Meeting the Rasputins
HOLY. FUCK. IT’S DONE.
This is 19.6k words long. It was SIXTY-ONE FUCKING PAGES in Word before I switched everything to Tumblr formatting.
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Summary: You finally meet Piotr’s family face-to-face. And, because nothing in your life is simple (and because I’m the author), you wind up with a head injury that provides a lot of much needed answers.
[Set after ‘Silent Scream.’]
Rating: T for sibling rivalries/issues, depictions of child abuse, head injuries, angst, angst, and more angst.
Pairings: Piotr Rasputin x Reader, Nathan Summers x Wade Wilson, Alexandra Rasputin x Nikolai Rasputin, and Frank Castle x Karen Page.
Much love and thanks to @leo-writer for proof-reading this monster!
@marvel-is-perfection, @chromecutie, @rovvboat
You like to think that, in your relatively short time on this not-as-green-as-it-ought-to-be Earth, you’ve handled more than your fair share of shit and come out fine. You were raised by abusive parents, grew up in a community that persecuted and tormented you, were hunted by men with rifles, and have had to deal with Wade Wilson on cocaine withdrawals. You’ve looked death in the eye and walked away –relatively—unscathed. You are a grown-ass adult who can handle their own shit, thank you very much.
So, why is it, darling universe that lives to smite me and watch me suffer for no good reason, you think, a touch angry, as you pace the hallway you’re most definitely not hiding in, that I can’t handle meeting a new group of people that I already know doesn’t hate me.
It’s officially time to meet Piotr’s family. Yes, yes, you’ve met them over phone and Skype calls, but now they’re coming here. To the mansion. For a week. To get to know you and visit Piotr.
And you already know that they like you just fine.
But, the little negative troll voice in your head replies, what if they meet you in person and realize just how much of a garbage heap you are, and they decide they don’t want you anywhere near their perfectly functional, not fucked up son?
Touché, you think back, convinced despite yourself.
Before you can delve too much further down that rabbit hole, Nathan walks into the hall from the flight of stairs leading up from the ground floor and grabs you by the arm, thus preventing you from walking a rut into the carpet. “Relax.”
“Easy for you to say,” you grumble. “You’re not meeting the parents and siblings.”
“Yes, I am. Unlike you, for the first time.”
“Yeah, but you don’t need them to like you.”
He raises an eyebrow at that. “I thought you said your previous interactions with them went well?”
“Well, they did—”
“So why wouldn’t they like you now?”
“Because they’re going to figure out that I am a literal garbage fire of a human being.”
Nathan sighs and pulls you in for a one-armed hug. “Kid.”
“Yeah?”
“They’re meeting Wade, too. If you can do worse than him, I’ll actually be impressed.”
You giggle –a little on the hysterical side, but who gives a shit at this point—at that. “Fair enough.”
He pats your back. “You’ve got this. I think the only person outside of where you grew up that doesn’t like you is Scott, and he doesn’t count.”
You snort. “He’s your dad.”
“I said what I said.”
All anxious misgivings aside, you do feel better, more confident. You know that Piotr’s family likes you well enough, and you’re definitely not going to do worse than Wade, of all people. You’ve got this.
And then the door opens, and you can hear Piotr greeting people and talking to them in Russian, and, yupp, his family’s officially here, and you do not got this.
And, in light of that stunning revelation, you take the least destructive course of action possible.
You pass out.
You come to in the library, stretched out on one of the couches, with Wade’s worried face hovering over you.
(His face is also attached to the rest of his body, which is a relief in and of itself. You wouldn’t put it past him to decapitate himself for a reaction.)
“Less screaming than I was expecting. I can’t tell if I’m disappointed or not.”
You let out a weak huff. “I’ve seen uglier than you.”
“See, now I’m just offended. I’ll have you know that it takes a lot of work to look this bad, and I will not have my hard work go unrecognized.”
“You look just fine, handsome,” Nathan says softly. He’s seated in the chair next to you. “How’re you feeling?”
“A little lightheaded? Did I pass out?”
He nods. “You know why?”
“Fuck if I know,” you grumble as you fidget with the hem of your shirt.
“I, for one, highly advise never knowing anything ever,” Wade says brightly. “Makes life much easier that way.”
You laugh, and for a moment you almost forget that you’re in here because you passed out, and that you’ve still got to deal meeting Piotr’s family at some point—
And then the door to the library swings open and Piotr walks in, his expression the perfect picture of concern.
You feel your throat constrict as reality comes crashing back and look away quickly in a –bad—attempt to hide the tears welling up in your eyes.
Piotr’s by your side in an instant, cradling you in his arms and crooning to you gently. “Nyet, nyet, nyet. None of that. Why so upset? Are you hurt?”
You sniff lamely. “I’m sorry.”
You can feel him frown as he presses his lips against your forehead. “For what? You’ve done nothing wrong.”
“I’m just fucking everything up—”
He shushes you again, this time kissing the bridge of your nose. “Not true. You have ruined nothing.”
“But I passed out—”
“It happens—”
“And now your family’s gonna hate me!”
Piotr actually has to pause and blink a few times in order to process your sudden turn in reasoning, which is probably a good indicator for how far off base your logic is –not that you’re aware of that at the moment, because nothing in this life ever comes easy. “Myshka –tische,” he says when you don’t stop rambling. “I am not following. How do you get from ‘passing out’ to ‘my family hating you?’”
You let out a frustrated whine and gesture at your head. “It makes sense in here!”
He sighs softly and kisses your forehead. “You are worrying for nothing. Everything will be fine. I promise.”
You bury your face into his shoulder. “No, it won’t. They’re gonna realize I’m a fucking garbage fire and hate me.”
“You are not garbage fire—”
“Yes, I am!”
“Nyet. You are not.” He kisses your forehead. “Do you trust me?”
You scrub your face with your hands and nod.
“Then, trust me when I say it will be fine.”
“But—”
“Trust me. Please. It will be fine.” He helps you sit up and kisses you gently. “You stay here. I will get my family.”
“Wait.” You grab his shirt before he can stand. “Just –just for a minute. Please?”
He obliges, sitting with you while you take a moment to collect yourself. He holds your hands in his, rubbing little circles over your knuckles. His blue eyes are locked on you, loving and completely judgement free.
He’s a literal, actual angel.
There’s no way in hell you deserve him.
You take a deep breath –two, three, four, c’mon, Y/N, just like ripping off a bandaid—and nod. “Alright. Okay.”
He smiles softly, kisses your forehead, and squeezes your hand once before getting up and heading out of the library.
You can hear him talking in the hallway, and footsteps walking towards the library—
It’s happening. Oh God it’s happening.
Nate squeezes your shoulder. “Deep breaths. You’ve got this.”
You inhale deeply and focus on staying calm. I’ve got this. I’ve got this. I’ve got this.
Meeting the Rasputin family, as it turns out, is not as disastrous as your anxiety thought it would be. Shocking.
It’s also more of an experience than your rational brain had expected. You’d expected them to be a loving, decent family –they are—and the similarities in appearance and personality quirks—
What you did not expect, first and foremost, was for Alexandra Rasputin to walk into the library while shucking a black leather jacket, thus revealing two full sleeves of tattoos on her arms.
Mikhail follows after her, also dressed in a black leather jacket, faded red Chucks, and heavily distressed jeans. He’s got piercings in both ears and long, curly hair that’s been tied back into a man bun, of all things, and you can just make out some sort of tattoo peeking over the collar of his shirt.
Illyana, the baby of the family at nineteen, is also similarly dressed in black –though she looks more ‘refined goth’ than ‘side road punk’ like her brother. Her ears are also pierced, silver studs sparkling from multiple points—
And then Nikolai walks in, wearing sensible, non-worn out jeans and a button-down shirt, and holy fuck you never considered that Piotr might be the odd kid out.
Next to you, Wade’s also similarly shocked. He’s actually gaping, mostly because he doesn’t give a shit about what anyone thinks about him. “How did your boy scout end up like that with all of… this?” he hisses in your ear.
“Fuck if I know,” you whisper back.
“Y/N.” Alexandra smiles warmly at you, brown eyes sparkling as she extends a hand towards you. “It’s so nice to finally meet you in person.” Her dark, black hair cascades over one shoulder as she shakes your hand—
And it’s not hard to see why your uncle fell for her, way back whenever that was. You’re two seconds in to meeting Alexandra Rasputin, and you’re downright charmed.
“Nice to meet you, too,” you manage. “Sorry, uh, about the—”
She waves you off as she sits on the couch opposite of you. “These things happen. No apologies needed.”
After nearly a whole lifetime of being raked over the coals for your differences, your weaknesses, her simple, easy acceptance of the situation –of you—almost makes you cry.
Piotr goes about making the necessary introductions between his family, Wade, and Nate; since you know enough about Alexandra’s backstory, it’s easy to catch the glints of sharpness in her eyes that set her apart from her family, the little bits of awareness of who she’s talking to and just what they might be capable of. You’ve seen it in Wade, Nate, your uncle, Neena, and it’s… interesting to watch it now.
Illyana wrinkles her nose at Wade once the two of them are introduced, and for a moment you think she might say something about his appearance, but then she says, “I cannot read him.” She pauses for a moment, then jerks her chin at Nate. “Him either.”
That gets an eyebrow raise from Nathan. “You’re telepathic.”
“Wade has healing factor,” Piotr explains. “None of telepaths here can read him.”
“Pretty sure they wouldn’t want to!” Wade adds brightly.
“And Nathan…”
“Techno-organic virus,” Nate supplies, gesturing at his arm. “Part of it’s in my brain already. Puts out interference against telepaths.”
“So, your arm is not prosthetic?” Nikolai asks.
“It’s a virus I contracted as a child. It eats away at my organic body and replaces what it eats with metal and technology.”
Alexandra’s lips quirk into something resembling a smirk. “Fun.”
“Something like that, yeah.”
“And… how are you two related to Y/N?” Mikhail asks, brow furrowed. “She’s mentioned that the two of you are together, and I’ve heard Wade referred to as ‘brother,’ but she calls you ‘dad’…”
“They’re my adoptive family,” you clarify quickly. “None of us are actually related to each other.”
“And what about your biological family?” Nikolai interjects.
You grimace. You’ve kept your proverbial cards close to your chest about your biological family –some things just aren’t meant to be discussed over a Skype call. But now, now doesn’t seem quite like the right time to talk about it –your parents, growing up, everything—either.
You settle on the simplest option. “I’m not in contact with them, save for my uncle. He might show up while you’re here. Or not. He’s kinda like a cat, actually. Does what he damn well pleases when it damn well pleases him.”
Alexandra smirks, then nods. “Well, hopefully we’ll get to meet him.”
You wonder for a moment if she’s just playing along, or if she has no idea who you’re talking about, then shrug. “We’ll just have to wait and see.”
There’s quite a bit you pick up about the Rasputin family in your first face-to-face conversation with them.
First, it’s that Nikolai’s the talker of the two parents. He’s not overly animated or loud, but asks the most questions and offers the most anecdotes. Alex, by contrast, seems more content to observe. Most of her commentary is a simple expression –a smirk, a raise of an eyebrow—or a gentle huff.
Alexandra, however, is definitely the wittier of the two of them. Which isn’t to say that Nikolai isn’t witty, but Alex can go toe to toe with Wade, of all people.
All conversation effectively dies for about five minutes because all of you are gasping for air after the two of them get going.
Second, it’s that the family seems to be full of ‘odd ones out.’ Case in point, Illyana’s the only Rasputin child to have gotten Nikolai’s blond hair –but Alexandra’s the only one with brown eyes; all of her children have her husband’s baby blues.
And Piotr’s really the only one that’s like Nikolai in mannerisms. His two siblings have more of Alexandra’s ‘grit’ to them. Their smiles are a little sharper around the edges, their responses a little edgier than their brother’s.
Illyana, however, is the only quiet one. Mikhail is loud and gregarious –roguish, even—and Piotr easily outpaces his baby sister by miles in the conversation department.
“She’s too used to using her abilities to glean everyone’s thoughts,” Alexandra says of her daughter at one point, nudging Illyana’s leg with her foot –and that’s when you notice that Alexandra Rasputin is wearing combat boots. “Not used to talking.”
“It is more efficient,” Illyana mutters, smirking just a little.
The third thing you notice about the Rasputin family takes a little more time to put together. In fact, you don’t really even pick up on it until you’re helping Piotr get his family settled in.
Mikhail and Piotr Rasputin do not get along.
“Do you like being X-Man?” Illyana asks as you and Piotr help his family unload the car they arrived in.
“I’m not technically an X-Man,” you clarify. “But I do help with missions, now and then. I wouldn’t say it’s ‘fun,’ but it’s definitely not boring.”
“Piotr says he likes it,” the youngest Rasputin explains. She smiles and wraps her arms around her brother’s waist. “Says it is best choice he ever made.”
Piotr beams as he squeezes her in a one-armed hug. “I like helping others, teaching others to be better. I find it fulfilling.”
“And some of us,” Mikhail interjects as he pulls a massive black duffel bag out of the back of the car, “like having fun.”
“Mikhail does mercenary work,” Illyana whispers to you as Piotr grimaces.
And, suddenly, Piotr’s constant aggravation with Wade makes sense; it just hits too close to home for comfort.
“Not just that, but da.” Mikhail grins. “Not all of us can live with being glorified nyanya.”
Piotr’s grimace deepens into a frown. “I see nothing wrong with it.”
Mikhail shrugs –a tense, jerky movement that belies the casual expression on his face—and starts walking briskly towards the house. “Not all of us can be you.”
You don’t miss the way Piotr’s shoulders sag, just a little, and roll up onto your tiptoes to kiss his cheek. “I think you’re an amazing teacher. The kids here are lucky to have you.”
He smiles down at you and kisses your forehead. “Spasibo, moya serdste.”
One of the best things about normal families that don’t hate each other, you’ve discovered, is that there’s an abundance of evidence of them being happy and living each other. Namely, in the form of pictures.
Especially pictures of childhood and teenage years that the subject of said picture might want, say, buried forever and left forgotten to humanity for the rest of time.
Which is how you find yourself cooing over various baby, childhood, and teenage-years pictures of Piotr while your boyfriend and his father work on preparing dinner. “Oh. My. Gosh.” You hold a picture of Piotr dated from when he was fifteen. “You never told me you dyed your hair!”
The picture itself shows a teenage Piotr favoring the camera with a brooding expression. He’s dressed in baggy jeans, a black hoodie, worn out looking farm boots –and his hair is dyed bright, obnoxious, blue-raspberry flavored Airhead blue.
Not the top, or the fringe. His whole head.
Piotr sighs and shakes his head, tips of his ears turning red as he focuses –very intently—on the skillet he’s working with. “I fail to see what is so amazing about all of this. My hair was blue. Many teenagers dye hair.”
“He had his friend pierce his ears in barn during summer,” Illyana adds, leaning over your shoulder to point at the picture. “He thought it looked cool.”
“It did look cool,” Piotr mutters under his breath; he shoots a sharp glare at Mikhail when his brother spouts off something in Russian, but says nothing else.
You can’t help but laugh when you make out the stud in your boyfriend’s ear. “Oh my gosh. You were an emo kid! Did you really pierce your ears?”
He sighs, but smiles with a shrug. “Da. I took piercings out when I turned twenty. The holes scarred shut.”
“Can I see?” You reach out for him when he sighs, then grin when he hands the pan he’s working with off to his father and makes his way over to you. You brace your hands against his chest and peer at his ear as he bends over so you can see better –and, sure enough, there’s a faint scar right on his lobe where the piercing used to be.
“Is not that funny,” he mumbles when you laugh, but he kisses your forehead anyway.
Mikhail chuckles. “Kiska-vzbityye.”
And while you don’t know what that particular phrase means, the sudden glare he gets from Piotr and the none-too-subtle throat clearing from Nikolai and Alexandra tell you that it couldn’t have been particularly nice—
And then all ponderings you have about what Mikhail just said fly out the window, because your uncle lands on the back lawn of Xavier’s property.
“Holy shit.” You dart out the back door and across the lawn to where he’s standing.
Your uncle catches you in a massive hug and spins you around. “Hey, punk! How ya doing?”
“Good! What’re you doing here? I didn’t even know you were coming!”
He smirks, shrugs, and starts steering you back towards the mansion. “Had the time off. Got bored of jacking around at my place. Thought I’d come see you.”
You can’t help but beam as he slings an arm around your shoulders. “Well, your timing’s just amazing.”
“Yeah? Why’s that?”
“Well, Piotr’s family came to visit—” You cut yourself off right as the two of you step back into the kitchen, because at that precise moment you recollect the conversation on your uncle’s farm where you put together that he’d had a thing for Piotr’s mom –still has a thing for Piotr’s mom—and aw fuck.
The collective reactions from everyone in the kitchen are best described as ‘mixed.’
Your uncle, true to form, goes completely and utterly still at the sight of Piotr’s family. All signs point towards him bolting out the back door once the shock passes.
Mikhail seems more curious than anything else, which suggests that he doesn’t know the whole backstory between your uncle and his mother.
Piotr, who knows what you told him back on the farm, keeps looking between his parents, your uncle, and you, expression saying ‘what the hell do we do with this?’
Illyana’s face stays fairly neutral, but you can only imagine what sorts of thoughts she’s picking up from everyone.
Nikolai, surprisingly enough, doesn’t seem all that perturbed. Surprised, sure, but there’s none of the usual –or, perhaps more accurately, projected by mass media—automatic jealousy and chest thumping you would’ve expected.
And Alexandra, as true to form for all you have context for, smirks and lifts the bottle of beer she’s been sipping at while everyone’s been chatting and prepping dinner towards your uncle. “Been a while.”
That gets Mikhail’s attention. He frowns at his mother and jerks his head at your uncle. “You know him?”
One of Alex’s eyebrows tic upwards, just for a moment, and she lifts the bottle to her mouth to take another sip. “Old colleague.”
And that’s got to be some sort of code for whatever Alexandra’s got lurking in her past, because Mikhail’s eyes narrow automatically and he starts regarding your uncle with about as much caution you suspect he’s capable of.
Your uncle’s mouth tightens into a grimace –and then he sighs and visibly forces himself to relax. “Yeah. It has been.” He gestures with the hiking backpack he has slung over his shoulder. “Let me get settled, and then I’ll help get dinner ready.”
For a moment, you’re completely shocked by his apparent decision to stay –and so is everyone else, from what you can tell, because even Alex looks surprised—and then your brain kicks back on. “Uh, yeah. Let me help you find a room to stay in.”
It’s easy enough to find a room –most of the students and teachers are out for the summer, either staying with or visiting family—and you pick one that faces away from the drive and has a balcony.
Your uncle sets his pack on the floor next to the bed. “Thanks, punk.”
You nod and laugh nervously. “If I leave you to get settled in, are you just going to leave via the balcony and head back home?”
He sighs heavily, rubs at the back of his neck with his hand, then shakes his head. “No. I came here to see you. That hasn’t changed.”
You blink, stunned. “But Piotr’s family—”
He shrugs. “I’ll manage. I’m not gonna ditch out on you just because some people –well, no, yeah, ‘people,’ I met Nick a couple times way back when—I used to know are here. I’m not gonna do that to you.”
You throat constricts with emotion and your eyes get misty with tears. You practically dive at your uncle and wrap your arms around his neck in a massive hug.
He holds you back just as tight as you start to cry. “I got you, punk. I got you.”
You wake up next morning when Piotr does. Pale, golden, early morning light is peeking through the cracks between the curtains and the window frames; you can hear birds chirping outside, occasionally punctuated by sounds of traffic or people waking up from somewhere else in the house.
Piotr kisses your forehead when you stretch and make various squeaking noises. “Dobroye utro, myshka. It is still early. You can go back to sleep if you want.”
You sigh contentedly and wrap your arms around his neck to pull him down for a proper kiss. “No. ‘M up. What’re you doing?”
“Getting ready to work on breakfast.”
You stretch again –your back finally gives a satisfying pop—and sit up. “I’ll help you.”
He smirks as he resumes getting dressed for the morning. “‘Help’ or ‘hinder?’”
You gasp and feign offense. “I’ll have you know I’m plenty helpful!”
He chuckles –then laughs when you get up and start poking him in the ribs for some well-deserved retaliation, before catching your hands in his and lifting them to his mouth so he can kiss your knuckles. “Ya lyublyu tebya, dorogoy.”
“Love you too, sweetheart.” You kiss him gently, then start rummaging through your dresser to find a clean shirt and pair of shorts. “So… what do you think of my uncle being here?”
Piotr lets out a mildly amused huff. “I was not… expecting him.”
“Neither was I,” you mumble. You clear your throat, then say, “Are you, like, okay with him being around? Y’know, while your mom’s here?”
Piotr shrugs. “She seems comfortable enough. Besides, your uncle has just as much right to see you as moya mama does to see me.”
“Okay, but your mom has the poker face of a granite statue.”
He snorts at that. “Very true. But I think she is… as good with things as possible.”
Suitably dressed, you pull your hair back into a messy, somewhat haphazard bun, before pulling on a pair of socks. “Fair enough.” You kiss your burly boyfriend again before patting his chest and yanking him towards the hallway door. “Come on. I want coffee.”
As it so happens, Piotr’s parents and your uncle are already awake for the day and seated at the kitchen island. Your uncle seems a little twitchy –well, more so than usual—but seems to be holding up well, all things considered.
You plop down on the stool next to him and drop your head onto the counter. “Ow.”
“Try it again,” your uncle suggests. “I bet it won’t hurt the second time around.”
“Fuck you.”
Across the counter, Alexandra snorts. “How are you this morning, malen'kaya ptitsa?”
It takes you a minute to put together that she’s talking to you; when you do, you lift your head off the counter. “Uh… not bad? Kinda tired, but that’s pretty typical.”
The corner of her mouth turns up in a slight smile as she nods, and then she leans back on her stool a little and starts talking to Piotr in Russian.
You let the noise of their conversation wash over you as you drop your head back down to the counter –much gentler this time—and close your eyes. You’re starting to wonder if agreeing to get up when Piotr did was such a good idea after all—
And then Piotr sets a steaming mug of coffee down in front of you and kisses the top of your head.
Your uncle smirks as you pick up your cup with a delighted coo. “What, can’t make your own coffee?”
“I’m not allowed to dictate my own caffeine intake anymore,” you admit, “because someone thinks I’m irresponsible.”
“You drank three Redbull cans in almost as many hours when we drove out for training,” Piotr retorts, fixing you with an exasperated look. “You are exact definition of ‘irresponsible.’”
You smile sheepishly as the other adults laugh. “Yeah, but you love me.”
He kisses your temple. “Konechno.”
“Where do you go for training?” Alexandra asks as Piotr starts rummaging through the kitchen to get started on breakfast. “I was under the impression that Charles had well-equipped trainers to handle his recruits.”
“Oh, I do train here.” You jerk your head at your uncle. “I just go see him on occasion, if I need special training.”
Alexandra nods. “Not many mutants have access to other mutants with similar power sets. You are very lucky.”
You snort. “Well, I don’t know if I’d say ‘lucky.’ He lives out in the middle of nowhere. It’s a pain to get out to him.”
“Travelling builds character,” your uncle fires back easily.
“You make me do chores when I’m there!”
“Chores build character, too.”
You roll your eyes good-naturedly and shake your head. “Yeah, whatever.” You take another swig of coffee, then cock your head to the side so you can see Alex’s tattoos better. “Y’know, even with all the times I talked to you guys on Skype, I don’t think I ever counted on you having tattoos.”
“Most people do not,” Alexandra says with a slight smirk.
“How long did it take for you to get all of them done?”
“Well, the actual tattoos take a few sessions to do, since they cover my full arms.” She holds up her left arm. “I worked on developing this sleeve for… a few years, I think, in my twenties, but this one—” she taps the right one “—I got done in a few weeks, when I was forty-two. Medvezhonok actually designed it for me, before he left to come to America.”
“That’s cool.” You peer closer at the design –it’s a piece that blends a sunset on a beach into a full on starry galaxy—and sure enough you pick up on little bits of Piotr’s style. “I never actually considered getting a tattoo. I guess I could get one, if I wanted to.”
“Wouldn’t recommend it,” your uncle interjects. “The family’s latent mutation is gonna make it harder for the ink to set properly.”
You let out a disappointed huff. “Well. That sucks.”
“Same goes for piercings, too.”
“Well, now I’m just depressed. How am I supposed to go through a proper rebellious phase without being able to get a tattoo or pierce the fuck out of my ears?”
“You still have hair,” Nikolai points out with a smile.
You grin. “That’s true. I could always dye my hair. And you could help me, babe, since you know all about that!”
Piotr just sticks his tongue out at you before going back to getting breakfast ready.
“So, what’s it like living in Russia?” I mean, Piotr’s already told me a lot, but I’m sure there’s stuff he left out.”
Alexandra and Nikolai take turns telling stories –about what farm life is like, about what the kids were like growing up, about the community they lived in. Each one’s better than the last, and it’d be more than easy to stay enthralled—
Except that your brain keeps putting certain details together.
Like how the Rasputin family lives on a farm.
And how your uncle mentioned that Alexandra had always wanted to live on a farm.
And how your uncle is still in some sort of love with Alexandra.
…And how he lives on a farm, too.
You wind up staring at him halfway through a story about how Mikhail had tried to teach their barn cats to swim, and the growing look of confusion and mild horror must be more obvious than you’d thought because Alex actually stops mid-sentence to glance between you and your uncle.
“Am I missing something?” she asks.
You blink at your uncle when he raises an eyebrow at you. “You… you live on a farm.”
Alex puts together the details much faster than you did and gives your uncle a look that lands somewhere between exasperation and shock.
“Relax,” your uncle grinds out quickly. “My coping mechanisms aren’t that bad. It’s a matter of convenience. Easier for me to stay off radars that way.”
“Konechno, konechno,” Nikolai says with genuine sweetness. “What kind of farm?”
“Not really anything specific. I grow some produce, but that’s about it –and it’s mostly for me, too,” your uncle explains with a jerky shrug. “It’s more about staying in the middle of nowhere.”
Nikolai frowns softly. “Must be lonely.”
Your uncle ducks his head, clears his throat, and pushes his stool back with a scraping noise as he stands. “Hey, Pete. Let me help you with some of that.”
It’s a clear cry for some space. Please, stop asking, I can’t take anymore.
Nikolai’s forehead wrinkles as your uncle walks to the opposite side of the kitchen. He opens his mouth to say something else, then pauses when Alexandra puts her hand on his arm.
She shakes her head.
Don’t try. Leave him be.
He closes his mouth again, hangs his head slightly –then clears his throat and straightens back up before smiling at you. “So. You… enjoy it here?” He gestures at the room. “At mansion?”
It’s unfathomable, but it almost seems like he’s… worried about your uncle. About the man who –at one point, ostensibly—was his romantic rival.
And, granted there’s a lot of water under the bridge that might’ve been Alex and your uncle, but the absolute, unlimited gentleness that Nikolai exudes is nothing short of amazing.
He reminds you a lot of Piotr, actually.
You smile back and nod. “I do.”
You wind up going on a run while your uncle and Piotr get breakfast ready. Since it’s the middle of summer there aren’t any students to interrupt your efforts, leaving you to run one of the trails in the woods at the back of Xavier’s property in peace.
And with that peace comes a lot of thoughts.
So far, things aren’t going all that bad with Piotr’s family –even with your uncle randomly showing up. You haven’t made an ass of yourself, and none of the Rasputins seemed too put off by your fainting spell yesterday.
You can still feel the need to have them like you lingering in your chest, though. A little nagging sensation that you’re not good enough.
Focus on running, you tell yourself. Oxygen in, bad thoughts out. Catharsis. Not twisting your ankles. Yes.
You slow down to a jog as you come out of the woods and onto the back lawn—
And nearly stop altogether when you see your uncle and Alexandra sitting out on the patio by the back door.
Because out of everything you expected to see today, that is not even close to any of it.
Alex inclines her head at you as you approach. “Care to join us?”
“For a minute, sure.” You plop down into one of the patio chairs and pant heavily. “I think I’m properly awake now.”
“I bet,” Alex says.
“I thought you only ran for food,” your uncle teases.
“Yes. This is my ‘pre-breakfast’ run.”
“What, do you have a pre-lunch run, too?”
“No. I’m not a masochist.”
Alex chuckles, then lifts her hand and makes a loose twisting motion.
The back door swings open just in time to let Nikolai –who’s carrying three cups of coffee with him—out onto the patio.
You keep an eye on your uncle as the two Rasputin parents converse briefly in Russian. Fortunately, he doesn’t seem too much weirder than normal, but that doesn’t mean you’re not done worrying.
Nikolai sets down one of the cups in front of Alex, one in front of the chair next to her, then hands the third to your uncle. “I was not sure how you take—”
Your uncle waves him off as accepts the cup. “Coffee’s coffee. I drink it however. Uh, thank you.”
You can’t help but blink.
It’s not every day you witness a man giving his former (sorta) romantic rival a cup of coffee, after all.
Nate and Wade show up a little before lunch –and Wade is absolutely delighted to finally meet your uncle –and vice versa—after so much time and speculation.
“I’ve heard a lot about you,” your uncle says as he shakes Wade’s hand. “Especially a lot about you and fireworks.”
“We have a love-hate relationship,” Wade says with the utmost sincerity.
“And this—” you gesture to Nate “—is dad. Or, uh, Nate.”
Your uncle sticks out his hand to Nathan. “I already like you better than her biological one.” There’s a beat of silence, and your uncle looks like he’s dying inside for a moment before he looks down at you. “Awkward?”
“Kinda, yeah.”
“Just repress it?”
“Probably the best option.”
Nathan’s lips curl into a smirk. “I’m already seeing the family resemblance.”
“Terminal awkwardness,” you supply. “It’s genetic.”
“Part of the mutation lineage,” your uncle adds.
“So, not to point out the obvious, but you—” Wade points at you “—didn’t introduce him with a name.”
You freeze for a minute, because fuck there’s really not a good way to explain that—
“Legally, I don’t have one,” your uncle says.
Wade’s eyes light up. “So, that’s free game to call you whatever pops into my head in the moment?”
“Fuck no. Andrew works fine.”
“Well. That’s disappointingly vanilla.”
Your uncle watches Wade as he traipses into Xavier’s like he owns the place, an amused smile play at his lips. “Oh, he’s a riot.”
“Just wait,” you tell him. “He gets better.”
Ellie and Yukio show up after lunch –and both girls immediately gravitate towards Illyana, and you can absolutely see where some of Ellie’s goth style comes from now that you’ve got the two of them side by side.
“This is so cute, I can’t,” you whisper to Wade as you watch the two of them compare notes about some of the latest fashion trends in their fashion community.
“Baby Goth and… less Baby Goth,” Wade agrees. “Hi, Yukio!”
“Hi, Wade!”
“Did you bring it?” Ellie asks Illyana, the most excited and animated-looking you’ve seen her, well, ever. “Did you bring it?”
Illyana laughs. “Konechno. I must practice.”
Ellie whirls and looks imploringly up at Piotr. “Can we go to the music room? Please?”
Illyana bats her eyelashes at her older brother. “I do need practice.”
You frown, confused. “Wait, what? What practice? And why do we need to go to the music room it?”
Piotr chuckles as he starts walking out of the kitchen. “Come and see.”
Part of your curiosity is sated when Mikhail and Illyana walk into the music room with a guitar case and a violin case, respectively.
And then whatever satiation you might’ve had evaporates when Illyana pulls out an instrument you’ve never seen before. “The fuck is that?”
“Language, myshka.”
“Electric violin,” Illyana says, elbowing Mikhail in the side when he shoots Piotr a disbelieving look. “I played since age seven.”
“And you obviously play guitar,” you say as you point at Mikhail. “Huh. I guess I never thought you guys were musical. I mean, I’ve heard Piotr sing –well, try to sing—”
“We do not let him sing!” Mikhail exclaimed, eyes wide. “Never. He made Illyana cry when she was baby!”
Piotr shrugs somewhat amicably, though his smile looks a touch strained. “I just have different talents. Nothing wrong with that.”
Mikhail snorts. “If you say so.”
“Honestly acquired,” Nikolai pipes up, tapping his own chest with his index finger. “I am not singer either.”
“Play something by Metallica!” Ellie insists brightly as Illyana and Mikhail finish setting up.
Illyana snorts. “Do you enjoy giving complicated request?”
“I think we can handle it,” Mikhail says with an easy grin. “We have been practicing.”
You sit down next to Piotr, nestling against his side as he puts his arm around your shoulders. “Are they really going to play rock music?”
He smiles. “Wait and see.”
It’s quiet for a moment, save for the sounds of Illyana and Mikhail tuning their respective instruments.
Then, Illyana nods, Ellie hits ‘play’ on a CD player, and the opening chords of Metallica’s ‘Ride the Lightning’ blast through the room.
It’s nothing short of astounding. Illyana plays the part originally meant for the lead guitar, while Mikhail bobs his head with the beat as he plays the rhythm part.
You can’t help but grin. You don’t think you’ve ever heard anything like it before. Then, a vocalist kicks in on the CD, and you frown. “Wait. That’s not James Hetfield.”
“Lzzy Hale,” Ellie says over the music. “It’s the Halestorm cover!”
Your jaw drops when Illyana keeps up with the fastest guitar riffs without even breaking a sweat. “Holy shit.”
Piotr doesn’t even bother to correct your language. He just beams like the proud brother he is. “She is very talented.”
“No kidding! I don’t think my fingers could move that fast, like, ever!” You grin and nod your head in time with the music. Alright. Color me impressed.
The next few days are nothing short of utterly delightful. Piotr’s family is absolutely wonderful to be around, your uncle’s not acting any weirder than usual and –dare you say it—even seems to be enjoying himself, and the mansion hasn’t blown up –which might be a record of some kind, all things considered.
Even with the weird tension between Piotr and Mikhail, things are good. The two brothers seem more happy than annoyed to see each other, and things don’t really escalate past a few pointed comments –usually from Mikhail—directed at each other.
If anything, the only regret you’re having is not always have a camera or your phone on hand. There’s no shortage of priceless moments –especially when Alexandra revealed she’d brought some of Piotr’s old artwork with. The look of mortification on his face –and the actual drawings and paintings themselves—was priceless.
It’s almost been downright idyllic.
…
“So, wait, you’re the mutant parent.”
Alexandra nods. “Telekinesis and energy manipulation.”
You point to Nikolai. “And you’re…”
“Carrier,” he says with a smile. “Not actual mutant, but gene is very present in family lineage.”
“So the likelihood that Piotr and I are gonna have mutant kids—”
“Basically guaranteed,” Alexandra says with a smirk. “I’ll be sure to give you a few fireproof blankets before you have your first one.”
Your eyes widen. “Fireproof?”
“Mikhail can summon fire –along with manipulating energy and teleportation.”
“Illyana can teleports, too,” Nikolai adds. “It is magic channeling, from my side of family.”
“So, what you’re saying is, I could have a fireball baby that could teleport at random.”
Alex chuckles. “Mikhail was.. rare. He manifested three weeks after birth. But Piotr was a, ah, late bloomer; we actually thought he wouldn’t be a mutant.”
“Manifested at nineteen,” Nikolai adds with a chuckle.
“Yeah, he’s told me the story. Put himself between Illyana and a tractor, just happened to armor up.” You grimace. “I’m glad he turned out to have an armor mutation.”
“So were we. At any rate, I doubt your children will manifest as young as Mikhail, since Piotr presented so late.” Alex eyes you for a minute. “You are planning on having children?”
You nod. “Yeah, after we get married. We’re just… uh…” You swallow hard and duck your head. “We’re waiting on some things with my health to… clear up.”
“Medvezhonok mentioned as much.”
Nikolai gently places his hand on yours. “How… how are things? Are you healthy?”
You nod as best as you can. “Yeah, pretty much. It’s more, uh, mentally related.”
Alexandra nods. “Your episodes.”
“I take it Piotr mentioned them,” you say with a grimace.
“Only that you had them and that no one knew why,” she clarifies. “He did not give specifics.”
“Yeah.” You sigh heavily. “If I knew why they were happening –if there was a way to treat them—I might not hesitate so much, but… I keep breaking from reality. And –and when I do that, I relive some… some really bad memories from my childhood. My uncle kind of explained it as my mutation putting up a defensive shield around me while I go through the episode? I, uh, I’ve uprooted trees before, so… yeah.”
Nikolai nods as Alexandra translates for him, then frowns deeply and squeezes your hand. “That sounds very… intimidating?”
“Scary,” Alex corrects.
“Da. That one.” He gives you a concerned look. “Do you have way to be safe during such moments?”
“Oh, yeah. The mansion’s got safe rooms for various mutation meltdowns,” you explain. “Whenever I have an episode, I book it over there until everything passes. And I’m not having as many lately. My therapist’s been working on treating my anxiety, which helps reduce stress, which means I have less episodes, so… yeah.”
“Well, take care of you first, always,” Nikolai says, patting your hand. “Cannot be healthy mama if not healthy you first.”
You can’t help but smile at him. “Don’t worry; I will.”
You run into Nikolai at the gazebo later that night. “I didn’t know you smoked.”
He starts when he hears your voice and takes the cigarette out of his mouth a little sheepishly. “Ah… bad habit from youth. Never quite vanquished.”
“Don’t worry, I won’t snitch.” You start up a small breeze to carry the smoke away from the gazebo, then sit down next to him. “Something got you stressed, or…”
He shakes his head. “Not so much. Just occasionally get urge.” He glances over at you. “Do you?”
“Nah. Stuff like that’s bad for my anxiety. I try to stay away from it.”
He smiles ruefully. “Probably for best.”
Unbidden, memories from you most recent stay at your uncle’s place pop into your mind’s eye.
She always wanted a farm. Leave it to that woman to get what she wants in life.
You look up –Nikolai’s built a lot like Piotr—at him. “Can I ask you a question?”
“Konechno. Anything.”
“You… you know about my uncle and… Alexandra, right?”
He nods. “Da.”
“You seem… pretty comfortable with him being here.”
He raises an eyebrow with you, but he doesn’t seem alarmed or upset. “Should I not be?”
“No, I just…”
“You were expecting ‘jealous man?’”
“A little, I guess.”
Nikolai sighs and takes a long drag from his cigarette. He exhales a cloud of smoke, then taps some ash on a little tissue square set next to him on the bench. “As I see, Alexandra and I have good marriage. I trust her with all things –and I trust your uncle to act decent. This is not my first time meeting. I know what type he is.” He frowns a little. “If anything, I worry for him. Alexandra says he lives alone?”
You nod. “Yeah. I think he likes it that way.”
Nikolai shakes his head. “No one ever likes that way. They just tell themselves so.”
“Yeah, there’s truth in that.” You cock your head to one side when he sighs. “You know, I think you’re the only guy I know that would worry over the wellbeing of his wife’s ex.”
“If we cannot have compassion for those hurting, we cannot properly exist,” Nikolai says simply, as if that explains everything.
In a way, it does. And, not for the first time since the Rasputin family arrived, you’re completely floored by the overwhelming decency and kindness that each family member seems to exude.
A couple of mornings later, you wake up to Wade’s ringtone blaring as loud as it possibly can. You groan and crawl over your boyfriend to reach your phone –waking him up in the process, not that you’re awake enough to care at this precise moment—and answer the call. “You better have a good reason for waking me up this early.”
“Trust me, I do.”
The solemn urgency in Wade’s voice finishes waking you up; this isn’t a crank call or some random chat. He’s actually worried about something.
You sit up and push your hair out of your face. “What’s up? Is everything alright?”
“We’re all still going shooting today, right? With Pete’s family and everything. This morning.”
“Yeah—”
“Can I bring a friend along?”
You blink, surprised. “Uh… it’s kind of a family event…”
Piotr rubs at his face and groans. “What does he want?”
You cover the microphone end of your phone with your hand. “He wants to bring a friend to the shooting outing today.”
Piotr rolls his eyes. “Tell him no.”
You lower your hand. “Piotr says—”
“Yeah, yeah, I know, but apparently it’s the anniversary of Castle’s family’s death, and…” Wade goes silent for a moment. “People just… people shouldn’t have to be alone when dealing with that shit.”
You’re not particularly attached to Frank Castle. He’s saved your life, you’ve saved his, and you’ve been around enough assassins-for-hire that his Punisher getup doesn’t really scare you all that much, but sometimes you forget that the man lost everything. That he’s still trying to grapple with losing everything.
And you know, firsthand, that having good distractions around while dealing with heavy emotional trauma can be nothing short of life-saving.
“Oh.”
“Yeah. Oh.” Wade sighs. “Look, normally I wouldn’t give a shit, but… but after Ness, and Nate losing his family—”
“No, no, I get. Hang on.” You cover the microphone end again and look over at Piotr. “He wants to bring Frank Castle.”
Piotr’s eyes widen. “What?”
“It’s the anniversary of his family’s death, babe. Wade’s worried about him being alone.”
Piotr takes a moment to process the information, then sighs heavily and gets out of bed. “I’ll go ask.”
“Piotr’s checking with his family,” You tell Wade, lowering your hand once more. “I’ll text you the outcome.”
“Thanks, sis.”
“You gotta promise me something,” you add, trying to be as stern as you can. “Frank’s gotta be on his best behavior. Piotr and I both have family members tied up… some complicated shit. If you think Frank’s gonna start doing his ‘Punisher thing,’ then he can’t come.”
“I’ll keep him on a short leash. Figuratively. I’m pretty sure he’d cut my balls off if I tried to do it literally.”
“I mean… they’d always grow back.”
“Okay, but that would hurt.”
“I mean, it would… but can you imagine getting a picture of having Frank Castle on a literal, actual leash?”
Wade goes silent for a moment. “Holy shit, I just found my new project.”
The two of you derail into the rabbit hole of how to put the Punisher on an actual leash –and then the finer workings of if a lasso can count as a leash, because if it can’t that means Wade would have to get a collar of some sort on Frank, too, and more steps means more possible stabbings—long enough that you’re still on the phone when Piotr walks back into the room.
“Okay, what about those leashed backpacks that parents use for kids?” you suggest as Piotr opens the door to your bedroom once more.
“A solid idea. Wait, do they make those in the right size for emotionally constipated men with guns?”
“Fuck, I guess they don’t.”
Piotr just stares at you. “What are you talking about?”
“We’re trying to figure out how to get an actual leash on the Punisher,” you say. “Like, just for a photo. Not for anything kinky.”
“Excuse you, I’d be happy to try the kinky stuff, too,” Wade objects.
“Yeah, we’ll you’re insane.”
“You are both insane,” Piotr mutters. “And my family is fine with Frank coming.”
You relay the invitation to Wade, then hang up after promising to help him with the logistics of putting a leash on the Punisher. You slide out of the bed and wrap your arms around your boyfriend’s torso. “Thank you.”
He kisses the top of your head. “For what?”
“For humoring Wade. He was concerned about Frank after everything he went through with losing Vanessa.”
Piotr stays silent for a moment, then sighs heavily. “I did not even consider that. I was more thinking about Mr. Castle.”
You kiss his chest. “Well, still. Thank you.”
It’s mid-morning when Wade and Nate arrive with a particularly sullen, quiet Frank and—
“Oh!” You grin. “Karen! Hi! I wasn’t expecting to see you here!”
Karen Page grins back at you, just as classically pretty as you remember from the night you bled on her couch. “I figured I could use the practice, and Wade said I wouldn’t be intruding.”
Which is basically code for ‘I’m here for Frank,’ but you’re not about to point that out. “Not at all! Let me walk you guys out to the range. Piotr’s already out there with his family.”
“I didn’t exactly take him as the… ‘gun type,’” Karen says as she follows you around the side of the house.
“I think it’s more of a Russian thing,” you say. “Different attitudes towards firearms. And I don’t think he minds guns as much as he minds…” You let your voice trail off, then cut your eyes towards Wade a couple times.
Karen nods knowingly. “So what’s it like meeting his family?”
“Honestly? It’s been great. They’re a lot of fun to be around. Although, I’ve eaten so much food in the past week. I mean, I should’ve seen it coming since Piotr’s parents run a farm back in Siberia, but still.”
“That sounds like heaven,” Karen says.
“It really has been,” you agree. “How’s your week been?”
She lays out the basic pieces of a story she’s been working on –another corruption case in the Senate—but you can tell her focus in more on Frank than anywhere else. Her gaze darts over to him every few seconds, like she’s trying to make sure he isn’t going to make a break for it.
She shifts the focus back to you –well, the Institute, more accurately—after a few minutes, right about when you notice that Frank’s been tensing up the more she’s talked about her article.
And that basically reaffirms in your mind that the flirting and sheer connection between Frank and Karen you’d witnessed back when they’d rescued you wasn’t a product of your concussion, which is…
Interesting.
“We do have a few year-round residents,” you confirm. “Most the X-Men actually keep their own apartments and come in for two-week long shifts or emergencies. The people who stay here permanently are either kids that have been kicked out of their homes or picked up from orphanages or the foster system, or adults that can’t get their own place because their mutation makes that impossible for them.”
“How would a mutation get in the way of renting their own place?” Karen asks, frowning.
“Well, any mutation that affects physical appearance usually deters most possible letters from, y’know, letting. So, people with abnormally colored skin –think fluorescent green—or spikes protruding from their face or fur… you get the idea.”
Karen’s frown deepens. “But… they’re still people. It shouldn’t matter how they look.”
“Yeah, well, welcome to our reality.” You grimace. “It is what it is. It’s why we all look out for each other like we do.”
Karen nods. “What about you and Piotr? Do you guys live here full time?”
“Piotr’s a teacher during the school year and on active training roster for the younger mutants –his armor makes him impervious to just about anything, which is handy when a kid might wind up accidentally chucking a fireball at your face—so he stays here full time, and I…” You shrug. “I’m here with him.”
“That’s right. You mentioned not being on good terms with your parents.”
It floors you, just a little, that Karen Page –who you’ve only known for a handful of hours, during which you were concussed and bled on her couch—would remember a little detail like that.
“That’s putting it mildly,” Wade interjects, ceasing his efforts in talking Frank’s ears off long enough to insert himself in your conversation with Karen. “I don’t know too many parents who call their kids just to say they hate them.”
All you can do is shrug when Karen shoots you a shocked look. “It is what it is. At least I don’t have to live with them anymore.” You can hear the sounds of Piotr talking with his family and your uncle, and you’ve never been more relieved to be approaching a group of people in your life. “We’re here. I’ll introduce you to everyone. Guys—” You step into the clearing where the range’s been set up. “This is Karen and Frank.”
It occurs to you precisely three seconds too late that you should’ve used an alias for Frank. Oh well. Can’t do anything now. You clear your throat and continue on. “Karen, Frank, these are Piotr’s parents, Alexandra and Nikolai, his siblings, Illyana and Mikhail, and my uncle—” you blank on a name until you remember that he told Wade to call him ‘Andrew,’ and you really hope that Karen and Frank don’t make too much of your pause “—Andrew.”
“How do you two know each other?” Mikhail asks, gesturing between you and Karen.
“Oh, you know, the usual. I got kidnapped, escaped, bled on her couch.” You shrug. “The basic foundations of any good friendship.”
Alexandra smirks. “Naturally.” Her gaze flits to Frank, who is very carefully keeping to the edge of the group and looking at everything but the people present. “Do you have any experience with firearms?”
Frank briefly –reluctantly—meets Alex’s gaze and nods. “Marine Corps. Former Scout sniper.”
Alex nods back, smirk completely unmoved by that little tidbit of information. “Good. You might be able to keep up.”
And that, out of everything, is what draws Frank out, gets his attention. He actually looks shocked for a moment, at the sheer brazenness of the comment, then smirks back. Just a little.
It’s better than the shell-shocked look he’d been wearing when he’d arrived.
“Only one way to find out, ma’am.”
You’re not unfamiliar with shooting guns; between Wade, Nate, and your uncle, you’ve got a decent amount of experience. You know how to handle one safely and fire it with pretty decent accuracy. Granted, shooting’s not your favorite way to spend your time –though it is, in your opinion, a decent way to blow off some anger.
Point stands: you shoot. You know how to shoot. You know how to handle a firearm safely –which, frankly, is what you care about most.
Second standing point: You’ve been around Nate and Wade long enough to know that some people are very serious –Nate—and enthused –Wade—about shooting, and like to make quite the event of target practice. You’re usually not opposed to such events –especially when Wade’s involved—because that implies you get to shoot fun targets, like half rotted watermelons or gallons of milk that have been emptied and subsequently filled with glitter.
But sweet holy fuck almighty, you’ve never seen a shooting event quite like this.
There are so many guns. More than you can count, but you’re pretty sure between your uncle, Wade, Nate, Alex, Mikhail, and Frank that there’s at least fifty different types.
Leave it to a group of mercenaries and assassins to pull out all the stops.
Also on the list of surprising things is that Piotr is a pretty decent shot; he sticks most to hunting rifles or shotguns, but still.
“I had to learn back home,” he says by way of explanation. “To keep farm safe from predators.”
“What?” You ask, all too enthralled to know more. “Like, bears?”
“Sometimes. Wolves, also. A tiger, once.”
You gape at him. “You saw a tiger? Like, outside of a zoo?”
He shrugs, as if he hadn’t just said one of the most mind-blowing things you’ve ever heard. “They are native to Siberia. Sometimes, juveniles come into town limits looking for food.”
“It is not a common experience,” Alexandra adds as she loads a pistol. “But it happens.”
“So, wait.” You frown. “Did you shoot the tiger?”
“Nyet, nyet, nyet,” Mikhail interjects before gesturing over his head with his hand. “Over. To scare.”
“That’s still amazing, though,” Karen says. “We only have tigers in zoos, over here.”
“I once threw myself into a tiger exhibit!” Wade adds as he adjusts the scope on one of his rifles.
“I thought I read about something like that in the news,” Frank mutters as he loads various clips.
“Why would you throw self into tiger display?” Illyana asks, expression rightfully confused.
“It was a low point, I admit.”
You can’t help but chuckle as you take it all in. You love your weird little family –Frank and Karen too, however they’re meant to fit in—such as they are.
You hang back and watch for the most part –and so does Piotr, seemingly more content to sit and observe with you once he’s got his ‘practice’ in. You laugh with everyone else when Illyana fucks up several of her shots and gets a gentle scolding from her mother that seems more worried than anything else, then try to ignore the churning pain in your chest when you watch Alex put her arms around her daughter and kiss the top of her blonde head.
It's what you never got, growing up; as much as you don’t want to be jealous, envious, you are.
“We’re gonna love the fuck out of our kids,” you tell Piotr quietly as Wade and Frank put up a new set of targets. “We’re gonna frickin’ smother them with hugs and love and kisses and everything.”
He puts his arms around you, almost protectively, and kisses the top of your head. “Konechno.”
Of course. Like it’s an automatic given. Like there’s not even another conceivable option. Of course the two of you are going to love your kids more than anything else.
You close your eyes and tip your head back against his chest as emotion –grief, pain, rage—threatens to overwhelm you.
Piotr wipes away your tears before there’s a risk of anyone seeing them.
The ‘extended target practice’ concludes with is arguably the most entertaining gun-related event you’ve ever seen and will ever see in your life: a super sniper shoot-off.
Frank, Alex, Mikhail, Wade, Nate, and your uncle all prep their various guns, and then it’s on.
Nate and your uncle are first out, surprisingly enough. Granted, the margin for error is extremely narrow, but you still expected them to make a little further.
Wade’s next, followed by Mikhail –and, now that you’re thinking about it, it all makes sense considering that the two of them use sniper rifles more regularly in their ‘lines of work.’
And that just leaves Frank and Alexandra, and whoo boy. Put two people who are equally stubborn and equally proud of their skills as snipers, and what do you get?
Correct answer: a very drawn-out, involved competition that eventually boils down to the two of them actually measuring the diameter of the holes where the bullets hit the targets –and, to make things worse, they both shot through the same hole five times—to see who had more deviation in their aim.
“How much longer are they gonna be?” You ask. The rest of you are already packed and ready to head back to the mansion for lunch.
“It could be a while,” Karen admits quietly.
Illyana nods in agreement, basically settling that you all might be out here until sundown before Frank and Alex find an answer that satisfies them both.
“Moya lyubov’,” Nikolai calls out.
“Terpeniye,” Alexandra says back –which, considering that she’s already said it five times, you’re figuring is the Russian equivalent of ‘just a minute’ or something similar. “Ha! You have the higher deviation! I win.”
“Did you use your telekinesis to keep things tighter?” your uncle asks in a lazy drawl.
The look of utter indignation and betrayal on Alex’s face is priceless –and so is the look of shock on Frank’s.
“You’ve been cheating,” he accuses.
“I have not!”
“There’s no other explanation! You’ve been using your mind shit to keep the shots tighter!”
Alex smirks. “Or, perhaps, I am just a better shot than you.”
Frank narrows his eyes at her. “The day I buy that is the day I put my hair up in a fucking man bun.”
And that is an amazing concept in and of itself, but the way Karen chokes on a snort tells you that there’s more to that than meets the eye—
Alex just takes a hair elastic off her wrist and holds it out to Frank. “Start pulling it back.”
Frank grins –and it’s the most human and not haunted you’ve seen him look all day—and shakes his head. “Nah. There’s only one way to settle this.”
And it’s easy to see where that’s going, judging by the looks on Frank and Alex’s faces, and since the rest of you actually want to each lunch before the turn of the century, you all swoop in to keep the two of them from putting up new targets and going at it again.
Karen actually shoves Frank away from the table with the rest of the guns and ammo on it. “No, no. I want to eat lunch. We’re going inside.”
“Okay, okay –Christ, let me put my shit away first.”
Wade shoots you a look when he sees the small grin Frank’s sporting, then raises his nonexistent eyebrows when you nod back at him.
Nikolai’s already whisked his wife away from the table, leaving Illyana and Mikhail to put her stuff away. They’re bickering in Russian at each other, and you’d be concerned if the expression on Nick’s face wasn’t one of complete and utter adoration.
Out of the corner of your eye, you catch your uncle just barely holding in a pained grimace. Your heart squeezes painfully in your chest, and you try to think of some excuse about some of you heading back to the house to start lunch early –really, just anything that’ll give him an excuse to duck out without drawing attention to his departure—
“So, Y/N. Wade and Nate are telling me that you are most exceptional fighter.”
You look over at Mikhail, distracted from your internal reverie. “Huh? Oh, yeah.” You shrug. “I try.”
Piotr’s eyes narrow. “Mikhail—”
The eldest Rasputin waves him off, relaxed and indifferent. “So, that makes me wonder: just how good are you?”
It’s easy to hear the challenge without him actually saying it.
You cross your arms over your chest and raise an eyebrow at him. “Good enough to kick your ass.”
A chorus of chuckles goes through the group –and Piotr pinches the bridge of his nose. “Nyet, nyet. Absolutely not. We are going inside and eating—”
“Da, which means all more reason to do this now,” Mikhail argues. “No one wants to spar on full stomach.”
“You mean, you don’t want to get your ass kicked on a full stomach,” your uncle interjects, smirking. “Because that’s what’ll happen.”
Alexandra scoffs. “Biased much?”
“No more than you.”
It devolves quickly from there, everyone taking sides –Nate, your uncle, and Wade all back you, while Mikhail’s family is quick to vouch for his prowess—while Piotr does his best to get a handle on the situation and shoots daggers at his older brother.
And it’s the first time you’ve seen Piotr get downright angry with someone that isn’t Wade –sure, you and he have fought, but he’s never turned the full brunt of his wrath on you like he has occasionally with Wade—and the fact that it’s his brother makes it all the more…
Interesting.
Weird.
Concerning.
A mix of the three.
And then Frank takes his wallet out of his back pocket, and whatever control your darling boyfriend had over the situation evaporates.
He pulls out a couple bills and holds them between two of his fingers. “Twenty on Y/N.”
And now there’s money on the table –Wade tries to make his bet in cocaine, and fortunately Nathan gets him to shup the fuck up before Piotr can take his head off—and you’ve never been that good at backing down from a challenge.
You squeeze Piotr’s hand, trying to reassure him and get him to relax a little. “C’mon. Five minutes. It’ll be fun.”
The group of you walk out to the back lawn –far enough away from the house that you shouldn’t be at risk of destroying any windows, but close enough that someone can easily get the first aid kit if stuff goes wrong.
“Five minutes!” you shout at Mikhail. “Do your fucking worst!” You float off the ground, careful to keep an eye on the eldest Rasputin; it’s a go-to move of yours; most of your opponents can’t levitate themselves or uses their abilities against you as easily if you fly, and you’re not above using such an easy advantage.
Mikhail smirks –then winks out of sight before appearing right in front of you and latching onto your shoulders like a koala.
“Shit!” You bob up and down as you try to get him off you, then spin yourself around with a burst of air until he physically can’t hold on.
He manages to teleport closer to the ground before he makes contact, fortunately, but he still tumbles a fair distance. He pushes himself onto his feet as Wade cackles like a maniac, then disappears from view again.
You’re ready for him this time, and create a vortex of air around you before he can reappear. Sure enough, he gets sucked up in the air currents before he can grab on you; he swears a blue streak –and you know he’s actually swearing because of the grimace that flashes across Piotr’s face—in Russian as he plummets back to the ground.
You smirk, feeling victorious and enormously pleased with yourself, as you watch Mikhail brush chunks of dirt and grass off his arms and legs. “That the best you got?”
He narrows his eyes at you –he’s starting to look a little pissed off, actually—and his eyes start glowing.
“That’s not good,” you mutter to yourself.
And, sure enough, it isn’t.
Bright, glowing strands of copper-colored energy appear at the ends of Mikhail’s hands. He lets them grow into orbs for half a minute –lets them charge up—and then launches one at you.
You let the bolt of energy zing past you –then gasp when it stops in its tracks a few yards away and starts hurtling towards you again. “Shit!”
You’re forced to go on the defensive, using your flight abilities to evade Mikhail’s energy “missiles.” You’re faster than them, fortunately, but he starts peppering the air with various smaller ones, meaning that there’s almost no room to fly at all.
You narrow your eyes down at him as you narrowly avoid having your elbow singed by one of the bolts. Best to target the root instead of the leaves. You fly upwards, make sure that you get yourself positioned so your plan doesn’t backfire suddenly –and then let yourself freefall.
It doesn’t take long to pick up speed. You can actually see Mikhail’s eyes physically widen as you hurtle towards him.
You start flying again mere feet away from the ground. The sudden rush of air created by your move sends a current directly at Mikhail.
He flies back with a grunt and tumbles across the lawn like a hyperactive gymnast.
And, sure enough, some of –not all of them, but enough to prove your theory—the energy orbs fizzle out.
You smirk to yourself as you soar back into the air. Strategy acquired. Goal: kick much ass.
And you do. Even with his ability to teleport, he can’t do that without losing more of his ‘missiles.’ He either has to get knocked around by your constant dive-bombing, or teleport out of the way, and either option puts him at a disadvantage.
You’re winning. You can hear Wade cheering you on from the sidelines. You grin to yourself as you make another pass at Mikhail –he swears as he teleports out of the line of fire—and soar back up towards the sky.
And it’s not that you have to win. You don’t have anything extraordinary to prove. But, by your own admission, you’re too competitive for your own good, and kicking Mikhail’s ass is actually kinda easy—
And then he teleports right in front of you and unleashes a massive burst of energy almost directly in your face.
You’re going too fast to stop or get out of the way in time, so you grit your teeth, make a shield out of air, and hope for the best.
There’s a massive boom that rattles your teeth. You feel yourself get knocked back, but you still feel like you’re flying—
But you can hear someone screaming like they’re watching their kid die in front of them… and it kinda sounds like Piotr…
But you’re still flying? Or, at least you’re still in the air…
Why does your head hurt so much? And why does something smell… burnt?
You manage to open your eyes long enough to see a massive green blur zooming towards you, which you vaguely manage to identify as the back lawn. Oh… shit.
And then a set of arms are wrapping around you.
How you get to the ground is a mystery to you, but suddenly you’re there and your boyfriend’s hovering over you.
Except he’s blurrier than usual. And since when could he make duplicates of himself?
You can see his lips moving, but you can’t really hear what he’s saying.
And suddenly, you’re tired. Straight up exhausted. And your whole body’s kinda numb, which isn’t the most reassuring sensation, but it does mean that if you’re uncomfortable you can’t feel it, and a nap is sounding amazing right now.
You let your eyes close. Just for a minute.
It’s dark. The panes in the windows are an oil slick, dark in solidarity with the night outside.
There’s a single light on in the room, a bedside lamp. It paints the room in a weak gold hue, the only contrast and respite from the oppressive, endless darkness beyond the windows.
The quilt on the bed is cream-colored with age and soft from years of use and washing. Green, yellow, blue, and purple flowers gaze up at you from the fabric surface, the hodge-podge of fabrics almost making the blanket look like it’s rippling.
Beyond the closed door, you can hear voices. They’re hushed, quiet.
Angry.
“What the fuck were you thinking?”
“You can’t possibly imagine the struggles we’ve gone through with her—”
“No. No. Don’t paint yourself as a fucking martyr. You’re the scum of the earth and you know it.”
It’s the door, though, that gives it all away.
What am I doing in my uncle’s house?
“She’s waking up.”
Your eyes flutter open. You wince at the bright lights, the glare of which are not helped by the impeccably white walls.
You’re in the Institute’s medical wing.
Dr. McCoy smiles down at you. “There she is. How are you feeling?”
You squeeze your eyes shut. “Brain’s bein’ icepicked. Lights’re too brigh’.”
“Let’s get those turned down a bit, then.”
While you wait for the lights to settle on more friendly terms of existence, you realize that someone’s holding your hand. You squeeze the hand holding yours –and it’s instantly recognizable, there’s only one person in the mansion with hands that big.
Piotr kisses your temple gently. “Myshka.”
You tip your head towards him and force yourself to open your eyes.
He looks wrecked. He’s paler than usual, and his blue eyes are rimmed with red.
“Hey.” You squeeze your hand. “Hey. I’m okay.”
He grimaces slightly. “You got hit in face with an energy pulse. If your uncle had not caught you, you would’ve hit the ground.”
You frown as you try to recollect what happened.
Shooting with the Rasputin family. Your uncle. Wade and Nate. Frank. Karen. Check.
Frank and Alex getting into the mother of all sniper shoot-offs, which only stopped because the rest of you forced them to give it up. Check.
Mikhail throwing down the mother of all gauntlets. Check.
And after that… Presumably, something had to happen after that. Specifically, you getting hit in the face, because that’s what Piotr said happened, and you know he wouldn’t lie to you.
“You might not remember all of it,” Hank says as he finishes turning down the lights. “Which is normal with head traumas. Can you walk me through your day, up to most recent thing you remember before waking up here?” He nods as you rattle off the day thus far –you leave out whatever weird dream you had between getting hit and waking up here, because you don’t know how to factor that in or why you can even remember it. “Alright, your recollection’s pretty good. Which is a good sign –and, admittedly, not that surprising since we’ve learned about your latent ‘damage resistance’ mutation.”
You frown suddenly and start patting your face. “I still have my brows, right? Piotr said somethin’ ‘bout gettin’ hit with an energy pulse—”
Dr. McCoy chuckles. “Your eyebrows are present and accounted for.”
“Okay, good. I didn’t wanna figure out how to draw ‘em on.”
“Understandable.” He asks you a few more questions –how much pain are you in, are you feeling any tingling sensations anywhere, do you feel like you can breathe alright—before nodding once more. “Okay. I just need to do a series of test to make sure your body’s handling the trauma alright –just to see how your nervous system is responding to the trauma—and then you should be ready to be discharged.”
After making sure your body isn’t on the verge of imploding, or whatever the fuck else might happen, Hank discharges you with some basic pain meds, a list of symptoms to keep an eye on while you recover, and strict instructions to Piotr to not let you fly or do anything too strenuous for the next few days.
Which basically means you’re gonna be mother-henned for the next few days, but you can’t exactly say you mind. Your head hurts, and you’re still fuzzy from getting hit so hard. Having someone watching your back is comforting, really.
The sun’s still high in the sky as you and Piotr amble back towards the main part of the mansion. Apparently, you’d only been out for twenty minutes. Lucky you.
Everyone’s waiting for the two of you in the rec room –including Frank and Karen, which is surprising but not unwelcome.
Mikhail stands as you walk in, looking a little sheepish—
You squint when you realize he’s got a partially black eye. “Did I do that?”
“Nope!” Wade says, popping the ‘p.’ “Piotr did! Hauled off on him as soon as Fuzzy Lumpkins took you away for a healing session.”
You shoot Piotr shocked look, but he’s focused on Mikhail, borderline glaring at his older brother.
And Mikhail’s glaring right back at him, and suddenly the room’s filled to the brim with crackling tension.
You watch the two of them for a few seconds, then do your best to smooth things out. “O-kay. I’m hungry. Has anyone else eaten yet?”
Nate shakes his head. “We were waiting to hear how you were.”
“Al-right.” You nudge Piotr a little when he doesn’t pick up on the conversational cues –or, more importantly, stop glaring at Mikhail. “Let’s get some lunch, yeah?”
His demeanor shifts instantly as he bends down to kiss the top of your head; it’s almost like he’s a completely different person. “Konechno.”
You purse your lips a little as you follow him to the kitchen. And we’re in full on passive-aggressive mode. Great.
“So, you’re both mutants.”
Your uncle nods at Karen’s statement.
Instead of cramming into the kitchen or the breakfast nook, you’d all opted to use one of the dining rooms used by the students during the school year while you ate lunch. You’d half expected Frank and Karen to leave as soon as they knew you were in decent shape, but they’d opted to at least eat lunch before heading out.
(You’d also half expected Frank to sit away from literally everyone else, but Karen seemed to bring out his best behavior, which –again—is interesting.)
“And you both can fly?” She frowns as she wipes some ketchup from her sandwich off her fingers with a napkin. “I thought the X-gene randomized mutations.”
“It can,” your uncle says with a shrug. “But if there’s a long enough direct lineage, sometimes recurring traits show up.”
“So, the mutation must’ve been in your family for a long time, then.”
“As long as I can remember.”
Karen nods, then smiles. “I can’t even imagine what it would be like to fly, all on my own. If I’d woken up one morning, as a little girl, and been able to fly, I don’t think my parents would’ve been able to get me to walk again.”
Admittedly, your initial experience with discovering your powers hadn’t gone as idyllically; not even rose-tinted glasses could change that.
But flying, in and of itself? It’s the most amazing sensation in the world.
You grin—
You’re shivering. You’re under a pile of blankets, and heat is blasting at you from the car’s air vents, and you can’t. Get. Warm.
The ground is rocky and uneven under the car’s tires. It makes you bounce in the back seat, which makes you dizzy. You cry as your stomach churns violently. “I’m gonna throw up!”
“Do not puke in the car!” Your mother’s voice. “Just close your eyes and breathe through your nose.”
You do as you’re told; you keep your mouth screwed shut and try to fall asleep. It’s dark outside, heavy clouds covering the stars and moon and plunging the world into an inky abyss.
The car keeps bouncing you and your stomach. You can feel the bile creeping up your throat.
The car lurches to a stop and the door next to your seat is flung open. Strong hands unbuckle you and lift you out of your car seat.
You puke on the grass. On someone’s shoes.
Your mother panics. “Dammit, Y/N! Don’t—”
“It’s okay.” Your uncle’s voice is shaky, but his hands are gentle as he keeps your hair out of your face. “She’s alright. What happened to her?”
“We tried to fix her—”
“Y/N? Y/N, can you hear me?”
You blink –and you’re in the dining room, and everyone’s staring at you like you’ve grown a second head. “Huh?”
Dr. McCoy is kneeling next to you, frowning as he watches your eyes and color. “What’s the last thing you remember?”
“We… were just talking about flying.” You frown. “That… that just happened.”
“You were gone for ten minutes,” Nate says quietly.
“Even I’m not that bad at keeping track of time,” Wade adds, but his smile is forced at the edges.
A wave of cold dread runs down your spine, and reach blindly for Piotr’s hand. It’s warm and solid against yours, and you try to keep yourself grounded on the sensation of his hand holding yours. Don’t panic. Panicking won’t help anything. “What does it mean?”
Frank clears his throat. “Could mean nothing,” he says quietly. “Blackouts can happen with head injuries.”
Dr. McCoy nods. “I think I’m going to extend your rest period, just as a precaution. And—” he looks over at Piotr “—someone needs to check in with her every hour, just to see how her memory is and how she’s doing. If she has more blackouts, record the symptoms, how long they go for, that sort of thing.”
“Da.” Piotr squeezes your hand, then leans over and kisses your cheek. “Everything will be alright.”
You lay your head on his shoulder by way of response. I really hope so.
Karen and Frank head out right after you all finish lunch –with Frank promising Alex that there’d be a proper rematch in the future.
And, unsurprisingly, Piotr practically whisks you away to get some proper rest as soon as the door shuts behind them. He actually carries you up to your shared room –which you aren’t complaining about because walking is for chumps—and sets you carefully, gently on the bed.
“I thought you weren’t supposed to sleep after getting a concussion,” you ponder.
“That is myth,” he says. “And the healers fixed any concussion you might have had. They just cannot fix temporary trauma from impact.”
“Ah. That makes sense.” You squint your eyes as you mull it over. “I guess.”
He kisses your forehead. “Besides, I mostly brought you up here so you could relax… and so we could spend some time together.”
You smile up at him. “Well, that I’m not opposed to. Can we watch a movie?”
“Konechno.” As he makes to retrieve his DVD case from one of the bookshelves, the main door to your room swings open.
Mikhail peers in. “Am I interrupting?”
“It’s called knocking,” Piotr says bluntly, tone flat. “Try it.”
You actually gape at him. “Babe!”
“It is good manners—”
“Yeah, and what are you doing?”
He actually hangs his head at that, looking like a kid who got caught with his hand in the cookie jar. “I…”
Mikhail just holds up his hands. He doesn’t look pleased, but he doesn’t look like he wants to start a fight, either. “I just wanted to apologize.” He offers you a sheepish smile. “For, ah—” He taps the side of his own head. “Doing that.”
You shrug. “Hey, it’s sparring. Accidents happen.”
Piotr lets out an angry huff. “Accidents happen. Ego trips are planned.”
Before you can say anything, Mikhail groans and rolls his eyes. “Again with that! You never give me doubt of benefit! None!”
“Your ego,” Piotr snaps, eyes sparking with anger. “Has caused plenty of problems. Why should this be any different!”
“You think I would try to hurt her?”
“I think you would prioritize winning over common sense!”
Mikhail sneers at his younger brother. “Well, not all of us can be you.”
“Okay, enough,” you growl out. “Both of you.” You sigh and rub your temples –your head’s throbbing, but you suspect it has more to do with listening to them than with your injury. “Babe, would you mind making me some Gatorade while I talk to Mikhail for a minute?”
Piotr just crosses his arms over his chest. “Someone needs to stay with you. To keep track of your symptoms.”
“Are you serious?” Mikhail growls. “I can watch her for five minutes!”
“How do I know I can trust you, after today?”
“Are you fucking kidding me!”
“Langu—”
“Okay,” you interject sternly. “I swear more than him. Quit being petty.”
Piotr purses his lips and exhales sharply. “I told him not to start sparring—”
“And the two of you need to work out whatever problems you have on your own. I’m not refereeing or watching.” You give Piotr the gentlest pointed look you can. “Sweetheart. Five minutes. Please.”
He grimaces, but nods. “Khorosho.” He crosses the room quickly, then plants a slow, sweet kiss against your forehead. “I’ll be back quickly.”
“She said five minutes, asshole,” Mikhail mutters from his position by the door. His expression sours as Piotr’s shoulder clips his own on his way out –which, despite his size, you can tell was deliberate on your boyfriend’s part—and grumbles something under his breath in Russian before looking at you. “You wanted chatting?”
“Just to make sure we’re good.” You pat on a spot at the end of the bed lightly. “Come on. I don’t bite.”
“I hit you, not other way around,” he points out as he sits down on the bed.
“Look, I might not remember the fight, but I refuse to believe that you just trounced me.”
He laughs at that and relaxes a little. “Da, da. You, ah, ‘kicked my ass,’ as they say here. I seriously underestimated you.” He pauses for a moment, then hangs his head a little. “And pridurok is right. I let ego control me.”
“Okay, one, I know what the Russian word for ‘idiot’ is; Piotr uses it to describe Wade all the time.” You smirk when he grins sheepishly. “Two, whatever ego thing you’ve got it fine, at least in this situation. Sparring’s sparring. I know that whenever I step into a fight, I run the risk of getting hurt. I didn’t think this situation would be any different.”
Mikhail frowns. “But… if I had kept in better check—”
“Look, Mikhail,” you say earnestly. “Were you trying to hurt me?”
He shakes his head. “Nyet. Absolutely not.”
“Then we’re good, in my book. Trust me, I’ve had a lot worse for way pettier reasons.”
He eyes you warily. “So… you are not upset?”
You shake your head –well, as much as you can, anyway. “Not about the sparring. If I’m upset about anything, honestly, it’s about how you treat Piotr.”
He grimaces. “Things… have never been good between he and I. We… we do not see eyes to eyes on many things.”
“I gathered. You seem to go out of your way to antagonize him.”
The grimace deepens. “I know. I… I do not always know how to stop it.” He smiles bitterly. “Piotr has always gotten along better with everyone. Mamochka, papochka, Illyana, cousins, girls, boys –everyone. I think…” He winces and swallows hard. “I think I am just too sensitive.”
You study him for a minute before commenting. “I’d wager you’ve got some insecurities to work on, but I think your ‘sensitivity levels’ are just fine.”
He manages a small smile at that. “Spasibo.”
There’s a series of heavy footsteps in the hallway, and then Piotr’s walking back into the room with a water bottle full of Gatorade in hand. He stops just past the door way, clearly a little caught off guard by his brother’s new position in the room.
Mikhail nods at you and stands quickly before Piotr can say anything. “I leave you to it.”
You shake your head, just a little, as he vanishes from view. “I’m never going to get used to that.” You accept your bottle of Gatorade from your boyfriend with a smile. “Thanks, honey.”
He returns to the task of retrieving his DVD case, but it’s not hard to tell something’s on his mind.
“I can hear you thinking, you know.”
He huffs a little laugh at that. “I thought my sister was supposed to be telepath, not you.”
You humor him with a small, fond chuckle. “C’mon, babe. What’s eating at you?”
He grimaces as he crosses back over to the bed and sits down next to you. “I was not… fair. To Mikhail.”
“Yeah, you were kind of an asshole to him. What is it with you two, anyway? You’ve been at each other’s throats since he got here.”
Piotr’s lips quirk into a puzzled frown as he runs his fingertips over the DVD case cover. “Mikhail and I… we are oil and water. We have never gotten along. I think he is arrogant and careless, he says I am controlling and judgmental…”
They’re both right, to an extent, you think to yourself.
Piotr exhales heavily, and his eyes take on a glassy look that tips you off to the fact that he’s recalling some really unpleasant memories. “Mikhail… when we were younger, he used to tease me until I gave him what he wanted. Or I snapped. Or he would put me in uncomfortable, dangerous situations to get a rise out of me…”
You reach out and curl your fingers around his hand.
He smiles, just a little, and lifts your hand to his lips so he can kiss it. “Where I grow puzzled is… I can remember times when he would be… subdued. Gloomy. And during these times, I know we got on better. And then he would get back to his wild self and teasing would start all over.”
You squeeze his hand comfortingly. “Look, babe, I’m not gonna pretend I’ve got all the answers to this situation. I didn’t grow up with siblings –and Wade, as awesome as he is, doesn’t exactly fill the ticket for direct knowledge in this sorta thing. But, if there’s anything you need to do, it’s actually communicate with Mikhail instead of letting him walk all over you until you snap. You need to set boundaries.”
“I have tried,” Piotr insists. “He just ignores them.”
“Then you need to enforce them,” you add on. “Look, sweetheart, you’re great at talking a good game, but you’re shitty with the follow-through. Case in point, Wade. You like to talk healthy behavior with him, but eight times out of ten you don’t actually enforce any of the boundaries you talk about having.”
“Killing people—”
“Isn’t what I’m talking about, Piotr. The jokes, the language, the pranks. Yeah, Wade’s an adult and can do what he wants, but so are you. Look, what I’m trying to say is that you need to talk to Mikhail, and then you need to stick to your guns if he tries to ignore your boundaries. And if he keeps doing that, then maybe you just need to give him the heave-ho.”
Piotr hangs his head a little. “It is not that simple.”
“Sorry.” You wriggle over to him and wrap your arms around his waist. “I wish I could help more.”
“You have helped immensely.” He kisses your forehead. “You called me out on my poor behavior, and you have given me much to consider.” He kisses your cheek, then your lips, then taps the DVD case with his hand. “How about we watch movie now, da?”
You smile up at him. “Sounds great.”
“So. I have question. What qualifies as ‘worse’ than unyielding concussion?”
“Severe,” Alexandra corrects from where she’s chopping vegetables for dinner. “Not ‘unyielding.’”
After relaxing for a few hours, Piotr had agreed that you’d be fine to hang out during dinner prep.
Key words being ‘hang out,’ seeing as he’s banned you from all knife-and-heat related duties until you stop having blackouts.
At any rate, you’re in the kitchen with Piotr’s family, Wade, Nate, your uncle, and your darling boyfriend, perched on one of the barstools while everyone else works on getting dinner together.
(Correction: everyone else sans Wade because Wade is also banned from dinner prep duties; unlike you, however, his ban is indefinite for reasons Piotr refuses to mention and Wade laughs too hard make elaborating possible whenever you ask.)
Mikhail jerks at her with his thumb. “That. And does it have anything to do with the ‘episodes?’”
Piotr goes ramrod straight so fast it’s a shock he doesn’t hurt himself. The look he shoots his older brother is beyond murderous.
You hold up your hands in a placating gesture before he can verbally –or literally, it’s anyone’s guess at this point—rip Mikhail’s head off. “It’s alright, he can ask. And… uh, I guess it does? I don’t know. It’s a little complicated.”
“Does it have to do with why your parents are not present?” Illyana pipes up.
“I guess?” You let out a slightly nervous laugh and shrug. “It’s… uh… really complicated to explain. I’m not exactly on speaking terms with them. With anyone where I grew up, actually.”
Nikolai frowns. “No ‘old friends?’ Classmates?”
You shake your head. “My mom schooled me at home. I spent most of my life inside the same four walls. I, uh, grew up in an anti-mutant town.”
“Nyet,” Mikhail says, forehead wrinkling. “That does not make sense. You are mutant. Why would your parents… not just move once you presented?”
You grimace. “They’re anti-mutant, too.”
“But… you are mutant and their child.”
And it strikes you that none of the Rasputin children can relate to what you’ve gone through. They grew up in a home where their differences were celebrated –where they were even modeled for them by Alexandra.
“It’s not always enough,” your uncle supplies after a moment of tense silence. “Some people value their beliefs more than those around them.”
“Why not let you live with him?” Illyana points at your uncle. “You are both mutants. It would make sense.”
“I was never in a position to raise a kid,” your uncle says grimly –which gets a sharp look from Alex, but she doesn’t question him.
“I doubt they would’ve let me go, anyway,” you say with a bitter smile. “I tried running away from home. A lot.”
“What happened?” Mikhail asked. “Obviously, they did not let you go…”
You shrug when his voice trails off. “Got hunted through the woods by men with guns until they caught me and dragged me back to town. Or I accidentally killed them; I had a lot of trouble controlling my mutation when I was younger.”
Alex actually drops her knife. “They did that you? They really…”
Nikolai’s eyes get shiny. “Who… who does that to a child?”
“The people from where I grew up, apparently.” You shrug with one shoulder. “I’m just glad it’s behind me.”
“What about ‘episodes?’” Illyana blurts out. “You said they connected?”
You tap your fingers against the countertop. Talking about your past has never been easy, and right now’s no exception. At least they aren’t blaming me for what happened. “Sometimes, I have hallucinations about the shit that happened to me where I grew up. It’s like I’m actually back there, going through all of it again. When that happens, I break from reality and lose control of my powers.”
Illyana darts around to the other side of the counter and wraps her arms around your shoulders. “That sounds scary.”
You smile and pat her forearm. “It can be. But I’m getting better. And I’ve got tools to help me get through them.”
The kitchen stays silent for a moment, then Mikhail clears his throat and braces himself against the counter on his elbows. “I think… all of that is definitely worse than concussion.”
You smirk. “Hey, I know what I—”
You’re shaking so hard you can’t walk. Your legs keep giving out with every step you take.
Gravel crunches underneath your sneakers. Little ladybugs light up red and pink on the side, though they don’t do much to abate the suffocating darkness.
You’re sweating, like you’ve been sitting in a hot room all day, but you feel cold. And you can’t stop shaking.
Your father’s hand is a vice on your arm. “Quit dawdling! We need to go!”
“I’m trying! My legs feel weird!”
“Don’t talk back to me—”
Your mother shoves you into your car seat and forcefully buckles you in. “Start the car. I’ve got her.”
Her voice is calm, which must mean everything’s alright, right?
You blink, and you’re keeled over on the lawn outside your uncle’s house, puking up everything in your guts and then some.
You can hear him screaming. He’s angry.
“What did you do? What did you fucking do?”
You start crying. Tears fall onto the blades of glass, glittering like stars. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry—”
He scoops you up into his arms and runs into his house with you. “It’s okay, it’s not your fault, I’ve got you.”
You blink again, and everything seems fuzzy. Something’s pressing against your arm, and several hands are holding you against something soft and warm.
“We need to stabilize her—”
“Her brain’s been gouged with the psychic equivalent of a serving fork, there’s no stabilizing that.”
“Find a fucking way or you’re out of a fucking job!”
Your head hurts. Your chest hurts. Your everything hurts.
You try and try to squirm away from the ache.
A pair of massive hands press against each side of your head, holding you in place. “It’s okay.” Your uncle’s voice. “I know it hurts, and it’s scary, but it’s okay. You’re gonna be okay.”
“Her heart rate’s going nuts.”
“We need to stem the signals being sent out by her brain.”
“Get me some anesthetic. This’ll be easier if she’s asleep.”
“Myshka?”
You blink, and you’re back in the kitchen, cradled in Piotr’s arms. “When did I get on the floor?”
“You stopped talking mid-sentence and fell over.” His face is creased with worry. “Did you black out?”
“I guess. I mean—”
“Nyet,” Illyana rejects. “Her brain was retrieving memories, not stopping all processing.”
“She broke from reality,” Wade surmises, eyes widening. “In seconds.”
“We need to get her back to Dr. McCoy,” Nate says, standing abruptly.
Piotr lifts your off the floor and starts carrying towards the medical wing of the house. “Agreed.”
You’re trying to be calm. The embodiment of zen. The living definition of chill.
But between the mutation repression collar around your neck, the wires and sticky ‘nodes’ stuck to your forehead, and the knowledge that you’ve been breaking from reality with no warning, you’re not having much luck with it.
Piotr squeezes your hand as fat tears roll down your cheeks. “Tische, tische. Deep breaths, moya lyubov’.”
You draw in an uneven breath. “I’m scared.”
Piotr just kisses your forehead. You know he’s scared too, he’s just better at game-facing that you are. “Professor Xavier is very experienced with psychic therapy. If anyone can help, it is him.”
“Yeah, but I’m breaking from reality without warning now,” you whimper. “What if whatever I’ve got is getting worse? Or the hit I took made it worse? What if—”
“Deep breath, myshka. Please.” He rubs his thumb in slow circles against the back of your hand, but there’s no missing the tears that well up in his eyes. “Speculating helps nothing now.”
Before you can spiral again, Professor Xavier and Alyssa walk –well, Alyssa walks, Xavier rolls—into the room.
“Hey, sweetheart.” Alyssa sits down on the bed next to you and clasps your hand warmly. “How’re you feeling?”
“Scared,” you admit tearfully. “Really scared.”
“I bet. You’re dealing with some big stuff right now. Let’s see if we can get some answers for you, alright?”
“Have you found anything noteworthy in your scans, Hank?” Charles asks.
Dr. McCoy shakes his head. “No. There aren’t any signs of any injuries or abnormalities that might explain the hallucinations.”
“Illyana said that I was accessing memories,” you pipe up. “But… I don’t remember these. I mean, I do now that I’ve seen them, but they’re not anything I’ve gone through before.”
“How many new sets of memories can you recall?” Professor Xavier asks as he folds his hands over his lap. He frowns as you run him through everything you can recall –from waking up in the bed and hearing the argument, to throwing up on your uncle’s shoes, to most recent set of mix-matched recollections—then glances over at Alyssa. “Could she be accessing repressed memories?”
“That would explain why she doesn’t remember seeing them before,” Alyssa says, tapping her chin thoughtfully. “Try doing a scan of her mind. See if you can find anything.”
You squeeze your eyes shut. “I hate this part. It always feels so weird.”
Professor Xavier chuckles. “I will endeavor to be as unobtrusive as possible.”
You do your best to brace yourself, but the sensation of Xavier entering your mind still makes a shudder run down your spine.
Piotr squeezes your hand reassuringly. “Try to relax as much as you can.”
You grit your teeth. “I know, I know.”
Everything’s quiet for a moment, save for the sound of the heart monitor Hank hooked up to you. Then, in a voice with too much underlying urgency to be comforting, Xavier asks “Y/N, are you completely certain that you’ve never had an encounter with a telepath before coming to the Institute?”
“Not as far as I know. Why?”
“I’m seeing a great deal of psychic scarring that was blocked from view before,” Xavier says, voice tense. “It’s extremely old, from the looks of it.”
A chill runs down your spine. “So what does that mean?”
“I’m… not sure yet.”
You crack one eye open and stare at him. “Not sure?”
He purses his lips. “Until we can ascertain what incident your formerly repressed memories are attached to, I cannot be certain about the nature of the scarring and how much it might impact your mind.”
“Are we gonna have to clear out the rest of the block?” Alyssa asks.
“I believe, given the nature of the blackouts and the lack of warning that accompanies them, we have no other option.”
You swallow hard. “What do you mean ‘clear out?’”
“We would go in and release whatever memories are being held back by the block in order to figure out how extensive the scarring is on your mind,” Xavier explains.
You can’t help but tremble. “And what if I don’t want to do that?”
Xavier sighs. “You have the right to deny treatment, of course, but I am genuinely concerned for your health. Given that you lose all control of your physical faculties, the risk of your being seriously injured during a blackout is quite high. For your sake, I would urge you to accept the treatment.”
Your lower lip quivers as you look over at Piotr. “I’m scared.”
He scoots his chair closer to your bed and takes both your hands in his. “I will be right here for whole time.”
“You’ve got the collar on, too,” Alyssa says as she pats your arm. “You’re not at risk of hurting anyone else.”
You try to swallow the lump in your throat and look over at Professor Xavier. “Is it going to hurt?”
“Physically, no, though the memories recovered may cause a great deal of emotional distress.”
“You’ve got Piotr here, and me, and your family is waiting outside,” Alyssa reminds you gently. “And you’re in a much better place than when you first came here. You can get through this.”
You give her a watery look. “Would you say something if I couldn’t?”
She nods. “If I didn’t think you could make it through this in one piece, we’d figure out a different way.”
You take a deep breath, then nod. “Alright. Balls to the wall. Let’s do this.”
Professor Xavier nods back. “You will likely be more comfortable if you relax your body and close your eyes.”
You settle back against the bed, taking the time you need to get your pillow and blanket adjusted. Once you’re comfortable –and don’t have anything else to stall with—you look over at Piotr.
He kisses your forehead. “It will be okay. I will not go anywhere. I promise.”
You nod, take a deep breath, and squeeze your eyes shut.
The house is small, out in the middle of nowhere. It’s stark white against the stormy sky, with gray shutters and a tar black roof. The windows glint in their settings as the sun strains past the clouds in bits and pieces. An immaculate grass lawn stretches out all around it, with red and gold poppies lining the walk up to the front porch.
You’ve never felt the need to run more in your life, but your mother’s hand is latched onto yours, unrelenting. “Mommy, why are we here?”
Your mother doesn’t answer, just marches behind your father, yanking you with as they walk up the steps to the house and ring the doorbell.
A pretty but otherwise average young woman opens the door. “Come in. I assume you brought everything I asked you to.”
“Yes,” your mother says crisply. “How long will this take?”
“About half an hour, start to finish. Have you dosed her yet?”
“Before we left home,” your father answers.
“Good. Bring her to the bed.”
There’s a bed sitting in the far corner of the back room. It has railings on the side, like a hospital bed. Loose straps and restraints lay across the mattress.
You dig your heels in. “No! No, I don’t wanna lie down! No!”
Your father lifts you off the ground and carries you over, ignoring your kicking and screaming. He holds you down by your shoulders while your mother and the other lady strap you onto the bed.
You thrash and strain against the straps, but without your powers there’s no point. You’re not going anywhere.
The other lady moves to the head of the bed and places her hands on each side of your face. “I’ll begin now.”
And then, agony.
Is.
All.
You.
Know.
White hot. Consuming. It burns through you as you scream and scream and scream.
Maybe it lasts for an hour. Or maybe five minutes. Or maybe time just stops altogether. You can’t process anything outside of the blinding pain wracking your body.
At some point it stops, and then you’re being unbound. You sit up, shaking all over.
“She is perfected,” the other lady says.
Your mother kneels in front of you, smiling expectantly. “How are you feeling?”
You lift your gaze to look at her as tears continue trickling down your cheeks. You breathe in—
And then the room explodes as you scream.
Your eyes snap open.
You’re back in the medical wing room.
You’re back with Piotr.
You’re safe.
Piotr leans towards you as you press a hand against your mouth. “Myshka? What is it? What’s wrong?”
You bury your face in his shoulder and start crying.
It takes time for you to get it all out. You get halfway through the story, then decide that you’d rather tell everyone at once and ask for yours and Piotr’s families to be brought in.
When you were seven, your parents caught wind of there being a woman who could “cure” mutants by telepathically removing their mutations.
Your parents, being the people they were, decided to ask her to “cure” you.
And reality, being what it is, meant that her operation was one big sham. As soon as you’d been unrestrained, you decimated the entire house with a sonic scream.
Afterwards, the side effects of the treatment started showing themselves. Instead of repressing your mutation, the telepathic woman had caused you severe brain damage.
You were dying.
Not wanting to deal with a dead child on their hands, your parents had taken you to your uncle’s and demanded he heal you.
And he had. He’d called in a lot of favors to do it, but he did.
“And you sent her back home to them,” Wade says once you finish, glaring at your uncle. “I’m sorry, but what in the actual fuck!”
“It’s not that simple, Wade,” you argue tiredly.
“Oh, but it is! If I can kill a guy with a Zamboni, this is that simple!”
“Do you really think if I’d had any choice, I’d have let her go back with them?” your uncle growls.
“Wade,” you interject softly before your adoptive brother can respond. “You know me. You know I wouldn’t defend him if I didn’t think he deserved it.”
Wade relents at that and sits down, expression melancholy as the indignation rushes out of him. “Man. Your parents are fucked up.”
Across the room, Alexandra is wiping tears off her cheeks. “What mother does that to her own child?”
Nikolai just shakes his head and says something in Russian in a trembling voice.
Piotr stays with you that night, cramming into your bed with you on your request despite the fact that a cot had been brought in for him. He keeps his arms wrapped tightly around you, pressing intermittent kisses to the crown of your head as the two of you sit in silence. Between his shock over the whole situation and the fact that you can’t really get more than two sentences into any conversation before you start crying, there’s not much to be said.
He starts rubbing your back when you start sobbing anew. “Tische, moya dusha. Everything is okay.”
You press your face against his chest as you bawl. “P-promise me –promise me w-we’ll never do anything like that to our kids. N-not just m-mutation stuff, b-but even if they’re –if they’re disabled, or autistic, or—”
His arms tighten around you, encircling you completely. “Konechno. They will always be loved, regardless of whatever comes with them.”
(Later, after you’ve been discharged from the medical wing, you’ll realize that he could’ve been offended that you’d even think that he’d hold any sort of condition against a child of yours and his, but instead chose to accept your fear for what it was and reassure you that the two of you would always –will always—do right by whatever children you have.
You’ll start crying again when you do.)
…
You come to with a sharp inhalation several hours later. Your eyes are sore from crying so much, and your bed is noticeably Piotr-less.
Alexandra is seated on a chair next to your bed. She cringes when she realizes you’re awake. “D’ermo. We thought you would sleep much longer than this.”
You frown sleepily. “Where’s Piotr?”
“Nikolai and I had him go stretch out in his own bed for a bit. We figured we would get him up in a few hours, before you woke up.”
“What time is it?”
“A little past six AM.”
You grimace. “Fuck.”
She smirks. “I was never a morning person, either. How are you feeling?”
“Okay, I guess. Nothing’s hurting. Trying to sleep with these fucking wires all over my head is a little annoying, though.”
“And emotionally?”
You frown a little –you didn’t think you had any tears left in your body, but your eyes are already welling up—and hug the blanket against your chest. “Sad. And angry. And just…”
Alexandra gently puts her hand on yours when your voice trails off. “Maybe this is not my place to say… but you ought to be proud of yourself. And I know things will process in time, but you have been through so much, and yet you have not lost your compassion, your kindness, your joy. You are incredibly strong, Y/N. Don’t forget that, in all this revelation.”
You give her a small smile. “Thank you. And I’m trying to process stuff out and give myself time, but… I don’t know. I know I went through a lot, but I know my uncle and you –or people like Wade, and Nate, and even Frank—have gone through so much worse. I guess when I think about all of that, my stuff doesn’t seem like it was that big a deal.”
Alex shakes her head. “The point of surviving trauma is not so we can compare our scars to others’ and decide who has had it worst by the marks left behind. The point of surviving is so that we can be compassionate towards others who are still enduring their own struggles, and so we can help them make sure they swim towards the surface, rather than down.”
“Wow. That’s… that’s really deep. And inspiring.”
She smiles. “I cannot take credit; Nikolai said it, not me.”
You smile back. “He seems like a wonderful man. I see a lot of him in Piotr.”
“Nikolai is the light of my world,” Alex agrees. “I would not be who I am now without him.”
“I know I wouldn’t be who I am without Piotr, either.”
She’s quiet for a minute, then she squeezes your hand gently. “For what it’s worth, I think I would be very lucky to have you as a daughter –or, daughter-in-law, I suppose. Whenever you and medvezhonok decide the time is right.”
You try to smile at her –because she’s being sweet and you really do appreciate the sentiment—but you wind up crying instead.
You’ve already found replacements for your father in Nate and your uncle, but this is the first time you’ve had a motherly figure say you’d make a good daughter, and it’s making you emotional, dammit.
Fortunately, Alexandra seems neither startled or perturbed by your sudden outburst of tears. Instead, she simply moves from her chair to the edge of your bed, puts her arms around your shoulders, and presses a motherly kiss to the top of your head. “Tische, malen'kaya ptitsa. It’s okay.”
You wind up spending three days in the medical wing. Fortunately, between yours and Piotr’s respective families, you’re never left wanting for company or entertainment.
You also learn the hard way never to play Poker with Wade, Alex, your uncle, and Mikhail, because you will lose so badly, holy shit.
You also (also) learn that Illyana can, in fact, shred faster on her violin than Mikhail can on his guitar, which is great.
Piotr’s a constant presence by your side while you’re confined to your bed in the medical wing. He squeezes into bed with you at night, and during the day he does different art practices while sitting next to your bed.
Despite the constant stream of people and comfort, you’re still going out of your mind. You’ve stopped blacking out, which –as far as you’re concerned—means that you ought to be free to galivant around the mansion as you damn well please.
Fortunately, by mid-morning on the fourth day, Dr. McCoy, Professor Xavier, and Alyssa finally agree with you.
“Oh thank Cthulhu!” You yank the sticky pads the wires had been attached to off your forehead before the healer working with you can lift a hand to help. “I thought I was gonna go insane!”
Professor Xavier chuckles as you try to vacate the bed as fast as possible. “Before you wander off, there is one more piece of information we need to share with you. We believe we have a working diagnosis for your episodes.”
You freeze halfway through getting out of bed. You stare at Xavier for a moment, then blindly reach for Piotr’s hand.
He squeezes your hand in his. “What did you find?”
“Well, the blackouts were specifically caused by the combination of the head injury and the repressed memories coming to the surface,” Hank starts. “We’re not exactly sure why they manifested the way they did, but I’m confident that Y/N’s in the clear now, considering she’s been without incident for the past seventy-two hours. As for the episodes, we’re all in agreement that the psychic scarring caused your traumatic memories to manifest as hallucinations.”
“Now that we know what’s been causing the hallucinations,” Alyssa adds, “we believe that medicating your anxiety, continuing with counselling to help you process your childhood trauma, and regular telepathic therapy should get your episodes mostly –if not completely—under control.”
You stare at all of them. You can barely breathe. You almost can’t believe it.
A diagnosis. A treatment plan.
A fucking answer.
We could get married now, you realize. We finally know what’s going on. Piotr and I can get married.
You barely have to look at Piotr to know he’s thinking the exact same thing.
You start crying. After years of not knowing what was wrong with you, you finally have answer –and a way to deal with your issues, an actual plan.
You practically fling yourself into Piotr’s lap. When you wrap your arms around his neck –and he wraps his arms around you—you realize he’s crying, too.
The future’s never looked so bright.
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