i instantly recognised the white railings as none other than tower bridge (often mistakenly called london bridge). the other giveaway is the line on the ground itself, it’s where the road parts and rises up:

this location itself adds to this whole visual theme. they could have picked any other bridge in central london (we’ve got plenty of them). but not only are they on tower bridge, they’re right in the centre of it. 

where the two halves of the road meet, but never cross...

[raisinghellonstarbug]

Villaneve ficlet - Hide, Discover, Clarify

Eve knows best. It seems that she knows Villanelle more than she knows herself. A true desire has been discovered.

(Set during series 3)

Rated T on AO3

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Sooo this is my first attempt at not only a Villaneve fic (who are my second favourite ship), but a ficlet! I haven't written something with a small word count like this before. I normally write long fics so this was a challenge for me. For the writing style it was surprisingly easy! I hope you guys like it :)

And if you don't know Killing Eve, then I definitely recommend watching it. It's great.

The link below...

[morerevenge]

Since Eve hasn’t really process the events of Rome I really want an scene on season 4 of her screaming at Villanelle how much the betray(and shooting) hurted her, I want her to let out all emotions. 

I want her to tell Villanelle how much she hated herself in the 6 six months not only because she didn’t know if Villanelle was alive but because after everything they had done to each other she couldn’t hate Villanelle even if she tried so hard to do it, how she was holding her breath until she got the news and that the only thing in her mind was to find her.    

I want to Villanelle to hold Eve while she sobs, for Bill, for Kenny, hell even for niko, for rome and her nomal life that are long gone, for all the things she thought she wanted and fighted for, when all this time it was Villanelle the only thing she needed, it was the missing piece to being herself.  

[ry-kills-jemily]

Tell Me It’s Not Heartbreak (Villanelle x Eve Polastri):

Rating: Teen and Up.

“Stand up straight and look at me”. With a heavy sigh, Eve did just as Villanelle asked. Her eyes scanned up and down the blonde’s face while she waited for Villanelle to say something else. “Now turn around and face the other way”. The slight venom in Villanelle’s voice shocked Eve.

“What?” Eve’s voice was breathless, shocked. Whatever Villanelle was trying to do was confusing her. Her gaze flicked from the bottom of Villanelle’s neck to the top of her head. For a moment Eve stood behind Villanelle. She hadn’t quite gained the courage to move.

“Have you turned?” Villanelle’s voice broke Eve out of her spell. “I can’t see you”. Eve turned around while listening to Villanelle’s voice. Their backs were facing each other, something that hadn’t happened in a long time.

Deep breath in, deep breath out. Vilanelle’s eyes fluttered closed because for once she was feeling relaxed in Eve’s presence. There was no fight or tension, just comfort. Another deep breath. Villanelle’s head dropped back slightly to rest against Eve’s, her eyes still closed. A few more breaths.

“Now what?” Eve’s voice sounded fragile, scared. She’d spent so much time with this woman and she feared that something was going to happen. Something that split them up, hopefully not too long but it had potential to be permanent. Vilanelle’s eyes opened, a blank look over her face which meant she was avoiding any emotion.

“Now we walk, and we never look back”. Eve’s eyes flicked around trying to take everything in. The only word to describe what she was feeling was confusion.

“But, I-”, as usual, Eve was in need of an explanation. Nothing ever truly made sense to her. She went with the flow of things, always going with what other people did or following the ideals of what she thought she was supposed to do. Sure, Villanelle wasn’t the most conventional friend but their relationship was something they both treasured. Could they even be considered friends? They had kissed after all and there was some sort of flirting. Sending teddy bears and birthday cakes, flying to other countries to see each other and of course, the big one. Friends don’t murder other people for you, do they? At least not multiple times.

“Don’t turn. Just walk”.The instruction made Eve’s heart constrict in her chest. This was really happening. She was really going to do this. Villanelle stepped away, her heels clicking against the concrete which left Eve confused, cold and alone. For a few moments she stood there and listened to the fading sound of Eve’s high heels. Once the sound had faded to nothing Eve stepped forward. She. finally felt like she could move. Her steps were slow but sure, walking in the opposite direction to her blonde counterpart. Perhaps she couldn’t do this. What if she turned around?

Eve’s footsteps stopped to a stop which anchored her to the floor for a moment. She stared at the building in front of her and willed herself not to cry. For some reason she turned around to look at Villanelle one last time. To her surprise the blonde had also stopped but hadn’t turned around yet. Something similar to hope spread across Eve’s face. Perhaps things would be okay after all.

Villanelle turned around too which prompted Eve to let out a sigh of relief. Smiles spread across both of their faces and Eve took off into a run towards Villanelle. The blonde was waiting with open arms and as soon as Eve was in her reach she was wrapped in a tight hug with her face buried into Villanelle’s neck. Her expensive perfume flooded Eve’s senses and she realised just how much she needed the blonde. With tears in her eyes, she pulled back and found a somber expression on Villanelle's face.

“No, no no”. Eve’s voice got quieter each time she protested and she had to step back because suddenly everything seemed overwhelming. “You can’t leave me”. Eve’s arms crossed over her stomach in a defensive manner. She couldn’t let herself get hurt. Not again.

“I’m sorry”. Villanelle reached a hand out and Eve’s head shook violently. She couldn’t deal with the physical contact. Not now. “I love you”. Her head tilted to the side slightly and a soft smile spread across her face.

“Clearly not enough”. Eve’s voice was filled with venom and anger. Tears filled her eyes at the thought of being alone again.

“I don’t want you to get hurt because of me, Eve. Knowing you’d be hurt because of my job doesn’t sit right with me”. Eve scoffed, one of her hands quickly moving up to her face to wipe away the tears that had started to fall.

“You’re the person who’s fucking hurting me. Your job I can handle, losing you is something I can’t”. Villanelle reached out for Eve but the brunette had taken a few steps back. “No. Don’t touch me. You don’t have that right anymore. I’m not something you can mess around with. You can’t pick me up and drop me when you want. I won’t allow it. You’re either in or out and I think I know the answer”. Villanelle’s hands slotted into the pocket of her coat and she leaned back against the railing of the bridge.

She sighed and closed her eyes trying to find a nice way to articulate her thoughts to Eve. She was used to being blunt and straight to the point but Eve deserved more than that from her. She was the woman Villanelle loved after all. She’d never felt this way about anyone and she was going to throw it all away for no reason. It appeared that she’d taken too long to answer because Eve had picked up on what was happening.

“You’re out. I knew it. You’re a coward”. Eve scoffed and sighed. This was the end. Years of hunting each other had come to this. Heartbreak. Villanelle opened her mouth to say something but Eve beat her to it. “Don’t bother. I know what you’re going to say anyway. Save it”. Her hands tucked back into her pocket and she stormed away. Villanelle looked up just in time to see Eve cross the road and merge into a large crowd of people. Who knew when the next time they’d see each other would be? They could only hope it was slightly more civil than whatever mess they’d ended up in today.

Villanelle turned around to look down the river and her left leg crossed behind her right to keep her stable. Her elbows rested on the railing and she groaned, letting her head fall forward slightly.

“You shouldn’t have let her get away”. Considering she was not in the mood for Konstantin, Villanelle told herself she did a good job by not punching him.

“That’s a genius idea. Why didn’t I think of that?” She turned to face him with one of her eyebrows raised. It was her turn to walk away then. Eve Polastri was the love of her life and she’d thrown away her only chance at happiness. Stupid Villanelle.

[artbysupergirl]

Quality trends 🔥👏🏻

[sapphistt]

thinking how when villanelle finally got comfortable showing her emotions and  vulnerablity to someone she truly loves and essetially telling them that she loves them, it’s always rejected and treated as a joke or not reciprocated. and how some of the people who say villanelle can’t love simply because she’s a psychopath and that she doesn’t really know what love is. i feel so fucking sad that when v truly loves someone, which probably doesn’t happen often, all of her love she has to offer to the person has been rejected.

in the latest episode, when villanelle started to finally be able to mom completely rejected it, saying she didn’t belong, which ended up with villanelle killng her mom. (also it might’ve been the way v’s mom just snatched and grabbed v’s face but that’s off topic)

another example: villanelle said she actually cared for konstantin, but he didn’t take it seriously. he think of villanelle as a child, naive to love and caring for a person since she’s also a psychopath. when konstantin comes to get irena, villanelle shoots him, almost killing him but not quite.

anna also probably has a part in villanelle not being able to handle rejection. anna was probably the first person villanelle truly and fully loved, and though anna and villanelle had a love afair, they seperated once villanelle casterated anna’s husband. when villanelle is confronted with anna after years of the seperation, it seems that anna is still grieving the loss of her husband in a way. villanelle back then, was probably obsessed over anna and wanted them to be in a romantic relationship, open to the public. anna however didn’t think the idea so keen.

and finally, eve. eve. oh boy. she’s probably the largest change in villanelle’s way of rejection. for the first two seasons, it’s basically a mouse and cat chase, each finale almost ending with the smooch a lil, and with both of them revealing something to each other that they haven’t said to much people or anybody. take the s1 finale for example. villanelle admits to eve that she thinks about her all the time and even masturbates to her. she also wants to watch a nice romcom with somebody and have just a normal life with a friend she could talk stuff to. does she get it though in the later seasons? sadly not. not yet (hopefully). in the s2 finale, villanelle tells eve that she’s in love with her in rome. eve rejects, saying that v doesn’t know anything about love (pretty sure we all remember that vividly), and that eve doesn’t feel the same way v does. v ends up shooting eve because of this rejection.

in s3, the iconic kiss moment between villanelle and eve, which was intiated by eve. now, usually villanelle is probably used to the reject with her giving out love to the people she truly loves, and to see eve, the love of her life, kiss her, now that’s something she surely wouldn’t expect. 

killing eve you’re the reason for part of my brain damage so thanks :)

if you read this all, thanks for reading my rant <3.

[snsdszapink]

god what if villanelle wants it gentle but eve still feels this anger towards her. how dare she show eve kindness after everything, how dare she worship her body when no one has caused her more pain than the woman on her knees for her. it should be hate-filled, but here is villanelle, looking at eve like eve put the stars in the sky. fuck her for loving eve, for being kind when eve has only showed her the ugly inside her. she wants to hate her, but the way she’s holding her is nothing like she’s ever felt, and she wants to run away from it, because this is the woman who killed her best friend and shot her—so why does she want to curl into her?

[topeve]

let’s play a game: how many times will mei kill eve and/or villanelle in one of her fics?