#fuck my ex

[enslavedheart]

Being emotionally manipulated through praise >>>>>>>>>>>>>> being emotionally manipulated through insults

[dreamypurplesky]

saw a girl celebrating her 15th birthday today,

and my heart stopped in my chest-

yes, the memories have faded,

yes, time has run it's course,

but I used to be 15 once.

happy, carefree, a daisy in my hair,

basking in the sun with nowhere to be.

i used to be 15 once.

hopeful, determined, a twinkle in my eyes,

dreaming of leaving this town forever.

before you stripped me of my innocence,

and indulged in the pleasure.

you tarnished the good in my soul,

and wore the ruins like a badge.

you drove us to the edge,

just to abandon me and run.

i used to be 15 once.

curious, innocent, your face on my screen,

skipping meals to watch you study.

i used to be 15 once

forgiving, devoted, a crack in my heart,

begging you to stay,stay,stay.

yes, the wounds have healed,

yes, the love has rotten,

but what if I tell you,

I'm still 15,

and I'll always be 15.

because when something breaks,

the pieces lay there forever.

serving as a reminder, 

of the blood in your mouth.

but that blood is my nectar,

because it was drawn by you.

[blusheher]

me: sees someone who put me through hell and traumatized being happy and healthy.

Me: hmmm... I could change that >:)

[transmogrified-in-the-void]

The most insidious form of gaslighting and emotional manipulation/abuse is when it's happening from someone not even aware they're doing it in the moment.

[plumplum-girl]

The trauma is trauma-ing hard tonight.

[mintedaisies]

If someone you know is on testosterone and you tell them to their face that it’s not working, genuinely, from the bottom of my heart, fuck you

[imadethedevilapromiseagain]

I hate how anxiety manifest physically with me. Suddenly I have a tightness in my chest and legs and throat. I feel like I’m going to throw up and genuinely pass out from lightheadedness. It raises my risk and rate of seizures. This is why I’m a “doormat”. I’d rather give you whatever you want to avoid feeling like this because of an argument or someone being angry with me. I hate dealing with him.

[lrsamantha]

Your memory etches its familiarity in my mind,

like my initials carved in your bed frame.

I clasp hands with lonesomeness,

and my stomach coils with realization,

tugging me in dismal directions.

I loathe this unwelcome understanding;

the ease at which loneliness finds me

while I find nothing else.

And I think it makes me hate you,

more than just a little.

[wenchpop]

A lot has changed since I was 17

[jaeshoney]

sad to say it bc i hate that nigga but my ex had a big dick and the boys i’m talking to now are smaller than him 🥲🥲

[delulu4ghost]

i hate how I go from crying about my recent ex getting a new girlfriend, to sitting in my living room, drinking wine with my girlfriends, and living the absolute life. (we're gonna ignore the 5 assignments that need to be done and the studying we planned to do for the upcoming midterm)

[rottinglittleprincess]

desperate & touch starved

i know you can sense when i begin to throb & i know you start to touch yourself thinking about your fingers going down the front of my thong immediately feeling how wet you’ve already made me & i know the thought of making love sets you into a deep reverie of starring into each other during your first stroke going immensely slow & deep until we both relive the same pitched moan when you reach my cervix & i know your back twitches when envisioning yourself on top of me in complete & total control making my whimpers project my warm breath against your skin hitting every tiny muscle connected to each hair on your neck & back causing all of them to stand up at once giving you the same surreal chills. when you detain both my wrists behind my back with just one of your hands so you can still spank/punish me with the other while fucking me senseless all at the same time... this thought alone makes me drip. I'm dripping. 

[escapism-central]

to all of you who relate to real love by big thief- i see you and i’m so so sorry

[the-things-left-unsaid]

Something I wrote about myself

In my head

It sucks knowing that everyone thinks of you highly

Thinks of you as pretty

Thinks of you as skinny

But every time you look in the mirror

All you see is the things they said

“You should loose some weight”

“You’d be more attractive if you went to the gym more”

“I hate your clothes, you look fat in them”

All from the mouths of people who supposedly loved you

“You’ll embarrass me in front of my friends”

“You’ve gained weight since we met”

And the best one

“I’m not attracted to you”

Right before they fuck you

It lingers, in your brain

Longer than you would have thought

At this rate, probably forever

And you could say they’re just awful guys

You could say they’re wrong

You could say I’m perfect just how I am

But I won’t believe you

Every time I try to wear something different

All I see is the little stomach I have

Jutting out for everyone to see

My hip dips pronounced by my jeans

They’ve ruined me

I’m no longer pretty

I’m no longer skinny

I’m no longer happy

And I know it’s all in my head

But every time I talk to someone new

All I can imagine is them seeing me naked

And being disgusted by what they see

Because of what you said

Because of what you did

“Try out this diet with me”

“Why don’t you go to the gym with me?”

“Why can’t you just eat what I tell you to?”

“Why can’t you enjoy the gym like I do?”

You never made me feel pretty

Never made me feel wanted

And I was too in love to see

Too in love to leave

Too in love

Now look at me

Wanting to love again

But unable to get those words out of my head

Uncomfortable in my own skin

Uncomfortable being seen

Uncomfortable being me

Always taking pictures neck up

Always wearing clothes that hide what I don’t want seen

Wanting to feel beautiful

But never to be achieved

I’m ugly

Just like you told me

[sporanges-blog]

10 years since I committed to the worst decision of my life. Almost 7 years since the best one. Happy anniversary fucknugget.

[i-hate-that-mofo-bitch]

woke up missing you extra today. my heart aches so hard without you. i wonder everyday if you feel the same way I do.