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inkskinned · 11 months
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so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.
first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.
it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.
and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.
you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.
and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.
your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.
in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.
in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.
so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.
you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.
once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.
and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"
you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?
hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!
you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.
we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?
#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck#good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen#im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3#writeblr#the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this''#and like also#''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist#i was <3 punctured <3 during mine#and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion''#so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3#she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh#ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance#i'd crash on the table#like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it#and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop!#and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just#woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes#she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room#from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing#and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying#and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap#with this terrible memory#i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like#that was too many liters#and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home#i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after#that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty#you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it#while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED#and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.
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”I don’t want to give Jehovah’s organization a black eye so I have to suffer in silence. Oh the pain! The pain!”
Mhm. Have you ever considered that Jehovah’s organization has given you not one, but two proverbial black eyes, broken ribs, and a concussion over the years; and maybe you should expose them for the abusers they are, if only enough to get yourself help to heal from the abuse you’ve experienced? You’ve got Stockholm syndrome bad, and you’re making it everyone else’s problem. You cared about your abusers so much that you abused me in their name, just because I wanted no part of their organization. Even if I didn’t seek out apostate resources, I wouldn’t have needed them to make my decision to leave because of how much you vented about them to me since I was about five years old. Did you just expect me to stay here and take the abuse like you did? I’m better than that; I’m better than you.
#exjw#ex cult#I woke up and he was venting about it to my mom very loudly so I just went “fuck that”#I could’ve went somewhere in the house to eat but I specifically chose the 20 degrees F screen room so that both of them know#I’d rather freeze than hear one more second of his venting knowing that he is still refusing to get help#Mom wants to watch the convention? Glorious. I’m not leaving my room until he’s done talking. I will not be her deus ex machina#I will not be her excuse to end the conversation so she can watch the convention with me#She can sit there and listen to it; and maybe she’ll grow some reasoning ability and realize#the religion she so piously subscribes herself to is splitting us apart and killing her husband#and maybe she’ll begin to take his triggers seriously and not make passive-aggressive remarks about how she wants to listen#to all the comments and not mute it when an elder who sexually harassed him begins speaking#and maybe my dad will grow some common sense and realize that continuing to go to meetings will ensure he is in a state of trauma#for all eternity#and maybe — just maybe — they will realize that everything they read in my diaries was right#and that they were absolutely positively 100% in the wrong for screaming at me about their contents#and apologize for what they’ve done to each other and to me#But that’s wishful thinking because [first name] “I’m more stubborn than you” [last name] will hold out until it kills him#and my mom is ex-Catholic and convinced the JWs are entirely truthful just because she prefers the possibility of death over hellfire#You can’t make this shit up#I live in a madhouse with crazy people
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phantomram-b00 · 5 months
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Can we normalize this for 2024? Pretty please?
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comet-wire · 1 month
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Ngl I've been having a gender crisis again on top of all the stuff that's happened with my dad, I think I still identify as male/masculine idk 🗿
Same with my ace/aro spectrum placement ☝️🗿
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#comet rambles#putting in queue to deploy later#parent loss tw#just in case by association n implications ☝️🗿/nm+gen#when i get stuff set up with my checking account i was already thinking of getting a new chest binder once our personal issues with finance#has been figured out definitely#i dont wanna say much n jinx stuff so ill leave it at that#personal#gender shit is hard n i really think i may be a he/they or he/him still#or if not then closeted butch lesbian idk#most signs point to male gender identity leaning though 😔👍#also my social battery is outta wack but i needed to get this out so i apologize to anyone who i have yet to respond to/gen+nm 🥹#like i genuinely still feel as though ive been born in the wrong body and i tried to accept my feminity and it went well!!#like i started embracing my femininity the past few years and now i think im over it because it feels like i just attempted to try#and be something i wasn't if that makes any sense#i hate being referred to as she/her or as a girl even if i understand some people will still see me as fem despite my personal identity etc#its not that i hate my femininity its just i feel anything but female while still enjoying traditionally fem stuff at times#hope this makes sense#🗿👍#still ace/aro though just cant figure out if i only enjoy the thought of romance (cupiosexual/romantic) or if i feel comfy in one#i know im sex repulsed though thats for certain#as of lately chris Redfield and Albert Wesker have become two of my transition goals and idk what to do about this lmfao#i wish i was kidding#but im not 😭#sitting here like EVA shinji with his head in his hands in the damn chair image/lh#also wanna be a rootin tootin goth cowboy 🥰#if it turns out im like a comphet butch/nb lesbian im gonna shit myself though/lh+nm
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a-little-bit-poss · 3 months
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autisticasgore · 7 months
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Shoutout to that one person who said that "no wonder I'm being stalked" because one of my crimes was apparently (checks list) posting "wooby asgore art" in the asgore tag because that's definitely a normal thing to say to someone being harassed over pixels
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barstoolblues · 1 year
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i guess i officially have no college friends anymore as of today. so
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regular-lord-reckoner · 7 months
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aaaand home again!
good trip!
happy to be back!
do still feel like i'm in a moving vehicle but that'll pass
g'night!!
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navree · 1 year
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once again on my frankenstein bullshit because i’m sure it’s a very nice bookend but it is baffling that so many fix it attempts for this story are built on frankenstein asking the creature’s forgiveness in the arctic because like??? no??? the only time victor was ever in the position of “hey you should really say sorry to this guy” is after he first ran away. everything else after that should be the creature fucking groveling and saying “hey sorry i murdered your brother and then framed your friend so she’d be executed and then murdered your boyfriend and the murdered your wife which made your dad weaken and die”  because in the scales of who’s been wronged more, guy whose father was mean to him is very much trumped by guy who had everyone he loves wiped the fuck out because his son threw a temper tantrum. 
sorry.
#personal#frankenstein#i myself love an attempted frankenstein fix it where these two can attempt to heal#or even something where they at least have a good moment before victor dies#but this idea that the creature is the only one owed an apology for the shit that goes down in the story is ludicrous#i feel bad for him i do my heart bleeds for our lil adam but like#what he went through 'at victor's hands' (and i say that with a big ole grain of salt)#is nothing compared to what victor went through at his hands. what victor suffered because of what the creature did.#like they both wronged each other enormously but there is a certain point where one kinda overpowers the other#for me i think that point came when the creature not only murdered a little kid but pinned it on an innocent lady for no reason#like am i crazy? am i dumb or something? why is 'abandoning the creature' worthy of constant self flagellation#but literally decimating victor's entire family and support system of people who loved him just something that can be brushed over??#like no if you wanna make it truly meaningful (and i'm not talking like fanfic here i'm talking literal reimaginings of the story)#then they both need to have a moment where they realize they fucked up and hurt someone who shouldn't have been hurt that way#i mean hell it's not even about the creature feeling sympathy for victor how about just ANY emotion#for the literal half dozen people whose deaths are on his hands!!! shouldn't that be a huge part of any arc or growth!!!#realizing that what he did wasn't right not just to victor but to the actual victims themselves who never did him any harm#god i'm once again mad at the people who have such a shallow understanding of this story
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emile-hides · 1 year
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If you could make only ONE fairy tail ship of yours canon with the magic of your brain which ship would it be? Please ramble. 💚
Laxus/Freed no question about it. It's not even a contest.
Would I like the Levy/Lily/Gajeel polycule to be real? Yes, yes of course I would, but Gajeel/Levy is canon and that's enough for me.
Honestly out of all my Fairy Tail ships (which you can see a full list of Here on my Ship Blog) Laxus/Freed is the closest to canon, and the only one I'd think "Big Win" if it did go canon.
I've never cared much about a ship I like going canon anyway. It doesn't effect much other than the amount of people talking about it.
Honestly what I'd rather do is uncanon some ships.
Number 1 being Erza/Jellal. I have such a thing against Jellal and I apologize he deserved his redemption I'm glad he didn't just like. Die or vanish into obscurity but like! I hate the idea of him and Erza being a canon couple with children some day!! Hate it!! It puts a bad taste in my mouth. I hate being negative tho so I'm not gonna ramble about it too much...
You know what else I want to uncanon?? The ship that floats the whole damn story; Zeref/Mavis
I hate it I hate it I hate it so much I hate how fanon treats it all cute and shit when it's probably the canon most Dead Dove do Not Eat kind of content canon has given us. I don't hate it because it's Dead Dove, that's actually what's holding it together for me, what I hate about it is how integral to the plot it is, how True Love it's treated, how sweet and tragic and twisted by fate it's treated.
It's not! Any of those!! It's a 400 year old man falling in love with a 13 year old girl and yes she's 20 Years Old when he actually realizes what he feels is love but she's still!! Physically!!! Thirteen!!! That's the Point Of The Curse!!! And then!!!!! He impregnates her!!!! AFTER HE THINKS SHE DIES!!!! HELL-FUCKIN-O????
I LOVE Zeref, and I really like Mavis too, I love The Curse Of Contradiction inflicting them both, I love the twisted "love" Zeref feels for Mavis, I love his desperation to find something to love to cling to project on to to save him to fix him to make him feel human again, I love Mavis' bleeding heart, I love Mavis' desire to save Zeref to fix Zeref to make him whole because she's so ful lof love for the world around her and she can see he's suffering and need someone anyone to help him
I think they're story is wonderfully dark. I think Zeref's obsession with her is something I'd very normally adore reading about, but the way it's treated in canon and fanon as a wholesome romance lovers torn apart by fate Romeo and Juilet Bella and Edward bullshit really ruins the whole thing.
Zeref/Mavis is really fucked up and I think we should treat it as such. Not in a boo hate the artist hate the shippers way but in a fun acknowledgment of Dead Dove content way.
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makerscockandballs · 11 months
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having beef w a professor and being ready to fight with him real bad, but then getting a super good grade in his seminar feels like im a bloodhound who just got a treat by someone it was growling at. where do i put all this fighting spirit now
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bookwyrminspiration · 2 years
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For your answer on number 6, I can think of lots of animals that could be/would've been taken in by the elves
1. Kākāpō, there's only 104 of them in the entirety of new zealand
2. White Heron, only 100-104 of them
3. Moa, extinct
4. Huia, extinct
5. Ha'ast Eagle
5. Maui's Dolphin (that's the actual name), only 55 of them
6. Greater short tailed bat. The exact population is unknown but they're listed as endangered
I'm mostly thinking about the Moa and Ha'ast eagle, though, as they are very extinct, and I lowkey think they'd fit into the world.
The Moa was about 3 meters (Roughly 9 ft tall). They were similar to Emu in stature, but fatter and with thicker legs. Their feathers were similar to a kiwi's feathers.
The Ha'ast eagle had a wingspan of 3 meters (Roughly 9 ft) and often fought and killed Emus. From what I can tell, they looked like standard eagles aside from the size
Tuatara might be included in the sanctuary, just because they're endangered and also are legitimate dinosaurs. Like, they are the last species of a reptile that thrived in the triassic period. They aren't lizards. They have a third eye. They're absolutely epic and I love them with my whole heart. Also they take about 35 years to fully mature, and live to 60 years on average but can live up to around a century.
-Heathen
(for context, this is in response to an ask I answered a while ago talking about how more human animals fit into the elven world)
I agree with you! In fact, it's technically canon that these animals would be looked after by the elves. No animals have ever gone extinct (to their knowledge, but as humans are aware of these they would be too) under their care and they look after those that in danger of doing so, which would include all of these! I'm sure there are innumerable other species throughout different counties all around the world that would be protected by the elves.
When answering that ask game I was thinking more along the terms of dogs and horses because those were the examples given. Really well known, widespread, non-magical animals that are associated with typical human life. So that's where my "they don't fit" answer came from. For endangered species that changes because it's explicitly stated that the elves work to prevent extinction.
They definitely would be caring for all these creatures, and they're probably chilling out in the sanctuary right now. it's one of those "it's not directly mentioned but is entirely supported by canon" things! Shannon will likely never say anything about the Moa or the Ha'ast eagle, but since no species has gone extinct they'd have to be cared for!
That's a long way of saying I agree with you, but I agree with you!
Also for fun, to those seeing this ask under the cut are pictures of most of the animals Heathen is talking about! The only one I didn't include was the White Heron, which is because google is telling me the White Heron isn't actually in danger. The white-bellied heron is, but not the white heron, and to avoid confusion I'm just omitting it
but otherwise here are a lot of animal pics!
Kākāpō
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Moa, extinct
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Huia, extinct
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Ha'ast Eagle
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Maui's Dolphin
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Greater Short Tailed Bat
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Tuatara
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yoohyeon · 1 year
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If my parents learned how to apologize, 90% of the fight we have wouldn’t happen….
#but seriously my mom broke down crying over something hurtful my dad said#cause she kept bringing it up like she wanted a reason to fight or break down#wich she always do and he says he apologize when it happen my mom says no#and I believe my mom cause my dad never apologize or does it like ‘’arg I’m sorry 🙄’’#just to get rid of us mostly and not thinking it#and my dad is the type to say something really heartful if he’s mad#my mom sounded really mad but like she brought it back 4 times like ‘’you don’t know what he said to me’’#no i don’t but i can’t imagine and I knew she wasn’t not bringing it up to make light of it she just wanted to sound like a victim#cause I was telling her to calm down about something#i was telling her it was not worth getting work over and to not be mean cause it would just go against her#and she got at me thinking I was insulting her I wasn’t I was telling her the other person may get mad and to be better than them#cause they are in the wrong not my mom but yeah she took it like she wanted to#she’s really mad about her job lately and I think she needed a reason to break down cause that’s what not something she would break down for#now my dad went to their room watching tv cause I don’t think he dare ask for the one in the living room#and she’s making supper and she’s mad he went to the room 😭#you don’t want help cause you’re mad so he’s just making himself busy 😭#i think I heard her say ‘’he better eat cause I’m not making dinner ever again’’ cause my dad sometimes dosen’t what she make if he’s mad#but that’s not the case ??? SHE’s mad if he was mad he would have close the door which he didn’t 🥹#😭*#I’m tired I’m barely happy lately and this is making it worst#I was telling myself yesterday that I was to happy about something and it was weird and something bad would probably happen well 🤷‍♀️#I Hope she’s gonna be okay soon cause I’ve waited since midnight last night to tell something really awesome that happen#but I can’t bring myself to get excited about something right now I just stopped crying#alex.txt
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casiavium · 1 year
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ahhhh
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veone · 2 years
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I can’t handle an different opinion, coming from the person who people are critical or have a different perspective on a topic (because shit don’t only effect you) and can’t let people have that thought and express it without injecting well I as a [identity] see it this way in a tone thats argumentative in a space where if you meet the energy of said person a mod will tell you to stop arguing and possible blocked but nah not fucking corspetrait. The person who started the shit had multiple black people leave a server.
#this is about dollie still I went through the imagine in that neo cities lol cow thread to see if I could find the imagines and screenshots#on their and I can’t which is good#oh wait corspetrait#my bad#minus being trans I don’t have an issue dollie being trans and respect their pronouns it ain’t nothing hard 🤷🏾‍♀️#that my issue main issue with corspe and why the discord was uncomfortable corpse could speak how every they wanted dismissing anything that#that wasn’t just gossip truth in their mind and when met with a differing opinions they’d meet you with an unnecessary amount of intense#energy all while implying that if you disagree with them after a long history lesson that out an ist constantly#you couldn’t have a discussion in corpse was involved or if they popped in and involved themselves because everything black and white in#their book#veone rants#I’m not putting it to rest I don’t care#i never actually sat down and explain why I pissed and uncomfortable fully because I was waiting for yoonie to response to me#she did and is still going over stuff which if fine but I have a single other post to post about corpse trait and I’m done for the day#I’m not gonna shut up because corspe is flipping out and got harassed online I’m sorry they did but their shitty and made me uncomfortable#in a space that so damn critical of everyone but themselves#i know I’m acting a way I don’t care. if I said some shit that wrong I’ll apologize but I don’t think assuming someone is white#is disgusting and horrible#call me white I don’t care
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x-birdsong-x · 2 years
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@lockandkeyhyena said it first. Halloween Ends is.. something.
Spoilers in tags
#Repeat: I uh. I don't have a problem with Allyson. Never really have. Sorry if that's obvious#Okay first things first#My first thought was ''this relationship feels like it's going in a You Are My Sunshine direction''#And my guess was Corey would try killing Laurie after Allyson went to him saying she and Laurie had an argument over them wanting to leave#Corey and Allyson's relationship in itself uhh#The way it was done gives me vibes that if this was years ago they'd have edits to bring me to life#Now.. this characterization of Allyson#It doesn't feel like entirely... Allyson?#Like I get it trauma and stuff#and her having a side like this to her was pretty clear in HKills#and I get like. Corey's influence probably playing a part too#And I mean she did lose Cameron very suddenly after only just accepting his. uh. apologies. for his bullshit in H2018#but she's never... specifically really held anything against Laurie I don't feel like??#Correct me if I'm wrong I haven't watched the last two in a while but Allyson had more strain with Karen than she ever has Laurie#And it just feels ooc to me for her to say some of the things she did#I don't really have words to explain my thoughts on Corey particularly.. he's just. yeah k#Michael being sidelined in. a strange way. :/#I wasn't a fan of him being sidelined like that. Laurie got sidelined again too which is also :/#but when it comes to Laurie's sidelining#I feel like... Allyson had H2018. Karen had quite a bit in HKills. Laurie should've had HEnds#And she. didn't until what like the last ten minutes??#And I don't mean that as a dig at Allyson at all. if anything I just mean.#Corey should've been introduced in H2018 for this to have felt more smoothed in. because he takes like. 80% of. everything here#Even just small moments to introduce him or something#idk it's uh. just. it's definitely something#Idk I'm kinda scrambled right now sorry if this makes no sense#H2018 continues to be my favorite out of this timeline#This is still my favorite Halloween timeline so far though. compared to all the others
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