#hearing his story was very sad and it sucks that he had to bring up sensitive info about himself bc of all this

[lifeofcynch]

so kwite was innocent the whole time and the allegations against him were lies. i’m glad i was wrong and that he didn’t assault anyone. but on the other hand this situation is still fucked up and not without bad consequences. not only was an innocent person accused of something terrible, but falsely accusing people will make it harder for actual victims to be believed in the future, and it’s also just wildly disrespectful to take up space for lies out of pettiness where actual victims’ voices should be listened to instead. it disappoints me every time someone does this, just like it disappoints me when someone is genuinely a predator. orion, you better take responsibility for how you’ve affected kwite and true victims in the world. this isn’t something you can just walk away from.

[bucketsofmonsters]

The Witch's Apprentice - Part 6

cw: demon summoning, prolonged isolation, size difference, body horror, forced transformation, self-inflicted injuries, more tags will be added as the story continues

male demon x afab reader

Word count: 3k

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6  Part 7

He brought you back into your room. Where else would he bring you? Your soundproofed, locked room that you had no way out of. 

You weren’t any less stuck than you were before. 

That wasn’t going to stop you, couldn’t stop you. You needed to get out. You needed to see Eden. 

You knew any attempt to reach her was pointless. She couldn’t hear you. 

It didn’t stop your desperate attempt to get to her in any way possible. You pounded on the door, the noise of your fists against the thick wood echoing in your ears and never reaching hers. 

You're not entirely sure how long you pounded on that door. It was hard to focus on anything. You weren’t seeing the door, you were seeing Eden’s face and her saving you from those god-forsaken woods and then Lucien doubling over again, hearing how his words got frantic as he tried to warn you about something he just couldn’t say and you’d start hitting even harder. 

An earsplitting, pained scream sounded and it took a second to realize it came from you. You hadn’t meant to scream but what harm could it do? It wasn’t like anyone could hear you anyways. 

You kept pounding until massive, gentle hands wrapped around your wrists. 

You looked down to find Lucien holding your now bloodied hands. 

His grip was soft. You could have pulled away if you’d wanted to, kept on trying to fight your way through a solid block of wood. 

You let him stop you. 

As soon as he realized you were done he released your hands and with that you collapsed to the floor, letting your head fall against the door. 

“You tire yourself out yet?” Lucien asked, watching you from above.

You glared up at him as you sucked in air. 

“I need…” Your voice came out nasally and wet. “I need to understand. I need to see her.”

“This is a bad idea.” He sounded resigned, as if he knew nothing he said was going to matter. You had to do this. 

“Says the demon I talk to every day.”

“Don’t do that. Not now. Not after everything.”

“Sorry,” you said with a sniffle. “You weren’t a bad idea. I think summoning you might have been the only good idea I ever had.”

As you spoke you felt something being pushed under the door into your side. You looked down to see a plate of food. Your dinner. 

You shoved it back out. At least that was something Eden could see, somewhere productive your frustration could go. 

You heard a huff through the door and you knew she was projecting her voice through. “Fine, if you want to be that way.”

“Can I talk to you?” you called out, knowing it was never going to work. 

You didn’t know if she’d left yet but it didn't matter. She never lifts it on your end, never tries to hear you. 

A heavy sigh escaped Lucien as he stared at you with sad eyes.

“As long as you’re dead set on this, do you want to do something really stupid?”

You nodded instantly. At this point, you’d agree to just about anything. 

He held his hand out towards you and waited. 

You took a moment to gather yourself as best you could. There wasn’t much you could do at this point to stop looking like a mess but at the very least you could try to slow your breathing and blink some of the tears out of your eyes. 

When you reached out to take his hand, he gave it a gentle squeeze before you were feeling the same sensation you’d felt when he’d whisked you back to his home. This time you appeared a few steps away, right through the wall. 

Eden’s eyes widened in fear the second Lucien appeared in front of her. She hadn’t even noticed you yet, her eyes locked on his imposing figure. 

As she stumbled backward, reaching blindly for something behind her, her eyes fell to you and that fear turned to anger. 

“What did you do?” she hissed out. 

“What did I do? How about I’ll tell you that when you explain the runes that burnt their way into his skin when he tried to warn me about you.”

You watched all the blood drain from her face. “What has he told you?”

“He hasn’t told me anything,” you shouted. “He can’t, you’ve stopped him. So now you’re going to tell me.”

You felt Lucien’s presence behind you, his hand ghosting over your back as a faint reminder that you weren’t here alone. 

Eden stumbled back again, coming up against a table this time. As she did, she grabbed a handful of the rosemary you always made sure she had on hand and threw it at the both of you, murmuring something under her breath as she did. 

You could feel the empty space where he’d stood before as she banished him. 

There was a manic look in her eyes as you watched her strategize, planning out what she was about to say to you. 

“He’s tricked you,” she finally settled on. “You think he’s on your side but he isn’t.”

“I don’t believe you,” you said, and those words seemed to strike almost as much panic in her as seeing Lucien did. 

“You don’t understand. He’s the one who made the forest, he’s the reason you're trapped here at all. I saved you from that, don’t you remember?”

And then everything clicked into place. “Oh my god, you made him do it, didn’t you?”

She didn’t need to confirm it, you could see it written across her face, across the face that you knew so well. 

She floundered and you just watched in horror as your best friend unraveled in front of you. 

“No, no of course not,” she lied. “I wouldn’t do that to you. It would take a monster to do that to you.”

You remembered Lucien’s confusion when you told him you couldn’t leave the woods. “All this time you could have let me through.”

“I did let you through, don’t you see? I let you through to bring you here and I’ve kept you so safe.”

You fought not to glance towards the door, towards the woods. To not give anything away. You could make a break for it and from there, it was his woods. Maybe he could save you before Eden could command him to do anything else. 

“Lucien made it,” you said again and Eden nodded eagerly You knew exactly what she wanted. For you to blame him, to act as if this wasn’t entirely her doing. 

He could save you, you knew he could. You could run and summon him before his creation managed to swallow you whole. 

Tears pricked at Eden’s eyes but they never fell. She would never let them fall. “You will not leave me.” 

She said it the same way she commanded Lucien, with absolute authority

You weren’t falling for it anymore. 

Your cheeks felt wet again and you reached up to find you’d started crying once more without even realizing it. “I would have stayed. If you’d just asked me I would’ve stayed in a heartbeat.”

“Then why does it matter?”

“Why does it… What do you mean why does it matter? You imprisoned me and you lied to me and I trusted you.”

She scoffed. “You know what? I tried so hard to be out here on my own. I conquered so much, escaped every other weak person who was dragging me down. But something was missing, something I couldn’t run from. And then you showed up, all bright-eyed and grateful and you fixed it all. I was weak and I needed people, needed you. I need you. Is that what you want to hear?”

It fully settled that she meant every word. She needed you here, needed you to keep the sickening loneliness that you were intimately familiar with away. 

And never once did it occur to her to think about that feeling in you. 

Why would it? You weren’t a friend to her, a companion, a person. You were a tool to stave off an uncomfortable feeling in the pit of her gut. 

Before you could even process the fact that you were running towards the door you were falling. You hit the ground with a thud as Eden watched on from behind you, her shaking hands pointed in your direction. 

She muttered something under her breath and then you weren’t falling anymore. Instead, you were floating slowly but surely upwards. 

It took a few moments to realize that while you might be floating, your body wasn’t coming with you. It was lying below you, cold and so very far away. 

You looked dead. 

You felt dead. 

And then you were being made smaller. Matter was being summoned up where there was none before and you were being forced into a body that you don’t want to be in, one too small for you that felt far too fragile. 

You could feel bones and tendons forming, snapping into place as Eden held you aloft in front of her. 

Skin started to form over your new, unfamiliar frame and then something else. Were they feathers?

As unfamiliar flesh continued to crawl over the bones and muscles were conjured from nothing, you tried to fight, to move, to do anything in your new form. 

You managed to lift what looked like a half-formed wing and the numbness was replaced with searing pain. 

You felt like you’d been skinned and every feather that wormed its way out of you was like a needle through this new skin. 

Eden plucked you out of the air moments before you’d finished forming into this new shape. 

She held you in her hands and you’d never felt smaller. 

“It suits you,” she said as she looked down at you, the wings she’d forced upon you being pressed into your sides by her fingers. “You were always more of a pet than an apprentice anyways.”

Before you can so much as gather your bearings you were being forced inside a silver cage.  

Functioning inside the mind of a bird was impossibly difficult. You couldn’t hold onto thoughts anymore. The closest thing you had was the fear. That much the bird could understand. 

You did your best to make out what was happening outside your cage. It wasn’t that your vision was worse now, if anything it was better. It was like the things you were seeing were losing their context and gaining a new one. 

You saw Eden summon Lucien, saw them look down at your body as Eden said, “This is your fault.” You could see his breath catch in his chest, the way he doubled over on himself.

But you also saw predators, looming shapes that you wanted to get far away from. Their voices were too loud, you needed to leave. 

Then a voice sounded not from outside your new cage, but from somewhere inside of you. “You're not dead. I can feel you. Where are you?”

You heard the words perfectly fine, you just couldn’t process them. As soon as the next would come the word preceding it was lost to you. 

They were just sounds. Why were there sounds coming from inside your head? That’s not where they normally came from. 

A panicked attempt to fly away was thwarted by this small metal prison. You couldn’t go anywhere and there were sounds coming from inside you and the creatures in the room just kept getting louder and louder. 

The voice in your head wasn’t as loud as the creatures were, and yet you could hear it so much better. It spoke again and you could feel the voice trying to calm you. “...need you to summon me… can’t get to you…”

You could barely process the words before they left you behind. 

You caught a glimpse of your side. You were gray. You weren’t always gray. Were you? It seemed strange. 

You leaned back to straighten your feathers, preening restlessly as your mind told you to get away when you knew that you couldn’t. 

The panic felt familiar in a way you couldn’t place. You knew this panic. It wrapped around your throat and stole your air with a practiced familiarity. 

You were trapped. 

You remembered this. You understood being trapped. 

The sounds started making sense again, if only for a moment. Lucien and Eden were shouting at each other over your lifeless corpse and his voice sounded in your head, pleading with you. 

“Just summon me, I can’t get out on my own.”

But you couldn’t. You didn’t have long enough, didn’t have enough of yourself left. 

He’d known this would happen, had begged to take you away, for you not to do this. He had tried to save you, was still trying to, and you couldn’t get a hold of your own mind enough to help him do that. 

With your fleeting lucidity, you did the best that you could, praying it would be enough. You focused everything you had and with all your might sent him back one word. 

“Eden.”

It was difficult to parse what happened next. As far as you could tell,  it got very loud and everything moved very fast and then something exploded. 

You couldn’t tell where it came from. It was harder to place than the voices were. It felt like you’d exploded, like your insides had folded back apart just as quickly as they had formed but it just as easily it could have been the room around you, breaking apart as Lucien took revenge in both of your names. 

You probably wouldn’t make it out. You knew that much. You were stuck in an impossible body in an impossible situation in an impossible forest. You just hoped Lucien made it out, at the very least. That you did manage to free him. 

The next thing you knew you were lying in a strange bed in a strange room with Lucien looming nervously over you. 

You flexed your hand, your own hand, without so much as a single feather. It felt like a miracle. 

The first words you sputtered out were, “Eden… is she…”

You didn’t need to finish the question. 

He looked down at you, seeming like he was trying to figure out what answer you wanted. “She’s alive. I’d rather she wasn’t but I figured it should be up to you as much as it is me. Besides, I have her name now, she can’t make me do anything ever again. So I owe you one.”

“You don’t owe me anything,” you said, a coughing fit overtaking you after you forced the words out. A gray feather escaped your mouth and you almost threw up at the sight. 

He graciously didn't mention it. “I really do.”

You shook your head but you didn’t have the energy to argue with him right now. 

As you did, you took in the room around you. It was somewhere foreign, the walls of the room a dull gray with beat-up wooden furniture scattered about the room. 

“Where am I?” you asked as you tried to peek out the window that sat behind Lucien without straining yourself too hard. 

“An inn. I would’ve taken you back to hell with me but after everything you’ve been through I figured you’d appreciate being clear-headed. And besides, it’s easier to leave this way, in case you want me gone.”

You furrowed your brow. “Why would I want you gone?”

“I’m the reason you’ve been stuck in your own personal hell for years, you literally have nightmares about something I did to you.”

You shook your head again. “No, that’s not right. She made you do it, didn’t she?”

He shrugged. “Doesn’t change what happened to you.”

You rolled your eyes. “You pouting about it won’t change anything either. You’re not going anywhere, understood?”

He nodded as a faint smile graced his face. “Understood. Now if you’ll excuse me, I have to go pay for the room. I sort of just poofed us into the nearest inn I could remember as soon as I got a hold of you. You’ll be alright on your own?”

You wouldn’t be. How could you possibly be alright after all of this, after everything you knew had been ripped out from under you? 

You nodded. 

He took you at your word, stepping out the door with a final look in your direction. He closed the door softly behind him as if he was worried if it made too loud of a noise you’d spook. 

You collapsed back into the bed, letting your exhaustion take over you. 

As you fell into a fitful sleep, you couldn’t help but wonder what sort of nightmares you’d have now.

[scientistservant]

I'm sorry for sending in another ask 🙈 But I need to know your opinion, as I haven't had a chance to read it. Sooooooo, why is Long Live The Pumpkin Queen, bad? Did they fuck up the doc and Sally that badly? Like are we talking about Love Never Dies level of shitty? (musical sequel to Phantom of the opera that most of us fans loathe.)

Oh boy, okay

This is gonna be long, please bare with me 😭

So the book completely changes/“fixes” Sally’s origins. She wasn’t a creation, or never even FROM Halloween Town.

She’s a special princess of dolls from “Dream Town” and has parents who are also dolls. She was kidnapped from her bedroom when she was like 12 by Finkelstein.

This is fucking bullshit.

How she even physically ages or how dolls can even conceive is never brought up or explained. Nor is how Fink even kidnapped her in the first place. The book and author just expects you to accept this new canon, which conveniently comes out like three decades after the source material.

Because the book is in first person and in Sally’s point of view we NEVER hear any perspective or proper explanation from Fink or any other character about anything.

Fink is just reduced to a one-dimensional villain who kidnapped Sally all because he apparently can’t create life or bring things back to life via science. You know… HIS FUCKING JOB.

He despises that Jack and Sally get married, despite that Fink would be ecstatic at this (Sally’s his creation and Jack one of his very old friends.)

Sally is also reduced to a one-dimensional protagonist who never questions anything and every third word from her mouth/brain is either “sad”, “ragdoll”, or “stitches/seams”.

She just believes these two doll people who she’s never met before, and doesn’t bother to leave “Dream Town” to ask the elderly scientist she’s known for her entire existence about this (not to mention everyone in the entire world including the holiday realms are dead asleep at this point at this part in the book anyway…)

Oh yeah, the book has a main villain too, surprisingly. It’s not Fink, even though the book certainly treats him like it.

It’s the fake ruler of “Dream Town”, Sandman, who’s actually kind of cool and creepy. But his reasoning for his villainy is bullshit, just like everything else in this damn book.

He’s just tired.

Yeah.

The Sandman is tired because he can’t sleep and his sand doesn’t work on him so he can’t get to sleep. You’d think a being as powerful and seemingly dangerous as this guy wouldn’t need sleep, but apparently he does. He’s cranky and needs a nap with his blanky, boo-fucking-hoo.

The ONLY thing I actually sort of enjoyed in the book was the bit where Sandman was stalking Halloween Town, putting everyone to sleep, and Sally was hiding from him. That was actually kind of suspenseful and I wish Sandman was that threatening throughout.

And does Sandman get any punishment for taking over “Dream Town” and putting everyone in an eternal sleep?

Nope. But FINK gets punished! Firstly, Jack completely believes these two random doll creatures he has never met before and that say they’re Sally’s parents. He yells at Fink, without asking his dear old friend if any of this is even true. And then Fink gets 100 years of prison and community service, which is stupid because why the fuck would Holiday realm laws, much less HALLOWEEN TOWN laws, function the same as the real world’s?

Speaking of which, apparently Halloween Town’s an actual monarchy, and the Pumpkin King isn’t just a cool title for the face/mascot/figurehead of the realm. The book even lampshades this, but doesn’t take this anywhere further aside from Sally complaining she has to wear a crown and Jack doesn’t.

This whole book is stupid and I will never accept it as canon, ever.

What sucks about this is that I fucking PREORDERED the book! I thought it was gonna be a story about how and why Sally was created, and get some backstory/lore for Fink, as well as explanation of why his relationship with his creation got so bad. Maybe a little extra plot of how Sally and Jack met.

But it didn’t. I fucking cried. This book made me cry my fucking eyes out, out of anger and betrayal because my favourite character and his creation/daughter was butchered.

After reading the whole thing I threw the book in a little library and never looked back.

I’m still working on a complete and total rewrite/fix-it-fic, it’s just gotten put on the back-burner because of other projects I’m currently working/fixated on. Apologies for that. But I promise it won’t be forgotten!

EDIT: Oh yeah, and the Holiday rulers have a meeting about climate change. Because Holidays have super importance with the weather or some shit. I’m not fucking kidding.

EDIT 2: The author is also a New York Times best-seller which is already pretty suspicious since that is basically a huge scam. The book has hundreds of 4-5 star reviews that don't even really get into the specifics of WHY it's good. They're all either extreme Jack x Sally fans (the book starts off with them getting married and Sally's main dilemma is worrying about being "a good enough queen") that like anything tnbc/Jally related OR a bunch of people were paid to give this book glowing reviews.

[timetravelersdoctor]

Can Tfp Autobots And Tfp Decepticons React To Tfa Soundwave Who Was Not Cybertronian But Who Was An Homemade Robot Created By Tfa Megatron Who Control The All Robot Helpers All Over The City And Who Kidnapped The Tfa Autobots And Put Them In His Secret Base Where He Put Them Unconscious And Who Make Them Enter Virtual Reality Who Tfa Autobots Are Humans And Brainwashed Them But He Also Brainwashed The Whole Tfa Humans And He Called Tfa Autobots To Renamed Them As Evil Autobots As Their Brainwashed Selfs And He Had Also Pet Bird Named Laserbeak And Who Transforms Into An Electric Guitar He Aids In Soundwave's Manipulations of Sound And Data Transmission He Can Hack Into Any Computer Acoustically And Also Can Focus Sound Into A Concussive Blast And Who Can Although Built By Soundwave And Laserbeak Possesses A Spark Due To Bearing A Tiny Sliver of The AllSpark And Had Pet Bat Named Ratbat And Transforming Into A Keytar He Aids In Soundwave's Manipulations of Sound And Data Transmission And Is Capable of Broadcasting On Multiple Frequencies All At Once This Allows Soundwave To Take Total Control Over The Minds of Any Human or Autobot that's Unfortunate Enough to Hear Ratbat's music Although built by Soundwave Ratbat Possesses A Spark Due To Bearing A Tiny Sliver of the AllSpark Instead of Refueling Through Conventional Means Ratbat Enjoys Sucking Out The Energy Out of Other Machines Especially Tfa Autobots And Tfa Soundwave Who Had Drones Army Of Himself But He Called Them Minicons

Hello sorry it took me so long to get to this ask I finally found some energy and perfect time to do this. Thank you for the Ask!

Tfp Optimus Prime: Optimus was surprised to learn that Tfa Soundwave is the creation of Tfa Megatron. He kinda finds it interesting that Megatron would do such a thing. Optimus would want to try to bring Tfa Soundwave on to the side of good.

Tfp Ratchet: He's finds it weird that Tfa Megatron created Tfa Soundwave. it's not that he doesn't think it's possible he just doesn't understand how Megatron of all people would create and entire sentient being. he finds the parallels to tfp soundwaves partners (can someone tell me how their official title is spelt please I would look it up but I am lazy) and tfa Soundwaves minicons to be very interesting.

Tfp Arcee: She doesn't like Tfa Soundwave all she knows is that he was created by Megatron and has minicons and that's all she needs to know before deciding that he is an enemy not to be trusted. she's proven right when she learns the story about him trying to brainwash the Autobots and almost succeeds.

Tfp Bumblebee: he semi pities Tfa soundwave after all being the creation of any Megatron is sad enough but he also knows that any soundwave is dangerous so he steers clear of Tfa Soundwave.

Tfp Bulkhead: Bulkhead doesn't understand what lead Megatron to creating Tfa soundwave and he cares not of the reasons. he feels that all he needs to know is that Tfa soundwave is an enemy.

Tfp Megatron: he finds it interesting that an alternate version of himself created that universes version of soundwave. he doesn't care of the reasons but he treats tfa Soundwave with the same respect he treats Tfp soundwave with. He figures that since Tfa Megatron created him that Tfa Soundwave would have even more loyalty towards Tfa Megatron which in Tfp Megatrons optics is a good thing.

Tfp Starscream: He would find Tfa Soundwave just as annoying if not more annoying as Tfp Soundwave because since he's smaller he can get in and out of places with out being noticed which makes him the perfect spy and that is a problem for Starscream seeing as he's constantly making plans to overthrow Megatron.

Tfp Soundwave: he likes this other version of himself not that anyone could notice. he likes that this version of himself all though small still found a way to contribute to the cause. he also would take a page out of Tfa soundwaves book and try to brainwash the Tfp Autobots.

[heckinconfusedparade]

One of the Wachowski brothers (probably Sonic) learn about the Japanese fox spirit Kitsune and begin to notice the similarities between it and Tails. (fox, multi-tailed, smart, etc.)

Knuckles is very very interested in earths folklore from different cultures. Hearing so many stories and seeing so much beautiful artwork drives his curiosity further.

But then one catches his eye. The Kitsune from Japanese folklore, a multi tailed fox spirit that possess paranormal abilities.

Knuckles reads more into it and starts connecting some things in his head:

- Tails has more than one tail

- Tails is smart

- Tails is mischievous

- Tails is a faithful friend

- Tails is a trickster when he wants to be

But as far as he knows, Tails can’t shapeshift, nor does he have any supernatural powers that doesn’t include his flight and the abilities he shares with his brothers (chaos energy). He also knows for sure that Tails would never try to scare someone for fun if it isn’t April Fools or Halloween.

Knuckles brings his findings to Tails who also finds it pretty interesting that Earth has already made up a creature similar to him. He’s curious what would happen if he went to a Japanese festival or temple. How would they treat him?

Tails is almost certain he is not a Kitsune. He doesn’t have any Japanese heritage, or any Earth heritage for that matter. He knows for sure his parents have one tail each, because if they had 2 like him, maybe he’d still be living with them today. He also can confirm he cannot transform into a beautiful woman, elderly man, or a young human boy.

Sonic asks Tails how he’d feel if he were a Kitsune, and Tails said he’d be sad because that would mean he has to outlive everyone he loves. Tails says that while having powers like that would be cool, that would never make up for losing his family. Even if he or his brothers had kids, eventually he’d have to cope with them dying too, then rinse and repeat for the next generation. He also says that he thinks that if he grew another tail, it would suck. How is he supposed to sit in most chairs? Two tails makes it hard enough, but 3? 5? 9? Impossible.

Understandable!

[oblivious-aro]

Do you still have that ninja ranking post on hand? I'd love to hear more about your opinions on them!

Eh, it was just a plain old list with no further explanations.

But my beloved mutual deserves further explanations and opinions!

1. Nya

Being the only main female character, the writers did the thing male writers often do where they give said female character some crazy good powers and/or abilities to prove they don't hate women.

Nya got herself up to the same level as the other ninja on her own time without a teacher, built pretty much all their vehicles for a while, and could canonically take all of the other ninja at the same time before she even had an elemental power (she literally was a boss for them when she got possessed in season 2).

When Nya has a goal to achieve, she either completely slays (infiltrating Chen's high security island without an invitation? No problem!), or goes completely unhinged (yes summoning The great Devourer would be an effective way to take out Nadakhan Nya, but then you would have other problems), and both options are very entertaining. Love the go big or go home energy.

There are definately problems with that writing approach, but Nya is unironically and canonically the coolest and most powerful ninja.

She also has some really interesting story potential high-achieverness and stubborn sense of pride, even if they are underutilized.

It's a shame she was neglected by the writers so much, they don't know what they missed.

Also, I love Kelly Metzger's vocal performance. Very energetic.

2. Cole

Cole is nice.

No seriously. Sure, he makes a lot of snippy comments at the other ninja (they all do, they really should be less mean to each other), but when interacting with people who aren't ninja, Cole is always super friendly.

This is best showcased in season 4, when he gets locked up in the factory. He brings and keeps up a positive spirit that the others have completely lost. They're pretty dismissive of him at first, but after a while, his attitude actually starts to bring back hope to the others, and it's wonderful. He finds Zane, organizes an escape plan, and gets everyone on board just by being himself.

People who complain Cole didn't get any focus clearly weren't paying attention during season 4. Tournament of Elements was a better season for Cole than either season 10 or Man of the Mountain.

I also love that Cole gets jokes about how much he loves food without depicting that as making him "gross" or "greedy" (Well, up until Hunted, at least. Reason 5026 Oni trilogy sucks). It's so true Cole, there not being cake at a function is extremely disappointing.

Also he got a fang blade way faster than Kai despite having a crippling stomach ache from to much cake. What a flex.

In general he gets so enthusiastic about little things, and it's extremely charming. Like, he genuinly enjoyed the little museum tours they used to go on as teachers. I love that!

And his his core character traits of being "the strong one" is actually showcased in a lot of subtle and unique ways. There's the obvious physical strength, then there's also way he tends to fool the leader role when needed, and the fact that he often has a phobia of the monster of the season but faces it head on and overcomes it everytime.

Kirby Morrow was also an absolutely delightful voice actor (very sad to hear what happened to him).

Also he's so so aromantic coded! I'm telling you it's bonkers, and in this essay, I will-

3. Zane

I think Zane had a very unique energy. He's honest and earnest, and it's very endearing, especially in a show where the main characters tend to be so mean to each other for no reason.

"I was built to protect those who cannot protect themselves" goes sooo hard everytime. Like, damn.

His relationship with Pixal is pretty interesting, although you do have to get past the initial layer of Ninjago romance (so much blank staring and wistful sighing. Like, so much). That being said, his conversation with Pixal in season 8 after they find out she's Samurai X is a rare W for the Oni trilogy.

Outside of that though, I feel like Zane didn't get a whole lot of big moments or storylines in later season, and the writers kind of forget about the whole "protect those who can't protect themselves" thing, which was a really big draw for me.

I like his little robot powers and gags. They're pretty fun. Gives his humorous moments a very unique feel, too.

His little falcon friend is also great. Watching that bird fly to close to the dark island and Nadakhan's ship was probably the only time genuinly stressed me out. (Reason 5027 Oni trilogy sucks, they got rid of the falcon).

4. Kai

He's got a fair bit of "bland main character syndrome" going on, and then after he passes that to Lloyd, the writers just...aren't really sure what to do with him.

He gets angry sometimes cuz fire and he...flirts badly a lot and thinks he's cool.

Eh.

He does have that thing where he laser-focuses when he gets a goal in mind, but the amount I get out of Kai for the amount of focus he gets is still not a lot.

There's a reason he got taken first in Skybound.

5. Lloyd

I actually found Lloyd fairly charming as a child. He's got a good heart, but also a mischievous streak and a fair bit of juvenile passion.

But then he aged up and lost all those things, leaving him with no personality.

He's the chosen one. He keeps getting power-ups.

Wish he'd get some characterization.

Lloyd seems to be a pretty popular character in the fandom, but everything people say they like about Lloyd could've easily happened to any other character. People always talk about stuff that happened to him, and never anything he does or wants, and I couldn't tell you anything Lloyd personally wants anyway.

6. Jay

Jay definately has the most distinct personality of the group as the jokey comedy guy.

I like that he kind of breaks down when the situation gets too stressful. That, and his relationship with Nya could make for some very interesting story potential.

But then Skybound happened and turned Jay from silly and maybe a bit insecure into disgustingly selfish with no redeeming qualities.

Even outside of Skybound, Jay big plot points are fighting Cole for Nya's affection (without consulting Nya herself. A terrible side plot that Cole ultimately resolves anyway), learning to appreciate his parents more (it's not the worst, but Ed and Edna don't get a whole lot of screen time to showcase the change in their relationship, and it doesn't help that the next time we see them in season 1, Jay is acting the same way about then that he did when they first appeared), and his true potential episode, where Nya's really the one doing all the legwork.

I don't think Jay's a bad character, but every time the writers give him the spotlight, it goes terribly. Jay's never the one to facilitate his own growth, and that makes him pretty much impossible to root for.

[justatypicalwizard]

Hi! I was wondering if you could do the same concept (Sanemi w/ reader from present era), but with the other Hashiras? I don’t know if your requests are on at the moment, forgive me if it’s not !! 🥲

With my requests it depends. I have a very inconsistent schedule so it’s a lottery whether I have time and energy to do a request or not. I think I didn’t state that in my main post, about time to do it.

Nonetheless HCs are quick and fun to make so I’ll be more than happy to do this one.

Shinobu

She’s more than interested in your phone. She’s naturally a very analytical person so when she has the opportunity to see something new she’ll never miss it.

Shinobu is the most interested in all of your health apps. When you tell her that you had a watch that was connected to your phone and sent data about your steps taken, heart rate, kilometres run etc., she’s mesmerised.

No wonder that people in your times live longer when you have all this help. 

Yet, she’s kinda concerned. When she sees the sheer amount of apps on your phone and when you tell her about how many people in your time have such devices she gets an uneasy feeling. Would you manage without it? Well, you’re doing it right now, with the phone nothing more than a sad reminder of all that you’ve lost but still… she stares at the small device with an unpuzzled look and at the end of the day you don’t know whether she liked it or not. 

One thing for sure with Shinobu here. Even if she can’t decide whether she likes such invigilation, when you tell her about modern medicine, life saving technology, specialised people, unimaginable things that one can do to save another life…

Shinobu turns to the partly opened door, facing the darkness outside. She has a small, knowing smile. All of your stories assured her that what she fights for is worth it.

Tengen

Duh, that man is down for music. Even if the speakers in your phone are not the best, he's so interested in what you have saved in Spotify.

How can it be that so many songs are stuck in that small device, how did they do it? Those new sounds and melodies.

He starts to overenthusiastically ask you about your favourite music style, how it was invented, what artists do it, why do you like it, what’s it characterised by. Like with a small child, the questions never end.

Luckily, you remembered that when this world sucked you in you had your earphones in your pocket. Only when you bring them to Tengen can he really experience what modern music is like.

He’s interested in something fast and electronic first coming (with your help) to the conclusion that the bass is juicy. Nonetheless, he enjoys pretty much anything that you suggest.

Unfortunately the amount of your downloaded songs is limited so that’s all you can show him but at least you can tell him about the instruments that people came up with.

Tengen doesn’t have any deeper thoughts about your phone apart from what you showed him. When you showed him various apps at the beginning he spotted that you quickly closed one of them and kinda hid some things before him. 

The man figured out that this device is somehow a part of your privacy and that’s not something to pry on.

Mitsuri

She was quick to spot the same thing as Tengen but unlike him she started to ask questions. It was hard to resist her big puppy eyes. It also felt safe and fun to talk to her about your exes and crushes.

You quickly became a giggling mess when you shower her photos and texts, narrating about your previous life.

She was very interested in how people dated in your world so you filled her up on everything.

Mitsuri was fascinated by the amount of freedom and lack of boundaries that you could have. She actually wished the same for herself as it was suffocating to live in such a strict community.

Watch her fall down from her seat when she hears about Tinder.

You can’t really show her but you can tell her how it looks and Mitsuri asks you a couple of times whether you’re not making fun of her.

It’s like matchmaking but you’re free to do whatever you want. Amazing. 

You two smile and giggle at the dumb little things and snicker quietly about how Obanai’s profile would look like. 

Rengoku

Subway surfers.

Pou.

Some other old games that you never uninstalled and thank gods. 

This man is clicking and poking and talking to that Pou hard. He’s quick to use your phone as soon as you let him.

It amazes him how the screen reacts to his fingers. You did tell him how it works but deep down in his head he kinda thinks it’s magic.

You can actually play turns with him, try to see who will win in the various small games. 

Unfortunately, Rengoku being a slayer has damn good reaction time and soon you’re overpowered by his fast fingers.

He actually beat you in your own game.

Gyomei

He’s blind.

He’s a monk.

Wasn’t interested.

Giyuu

While everyone took their turns to play with your phone he just watched from the back, glanced from behind shoulders, listened to conversations. 

He doesn’t feel right with asking you about anything and he doesn’t want to disturb you.

It’s only when you specifically ask him whether he would like to try he tells you the truth. 

Giyuu doesn’t need much to entertain him and the same goes with playing with your phone. He’s swiping through the main pages, locking and unlocking.

Did he accidentally take a photo of himself? 

Yes and now he sees it on the screen, his face from below. Giyuu doesn’t know how to delete it and he’s starting to feel overwhelmed.

You do have photos of them, you just took them some time ago but this one… this one doesn’t look good. 

Giyuu never sees himself from that angle and he feels like crying inside when that photo is still pasted on the screen.

You didn’t recognise that something is wrong yet but you sure will when you ask him for the phone back. Then you’ll see it. Oh no.

Giyuu holds the phone close to his chest trying to think about something but he’s helpless. Finally, when you turn to him and he hands you back the phone…

“What?!” You start to laugh when you unlock the screen. Giyuu crumbles in his form slightly and you see he’s tensed. “Okay, come here.”

You scoop closer to him holding the phone under your face. You take a photo of both of you from below and now you’re both stuck in that weird angle on your screen.

“Don’t worry, I did that all the time.” You whisper to the man. 

Okay that's all. I left out Muichiro and Obana cuz I don't really feel like writing them, never did. Sorry to all lovers of thse two.

[frecklystars]

Hi, I sent you an ask a while ago about Ken taking care of your wound. I hope I didn't overshare in the first part of the message. I just wanted you to know you're not alone in your feelings.

Hi sweetheart!!! No please don't worry!! I meant to respond to you (not as a posted ask ofc, but rather making a separate text post without any details/info attached for your privacy) but my depression hit me super hard the last few days and I wasn't able to get back to anyone in a timely manner the way that I planned. I got over 30 asks this week that I was hoping to answer but,,, my brain has turned into a burnt out baked potato since I've picked up so many extra shifts fjhgjfdgh

You didn't overshare, don't worry about that. I thought about you a few times this week and hoped you were doing okay, or well, as okay as you can be given the circumstances. Thank you for empathizing with my situation, and I'm very sorry for what you have to put up with. Literally as I was reading your message I was thinking "dude are we literally the same person or something??" I have gone through almost all of those scenarios, of course not EXACTLY but my god it seems pretty close. and uh. it sucks. It hurts and it sucks..... ughh. We deserve better. It will get better. It's completely normal to have periods in your life where you feel so unbearably lonely and sad -- granted, our lonely period has been. like. forever lmao but like -- we WILL be surrounded by love and acceptance and one day we will forget how it felt to be in our current situation we're in rn. It's gonna get better. It feels super impossible and really hard everyday but dude it WILL get better bc that's how the universe functions, everything is temporary, eventually something will shift and new opportunities will come, or new people who bring you joy.

In the meantime, I am mentally holding your hand through any bad day you have. Thank you again for empathizing with me, bc honestly I hear sooo many stories about how people have... great experiences with the subject you wrote about, and it just makes me feel so bitter and resentful bc like... I'll never have that. And of course I am SO sorry that you go through the same feelings as me and the same, uh what's the word [squints] situations? events?? I don't know how to phrase it. but your message brought me a little bit of comfort to know I wasn't the only person who has to deal with that. I am surrounded by so many ppl who are so, so close with their families and watching that kind of thing makes me feel so bitter sometimes, and it just makes me wanna walk directly into the ocean dfshlfhslfksdsfd

I also want to say thank you SO MUCH for telling me Ken would patch up my wounds 😭😭 that was nice of you to take the time to do that for me ;-; I always beat myself up so much after I hurt myself, bc as you are aware of uh. [gestures to our unnamed topic] I've had bad experiences where i've hurt myself and have just gotten yelled at or ignored altogether, so. I just assume my F/Os would hate me for it. I get extra sad with Ken especially bc he's a doll and he's never seen human blood before, so my thoughts are always "oh he'd be scared of me and grossed out and hate me sooo much" but you were the first and only person who said "hey actually he'd be concerned!!!" and I just. wept. in a good way ofc!! but dude I just bawled after reading that, it was something I needed to hear so badly. Especially the lines "Ken loves you, Keri" "You know he doesn't half-ass things when it comes to you" and my favorite "He would draw you a little horse on the bandage, if you asked him to (he hopes you ask him.)" Ofc I will ask him I will PLEAD with this man to draw a very sparkle horsey in a pink glittery pen :] anyway I hope you don't mind I saved that particular paragraph so I could go back and reread it to cheer myself. I read it again today while I was at work actually!

Virtually I am giving you a big hug and flowers 💐💕✨ be safe, be well. I am sending you love and stars across the internet 🌟

[wigglebox]

the shittiest thing is that there isn’t anything wrong with 15x18′s scene [the one thing i wish is that dean could have talked back and answered but i think we know why he didn’t]

bad things can happen to queer characters. the empty deal was set up since season 14 and it’s been dangling over our heads until 15x18 and the longer we went we either thought they forgot about it or we were clowning that destiel would be the thing that made him happy and indeed it was. 

bad things can happen to queer characters if you allow the story to take flight from there. 15x18 wasn’t bury your gays [imo], indeed, technically, cas was taken alive to the empty. he wasn’t killed he was just kidnapped lol. 

the issue wasn’t that the empty deal was fulfilled because again, it happened. it happens.

this show can have very sad moments. the show killed him in the season 12 finale too but we knew he was coming back so it was okay. 

the problem was never 15x18. that scene was beautiful, the immediate aftermath is haunting, and its impact on the fandom and pop culture was felt deeply. sp8, bobo, jackles, misha, they all did a very good job. i can play that scene in my head like it’s on screen in front of me beat for beat. 

the problem was the fact that 1519 and 1520 did literally no follow up. 

****I’m going to state for the record right now, I don’t believe that cas is in heaven so that’s going to take up the bulk of the second half of this so if that spec really upsets you pls don’t continue ;_;

15x18 ended and dean’s ignoring a phone call from sam, who he knows could very much well be in trouble. it was quiet, he was crying, it was sad, we all cried, we were all so happy but also so sad, it was a beautiful tornado of emotions that any writer and actor and director should feel proud of telling. 

the issues came first with 15x19 when you had little emotional follow up. idk who inserted the scenes where it appeared dean was really struggling with what happened but he never explained really what happened to anyone. he didn’t say aaaaanything. he didn’t explain. nothing. 

there was that report from a set watcher that said in their first scene where they try to give themselves up to chuck and he’s talking about bringing cas back that he was really really emotionial, whereas in 1519 it didn’t seem as emotional as we know he can get, and has already gotten before. but that’s more up for debate because we don’t know that person’s parameters for ‘emotional’

but regardless, dean’s emotional state in 1519 didn’t linger too much on 1518. i feel like you can feel jackles struggling to try and demonstrate that where he could but what also sucks is that he’s not in charge of what takes they use. 

the last time we hear dean say cas’ name is when he gets that phone call and it’s lucifer — some more queer coding and the last bit of it we see for the rest of the show. 

and after that, literally, i’m serious — like go back and watch the episodes if you don’t believe me — dean never says cas’ name again after that. 

so already out of the gate, a man who, through our own past witnessing of his emotional state after cas has gone, should be really just completely frozen. maybe not completely, only bc you’d imagine he’d draw on that inner emotionality and help use it as a tool, and we do get ‘that’s not who i am’ or whatever but there’s still no....impact. 

1519 muffled the emotional impact of 1518. 

1520 shoved it in the ground and covered it with 8 feet of cement. 

1520 has a whole host of issues which like — conspiracy after conspiracy as to what happened exists but the fact remains is i do believe them when they say the final script post-covid wasn’t all too far from the original pre-covid. i know there were reports from 2020 vegas con that one of the actors, i think kim or bri, said they were still working on fine tuning the script — but regardless — i don’t think it was ever going to be too far off. 

my complicated emotions on 1520 range from genius episode to oh my god what the fuck episode — but the fact of the matter is we were likely never going to see cas again. 

sam mentions him in a group with others, bobby mentions him as an after thought etc etc. the worst thing is that we were likely never going to see cas on screen again because if you did you’d have to put him on the same screen with dean and if that happened the people would want an answer to 1518 straight up

so we replace him with jimmy instead and what likely would have been our last glimpse at a good queercoding, the last strong punch to dean’s 15 mile deep glass ceiling they have on top of him. jimmy was supposed to be dressed like cas, and they were supposed to talk. dean’s reaction to seeing him was supposed to initially be emotional before he realized it wasn’t cas. 

but even that wouldn’t have helped 1518 because we still wouldn’t have seen cas. 

they never explain how cas ‘helped’ rebuild heaven, how he got out of the empty only two episodes after he got in there, why he doesn’t show his face [which i feel like would have been even more ‘wtf??’ when we saw jimmy but not cas], etc etc. since we didn’t see him on screen, and never was going to see him on screen, i did not believe he was in heaven at all.

all this unspoken dialogue and scenes explaining to us literally, — as dean and sam hunt monsters who literally rip the tongues out of people and dean gets first pied in the face [with a laughing robert singer behind him] and is stabbed in the back and killed — that the lack of emotional response and feedback and story post 1518 was a deeper issue behind the scenes with the creatives. 

the problem wasn’t 1518, cas being taken by the empty as part of his deal, etc etc. 

the problem was there was no emotional follow up, no contemplating, no empty rescue, no more dean and cas on screen together, etc etc etc. 

[which, as part of the meta conspiracy — 1502 cas tells dean ‘we are (real)’ and now they’re not on the screen anymore by the end together soooooo was....any of that real?]

but regardless, spec, meta, and whatever aside

the problem was never 1518. 1518 is at the good kids table. the problem was, and forever will be, the episodes that came right after and didn’t do anything with that incredibly emotional and impactful scene. 

[dr-spencer-reids-queen]

Limelight: Part One

Pairing: Spencer Reid x Female!Reader

Word Count: ~2.3k

Warnings: smut, f!fingering, handjob, canon violence, canon language, canon talk of death, methods of kill

Author’s Note: I do not own anything from Criminal Minds. All credit goes to their respective owners. If there is any warnings that exceed the normal death/kills from the show, I will list them. If you’ve seen the show, then it’s the same level of angst unless otherwise stated

"I know indeed what evil I intend to do, but stronger than all my afterthoughts is my fury...fury that brings upon mortals the greatest evils." - Euripides

Spencer presses kisses down your neck and to your chest. The water beats down on you rhythmically, only adding to the sensation that's enveloping your entire body. You arch your back into him, and with the hand that's not touching your pussy, he grips your hip tightly.

"Please don't stop," you beg.

His fingers thrust in and out of you at a rapid pace while his mouth finds your nipple. He sucks the small bud into his mouth and lightly nibbles on it.

"Anything you wish," he grins cockily.

One of your hands threads through his hair while the other slowly grasps his cock. You two are going to be late for work, but at the moment, you can't think about anything else but his long fingers inside you. Spencer presses his thumb to your clit and runs hard circles on it as he adds a third finger to your aching hole. In return, you run your thumb across his tip, gathering the precome that had managed to escape.

"You feel so good," Spencer groans.

"Is that so? What about when I do this?"

You jerk your wrist inward, gripping his cock as if you're afraid of letting go of it. He kisses his way back up to your lips and molds his against yours. You slither your tongue inside his mouth, tangling with his. If he keeps this up, you're going to come right now.

"I'm close," you whisper after you pull away from his lips.

"Then come for me," he grins.

Hearing him say those words causes the dam to break inside. You throw your head back in pleasure as your walls crumble around him. You jerk his cock harder until he comes all over your stomach. He kisses you as he slides his fingers out of you. You clench around nothing, pleading to have his cock inside you. You'd stay forever in this shower, but you know your team needs you and Spencer. He pulls away from you and licks your orgasm off his fingers.

"You always taste so good," he moans.

It's arousing to hear him talk like this since he doesn't do it very often. He is vocal in bed, but never the one for dirty talk. It's usually you who does it all, so hearing him say these things brings heat to your cheeks. You reach down and wipe some of his orgasm off your stomach. You do the same and taste it with a softer moan.

"As do you," you grin.

"I love you so much," he mutters and kisses you again.

"We should get out. We're already late, and you know the longer we stay here, Derek will only tease us more."

You two get out of the shower and quickly get ready for work. You're driving today since you don't have time to wait for the train, so you two get to work in record time. It's sad that you didn't even stop for coffee, so the break room coffee will have to do.

"Why are you two late? Doing the nasty?" Derek smirks.

"All night long," you smirk back.

"You're no fun when you do it back to me."

You and Spencer quickly head to your desks, and you lean in to kiss his cheek.

"It was worth it," you whisper to him.

Rossi and Hotch are off to the side at the base of the stairs that lead to the second story, so you head over to them. The closer you got, the more you realized that they were talking about a potential case. Rossi got a letter from an old friend who needs his help. She sent over journal pages of detailed accounts of someone planning a murder or has already done it and wrote it down.

"That's interesting," you comment, startling the two men. "Sorry."

"It's from an old storage unit. The case agent from the Philly field office sent it to me."

"Is it somebody you know?"

"She knows me."

"That's very detailed," you comment, seeing Spencer slink up to your side.

"It's in future tense. They're fantasies."

"That agent thinks it could be more than that. There's a few boxes in the field office. I'd like to drive up there, look at the rest of the material, and make a judgment from that," Rossi says.

"Take Reid and Y/N with you."

Rossi's face just plummets when he hears he has to have company on his road trip. You notice it, but Spencer doesn't.

"Road trip--nice! I've got books on tape with Peter Coyote reading the entire foundation trilogy."

"As much as I love hearing about this, I have some Diphenhydramine or some Benadryl I can slip into his water," you whisper to Rossi who smirks at your comment.

You did exactly what you said you were going to do, and you forced Spencer to sleep the entire way so that your car ride would be covered with comfortable silence. Rossi appreciates the fact that you like the silence as much as he does, plus, you have your headphones if you want to listen to your kind of music. It really helped pass the time when you're not watching the clock.

Before you know it, you're already at the Philadelphia field office. Spencer is a big groggy, but he doesn't question why he was asleep the entire ride up here. You three head inside, and you're shocked at how many people have their eyes on Rossi like he's some kind of celebrity. He's written books, but you didn't know they were that popular.

"How do you get used to the staring? I'd feel like I perpetually have something stuck in my teeth," Spencer mutters.

"You learn to ignore it."

Rossi leads you to Agent Jill Morris' office where she is pacing the floor with a bluetooth device to her ear. She is on the phone with someone, and she doesn't seem to be too happy.

"I'm not terribly interested in what you can't do, Roy. We have the best resources in the world, one of which is supposedly you. Just get me that match." She turns and spots Rossi, and she quickly hangs up on the person who she was talking to. "David Rossi in my office. Somebody pinch me."

"You must be agent Morris."

"Jill, please. Can I get you anything? Coffee?"

"Actually, if you don't mind, I'd like for Dr. Reid, Y/N and I to get to this."

"Dr. Reid. Y/N. Thank you all for coming. You won't be disappointed."

"What other materials do you have?" Spencer asks.

"We found assorted artwork, torture porn, and bondage. What strikes me is the prose. It screams of high-order sexual predator. I think we're onto something big."

She leads the trio out of her office and over to the conference room where the evidence is.

"Let's not get ahead of ourselves. I assume you ran the name of whoever rented the unit?"

"Yeah, the name was fake. Louis Ivey. There's no record of such a person."

"Did he pay in cash?" you ask.

"Yes, until he went into arrears. He went six months without a payment, and the owner is allowed to auction its contents."

"What I've read so far suggests an orderly personality. Not likely to miss payments."

"Well, he screwed up. They all do eventually, right?"

She stops outside of an empty office where there are eight more boxes of things that she found inside the storage unit. You didn't know it was this severe before you left Quantico.

"Maybe I will take that coffee," Rossi comments.

Jill leaves to grab three coffees while you get to work. There is a lot to unpack here, so it's going to take some time before you can reach a decision. Everything in these boxes are detailed accounts of what the unsub wants to do to women, and if he has done this to them, then this is his diary--his secrets.

There are photos of women tied up wearing barely anything or nothing at all, and you grow sad for the women who have suffered. There is a lot of history in these boxes, and you believe that this unsub is real and has committed these crimes. Rossi and Spencer are a bit on the fence about it, but you have a strong suspicion that you're dealing with a serial killer.

Rossi leaves to talk to Morris when he figures he got enough information about the unsub. She believes all of this actually happened, but he doesn't.

"This material is the product of a disturbed individual, but there's nothing there to convince me that the person has enacted on his fantasies," Spencer says.

"Is my opinion enough? Someone is doing this to women, and they need our help. What good are we if we just leave?"

"I guess it's up to Rossi now."

Five minutes go by and Rossi comes back inside the room.

"I've called the rest of the team down. It looks like we have a case on our hands."

It only took three hours for the rest of the team to get to Philadelphia, and by the time they do get here, Hotch is already briefed because Rossi called them.

"Is this everything from the unit?" Hotch asks after seeing the boxes.

"No. We pulled the salient materials and had Philly PD process the rest of the items on site," Jill says.

"What else was there?"

"Just some books, albums, and toys. Old stuff, like from his childhood. We were able to lift some prints, but AFIS was a bust. He's not in our system."

"We have to establish if this guy's taking his fantasies to the next level. We can use these materials to try to identify his signature and connect him to any open cases," Hotch says.

"On the surface, it reads like he wanted to try it all. I think isolating any one aspect might be tough."

"Well, then dig deeper. Try linguistics. Look for patterns in the handwriting. Rossi and I will take the images. Find the fetish, find the fiend. Morgan, Y/N and Prentiss, go back to the unit and see what else it can tell us about the man."

"I'll get you directions," Jill offers.

Once you have your orders, you and the other two agents head over to the storage unit to sift through the rest of his personal belongings to see if you can't picture what kind of person this unsub is. The storage unit is still pretty full of items, but you're able to maneuver through them to claim your spot.

"Hey, you two want to make this interesting? Best insights, loser buys lunch," Emily says when she opens her box.

"Bet," you grin.

"Ooh, bring it on, girl," Derek grins.

"Okay. It looks like we have a happy kid. Well-rounded with varied interests." She reaches inside her box and produces a drawing that looks like a kid made it. "This looks to have been drawn at about the schematic stage."

"So, that would make him about six years of age at the time, right?"

"Yes. It's dated 1976. So, that would make him about thirty-eight now."

"Kid's blond, assuming it's autobiographical, and he's caucasian. You hit that one on the head. My turn." Derek reached into his box and shuffled through the items in there. "I got some textbooks in here. Engineering. Mathematics. Cad manual. Trade school. Okay, so he's in a fix-it field like construction or home improvement."

"That's good, but I think I got you," Emily grins.

"It's my turn," you smirk.

"I found some other drawings, and look how they've changed over the years. A bright sun, a loving family, and an idyllic home. Look at the later drawings, the mother is gone. Maybe she dies or maybe she leaves her family. The father struggles to make ends meet. The boy begins to withdraw and retreats within himself. This is his turning point. So, what informed his fantasies, and when did it begin? My theory is that if his mother did leave or die, he started to cross dress to fill the hole where she once was."

Derek looks through some other boxes and pulls out dresses that could have been used to cross dress.

"I think I win," you grin.

"That's cheating!" Derek and Emily "boo" you.

"What? It's not cheating. It's called using my resources. It's not my fault you two aren't good at profiling," you joke with them. "Looks like you two are buying lunch."

Aside from the fun you three are having, there isn't much else that you can profile. After putting away the things you took out, you three headed back to the police station to talk about the known victims with the rest of the team. Based on what the journals say, you know there are a lot more victims than the ones that were found.

"This is Dana Foster. She's a thirty-four-year-old real estate agent from the suburb of Blue Bell. She was murdered five years ago when she went to meet a prospective buyer at a house in Bucks County. Her nude body was found in a cellar, and she was strangled and raped," JJ informs.

"Here's the torture behavior that Reid identified from the journals. The contact wounds are burn marks, most likely the result of electrical current."

"Any leads on the buyer she went to meet?"

"It was a fake name."

"Louis Ivey. Could this guy be any more perfect?" Jill asks.

"Were her clothes found at the scene?" you ask after staring at Jill.

She is getting too excited for your likes. It's like she wants something found so she can prove to everyone that she was right, that someone is out here doing this to women.

"No, how did you know?"

"He takes them and alters them to fit his frame. He's a cross dresser. That's what Derek, Emily, and I found at the storage unit."

"So, is he bisexual?" Jill asks.

"Actually, most cross-dressers are heterosexual. It's fairly common in sexual predators," Spencer corrects.

"What about her hair? Was any of it missing?" Rossi wonders.

"Nothing like that was reported."

"JJ, contact Garcia and widen the victim search. Rossi, Y/N and I will go visit the crime scene."

If the big boss wants you out with him, then who are you to deny him? You look at Jill once more before leaving with the two older men.

x

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[anniesocsandgeneralstore]

I, of course, have a question about your werewolf au! Can you expand a little bit on Coyote and Jake's relationship? Like, how long was Coyote a werewolf before Jake was attacked? Does Coyote ever feel guilty for not protecting Jake from being attacked? What was Jake's initial reaction to finding out he became a werewolf? Also, what was Jake and Coyote's conversation like when Jake had to reveal that his Luna was a member of their rival pack?

M !!!!!!! lemme tell you something...LEMME TELL YOU SOMETHING. I will accept any and all questions about the werewolf au for the rest of time because I love it so much. And I love you. Thank you.

Javy and Jake are best werewolf bros for life but their relationship is also a little....complicated....

Javy was turned about a year before Jake (again by attack cause Bellmoral sucks complete ass)

And when he was turned, it was explained to him to genuinely not to get close to anybody (especially young, strong, healthy people) because Bellmoral had the nasty habit of stalking members of his pack, taking note of who they were close to, and attacking their friends

It's just how the dude finds his Beta pool (again, cause he sucks complete ass)

But Jake and Javy were technically friends before Javy was even turned.

Javy tried and failed to stay away from Jake. But neither of them are from Washington, Jake was new in town, and Javy at that point was a friendly face. Jake liked Javy and Javy liked him. They were buds. Some of the only non-natives who worked at the log yard.

In the end, Javy just had to purposefully be an asshole to Jake so he could stay away from him (putting Jake in his sad boy hours cause "not friends?" 🥺)

But Jake is nothing if not determined. So next day at the yard Jake confronts him about his shitty behavior.

"Look, man, it's for your own good! Just stay away from me!"

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?"

But it's too late. Cause guess what happens that day after work?

Jake gets attacked.

And Javy just feels so fucking guilty about it.

In my head, Javy is driving home from the yard, sees Jake's truck on the side of the road. He pulls over to see if he needs help cause he really isn't an asshole, but then he hears screaming in the woods. And he just knows.

He runs into the woods and finds Jake face down on the forest floor, back torn to shreds and barely clinging to life. Bellmoral just left him there to turn and heal on his own.

So Javy takes him to a nearby cave, knowing he couldn't get him very far before shit started to hit the fan.

He stays with him the full 48 hours it takes for the bite to take effect and for his wounds to heal

Mickey and Rueben bring by food and blankets and stuff and they stay for a few hours (do they also have a similar story?? .....yes. so sorry red sky i just keep putting you through it)

Not to add injury to injury but Jake definitely just wakes up in the middle of the process and is screaming bloody murder cause that shit HURTS. Every fiber of his being is being altered and he's not used to his muscles stitching themselves back together like that. Eventually, he passes back out.

"What is....Happening to me?"

"I'm so sorry."

Jake doesn't remember asking that. But it haunts Javy to this day.

When Jake finally wakes up, completely turned and completely healed, he is so fucking confused. Could've sworn he just got attacked by a giant wolf in the woods. Was it all a dream? But Javy was there, looking at him like he was his greatest horror come to life. (OUCH anyway). But then he feels the scars all over his back and he knows that it was real...But how the hell is he even alive?

Javy explains it to him. And Jake has a hard time believing it but like...He definitely should have died but he's alive and in a cave and he feels different. It's not weird, but it also isn't not weird. He feels stronger, more confident, and his mind is nearly overwhelmed by the strong scents everywhere.

"You'll learn to block most scents out."

Jake probably asks that Javy show him. Cause there are so many signs but like this is just impossible.

Javy shifts in front of him and Jake just goes "JESUS CHRIST"

After that it's just a massive learning curve. And a whole lotta nightmares and PTSD. But the pack is there to help and guides him through everything like the family he's always wanted.

(and then he sees how that family is being treated and he is having None of That. But that's a story for a different day lol)

Javy feels guilty about what happened to Jake for the rest of forever. It feels like the entire thing is his fault even after Jake tells him, repeatedly, that he doesn't see it that way. That Javy did nothing wrong.

So when Jake becomes Alpha and asks Javy to be his second, he jumps at the opportunity because he can try and...make up to himself (?) for what happened to Jake. He gets to help and protect his friend and now his Alpha.

And as far as Jake revealing Ronnie is his Luna, well....Here we go:

That night in the tavern didn't go exactly as planned. But at least Blue River knew they were here, and their encounter had been controlled. That was until that woman with the raven black hair jumped over the bar and aimed a shotgun at Jake's chest.

Until Jake began to ache with something powerful to be near her. To touch her soft skin and have her scent of old book pages and lavender fill his lungs till there was nothing else.

He knew to ask Rueben and Mickey about it. The only mated werewolves he had ever met. They told him about the draw, the need to be with them, how it would nearly hurt to be away from them, how the bond would need to be accepted and settled - how Alphas' mates are called Lunas.

If you were mated, they would basically become co-leader of the pack in a way. Like a queen.

Jake felt his stomach drop as the pieces finally fell together. That Bradshaw girl was his mate. His Luna. His queen. Shit.

Rueben and Mickey obviously had some inclination about what was going on. But the first person he told was his second-in-command: Javy.

"Is that why you asked about her?" Javy questioned once Jake was done explaining.

He nodded his head. "Yeah. Didn't know what it was at first. I mean...She's beautiful so I thought I just...I don't know."

"Well, shit, man." Javy got up from the couch and sighed, dragging a hand down his face. "She's a fucking Bradshaw."

"I know."

"You saw the way they reacted when you just looked at her funny - if you take her away to be your Luna...Fuck. It'll rain down the fucking cavalry."

"I know," Jake repeated, then he rubbed at that spot at the center of his chest. "But I can't just ignore it. It already fucking hurts."

This pulls at Javy's heartstrings for reasons Jake will never fully understand.

So Javy sighs, "Just take things slow, okay? See if you can get her alone to talk. Who knows, maybe she'll just reject the mating and we won't have to worry about it."

Javy left after that, claiming a shower as Frank came out of the bathroom dripping. Jake still sat on the couch, rubbing that spot that hurt at the center of his chest. He knew that it was a bad idea. That there were so many risks. But she was his mate. His Luna. His queen. As soon as he got turned the Moon Goddess picked her for a reason.

And maybe that reason was to save Red Sky from the brink of extinction.

werewolf!topgun taglist cause this info is kinda Cool and Important:

@blue-aconite @darkestbeforethedawn16 @supernaturaldawning @illisius @hope-love-equality2 @wanderingdetectives @sqrlgrl22 @dempy @theforevermorereject @the-untamed-soul @emandems10 @xxshea-barnesxx @piceous21 @sopheeg @ollyoxenfrees @luckyladycreator2 @newlibrary @himbos-on-ice @gigisimsonmars @agentminnesota187 @indynerdgirl

[blog-of-hubris]

Choujin X Chapter 24 - Exceeds

Sui Ishida’s Magnum Opus - Choujiin X Chapter 24

Choujin X has been (unfortunately) a sleeper series within the manga community even though its the second work Sui Ishida, the mastermind behind the popular manga Tokyo Ghoul. Its successful in Japan, but the lack of conversation online in the west or English speaking community is very low so I decided that I should do metas on the chapters! I hope some of you are reading Choujin X or decide to give it a read just to get the context behind the rambling I'll be doing- but anyway! 

Enjoy!

What is a Best Friend

The clash between Tokio and Azuma has reached its end with Tokio saving Azuma from drowning in the dam after Tokio completed one-sided him at the end of their fight in his new form. 

new form is absolutely cool and I hope we see more but anyway-

this chapter really hit hard for me because it confirmed that Azuma wasn’t Tokio’s friend because he liked him but because he gave him a form a gratification he never had before. He was tokio’s “hero” and he wanted it to stay that way. Super weird, Azuma is not a nice person- and he also seems conflicted because he sees the potential in Tokio and wants to bring it out of him BUT he also wants to defeat that stronger version. His innate instinct is to crush that stronger form of Tokio not embrace it. 

Is Azuma a best friend? Does Tokio still see him the same way he did before? I’m honestly not sure. Tokio isn't the type of person to let someone die, so I get why he saved Azuma but I’m not sure he can still look at him the same. Azuma has fundamentally changed I think. This has been a huge blow to his pride, especially being told he “lacked something as a choujin”. Azuma can’t handle those criticisms, they will be what puts him in the Noh mask’s hands- more on this later (new meta). 

Now Azuma sees Ely and the other Choujin being by his side, supporting him when in the past it would just be Azuma there. He can’t handle that.. its pure selfishness thats driving his “care” for Tokio. Its like a person who gets everyone gifts and is just waiting to hear “thanks you’re the best”. Thats all they care about, the recognition. How all of this plays into my personal theory on Tokio having Dependent Personality Disorder is still to be determined so stay tuned. 

Vultures and Hyenas 

Its honestly sad how strong the symbolism was in this chapter, in terms of showing Azusa’s frustration and ego death with the ascension of Tokio as a Choujin. As Azuma is walking you see the birds flying high above him, having just as much focus as him in the perspective in the manga. They follow him in every panel, and as the flash back of him telling Tokio “follow my lead” happens we see the Hyena that was asking Azuma for directions to the Ocean dead, as scavenger birds begin to eat at its body. 

Ok Ishida.. you used this hyena as symbolism for Azuma’s time being Tokio’s guide is over? All he did was lead the hyena to more scavenger birds, which represent to me showing he was the catalyst to Tokio becoming greater. When you think about it thats clearly true- due to Azuma breaking that guys leg and him wanting revenge they ended up in that situation. Azuma suggested taking the syringes.. it just seems like Ishida is doing a lot to hone in on this point both literally and symbolically. And of course we see Azuma freak out so that just makes the point even more potent for me. It sucks that Azuma is going through all that.. but I guess its the repercussions for his true intentions?? idk honestly...

So what is Noh mask going to do to Azuma? Is he going to use his current weakness to persuade him to join his side to become stronger and understand his choujin powers more? will he just be straight up taken? who knows, but I got my stocks in Azuma hearing exactly what he wants to hear and joins Noh’s faction. I hope he does.. that would make this story so interesting + my next section would be 10x better! (LOL)

Who is Choujin X?

We got one of the best title drops I have ever experienced in manga with this chapter and holy hell ishida came to deliver. At the end having that powerful, almost eerie narration about the one of a kind choujin born with the power to annihilate the entire world. I know that this narration seems to be pointing toward Azuma but I think thats a red herring. The reason I say this is because of how Azuma’s Choujin birth came about. He transformed because he died, and was at his limit. In death he was able to “raise” and he became a cape choujin (in my opinion) as representation of him being a false hero, hence him also having chains on him like a criminal. 

His appearance is that of a vigilante hero, who has an inclination for violence. I could be wrong of course, but I feel like we’re supposed to think its Azuma when its really Tokio. (Again, im going off my own perception), I just feel like Tokio’s path has already swept so many people in, so the narration of “This is the story of X and those swept up in his tale”, makes me think of Tokio our main character because the chapter ends with him waking up thinking “Azuma.. what should I do..?”. 

I could be WAY off of course but thats just my thoughts lol. 

The Prelude is over!

So I think its fair to say we are headed to the next level of Choujin X. We are out of the early stages of Choujin X and are now about to get into the nitty gritty of the series. The art we saw of Tokio and Ely in their uniforms is finally about to become in manga content soon I I hope! 

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here friend, wishing you a Happy New Year 🎉🎆🍾!! Hope things are going well so far and you're not too drenched in ice or snow or cold (my brother is in NM and he's freezing his ass off apparently). For reasons that definitely include the upcoming season's proximity, I'm going to try to get more into 911 LS this year. I've decided that while we've got excellent taste in ships, we've done poorly in focusing on shows where those ships can thrive, meaning they have a showrunner who can

tell a compelling story, writers who can bring that story to life, and a promo team that can get the audience excited. Let's take just promo for example. LS just came out with its 2nd or 3rd trailer and it's still 3 week's away!! Even if they are also doing smaller emergencies, the frog storm looked a hell of a lot of more exciting than the blimp "emergency". And from what I've seen of the stills, it will feature a lot of Tarlos, and I haven't seen much in the way of guest stars. Contrast that with RNM. We all remember the seasonal promo posters that looked like an elementary school project and the 5 sec episode previews they abandoned during S4 (this isn't even considering the episode synopsis where if a particular character was mentioned my excitement level flatlined). Then there's the Malex if it all, remember we got so excited when a still of them was promoted on Twitter for 4x02 since it had literally never been done before?? Sad days. And as for OG lately we've gotten confusing/inaccurate episode synopsis, previews of scenes that were made to look intense and turned out to be "meh", stills released right before the episode and then 50 scenes released the day it premieres. Its a mess. And I guess I can't complain that those things didn't feature Buddie since there wasn't anything in the season for them to feature.  I don't think we have to rehash the baffling and horrible writing choices of both RNM and OG's showrunners those are well documented. So that leaves the individual writing of each show, where RNM abandoned logic and 911 abandoned emotion in order to force scenes that did no one any favors. Anyway this got longer than intended and ultimately saltier, I was trying to say Happy New Year and it turned into this. So again happy New year!! Maybe with time and GA input KR will come up with a plotline that doesn't make me hear nails on a chalkboard when it's mentioned.

Hi my friend and Happy New Year to you as well, even though this is now a few days late. (I wanted to finish the book I started yesterday, a sequel to a romcom I very much enjoyed and one of the only actual books I’ve managed to read recently, but it ended up being kind of awful and torpedoed my whole day and sucked the serotonin right out of me instead of giving me MORE like it was supposed to 😒😒😒 hate this for me. So I put this off a little longer so I didn’t end up being TOO salty or going off on a fully unrelated tangent). Luckily I’m back home where it’s chilly (for me) but nothing too wet or miserable and I got to enjoy some sweatpants for a few days before I have to go back to my cold office and uncomfortable work clothes.

You’re so right, we DO have excellent taste in ships but whooo boy WHAT is the deal with being shafted by shows? (And now books too apparently because my life is a joke, hell bent on not allowing me to thrive with the things I find joy in.) I have been soooo jealous of not just the promo coming out so early, but also official stills coming from set during filming! OG couldn’t even get stills for for some episodes until a few hours before airing! To say nothing of the incorrect synopsis/previews, and 700 clips released on episode day messes. Plus LS got new cast photos this year while OG has still been using stuff from s1-2!  I’m not gonna lie, I haven’t been paying much if any attention to news about LS so all I know is the Tarlos stuff sounds really exciting and the only guest stars I remember is for some FBI/DEA something or other operation that (of course) Owen is for some reason involved in helping with. Color me unsurprised. But knowing that’s how LS has been pretty much from the jump, it’s easier to just grit my teeth through the Owen centricity and sometimes it’s at least entertaining 🤷🏻‍♀️ The frog thing sounds interesting but definitely feels like a “hook” that’s going to end up being almost nothing and quickly resolved but if we’re lucky we’ll at least get some jokes out of it about TK taking one home and Carlos getting a panicked look about it. Also, the LS emergencies have never had quite the resonance or the tie in with the main plots that OG had so them cutting back after the ice storm (which really was excessive at 4 episodes and by cutting down on the weird Owen centricity could have been done in 2 *maybe* 2.5 or 3 episodes tops, revolving around the group as a whole more) isn’t probably going to change the format of regular episodes much from previous seasons. But with the wedding coming up, the possibility of Carlos getting injured, and Ronan being a tease and really excited for multiple episodes, I feel like the Tarlos stuff is going to be really good!

I’m cackling because taking shots at the RNM promo department will never NOT be funny. I mean, honestly WTF was their deal with promo posters?! *insert “is this a promo poster for ANTS” gif here* At least they were somewhat more honest by always seaming to make Alex the smallest and furthest away and never near Michael which is....mostly what we got after s1 so 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️. Not that OG 911 is much better since there’s a fan that does massively impressive posters for episodes that completely outshine anything the official team does.

ANYWAY, I’m with you down in the salt mine and surrounded by wasted potential so lets hope this year we can finally get some more fulfilling stories/storylines, and that our beloved OG wee-woos can get back on track. The only good thing about them having a longer hiatus is they have the chance to take the reaction to the finale, especially Buck’s mess of a storyline, and 6a as a whole into consideration and maybe make some changes. Honestly if they completely dropped Buck’s storyline and it never came up ever again I wouldn’t even care and would actually prefer that at this point. Remember when he got meaty storylines that involved the other main characters and was the focus for a few episodes and then arcs finished and new ones started and we got several things going on for multiple characters at once? *cracked voice* yeah.... Well, here’s to hoping! 🍾🥂 *clink*

[royal1asset-if]

RO reactions to them saying something funny as they are walking away from a serious/stoic MC, when they hear a snort coming from behind them. But when they turn the MC is (again) looking very serious and raises a brow at them. ROs have never heard the MC laugh before.

Sorry if I took so long, I had so much writing this 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

In the ask room were everyone is huddled close.

Me: Alright guys we got this ask( Passing the paper around) so what do you guys think 🤔🤔?.

Elric: I go first, you see we are on a mission, then one of the bandits is sleeping 😴😴😴 so what I did is I crept up like a thief you see, then I put a rubber snake on it's mouth, then the bandit got scared shitless, I was laughing my ass off, but then suddenly I heard someone laughing beside me, lo and behold MC is laughing too, it's one of the first time I heard them laugh and it sounds heavenly like a something inside of me felt alive and of course they became serious again, you know I will sell a piece of my soul just to hear them laugh again( Determined)

Amelia: Now I'm jealous, the best I had from them is a smile.

We we're at the park that time and walking dogs, then one of the big dogs spotted a squirrel then it chased it half way through the park and dragging me with it

So me eating grass and MC chasing behind me, finally the dog stop running and I stand from the ground then I hear a snort behind me and see MC smiling.

But it dind't last because they became serious again, the things that I will just to see them smile again.( Wistfull)

Luna: Me I don't know what happened, but it just happened, so me and MC is on a pub, of course some guys could not keep their hands to themselves so I decided to teached them a lesson, after I beat them up I gave each of them a kick in the groin.

"You sure guys knew how to cracked me up!" I say and I admit is a bad joke, but I heard a chuckle and it's the most serenading sound I heard and the surprise I have to see that it was MC who was making that sound, that is they became serious again. Now the sound is stuck inside my head.( Irritated)

Serena: Well Looney making nut jokes and here I'm thinking that your a tough nut to crack( Winking) anyways for my story me and MC iare following a mark and we very quiet too.

The mark is walking in a isolated alleyway, we we're about to make our move, that is until the mark slipped on a banana peel 🍌🍌, Sure it was funny but I tried to suck it in to not lose the element of surprise, but it went all to shit, when I heard the most mesmerizing sound for the first time and I looked to my sad and see MC giggling like a child.

The mark tipped off and started running away, I got so pissed off at MC but when I see them still giggling I couldn't bring myself to scold the guy and of course like all they became serious again.

Oh well if I hear them giggle again I will forgive them for every slip-up they have done( Ugggg banana pun)

Dustin: I see, well for me is that me and MC are doing our training regimen and I accidentally step on poop and I said

"Sheit!"( I know it's clique but I'm running out of ideas 🤣🤣🤣)

Then I heard the most divine songs of the angels, I looked to my side and see MC laughing like a mad person ( shocked) I just stood there taking note of the way their mouth smile, their eyes flowing with tears of joy,

Of course they became serious once more, hays if I have to walk on shiet for the rest of my life I will do it just to see them laugh one more time( Making his lifetime vow)

Conrad: What's the big deal, you guys see me not laughing but when MC is doing it, it's very controversial.( Sound hurt or jealous 😅😅😅)

Elric: You see my friend your predictable and like routine(Putting his arm around Conrad)

Conrad: Hahahah, predictable he says(WTF HE LAUGH, I RUB MY EYES)

Serena: OH MY GAD IT'S A MIRACLE( Getting on her knees and started worshipping)

Amelia: WE MUST CELEBRATE 🥂🥂🥂 ( thinking a venue to celebrate)

Me: FOLKS WE GONNA END IT RIGHT HERE, FOR FACK SAKE WE MUST CELEBRATE THIS, THIS, I DON'T EVEN HOW TO DESCRIBE THIS( ENDING BROADCAST ME AND EVERYONEE GOING CRAZY)

Conrad: What the heil is going on?( So confused right now)

Everyone: GASP!!!!!!!

Elric: HOLY SHIET, YOU HEARD THAT HE CURSED( Started to foam on his mouth)

[hoarder-of-stories-27]

Hi!Umm, I was a reader of your works on AO3 (the same one who commented on how beautiful your writing was at the end of March on “Forever and Ever”). At the time, I felt pretty bubbly about it. Your stories in general (which I know perfectly well are mostly soft porn and not replicable in real life and still enjoying them for other reasons) gave me quite a few perspectives and debates with myself (in a good way) Part 1/?

1. As a queer kid, you opened up a world to the possibility of HRT, binders, and top surgery. 2. It has helped me to identify signs of triggers and help correctly in real life and 3. It was healthy to read an autistic adult enjoying something they love to do (at least, you always seemed to enjoy writing in your notes. My lil sis is autistic, and sometimes I wonder how I could encourage her as she grows up.) Part 2/? After you told me to stay away from your AO3 - online security issues, which I appreciate because I suck at using the few social have - I kept my promise. At that time I couldn't, now I take to express my sincere apology if I was invasive (or am I? I'm starting to question writing this that I shouldn't have looked for your Tumblr:c) and/or made they uncomfortable ( I was seriously concerned and saddened that this). But this is not exactly why I searched for them after 4 months. Part 3/? Not long ago I created a Twitter account. I started following TGCF artists and other danmei accounts. Inevitably, the hashtag system led me to a danmei confession account in spanish and I said why not *shrugs* In one of his pinned tweets was a doc with a pretty nasty description. It was the callout. Part 4/? Damn, I swear it's the worst vibes text I've read in a long time (only comparable when Jun Wu act canonically being manipulative). Seriously, I've only just started getting involved in fandoms (one year and a half), and I think that scared me from getting with the english MXTX fans. The witch hunt they committed narrated as if it were a pride was quite ... hmm wtf. And when I realized that the user they were attacking was you, I look if you had answered. This brings me to the next point Part 5/? I read your POV and I truly apologize of everyone who bullied you (bc they never will). I really apologize for all the anguish he has been through. I hope that becomes a reality for a full-time commission writer in the future. I am sad that you have lost friends to something that shouldn't have happened. I really apologize for my own behavior in AO3, because the last thing they wanted to do was be a problem when they already had enough on their plate. 6/? I would really love to say “hey, I want to meet you. It doesn't matter what your status is, it's who you are” (and I mean that because you're really cool, but this is probably our only interaction anytime soon [until your consent to it]). I will truly tell you “you deserve love, and I am confident that you will find your special person(s) despite this setback”. Part 7/? I am very happy to read on your tumblr that you already feel (relatively) better about it, that you are flourishing as people, and that your transition process is going very well! It's news that makes me smile, like a queer kid. I hope that you will feel comfortable again and have many cute friends like you. Plural kisses for you! And sorry for writing so much haha. Part 8/8

(Context - this person told me they were a minor in a now-deleted AO3 comment on an M-rated fic. Also, here is my response document.)

Hello! Thank you so much for this message. 🥺❤️❤️❤️ I really appreciate it.

I'm really glad my stories have been positive for you. It means a lot to hear that, and to have confirmation that you understand that they're fiction and (especially with the ones tagged with "underage") not intended as an accurate reflection of how real life works. I do enjoy writing!! It's helped me through a lot of things, and I've had a lot of fun doing it.

Re: making me uncomfortable... if you've read my response document, you know I have P-OCD. I'm sorry I didn't explain myself much when I replied to your comment earlier, but that's a large portion of why I was uncomfortable - I understand that teenagers will seek out porn, and I sought out porn myself as a teenager and it didn't harm me, but it triggers my P-OCD to know that a specific minor has read porn I've written.

Of course, I was also concerned about your safety. It's not good to let people know you're a minor on an account where you engage with sexual content or fandoms for adult media - I've seen too many predators online who will view you as a target if you do that. But there were personal reasons involved for me as well. I really appreciate you caring about that.

You haven't broken any boundaries by sending asks to me on here! This blog is intended to be safe for anyone over 13 (Tumblr's required age) - I do mention topics like kink here from time to time, but nothing more than mentions or mild jokes (or, I think, one singular sex education post once), so I'm okay with minors interacting, with the understanding that minors are not my target audience. I would prefer not to interact anywhere other than this blog until you turn 18, but once that happens, please feel free to kudos/comment on my fics again and/or interact with me on Twitter, etc.!

I really, really appreciate you saying all of that. 🥺❤️ You absolutely don't have to apologize for writing something long. I do have a lot of wonderful people supporting me! I would not be doing so well without them.

I hope you're doing well, other than having that nasty document inflicted on you. 😐 Please stay safe on Twitter, and take care of yourself!

[jvstheworld]

My Ted Lasso Re-watch: S1E10

The Hope That Kills You: Jamie Tartt and his 'dad'

So in my post yesterday I said I wanted to focus on this specifically and that's what I'm doing.

Trigger/Content warning for abuse.

Jamie has suffered abuse from his father since he was a child. Football was the reason he came back into his son's life and his overbearing and controlling ways forced Jamie to be the person he is now. He wanted his dad to stop calling him soft, so he made himself a prick so people would think he is tough. In reality, Jamie was never soft, he was a child, growing up, playing a game that he loved because his mum wanted him to be happy.

In season 1 Jamie is supposed to be 23 years old. His dad showed back up in his life when he showed talent, and used him to brag to people. Because let's face it, James Tartt Snr has not done a damn good thing in his life. His claim to fame is his son. Nothing he has actually done himself, but what Jamie is capable of doing. He didn't show up to support his, we wanted a trophy. He wanted everyone to see him a 'good dad' because Jamie was achieving. And to keep up that appearance, he abused his son. He continued to do so until Jamie fought back in season 2. This time it suck because Jamie had Roy.

For 10+ years, Jamie suffered ridicule, mental, emotional, and physical abuse at the hands of his own father. It caused him to dissociate when he was being yelled at, as we see in this episode and in the episode where Ted shouts at him. While Ted isn't his father and has no intention of hurting him, Jamie's response is to try and protect himself, by shutting down and making himself small. Making himself less of a target. Tartt Snr, in the other hand, wouldn't hesitate to hurt Jamie if it got his point across. In the scene we see in this episode, Jamie already started to dissociate, but Tratt Snr threw the boot to bring Jamie's attention back. But it was very close to hitting Jamie, even if it wasn't his intention. But it doesn't matter if it was his intention or not, he was trying to scare his son into acting a certain way. It's still abuse. And he goes on to shove Jamie's head down, forcefully. It's still abuse.

Now, the thing that people like to discuss is Ted's actions. He saw what went down and left. And Jamie saw that. People like to say that he should have done something to help Jamie. But the what could he have done? Reasonably and honestly, what could Ted have done?

I think people sometimes forget is that if you don't have an exit strategy ready for a victim of abuse, it's not going to help. It will make things worse. Sure, Ted could go in and try to stop what was going on, but Tartt Snr clearly has no problems using violence, and it would get Ted hurt too, because Ted isn't one to fight. And it will then make things worse for Jamie later. When watching the show back, knowing what happens to Coach Beard in 'Beard's Night Out' and he comes across Tartt Snr and his two friends, Beard gets the shit kicked out of him. And he only threw Tartt Snr out of the locker room. For that one small act, Beard got beaten up. You don't think the same or worse could happen to Ted if he walked in?

It's very easy to say, 'Oh, I'd do something if I saw it' but we don't. When we actually see it happen, majority of us freeze up and don't know how to react, because we're in an unfamiliar situation and we don't know how to handle it. We can't say for sure that when Ted was a coach in Kansas that he saw something like this happen. Maybe he did, maybe he didn't. If he did, then he might know not to intervene until a way out was planned. If he didn't, then how would he know what to do? But he did what most people, regretfully, would do. He walked away.

That's the sad fact of the world. When abuse happens, people can't act or won't act to help. Because it's not our place, it's not our business. Ted's reaction was normal. And I think that's what annoys a lot of people. Because when we hear about stories of abuse, we think of what could be done. And it's so much easier to do that when you're on the outside looking in. Hindsight is a wonderful if you don't have to go through this. But when actually faced with it, would you really be able to help?

All I'm saying is that Ted's actions are true to life. We wish, as viewers, for him to do more because he's the good guy. But, he's more realistic than we give him credit for. And in that moment he was.

Luckily, Jamie does get away from his 'dad' and manages to start undoing the damage that was done to him. He starts living and playing football for himself again. To make his mum proud of him. And that's amazing. Jamie deserves to be happy and live free from that abuse. His mum got out and is now happily married to a wonderful man who loves to bake. She found her happiness away from her abusive ex (because I would not put it past Tartt Snr to be abusive towards her while they were together). Jamie needs to find his own version of happiness away from his dad. This time with support from the people around him, which eventually becomes the A.F.C Richmond team, but more importantly Roy and Keeley.

Now, that scene in the last episode, I will have more thoughts about when I get there. Because I will have more thoughts about the locker room scene in season 2 and the 'thank you, fuck you' bit when Jamie talks to Ted in season 3. I will talk about it when I get there. For now, this is all I can say. I have no idea if any of this makes sense to anyone but me, feel free to tell me it doesn't and where abouts, ask me questions, leave comments, all that stuff. But right now, at the time of writing, that's where my head is at. So I'll leave it here.