#i cannot think of a place in the text

[toastedcinnamonflakes]

I think it is a little far-fetched to say that Pyotr Verkhovensky's feelings are supposed to be his "redeeming quality"... Like, from the perspective of a 21st-century reader, sure, but there is no real textual evidence to support that. The text leaves it open, and given that even in his last scene where he says goodbye to Erkel, he's portrayed more negative (not caring about Erkel's feelings, being flippant, going to play cards with a nobleman) I doubt that he's supposed to have any redeeming qualities...

Like, I get that it's a comforting thought to think that gay love in a 19th century text is supposed to be positive, but there is nothing in the text that really supports that thought.

[malinaa]

if i think about the hunger games in peeta's perspective i WILL start sobbing

[lapdogchase]

i do sort of wish there was less of a “if u dont transition right now no matter what the circumstances youre in youre a coward and wasting ur life” sentiment on here but thats none of my business

[imtheiliad]

i made a short post here referring to my own experiences and wanted to expand on it, you can reblog both of these posts btw. I am only writing this all down because the way some of you have spoken about chris and his decision very much bothers me. trust when i tell you i do not want to completely lay out my trauma on the internet for all of you to read, but if it makes one of you understand why this works, why it is important, then it will have been worth it to me.

When I was 12 my father was diagnosed with frontal temporal dementia. the adults in my family and his doctors decided that it was best for him to be moved to a a full time care facility. The next year, and after hearing, seeing, and understanding my father's condition and where it would go, I, at thirteen years old, made the decision to say goodbye to him, that I did not want to hear about what levels of deterioration he had reached. I wanted to remember him as he was when he remembered me, and all the adventures and fun things we did together.

I made that decision. I made it because it was easier than watching him deteriorate, forget who his sister, his brother, my brother, my mother, and me. And I knew that at twelve and thirteen. It was never a decision I ever thought I would have to make, it wasn't a decision I should've had to make.

Now, the important part, over the next few years my decision was questioned and ignored by the adults in my life and even my brother, some of the questioning I can understand now that I am older, but it should have never reached the level it did. My aunt and uncle would openly discuss his condition over dinner when he came to visit, and I would run away to the restaurant bathroom and cry my eyes out until my mom came to get me. I was forced into visiting him in his care home, which ended with it causing far more harm than good. Only then was my decision somewhat respected, it took me being retraumatized for it to be taken seriously.

Despite all of that, I do not regret that decision.

I can't know how I would be different if none of that happened. But at this point in my live, eleven years and some therapy later, I am fairly certain I would be less traumatized, carry less resentment and anger, if maybe my mom had spoken up at those dinners and made arrangements to get updates without me next to her trying to enjoy my pizza. Had I not had to see my own father forget my name and then have some sort of mini medical emergency. Had my brother heard me in a way only a sibling could.

So, yes, Christopher at thirteen made a indefinite and truly most likely temporary decision to remove himself from an environment where he doesn't fully trust his sole and primary caregiver. He knows his dad loves him, Eddie made that so clear. And it could really be 5 minutes, 5 days, 5 weeks, and so on and so forth until Christopher is ready to come home. And him knowing that Eddie respected his decision and loves him no matter what is what is going to make that time shorter. If he had walked out with his father begging him to stay, to forgive him before he was ready, the chances of him coming back would in my opinion would be far slimmer than the circumstances under which he did leave.

with that i leave you this, "yeah people go away. and it's sad. and it hurts. but you know, not everyone goes away forever. sometimes they come back. and as much as we miss them, that's how happy we are to see them again."

[yellllowstar]

slowly I'm recovering the beauty of discovery

(creature by half•alive)

(textless + timelapse below cut)

[sesamestreep]

i always try to make @firstelevens a little present in honor of our friendship anniversary, which was yesterday, so here's a few more book cover designs for her amazing sambucky fics that she's been so kind as to write for us all (and one that she co-wrote with me!) with a special appearance by @sambambucky with the pull quote of the century❣️

the bells stand still and hollow [22K words, 5/10 chapters, in progress] - Fantasy AU using the Dungeons & Dragons spells and classes as its guide to imagine Bucky suffering under a terrible curse and Steve, Natasha, and Sam (and animal familiar Redwing!) as the party of adventurers intent on helping him break it. ⚔️🐦‍🔥 summer came like cinnamon, so sweet [44K words, 5 chapters, complete, part 2 of a series] - part of the illustrious bakeoff AU, this is a prequel fic all about the romantic shenanigans that happened (or almost happened) over the course of Steve and Peggy's wedding weekend. told entirely in tweets, instagram captions, and text messages, of course! 💒💐

[vaguely-concerned]

I.... wrote so many words of the wigmaker job reread analysis today. what the actual fuck

[b-blushes]

thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3

[lobautumny]

I'm so goddamn tired of seeing people make fun of adults wearing diapers, especially when those people are otherwise anti-ableism, kink-positive, etc.

Beyond the surface-level (and far less important) issue that kinkshaming is stupid and you shouldn't do it, there's also the matter that, y'know, a lot of disabled people need them. And not just, like, ghoulish 80+ year old politicians and racist grandpas. Incontinence is just a thing that some people need to deal with, and most of them are perfectly fine people. On top of that, a lot of trans people (especially trans women because spironolactone, the most-prescribed T-blocker, is a diuretic) use them to avoid having to worry about needing to use public bathrooms, which may be extremely unsafe for them, especially in places like Florida. (As an aside, I know that there's also a contingent of trans women who have the secondary reason of wearing diapers to combat gender dysphoria, because tucking can be very uncomfortable and if you're wearing a diaper, there's a lot less of a notable bulge even if you're not tucking.) There's also a lot of people, such as fursuiters going to cons, who use diapers for simple convenience. And also, like, why should they not just be considered a normal underwear option that people can use for any reason they want? How are we not at that point yet?

But yeah, making fun of/insulting adults who wear diapers is, in fact, being mean to a lot of disabled and trans people, and it's really shitty that doing so is so normalized, even outside of the context of kinkshaming. Like, a lot of the time, it's just socially-acceptable ableist remarks. I grow so weary of it all.

Normalize adult diapers, even if for no other reason than the fact that disabled people should never be made to feel ashamed over their disability.

[rinmemesuoka]

got tired of waiting for nexus moderators to approve the dialogue half of that butch march mod and just opened the dialogue json in notepad++ to edit it myself.

[pxrplepolkadots]

😶✨

[rottengurlz]

I was complaining about possibly having to get a new job because I wasn’t getting any hours but I’m back to working 7 days straight this week

[windandwater]

do not fucking get me started on this place's inability to apply "separate the art from the artist" appropriately

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

apparently i am SO aroace that i cannot figure out if two of my own damn characters should be in a (romantic, sexual) relationship

[lobpoints]

some boring lc thoughts in dm with friend ig

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[wickedhawtwexler]

in theory my bisexuality is split pretty evenly re: preference for men vs. women. maybe 55/45 in favor of women. and then i actually interact with men.