#fell asleep at 19:00

[on-my-way-to-the-woods]

Did F buy houseplants before we got any kind of furniture? Yes

Did I expect anything less of her? No

[jymwahuwu]

-cw: yandere, non-con, forced overstimulation, harassment, breaking into your home

The actual record of dating General Jing Yuan:

(everything below is automatically recorded by the system set up by the general)

4:00 am Jing Yuan pointed out that you will have a date today.

4:00 am You are woken up by the sound of a message.

4:01 am You frowned, checked the message, and replied "wtf it's bedtime".

4:05 am You fell asleep again.

9:45 am Had breakfast.

10:00 am The electronic door lock automatically opened. Jing Yuan stepped in with a "^_^" expression.

10:01 am You: “Can you stop breaking into my house all the time?”

10:02 am Showed you that message. You are speechless.

11:00 am The romantic date begins!!

11:15 am Visited the Space Animal Sanctuary and watched the adorable and special animals together.

11:20 am the baby bird trembled and walked towards Jing Yuan and pecked the back of his hand with its beak. You think nothing can be cuter than this.

11:45 am you curiously fed the sheep that could predict the future destiny of life. This animal looks like a sheep.

11:46 am A 💭 floated out of the sheep’s head:

Love Trend: Dating the one who likes you will guarantee your eternal relationship.

11:47 am You are shocked. Jing Yuan chuckled and stroked the sheep's head.

12:15 pm Jing Yuan purchased two commemorative keychains. He said the two keychains commemorated the romantic date.

12:16 pm Jing Yuan attached one of the keychains to your backpack/bag, etc.

13:00 pm Had a romantic date in a restaurant with a view of the Milky Way.

14:02 pm Jing Yuan offered to go home and fuck you, using an affectionate tone. Your fingers holding the door were pried open one by one, and you were pulled onto the spaceship.

15:12 pm Back to your apartment!! Jing Yuan kissed you and put you on his arm with one hand, burning off the calories from the meal just now.

15:20 pm You were forced to spread your legs on the sofa, and Jing Yuan buried his head between your legs, or twitched with his fingers, and occasionally said something embarrassing to you. You pushed his hair.

16:05 pm You can’t remember how many times you’ve had an orgasm. Consciousness began to drift away.

17:00 pm Lubricate the cock head with the petals, teasing you on the outside for five minutes before hitting bottom. "Ah…!! ❤"

18:15 pm You start to think about why Jing Yuan’s staying power is so terrible. Is this the secret of long-life species?

19:00 pm You're lying on the bed, panting, tongue sticking out. The fertile semen inside flowed out like a quiet stream.

19:01 pm Jing Yuan resisted the urge to lift your legs and thrust into you again. Look at your lovely face.

19:04 pm Conclusion: Your cuteness transcends the laws of the world.

19:10 pm Kissed you on the cheek, put one of his hands on your breasts, and hugged you to sleep naked.

[allywthsr]

THE SONG OF OUR LOVE | (h. lewis)

summary: a normal day in the Wroetoshaw household

wordcount: 2.1k words

pairing: harrylewis x singer!reader

warnings: none

notes: first imagine! please be nice and comment your thoughts! The song Y/N is writing is : all 4 nothing by lauv :)

On this surprisingly warm Tuesday morning, you woke up at around 9:00 am. Despite having an early studio session, which didn’t start before 11:00 am, you decided to get up early.

Your boyfriend of eight years is still sound asleep on your shared bed.

The cutest little snores came out of his slightly opened mouth.

You looked into the mirror you had put up on the wall, seeing your T-shirt, well, Harry’s T-shirt, an old Sidemen merch you pulled out of the other side of the closet a few days ago. And an old pair of shorts you bought from your favorite shop when you first moved to London.

On your tiptoes, you sneak out of your bedroom trying not to wake up your favorite person.

You had this song idea stuck in your head and you needed to write it down or record it somehow. Thinking of the recording app you had installed on your phone, you went to your home studio, which the boys of your crew had set up for you.

You opened the door and to the left, all of your guitars were hanging on the wall. Yet your favorite guitar was standing next to the fluffy white couch you picked out for this room. Wanting to have a comfy and nice looking space for when you were creative.

The couch was mostly used by your boyfriend Harry when he was lounging on it while listening to your recording or mostly writing melodies and lyrics.

Across from the couch you had your little setup. A table where you placed your monitor, attached to the table is a microphone which you could move around to any position you‘d like, some noise-canceling headphones were placed on top of the microphone, ready to be picked up. And last but not least, the matching white fluffy chair, where you spend hours and hours trying to write the perfect song.

When you woke up, at around 1:00 am, when Harry went to bed after a little work dinner with Callux, Calfreezy, Chip, and Will (which turned into a ’who can down the most Sambuca shots in 10 seconds‘ challenge), you had this song stuck in your head. You just needed to write it down somehow, too scared that you wouldn’t remember it when you went to the actual studio.

You sat down on your couch and picked up the guitar next to you. Getting your phone out, you opened the recording app and pressed play.

You started to play the guitar quietly trying to play the melody you had stuck in your head.

After finding the right tune you started to hum quietly.

”I‘m so in love, I‘m so in love

I don’t ever wanna stop this ride that we’re on

I don’t ever wanna say goodbye

Then all of these nights they would be just for nothing“

Thinking of Harry, you wrote another love song. This boy is stuck in your head and you can’t seem to get him out of there, not that you wanted to.

The thought of saying goodbye to him made your heart clench. After being in a relationship for a bit longer than eight years and knowing each other since primary school, you couldn’t imagine a life without him.

He was your soulmate, and you were his.

You’ve spent so many nights talking, laughing and just enjoying each other’s presence while both of you had a busy day ahead, often oversleeping in the morning and being late to important meetings, these nights couldn’t be for nothing.

”Third of October

We were never sober

First few times that we hung out

But we fell in love somehow“

Third of October, the day that Harry asked you to be his. It was back in Guernsey. You guys went for a walk and that’s where he asked you.

The first time you hung out with him as in ‘I like him more than a friend‘ was at parties. With him being 19 and you 18, you were allowed to legally drink alcohol and both of you did that. A lot. You don’t remember much, but some of your friends took pictures of you that first night you went out together. It was in July 2015 and you came to London for a visit, Harry insisting to go for a ‘few pints‘. The few pints turned into a few shots and before you realized both of you were peppered.

The picture shows you on a bench near a park as Harry clung to you while you were trying to hold your puke in.

Not one of your greatest moments but definitely a key one for your relationship.

After that you started to visit Harry more often in London, always going out to clubs but you guys also had your quiet moments.

Cuddling with a raging hangover after a wild night out. Or playing Mario Kart when you both couldn’t sleep, getting too angry at the other for throwing blue or red shells.

In October he came to Guernsey and that’s where it happened.

”First time that I met you

I didn't have a damn clue

That I love everything about you

Now I can't think of life without you“

The first time you met him was the first day of primary school. You instantly clicked and hit it off perfectly. With playdates, sleepovers, and exploring the island together.

It was clear from the beginning to both of your parents that you would end up together.

You never thought of Harry that way until you turned 16. Suddenly your heart skipped a beat when you saw him, you felt nervous to talk to him and whenever you guys touched, you thought a lightning struck through your body.

Thinking back to that time, brought a smile to your lips, not able to imagine a life without him anymore.

”Eh, did you know that you're my whole heart?

Eh, did you know that I never stop? No

Giving you everything I got 'cause I'm so

I'm so in love, I'm so in love“

You couldn’t believe how lucky you were to have Harry by your side. At this point, if he would leave, you would follow him, because he‘s yours and you’re his.

”and then just repeating the beginning and maybe another verse not sure about that yet“

You told basically yourself so you wouldn’t forget what you wanted to do with the rest of the song.

Just as you were about to press the stop recording button, the door to your studio opened and a very sleepy Harry came through it.

”what are you doing? I woke up and you weren’t by my side anymore“

You let out a laugh, ”I had this song idea stuck in my head since you came home. I needed to record it somehow.“

You put the guitar back onto its stand making sure the app was still recording, as you loved putting little extras of talking at the beginnings or endings of songs.

”Oh really? Can I listen to it?“ Harry came closer to you. You stood up and gave him a hug.

”I wanna record a demo in the studio later and then I can show you,“ Harry not being happy with this answer looked at you with a pout on his lips.

You giggled and kissed his lips, which just looked absolutely delicious this morning, with his beard being a bit longer than usual.

Harry being Harry, tried to deepen the kiss.

”No Harry come on, I have to go to the studio soon and you have meetings and a video shoot later, we don’t have time.“

”I only need five minutes, Y/N please.“

You shake your head and looked at him with your stern look.

Harry let out a sigh.

”Get a girlfriend, they said, it’s going to be fun, they said,“ he looked at you playful.

You slapped his chest, and now it was your turn to pout.

”Harry I‘d love to, but we really have no time. Later, alright? I wanted to ask you something anyway,“ you loosened your arms from the embrace you still shared. ”I wanted to go to Talia later, to talk about recording a song together, do you wanna come? Talia said Simon is going to be there too.“

”Yeah sure,“ he nodded while a grin started to form on his face, ”but if you want to see Mushu, you can just say so, you know. Don’t have to pretend that you want to record with Talia.“

You looked at him offended. You loved Mushu, ever since T and Simon got him, you‘ve been nagging Harry to get a dog. He‘s still refusing, constantly reminding you what happened to Herb. Your argument, that you both were practically kids and weren’t even able to take care of yourself when you got little Herb, does not convince Harry in any way.

”I love my Talia and we‘ve talking about recording music together for ages now. Even thought about making a whole album and just call it ’the sidewomen‘ to get more money, you know using your name and stuff,“ you grinned at him. ”But yeah, Mushu is also a reason I wanna go there,“ now changing into your baby voice, ”I mean have you seen that sweet fluffy face? He’s a furball, how can you not love him?“ A smile appears on your face just at the thought of Mushu and his incredibly soft fur.

”You know, sometimes I‘m scared you will leave me for a dog,“ Harry voiced his concern.

”Maybe you should start barking before I actually do.“

”I love you, Y/N, I really do.“

Your heart forms into a puddle and the pout appears on your lips again.

”I love you too, you’re the sweetest.“

You shared a kiss, as Harry’s hand connected with your right ass cheek, creating a loud slap sound.

”HARRY,“ you let out a shriek.

”I would love you even more if you would finally join me in the bedroom again.“

A grin appears on your face.

”Alright, but we really have no time. Let me just save the recording and then I‘ll come.“

With Harry leaving the room, you turned around and walked to your phone which still lays on the couch, where you left it.

You pressed the button, to stop recording. With a smile you saved it, making sure you could hear Harry and you talking, as you knew what to put at the end of the song you just recorded.

Taking your phone with you, you walked to the bedroom where Harry was waiting for you.

/////////////////////

When you and Harry both returned from the duties you had for the day, it was around 4:00 pm. You’ve been in the studio all day, recording the song you thought of this morning.

And Harry had a recording session with the boys for more Sidemen and Side+.

You’ve been excited all the time you’ve spent in the studio to finally show Harry the new song.

With Harry lounging on the couch, typing away on his phone, as you walked through the door of your living room, you couldn’t wait to be in his arms again.

You threw yourself on top of him. Harry immediately put his arms around you and squeezing you close. With your head propped up on his chest and the perfect view of his face, you couldn’t believe he was yours.

”Hiya“, you smiled at him, looking into his eyes.

”Hey there“, he smiled back at you, as he started to rub his hands up and down your back.

”I have the first demo version of the new song I started on today, you wanna listen to it?“

Before he answered, he moved your legs on both sides of his and sitting up straight, so you sat on his lap.

”What a question, of course Y/N. Show me right now.“

You giggled at his serious expression and pulled out your phone where the producer of the studio saved one of the versions.

”But have in mind, this is only a demo version, it’s not perfect and still a lot is missing.“

”As if I care, just show me.“

You selected the file of the final demo version and clicked play. Turning up the volume a bit more and your voice filled the room.

”I'm so in love…“

After the last chorus was played Harry wanted to start talking, but you only placed your index finger on his lips to shush him.

Harry looked at you confused with a tilted head, curious what’s gonna come after the song was finished and then he heard his own voice.

”You know, sometimes I‘m scared you will leave me for a dog.“

”Maybe you should start barking before I actually do.“

”I love you, Y/N, I really do.“

”I love you too, you’re the sweetest.“

[octuscle]

Hello Sir! I know you can help me with my problem. Soon new year, and in new year I want become big brut hairy bear, with bald head. I ready pay any price for it. Can you help me in this question?

You couldn't necessarily tell by looking at Liam. But he was already 19 years old. He constantly had to show his ID. He was annoyed. At least he wasn't ugly. On the contrary. He had hundreds of followers on TikTok. But most of them thought he was a kid. No one believed that he had finished school and wanted to start training as a draughtsman the following year. When he asked a construction company for an internship until then, they told him that they didn't accept underage trainees.

"Guys, how old do you think I am? And what can I do to be thought of as older?" Liam added to his new pic. Comments poured in. bears_and_boys_1982 sent him a link. Looked interesting. Probably something similar to FaceApp, Liam thought. He downloaded the app. And nothing happened. One of his buddies had replied that he should meet them for a cigarette and a beer at the bus stop. If he smoked enough, he would soon look older too. Liam laughed, put on his fake Moncler jacket and set off to meet his mates.

It was already after 11 p.m. and Liam was just about to turn out the lights when his cell phone beeped. "Installation complete, defining profile" was on the display. What the hell? Ah, the app from the bear and boy guy, Liam remembered. Let's see. It really was something similar to FaceApp. And it seemed to be free. You could capture a whole range of things. Age, occupation, hobbies, weight, height. Liam played around a bit. But it was awkward to use, the interfaces were old-fashioned, and there were no pictures or graphics anywhere. Liam lost the fun pretty quickly. He was also tired. He locked the phone, put it on the bedside table, turned off the light and soon fell asleep. The cell phone buzzed a few times during the night. Messages lit up. "Settings saved", "Target defined" and finally "Transformation started". After that, there was silence. Until the alarm clock rang at 04:30.

Quietly, so as not to wake his parents, Liam went to the bathroom. This internship was exhausting, but also fun. He was assigned to the bricklayers. Actually, he would have preferred to do something in the office on the computer. But his colleagues were nice and he had the feeling that working in the fresh air was good for him. Showering before work was silly. Liam sprayed some Axe under his arms, brushed his teeth and set off. The bus always picked him up at 05:00 and drove him to the construction site with the other colleagues.

After work, Liam drove back to his parents' house. His father needed help building the new carport. In other words, Liam was supposed to build a new carport. Initially, Liam's parents had grumbled that Liam didn't want to study, but only wanted to be a craftsman. Nowadays, the two wizened academics were happy that at least one of the family knew how to work. Before it got dark, Liam prepared the concrete for the foundations, dug the holes for the foundations, built the formwork and poured the foundations for the carport. Tomorrow he would install the support beams. Liam declined his mother's offer to stay for dinner. He had an appointment with a few colleagues for a beer. And even though the work had been exhausting enough, he would still like to go to the gym for an hour beforehand. He was increasingly developing a paunch from too much beer and too much junk food.

Life on the construction site was a man's world. The containers were small and stuffy. Especially for a colossus like Liam. The bunk bed, where Liam slept downstairs for safety reasons, was hardly more spacious than in a submarine. The air reeked of sweat, beer and male farts. But mostly also of cum and testosterone. Liam loved this world. He was almost always sorry to go back home at the weekend. Here there was always the opportunity for a quick fuck or a blowjob, just like tonight in the shower room. The apprentice looked almost greedily at Liam's fat, cheesy and uncut cock. It didn't matter whether colleagues were about to join him. At best, an orgy would develop.

The weekend at last. Liam had been a foreman on the construction site for a long time, but his boss still called him home at weekends to do smaller jobs. Hehehe, Liam knew what these tasks were. As a rule, his boss's wife wasn't at home on weekends like that. The boss would then cover the beds with the leather sheets that he hid from his wife in the tool shed and Liam would then fuck him on the sheets, in the hot tub or on the kitchen table.

He always felt a little uncomfortable in his boss's house. He hated the pictures of that princess who died a hundred years ago hanging at the shithouse. And he constantly had to be careful not to lose any of his body hair or beard, which could make his boss's wife suspicious. And Liam was constantly losing hair everywhere. Especially from his head. But Liam also didn't give a shit about his boss's problems. There was a good commission for the weekend work. And there was also commission if he pissed standing up and didn't lift up the toilet seat or if he shot his cum on the carpet while he was cumming. The rest wasn't his problem. By the time his boss's wife came back from the yoga weekend, he was long back in his man cave. With a bit of luck, with the hot apprentice's head between his thighs.

Pic of the former Liam found @toughukladz and pic of the current Liam found @eurobeef

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Live Surgery Room (手术直播间) - Whump List

Whumpees : Su Yun played by Dai Xu and Zheng Ren played by Vin Zhang

Synopsis : Zhen Ren is a surgeon who succeeded in achieving his father's dying wish. With the help of ER director Pan, he joined Haicheng Hospital. Zheng Ren devoted everything to being a doctor, and his skills caught the attention of genius doctor Su Yun, who began to study Zheng Ren's methods. Su Yun comes to accept and admire Zheng Ren as a colleague. In order to treat a case of conjoined twins with arrhythmia, Zheng Ren and Su Yun join hands to form a team formed by a group of medical professionals (MDL)

Genres : Medical, Drama, Bromance

Warning! Possible spoilers below!

Su Yun

Ep 1-2 : None

Ep 3 : (26:20) Hand shaking

Ep 4 (36:40) Hand shaking, recalling painful memories

Ep 5 : None

Ep 6 : (32:15) Passes out drunk — (34:30) Brought to the hospital in an ambulance because he drank too much 

Ep 7-8 : None

Ep 9 : (49:35) Hands shaking

Ep 10 : None

Ep 11 : (31:25) Talking with Zheng Ren about his shaky hand and the fact that he can’t operate anymore, teary-eyed

Ep 12 : (40:25) Passed out (off screen) after working a lot, unconscious on a couch, concern for him, given medicine by Zheng, talking in his sleep

Ep 13 : (05:30) Watching a video of himself fainting (from the previous episode) (semi-comedic)

Ep 14 : None

Ep 15 : (Flashback) (27:10) Worried for his mentor — (Present) (27:30) Crying, hand shaking 

Ep 16 : None

Ep 17 : (42:15) Hand shaking

Ep 18 : (04:00) Teary-eyed, crying

Ep 19 : None

Ep 20 : (07:13) Teary-eyed (Just two bros stargazing together with background music)

Ep 21 : (33:20) Caught in the aftershock of an earthquake, running away, building collapses on him, concern for him — (34:35) Unconscious under some rubbles, wakes up coughing (Gif Set), slowly moving, crawling through the rubbles 

Ep 22 : (02:55) Forced to operate even though his hand is still shaking (due to PTSD), drops the scalpel, panicking, crying, hand finally stops shaking — (13:11) Worried for someone, crying, shaky breathing, blaming himself, sobbing — (20:45) Depressed

Ep 23 : (02:25) Faints due to exhaustion — (28:42) Faints due to exhaustion, sleeping on the couch next to Zheng

Ep 24 : (25:10) Scratches on his arm — (28:15) Teary-eyed, crying  

Ep 25-28 : None

Zheng Ren

Ep 1-4 : None

Ep 5 : (19:37) Getting tired during a very long operation, sweating, concern for him, passes out at the end of the operation — (21:33) Wakes up after a nightmare, in a hospital bed with an IV

Ep 6 : None

Ep 7 : (31:40) Emotional, raising his voice, teary-eyed, crying

Ep 8 : (13:41) Sitting on the ground, crying, laying down while holding a picture of his dead father — (19:45) Crying in front of the grave of his parents — (39:35) Teary-eyed

Ep 9 : (12:00) Heart beating fast during a difficult operation, sweating, vision blurry — (25:53) Crying while dreaming

Ep 10-20 : None

Ep 21 : (33:45) Running away from a collapsing building, very worried about Su Yun (You have to hear him scream his name) — (41:00) Digging through the rubbles with his bare hands (super worried for Su Yun) (Gif Set)

Ep 22 : (07:23) Lifting heavy rubbles, worried for Su Yun, wants to jumps down the building to save him, stopped — (10:40) Relieved to see Su Yun alive, teary-eyed (Gif Set) — (16:18) Crying — (37:55) Fell asleep because of exhaustion, brought into the hospital tent on a stretcher, overworked 

Ep 23 : (10:12) Bruises on his back — (27:52) Almost faints due to exhaustion, concern for him, sleeping

Ep 24 : (28:25) Tear-eyed

Ep 25 : (34:00) Missing, friends looking for him, concern for him, shown on camera that he was knocked out and kidnapped — (35:34) Tied up and gagged, wakes up, threatened — (42:00) Sweating after doing cpr for a long time, exhausted, about to faint but caught by Su Yun, concern for him

Ep 26-28 : None

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Short Debts Make Long Friends - Chapter 19 (pt 2) Snippet

He lays stiffly beside you for a few seconds, willing his body to do something. Minus the bulk of his armor, the mattress should feel cavernous, but the walls won’t stop closing in. Should he scoot over? Try to talk to you? You have yet to move.

“Are you asleep?” he finally whispers. 

“No.” Your voice comes from over your shoulder, thin and hollow. “Just…here.”

So he’ll have to go to you, then. 

Steeling himself, Din props himself up on his elbow and edges closer. He has hugged you a number of times by now, and knows how to adjust his arms and torso relative to how you are positioned. This should be no different. It’s the same as hugging, just lying down. 

He makes it as far as hovering a hand's breadth away from your back and can go no further.  

It’s different. It’s so fucking different. If his job is to help you pretend you are home, he’s failed. Whoever had held you in bed before surely knew what they were doing. The only person he’s ever held in bed is Grogu, who preferred to lie sprawled on top of his chest. 

“Are you okay?” 

He jerks, startled. You sound worried – for him.

“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do,” he blurts out. “I don’t know how – how to –”

“How to hold someone?”

Din hopes you hear him nod because if he has to say the answer out loud, he’ll — actually, he doesn’t know what he’ll do, because right now he doesn’t know anything other than he hasn’t felt this mortified since…he doesn’t know that, either, but ‘ever’ isn’t out of the question. 

“Mando?”

“Yes?”

“How new is this for you?”

“...This part’s new,” he says stiltedly. His face is so red that you must feel the heat radiating off his cheeks. “If that’s what you mean.” 

This was a bad idea. This was such a bad idea. You need a steadying presence, not a grown man too overwhelmed to take care of you. He should have given you the sleep strip like you asked for and offered to hold your hand until you fell asleep. He would rather suffer the disappointment of your rejection than the utter stupidity he is experiencing now. 

“Turn toward me,” you instruct, “onto your side.”

“Why?” he asks, alarmed. 

Still taking care not to look over your shoulder, you reach back with a hand, and motion for him to come closer. “I’m going to show you how to hold someone.”

Actual Chapter 19 Pt II will post May 4th :-D MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU, BITCHES.

Short Debts Make Long Friends - An overeducated, underpaid millennial finally gets to go on her first adventure.

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로기완 - My Name is Loh Ki Wan - 2024 - Whump List - 🇰🇷

Whumpee: 로기완 (Loh Ki Wan) played by 송중기 (Song Joong Gi)

Synopsis: Loh Ki Wan is a North Korean defector. He has arrived in the unfamiliar country of Belgium from China because of his mother. He wants to start a new life in the country, but his only hope for him to stay is to receive refugee status from the Belgian government. He then meets Marie. She is a Korean who received Belgian citizenship. Unlike Loh Ki Wan, who came to Belgium to live a new life, Marie doesn't have a reason to live. They have an unpleasant first meeting but fall in love with each other. (MDL)

Genre/Tags: Refugee, Survival, Romance, Collapse, Drugged, Constant Emotional & Physical Whump

Watch On: Netflix (Original), DramaCool, KissAsian

⚠️Caution: this film contains a couple s**cide attempts as well as a few mentions of the topic)⚠️

WARNING: THERE ARE SPOILERS BELOW

0:56 - stressed, bloody hands, exhausted

13:08 - coughing

15:53 - asleep in the hall

17:16 - freezing, having to sleep in a public bathroom, curling in on himself

18:30 - throwing up

21:28 - scared, repeatedly kicked, robbed, stumbling, freezing, fell into cold water, collapsed, shaking, heavy breathing, bloody face

24:20 - (flashbacks: scared, chased, found his mother dead)

28:00 - asleep, robbed

28:40 - anxious, emotional, angry, crying, (flashbacks: told his uncle sold his mother’s body, crying), trying to commit s**cide, stopped, fought, manhandled, slapped, scolded, held, trying to clean her blood off of the asphalt, stressed, bloody hands, exhausted, crying, sobbing, grieving)

41:29 - desperate, fought, grabbed, thrown

49:20 - trapped in a walk-in, anxious, semi scolded

1:10:42 - harassed, thrown, fell

1:13:12 - asleep in a cell

1:16:00 - upset, scared, crying, begging to know why he was betrayed

1:19:36 - semi stumbling, holding his wounded hand, using a wall for support, concerned for someone

1:30:09 - stopping someone from hurting themselves, bloody hand

1:30:35 - concerned for someone, scared, bloody hand, taking drugs to stop someone else from doing it, collapsed, shaking, concern for him, coughing up liquid, asleep, pale, concern for him, barely conscious, struggling to speak

1:37:30 - traumatic past reveal, comforted, held while he cried

1:46:53 - concerned for someone, grabbed, thrown, kicked, fought, kicked in the ribs, fell, grabbed, strangled, attacked with a knife, concerned for someone, covered in blood, shaking

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Side note/translation note: The title I’m seeing on Netflix (my Netflix language is set to Korean) is just “Loh Ki Wan” However tbh the English title fits the story better. (If you watch the whole thing then you’ll see why)

[zeeohoh]

OBX RAFE SMUT | MINORS DNI !

Tags : arguing, toxic!rafe, reader has female anatomy, oral, oral smut, slight fluff at the end(?).

A/N : NOT PROOF READ.

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Rafe had been avoiding you for weeks now, his work, his dad, his friends, he has a million excuses to not see you, and you've finally had enough.

You were sat on your bed, watching Notting Hill, you had seen this movie a million times but hey, it's your favourite, you can never have enough.

It's a 21:00 on a Saturday, you were *supposed* to see Rafe, or at least, you had hoped you would, he's been blowing you off for weeks now, you guys had been going out for a few weeks but not everyone knew, and it would've been hard for anyone to believe it either because of how he treated you when you were around people you knew, it was like the better and comfortable you felt with him, the terrible he made you feel in public, in simple terms, he treated you like shit, Absolute. Pure. Shit. As if you're some fuck toy or something to help distract him and you only meant something to him when his body was on yours. You didn't entirely feel this way, he seemed to genuinely have feelings for you but his actions said otherwise, so you stopped, or you would've just been delusional. Tired of wanting him to treat you like an actual human being and tired of wrecking your brain over being torn because you felt he had feelings for you but he acted like you mean nothing, and treating you like a nobody, you grab your phone and block him, his number, his instagram, anywhere you have him on your phone, you block him, throw your phone on your pillow and continue playing the movie.

02:19 *ring* *ring*

Your eyes flutter open as you realize you fell asleep watching the movie, you're broken out of yours thoughts as you realize what woke you up in the first place, your front door bell ringing.

Who the fuck is at my door at 2 in the damn morning?

You get off your bed, quickly grab your robe and a baseball bat you kept by the shoe rack and peek through the keyhole, it was hard to make out who it was because of the rain, but you recognised the familiar silhouette of a certain Cameron. You sigh and open the door.

"What the fuck Rafe? Look at the time"

"I couldn't reach you anywhere, you wouldn't answer my calls, my texts wouldn't send, what else was I supposed to fucking do? You cut me off everywhere Y/N"

"Just..get inside, you're gonna catch a cold"

"I don't care Y/N"

You take a step aside to let him in , you barely turn around before he grabs your wrists in his hands and pins you to the wall,

"RAFE"

He's so close that you can feel him breathing on you

"Why'd you do it Y/N? Do you really want me out of your life? Is that what you want?"

"It's not like I mean shit to you anyways, Rafe"

"That's not true"

"Like fuck it is, you treat me like absolute shit, you purposely go out of your way to make me feel terrible, you want my attention but you'd rather ask for it by belittling me infront of everyone, by talking down to me or treating me like I'm just someone you use to distract yourself from whatever the fuck you need to be distracted from, sometimes the shit you say isn't even funny, it's straight up childish and immature and rude, I shouldn't even have let you in after the shit you've said and the shit you've done, I deserve better than how you treat me. "

You could barely finish your sentences without feeling the need to choke up.

"Y/N I-"

"You used to make me feel so good, so safe but now I'm scared to even talk to you because I know nothing nice is gonna come up and I'm gonna get hurt again, I know we're supposed to be just casual but I just didn't think you'll treat me like I'm a nobody to you"

Rafe's gaze softened, and his hands went from your wrists to your shoulders.

"I'm sorry, I know I don't deserve your forgiveness because of the things I've said and how I've treated you, but I can't lose you, I don't want to do this without you Y/N, I can't justify why I've said what I've said, what can I do to make it up to you? I'll do anything, I never realized how much it could've affected you, I was being a dick, I'm so, so sorry"

"I know I shouldn't even be talking to you rn, John B would kill me"

Rafe took your hands in his and placed a kiss on the back of both hands. He peppered kisses all over your hands, working his way up to your wrists, your arms, your shoulders, and eventually, your neck, he whispered sweet nothings into your ear and nibbled on the sensitive skin right next to your jaw, which he knew makes you go crazy.

You shuddered under his touch and, out of habit, leaned into him, your head resting on his chest, kissing it, you turned up to look at him, your faces barely inches apart, and close the distance. You plant a kiss on his lips, it was soft, gentle, loving. His hands wander from your neck to your back, you guide his hands to your waist, he gives you a gentle nudge and following his cue, you lift yourself and he picks you up, wrapping your legs around him, his focus goes to your neck and you shudder, he takes that opportunity and slips his tongue in, his movements grow more eager as he softly grinds himself against you, grabbing everywhere you'd let him, at this point, you're both breathing each other, he's kissing you like he's gonna lose you tomorrow, like it's the last time he'll ever have you, your tongues move in a rhythm and your bodies are connected.

"Let's go inside" you say and he takes you to your room, he gently lays you down on your bed, not breaking the kiss once, not letting go of you even. once.

"May I?" He asks you as he nudges your top

You get up and help him remove the tshirt you slept in, he immediately went back to kissing your neck, your collarbone, and slowly made his way down to your chest. He took one of your nipples in his mouth, swirling his tongue around, gently sucking on it, you let out a soft sigh as he bit it gently while his other hand gave attention to your other one, toying with it, kneading it then he switched to the other one, doing the same as he did for the previous one.

"Let me make you feel good ma"

He made his way further down, leaving a trail of open-mouthed kisses.

"Tell me if you want me to stop ,okay?"

You just hummed in agreement

"No, I want to hear you say it, tell me if I'm going too far, and I'll stop."

"I don't want you to stop"

He tugged at the waistband of your shorts, and you lifted yourself up, helping him take them off.

"Turn the lights off,Rafe, I don't want you to look at it"

"You're beautiful, every part of you Y/N" he says as he gets up and turns the lights off, finding his way back to you, he plants gentle kisses on your inner thighs, softly massaging them. He slowly made his way to your core, planting a gentle kiss over your clothed core.

You squirmed in the bed, edging your body closer to his mouth, growing more impatient by the second.

"Easy now, I'm getting there" he said as he took your underwear off, folding it up and keeping it next to your bed, he licked a long stripe eliciting a soft moan from you, he latched himself onto your clit, lightly sucking on it, focusing on how you react to it, once he's satisfied, he pushes his tongue inside you, he speeds up exponentially, he's going down on you like a man starved, like you're the last meal he'll ever have, he doesn't slow down, he doesn't stop, he barely comes up for air, he only has one thing on his mind, making you come. Your hands find their way to his hair, grabbing them and tugging at them.He violently thrusts his tongue in and out of you, practically abusing your clit while you're a moaning mess, he hooks your legs over his arms to grip you and hold you down as you squirm and push yourself onto his face, his nose is lightly bumping against your clit, your moans turn him on and he started grinding against the bed, he suddenly inserts a finger in you which make you arch your back, pumping in and out of you, hitting your g spot as his thumb makes it way to your clit and rubs circles on it, while his other hand grabs your breast and plays with it, the sudden increase in stimulation drive you closer to your edge, your eyes are shut, you can't say anything, you can't think of anything other than how good his mouth feels, how good he's making you feel, you feel the burning sensation, signalling you're not that far

"Rafe I'm gonna-"

He doesn't even let you finish that sentence before he speeds up, you didn't think it was possible for him to go faster, but he was, the room is silent except for the moaning mess he's made of you and the unholy sounds he's making as he eats you out, he can feel how close you are, he hums in satisfaction.

"It's okay, come for me" You can feel the smirk he has on his face as he says it

Right as he finishes his sentence, you came. hard, harder than you've probably ever come. You're a panting mess, he slows down his movements but he doesn't stop, helping you ride out your high, once he's sure, he gets up and grabs a towel, cleaning you up, he kisses your thighs and helps you up on the bed, and lays down next to you. He holds you close and whispers in your ear

"I'm so sorry for ever making you feel like you mean less than to me than you actually do, I won't do it again"

"It's easier said than done, Cameron, don't make me regret giving you another chance"

you turn to face him and bury your face in his chest, slowly drifting away into a peaceful sleep as he plants a kiss on your forehead and holds you close. He'll spend as long as it is needed to make up for how he treated you, taking care of you and cherishing you for as long as you'd have him.

[1ris5starlight]

(This happen after this episode and pls DON'T TAKE THIS AS A SHIP. IT'S JUST A COMFORTING BROTHERS(?)-MOMENT FROM THE LAST PERSON YOU'VE EXPECTED)

To understand:

(Text) = thoughts

*Text* = sounds & movements

Text = Narrator

After Show #3

19:00 p.m.

Sun and Jack were on Sun & Moon's Island.

The rain was loud and the ocean was a bit agitated.

Sun was asleep on the armchair in the living room, with one cat on his legs and the other on his shoulders and they both were asleep as well.

Jack was perched on the arm of the sofa next to the armchair and he end watching Sun and the cats as they slept.

He had witnessed Sun's mental breakdown shortly before and did his best to comfort him until he fell asleep.

He had never seen the solar animatronic in that state.

It made him feel sad, because there wasn't much he could do to improve the situation they were in.

So in order to provide some sort of comparison, he promised Sun that he would watch over him, so that no one could disturb him or hurt him.

The yellow animatronic nodded in agreement and soon fell asleep with tears still streaming down his cheeks.

So, now Jack is observing the dim light of the house and also the storm looming outside; until he hears someone knocking on the door.

Jack: (mh..who could it be? Should I go open or wake up Sun first.............

I don't to wake him up, he has already gone trow so much, I want to let him rest..).

Someone knock again.

Jack: (...I will go check who it is, without waking up Sun).

Jack get up from his spot, go to door and opens it.

Jack: Hellooo-...

Eclipse: Oh. I didn't expect you to be here honestly.

Jack: proceeding taking out dagger-hands.

Eclipse: NO NO WAIT WAIT WAIT! I'm not here to hurt anyone, I just want to talk to Sun..

Jack: retiring dagger-hands.

Jack: Why do you need to talk to him?

Eclipse: *a bit irritated* It's something really important, so can I please talk to him?

Jack: He's asleep.

Eclipse: *groan* Well, I can still wait him to wake up. So may I enter or you want me to wait in the rain until I become a pile of rust?

Jack: ...you may enter, but if you do something, I won't hesitate to use my dagger-hands.

Eclipse: *annoyed* yeah yeah, I know.

Eclipse enters in the house and Jack follow behind; the crimson animatronic looked around the house.

Eclipse: (God, they have terrible taste)

Eclipse's eyes rest on the sleeping animatronic and on the tufts of fur on his lap. He sits on the sofa, while Jack goes on Sun's side and stare at him in an hostile way.

Eclipse: Eh. You really don't like me, do you?

Jack: No, I don't. You made Lunar's head explode and did make everyone life a hell.

Eclipse: *laugh without joy in it* yeah...I did. What do you want to make me feel bad for what I did? *whispers* It's not like I don't regret it already..

Jack: No, because I know you already do, judging by how you've been acting lately.

Eclipse: Eh...As if...

They remain silent for a while; Eclipse was looking at the floor and Jack was watching the storm outside, while sitting on the arm of the armchair where Sun was asleep.

Suddenly they hear a sob and another again. They turn their heads to Sun and see that hot tears are flowing from his closed eyes.

Jack places a comforting hand on his shoulder and this seems to calm Sun down a bit, but the tears continue to fall.

Eclipse: *groans and whisper* God, when will he stop being a crybaby?

Eclipse gets up from his seat and walks towards Sun; Jack is about to stop him, but Eclipse puts his hand on Sun's rays and starts stroking them.

This seems to calm Sun down completely, as he stops crying and relaxes against Eclipse's touch.

Jack watches surprised the scene.

Jack: How did you do that?

Eclipse: *a bit annoyed and embarrassed* I was in Sun's body for a while, I know more about him than you can imagine.....

...

Eclipse: this.....the old version of Moon used to stroke Sun's rays when he was stressed or sad. It always made him feel better..

Jack looks at Eclipse without saying any words.

Eclipse: *still a bit annoyed* what? Can't believe that I can do this? Or that I have a soft spot? *whisper*...or that I'm starting to care for one of the persons that I hurted the most, even if he was innocent...

There was a moment of silence between the two, while Eclipse was still petting Sun's rays.

Eclipse zones out for moment while thinking that petting Sun's rays did feel good and relaxing. No wonder why Earth did that so often.

After realising what he just thought, he immediately withdraws his hand (even though deep down he would have liked to leave it there a little longer).

Eclipse: *groans* Anyways, I'll go now, because I don't to stay in this house any longer. I'll pass later.

Eclipse moves away from the two, but when he is about to leave he finds Jack behind him.

Eclipse: *a bit freaked out* JESUS CRIST-!...*groans in irritation* what now?

Jack: Thanks for calming Sun down!..

Something indecipherable passed Eclipse's eyes before he shakes his head and responded.

Eclipse: Yeah yeah, whatever.

19:56 p.m.

Eclipse leaves the house and teleports to his lab; he looks over the incubator where supposedly Solar will be reconstructed.

Eclipse: ...*sigh* well, when Sun wake up and I'll bring him here to press the bottom, I hope this will be done as fast as possible...

.....I hope this will make them happy.....they deserve some happiness after what they have gone trow. After what that idiot(Nexus) has put them trow!...

Eclipse goes sit on the chair near the his desk and close his eyes.

Eclipse: maybe I will take a nap as well.

°•END•°

[freshlypizza]

hi :) have you considered any hatchetfield roleswap AUs

Hello! :D

No I have not BUT now I can't stop thinking about the first one that popped into my head when I read this, so here is a oneshot of it:

Theodore Spankoffski was not really good at everything. He wasn't even good at keeping those he loved, everybody left him.

But he made promises 18 years ago to a newborn boy.

A promise to always be there for him, but, more importantly, he made a promise to always be a damn good brother.

(In most timelines, Ted broke the promises.)

Saturday nights were the nights Ted always looked forward to. Saturday nights were the nights Pete would stay over in his tiny apartment. The two brothers would stay up late, watching either the goofiest sci-fi or the goriest horror movies they could find.

Pete would normally arrive at 18:15, he checked his watch, it was 17:42. Ted had just enough time to prepare his bedroom.

He tidied the floor and he made the single bed, placing the stuffed giraffe Ted had bought Pete for his fourth birthday on the pillow. Pete had tried to argue that he was 18, and that he didn't need a stuffed animal to sleep with anymore. Ted couldn't help the smile that grew on his face when Pete had fell asleep on the sofa, with the plush cradled in his arms.

Ted smirked proudly at his handiwork. He checked the time again, 18:11.

He walked into the kitchen preparing a mug of his brother's favourite drink, hot chocolate. He topped it off with a big swirl of whipped cream and a handful of marshmallows. Ted grabbed a beer for himself.

18:15, Peter should be knocking at the door any moment now.

18:30, he had still not arrived.

18:45, Peter was late, but that's fine - he can't be on time every single week. Ted rang Pete's phone, he didn't pick up.

19:00, the hot chocolate was ice cold.

19:30, Ted rang his dad.

"I've not seen him all day, Theodore. He's probably put with his friends."

19:33, Ted hung up.

Ted went to bed at 03:23.

He spent the entirety of the Sunday ringing Peter's phone - all his calls got left unanswered.

He went to Richie's house, he hadn't seen him. He went to Ruth's house, she hadn't seen him. He even went to Stephanie fucking Lauter's house (apparently she was close to Pete), she hadn't seen him.

He barely slept that night.

Ted dragged himself to work Monday morning. He was tired, and so worried. He was frightened that something terrible had happened to his baby brother.

Paul had offered to go to Beanie's with him, he accepted, hoping that it would help to ease his racing mind.

The two passed the homeless guy on the way to the coffee shop. The man's hair was long and unkept, his glasses' lens were shattered, one had fallen out a while ago. Every time Ted passed him, he felt weird. He felt a mixture of emotions that he couldn't explain.

He ordered a chai iced coffee for himself, and a hot chocolate for the homeless guy. He always did, Pete had started it. ("I just feel bad for him, y'know? He can't even afford one for himself." "What if he doesn't like hot chocolate?" "Who doesn't?")

Peter never came home, Ted had lost his baby brother.

(In this timeline, T'Noy Karaxis had played with Ted in a different way, he had taken Ted's favourite person away. Again.)

[troublesjunkyard]

So I was super tired! Like, so tired I could barely keep my eyes open. So I rested my eyes at 4:19 pm (Because I wanted to talk to my mom when she got home at around 4:30.) and then went to bed around 4:40.

I then got woken up by Puppy Chaos opening my door at around 5:00. So I shooed him off and locked my door, (With the chain lock.) but he continued to open my door. (As much as the chain would allow.) I finally got him to stop opening my door around 5:30 - 5:40 and went back to bed.

But then I got woken up again by my mom having a loud argument over the phone with her mom. (And I mean loud. I could hear her with my door shut, and music playing on a speaker right next to me. [I don't remember if my AC was on at the time. That's really a 50-50 in the equation.]) I fell back asleep a few minutes after waking up because I just tuned out the argument.

But I then woke up around 9:30 to my mom yelling at Tucker for being a dick to Puppy Chaos while she was feeding them. (Because I [tried] to go to sleep early so I didn't feed them like I was supposed to.) And thus ends all the nonsense I was woken up to.

...

I then woke up on my own at around 10:30, so I went back to sleep. But then I woke up again at around 11:30, so I went back to bed. And again, I woke up at around 12:30 am, and again, I went back to bed. Again, I woke up at around 1:30, again, I went back to sleep. I woke up at 2:12 and was pretty pissed; it hadn't even been an hour this time! well, I went back to bed anyway. When I woke up at 2:25 I just gave up entirely.

I wasn't even sleeping in hour blocks anymore, so why bother? I wanted to sleep all night to try and fix my sleep schedule, that way I would have a good sleep schedule when I start work. (Even if I don't start for another week and a half.) But my body said "No! Fuck you!" so I just stopped trying.

I then got up and decided to do a couple of chores. I unloaded the dishwasher and took out the trash.

And we're about to sell a bunch of our shit, so I cleaned some of the stuff. I cleaned the dining room table and the two chairs that go with it, the living room TV, the TV stand, and the two TV trays.

The TV stand was so dirty! I wiped it over with one paper towel to get the bulk of the dust off and then proceeded to use 7 Clorox wipes to clean off the rest of the dust. It has shelves/sections, so I used one Clorox wipe for each section, (5) but one needed two Clorox wipes to clean off, (6) I then used one more Clorox wipe to wipe down all five sections to make sure it was clean. (7) The last Clorox wipe came up with some dirt, but it didn't look like it was just dumped in a mud puddle like the other six did.

Also, I didn't want to sit down while cleaning the TV stand, (It's low to the ground.) so I crouched down instead; but my body had different ideas. My kneecaps move a lot more than the average person, and I can literally grab my kneecap and move it almost completely out of its socket. (My legs needs to be straight and limp/relaxed to do this though.) But while I was crouching, my left kneecap decided to move itself and lock up. (When this happens, I just have to straighten my leg and it will pop back in place. But it's painful to move my leg when it's like that, and it's painful when my kneecap snaps back into place.) I ended up falling on my ass when I was trying to straighten my leg from the crouched position I was in. But hey, me falling on my ass allowed me to be able to straighten my leg.

I also have a wound on my... chest that's super infected, and a line of 3 months worth (Maybe a bit longer than that.) of dust got onto the wound when I fell and the TV stand opened up the wound. So yeah, that's definitely not gonna get any more infected than it already is. :/

After all that went down, and I put the TV and TV trays in the office, I ended up making my mom a cup of coffee because I heard her 4:00 am alarm go off. So that's how my day is starting off...

Anyway, how are you doing, Trouble?

Damn your sleep schedule is more fucked up than mine was...

And fixing sleep schedules can be really hard especially when your body isn't playing along. My sleep schedule is more separated in several blocks and some small naps but back to the point.

I'm okay (*^▽^*)

Very exhausted, much stressed but soon I've got some weeks off so-

A small light on the end of the tunnel for me hooray!

I hope you can sleep better the next time. I'll try to send you some of my tiredness /j (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

[figbian]

took a nap at 2pm. tried to set an alarm for 17:00. fell asleep. woke up. checked time: 19:02. go ????. check alarms. i had set the alarm for 7:00. ?????

[smalife1234]

This is our 4th weekly smiles!! 👍 Please enjoy the read!

What made me smile this week?

Monday, 8/19/24 - today, we chilled for most of the day, and I was standing using our catheter box. During that moment, I fell over and smacked my face on the side of Luz's wheelchair! It made me start dying in laughter! And we just chilled on our tablets and we had a pretty good day in Catheterization wise! Sadly a butter knife almost fell on my foot! Poor my feet! but today's chill day made me smile!

Tuesday, 8/20/24 - we're on our third vitamin gummy! I tried a new flavor it was good! We washed a squish mellow that hadn't been washed for six months lol! It made us start dying in laughter! Then we chilled for the rest of the day. Sadly, our mom had a rough night and was hitting the headboard of her bed. It scared us, but thankfully, she's doing ok! And it didn't make us smile; however, Luz, our friend, had many Catheterizations, like 7 of them, which sucks! But we smiled, heading to bed at 1:00 a.m. Goodnight!.

Wednesday, 8/21/24 - today is my wife's six-month anniversary of living with an SCI! It made me smile! As she has made this far into her journey I am beyond proud of her ❤️! Lots of love to my awesome baba, then we headed to an open house since school is starting on August 26th! Scared yet excited! We went to the Open house, got some of our supplies and lots of papers, and I found out I have a class with my friends!! Hooray 🎉 made me smile! I got to say hi to Mrs Lawson!! Which is good! We got home and tried on my green button-up shirt for senior pictures!! September 3rd anxious yet excited! Made me smile! At the beginning of the day, I had my 38th round of chemotherapy! Thankfully, no symptoms. It made me smile!

Thursday, 8/22/24 - we chilled most of the day and played Subway Surfers for most of the day. We had a fun time hanging out with friends. It was a fun but chill day! Sadly, our friend Luz had a meltdown, and the other Luz kept having tic attacks and seizures! That didn't make me smile but the nice day certainly made me smile!

Friday, 8/23/24 - today I woke up around 7:48 Am! Which is early, and I woke up around 4:00 Am, but considering the time, I did not want to start my day just yet, lol! We chilled on Subway Surfers until Big Donny got a jackpot!! On his tablet! Which is amazing! It was amazing to see on the screen! And it made me smile! We soon chilled and laughed for a few to a funny choking audio from Instagram! (Obviously, the audio was made for laughs)! We were laughing and now we're just enjoying the rest of our summer! It made me smile! For dinner, we had yummy chicken, Alfredo!

Saturday, 8/24/24 - today, I woke up around 7:15 Am but then fell back asleep, lol, and then woke up again around 7:39 Am, which is good since I've been waking up later recently! We watched reels in the morning and discovered another paraplegic! T9! It was cool how she transferred in and out of the pool! Now we're chilling just hanging out and talking about paraplegic struggles and how if I went up a steep ramp my head would tip backward and I wouldn't be able to get it back up recently we've been talking about my strength since my third month of ALS is approaching don't worry I already have a long lengthy post for y'all to read :) And we saw a lizard in our window. It brought us immense joy! As we laughed and filmed the lizard, sadly, I have my 39th round of chemotherapy tomorrow! Which sucks but I'll push through it! And big Donny got another jackpot. It was amazing indeed! And it made us all smile! Then we chilled for the rest of the night. Sadly, our friend Luz, who is in the red wheelchair (since we have two friends named Luz), felt sick and was probably having Autonomic dysreflexia that night since she had a runny nose. She was coughing a lot and had a headache! Which sucks and that did not make us smile :( our other friend named Luz had a rough day in Catheterizations. It was not as bad as before, but she managed to get to 5, which is not normal, and kept needing to transfer out of her chair, which did not make us smile! But chilling the rest of the night and having a good night's sleep made me smile!

Sunday, 8/25/24 - today I have my 39th round of chemotherapy! I don't have much of a weekly vlog put together lol! So it will be very short! But I am happy to almost be 40 rounds in! And I am excited/nervous to be hitting my third month with ALS! And school starts Tomorrow!!! So I'll be nervous then but we are prepared! And cannot wait to see our friends! That made us smile. And I got a little greedy, lol, and ordered a chicken with egg biscuit with starry, hash browns, and a peach cobbler, but I am very grateful for our parents buying us a yummy breakfast! Thank you in advance! We chilled for a long time and had yummy potato soup! It was very good! Well, I won't keep y'all waiting! So, I will end this entry early. Thanks for reading, and I hope this week made you smile! Feel free to share your thoughts!!

What made you smile this week?

Img desc #1: shows a picture of a lizard on their window.

Img desc #2: doc is seen smiling with a pink long-sleeved shirt brown colored pants and dark brown shoes she is in her electric wheelchair

Img desc #3: shows Donny yelling into the camera/making a silly face. He is lying in bed. There is a blue hue in the camera because of a blue LED light.

Img desc #4: doc is seen driving down a ramp, turned away from the camera. The ramp seems to be having some work done. Doc is in her electric wheelchair while wearing a green short-sleeved shirt and beige-colored shorts.

Img desc #5: Emmie is seen smiling with a drink in her hand she is wearing a white Hawaiian-themed shirt and beige-colored shorts she is in her electric wheelchair

Img desc #6: Emmie is seen smiling into the camera while wearing a red shirt. There is a grey filter over the image. Emmie has a pair of sunglasses on her face.

Img desc #7: doc and Emmie are seen smiling while at an event. Emmie, seen right of the image, is wearing a black short-sleeved shirt and grey jeans. Her arm is resting on Doc's electric wheelchair. Doc, seen left of the image, is seen smiling in her electric wheelchair while wearing a pink long-sleeved shirt and beige-colored jeans paired with dark brown shoes.

Img desc #8: doc is seen smiling with someone as she wears a complete purple tuxedo. There is an orange background behind Doc, and her electric wheelchair is titled to the left of the image. She is staring into the camera and smiling.

Video description #1: shows Doc and Matthew showing off a lizard they thought was cool/ funny to see! In the video, you hear the commentary of laughter and the word lizard being repeated. The lizard is shown on the window as the Pokemon curtain is draped back.

[mortallyandrogynoussheep]

another few days update

you would think i would get my stuff together for the one week time mark, but no, lol. i didn't like wednesday at all, i had bad pains and again didn't do that much productivity wise. so, let's get to summarizing.

7/100 days of getting my life back together

Tuesday, July 9, 2024

didn't study that much overall. my stomach decided to completely obliterate me, so i just gave up. i tried waking up early, but i think i ended up sleeping in. again

16:25 - 17:00 18:34 - 19:10 then i cleaned until 20:05 23:25 - 00:22

8/100 days of getting my life back together

Wednesday, July 10, 2024

really unproductive day, but hold on tight to your pants. it gets worse tomorrow. i did some exercises, that will be the first task on the exam, it went mostly quite good, actually, but i do want to do more of those and i still have some gaps in this area. other than that - not much else. did some notes at the end and that was it. what hapenned?

15:14 - 16:36 16:51 - 17:15

that day I think i also had the first since months time, when i couldn't fall asleep immediately, because i started to have panic attack/mental breakdown. it used to be almost daily few months ago, but kind of stopped eventually, and on that day it happened again. i had visuals of my old home and the home of my godmother, where i sometimes would stay for weeks, and started crying uncontrollably. anyways :D the day was over.

i watched the video about dinosaurs and it made me want to draw some dinosaurs. so, here's that, lol. watch the video, by the way, if the topic sounds interesting to you, the guy is really funny.

9/100 days of getting my life back together

Thursday, July 11, 2024

~It got worse~

I slept the whole days, fellas. I managed (mostly because of my incredibly helpful boyfriend trying to support me :')) to wake up at about 11, stayed awake for maybe half an hour to an hour, and then just fell asleep. and slept the whole day, basically. i think i ended waking up at about 7 pm, did some miscellaneous things, had a long ass mental breakdown, crying more than my pride could take, and then went to bed.

L + ratio + skill issue

10/100 days of getting my life back together

Friday, July 12, 2024

But you know what? I feel quite hopeful for today. I woke up fully at about 9:30, had my coffee and cigarette (kids do NOT smoke), cleaned up my studying space, which took a lot MORE than i expected, but now I'm ready to study. i am quite sleepy, but I have to just get myself together and do it. you know, maybe all those failures are okay, because at least i keep trying. eventually one of those tries does succeed in one way or another.

10:50 - 12:42 pages 20-56 in DB5 13:15 - 15:36 finished SE4, 56-82 DB5 then i cooked some food, took a shower and rested for a bit 17:30 - 18:20 FINALLY done with DB5

18:50 - 20:00 finished SE5

I cannot express how happy I am to be finally done with this DB 5 lecture. i also calculated the overall amount of slides i should go over, it came up to 374 of them, which comes to about 30 slides a day if i want to finish everything like one day before the exam lol. anyway. tummy hurty but we must persist

[autisticwolfesbrainisautistic]

I worked for 16 hours yesterday. From 00:30 to 16:30. I worked for 14 hours on Thursday. I worked for 14 hours on Wednesday. I only worked for 10 hours on Tuesday. 55 hours and 20 minutes on my timecard for four days (I rounded down in this post). I took today off.

I am sore and achy and mentally exhausted but apparently I'm too sore and achy to be able to sleep anymore? I fell asleep yesterday at 19:30-ish, and I woke up at 05:00 to go to the bathroom and couldn't fall back asleep. 10 hours does not feel like enough rest but I guess I'm getting restless so I'm awake and browsing Tumblr and I'll probably play monster hunter rise on my switch in bed for a few hours.

These are the kind of days I wish I had a girlfriend or QPP or whatever*. I want someone to cuddle with. Someone to just lazily hug on while they pick the stuff to watch on TV. Maybe occasionally jiggle their boobs while they're distracted by something.

*any gender friend with boobs who I'm close enough to to hug on and play with their tits, I guess. In this instance it's not even about sex. Just autistic sensory-seeking urges combined with the desire to give someone else positive, hopefully pleasurable, sensations.

In short, I want to play with boobs, and as a cis-dude my own just aren't big enough or sensitive enough to satisfy the desire.

[kleefkruid]

I was super tired from staying up late for the concert but I thought no, I am a responsible adult that doesn't spend all day on the couch so I took the tram into the city bc my bicycle was still there and then did a 7 km bike roundtrip doing errands!

aaannd then I came home and ate pasta with a unholy amount of cheese and literally fell asleep behind my laptop at 19:00

Ah well, 50/50 is perfectly fine