#i changed stuff about her since i last posted abt her.

[roadcircuses]

trollsona again

[askuemki]

So I have no idea if I’ll keep this post up, but…

A little rant abt re8?? (And cod.. kinda) maybe venting (just a mess :,)

Disclaimer, take my opinions with a grain of salt I just wanna ramble lmao

Also spoilers, maybe (update, definitely)

So I’ve been having fun dipping my toes into Donna Beneviento (god her last name is hard to spell) content. After watching the gameplays and to at least have a basic understanding for the game, I find myself really drawn to her, maybe more than Alcina tbh

By no means i’m a diehard fan or anything, recently it’s been hard to find a new fandom to get attached towards. As much as I adore cod, there isnt really much to get attached too… like sure, task 141 is a fun group and the there is some GREAT art about the ships- but I only got attached because of Valeria, I won’t deny it at all. I’m a diehard lesbian, but there isn’t really much cannon content of her?? It’s really damn disappointing sometimes, man… same with Laswell. I appreciate all of the fanartists out there though, I adore all of the content here, fanfics or fan art. With Farah, she’s a diffrent story.. personally I never really got attached to her, but as a character she’s pretty neat. Her story sort of brings to light the horrors happening today which is a bit of a benefit…?? But ever since I found out things about both Valeria’s and Farah’s actors I’ve been a little off about things here and there. I don’t think I’ll stop posting Valeria content at all, it just might be a little less offen to indulge in different things.

Some personal things have been happening to make me feel really disconnected from like.. fucking everything for some reason?? Like I’m drifting away from fandoms, I’m drifting away from people and I’m like alone again.. I’m lost in a damn dumpster fire. AI art doesn’t help with this at all.. like why do I draw?? I’ve been drawing since I was in kindergarten like I never really thought of the specifics of perusing art, more or so just that I want to. Like hey, I wanna make a game or movie series, and something in me doesn’t realize I need to put in the effort to learn shit with just ends up in me doing nothing but self pitting on something I can change and ugh.. wish I can slap myself to get out of it.

So I think I’ve been kind of finding myself relating to Donna. Not in her extreme way, more or so just her aspect of being isolated, and just being known primarily for one thing. Like.. our side of art? Damn. Shit. I think I’m worth nothing.. and with Donna we don’t really know much about her besides her being a cursed Dollmaker, and the bare bones of her past. And we both barely fucking speak man… both hide our faces too !! maybe I kin this woman or something I don’t know

But as I was looking through her tumblr tag, I saw a rant about how headcannons and stuff has been stripping away the interesting stuff about the re8 villains… and with the things I’ve seen so far?? I can kinda agree, honestly.

Don’t get me wrong, if it’s not too.. insane? (I know those boundaries are hard to define at times, but maybe REALLY immoral shit for our “normal” world) and people aren’t forcing these headcannons into other people? I don’t mind headcannons. You do you, boo!

But the fan content I’ve seen, people reduce Donna and Alcina (I’m surprised it was pronounced as AlCHIna and not AlSIna, but side tangent over) from the potential they really have. Yeah it’s definitely nice to see Donna more, especially in those intimate moments.. but sometimes I feel like people just depict her as some shy, easily gullible, girl, and not really the mentally deprived woman she is. Like I’d love to see ideas of the different dolls Donna could create, or unique imagery of her mental state outside of having porcelain skin. What about the kinds of plants she takes care of? Or the dolls she makes? I’d love to see more of it, whether she has favorites, or if it’s a situation where she has doll replicas of her deceased family. Man, I really wanna see Donna do more creepy shit, basically.

With Alcina however? She’s kind of reduced to that (I’m going to cringe at these words so terribly, god help me) “hot vampire mommy”.. I’ll take fault for not looking into her content as much, I’m sure there’s great content out there !! (I’m not sure if anyone would do this but.. feel free to send me any fic recommendations or art) With what I want to see for her? I’ve heard from the rant post as a man-hating woman she had primarily female statues in her castle, it would be fun to see what else she has cause of this worldview, as well as more whitty remarks from her; I really enjoy her throwback with Heisenberg. Just in general.. her being a comical villain.

Okay so, the reason why I made this post in the first place before all of this shit threw up from my brain. Belladonna. At first, this ship really interested me, I like the character dynamics, the art was neat. But then something came up in my mind.. (as well as another rant post on the ship..) isn’t the Dimitrescu bloodline related with Donna? Both are failed experiments from Mother Miranda, and technically adopted by her. Though from what I know, Donna is the only one officially adopted. So would that be family..? I’ve seen a few places where Alcina called Donna her sister, and it makes me feel really off.

And I’ve seen in a few fanarts, Donna technically older than the Dimitrescu sisters posed next to them like another sibling??

I would like to endorse the ship, but just the morality of everything is off centered for me. I rather not support weird incest…

So please if people could maybe clarify for me whether it would technically be okay for support this ship.. I’d appreciate it. If it isn’t okay, I have plans on making a fan character anyways, or I can take current characters and make a resident evil au or something, and ship them when Donna. (I have a character that honestly looks like a mix of Alcina and Bela, but by no means she’s relates to the franchise, lmao)

By no means I’m experienced in resident evil lore or the fandom, this is just coming from a newer fan of the series, and what I’ve seen so far.

If you read all of this.. thank you?? I apologize if I sound ridiculous here, this is like the only place I can rant abt things without being brushed off for other shit

Good night now!!! I need to stop pushing my sleep boundaries ugh

[mikodrawnnarratives]

I finished the pretty gorls ON TIME!

2022 Version

2021 Version

(I'm also going to reblog them right after this is posted)

I'm gonna ramble under the cut about the designs n stuff but you can scroll past that to get to the timelapse if u want.

@jotg-miraculousrewriteau is where you'll see any updates about this story/au/rewrite I have going on if you get interested. It'll take some time before I get around to writing it but I'll be trying to draw more. I'll list some reasons for why I haven't gotten much out recently under the cut. Not abandoning the au tho!

This one was a STRUGGLE and part of it was because I still liked last year's and because my interest in ml has taken a back burner with other interests BARGING IN this year.

Not to say that I don't want to work on my rewrite anymore, but I'm probably gonna do some more rewatching so I can get fully back into it again. I can't really plop down what I've come up with for the rewrite and be satisfied anyway, so I'm stuck until I get the thing written and drawn.

THAT ASIDE, I changed up their posing again and included updates to the character design. I don't know if what I've drawn Marinette in here will stick for her redesign as far as outfits are concerned, but I don't really like the previous outfit I gave her anymore so I needed to work with something new.

Overall I like how this turned out, even if I'm a bit unsure abt other areas.

Specifics: Once again, I liked coloring and drawing Marinette more which shouldn't be a surprise since I have more to work with in her design. I made the foolish mistake of not including her freckles in the past, so now I'm amending for that. She's sort of matching her bf now.

I included some lore bits abt Tikki and Marinette's complicated relationship here that I haven't talked abt before. Marinette is not doing anything to Tikki intentionally, but I have a plot line in the story I have planned that involves how the kwamis went from deities to kwamis. Got caged in the miraculous. And the consequences that follow.

INcluding Marinette and Tikki gaining a strained relationship for the majority of the story.

But that's all I'll say on that for now.

You might notice Marinette's skintone has changed a bit from other redesigns. What happened was, when I was first coming up with ideas for the rewrite, I was going off of critisysms I saw a lot and noting them down. One, was that Mari didn't look like she was biracial and her skin tone should reflect that. Now. I was young and figured "Oh okay! So. Lets look up what average chinese skintones are!" ...I found the racist color swatches that got pretty close to yellow and I ignorantly changed her skin tone to that.

So! Now her skin tone is closer to canon's and I've decided anything about her heritage isn't something I'll tackle in my rewrite/au since I'm not qualified. I still have some things I've changed so she looks similar to both parents, but no more of that skin tone.

Lol I didn't get the timelapse started until the basic sketches were completed

[bywons]

the way you keep copying yeonie is pathetic and so disrespectful, just because she's too nice to you to say anything doesn't mean you get a free pass to copy her. there's no way you coincidentally changed your theme when she did and somehow it's this crazy similar.

yeah last night my dash was FLOODED by yeonies anon answers,, asking and talking with her abt this issue. well actually i too commented on one of her posts asking if they actually copied her word to word, i got the idea i might be the problem again when she didn't answer me back. and now it's all clear.

i do get the fact the one needs to work so hard on a particular theme and such,, it's true. but i don't really see any similarity between our themes anymore, last time when i answered the same kinda ask i could still see how it was justified but this? no i can't rlly find any similar part. ever since i've followed yeonie i haven't seen her doing any dark feminine typa theme whereas my blog has almost always had have themes related to that, so i don't really understand where you're coming from. i have seen a few more blogs like that with the similar type of thing,, i don't know why am i being attacked like this but oh well.

i've been so so nervous and tensed abt this since i'm still new to this platform and dunno how to deal with these but here we go.

second thing, if yeonie is reading this then i would like to say that the way you kept on shading me in your answers instead of actually confronting me really really hurt me. if IM the problem come to ME, not answer anons. i really didn't expect that especially after when u said last time that my theme was all fine and it looked nothing like yours, which still holds to it's truth upto now, i really don't see ANY SIMILARITY in our themes but if u do then please SAY IT TO ME girl not shade on me like that it's so saddening to me.

lastly, i never copied yeonie and i'll not repeat that again. also the way u say "coincidentally changed ur theme with hers" bro she never confronted me and i never said that how can u make such a statement like that about me? pls watch what you're saying am i not supposed to change theme? my last one was old so i changed it and ppl have a problem again smh,, I too searched the pics and lyrics and stuff and did my theme ALL BY MYSELF.

i don't get how we should argue e/o like this on anons and shading when it can be just over in a conservation no big deal. i hope u understand my view.

i'll not be entertaining any more asks like this.

[conceptofjoy]

I'm not particularly against tfem Dirk even if it's not a reading I subscribe to, but tbh there is evidence in homestuck even if small of tmasc Dirk. In hussies forum posts iirc, they explain that the chumhandle acronyms are basically chromosomal. For example GG= xx and GT= xy. (It doesn't count for the trolls. the in universe explanation that they're aliens and they have different chromosomes, and the out of universe explaination that it would be impossible to implement since there was 6 "girl" trolls and only CC and AA would be available)

Roxy and Dirk break this, because Roxy's handle is TG (XY) and Dirk's handle is TT (XX). Admittedly this isn't huge evidence and you're totally free to disregard it. I prefer using it as evidence for Tfem Roxy because a lot of the tfem evidence stacks in her favour (her revealed name is described with "the last two chromosomal letters" aka xy) I feel like it's also evidence for June in a way, as she changes her handle out of the GCAT code... (Lost the point I was making started thinking about transfems) Man Roxy is t4t as hell she just attracts tgirls like moths to flame...

roxy's hellllaaaaa t girl. she has points even beyond the chumhandle fact like her ties to the fuchsia girls :] yeah that would be a bump in t girl dirk reasoning but i think there's enough thematic and general character stuffs that point towards dirk needing to take a hard look at himself and let go of all the self imposed rigid gender roles and bro worship tgat he does. like he could be a trans guy and still do that introspection as well but the topic's abt t girl dirk.

his idolization of roxy could be seen as part of a repressed desire to be her. Damn my best friend is trans? That's cool, wish i could be a girl too WHO SAID THAT. his conflicting views on his bro can stem from his dissatisfaction of bro assigning him male at birthmeteor. he latched on to this man who's given him the means to live so he copies eeeeverything for a semblance of closeness with him. its easy when everything left for him's part of his legacy- including himself. he needs to be him because he owes it to him AND his friends to be the guy who knows what he's doing. dude's afraid of calling himself gay, and especially if he's a girl, NO way is he actually admitting that to himself.

he either doubles down on it post canon or one someone else notices that's what he's doing and is like okaaaay lets get you out of ur head now. ult dirk.... :/ well his deal certainly isnt the latter.

[thewickerking]

hey. what?

well. For context everyone im assuming this ask is referring to this post and my tags below

im assuming because of the. The.

Many. Prev tags on it lmao but anyways here's more context. ill try to keep specific elements vague cause i don't want to doxx my grandma and by extension myself. But yeah let's go

my grandma (maternal) ran away from home in her teens (not sure the exact year/age but 70s ish) to join the circus and worked there for an amount of time doing ticket sales and miscellaneous jobs that aren't performance based

she met a guy also working there and they dated. this guy joined a satanic cult after joining the circus (? I think. Mightve been the other way around) and performed ritualistic sacrifice within the cult/with his murder victims. he was not in charge of the cult but was an active member and serial killer across around 4 states, maybe more (evidence was found for about 4 states iirc)

anyways he got caught for evidence of multiple murders but confessed to upwards of 20 (they couldn't find evidence of this so its unclear if he was exaggerating or if there simply wasn't enough irrefutable evidence) and went to prison while my grandma was pregnant and she was also arrested as an accomplice and had her kid in prison. She was 18 at the time. Idk how long she spent in prison but it was long enough to have her son taken away

her son (first of her four children, was my oldest uncle on my moms side) has adopted parents who changed his first and last name and didn't let him know about his biological parents (and were also extremely abusive) and so my mother and her siblings and her mom did unsuccessful research to find him over the years and he found our family a few years before he turned 30 (my moms ten years younger than him btw) and we've been in contact since and he was my personal favorite of my moms siblings

Oh also the serial killer got sentenced to life without parole and is currently on death row. My uncle died last year from unrelated circumstance (I posted about it some last year if anyone remembers) and my mom adopted 2 of 3 of his kids (3rd was a legal adult already) and then they got kidnapped and their kidnappers won the custody battle against my mom so. Yeah

Oh also worth noting my mom is the youngest of the four. my grandma had four kids with different men so im not related to the serial killer but he is in my family tree? Anyways yeah different fathers. My grandma remembers the serial killer and my moms father (my abuelito ♡ love him) but doesn't remember the fathers of the middle children (my aunt and uncle). So they're my moms half siblings technically and nobody knows if the middle children have other half siblings on their dads' sides 🤷‍♂️ but my mom has a half sister on her dad's side! She's 2 years younger than me bc my abuelito got married to his ex wife later in life but they're not together anymore (?) Not sure. They broke up idk if they legally divorced but they live in different countries and don't talk to each other. So.

Id love to meet her someday! But I don't know if thats feasible. She lives in Mexico and only speaks spanish so it would certainly be difficult. But I want to.... she almost immigrated to the United States like. 6 years ago?? My mom paid for documents to be legally translated and stuff but stuff happened and it didn't go through.she also tried to kill her mom once. But she's doing better. That's all a long story. We have a picture of her in our house from when she was little!

Ok thats very tangent-y. I have a lot of family stories. But also if anyone was curious this post below was also about my maternal grandmother

shes a white woman who likes to weaponise having "friends" in nepal when people are mean to her. She's a character. if ppl are curious abt any of this i will answer btw i love talking abt my family they're deranged

[hailey-333s-blog]

hello all i have been attempting to shift to house of the dragon and wanted to talk abt it 😜😜

-first point of my ted talk: me 😜 : My name in this dr is Zera (i don’t have a last name but will be a future targaryen 😍😍) I’m going to be raised by a group of dragons who can communicate with me. If anyone has read fourth wing it’s kinda gonna be like their dragon bonds and stuff, and my dragon which is like my mentor and like the king of the dragons they call him the zeir but that’s also his name. He’s bigger than vhagar but him and vhagar had a relationship so that’s complicated. basically i’ve been learning about the targaryens my entire life, bc Zeir’s mind is connected to mine and he can speak to all of the other dragons. He basically tells me what to do when I meet rhaenrya and all of them bc let’s be frl idk how politics and stuff work. but i also want to be included. I don’t get there until like right before seasmoke chooses addam. Unlike common knowledge there were many more dragons in a large mountain a ways away from valyria. I was apparently hatched from an egg, as was the first targaryen that hatched when dragons hatched. In this reality i help save the dragons. And also i create another line to ride dragons. I have blue hair and light purple eyes (I felt like i needed special hair since i need to be the main character duh) Anyway In my dr i am my age and idk how old jacaerys is when i get there but im aging him to be like a year and a half older anyway i also have fire powers bc again im the main character and im technically a dragon (???) idk what i am. I was also born on the same day as a dragon Sephirax, She can change sizes at will but it exerts her and has to stay the size for a certain amount of time she only did it after she grew to like a normal size dragon. (idk if i can say “full size” bc she can get wayyy bigger) and im bonded with her as well we can communicate

second topic: lore 🤗: So The reason I come kinda late in the war is bc the dragons had to talk about it and they were deciding what to do. I didn’t realize they chose to aid rhaenyra until Zeir landed in Valyria. I act as a middle ground between the humans and the dragons. I can only tell rhaenyra how many dragons there are willing to fight for her, so i have to keep some secrets. In this reality Rhaenyra wins the war and everything goes the way it should be and rhaenyra is queen! Rhaenyra turns into kinda a mom to me bc she learns i didn’t really have parents. she’s very kind. I end up also marrying jacaerys.

i think this post really encapsulates my self-absorbedness bc why did i write a whole essay abt me and a paragraph abt the lore 😭😭😭

[coff-in]

hello hello!! ヽ(^○^)ノcould i possibly req smut of ashley x the fem reader? maybe reader is trying to get ready for a job but ashley wants to spend more time with her and reader, of course, can't resist her best friend-girlfriend-confusing relationship!! (＞∀＜)

- 🕊

notes from coff-in: welcome back, 🕊 anon! i'm so happy to see you again, i hope you're doing well! this is written in second person just like my last answered request. i noticed that it's a little easier for me to write like this... idk why ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ i also couldn't do my bullet points or proper format writing for this either, so i did my little ramblefic writing instead. apologies about that 🕊, my dear :/ i hope you enjoy this nonetheless!! (edit: i'm sorry this took long, i feel so bad whenever i don't answer an ask the day it comes to me... i tried my best though!!)

[fem] reader-insert, [afab] reader-insert, NSFW

hm... i wonder when this would take place. probably before the quarantine happened, yeah? they've graduated from high school a couple of months ago and [reader] got a simple job working as a general manager somewhere-- like a store or something. maybe an office job? something that requires [reader] to change into professional/work friendly attire. her and ashley found a cheap apartment to move into together (ashley constantly complained about her parents and, um, "suggested" to [reader] that they find a place to move out to)

its normal for ashley to stay at home. i think she could get a job but chooses not to, you know? [reader] isn't mind being the breadwinner, and i think gives ashley money to get her own stuff if she wants to. i saw a post somewhere (i think i reblogged it, abt how andrew is hornier than ashley) that ashley usually shows her love via words of affirmation and acts of service so she does most of the cleaning and laundry around the house n such.

two bedroom apartments are expensive though right? and andrew has a college dorm, so he doesn't need a room in their new apartment. ashley and [reader] could just share a room, like she and andy did. in fact, they could even share a bed! (they compromised on sharing a room since sharing a bed is... very intimate in [reader]'s head). this doesn't stop ashley from coming over to [reader]'s bed some nights because "me and andy did it when we were younger, so it's fine if we do it! we're friends right? it's alright."

and of course they also share a closet and get changed in the same space because they're both girls. whatever [reader] has is nothing that ashley hasn't seen before... and she's certainly not judging either :) they even wear each other's clothes sometimes since they're such best friends! (if [reader] has friends outside of ashley (or maybe coworkers, i guess) they always wonder whether she and ashley are dating or not because they're so close to each other)

this ultimately leads to... sex? i mean, is it really sex if it's with your best friend who you may or may not be attracted to? this is [reader] coping btw. sex doesn't happen often, i think. ashley initiated it first to keep [reader] at home. [reader] doesn't need to go to work today, one break wouldn't hurt her, right? ashley hugs [reader] while she's changing her shirt, coaxing her back to bed with her voice

she can just call in sick right? it's no big deal.

this is both of their first times, so it's very awkward at first. ashley takes the reins and acts as the domme in the situation. kissing [reader] and cupping her cheeks, smiling at her and UUUGH I LOVE HER!! idk if they'd have a strap or a dildo (maybe [reader] would have a dildo now that i think about it). ashley slowly stripping her down, reassuring her that she doesn't need to hide anything "you're so pretty! why would you need to hide away? i'm not going to judge you, and honestly it's nothing new to me ;)"

all the teasing and kissing has made it so that [reader] is all slick, making it so easy for ashley to slip her fingers inside of her. [reader] has to tell ashley to do one at a time slowly since as to not hurt her. while she fingers [reader], ashley whispers teases in her hair "see? isn't this so much better than going to work today? way better getting fingerbanged by your best friend that sitting in that fucking office all day, huh? you like it, too, i can tell. you're so loud and whiny. i bet nothing and no one else has made you feel this good before, huh? and nothing ever will."

ashley brings [reader]'s hands to her boobs while they scissor each other, telling [reader] to squeeze them and rub her nipples. omg... omg omg omg ashley would definitely force [reader] to keep eye contact with her whenever they have sex. she tells [reader] to keep her eyes on her or else she'll stop thrusting the dildo in and out of her. UUUGGGHH!!! LOVE HER LOVE HER!!!

let's go lesbians

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coff-in

[yokakaiju]

doro modern(?) au

SPOILER WARNING + LONG POST BELOW CUT

i am so tired while writing this, so apologies if some of it doesnt make sense bleh.. i will happily answer any and all questions to the best of my ability tho!!

okay so ngl... it's really not that different from canon i think? i really don't know much abt my own damn au atm cause i mostly think of it during work and for some reason i literally NEVER write anything down?? idk why???

ALSO TO PREFACE!!! DESPITE HAVING READ DORO IN FULL ABT 4 TIMES NOW AND AM GOING ON A FULL YEAR OF HYPERFIXATION HERE SOON I HAVENT BRUSHED UP ON THE LAST 60-70 CHAPTERS IN A MINUTE SO SORRY IF I MAKE A STUPID MISTAKE!!!

this shit is all 100% subject to change later btw:

• genuinely just abt everything that took place in doro takes place in the past during this au, but not in the same way or with the same characters. ik some stuff 100% wouldnt make sense because of this, BUT BLEHH ILL FIGURE IT OUT LATERR!!! literally jist like.. remove everything involving aikawa and risu and replace it with violent social unrest or smth idk yet...

• ne way, this takes place 100 years after the kaiman holey fight, but in this au it wasnt our kaiman

• the sorcerer and human world have been permanately sealed off from each other since hole fight

• humans at this point dont necessarily believe sorcerers even exist anymore due to this, but the older generations (the few people who live to be like 80-100+) are still somewhat afraid of them and think that some may still be in hole (they are)

• abt hole and this is gonna need a lot of reworking, but like.. idk. basically some humans worship hole as a modern god, taking everything that happrned as absolute truth and churches sprung up around holey, worshiping large statues made of his bones and stuff. the statues do still work as they did in base doro, but they arent as widespread anymore? theyre way more popular with older people and thr newly religous folk, but most people see them as some sort of novelty at this point and they arent widely owned outside of churches and hospitals anymore

• the refuse lake also is back kinda? but its mostly a normal lake now, but the water is still extremely tar like in some parts so its still gated off

• in the socerer world, all information regarding humans and the hole have been banned from being spoken about or learned by the general public. personal doors are also prohibited to be used/learned to be used and anyone who CAN use them that uses them unsanctioned will face capitol punishment or smth. really only the devils and en family know abt hole and shit (theres more people of course, but these are details idk yet)

• n e way, in modern era nikaido and aikawa (sigh we will get to him last...) work together at the hungry bug still

• nikaidos story is literally almost exactly the same. she is still being pseudo hunted by the en family because they got word of a time traveling socerer like howveer long ago and are trying to hunt her down in secret (they dont know its her directly tho)

• kasukabe/haze is still just chillin tho. he is nearly unchanged, still wrote books on socerers (however they were written more historically for a while, then eventually he met haru and they became research/science based) snd took ai as an appretenice, but his work outside of human medicine is thought of as crackpot conspiricy talk or entirely fictional. him and haru are stil married/divorced, haru is also atill a devil and he still has a skin door to the sorcerer world

• ive had some ideas abt shin, mostly that his mom was killed alongside his dad after someone tipped off the  militia that there was somehow still sorcerers in the hole. they investigated their home for a bit and caught her using a door, so they raided the home and slaughted his family in front of him. from there shins story doesnt change much at all rn tbh

• the en family is still highly regarded and very opressive in the socerer world. they dont destroy schools anymore because duh no black powder, but they (with some devil influenece as well) heavily regulate what is taught. resistence against the en family, namely trying to learn about doors and hole, are cruely punished to show they arent fucking around, despite them still having acess to the hole and knowing (somewhat) the true events of what lead to them being separated

• i havent put much thought into the fate of the cross eyes in this au yet, but ive had some ideas? they arent the cross eyes (yet) but, they (our commanders + natsuki and risu) were low ranking memebers who are part of a resistance against the en family that attempts to fight their opression/censorship of history and some higher ups (not the commanders rn) are even trying to figure out how to make a door to the hole or smth

• this is abt all i have rn (im also super tired writing this ugh), so sigh... aikawa time i suppose... this part is gonna be long and confusing and 99% of everything ive talked abt so far was stemed from this, so heres a barely tldr tldr becase im probably making a seperate post when im not so tired. okay TLDR: ai was always disallusioned with being a human becauee his grandpa told him about sorcerers and magic and shit, so he fully bought into hazes entire catalouge of books taking thrm as gospel. eventually he meets haze and works under him, getting close enough to see some of his studies on sorcerer corpses. due to the corpses having smoke/black powder and were killed with hatred for their fellow sorcerers (they were killed by the en family), it starts to slowly affect ais young brain and the seed of a new hole have been planted blah blah, anyway he starts having horrific nightmares from the pov of hole from over a century ago and starts hearing shit cause hes already really mentally unwell. pretyu much from here it goes thr same as base doro for rn. he begs haze to help him become a sorcerer, he has all his plans snd shit tk make it work with the "fresh corpses" (either murders or bodies provided by haru) haze has access to, but haze refuses. ai just gets worse as time goes on, but him being a little emo freak he never actually vocalizes it, but as per cannon he decided to just force hazes hand. one night haze and ai were illegally hunting for potential relics of hole or the events surrounding that around the older parts of the refuse lake whrn ai ended up throwing himself into the tar. however instead of throwing himself in the refuse lake cause he needs a corpse he was compelled by hallucinations or smth to throw himself in. haze saves him and ends up doing the surgery om him blah blah literally its not that different from here, ai still "dies" and is buried he was also made of the 9(?) corpses so hes till got all his heads ans shit. when he rises this time tho instead of going to the sorcerer world he goes to haze again immediatly and begs him not to tell anyone. from here on haze hides him ot smth since he looks so different now no ones gonna recognize him or whatevs

this aint a fuckin tldr whoops. anyway uh.. ill make a seperate post abt aikawa/kai/EVERYONE ELSE IN THERE later cause i fell asleep twice writing that

please ask questions if you have any!! i will work on this more as time goes on i imagine and ill try to start actually writing ny ideas down now

[my-castles-crumbling]

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii Omg i havee SOOO much to tell and ask you its both sad and fun stuff, First off i wanna tell you that you are such an amazing person like seriously omggg how do u even exist like you must not be allowed away from heaven. Btw random: i heard u mention abt u in university so hows that going and whats ur majorr???? :)) And now the very very bad stuff: i messed up. not very uncommon you see, but very bad. my cousin whom i rllyyy love shes amazing shes like the andromeda to my sirius. nd my dad's side is very cruel to my mom before i ws born and they also shamed her for having a kid (my sis) that has problems (they refuse to tell me what it is but she has 2 problems idk the first one she has since birth and the second is that she had um.. men parts but when she was around 4/5 we founf out shes.. female? im a minor i rlly dont undersrand how ths works so..yeah. shes 8 now btw this year shes gonna be 9 y/o) basically very cruel people very very bad and so my cousin, whos from my dad's side, she came for like a sleepover thingy and my father commented on my mom's side and how they arent close to me even though they are my basucaly everything.. and in reply, i said how i like them and they are good and i said "my mums side is great... better than father side atlst" and she said "i can hear u yk" and i said that shes a excpetiion but when she wnt home she really felt upset and she had an exam but she stll didnt come to my house (my house is closer to her school so she stays here in exam time so it takes less tme in travelling) so my father cmpletly blamed me and now im so upset idek what to do i dont wanna apologize to her cz she doesnt know that i know that she said shes upset. my father confronted me about it and he got to jknow from my cousins mom so there was no direct contact but basically yeah thats it. i need help in what i should do to fix things again :( but this is the reason that simply talking wouldnt work and its rlly hard :( btw random: how do i start my microfic thing like do i just upoad a micfic or do i post smgthn else first if ykwim? another thing:

yeah idk but i think m bisexual and i have a bestfriend shes straight and supports lgbtq+ community but i rlly like her and cz were besties i dont wnanna ruin anything at all and im cool with how we r rn but at the same time i want more ykwim? and.. were like the touchy-feely kinda bestfriends so we hold hands n stuff as a joke nd people ship us and its so asdxdfgkhljhxx idek if i rlly like her as a frnd or i like her as in like like her.. but i also have a crush on a boy but it only lasts for 2 secs but when i see him again i start to thibk i like him again but my other rlly gud friend likes him so is it that i like hm and ignore my feelings js cs my frnd liks him or do i just like him as frnds,, idek were close we play games togheter n stuff but thtas about it..

also have i mentioned how much of an angel you are??? i literally scream and jump off a cliff casually when u reply to my texts <333 ilysm ur such a great person <333

xoxo, sweet potato <33

hi!

Aww you're so sweet! I'm not in university anymore, at least not in the traditional sense: I'm working on my master's degree. It's going.....not terrible lol. I'm majoring in ESL Education (English as a Second Language).

For your first question: I think this is a really good example of how talking through other people isn't the best solution. Do you have any way of getting in contact with your cousin directly? Because things are definitely going to be changed and exaggerated if you are talking through your aunt and dad. Once you talk to her, be truthful. Be sincere and tell her how important she is to you. I'm betting she'll come around.

For microfics: Nope, just go for it! You don't have to do anything beforehand, just start! I can't wait to see what you write!

For the last part: First, are you sure you friend is straight? If she definitely is, then yeah, it might not be worth it to say anything? But I mean, you could always try bringing it up casually. Like "Oh, I think you're really pretty!" and see what happens?

With the guy- I know it sounds cliche, but if your friend likes him, stay away. I've been there. I've seen friendships fall apart. It's not worth it, especially since you're not even sure of your feelings. I know I probably sound like a parent, here, but there was a full-on FEUD I experienced in eighth grade because two people were fighting over a guy and....yeah.

Thank you so much for the compliments, you're so nice!! <3 I hope you have a great day!

[3luejam]

Tell us about Aurora's samurai clan!

(My OC Dinah the Spaniel would be practically drooling right now, LOL. She's an archaeologist, and she LOVES this stuff.)

huh..a ask about something very ignored??? I LOVE YOU MAN but this is very long I hope ur ok with that lmao-

uhh- so basically the clan aka the imperial Otomo existed when Echidnas were still present however not from the very beginning of the existence of mobius, like when knuckles wasn't the last of them. they held a lot of political power, history had multiple cadet braches and changed leaders often since they believe the more honorable, powerful, more emotionless the leader is the greater the clan will grow which was still like that for decades until a dragon mobian that's Aurora's great great great grandfather decided to change the rules once he became a leader, he thought it wouldn't be fair for anyone to never show any emotion and only rely on just power with barely any strategy that comes from knowledge he became one because of he's blood related and he had the gifts of intelligence and power especially his wife becoming the leader when he passed away and she literally upgraded on greatness leading to the long bloodline extending the legacy and managing to get alliance to the four clan houses.

at some point there was a huge earthquake that ended up separating the whole island into three and many lost items fell into the water lost in time.

there's pretty much more to this abt Aurora's clan however this post might be a mess since her clan has a bunch of history and info sooooo- sorrey if my explanation of Aurora's clan is bad lol

u can ask questions! ( PLSSS BRO 😭😭😭😭 )

[breakthrough88]

You brought this upon yourself man, be prepared for my sea of questions.

Given the Sitcom Au Age up AU(that is a mouthful) , and everything Abt it how do the twins react to (idk if your up to date on what little I have for that AU but imma ask anyway) Parker and Micah's Engagement, along with Bonnies multiple arrests for harboring runaways?

An extension of the last question, How would they(all of them, not just the twins) react to Parker's pregnancy?

Because they are both AuADHD how do they do in school? Like give the General, grades, friends, stuff they're good at, ECT,ECT.

Now, Sabrina and Dalia have a three year old named Jasper (I cannot remember if I posted him or not I have the memory of a goldfish. But for the record he's a very chaotic troublemaker who likes Nudibranchs and Sharks) how would the twins react to him? Would they like him, why or why not?

Bonnie would babysit the two in her Pawn shop, have they broken anything? And what do they do when they're stuck with their cousin in said Pawn shop?

Referring to question 1, would they like Micah? Do they like him, and do they like the fact he has a talent for music?

What are their all time favorite songs and movie?

How do they dress? Like, so they dress like Ramsey? Like an off brand Adam Sandler, ect. Ect.

Fav food? (Idk if you said this already I have poor memory)

Lastly, describe their relationship with their parents. Do they like one more than the other? Do they find certain things they do annoying? ECT. ECT.

What have I done?

I'll admit when I first started writing about the stuff down in my previous post I wasn't thinking about it in terms of what I had changed within the sitcom AU, just the boys ten years in the future. I think a shorter name could be "Timeskip Sitcom AU"

The twins are excited about the engagement, they have listened to Parker ramble on about Micah, so they know she truly loves him. However when they were first told that they did eerily stare at Micah for several seconds without explanation. In regards to Bonnie, it's complicated. Because they have Percy for a mom the twins know "Crime is Bad". But since Ramsey is their dad they also know that sometimes bending the rules is necessary. Some people with autism (like myself) tend to be very black-and-white concerning what is right and wrong. The twins are like this but because they are young they aren't quite sure what to think.

I think the whole family would be happy about it. I think some of Percy's traditionalism would have her be slightly upset Parker got pregnant before getting married but for the most part, she's excited. The twins would immediately ask Parker how she got pregnant leading to Ramsey pulling them away because he doesn't want to explain what sex is to his ten-year-olds. Later on Booker and Parker would compete by pitching baby names to Parker.

Both boys do well in school and take more after Percy regarding the pursuit of academia so they are motivated to do well. However, Patrick will get lost in thought, and that unfortunately tends to happen right before the teacher calls on him. Booker on the other hand absently mindedly makes popping noises with his mouth which can be disruptive at times. In regards to socialization, Patrick tries harder but most of his interests don't match his current generation which makes it harder. He still likes cartoons and stuff but his favorites are the ones before his time, so he has a bit of a harder time fitting in and it makes him sad. Booker has an easier time socializing but he doesn't have as strong a need. If someone needs book recommendations he'll rattle on for several minutes. The boys have the same friend group. While they don't need to be together constantly they see little purpose in being friends with someone who doesn't like the other twin. Patrick likes building stuff and is pretty good at it, but his favorite thing to build is marble tracks. Patrick's math skills are somewhat higher than the average ten-year-old but he isn't aware of this. He also has a pretty good track record with those challenges to guess how many things there are in a container. He's also good at staring contests. Booker likes reading and while he doesn't write, he's pretty good at analyzing what he has read. Despite inheriting his father's hair color, he did not inherit his art skills. Booker also has worse handwriting than his brother but has a better memory. Neither twin is good at sports but Booker has remarkable hand-eye coordination.

Patrick and Booker have had to prevent Jasper from eating marbles and wax perspectively. They like him as long as he isn't actively trying to destroy their stuff. However, they are afraid of accidentally making him cry because they don't want Sabrina to "curse them forever".

The twins have probably dropped small fragile objects before and probably cried while apologizing for breaking them. Unlike most fictional twins (like Zach and Cody) the twins are pretty well-behaved and will sit behind the counter quietly. But if Bonnie steps away they will immediately try to man the register so they can "do business like grown-ups" Results are mixed.

The twins do like Micah and are impressed by his talent for music and while they do like it, it isn't their all-time favorite music. Micah is good at babysitting them and that's part of why I feel like Micah is excited for the baby. However, after the engagement announcement, there have been other times when the twins will stare at Micah with no explanation.

Here's the thing. All of our media doesn't exist in the Epithet Erased Universe. But I suppose I can say what they would like if it did. Patrick's favorite movie would be The Lego Movie and his favorite music is classical, particularly piano, and would like the Piano Guys. Booker's favorite movie would be Tangled. In most instances, he prefers the sound of women singing over guys. Despite this his favorite band if they existed in the EE universe would be the Oh Hellos.

Ramsey may like the way he dresses but Bonnie has threatened him with violence if he made the twins dress like him. The twins prefer long-sleeved shirts and pants. Hoodies are also very common. (Listen I don't know much about fashion) They don't wear matching clothes but the stuff they wear looks good when they stand next to each other.

I have indeed mentioned their favorite food before! But just for you I'll add their favorite dessert too! Patrick likes buttered sourdough toast! Percy accidentally bought sourdough bread one time instead of the usual wheat bread and Patrick loved it so it became common. Patrick's favorite dessert is lemon meringue pie. Booker's favorite food is popcorn and he prefers it with an excessive amount of butter and salt. His favorite dessert is frosted sugar cookies.

Both twins love their parents equally however from an outsider's perspective it would look like they love Percy more because they idolize her work and sense of justice. It's just a matter of knowing each parent specializes in different things. Patrick will ask his mom for architectural advice when he makes his marble tracks. However, when it comes to help with talking to people he tends to ask Ramsey for help. Booker likes going to the library with Percy but he also takes drawing lessons from Ramsey. Both kids know if they want to eat something sweet they have better luck asking Ramsey but they are more likely to cling to Percy when they get scared. Both twins get grossed out when Ramsey does tricks with his gold eye and they just look at him when he tells dad jokes most of the time. They don't think they are bad, but they don't laugh either. Percy sometimes has issues when critiquing her children when they ask for her help and she can be a little blunt. Of course, she doesn't mean it and she is trying to be better about it.

[cuteniarose]

tell us abt meifeng here too plz!

(anon just found ur art blog post lol)

Oh sure!! I was just thinking about her earlier today lmao

So I'm not gonna repeat most of the stuff I've already said about her on my art blog, anyone's who's curious can just go here and read it for themselves, but I will give a brief rundown:

Meifeng – born in about 120-121 AG, give or take a couple of years. She/her, cis, not quite sure about her sexuality yet. A waterbender who specialises in healing. She's Ming-Hua's older cousin, the daughter of Nuying's (Ming-Hua's mom) older half brother, who was often in charge of babysitting her because Nuying's mental state wasn't the most stable after her husband left. Years later, Meifeng was the one who tried to stop Ming-Hua from running away, who remained at Nuying's side as she died (the exact circumstances of which I described in my art post and have actually cried over. It's really a gutpunch and a half), and who taught Suiren the basics of waterbending. That last point makes her an incredibly emotionally conflicting character, at least to me, because she's yet another adult in Suiren and Midori's life who failed them :/

Now, onto some more fun and hopefully less depressing stuff:

I imagine Meifeng and Ming-Hua's relationship to be somewhat similar to some aspects of Nani and Lilo's from Lilo and Stitch, mostly in the sense of Ming-Hua being an uncontrollable little chaos gremlin who Meifeng cannot turn away from for one second without her running off somewhere ("UGH, you're such a pain!!" "So why don't you sell me and buy a rabbit instead?!" "At least a rabbit would behave better than you!" "Great, then you'll be happy cause it'd be smarter than me too!!" "And QUIETER!!!" "You'll like it cause it's STINKY like you!!!!". Also, the gravity scene has them vibes too). She succeeded in stopping multiple of Ming-Hua's attempts to go too far outside their village but the second Ming-Hua learned to climb trees it was all over, it's impossible to catch up to her when she's in full on Tarzan mode. Meifeng's probably the only one of Ming-Hua's relatives to have ever met Ghazan because she's bound to have seen him while going to Gaoling to drag Ming-Hua's ass back home. But to her credit she never told anyone where exactly Ming-Hua was always running off to because she knew she'd get reprimanded for it as well. Eventually if she knew Ming-Hua was going to meet up with Ghazan, she'd let her go and would just spend the day off doing her own things away from the tribe so if anyone asked, she could say Ming-Hua was with her. #bestwingwoman

As Ming-Hua grew older their relationship started changing because it became clear Ming-Hua's thirst for freedom wasn't just her being a little brat or a bout of childish rebellion. Meifeng may have aided her in many things, but she was strictly against her running away for good. Their conversations became rather focused on things like "I know auntie can be... a little much sometimes, but she's your mother, she just wants the best for you". This, of course, pissed Ming-Hua off to no end and their relationship soured as she stopped confiding in Meifeng. Perhaps Meifeng eventually told Nuying about Ghazan and Gaoling and everything else in hopes that maybe at least her own mother would be able to talk some sense into her. That backfired majorly, resulting in a huge fight between Ming-Hua and Nuying. Luckily (or not, depending on who you ask), Ghazan ran away himself not long after so Ming-Hua wasn't placed on house arrest or watched like a hawk or anything since everyone thought her main influence was gone, but she still refused to say a single word to Meifeng for YEARS right up until she caught her running away in the middle of the night at age 15

Afterwards, Meifeng spent a lot of time comforting her aunt and just in general keeping her company whenever she could. And like I said, she was the one with Nuying when she passed, but I don't really want to linger on that bc it'll make me sad again so... regarding her relationship with Suiren. Meifeng knew her when she was very little but post-RL-imprisonment didn't see her again until she was 11. I know that in UtOS specifically Kat and I make a very big point out of Suiren not wanting to learn waterbending from anybody but her mama, but in that verse she's a traumatised seven year old child who, if she can't get her mama back, just wants everyone to leave her alone. In SotRL by the time she was 11 she had already accepted that her life wasn't going to change on its own, no one was coming to save them, nobody cared enough about them to do so. If she wanted to get herself and Midori away from Haya, she had to take matters into her own hands, and that meant learning waterbending. But it was forbidden in Haya's house and her skills atrophied over the years, so she couldn't do it alone. She remembered that her mother has family in the Swamp so maybe someone there could help her. It wasn't Mama, sure, but the swamp bending style is probably similar enough to Ming-Hua's unique one that it's easier to stomach than, say, learning northern style from Ikiaq. Meifeng took up teaching her and was rather impressed at how quickly she picked everything up, and maybe even shared some of what Ming-Hua had told her about her own unique style, how she relies on her spine and shoulders and all that, to help Suiren mimic it at least somewhat. But as nice and helpful as she was, she still ultimately refused to take Suiren and Midori in, even after being told that Haya is physically abusive, and Suiren never quite let go of that hurt and though the lessons continued because she had no other choice, she became even more closed off than she already was. Meifeng regrets that to this day but what she is regret if her choices meant Suiren and Midori needlessly suffered for another 12 years when it could have been different???

So this is basically the extent of what I have for now, I know all of it is based around Meifeng's relationships with other people rather than who she is on her own, but that's because her role in the story is a supporting one so I never really gave her much thought as an individual. Hope this still manages to satisfy your curiosity, though :)

[technovillain]

i love jameela to death so here’s some questions:

-after “fuck giving rich people dangerous technology” does she distance herself from technology entirely or does she keep making personal stuff and/or stuff that’s much harder to exploit? i think she could make some fucking awesome animal monitoring tech (like keeping track of individuals of endangered species, citizen volunteer data collection on bird populations and stuff)

-what’s her flavors of queer and/or neurodivergent

-does she ever end up doing missions or is she not super duper into the agent stuff

-is her dad a rich asshole or just oblivious and ignorant or a mix of the two

-how do you think she’d get along with some of the junior agents, especially norma, gisu, and sam

HI THIS ASK IS ANCIENT BUT I'VE BEEN HOLDING ONTO IT THINKING ABT IT MEANING TO ANSWER IT SO HERE WE GO. ALSO THANK U SOOO MUCH FOR ALL THE INSIGHTFUL QUESTIONS I LOVE THIS.

After that, she pretty much makes a vow to herself to never make a psychic invention again!!!! (....) and then time passes and she goes "Well just one little thing for myself." (....) "Okay just another for just myself." (.....) "Okay it's fine if I'm only making things for myself, even if it's a lot of things. I need technology." What you said there is Exactly the kind of stuff she'd be making too! While she takes a very loud approach to her activism, her approach to saving the world by trying to prevent the horrible future she saw is much more under the radar...mostly because she's still using the psychic technology that she built for herself but pretends that she didn't build at all because she said she swore it off! (She is constantly fighting herself in her own head about this lol.)

I haven't fully decided on this! But I would say that she is asexual and has OCD.

She really kind of functionally.... leaves the Psychonauts after a certain point. Like in a "You're always welcome to come back" kind of way. This is something that I still need to do more thinking on because I need to decide how I think the Psychonauts, being a government funded organization, would feel about psychic activism entering the public sphere.... But anyways yeah I see her leaving for an extended period but coming back when there is suddenly a mission that requires her assistance specifically (one involving Gusty and Veranda.)

I'd have to say he's definitely a mix of the two, leaning more towards the second one. I can't remember exactly how much detail I went into on her story and how it might have changed since I last posted about it (bc tumblr's tag search feature is functionally useless rip) BUT Dallas Delmarro is indeed a tech guru so while his concepts were birthed from those "childhood dreamer with a lot of big ideas" mindsets you always see in people like him, he ended up really focused on his company's bottom line. Business school changed this dude. He is still a pretty good dad considering everything. But considering he's a single father and his job pretty much consumes his life it is pretty easy to see why Jameela felt a strong need to get good at inventing things from a young age (cough cough so she would feel more important to him)

I like to picture these characters existing at the Motherlobe a few years after the events of Psychonauts 2, just so I don't have to think too hard about where they're at in regards to the plot of PN2. Just assuming that most of the big things regarding that plot have died down at this point. So all of the interns/junior agents from the game would be a few years older than Jameela when she gets there. I think she would probably like Norma okay from afar, but not really have any desire to become friends with her...because she can see how she gets. I think she would not know anything at all about Sam and be a little put off by her and not able to read her at all. She would totally be jealous of Gisu though. Because I see Gisu in a few years as working alongside Otto. And in Jameela's story, she came to the Motherlobe to work with Otto but something urgent came up regarding developing some sort of technology, and Sasha and him and Gisu were all working together to develop it. So Jameela doesn't really care for Gisu or Sasha just because they're interfering with her track to success.

[cheemken]

Hey Knight how do you feel about Ash and Iris from the anime? At least what you know about them, since I don’t think you’ve ever mentioned watching BW

For me I see them as those friends that are like siblings towards each other, especially because Iris and Ash always teased each other in BW and JN

Although whenever I try look at content about them 70% of what I find is just “Ash hates Iris cause she always called him a kid”…which is stupid cause she’s teasing him like kids do

But one thing I love about them is that they’re both Champions. Ash has something he can relate with towards Iris that he doesn’t with his other friends. They both know what it’s like to hold such a title at a young age

Last thing, but I like to think that whenever they meet up, whether it’s by coincidence, annual champion meetings, or something else, they’ve ALWAYS got to battle each other. Doesn’t matter the situation, it’s like they get the Cain instinct™️ everything they see each other

Your honour pls they are siblings for me chmxxj like ofc since Ash was really supposed to be Alola champ in my hcs, my dynamic for him w Iris is that they're siblings y'know; they always got each other's backs, they're always so supportive of each other, they tease each other but y'know that's normal, and you are so right if they don't battle immediately after they see each other they're gonna fucking combust lmfaooo

Omf okay sorry I wasn't done I accidentally posted this instead of pressing edit cjxkchdj

Anyways yeah even I see posts abt how some peeps are like low-key projecting too bc yeah Iris calls Ash a kid so she's a shit character they say and I'm like?? Mfer they're kids what do you fucking expect that's how kids are hcmdndn and also, I remember seeing a post back then on how the reason Iris is like that in the anime bc people in her school kinda looked down on her and saw how different she was and acted more of a kid than them, which was understandable bc she was a kid during those times so ofc she's gonna act like one

So for her to feel some semblance of control in her life, that yeah she's not just a kid, she calls Ash kid bc she knows the way Ash acts is how she always acted back then which caused people to not like her and your honour I think abt this from time to time it just cjdmbd Iris deserves a hug man

Anyways pls your honour you are so right they're siblings😭😭 like I had this one concept of them back then y'know, that one time Iris accidentally called Diantha mom and she panicked and ran away, and Ash was the only one who knew where she was bc he just knows just where Iris would hide during times like this, and he's there trying to comfort her, also telling her that one time he accidentally called Kukui dad as well and ough,,, ough your honour it's just soft bcmdhdns

Also it would be so funny if these two just,,, attract anything main anime character related things fucking imagine Ash saying he met Giratina once and he was nice and then Iris going that Kyurem is also nice too and they just try to summon Giratina for him to meet Kyurem, Cynthia has never been so stressed in her life lmfaooo homegirl just vibing with the other Champions, sees these dark clouds over Mt. Coronet and just fucking grabs Dia and begs her for her Gardevoir to teleport them there right the fuck NOW

Imagine as the others got there they see Ash and Iris feeding Giratina and Kyurem poffins😭🤣

But y'know this makes me think now how Ash is like in my hcs bc I did change a lot of stuff in my hcs from the actual games/anime/manga, it would be cool to see him as a wandering trainer always out to battle anyone and be stronger to be the master he always dreamt he'd be, maybe less main protag things and such if that makes sense hahah

[antirepurp]

i've been thinking abt the gang's ages as of frontiers and especially sonic and how he kind of feels older in frontiers. i think that's been the general course since like colors or something when we got new VAs and writers but imo it kind of culminates in how he acts in frontiers y'know?

like sure part of it is bc sega removed roger from his limiters but also there's this contrast between how sonic acts now and how he acted especially in the adventure era. like adventure/heroes/shth sonic felt much more sincerely carefree and reckless, like a kid freshly turned 15 who didn't really have a scope of what the world could be like and the magnitude of the kind of stuff he was up against. he had had fantastical adventures in the genesis era sure but i think his approach to them bordered on not taking them as the serious occasions they were bc he was so young at the time, and it was just eggman and his robots. then we moved on to ancient deities and eldritch horrors and the tone is permanently altered.

and there's death now, and it personally affects him. maybe he didn't get to know shadow as deeply as rouge and even eggman, but they had an association forced upon them and they wound up fighting against each other and then together as one. maybe it's subtle but i think it does change sonic at the very end of last story, like some of that carefree attitude died that day. maybe his enthusiasm in heroes and shth is compensating for a part of him that he lost on the ARK.

06 has him experience another loss with elise, even if it could be fixed with time travel, but he had grown to really care about her. im not gonna go into the specifics of their relationship bc i have my own interpretations on it that aren't relevant but like that shit has to hurt, even if just a moment. it hammers in that there ARE stakes and they haven't gone anywhere, and just because one person had a miracle survival it doesn't mean sonic is guaranteed a happy ending. it's not that he loses hope or anything, but i'd imagine there is a voice at the back of his head that remembers it and forces him to keep up an appearance harder than before. and it's exactly what he does for the better half of unleashed. because he's a monster now! and maybe that monster thrives with the weight of the past. dark gaia is all about negative energy, and while it's a necessary part of life it can't be an easy burden to bear on the nightly. would sonic have to fight back those feelings harder than before? i doubt he would feel like he deserves to be that way, when he's supposed to keep his friends safe and save the world, because he's the only one who can.

i can't say i remember enough about satbk to fully take it into count here, but by then i think sonic would've been able to rediscover some of the hope that may have eroded. he would be in a better place post-unleashed, having faced parts of him that he had ignored before, and built himself more into the kind of person he'd like to be; free, maybe a little impulsive, but who ultimately follows their own sense of justice. i don't think he would've ever been considered "lawful good" or anything like that, but maybe he was somewhere close to that when he was younger, subscribing to the idea of a cosmic and righteous good and inherent evil. but that had to change when he learned the world wasn't that simple.

im brushing over colors/gens/lost world/forces here a bit, the first three didn't feel of substance to me and if anything forces was a showcase of keeping up the appearances for the others. but frontiers feels like this culmination of everything so far, and we get to observe sonic in isolation for the first time in a while. most other serious events in the past have had him work together with his friends, but they're only sort of present now, and it makes parts of the curtain drop especially as the game goes on. sonic hides and downplays the corruption because he has to be the carefree and courageous guy he's always been, even if it's been a few years and he's growing up and changing as he does. and he's experienced despair time and time again, and it's hurt, so he forces himself to cling to hope with everything he has now, even when his whole body is overcome by corruption and eating him like a ravenous organic beast. he's grown to care for the people around him much more than he maybe used to, to cherish life as long as it lasts, but it's hard to be the same bright-eyed hero everyone knows you as when you've seen what death looks like. he wants it to go away but it'll always remain, and colors the curtains he puts up so his brother and sister and rival don't have to worry about him.

i keep thinking about the opening lines of sonic adventure and ryan drummond's voice saying goofy 90s flavored lines, and i keep thinking about roger craig smith delivering sonic's lines in frontiers in a tone subtly deeper and different from his previous performances