#hd hurtfest 2020

[bridenore]

Recs masterlist part three : past fests

I’ve been doing drarry recs posts every week for a while and it’s getting harder and harder to navigate through all theses posts. So here is a masterlist of all the posts I made so far.

Note : the masterlist is now split into three parts. I have apparently reached the maximum number of links you can include in a single post. Part one is here Favorites, authors, themes and length and part two is here Ongoing fests.

Last updated : March 25th 2024 (Added since last update)

Previous update : September 25th 2023

Past Fests (the last edition was held before 2022)

Big Bangs : Harry Big Bang 2015, HD Big Bang 2011, Draco Big Bang 2010, Big Bang Baby 2008, Big Bang Baby 2007, Big Bang Baby 2005

Consent fest : 2019, 2018

Daily Deviant : Banging Birthday 2020

Harry submits : 2012

HD Canon fest : 2011

HD Collab : 2019

HD Eight Year : 2015

HD Glompfest : 2019, 2017, 2014, 2013, 2012, 2011, 2010

HD Holidays : 2012, 2011, 2010, 2009, 2008, 2007 winter, 2007 summer, 2006

HD Hurtfest : 2020 , 2016, 2015, 2014

HD Inspired : Animagus, Back to school, Mpreg

HP Creature fest : 2016

HD Remix : 2021, 2018, 2017, 2016, 2015 , 2014, 2013, 2012, 2011, 2007, 2006

HD Smoochfest : 2015, 2014, 2013, 2012, 2011, 2010, 2009

HD Tropes : 2019, 2016, 2014, 2013

HD World Cup : 2009, 2008

HP Animagus Fest : 2021

HP Creature Fest : 2016

HP Kinkfest : 2020, 2019, 2018, 2017, 2016, 2015, 2014, 2013, 2012, 2011, 2010

Special events :  Lock Down fest 2020

[sitp-recs]

Hello! Your recs are always so good! I was wondering if you could help me. I want to read the fics from the hurt fest 2020, but I won't be able to read it all. Could you do a top 5-10 of the ones I shouldnt miss? Thank you! Your Tumblr is the best!

Hi anon! Thank you, I’m so happy you enjoy the recs 💜 Lol, what a mood. I never manage to read everything from a fest either, especially one so emotionally devastating like Hurtfest, so I feel you! I haven’t read many fics myself so I’m highlighting these based solely on my personal preferences. I’m sure all of them are fantastic! As always, make sure to check the warnings:

Shorts:

Taro Milk Tea with a side of Depression by @veelawings (Mature, 1k)

Draco sat through twenty grievous minutes of Ministry-mandated group therapy for Newly Registered Magical Beings & Creatures — then promptly stormed out.

written on the box, under the skull and bones by @p1013 (Mature, 3k) - MCD

When Draco Malfoy died, the entire Wizarding World noted it like the passing of some ancient thing. The funeral was widely attended in the same way that one would attend a museum exhibit opening, a grand spectacle of days long past. Men wanted to see the fallen Caesar, and women wanted to see his possessions, the memory of both glittering and golden in the dying sunlight. Most, of course, were interested in the Manor.

Longfics:

hear me (with your whole body) by @teacup-tai (Explicit, 9k)

It was a sexy idea, exploring other bodies with Draco, engaging in sex with other people to spice things up. Something inside of him was excited about the prospect, but the nagging fear, the feeling of abandonment that follows each image that pops in his head is throwing him off. He would give it a go. See what it was like. He could always say no, right?

Closure is a state of mind by @quicksilvermaid (Explicit, 12k)

After Harry's husband Charlie is killed, his Mind Healer recommends a Polyjuice therapy company, so Harry can see 'Charlie' again and find closure over his death. Draco, whose life over the last ten years has gone from bad to worse, gets assigned Potter's case.

UnKnown by @dorthyanndrarry (Mature, 22k)

Draco just wanted a second chance, he was willing to work hard, he was willing to do whatever it took, but no one would let him live down his past. But when he recklessly casts a spell promising a new life, he's not prepared for the consequences...

Exposure by GallaPlacidia (Mature, 27k)

When Seamus uncovers Draco Malfoy's camboy profile, he, Harry and Ron decide to anonymously book a private show so as to humiliate him later. Fascinated by Draco's confidence, Harry keeps booking private shows under the disguise... Self prompt: Draco is a camboy. Harry betrays him.

If an Injury Is to Be Inflicted by @shealwaysreads (Explicit, 45k)

Harry Potter disappeared a year after the Battle of Hogwarts, and with him went all hope for true change in magical Britain. Three years later, Draco indulges himself and attends his first Dog Fight—the infamous underground fights with no rules, no referee, and no points system bar blood on the floor. The game was simple: you win, or you die. A glint of green amidst the blood-red changes everything.

Also - I don’t really read darkfic or MCD anymore but if you’re in the mood for it, I’ve heard great things about these:

the light that the fire would bring by @slytherco (Mature, 8k)

After escaping a war-torn wizarding world, Harry and Draco find some relative safety among the Muggles. Very soon, it turns out the reality they’ve found themselves in isn’t that much different. In which Harry learns that the world can end in more than one way.

A Cold Spot in Hell by @drarrytrash (Explicit, 8k)

When there’s nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire. If you wanted 8k of sexy arson, emotionally difficult arson, general arson, handkerchiefs, dread, and poetry curation, now is really your moment.

Coming Home by @nerdherderette (Mature, 10k)

Three years after his world was shattered, Harry tries to pick up the pieces at the place he once called home.

On the Last Day by @thusspoketrish (Explicit, 53k)

Draco is still mourning the recent loss of his mother when the Wizarding World is struck with the tragic news of Harry Potter’s untimely death. It’s just his luck that Potter not only comes back as a ghost, but seems intent on haunting Draco as he’s the only one that can see him. It’s a race against time to retrace the last few days of Potter’s life in order to find his body before he’s lost to the living or spiritual realm forever. On their journey, they’ll uncover secrets, betrayals, and a horrific truth that will disrupt both the living and the dead.

Absolution by @sunnyeclipses (Explicit, 63k)

At the mercy of his failing marriage, Harry only meant to use the potion once — to get Draco to listen. It’s not his fault that it works so well and that Draco’s just so easy to control.

[ununquadius]

Fic Claim: Texting You

I wrote this fic for @hd-hurtfest​ and it was such a good experience! I want to thank the mods and everyone who participate on it for their amazing work. 

Title: Texting You 

Rating: T 

Pairings: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, background Ron Weasley/Hermione Granger 

Word count: 6005 

Warnings: Major Character Death (Draco), Grief/Mourning, hurt/comfort 

Content/Enticements: text fic, everyday life, asexual Harry Potter, Indian Harry Potter, one penis drawing, pets, 

Summary: After Draco's death, Harry can't let go so he keeps texting their private chat, updating him on his life and rambling about everything and anything until it almost feels like there's a possibility that, one day, a reply will come.

Read on AO3

[alindakb]

Silent Tears - chapter 2.2 - by Alinda

“I’m sorry,” Hermione repeats. Draco stares at her. He can feel the tears slide over his cheeks. He wants to tell her he’s not mad at her, that he’s happy for her and Ron. Only his mouth won’t cooperate. He opens it, only to close it again. Because he also wants to scream. He wants to take his wand and smash Hermione's plates and glasses until it doesn’t hurt anymore.

“I know this is the worst time to tell you both, but Ron slipped up when he was at his mother's. And Harry, you know how Molly is. Before tomorrow the entire family will know. And I wanted you to hear it from us.” Hermione rattles on. Draco loves her; he truly does. It just hurts, more than he expected.

“It’s okay, Mione,” Harry tells her. “And we’re happy for you and Ron. It’s amazing news. It’s just, well, you know.” Harry rests his hand on Draco’s and squeezes it lightly.

“I’m truly sorry,” Hermione repeats. Tears well up in her eyes and Draco shakes his head. He doesn’t want to upset her. She should be happy and glowing. Draco knows the feeling, wishes every night that he could get that feeling back. He was an idiot to think that once he would stop with the birth control potion, he would be pregnant straight away. It’s only been three months. The average time for someone of his age to fall pregnant is five to six months. There is nothing to worry about. Their time will come. Draco just needs to be patient. And stop thinking about the baby he’d already lost.  

“Don’t apologise,” Harry tells Hermione. “We’ll celebrate later. But this week. It’s been hard.”

Hermione nods and then gets up to make more tea.

“We’re really sorry, Harry,” Ron says. “I should have been more careful with my words around my mother.”

“It’s okay, Ron. We’re glad you invited us over to make sure we didn’t hear from someone else. And I’m looking forward to becoming a godfather again.” Harry turns to look at Draco. He wipes a tear from Draco’s cheek and smiles at Draco. Draco tries to smile back at him, but the corners of his mouth don’t want to rise to form a smile. Ron and Hermione were supposed to be the godparents by now, and Harry and Draco the parents, not the other way around.

“I think we’re going to go home now,” Harry says without taking his eyes of Draco.

“Yeah, sure. No problem, man. We get it.” Ron gets up and hugs Harry and then Draco. “Don’t worry about it, cry all you need, and we’ll drink a beer soon to celebrate,” Ron tells Draco before he lets go of him. Draco can only nod his head in agreement. He’s afraid that if he tries to talk, he will break down completely. Draco somehow finds the strength to hug Hermione and congratulate her before he turns and takes Harry’s hand. Harry swirls them away from Ron and Hermione’s cottage.

Draco lands with his feet on the fluffy rug that decorates their living room and crumples to the floor. Harry’s arms are around him in seconds. “It’s okay, I’ve got you,” Harry says. Draco nods against Harry’s chest and grabs hold of his sides, pulling him closer towards him.

“It hurts, it hurts so fucking much,” Draco stutters.

“I know, sweetheart. It’s okay, they understand.”

“We could have had a baby by now,” Draco says. The words hurt, but it’s what has been swimming around his head this entire week. That if he hadn’t lost their baby, it would have been born around this time. They would have been parents. But instead of that, the only thing Draco has is a massive hole in his heart that doesn’t seem to heal. No matter how hard he tries to mend it back together.

“One day, we just need to be a little more patient,” Harry tells Draco.

“Says the most impatient person I know,” Draco jokes. They both laugh, and the burden on Draco’s shoulders lifts a little. He’s not doing this alone. It still surprises him some times that he has someone who cares for him, cries for him and holds him when the world seems too heavy to handle.

“Do you want to order some pizza? We kind of skipped the dinner part, and I don’t feel like cooking anything,” Harry says. Draco lifts his head and sits up a little straighter.

“I should apologise to them.” Draco wrings his hands together. “I was a horrible guest.”

“Don’t worry about it,” Harry tells him. “Nobody blames you. You heard Hermione. She couldn’t stop apologising for being pregnant and having to tell us now, on the day you were due.”

“But still, I don’t want her to think I’m not happy for them,” Draco says. He can’t help it. He feels guilty for not celebrating with them. No matter how much they understand, it’s wrong and impolite.

“Oh, sweetheart.” Harry strokes his hand through Draco’s hair and then places a soft kiss on his lips. “They don’t think that. They know you love them.”

“I’m jealous,” Draco confesses. He looks at the ground and plucks on his sweater.

Harry laughs, and Draco looks up, confused. “What you’re laughing about? It’s horrible. They are our friends, and I’m jealous that they get what I want. I’m a horrible person.”

“Well, then we’re both horrible people,” Harry states.

Draco stares at Harry. Sometimes he’s a mystery to Draco. Even after all this time they’ve spent together, getting to know each other more and more each day. A beautiful, wonderful mystery. But nonetheless a mystery.

“I’m jealous, too, silly,” Harry says. “Fuck, you know how badly I want a family of our own. You have any idea how hard it was to wait patiently until you were ready to try again? And how fucking hard it is to be patient until it’s our time now when my best friends stop birth control and fall pregnant within a month. I wanted to destroy their kitchen and hug them at the same time.”

Draco laughs and pulls Harry in for another kiss. Their lips smash together, and Draco crawls on top of Harry’s lap, his legs around his hips. It doesn’t take long before their sweaters lay somewhere around them on the floor and Harry starts to open Draco’s trousers. Draco feels relieved when Harry works his way inside him, knowing he’s just as eager as Draco to get what they want.

After they lay on the floor in the living room, their hands linked and one of the blankets that never leaves the sofa on top of them to make sure they stay warm.

“What about that pizza, now?” Harry asks.

“Yeah, a pizza sounds perfect as long as I can lay here for the rest of the evening,” Draco answers.

“I was more thinking of pizza and then upstairs, make it a little more comfortable for when I fuck you again,” Harry says while he gets up to find his phone. He rings the pizza place and orders their regular pizzas. Then he pulls on his pants and walks out of the room.

“Where are you going?” Draco shouts after him.

“I need a drink. You want beer or wine?” Harry shouts back from the kitchen. Draco hears the fridge open.

“Do we have any white in there?” he asks.

He can hear Harry laugh and Draco knows that he’s muttering now that they always have white wine in the fridge because they aren’t barbarians, as Draco likes to put it himself. Draco fishes out his phone from the pocket of his discarded trousers. He’s got a couple of messages from Pansy, asking him if he’s okay and if he needs to go drinking with her. That she heard from Bill that Hermione and Ron are expecting, and that she will go hex Ron if Draco wants her too. Draco texts back that he’s okay and that she can leave Ron in one piece.

Hermione picks up on the first ring. Her greeting a little hesitant. Draco hates that he’s made her unsure of their friendship.

“I love you, and I’m sorry I didn’t congratulate you properly,” Draco tells her. “Don’t let my stupid behaviour ruin this moment for you,” he continues.

“I love you too,” Hermione answers.

“Can we try this again tomorrow? I promise not to cry like a baby again.”

“Oh, Draco. You’re allowed to cry as much as you need. We love you. And I might not fully understand your pain. I know it’s there, and that’s okay. I also know that you’re happy for us and will be an amazing uncle to our little one.”

“Thank you,” Draco says. He feels new tears in his eyes, and he’s glad that Harry has returned with the wine and places an arm around him.

Harry mouths Hermione, and Draco nods. Harry kisses Draco on his cheek and turns on the television.

“You go and have a good evening with Harry,” Hermione says on the other side of the line. “And then we’ll see you guys tomorrow for lunch, and you can all drink a beer on my pregnancy while I sip some fruit juice.”

Draco laughs and tells Hermione they will. They say their goodbyes and Draco puts his phone away. He rests his head on Harry’s shoulder and watches the telly with him in silence. His mind races and he can still feel the hole in his heart, but the strong arm around his shoulders helps, and maybe soon the pain will be replaced by the joy of a new little miracle of their own.

[drarryspecificrecs]

H/D Hurt!Fest 2020 :

@hd-hurtfest​ || official masterpost || AO3 || ∑ = 48 works The Mods : @alpha-exodus & @quicksilvermaid Banner © : @slytherco's the light that the fire would bring

Absolution by @sunnyeclipses [E, 63k]

All we know by @legendrarry [T, art]

Blood is the Taste of Love by crazyparakiss [E, 2k]

A breath worth of life by @tedahfromtayla [E, 39k]

Call Me by Your Name (And I'll Call You by Mine) by @acupforslytherin [M, 35k]

Closure is a state of mind by @quicksilvermaid [E, 12k]

Coated in Rust and Blood by crazyparakiss [M, 2k]

A Cold Spot in Hell by @drarrytrash [E, 8k]

Coming Home by @nerdherderette [M, 9k]

Disjointed heart by @lovestillaround [M, 21k]

Exposure by GallaPlacidia [M, 26k]

Fight or Flight? by @big-draco-energy [M, 4k]

hear me (with your whole body) by @teacup-tai [E, 9k]

Here Without You by @gracerene09 [E, 26k]

I will always know where to find you by @foularcadebanana [T, 15k]

I'm Not in Your Dreams by @ununquadius [T, 9k]

If an Injury Is to Be Inflicted by @shealwaysreads [E, 44k]

If Wishes were Peacocks by @sliceosunshine [M, 11k]

If You Love Somebody (Then Let Them Go) by @ladderofyears [T, 16k]

Intertwined by @thesleepiesthufflepuff [E, 25k]

Letters he never sent by @hypallepse [M, 6k]

the light that the fire would bring by @slytherco [M, 8k]

Lubido Mendax by @malenkayacherepakha [E, 17k]

Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can Have by @moonlitmaruader [E, 20k]

The meaning behind words by @tomoewantsdolls [T, 4k]

Melancholic Moonlight by Monotremata [T, art]

A Nightmare Waiting to Happen by @triggerlil [E, 21k]

No More Desperate a Creature by @glitteringvoids [M, 29k]

Not That Kind of Lovers by @alpha-exodus [M, 5k]

Nothing's as It Seems by @eva-eleanore [E, 17k]

On the Last Day by @thusspoketrish [E, 53k]

Orion in the Sky by space_wingding [E, 30k]

Out of Sight, Out of Mind by Winterwolke [E, 7k]

Proof of Life by @aedwritesfic [M, 20k]

Silent Tears by @alindakb [T, 33k]

slipping through the cracks (of your cold embrace) by @swisstae [M, 14k]

Sweet Nothings by @penguinanimagus [M, 1k]

Taro Milk Tea with a side of Depression by @veelawings [M, 1k]

Texting You by @ununquadius [T, 6k]

Their Shining Star by @ladderofyears [E, 8k]

There was still hope by @gnarf [M, 3k]

This House Is On Fire, WOO! by @big-draco-energy [E, 1k]

Time After Time by @goldenzingy46 [G, 1k]

UnKnown by @dorthyanndrarry [M, 22k]

Wake Up In The Night by @p1013 [E, 10k]

When It's All Over by @erebeus-roxy [M, 9k]

Wilted by @thewakeless [E, 38k]

written on the box, under the skull and bones by @p1013 [M, 3k]

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✔ other fests in 2020 ✔ fests in other years ✔ H/D Hurt!Fest : 2016 | 2015 | 2014

[shealwaysreads]

Top 5 of 2020

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 (ish) favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works! 

I was tagged by @tackytigerfic @maesterchill @bonesliketambourines @sitp-recs @peachpety @lazywonderlvnd @ohdrarry @gallifrey1sburning and @pineau-noir ❤️ thank you all for the tag, it’s been a joy to see your own reflections on your work this last year, and an interesting one to mull over for myself, too!

2020 has been such an absolute bruiser of a year that I feel proud to have created anything, and I love every word I’ve written because, frankly, every word was a tiny step forward into imagination and creativity (rather than the cavernous sinkhole of anxiety and stress that I was tip-toeing beside). But, that said, here are my top five fics in chronological order:

Speak (and may the world come undone) is a 26k story born out of a tiny little 120 word drabble, and I am still really proud of exploring this concept of canon divergence where Draco’s loyalties shift earlier. It was a real challenge to handle canon this much, without simply re-treading it, and to balance the despair of war with the hope of survival and the realities of life beyond. It was also the first time I’ve written a first time, and doing that justice was so important to me. What I’m proud of: this Harry and his courage to have faith, the moments of weakness they all have, the dreams, Fleur and Harry’s conversation, Draco’s subtle but granite-firm loyalty, Harry grasping a moment of self-possession and pleasure.

Life Goes Not Backward was an idea that sprang fully-formed into my mind at about half past midnight when I was supposed to be focusing only on writing Speak, so I had to wait a month or so to sit down to the concept of Harry and settling down roots, and of Ruby. It’s a shorter fic, at 8k, in which I packed Harry’s life post-war, his burgeoning relationship with Draco turning into something solid and lasting, and then Ruby herself into just six days. What I’m proud of: giving this a light touch, exploring a Harry who’s older, and ready to come home after abandoning Britain, of the atmosphere—it’s warm and gentle and soft and hopeful and everything I needed this year—and of the naming. 

Catch and Release was written for my darling @tackytigerfic’s birthday, and what started out as a little 2k fic grew into 11k of Draco’s pov and me toying with the tropes of accidental bonding and there was only one bed. The Draco in this fic is very close to my heart, there’s probably a lot of me in him, and Harry is everything I think he could grow into—powerful but restrained when he need to be, protective but not coddling, still carrying his wounds but always and ever reaching out. What I’m proud of: the tension, the slow build of trust, the contrast of touch starvation and tactility, the moment’s of understanding, and the way Harry and Draco find someone they can just be with.

If an Injury Is to be Inflicted was written for @hd-hurtfest and is my longest published fic to date. It was also a real experiment for me, writing something sharper and wilder and a little darker than anything I’ve done before—I was totally inspired by @quicksilvermaid’s prompt and this world was in such sharp definition for me so quickly, I loved writing it. What I’m proud of: the pacing and the tension, the fight scenes (my god that was an adventure to write), the exploration of every character and how they might respond to this post-war reality of corruption, and most of all I’m proud of Draco and Harry and every moment between them.

Breathe You In is such an indulgent fic, written for the inaugural @hpsudsfest and gifted to the lovely @mai-und-regen —but I first had the idea for it in December 2019 (thank you @maesterchill you know what you did). This was such a pleasure to write, to imagine as I tinkered on it, and to submerge myself in the warmth and hedonism of the lazy Sunday afternoon I gave to Harry. What I’m proud of: the details, the warmth, the atmosphere, the intimacy, and that bath. (I want that bath)

I’m sure you’ve all already been tagged (because I’m late enough to be doing my 2020 tags in 2021) but if you guys want to play then @slytherco @p1013 @veelawings @practicefortheheart @bogglebeans @clotpolesonly @hedwig-dordt @hogwartsfirebolt @onbeinganangel @dragontamerdame @bluebutter-art @ladderofyears @xanthippe74 @zigster-ao3 @gnarf and literally everyone who sees this and wants to do it—tag me if you do so I can come and peep your faves! ❤️ 

[dewitty1]

Fic Recs Wrap Up  -  September 2020 (੭ˊ͈ ꒵ˋ͈)･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*☆

A Secondary Education by Thunderbird587

Fleeing the aftermath of his recent divorce, Draco Malfoy takes up a post as the new Potions Master at Hogwarts. At first he believes his hopes for a fresh start are dashed when he sees that a certain boyhood rival is on staff there as well. But Harry Potter is being weirdly nice to him, leaving Draco no choice but to play along. As Draco reckons with his ex-wife's infidelity and questions about his own sexuality, he finds himself going to an openly gay Potter for guidance. As their friendship deepens, Draco realizes that there is quite a lot that Potter can teach him. And that he is surprisingly ready to learn.  Rec Post

And an Owl Named Romeo by Rickey

Draco breeds owls, Harry's an Auror, and an owl named Romeo is going to bring them together.  Rec Post

Owned by JordanGrant

The Malfoys have always been owned by the Potters. Strange? Yes. But true, and coming true again. Harry finds himself with no alternative but to claim Draco for his very own slave. Rec Post

Forgive Those Who Trespass by Lomonaaeren

Harry Potter was convinced he had an ordinary, if inconvenient, life. Then Ron and Hermione vanished in the Department of Mysteries. And the only person who may know where they are is a mute Draco Malfoy. Rec Post

All Our Secrets Laid Bare by firethesound @firethesound

Over the six years Draco Malfoy has been an Auror, four of his partners have turned up dead. Harry Potter is assigned as his newest partner to investigate just what is going on. Rec Post, Art post by @kuroostatic Art Post by @creeeee

Ligabus Filium by Tessa Crowley (tessacrowley) @tessacrowley

It should be careful, deliberate, but it isn't. Like every other part of their relationship, it happens gradually and then all at once, before they even realize it. And when the little blue threads bind them together, there's no going back. Rec Post

He's got fire for a heart, and I'm scared of burning by Samcgrath

Harry returns to England to help solve a particularly tricky case but nobody bothered to mention that he'd be working with Malfoy, who seems just as happy about it as Harry. In his absence, the wizarding world has changed in ways Harry's having some trouble adjusting to while Malfoy struts around in his elegant robes and effortlessly charms everyone he lays eyes on. Months of grappling with his own feelings, trying to understand Draco's, pining day in and day out - it can get a little tiring especially when Draco Malfoy is as infuriating as ever. Rec Post

The Nobility of Ascent by Lomonaaeren

Not even his own fame and power are enough to get the Wizengamot to pass laws protecting Muggleborn and orphaned children, so Harry swallows his pride and goes to Draco Malfoy, who can teach him how to convince the prejudiced old bastards to listen to him. And Malfoy hasn’t even named a price. Which…concerns Harry, but he’s found a cause worth living for. And maybe someone, too. Rec Post

Malfoy Flavor by Vorabiza (Biza)

Harry’s ready to banish the Golden Boy image and take charge of his life. Unfortunately for him, or fortunately, there are surprises in store for him. Rec Post

(*˘︶˘*).｡.:*♡ Have a look at these other fics I think you might enjoy - 

A Gift for Draco by SquadOfCats @norelationtoatticus

Though their new relationship is going well, both Harry and Draco have trouble communicating and are holding back from taking things to the next level--emotionally and sexually. When Harry decides he is ready for more, he stumbles over how to start the conversation, but figures out a plan with the help of his friends. He comes up with the perfect Valentine's Day gift to show Draco trust, commitment, and desire: sexy pictures of his naked arse. Thankfully, Pansy Parkinson has a camera and is willing to help... Rec Post 1, 2

Another Heart Whispers Back by slytherco @slytherco

At twenty-five, Harry Potter is still a virgin and sorely lacking in options to change that state anytime soon. To help him find a plus one for Ron and Hermione’s wedding, and maybe kill two birds with one stone, Harry’s friends set him up on a series of blind dates. The only problem is, there’s something not quite right with each of their candidates.

“Every heart sings a song, incomplete, until another heart whispers back. Those who wish to sing always find a song. At the touch of a lover, everyone becomes a poet.” ― Plato

In which Harry learns that some things are worth waiting for, that looking and seeing are two very different things, and that his heart’s song has been heard a long time ago. Fic Claim

The Ferret's Nest by loveglowsinthedark @l0vegl0wsinthedark

Harry has a ferret and a whole lot of tattoos. Unfortunately, it's only one of these things Draco approves of. Art post by @rainsoakedhello

An Act of Kindness for One Harry Potter by a Sympathetic Draco Malfoy by 0idontknow0

As Draco leaned on the wall to wait for them to get dressed, he could not help feeling like he had done a very kind thing by disrupting them. Someone should give Potter a better rogering than that sorry sod had. The man had saved the bloody world—okay, mostly Europe—the least someone could do was give him a proper shag.

Lubido Mendax by Anonymous (for @hd-hurtfest)

When Harry is hit by an old and alarming sex curse while on a job with Malfoy, he’s faced with an agonising decision. But it turns out that curing the curse was easy compared to everything that came next.

The Four Doors by fluxweed @fluxweeed

It’s been four months since Harry lost his memory. Four months of dead ends and no answers. With time running out until his memories are gone for good, Harry agrees to a course of Legilimency therapy with a renowned specialist: Mind Healer Draco Malfoy.

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I hope you enjoy these as much as I have!  

As always, thank you so much for  following, reading, and reblogging! Your support means so much to me!

 I’ve already started posting October recs!

xoxo Carey ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡💜💙💚💛❤💗💕💖

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2020.09.25

Complete fics posted on AO3 this day

1. The Auction Bet by @violamoonfanfic [T, 2k]

► Draco and Harry compete to paint the best-selling painting for the Hogwarts Memorial Auction, with their own bets at stake.

2. Friends With The Enemy by @sketchy-d00d [T, 1k]

► Harry goes to the library and finds Draco, deciding it would be best to ask him for help he does so, finding out a few secrets Draco would rather keep quiet.

3. Love Where the Lightning Strikes by eqyptiangold [T, 12k]

► When Potter slams Draco into the wall and snogs him, interrupting a biting insult, Draco’s first instinct is to press into it with enough rough vehemence that he’ll be able to pass it off as— well. He’s not quite sure yet, but he’ll be able to pass it off as something other than what it is: an embarrassing desire to savour any chance he can get at kissing Potter.

4. Safe House by 286474 [E, 63k]

► When Harry is stuck in a safe house protecting Draco, confusing feelings begin to surface. With both of their lives falling apart, will they find solace in each-other's arms?

5. the slightest clue (or lack thereof) by peachnectarsoda [G, 2k]

► Harry Potter gets in an accident that leaves him hospitalized at St Mungo's Hospital, Draco Malfoy is in love, and Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley have no idea what's going on.

6. Teamwork by Vodyona [E, 3k]

► Draco hates Potter for no particular reason and it works out pretty well for him.

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Fest/Exchange

1. Astronomy | Never Let It Fade Away by @drarrelie [M, 29k]

►If a dying enemy knocked on your door, would you tell them to fuck off or would you try to help them? When it happens to Harry, he is dead set on the former — until Malfoy falls unconscious right there on Harry’s doorstep and changes Harry’s life forever. ★ Seven Shades of Drarry | @sevenshadesofdrarry

2. Fight or Flight? by Anonymous [M, 4k]

► Something's gotten into you // You don't really look at me the way you used to // And I'm hoping it ain't true // Every single rumour that I've heard of you say // You were off with someone that I don't know // Calling other people on your telephone // Kinda wish I didn't know... ★ H/D Hurt!Fest 2020 | @hd-hurtfest

3. Orion in the Sky by Anonymous [E, 30k]

► Draco Malfoy owns a bookshop in the Lake District. He’s also cursed. Enter: Harry Potter. ★ H/D Hurt!Fest 2020 | @hd-hurtfest

4. Teddy's Favourite by Anonymous [T, 2k]

► It didn't come as a surprise when Teddy demanded to finally go to the beach. [...] There was only one little problem with the whole trip. Teddy insisted on inviting his favourite cousin, the one he reconnected with in the last year and the same one that quickly earned Teddy's trust and love, becoming his favourite person. Said cousin was of course none other than Draco Malfoy. ★ Very Drarry Summer Vibes

5. They were Once Young by @acupforslytherin [T, 6k]

►During the summer holiday, Harry and Draco were finally meeting each other’s parents. After Harry’s failed attempt to woo the Malfoys, Draco braced himself for another disaster at Godric’s Hollow. Little did he know, he was in for a delightful French dinner, two generations of embarrassing Potters, and a story of how young James and Lily got together. ★ HP Fluff Fest 2020 | @hpfluff-fest

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Gnarf’s 2020

and what a fucking year that was... Anyways, let’s talk about the good things, shall we?

I made it through 2020 alive and without going insane! Yay! So lets see what else I did. (This is a long post)

In the beginning of 2020 I said I won’t participate in many fests. Only three or something like that. Lets check how that went!

Fests Gnarf participated in: 9

@lockdownfest @lcdrarry @hd-wireless @hpfluff-fest @hd-hurtfest @hd-fan-fair @hd-erised @gameofdrarry in drarropoly @wireless-festive-minifest​

Haha yup, three. Sounds legit. I also wandered off to try if I can art! No worries, I gave that up :D Mad respect to all Artists, arting is exhausting and the progress is too slow for me.

If you really want to check out my attempts, here’s what made its way onto AO3:

Dont Blink! for LCDrarry, it includes the Angels from Doctor Who and was a pain in the arse.

If you knew... was made for H/D Wireless and has the armiest arm i ever saw, very proud of that one. Its also the last thing I made.

Home Sweet Home was also made for H/D Wireless, and the first bigger art piece I tried my hand on.

A muffled groan which is rather explicit and I entirely forgot about making it :D it has a ficlet going with it too.

(I think theres other Art stuff here with the tag #gnarf draws or something)

I reached my yearly goal of writing 100k words once again!

Fics and Ficlets I wrote this year: 20(ish)

Better Side of the Bed (Lock Down Fest, T, 2k)

It was all Malfoy's fault. Harry could be at the Burrow right now, but instead he was trapped in Malfoy's tiny flat. All because that dick couldn't stop bothering him about a stupid life debt he didn't even care about.

Doing What's Best (G, ~800 words)

Lucius looked down at the little bundle currently sleeping in Narcissa's arms and felt terror shoot through his body. A little boy, his hair so white it was nearly invisible. Born only a few hours ago, taking his first breath in the light of the rising sun. Narcissa had whispered a welcome, her eyes wet, her smile bigger than ever. But they both knew, even though temporarily safe, he really wasn't. Draco was born into a world ruled by war. If only it'd end soon.

I better be hallucinating this (T, 3.8k)

After the war Draco Malfoy is sentenced to Azkaban for a really long sentence. Apparently aiding in Dumbledore's death overrules any argument Harry could put up for him. After the trial, as the days pass by, Harry is more and more outraged at the sentence. He can't stop obsessing over the fact that Draco Malfoy saved his life and aided him during the war and is very much capable of redemption. Not to mention that Malfoy has always been a delicate git and would never survive Azkaban. After a few weeks obsessing Harry decides that Malfoy indeed can't remain unjustly in Azkaban and starts to plot a way to break him out of jail and hide him in Grimmauld Place. When Hermione finds out she's not amused. Ron is horrified. Draco still thinks he's hallucinating.

Keep Holding On (Wireless, M. 33.333) A collab with @maesterchill​ who surprised me with lovely art for it!

After the Battle of Hogwarts, Harry and Draco both fall into their own battles with their mental states. Draco is sent to Azkaban, and Harry turns to drinking, hoping to forget. Months later, Harry visits St Mungo’s new ward on the request of a friend, only to find Draco in a deep vegetative state. Not willing to give him up, Harry stays by his side, while simultaneously dealing with the Ministry's newest grand idea to make everything worse. Making new allies, and losing old ones along the way, will hopefully be worth it in the end.

Age is just a number (Fluff Fest, T, 1.5k)

Married for decades, their life is perfect. Until Harry gets a call and hears the following words: "Mr Potter, we caught your husband stealing ten large packs of King Sized condoms."

There was still hope (Hurt Fest, M, 3.1k)

Draco winced as pain shot through his leg with every step. This secret, back-alley laboratory had been his last chance, last hope, to find the potion. But nobody had it in stock, and there was no time left to brew it himself. Panic was slowly overtaking his entire mind as he crept out of the store and back to the nearest alley to Apparate back home. He already felt off, and it was still early in the day. Of course this thestral-shit had to happen to him, of all people. As if life wasn't bad enough for him already.

Desire (E, 1.7k)

"Auror Potter, what a pleasant surprise to meet you here. What can I do for you?" "Stop the show, Malfoy. There's no one around, and I'm not here as an Auror." Draco watched Potter move closer until they were nearly nose to nose, only the small counter of his shop kept Potter at distance. Potter's eyes were dark with something Draco couldn't exactly name, his face was flushed and the air surrounding him felt somehow static. Draco felt the urge to lean further over his counter, to drink in his sight, to touch the man on the other side—but he didn't.

Drarropoly 2020 currently holds 7 ficlets and is in a Series. The highest rating is Mature and its 3.2k in total at this point.

Let's not wait for France (Fan Fair, T, 17.7k)

All Harry had wanted from his Eighth year at Hogwarts was a little peace and a little privacy but, from the moment that he stepped onto Platform 9 3/4, it was obvious that nothing was ever going to be that easy. An accidental bond with Malfoy that resulted in them having to stay together at all times was the final straw. Things couldn't be worse. So much to a quiet year in Hogwarts.

Love letters for the oblivious (Mini Wireless, T, 716 words)

Draco had gotten the strangest letters all week long, which wasn't what anyone needed at Christmas. Especially not him. Either someone was taking the piss, or he had a very dumb and inefficient secret admirer. And Draco didn't know which would be worse.

Double-Booked (Mini Wireless, T, 2.1k)

Finally, peace and quiet, and— "Malfoy?!?" Or the one where Harry thought he could enjoy a quiet Christmas far from everyone, just to find out that the cabin he had booked already accommodated another guest.

The best Christmas he ever had (Mini WirelessT, 1.9k)

Christmas had never been less appealing to him than this year. That was until Arthur Weasley showed up at his door, dressed as Santa, inviting him to the Burrow.

Anon Fests to be added

Whoever made it to this point: yoooo! Friend! Lots of love to you! I also got tagged in many get to know me posts, plenty of love in my Inbox giving me love slaps left and right (honestly, im bruised, stop slapping me), amazing person awards, top 5 fics, and whatever you can think of.

To make up for not answering most of them because I’m a horrible person:

My favourite colour: purple My age: I’ll be 30 next year in April, I expect gifts, I don’t accept first borns My favourite trope: eight year My favourite animal: cat My favourite ice cream: Ben and Jerry’s Cookie Dough Here’s my writing Playlist, it’s the worst you’ll ever see, and yes, I use YouTube, I’m old.

Other things that happened in 2020 that made me happy:

I kicked out my mentally/emotionally abusive partner of 7 years in January

I kept my grandma alive through this *waves hand at world*

I was able to share my birthday cake with my family becaus I got to leave my first quarantine a few days before my birthday

I got to keep my job

I found a lot of lovely friends in this fandom, and got to keep them through this year

My cats are their usual little jerks and actually enjoyed me being at home due to the raging pandemic

I finally cut off my hair

I’m about to hit 3.5k followers here and I love you all

I’m also tagging everyone who sees this and wants to do something similiar! Show us what you did in 2020, the things you’re proud of, and the things you loved! Let’s spread some happy for the end of the year 💜🥰

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Your reblog on mcd is spot on!!! I’m a sucker for a happy ending, I can read angst as long as I know that eventually there’s a happy ending. I get so curious with the hd-hurtfest fics but my poor heart and soul cannot handle mcd or unhappy endings, I just get too attached lmao :(

God I KNOW RIGHT? I’ve had my fair share of angst and MCD when I was younger, but I can’t handle sad endings nowadays (even if I’m a big catharsis fan and love open endings, go figure 😂). I also think that seeing one of my all-time favorite characters dying on screen affected what I’m looking for in fic. I reblogged that post because it all comes down to tagging, really - even if I’m okay with MCD I gotta be in the right mood/mindset for it, so I appreciate knowing it beforehand! And oh my, from what I’ve seen this year’s HD Hurtfest sounds deliciously painful! I’ve only read the camboy!Draco one so far (it’s glorious! Highly recommend) and I’m looking forward to exploring the other ones without MCD, hopefully soon 🙏🏼

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HD Hurtfest 2020 recs

Here are some of my favorite fics from @hd-hurtfest 2020. Listed in alphabetical order.

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Call Me by Your Name (And I'll Call You by Mine) by @acupforslytherin [35k]

My dearest Harry, because no matter how far we are, even two different worlds apart, I can never tell where you end and I start.

Draco never expected Potter to find his way back to his life, especially after seven years of no contact, but here he was. With Potter's will in his hands, his own name written in that untidy scribble he recognized anywhere, Draco had to accept this was his time to reopen an old wound, revisit painful memories, and relearn everything he thought he knew about his past.

Coming Home by @nerdherderette [9k]

Three years after his world was shattered, Harry tries to pick up the pieces at the place he once called home.

Disjointed heart by @lovestillaround [21k]

Draco tries to take control over his life whenever he can. He does whatever is best for him. He protects himself in ways his parents didn’t protect him. He tries to minimise the discomfort he feels by avoiding most people, by covering himself up, creating barriers and putting up walls.

Maybe he has lost himself in it all.

Maybe he never really knew who he was in the first place.

Exposure by GallaPlacidia [26k]

When Seamus uncovers Draco Malfoy's camboy profile, he, Harry and Ron decide to anonymously book a private show so as to humiliate him later. Fascinated by Draco's confidence, Harry keeps booking private shows under the disguise...

Self prompt: Draco is a camboy. Harry betrays him.

If an Injury Is to Be Inflicted by @shealwaysreads [44k]

If an injury has to be done to a man it should be so severe that his vengeance need not be feared.

Harry Potter disappeared a year after the Battle of Hogwarts, and with him went all hope for true change in magical Britain.

Three years later, Draco indulges himself and attends his first Dog Fight—the infamous underground fights with no rules, no referee, and no points system bar blood on the floor. The game was simple: you win, or you die.  

A glint of green amidst the blood-red changes everything.

Lubido Mendax by @malenkayacherepakha [17k]

When Harry is hit by an old and alarming sex curse while on a job with Malfoy, he’s faced with an agonising decision. But it turns out that curing the curse was easy compared to everything that came next.

Not That Kind of Lovers by  @alpha-exodus​   [5k]

The only thing Draco knows is that at the end of this, one of them will be dead.

Orion in the Sky by space_wingding [30k]

Draco Malfoy owns a bookshop in the Lake District. He’s also cursed. Enter: Harry Potter.

Out of Sight, Out of Mind by Winterwolke [7k]

"Grey eyes snap up to him, but they’re not as sharp and calculating as Harry remembers. There’s pain there, making them dull and glazed over. It makes him ache in return, somewhere in a corner of his heart that he wants to rip out immediately after he registers it. It feels wrong to have this reaction to Draco Malfoy, but Harry can’t help it. The house is seriously messing with his mind."

Trapped inside a strange house with no memories of his life past eighth year, Harry struggles with what he doesn't remember and the only person he can find: Draco Malfoy.

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I hope you enjoy these stories as much as I did!

[alindakb]

Silent Tears - Chapter 1.3 - by Alinda

Andromeda holds a cup of tea in front of Draco. Draco stares at it and shakes his head. He doesn’t think he can drink anything right now.

“Take it, it’s your favourite and Teddy helped make it,” Andromeda says.

Draco looks up at her. Andromeda smiles at him. It doesn’t reach her eyes, but Draco appreciates the gesture.  

“He will be disappointed if you leave it. Just sip it when he comes in, Harry can throw it out once we leave.” Draco knows Andromeda is right, it will just upset Teddy, and that is the last thing Draco wants to do right now.

“Thank you,” Draco tells Andromeda as he takes his hands from under the blanket and takes the cup. It’s steaming, and Draco sniffs up the steam. It smells good, and maybe it won’t be a hardship to drink it once it cools down a little.

Andromeda sits down on the chair across the room with her cup. She blows over it and then takes a sip. “Teddy is getting good at making tea. He wants to do it all by himself, but I think he’s still a little too young to handle a kettle filled with boiling water.”

Draco nods and turns his focus back to his tea. The cup warms his hands. It reminds him of the cups of tea his mother used to make when he was little. She would always say that a good cup of tea makes everything better. He stopped believing that during the war, when nothing could make things better, not even a cup of tea. When the only thing Draco could do was get high so he would forget. The tea also does nothing for the pain he feels right now. It doesn’t magically heal the hole that has formed in his heart.

“Mother isn’t answering my calls. I’ve tried to Flo her multiple times.” Draco says out of nowhere.

“I think she’s off on one of her cruises again. I’ll pop by the Manor tomorrow when Teddy is at the nursery and see if she’s there,” Andromeda says.

“Thank you,” Draco tells her. He doesn’t think it will do anything. His mother won’t come rushing to his side to help him. They’ve hardly spoken in the last couple of months. Draco doesn’t know what to say to her anymore since she didn’t even bother to show up to his wedding.

“You are allowed to miss her. She’s still your mother, Draco.”

A tear slips from Draco’s eyes, and he turns away from Andromeda. “She will just say I deserve this. She made it pretty clear what she thinks about my life choices.” Draco swallows and wipes his tears away. “I don’t know why I even care that she knows.”

“She’s been the person to comfort you for a long time, Draco. It’s okay to long for that now that you’re hurting. I missed my mother, even after all the hurtful things she’d said about Ted and me. I don’t know if I ever told you, but Ted and I tried to have more children after Nymphadora. It took a long time for me to get pregnant again. It didn’t work out for us, and after that, we never managed to conceive again.”

“I’m sorry,” Draco says. He looks back at Andromeda. She looks so composed, sitting upright, her legs close together and slightly bending to the side. Draco remembers his mother sitting just like that. The drilled in manners are the only evidence that Andromeda was ever part of the royal house of Black. Draco used to be like that, well mannered and always aware of his posture. Harry had taught him to relax, to ease up when at home or around friends. And Draco doesn’t think he can keep up the front any longer in front of strangers. Not now that his heart is bleeding.

The door opens, and Teddy walks in with two large cups in his hands. Harry holds the door open and smiles at Draco. It’s the first real smile he’d seen on Harry’s face since the scan. Apparently, Teddy hasn’t lost his touch to cheer Harry up when he’s down. Something Draco hasn’t been able to in the last couple of days.  

“Do you like your tea, uncle Draco?” Teddy asks.

Draco brings the cup to his mouth and takes a small sip. “It’s hot,” he says.

“You need to blow on it,” Teddy informs him. “Just like this.” Teddy puts Harry’s mug down and takes his own in both his hands. He lifts it to his mouth and blows softly. “Don’t blow too hard, or you’ll spill it, and then grandma will get angry.”

Andromeda shakes her head, and Harry laughs. “That’s good advice from your grandma. We wouldn’t want to spill the tea you made us,” he says.  

Teddy nods his head and then puts his tea on the table. “I’ll be right back,” he says, and then he turns and leaves the room. Harry puts down a plate with cookies and then sits in the chair next to Andromeda.

“Thank you for coming today. I know we were supposed to look after Teddy this weekend,” Harry starts.

Andromeda holds up her hand and stops him. “It’s okay, Harry. You two need to take care of each other right now, and once you’re both up to it, you can start taking care of Teddy again. I’ve managed for three years before you two started to help out more than the occasional day. I think I’ll survive an extra weekend with Teddy.”

Teddy runs back into the room with his Teddy-bear in his hands. He climbs on the sofa, pulls off his shoes and pushes his feet underneath Draco’s blanket. His little toes tickle Draco’s feet, and he smiles.

“I want you to have this,” he says while he holds out his Teddy-bear.

Draco fights his tears and shakes his head. “I can’t take your Teddy-bear,’ he stutters.

“He helps when you’re sad,” Teddy explains. “And I’m a little sad, but not as sad as you. So you should have him.”

Draco takes Teddy-bear and holds it close. “Thank you,” he whispers.

Teddy nods his head and then reaches for his tea. He can’t reach the table, but his cup starts to lift from the table.

“Edward Remus Lupin, what have I told you about using magic to lift drinks,” Andromeda says.

At once, the cup is back on the table, and Teddy whispers that it’s not allowed. He turns towards Harry and asks him to hand him his tea. Harry stands up and gives Teddy his hot cup of tea. Once it’s safe in Teddy’s hands, Harry places a kiss on top of his head. Teddy blushes and a smile forms on his face.

They sit and drink their tea in silence for a while. And then Andromeda starts up a conversation with Harry. Draco doesn’t listen to them. His eyes keep drifting to the teddy-bear in his hand. He remembers the weekend Andromeda forgot to pack it, and Teddy had a nightmare. The only way to get the boy back to sleep was to let him sleep in Draco’s arms. And now Teddy has given his most significant comfort to Draco, to make sure Draco will feel better. Tonks and Remus should have been so proud of him if they could see him now. If only things had turned out differently, if only Draco had been braver, maybe the world would have been a happier place today.

“I’m not going to be a big brother now,” Teddy says out of nowhere. Draco looks up at him and shakes his head.

“I’m sorry,” Draco whispers.

“I would have been a good big brother,” Teddy states. He looks determent with his head held high, and his arms crossed in front of his chest.

“Yes, you would have been,” Draco agrees.

“You would have been the best big brother in the world,” Harry says. His voice cracks a little, and when Draco looks at him, he sees Harry wipe a tear from his cheek.

“And one day you will be,” Andromeda says. “Now who wants one of those delicious cookies Harry has baked for us?”

“They are from the shop, grandma.”

“Well, they still look delicious, don’t they?” Andromeda reaches for the plate and holds it in front of Teddy.

“Can I have two, uncle Harry?” Teddy asks.

Harry’s eyes are still on Draco. They have been staring at each other, sharing a pain that won’t leave them alone.

“Yes, you can,” Harry says to answer Teddy. Draco can see the tears form in Harry’s eyes. The little tremble in his hand when he takes a cookie from the plate when Andromeda offers them to him. And the only thing that Draco can think is how he did this to him. Without saying a word, Draco gets up and walks out of the room. He hears Harry call after him while he hurries up the stairs and into their bedroom. As soon as he closes the door, he drops to the floor and lets the pain boil to the surface.

Draco has no idea how much time has passed when two strong arms pull him against Harry’s chest. Draco grabs onto Harry’s t-shirt and tries to pull him even closer. “I’m here, and I love you. This is not your fault, and I won’t leave you,” Harry tells Draco. Draco nods against Harry’s chest. It’s all he can do. He’s afraid to speak, scared he will say what has been in his mind since that awful afternoon in the hospital. It doesn’t matter how many times Harry tells him this is not his fault. He will never believe it.

[teacup-tai]

Fic Parallels

I've been thinking of writing this post for a while now. There are so many aspects of writing, of creating a story, of weaving it's strings together that I find beautiful, that I wanted to share a secret about a strong parallel in 2 of my drarry fics:

Hear me (with your whole body) [E, 9k, @hd-hurtfest 2020]

It was a sexy idea, exploring other bodies with Draco, engaging in sex with other people to spice things up. Something inside of him was excited about the prospect, but the nagging fear, the feeling of abandonment that follows each image that pops in his head is throwing him off. He would give it a go. See what it was like. He could always say no, right? | Mind the tags

This was the first Drarry fic I've ever wrote. Hear me is a very angsty fic about the hardship of wanting different things out of a relationship, about how to manage sexual incompatibility... it's about bad communication, doing things for your loved one and overstepping one's limits in order to please your lover. It's about an open relationship going wrong. I'm actually very proud of it. I think it's very honest, and it hurts just like real life.

The parallel I wanted to share here is that, when I started writing this fic, I had several scenes in my head, and I wrote some of them down to start holding space for the plot to surface. Not all the scenes ended up in the last version of the fic. In my head, I wanted to start Hear me with a scene about their first morning after. But it didn't make the cut.

Curiously enough, many months later I wrote my first ever fluff Drarry for the @hd-domesticityfest 2021 and, suddenly, that scene from Hear me felt appropriate to a story about falling in love gently and accepting one's feelings. A fic about a Draco who was really lovely, and a Harry that was learning how to completely accept the feelings inside his chest. And then this happened:

Secretly, between the shadow and the soul [T, 3k]

The thing about surrender is that once you accept the unavoidable rhythm of change, the surprising uncontrollability of life, and the astonishing inevitability of feelings, it is easy.

Secretly is probably the gentlest fic I've ever wrote. There's nothing that connects it with Hear me, nor in plot nor in vibes nor in anything. But this is the fun bit: Secretly starts with the very first scene I wrote for Hear me. No one knew that inside my mind I was giving Drarry a second chance, I was writing an alternate universe and giving them different jobs and a different dynamic to heal all the pain from Hear me. Writing it felt like a full circle; pain into healing and closure.

I guess many authors have those tiny secrets that we never shared before, about parallels of our own fics. I would like to invite you to share your secret parallels if you want to.

@tackytigerfic @writcraft @onbeinganangel @makeitp1nk @lou-isfake @the-starryknight @the-sinking-ship @crazybutgood @corvuscrowned @lqtraintracks @quicksilvermaid @evaeleanor @shealwaysreads @wanderingbandurria @elvndork @ihopeyoubothstaysafefromharm @phd-mama @nv-md @aibidil! Everyone is invited actually, feel tagged and tag me back so I can read it!

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HP/DRARRY Fic Fests 2020

Source(s) : @hpfests || Banner © : @capipuff || as of 2021.02

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JAN

FEB

A Very Drarry Valentine’s Day Exchange @gameofdrarry : AO3

HP Kinkfest round 11 @hpkinkfest​ : AO3

HP Omegaverse Week @harrypotteromegaverseweek : AO3

MAR

The Ides of Drarry @gameofdrarry : AO3

Salt and Pepper Fest 2020 hp-goldenage@DW : AO3

Lock Down Fest @lockdownfest : AO3

Cards Against Muggles Crack Fest : AO3

Seven Shades of Sin @sevenshadesofdrarry​ : AO3

HP TransFest @hptransfest : AO3

APR

Draco Tops Harry Fest 2020 @dracotops-harry : AO3

HP Triad!Fest @hptriadfest : AO3

MAY

Lights, Camera, Drarry 2020 @lcdrarry​ : AO3

H/D Mpreg Fest 2020 @harrydracompreg : AO3

JUN

Drarry Strugglefest 2020 @drarrystrugglefest : AO3

Seven Shades of Summer @sevenshadesofdrarry​ : AO3

HP Unhappily Ever After Fest @hp-unhappily-ever-after : AO3

A Spring Fling Oneshot Contest June 2020 : AO3

Banging Birthday Fest 2020 @hpdailydeviant : AO3

JUL

H/D Wireless 2020 @hd-wireless : AO3

HP Daddy Fest @hpdaddyfest : AO3

A Very Harry Birthday harrypotter-birthdayparty@DW : AO3

Trans Wizard Tournament @transwizardtournament : AO3

AUG

Very Drarry Summer Vibes @gwbexchange : AO3

HP Inspired by Imagery Fest @hpinspiredby : AO3

Taste of Smut Fest @tasteofsmut : AO3

Farewell to Summer: The 31 Flavors of Smut : AO3

Poly!Mini Fest @hptriadfest : AO3

HP Cross Gen Fest @hp-crossgenfest : AO3

SEP

Seven Shades of Magic @sevenshadesofdrarry : AO3

H/D Hurt!Fest 2020 @hd-hurtfest : AO3

HP Fluff Fest 2020 @hpfluff-fest : AO3

HP Drizzle Fest 2020 @hpdrizzle : AO3

HP Crack!Fic Fest 2020 @hpcrackficfest : AO3

OCT

H/D Sex Fair 2020 @hd-fan-fair : AO3

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[big-draco-energy]

FIC CLAIM !!!

Written for the  H/D Hurt!Fest 2020 @hd-hurtfest 

[gift for @tackytigerfic ]

inspired by Conan Gray’s song “Fight or Flight” You may treat yourself to this song before reading - it really hurts!

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Title: Fight or Flight?

Creator: Zzzara / @big-draco-energy

Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply, indifelity, open ending Relationships: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, Astoria Greengrass/Draco Malfoy Additional Tags: Infidelity, Jealousy, Jealous Harry Potter, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst, Heartbreak, Ambiguous/open ending

Summary:

Something’s gotten into you You don’t really look at me the way you used to And I’m hoping it ain’t true Every single rumour that I’ve heard of you say You were off with someone that I don’t know Calling other people on your telephone Kinda wish I didn’t know…

*** A/N:  Many thanks to my wonderful beta @olliemaye for your thorough help and advice in the big little things that matter! My love and excitement goes to the mods of this fest. Thank you so much for bringing this wonderful idea to life! <3

Read it on AO3: “Fight or Flight?”

[aedwritesfic]

TOP 5 OF 2020

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5 (ish) favourite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome works!

Thank you for the tag @hirikka! I had so much fun looking back on all the writing I’ve done this year! Anywho, here are the five fics I’m most proud of this year: 1. Proof of Life - Oof. POL was my baby. I wasn’t even going to write for @hd-hurtfest this year but the prompt jumped up and grabbed me. It begged me to tell the story of my depression and anxiety disorder through Harry and Draco. It was a true labour of love, and although it brought up a lot of painful memories, it was therapeutic to write it all down.

2. 100 Days of Drabble - Every day, for one hundred days, @meditationswrites and I wrote drabbles in the HP universe. We found a list of dialogue prompts and went to town, challenging ourselves not only to write something every day, but to try new pairings and situations and writing styles. It was so much fun and we grew so much as authors. If you like mine, you should check out her’s here.

3. Wanting - I tried a new fandom and an new writing style in the beginning of the year. I wanted to try to be more poetic and Jaskier from The Witcher was the perfect character to experiment with. Although it isn’t one of my most popular fics, it is one of my favourites. 4. The Fall - Although I started to explore this pairing last year, writing this fic is what truly made me fall in love with Minerva McGonagall/Rolanda Hooch as a pairing. These women are some of my most constant companions. I’m loving exploring female sexuality, especially at a later stage of life. Writing the series these ladies have inspired feels like coming home.  5. The Subtle Art of Arse Eating; or How Draco Learned to Be Open With His Desires and Had Mind-Blowing Sex - This fic was so much fun to write! Again, I had no intention to write for @hpinspiredby, but the image prompt made me do it! Sensing a common theme here? I can’t say no to a good prompt. 

and +1 - Lost Without You - I wrote this little ficlet for @wangsandfangsfest which I hosted with @meditationswrites (seriously, go read all of her stuff). I had been listening to Freya Ridings’ song of the same name on repeat and it just spoke to me. 

Tagging: @ms-sackvillewest @meditationswrites @sunflower-swan @drarrelie