#hes jsut UGH. dies

[stinkrascal]

💝 ☕ 🤡 for whoever you'd like to talk about!!

YES FINALLY it is vaughn time!!!

💝 - What gestures do they really appreciate? How do you get on their good side? vaughn is a hopeless romantic. i cannot express this enough that he will literally fall in love with anyone that gives him any sliver of attention. he loves being pampered, being doted on, being praised, and even if it's only perceived attraction, that's enough for him to fall, and fall hard.

☕ - Coffee or tea? neither. he chugs monster energy drinks like it's nobody's business. specifically the pink cans.

🤡 - What’s something dumb they’re embarrassed about? he cries to annie about his mommy issues at least once a week, and then he feels really awkward and weird about it the next day and tries to pretend like he hasn't just hashed out all his life's woes to his best friend the night prior. totally conflicts with his carefree attitude, you know? he's always embarrassed about it nevertheless.

[ganondoodle]

as i was awake in the middle of the night for like 2 hours bc i felt sick i had more somewhat random totk thoughts

one being that i really hate how raurus response to concerned zelda is, after sonia died in that almost funny how little impactful it was way, "im sure you are here for a reason" (actually, i hate how often this sentence is used in general to .. idk i guess its supposed to be inspiritational???)

bc what does that mean actually? him saying that to someone who got there absolutely by accident really just sounds like "i dont care go figure it out yourself bc i dont want to think about anything concerning you or your troubles lol" i guess its meant to sound like OOOOH fate has BROUGHT you here bc you have to furfill a role you dont know yet (spoiler its being a sacrifice girl with no personality) and besides me hating the 'inescapable fate' trope in general (at least the way its usually done in these games, which is not to struggle against it but willingly accept whatever you are told and pretend thats good) its really jsut goddamn boring and is really only an excuse to well .. ignore her and her trouble; shouldnt you, if you were actually such a cool guy like the game wants me to believe so bad, do everything in your power to get zelda back to her own world before shes pulled even further into the war you caused now that her only ""mentor"" that could help her get more use of her pretty much useless sudden powers is gone too?? i know shes basically dead wife sonia replacement (can of worms ugh) but it still grinds my gears whenever i think of that cutscene, bc i cant help but hear it as the lamest excuse in existence to not care about her and just kinda .. see what happens which in this case means leave zelda completely on her her own since both rauru and mineru die as well (honestly shouldnt rauru have thought about like .. any plan to defeat gan besides dying himself, given hes the oh so cool and goodest guy king whos only mistake was not stabbing gan the second he stepped into their kathedral castle thing, like even if you had a plan it can still fail but it seemed like he just kinda went in with a handful of people that didnt seem to know each other at all, never got names or faces -or unique voices for that matter- to fight gan face to face inlcuding the girl that came from a different time and had nothing to do with any of this conflict and couldnt even really control her sudden new powers just seems pretty stupid)

thought 2

how totk really feels like botw but for the people who didnt like shiekah tech, its not a sequel, its botw again, but version of only sonau, its like a pokemon game that had two versions but one has weirdly incoherent story and acts like the other never existed jsut as a whole its like retreading the same points but worse, all shiekah tech that was so integral to the world and had such a long history just vanishing and no one caring about any of it like it never happened, HELL the titans were called divine beasts in english but i guess they werent divine or important enough to keep around LOL champions WHO and isntead a never before seen or even heard of race for that matter showing up and planting their ass in every place the shiekah were before, dare i say it feels weirdly manipulative, like either them or some outside force erasing every fact about the ancient shiekah and replace them with sonau stuff bc they are the hot new shit now

this is a point that just doesnt stop bothering me, how the shiekah tech seemed so carefully designed and integrated into botws world and story, its a difficult to keep balance after all, integrating high tech stuff into a medieval setting, but they made it work! and then totk comes around and throws a bunch modern day tech into it puts some vague greenish stone filter on its exterior and call that even better more ancient tech; why did they even bother to make pottery inspired laser shooting spider legged robots so well integrated when they throw a car and rockets into the next game without a thought and call it a day, what was the fucking point

it feels like someone was dead set on having a set of legos thrown into the game it had no place in, if you want players to build whatever they want make a building game instead!! especially if you are just gonna throw it in with seemingly no consideration how out of place it feels togehter with the fACT THAT YOU ALREADY HAD AND ANCIENT HIGH TECH CIVILIZATION WITH A VERY DISTINCT AESTHETIC THAT WAS ALREADY WELL INTEGRATED INTO THE WORLD YOU ARE PLANNING TO REUSE WITH ALOT OF MYSTERY AND UNKOWN STUFF ABOUT THEM TO EXPLORE FURTHER YOU COULD HAVE USED!! but i guess they just "didnt want to play with you anymore" and that so much so that they went out of their way to erase every trace of it, i dont think the words shiekah tech are ever used in the game, and the purah pad and her towers just drive me more isnane bc they are the same shit but called different and also much worse, liek the purah pad isnt some more developed shiekah stone, no its a glorified camera with a teleport function and thats it

(i know i said this before but i really cant stand how obsessed every single NPC is with sonau shit, you get told to your face every second line of dialog that they are so cool and are so mysterious that it just makes me annoyed of them even more, the game is obsessed with shoving them everywhere and telling you over and over you too should obsess over them, they werent weird like that about the shiekah stuff in botw?? the biggesst talking point in botw was calamity ganon ..... which makes sense and in totk its like ... gan is mentioned what, in a newspaper article??? once???and then not even by name i think???)

aside from that big point which will never let me go, its also just .. its not moving forward anything, it actively walks BACK the progress that was made in botw, call me dumb but i dont really count moving one step up in the social roles of each race as a character development (for the side characters like the champions desc- ahem SAGES) but mainly zelda ... god how dirty she was done, totk pretty explicitely makes her regress any development she made in botw aside from she likes link uwu and some people like her too, but also not enough to notice that that weird zelda being all evil and weird isnt her (INLCUDING THE CHAMP- SAGES WHO YOU ARE SUPPOSEDLY FRIENDS WITH??? you dont have to be a genius to pick up on that my god, were you all given the mc dumbo potion or what)

she gets put back to square one, back into the little itty bitty princessy maiden role forced upon her by her royal parentage, this time rauru edition, back into a white little dress, back into the scared puppy eyed teenager, back into a situation she cant handle, back into losing everyone around her (tho honestly botw made me care more about rhoam than totk did about rauru), back into being forced to do a big sacrifice- but worse actually

in botw she went to FIGHT AND HOLD GANON IN THE CASTLE SO LINK HAD TIME TO RECOVER AND IT WOULDNT DESTROY THE LAND!! and you are telling me in totk rauru takes up her botw role and she bascially killed herself to ... restore the mastersword.

......... she ... she did that only to be a glorified version of the stone pedestal in the forest. and then she gets returned to normal itty bitty girly no problem via magic sparkle beam at the end and

DOESNT

EVEN

REMEMBER.

it really is just botw but worse, you even get yet another ghost king of hyrule to guide you around (rhoam did it better fight me ... we dont talk about the questionable choice to make himself darker skinned when posing as just some guy)

i honestly dont think i was ever truly taken aback by anythign that happened in botw, while in totk, the further i played, the more i had to fight with myself to keep the feeling of unease, disappointment and betrayal down

its such a god damn shame, totk should have stayed a DLC, i will forever mournfully dream of a game that explores more of the ancient shiekah, doesnt erase integral parts of the world, developes characters more instead of making them regress back and make them end up even less developed than at the start of the game, dives into buried secrets and mistakes of dark pages of history without giving into a weirldy nationalist(imperalisitc?) narrative and lets characters have some agency for once

if it werent for the yiga i might have actually considered refunding the game, just to be at peace with myself

anyway, aboslutely incoherent word vomit.

[type-40-nightingales]

live reaction to destiel being cannon by thete

AWWW CAS HOLDING HIM AND EBING LIKE CMON DEAN IS SO SOFT BUT UGH UGH UGH

NO NO NO I RECoNGISE THIS HSOT FROM GIFS I feel the tears coming even though nothings happening yet NOPE I CANT HANDLE THIS 'then we fight' UGH I CANT NO. NO. NO ITS NOT DEAN YOU CAN DO OTHER THINGS THAN KILL everybody gonna die cast, everybody, I cant stop it DEAN UGH DEAN "shes gonna get through that door, " "I know" "and shes gonna kill you, and then shes gonna kill me" literally had to pause bc holy shit I know this score honey holding my face in my hands "I'm sorry"' UGH NO NNNONNONONONONOONONONNOONONNONOn CAS DONT DONT CS PLEAS E "I made a deal, to save him" ":"you what?" UGH PLEASE ITS SO CONCERNED" deans face please. HES LITERALLY DOING THE SPEECH imagine watching this in 2020 though "the one thing I want, I know I cant have" literally everyone who watched this as it came out ik u were loosing ur shit then ut fr I HAD TO PAUSE AGAIN BC THIS IS TOO MCUH HES SUCH A WET KITTEN "is something I know I cant have" OKAY OKAY WHY WHY R U DOING THIS TO ME CAS "But i think I know" I keep having to pause bc he smiled he fucking smield with that one smile that I cant fucking live with. "I think I know now" misha ur facial expressions are killing me. "happiness isn't in the having. it's in the being. its in the just saying it" ok so why did misha have to say this line and look like that like y does he have to rip my heart out "what are you talking about man?" I think he knows ugh I think he knows n he really fucking doesn't want to. "I know" misha please stop I want to give you every bafta " "you think that hate and anger that what drives you" " I'm crying I'm actually crying I'm on the floor sobbing "the good and the bad you have done for love " oh deans face he knows he's trying to do the math bc nah he doesn't get it but he knows what cas si saying "your the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know" y . why misha, the tear? the face?? WhY??? THE SWALLOW MISHAS SMILE

THE SUPPRESSING THE SOB BEFORE HE "LIS"YOU CHANGED ME DEAN": "why does this sound like a goodbye" "because it is" why Is mishas voice like that why because he's not pretending anymore because every pretense is collapsing "I love you" I LITERALLY PAUSED THREW MY CHROMEBOOK ON MY BED GOT UP AND HELD MY SELF AGAINST THE DOOR WITH MY HEAD IN MY HANDS IVE SEEN THIS BEFORE I KNEW IT WAS COMING BUT STILLi cant I cant I cant I cant THE SWALLOW "don't do this case" its so gentle, its so soft, he I cant THE FCE WHEN HE SEES THE EMPTY DEANS SO FUCKING UGH WDYM "cas" THATS SO SOFT I CANT "goodbye dean" his voice is back to normal, he pushes dean across the room WITH THAT DMAN HAND PRINT AND HE LOOKS AT THE EMPTY AND FUCKIGNG SMILES

Im so done DEANS GASpS AND HOW HE JSUT. UGH. HES JUST SITTING THERE. that man didn't answer to his brother what do you mean it wasn't recipocated what do you mean. he's literally holding his head in his hands, NAH I'm sorry that is not how someone reacts when someone they're not In love with tells you they loves you then dies. he didn't answer to *sam*

[hopeheartfilia]

oookay this is hopefully the last deadpool and wolverine post today but

First of all, how much of the budget went on brands? Like alchohol brans fully shown, legible. There jonhy walker red label, there was i think jack daniels, there was bloody center can of spam. Like did they get paid ridiculous amounts of money for the adds or did they pay ridiculous amounts of money for the brands

Obviously i love the dog but also Obviously nice deadpool was gonna get killed for the guns and dog, only suprising thing was that he dies so late in the game

Also, when thinking about it, Iwas too busy rolling my eyes when i realised they were making a captain america joke to notice but like of course the fucking torch would talk shit, its the torch, like i wouldnt have expected such a good vocabulary but its deadpool movie so liberties and all that

Also yeah some of the fight scenes i looked at and went wait aminute what happened to the choreography, but that happens, and the opening scene with wolverines body and the honda scene were i think well choreographed enough so the important bits hit

And i was like obviously there gonna hold hands and thats how theyll survive, but i expected wolverine to actually pierce deadpools hand with his claw to complete the circus, jsut claws on both ends, so that was like oh okay

also when wolverine walked out with puppool? I havent seen anyone edit it with I dont walk i strut. and then sashey. thats not the tea huntey etc u know the song, but in my brain i did while watching

Also, uhh disney and their copyright, it is way harder to find a decent clip of the honda odyssey fight then it should be, like i dont want the conversation they had before wayde punched logan in the face, i want to get to the specific part i decided would be a nice reference image for something i was drawing

Anyway, yeah i am generally not a fan of uh the xmen now going under disney. generally like i am seeing a lot of the fandom on other sites to be like. Up to marvel fandom shenanigans. and well im not a fan so

Like someone was talking about being really happy that they got all the references becausr theyd prepared for this and i was like

Only way i prepare for a deadpool movie is go see it half an hour after the idea pops into my head. gobling on my balls sucking on my dick etceteta etcetera

Like I did get the characthers, but i have Watched almost every xmen movie more then once because i like them -itus and passing knowedge of comic books

Anyway what i was saying was that fandoms populated mostly by guys who call themselves "nerds" and care more about encylopedic knowedge then enthusiasm arent exactly my cup of cake and there seems to be a bunch of that

and also thursting over hugh jackman but thats to be expected, its hugh jackman

idk i hope the unhunged dumb edits start showing up soon somewhere im looking, but like yeah

The movie was fun, i love the dog, fully expected the end to actually be some sort of comedic Deadpool saying he is dating wolverine in response to vanessas earlier question of hes seeing anyone and logan going no the fuck were not or something to that effect, just. Fake teh im totally ugh having a thing with The wolverine and dont feel bad about your boyfriend from work!

but i guess hes settled down a bit so he was honest about it

[hand-stuck-in-shredder]

the angst is KILLING ME up in here HELP ugh

warning this be long

lavender, man... i havent thought about Dhuurg in a while (i named my durge and didnt.. anticipate him growing on me. u dont just namechange a child at 25 thats not how that works) cause. Durgetash. but, man. i suddenly cant move onto what im actively working on/am supposed to be finishing because this shit keeps worming its way into my brain. lavender isnt even supposed to be his "canon" but i jsut think itworks so Well for him. he has puppy eyes and i need him to struggle and be anguished

i dont think id end up writing about how he Actually ends up but.. he tries to start up a new cult, become a proper god, you know. Average Tuesday shit. lots less angst of how to learn to live with yourself after getting fragmented (spoiler alert: u cant) and missing something without knowing What youre missing n Why. the body/being remembers the mind forget et cetera.. i dont think lavender would be particularly durgetash centric, i think itd be more of a solo-piece with it being more in the background, but.. still, itd be a motivator enough for him to lose his shit when doordash dies. like what do you MEAN someone so important to me vanished just like that and i couldnt do a damn thing about it?!? even if withers (note: havent finished a durge run yet and havent been 100% spoiled. let me cook) made sure u no longer got dat Bhaal in u, for dhuurg i think it kinda just went dormant until well. that. he had a fine and dandy week of being himself until oops! tragedy! ur living with a demon again yay except this time its just murderous for the sake of habit/grieving and less because of Bhaal. youre literally just like that. you are actually an evil person. good luck coping because unless u get off the bathsalts ur not gonna be able to have an iota of a sense of "self" because surprise, u and your pal are now more integrated than before and there is no seperation anymore, your tadpole is also gone and things are So much worse because of Everything. the lavender doesnt just supress the urges it supresses U now. sedation? somewhat. you live in a beautiful field of lavender out of fear for yourself and what you are. you are softlocked, is this not for the best? there are no horizons left for you, the sun has set and the stars mock you with their long-gone light.

on the lowkey.. it occurred to me that this might be slightly reminiscent of mental illness that's somewhat stigmatized and im ngl while i dont think this concept is the same as that/taking inspiration from something that really real people suffer from, i am being cautious to kinda avoid those themes and trying to be aware of what exactly im goin for. this is more a, two snapshots of two technically seperate people fight for ownership of the body that may or may not be really theirs, with different motives, its.. idk but dhuurg cannot catch a break.

i needa learn how to draw so i can draw dhuurg being cunty and sucking gort within a negative inch of his life. he deserves something good after this ok

[honeyybblood]

im trying to extend this high soooooo recap time 

it was so awkward because i looked into the staircase and i think said hey hows it going and he said good you and walked away and then somehow we came back together and he asked how things were for work blah blah and then someone said group picture and the way my body moved my titty touched his bicep and i died on the inside 

then i would get up to go to the bathroom and i took the chance to ask him something work related how the vibe is and he said ‘’its normal unfortunately, since this place is so toxic’’ then it would be jsut as standing there and im like fuckkkk idk whats going on in his head

i would like jump around talking to person to person and i saw this one guy so i went to say hi and he didnt hug me - he always does. and because im paranoid, im like bro code or whatever and thats why he didnt extend a hug????

anyways i went over there with my sweater draped on me and hes like ‘’why arent your arms in the arm holes’’ and im like idk bro let me live life and then ADIDAS FUCKING LIKE SWUNG THE MISSING ARM HOLES SO UNPROMPTED AND I WENT OH MY GOD 

my space has been violated but im just like ugh fuck youre so cute

[dolliezo]

Also you wanna ramble?

ʚ♡ɞ

omg yes pls im goign to ramble about a couple of my shows caus i have love them and i love them and just yes

ook im going to start with strange world cause i love it

ethan is so adorable and i want to learn how to do his hair he's just a little dude whos a love sick puppy

he seems like the best boyfrined tbh like hes jsut ugh idk man its jus thim

and diazo would be such a cool boyfriend or friend in general

and despite being a cool calm and collected boy i know for a fact that he has random boosts of energy that makes him become childish and playfulhes just ahim hfu fgwah

i have no words i am wiped for these boys

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rottmnt is such a good show and for what>

like donnie and raph and mikey and leo are just so cool and cute and adorable

tehyre amazinf and i want to baby them and give them affection

forehead kisses all around

im creating a cuddle pile with raph on the bottom donnie next then leo and then mikey

i want to go on skating dates with Mikey, him teaching me how to do it i want to let him ramble about this interests and such with me

i want to collect plushies with raph cause i know for a fact that he collects them and names them i want to let him ramble and come to me for comfort i want to hold him close so he can let loose and feel protected and small, like he doesn't have to be on guard around me to protect me

i want to learn how to create little things with done i want to give him ideas and thoughts to think about i want to let him rable to me about his ideas and such

i want to laugh and scold leo for all of his stupid and idiotic jokes that are enough to make me laugh i want to listen to him give me ideas on what he wants to do and all the stupid things he's thought about doing

i want to listen to all of them ramble about that stupid tv show and the comics and such

i want to have cooking nights with them and have night outs with them

i want to leanr about april i want to know her hobbies and likes and dislikes

i feel we dont get enogh of her and such but i just want hold her and cuddle eiwth her and do her hair cause shes so pretty and kind

i want to be bale to just, kiss her on the cheek and hold her tight

i lvoe them if you couldnt tell :,)

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ok so bee and puppy cat is so cute and i love them both so much

especially the family that owns the cat cafe they're so adorable and cute

i want to help bee with her adventures and help puppycat with his things and curious behavior

i want to be seen as cool in his eyes so he tries to impress me

hes adorable and i want to squeeze him and hug him close like a plushie

i want to do bees fluffy curly pretty hair and see what kind of styles i could make it into

i want to work at the cat cafe with the handsome boys that own it and owkr there wbves

i want to pet the cats and hold them close and such i jsut

ohohoh and job bot i think is its name is so cool and sarcastic and for what?

i want to work for it and get cute outfits for the jobs and jsut

have a cool jhob like that! going to universes and helping with their problems

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don't get me started on toh

i squeal whenever is ee hunter on screen cause he's so cute and oblivious an di love him

hes jsut "yes let me do this so i can impress belos"

i hate belos sorry clem but he pisses me off

i want to kick him and make an oc that kills him right away when they learn what he's done and what he is going to do and acts as him for a bit before acting like he died and becomes the new emperor and shit

just because i want to squeeze him to death and not in the good way

and willow is so cute

i want to learn about plants form her shed be such a good teacher ghera

i want to play that sport that i forgot the name of that shes captain of her team in just so i can hang out with her more

shes so sweet and i want tot be able to kiss her and cuddle her and hug her

and gus would be like a little brother to me and i want to let him ramble and vent to me and help whim with shit

i just want to gvraesl i wnt him to be my sibling so bad he's so cute and adorable

but like

hunter yk?

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also im currently watching croods and i must say

the mom is so hot and cute and omg

her names ugga and shes really really petty

her hair is so cool looking and shes strong and the boss even if grug, the husband, acts like he's the boss lol

and eep is so cute too? like how come shes adorable and her hair is pretty red and her eyes are a pretty color

the only question i have is why is her hair red? ugga nor grugs hair is red vrnfekja

also guy is kinda cute too-

love belt and sandy theyre adorable and the bug killer cat

i think his names chunky but i don't know for sure

such cool colors for a killer cat :D

[scarbladed-archive]

"We may not want the same thing," Lelouch--or maybe it's the man he was before he was Lelouch, the man who joined his soul with the Dragon's-- says, eyes fixating past Kenshin and to his brother: "But that doesn't change that you are my brother. I will put all I can into my victory but I still care for you." [YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOIN ON]

The dragons see eye to eye; for once, in his original form he was taller. Not little in his incarnation. There’s a terrifying knowing that was absent before, as if the words the other held were nothing but a gentle send off to a man who had already said farewells in his heart long ago to ever sharing any sort of life with his past flesh and blood. 

Little brother, I love youIloveyouIloveyouImsorryImsor–

❝ … ❞

 For once no impassioned pleas, no words, no replies. Nothing. Silence within the soul of the older brother, the one who by accident had slain the little one, the one he had once hummed songs to as a child, delighted at his birth before their mother. What color were their mother’s eyes?

 He cannot recall so well anymore this cycle… how many has he tried in vain? How many has he hoped that the one before him would remain this way, defiant, arrogant and proud ? Never aware of the wounds both of the soul and of body lain across this spirit before him, smiling still with flame-stained hair and soft purple eyes, different, but still achingly similar to ‘Kenshin ‘ . 

He does not betray a thought, while their souls to an extent can communicate, this is as far as it goes, and how it will end. He already has the means to win this fight, after losing so many times, being forgotten so many times.. so ‘Lelouch’s’ words feel hollow to him after the nigh hundreds of cycles. 

Of dying, living, bleeding. Reshiram softly nudges the nose of the bleeding ‘birth-mark’ upon this ‘Kenshin’s’ face, who too, is smiling though his eyes are veiled, that same smile at the coffee shop. Veiled in an almost holy, sanctum from the light of the Truth Pokemon’s wings. 

He has worked diligently and without care for this existence in silence, and he will end and put to rest the pleas of these Pokemon, his brother’s soul willing or not, and his own, in silence. Finally, it will be over. The world can move forward no longer clinging to conceptual ideas that were so much more than words could hold. Did that make him no longer the embodiment of ‘truth’ if truth meant so much more than a title? How amusing in the end. 

❝ …… ❞ He continues that unadulterated, loving smile, despite the cross-shaped wound blatantly staining the spirit’s cheek in dripping red; the same wounds that ended his life are piled now upon countless from past lives of fighting, trying, to save these three lives around him. The single life before him, stubbornly clinging to a concept but not the truest sense of it, if ideals could be summed up in titles their fight truly had been meaningless. 

He takes a step forward even as his form begins to fade once more into Reshiram; time is almost up, but the older brother’s eyes are at a sorrowful peace, and exhaustion as he holds out his former blade…and as before, drops it, as if to repeat the first. 

[ Forgive me. I will steal your victory away. Forgive your foolish older brother. ] 

Kenshin takes a step, smiling the same smile, enigmatic and crooked and indecipherable as blood stains the entirety of his left cheek, a birthmark indeed; plopping onto marble flooring, a chime of a requiem, a hymnal, prayer of a lost soul that will not save itself.

[ I love you, brother, ‘Lelouch’, and all the names I could not save you by. ] 

Another step. 

[ I love you even though you never needed me. As your tiny hands grew.. ] 

The pokeball is in his hand. 

[ And mine grew calloused from war and battle…. ] 

He extends it in a dramatic flourish that the other would be proud of, the wind sensing their battle, Kenshin’s culmination of centuries of retaining his memories and planning coming to fruition…..

[ But this time, neither of us will win, but one of us will surely be saved.

I want you to live the life you denied yourself long ago..and so… ] 

He glances at the black dragon with a small smile, a knowing, tender light, then at the white before canting his head almost briefly, he will end a mystery, an enigma, a blighted brother whose intentions and thoughts of him were muddled despite the achingly tender smile belying all he felt, and all his guilt for failing to [protect] the one he loved the most.

[ … Come, you two. Cast aside your flesh and mine and let us sleep together. ] 

The pokeball drops to the ground, rolls, and falls at ‘Lelouch’s’ feet.

[ Goodbye, and ‘thank-you’, and ‘I’m sorry’ and……  ] 

Nothing is inside the ball.

[leatherbookmarking]

finally got the time to Apply gtrans to the trailer, i’m just half a minute in and already :’( xiuxiu :’(

william.... love.... is he trying to cuddle jbj in place of jxy... god i love how being a little shit to your friends lovers n family seems to be the universal love language here

i love the dramatic Literal cliffhanger lol;;; good to see qc seems to be his sour self again but the “i don’t need you to save me” line is... alarming. at least until the very next thing he does is to... pull himself up on jbj’s hand?

anyway once again: jbj looks super cute in that jacket

and lin nuoyan..... IT WAS OBVIOUS but i still went OOOOOO when i saw him. as someone in yt comments said, he’s probably the “vanished” kid of that one doctor who died those years ago.

excit excit excit

[humandisastersquad]

ugh. so. my dad (who's a shitty person and an even shittier father) has had a 'medical episode' so will be in my city for diagnosis/treatment etc and honestly i wish mum hadn't told me bc like there's a reason i cut him off from nearly all means of communicating with me!! so i dont get guilt tripped into feeling sorry for him even tho he's shown absolutely no remorse over how terribly he treated me and mum (and even my brother who thinks im being 'overdramatic' and a 'sensitive snowflake' when i say that he abused us).

and like. this isnt the first time something like this has happened like my brother is still stupidly defensive of him and tried to guilt trip me by blaming dad being "suicidal" bc i didnt talk to him that much and i just know that he'll try and bring up the fact that i went and blocked dad on fb recently and blame his recent drinking and bad health etc and tbh i would not put it past that piece of shit to also think that way and mentioned it to my brother in the first place and UGH i know he's getting older and he's already had a massive cancer scare and both his parents passed away from brain related illnesses that started manifesting close to how old he is now and i know even my mum, who was also treated like shit by him and understands my feelings towards no contact, is trying to get me to think about contacting him "just in case" etc and like. before now i honestly wouldnt have cared if he'd had died etc bc he has little to no impact on my life (except the life long psychological trauma) and literally nothing would change

but. uGH i hate how even mum is pushing me to contact him to try and avoid any regret and i know i say my only regret would honestly be not being able to tell him to his face how much of a shit parent he was and how much he fucked me up as a kid but also. fuck. i do have some fond memories of doing stuff with him like going to the beach and collecting shells and other debris to make sculptures and mucking around in the garden and exploring and going rock fishing and camping etc and i know that's the nostalgia talking and doesnt erase all the shit he did and i have absolutely no idea how i'll actually feel and react when he does eventually die but i jsut. i just dont fucking know

[epic-sorcerer]

Arthur for the character ask, please

Thank you :D @tolkienlockian

Also this turned into a huge rant bc I was feeling hangry when I wrote this and I can’t talk about Arthur without talking about hwo incompetent the writers are. So uh get ready

First impression: he’s a dick obviously. Super annoying. Classic rich white boy who says “do you know who my ✨ FATHER ✨ is???” But he has this way about him that’s sort of…lessens the edge? I think it’s bc Arthur is framed as young and ignorant, so the viewer assumes taht Arthur will grow into the exact opposite of how he appears now. So when he is saying or doing something bigoted, yes it does hurt, but there is a sort of optimism there. But the general feeling of “ugh this shit again I have it suffer through before he changes”

Impression now: Arthur didn’t change much :/ at least not enough in my opinion. I genuinely think season one is the best bc of this reason. Because there are amazing moments where Arthur saves Merlin’s life and shows humility and genuine sense of justice, regardless of their religion(case in point, mordred episode). And it feels like it’s all thrown away in favor of the writers keeping him in his rich white boy persona. At least in season one, it makes sense for Arthur’s development to eb and flow a bit, but thsi is far too extreme for a satisfying narrative to happen the whole show. One step forward, two steps back. I honestly feel that if Arthur was a real person, he would have grown so much. And so I often feel like I don’t know Arthur at all, bc it seams like it’s my responsibility to pick and chose what is actually “cannon” based on what I think is probable in my opinion. Witch sucks, bc I dotn feel like I really have an impression on Arthur as a character, and more of a sense of confusion. I often end up cherrypicking the most optimistic spin on Arthur, bc I want to believe what Merlin believes as a veiwer who is supposed to root for the main character and his cause. I feel like there is a general divide among the fandom about hwat is cannon aboht arthit and what isn’t, and it’s confusing and sort of frustrating.

Favorite moment: I’d have to say favorite moment is when Arthur comforted Merlin after freya died. It shows this side of Arthur that I want to see much more of. It’s suprizing as it is heartwarming when Arthur showed so much emotional intelligence wheb he knew Merlin was upset. THIS. THIS should be why Arthur deserves Merlin’s devotion. Not jsut merlins blissful fantasies of a world where merlisn not scared of Arthur one day wanting him dead. I’m sorry Am I getting too dark? But anyways, the best part was that it was successful. Merlin smiled and laughed. He got a moment of happiness to distract him from his grief.

Idea for a story: Arthur learns about Merlin’s magic in the dragon lord ep. Think about it. Arthur overhears Merlin’s conversation with his father before he died, Arthur stays quiet about it all the way back home bc he’s so completely stunned. And it gives him ample time to thing about things, especially bc Merlin probably wouldn’t want to talk much anyway. Even though Arthur’s pretty oblivious, I think he’d know that this really isn’t the time for bringing more drama into this about merljnscmagic. When Merlin is preparing Arthur for his battle w kilgara, Merlin picks up a sword and Arthur sees how determined Merlin is and alwyas was. And Arthur tells Merlin that he knows about Merlin’s power and that he’s literally their only hope. Dragon fight same as before BUT Arthur is secretly consious during wheb melrin sends away kilgara. Boom. Done. Not only dose Arthur know about Merlin’s magic, but it is done in the most charitable way possible. Merlin will only be shown in his best and most compassionate light, showing Arthur taht Merlin is the same Merlin he alwyas was.

Unpopular option: framing Arthur getting body shamed and being told to eat less is very bad actually and I genuinely don’t care how horrible he is to be around. No one deserves that and it’s sick it was portrayed as ok to young kids watching. Same to when Merlin sexually harassed him in the aithusia episode. A lot of wierd noncon shit happens to Arthur and it’s fucking sick. No wonder he’s such a bitch to be around.

Favorate relationship: merthur, although idk if anyones suprized. It’s hard not to love the pairing tbh. Too biseuxal to not love em

Favorite headcanon: definitely dyslexic!arthur, although @tolkienlockian definitely knows that by now lol. I would go on a huge rant about it but I already started a thred so I won’t

[mass-effect-a-companions-react]

Mornings Off

oh whats this? a post? How the ME:A romances wake up next to Ryder on a morning off

--- Liam - Liam likes lazy mornings. Days were he can just wake up next to Sara and relax. They usually wake up around the same time, pressing small kisses to each others faces with giggles and whispers. He prefers to have her sleep curled against his chest, one arm wrapped around her (even if it fell asleep ages ago) so that he can run his fingers along her arm while they talk about last nights dream “have i died in my sleep and gone to heaven?  because surely your an angel” “its too early in the morning for pickup lines, Costa” “its never too early for pick up lines”

Cora - Cora wakes up first, laying on her back with Scott  practically pressed on top of her. She never really could relax, even on days off. It was always an endeavor trying to wiggle out of his grasp without him waking up and he pouts like  a puppy when he realizes shes gone. Normally Cora shoves a pillow in her place to keep him sedated  and gives him a forehead kiss, before she does her morning routine and puts on a fresh pot of coffee, making it jsut the way he likes it and leaving the cup by the bed. By the time Scott even bothers to sit up she's already pressed, dressed and watering her plants.  ”Im starting to think you love the plants more than me” ”good morning to you too, Scott. Did you sleep well?” ”yes i did. Thank you for the coffee, by the way” Peebee - Bold of you to assume PeeBee even gets up in the mornings on the days off. Shes a heavy sleeper, so  she can and will sleep in any time she gets. (She sleeps alot to regain all that goblin energy)Ryder, bless their hearts, cannot escape PeeBee’s octopus grasp, as she raps herself around them and clings to their warmth, happily snoring until its nearly noon. When she actually does wake up, she still remains in bed for another 10 minutes and always jokingly calls ryder a weirdo for watching her sleep. please, please let go peebee, they really have to pee. “i know your awake. Come on babe, my legs are going numb” “snore” “did- did you just say snore instead of actually fake snoring?”

Jaal - Jaal tends  sleep with Ryder on his chest, the skin to skin contact really does him in. He tends to be an early riser, though unlike cora hes content staying where he is. He watches them sleep, carefully running his thick fingers through their hair  committing every detail to memory as if it were the last time he will see it. He just holds them until they wake up, giving them soft rapid fire kisses (that he totally doesn't use that as a tactic to wake them up early what are you talking about). Every time Ryder cracks open their eyes they are instantly met by his vivid blue ones, grinning at them as he nuzzles their face. 

”Good morning my darling one” ”I swear if you ever wake me up in any other way i would never forgive you” ”*Chuckling* good to know” Vetra -  Early riser by nature, and usually gets out of bed instantly , even if ryder is clinging to them. However, modern problems require modern solutions and she will literally carry ryder around while doing her morning routine and checking her logs for any supplies she has to pick up. Vetra is a busy body,even on days off and it isnt untill she’s resituated on the bed when ryder wakes up, pushing her data pad down and demanding kisses “ugh do you ever stop? Can i at least get my morning kiss before you start jumping into work?” “Not with that morning breath you’re not. Go brush your teeth.” “oh, so cruel to me” 

Gil - Like PeeBee, gil tends to sleep in. Though not as late. He usually tends to take his time wake in up in increments, always ending with a big stretch and  loud, obnoxious yawn before “gracefully” flopping back down on the bed full force, causing it to bounce a bit.  Gil runs like  furnace, so Scott usual has his arms rapped around him as soon as he sits up, nuzzling into his neck befoe the two go to do their morning routings together, constantly messing with each other as they do.

“Did you just give me a shaving crème moustache?” “you look ever handsome with it” “Scott i don't even shave. And i  already have a  great beard and mustache, thank you.”

Suvi-  Suvi sleeps curled into Sara, and  Sara complains the moment she rolls away from her. Suvi is a long time practicer of “late to bed, early to rise” often sliding in and out of of bed at the weirdest fucking hours. Though is alot more difficult on days off because ryder wraps around her like a vice grip, knowing that Suvi actually doesn't have anything to do and is forced to stay in bed jsut a little longer. Suvi can easily be convinced.

“Let go, Sara. I have some reports i need to go over in the lab.” “5 more minutes” “....You’re lucky you’re cute”

Reyes -  Waking up next to Reyes was rare in itself, so you bet your ass Ryder is going to take advantage of it. Reyes wakes easily and normally slides away from Ryder without being seen or heard, leaving them feeling just a bit colder. But after things settle down, so does he, slowly but surely. If they ever do share the same bed, Reyes likes to sleep with his arms wrapped around Ryder, holding them close  to convince himself that they are actually there.  He always wakes up first, no matter what, and sits up with their head in his lap, letting them rest as he checks his omni tool, running one hand through their hair. “ Hmh- wait. Your still here?” “Dont sound so surprised to see me, amore” “Its a good kind of surprised, Reyes”

Bonus Evfra (i will never not be thirsty) - Like Vetra this man does not know the meaning of the words “a day off” and will rise with the sun in order to get to the resistance base. He wakes giving Ryder a kiss on the face before getting ready for the day, taking extra preparation to make them breakfast before he leaves and placing it on the nightstand as a form of apology, kissing them again before leaving. on the rare days Ryder actually does convince Evfra to stay in bed (usually after a long night of “passion”) he sleep on his stomach with ryder on his back (he likes to feel their weight, it grounds him) and he is content just lying there and listening to them breath with his eyes closed until they get up, placing g a kiss along his spine. “oh ho? what's this? a handsome stranger in my bed?” “Firstly this is my bed. Secondly, you just woke up how are you this annoying already?” “Good morning to you too, big blue.” 

[quillsink]

Hii so um we're doing creative writing and it's supposed to be like 30% of the overall grade and I was wondering if you had any advice. Im gonna wrote some historical lams but I've got no plot and it can't be over 1000 words ugh

hmm sure!

1. first thing i do is make a timeline. it doesn’t have to be perfect, it can be inaccurate as fuck, but jsut get a rough idea of whatever the hell you’re gonna be writing about. copy paste whatever links you use. all of them. trust me. you’re gonna need them lmao

2. Try to make a rough plan. Start with a few sentences, then divide it into scenes. My tip is to write informally, and let it flow! Here’s the plan from my old fic-

TW blood death guns

SCENE 1

- so alex is dreaming and shit

- then he feels like he’s been shot bc john died yippee yay

- but then he wakes up and nothing

SCENE 2

- he’s having breakfast with eliza

- and she’s like “lmao you’re boyfriend’s dead”

- alex looks at the newspaper and he)s like OH SHIT and runs off

SCENE 3

- he basically has a whole ass mental breakdown lol

- bam john’s ghost

- angst angst angst

- alex cries

After that, just go with the flow! A rough outline should be enough, and you can always rework the plot if you want. Good luck anon!

[stray-tori]

TPN Vol 13 (and some earlier volumes) Thoughts

I honestly thought there’d be more sort of... domestic fun times in the shelter with the dadsTM but Ig not, okay byeeee- (i wish i could be sad, come on brain)

I also just... they HAD to throw in that romantic sub...element before he died?? really? was that necessary? ugh. I felt like they could have done more of these flashes to the past earlier and then just reminded us of them here but... oh well.

Also Emma’s dreams give her therapy. I’m not sure if TPN is saying that these sort of visions are actually some sort of supernatural connection but I find the idea funny that Emma gives herself therapy in her dreams and just SENSES the timing of the explosion (again, weird “placing scenes inbetween other things that already happened”) - that was intense, but I just... I’m not huge on these outright CONVERSATIONS. I think for Ray’s hallucination it worked better because (and the german dub goes in on this even more) Norman just says things (even if a bit different) that were already said before, so it’s more of a.... coming together I guess.

That also kind of bothered me about the scene when Emma is passed out   in GP, it just felt a little “??”, thanks Emma for giving yourself a pep talk by imagining all of that. Ik she’s close to death BUT HOW DID SHE KNOW HOW PEOPLE DIED THAT SHE NEVER MET.

We kind of joked that since the eye necklace gives Emma that one experience on the water, it might be what triggers these things? but then again, it also happens earlier so probably not-

but it’s a fun little inside joke, “ah, there the eye goes again”.

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STUPID KIDS- I mean yes let the kids be stupid sometimes but GOD WHY NOW, GO BACK- though ig if they had the mech owls, they might have easily found them again anyway. who knows.

How convenient that the randoms always died.

BUT injuries actually persist and are dealt with instead of just time-skipping to when the person in question is okay again :) Emma’s stab had no weight, it was only there for Yugo’s arc and was not dealt with satisfyingly for me hh...

I didn’t talk about this I think because I didn’t note down things for that volume, but hh idk, she seemed PERFECTLY FINE when she got up again, which was hard for me to believe... and afterwards, we couldn’t have gotten one or a few chapter(s) showing the things Emma recaps happened while she was out? We couldn’t have gotten some angsty panels with unconscious Emma and people coming to her side? come on :(

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please get Andrew off my screen pls end my suffering, i do not want to LOOK AT THIS.

but also. goddamn. shounen manga, huh-

LIKE THIS IS EPIC BUT ALSO I DO NOT WANT TO SEE IT.

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HAHAHA I THOUGHT THE ANIME CAME UP WITH THIS CONVENIENT DEMON NOM dsihsds, the manga executed it better (i will never get over how the anime cast just sits there like :o at the first time seeing a human being eaten but hey) but it’s still... very convenient oml.

Ray just wants to be burdened. the man wants to use his resolve to kill. let him.

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Minerva time - obviously the secrecy is kinda ruined by the anime and by spoilers, but... idk... do people actually not find obscuring people... sus? I mean I GUESS the first time we saw the person with the hood, they also didn’t show his face SO I SUPPOSE it’s not completely unlikely that it’s just continuing to do that - but why would you not show it if it was actually James? He already had a face reveal. And the super harsh shadows on only him just look kind of awkward and hhh I DON’T KNOW-

As much as I like this scene as their introduction and I’m glad we get to see the mass production farm (the hug killed me), I also would have preferred them to omit him from it or just not show it NOW (they love their insert-scenes-in-hindsight stick way too much anyway) to commit to the “secrecy” approach for the audience. But maybe I just don’t get it. And I do like the scene so I’ll shut up and take it.

I will say... Barbara eating demon meat reveal in the anime... i liked that more tbh. Because we realize it with Emma and Ray and the way it frames the meat and her hate talk, it’s just MWAH-

Though they also have a lot more personality in the manga which I feel wouldn’t have hurt their anime counterparts.

I still pledge for a two year age-up for this story iduskhjds, it wouldn’t have hurt in general but also jsut because... imagining a 13 y/o dramatically pulling his hood off on a balcony in front of a crowd is just... not as epic to me as it’s supposed to be I think fuishdjs

And as much as the execution of the Norman reveal in the anime deserves to be dunked on and as awkward as the “walking up without saying anything” is... at least being in a demon community was a good reason to actually, yknow OBSCURE their faces and hide them naturally. I didn’t really think about this before BUT that actually makes a lot of sense and I like that more than the harsh shadow treatment.

I also always thought that the “Minerva” cover was supposed to make them come to him, which I GUESS it did, but he had his messages anyway (the way I thought it went was that he had no way to contact them, so he took that cover so they’d come find him eventually and stuff) and ALSO sent people out to find them so I guess it wasn’t the only reason - I suppose it’s also for other children/humans who know Minerva. I actually really like this element, I think it’s neat. I just thought it wouldn’t be this.... in your face and more sort of... not showing him at all until they meet him.

I also hope he actually told the squad his name is James, he’s just like a completely different person, actually sadssda.

I just find it funny to think about Lucas hearing some young soft-spoken boy, maybe barely being grazed by puperty voice and going, “yup, thats the same person as I heard on the phone with Emma :)” just. how. like if he didn’t think so I would have assumed he’d mentioned it.

Also another case of “we didn’t hint this, we didn’t show this off to the side in a panel (or tori is blind), BUT IT HAPPENED GUYS I SWEAR. HE ALSO GAVE IT TO OLIVER I SWEAR!!!!-”

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I didn’t know about the mech owls. interesting.

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I find Jin and Hayato’s reactions to the group interesting. the group kind of sees all the GF escapees as holy or also as their rescuers sth because like, if they hadn't escaped, none of them would be free, etc. Which now that I think about it, is... technically not true ig since Norman could have escaped Lambda even without the GF escape succeeding so. HM. And ig since they bowed to them, I think maybe it's jsut "wow you escaped on your own, you're so cool"? I just wonder if they kind of began thinking that way on their own or if Minerva's protecc squad/Minerva kind of gave them reason to behave that way by talking about the GF escape or something... probably they just did it on their own but I'm just rambling.

or maybe they’re just impressed they aren’t incompetent.

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idk if im forgetting anything but yee, here we go. I’m just being a judgy prick, I’m enjoying it (mostly bc our read is just chaotic).

[dragqueenpentheus]

Okay no one has to read this but i DO have to write it:

PYROC VS FATHER PAUL

Ya bitch needs an art break bc im getting angry about voices existing as i try to keep myself entertained. Today is NOT a god one for sinking into repetitive line work and that’s just about all i have on the table atm

SO! Im gunna do a little thinking about my little meow meows all fucked up by religion. Just a comparison for my sanity and interests. Pyroc is my baby i wrote him for the first time years ago. Five?????????? Whadda hell. Going on six.

ANYWAY john joined religion because of his trauma. His sister died and he felt lost. He was unmoored in this fishing village and looking for reason looking for hope. Hed had his heart broken and trying to make sense of tragedy on his own was totally beyond him. Thats why his interactions with riley in AA are SO good like. He knows that confusion and he knows the rhetoric that’s supposed to combat it. Only it dooesnt work for riley.

The same sort of thing happens for pyrc, only inverted. Loss urns him away from god and religion because its SO strong in his family and not only is he loosing trust in god, but his kin as well. He’s suspicious there’s mre they arent telling him, at the point of his fathers death. And he agrees to, on the surface, absolutely wholly throw himself in to being the second the family and the village need. But he’s keeping his treachery under wraps.

That’s one of the coolest things about father paul imo is like. That slow unraveling of what is. Frankly. An awful half assed plan, driven by fear and loneliness and desperation and dementia and love. Even VERY obvious things like. Taking down the newspaper photo of his young self ‘slip’ by him. I think, on some level, its DEEPLY intentional. He wants people to CHOOSE this. He wants people like bev. He wants people who see him and are in aw of him beating god. Of killing death. He wants to be worshiped and adored and for people to come to him willingly, no tragedy driving them to his arms.

Pyroc also wnats to be worshipped, but he ALSO wants to do the worshipping. He really longs for an element of almost????? But not quite??? Subjection?? He wants to be shown something and for a Great Voice to tell him, unquestioningly and unerringly that it is GOOD. Full stop. And then he wants to spend his life worshipping it. But this booko is an exploration of how….. no such thing exists. And more importantly no great voice exists either. There is nothing wholly good, nothing wholy evil. His lack of faith in himself once he becomes god is him starting to understand that as well. Thats on purpose baked into the lore. The starting point was ‘what if god was a position and in order to get promoted you had to be a murderer. No matter what’. He understands things are not wholly good, at that point. I onder how long it will be for him to realize they are not fully evil as well?

Bc pruitt does hm hm hm an interesting move. Where he takes something the narritve is very sure to communicate is EVIL no wiggle room just fact. Even if its driven by animal instinct its. Evil. And he makes it, not just good, but HOLY. And god i LOVEEEE that for him i ADOREEE that what a MOVE. Driven by desperation and dementia and relief and ‘if god saved me than maybe i can be good despite loving and sinning and maybe if i defeat god then i will be Thee Good’. SO sexy of him. Im really fascinated by his morality. He seems to have an understanding of the shades of grey in some respects??? But if he had a BETTER one with more forgiveness in his heart i feel like hed have left the church anyway after sarah was born??? Even if millie didnt ask him??? That might just be my own sensibilities creeping in but ….. like he culd have seen her on the weekends. He can do other jobs. Hes straight (??? Not totally convinced of this) he could have just dated her that makes me crazy. LIKE OBV HE HAD LINES HE THOUGHT THAT WOULD CROSS AND HE HAD INTERNALIZED THE CHURCH AND THE RULES AND SHE WAS MARRIED AND ECT ECT i know he couldnt have really but. Thye were straight. They coulda.

Im not gunna do fantasy homophobia bc i think its …………….. Boring. But i think some element of??? The vindlegaurd line MUST be passed along and for that particular rules must be applied. But thats also boring as hell :/ maybe i can work in my parthenogenesis lore?????????? I bet pyroc would love building that spell in any universe. That’s the sequal when he goes to magic university in helsin. But yeah i do like the concept that. Anyone can have a baby thru magic its just a time and energy commitment. Just a matter of wanting it enough together. Every baby is so deeply wanted and its mere existence is proof. Thats dope i love that. HMMM to be decided at a later date when im deeper into the story i think. I still havent figured out fully how and where and why orion is going to be invovled and if???? Pyroc and orion are even going to be romantic??????? Im torn im TORn…….

Thikns about john bonding w sarah over science and learning and starts wEEPING…. Like theres some surity beloved. Its just a matter of uncovering. I think sarah felt that same thirst for answers and hunted them differently. Her faith is in logic and science. I loveeee her god. Every scene w her and her dad absolutely RUIN me like!!!!!! SHE DOESNT KNOW!!! SHE DOESNT KNOW HOW LOVED SHE IS!!!!!! I hope at hte very end she saw the blood as the gesture of love it SO clearly was and not him trying to poison her. God i love that she spat it out. GOD. Thats about being gay, btw. Spits the religious offering that could save you across the gasoline soaked church floor like BABE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think we as a collective should talk about the possibiites around sarah/erin more. Bc their defiance combined would be. Earth SHATTERING for crockett.

In the future pyroc gets a kid. Ever since that campaign where Enemy ended up playing his daughter im like. How did i NOT know this idiot wanted nothing more in the entire world than to travel it with his daughter. I dont care how or why hes getting a kid. Hed be so doting and awful abut it. He would need orion as a co-parent for the kids self esteem to be normal levels. thINKS ABOUT PAUL GETTING TO RAISE SARAH AND JUST ABSOLUTELY GASSING HER UPPPPPPPP HANGING EVERY DOODLE SHE EVER MADE ON TEH FRIDGE. BOASTING ABOUT HER SCEINECE PROJECT OT ANYONE WITHIN EYESIGHT EVEN THOUGH ‘WE K N O W JOHNWE WERE ALL AT THE SCEINCE FAIR’!!!!!!!!!!! Let these fuck ups be doting fathers im fucking begging. That scene where paul is like. You take ccare of everyone on the island sarah. Its more than being a doctor. You comfort them.

HM HM comfort is such a thing for Miss Bitch like!! He sees it as a Good Thing. He tries to bring it for riley by asking to hold the AA meetings on island ((also manipulation. Obvously also manipulation. I wouldnt have bene shocked if he was slipping the vampire blood into the coffee every meeting either. But thats just a theory. A game theory.)) ANYWAY he sees comfort as hly. The church gave it to him when he needed it. The angel gave it to him in the cave. Feeling safe and warm is HIGH on his list of priorities and what makes him hand over respect.

I think pyroc has lived a very comfortable life in SO many ways, but in none he. Activly recognizes. A key part of his character arc his him…. Opening his eyes to the world around them. Seeing the privilege he has and being like. Wait. This isnt Right. We have to change thi. And when no one agrees ti shifts to I have to change this. With Violence. A little revolutionary <3 it only costs the life of his whole ass family

Thats more fun comparison ground like…… paul is SO much about I know whats right and there is a cost but i AM ignoring it. Like HE KNOOOOWSSSS he knooooows he just doesnt want o See. I’m not sure if im going to surprise yroc with the ……megadeath of. His whole family. Or if it’s a choice he has to activly make. I think a choice makes it more compelling, more layerd. It has to be in the moment though, becaus ei think thats. A key difference between them. Pyroc wouldnt do it.. hed just leave hed peace out and do what he could in small ways. But he wouldnt do his big stand off with god. Hed shrink his goals in order to not hurt his family. Out of love?? Intimidation?? Some instinct wihtin him that balks at the idea of disobedience??? I think even he doesnt know. But i LOVE john becaue he jsut decides to lie. He closes his eyes and says i am being stupid on purpose. I think thats PERHAPS more compelling than good guy coward pyroc BUT!!!!! Thats who he is rip to ths little man. Cant change him now hes a whole ass child in my head. The PLOT i can change. Him….. not without massive character development <3

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MM set my brain on FIRE!!!! Im so glad nano is coming up. I love sharpening pyroc against the comparison of other AMAZING characters. Father paul hill my beloved millstone <3 anyway sorry to anyone who reads this its literally me unhinging my jaw and emptying my brain out. I had to write stuff that wasn’t novel or fic. A little character time down and dirty. I wil NOT be editing this love and light to future me trying to decode this

[nsr-scrapped-records]

i can't understand anyone who sides with Kliff's reaction. Like he LITERALLY COULD HAVE KILLED HUNDREDS OF INNOCENT PEOPLE! Like yes, he's a good asshole character, but my goodness! He's got a LOT of screws loose in his head! At best some people would have been injured and at worst he could have KILLED! UGH! The shrapnal and fallout of the satellite probably injured a lot of people and buildings too! ugh, sorry for the rant

YOU'RE COMPLETELY VALID, I have this grown man that I live with siding with him and i jsut????? NO???????

Kliff is Cuckoo? Batshit? But in a way that is super pathetic and makes me pity him? But I wouldn't hesitate to slap him.

Tatiana even solidified there were employees in the tower she had to evacuate WHO WOULD HAVE DIED ON IMPACT SUPER PAINFULLY

Hopefully the fallout was just glitter and a tiny bit of fire