#everything i wanted someone to feel abt me everything i wanted them to say that they love me that they’re proud that they’re going to miss
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There's something about like. A certain genre of posts / Online Opinions about insecurity/depression/misery/complaints that are so unhelpful that they wrap right around to being straight up hilarious.
and it's the ones that are more or less written to the tone of "Feeling bad? That's gross!"
Like, just so you know, don't voice your insecurities/ have low self esteem, because that's offputting! You're gross and weird. Don't be insecure about that, though. That would be stupid if you felt insecure about people disliking you for being insecure. Not attractive. You should be thinking about being as attractive as possible.
You shouldn't make comments about suicide, even if you're suicidal! Keep those thoughts entirely to yourself. Make sure nobody around you knows you're thinking about this. It would Make Them Uncomfortable. It's better to keep these thoughts in your head where they can fester.
Don't post OR talk to friends with complaints about you feeling miserable or depressed. Tbh people who are sad/upset a lot? Kinda a red flag! You are probably miserable because you're a bad person and you've brought this on yourself. If you don't have friends, it's because you're awful to be around. Easy! Solved the problem for you. And no, there is no nuance to this, got it?
So, make sure to feel bad about feeling bad, but don't feel bad about it, because, well, that's just gross. And annoying! You might've wanted your brain rotted thoughts to be Peer Reviewed, you might have just needed to vent- you might've been hoping for some comfort, to get things off your chest. Well, don't! Don't talk about thoughts or feelings that are negative with your friends, you'd be burdening them and that's only meant for THERAPY. #SponsoredbyBetterHelp #MentalHealth
like, DAMN. that's so helpful. you're so good at helping. I um really liked the part where these are all hard and fast rules that encourage keeping feelings bottled up and keeping your friends at arm's length. That's really funny of you.
#I FEEL LIKE COMPLAINING RN in the context of this alternate universe these posts live in. that makes me evil rn. I may not even keep#the post up. but I Needed to complain about these bc I hate seeing them#really funny and good because it very much feeds into that part of the brain where you go wait am I stupid? am I horrible? am I annoying?#before you express any kind of personal feelings. from feeling insecure alll the way down the spectrum to feeling like your life is over#before anyone How Dare You Say We Piss On The Poor-s at me YES there is a nuanced version of this#which is. you can make someone feel like shit (A Fellow Sufferer Of The Mental Eelnesses) by using them as your dumping ground#in excess and usually with no regard for how they feel and without Regular conversations inbetween#and in a one-sided way where they can't do the same and complain with you as a sounding board in return#don't tell new friends you hardly know abt THE MOST personal shit you can possibly think of. there are steps being skipped here#right? we know this. we all know it. setting a boundary is a thing. overwhelming a person is a thing#on the other hand there is such a thing as a friend who IS okay to listen and wants to help. and friends who relate.#maybe talking abt personal stuff makes ppl feel closer sometimes. just a thought! maybe not everything is Emotional Labor. maybe just maybe#but like come on. these are almost intentionally unhelpful posts#long post
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there r fics that make u insane (so amazingly good it’s removed ur sanity) and then there’s fics that make u insane (you need to fistfight the author for how they did a specific thing that caused u to rant for hours)
#i know i just posted that other thing but ffs that is NOT how u handle someone in that situation everyone involved made everything 10x worse#yet it’s being treated like the right thing to do (which again ofc they’re cops they don’t understand harm reduction but still) like#seriously everything’s so forceful like u seriously think forcing ur friend to talk to u or forcing a patient to talk to a therapist under#the threat of being admitted to a psychiatric hospital is gonna make her feel comfortable talking to u? or anyone? she’s just gonna trust u#less and get better at hiding it and speaking of which the taking away all sharp objects thing makes sense in theory but like think abt it#for a minute she confirmed she isn’t suicidal and this is her only way of coping so do not just forcibly take away all her coping mechanism#like yes she is hurting herself but it’s a COPING MECHANISM. she’s coping with something. help her with that don’t just take away her penci#sharpers or whatever (which btw since she’s an adult she could easily buy more stuff and yk learn to hide it better) which again has to be#voluntary it isn’t gonna work if u force someone to do smthn they don’t want to like as ur friend u could’ve made it clear u care abt her#and wouldn’t judge her for anything and r here if she wants to talk don’t just say “you have to talk to me” and casually threaten#hospitalisation when she isn’t ready in the moment like seriously if this wasn’t a badly written fanfic she would completely stop trusting#bcz given that this wasn’t even done out of panic i would like ffs u are NOT doing any of this right#oops sorry ranted abt the bad fic in my tags-#it’s not where the author’ll see it and know it’s about them i don’t feel bad abt it#this was my first time even looking at stuff for this fandom so#cw self harm in tags#idk if i need to tag anything else for that 😭#fanfic#ao3#ryan shut the fuck up
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eldest daughter syndrome really do be kicking my ass tbh
#i just find it like so unfair yknow#im the only one who works in myhouse and full time#but i come home and the house isnt clean and i tidy up and sort everything out and tidy the kitchen anf living room after dinner and put#my sister to bed and yk if there was no one else to do these things id understand but#i have 5 brothers all of whom are adults and they dont lift a finger#its not as if any of them work bec they dont and neither does my dad#and im so so so exhausted yk? bec not everything is my job or responsibility#and i keep blaming other things for me getting sick but yknow what maybe i just dont rest enough#and the other day i was upset bec i'd had a tough day at work and i felt unwell and i cleaned up everything after dinner and my brother#said i didnt have a right to be upset bec i “chose” this. like as if i chose to work full time nd do all the chores for a family of 9#and it just really upsets me bec no one sees an issue with it and im so mad at my mom at rhe same time#constant therapy sessions w her bec shes mad at my dad and wants someone to vent at and then he does the same abt her and my brothers#and im so tired yknow just sososos tired bec she'll complain abt how they dont do anything but then she wont ensure they do either#its just empty complaints whereas she thrust responsibility on me when i was 9 and yet my brothers are 18+ - all but one that is and they#cant even do their own laundry bec she just..... did everything for them all the time but now is mad that they cant do anything.#like yes i know my dad is a failure of a husband and a father i expected that i'll never be a good enough daughter for him and that the onl#thing he has to say about me is that im bringing shame on our family despite everything ive done but come on#im just tired and upset#its hard not to see yourself as a robot or machine when theres little room to be anything else.#and even on a day like today when i dont feel well it never stops and i just keep doing#im sad i want a hug from my gangster bf#oh god i am sorry pls do not perceive me for this#and yk what#thats why i cant stand when people are nice to me bec all i can think of is#i havent done anything to deserve this? i should have to give something in return#or if not#theres something this person must want because why else would they be nice to me when i havent done anything for them#i cannot fathom the concept that someone just wants me because its me#its literally just not possible why would anyone fo that for me
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Soon im rly gonna do it
#🕸️#sui mention#< in the tags tho cuz it feels nicer to talk abt this in tags than in the post itself cuz to me posts are like talking normally but tags are#like whispering? talking you can tune out if you want but whispering is rather more voluntary to say it doesnt matter however#every single year passes and i wish i didnt live in each and every one of them i feel disconnected dissatisfied empty disappointed every day#it can be a small part of a day or a bigger but its still there clenching onto me like and never letting go im tired of it theres always a#wall between me and otyer ppl im unsure if i put it there or was it put there by other ppl but its there and even if anyone tries to reach#into it do i understand how even if close are we really far away it makes me understand just how much of an abnormality i am and how much i#cant ever be like them no matter how much i try and climb and crawl until i bleed its exhausting its maddening#almost everything i do is shaped by spite i wear one bracelet for years out of spite i dont smoke out of spite i dont shave my hands not#only because im normal abt body hair but also out of spite the more i know ppl the spiteful i get only way for me to truly like someone is#to keep them at a lenght outside that wall if they get in then theres only two choices for them to dislike me or even hate my entire being#or me to shove them back out without ever letting them get in#coworkers say im a nice kind person but im not its all just a facade to make my life easier and to suit myself im hateful but i dont believe#its entirely my fault after all they will to my face make fun of. laugh at. and hate everything of me they would see in other ppl that dont#hide it deep within like i do and then it rly hits me how different abnormal foul disgusting and unnatural i am#im hit with his every talk that goes on too long every word that keeps going every touch every expression every comment made on my behalf#its exhausting to live this way i fear im near my limit i havent reached it but who knows when i will#i sometimes dream of doing it and leaving behind a note wishing nothing but painful suffering to everyone i ever knew irl but i dont want to#do that to my best friends and my dog but who knows how long its left before the thread breaks#thats all like comment and subscribe if you personally would do me a favor by taking me out back and shooting me
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trying to fall back to sleep but i can’t stop thinking about this message
#r#keep#i don’t even know how to reply to it#so much of this is just. everything i’ve wanted to impart#i feel like crying………#i’m just really not used to ppl actually caring abt the things i have to say to this extent#like someone really cares abt them…………………..#i’m so tired so of course i’m influenced by that but yeah. i’m weepy#fiery red and cozy oranges 😞🧡🧡🧡#‘try not to eat the other party’ <- the teaching the dog not to nip guy#‘and matthias is chattering teeth’ <- teeth frozen over#minecraft /kill#‘theo is always cliff ready’ GODDDDDDDDDDD LIKE I FEEL UNWELL.#the birthday cake part……. descent by flower face as one of the first songs in theo’s playlist#like i’m so serious#i really. like my eyes are hot#i could just cry#‘MAYBE ANGRY’ GUTS ME. YEAH… YEAH
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hi ive been sick so of course that means ive been thinking about kaeya being sick and sooo pathetic about it again
#crow.txt#kaeluc#genshin#snippets#fluff#slowly chipping away at this even more. Ugh#tbh the bulk of this was written like. last night and just now. i was letting the thoughts microwave with my weird intermittent fever#literally got two vaccines at once and got attacked by a secret third thing (the common cold for the first time in like 4 years)#it was somehow the best week i couldve picked to just COMPLETELY miss work apparently so its fine i guess#sidebote dont try to do taxes while sick. i didnt end up completing them but it was funny i even thought i was capable#is this comprehensivle is this legible idk i just want to make kaeya be miserable and forced to let someone take care of him abt it#that is soup for Me. in my Soul.#kaeya be like 'wtf treating me like a little kid' when he said he wanted to be taken care of in the summer event like 2 yrs ago#other people may have forgotten but i have Not i will Never. this man will complain about having adult responsibilities#and then when someone tries to take care of him or do things for him out of kindness hes like HAHA WAIT NOW HOLD ON-#little fool make up your mind. why are you so everything always#kaeya be like relying on someone for something under no guise of professional matters? in MY life? i dont think so#(diluc jean lisa and rosaria will remember this (and not let him get away with it))#and klee too but like shes little baby she doesnt even understand any of this and he would feel extremely mean rejecting kindness from#a little kid. so sometimes she brings him her funny little toast for breakfast and he says awwww thank you :)
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everything always peaks me. then im on the other side, see so much hostility, just as bad as what peaked me, and its like nvm. damn. oscillation at its finest.....
#i made a post like this before but i fell into a very bad trap where i just ranted about “both sides” and thats never really helpful#i think there is just a lot of “us VS them” in this world. no one is ever willing to hear others out. they just look at characteristics#of yours and make broad assumptions about you.#i dont know. i feel like everyone in my generation is so willing to jump for your throat these days for different opinions#its their right of course; but i dont know. its like if you have even a slightly different opinion on something; you cant discuss it 2gethe#i want to meet some other fellow normies man; idk#and i say that as someone who isnt really “normal” in most peoples eyes#but i can chill and talk with ppl who have diff opinions from me as long as... they arent super hostile and think in black&white...#mostly feminism and lgbt stuff im talking abt here but yeah. i just want this world to be safe for women & lgbt+ folks yknow#i base a lot of my opinions on that#im trying to just. not care anymore. im just a human at the end of the day and so is everyone else#everything feels so black and white. i just want to belong somewhere. i dont know.#my parts all have different opinions on things so i never have a stable stance on anything#i just try to have compassion and reduce my cognitive dissonance as much as possible#that led me to veganism. lgbt rights. feminism. but even within these groups there is so much hate and fighting#i cant pretend i dont fall into the black and white thinking but i always actively try to challenge it#i tell myself: the world is not out to get you. but why does it feel like it is? clearly everyone else feels like that too
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Man I love my friend but they all need theraphy so bad
#ignorelist#but i doubt theraphy will help them that much#like i said sometimes ago#sometime therapist kinda sucks#I really wanted to help them but im bad at talking so im like always in the sideline#sorry its just they’ve been very very on edge and i kinda worry abt them#and it seems like no one irl is helping them#mainly because they have shit family and shit people irl in general#and to add i dont mean theraphy as in it will fix them#im just saying they need someone to hold on for them#and for me i cannot do that because i’am not a great listener and v v bad at talking and i feel like i would just make everything worse
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gonna be an insane yearner in the tags i think
#d#all i rly wanna say is just like. fuck. men are so god damn gorgeous#like i'm sorry but they get to look like THAT and i'm 'yikes' for liking them...?#like i'm ngl i was watching smth earlier and just like#god everything i hated abt masculinity on myself is so appealing on others like#i hated facial hair but now i love guys with it#earlier i was kinda just thinking abt the like texture feel of it and i was just like going insane from anguish likeeee#and their voices... their hands... every little thing is just so perfect#like just. idk i'm lovestruck with them at the moment and i wanna touch them and i want them to touch me god damn it#<- feels like the riskiest thing i've ever said on here but like you know what. i'm right#i'm finally at that point in my transition where i feel comfortable enough with myself to let someone else know me in that way#and as such i am like rapidly remembering how lonely and touch starved i am and certain guys atm are just like. a safe haven atm#i guess like a reminder that men like them do exist. there Are still people this unimaginably beautiful out there#i genuinely have to just look away sometimes bc i'm just overwhelmed by them like. ugh#in short i am a mess what else is new#sorry for mask off yearning posting on main but idgaf anymore#i am going to bed now (5am) and i'm putting down my phone so i can't be embarrassed abt this post until i get up later 🫡#maybe if i try hard enough i can force a simulacrum of intimacy into my dreams. as a substitute for the real thing#(it probably won't work but i gotta try y'know)
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ugh. idk.
#my dad walked into my room in the place were staying brought me dinner which like. idk it was a nice thing like. out of context ig yk#but like idk this whole time iv been nervous and kinda unable to relax bc iv been worried abt ppl potentially seeing my screen#bc like thers a huge window to the outside area in one wall and all the other ones if i sat with my back against them#someone could see it if they walked into the room so iv just been hoping this somewhat flimsy curtain covers me#and no one goes to close to the window to see what im doing#bc if someone saw my screen esp a parent id be dead#so like. i was just like "look i can get the food myself when im hungry'#and he just got obviously really angry and put the food on my bedside table and just left#and like. ik that was a rude thing for me to say and i tired not to say it in a rude way but ik i did#like just. idk i just got kinda rly scared and wanted him to leave the room and have just been so annoyed this whole time with everything#and like. idk i was scared both bc i didnt wnat him to see my screen and bc of like. actuall trauma issues i have lolz#which both of which are his fault so like. idk like im not fully in the wrong here ig but idk#i still feel bad and also like. idk idk#iv justk inda been feeling like and awful daughter and a dissapointment on and of all day. ig bc i am objectivly#and i just got upset with my sibling when they tried talking to me. idk i think i just suck. idk#whatever. im just so sick of. idk#flappy rambles#vent
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going to the store was so worth it i got to say hi to the little (3 months old iirc?) puppy again and this rlly nice smooth collie .. owner was like "they can tell u like dogs!" Fuck man i sure do
#many tags read at ur own risk vvv#some lady at the store thought i was trying to walk out without paying and i was feeling insulted bc rlly if i had been stealing u wouldnt#even know. im not that stupid 😭#but those dogs made everything better <3#there was a small terrier w the collie too but at 1st the owner was like oops sorry#when it went towards me. nd then i got distracted by the other dog#and im like Please dont apologize u have no idea how much i like dogs.#ugggh the puppy is so cute too this is the 3rd time i get to say hi :'] gave me kisses#owner said that ill have to go first bc otherwise.. (we'd be there all day) LOL. i personally wouldnt mind#rlly my biggest concern w ppl's dogs is being sure that im not bothering either of them#bc every time if someone talks 2 me i have to say i dont understand finnish and hope they speak english. so i dnt want to be in a situation#where someone actually doesnt want me to greet their dog 4 any reason. yknow#and i dnt understand that right away and look like an asshole. orz. hasnt happened nd hope it wont but i try to be cautious#but that aside i would say hi and pet nd ask abt every dog i see.#maybe not every. i do have my preferences (biased towards big dogs <3) but u get the idea#i need to stop talking sorry im autistic. i could reach tag limit if i kept going
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Happy Valentines Day!! 💝 I hope you spend the day being haunted by someone you love 👻 (or if you're like me, just eating a lot of heart-shaped candy)
Poll:
#I really REALLY wanted to make a little video for valetines day but I ran out of time 🥲#maybe I'll do something late over the long weekend#for now I offer you my hot takes that absolutely nobody asked for:#the Arondekars- LOVE LOVE THEM. they're everything. just like wwdits‚ the married couple is my favorite ship. idk what this says abt me#Isaac/Nigel- I think they're really sweet!! I don't think I'm as into them as some people but I do like them a lot#the concept alone is so charming and it's a choice that establishes the show a bit from the original that I think works really well#Isaac's awkwardness and hesitancy to move things forward is SO relatable to my experience as a baby lesbian and I find it really endearing#Flower/Thorfinn- I'm not super into them I'm sorry 😭 I don't hate it but I also don't really feel the chemistry#although maybe this week's episode will change my mind!!#Pete/Alberta- oughh I didn't realize how much I loved their dynamic until I thought about it more#their opposites attract kind of thing is really cute‚ with Alberta helping Pete step out of his comfort zone#and alberta knowing she deserves someone a bit more stable who will treat her better than she was in life (she already knew this but still)#it's a shame bc they're probably the couple with the least chance of getting together 😭#Sasappis/Shiki- unfortunately there's not much they can really do :') however sass' shiki tree was adorable. what a dork#Sass/Jessica- cute while they lasted!! they weren't able to spend a ton of time on their relationship but it brought out a different side#of Sass that was fun to watch#Hetty/Trevor- absolutely hilarious. I never knew I needed it. I don't ship them in a capital r Romantic way but their chemistry is great#I'd rather see it stay just a fling tbh. also when the other ghosts find out it's going to be SO juicy I can't wait#last one- I really don't want to see the entire house coupled off. The ships are fun but also the friendships between the ghosts and how#they function as a group is the real heart of the show for me I don't want that to get lost. I don't think it's impossible to balance both#so it's ultimately just a personal preference 🤷♀️#wow I didn't realize i had so much to say about this aksjsk#anyway. my prediction for this poll is a close race between isaac/nigel and h-money#cbs ghosts
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me, afraid to develop a benzo addiction so doesn’t take any of my prescribed clonazepam for >1yr : eek!!😨😰no thx!!😓😓
me, 1 year of worsening escapist behavior + 6.5mg klonopin later: now THIS is the shit im talkin bout😎😎🤤🤤
#IM NOT CONDONING DRUG ABUSE PLSSS TAKE UR PRESCRIPTIONS AS PRESCRIBED!!#benzodiazepines are only rlly addictive if the person starts abusing them. not if ur taking them as prescribed#also i can’t just keep doing this on the regular degular ok this was a blip in the simulation#i just had an awful spiraling start to my day at 6am and just wanted to sleep away the pain of realizing i’ll never have my mom again#everything i wanted someone to feel abt me everything i wanted them to say that they love me that they’re proud that they’re going to miss#i was so desperate to be comforted i even left my room and went up to my dad before he left for work and he didn’t even notice the tears#then the waterworks started and my dad finally hugged me against his chest#i felt so small like a child 22 year old me jsut wanted to be comforted by her dad like#like a child all over again#but ik i had to get it together i couldn’t be a child forever so i let go#i went back to my room n i couldn’t qualm the sobbing abandoned child within i couldn’t give her her mom back#all i could do to make this anxiety this pain this desire to see her again right now now now.#all i could do was take my anxiolytic and hope it put me to sleep. just for a little while#i only wanted to sleep for just a little while until the storm passed and i woke up n forgot what it feels like to miss my momma#she wrote her last letter to me and i spiraled at her words#‘i’m really going to miss YOU’ as i tell myself over and over i don’t rlly miss her i’m numb to her absence#‘ our coffee dates. car rides. shopping’ i don’t remember any of those things not clearly at least#’sitting in the couch together holding your hand while running my fingers through all that hair of yours’#that’s all i want . someone to run their fingers through my hair. but she’s not here anymore no one wants to love me like she did#‘you know your self worth like i taught you when you were just an itty bitty little baby’#how would she feel now if she knew my self worth was 0 it’s nothing i’m worthless i’m alive to be used n abused i’m not worth anythin#not worth anything good#i always thought she was my best friend. in her letter she said i was her best friend .i always thought my feelings were one sided. but no#she said she’d look at me and it was like looking into a mirror#now when i look into a mirror i don’t recognize the reflection they’re a stranger to me#was she my mirror too??? and now that she’s gone i don’t know who i am anymore????#if she’s gone i might as well be gone too#these awful thoughts needed to stop i needed to sleep so i took 12x the amt im supposed to#it’s not gonna happen again. but i won’t lie it was nice while it lasted#ramblings
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i’ve had this extra shitty feeling lingering over me all semester and it’s doing such a fantastic job at getting the best of me. my friend group since the first year keeps proving time and time again they care more about each other even when i go out of my way to make sure they’re alright and make sure everybody else avoids things that would upset others. feelings get hurt a lot otherwise. a few nights back i took my a few of my friends out to eat and pay for part of their meals (context: my dad’s boss gets tipped through gift cards sometimes and he gave me a few so it wasn’t exactly out of my pocket). i told my best friend i haven’t been really been feeling my best so to take it easy on me since our other two friends have been deeply upsetting me all week by saying genuinely hurtful shit. and then in the middle of a very stressful meal he started telling me about how his sister’s boyfriend was saying weird shit abt me and her boyfriend doesn’t like me (i have never had a proper conversation with either one of these people) and i ended up fucking bawling lmfaoooo. i guess my friends froze because i’m the “tough friend” so i’m not allowed to cry but it ended up with in me comforting them which is so odd? i get not everyone you encounter will be your #1 fan but if someone pulls you aside and says hey man i haven’t been feeling great lately why would you say that at that time ??? lmfao
(goes without saying but d-on.t r.-b pls)
#had to censor that bcuz people will specifically do otherwise if you don’t#sorry for venting on main i just feel so alone#one of my friends is very sensitive to music in restaurants so half the meal i had to worry about finding someone who could lower it#i’m not even this drastic people pleaser i just hate seeing people distressed#and it’s so funny because a couple days prior we all had a talk abt not having to tell people everything others say abt them#one of my friend’s toxic exes was saying SUPER weird shit about all of us without even getting to know us and she randomly told us all of#-it#in the middle of hanging out#that didn’t get me as much as this did. bcuz like i said. i didn’t want to go already and talked to him in advance#i’m not looking for pity. just wanna get it out so maybe i stop thinking about it#health wise i have not been doing great and i probably need surgery so everything else is stressing me out so much more because of that#i need a new group because this isn’t the first time this happened#thanks for reading if you did and sorry about typos#💋.txt#if this all sounds bitchy and complainy. my bad#my friends have a history of doing things without me that i have planned when i have literally been in the hospital LOL#no one needs to revolve their life around me. just me and acknowledge me#i feel like i sound really annoying but w/e ig#there are probably better more accurate ways to describe what i mean but 🤷
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I’m so oblivious like does this person I know have a crush on me or not??? And LIKE WHY DO I WANT THEM NOT TO LMFAO
I had this friend since hs, I used to have a crush on him but I won’t rlly get into why I lost interest after we graduated but it was more bc he wasn’t my type
We have eachothers socials and he would interact like a few times a month as he doesn’t rlly use twt but for the past month I noticed he was interacting a few times a week, and I’m not sure why?? does he genuinely want to get to know me or what? I mean he knows my interests but honestly I just don’t feel interested in a close friendship, we don’t have much similar interests plus we never get into like deeper convos
but like I’m so conflicted 😭😭😭
we’re irls and we had a discord call like a few days ago and he accidentally made a remark that sounded flirtatious towards me, another friend pointed it out and he was like no no no or something idk 😭😭 I didn’t rlly say anything tho
#not rlly a vent but kinda#I hear ppl say shit abt like cishet men being friends with other women in hope of dating. I’m not sure how true that is#but I def hear other woman mention that#am i feeling conflicted bc I don’t want that to happen to me#like if it did I would feel like everything was a waste of time#also#if someone rlly was interested in me like that I know they’d be disappointed#I’m not perfect#nobody is#I’d hate to let them down#honestly he’s the only person I feel this way abt#never with anyone else#UGH ANXIETY SUCKS#listen sometimes I fantasize abt dating someone#I’m asexual btw I feel romantic attraction#honestly ik I’m attracted to men but I’m not sure how I feel abt women#honestly I don’t even mind the thought of dating another woman#but I don’t feel ready for a relationship
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