#i came back to uni today | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

frodo-baggins · 1 year

Text

i hate that i’m like two different people. when i’m at home w my mom and dad and dogs and feel supported and valued i’m overall pretty well and happy and can decently manage both my bpd and uni work. but when i’m back at uni living all alone it’s so bad i don’t even feel comfortable writing it down :/

#i came back to uni today #it was the last fucking thing i wanted to do but it's the start of term #and honestly i'm scared about where my brain is at #i'd call my mom but if i do that she'll worry so much #janet from the good place voice *kill me kill me kill me*#rose.txt

15 notes · View notes

architectural-sims · 1 year

Text

Henford Hall -December, 18:39PM

#sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 build #so im kinda back again #this year has been crazy #i move to Paris in september 2022 to study there two semesters #then i came back to spain and move to a new city #well is not really new since its my hometown but i hadn't live there since 2015 and I missed it so much #and between work uni and RL things I didn't have much time to play sims #so here I am again but you know how inconsisten is this blog so dosen't expect regular posts lol #probably i will not have time to play in the future but who cares #now about sims #i've been trying to make some trees DR with new meshes but they refuse to show the correct textures in autumn winter and spring #I suspect it has to be something related to vertex paint or any information attached to the leaves mesh that i'm not getting in s4s #i'll be posting that later to see if someone can give some advice #also had a problem with a building deco for Hendford wich I converted from Cities Skylines #i'm really frustrated with s4s and me lately #well i think its enough for today #come back for more ted talks

83 notes · View notes

kyurochurro · 1 year

Text

MARTEY WE GOTTA GET BACK (tm) TO THE (C) FUTURE (TM) (C)

#churro art #my art #illustration #digital art #fanart #illustrations #back to the future #marty mcfly #HIIII drew this at uni rn cus I gotta wait to get picked up #so I’ve been in lobbies n cafeterias jus sketching good ol marteyyy #ITS ABOUT TIME I DREW HIM SOBS THIS IS ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVE MOVIES #I’ll just say. in the past 5 years of me attempting to draw Marty #his hair was always the hardest thing for me to get right BHUVEDHJSDBHJS #BUT IM smarter now so it came out rlly good I think! I used to struggle cus I only knew how to draw Anime Bangs and side swept hair LOL #and he’s perhaps I have had a long ass crush on 80s Michael j fox but shhh BESUDES THE POINT.#anywaysssss I took such a long ass break from. drawings actually found out how to draw noses LOLLLL #I rlly like how he looks here heheheh I had so much fun drawing this idk I’m inspired today!!!

75 notes · View notes

tiddiesoutwhenthetisout · 24 days

Text

not me curling my laptop charger wire the way you curl band equipment cords HAHAHA god i miss it

#i really said “okay big performance in the city square let's make this work” and i did but absolute fuckery of the manager just made me...#and she also used to complain about being an opening act-- like come on that's a nationally-renowned band and we're not there yet 😭#we used to fight a lot though so ack i really should have taken that as a red flag #but i was 14 and stupid 🤷‍♂️#being solo way better uM i shouldn't say this yet but i got a commission today audhauagah i don't even have a portfolio #fuck guys i'm so so so nervous from big changes in life because uM god i just came from actual hell with various things working to make me #kms #but uH we're uH not too keen on that anymore atm and uH it's probably going to all fuck up after i share that i have good news in life #but yk what #let's keep challenging god #i know he hates me #but we will not be defeated we will strangle him by the tie #AHHHH help me i want to get into music again pls pls pls pls pls #anyway back to my old band manager #she was known for being a shitwad in the scene anyw but i was young and stupid as i sais #and i defended her and rationalized her behavior because “we're friends right”#i'm starting to get why my mom is wary of people i get to know #i'm tbh a fucking idiot i would never admit that elsewhere (nah i do) uM my brain is bouncing off the walls #i took a bargain with 7pm coffee and look where it got me #i was also getting up there in my 5 days of uni absences agsgshags #DOES ANYONE ACTUALLY READ THESE I KINDA HOPE NOW NO ONE DOES #IM KINDA UHHH MY CHILD THERAPIST SAID UNCONVENTIONAL #I THINK SHE MEANT FUCKING CRAZY #sorry #oh yeah i walked tf out the band after that big performance set up just for us because i couldn't keep working with that kind of environment #other bands started flocking to recruit or proxy after i was let go by my famously fucked-up ex-manager LOL #but um i have issues so i'm not among them and i think they get the message tbh #appears and disappears #that is actually my brand

7 notes · View notes

izzy-b-hands · 3 months

Text

Just submitted a new patient request to Anchor Health. Cross your fingers for me, so I can get set up w/a doc I can stick with who can handle my T and PCP stuff and maybe even mental health stuff? (their website let me mark all three as things I wanted them to provide care for at least)

and the poor local PP can get back to trying to help others without me taking up any more of their scarce resources and staff

#text post #tbh they might say no #i do fall under the qualifying thing of I came from a state that's not safe for trans folks anymore #but I did note on my form that I've been here abt a year since they needed an address and I didn't want the CT address to be confusing #my concern is bc i've been in the state a year already that will disqualify me #told them too that I've been working with pp but need to find full time care for these things and would like to switch to them #they take medicaid plus offer rides to the clinics and i think telehealth too?#so for whatever can't be done via telehealth I could get a ride to the nearest clinic and back again #which frees me from having to try and budget for lyfts or for poor Housemate to have to work aer schedule around me needing rides #which reminds me i neeeeed to get my bloodwork done #idk if i can manage it today bc the doc messaging thing already has my brain even Louder than before (but it deeply needed doing)#but this week if the uni finally shoots me my latest paycheck I think i'll just take a lyft and either go to a blood draw clinic or call pp #and ask to have them do it and apologise for it taking so long to get it done #bc I can tell they're judging me for it and like. they're not wrong to #i really do want to get it done it's just been hard to coordinate around other stuff and yeah. blood draws usually suck for me so also #it's hard to make myself go do it even when something important to me depends upon it #im rambling too much again time to dip back to survey sites and maybe researching dentists for the fall for me and Housemate

7 notes · View notes

pochapal · 6 months

Text

went to the hospital again and the doctors said they basically have no clue what's wrong with me. my health is an unsolvable mystery now and forever.

#:)#tumor test came back 50/50 inconclusive yet again. they're trying for an autoimmune disease but also there's no actual signs of that #i really think it's looking like my body just Did That actually #'a witch attacked my body with magic' is probably more valid a theory than any at this point #annoying part is this means i STILL don't know if i can agree to go back to uni yet or not #just in case today's blood tests show something weird that leads to surgery with a long recovery time #because i'm stuck being dictated to by a bunch of short notice appointments and i can't plan anything around it #someone save me..........................

18 notes · View notes

yohankang · 10 months

Text

shit went down at work today and there's a chance they'll fire me 🙃

#my boss will talk to the ceo tomorrow and it's entirely up to him.......#multiple people at work saw me crying and i was so ashamed i wanted to cry even more lol #i'm just so bad at this job and i hate it but it's so hard to find a job when you dropped out of uni twice #and they pay well and i truly love some of the people there #like my boss expects me to do better (if i won't get fired) and she wants me to propose some improvements #but like. the problem is me. the workload is too much for me and there's no magic way to solve it #and the worst part is i'm so emotionally unstable i can't even talk about it without crying #i'm crying even now lol #and i know if i start crying tomorrow it will only annoy him #and i'm not doing it to seem pitiful i just can't control it at all #godd i'm so tired #i wish i could just cry it out today and then have a serious conversation tomorrow but it doesn't work like that #i had plans today but i start crying every 10 minutes so i just came back home and opened a beer #maybe it will put me to sleep idk #at this point i'm also annoyed with myself #i will let you know how it goes tomorrow 🙃#k.txt #dl #btw please don't try to comfort me because it only makes me cry harder lol i'm just writing to let it all out

12 notes · View notes

gingerbreadmonsters · 9 months

Text

sleepy and v fed up w this blasted reading for japanese history class tomorrow. give me 45 minutes to finish this article and i will be back to talk about kissing or something

#for the blissfully uninitiated: hello i am history student #which is a fantastic thing to be but also a significant pain in the [REDACTED] when it wants to be #the professor for this class is almost unbearably terrible which does not exactly make me WANT to do this reading #but the exam is in like 2 weeks lol #so yk. i have the hardest life of anyone on earth etc etc #god forbid i actually do the degree i asked to do lmao #also i up early this morning to drag myself to the immigration bureau for a visa amendment #which meant a decidedly unpleasant hour on the metro during rush hour :(#its bc im applying for this english TA position in spring #its literally only for 5 days and tbh i wouldn't mind doing it for free bc i am sad like that and enjoy teaching for fun #but it IS paid - and paid work is Not Allowed under my student visa #so even though i literally have not even GOT the job (applications close today) i still had to go and apply for permission to work #watch as they dont hire me lol #oh i should mention - for those who may not know i am in tokyo this year #i am british and i usually go to uni in the uk but im on a study abroad year this year #i came to japan in sept of 2023 so ive been here for coming up on 5 months and i will be going back home in august on 2024 #its weird to think that im approaching the halfway point #tbh i should really just make this a separate post but whatever #coming to japan has been very strange but a good thing i think

9 notes · View notes

lunacchi · 5 days

Text

I hope we meet again someday, my friend...

#🖼️┋art #🐭┋personal #I'll miss you so much Joy Sandwich ;; _ ;;#I wish I didn't agree to let her leave #I immediately regretted my choice and started crying...#I should have waited until I was truly comfortable with her leaving before letting her go #letting her leave is so much worse than having her get married too like #at least when they get married they happily ride off into the sunset with their partner #instead she packed a little bag and walked out the door #but then came back while crying for a few seconds before leaving again for good ;; _ ;;#that broke me even more tbh #YES I'M DEPRESSED OVER MY TAMAGOTCHI LEAVING #I promise I'll keep hunting for another female Tamagotchi with a 'naughty' nature #one day I'll find you again Joy Sandwich #and this time I won't let you go ;; _ ;;#*breaks down crying for the 6th time today*#tamagotchi #tamagotchi uni #mimitchi

2 notes · View notes

mossflower · 3 months

Text

looking back thru my sketchbook like damn... i actually cooked with some of these. didn't realise that at the time tho </3 also. girl you are sooooooo obsessed w jade harley

#there's a chunk of like 10 pages which is just her in the same position w the same expression in the same style. what da hell #only cut short when i magically learnt to draw side profiles. and then i came back from uni and stopped drawing for like a month #which in hindsight. may be why i struggled so much today actually #i still don't know what happened w the side profile thing. i still can't do front facing properly which i've been working on since january!#and also i mean cooked is defo generous. some of them are actually good!! most are comfortably middling #but almost none are as bad as i thought when i'd just drawn them. quite a nice feeling actually <3 #morganposting

4 notes · View notes

raksh-writes · 1 year

Text

Im a pent-up ball of pure stress and restlessness (like chest-tight and heart pounding type of stress) and I have 0 idea what to do with myself, because anytime I want to try and go distract myself with Something my anxiety spikes and my brain goes "!!! NO!!! DANGER!!! LOOK OUT FOR DANGER!!!" so I guess I'll just spend the day pacing the house and refreshing the same 3 pages on repeat, huh...

#personal #Raksh posts #tomorrow I'll know if I got back into uni #so that's the culprit #but I also have no way of assuaging it so fuck me I guess 😩#and depending on if I do or dont get in #its either gonna be a full on depressed crying or a crazy busy next week #plus so much has been happening all around #I finished my internship last friday #we found out our doggo is sick and we're going with her to a vet cardiologist next friday #my younger cousin Ive always been quite close with came to visit with her boyfriend and announced yesterday they got engaged #my bro today said he's planning to marry next year #Im trying not to let my crippling loneliness take me over #it's kinda a lot when all put together 🙈#I thought maybe I could finish typing up what I have of my recent vegaspete AU #its a super indulgent time travel a/b/o shifterd thingy with outsider pov - Nops in this first part #and so I could maybe have something to finally post sometime soon and motivate me to write some more #but I can't focus on that #Ive also thought of maybe gaming a bit #Id actually like to check out Cyberpunk with this new 2.0 update #but again it feels like anytime I try to occupy myself with something my brain goes into alarm mode ughhh #this stressing business is so useless and unproductive why isnt there a switch to it I could just flip and turn it off??#ughhhhh anyway #Im just venting dont mind me #hoped putting it down in some way shape or form would help but will it work? prob not 😂😪#vent #rant

7 notes · View notes

killa-trav · 8 months

Text

it's just so funny to me that there is multiple videos of taylor saying she's so proud of travis n she loves him n videos of him saying he loves her n appreciates her coming to the games yet people will still say it's fake

#like it's so clear they are both comfortable w each other's fame #and are still being private (travis not saying too much on nh or #even today on pat mcafee)#n it's just so weird #that ppl still have issues w them #like when travis hugged ed he literally had his arm around taylor #he didn't want to let go #n even when he was w jason #as soon as taylor slipped away cos she knew this was #a moment for them two travis subconsciously looked back for her #anddd not to mention that when he was going to the locker room travis came over n told her he's going #which he didn't have to do #sorry for the rant i'm just very ?????#n also cos i'm away from mumsie cos i'm at uni #i can't talk to her about this cos this is what we do #talk about pop culture (she knows wayyy more than me)

2 notes · View notes

witchwhaat · 2 years

Text

made pasta and it's delicious, life is good