#hypothyroid problems

[imafraidoftomorrow]

It was 6 years ago today that my life changed.

6 years ago today that I touched my neck and felt a huge, hard lump. 6 years ago that I looked in the mirror and could see it clearly.

I went to the ER and, after waiting for hours, was told that I was the perfect demographic for thyroid cancer. I was 20 years old. I was told that I needed surgery because the tumor was at risk of suffocating me. Suffocating. The pain became so unbearable that I was on opioids for 2 months. For 25 days I had to wait to find out whether the mass was benign or malignant. Whether or not I had cancer.

It was bigger than the surgeon expected. She had to cut deeper into the muscle; had to take more of the gland along with several of my lymph nodes. It hurt. I woke up with a blood-filled bag hanging from a tube laced through my throat. The first time I saw myself after surgery, I cried. I felt, and looked, like Frankenstein's monster.

I've been sick ever since. A body can't function properly with only half a thyroid. I'm tired all the time, yet I can't ever sleep. I have brain fog and joint pain and heart palpitations. The medication that I need to live costs $350 out of my pocket.

You might think this post will end heroically - that it will read, "but despite all of that, I'm still alive and I'm grateful!" And I wish that it did. But the truth is, I grieve this day every single year. I wish it had never happened to me. I hate being sick, and I hate looking in the mirror and seeing my scar. When I notice it in photos, like in the last picture, I sometimes still want to throw up.

I guess what I want to say is, sometimes hardships just fucking suck. A tragedy is just that - a tragedy - and what doesn't kill you can, in fact, leave you frail and broken. And it's okay to mourn for your old self, because I certainly do. I mourn for her every single day. And I mourn for my present self, too, for all that she has had to endure.

[alienated-idiot]

Hypothyroidism = sleepy girl syndrome

[rhiandoesfandom]

I am trying to stay calm and collected but if my work doesn't let me come back to work soon then I'll have to start applying for federal disability.

We can't sustain like this forever.

Anyway, if you wanna help me out during this disabling double hell, my venmo is @Rhian-Beam

[cyber-therian]

i love to eat dried seaweed … i have hashimoto’s thyroiditis and the iodine in seaweed helps calm some of the symptoms (alongside my meds ofc) and the umami of seaweed also helps with meat cravings since i dont eat meat :3 plussss the salt content helps increase my blood pressure

not to mention makes me feel like a lil fox who just found the most awesomest snack ever by the ocean mmmmm

[demonsfate]

Gas leak had us evacuating the house. I swearr ever since 2020 started, it feels like just one bad thing after another.

[thescentofrainonstone]

As someone used to excess Dopamine because of how random my genetic polymorphism went (met/met), when I decided to lower my thyroid medication because by nature triiodothyronine fosters growth, and I'm in the middle of discovering if I have cancer or not, I didn't consider that despite the huge dosage I am on, lowering the dose would affect neurotransmitters.

And now for the last 48 hours I've lived with the frustration of never enough dopamine to get motivated, always little enough to realise I'm useless and can't do anything about it not even think words (I basically threw myself in accidental ADHD), and I have renewed respect for anyone that lives like this constantly.

How people with ADHD manage to get anything done, let alone be nice to anyone who ever interacts with them, is insane to me. There is literally nothing in their brain chemistry giving them the ability to access "decency" yet they do.

Wow.

Just wow.

[mental-mona]

[rose-chateau]

I fucking love synthetic hormones so much. They're basically just a thing your body has already, so as long as you're not allergic or intolerant to a specific mixture (which happens), your body accepts those chemicals no problem. Yes, you may have an adjustment period where you feel sick and miserable for like a month, but after that you're literally fine. It's luxurious compared to "foreign substance" medications, which basically give you side effects for the entire duration of use.

Like, yeah, I get that my benchmark of comparison is like steroids and chemo, but I still think I'm right. My point is, I don't get why white healthy cis idiots are fearmongering so much about hormone therapy specifically when it is by far the cushiest medical care I've gotten in my 26 years of chronic illness.

[lokh]

caught my dog eating worms -_-

[alienated-idiot]

Lol I wish I would just be referred to an endocrinologist or something. I have hypothyroidism, so my TSH has been typically too high because I was horrible about taking my meds. Now that I'm getting better at it, my TSH is now a smidge low, and my physician's nurse thought I was taking biotin supplements or thinks the fact I take my meds with coffee instead of water is why my TSH is low.

Girl, pretty sure me taking my levothyroxine with water is just going to make my TSH even lower.

[chronic-gastro-illness-culture]

Low thyroid and gut issues don't mix for me

Comorbidities sure make things so much more complicated 🥲

[celepeace]

I think I might be a little sick in the head because I was thinking about that person who likes getting surgeries bc it's fun and I was like oooh that's so me. I love having medical things done to me. It's so cool and interesting. I love it when they stick monitors on me or use ultrasounds to look in my body. When I have a weird medical procedure/test coming up I tell people about it like it's an exciting activity. I look forward to it. If I didn't have vasovagal syncope from needles I'd be one of those people who watches when the nurse inserts the IV and I'd be all interested talking about it with them. That's not normal is it

[smelbow]

The fridge has some sort of untraceable source of sour stench mixed with the electrical burning smell some of the other food sustained before it was evacuated from the other fridge. Also I’m still congested so everything tastes off and my throat/mouth are still slightly swollen. The haggard mans ozempic

[mental-mona]

[arogyamcentre]