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catboydan · 8 months

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your tags made me laugh "unfortunately he cannot stop talking". this is so true. he wants so badly for his relationship with Phil to be ambiguous but he makes it so obvious what's going on bc he just never shuts up about it. I think it's funny that Phil said Dan crushes on mysterious bad boys bc that's so clearly what he wants to be. Unfortunately Dan is an open book and Phil is the actual mysterious one

^ tags in question for reference, on this post

omg yeah the fact that he yearns for the mysterious men is so funny like he wants what they have. unfortunately some facts about dan:

he over-explains because he doesn't like what he says to be misconstrued (me too bestie)

he was deeply anxious about his straight facade breaking but--

he doesn't like lying about himself to people because it feels inauthentic, something he values greatly

he doesn't want to have to explain everything but his need to control the narrative overwrote that want, up until recently

he just has a lot to say tbh. bit of a chatterbox. we love it

it's not even just about dnp's relationship either. that's why his videos like BIG and Why I Quit Youtube are so long. if he's diving into something, he has to break down every explanation he gives such that it can't possibly be construed in a way different than how he intends it. communication doesn't work that way tho and that's something he (and I) have both had to learn to accept.

unfortunately you can't be aloof and mysterious and also be authentic and up-front about yourself at the same time

#if only.#i could literally go on about this for hours btw.#this is why i fall more on the dan side of the 'are you more like dan or phil' scale #need to control how people interpret what i say so i overexplain everything #total chatterbox. revealed itself after i started antidepressants #val comes out of hiding #anon #ask

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lazylittledragon · 10 months

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don't you love when you Just stopped feeling guilty about eating the things you like and then one of your parents drops the "i'm concerned about your diet"

#ramble #tw ed #this is because i sometimes eat pasta twice a day btw #which. i didn't think was THAT bad as far as diets go #is that not normal??? is that BAD???#they would've fainted at some of the shit i ate when i was at uni #also i walk my dog for an hour every day #and also i'm 3 months into hrt and i'm HUNGRY give me a break #i just don't see why you would bring it up if it wasn't something that could ACTUALLY fuck up my health long term #uhghghghghghghghhghghg #also. not that it MATTERS. but i have NEVER had diet/food related health issues outside of IBS #maybe be concerned about my brother who works a full time restaurant job and literally doesn't eat #idk why i'm surprised when my mum thinks she has a terrible diet because she eats chocolate sometimes

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boyfridged · 1 year

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thinking about steph & jay parallels.

you've heard it all but i'm thinking about robin jay (half) jokingly saying that his calling is to be a medic. i'm thinking about robin steph's righteous anger blended with the need for being seen, about her drive for vengeance.

i'm thinking about steph's "rebirth" as a volunteer in the medical field aiding in humanitarian relief efforts. i'm thinking about post-res jay's international murder spree as an assassin in training, about his righteous anger blended with the need for being seen, about his drive for vengeance.

#i think it's the medic part that is the most heartbreaking to me #also i'm pretty sure that jay literally died in a center of humanitarian relief efforts since this was sheila's job #much to be said about the colonialist and orientalist image of africa in both cases btw.#stephanie brown #steph.zip #steph.txt #jay.txt #jay.zip #jay & steph #<- another tag i need a quote for! i think about them too much #they went in opposite directions *and* further into them #jay never got to be an actual medic. steph never went on a murder spree #i could go on for hours btw.#steph becoming a vigilante to stop her father who was her enemy.#jay becoming a vigilante influenced by his (new) father (bruce) who was his biggest ally #steph's complicated grief following her pos father's death vs jay's earnest grief after willis' got killed #core texts

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snixx · 4 months

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ok im sorry but i saw ur aro abed post and now i need to come into ur inbox and be absolutely insane about it because oh my god i actually cannot handle this

like coming out of the hunger games fandom and then the byler fandom where the main largely accepted opinion in fandom (including my opinion) was that katniss and and peeta and mike and will were allo and in love w/ eachother and now being in the community fandom like im actually going insane

bcs yeah a lot of ppl think trobed are romantically in love and i think romantic trobed is cute too but OMG like a widely accepted hc among fandom is that aro trobed in a qpr, like SO MANY PPL THINK THIS its actually insane and it makes me so happy and even tho my best friend is more annie coded than troy coded platonic trobed is literally so us abd im losing my mind ok i dont even know what im saying anymore im absolutely losing it

so yeah um oops in short: ARO ABED AND QPR TROBED FUCKING REAL

yes. yes. yesyesyesyesyesyesyes. i love my romantic trobed buT I LOVE QPR TROBED SO MUCH. ARO ABED MY BELOVED

#sorry im answering this so late btw i got sick and slept for 24 hours straight (woke up at 4:30pm to give a math test but went back to sleep #right after)#summer child 🍃#community #happy valentines day btw loml #aromantic #aro stuff #also speaking of will. if that man were aro he would literally be me ok #aro interpretation of will and byler is literally me and my ex best friend.#like best believe if i could spend my whole life playling cringefail LARP games with my best friend i would #i would make her paintings and write her songs every day. but she doesnt care about anyone but her bf soooooooo wtv 😮‍💨#rinkomania fight was something we've literally had WORD. FOR. WORD.#but its too early to go there today LOL anyway

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quaranmine · 1 month

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(Spoilers for the Fourth "Letters from the Outlook") Wait, so if Grian's hands are damaged, then does that mean he cannot go back to his drafting job anymore? What does he do instead when he does eventually regain some movement and dexterity to his hands?

I basically answered this in the chapter notes, which is just that I did not intend for him to have long-term damage that permanently affected his function in a massive way. That's why he has physical therapy and a compression garmet and in the scene he says his doctor is fairly confident it won't be forever. Yes, it will probably affect how fast he can go back to the job (but also his mental health is going to affect that too) and perhaps he'll have to rest his hands more often. But basically it wasn't my intention to keep him from being able to hold a pencil forever, so I don't see why he can't go back to drafting in a while. He just couldn't hold it during that still-fairly-early scene because he hadn't regained a lot of grip strength.

Also his days of drafting are numbered anyway—by the 90s, architects started to use AutoCAD for their work instead of manual drafting :)

#i hashtag believe in the power of physical therapy (and them starting PT immediately as soon as grian was healed enough)#when i had my knee in that brace i could not bend it at all when i got it out and within a month i had normal range of motion thanks to PT #some of this uncertainty about the burns and stuff can go back to the fact that i did not always plan to have grian go through the fire #there are versions of the plot up until me literally sitting down to write the scene that included him successfully running away #so when i finally took the leap and went 'no he HAS to go through the fire for it to 1) satisfy foreshadowing and 2) be realistic'#i then had to very quickly spend several hours researching burns because i hadn't researched it earlier and pivot where needed #so i didnt leave enough 'room' in the story to like. deeply and properly examine potential disability as an effect of the story #so i tried to find the middle ground of like. reasonable and realistic injury that ultimately has a good outcome #quara asks #hc_firewatch_au #like i'm not saying that i dislike the option of potential disability as a long term effect in this story i'm saying that i'd rather #be able to FULLY and properly explore the topic instead of tacking it on at the end? like oh yeah btw #and i just don't plan on doing an extension of the story like that. so. he has 2nd degree burns that will heal and just need PT

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redaynia · 5 months

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Idk how people impulse buy shit i spend all day thinking about it buy it too late in the evening and then can't sleep because I'm insane

#literally lying in bed at 3am rn mind racing bc i bought a coat 6 hours ago like WHY DOES IT MATTER!! GO TO SLEEP!!#but i can't bc i have to think of all the ways this could be a mistake #I've been thinking about this coat for 3 weeks btw. fucking bonkers.

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knifegremliin · 3 months

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sometimes i look at my laptop and i just think. god, imagine how you would be if you were windows 7.

to clarify, i fucking love my laptop (even if he keeps wanting to physically break on me). mik is my baby. he is the best running laptop i have ever owned in my entire life. going on 6 years and still going Strong. but imagine.... imagine if windows 7....

#🔪.text #windows 10 is better than windows 8 #but quite frankly that is Not a high bar to pass #that bar is underground.#there are definitely features of windows 10 i really do like #(night light you are my savior)#but windows 7 will still always be the best and i miss it so much #and ohhhh my god.... mik with windows 7?#he'd be unstoppable #nothing could beat him.#he would be The Laptop Ever #and i already love him to death #i am literally planning on just replacing his ssd rather than getting a new laptop #for as long as i can i will try to just replace parts to keep him going #mik has done so much for me and has been so so good to me #like yeah he is slowing down a lil bit now #but compared to my previous laptops?#he is doing PHENOMENAL #i mean jin. he. can barely run last time i tried LOL #he is. so so slow :')#and my last laptop it took me like 2-3 hours to transfer all my stuff just because of how slow it was at that point #i think jin is gonna end up being the same way #but mik? not mik.#mik's fine.#anyway that's enough on me gushing about my laptop #i do this frequently btw #i can and will talk about how much i love my baby boy (my laptop) to anyone who is willing to listen

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anaalnathrakhs · 3 months

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...i'm starting to wonder if i wasn't actually pretty often failed by the adults in my life as a young kid tbh.

#i'm always doubtful where to put the blame #in a morally neutral causality kind of way to be clear #because like. i dont know. if i was the adult. confronted to the opaque behavior of a child. would i have done better?#but also i can't help but think #why the fuck did they make me skip a grade (last grade of primary on top of that) when i was notorious for never doing my homework #and was incredibly inconsistent across topics #like i sucked at math. like ''needs to count on fingers to do a simple addition or substraction'' sucking at math.#like i never learned any multiplication tables sucking at math #like i never got how to pose divisions and still can't at age 18 because logicomathematics are completely counterintuitive to me #and just. the work was never done to make me Get It. my work or teachers' work who knows. but perhaps skipping a grade wasnt the solution #or like #apparently when i was three years old the pediatrician suspected smth was up with me #either autism directly or ''generally suspicious child'' we're not clear on that #but he told my parents. and everybody said ''we better test that'' and then. nothing. idk.#they filled a parental report of behaviors questionnaire for... adhd i think? autism maybe. and that's it. never fucking heard about it.#god. i just remembered my mom saying proudly they almost never put me in the nursery as a kid.#always either with a parent or family or a nanny.#and perhaps mother. you could have foreseen that a kid with no siblings no pets no kid neighbors no playdates. would end up socially fucked #i remember the teachers scolding late students and showing us that we were supposed to be in bed by 9:30 or something #and internally i was like BUDDY AT 9PM WE'RE HALFWAY THROUGH DINNER #MOM'S BEEN HOME FOR LESS THAN AN HOUR #and shit. i don't know. i was scared of the dark as a child. to the point that even with the compromise #of keeping the door ajar and lights in the hallway (which i had to fucking advocate for btw)#i still slept curled up in the bathroom on a towel sometimes when it got too scary #and i would cry and scream before going to bed. i would beg my mom for sleeping pills from a young age.#i would often find myself in the morning sleeping with my face smushed between the pages of the book i literally fell asleep on #because i read until my eyes gave out #and a couple years later when i got a 3ds i'd play at night and if my dad caught me he'd storm into my room and i'd hide under the comforte #and he'd punch a couple times and whisper-yell at me not to do that and go to sleep #it took until i was about 15yo for me to see a sleep specialist

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swagging-back-to · 3 months

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i had a nightmare i was in the zombie apocalypse with my sister and she decided to pull off to the side of the road and 'wait out' the hoard coming right to us to get high and completely dismissed me the whole time I was begging to just keep moving until we got eaten.

ive upgraded to literally having nightmares about the night she did that at the rave. bc she ACTUALLY did that btw. she fought me for a whole hour about leaving while a guy with a gun was tweaking out LOOKING FOR US and knew we were on that bridge.

#sister posting #she let me down so bad and proved herself so untrustworthy it even manifests in my dreams #literally sad.#i still see her stupid wide eyes giving me side eye when i was begging (irl) and just not even responding #btw i was over 2 hours away from my house in a city with no one to call and with no one i knew #at literally 1 am #and she was pulling this shit #literally get so scared when i even remember it #like i could not have chosen a worse person to go through that situation with #it makes me so angry to think about #esp bc i was LITERALLY just begging her to move from that spot and to go to a fast food parkinglot #yknow #a lit place with plenty of witnesses instead of a dark bridge right next to a dark ass park with 3 males walking around?#but no #she genuinely fucking refused only until her bladder was full and then she wanted to leave immediately #but the whole hour and a half i was begging clearly scared out of my mind she didnt do SHIT #no seriously i hate her #i hate her for this shit

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munamania · 4 months

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um yall… sam’s roommate pulled up to coffee like. um. dressed like this. btw. and their hair is just like. a better fluffier mullet. is this surprising

#just wanna express what i’m dealing with btw because the hair thing sort of hit me like a truck earlier and then i was like #well girl wait… literally… come on lmao… also we both wore sweatervests hashtag twinem #it’s so chill though coffee was really fun #we ended up hanging for like two hours and then i was like fuckkkkk g2g to class and they walked w me partway there #and then almost dapped me up gave me a hug at the worst possible intersection there were so many people walking fuck the construction fr #but like. yeah it was chill im glad i reached out even tho like idk things r... ok.. w sam but we’re certainly not like 🤞#and i think they just had a semi recent breakup and drama and im like. um. largely unwell #and need 2 just get through this semester so i rlly forced myself to chill and go in with no expectations and it was just :-)#i was charmed by how passionate he was talking abt the weather and stuff like within minutes of meeting #i was listening to a very excited spiel about el nino and the tornadoes in wisconsin and etc oh and they came up w an ocean fact for me #and also ugh they played piano for so long growing up and can still like. do it. fucckcjkkk. and demonstrated #this rlly odd chord. um. like stretching and flexing their hand. srrryy lol i’m just giggling #lol and i mentioned my hair journey at one point and they were like ‘yeah? tell me about it’ shut UP… oh and also #knew exactly the stairwell i was talking abt when i described my favorite and we managed to chat abt that ugh it was so dorky #like. aw wow this person is just really cool #i also think they’re stupid hot but like idk since we actually um communicated and etc it's taken out a lot of the #tendency i had/have to be like 'sigh what if -' and er mythologize ppl. i suppose could be said. like aw we're just yapping and we're loyal #story likers now and if they ever want to just like make out sometime that’s so chill but regardless like we ball 💪#yayyyyyayyyyy me when i can be normal about things!!!!! 🫶🙈#abby talks

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binch-i-might-be · 1 year

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you ever just think about how if you didn't have to go to work and use up every last drop of your energy there your flat would be so clean. always. and you could eat healthier because you'd have time to cook. and maybe you would get to have a restful night's sleep for once. and you could finally establish a routine to deal with mental illness and executive dysfunction so you could actually work on your writing projects. ever think about that

#it's dreaming about getting to live a nice life hour #i know it's a stupid hope btw but one reason i want an autism diagnosis so bad is that i'm hoping & praying i could use it to get #financial aid from the government. so maybe i could. downgrade to a mini job. and still be able to live #not to bring the mood down but i literally have no idea how long i can keep doing this. every month it costs me more energy to go to work #i'm only 23 and i'm so worn out all the time. my dad asks me if i go out to meet my friends like ever and he's worried when i say no #but i can't i'm so tired. i need to lay down. i need my free days to try and keep my flat in a liveable condition. i don't have time. bye #hmmmm this got more depressing than i wanted #well i gotta go to work in ten minutes so lol #rayrambles

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iheartmyipod · 2 years

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dont understandhow people are able to get into 50000 things at once.my brain can only think of one single thing for 7-13 months and then i get so sad because it becomes like hot cheetos that you eat every day and its gross and weird now.....(dont eat exclusively hot cheetos for months btw.yu will never know peace in your.organs.) and then and only then does my brain decide to latch onto something else and the cycle continues...what will be my next victim...

#the last process was sonic > original characters who were largely made so i could stop messing up sonic in my head. it worked btw #dont know if i used the words process or largely correctly.<failing high school english #and with ocs its like am i ever going to escape this. there are infinite possibilities how will i ever get bored. they are my everythings #anyway this post is about how badly i want to get into splatoon and my little pony and kingdom hearts and a billion other things... bleh #i love mlp but lately i have such a hard time finishing shows for some reason #when i got into sonic i spent literally all my free time watching 7+ hour long videos of gameplay cus i couldnt play the games #myself . and now i cant even sit still long enough to watch 10 minute videos i think i need stim toys or something #the only times i really sit still and watch something is when i am snacking .... but even then sometimes i cant because my chewing is too lo #ud to hear wats going on LOL #the stars need to align perfectly for me to do anything ever at all. the only thing i like spending hours on is figuring out ipod stuff #IPOD STUFF IS SO FUN THO CUS IT REQUIRES ME TO GO ALL OVER THE PLACE TO UNDERSTAND WAT TO DO. I LOVE IPOD #other then that i spend my days playing solitaire and listening to emo music... sigh. I NEED FRIENDS.#hi tumblr btw hiiiiiiii

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robertsbarbie · 9 months

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i do really wanna study the phenomenon of people going to multiple shows of an artist and getting multiple meet and greets with an artist and feeling very entitled to said artist to the point they genuinely believe they’re friends with the artist and i know it goes along with parasocial relationships but like oh my god