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bacchuschucklefuck · 2 months

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species medley ft. gorgug and riz

#fantasy high #gorgug thistlespring #riz gukgak #cw: body horror #tbh mostly for the goblin shark jaws lmao. the rest is like. fine I think #ngl drawing like snouts on a humanoid face is kinda awesome I enjoy it #it is kinda a little bit what I aimed for with how I drew riz at first but I pulled back on it #the elephant remix for gorgug I think actually feels a bit more like orc rather than half-orc #maybe the tusks wouldn't get the same lip closure in half-orcs. tho tbh saying that sharing human and orc heritages would result in #consistent physical traits across the board is already kind of a reach I think. I imagine there would be a Lot of variations #and well. at least in spyre we don't see non-human mixed heritages so far... Ive been in my dunmeshi brain lmao #getting to see ryoko kui's art of mixed humans (dunmeshi in-universe term not irl term) is like coming home. thank u ma'am #anyways uhhh I think. I will have refs for every class swap bad kid (at least the full like per-season sets)#fig I'll post separately and then riz and gorgug I'll just include in like a masterpost kinda thing I think #u already know tf is up with them babey!!! just expressing those designs again for convenience #its been really fun figuring these designs out! and necessary if I wanna draw riz bc its literally impossible to doodle him on his own lmao #hes with his friends a lot actually. theyre literally in each others pockets the whole time #anyways! now I sleep. tomorrow? chillin. waiting to watch new nsbu with friend again. see u!

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crownedwille · 2 months

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#some thoughts incoming idk if i should share but i need to put them somewhere #it's hard being in the yr fandom since the finale when you don't share the same vision and opinion as the rest #and people make future wilmon posts or write post s3 fics (which many exist now) they just don't align with your idea at all #and they're not exciting to me at all and the whole concept just makes me upset #i don't wanna imagine Wille as a 'normal' person (not that that's ever possible anyway which the show loves to ignore)#like I'm sorry but i didn't come to the show to watch an ordinary love story and have them lead an ordinary life #the idea of Wille being a future king and them navigating that royal life together is so much more interesting #i hate that that isn't canon anymore and when ppl make posts about them it's not about that or that would only be seen as a negative thing #i don't wanna imagine a life where they are 'normal' that isn't appealing to me at all and it sucks seeing everyone embrace it #and it's like you're not allowed to want something else or think differently bc that makes you the bad person and you're just wrong #i can't be excited about their future (also bc i don't really see them going strong in the future with how they messed them up in s3)#(i also didn't want to know what could possibly happen in the future i wanted that to stay open and just be in the present)#and seeing everyone else excited and happy about it makes you feel horrible and very alone and disconnected in the fandom #i don't wanna take it away from them but i also would love to see other takes but that's basically impossible now #am i the only person who feels this way or are there any other who can relate? pls let me know #i already feel like ppl are gonna attack me for this but it's been hard especially now with Simon's month and seeing so many interpretation #navigating ao3 has also become difficult now #it's hard finding fics to read where wille stays crown prince and you don't have to be scared for that to change #i just can't read any canon compliant fics anymore and i hate it bc i hate to disagree with canon #i normally don't do that bc canon is important to me and i don't want to reject it and create my own fantasy #and that's what's upsetting #anyway sorry i had to write this #personal

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skeletalheartattack · 2 months

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I was scrolling through some of your posts and I saw the one about gender nullification and it made me feel so much better to know that not only was it achievable but that someone else wished for it too.

anon, seeing this ask in my inbox really put some lightness in my heart honestly. for a lot of my life, i had always felt rather uncomfortable with that aspect of my body - so much so that i can't really look at myself in the mirror before/after showering for example - and having learned about it a few years ago was honestly so validating, knowing that there is a form of bottom surgery to be able to achieve a neutral look, that would finally allow me to feel comfortable in my own body. thank you for your ask anon. may we both some day see our true selves in the mirror.

#ask #anon #i learned about it through a tumblr post that managed to happen upon my dashboard at some point #i think it was just a post talking about specific types of bottom surgery and their descriptions #i hope that. if and when i do get nullification surgery. that they're able to keep the ability To Feel intact.#that may be TMI. but that's the only thing i'd hate losing. but i can't imagine it's impossible.#i've had someone in the past tell me that it's possible at the very least. so there is hope #anyway. i'm glad you could find my tags anon #that's all i can really ever hope for when talking about it #or specifically there being people out there that feel the same as you or i #thank you for the ask anon. truely #i'm always at a loss for words on responding to asks like these. but i answer the only way i know how #i'm shaking your hand

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eorzeashan · 7 months

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instead of just fighting the agent in 1v1 on his ship Jadus should've transformed into a manifestation of the agent's fears and chased them around the Dominator's halls like a horror monster. who said that

#swtor #ooc #cheap mascot horror jadus isn't real he can't hurt you #jadus centipede monster???? /holds out cup #and fighting him should've felt impossible too give that mf 9999 defense #i like imagining him in a buglike form now because of vector being there and calling him rot in the hive #i wonder what vector would imagine him looking like #my official headcanon is that he is obscured bc you don't know what kind of form fear can take. and his dark side aura twists and hides it #i like the idea that he can fuck so severely with your head that his self is always in question #anyways i wish swtor had chase sequences.

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amethysttribble · 1 year

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I have a thought rolling around in my head about how fandom has a very rigid, very bland, very one-dimensional idea of what a ‘good’ parent looks like, and how this vision is entirely fantasy and wish-fulfillment

#like they come off as soooo ‘I wanted my parents to be supportive in everything I did and never get mad ever no matter what’#and like… that’s not a person doing right by their child that’s an fantasy to make you feel like everything about you is good #you’re imagining robots that pat you on the head and call you good all the time #those aren’t PEOPLE #parents are people #which- and I’m sorry people don’t know this- but you would know if you had a positive healthy relationship with any kind of parental figure #and it gets me cause I think I write feanor as a very positive kind of father #but Ive gotten SO MANY comments going ‘oh I don’t like bad dad fenaor but your stuff-‘ and I’m just like ???#I don’t write him as a bad dad! I write him as a person! a personality! and not some validation dispensing machine #and even the ‘good’ ‘great’ parents mess their kids up in some ways it’s literally impossible to not have a few hang ups from your parents #it’s about TRYING and TALKING and LOVE tho #not being perfectly accepting of everything no matter what #anyway that’s just what I had to say #new fandom challenge- write interesting parents #Tribble post

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boyfriendyke · 3 months

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there r a lot of things about the myth of psyche and eros that makes me a little insane but one of them has always been the tasks from aphrodite and the unfairness of it. they're not intended to be possible. they're so obviously not meant to be possible, and psyche isn't fucking hercules, you know, she's not a demigod or whatever, she's mortal and these aren't mortal tasks!! it's why psyche has to be helped with each one, fucking by like ants and river gods and shit. and so like. idk. i know ppl see psyche and eros as like a story about love and shit which obviously it is but as a kid psyche and eros always felt like a story about being able to accept help

#in my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i'll never write i emphasize this theme #by changing psyche from a princess and youngest daughter to a poorer girl and eldest daughter who is very like. sophie hatter esque #also tbh when i first started thinking about my theoretical adaptation of psyche and eros i was reading hmc LMAO #also also ALSO. as a kid i always felt like the story was soooo deeply about regret and atonement and forgiveness #like YES the story is about love but not about easy love. love is difficult and requires work and sometimes u hurt each other !!!!!#it always struck me as a kid how psyche just. accepts the tasks.#i always read it as like. psyche KNOWS these tasks are unfair and i dont even think she expects to achieve them #but she accepts them anyways because she so deeply regrets what she did to eros and has no idea what else she can do.#am i verbalizing this well or have the worms eating my brain reached an irreversible point #also tbf im pretty sure the version i read as a kid didnt include the multiple times psyche tries to kill herself LMAO.#but we're ignoring that because i love the idea that shes just. so aimless and resigned to the tasks #ALSO on eros' side of things #i dont have like proper analysis about it but as a kid i saw eros hiding his face as like. fear?#like. fear that the person he loves will think he's a monster if he reveals his true self. or somethin. which also. i think is very queer #also very beauty and the beast. for obvious reasons since it was based on psyche and eros lmao #oh also. i already mentioned it but psyche and hercules r so similar.#did something unforgivable to a loved one --> given multiple impossible tasks to atone for it etc etc #i dont have any real analysis abt it i dont remember a lot abt hercules tbh but. yah #ALSO. okay i think retellings of hades and persephone where theyre totally in love and stuff r kinda tired.#BUT. in the theoretical adaptation i always imagined a scene where psyche does the last task where she goes to the underworld #and shes tired shes soso tired #and she goes to persephone and persephone is gentle and motherly which aphrodite has Not been to psyche #and i think if persephone is unkidnapped and truly in love w hades #then i think there could be a fun parallel between persephone and psyche in which like. theyre both in love w ppl #who are seen as monsters. and shit. or whatever #anyways. idk what made me think abt this again. ACTUALLY i do know i might write a twine for the neotwiny game jam #and it might be inspired by psyche and eros #anyways. lmao #jc.txt

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vivitalks · 4 days

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girl who finds out she's trans when she suddenly develops banshee powers

#is this anything #stuff #just imagine. her sister is a banshee. her mom is one. her grandmother is one. her mom's sisters both are #imagine being AMAB and then one day you scream and before you know it you're predicting deaths #and your whole family is like wtf ...... there's never been a male banshee in our family. hell there's never been one in all of history #and you're like. huh.#There Still Hasn't!#anyway #i feel like the gendered restrictions imposed upon mythical figures are usually dated and pointless and laden with stereotype #but also that space is fun to play in #cuz either there's a male banshee (impossible. the mythology would never allow it)#or... there's something about you fundamentally true that the UNIVERSE recognized. it's indisputable. the logic of magic is impenetrable #only women can be banshees. you're a banshee. do the math here.#this is teen wolf content in my heart of hearts btw #teen wolf

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prettyboykatsuki · 1 year

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i have deep desire to write for demon slayer (and by write for it im specifically talking about zenitsu currently.) but the story is so deeply impacted by it's setting that its gonna take at least two weeks of research to do it any justice so the plans r Delayed

#aristotle.txt #writing for my hero = easy because im insane and know every inch of it #writing for anything else = impossible #i figured trying to find fic for it was going to feel like this in the first place #from my limited understanding the story takes place in the events directly after japans first industrial revolution #which means that the advent of technology is not only integral to the story telling but there's also like an unreal #amount of sociopolitical context for most of the major details #writing for my hero is easy because a society post tech is very easy to imagine. we live in it lol #demon slayer in particular takes place during the emergence of industry #what makes zenitsu an interesting character to me is that his narration is influenced directly by his class and proximity to modernity #he has a specific level of cynicism i can only describe as post industrial. whether that be his sense of cowardice over tanjiro/inosuke #or his attitude towards women. the way he behaves and how he critically analyzes certain kinds of behavior #like im currently watching the entertainment district arc and i think inosukes reaction vs zenitsus pretty much exactly covers it #where inosuke is overstimulated and tanjiro is reserved - zenitsu recognizes the district for what it is. that quality makes him stand out #a lot among them at least to me. i love hearing him talk sooo much lmfao.#anyways. all that to say. i want to write zenitsu but i need to do more reading to make it any good so . pray for me i suppose #zenitsu the embodiment of men used to chop trees and go to war fr

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quietwingsinthesky · 20 days

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im going to lay here and think about pond family cuddle piles until i fall asleep

#and i shall paint u a picture before i go. ahem.#one must imagine of course that rory is the natural foundation of the cuddle pile #he is not very squishy or padded well for laying on but he can sit still for long periods of time. which is not a skill 2/3 of the others #have and to be honest river only Arguably has it when she knows she’s getting something out of it at the end #so rory is the foundation whom all others lay on top of #and once he’s down amy is too and she is going to sprawl all over on top of him if the doctor doesn’t claim some space quickly. she will #take all of the rory for herself. she is greedy and also wants to be comfy.#amy pond face squished into her husband in a way that should make it impossible to breathe and with her arms and legs all tangled around him #in ways that should not be comfortable and yet. rory is used to this. he likes it.#i think eleven cuddles like dogs do when they get on the couch with you and your lap isn’t free so they sort of lay next to you and push the #their back up against your side as hard as they can and stretch out and sigh. and eventually wiggle their head into your lap anyway.#thats how eleven snuggles. belly up and paws out. if he can wriggle under amy’s arm where she’s got it hooked around rory? even better #and then river. and river’s the hardest to get into the cuddle pile for many Many reasons but. i think there’s a foolproof way the three of #them have found how to do it. and it involves first the doctor flopping on top of amy and rory and looking so so cute and cuddly and making #happy relaxed noises to tempt river over. and then involves rory scooching beneath the two of them to make it ibvious that there’s room for #river if she wants it. and then when she does get lured down with them. its amy who finds her and squirms over closer to hold her. eyes shut #pretending she’s asleep and doesn’t know she’s doing it.#river’s never at ease at first but she has to let herself. the doctor moves to lay more of his weight on her as well as rory and ground her.#team (family) effort to get river to let her guard down completely and relax.#in the most normal family way ever aksjfkfjskd which is why amy is clinging onto her like River’ll disappear if she lets go #nornal family. normal cuddling. i think they all pet the doctor like a puppy while theyre doing this

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ask-olivervocaloid · 9 months

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Congrats on your update.

Some thoughts about Oliver's new design (1/?)

#sorry theyre not colored or even second sketches #my hands are dying from my other project lol #but i needed to talk about this #the braid design is so insane to me personally #and only likr 5 people know of it #like could u imagine for years having a braid in your hair to symbolize you are a different person and its your rebellion as a sign of indi #idualism #and then suddenly years after believing you are free to be abandoned #not only you are brought back to a past you thought was impossible to return to #a trait you chose for yourself as a sign of change has now become a symbol for your return to a life that you no longer wanted to claim #anyways. i thought about it but realized im too busy #i say thoughts about his design #but youll have to pry my actual opinions from my cold dead hands #or like idk. be my friend but haha #lol #if you are wondering the asks are obviosuly me i dont know why i puncuated the ask like that

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the-gayest-sky-kid · 11 months

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like im just saying they should invent a family that doesn't make you want to kill yourself

#and a school system while theyre at it #or just a me that wouldn't make me want to kill myself #just like. without all the problems that make it impossible to exist in normal society as myself #i know technically its possible for me to have a future but goddammit i dont see one okay #i havent made a single goddamn real life connection since middle school and now we're so distant i barely remember whos who on discord #thats not to mention how I've just been on the edge of every friendgroup anyway. including that one #im just some fucking loser. im not going to fucking graduate my only career aspiration is a goddamn pipe dream and if i dont fucking kill #myself by then im going to be stuck living with my family forever and we're not going to be seeing eye to eye.#all ive ever done is dig myself a deep grave and then tether other people to me to drag them down too #i love you all but i dont know how you see me as anything but gross and annoying and weirdly fucking clingy okay #i just #i dont know what im fucking doing #i wish i did. i wish i knew but i dont. and it feels like everyone else has figured out how things work and im just supposed to do that too #but i cant. i fucking cant and it keeps getting worse and i keep getting worse and i keep making it worse for my family while im at it #i miss being able to imagine doing stuff tomorrow. or in an hour #i miss being able to wash the dishes and not having to think about stabbing myself with fucking cutlery #i miss being able to show my mother my report card #but its my fucking fault im in this mess in the first place #and i just cant fucking try enough. or at all #aethers rants #cw vent #cw sui ideation #personal posts and stuff idk

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skeletalheartattack · 10 months

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If you were a chulip character how would players kiss you?

find and present to me a working copy of Dragon Ball Z Budokai 1 for the PlayStation 2 and you can kiss my stupid ass

#ask #anon #for a more serious and personal answer. idk i imagine you'd have to see and accept me at my weirdest. otherwise NO kisses. NO love.#you cannot 100% the game if you cannot accept me for the weird fucked slop i am #i also deal 98 hearts of damage if you fuck it up. and i wont appear for 30 ingame days. need time to recover.#best hope you didnt leave me as one of the last citizens you had to kiss #you could savescum i guess to bypass the wait time #but deep down id know #the only character in chulip to have a mr resetti mechanic #another silly answer would be that youd have to find a working beta of tf2 with grenades still intact. but thats impossible im afraid.#but even then i dont think i feel that attatched to the beta. its just the researcher in me who wants to see how the viewmodels look #like we know what the dynamite packs viewmodel looks like. but not really anything else im afraid.#we have an idea of what some viewmodels wouldve included with their model #like the bear trap has an unused portion of its UV sheet that displays what wouldve likely been meant to be a chain #so i wonder how a chain wouldve been adapted with the beartraps viewmodel #like is it a cluster of them on the end of the chain and the scouts spinning it.#or is the viewmodel of one with a chain wrapped around the jaws to help its viewmodel have a more solid silhouette #the frag grenade has what i assume to be the uv portion of a pin #im just fascinated by scrapped content i think.#anyway thank you for the ask anon #i kinda wish i had a game i couldve listed with a funnier title but. dbz budokai is the one that sticks out in my mind

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madwickedawesome · 1 year

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thinking abt how “keep that hair short” (as last words to clem) is so loaded with unpoken be safes and i love yous and ill miss yous

#twdg spoilers #anyways #they dont need to say it aloud because they already know it #they love each other and theyve known it all along #and lee is doing his best for clementine and trying so hard to shield her from the horrors of their reality #im NOT the same person i was before twdg season 1 #can u imagine how different s2 clementine would be if she didnt have to abandon/shoot lee #shes clearly hardened by the 16 months of coping with surviving alongside a christa who has lost both her love of her life and her baby #imagine if lee was still there to close her eyes and talk to her slowly #HES WATCHING OVER HER. EVERY STEP OF THE WAY HES RIGHT BY HER SIDE BUT SHE CANT SEE HIM #but she knows hes there ‼️#ghost lee knocking over cans across cities in hopes of making his girls joirney just the slightest bit easier #im so serious this game has changed me in impossible ways

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coquelicoq · 7 months

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I just want you to know that I so deeply cherish all your untamed and murderbot (and raksura) thoughts that I started reading ORV just so I can get MORE of your fandom thoughts. I wanna be able to understand your new posts!!

this is so sweet 😭 thank you i'm flattered!! there are some really fabulous posts in this fandom, so i'm excited for you to experience them! my own posts are fairly shallow because i haven't done a reread and the story is so long i already can't remember most of it haha, but the fandom seems pretty active on here so it's gonna be a while before i run out of other people's fanart and meta to reblog. standard disclaimer that you read orv at your own risk and i will not be held responsible for any feelings you may or may not experience in the course thereof. godspeed <3

#wow what an incredibly lovely thing to say thank you 😭😭😭#i do think it's funny how i almost never rec anything‚ i just say unhinged shit & people go okay i need to know what that means.#i don't know that i personally would actually recommend orv to people. my own experience reading it was kind of weird #and i did not have the like. spiritual breakthrough that other people seem to have had #i would recommend that if you are going to read it...take your time with it if possible !#i was so impatient to start reading meta that i sprinted through a book that's more of a marathon than a sprint #which was utterly exhausting as you might imagine #and idk manage your expectations i guess bc i went in with expectations that were basically impossible to fulfill #just based on the way other people talk about it #i am either too mentally ill not mentally ill enough or the wrong kind of mentally ill to be affected by this story in the way that #other people seem to have been #still really liked the story! just don't have a new lease on life or whatever lol. which is fine! my current lease hasn't expired!#anyway i would love for you to have context for my shitpost on lee jihye's theory on the joongdok lovechild. if nothing else.#it's my chef d'œuvre #asks #not anon #NICE SHIT #orv #new affirmation to say to myself in the mirror every morning: YOUR THOUGHTS ARE DEEPLY CHERISHED

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year

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If this is too personal a question I fully understand (if so: sorry and I hope you have a great day!), but I was just curious:

Why were you using 1/3 of a bottle of detergent for your clothes? was it a ocd compulsion situation/anxiety thing or something else entirely?

thank you for reading, and please do know that you truly bring a lot of good to this world! <3

No clue if it was OCD, an otherwise compulsion, or just a quirk, but it definitely wasn't helpful that in that instance, I was shut down entirely.

Which is why it's so important to actually listen to patients, you know? Like, not only was I not listened to, but if this were a serious issue (it actually has become a larger issue now that I'm an adult with my own income, admittedly), it wouldn't have be addressed at all. There are so many small ways that therapists, psychiatrists, authority figures, whomever, really, just... ignore problems because they're convinced that they're just infallible and the person they're addressing is, like, inherently beneath them.

#ask #anon #mental health #mental health advocacy #imagine if it *was* OCD and that therapist was like 'i don't see it you're just uneducated' like. that would've pissed me off *more*#like i know my behaviour is not seen as normal simply because i've described it to multiple people and they were like 'hm. not normal'#i'm not oblivious or naïve to how i'm percieved but it does suck to be treated like lesser/idiotic because of it. like how uncompassionate #like maybe it's just me but i think to be something like a doctor/therapist/whatever you have to first show *compassion* toward...#...the people you'll be helping...#...like that's pretty much my top priority for wanting to enter (a) medical field. the *patients* come first #(obligatory 'this is made complicated because of ableism + capitalism + insurance + being a human')#(but i'd like to think that that being made harder doesn't mean it's impossible. i've had enough good medical professionals to know that)#ANYWAY. it's just a small indication of a larger problem ime.#i appreciate the concern and the kind words (genuine)

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bookwyrminspiration · 8 months

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found a picrew of myself from 3 1/2 years ago and redid it (new one on the left) without looking just for fun :)

#picrew #also my hair's split dyed so imagine half of the green is pink #truly fascinating. at least for me #same eyes same nose same skin color same earring/ear choice. same choker too #i do know that I tended to give myself very flat expressions in the past. which has gradually shifting to me drawing/portraying myself #smiling and happy #so. that's interesting to actually like. see in action #i should do this with more picrews i'd love to study myself #then again. i haven't really done picrews in a while because none of them have my hair #this one isn't even correct #but i swear it's impossible to find #anyway

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