#extrasad

[death-born-aphrodite]

goodbyes were never really your thing. so i’ll just pretend we had one and maybe i’ll sleep a little better at night. i watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind and i just kept thinking how nice it would be to have you erased. i know that’s not the message of the film but god it’d be nice. so now you’ll sit and rot in my head. and i’ll try not to spend my summer thinking about you but you feel like a missing tooth. it was a summer of revelations but you weren’t around to hear them. i want to call you like the old days and tell you everything you’ve missed. but i don’t know you anymore and you don’t know me. so i’ll lay in my bathtub and try not to drown and i’ll keep telling myself “i know it’s for the better” but it wasn’t suppose to be this way was it? i wish you the best but please, if you ever wake up in the middle of night and think that you got it all wrong, please, don’t call me.

- “anyway, don’t be a stranger”

[vivaciousveins]

born to be an artsy esoteric lover girl, forced to be a heartbroken poet with scattered remnants of a muse

[dxrk-sxdness]

summer is gone. you’re gone. the sun is putting on its sweater. my heart is still yearning for the warmth.

[asoftepiloguemylove]

Hi, can i request a webweave on infatuation & trust issues?

i swear i'd love you if i could

pinterest / Clementine Von Radics In A Dream You Saw A Way To Survive; The Fear / pinterest / @hamletsmachine unaligned (2016) / @gumuhit old love (2016) / @extrasad

[yousmellofstorms]

But Jesus fuck, I'd swallow poison if it tasted like you

- (via extrasad)

[89rooms]

My mother and father fell out of love. It took six years for them to rot. It was slow. It snuck up on them through extra sips of wine at dinner and spaces between them in bed. It was quiet, it whispered in their ears and snuck into their heads and hid between busy thoughts, they barely noticed but it chipped away at them until they crumbled into empty shells that couldn’t stand to look at each other. They never fought. They kissed each other sometimes, but never at the right times, never like they meant it. I think when the water rises so slowly and silently and wraps itself around you in the form of routine and comfort and the fear of leaving, you don’t really realize you’re completely submerged until you look at yourself in the mirror one day and you’re dripping wet and you can’t breathe at all but you’re used to holding your breath by now. It didn’t hurt. At the end of it they were gone. They were ghosts. I don’t know if they could even feel it. It wasn’t this killer, movie-scene, hollywood heartbreak, just a dull ache that could be drowned out if you just pretend it isn’t there. So when you were mine in the morning and a fucking hole in my chest three hours later it swallowed me whole. I didn’t know it could happen so quickly, a lighting bolt of heartbreak, there was no thunder to warn us. One second I was yours and the next I was on the floor and I could smell my skin burning.

I thought we had more time, I wanted to rot with you. (via extrasad)

[letterstoyourlove]

“my mother’s trust issues are leaking into my chest and I’ve got my father’s nose and his tendency to stop calling back so I’m sorry about the 9 missed calls I have from you and the 6 voicemails I never played for I swear I’d love you if I could.”

-(via extrasad)

[nyerus]

Heyy!

Hope you’re doing well!

I just got to know about the tgcf epilogue/ prompts thingie… honestly so confused about it. Can you give me the details please? Will there be new extrasadded to tgcf?

Hello there!

I'm not 100% certain of what you're referring to. Do you mean the extra content that is added to the mainland CN version? If so then it's pretty simple: the mainland CN physical release -- which is very recent -- came with some brand-new extra content and revisions. Some of these changes or new bits are quite significant (e.g. the relationship between Lang Qianqiu and Xie Lian during the time he was Fang Xin Guoshi has been greatly expanded upon and given more depth). There is also apparently a new extra(s) as well! Unfortunately due to regulations and laws, this version is censored for certain scenes, but much of the romance parts remain the same from what I know!

If you knew about this already and were talking about something else, I'm so sorry! Please let me know if I'm missing something, and I'll follow up properly! 😭

[death-born-aphrodite]

It’s funny, I always thought we’d end up together. That we’d get a house and fill it with books we love and art on every wall. That it’d be our own little place. We can always say “in another life, universe, timeline it all works out” but we don’t know that. We just know the here and the now and maybe that’s enough. I need to let this idea go, I need to let you go. If it’s any consolation; you were my best idea.

- via (death-born-aphrodite)

[dxrk-sxdness]

he made me feel something again. he doesn’t even know it but he returned the light to my eyes, the spark in my heart, and the butterflies in my stomach. and i guess that’s why i just got so attached to him. he was the catalyst to gaining my fire back again. and i’m forever grateful. he doesn’t even know.

[asoftepiloguemylove]

hi! could you do a webweave on realizing that you are a combination of your parents' worst? thx! ♡⁠♡

the word "father" rotted in my mouth

i hope this is what you were looking for !! some of these just about parental failure and this is really long but i have a lot of posts about parents lol. i hope you're doing well <33

Ethel Cain Family Tree (Intro) / wych elm Susan Smith / @filmnoirsbian Do Not Reply / Mary Ruefle Woodtangle / Julia Jacklin Less of a Stranger / Halsey I Would Leave Me if I Could: A Collection of Poetry / Ocean Vuong On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous / The Front Bottoms Father / @filmnoirsbian / pinterest / Warsan Shire How to Wear your Mothers Lipstick / Smoke Signals (1998) dir. Chris Eyre / Ocean Vuong Someday I'll Love Ocean Vuong / pinterest / @extrasad

[cultheart]

but i have a lover and i have a best friend, i’m doing well and i hope u listen to this... u’ll always be on my list of all the good things that i miss.

[god-exi-ts]

You’re talking to strangers and acting like you’re more than okay. You smile from ear to ear when you feel the tears approaching. You don’t know how to let it out you so block out the entrance from the inside. You love making people laugh and laughing till your stomach hurts and your eyes water. You keep chasing rainbows. You’re sitting alone in your head letting the voices talk from your brain directly into your heart. You walk on razors and your feet have no feeling in them, it started from the top of your head and trickled down throughout your body. You can’t feel it anymore you can’t feel anything. You don’t remember what it felt like to feel something so you hold on to the things that make you feel anything. You attach yourself to whatever makes you feel something. Anything. Good or bad. You’ll take any of it because you’re desperate and trying to survive, ease the pain in whatever way you can. You say everything will be alright everything will be alright everything will be alright. If you say it enough it will be okay. If it isn’t okay you can pretend. Everything will be alright. You will be okay.

[letterstoyourlove]

My mother’s trust issues are leaking into my chest and I’ve got my father’s nose and his tendency to stop calling back. so I’m sorry about the 9 missed calls I have from you and the 6 voicemails I never played. I swear I’d love you if I could

-via extrasad

[my-angel-my-stars]

So, i have officially published my first book, and if you’d like to show it some love i’ve linked it here. With tumblr being the place where i express myself the most, in terms of social media, you all have seen me grow with each poem that is in this book. i am so grateful for all of the support and hope that you love ‘The art of becoming’ as much as i loved writing it. x

[regretfulfeels]

“You were my whole world, and I wasn’t fucking even in yours.”

Brii Watts via regretfulfeels on ig