#i hardly ever use foundation lol

[davekitties]

I know fuck shit about contour and proper blush placement and similar things so like sorry not sorry but im here for the allllll the glitter and the glitter ONLY and I put blush over the rosacia on my cheeks when wearing foundation bc I don't like how my face looks without all the red lol

[kaelleid]

S02E08 Spoilers

Anyway I hated it lol

And this isn't just a "my little guy died" kind of thing. I've thought he was going to die all season; that was not a surprise to me. This is about how tacked on the ending felt.

Izzy spends his dying breaths comforting Ed and telling Ed the crew is his family and loves him. And then Ed immediately leaves the crew to be an innkeeper. Yeah, that was a great and meaningful use of screen time.

If the crew loved Ed and considered him family, I'd really like if they would have showed that instead of just telling us. Because what I saw this season was post-Kraken Ed having one conversation with Fang and that was pretty much it for positive crew interaction. But apparently they love him and they're family, okay.

Also RE: showing and not telling, Ed referring to Izzy as his family. I think I could count the positive interactions between Ed and Izzy across all seasons on Izzy's hoof. They've hardly spoken this season post-Kraken. Where is this coming from? It felt so forced and unearned.

It's frustrating how the scene seems to brush off all of Izzy's development this season, moving away from his toxic relationship with Ed and opening up after surviving a suicide attempt, to spend his last minutes focusing on Ed and saying that he wanted to die.

Anyway forget that, it's wedding time! And now forget that, let's have Ed and Stede run an inn with no prior onscreen discussion! The end!

I got into this fandom because I loved Ed/Stede so much. The potential for cracks in their relationship was there from the start; one of their first conversations together was Ed wanting out of piracy while Stede wanted in. I was really interested to see how this would be resolved, and how they'd move forward together. I don't think the resolution on this front was satisfyingly handled at all. But Ed read a letter and they kissed, so hooray I guess. Why would you ever need to talk anything through and build a solid foundation before living together? It's not like we saw this analog literally go up in flames a few episodes ago.

There was such an odd juxtaposition of spoon-feeding the audience with flashbacks to explain what was going on for obvious things, and then also expecting the audience to do all the legwork for important relationships. What's the relationship between Jim and Oluwande? What made Stede finally decide to leave piracy behind for Ed in S2E8 vs S2E7? Why, according to an interview, is Frenchie apparently captain now instead of Zheng Yi Sao or Oluwande? We're not going to write those conversations, figure it out yourself.

Also, Blackbeard the genius, and Zheng Yi Sao who conquered China's seas, apparently can't come up with a plan better than "Wear uniforms and then walk around with a hostage, whose gun we will not be taking." It just felt so meaningless.

The thing that really gets to me the most is how much I loved S2E1-7. I had some lingering issues, but they didn't bother me because I had faith they'd be resolved (at least, resolved to some extent, given a 3 season arc). And then the last 15 minutes of this episode destroyed that notion. I thought the writing was poor and inconsistent, and it threw everything before it into a completely different light. The things that I was waiting to be built upon were never actually in the blueprints. The cracks in the foundation were covered up with bubblegum. It didn't have good bones.

[frodolives]

I've decided that I would like to understand what my mutuals see in the old man music cinematic universe. I have loved and supported their derangement from afar in my life and would like to dip my toes in, so to speak. so I come to you humble now and ask: where can I get information about the beatles that will make me think about old British boy band members exploring eachothers bodies? if it helps, I dont mind their more well known music, but I've never really dug into it properly.

Oh man. You've no idea how tough this is to answer lol. My derangement regarding the Beatles has been built up over 6 years now and I hardly remember how it even began.

I suppose that yes, if you're new, you should begin with listening to all their music because it's genuinely very good stuff. Their filmography is also good. If you haven't seen any of their films yet, it's a great place to start because the Beatles' looks, personalities, and sense of humour are just as important to understanding their appeal as their music is (in order: A Hard Day's Night (1964), Help! (1965), Magical Mystery Tour (1967), Yellow Submarine (1968), and Let It Be (1970) - most of these should be free to watch on Dailymotion).

If you're very serious about the Beatles and into the history on an actual academic level, this is a pretty good list of free resources to browse through.

My personal introduction into becoming an actual gay Beatles truther was a series of fan-made documentaries on YouTube called Understanding Lennon-McCartney. It's been a very long time since I've seen them, but I remember them blowing my mind and making me believe in the concept of soulmates. As fun as it is to make jokes about the Beatles exploring each other's bodies, there's something genuinely profound and beautiful about Lennon and McCartney's relationship that shouldn't be overlooked. Chris Evans said it best:

The Understanding Lennon-McCartney documentaries series is also just the most comprehensive overview of McLennon that I know of, even if it's semi-outdated now. I watched them in 2019 and even in just the last 5 years, a lot of new McLennon info has come out. We are truly living in the golden age of Beatles RPF.

One of the biggest recent developments was Peter Jackson's 2021 Get Back series. They're basically a revamped version of Let It Be (1970) and also required viewing at some point. I know a lot of Beatles fans who were introduced to the band via Get Back so I suppose it's not a bad place to start if you're so inclined, though since they chronicle some of the last days of the band, I think they can be best appreciated if you're already at least somewhat familiar with the boys.

After watching all of that, I think you'll have a pretty decent foundation of what people on Tumblr are talking about. Then oddly enough, I'd consider Tumblr the best resource for info. There's more in-depth Beatles talk on here than any other website as far as I know and, in my experience, I learned a lot just by freely exploring various tags and blogs.

There's also the Beatles biopic cinematic universe which is worth dipping your toes into if you like RPF and want an entertaining way to learn the gist of the band's history. There's a lot of low budget biopics out there about those boys. Even I haven't seen them all yet so I wouldn't say watching them is an absolute must, though there's three iconic "gay john lennon biopics" that are entertaining bc of how genuinely gay they are: The Hours and Times 1991 (about John's relationship to Brian Epstein), Backbeat 1994 (about John's relationship to Stuart Sutcliffe), and Two of Us 2000 (about John's relationship to Paul McCartney; the most iconic and revered of all Beatles biopics).

I don't really know what other reccs to give. If anybody wants to chime in with other suggestions, go forth! There's just so much Beatles lore and it's easy to become overwhelmed by it all so definitely take your time lol. And if you ever have any specific questions about the Beatles, I'd be very happy to answer them!

Happy RPFing!

[just-me-venting-cause-life-sucks]

The Biggest Gold Star A Student Can Earn

lol. Welcome back to "I thought of a thing and now I must write". It's placed under the cut again, for convenience

Getting used to the suitcase was a... long process. Diggers wasn't even sure if he was used to it yet, if he ever would be used to it.

It's a big enough place that you could easily just never run into someone, but it's also small enough that everyone is friends by proxy. Diggers is no exception, forming a close bond with Regulus and Zima, even if the poet didn't speak much, and ending up as a sort of friend with everyone else.

So, when he was told that he would be going on a mission with people he had never met before, he wasn't too surprised. Vertin tends to give a rundown of what the other members are like before they go off on a mission, and none of them sound all that bad.

What he didn't expect, however, was that one of those people would be... Her.

He doesn't have anything against 37, he doesn't know her well enough for that. But as soon as he realizes where he remembers that name from, he hates it with a passion.

Diggers trys to refrain from talking to 37 directly, although he knows it would do them both some good. He hates thinking about his time in Manus Vindictae, and it isn't her fault that she reminds him of that.

The silence doesn't stop 37 from recognizing him, however. She knows his number, and she knows it well, although she feels like something is... different. She shrugs it off, trying to talk with Diggers as if they were old friends. He doesn't respond to anything she says, he just curls into himself a little bit more.

The mission is simple. Go to a place, get whatever macguffin the Foundation wants now, and deliver it back to base. Diggers has done countless of these in the past, even before he joined Vertin's team.

Of course, things are bound to go wrong. And things do, infact, go wrong, because the Manus tend to have their noses poking in the same places as the Foundation.

The Manus Believers prove to be stronger than most. One even takes a swing at Bkornblume's arm that almost chops it clean off. Tooth Fairy is mainly there to just keep them alive at this point.

Diggers ends up with a face full of dirt, the only things in his nose being blood and moss. One of the Manus Believers digs its heal into his back, and he can hear his spine crack into a position it definitely should not be in.

37 is quick to react, but even her help isn't enough to get the foot off his back. He thinks that these must be his last moments, so he treats them as such, and lets his mind give him as many ideas as it can master. He can hardly understand half of them, but 37 is still at the front of his memories right now...

He feels like he's truly losing it, but it won't matter if these are his last moments. He wants to spend these last moments feeling some sort of conclusion, to find some sort of answer to everything. And his mind gives him a circle.

He trys to make sense of it. Is it a circle in the same way his glasses are made of circle shapes? Or maybe it is a circle in the way 37 taught, how it will never be perfect and how it has no corners. Or maybe it's something he doesn't understand, that he will never understand.

37 sends another attack against the Manus Believer, and it takes his foot off of Diggers so it can attack back. Diggers knows that this is just delaying the inevitable. Tooth Fairy is still focused on how Bkornblume's arm is holding on by a thread of muscle, and he doesn't want to burned her with even more. So he takes the extra moments he was granted to try to figure things out.

Circle... What could it even mean? It doesn't have a specific color, or any defining features outside of being a circle. He can feel his vision slowly give up on him, his legs feel too heavy to move, and it probably isn't a good idea to move anyways.

Maybe he should take a creative view on it. Maybe the circle is a stand in for life and death, and this isn't actually his end. The Ouroboros, no clear start and no clear end. Maybe it isn't about him specifically, and life will continue on as if nothing happened. Then, something clicks, and he gets an idea.

Moving isn't a good idea, and he knows that, but he moves anyways. His legs are shaking, and he can hardly even tell if he's standing or laying down. His aim is just as shaky as his legs, but he puts up his bubble gun, and aims anyways.

The gun fires, and he loses feeling completely at that point. The last thing he sees is the bubble floating in the air, not a sphere, but a tetrahedron.

Diggers slowly opens his eyes again. His entire body feels numb, but he is... breathing.

He doesn't quite know where he is, but he knows he's being carried piggyback style. His vision is blurry, but he can make out the vague shape of 37 nearby. She's calm, and if she's calm, it means that they're safe. He looks down at her hands, and sees the macguffin, a black box.

He blinks, and he must have passed out again, because the next thing he knows, he's on the couch in the living room of the suitcase. He slowly sits up, his body begging to just keep laying down. Then he notices 37, sitting on the ground, staring up at him.

"Morning!" Diggers doesn't respond, just giving a nod. 37 takes it as an invitation, and moves up to the couch. "How is your body feeling?"

"Tired, and... heavy."

"I see... Do you feel strong enough to talk right now?"

"I... guess?"

37 smiles slightly wider, and pulls out something from behind her back. "Diggers... As your former teacher, and new friend, I'd like to give you this laurel wreath."

Diggers stares in shock at the bundle of flowers carefully crafted into a wreath. "You'd... what?"

37 doesn't explain, placing the wreath onto Diggers' head. "There we go! I didn't think it would be possible, but I guess you are really odd... How did you change your number?"

"I... what?"

"Your number. It was a negative infinite repeating decimal, but now it's positive. How did you do it?"

"I'm not quite sure. I just... I realized something."

"Hm? What was that?"

"Math isn't the language of the universe, it's people trying to give it a voice. It's all about perspective... Just like art."

[unorthodox-oblivion]

I'll tell you about my day then you tell me yours?

I tried foundation today, my friend is a makeup artist and influencer and she gifted me foundation but i never wear it so for her i tried it and i think it looks good but ugh im not a full coverage girl. i don't even wear concealer but we have a special event tomorrow so I'll wear it so she can see it on me lol. also im drinking a mango juice + tequila drink right now and it's great but i should've used Cachaça but i forgot i had it. this tequila is very good and expensive though, someone got it as a gift for my dad. do you drink alcohol? if so what do you prefer?

Deal!

I'm not much of a makeup girl. I hardly ever wear it and I definitely do not know what I'm doing when it comes to wearing it. But it can be fun and I'm happy you had a good time trying it and think it looks good. You don't have to succumb to the pressure of wearing it, though. Just be yourself and do what makes you happy.

I hope your special event is good, tomorrow! I'm sure it will be!

Oooooh you have Cachaça??? What kind? I do drink alcohol, on occasion. Not ironically, tequila has ALWAYS been my favorite drink and I can handle it well. I don't mix it with anything, though. I'm more of a "shots" kinda gal than a fruity drink gal. I do love a good Moscow Mule if I'm going for drinks (but that's vodka). I do enjoy beer, as well. Honestly, if there's alcohol in it, I'll probably drink it. But fruity things that aren't lemon/lime are not for me.

My day was alright. Got some minor, but good news. Had lunch out with my favorite coworkers (instead of either taking lunch from home or buying and eating at work) and my day mostly consisted of recutting a video so we could have three shorter, 9x16 versions of it and subtitling them for social media and a long ass meeting about how we can optimize our workflow and now I've been tasked with organizing all the projects at work before ingest, considering all the requirements for each project (not a burden, I love organization and as the most organized person there, I will definitely be good at making life easier for everyone else by keeping things tidy).

Got to play with my boss' kid too and I'm her favorite "daddy's work auntie" too. It was fun, she didn't wanna let go of my hand when we all left.

[khaire-traveler]

So I'm very new to paganism and this new spirituality path. I felt really strongly called to a specific deity, a minor Greek goddess, but they're a deity that hardly seems to be worshipped and there's not a lot of info on her and everyone here that has/does work with her doesn't seem very active now. Which like I know is not necessarily recommended for beginners (but when have I ever made things easy for myself?) Though I'm confident in being called/drawn to this deity I've also been having bouts of doubt? Just general struggle in faith as I've tried to figure things out and figure out what feels right and just doubt in general that maybe I can't or shouldn't do this? Perhaps any words of advice?

Hey, Nonny, thanks for the ask!

I think doubt is a very natural and human thing, especially when worshipping entities that we can't physically see or hear. I, myself, have been having some doubts about Hermes lately, and I've been worshipping him for almost three years now. No matter how much experience you have, I think it's very natural to struggle with doubt.

That said, it makes sense that you'd be struggling with these feelings, especially with an entirely new path and a minor deity. In the beginning, it's always a bit difficult to lay down a strong foundation of faith, and it's certainly not something that comes right away. Give yourself some time to adjust to the new belief system; try to remind yourself that you're are just starting, and typically, the most impactful spiritual experiences you have will come a bit later down the line. Allow this to take time, allow your faith the time it needs to develop. And when it comes to worshipping a minor deity, I think that those of us who worship more "popular" deities have the advantage of community. A good community is vital in keeping faith alive and strong, in my opinion, so my advice to you is definitely to get more involved with the Hellenic Polytheist community as a whole. Make new friends, join Discord servers, follow lots of creators/bloggers - do what you need to do to feel supported and held by a faithful, strong community (also, you don't have to follow polytheists; you can focus more on fellow pagans, but I just feel you will find a stronger community amongst polytheists).

Along with all of that, I just want to say that there are no beginner deities. Sure, it might be easier to follow more "popular" deities, but if you feel drawn to a minor deity, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that. I have known many people who started out worshipping minor deities - and when I say minor, I mean REALLY minor - and although it was difficult for them to find information on said deities, they were able to build strong, lasting relationships with their deities. It doesn't matter how major or minor a god is; if you feel that connection, follow it. Take hold of it, and let it grow into something beautiful, if you so wish. I commend you for worshipping this deity, despite the challenges you face doing so. In my opinion, that's very admirable.

I hope this helps! If you have any more questions or need anymore advice, please feel free to reach out. I'm always happy to at least try to help lol. Have a nice night/day! Take good care of yourself! ☺️🧡

[ciaomichaella]

My foot/ankle survived the #ProjectFX performance WOOT! I did a terrible job of taking pics so will have to depend on my teammates (I already yoinked the group pics Brit posted; waiting for our director’s pics 😬). Had to wear all 5 special bracelets today both to cover up the wristband entirely and for extra luck because of my own lower body injury. Note to self: please stop trying to just pull a fake half side split EVER! It’s not a good idea, you’re not 18 anymore. You either take forever to recover from an injury or you never fully recover (*cough metatarsalgia from cheer). . . Foundation, concealer & mascara - @ilmakiage Face primer, eyeshadow primer, eyeshadows, bronzer, lip gloss & setting spray - @urbandecay Blush - @narsissist Highlight - @juviasplace Contour - @kevynaucoin Translucent powder - @lauramercier Lip liner - @makeupforever Eyeliner & lashes - @kisslashes . . One of my #AftaShock teammates (Laurel) actually recommended #IlMakiage to me (she gave me a mascara before the WDO performance). I’m trying out their two foundations & one of their concealers right now. They recommend using it for an entire week to really see how it works on your face. I hardly ever wear makeup so the testing phase will likely run a month or so LOL. . . 💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺 #teamfatass #loseanolsentwin #fatdancer #dancing #performing #cardio #hiphop #progressnotperfection #dancerforlife #performer #dance #sore #everythinghurts #ibuprofenforbreakfast #geriatricdancer #newnormal #concusseddancer #postconcussion #saturday #weekend #sandiego #AftaShockSanDiego 💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺💃🏻🕺 https://www.instagram.com/p/CkUyeBOOJ24/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[crowrave]

Lmao fun facts about Resel cause I hardly ever focus on him

I consider Resel as an OC for the SCP universe, however, that is not his origins.

He only works in the SCP universe. He is not from that world.

He actually lives the Pokémon universe! A leader of an organization who helps people and Pokémon in need. However, behind the scenes, he works with the SCP universe in order to protect his company, along with for his own personal gain.

He’s technically a multi-universal traveling god, but who cares about that lol

He isn’t a Pokémon, but he is capable of using Pokémon Moves. Although, he’s heavily limited in his abilities.

He was punished to take human form after attempting to stage a coup against the higher gods. He is immortal, and wanders around the world in search of a way to get revenge.

He normally stays stationary in Kalos, but commonly travels for diplomatic meetings and such with Regional Champions and other organizations.

He has a full team of six, with a few of them having special Pokéballs.

Talonflame — Regular Pokéball

Blastoise — Dive Ball

Lucario — Great Ball

Zoroark — Ultra Ball

Alakazam — Regular Pokéball

Yveltal — Luxury Ball

Resel hardly ever uses Yveltal in both daily life and/or battle. The only time he ever takes it out is during a crisis, or time-of-need.

None know of who, or what, Resel truly is. The ones that were aware have long died out. There have been the occasional conspiracy theories; but none have been convincing enough, or hold no merit.

Resel is generally a polite, well-mannered guy that always has a professional air to him. However, the SCP Foundation, especially the D-Class, always manage to bring out the worst of him, and frequently cause him to lose his temper.

To prevent any risk of his irritation or attitude to present itself while he’s at his day-job (being a good member of society in the Pokémon universe), he takes his anger and frustration out on the D-Class through a series of experiments and tormenting them.

His favorite thing to do is leave mirrors in D-Class cells, and walk out from the glass in front of them at night. He does nothing. Just stares at watches them. He’s driven a couple of the poor souls mad doing it. He takes great joy in this fact.

[kalisbaby]

I understand mistakes are a part of learning, but I think since I'm self teaching myself Korean I'm more frustrated at the mistakes and a lot less lenient on them because, frankly, it makes me feel stupid. Like seeing the levels progress but not my knowledge feels fake and undeserved and THAT, specifically, agitates me.

I so badly wish I could afford language classes. Cuz, like, the reason I'm excelling at Spanish is because I already know the language. Like the foundation is there I'm just refamiliarizng myself with it. So if I make a mistake it's often due to laziness on my part or simple forgetfulness but I hardly ever beat myself up over it (unless I make too many simple mistakes then I'm like, "Get it together!).

But with Korean, I'm never really sure of the foundation I'm building and the lessons are just flying by. Like I KNOW there has to be a better way to learn this than what I'm doing.

And like even the part I was originally succeeding at (pronunciation), I'm failing now. Like I can't remember ANY vowel sounds. And I really, REALLY don't like that.

I think I'ma let my Duolingo streak expire for a bit and focus on building a genuine foundation. I feel like I've said this before lol but I'm really gonna do it. Cuz like the streak is just fueling my competitive nature and not my actual education.

On the other hand, it's not bad for my Spanish, but, again, I'm not really using it for learning there so that feels irrelevant as hell.

Also, and perhaps worst of all, I'm just not having fun anymore. Like y'all remember the silly shit I posted on my other blog about learning Korean? Now I can literally feel my face sour while on that damn app. And the whole point of a hobby is personal enjoyment. Take that away and you have nothing. I don't mind challenges but when it stops being fun??? When progress is visibly disintegrating??? That's a whole ass problem and a half.

I'm not gonna give up tho. I'm just gonna go back to square one. I've taught myself things before so I can definitely do this. But I'ma just cry about it first lol.

[studyari]

march update

it’s officially midterms time. i thought i would post an update becuase this semester has took SO much out of me. i finished my internship funded by the national science foundation in january, can’t say i made too many ties there since i hardly saw my superiors. BUT i did get to know the metrology lab pretty well and even got their machine working. going into it i did NOT imagine i could accomplish that but i felt so good getting it working! i even made a little overturn training manual and gave it over to them. 

okay so starting this semester i am in my gateway courses. so a bunch of physics courses at one time ugh plus i was taking differential and linear algebra. i got so stressed out with the workload that i had a dream where i crashed into a forest and the airbags went off lol. that same morning i dropped my lab and differential equations. it was just WAYYY too much for me. 

i’m still a full time student so it was clear i was doing too much. hmm okay so i’m in my gateway courses so mathematical physics, classical mechanics, and modern physics. i knew i was going to struggle with classical mechanics because kinematics alone was hard for me to grasp and it’s basically dynamics. i didn’t apply as an engineering major literally because i didn’t want to take dynamics LOL i struggled in statics. Of course im taking the same class just named something else and a lot harder T_T. i also wanted to get some undergrad research experience and work in an electronic materials lab but yeah i’m just tooooo busy it was a good idea though lmao.

okay but honestly mechanics is the hardest class for me, modern physics is my most interesting class, and mathematical isn’t too bad even though i suck at math because our teacher grades us mostly on completion and work shown. the hardest thing about this semester is just the schedule itself. so we have to take all three at the same time for some reason or you wouldn’t be able to register for the class ummm overkill much?! and the schedule is from 10am - 7:30 pm ughhhh. I have to take the bus there so add on a couple hours and then i have to walk to class. ohhh i miss the online/hybrid classes so much lol. by the time i’m in my last class i am literally asleep. don’t worry ive started drinking coffee.

looking on the brighter sides of things i’m being a lot more involved in campus and i’m really liking getting to know my classmates! i am so antisocial and awkward so im surprised. i’ve been going to the women in stem meetings, society of astronomy, nsbe coding workshops, ieee circuits workshops, career fairs, and boba socials just for funsies. i realize school isnt all about good grades and killing yourself for that A. i’ve even had more time to spend with my friends (it is so true what they say about making time not having it lol). almost every other weekend we see each other and have little celebrations, watch movies, have study dates, go to the park, get coffee/boba, go shopping etc. and facetiming my friends back in arizona as well! one of my club advisors told me its actually the b and c students that do better in the job market and isnt that freaking crazy! ever since then ive been reminding myself that being perfect and getting a’s isnt always worth it. i have other life to live too and people wont necessarily fault me for that.

okay as for my grades though i have been bombing every single quiz like a 50 or LESS LMAO. that’s with me studying at least a whole day before. however as of now i have passed every exam so far. so my current grades right now are 90% in modern physics, 98% mathematical physics, 100% classical mechanics (but a lot f the grades arent in yet), and a 99% in linear algebra. See and thats me not killing myself this semester so im super happy i decided to not overdo it, it really doesnt make as much as a difference as i thought lmao clearly.

looking forward to spring break! i was in therapy/behavioral health all last year trying to tackle my anxiety and i would say its been helping. its all about making a choice. i’m also in physical therapy now for the next couple of months and then once summer starts i’ll start going back to therapy again. this post might seem positive but this semester i have never felt more unmotivated or stupid. some days i feel like i cant do this and that everyone else around me is so much more capable. but i know as soon as i give into those thoughts that i’ll end up giving up and i don't want to give up. my boyfriend also has been feeling the same way. 

i also lost my wallet this week soooo all my documentation and identification is gone ugh. i had a full on breakdown but am getting that figured out. i’m going to an applications of black holes seminar tomorrow and i am super excited about that. took my linear algebra exam today too, (WHY IS THAT CLASS SO HARD BTW). i havent yet applied but theres this summer research opportunity happening at the university of toronto (dunlap institute of physics and astrophysics) and i think im going to apply! i really want to travel this year and experience something new!

[dirt-grub]

anyone else miss being in a friend group of nd kids in elementary school where everyone had one pokemon that was just their all time favorite so youd make art of a whole team of different pokemon but in your head you were like yea that ones so and so and that ones me :) and just those associations never left your head

[catgrassplantdad]

Love your tags! when we say we like s10 or s11 people think it means we agree with all the writers choices and what not. Like NO some of the stuff they did was uncanny and I will never take it seriously but that’s the thing about those seasons it doesn’t have to be serious. You don’t have to accept everything. I rather watch Gallavich be dumb and silly than go through heartbreak. Anything i didn’t like doesn’t exist to me lol. I wouldn’t change seeing them getting married for anything.

Oh hey thanks!! So I know that post and your ask aren't necessarily completely about Ian and Mickey, but that's the direction I took this answer in and I'm not gonna go back and change all that, so here we go:

That's the thing, it's not like I liked everything about those seasons. I was cringing along with everyone else sometimes. But in regards to Ian and Mickey, we had so many seasons of them hardly ever being able to catch a break, and then tptb brought them back to us just to show them getting married and learning how to navigate a relationship that's suddenly got a stable foundation. Like??? Shit isn't crumbling out from under them anymore! And their story gets so lighthearted compared to what we'd seen them go through before. We finally got to have real fun with them in a way that wasn't as available in canon before. Their problems became so small in relation to the problems they were dealing with before, besides maybe Terry presenting a good amount of conflict periodically (in a way that I found really fucking compelling, I might add. 11x06 still makes my brain feel like it's being microwaved). I love the early seasons. They wouldn't be who they are without that background. But holy shit is it nice to watch them worry about way smaller shit.

And you're right, you can ignore the shit you didn't like, but I think all the dumb shit in there paints an interesting and complicated picture! They're not perfect. They're idiots a good amount of the time. But in the end they always come back to each other and choose their relationship over all else. Even if they're going to be pains in the ass about it first.

I also wouldn't change seeing them getting married for anything. I still can't believe they gave that to us. And then season 11 is full of moments of them being so painfully married. It's incredible!

Please don't take this as me defending Shameless as a flawless piece of media. That's not what I'm saying. But sometimes people talk about these last seasons like they ruined the show, and to me they just fucking didn't? Ian and Mickey are still one of the most interesting queer couples I've seen on television, and that is in large part because of those last two seasons.

Anyway, I literally wouldn't be here in this space if it weren't for seasons 10 and 11. They got a happy ending, and that's what I wanted for them.

[hotaru987sensei]

Hiragana and Katakana Part. 2

I hope everything is comming along well with your studies! Are you guys ready for part 2, because I know I am!

So lets get started.

Now that we’ve got a handling on the sounds that are the foundation of being able to speak Japanese its time to expand on that a little bit. As some of you may have noticed the letters that would make up the sounds for

D, G, P, B, J, and Z are missing. Theres just one group of sounds for us to learn after this so lets not waste any more time!

First of all take a few seconds to look at the chart above and see which characters are and aren’t included. Also look and see whats different between these characters and how they normally look.

Are you back? What did you notice?

The first thing you should’ve seen is that not all of the characters are included. It’s only the characters from the H, S, K, and T groups. The second should be the symbols on top of these letters. It's these two symbols that give us our second variety of sounds.

Those symbols are called Dakuten and Handakuten.

Dakuten

This is the quotation looking symbol that you see over the letters. Of our special letters most of them use this with the exception of one. The term for little quotations being added is usually shortened to Tenten. So if someone says you’re missing a tenten in this sense they’re probably referring to the quotation like symbol on the character.

The ones that use this are our K, S, T, and H line. So for example:

1) か Ka with the the dakuten becomes が Ga. Same with eveything else in the line.

かKa ぎGIぐGu げGe ごGo

2) さSa gets changed to ざZa. There is an exception with is (shi)し. It instead gets changed to (Ji)じ.

ざZa じJi ずZu ぜZe ぞZo

3) (Ta)た goes to (Da)だ. There are two special ones in this row, which is (chi)ち and (tsu)つ.

Chi with the dakuten is hardly used(I could be wrong), but I’ve rarely if ever come across it in this form. I cant even think of any words that use this. If you do come across it then it would be read similar to how (ji)じ. When typing it in on a keyboard you would write it as Du

As for the second one there are two ways it could be spelled out when writing it in English: (zu) or (dzu). When learning it I personally like the (dzu) one because it sounds closer to how the letter should sound, but for spelling purposes it probably looks better with the (zu) reading. When typing it on a keyboard you’d write it as Du.

だTa *ぢJi/Di *づ Zu/Dzu/Du でDe どDo

4) The last one in this list is our good friend the ‘H’ family. Now unlike the other groups, the ‘H’ family is pretty big. Of course we have the one that adds the tenten. It changes our はHa to ばBa

ばBa びBi ぶBu べBe ぼBo

This also brings us to the second symbol that changes the sound.

2. Handakuten

Luckily this symbol is only attached to one group, and that’s our ‘H’ group. Which is pretty nice since we don’t have to remember too much lol. It’s already a lot to take in. So if you see a small little circle on the letter it changes ‘H’ to ‘P’.

For example:

ぱPa ぴPi ぷPu ぺPe ぽPo

For this one, similar to how the first one had a shortened form of tenten, in this case if you forgot to write the circle on the character people might start saying maru. Maru is the Japanese word for circle.

Of course, all of this can be translated to the katakana characters too.

カキクケコ　ガギグゲゴ

サシスセソ　ザジズぜぞ

タチツテト　ダヂヅデド

ハヒフヘホ　バビブベボ　パピプペポ

We still have one more set of character combinations to learn and then we can get into some sentence and basic grammar stuff! I know it’s taking a while but please bare with me lol. You can always send me asks for any sorts of questions if you’re doing self study ^^

Hiragana and Katakana part 1

Hiragana and Katakana part 3

[deer-knight]

they/them

a small behind the scenes ramble of how and why i edit photos.

every photo is a lie in it’s own way, and the history of editing how we look goes back to the beginning of any and all representational media. here’s how i go about editing my photos to give you folks a better understanding of my personal philosophy.

i have very strict personal boundaries around editing. 99% of the time, i’m fixing color and light balances. for portraits like the one above, i will edit out my dermatillomania scars and scabs on my face. sometimes i don’t need to either because makeup is enough or i miraculously didn’t mangle my skin for a few weeks, but usually there’s some on my chin and/or forehead.

i edit these because i want to manage my condition better, and i don’t want to damage my skin the way i do. it’s motivating for me to edit them out and know i can do better. i want to care for myself.

when i photograph others it’s their choice if they want their skin retouched for acne, scars, etc. i strictly do not retouch body type, face shape, or anything of the like.

the photos above are a before and after, respectively, of one of my recent posts. this is getting long so i’ll continue my rambles under the cut.

i’ve never had a smartphone, but i've noticed that there are a number of filters on camera phones that can wildly change one’s appearance both in photos and videos. i feel it’s important for folks to know that i create photos a bit more grounded in realism. my videos in particular are not edited beyond light and color balancing. i wear a bit of makeup usually for planned photos - concealer or foundation for the skin, and occasionally i’ll fill in my brows (though they hardly need it :P). if i’m feeling extra dramatic i’ll do some eyeshadow or eyeliner. anything beyond that is beyond my makeup knowledge entirely lol.

i have been a portrait photographer for many years now, and i’ve been taught every trick in the book to achieve the impossible perfect portrait. it’s a big book, by the way, and frighteningly so. as a budding photographer i used to follow it as best i could to please clients, but i disregard most of it now that i have boundaries. i've only ever been a freelance photographer, so the pressure i used to put on myself was unnecessary anyways.

i was inspired to make this post because of the bernadette banner video that came out recently, detailing the history of photo retouching and editing in the edwardian and victorian eras and beyond. i’ve linked it here. she does a brilliant job explaining the modern history of how we present ourselves, and how influencers are presented in media.

in conclusion, yes i edit my photos. no, i don’t change how people, including myself, fundamentally look. if you have any questions about any of my photos or you wish to see an unedited version of a recent post, i am happy to do my best to provide helpful answers. i’ve been taking photos for a while now - i’m happy to answer general photography questions too!

i hope this has been helpful and/or informative for folks. <3 cheers!

&

[lemony-snickers]

Day 9:  (4) Calling Birds The Cat and the Hound (A03 Link Here)

this one is for an artist whose beautiful watercolors and meta analysis never fail to light up my day & my dash.  i am not going to tag him only because we’ve hardly ever interacted and i’m not sure how he’d feel about some rando linking him to a smut blog without warning, lol.  but i’m sure you all know who i’m talking about because how could you not also be an admirer of his work?

Summary:  Cat sits.  He waits.  He listens. Pairing:  None (Kakashi & Tenzo friendship bonds ftw) Word Count:  725 (hooray, a short one today!) Warnings:  none! .

Tenzo sat with his legs crossed, elbows balanced on his knees and masked face set atop his fists.

He sighed.

It wasn’t as though he wasn’t used to surveillance.  He’d been trained his whole life to sit in the shadows, to blend into his surroundings for hours and days at a time.

But that did not diminish the monotony of it.  Days of waiting on a tree branch without relief—no human interaction, no real food other than soldier pills—was lonely and cold and dull.

Coo-coocoo-coo.

Tenzo lifted his head, turning toward the source of the bird call; a location he could not see in the darkness of evening some fifty meters away where his Commander sat, likely just as unimpressed by their predicament.

It was a status check, asking if Tenzo had any updates from his position.

The young ANBU moved the Cat mask from his face, using it to brush his long brown hair out of his eyes as he cupped his gloved hands over his mouth and responded.

Keroo-keroo.

All quiet.

The pair had been assigned to a known location for several missing nin who had banded together. Mostly defectors from Kiri and Suna, responsible for a rash of robberies along a few prominent trade routes in the area. The hideout, as far as they could tell, had two main entrances and each man was posted someplace with a good view of one of them.

For Tenzo, that meant a tall, gnarled pine tree sticky with sap and dropping cones on his head when he tried to nap.  For Kakashi, it meant being wedged between two boulders in a craggy outcropping half-obscured by more of the dark conifers.

Caw-coco.

Tenzo snickered quietly.

The calls themselves shouldn’t have been funny; bō and circle.

But from the way Kakashi had drawn out the first caw, Tenzo knew the older man was not facing down a deadly ring of wooden staff-wielding thugs, but rather that he was making his feelings on their assignment known.

Booooring.

Tenzo’s response was quick.

Kuroow!

And as Cat slipped his mask back over his face, knowing Kakashi would not continue to engage in conversation for fear of drawing attention, he hoped his senpai would understand his meaning by using the directional call for right.

I agree.

Tenzo returned his attention to the mouth of the cave he’d been watching for four days and hoped he would soon be able to leave this mission behind, another memory he’d never need to revisit once the reports had been filed.

His thoughts drifted to the silver-haired man wearing a Hound mask fifty meters southwest of him, as they often did these days.

Tenzo had read Kakashi Hatake’s file, of course.  Mother dead, father killed by his own hand, friends killed in action, sensei lost against the Nine-Tailed Fox.  And Tenzo thought it would be easy for a man like that to be every ounce the cold-blooded killer many of his peers made him out to be.

But a man who had truly earned the title of Friend Killer wouldn’t make his subordinate laugh during a long stakeout using bird calls, would he?

Kakashi was often like that, cracking strange jokes.  Welcoming Tenzo into the locker room after he’d introduced himself using the false name bestowed upon him by the Foundation.

There was a kindness to his Senpai, a lightness dancing somewhere within the shadows that Tenzo had never seen in any of his other Commanders; that he did not see in most of the other ANBU Captains, even.

He was still trying to figure out how all the light and darkness fit inside the man who was slowly turning from soldier to savior to comrade to friend.  The more distance Tenzo put between himself and Danzo Shimura and ROOT, the closer he felt to Kakashi.

He hoped that might continue.

Scree-scree.

Movement.

Tenzo’s shoulders tensed and he stood, balanced precariously on the branch he’d been stationed on for seemingly endless hours.  He stretched his neck from left to right, listening to the soft popping of the tendons as he loosened himself for the coming fight.  Pulling his tanto from its sheath, he took off into the night, toward his senpai.  Toward his friend.

He didn’t need to respond with a bird call this time, he knew his Senpai would be expecting him.

[canmom]

ideally i would be able to produce analytic writing like that, rather than just regurgitating wikipedia articles. it’s tough... on the one hand you have to build a foundation in order to do anything, and writing these articles is one of the best ways i’ve found to absorb a topic. so it’s useful for me, and i’ll never be able to analyse shit if i don’t have a map in my head of the field. i’ve learned a ton about film in the last couple years and it’s largely thanks to doing this.

on the other? the resulting article is usually just a summary of one or two sources which you could perfectly well read or skim yourself. i’m rarely ever bringing anything especially original. which seems like it’s a bit of a waste of everybody’s time. i could just as well link to the wiki article on hong kong action cinema or the page on sakugabooru or animetudes or w/e as summarise it like a mediocre school essay. at the very least i should pirate some actual books rather than just copy what’s already on the internet.

the solution seems like it ought to be to just write these notes for myself and leave them on my hard drive. i seem to find very little motivation to do that though, even though i don’t think people tend to read them unless i’m writing about like, disney or ghibli lol (and then i think it’s a case of, i tend to be a little more cynical and humorous and that’s probably a useful dimension)

i usually don’t finish these until minutes before the actual movie night in question these days, so it’s hardly like i’m giving you something to read and have in mind when you’re watching. so like what is this even for? i feel like i’m having the same problem i started to get back in the ‘livereads’ days, when i would summarise without adding any personal opinion or analysis.

perhaps i do it because, at this point i’ve managed 88 straight weeks of animation night without a gap, and that has basically become a ritual, one of the few regular things in my life?