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roachemoji · 4 months

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#bo posting #vent #man i need to put this somewhere im #i feel sick im so anxious #4 years ago i got a bullseye rash on my leg #and i went to a clinic bc i didnt know what it was #and all i was given were some steroids for inflammation #and now im!!!!!! freaking out bc that was defenitely a fucking tick bite #lyme disease was never mentioned once. hell i dont even think ticks were???#i think i need to ask my dr for a test at least???#i dont know if im overreacting or if this is like. something i should defenitely do #i dont have any symptoms #maybe fatigue but frankly that could be due to my mental health #ik it can lay dormant for years #im trying so hard not to freak the fuck out right now but im so fucking scared #im gonna call my dr yomorrow i think????#i judt!!!! i just needed to say this outloud somewhere

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realbeefman · 1 year

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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

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daftpatience · 7 months

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one thing I have learned about being poor is that you cannot for a moment stop thinking about it

#theres no peace #every little thing reminds me we are poor #seeing friends having electricity wifi heat food gas. it all costs money. and bills and fees and charges happen all the damn time #im constantly worried that i am measing up somehow or im not keeping track of my finances properly #the person handling our disability assistance application keeps coming back with question after question about my job #and i have so much doubt and fear that ive made some mistake in my answers that will disqualify us from support #and theres this sick backwards stupid thing where applying for and being on disability support is discouraging me from trying to make money #because the more i make the less likely we'll get support but i need to make money to live #its just fucked. and once we're on support i have to make monthly reports of my income so ill feel like im explaining myself all the fuckin #time #cus the system isnt built in a way that makes sense for self employed ppl who have business expenses to account for #sorry for the ranting i cant sleep #truly truly i think poverty is making me a worse persin #more anxious more resentful more jealous more miserable more spiteful #i have so little and there is so little i can do to help it #i want things in a more desparate and even childish way than i used to eant things #spend a lot more time fantasizing about magically having expendable income #not to mention the constant exponential guilt that comes from asking for help or recieving help. its guilt i need to unlearn but i feel it

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kudakii · 3 months

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why must they be made to face the horrors

#look im a serial horror and fictional torture enjoyer. going through togainu no chi when keisuke did the screwdriver thing i cheered #but youji .... youji... he's just a sick anxious boy please leave him be #PLEASE LET HIM BE HAPPY #finished THREE routes (zenya makoto tetsuo 1) and im still like . damn just be omegaverse just let youji be an omega or some shit PLEASE #BUT BUT BUT SWEET POOL IS SO BEAUTIFUL ID SAY IT'S THE SCARIEST N+C GAME IVE PLAYED SO FAR #like tnc is set in a war torn world and akira a child soldier. sldm set in a messed up city and towa a hedonistic masochist. the stuff thst #are happening to them. are to be expected #youji . HE'S JUST A KID WITH LUNG PROBLEMS BRO. HE'S ALWAYS ANXIOUS AND FEELING GUILTY AND REGRETFUL #gonna finish the game once work is done. i need to read up essays on this #sweet pool #sweet pool youji #sweet pool tetsuo #youji sakiyama #tetsuo shironuma #n+c #nitro+chiral #my art #tetsuyou

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not-another-robin · 1 year

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In a constant state of tummy hurts. And being so brave about it

#i my have taken my meds twice today and im STILL so anxious i feel sick #woof :(#......#you know im just now realising that some people dont use 'woof' as a word for frustration #my mom used to do that #so i do it a lot #i s2g im not just making dog sounds #am i a dogboy or catboy....#answer quickly......

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plubbo · 5 months

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STOP i had a dream where tech was alive and the batch found him on tantiss and he explained everything that happened to him and everything made so much sense and then they all defeated hemlock. like im not even kidding. best dream ive had in a long time 😭

an artist's rendition of how i woke up:

#sw tbb #tbb #the bad batch #tbb tech #tech tbb #bad batch #words cant express how anxious i am for the finale #like i feel sick but im so AAAGDJDBDBB!!#yk?

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bunnihearted · 28 days

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#the thing is that even if i always long for a relastionship...#i've never even been in one and idk how they work & im so scared of many things #i have sm troubles and issues with touch. i've gotten to a place where i cant even stand my own sisters or mom bumping into me #and outside i cant stand when someone accidentally walks into me or touching someone's legs on the bus #i hate it. it's not only feeling uncomfortable i feel distressed and scared and sick #smth that seems very normal in like all couples is that youre 'allowed' to touch eo all thge time whenever #that scares me a lot. like touch is so scary for me. and when youre in a relationship theres just this silent agreement that you can touch #eo all the time and thats like... how it's supposed to be.... ://#thats so scary to me. that theres this expectation and demand that if im someones gf they should be allowed to touch me whnever #and like i've never been in love and been in a relationship and been touched by that person so idk #maybe it wouldnt be an issue. but just thinking that.. i dont belong completely to myself and therefore give up #the right to not be touched if and when i feel distressed or uneasy is too scary for me #maybe i could learn to feel safe with them and want their touch but rn it scares me skskks #what if they kiss me when im feeling extremely sex reoulsed and wanna kill myself bc of my inner agony #and they get hurt when i try to pull away?#bc regardless of what ppl say... it is a truth that in a relationship youre exoected to want physical touch at all times #and it is seen as an insult to your partner if there are other forces within u (like trauma etc) that makes u sometimes uncomfortable w it #but yeah idk... the problem is that... in humanity and society #consent is one of the least important and prioritized things. as a humanbeing living u will have your consent disregarded countless times #and for me personally consent is one of the most important things. & thats one of the reasons why its so hard for me to live in this society #like yes i do want to have a partner and touch and be touched #but what if we're in the store and im feeling particularly bad that day and feel like #i need to turn myself inside out and peel my skin off and feel anxious and scared #and they just casually grab my ass?? then i will go home and kill myself :) or have a breakdown in the store lol #i dont want to go thru this but i also dont wanna put someone else thru it #and like it would be different if they asked first if i was ok being touched and i said yes #and if i said no theyd respect me and not get hurt #but like be for real.... almost nobody does that. and almost everyone thinks thats lame #in most relationships nobody asks eo. youre expected to just always be ok with it. if u want to be asked youre silly and demanding #nobody asks their partner abt that. that just dont happen lmao. so idk. :((( i wish i was normal

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protosstar · 4 months

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#tw suicide #tw overdose #tw suicide attempt #a close friend of mine overdosed for the 4th time in as many weeks last night and i just dont know what to feel anymore #she was sent home from the emergencies the 1st time and was staying with me for the 2nd which i still feel guilty about #how i was an idiot for not hiding any meds while i was in the shower #spent the full day at the hospital with her to make sure she was taken into inpatient care and not just dismissed #then yesterday morning shes released from the hospital and winds up in the same place that dismissed her the 1st time in the evening #and now isnt replying to any of my messages #and im just oscillating between feeling sick to my stomach with anxiety and nothing at all #and then feeling guilty when i feel nothing #or guilty that im angry at her because she purposefully did and said thing to hurt me #but shes hurting and i need and want to give her some slack but i just felt that attachment i had to her fade after the last thing she did #and i cant even bring it up with her bc last time i did she spiralled and didnt talk to me for a week #which is fucking worrying when shes so unstable #but ive not been eating or sleeping and just feel awful and anxious #at least now i have xanax for the panic attacks and dont have to rely on alcohol anymore but god #i just want things to get better #vent #delete later

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yutadori · 2 days

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feeling a sudden surge of anxiety while thinking about finding a dentist godddd why is it so difficult to find a good one..... i've needed braces for FOREVER and im mad at my younger self for not trying hard enough to convince my dad to help me get them because i feel like it'll be way more expensive now that i'm an adult -__- i know fuck all about anything and it sucks that i dont have an adult to ask about this kind of stuff this sucksssss why is insurance so annoying why is looking for a doctor soooooo annoyingggggg i hope i die

#fawkkkkkkkkkkk #felt tooth pain and i started to get crazy anxious like what if all my teeth fall out what if im fuckeddddd #i need braces so bad . it's bad . god #why do they have to be thousands of dollars !!!! fuck !!!!!!!#why didnt i do this soonerrrrr why was i so scared lol . like im a bit scared now but like . come onnnnn #fawk #i'm feeling so anxious just thinking about it i wanna throw up #i hate that my immediate response is to think of the worst fucking situation which does NOT help with navigating the situation #bc then it just makes me want to put it off longer which causes more anxiety #im sooooo sick of myself omg . when will i be free #fuck..................#and im too ashamed to talk to anyone about dental stuff because my teeth are so bad . idk if that even makes any SENSE #WHY DOES EVERYTHING HAVE TO COST MONEYYYYYYYY #im so anxious i feel like crying idk why oughhhh god #i hate feeling like i have to take on everything on my own . ouagh #ss

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tomorrowillbeyou · 2 years

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