#i dont think of the 'what ifs'

[wp100]

who would've thought that the person who introduced me to the programme ive been at for the past 5 months (that's "ended" now bc i got a job, but hey im a success story now) is now my friend. she was a total stranger when i walked into the seminar. i legit hesitated for 2 weeks about the whole thing too. i do not regret joining it one bit. i also do not regret hesitating, it's nice to have a think about something before you try it (unless it has a time limit, this didn't)

it changed my life.

if there's an opportunity right in front of you, just go for it. if it doesn't work out, you can drop out. literally this is a life lesson. do NOT be afraid to get out of your comfort zone and try new things. it'll work out in the end. i promise. life's too short to wallow in your misery.

the hardest thing to do is to Start. once you overcome that step, everything will eventually fall into place.

[u3pxx]

[bad omens] you know how it is with me and body swaps and roleswaps orz

[daily-riseleo]

[day 19]: JUMP!

[tinesleftnipple]

Unpacking the couch therapy session with san pang ft wei qian ep 10, what i think is one of the most important dialogues of the entire show

This conversation itself is a compact version of wei qian's entire emotional journey regarding how he feels for yuan: his shift from brotherly love to a deep, mixed, romantic love.

Wei qian didn't say much - let's see what he did say:

My biggest wish is for them to grow up happy and healthy, because I'm their older brother

I'm terrified

How can this decision be made so rashly? I must consider the future

Wei qian's biggest wish

this is him speaking from the perspective of a parental figure, the older brother that raised his siblings.

he's almost crying saying this because he feels like he hasn't achieved this. As the big brother, he couldn't provide for yuan in giving him happiness. He feels pain for yuan.

"I'm terrified"

this is in response to san pang's "you both love each other. even if you didn't get together, you two would stay sad like this"

san pang understands this as wei qian is scared of a romantic relationship with yuan, but in fact what wei qian means he is terrified of losing yuan:

because he was the reason yuan went to look for tiger bro

But at the same time san pang's understanding was right - wei qian is scared because he feels responsible for yuan being in danger. If they were together, will there be more instances where yuan puts himself in danger for him?

"I must consider the future"

what's making him feel so anguished about making this decision if he didn't have feelings for yuan? The fact that he has a decision to make means being with yuan is a possibility. He doesn't think yuan would have the best future he could possibly have by being with him

Le ge fiasco aside, he still has his hemorrhage situation to deal with. If he accepts yuan, it will be for life, but how long does he have left?

San pang's final question hits the nail on the head.

Would you be okay with it?

San pang's question directs focus onto wei qian's own feelings, without thinking from the role of an older brother or considering other circumstances. Do you want to stay by yuan's side for the rest of your life?

And wei qian's answer is evident. He does. This is the moment he cracks.

Now it's just a matter of whether wei qian wants to do something for himself, for once, to accept his own desires for happiness.

[carpisuns]

cant stop thinking about how elation might have played out if:

a) marinette did not repeatedly refer to herself as a "fan" but rather a friend, since they have been through a lot together and have hung out and gone to the movies. and she has also yelled at him angrily multiple times, unlike any other starstruck fan he's ever met

b) andré ran a normal business and just like. served the customers who approach his cart lol

[the-acid-pear]

Yesterday I was replaying Deltarune and I was going really insane about it picking up on things I missed on my first playthrough and something that fucked me up hard was this line here

The little ellipsis at the end, almost like you can hear the regret on their voice. Voice of an ad who is realizing maybe they fucked up on this one. But it also made me think of... The possibility of this being a reaction to Spamton's actions.

Because I don't think this was an automatic thing, I feel like their drifting off was gradual. Sure, their jealousy had won them over (I'd have killed the guy or myself if I was them so I don't even blame them) but Spamton was too getting busier and busier the more famous he got, and as they say, that never stopped. He only kept getting bigger, until it all came crashing down. And when it did it was one of them who tried to go find him, after all that.

But I digress, let's focus on the original quote from my favorite sigma enby themselves, Pink Addison. There's obviously not only the regret to it, but feeling like they were abandoned too. Both parties lost a lot and the real tragedy is just how easily it could've have been avoided! Or rather, how beyond their control it was...

But I'll get off topic if I keep speaking so I'll leave it at that. The sheer tragedy that there is to everyone involved just makes me insane. Like I said in a post previous to this; you cannot trace down a good guy or a bad guy in this tale, it's just desperate people taking awful decisions and living to regret their actions.

[sherbetyy]

ah what a good day today.

my mind: what if dhmis season 2 is bad

oh

[suffarustuffaru]

"i-it's not like i like you or anything but we're FRIENDS NOW. youre my friend. BUT ID STILL LEAVE YOU THE MOMENT THIS COMPANY FAILS OKAY ITS NOTHING PERSONAL" and proceeds to like clean up corpses for this guy on the down low. (Otto bdsm post)

I just find that last part so funny to compare pride if Otto with. Pride If "Otto was forced into destroying the kingdom for Subaru" vs Envy If "Otto was stopped from destroying the empire for Subaru" I'd love for those two to be able to talk.

haah i love how you quoted my own otto bdsm post... HAH (it is once again funny to me that ive opened pandoras box on this blog man........ now i get bdsm asks.... literally a dream come true and none of my mutuals will let me live it down BHAHA)

anyway!!! yeah yeah pride if otto vs envy otto are soo soo funny to compare <3 pfft i think ive seen you around in the comment section of my pride otto multichapter fic (ty once again for the nice comments and cool asks :O !!) but no yeah like pride and main otto are really funny. but the parallels too are super interesting..... you summarized them really well pfft.

like.... the way pride otto is Forced to do these things for pridebaru. like of course pride otto barely gets any screentime but theres stuff implied yknow? like he has to meet with subaru often, hes the messenger boy of sorts between subaru and russell fellow, otto also delivers the poison that kills julius, otto also dies somehow off screen before the climax of pride if.... and then main otto over here Choosing repeatedly to follow subaru and die for subaru and do all these sorts of things for subaru HAH - the contrast is really really strong!!

like of course wrath if otto is also a debt slave like pride if otto, but pride if otto's his own flavor of unique just bc hes forced to stay in proximity to subaru when he either may not want to or he feels similar to subaru (who goes "maybe in another life we couldve made good friends, but this Isnt that life")!! seeing how jaded and empty pride if otto is is super fascinating, bc you can kind of see the origins of it in main otto's tendency for cynicism and ruthlessness !!

but also on another level i feel like pride otto would be soooo confused and disgusted hearing about main otto. pride otto might be out here like "so not only are you friends with this guy but youre his boytoy too???? lmfao you loser" HAH

but yeah i think itd be fun for them to meet. pride if otto, the otto who never made friends and only learned to harden his heart and be forced to be an accomplice to horrible crimes...... main otto, the otto who made friends and is so so painfully devoted but it drives him to do drastic things some times.... crimes in the name of love versus being forced to assist in it.... like main otto learned how to make friends, learned the power of friendship with other people, but his loyalty is "poisoning" him while pride otto supplied the poison that kills julius...... ough......... and pride otto dies at the end...... all alone.... poisoned by other people, poisoned by what he had to do.....

but also i think my favorite bit of pride otto trivia is that word of god thing that pride otto took advantage of the fire and went to go kill russell fellow before he died.... specifically to avenge frufoo, his ground dragon.... like. ough. pain. absolute pain. pride ottos last act was to kill his main abuser??? to avenge his one and only friend????? im gonna bawl my eyes out HAHHA. but it seems that the power of friendship may have briefly won for a second there.... :,))) like im sure ottos most definitely killing russell fellow also bc thats Literally the guy that enslaved him but - the way its specifically noted that ottos main reason was Frufoo. im sobbing on the floor.

anyway i completely forgot where i was going with this but in conclusion pride otto is such a guy. 20 seconds of screentime??? dude stomped over my heart in 20 seconds. and if he met main otto i think he'd either go "wtf is wrong with you why would you do all of this for subaru??? him??? that CLOWN???? why???" or pride otto would wanna strangle main otto for being so lucky HAH. pride otto learns frufoo is still alive and well in main route and pride otto instantly launches himself at main otto like a feral cat -

[elftwink]

have to work on a project today and an unrelated thing happened that just made me so so so so so mad (just some irl personal stuff), which normally derails my entire day because i find it so hard to come out of the angry/upset state and tend to just circle back and obsess over whatever triggered it but! today after 20 minutes of that i had a council meeting about it (<- what i call my decision making process) the outcome of which was putting it aside (!!!) for later when i could actually talk about it and resolve it (!!!) & in the meantime we could just do other stuff.

local man exuberant and jubilated to achieve feats of basic emotional self-regulation and was seen excitedly telling reporters he "never thought this day would come" and began giving a thank you speech to nobody in particular. more on this story as it develops

[permafrown]

I think fs!jonathan dreams about Irene often ever since they left gotham 😗👍. it's bittersweet at first but the longer it goes on the more he realizes he's not over them infact he misses them so much it's maddening

[bladesmitten]

thinking about wyll lamenting that he didn't get to know his mother. that maybe he would've grown up much differently, wouldn't become the blade of frontiers if his mom were alive. and he says this in such a wistful tone too

[pyrriax]

hi tumblr im pyrr pyrriax and im in my trimonthly artist arc, lord help me and all the projects that are currently sitting in my drafts while i am lured in by the siren song of drawing

[meeko-mar]

(BNHA spoilers bc I have a one track mind lmao)

I'm currently thinking of the possibility that Katsuki is revived/awake as of this point, if not quite soon, but it just hasn't been revealed yet, and Horikoshi will hold onto that card until a time of reveal is right.

Because something Hori does a lot, like he does with Nagant in this very chapter(379), is the surprise, sudden appearance/reappearance of someone, and then the next chapters a slight back-track to reveal just how that character came to be involved or re-involved.

I feel like he could do this with Katsuki's revival as well.

for one thing, the narrative has been revolving around Izuku v Tomura for a while now(and other things) so we have not visited with what's going on with Katsuki's revival. Our attention has been diverted. So that gives Hori a chance or flexibility to say "he woke up but it took a few moments to get him back in the game" and flexibility to say when precisely Katsuki came back to life.

Obvs he's really injured so if he is even able to return to fight at all, he's gonna have to have a moment where he just breathes and gets his bearings, talks to Mirio or BJ, and thinks about or even observes Izuku. Then reflects, and then decides what he has to do, or where he has to help.

Once he's collected himself though, once he physically comes back to a more stable point...I imagine he would fight to get to Izuku. Why would he not, if he was cognizant enough?

And now that Izuku and Tomura are away from the UA fortress, there's gonna be more of a chance for Horikoshi to build up a surprise or formulate an interesting transition for Katsuki to re-enter the narrative, because once again, cause its important; our attention is diverted.

He's keeping the "camera" off of Katsuki until the right time.

Also...All for One is still on the way, right? And he's likely about to be very desperate and ANGRY about his hold on his supposed new body, Tomura, breaking free of him; meanwhile he's on a rewind track and his physical body is eventually going to rewind to nothing?? So he will be formidable and likely wrathful, because he needs to regain control before he becomes Toddler, Baby and Zygote AFO XD

So I am pretty sure Tomura will eventually give AFO the final blow, but I wonder if AFO will pull some sort of attack on Izuku, and that's where Katsuki comes in the clutch to help Izuku AND to get a rematch with AFO? Or if he'd take Katsuki captive or something and threaten to kill him again? (gotta say I'd rather root for Katsuki coming in rather than him being Damseled again, at this point in the story? because I want KAtsuki to have that moment where he is victorious, and where "fans and antis of him will both appreciate")

Anyway, just some mostly Katsuki-centric thoughts I currently have, as of 379.

[void-dreaming]

So wait, has Wind Archer just been vibing in Beast Yeast this whole time?

Is the mans okay? Kinda feel like he's gonna show up either possessed or decommissioned for a while.

Maybe like another remorseful sugar swan

Not me looking at Night Raven info while I think about what ifs jxnxysg

Ooh what if DE was able to show him the truth and he converts to the darkness willingly, and we have to slap him to his senses?

[gncrezan]

hey sorry if this is a dumb question but i wanted to start playing infamous, because i trust your opinion/taste so much because you're a rezan diehard, but with dashingdon is there a way to save your file onto your computer like you can with atoc? or do I just have to keep the tab open forever? like, once im all caught up to where the story is rn and the next installment comes out, do you just have to remember and replay all the same choices to get back to where you were? (i hope this makes sense)

HI !!! there is no way to download those save files :( for reference, i think there's a workaround for games published on steam (so wayhaven for example) but that doesn't . apply here. i am so sorry for not being to help w that

BUT those saves do remain even if you close the tab, close the browser, restart your device, etc, as long as you don't clear your cache! i usually play IF on my laptop so i can't say how easy it is to play on mobile, but i virtually don't ever lose saves on desktop! i haven't lost any so far and i've run through it a lot from the saves i have (i tend to save like.. at the beginning of chaps. sc below if it helps LOL) to get to things like drawing refs!! also a warning not to save on the stats page, since that corrupts the save, and to always do it on the game text itself!

it is a bitch to move from one device to the next though, and i know from experience because i got a new laptop and then realised i'd have to replay a bunch of games. which is technically a labour of love but still annoying, if for example you've got lots of playthroughs :( and it does mean you're limited to the amount of save slots available on each game, but that number differs from game-to-game 🤔

hope this helps!! if i didn't answer what you were looking for just send me another ask and i can see if i can help!!! i hope this also gets you to play infamous!!!!!!!!!🤩🤩🤩

[gemwolfz]

canon compliance be damned i'll take a transfem giroro post any day of the week