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i-have-dots-in-my-brain · 5 months

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TW: DARK GAMES AND STUFF (just a lil rant, nothing hateful)

wow dark games are

idk i wanna stay innocent youtube please let me stay pure just recommend music and fandom shit please not this not the true crime cases and the horror games with dark meanings and ominous endings (especially ones with rape or child abuse) like please what made you think i would want to see this i listen to playlists titled " i have nothing in my head"

#i looked into my eyes deceive and HOLY SHIT #IT WAS A ROBLOX GAME????????? (apparently it was just recreated in roblox)#HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT #ITS SUCH A SAD STORY BY THE WAY #I HOPE THE PROTAG OF THE GAME ESCAPES AND KILLS HER DAD OR SOMETHING #LIKE #CALL 110 AND HAVE THE COPS BUST DOWN THAT DOOR #THE (BAD) ENDING IS SO AMBIGIOUS AND IT IMPLIES #LIKE DID HER FATHER DO SOMETHING TO HER #IS SHE OKAY???#THE GOOD ENDING IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH #I NEED TO FORGET THIS GAME EXISTED #props to the developer #it tells a very sad story that could have actually happened #good horror is meant to make you uncomfortable #with real people as villains instead of faceless monsters #genuinely very good and effective horror #i do wish i never looked into it though (not trashing the developer i just wish I never went down the story rabbithole)#veryyyyyyy uncomfortable #sorry for this rant i just had to talk about this to the online void #genuinely good game though (the small details contribute to the story and the horror)#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #STOP RECOMMENDING ME DARK THINGS YOUTUBE #IM ALL FOR LIKE EDGY OC LORE #BUT NOT ACTUALLY DARK THINGS #my eyes deceive

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mycotoxin · 9 months

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Honestly why do I hear people still talking about the aunt jemima rebranding and how “ridiculous” it is? Firstly it was years ago and second I KNOW you were not that attached to the mammy character. Chill the fuck out.

#I hate Florida #also my own family complains about it and we’re black people!!!!!!#and honestly even if you don’t like their reason you have to agree that it’s still an understandable one #like yeah getting rid of a brand character because she has roots in racist ideas is like. completely rational #in what world is that ridiculous #also. y’all would not be talking about it still if it were for a completely different reason #like if they said they just wanted a fresh start or something #I also hear the same shit about land o lakes removing their Native American character #I never heard anyone talking about OTHER rebrandings for more than 5 minutes #like if they ended up getting rid of the Quaker Oats guy people would be like ‘awww they got rid of him :(‘ and then continue shopping #but NOOOO I went t9 the store with my dad recently and he was loudly complaining about how they get rid of aunt jemima #and MULTIPLE PEOPLE came and were like ‘yeah it’s ridiculous right??? they’re so stupid for that’#THIS IS NOT SOMETHING THAT SHOULD DRAW A FUCKING CROWD #ITS SYRUP FOR GODSAKES #I just had to rant I’m so fucking tired of hearing about this shit #there’s no fucking way you care that much about some black lady on the pancake syrup. no fucking way

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ghostighostly · 6 months

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I have made. Many mistakes,,,

I've gone from 'eh i never do anything dont worry we can play videogames!' To 'Sorry cant talk i have the next 3 weeks scheduled to the second and am actively having a panic attack. Bye!'

How did this happen? Christmas. And divorce, but that's less impactful.

I will now proceed to rant in the tags gootbye forever.

#ghosti talks #OKAY.#I HAVE A MILLION AND ONE PROJECTS AND HAVE CHOSEN THE WORST TIME TO RANT ABOUT THEM.#HERE WE GO #first off i decided a month ago that christmas holidays was art study time!! all two weeks just hand studies and chill #then my dad moved out and my dumbass said 'oh heck yea i need a project ill come help with literally everything!'#then forgetting i already had a project went and told some other people 'oh you wanna fix the jrwi wiki? i am so down fuck fandom! i need a-#project anyways!#boom. millions dead.#i also decided hey why not do a bunch of art before christmas for all my online friends i only have *checks discord* 30..?#boom. trillions dead #wait theres only 7billion people uhm #whatever im fucming dying #AND GUESS WHO JUST TOOK A SHOWER #all the thoughts and ideas are rushing into my brain all at once and i cannot afford to fail even one of these tasks ive given myself #because im me.#dear god save my soul i will get no sleep tonight. pain pain pain..........#oh yea these are the main 3 projects btw im also having too deal with my trillion hyperfixations and the fact that my notifs are constantly #full and i have to completly tidy my old room at my mothers and the whole house cause hey why not its productiv month #aka. burnout month!!#so yeag #sorry for spilling literally all my personal life stuff on this public site whoopsie #is ok no one gives a shit *gets shot in the head with a sniper*#*is bleeding out on the floor*#okay goobye :3

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crabs-nonsense · 9 months

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Something I love is my mom's romantic relationship. Like her partner and the ways they interact are both so wholesome and amazing. So you guys are gonna unlock some lore here.

Over two years ago my dad cheated on my mom and she said their relationship was over, because that was a rule she's always had for herself, once a cheater always a cheater. After that she started dating her current partner in a long distance relationship. They are an enby who lives in Norway and the two of them met on tiktok because they both cosplay the marauders era from Harry Potter.

In the two years they've been together my mother has gone and spent several months visiting them and meeting their family twice, once for summer and once for winter. Their family loves her and regularly invites her to things even though she can't attend. They video chat pretty much daily and text constantly. They've seen eachother at their highs and lows and been there through it all. An extremely funny fact is that my mom started learning Norwegian from a 6yr old with a very specific dialect and a speech impediment, because her partners son mostly speaks Norwegian with a bit of English.

Anyways the reason I was thinking about this is that yesterday I was in a voice chat with my bsd cosplay friends and my mom was across from me talking about the paperwork for getting citizenship through marriage with her partner. And I'd said she doesn't have to be engaged for a long time before getting married, which very much confused my friends and I had to explain. So it's been on my mind lol.

I love that they've talked about the steps needed for all of us the get citizenship, and how to get my sister and I onto disability there. And they even told my mom they might get a bigger house just so we can all still live together. They also send us Norwegian candy from time to time (sending things to the US is super expensive so it's not very often). They also send all her kids presents both randomly and for birthdays and Christmas. I have a crocheted pokemon plushie from them that I absolutely adore.

But yeah despite my mom being completely done with my dad he spent a year and a half trying to "win her back" but in like a really semi toxic roundabout way that all of us could see would never work except for him. And he only this year finally moved out of the house. Divorce papers FINALLY got filed and we all know he's going to drag it out and fight for full custody just to spite her. So because of that my mom and her partner are only dating, but mom has said the moment the divorce goes through she wants to take a small trip to Norway so we can all meet them in person and she wants to propose in person. Her partners son (again he's six) insists he's planning their wedding (they've never said anything about getting married to him), and he collects rocks and shells every time they go to the beach to use as center pieces for the tables.

Another thing is that with the safety of trans people quickly fading here they've also talked about how if things get bad enough that we are in danger here, we can all go to Norway. Like they told my mom if she suddenly said hey we're getting on a plane and will be there at x time, they will get their family together to get large enough transportation and housing for us (I have 4 siblings so there's 6 of us in all).

And and and!!! They are also disabled and have been since they were a kid. They don't have the same issues my sister and I do but they do have joint problems and chronic pain just like us so its been amazing to be getting first hand advice for a lot of things. They are so amazing i can't wait to meet them in person and give them a hug honestly.

#long post #story time #i love my moms significant other soooo much #sorry i just wanted to ramble about this but didnt want to bother anyone so its a tumblr post instead of a dm aha #to anyone whos heard me talk about the whole physical abuse trauma from my dad id like to clarify here that my mom didnt know about that #i didnt acknowledge really to myself that i had physical abuse trauma and that it wasnt all normal until last year #and he never did anything as extreme when she was around so she never saw it happen and i guess we all assumed she knew so never said much #but after they separated and she would talk about stuff with the oldest two kids (my brother and i) we mentioned something about it and #she was very upset about it and it is a huge part on why she wants full custody of the kids #anyways yeah #someday i will go to Norway and if im really really lucky i wont have to come back #the US government is not good and would rather i was dead so im very much not interested in staying here aha #being trans autistic and disabled was not a good call here but alas it was not my choice #sorry for the rant #crab says words #im completely normal :D

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satellitesunset · 10 months

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#Uh rant/introspection coming up #gotta love pre birthday existential crisis #my cousin just had a baby girl. and im like thinking abt kids #might be baby fever. might be the hormones. might be this series on tiktok where a dad talks abt like weeks in fatherhood #nut like for the first time im thinking abt like gender roles and parenthood in regards to myself yk?#like i want to be a dad and that's just a very uh realisation #like idk man the realisation that if #(and thats a big IF)#i do have kids #ill be just mum and thats like just hitting me yk #i know on a conscious level that its complicated and whatnot but like yk in general its a v peculiar feeling #im also thinking abt words a lot and i wrote a whole poem/piece about it thst i like and its been so long since i wrote least smth im happy #with #but i have s good feeling abt this one #anyways words words words huff #im also thinking abt growing up and how different everything esp myself is from last year #like last year feels like an eternity ago but also feeld too soon and its just weird #insert smth abt friends snd loss n memories m growing apart n adulting that i do not want to or knoe how to articulate #uh anyways yes if u read all this have a cookie #on a good thought! uh im making a playlist which always puts me in a better mood #tldr im like fine just thinking #uh what was the tag #myle mummers #there was another one but i cant for the life of me remember it 😭

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 2 years

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once again projecting my feelings onto kaeya genshin impact

#i hadnt talked about it here but of course there was drama around thanksgiving #my mom got upset with me over not 'defending her' in front of my dad when he was trying to convince my siblings to spend it with him #they both had points but they also both suck ass and #im so done of being the one who has to do these things. and im so done with them #and i look at kaeya who knows one day he'll have to choose where his loyalties lie and its like damn hes just like me fr fr fhhfhfjd #its funny #lumine/aether/sky rants #cw vent #personal posts and stuff idk

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tenpixelsusie · 2 years

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there's a bmc/inside job au brewing in tenpixelsusie town...

#listen. listen #au where the squip squad works at a place simular to cognito except it's for squip type stuff <3 #i think it would make a lot of sense in personality for jeremy to be reagan and michael to be brett but actually-#the other way around makes more sense because its. a squip place now and michael knows SO MUCH about the squips and jeremy knows-#zip nada zilch <3 also jeremy's squip is robotus. him getting squipped as the equivalent to brett getting microchipped #(realized i worded that in a way where it seemed likke jeremy's squip IS actually robotus. no he just replaces robotus in this au thing)#be more chill #inside job netflix #silly little talks #idk what i would do with the whole rand situation cause i dont want to put either of michael's moms in that role cause they're good moms #and i dont want to put michael's probably dad in that bc i hc that hes very niceys #< also i thnk i (or dewey) had a hc where one of michael's moms had a husband before and she divorced him on good terms and he-#still helps raise michael <3 #anyways. wait hold on. maybe like. another family member actually #maybe an auntcle/pibling perhaps... yes this could work #sorry for therant i just think im creative and i wanted to rant ab this!!!!!!!!!

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kit-katsuki · 2 years

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#feel free to ignore just ranting #but like. even though i dont care abt mcyt #idk abt any of that. but i know technoblade died recently to cancer #and now tb's dad made a post on reddit saying tb might have had a girlfriend #but ultimately is respecting his privacy #and now idiots on twitter are making posts like #💀💀💀 theres no way technoblade had a gf #like. is it just me or is making posts about how technoblade was bitchless . HORRIBLY insensitive #the way ppl are talking about it too. the man died leave him alone and respect that #idk man !! maybe its just me maybe im being sensitive but.#but it rubs me the wrong way i feel violent. leave the man be.#dl

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pagesofkenna · 1 year

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so when i got God of War (2018) I was under the impression that it was about a fraught father son relationship where the journey together forces them to understand each other

but it turns out its about a father and son who just straight up hate each other, and the journey together forces them to love each other but only because of forced characterization

#im being more than a touch dismissive but woof was the writing... not great #i think im just spoiled on games with good narrative pacing #cant get over the scene where kratos listens to the vision atreus talk about how much he wishes dad had died instead of mom #and then just yells at his son for waking him up #and then his son just yells at him for abandoning him #and then literally two seconds later they're cheerfully trying to figure out the game puzzle #and they just. dont talk about the vision ever #like its SO awkwardly paced #the game clearly WANTS some of these conversations to Hit and have Emotional Resonance #but they're all smooshed in and given no weight? there's no lasting effect?#i wish i had better words to describe that problem im feeling lmao #its like the narrative design team was in a different building from the level design team and the final production had to splice together #and the voice actors (specifically the actor playing the kid!) had to read these emotionally dissonant lines??#like i GOT to imagine the VO director had him lump read all the 'yelling' lines in one go and the 'normal' lines in another #because there was NO emotional crossover of 'i was just yelling at my dad and im still a little pent up but im calming down'#like each conversation just felt so out of sync with the preceding ones #anyway i should stop ranting now lol unless anyone wants to jump in

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goatmilksoda · 1 year

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I was gonna write a big vent post but I'll summarize:

I'm sad because I always assumed I was supposed to fill space in conversations to keep people happy so I end up talking at people and it makes them mad and i wish they would either tell me theyd rather have silence or start talking and steer the subject so we could have a conversation instead of just pretending to listen until they get angry and blow up. It makes me feel bad. I don't like what I'm doing either.

#the rest of it is that i had a nightmare last night where i met all my old elementary school classmates and they told me i was insufferable #and a bully and had bullied some girl whos name i didnt recognize out of the school #and that i wasnt special for being in college or anything #so idk man it just kind of stuck and being told to 'shut up and stop rambling' by my dad just threw me off #it just made me feel like i dont know how ill ever be percieved by others and totally socislly inept #kind of like i dont deserve friends or whatever yknow? especially because a couple friendships are based on these kind of ramblings #and it makes me worried #but im hoping its just because im tired #but it doesnt change that i feel bad #goat talk #vent #rant #its just... bad vibes.#its times like this when i really want to get a formal autism assessment #i feel so helpless about it. :(

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munch-mumbles · 1 year

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beginning to mald profusely at just how bad my auditory processing is

#its so fucking annoying. im so sick of having to ask everyone around me to repeat themselves all the time #and i know people are sick of repeating themselves #my coworkers can hear each other just fine from different rooms entirely and i have to struggle to make out what someone standing next #to me just said #thankfully most people are polite about it but heres a story im still malding over #about a year ago now i visited my parents and apparently i asked my dad one too many times to repeat himself bc ig he got annoyed #so for the rest of the visit like Every Single Time i said something he went HUH?#only for me. could hear everyone else just fine. and hes mever had a problem with processing as far as i can tell before then #im not doing it on purpose to be an asshole but i feel like one anyway #while im already here ranting im also sick of how bad my memory is #im sick of how clumsy i am #im sick of never having anything good to say in irl conversation #im sick of stuttering and slurring my words when im just trying to talk #im sick of the worsening pain in my lower back/hip #im sick of my anxiety flaring up over the smallest things #god. anyway

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vitiateoriginator · 1 year

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I really like celebrating christmas, but it also makes me sad. I wish my dad could be here to enjoy the holiday with me. I didn't get to really celebrate with him much when he was alive, ever since his sister had come back into his life, so the pain of him not being around isn't as bad as it is at times like around his birthday. But I miss getting to visit him before he'd go to Katie's for dinner. And I miss chatting with him on the phone while we wish each other merry Christmas and talk about everything we got to do that day. And now as an adult I could have done so much more for him, for the holiday and in general. But I can't, and it's depressing. But I know he wouldn't want me to be upset. So I just try to enjoy christmas and everything and everyone I still have

#sam's rants about life #my mom cried earlier because she's missing her parents today. and it triggered my grief for my dad #I understand how she felt while she wept and I kind of wish I didn't. its a very helpless feeling #but I had a good day otherwise. Im sure my dad would be happy to hear about it #sorry to just dump this vent out but I needed to talk to somebody about it #dont wanna depress any of my family so onto the blog it goes

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dandy-lad · 2 months

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