#hazyaffection

[anastasiasyah]

I want to be gentle with myself but these thoughts are violent.

— 09/28/23, anastasiasyah

[deadwatered]

touch tank

[avanillaopus]

You can spend hours of your time wanting, so much energy fuelling desire, but that doesn't mean that what you're begging for is meant for you. Hell, it doesn't even mean that you deserve it.

h.w

[permanentlytragic]

my tagging system is a number (#no.) for a person from my life. for some place love lived. these are quotes and words that describe those relationships. it was meant just to be my link navigation, but it’s a collection of words that really resound with me. 

[dieversa]

the Ghost road

[wxkeupalone]

death bed - powfu

[spkrofthenerds]

[thesenamesareabitmuch]

The right music can make you invincible. That symphony of sound propelled at you through nothing but bits of plastic and metal. The booming sensation flows through you like it’s blood in your veins and it stimulates your brain to discover the potential you never knew you had. Your hair stands on edge. Your breath shortens, but all you are doing is sitting staring into empty space with nothing but these little bits of plastic and metal in your ears with a head full of thoughts being drowned out by that beautiful cacophony that makes you forget about it all.

[anastasiasyah]

“Survival is more than breathing. It is carrying every wound, every whisper of the past, and learning how to rise despite the weight.”

— 03/21/25, anastasiasyah

[avanillaopus]

The thing is, I knew in my heart that it was an ending of sorts but - even though I've always been terrible at endings - I couldn't bring myself to be sad. I didn't have it in me to mourn what we were losing because every time our laughter echoed through the empty park I felt like I could live forever and even though it may very well have been the last time, belting out sad songs with you underneath a boundless, velvet sky healed every would I've ever had. My contentment was deathless as we flew higher and higher on the same swing set my dad used to push me on when I was small and if I had wanted to, I could have reached forward, plucked a star right out of the air and popped it into my mouth. I could have stayed lost with you in that moment forever because it's the closest to heaven I've ever been and the whole time I can remember thinking that if all endings felt this sweet, I wouldn't mind losing everything.

h.w

[permanentlytragic]

this photograph is my proof, duane michals / beginners, mike mills / one last poem for richard, sandra cisneros / if not, winter: fragments of sappho, anne carson / the beatrice letters, daniel handler / i miss you, i’m sorry, gracie abrams / little weirds, jenny slate / francis forever, mitski

[greedykisses]

JENNY HOLZER

[chasing--ghxsts]

[maryaetlart]

- Not your fault.

I know people maybe won’t read nor reblog this poem but to me, this means a lot and it hurts because i have been going through a bad toxic relationship and it took me time to realize I deserve more. Feel free to reblog with or without the caption.

[thesenamesareabitmuch]

You know what it’s like when you don’t see someone for a long time. I could picture her face at first, with the elegance and grace that drove others wild with feelings of compassion and desire. The way she smiled even the thought could warm you in the coldest of nights. Her laughter echoed in you head causing such sweet rejoice. But as time pass her face begins deform and change as the memories begin to fade. I fear for that girl.

I fear she won’t be the same.

[anastasiasyah]

You have loved so much that your heart swelled like the sun. It's not your fault the people you loved hurt you because they only know darkness.

— 10/26/24 by anastasiasyah