#i am a little bit dizzy

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

Foul Legacy Childe playfully sticking his tongue out at you and you doing it back and him going “!!!!” in surprise because he didn’t expect you to reciprocate- plus you’re adorable when you do it. it becomes a thing you do, blepping at each other from across the room as a way of saying hello or just making you smile, and it’s something you can do even if you’re carrying something. it even becomes a way of judging each other’s moods, as Childe peeks under the blanket and bleps at you inquisitively. when you just hide your face in the pillows he coos and slips under the covers so he can hold you close and let you snuggle against his fluff for comfort <33

[whoopseydaisy]

"it is the realm beyond, and between, and through, and past the world"

since the release of the character playlists, and the rain road in the arc 1 finale my brain has been absolutely spinning about musicality in the wizard, the witch, and the wild one. and the relationship between music and the spirit realm, and then how that intersects with umora.

because since the beginning there has been this emphasis between the world of spirits and music. eursulon's theme, when we first meet him, before he crosses over, is this beautiful choral music—the first time we hear singing in the show. and then there is your honey is quiet, honey with a note of song. the first diegetic song we hear performed, is sung to honour the spirits.

(edit: eursulon’s breath!!! the thing that brings him back to himself, after it had been lost!!!!)

so i have the rain road on repeat and i'm re-listening to fireside chats and in the one for the first episode brennan describes the world of spirit by saying "it is the world beyond, and between, and through, and past the world" and it reminded me of the scoring. we hear the stories of umora, but beyond, between, through, and past the world; surrounding it, but separate from it is the score. (making me feel like us, the audience, is sitting and existing in the spirit realm. and if it is supernal, if it is what is beyond and between and through and past the world— aren't we?)

but that called to mind eursulon's character playlist, and how it, especially in it's representations of eursulon's early journey, was so instrumental. and that led me to ponder the intersection of music and language. how young eursulon's theme was choral but not lyrical.

the structure of language is the domain of umora.

and how that intersects interestingly with what we have seen of the lingua arcana. suvi's rhythmic somatic components. reflexive indicative and null clef alluding to the structure of grammar and music theory.

and then how the rain road is choral and lyrical, together. the first breaking of that line between the score and the world. connecting, like ame does.

and that is why in the wizard the witch and the wild one ame is a meta narrative representation of musical theatre. in this essay i will—

[camille-lachenille]

Me: So, I have these dizzy spells that take me when I am walking and I almost fall bc of them. I also have trouble standing for any period of time because of my poor balance, which is made worse by the above mentioned dizzy spells.

My doctor: have you considered sitting down when this happens?

Me: Gee, thank you Sherlock! I really never thought that sitting down could solve my problem with standing up. But did you hear the part where I told you I kind of like walking and the point is for me to still be able to go out of the house for more than 1 hour at a time?

[astriiformes]

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[cookinguptales]

always so funny to me that ketamine in tv and movies is always like "omg party drug... but watch out!" meanwhile IRL I am preparing for my biweekly ketamine dose by wearing my softest jammies and cuddling up in a fluffy blanket with a heating pad and firing up stardew valley.

really living life on the wild side over here.

[gilligould]

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[mitamicah]

I am continuing to have friends and family way cooler than I am :’D

Yesterday I met up with a friend who has a strong relationship (I’d say it sounds very queerplatonic and beautiful) with a finnish person so my friend has been visiting Finland a lot

Oh and then they casually mentioned having watched käärijä a few time saying being at his gig was a cozy time (even if they didn’t understand all he was saying)

I -

[hobisexually]

x

[beepbeepdespair]

who up walking round the house in a daze nearly bumping into walls

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

I just. I think I should probably snack more but a) that's Not What We Do In This House and b) I wouldn't dare so what's even the point of trying

[thatlittledandere]

I think I'm gonna die in my sleep in this hotel room Like Actually. It's small and stuffy and it's hot outside and it doesn't even have a WINDOW. There's a small vent and a whatchamacallit fan but even if I keep it on the whole night I'm like. I already feel lightheaded in here and I may be tired but it's not just that the air is Really Bad. Like actually. It's really bad in here I'm gonna be sick

[little-mouse-adventures]

Love learning things about myself! For example, today I learned that I pass out while getting blood drawn!

[watch-out-it-bites]

Agh......

[spencereid]

i think my ssri makes me less reactive to alcohol????? it’s supposed to do the opposite i thought????

[suzufield]

I OWN PATHOLOGIC BUT IDK THAT I WILL EVER PLAY IT SO MAYBE I SHOULD JUST WATCH A LET'S PLAY?? but I really want to play it 😭 Im just terrible at games 😭