#i feel like im screaming into the void

[moonliitneed]

I might change my schedule from everyday to maybe every other day on here

my stuff is drowning

posting here feels pointless

maybe this will respark something

but

if things don't seem to change, i might leave in the near future

[upwards-descent]

xxx

[atthebell-moved]

im so so tired of this the next time this happens (it happens constantly) can someone else pick up the fucking slack

[meanderfall]

Manager will come up to me to warn me about a register being short a bunch and she'll be like "but the lotteries are off by that amount too so it's probably that. I didn't correct it though"

And everything within me wants to go "well why not "

[copdog1234]

War never changes. War never changes. WAR NEVER CHANGES.

That is the entire point of the series. That is especially the point of the show. War does not change.

Humanity was trying to rebuild, yes. But the entire point is literally that any one single selfish arrogant human can cause it to end it again. War can happen again. War will happen again. It is an endless cycle. And as people covet power, the whole thing will eventually topple.

That is why it is not a whole country that ended the world, it is a handful of heads from corporations.

That is why it is not a whole faction that "ended" the NCR, it is a single man from a bygone era who had a hand in ending the world the first time, that does it.

And I think that New Vegas showed us that the NCR was kinda crumbling already, too. The "fall of Shady Sands" wasn't the bomb itself, it was the beginning of the NCR's struggles. If I'm recalling New Vegas' plot correctly, the NCR was already struggling to hold the wasteland, to integrate people into it. There were resource shortages, it was getting too big, they had other factions battling them for power, and maybe your actions as a player had some pull either direction, but it's possible it wouldn't last.

If it wasn't a bomb, something else could've ended it at some point, too. Because war doesn't change.

As long as there's resource shortages, as long as there's mistrust, as long as people don't learn right from wrong, and as long as people muddy right from wrong.

That's the show, that's the games. Maybe the writing of that isn't always the best, but that's what it dwindles down to.

It is not a retcon, it is the main idea. It is not a "dumb take," it is how the world is.

Even in real life, there is sometimes hope and some things improve, but it doesn't stay improved, ever. Hope and despair comes in waves.

And war never changes.

[a-wondering-thought]

Hello to all the people who feel so alone and lonely, would you like to hold my hand and we can be lonely together?

[noose-lion]

How I feel being mutuals with some of the big bsd tumblr blogs.

[the-sparkling-diamond-satine]

i'm only kinda sorry but if i'm reading fanfic and the writer puts faith in a dress without a Very Good Reason (ex. the mayor made her wear it, she's trying to impress buffy, she's a bridesmaid in somebody's wedding) i am taken out of it so quickly. that tiny detail bugs me so much what are you even doing?? faith hates dresses!!!! free her!!!!!

[woof-squiggles]

Hmmm, oh! How about a bird based Iterator? I bet that could be fun to do

i actually really like this guy im hoarding them. they are mine

also i'm trying to figure out a name for them. sight of fowl? sighted fowl? everchanging songbird? hmmm

[hydr0phius-art]

Psst. More Mando!Hecate.

I drew this ages ago and I was waiting 'til I had time to draw Jedi Knight Pippa Pentangle, but that won't be happening for a while by the look of things :')

[flowerthornsart]

my art isnt made for attention but god damn is it sometimes just

[cloudcountry]

if i wasnt for my mutuals i think all of my events would have flopped

[barredandromeda]

if i had a more fem face it would be over for all yall 🙄

[spacedlexi]

[thingsseenandheard]

Vellioth's First Lesson: Allow none to be your equal.

I want to talk about this because of some of the interperetations of Cazador's backstory that I've seen. Now, I do absolutely love Cazador having been raised as a nobleman in Baldur's Gate and I am going to talk more about some of the interesting aspects of this backstory that make me just love it (already did, but probably I will find the time to rant some more), but I think that if he was raised as a nobleman in Baldur's Gate, especially if Donella played a role in his upbringing, I don't think that would be a lesson Vellioth would feel the need to teach.

To me it implies that Cazador has not always thought himself inherently better than everybody around him. I think there are really interesting places you could go if you worked with Cazador being from perhaps a more distant part of the Szarr family, sent to live with Donella because maybe she has turned Vellioth but she wants another Szarr to be her heir, and she hasn't got one immediately available. Who does she send for? Maybe her nephew, the youngest member of an estranged branch of the family that still lives back in their homeland.

I think if he was raised outside of all the Baldur's Gate Szarr madness, he probably would have been a relatively decent person when he arrived on Donella's doorstep. Vellioth feeling the need to 'teach' Cazador that he is better than everyone doesn't really fit with the idea that Cazador was raised noble, which I feel like often comes with the idea that one is already above others by virtue of the station they were born in to.

I also think that this first lesson especially can be viewed as Vellioth thinking he is doing Cazador a favor. It's pretty part for the course for vampire lords to be pretty egotistical - I've certainly never heard of one in the D&D/BG universe who isn't - so I think Vellioth looks at it all sort of like this:

Donella wanted Cazador to carry on the Szarr Vampire line. Donella is dead (whoops...).

It is now Vellioth's responsibility to make sure that this little shit lives up to her expectations.

He has the spine of a wet noodle and will never last as a vampire lord if he doesn't grow a backbone. (In reality, Cazador has a normal amount of backbone for a regular mortal person).

Treating mortals as anything other than food or entertainment is a big problem if he's going to carry on Donella's legacy, therefore this behaviour must be corrected else he is going to get himself in trouble with mortals because they don't like vampires and if they kill him, the Szarr vampire line might be toast, and if he doesn't start viewing mortals as the dirt on his boot that they are, he's going to dishonour/embarass his family.

Killing Cazador's friend and leading him to believe that he is innately above others is therefore a good thing and a favour because it is beneficial to Cazador and fulfilling Donella's wish. Also, bonus, he won't be an absolute embarassment to Vellioth either if he is trained well and performs his future role correctly.

This also leads in to a very interesting discussion of Vellioth's plans, because I think everything kind of points to Vellioth planning for Cazador to eventually overthrow him, and I think his sense of obligation/attachment to the late Donella can explain this. The lessons are framed as though Vellioth is purposefully preparing Cazador for taking his place. But that is a topic for a future post. As always, more to follow!

[a-wondering-thought]

TW SH

"Oh they only self-harm for attention"

Ok first of all fuck off, its none of your business why anyone self-harms, second of all So what if they do sh for attention? Is that not incredibly concerning to you? Like do you think if they are sh-ing for attention then maybe they are struggling just as much as anyone else who self-harms? Like is that still somehow not really worrying that they are sh-ing at all?