I finished narcissus and goldmund like a week ago but narcissus’s last monologue to goldmund is still living rent-free in my head. Like goldmund is lying there dying after years of fucking around and being a garbage person and narcissus comes in with “let me tell you today how much i love you, how much you have always meant to me, how rich you have made my life.” Just like. Am i not supposed to weep? Am i supposed to be ok that this stoic, unfeeling man finally told his friend that he loved him?? It does so much to my heart
watching jerry lewis ad-lib at the '59 academy awards when jerry wald cut out too many numbers from the show and it ended 20 mins early... dean martin is seen taking an award from the table and dancing away with it
sorry i make stan drive around in a 60's-70's era ford bronco in every fic, sorry i describe the interior so lovingly, sorry i write in detail about how it feels to drive it--- it's just my dream car and im projecting
the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again
do you ever see a person and you are overcome with incredible fondness? and you just think "oh." but not in a romantic or sexual way you are just filled with warmth and it makes you happy, it just does. and you think "i'm so happy you exist. i'm happy you are somewhere out there in the world, doing your thing". it's love but also not entirely
like people are lovely and i feel it in my entire chest like a burning candle that smells like roses and a sunny day