#i feel like a burden

[olskuvallanpoe]

Bitches be like “I don’t have time for this” when “this” is literally unavoidable symptoms of debilitating chronic illness, but will say yes to every single optional task literally anyone asks them to do (regardless of whether they’ll even be able to physically do it at all) bc they’ll feel guilty otherwise

…it’s me. I’m bitches

[aesopsbaby]

Sorry if I'm taking a long time on the requests. I might take a break for awhile cause life is really hitting me like a truck rn, I need some time to recollect myself.

[honeycombhank]

4/2/24

I am suffering. I am suffering greatly.

[polyamorouspunk]

we here for you if you need anything <3

I just need a reason to keep going because nothing feels good enough not even my friends

[skywarpie]

Feeling very depressed suddenly and like a waste of space

[roleplaylms1024]

I hate to ask a bunch of strangers on the internet for help, especially since I have avoided putting my real name or face on this website, but I'm really in a bind. For context, my fiancee is disabled due to a heart condition. For the past 10 years, he's been part of a housing assistance program. Well, we recently were re-evaluated, and they decided to kick us off the program because I'm living with him and I make too much money. The apartment manager is allowing us to stay, but we'll have to pay a $300 security deposit and sign a new lease. Our rent is also going to double. We have until the end of May to pay the $300. Problem is this hit us at a bad time, and I just DON'T HAVE $300. My hours have been cut at work and I'm worried we won't be able to afford it. Please, if you can, donate to my Gofundme and help us keep our home.

[bruiseyourself]

i went on a walk w Him and i decided to listen to my stupid little midwest emo music that ive been listening to and i thought id have this epiphany that people have (something something i was at this random place at this time of day and the person i love was adjacent to me and this showed me beauty in life) but alas i was walking thru a middle class neighborhood at early dusk, the boy i love was walking in stride with me, and it did not reveal any deeper meaning or hidden beauty i was just there and he was just there and we were there together at a time of day doing an activity while i thought of ways to end my own life if i dont become more masculine soon idk blah blah waxing poetic life is beautiful and worth living maybe i wanna sleep for 34 years and maybe i'll wake up with a moustache and beard

[pascalls]

Mood took a huuuuge dive tonight. I got gifted funds by my partner for a house that I couldn't pass up - now the lender is asking for incredibly large amounts of data and documentation to prove his finances and our relationship and he's pissed off and I can't help but feel like he's pissed off at ME and maybe he is I don't know

but it feels really bad and makes me wish I had found some other way to get funds from somewhere else

I just want this shit to be over with tbh

[organcollecting-corvid]

[basically-queenberyl]

I feel like no one is listening or no one wants to listen. Like I have so much shit to vent, but I don’t bc people are sick of me. And I can’t tell them anymore than I already have bc I’m already overwhelming for everyone around me.

[mia-beak]

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[thatonebutchneighbordad]

Goodmorning hypersexual guilt, how are you 🤪🤪

I wish sometimes I didn’t find comfort in sex. Or crave it as much as i do. Or think about it as much as I do. Or even feel satisfied by it or masturbating. Especially for the things I get turned on by, or the guilt’s even worse if it’s something I enjoy.

Bc when I get stressed, i get needy. And when I’m needy, I can be really fucking annoying. I’ve been told time and again that i shouldn’t cope with sex. I shouldn’t feel the way I do about it, bc it’s just sex and not everyone enjoys it like I do. Bc my lover deserves more than just sex in a relationship, even if I have already made a point to show how much I love and care for them consistently. The asking becomes too much. The frustration of waking up to me in the middle of the night masturbating or having me getting flustered and breathless after a couple minutes of deep kissing is too much. The inability to properly communicate through my guilt and shame and sometimes just the sensory experiences alone can be too much.

I just. Idk. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve heard the echoes of my exes’ voices replay in my head, over and over again, about how I should feel about them. Or act around them. Or sometimes how I should wait until this time. Or that time. Or that I’m too needy. I hear the suprise that quickly turns to anger and irritation in their voice bc I asked again for the fourth time that week. I hear them telling me that i can’t possibly be trying to show them how much I love them through sex. I hear them telling me that they’re not attracted enough to me at the time. I hear them telling me their predictions of the future and how i’m never gonna find a relationship that’ll last bc of my hypersexuality and how I’m always thinking about it and i just

[adarkfaceinacorridor]

I don’t think I’ll ever be anyones first choice.

[kazooie]

I'm not doing well!!

[kuoringankalmo]

I feel like I should rip myself away from the depression that's clinging to me like cobwebs but I'm not sure if I have the strength of the willpower to do so

[ghostmustdiexoxo]

I fucking hate myself why am I like this I shouldn't be like this I should be fucking grateful I'm so stupid. Just, why? I wanna do big things but I'm not good enough for it because I have bad and just horrible determination for school and everything I do I always find a way to just give up and sit in my bed all day and be the most useless person ever on this earth. I have everything that I asked for and makes me happy, guitar, music, tv, record player, bed, l.e.d lights, laptop, sketchbooks, posters, a nice roo and I got my hair done. Why am I not happy and grateful for any of it? Why am I not paying back anything? I wish I wasn't THIS.

I know my parents and sister are just trying to tell me things they weren't told when they were my age because they want the best for me. It's just that- what if they're telling it to the wrong person? What if I'm not the right person? I'm a horrible person. Because I don't take anything seriously. It's either I take things too seriously and then end up in a mess, or take the wrong things seriously. Why can't I do anything without giving up? Why can't I be something else other than THIS? ME?