#i dont want to say this because it's what all the old christian women say and i know that but honestly on tumblr being gay is cool

[yuri-for-businesswomen]

ok i am really sorry about how this may come off and i want to say i'm not like prejudiced against german people, but i often hear about things from germany like women having to try brothels first before getting unemployment, or "sex being a human right for disabled people" (ie they force a prostitute to go "service" a disabled man), and so on, and it kind of makes me skeeved out by german men? where i'm from obvs there is a local brand of misogyny but how accepted is this in your country? how common is it among the men to just think it is normal and okay? would you say the average man there goes to brothels or is okay with it?

no worries! i completely understand where youre coming from.

first off, women do not have to try prostitution or they get their unemployment benefits cut, thats a myth. a brothel owner tried to enforce it but the courts decided that, since the alleged purpose of the prostitution law was to protect prostitutes, not to foster and promote prostitution, the government agency responsible for unemployment is not to advertise brothel ads or help brothel owners find „employees“ which would not make sense in the first place because brothels dont employ prostitutes, they rent out rooms.

secondly, i dont think german men are more (or less) likely to buy sex than men of other nationalities. german men tend to generally be more shy (when it comes to hitting on women/dating) which is not due to virtue but probably because german people are more reserved in general. my french friends say they get harrassed on the street less in germany, for example. but that doesnt make germans less misogynistic.

from a feminist point of view, we have the worst possible mix of liberal and conservative politics: for example, prostitution has been liberalised and legalised 20 years ago - but abortion is still technically criminalised (albeit accessible). women have been excelling in academics - but mothers still take on most of the childcare (resulting in poverty at old age, single mothers being at highest risk of poverty, and women being overrepresented in part time jobs, for example). the conservative part comes from the center right christian democratic party having been in power for most of the time since the end of ww2. the prostitution law is the brainchild of the green party who have been massively influenced by postmodernism and hippie culture. academics are also pretty much divided into these two camps (conservative or postmodernist liberal) and this also influences politics. i think this is reflective of our weirdly ambivalent culture!

in my opinion, the average german person does not have strong opinions on any of this. they care about würstchen and maybe refugees (racism is a more obvious albeit not more or less grave issue here than sexism). the topic of prostitution is not a widely discussed topic at all. which means people dont care enough to stop that green party nonsense like „sex is a human right“ and buying sex being legal (they are by the way also responsible for the new self id law in germany). feminism is just very weak in germany. there are big discussions on „gendering“ and the trans topic, refugees and nazis, and climate change, but weirdly the sex industry and other misogyny is not often discussed. at best we get a halfhearted gender pay gap debate.

i think german men are freaks in private. we have a huge fetish scene in germany, i cant tell you why. germans are known to be very dry, reserved, not fun loving people, but there is an undeniable underbelly of sex pests here, i cant tell you what it is but maybe thats because im too close to it. i would be very interested to hear how other germans but especially non-germans who have been to or maybe even lived here perceive it!

[danthropologie]

anything interesting from the podcast? i don't really like dax so i dont wanna listen to it but I still wanna know what dan said😭

it's going under a cut cause it's long as hell and basically just a play-by-play replay of (most) of what was talked about:

it literally begins with daniel offering to turn off supercross, which is on the background, if it's going to be too distracting. i feel like this is important context

dax asks about it was like driving in the australian outback for that rbr promo video a few weeks back. daniel: "i'm gonna break something to you... [it wasn't you?] not all of it." he says it took an extended trip and he couldn't have made it work with scheduling, specifically mentioning the simulator.

he says after that video—cause it WAS real, it just wasn't all him—and being back in the red bull family, he's been reminded of how much cool shit they do. "and even, you have an idea and you just share that idea within the family, and something normally comes through from that idea."

dax asks how he feels about being a passenger in some of that crazy shit, the loop-de-loop helicopters and planes and shit. "the older i get, the less i say yes" but then says he's torn cause the older he gets, the more he wants to push himself to have experiences like that, even if he's scared shitless. says it's easier with things he doesn't understand, like planes, to just close his eyes and put his trust in whoever's controlling it. he knows too much with cars.

dax asks if he ever worries that because he has this crazy job, these people are gonna give him an extra crazy ride, thinking that's the expectation? daniel says he tries to be very honest with people, tells them that they don't have to do too much because he's a bit of a wuss.

they talk about nurburgring, the track daniel's driving this fall. daniel tells a story of driving the track at 18 years old in a rented fiat punto, not long after he'd moved to europe. he ended up cutting through a chicane and putting it in the grass 😭

dax says he hopes they give him more than one day at the track. daniel: "i better hope not, because i'm just gonna want to go quicker and quicker! we'll see...by then i might be a little more sharp."

he tells another story of going there with renault and driving the track in a road car in the rain. slid a few times and then decided to just bring it home the rest of the way, cause he doesn't really know the feel or limits of a road car the way he does an f1 car.

daniel turns it around for a while and asks dax about getting into formula one and what hooked him, what he loves about it, etc. dax brings up drive to survive and "you're gonna hate this but it's YOU!" how he's first person you see on the show and he hooks you in with the jokes, the cockiness, the looks, the personality, etc, and then you want to see him win cause you like him so much, and the love for everything else comes after and because of that.

daniel says he gets more and more people coming up to him now that know him as the guy on drive to survive instead of just as the race car driver. he wonders sometimes if they actually know he races or if he's just that guy from the netflix show

85-90% of people that came up to him pre-dts were guys, now it's more women. "it's definitely more than 50%, especially here in the states."

christian horner gives the best hugs in f1 (amongst drivers and team principals). specifically mentions 2018 mexico, his last pole with the team.

dax brings up how polite daniel is on the radio, asks how he developed that mindset. daniel says a lot of it is down to maturity. he knows for a fact that in his earlier years he was much more reactive. tells a story of back in 2013 where he'd blasted the team over the radio for some car issue, then got back to the garage and was struck by how selfish it was of him. says that now he consciously tries to be calm on the radio because he knows how chaotic the race is for everyone and he doesn't want to add to the chaos. he also says it's a give and take situation, because there are times where he'll fuck up or make a mistake, and "maybe sometimes i'm getting a blast, but not always. like a lot of the time, it's a hand over the shoulder and a little bit of...yeah there's a little bit of, i don't know, they didn't tell me how shit i am."

would be least shocked to find out yuki was eaten by their pet bengal tiger. "i'm only putting it down to physics and the human anatomy."

val "has turned into one of my favorite humans on the grid. he's coming into his own." says they've had a few glasses of wine together, but have never gone out for a proper rager together.

thinks seb is the most likely to have a collection of fine porcelain china."i feel like that's something he could be into, he appreciates fine art."

they talk about seb a bit more. daniel says that he probably didn't show much personality in his early / peak years, was more of a machine, but as he got older he started letting his guard down and showing more of the human side, which is what everyone fell in love with. he and seb got a lot closer over the years that followed their stint at red bull together and he'd definitely count him as a close friend now.

dax asks if you could get rid of one rule what would it be? daniel talks about pierre getting really close to getting a race ban last year over silly little stuff, nothing reckless, and they didn't think that should add up to a race ban. "we talked about that a lot, it wasn't justified."

dax asks how he would feel about getting rid of the speed limit in pit lane. he says that when he started the limit was 100 kpm, and he was glad when they brought it down to 80 kpm because it felt too fast. he couldn't imagine not having a speed limit at all.

dax asks if there's a rule he thinks should exist. daniel at first says he was trying to skip that one, then says that while part of him loves that some teams are better than others and part of the competition is fighting your way to a better team, part of him also wishes the field were a bit closer sometimes. brings up how some american sports will have a systems meant to mitigate that, where the lowest team gets first draft pick or whatever, and maybe f1 could incorporate something like that. dax then brings up indycar and how everything is spec, but doesn't necessarily make for more fun or interesting racing. daniel agrees and reiterates that the biggest thrill and challenge as a driver is fighting your way to the best team on the grid.

they talk about zak brown challenging toto to a boxing match and christian to a kart race. dax asks if daniel thinks he mixed them up by accident 😭

daniel says toto is "a pretty cool cat." also calls him "a specimen" and says "if he's not the coolest, he's definitely one of the coolest." dax also apparently heard from a source close to him that toto is a great dancer too???

thinks either charles or carlos would be the best on dancing with the stars. he does NOT think fernando would be a good dancer, because "he's put all his eggs in the racing basket."

they talk about how fun it's been to watch nando racing this year. daniel: "i've loved seeing it. even like, sure, it makes me think 'shit i can still do it at an older age if i really want it.' so there's that, but even just for the sport." and talks about how the average age of the athletes in so many sports keep getting younger and younger, so it's fun to see someone older still succeeding. says it's "encouraging"

says he still watches races. he thought this year he'd be more distant and wouldn't go out of his way to watch it as much, but no. he hasn't missed a single session from a single race so far, including practices. says he's "heavily invested." also says he thinks it's good for him, cause this year is about getting a lot of answers about how badly he wants to come back and all that, so the fact that he's still so interested and invested tells him he's not done yet, cause he thinks that if he was truly done, he wouldn't care as much as he still does. dax reinforces that by sharing his own anecdote about his acting career and knowing he’s done with it because he's not interested in what's going on in the industry anymore.

they talk about baku. dax asks what he loves and what he hates about it. daniel says there's not much he hates about it. talks about the first time he drove a street circuit, how the adrenaline was so much higher and everything was just better. baku is all of that with high speeds. "a wicked track" and probably one of the most nuts tracks on the schedule.

dax asks if they're able to see the castle from the car as they're driving. daniel: "yeah, but you don't want to!" says that at most tracks they go to—specifically mentioning monaco—of course it's beautiful, but they're so tunnel vision focused that they don't really see any of it.

says that last year in singapore, during one of the practices, he was able to see some of the skyscrapers from the car as he was driving "and i was like, 'shit, i don't think i've ever seen them before.'" dax brings up the fact that that was late in the year, when he already knew it was gonna be his last year with the team, and asks if maybe it was his subconscious telling him to look around and enjoy it cause who knows if this is the last time. daniel agrees that it probably was "but right now, i'm happy because i'm happy with where i'm at, but i'm also happy with the like 'ehhhh i'm not sure it's over' so. that's cool. but i can't guarantee it cause obviously i don't have a racing contract next year, but personally at least, i feel like there's still a fire there."

dax wraps up by telling daniel "you're gonna be uncomfortable with this but i find it so comical that you're still the most popular driver in formula one and you're not driving" and then literally goes on for like two minutes about how fucking hilarious it is to him that there are more pictures of daniel, more articles about daniel, more conversation in general about daniel than even the driver that might have won the race that week and how much we all fucking LOOOOOVE him and would love to see him driving again. truly One Of Us 🤝

daniel tells dax he appreciates that and "look, i certainly play out scenarios in my head and i, like, visualize things and, yeah, i would love...." cuts himself off to say he doesn't want to come back just to drive, he wants to come back to try to win, but if that opportunity with a team, that could be the right fit. "i just want to win basically. just cutting to it." and "i think this year i'm understanding that you just want to get back to basics. it's like i'm trying to get all those feelings back. and i'm not forcing anything, it's like 'why did i start this?' like, 'where's that core love for it?'" dax: "is it fair to say you're opening yourself up to the hunger to return and captivate you and make you singularly focused?" daniel: "absolutely. yeah."

[lacunasbalustrade]

what are your general thoughts on queer(gay n trans n all) people? like you dont seem to be against gay ppl from what i can see but i also see that you've like never really openly said something pro or against trans ppl. sorry if its out of the blue im just curious esp seeing your pov as a religious person who has trans mutuals/follows n all bcuz i (unfortunately) know plenty of christians that know trans people but only tolerate them instead of accepting them (which usually means they misgender/deadname them)

hi! I'm happy to answer your question - it's a bit controversial, though, and a sensitive topic for everyone, so I do ask for your understanding if anything I say happens to offend you.

as a Christian, I believe in the stance the Bible puts forth: that BEING gay is not a life choice, it's an inclination that came forth due to the presence of sin in the world. the continuation, however, of this choice, is a sin.

To quote so no one thinks I'm speaking out of some random, bibically incorrect bigotry, Romans 1: 24 NIV "Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another." ,Romans 1: 26 "Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural sexual relations for unnatural ones." , Romans 1: 27 "In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed shameful acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their error."

obviously my faith and beliefs should not be forced on unbelievers. I am not any holier than anyone else because I am straight. I am every bit as sinful because it's impossible to avoid committing sin.

so if I'm going to sum it up, it's best said as: none of my business because Who Am I to tell you how to live, right? you're my friends and 'preaching' isn't actually loving. the best form of loving others as a Christian is to accept them as a person before judging based on whatever life choices they've made or pronouns they call themselves. which brings me into the next part!

theologically, I have to admit I'M NOT VERY SURE about trans people. I genuinely cannot find many sources of literature on the topic. There are intersex people, there are people with gender dysphoria. The Bible doesn't talk much about those, enough to give any real objections anyway. To talk about my beliefs based off the context, if God made you as you are, you shouldn't be trying to change you...is the logic, but again, no reason to force biblical beliefs on unbelievers.

I do disapprove of the extent to which some trans people have taken this schtick. I've seen posts saying 'oh if kids can play soccer and do ballet which messes them up for life, they can also do trans surgeries!' I'm sorry. That just doesn't make sense. WHY would anyone want kids to have permission to do Very Risky Things when they are small enough to not know better or make informed choices? And I also know many posts say that 'common sense', kids aren't gonna do those things till they're old enough to feel like they need to do them....those posters need to remember the last time they regretted doing something as a child. Common sense can't be relied upon in my experience.

Plus, given the kidnapping laws in the U.S which basically allow children to be taken away from their parents if their parents disapprove...lol yeah now make a law where my child can be taken away from me if I'm not in the same fandom as them. It can be hurtful to receive dissent on your life choices, but that don't mean up and leaving is the solution, unless the living situation is physically dangerous in some way or you are an actual adult. Children are not trustworthy indicators of whether or not a parent is problematic. And I'm saying this having had problematic parents myself - sometimes we are part of the problem. And if it's difficult, you should still try not to give up on them.

This might be the most important part: I'm wondering whether the gender stereotypes placed on girls and boys are the markers trans people want to overcome. Because from what I've researched, there are two different camps. 1: people who admit that they are biologically whatever sex they were born, and just enjoy dressing like and passing for the other sex because it makes them more comfortable. 2: people who actually believe they are the other sex because they feel that way and they are only effectively realizing that change to their 'authentic' self by transitioning.

I don't believe in gender stereotyping. Like, girls wear skirts boys wear pants. Boys can't wear pink etc etc. So the concept of a trans woman thinking they are a woman because they enjoy the markers attached to being a woman, like, for example, having long hair and wearing skirts, makes me really uncomfortable. Because that's not the whole experience of being a woman. It's only a small part of it, and it's not universal at all. And while no one can claim that ALL woman have experienced a certain set of conditions that make them woman...the only standard for BEING a woman, in my book, is to be a biological one, because it's the only defining trait. When people think of girls, I don't want them to automatically think of girls with skirts and wearing pink. I want them to acknowledge that all girls are different, and the only thing that makes them girls is the gender marker, not their conformance to 'gender norms' that have arisen from societal conditioning.

The idea that someone's feelings can be 'authentically accurate' makes me feel even more....nah. Feelings are valid but if I trusted mine all the time, I'd definitely be all over the place.

To sum it up: no problems with the trans behavior because I'm not into forcing biblical perspectives on y'all. But I definitely have a problem with the idealogy and the legislature.

dead name, misgendering wise...I believe people should be called whatever they want to be called unless it makes the other person uncomfortable. In which case the other person should just stop interacting with them since they're so uncomfortable. (E.g you want me to call you Baby Chicken. For some reason I have a problem with it. Maybe I have a strong fear of chickens.)

Basically I respect your life choices. Thank you for coming to my Ted talk haha.

[saint-ambrosef]

hello i am seeking prayers (and perhaps advice) i would like to be catholic. i have done extensive research, i have attended women's groups, i have talked to local outreach workers, i have attended a couple masses, i have had a couple one-on-one conversations with priests... this was all in the last two years. i have not taken rcia and i have not regularly attended mass. because there are two issues i bump into/cant get over first is that i have an incredibly close relationship with my current/home church, where i am an active member, where i was married, and where my child was baptized. i do not wish to leave them nor offend them, as they have been pivotal in strengthening my faith and materially supporting my pregnancy, they have funded some of my schooling and there is so much love there. the second issue is that my mother (who is not a member of my home church, nor a practicing christian at all) is extremely anti-catholic, to the point that she denies any irish heritage we have, and regularly talks trash (to me, i dont think to others) about catholicism as a whole as well as the stupidity of catholics as individuals. my father, an atheist, is not much better. i do not want to create dissent in my family, nor separate from my supportive village i have built for my child. however, i feel a constant calling towards the church... i guess i am asking for prayers for me to be brave, and for the hearts of my parents. and if i am brave, advice on how exactly to go about separating from people i know love and support me? i know this is a lot...thank you and god bless

A difficult situation indeed, anon, I am not envious of your position! The Truth is calling to you, but it is natural to be hesitant to potentially say goodbye to those who have nurtured your faith and pushed you (perhaps accidentally, perhaps purposefully) toward Christ's Church.

Do you worry you would be ostracized from your old community if you were to become Catholic? I am not sure what the "waters" are like in your current congregation; if they are not obstensibly anti-Catholic, there is no reason you cannot continue to be good friends with all of them. Regardless, it's wouldn't be the same as being a full member of that community, so I understand the reluctance to let go of something that was so foundational in your life.

The hardest part of living the faith is being a witness in these moments. Praying for strangers, going to Church on Sunday, those little "in the world but not of the world" actions are important. But one of the most difficult - and by extension, greatest - ways we are called to bear witness is to represent Truth to those we love. Doing so requires opening ourselves up to ostracization, ridicule, fear, anger, and disappointment by those closest to us. It's terrifying.

And He gets it. He really does. Christ was rejected from his entire hometown for revealing the Truth to them. We must do what we must.

I will be praying for you as you navigate this situation. I hope you are able to start attending RCIA soon; building a new community in the Church is not a replacement for those you are potentially leaving behind, but it may make it easier.

[ssszlami]

Harry Potter characters as things my friends have said except there's way too many characters

Yes, we write down funny things we say, no that's not weird

Harry: “I wanna jump out a castle window but like not die” 

Ron: “WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE GOOD AT SOMETHING???”

Hermione: “It’s feminine to write a paragraph”

Neville: “Lore update: I’m confused as hell.”

Luna: “Hey I can’t come to the party on Friday night, I just bought a bunch of cows and I gotta chill with them.”

Ginny: “I feel like you’re only dating me for my brother.”

Draco: “My chat is in it’s gaslight era”

Dean: “This is a lot like a cult for a Christian movie”

Seamus: “Agility: Setting things on fire and watching it explode... but in different directions.”

Dumbledore: “No one here has committed any crimes, and if you have, they were funny crimes, so it’s fine”

McGonagall: “When u get to the exam its not gonna be helpful that you spent your lessons drinking gatorade and eating donuts”

Snape: “If you’re going to traumatise children at least make it aesthetic”

Sirius: “I’m so alpha that the men around me change their sexuality to accomodate for me”

Remus: “I have four lines of self-hate for you”

Lily: “The milfs in my bag”

James: “No beta we die like parental figures”

Molly: “Goodnight offspring.”

Arthur: “How often a day do you reckon your car gets a boner?” 

Fred: “Love. Truth. Bodacious Booty.”

George: "In this world, it's either meme or be memed. In my case it's both."

Percy: “It is boring! But.....we like boring.”

Bill: “Sometimes you gotta ruin the vibe for the greater good”

Charlie: "Close your face nipples and think about dragons" 

Oliver: “I’m a white man, we always win! Except at sports….except at hockey”

Hagrid: “You can't say fuck you to the dog!”

Lavender: “Not all women want to kiss women. I know, that one was a hard pill for me to swallow”

Parvati: “There is no girl on earth who is so straight she wouldn’t love having another pair of boobs around”

Padma: “Nobody likes princesses!! They’re white bitches who weren’t loved enough as children”

Crabbe: “Pancake....buttplug……pancake…….buttplug”

Goyle: *grunt* “Yes I just farted.”

Cho: “I was like ‘whatever’. Wait no I was really sad”

Cedric: “I just thumbs-upped the roof down”

Krum: “*completely monotone voice* but wait there’s more”

Fleur: “Sexism is bad. Kill everyone.”

Tonks: “Gotta go to the bathroom to change my gender real quick”

Moody: “This is not a time for sassy comebacks, this is a time for SURVIVAL!”

Lockhart: “Because I look cute it’s all my fault. Thats how that works apparently.”

Umbridge: “Oh my god it’s me! Shiny trash!”

Voldemort: “Sorry I’m holding your parents hostage and killing you but your parents can’t hear your screams of terror because they can’t hear you right now”

Bellatrix: “YOU GOTTA KILL SOME CHILDREN TO GET TO YOUR TRUE LOVE”

Lucius: “Have you started another cult?”

Narcissa: “Your son is okay” *sobs and cries*

Kingsley: “I haven’t laughed since 1972.”

Peter: “So, you’re on the floor spooning the rat”

Slughorn: “*loud chewing noises* Wow I hate myself”

Mundungus: “My voice cracked on the crack and im on crack”

Dobby: “I took my ugg boots off for that.”

Winky: “Is she gonna kill me? I’m very excited.”

Kreacher: “It’s just war miss it’s not upsetting at all” 

Myrtle: “I went to the toilet and I see like the toilet seat around her neck”

Trelawney: “Teaching pigeons to be art connoisseurs” 

Filch: “He’s like a really sticky person!”

Dudley: “Screw you I just want stuff”

Petunia: “Is there a reason you’re interrupting me mid-soup?”

Vernon: “So he’s mad” “Yeah he’s cranky” “No like insane”

Pansy: “I don’t hurt them I just legally stab them”

Lee: “Bro that’s rather cringe”

Quirell: “I don’t need an exorcism” “That’s exactly what somebody who needs a exorcism would say”

Amos: “I’m one of the last old white boys”

Karkaroff: “Terrible behaviour…. ur in denial my guy” 

Xenophilius: “EVERY JOB IS A GOVERNMENT JOB, AND I DONT KNOW WHO THE PRIME MINISTER IS”

Greyback: “I… put my hand inside his chest…and ripped out his lungs” 

Cormac: “Closeted homophobic”

Blaise: “He’s more attractive in a suit.” “ALL MEN ARE!”

Regulus: “Lucy it’s my turn to drown!!”

Aberforth: “ME? A member of the TEN COMMANDMENTS??"

Nearly Headless Nick: “Well, if you have to execute me… ok”

Marietta: “You can’t slay if you vape”

Mrs Figg: “Old lady woman man and his dog”

[sachiko1309]

The good old Doc - Part 12

Missed the start? No problem, here is the first part, the following ones are always linked at the end, so you dont have to search endlessly. 😉

Summary: Lieutenant Lilith Adams enlisted back in the military, only to be met with a certain cocky pilot. Overcoming certain past traumas, she tries to fit in with the team of pilots as their personal medic. Soon finding her stuck between a certain good looking aviator and her work morals.

This is a series which is currently in the making, so I don’t exactly know how long it is going to be. 😊

Word count: 2591

Warnings: a little talk about the general rules/pace of their relationship (kinky if you squeeze your eyes)

When he came back, I was already putting a bathing bomb in the water, watching it dissolve in light purple streams. He handed me a glass of water, holding out a variation of snack bars. I took the glass of water with shaky hands, downing half of it, before I put it down and turned my attention back to him. “So, what do you want to tell me?” I asked, sinking into the hot water. My head fell back, once I was fully submerged. With half closed eyes I watched him, patting the water to invite him in. Jake shook his head, stepping into the shower. “Thank you, darlin. But I would rather cool off than cook myself to death.” I grumbled at his words, snatching a snack bar from the counter, and opening it.

Watching him shower, I ate my food, not exactly sure, what I wanted to ask him. “You are experienced in that kind of stuff.” I said.

“I am. Yes.” He answered, staring back at me. “You don’t know what you want to ask, do you?” He smiled softly, turning off the shower. “Okay… how do I start that without me sounding like a total weirdo… Well, as you might have figured out, I like to be in charge in the bedroom. I like it, when women submit to my command, letting me take care of them. It gives me a sort of confirmation I cant quite put a finger on.”

“So, you want me to submit to you?” I asked curious of where this talk was going. Jake tilted his head. “Yes and no. I have the desire to dominate you, own you, yes. But I don’t want to force it on you.”

“Does this thing you like to do extend outside of the bedroom?” Scrunching my nose, I watched him put on a new pair of boxers. He sat down on the edge of the tub, stroking my cheeks. “Only if you would allow it, darlin. I wont do anything that you don’t want. But yes, it can. It can be whatever we want, or nothing at all.”

I leaned into his touch, thinking about his words. It sounded interesting, filthy, a little secret between us. But it also scared me. All my life growing up, I was supposed to be strong, told to bow to no man. And yet, here I was. Craving the possession Jake showed in little glimpses of what he was doing, the way he ruled over my body, the way he stepped up for me, putting an undeniable claim on me.

“I… I don’t know what to do.” I answered honestly. “I want to try it. But I also don’t want other people to look down on me, because you do.”

“Darlin, no.” He interrupted me. “I do not look down on you. That’s not how these things work. Yes, there can be degradation involved, but it doesn’t need to be. We don’t need to act it out in public at all, if you don’t want to. You submitting to me, would not make you less of a human. Rather the opposite. You giving yourself to me, trusting me… That’s everything. I want to care for you, protect you, worship you the way you deserve.”

His words had me thinking. Something in my head told me, that I already heard about stuff like that. “So, you are some kind of Christian Grey, just in uniform and hotter?” I asked, cocking my head playfully. He laughed at my words, putting a strand of hair behind my ear. “BDSM is way more, than that book lets on. I would even go so far, to say that fifty shades of grey does a horrible job of describing the interaction between a sub and a dom. But yes, it is kind of what I am. Without the insane amount of money, trust issues and manipulation of course.”

“Okey.” I said after a while. “I want to try it. But I don’t want it to interfere with work. As soon as our relationship would be public, I will already lose my reputation. I don’t need people to have another reason to go after me.”

“Of course, darlin. We will find our pace and make our own rules. What else?” Jake nodded, helping me out of the tub, when I reached out for him. “I want to take it slow. Start with you being in charge in the bedroom and then see how far I want to have it in my life. You can be possessive in public, if someone hits on me or harasses me, but I don’t want you to talk over me, dictate what I wear or what I do. The team can know about it, but I don’t want to have a big announcement. If they suspect things and ask, we answer honestly, but nothing more.”

“Noted.” He said, handing me a towel. “Anything else?”

I thought for a moment. “Not that I can think of now. Regarding the sex, I am not as experienced. Compared to you, my exes were rather narrow minded and boring, so if you want to try something new, I want to know beforehand and speak about it. Other than that, I think that’s all. At least as far as I can think of.”

“That’s more than I could ask of you.” He murmured against my ear, pulling me into a tight hug. “Thank you, darlin. I promise all I want for you is to feel save and loved. And I am so proud of you for trying it with me.”

I snuggled into his embrace. “Is it possible you have a slight praise kink?”

Smiling at me through the mirror he gave me a small kiss. “Only for you, sweet cheeks.”

The next morning, I woke up being buried between Jake and the blankets of my bed.  I reached for my phone, looking at the time. 10am. That’s not too bad. Then I saw a message in the group chat from Rooster: Anyone down for some beach time?

The team already agreed to it, so I nudged Jake awake. “Wake up. The team wants to go to the beach. You in or not?” “M in.” He mumbled, tugging me even closer. I typed our answer, asking when the squad was ready to meet. To my surprise, Rooster sent a picture of them already playing Volleyball in front of the hard deck. “Come on, Jake. They are already at the beach.” I said, shuffling out from underneath him. When I stepped in the bathroom, I gasped at my appearance. My whole upper body was covered in bruises and bite marks. Jake now leaning against the doorframe smiled proudly.

“What the fuck, Jake! I cant go out like that!” I yelped, twisting and turning while inspecting the way I looked. He just chuckled. “You can. Nobody will mind.”

“They will make fun of me. Of us.” I squeaked, hiding behind my hands. I felt him come up to me, hugging me. “They will do that either way. But if you really don’t want to, we don’t have to go, darlin. Even though I don’t mind showing off my legacy.” He grinned cockily. I punched him jokingly. “Your legacy? You are such a dick!” He just laughed at me. “If I remember correctly, you quite like my dick.”

“Jacob Seresin!” I yelled hunting him back into my bedroom. Tackling him into the sheets I started a pillow fight, which I quickly lost. Now out of breath and pinned down I smiled at him. “God, I love you…” He said, kissing me softly. As soon as his lips connected to mine, I gave up the fight I put up. Melting into his touch, the beach already forgotten. To my dismay he ended the kiss, making me huff in annoyance. Pulling me from the bed, he just chuckled: “Come on, we need to get ready. Breakfast on the way?”

Now dressed in a skimpy excuse of a bikini, a beach dress thrown over me, I sat in his Pick-up, a cup of coffee in one hand and a bagel in the other. Jake had dug through my closet of course choosing the most revealing thing he could find. Generally speaking, I didn’t mind showing off my body, but normally I didn’t look like a purple version of a leopard.

We reached the beach and I waited for Jake to open the door for me. I tried to do it myself back at the coffee shop, earning a grumpy huff and another lecture of how he is supposed to do it for me. Jake had already taken off his shirt and stuffed it in our bag. Then he slung the bag over his shoulder, taking his coffee in one hand, offering me the other. When we walked to the beach, I let my eyes wander over his back. Proudly noting, that I wasn’t the only one with marks on my body. On either shoulder he had claw marks and crescent indents. I touched one red stripe with the outstretched finger of my hand, causing him to his and roll his shoulders. “Sorry…” I mumbled, head hanging low. He just shrugged it off, turning around. “Don’t be, darlin. It looks worse than it feels.” Offering me a crooked smile.

“Still. I kinda feel bad for it.” Emptying my cup I threw it in the nearest bin, not daring to look him in the eyes. Now that my hands were empty, I crossed them before my chest, playing with the hem of my sleeves. “Why would you feel bad for it? If I had a problem with it, do you really think I would have let you do it?” Jake asked, leaning against the sign with the beach rules. I shook my head. “No, but my exes always made a fuss about it. Saying it was childish and insecure, since I would not trust them and therefore mark them up for other women to know.”

“You’re joking.” He let out, blinking rapidly at my statement.

“Unfortunately, not.” I said through gritted teeth.

Jake took a deep breath, then he smiled my favorite cocky grin. “Good thing you are with a real man now. I cant believe they would scold you for simply enjoying sex. They should be pleased to have gotten marks. I am. It just shows how good I am at fucking your brain out.”

“Jake!” I whisper yelled, looking around like he just dropped the biggest secret of the United States.

“Oh, come on, darlin. Stop being so uptight. Nobody gives a shit about it. And if they do, they can answer to me. Don’t think about it too much and enjoy life a little more. Otherwise, you will soon look older than I do.” He nudged me playfully in the side. I just raised an eyebrow. “Did you just call me old?”

“No?” He slowly asked, trying to figure out my expressions. Deciding to tease him further, I put on a sour dace. “I think that’s just what you did.” He reached out for me, but I stepped around him, walking over to where I saw the team, avoiding his touch. “Darlin, you know how I meant it. Please come back.” Jake came running after me, a slight whine in his voice. I fought hard to suppress a smile, when I turned around. “Fifty kisses, or I will break up with you.”

Jake stopped midway over to me, finally realizing, I messed with him. “You are such a…” Not finishing his sentence, he chased after me. Quickly I turned around, racing down the stairs towards the other, giggling and screaming like a maniac. My sudden appearance while running away from Jake, caused the team to turn heads. “Protect me, Rooster! He is out of his mind!” I yelled, jumping behind Bradleys back. He just stood there still processing what was going on. Jake on the other hand, threw his bag roughly in the direction of the sunshades, rounding Rooster. He was making ground with every meter I ran, quickly scooping me up and throwing me over his shoulder. I screamed and tried to wriggle out of his hold, but it was impossible. He had a strong grip around my waist, visibly not impaired by my fist pounding against his back.

My fight only got harder, when I realized he was making his way towards the ocean. When he stood hip deep in the waves, he pulled me from his back, holding me bridal style over the waves. “What do you say for messing with me?” He asked, smiling down at me. I wrapped my arms around his neck, trying to get away from the cold water. “I am sorry! I didn’t mean to mess with you. Please let me down!”

“Oh you want to be let down?” I could feel him loosening his hold on me. I squirmed: “No! Not like that!” But it was already to late. With a loud splash I landed in the water, fully submerging, because I wasn’t prepared for the fall. When I got up, Jake was still standing in front of me, laughing uncontrollably at my soaked appearance. “You will pay for that, Seresin! Trust me, I will get you wet as well.”

He just hummed in pleasure, stepping closer to me and pulling me up in his arms. I was clinging to his body wrapping my legs around his waist. “Hmm. I cant think of a way I want to get soaked by you.” I groaned at his words, but the smile creeping up my cheeks betrayed me. “You are such a filthy minded, cocky idiot.”

“Yeah, I am. But I am your idiot and you like it that way.” He murmured, pulling my face in for a kiss. I let myself fall into his embrace, giving in to his warm hands, squeezing my ass, his tongue forcing itself through my lips.

What I didn’t think about, was the fact, that Jake would let himself fall back, pulling us both under water again. Startled, I pushed him down, on my way to get up. When I came back up, I was coughing, spitting out water. “I hate you!” I let out between harsh breaths and wiping away my hair. It was impossible to manage it, so I leaned back, wetting it and raising my head again for my hair to slick back. I probably looked like a drowned rat at this point with my hair, glued to my head and the beach dress sticking to my body, but I didn’t care. Walking out the water I made my way to the team. Phoenix was the first to greet me. She already set up my towel next to hers under the shade. Handing me a cold bottle of water. “Jake being an ass again?” She asked with a grin on her face. Looking behind me, I watched my boyfriend walk over to us.

His tanned and muscular body was glistening in the sunlight. Water droplets running down his toned chest, his abs before dripping of his shorts. His hair was slightly darker, giving his green eyes a different shade in which I was about to get lost. Fuck he looked hot like that. My mind started wandering to what I wanted him to do looking like that… Phoenix giggling ripped me out of my daydream. I quickly looked away to hide my blush. “He is excused for looking like that.”

“I am sure he is…”

I needed to put it in again... He just looks too hot to not do it... 🥰😅

[semi-imaginary-place]

trigun stampede

vash is waifu material. he's cute i want to eat him

this show has a thing for people losing arms. the village kid lost his arm. mad scientist dude and his cyborg son both lost an arm, bomber dude lost his arms, vash has a cyborg arm

uuuuuggg im getting confused: april/inepril (og anime), may/mei, june/Juneora Rock (og anime, town in stampede), july/julai, august/augusta, september (stampede), october/octovern, november (stampede), december.

I can't believe these people don't have solar powered water purification plants. do Plants collect carbon to make biomass or do they like poof it into existence, because if it's the later that could be the basis of terraforming, meat has a lot of water in it and that water doesn't just disappear from existence after you eat it. weird how people have a meat based diet such that plants are a luxury food. what are the sandworms and bird things eating?

where is everyone getting so much blood. humans have like 1.5 gallons max.

why the hell did roberto and merly stick around vash. they even said that if its discovered they're with him they're going to get fired also probably jailed. i wonder what their budget for the trip is like they're going to have to contact their employers eventually. although meryl gives sheltered rich girl vibes so maybe money isn't as much an issue. i find it hard to believe the publishing company is willing to pay for so long a trip.

typhoons are ocean derived phenomena. these people have never had a typhoon.

this is so christian in the least christian way

ep 5: the achronological order of events here made me think very hard. vash knew rollo as a baby and as a child. rollo was experimented on and 5 years later killed everyone in the town. vash returns with medicine at some point after he's taken. 20+ years after the town is wiped vash and co return. so rollo's like 35 or more when we see him. nicholas is the clean up assassin for human experimentation dude and he's probably after vash.

ep6: what is that symbol. its not the 3 cities. its associated with the windmill town cult, the yellow helmet suit people, the sand ship, and the orphanage nicholas lived in. oh ok so we have no idea how old nico is either. if his age could be accelerated the other dude's could have been too. oh not the sandship thats julai's, i got it confused with a flashback. what i dont get is if you dont want anyone to die, why isn't anyone disarming livio like there were at elast 3 opportunities to take his guns.

ep7: you all need deescalation training

huh in most single cour anime these episodes between intro and climax would be the slow section but stampede has done well with the pacing.

ep8: ah i was wondering why they were called Plants and not like Manufactories or Fabricators the double meaning of plant was intentional. so most plants are made clonally so asexual reproduction? but vash and knives were... uh born? sexual reproduction??? reminds me of wolf's rain (both series from the same era of edgy dystopian cyberpunk) and chell who's a human Flower hybrid. "his genetic makeup is very human" uhhh brain hurts. if rem is 29 and born on earth then the seed ships can't have been traveling for more than 1 generation. i was going to say so plants can make electricity and non organics huh but electricity is just chemistry too so it could be organic.

i was wondering if that grey pattern on vash as a kid was clothing or skin. if the later why would it stop at the neck? in his current outfit the only skin below the neck he shows are two fingers on his right hand. ok it was clothing

ep9: the plants are referred to as kanojo (her, women). why did Knives crash the ships. His hatred from the exploitation and use of plants happened 5 years after the fall. its been 150 years guess that answers that question.

Why did the SEED ships leave Earth? If they had Plants the resource scarcity problem would be no worse on Earth than No Man's Land. If they didn't have Plants and developed them while in space how did they survive the initial years in space. Both the above are plausible options, the former it could be because pollution/toxins/not a resource scarcity problem, for the later they could have stocked enough resources for many years while developing Plants or cycled matter in a closed system.

ep10: bro get a bulletproof vest. Everyone get a bulletproof vest. Was wondering if/when meryl's idiocy would come bite her. Poor roberto dying for her character development. Who's that kid? Looks like vash but they never met. Knives? Colors are wrong. More plant kids?

Ep11: a higher dimension... mentioned earlier but still ugg. What is this? promare??? "it was aliens all along" what is this gainx ending

tesl was created 50 years before vash and kni. If Rem is 29 than independent plants were made before seed ships. that or rem cryoslept and 29 is her biological age not her chronological age.

Wow the guilt tripping. "You caused the crashes" to "i crashed them for you". gaslight king

Not the pregnancy metaphor. And did no one notice that the bottom trailing part of Plants looks like legs

12: SEED spent 200 years in space. Weird luida and brad didnt show up as important memories for Vash given that he spent more time with them than anyone else.

Lol they just sent out an intergalactic flare. Ok so cross the wall of light makes me think the higher dimension Plant stuff again but "from earth"? That implies humans werent wiped out on earth and have discovered faster than light travel. This changes the tone of Stampede from gritty apocayptic, brink of extinction, sole survivor vibes to one of empire politics and No Man's Land being a very small part of a whole.

I was wondering if the memory thing would have permanent effects. Because knives deleted/overwrote all vash's memories, but then he remembered rem kinda. its unclear while fighting for the cube how much vash actually remembered or if he just remembered that he had a task to complete and a brother to stop. post timeskip dude didn't even get himself a new arm with his reality/matter manipulation powers.

vash is so cute. He's got that irresistible failboy swag. Pathetic and sopping wet.

Plants vs plants/flora. I find the ideological struggle between Luida and Conrad interesting. Luida is invested in terraforming the planet with plants/flora even if its the slower more risky option that could take hundreds of years or more and humanity could go extinct in the time it takes to accomplish. side note i know its more aesthetics but it sure is weird that all the flora gardens we see in the SEED ships are ornamental species instead of that space, energy, and water being used for food. In contrast Conrad is invested in Plants as the future for humanity, continuing to use Plants to generate the resources needed while modifying humanity to need less resources to survive.

I found the ost to be beautiful but an odd choice aesthetically for the series. the ost was similar in design to a lot of anime osts which are often orchestral with inspiration from the romantic and impressionist periods. And this is my favorite genre of music but given the strong visual identity of Stampede I was expecting a more distinct audio style to match? Like perhaps a mix of jazz and american folk or ragtime to match the Western aesthetic of the planet with some synth or electronica similar to Olafur Arnalds or Carlos Cipa to matching the futuristic space faring aesthetic. The ost reminded me of interstellar's ost at some points.

visual foiling between vash and knives in the finale. Knives is in all white with a sharp, metal, mechanical wing and uses long striings of blades to attack. Vash is in all black with a more organic looking wing and he sprouts root like structures and makes a giant figure out of plants (roots, stems, flowers).

I just learned why roberto de niro sounded familiar. Robert de niro is a famous actor i cant believe studio orange kidnapped a celebrity.

i was so distracted i forgot to write about how vash getting traumatized gave him a fighting game palette swap

I also found it interesting how he's a character that is constantly in motion, all his actions are oriented towards other people. He's very considerate in that way, even as those actions are tied up in his crushing guilt. The cheerful puppy-like demeanor is also fun to watch.

[kaleidoscopic-quiddity]

‘misandry exists’ not as in ‘men as a social class are systematically opressed and underprivledged by virtue of being men’ and not ‘misandry exists’ in the ‘the libs dont want men to be masculine anymore!!’ way and not ‘misandry exists as in ‘uh not ALL men yknow?? its pretty bigoted that women feel unsafe around men if you stop and think about it’ way and definitely not ‘misandry exists’ in old white guy who’s mad that his grankids tell him that his having a job doesnt excuse him treating his wife like a maid kind of way 

but rather, ‘misandry exists’ in the ‘so many so called ‘progressives’ learnt that feminism and equality, are like, good things, but never bothered to actually learn any theory or even more importantly unlearn the gender essentialism taught to them by a society that has never recovered from christian fundamentalism so instead of learning that masculinity and femininity are arbitrary social constructs that are neither inherently good nor bad and that have no ontological reality, they just took ‘masculinity = domininant, logical, superior and feminity = subservient, irrational, inferior’ and rebranded it as ‘masculinity = toxic opressors and feminity = innocent victims’ without any critical throught and now we’re unable to talk about gender or sex or feminism or equality or literally anything else properly because so many people have drank the far righr kool-aid and are applying this incredibly reductive black and morality to what are nuanced and ultimately morally neutral socially constructed roles and are only really doing more damage to men who are already penalised by the patriarchy for not ‘being masculine in the right way’ (trans men, gay men, men of colour, etc) instead of actually doing literally anything to progress the struggle for actual gender equality’ 

but yeah saying ‘misandry exists’ makes me sound like a fucking chud and automatically has these people, who make up most of the so called ‘progressive’ and ‘leftist’ spaces these days, tuning me out and writing me off as some reddit dudebro who’ll try to convince them of ‘the matriarchy’, so i hope the conservatives and terfs are enjoying their 2-in-1 gender essentialism and anti-intellectualism combo i guess, we’re all gonna go down in flames because you dumb sacks of shit cant be bothered to learn basic social anthropology, let alone read some non-radfem feminist theory

[mwagneto]

What happened to the *fmd fandom that you don't want to happen to iwtv? (the thing you mentioned in the last post)

like..... hm. i'm gonna keep this vague coz i dont want drama but you know how every fandom has it's own vibe and how like in some fandoms most ppl don't even say fuck while in others people straight up post hole in the main tags. which is fine like i dont think porn fanart is inherently bad but like anyway like in some fandoms (mostly in smaller ones) if there's even one Problematic fanfic posted on ao3 or something the entire fandom will know about it and like go and tell op they're being racist or something. you know???

so. 0fmd, despite being a basically nonsexual romcom, managed to foster a community where not only is it not acceptable to even Mention that someone's being weird it's straight up like. encouraged to be weird. like idk if you've seen but the fucking huuuundreds of tweets about how anyone that criticises anything this fandom does is engaging in christian purity culture or whatever the fuck.... insane.

but that's just, like, the premise. the main thing that ruined the fandom for me is the content born out of that mentality like first of all MOST of the fandom is middle aged ~queer bean~ women (and a lot of cishet women) who somehow think that because they're not solely attracted to men this somehow means it's impossible for them to fetishise gay relationships (spoilers: it's not!) and these like combine into the absolute most abhorrent racism and fucked up kink I've ever fucking seen in a fandom. which. i could Maybe put up with but these are literally old men!!! like they're just nice little old men who literally share 1 (one) chaste kiss but then you go into the tags and it's all Stede and Ed rape Izzy (bondage puppyplay knifeplay bloodplay) and like. i dont know just the AMOUNT of extremely unsettling sexual things that I've had the misfortune of seeing and that this fandom gladly hosts. like idk how to phrase it better than it feels like this fandom is from like 2013 and sted isn't even canon. yknow??? like even the fanart almost always depicts them as ed w his beard and stede in his blue fit kissing or smtg like it's a gaybait show where the last few episodes never even happened. does that make any fucking sense???

man i genuinely dont know how to word this better without getting into the specific topics (and people) that made this fandom not just bad but actually repulsive to me but like. i have seen the Pits and the people responsible for said pits are the people who set the tone for the fandom which made the whole thing (a COMEDY about OLD MEN FALLING IN LOVE) into some sick freak kink fest. and like fuck whoever you want however you want idgaf but I'd like to go two seconds without . well I'm not even gonna say an example. you get what i mean

[automatismoateo]

My boyfriend is a Christian (vent) via /r/atheism

My boyfriend is a Christian (vent) Every time I go to my boyfriends mothers house i have to see his 30 year old brother on the couch unemployed, watching cliffe Knechtle, whilst scrolling on his instagram feed zooming in on women’s body parts and adding his disrespectful objectifying comments out loud for me to hear. (He’s the horniest virgin I’ve ever met) Then if I’m not already uncomfortable enough he will begin to try and talk me into his amazing religion, “god loves all” and “god has made me the person I am” he preaches how much of a good person he is because of god but honestly he might just be the worst person I’ve ever met. He has also been kicked out of churches for the objectifying comments he makes on women. He is super delusional and completely un-self aware as my boyfriend likes to say. (Wouldn’t this be a little wake up call) he tells me all the facts of how he knows for sure god exists and trying to prove all the points for me. EVEN IF HE DOES EXIST WHAT MAKES YOU THINK I SHOULD WORSHIP HIM? I DONT need saving! I’ve saved myself my whole life and everything I’ve been through has made me a stronger and a better person I don’t need someone to guide me to tell me what to do. I am happy with who I am, I’m so happy. I don’t care if he’s real or if he’s not real just because something is real doesn’t mean you need to devote your life to it. I’ve decided to be the best person I can be, if that means I’ll go to hell for not worshipping someone then so be it! At least I’ll be a 100x better person than this guy will ever be. As you can see I’m really really struggling here. But it’s not because of his brother it’s everything. All of my boyfriend’s friends are Christians, every time I see them it’s always “when will we be seeing you in church” and I laugh it off and say “soon!” (I have no intention of going to church) Every time I go to a social event with him and his circle from church, none of the girls have any interest in speaking to me, they sit in the corner and stare and whisper. My boyfriend says “don’t worry they are all bitches” umm.. these are your people? These are the people you want me to spend my Sundays with. These are the people you share your amazing “morals” with. He acted SO DIFFERENT in front of these people too! Where did my funny witty cheeky affectionate boyfriend go? He barely even looked at me, couldn’t even hold my hand. All of the men there didn’t even make eye contact with me or acknowledged me until he said “oh by the way this is my girlfriend” after ten minutes into a conversation. It hurt me so much It’s starting to really affect me in more ways I ever thought. I guess it’s making me angry? how is it possible that all these people preach morals and following gods way except I possibly could be a 10x better person than all of them combined? My boyfriend once told me that he credits all his kindness to god, and he wouldn’t be the person he is without him. I feel like that’s a really BAD thing right? If you need religion to be a good person, then you’re not a good person. It’s so weird because if you met him your last guess would be that he’s a Christian I mean I had no idea until months into our relationship. Sometimes I honestly forget until these things happen. I’m clearly upset, obviously I just needed somewhere to vent. It’s confusing me so much how these peoples beliefs don’t reflect their actions. I don’t know what to say to his brother anymore. He had no job when I met them he was so lost and completely broke borrowing money from my boyfriend (his brother) and the only way he got out of that rut is because I helped him get a job, I did his resume, his application, made sure he did all of his tickets, bought him something to wear. Never once did “god” help him with any of this. It was me completely and if I hear him thanking him because of it I might just lose my shit. ugh I feel better already thank you for letting me vent 🩷🩷🩷 Submitted August 08, 2024 at 06:21PM by Round_Active_2727 (From Reddit https://ift.tt/5rT96sb)

[my-evil-brain]

I am so tired of all this bullshit. I'm starting to feel like an old Russian dude or some fkin shit.

Im tired of arbitrary bullshit rules (because of a lie). Recycle, but 95% goes to landfill anyway. You cant do this or that because of one idiot in (place state or city here). Cant say or talk about shit because it "COULD" offend. I'm sorry if you're offended suck it the fuck up. It's not my lifes ambition or job to give a shit about EVERYONE'S feelings.

I'm tired of not being able to trust ANYONE in this fucking world. I can trust maaaybe 4 people, 2 absolutely. Everyone else can suck it. People ask me why, and i ask them stuff like, "vote for trump?" If the answer is yes, i can't trust you. January sixth? "Didn't happen", equals Surprise, i cant trust you. Flat eather, nope. Christian "in todays market" nope. Republican? Then fuck no i cant trust you. Doctors? I cant trust them to know how to do their jobs with what ive seen n heard. By this i mean literally dr. saying things like "dont know what it is, if you find out let me know". Pertaining to? It was a fucking podiatrist looking at toenail fungus. Then theres trust the vaccine commercials right aftet pharma lawsuit compensation commercials.

The worlds on fire. Nobody in power gives a shit about the environment, doesn't matter their words n proclamations mean shit compared to actions n actual words spoken in meetings n hot mics about how it doesn't matter cutting back wont help so keep going as is. Everybody hates everyone right now. These idiots around here actually side with Putin because "trump liked him." Siding with Hitler (yes, actual hitler appologists) because of what's happening with Israel right now, "maybe Hitler was right with the genocide n all that.

Everything is getting so arbitrarily compartmentalized to such an ineffective way. That nobody knows whose job it is to do what job, for who n when , in government offices and organizations.

Then the whole "women afraid to have a child" for fear of ANYTHING needing immediate attention because of the lack of dr.s an doctors afraid to treat women for fear of legal troubles if anything they do happens around the womans miscarriage or causes it. Women can't even save their own lives or go to a Dr. in some places because the doctors won't see the women without a husband/mans approval.

This world, these people, the willful ignorance, the hatred on women and foriegners, and anyone that happens to be different. The out right "fuck you" from corporations openly admittedly screwing over people n nobody cares to do shit about it. Congressman n women, believing their constitutes shouldn't get what they (as a body) ask for, because would you (paraphrase) "give a child cake for breakfast if they asked? Sometimes they don't know whats good for them n you gotta just say NO. You cant just GIVE them what they (collectively) want." Politicians and private citizens with so much fking money n public persona that they're untouchable with their crimes and offences. Lets be real, to many i know personally say Bill clinton should be locked up for that blow job. But trump paying off porn stars after they sucked him off n continuously lying about a defamation case a woman brought against him n she won on rape allegations, while making fun of her and keeping up his lies about her. Even after getting slammed again right after for claiming the same lies against the woman, Trumpers believe and republicans that THATS ALLLL OK but Clinton must suffer legally for a bj. Uuuuug

[ithisatanytime]

Trey Skies - S O A R // B Y E 楽しむ (prod. doujinshi) [Yu Yu Hakusho AMV]

even if andrew tate wasnt a jewish fed (he absolutely is though) he is still a piece of shit for what he did to those women, im not feminist, but id fight his ass and you can tell him i said it, i saw his fights i wasnt impressed. hes dog shit, and i would bet my life, my actual life, that hes sucked a mans cock before and on multiple occasions to, his physiognomy his body language, everything, is among the worst i have ever seen and it all points toward deep sexual dysfunction beyond whats already known about him publicly. furthermore i find the recent “based muslims” push by the captured portions of internet media to be insulting, because while islam may revere christ more than jews, that really isnt saying much, but more, what is beautiful in islam? seriously what does islam have to over that christianity lacks? im not even looking for anything super convincing or even true, they dont offer any of the individual scriptures no one besides muslims knows a single quran quote by heart because it sucks, i havent read the whole thing but ive read a lot of it, and its just not inspired text obviously, there is nothing in there that comes from god that wasnt lifted wholesale from the bible. nonchristians around the world are influenced daily by the teachings of jesus christ, his message at the time was completely revolutionary, the primacy of love.

  even all of the rules that are suddenly appealing to westerners about women and such are already contained in the christian bible but with a thousand times more brevity, women are to dress a certain way and to be in quiet submission to their husbands, that about covers it dont you think? but the quran expands on this and everything, even directing muslims on which foot to step into the bathroom with and which foot to step out with, and which bare hand to wipe your ass with of course (not kidding at all thats in there) which is just like the jewish talmud which is like 40 bibles in length and rabbis will openly admit that pretty much none of them have read it all, the rare honest rabbis anyway, its filled with ugly mundane rules, rules of men, its pharisaical garbage. i dont want to just rale against islam, but im honestly insulted by the recruitment attempt. this would never be if christianity werent watered down and obfuscated by the likes of catholics and especially the so called jews, but everything based about islam is already present in Christianity as its presented in the bible. furthermore dont believe the lie that it was translated hundreds of times, the king james bible was translated only once into english from the original greek texts. and while im on the subject i have seen now several times the unbelievable cope that the bible passages forbidding men to lie with other men is a mistranslated and the original was a condemnation against pedophilia, absolutely fucking not, even if it were the condemnation against homosexuality is in both the old and new testament in multiple places, the sodom and gommorah story makes no sense in that context, nor does the condemnation against women lying with women. whats most telling about this insane cope is that its coming from people who dont call themselves christians in any sense, so ostensibly the bible is just like any other book, what should it matter to them what it says if its not divinely inspired? its because their own souls convict them

 there is no doubt in my mind that the god of the old testament made himself mainifest on earth as jesus christ and he died for our sins and was risen agian, i have no idea how close to orthodoxy that is and i dont care i read the book for myself and im close personal friends with the other.

[felowtravler]

The beginning of my thoughts on the Christian argument for the legitimacy of nonbinary identities.

While these thoughts are original to me, I'm sure they're not unique. People say lots of things, especially on this website, but I'm not plagiarizing anyone's ideas.

The idea of binary systems/options seems to be a pretty Christian idea, with the juxtaposition of good and evil, God and Satan, and Jewish and Gentile. There are many other examples of this coming up, like Saved and Condenmed, Clean and Unclean, Heaven and Earth, Human and Divine.

However, the function of Christianity seems to be disruptive of established binaries (as established in the Christian Old Testament, not necessarily in all Jewish literature and thought. I am not well versed in Jewish theology, doctrine, or history, so I can't claim that Judaism is full of binaries or not. So, this is not an essay about how Judaism is anti-nonbinary identities. I can not make that claim and am certain that would be inaccurate anyway. I do know Judaism has a rich history of respecting diversity of thought.) In the Christian Old Testament, as was taught to me by the current American Christian church, whether they realozed this is what they were teaching or not, you see several binaries established (as listed above). The Old Testament is presented as this collection of literature speaking to the imperfectuon of humanity, how people can never be reconciled with God no matter how hard individuals or communities try. the New Testament is then presented as the Solution to the Problem of the Old Testament. It begins with Jesus: he comes and saves everyone. While no one knows how the cross works to earn human salvation, that's the general consensus of Christianity. Jesus died and was punished so that we humans dont have to be punished for our spiritual shortcomings.

The rest of the New Testament is made up of letters written to and between churches and leaders, mostly Paul (who lots of people have mixed feelings about, including myself) about what it means to follow Christ now that Jesus is gone (because after he came back to life he stuck around for a minute to prove he was back to his followers and then left. It's unknown if he went to heaven or just walks on the earth today as a human still. There are different theories but the general assumption in american christianity is that Jesus went to heaven to come back again one day). These letters are where we get the church as we kind of know it. The rules against women being leaders and the ones that may or may not be in support of slavery. Those super exciting ones. Anywho, within some of these...controversial letters, the different writers begin to explain some theories about Jesus, what his existence means, what to do now. Some of the messages are rather practical, which is great, but some are less so, directed towards specific congregations but are interpreted by the modern American churchas as meant for Every Church Ever. But, let's get back to the writings about christ and his believers in general, as explained in some earlier books (like Acts) and later letters.

In one instance, people wonder if they must follow Jewish tradition and restrictions. Basically, the answer is: you can if you want, but you can't hold other Gentile (non-Jewish) Christians to those same standards. Jesus' life and sacrifice means that what's been considered Unclean is not bad, it's only a choice you get to make based on preference and tradition if you want to uphold the Jewish laws (though there is debate about the extent of this argument; "obviously that doesn't apply to laws about sex and marriage and murder" but that's a whole different debate). The writers argue that Jesus came and destroyed the binary of Jewish/Gentile. No longer do Jewish Christ followers (ya know, the original followers were mostly Jewish. Christianity was originally a Jewish faith but has somehow since become its own antisemitic behemoth) have to keep themselves separate from nonJewish people. People who follow Jesus can gather together REGARDLESS of their ethnicity and cleanliness. While those differences might still exist, they don't matter. This is kind of the equivalent to being colorblind, "I don't see ethnicity." Thats not necessarily what the writers are arguing, but in this case it doesn't matter quite so much when it's written for Jewish believers (rather than to Gentile believers being told to just ignore the ethnicity of their community members). So, there's one MAJOR binary blown up.

I won't spend as much time explaining others, because they feel clear to me, but Jesus' whole thing was ruining existing boxes that people had. Unclean or clean? Doesn't matter. Man or woman? Doesn't matter. (In the sense of being gender blind rather than saying outright "gender doesn't matter/there are more options"). Divine or human? Jesus is fully BOTH. Individual or Community? Jesus is part of the Trinity, he's one person but also Three Beings. That's not a clean box (literally no one understands how the trinity works). Liberal or conservative? Jesus doesn't care what you think, it's about what you do. Jesus is RADICALLY ANTI-BINARY.

That's one of the functions of Jesus in the Bible. To destroy the binaries and boxes people hold tight. So, what would Jesus say about gender identities, especially when it comes to nonbinary folks? Probably something along the lines of, "it doesn't really matter (respectfully) what your identity is. What are DOING? How are you loving the people around you? How are you loving God? How are loving yourself?"

Jesus was never concerned with identity. Jesus was concerned with action. Anyone who says otherwise is ignorant at best and a liar at worst. Enbies, you're valid. It only matters what you're doing with your beautiful self. How you treat the people in your life. How you express your love. Jesus would probably lift yall up as examples of what he came to do, that boxes don't matter as much as the people we put them into. You're living manifestations of Jesus' rebellion.

You are valid. You are loved.

[skinnymeanfaggot]

😭 and 🌋 for Zora, 👨‍👩‍👧 and 🎭 for Harper ✏️ for both?

for zora:

crying: zora like, never ever ever cries. shes really good at keeping her emotions close to her chest. literally i think the only times shes cried in recent memory was when her mom died, when kylin died, and then bringing her back

temper: she has a pretty medium temper. she doesnt often Blow up but shell get pissy and be passive aggressive or snappy. her temper gets worse after kylin dies and she loses it a lot at kyra because their very existence pisses her off

for harper:

family: so not something ive actually thought a ton about! ive thought more about it in fs and translated it from there. in fs his grandmother (blizzardstars aunt) was a thunderclan cat and founder of the storm (city colony) and his mom was the lieutenant. his dad was never really in the picture, just a random city cat, and his littermates are either dead or have become kittypets. he wasnt super close with any of them and has a little resentment for his mom for being emotionally unavailable.

so this translates to, parents are divorced and he predominantly stayed with his mom. maybe he has siblings. really not far from average upbringing in a protestant christian household (his family was meh on gay stuff and they just never talked about it). literally not much to complain about, or at least, he has no family trauma from abuse or neglect. hes just a little bitter it wasnt as closeknit as his friends families but it wasnt a huge deal.

mask: oh my god for sure. in highschool he was a super popular, nice charismatic guy who girls swooned over (and he maybe dated a couple but "focused on his studies" more. because he hates women). this continues on for the rest of his life as an adult, hes a (gags) pastor for a bit and the church loves him, old ladies try to set him up with their daughters and see him as a Nice Young Man, men like him, women and teen girls want him, teen boys idolize him, hes everyones perfect special boy.

he actually is kind of a dick though, has a temper and can be generally cold but he keeps this under wraps 99% of the time so his friends have seen it like once and were like, that was weird! they could also note that he was weirdly controlling over anim and didnt really like them hanging out with his friends without him.

with girls he dated in highschool he was emotionally distant. he kind of fucking hated being around them but would like try to seem decent but he just like wanted nothing to do with them. they all thought it was something wrong with them because he never seemed like this with other people and the men in his life. just a guy who seemed to value his friendships more!

so literally anim and the few guys he dated after saw him as the monster that he is. because its exhausting keeping up a mask of being this normal fucking guy all the time and sometimes anim would annoy him by being like, hey i dont want to do this, or, why cant i hang out with other people, and he would get pretty mad. standard emotional abuser behavior. honestly wildly out of character for him otherwise so if anim would be like hey he like screamed at me and then refused to speak to me at all for a week and his friends would be like what that doesnt sound like him! you know. normal white guy.lyrics for

both:

for zora, theres DEVASTATINGLY.... not much i can fucking think of that fit like, her as a person, but theres some i associate from the pov of people in her life? one for anim @ her is, all of queen of white lies by orion sound. maybe specifically "so lie to me honey, take all my money, just do those things you do to me"

for harper theres a LOT. mostly whole songs, like property by say anything and leviathan by david worsig. but if i had to pick 1 lyric it would be "i hate to see you hurt but how else will i ever get through to you" from that night i kidnapped remo drive by remo drive. very him song he would totally kidnap someone

basically for zora: (other people about her) songs where people are singing about this fucking crazy ass woman but shes really hot but its ok that she manipulates me because shes SUPER hot, and for harper: ashfur songs/songs that are like "YOU BELONG TO ME YOU CANT EVER LEAVE ME OR ILL KILL YOUUUUU YOU ARE MY TOY IM GONNA HURT YOU IM GONNA KILL YOU, but you know i love you babe 😇"

[xiaq]

Hi, I have a question re:sex and Christianity. Small background: I still go to church, and I still live with my parents even though I'm not much younger than you, because housing is very very expensive where I live (pretty common here, I would say about 2/3 of my friends live with their parents and we are decently privileged kids)

Anyway. How does one get over purity culture? To be clear, I've never been told in church not to have sex, I've never gotten the gendered lessons that you got. But I am terrified of having sex. My first real, multi-year relationship just ended and while there was hand stuff etc, there was never any p in v sex (lol I feel 12). But I still had insane anxiety about being pregnant despite being on bc. And I think its because I know my parents would be so disappointed if I had sex. And if I was pregnant I could imagine all the gossip. And honestly I think im from a pretty open church, b/c one of our previous ministers kids recently got married at 8 months pregnant and lots of church people were at the wedding and supportive and her parents were there and everything.

I dont even think I particularly like sex, i might be on the ace spectrum, but how do I remove it from all the anxiety that's tied to it so I can even give myself the chance to find out???

(Asking because it seems like you've been pretty open about purity culture/removing yourself from it)

CW for sex talk (again)

How does one get over purity culture?

Oh man. That really is the million-dollar question, huh? Obviously, I can only answer re my personal experiences, and this is something you should talk to a therapist about, but I can tell you how I’ve tackled it with my therapist at least.

Purity culture is, at its core, an ideology that is perpetuated by shame. If you’re indoctrinated into purity culture when you’re a kid, the concepts become baked into the way you construct your identity, your perception of self, and your perception of your sexuality. It’s practically intrinsic, by the time you’re an adult, to feel shame any time you’re reminded you have a body, much less a sexuality.

According to the chapels I sat through every week as a kid, a girl's body could be 3 things: an intentional stumbling block for men, an accidental stumbling block for men, or unnoticeable. Women were to strive for the third option so as to keep their (and their male friends/authority figures) purity intact. After all, if a boy, or even your male teacher, had impure thoughts about you, it was your fault for tempting them (which, holy shit. I still can’t believe that was a thing I bought into for so long. If my 45 yr old grown-ass teacher had impure thoughts because he could see my 12 yr old collarbone, that sure as hell wasn’t my fault. But I digress.) The Only time a woman’s body can be something else, is when she gives it to her husband, at which point she must suddenly flip the switch in her brain that she is now allowed to be a Sexual Being and she must perform Sexual Duties despite living in outright fear of her own body and sexuality for years (decades?) up until this point. Jesus take the wheel.

Purity culture isn’t a thing you can just decide to walk away from if you’ve grown up in it. Because its ideology is insidious and internalized. So first you need to submit to the fact that you’re going to be fucked up about sex. It sounds like you’re there. Second, you need to interrogate what you believe. If you’re leaving religion behind entirely, you’ll approach removing yourself from purity culture differently than if you still identify as a Christian. It sounds like you might be the latter, which meant, for me, separating what’s actually biblical and what’s shitty, contrived, doctrine that I was told is biblical but is actually more political than spiritual. This helps you address the shame issue.

You need to throw away I Kissed Dating Goodbye and Lady in Waiting and all those ridiculous books you read and reread in the hopes of somehow obtaining impossible marriage perfection and look into actual scripture interpreted within its historical context. I could write a book on this, but the TL;DR is that the text of the Bible was written, translated, curated, and changed multiple times over thousands of years by human beings with human biases and, often, personal and/or political agendas. It contradicts itself! Reading it as it is—a flawed historical document—rather than some sort of God-breathed perfect document—is incredibly freeing. When you do, you’ll probably realize that purity culture is bullshit on a spiritual level. Which is a good start, if that matters to you. Because any time you start to feel shame or guilt you can ask yourself: does God actually care if I wear a bikini or touch a dick I’m not married to? Probably not. Wear the bikini. Touch the dick.

The most important therapy session for me was when my therapist asked what I would do if I got to heaven and God was actually the God I’d been raised to fear. What would I do if he condemned me for being bisexual and having premarital sex and becoming educated, for arguing with men, and failing to isolate while menstruating, and wearing mixed fabrics? If Montero had come out at the point, I probably would have said I’d pole dance down to hell. Instead, I said I would spit on heaven’s gates. If a god that cruel and that pointlessly demeaning really exists—a god who would create in me condemned desire—I won't worship him. The good news is, I’m 99% sure he doesn’t exist. At the very least, he isn’t supported by scripture.

Okay. The final thing you need to do is figure out what you actually want, sexually speaking. This bit is probably the hardest. I’m still in the early stages of this myself. You say: “I dont even think I particularly like sex, i might be on the ace spectrum, but how do I remove it from all the anxiety that's tied to it so I can even give myself the chance to find out???” Bro, I wish I had an easy answer for you. For me, whenever I’m feeling anxious about Sex Things, I tell myself: 1. My God does not equate my worth to my sexual habits. 2. My partner does not equate my worth to my sexual habits. 3. I do not equate my worth to my sexual habits. It seems silly, but reminding myself of those three things is massively helpful. If, after I’ve sorted through those, I’m still anxious or uncomfortable, I stop doing the thing. I evaluate. Am I overwhelmed and I need to try again some other time? Do I just not like the thing? Sometimes it’s hard to tell. Sometimes you change your mind. Sometimes you just don’t know. That’s why having a partner who you trust and who’s willing to patiently explore your interests (and respect your disinterests) is so important. Half the battle, for me, was having a partner who told me they’d be ok with no sex at all. Because that took the pressure off me. If the bare minimum they need is nothing, then anything more than that is a bonus! Hooray! This is maybe TMI, but let me tell you. I thought I was asexual* right up until I was able to have moderately non-anxious sex. Never in my life did I think I would initiate a sexual situation but… I do now. It’s a fun thing to do with a person I love and, holy shit. I am furious that I nearly missed out on it.

Finally, re birth control: I don’t know how you can approach that fear in a way that works for you. If you don’t want to ever have penetrative sex, that’s fine! If that’s a point of anxiety you can’t get rid of, then don't push yourself to do it. If you find out you like other sex things, do the other sex things! If you don't like doing any sex things, don't do any sex things! Also, have you considered sleeping with people who can’t get you pregnant? Always an option if it’s an option you want to consider. ;)

Okay. I hope this was even a little bit helpful. Sorry if it’s a little convoluted, I typed it up in bursts during my work breaks.

*This is not at all to say that asexuality can be “fixed." Rather, it’s to say that things like purity culture can drastically confuse your sexuality in general. If you’re asexual, then this process is still important to discover what you like/dislike. Then you can be explicit about those necesities and find a partner who’s a good fit (if you want a partner at all, that is).

[alatismeni-theitsa]

Theitsa this is a big rant. I remember there was talk on this blog about paganism and modern worship of gods. In these two tik toks the guy speaks gold. As a N. African who tries to honour the old gods of my country, it feels so weird to see Western "witches" worship a list of gods and no actual connection to the cultures and practices they picked them up from. vm.tiktok(dot com)/ZMRSBkX6r/ and vm.tiktok(dot com)/ZMRSB8Mv4/ He brings up very good points. (part 1/?)

Mainly that many Americans do it for the aesthetic or the "omg so many cool gods for me to choose from!" and not out of cultural respect and deep knowledge.

As it's mentioned in the video, you can't be a pagan if you cherrypick 20 gods from 2-3 different religions (and if the syncretism of these gods or cultures never happened.) If the cultures were at war with each other (and thus their gods were on either side) it's unnatural to support both "sides". (But how would they know that? Most of them don't give a shit about history of the Mediterranean and the Middle East).

If you cherrypick 20 gods from 2-3 different religions/cultures then you are not exactly a "pagan", since historically groups of people considered pagans under one empire had each one their own set of gods. They didn't worship a Babylonian, a Norse and an Indian deity at the same time, I mean.

The man in the video says you can call yourself a polytheist in that case, but I would argue that even ancient polytheists were more consistent with deities, practices and culture than most people on the "community".

But their polytheism is a very superficial reconstruction. First of all because they don't even want to reconstruct it. They don't sacrifice bulls, they dont parade on the road on festive days, they don't visit the Pythia, they don't even have a clergy as a mediator as the ancient worshipers of these religions.

Don't get me started on people who never had any cultural relation to a country suddenly appointing themselves as clergy, without even being elected by anyone. Apparently each and every polytheist has a special connection to the deity and that grants them some authority to do rites themselves, to do temple worship at home. Who would have known that the next priest of Anubis would be Brandon from Ohio?

It's very strange that all these cultures still exist, and yet they hyperfixate on a certain aspect of their past - a past they don't know enough about to recreate! Worship any god you want but why are you reviving parts of a culture you never belonged to??? And in the hypothetical scenario you manage to do so, are you then re-developing the culture separately from its people? (And what happens if you need to incorporate elements from two or three cultures??)

Polytheism is more respectfully defined as worship + culture, but this is why modern reconstructed polytheism is a paradox. You can't recreate the culture! So much time has passed and so many cultural changes have taken place in the world that you are *bound* to be inaccurate when attempting reconstitution! You might as well create your own rules.

That's what a lot of people are doing, actually, and that's why they appear even more disconnected from the gods they worship. They strip them off many cultural elements, just to make them more palatable to their modern, western reality. They excuse this by saying "the gods are energy, they are not something specific, they are just interpretations of One thing". Well, according to who, Sarah? Your Christian background (and lack of research on opposing pantheons) is showing.

Yes they are not as material as we are, but, as you've said in this blog, the gods around the world are not "one". They are not interchangeable. They are not *one big vibe*. They don't have the same attributes or behaviours. And you can't separate them from their culture.

For me it's good to use some elements of ancient worship and read as many ancient texts as you can about the deity you worship. But don't speak about "reconstruction" when you've never lived the past or modern culture so long as to make it part of you.

They are even doing things which are not organic for their background and country they live in. Their mothers haven't covered their heads in a century or more, and suddenly they veil for a deity who doesn't even urges them to veil! It's modesty social rules from ancient empires they follow, not ecclesiastical canon. (Because they don't have one).

I cover my head but that has been a thousand years old tradition in my land and there was never a big historical gap in that part of our garment. I feel they choose veiling because it's a cool fashion choice from the ancient practices they are trying to "bring back to life". Hijabis are fighting for acceptance in western societies for part of their current (!) dresscode, and American witches veil because of women twenty centuries ago in other countries did it.

Yes, women covered their head in these countries for a long time after antiquity but these witches don't even know that. They only follow ancient trends. Ironically, Greek, Italian and Nordic women have stopped wearing headcovers altogether and even see headcovers as regression to extremely modest old fashion. So sometimes what the western witches are doing comes off as so tone deaf!

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