#i just think pete looks so cute in the like 5 seconds he's in the vid lol. save me mania pete. i'm in love with you mania pete. unfortunate

[judasisgayriot]

I got nothing but dreams inside

[riordanness]

he isn’t you [p.parker]

1.1K wordcount

requested: no

warnings: slightly abusive/manipulative relationship (not w peter)

[a/n: old writing, proceed with a cringe warning]

I walked with my head down through the crowded hallway of my school, Midtown School of Science and Technology. Kids busted around me, pushing and shoving, kissing and making out, yelling and crying and fighting.

"Hey." Someone touched my arm. My best friend, Peter Parker. His brown eyes searched mine, and he looked worried. I could tell, because whenever he's worried, his forehead crumples and his nose wrinkles, in this really strange, but somehow cute way.

"Hey," I said back, smiling slightly. "You're cute when you're worried."

"What?" Peter looked taken aback. His hand dropped from my arm, and he stared at me blankly.

I laughed. "Never mind. What's up?"

"Oh... Nothing. It's fine." He smiled, but I could tell it was forced. I didn't push it though. Peter and I had been best friends since we were five, and i food read him like a book, so I knew something was wrong. Either way, I wasn't going to force him into saying anything. If he wanted to tell me, he would.

I nodded. "Okay then. I'm looking for Jace... Have you seen him?" Jace was my boyfriend. I didn't think Peter liked him much though, because whenever I brought Jace up in conversation, Peter always tensed up and quickly changed the subject.

"No." Peter shook his head. "How- how's everything going with him? Everything okay? You're happy with him...?"

I smiled. Peter was so sweet. He'd always looked out for me, and did everything he could to help make me feel better.

"Yeah, everything's great," I lied. To tell the truth, everything wasn't great. Recently, Jace had started making me do all of his homework for him, and expecting me to obey his every whim. So far, he hadn't made me do anything utterly terrible, but I still felt a bit uncomfortable with our relationship. It just wasn't what I wanted.

Peter smiled a little. "Okay good. You'd... you'd tell me if anything was wrong, right? You'd let me help?"

I gave him a hug. "Of course, Pete. You're my absolute best friend. Of all time. You're always the one I come to about everything. But it's all just fine at the moment. Nothing to worry about, okay?"

Peter nodded, his lips pursed. I wondered briefly if he could read me as well as I could read him. I hoped not.

"You're still coming to the movies with me tonight, right?" Peter asked.

" 'Course, silly," I smiled, hitting him gently on the arm. "Wouldn't miss it."

"Okay, great..." Peter smiled, a little relieved, and rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. "See you tonight, then. At six. I'll pick you up."

I nodded, and with that, my best friend of ten years had disapearred into the crowd.

"Hey, baby," a new voice greeted me. This one, I was not happy to hear. I turned, just as an arm snaked its way around my waist.

"Hey, Jace." I forced a smile. Luckily, I was good at that.

"Did you do my homework for me? And get me those candy bars as well?"

I have to bite back a snarky remark, and reached into my backpack. I dug around for a few seconds, and pulled out a crumpled handful of Hershey bars, and an equally crumpled pile of paper sheets.

"Here." I handed the piles to Jace.

"Thank you, baby." Jace's tone was anything but thankful. He looked at me, and something in his expression scared me. "I'm thinking of doing something fun tonight... What do you say? A game of: 'you do exactly what I say for an hour'?"

The excited glint in his eyes made me shrink back in horror. "No!" I managed to force out. My throat was clenching on its own, and that made it hard to speak. I felt nauseous. I was pretty sure people in healthy relationships weren't supposed to feel that.

"I--" I swallowed hard. "We're over, Jace. I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry." I pushed past him, and ran.

✨🕸✨🕸✨🕸

That night, at exactly 5:56 P.M., I was sitting on the living room couch in my mum's apartment. I scrolled through my text message chats with Jace on my phone, trying to hold back tears. He wasn't worth my tears, besides, I was about to go hang out with Peter. I needed to get my mind of my boyfriend, I mean, ex-boyfriend.

I turned my phone off, and shoved it under the couch. I didn't want to see it again.

Just then, the doorbell rang. I sprang up quickly to open it, and heard my mum calling out: "Have fun sweetie, and see you later!"

I opened the door, and felt a massive wave of relief wash over me when my eyes met Peter's hazel ones. I couldn't help myself; I just ran right into his arms, not saying a word. I was afraid that if I did, I would start crying all over again.

"Oh, hey," Peter said, a little surprised. He wrapped his arms around me nevertheless. "You look, uh, really nice."

I'd forgotten what I was wearing, so I glanced down. Oh right. Slip-on tan brown flats, which were plain but super cute; a simple red dress, which had thick strap sleeves, and a navy blue cardigan tied around my waist. I'd braided my hair in a single braid down my back.

"Oh, thanks." I flushed. Jace had never really given me compliments, at least not after the initial few weeks of being together. He'd been a perfect boyfriend until a month after he'd asked me out, and then all turned to complete crap.

Peter smiled. "You ready to go?"

I glanced once at the couch, and at my phone which still lay underneath it, and made a quick decsision. "Yeah, I'm ready to go. I don't need anything."

Peter nodded, then he hesitated. "Before we go, actually, y/n, I have to tell you something..."

I frowned slightly. "What is it?" Was he going to say that he never wanted to see me again? Did he hate me? Was being my friend too much work for him? Was I too annoying?

"I love you."

Oh. Well that's not what I was expecting.

"And I know that you have a boyfriend, and that you're really happy with him and I'm just your stupid best friend but I've loved you since I was ten years old and I can keep this secret to myself anymore. Not that it's really a secret, I mean, both Ned and May knows, but it was kinda an accident in Ned's case, I mean --"

I shut him up with a quick kiss, pressing my mouth to his in a smooth gesture, then pulling away. "I don't have a boyfriend anymore, because he was just using me." I refused to let the tears come this time. "And... I love you too, Peter Parker."

I looked at him, and he looked at me, and I knew we understood each other. We always had, somehow.

"Now," I managed a cheeky grin, "how about that date to the movies, Parker?"

[maximwtf]

Hi there! first off, I LOVE your fics so much! Secondly, I’d like to request for Stede since I agree, there is a lack of fics for him!! I love the way you’ve written for him so far. Feel free to ignore this if you don’t feel like writing it for whatever reason, of course 💟

Though, perhaps I could request a Stede x reader where the reader sees Black Pete and Lucius’ romance blossom and they think it’s the most endearing thing ever but it also makes them a bit nervous because they have feelings toward someone in the crew (Stede) and they don’t know the first thing about how to express it. Stede noticed the reader is down one day and they accidentally spill their dilemma but they leave Stede’s name out. So then Stede is giving the reader courting lessons pretty much and then after the lessons have “concluded” and Stede’s like “okay now go get ‘em!” pretty much, the reader stands there and is basically repeating back everything they learned to him. He’s not taking the hint so he’s like yes that was wonderful practice, now go and tell the lucky person all of this! And the reader is like well…it’s you. And confessions both ends ensue blah blah💕again if you don’t feel inclined to write this, no worries! Wasn’t sure if you are taking romantic requests for him. But maybe even if you aren’t this plot could still apply just minus the part where the reader uses it on Stede, where he gives the reader courting lessons still and it’s all cute and fluffy?

Stede Bonnet x Reader

Words: 3130

Google docs pages: 5

Warnings: None? Reader is bad with emotions, they don’t know what to do with love. Is the author's inability to write non-tragic romance also a warning? Nah but fr it’s the best fluff I can offer!

Opening: You watch Pete and Lucius’ relationship blossom, becoming jealous of it. Stede notices you being down more often and tries to help, when you end up telling him of a crush you have. He offers to teach you ways to confess, though he doesn’t seem to realise who this crush truly is.

AN// Reader can be any gender ! Thank you for this request, ahh. I don’t usually get excited over fluff, but if it’s for Stede I’m here for it. I hope this came out good !^^ I’m still learning to write for him, this being only the second fic I've made for him wahh

“Go get em’ !”

There were no other words to describe how you felt when you saw Pete and Lucius be able to embrace their love, other than jealousy and melancholy. How they could so openly tell each other that they loved one another, how they could spend time together freely and knew how to tell the other how they felt. If you would have been able to do that, you wouldn’t even be in this position. This feeling wasn’t even you wishing anything bad for them, only wishing that you could have something that they had, with the person you fancied. 

But that person walked on deck, having no clue of your silent feelings and admiration. And if you didn’t soon find it in you to somehow tell him, you feared you’d miss your chance eventually. Hell, he was an attractive man and surely there’d come another if you sat at the sidelines and did nothing. But what could you do?

Your whole life, you hadn’t been the emotional kind. Showing any feelings that would show vulnerability was almost automatically forbidden for you. Far before you’d even heard of the Gentleman pirate had you been like this. A rough life at the sea hadn’t been kind, and even if it was more so now, you lived in the olden days. And most of the time when it turned out to be a fault in the new crew, you looked at Izzy and excused yourself. He was similar, so why should you try to change? Being the way you’d always been was comforting in a way, and learning a new set of behaviours sounded exhausting. Having to open up more, and be able to tell someone you cared for that you loved them felt impossible because of that. What if you came off as rude? Or even worse, if they didn’t even feel the same. Especially on a ship where you had to meet the same people every day, having to face the person who rejected you felt horrifying. And you couldn’t possibly keep avoiding this person, he was your captain after all. 

Stede Bonnet. The former rich landowner, who had abandoned his previous life in exchange for a pirate’s. An idea that you thought you would possibly never truly understand the reason for. From growing up on a pirate ship, to being a permanent member of his crew, you had no idea why one would like to become a pirate. Almost every day was a fight to win, but this man somehow stayed positive and had taught his crew manners you’d never seen on a ship. You had thought you would never be able to fit in, but so you did. Because he had welcomed you with open arms, like he had known you his whole life. He didn’t care about what you’d done, who you had been or where you’d come from. He cared about who you were now. A truly admirable person in your eyes. 

Not to mention, you had an eye for nice fabrics and clothes. You’d never been able to afford them, nor were they practical in the action you had to take part in daily, but did they look nice. And he wore them well, all the ones he’d brought with him on the ship. All the nice colours, shapes and textures were a sight for a sore eye. You didn’t know if he’d ever noticed you checking out his outfits, but you hoped not. What would he even think? If he didn’t know why you were staring, you assumed he would think you were just creepy. Another reason why you didn’t want to confess to him. 

But did all of this make your chest ache, long for something that you were almost positive you couldn’t reach. The thoughts started making you distance yourself when the time gave you the possibility. You’d spent time at the bow of the ship, or all the way up in the crowsnest. Places where you could be alone for a moment, to try and convince yourself that eventually you’d tell him. 

But during all of this, you failed to notice that your absence hadn’t gone unnoticed, as much as you had hoped that would have been the case. Stede noticed soon after, starting to note that you seemed awfully upset. He had planned to ask you about it, but never could. He almost started blaming himself, if he had done something wrong to scare you off? Perhaps you wanted to leave the crew all together for a yet unknown reason? He knew if that was the case that he would never be able to stop you, but he could always try. Which had originally been the reason why he’d come looking for you. And if you were going to leave, he wanted to say his goodbyes, as much as it pained him to even think of that possibility. 

Once more, you leaned to the railing of the ship, watching the vessel make its way forward. Sometimes you wondered if this feeling was all your fault. You were the one basking in melancholy instead of changing. Yet, these thoughts never had enough power to make you actually quit these habits. 

The sound of someone coming towards from the hallway near you brought you back from your thoughts. To your horror and pleasure, it was Stede. He noticed your quick turn towards him, giving you a gentle smile before fully emerging through the small door frame, placing himself on the other side. Though, that smile faded rather quickly as he seemed to remember the reason why he’d come to find you. “Ah, I almost ran out of options as to where you could have been!” He said, a slight chuckle in his tone as he unintentionally tried to ease the rather tense atmosphere. You gave him a shrug, keeping your eyes keenly on the water, watching it swirl and hit the ship in waves. “See, I came to ask you how you’ve been feeling? You seem like you’re keeping something bottled up?” He continued to speak, guessing you had nothing to say to his first comment. Though, this one froze you. What could have you said? That he was the reason why you’d been upset this whole time? Blame Lucius and Pete for all of this? Or were you upset because of yourself. “Homesick, you know how it is.” You lied, trying to joke off the question. But your attempt had gone down the drain, only making Stede furrow his brows in concern. He knew you were lying, knowing you viewed the ship as your home. “Please, it’s not good to continue like this. Better to talk it out.” He insisted, making you bite your inner lip in return. Like you were holding back something you feared you might slip on accident. 

Yet, that helped as much as rowing a boat without oars. “I fear the person I care for doesn't feel the same.” You sighed, ashamed of admitting to your feelings. Your gaze was tilted faintly upwards, eyes watching the water, too scared to look at Stede. A gentle hum came from his side. “Then why don’t you go ask?” The advice sounding like he was relieved it hadn’t been anything worse than that. But to you, this was as worse as it was ever going to get. Being stuck with feelings you didn’t know how to express. But even that feeling, the frustration was hard to show to him. Having to keep him in the shadow from how you felt. You shook your head, lowering your gaze. “I don’t know how.” A defeated sigh leaving you as your shoulder slumped down. If you were to guess, an empathic expression had appeared on Stede’s face. He stayed silent for a moment, before placing a hand on your shoulder. You almost pulled away, startled by the sudden touch. Yet there was something so comforting about it that it didn’t take you long to ease into it. “If you want to, I could offer you a few tips on confessing in the proper way?” The captain suggested, voice gentle as ever. He spoke with confidence, knowing that he could possibly help you. And you knew that, but that hadn’t been the reason for your reply. “Oh, I would appreciate that.” Even if he couldn’t help you, you could finally spend time with just him, as he talked to you about the subject of love, having no clue that he was that subject for you. 

And after that conversation, you collected all of the courage in you as you prepared for the first meeting of the few you would continue to have with him. And with a deep breath, you pushed the door open that led to his quarters, finding the man himself seated on one of the couches. He got up to greet you, starting the ‘lesson’ soon after. 

You sat in front of him, listening as he talked. “You didn’t tell me more about this person. What kind of confession would fit them? If it is a pirate, I’m not so sure a fancy confession is the thing you need.” He laughed the comment off faintly, a hint of doubt in his voice. “N-no! I’m sure- they’d love it.” You answered rather abruptly, thinking he might be rethinking this offer. “Well then…A confession is often considered a private matter. So you would find a place such as that to confess in. You would usually think the wording of the confession beforehand, polite and respectful.” The man started, his eyes looking up as he thought of how these tips could be used on a ship. As he paused speaking his thoughts out loud, he turned to you, as if waiting for you to have questions. But you didn’t, you looked at him keenly, waiting for him to continue. “Well- You could ask them out to eat before confessing. But I’m not so sure you could do that here, I’m afraid.” He said, tilting his head a little at the shame of that. “Thoughtful gestures are an alternative, perhaps a small gift or a letter?” He added after, clearly deep in thought as he tried to come up with something that was doable on a ship. “I’m not so gifted with my hands.” You muttered, thinking of the possibility of giving him a gift. After all, he was describing the way he had been taught to confess, so you wanted to follow those tips he gave you. “You don’t have to be, a confession on its own is good enough.” He smiled, shaking his head slightly. 

You turned to look at your feet, silent as you thought of what he’d said. Though, the moment didn’t last long as Stede spoke up again. “How about we practise the tips I gave the next time we meet?” He asked, tilting his head slightly. You turned to look at him, blinking your eyes a couple of times. “On who?” He couldn't have possibly been suggesting that you-, “on me, if that is alright with you.” He said, a friendly smile on his face, per usual. You blinked again, faster this time. “I- Of course.” You nodded, internally stunned by the suggestion, having to shake your head slightly to bring you back into the moment. You would have to learn how to keep your cool, this was practically the same thing you’d have to say to him when you actually told him. 

After that, he gave you a couple more tips, explaining the almost laughable mannerisms he had been taught or that he had read of. It amused you to watch him make fun of the things he had been taught into, giving you the slightest of ideas why he had chosen the life you’d had to live for most of your life. By the sound of it, you would have most likely done the same. 

You went to the next meeting with him, this time more relaxed. He stood in the middle of his quarters. By the way he was breathing he must have just moved some of the furniture out of the way. “Evening.” You greeted him, looking around as you walked in. “Ah, just in time.” Stede smiled, nodding his head as a greeting when you came closer.  “I thought tonight we’d try the advice in action, what do you say?” He asked after his initial comment, seeing as you hadn’t said anything. “Oh, of course. Yes. How do I start?” You asked, looking around as if exploring the cabin, a desperate attempt to hide sight of you being flustered. A light laugh left Stede before he replied. “If it’s okay, I thought I’d show an example first.” Your gaze snapped to him, soon after looking at your feet again to not seem odd. “Ah, of course.” You nodded, taking a small step back to give the man space. 

Stede cleared his throat, taking something from the table near him and stepping towards you. “A private place.” He hinted at the space the two of you were in before going forward with the example. He brought his hand towards you, handing you a nicely folded piece of paper. You took it with a slightly shaky hand, trying to keep in mind that he was only giving you an example, having no idea of how you truly felt. 

You weren’t sure what to say so you automatically opened the paper, eyes scanning over the words on it. You didn’t have to read often, so the skill hadn’t developed much, but if you read slowly enough you understood what the short letter said. A few compliments, subtly hinting at his yet hidden ‘feelings’. You looked up at him, lowering the letter. “I- Thank you?” You stuttered out, an awkward look appearing on your face as you realised how rusty it sounded in a situation like this. Stede only gave you a polite smile before offering you a hand. “Please, allow me to fetch us a place to sit.” He said, leading you to one of the couches. He allowed you to sit down first, taking a seat only after. “I’m afraid I don’t have anything to offer you. But let us use imagination.” The man in front of you explained, you gave him a nod while folding the piece of paper into your pocket. “When do you confess?” You asked, turning your gaze on him. “Well, we’d eat and maybe after or a little later you’d pull them aside to tell them.” He said, standing up and leading you to the middle of the room yet again. 

You stood in front of him, listening as he spoke. “Dear, I hope you’ve had a pleasant evening. But before it ends, I wished to tell you my admiration for you. Because I do fancy you.” He spoke calmly, knowing exactly what to say. You bit your inner lip, nodding after. “Alright.” Stede put his hands together, pleased with how it was going so far. “Do you want to give it a try?” He asked, tilting his head. You blinked a couple of times, nodding your head before even giving it a proper thought. “Okay, whenever you’re ready.” He said, giving you space. You took a deep breath, deciding that this was going to be it. You’d confess to him, and somehow manage to make him realise that you were being serious. 

You walked up to him, taking a moment before pulling the same letter he’d given you out of your pocket, handing it to him. He looked a little surprised, but still accepted the offer and looked over the letter quickly, as if he didn’t know what was in it. “Ah, thank you. Go on.” He smiled, looking back up. “It’s only the truth. I wished to show you how much I admire you, because I have had my eye on you. Stede, I fancy you.” You said, adding his name in as a desperate way to try and make this more obvious. But instead, he put his hands together, seemingly excited. “Ah, that’ll do it, almost swooned even me. I think you’re ready, go get em’!” He nodded firmly after, nothing but kindness in his eyes. Yet the longer you looked at him the more it seemed like he wasn’t so happy about what he’d just said. Like he hadn’t wanted to say it at all. You bit your inner lip for a moment, having to insist on making him understand. “I admire you, have for a long time.” You said, almost repeating yourself. Stede furrowed his brows, smiling at you a little awkwardly, now more confused than anything. “Wonderful practice. Now, go and get this lucky person!” He encouraged you. “Stede I’m-” You took a breath, not even sure what to say anymore. He hadn’t taught you what to do if the person you’re confessing to is the person teaching you how to confess. 

By this point the man in front of you seemed worried, offering a hand out to you. “Are you feeling alright?” He asked, placing his hand on your shoulder. You looked at the floor before taking a hold of his wrist, gently. Your eyes looked into his, desperate to make him understand even if you couldn’t show it properly with words or small subtle actions. “I fancy you, Stede.” You said, and as soon as he was opening his mouth again, you quickly added in, “it’s you.” This made him close his mouth for a moment, soon a softer look appearing on his face. “I love you.” You mumbled out to avoid any tense silence from forming. “Dear, did you go through all this trouble to confess to me?” He smiled, seemingly relieved yet he said nothing of it. You gave him a slow nod, afraid this was only the starting point of him rejecting you. “Because I was afraid I was losing you from the moment you started disappearing to this moment right now.” He added, gently pulling you towards himself to offer a hug, which you accepted. 

He felt warm, somehow he managed to also smell better than any other pirate you’d been close to. “I assumed you were leaving the crew and later realised I must have missed my opportunity with you.” He said, pulling back slightly, still close to you. You humoured the thought of him somehow sensing you didn’t want to go far from him at that moment. “You thought I was going to leave?” You asked, furrowing your brows, slightly amused. Though, you understood why he had thought that. He didn’t answer, only giving you a faint eye roll before placing a hand to the side of your neck, his thumb pushing your chin up slightly, making you look up at him. “I fancy you too.” He said, that being the only thing you’d ever wished to hear him say. 

AN// Yall TRUST I proof read this, but with the mindset of someone who hasn’t slept. Also why is Stede so hard to find good images of, bros making a face in like 99% of all images >:(

[zhouxiangs]

10 BL Boys I Want Carnally

or as close to that as i can get, tagged by @bunnakit !

i had to look deep in my soul and tumblr gifs for this so please enjoy the boys, under a cut to keep the mystery alive for two more seconds

i am very ace so the concept is nebulous, let's just say i feel some type of way... and if you see me call these men my sons it's bc they are, ty for your time <3 also the order is kinda eehhhh general idea, i don't actually keep a mental list it took me hours to make this one 😭

10. pete (kiss me again/dark blue kiss)

do not ask me why idk either... there's just Something i can't explain. also it was between him and knock from together with me so i'm choosing the one that committed less crimes, anyway *holds him up like a potato* i just think he's neat

9. vegas (kinnporsche)

my little meow meow,, my explanation for most of these is just "do i not have eyes", but some (like vegas) are special jsjs in his case kp was the first thai bl i watched, as soon as he became remotely relevant i was obsessed with him and then a rewatch made me finally fall into thai bl as a whole so... thank you for your service

8. gong gil (the king and the clown)

my baby my darling my angel and the reason i even know about lee joongi, the actor i've been following the longest that i remember. i haven't watched tkatk in a while so i don't remember the details that well but i've always loved him, pretty sure he's my first bl boy too

7. xie'er (word of honor)

does he count? is this cheating? idc he's staying either way, MY XIE'ER 😭 will never get over him or his killer eyeliner

6. gaipa (moonlight chicken)

possibly the cutest 30yo man out there, that alone endeared me to him but also the way he is with his mother is just so 🥺 he's so special to me (also the fact that he's 30 AND cute as heck it's just so personal to me)

5. wen (moonlight chicken)

god i wish i could explain what he DOES TO MY BRAIN. some of it is the mix effect but i was normal about mix before wen so... he's so beautiful so magnetic i want to bite him

4. black (not me)

listen- he's my lil murder raccoon i know there's plenty of reasons for him to be as angry as he is for the 90% of his screen time and they're all sad but he's just so attractive like that (even though i'm more of a white girlie most of the time)

3. karan (cherry magic th)

i've only had him for two eps but if anything happened to him i would kill everyone in this room and then myself, etc. he's perfect and a nerd and i would love him for any of those two things alone, but they're combined into such a gentle beautiful (inside and out) and sensitive character i jsut love him so much

2. way (pit babe)

so i am definitely not babe, here supporting way's rights and wrongs from day 1. is he pretty? yes. is he evil? quite possibly. do i still want him? also yes. he hasn't touched me so pretty sure his big sad eyes are doing something. to me.

1. sand (only friends)

The Only Man, which is how my non bl friends know him bc i've apparently called him 'the only man i would like if i liked men' more than once ? HIM

special entry: tharn (the sign), yeah this one is definitely cheating

(using the only gif i've made of him so far which isn't great for this but...)

he's so tiny and efficient... like a fiat 500

if you see this and want to do it consider yourself tagged by me <3

[gloriousmonsters]

also yeah thanks to @natandacat I am trying kinnporsche, about 7 eps in. thots:

ep one was just... fine, eps 2-3 i think were the hardest bc i do Not enjoy the mix of slapstick comedy with vague mafia drama. for me it started getting Good when at the end of ep 4 they do the romance fic trope of 'oh no you're uninhibited bc of a drug or something and giggly and handsy so we have sex!' and then in ep 5 are just like 'and that was a huge fucking mistake!' it's kind of wild bc the shape of the tropes they're using aren't ones that usually treat the subject matter in this light, but I loved that the event was treated as a huge fuck-up for kinn and traumatic for porsche. like please yes deconstruct your fic/romance tropes for ultimate pain on all sides

VEGAS... 💚💖💕💕✨

I'd absorbed some stuff passively before blacklisting KP (no hard feelings, it was just Everywhere On My Dash and i did not want to watch it then) but I somehow didn't know that Vegas was a weird little torture freak (affectionate) while at least projecting being a Super Nice Boy And Good Boss, and it's such a juicy contrast. i am eating it. also i love that his default method of niceness and/or intimidating 'niceness' is just giving people things. do you want food do you need mosquito repellent on this long stakeout do you want a bike? also good to know he's good for both creepily gentle and rough noncon from his like second scene ('i'll be gentle/so you like it like that?' 😳)

in every other thing porsche goes through i'm like 'take that man out of situations immediately' but everything with vegas i'm like 'put that man into MORE situations. i want them to fuck'

they're doing an admirable job with kinn so far of making him genuinely v v fucked up and punchable while also making him so obviously miserable and messed up and occasionally cute i still like him

tankhun looks like they spent the entire budget on his outfits and you know what, he deserves it

kim is so??? genuinely he might be my favorite of the brothers so far just because he's So odd. he's like hi i'm nice and polite and completely empty behind the eyes. i'm doing things on my own agenda won't say what it is. also won't say what's wrong with me <3 don't know how much of it is the actor but i want to see more of him. also love his weird manipulative cute power-imbalanced relationship with chay

pete so far is mainly just. i like you little man your autism is off the charts. every episode J and i are like 'is it time for him to be tortured by vegas now' and it hasn't been yet but i assume it's happening soon. looking forward to it

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#fezco x reader - 3 posts

#dominic fike x reader - 3 posts

#tom holland x reader - 3 posts

#euphoria - 2 posts

#peter parker x reader - 2 posts

#euphoria imagine - 2 posts

#brad simpson x reader - 2 posts

#nate jacobs x reader - 2 posts

#angus cloud x reader - 2 posts

#vinnie hacker x reader - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 33 characters

#tom holland peter parker x reader

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

MASTERLIST

Fezco:

-Butterflies

Dominic Fike:

- Headcanon: Dating Dominic

Tom Holland:

- Love Songs (Peter Parker)

Brad Simpson:

-coming soon

Zabdiel De Jesus:

-coming soon

Nate Jacobs:

-coming soon

Calum Hood:

-coming soon

Vinnie Hacker:

-coming soon

99 notes - Posted January 9, 2022

#4

REQUESTS

Hey loves! I wanted to start a blog cause I enjoy reading the works of others. I wanna take requests from those who would like to submit any. The people I will write for are listed below, if there is someone different you would like me to write for, put it in the request! I don't have many rules, but if I don't feel comfortable with a request I will not write it. Please give me some time if you do request something I will definitely try to get it done asap. I don't mind writing smut but I am definitely not the best at it. If you have any requests you can submit them in the request link on my account! Thank you so much!

Rules:

-Please be respectful

-Specify the gender pronouns, I will assume female pronouns

-Please be specific in the details of your request

-Please be specific in character preferences

I will write:

-Scenarios

-Headcanons

-Oneshots

-Fluff, Angst, Suggestive Content

I will not write:

-Anything that I am not comfortable with writing

-Anything that may offend someone's sexuality, gender, identity, or ethnicity

-Dylan O'Brien (Stiles Stilinksi, Mitch Rapp, Thomas)

-Sebastian Stan (Bucky Barnes)

-5 Seconds of Summer

-Calum Hood

-Luke Hemmings

-Ashton Irwin

-Michael Clifford

-Jack Harlow

-Kian Lawley

-JC Caylen

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116 notes - Posted January 8, 2022

#3

Love Songs

Summary: You and Peter are best friends and get seated together on the plane for the trip to Europe. Thanks to turbulence you and Peter have a moment.

Requested by @gpiggy98

A/N: Thank you so much for your request! I paired this imagine with Love Songs by Maggie Lindemann, listen to it while reading it! Enjoy, let me know what you think!

Pairing: Peter Parker (Tom's) x You

Word Count: 870 words

Warnings: Fluff

https://youtu.be/C84k1OgZre4

You and Peter have been best friends since you moved into the apartment next door to him. You two were always together, most people assumed the two of you were dating. But that wasn't the case you were just friends. Every time someone would ask if you were a couple Peter was always quick to tell them you were just friends. It was freshman year that you felt different when he would call you his best friend. Then it hit you realized you had a crush on Peter. You knew you needed to keep it a secret.

You were getting ready to go to the airport for the Europe trip. A knock on the door lets you know that Peter is ready to go. You go to let him in and you see the way he looks at you with his cute smile

"Hey Pete"

"Hey, you ready yet? I called for the taxi it should be here in like five minutes"

"Yea, give me a second to grab my stuff," you tell him walking towards your room to grab your bag

"Let me help you," he says when you walk back out pulling your suitcase.

"I got it," you tell him.

"No, let me be a gentleman and help you," he smiles.

You grin at his antics and let him get the suitcase. He grabs your suitcase along with his and you two go to the elevator to the lobby of your building to get into your taxi. He puts your bags in the trunk and you get in the taxi.

"Are you excited?" he asks you

"Yes, but I'm a little nervous. I've never been on a plane before" you tell him honestly.

"You'll be okay, hopefully, we get paired up to sit together," he says with the smile that gives you butterflies

When the two of you get to the airport you check in your bags, go through security and meet up with the rest of the people going on the trip. You and Peter check in with the teachers and let them know you guys are there. Peter goes to say hi to Ned, while you find a spot to sit. The teacher then calls for everyone to come over, that they have announcements to make on how things will work when we reach Prague. You pretty much zone out for most of the speech due to mostly everyone talking over them. You pay attention when they say something regarding seating on the plane

"You can sit with who you want, you all need to pair up, you are all old enough to make smart decisions on where you sit, please make good choices"

You feel eyes on you, you instantly look up to find Peter looking at you smiling. When the teacher finishes their speech, Peter walks over to you.

“You ready to go,” he asks you

“Yup”

The two of you follow the rest of the group into the line to check-in. You scan your ticket and walk on the plane with Peter. The two of you find your seats, put your bags up and sit for the flight. You take the window seat and Peter sits in the middle. You start feeling a bit nervous when the plane gets going. Peter taps your leg you look at him passing you an earbud. You put it on hearing one of your favorite songs playing

"I'll take away the hurt"

"Tell me all your fears"

"And if you're feelin' scared, I'll be here"

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218 notes - Posted January 22, 2022

#2

Dating Dominic Headcanon

Pairing: Dominic Fike x You

Request by @gaiath: Hi can I please request dating Headcanons for Dominic Fike?

A/N: Thank you for your request! Hope you enjoy!

-Dominic always come to you for your opinion on his outfits

-He always tries to take you with him wherever he goes

-He's always there for you no matter what

-He calls you babydoll

-He loves seeing you get along with his family especially his mom and his little sister

-The two of you take his sister out whenever you go to Florida

-He takes you to Naples to show you where he grew up

-He loves to go on trips with you

-He loves going on adventures with you

-You always go to the studio to watch him record

-You help him with writing songs

-He takes you with him on set for Euphoria

-He loves to spoil you

-You to go to all of his shows

-He's always holding your hand

-He loves to cuddle with you

-He loves to just be in your presence

344 notes - Posted January 15, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Butterflies

Summary: You and Fezco never really hung out or got to know each other. But when you two end up sharing a blunt alone, things get a little heated.

Pairing: Fezco x You

Warnings: Smoking, Mentioning of drugs, Language

Word Count: 1,054 words

You and Rue have been friends for years, when you found out she ended up in rehab you honestly were terrified. You always told her that she needed to stop, you never did anything stronger than smoke weed.

Rue just texted you that she was on her way to your house to hang out. Knowing Rue that meant she wanted to go get some stuff from Fez. That's all the two of you did together anymore since she got outta rehab and she became friends with Jules.

You hear a knock coming from the window, you look over to see Rue standing there.

"Hey bitch" you say letting her in.

"Wassup, you ready?" she asks.

"Yea, where we goin'?" you ask her already having an idea.

"To Fez's to chill," she says.

You two walk outside and start your walk to the gas station, it's about a twenty-minute walk from where you live.

"Where you been lately?" you ask Rue

"Around, with Jules mostly," she tells you

"What's up with you two? You dating" you ask

"Kinda, not really. All I know is, I like her a lot" she says

You smile, you've never seen her like this. You two finally make it to Fez's. Rue starts knocking on the door mad hard. Ash opens the door looking mad asf

"Why the fuck you knockin' like the cops' bro?" he asks

"Cause I can," Rue says walking in the house

"Hey Ash," you say walking in after Rue

"Come right in then," Ash says closing the door behind us

Rue and I walk into the house and into the living room. Fez is sitting on the couch on his phone. He looks up to see who walked in

"Rue I told you I'm not giving you any more drugs," he tells her

"C'mon Fez, I just need a couple," Rue says

"No Rue, you just got outta rehab and shit. You needa stop messin' with this shit" he tells her

Her phone starts ringing, she answers it and talks for a minute. She hangs up the phone

"I gotta go," she says getting up and leaving without a word. Once the door slams shut. Fezco looks at me and asks

"What'd you need?"

"Just give me my regular," you say now wanting to get outta his house.

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2,283 notes - Posted January 9, 2022

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[milkwaydreams]

I posted 334 times in 2022

That's 334 more posts than 2021!

13 posts created (4%)

321 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@nanons

@team-win

@wuxyings

@gunsatthaphan

@scoupsy

I tagged 12 of my posts in 2022

#kpop - 6 posts

#haechan - 3 posts

#nct - 3 posts

#renjun - 3 posts

#jaemin - 3 posts

#chenle - 3 posts

#kinnporsche - 3 posts

#mark lee - 3 posts

#taeyong - 2 posts

#doyoung - 2 posts

Longest Tag: 91 characters

#i just know the one of them is kidnapped out of nowhere and they fall in love for no reason

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Okay, I didn't know it was possible but, I just fell in love with Seventeen... AGAIN!!

FOR GOD'S SAKE, THEY ARE ALREADY MY ULT. WHAT MORE THEY WANT FROM ME???!!

I WILL GIVE EVERYTHING FOR THEM ANYWAY

Everyone looks SOOO GOOD this era. MINGHAO????!!!!!!! DK???!!! SCOUPS LONG HAIR??!!! LIKE.... OMG. HELP.

I was down the hole day and now, I'm so happy. This is the effect Seventeen has on me. Thank you boys, for everything 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️❤️

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7 notes - Posted May 27, 2022

#4

Is it possible to be bias wrecked by your own bias??!!

LEE TAEYONG, GO EASY ON ME BOY!

I'M YOUR WEAKEST SOLDIER 🥵🥵🥵

and the plaque behind does say "caution"...

12 notes - Posted October 23, 2022

#3

I must say: wow. WHAT A MENTAL BREAKDOWN I HAD KINNPORSCHE. THANK YOU 😭😭😭😭

VegasPete BREAKING ME DOWN WITH THEN... I can't... How am I going to survive now??

I was getting really mad thinking that Vegas died, I was like "What? Really? Don't do this to me production crew. Please don't...", but, after that post credits scene... I forgive you for everything 🤣🤣🤣

IT WAS SO FREAKING CUTE. OMG... I can't even talk about how much I loved that scene. Macau being cute with his brother, oh my God. And I can't stop thinking about the conversations that Macau and Pete had while Vegas was sleeping. That "That was fast" from Macau, got me thinking they plotted making Vegas act cute AND I LOVED IT 😭😭😭😭

Also, so sad we didn't get a proper ending to KimChay🥺🥺🥺

But... THAT SCENE OF KIM PROTECTING CHAY🥵🥵🥵🥵 AS IF I WASN'T ALREADY IN LOVE WITH JEFF ENOUGH🤣🤣🤣

I couldn't stop smiling and giggling the whole scene🤣🤣🙈🙈🙈

There's still so many things to unveil. I really hope to get a second season 🥺🥺

13 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

#2

~BL/GL TAG GAME~

I was tagged by @wanderlust-in-my-soul 😍

Your all time favorite bl character and why?

Wow, there are some.

I have to say Intouch (UWMA) because I love his determination. He says "That boy is gonna be mine" and he gets the boy. I love him for it.

Also Ram (My Engineer) because I loove his personality. I see myself in him a little bit. He only talks to who he wants to and when he wants and I think that's so funny🤣. He also love animals and is afraid of kids just like me so.. 🤣🤣

What’s your one character from a bl you wanted to punt into the stratosphere (you only get one so choose wisely).

Humm... I know that I should choose only one but, Korn and Intouch's (UWMA) fathers for OBVIOUS reasons🤬

Or Llong (TharnType) because, Tharn and Type are toxic to each other A LOT, but, Llong was going to KILL Type if their friends didn't stopped him and, he literally hire some guys to RAPE a completely innocent person just because he was dating Tharn.

The best music moment from a bl.

I guess, Sarawat (2gether) singing "Tine" in the last episode. Or Korn and Win (Cupid's Last Wish) COMPLETELY high singing and dancing like they were recording a MV in the middle of nowhere 🤣🤣

What’s a popular heterosexual text that you would like to see adapted into a bl/gl?

I would love to see a BL version of Boys Over Flowers (or F4 Thailand, or Meteor Garden. You get it). Not exactly a "text" but, I thought about it while seeing F4 Thailand on air "It's always the same. It would be amazing if it ended up being a BL in the end" 🤣🤣🤣

A scene from a bl that always makes you laugh.

The last RamKing (My Engineer) scene where King thinks Ram was drunk and didn't remember their kiss, but Ram didn't drink at all🤣🤣

Also, that one when Saifah and Zon (Why R U?) wakes up cuddling to it other and Zon starts saying nonsense like "Did you used condom? Am I gonna get pregnant?" 🤣🤣🤣 I Love this scene🤣🤣

Biggest disappointment.

Enchanté. The first episode was really cute, but then, I don't know what happened. I loved the whole "Find the Enchanté" thing just to be the own Theo who wrote it because he wanted Akk's attention... And that last episode, what was that? Out of nowhere, after doing all that book scene to get Akk, he's leaving just like that?! And Akk's sister saying those things to him??? That's her way of helping?? Really disappointed.

And I have to mention Cutie Pie. It's not bad, but I guess I waited too much for too long. Since the first announcement that Zee was going to be in a new BL, I was sooo hyped, but when I finally watched it, it didn't get me. Still going to watch it anyway because I love the actors and I loved the other couples, but I got really lazy, unfortunately🥺🥺

What two random bl/gl characters would make hilarious exes?

I have no idea 🤣🤣🤣🙈🙈

But I thought about a conversation of Fiat (Don't Say No), Jang Jaeyoung (Semantic Error) and Nuea, Kaeng and Team (Y Destiny), they would count bodies all day 🤣🤣🤣

Who would be the funniest person to person to watch a bl in its entirety and which one would you make them watch.

A lot of people finds it weird but, I always watch BL with my mom🤣🤣 She's is best person to watch it with. She loves anything I choose to so🤣🤣

I also would love to watch Cherry Blossom After Winter with @wanderlust-in-my-soul it would be perfect 😍😍

Best wardrobe moment/or character wardrobe from a bl.

I love the red suit Fiat (Don't Say No) wears for the party in the end. That entrance with the twins (who are really cute too) behind him, wow😍😍

And I guess Kinn's (KinnPorsche) whole wardrobe too. That man knows how to wear a suit, as he should cause, wow, he's GORGEOUS in those suits🤤

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Thank you so much for tagging me😍😍

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20 notes - Posted April 27, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Okay, I just want to put it out what I'm feeling right now after EP13, but I'm going to focus only on PeteVegas because, too much happened in this episode.

First of all, I just need to leave something very clear here: I didn't knew anything about the novel before watching the series so, I was really blind and didn't know what to expect. That being said, let's move on.

I still don't know what I feel when I think about them. I started watching KinnPorsche BECAUSE of VegasPete, I wanted to see them together. Them Pete got captured and I realized the road that they would go.

I'm completely biased by Bible, so I didn't imagine that I would HATE his character. And I did. For a moment. Now I'm... Confused cause at the same time I want to kill him, I want to protect him ("At the same time I wanna hug you, I wanna wrap my hands around your neck - P!nk")

Something I'm really enjoying is to see how everyone interpret their relationship differently, that's amazing. So I want to leave here what I think they have.

I don't think it Love. I don't think it's anything really rational. I think they developed a toxic emotional support that they crave above anything else. I genuinely think they can't live without each other anymore because of this bounding. Vegas gets better because of Pete, but also he can reach his peak of destruction for Pete too. The same for Pete. He has a pure heart even after everything he did and have been through, but he fakes smiles and happiness too much. With Vegas, he can show the evil part of himself without being judged of anything. They are literally like Yin and Yang. They need each other for balance. Pete needs Vegas to be mean, and Vegas needs Pete to be good.

It's not love, it's balance. They both know what they are doing it's wrong, but still want it ("Mama, I'm in love with a criminal and this type of love, it's not rational, it's phisical - Britney")

Also, the scene where Pete was "eating" the ramyeon and breaks down crying, wow. I also saw a lot of people saying different things about it and, one of the things people said was that his friends and people o cares about him are around him but he is still left alone. I don't think the others left him alone just like that. He's visible hurt, both, inside and out, holding tears all the time... I would give him some time too. And, he may have asked to be alone for a while cause, Khul would talk to much, ask too much, and he's not in a good shape for all Khul's presence at that moment, you know?

And when he touches where the handcuffs were, his chest and neck where Vegas touched, I really think he was missing him, but his crying because he don't want to miss Vegas. Crying because because he knows it's wrong and unhealthy, but he's still worried, maybe even not for himself but for what Vegas may do without him. He can't control him if he's not near him. I guess it's obvious now that Vegas don't control Pete, Pete controls him.

And one last thing, yes, they can't kill each other because, like I said, they balance one another. If one of them dies, the other will crumble. If they hurt each other, they hurt themselves. That's why I think Pete couldn't pull the trigger and Vegas couldn't stab Pete.

All of this is just how I feel about them, how I read them myself.

I love seeing the other ways they are being read so, if you want to talk more about them or other couple, even other series, I will gladly talk to you. 🥰🥰

And I need to say, shout out to the whole KinnPorsche's crew cause I'm really impressed by this series 😍😍

21 notes - Posted July 3, 2022

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first of all this is fucking genius. second of all I imagined p2 celebrating a successful temptation by fucking absolutely NASTY. I'm talking fangs and claws out, snarling the filthiest dirty talk, going for hours and hours...do u guys think lobotomies can happen @ claire's at 1 am?

it’s 5 am now so like maybe it’s a claire’s preopening special where you knock on the door a certain way and they let you in and give you good breakfast and then lobotomize you and pierce your ears at the same appointment :)

they fuck NASSSTYYYY. fangs out claws out bright glowing eyes. patrick’s fangs give him a slight lisp btw. just bc that’s adorable to me. and GOD pete is a biter we know this. he’d bite patrick’s shoulder and patrick would groan low and hot and scrape his claws down pete’s chest and they’d absolutely leave big welts that might bubble with blood a little bit and pete would just arch and whimper patrick’s name, panting hot and heavy with his head tipped back

HOLY FUCKING AHIT I JUST HAD A VISION…..maybe pete was a bit sneaky and made patrick look Incredibly Sexy to the victim of the tempting and patrick (ofc) found out and he’s playing angry <3 he’s not actually mad and he’s actually flattered and thinks it’s cute but Pete Lied

so patrick :)

“what’s a lowly demon like you doing all of that for? you do realize i could leave you alone and work by myself, yes?”

“tricky, no-i swear i just-“

“mhm. i know. couldn’t help it, always thinking with that little cock of yours. fuck first, think second, right?”

oh pete is so fucking shy and whimpery, dribbling so much against his bartskull. he’d nod, and turn away from patrick’s gaze, but patrick grabs his chin and makes him look at patrick <3 those fuckin glowing eyes meeting each other…..

[dynamoe]

If you beg for comments you get results!

Rustique, (I assume you're a tumblrino), you made my day and proved that AT LEAST ONE PERSON has read this chapter.

→ Rustique on Chapter 6 Fri 09 Sep 2022 09:19PM PDT

After going through this fic 5-6 times, I'll give an honest review.

That's a lot of times. I've gone through it about 300 times, but that's because I'm a terrible proofreader and keep finding more typos.

I'm bracing for a super-negative take-down when "an honest review" is in the first line. 😬

This story goes so, so underappreciated in that no one realizes just how much effort the author puts into adding little charming headers to fully-illustrated scenes in the writing itself. It was certainly a highlight of my day when I first saw Billy with cute, colorful bows in his hair and, amazingly, found him less uncomfortable to look at.

I believe they're referring to this* illustration ↑ They're plastic baby barrettes— bows, flowers and a butterfly— embraced subversively by the Riot Grrrl set like so many other "little girl" accessories in the '90s. (Doesn't explain where Billy got them.)

My socks were knocked off when I saw an entire novel's worth dedicated to Billy Quizboy's love life, so color me impressed when I found this hidden gem right here. I would have never guessed I'd be so intensely reading Billy's (rusty) venture into romance (or some vague form of it) and yet... here we are. I now understand the appeal. I get it. Nearly went to The Light Side after seeing White at the Tiki Bar though, and my loyalty has been compromised.

All the online fans wanna knock boots with Pete even when I write him as an asshole. I also made the mistake of drawing him dressed as Brett Anderson from Suede in that header, an open shirt sets loins afire.

Anyway, seeing how each chapter plays out has been very fun to read. It's nice to see Quizboy be treated somewhat better than his albino and I'm immersed in this awkward, ugly pug version of a relationship he has with Alison.

Please take all my money in the form of a kudos.

I have taken all your money. Thank you.

It's odd... a second person mentioning to me in so many days that they find Billy hard to look at. My own mother said "that character you draw with hydrocephalus" was gross.

I've unlocked why young Billy is cuter than regular adult Billy. The key= less chin. He always looks better with no break between head and neck. (No jawline, just neck + chin = horrible.)

*I think I drew Billy looking too young for the chapter, this is his Invisible Hand of Fate era face. I was recycling drawings I had done already. I originally drew this as "1990" not 1994-1996 when the story is set but I wanted to show off his oven mitt and eye-bandage he wears while working at the public library.

[oracleofapollon]

“I love you, okay? I know I don’t say it enough.” With peter please 🥺

that was such a cute concept, i feel like i didn't do it justice :(

pete x reader, gn!reader, hurt/comfort, crying, anxiety and r having mean thoughts about themself

As soon as you lock the door behind you, it becomes too much.

Too much work, too many projects, too many expectations to meet (most of the expectations you set yourself, and are pretty unrealistic). Every single thing coming towards you seems like a burden—the unmade bed or the need to think what to have for dinner. Small tasks add to the big pile of stress, uncertainty, and gradually start to envelop you, trapping you like a metal chain you can’t free yourself from.

So there you are, standing in front of the mirror, washing your hands, crying at the thought of doing the laundry. You mentally scold yourself for being overdramatic. Taking a big breath you head towards the kitchen to see what you can cook.

You never get to the kitchen, though. As soon as you see the sofa you crash onto it, stretching and yawning and fighting merciless sleep. An idea crosses your mind—you could watch silly TV programmes—but you feel too worn out to grab the remote, let alone focus on anything. So you sigh and look around, exhausted by the warmth of tears in your eyes. It makes you feel uncomfortable, on edge, dirty, in a way you can’t really explain.

Laying there, staring at the bookshelves, you notice a picture of you as a child. In the photo you were no older than 5 years, smiling at the camera, lacking two teeth. You remember the place—a park you used to live next to, the place you visited often. It was clearly summer, you were surrounded by bushes of white flowers and a cute pink hat was shielding you from the scorching sun. 

You blink once, twice. Then you burst into tears again. 

You were so sweet, so innocent, you trusted the world with everything you had. You wanted to be an adult so badly, you wanted to be a Disney star, then an astronaut, then a teacher. You couldn’t wait to be the current you.

And you really can’t take it. The way you are mean to yourself, putting so much pressure on yourself, hating everything you do. And you realize you’re hurting the little kid grinning at you from the photo. You didn’t even make any of the sweet baby’s dreams come true.

You’re shaking now, gasping for breath, sitting up to not choke on your own tears and snot. You can’t think about the picture, your youth—missing the carelessness, sweet lollipops and playing in the sand, big dreams, evenings on the swing—and blaming yourself, and the hot eyes and cheeks annoy you more than anything. You panic more when you hear the door unlock.

“I’m ho-ome!” sings your boyfriend playfully as he closes the door. You clear your throat and make a beeline for the bathroom.

“Hi, Pete,” you say in a weak voice and immediately curse at yourself when it comes out exactly like a person who was just crying.

You close the bathroom door seconds before he appears behind them. “Are you okay?” of course he notices something’s wrong. He always does. He cares for you so much, pays attention to all the details about you, takes care of your soul in the gentlest ways. You hate yourself for thinking you don’t deserve him.

“Yeah,” you reply, trying to sound confident, and failing miserably. Ripping off a piece of toilet paper you try to blow your nose as quietly as possible.

“Can I come in?” Peter’s concerned voice breaks your heart. He always wants the best for you and you always make his life a little bit harder. As if it wasn’t hard enough.

You want to say no to spare him the view, but you know him. You know he will be anxious, scared he did something wrong, terrified someone could have taken their revenge on you for being the love of Spider-Man’s life. You love him too much to keep him worried, and you would most probably do anything he asked you, ever.

“Always,” not a second passes when your eyes meet Peter’s in the mirror. His brows furrow even more when he sees your red, wet, puffy face. “Not a big deal,” you reassure him before he has a chance to open his mouth. “Jus’ havin’ a bad day.”

His shoulders drop and he comes closer. You feel his hand close to you and you are sure you’re going to cry again if he doesn’t take you in his arms. He hesitates, though. “Can I touch you, sweetheart?” he asks simply and it breaks your heart in half.

“Please, please, please do, Pete.”

Maybe you were begging. Maybe it sounded pathetic. Maybe you looked pathetic, hell, maybe you just are pathetic. But none of it matters when you get trapped in his warm embrace, strong arms around your waist and rubbing your back, his chin on the top of your head, the air he’s breathing out tickling you and slightly moving your hair. Your chests pressed together, thighs touching. You feel safe, seen, appreciated, not alone. You don’t try to fight the tears dripping down your cheeks. 

“I got overwhelmed. Anxious, insecure,” you confess, your voice muffled in his shirt. “I’m better now,” you add. “You make me feel better, always.”

Your lovely boyfriend starts to rock you two from left to right, peppering your forehead in kisses. “I’m sorry you felt that way, baby,” he says against your skin, and his mouth tickles you when it moves. You hug him closer and his grip tightens. “Mean thoughts haunt all of us sometimes. But you have a tendency of believing them,” his words are true and you know it. Embarrassed, you close your eyes, trying to ignore how wet his shirt got from your tears. “You deserve everything, you know? Everything the best, the sweetest, the loveliest in the world. Everything that brings you happiness, smile, joy. You’re too harsh on yourself.”

“I know,” you nod lazily. “It’s that way for me. Hard to be gentle to myself. I try.”

“I know,” he hums. “D’ya want some food?” he adds when your stomach grumbles.

“Mm. Can we stay like this for a while?”

“Anything you want, my lovely.”

You laugh, sniffing. “You’re corny.”

He snorts and tickles your side—strongly enough to make you squeak, softly enough so you don’t try to wiggle out of his arms. “I love you,” he whispers. “I love you, okay? I know I don’t say it enough.”

He says it enough to make you smile like a fool and feel all giddy. You part away from Peter slightly, just a bit, so you can kiss him hard.

[tizzyizzy]

What’s the Appeal of Izzy Hands? Part I

Some folks in the OFMD fandom have no idea what the fuck is going on. They look at the main romance, with Ed and Stede, and how their blossoming relationship is helping them both grow. They look at Oluwande, who’s great, and Jim, who’s chaotic. They look at Black Pete and Lucius and how cute they are together. And they wonder why an entire section of the fandom is simping for the angry antagonist and calling him babygirl and shit.

Well, wonder no more! I am going to be explaining why at great length.

Reason the First: He’s Not That Bad

“Izzy’s the villain! He’s the bad guy! Why do you like him?!”

Before we get into this, I want to note that there’s nothing wrong with liking villainous characters. They’re fun and cool and dress in black. Simp away for your evil faves.

But Izzy? He’s not much of a villain. He’s an antagonist, in that he gets in the way of the main romance. But an evil guy?

Characters are judged by the context and framing of that story’s world. That’s why in some narratives a single kill can mark a character as depraved while in others heroes mow through swarms of soldiers without anyone batting an eyelash. In stories without violence, even the worst characters never strike out in anger. The audience willingly suspends their disbelief and goes along with this framing.

OFMD is a pirate comedy where we are meant to sympathize with pirates and a great deal of violence is played for laughs. Almost all of the protagonists have behaved in ways that would be egregious or at best questionable in real life. However, those moments are comedic and their actions are often forgiven by their crewmates. What ends up being treated seriously often depends on its emotional importance, as opposed to some objective moral standard.

In ep 8, Calico Jack mentions Ed participating in the burning of an entire ship full of people. Calico Jack also accidently kills a pet seagull by being careless with whippies. Yet the latter is treated as a more serious turning point than the former. But I think we can all agree that killing a seagull carelessly isn’t in the same league as burning people alive. It receives more narrative importance because it is more important to Stede that Ed is participating in shitty behavior on his boat with an asshole than that Ed had a violent past, which Stede already knew about, to an extent. The reveal that Ed participated in a bunch of people being burned to death is literally build-up to the climactic seagull killing and Ed leaving. 

In episode 5, Izzy throws some questionably homophobic language at Lucius and assigns him chores. He also attempts to blackmail Lucius into doing chores by threatening to reveal his supposed indiscretion drawing Fang. This incident is often brought up as proof that Izzy is a bad person.

In that same episode, Ed has a man flayed alive with a snail fork then drowned. Stede engages in passive aggression so ferocious it causes a ship to be set ablaze.

If you actually weigh up Izzy’s sins next to those of the other characters, you’ll find that he’s in the same moral range, maybe lighter than someone like Ed.

There are three reasons he may, however, appear to be worse at first glance.

First, he’s rude, abrasive, and prickly. We rarely see him relaxed or in company he enjoys. The closest might be on the island with Fang and Ivan. This might make him a dick, but considering this is a show about literal pirates, that’s not much of a mark against him. Even though Izzy may not be committing evil acts, he’s still a constant annoyance.

Second, this is a story about Stede and Ed falling in love. It’s their emotions we focus on, their love that’s at stake. The audience is inclined to dislike anyone who gets in the way of that, regardless of their reasons. Izzy is an obstacle to their love. Regardless of how justified or reasonable Izzy’s antagonism, the audience is viewing the story through the perspective of Stede and Ed.  But being antagonistic isn’t the same as being evil or immoral. Just because Izzy’s behavior feels bad for the audience doesn’t mean Izzy’s actually out of line.

Finally, we don’t get to see his backstory. Izzy’s a deep character, but this first season was, understandably, about establishing and developing the main characters and their romance. While there’s plenty of implication and subtext, we aren’t given glimpses into Izzy’s perspective that would humanize his behavior to the same extent as Stede or Ed. Thus, when Izzy behaves shittily, its harder for the audience to be sympathetic or forgiving. 

“Being about as evil as the other characters” isn’t exactly a reason to love Izzy, but if you are baffled why anyone would sympathize with a “villainous” character like him, I hope this sheds some light.

[songofpolaris]

First day donuts | P.P.

-> pairing: peter parker x stark!reader

-> warnings: fluff, swearing, lmk if i need to put more x

-> word count: 800+ i think, i wrote a bit more on my phone

-> a/n: hi! so this is… fluffy. that’s all i can think of when it comes to this fic. if you think “… what?” then same, but i thought it was cute. please reblog if you enjoy!

“Peter, where are you? The lecture starts in two minutes and you’re nowhere to be found. I will step on the next spider I see if you don’t at least respond to my texts.” You say after the beep of Peter’s voicemail sounds. 

Today is your first day at MIT. Your dad and Natasha set you up at a dinner last year, making you exchange phone numbers with Pete because apparently you needed a roommate. Now you live together on campus. At first it would just be Peter and Ned, but since you all found it well together, you decided to move in with them. You were nervous for today of course, but that wouldn’t be if Peter could just be on time.

“Is Pete on his way?” Ned says, looking at the phone in your hand.

“No idea, he isn’t picking up and won’t respond to my damn texts.”

“Shouldn’t you like, I don't know… know where he is like all the time?” 

“And why should I know that?” You ask.

“Just… because. He always answers you within 5 seconds and you have those way too long conversations talking about your plans for the future and what not.” Ned shrugs. You raise your eyebrows.

“I feel like if anyone knows where he is at any given time, it should be the man in the chair. That’s you.” You say, it is true after all. Man in the chair equals man behind the calendar. “And how do you know about the conversations? that’s just a me and Pete thing.” 

The night time conversations started when Peter came over one night, stressed about the moving. He had a panic attack and you calmed him down. After, you talked all night and fell asleep together. That was the first time you slept for more than two hours in a row. Ever since then, you called every night for at least an hour, talking about everything and nothing. Peter knew you inside and out to the finest details. The same thing goes for you.

“We have a crappy apartment with thin walls, mine and Peter’s bedroom is right next to the living room. I have ears, even when I sleep. Or wake up from said sleep.” He says, there was no explanation needed really. You knew it was a cheap apartment with thin walls, guess you just didn’t really think of it. “Sorry if we kept you up, chair man, we’ll be more quiet.” You say, giving Ned a quick hug. “Let’s go inside now, ‘cause spider guy is never showing up.” 

You were already five minutes late, but the room wasn’t too crowded, there were multiple rows completely empty. You and Ned decided to go sit in the row in the far back, giving you the opportunity to do other homework while also listening to the man speaking. The wallpaper on your laptop is a film picture of Pepper teaching you and Peter how to snowboard on the vacation you took to Aspen with the Avengers. Dad captured the exact moment where Peter fell and you laughed. It’s a great picture. Your favorite, really.

“Hey,” someone whispers in your ear “I had to get something at the bakery here, that’s why I’m late.” Peter sits down next to you. He grabs your hand and puts something wrapped in paper in it. His face lights up when you questioningly look him in the eyes, wondering why he so desperately had to get something for this lecture that he almost missed the first ten minutes. “Just look, y/n” He says, noticing your asking look. You nod, closing your laptop carefully and unwrapping the paper in your hand. A donut. An extremely and weirdly tasty looking donut. “A donut?” you ask. “Remember what you told me? On your first day at MIT, at your first lecture, you wanted a donut with cereal on it. Not because it seemed delicious or anything, but because it would be combining your two favorite things at the moment you officially started a new chapter in your life, what did you call it?” he thinks. 

“A happy start has a happy ending” You think out loud. 

“Exactly.” Peter smiles at you. 

All you could think of though, was; how did he remember? 

“I told you that right after the panic attack,” you whisper again. “I didn't think you would remember that. That you remember any of it is surprising.”

“Of course I remember, y/n/n” He says, intently looking in your eyes.

“Why “of course”?” you ask. Hiding an escaped strand of hair away behind your ear.

“Because it’s the moment I knew I loved you.” He says. 

You heat up, looking at the donut in your hands, replaying the words you just heard. Did he really just say that? You swallow, trying to think of an answer. You know you feel the same way, you’ve felt like this for a while now actually. But you want it to be special. Not at the start of some boring lecture where you’re going to be stuck for another hour. You want to tell him how you feel when you feel like you’re invincible. And though the donut comes close, it’s not there yet. So instead of saying it back, you turn to Peter and look him in the eyes, scanning his handsome features and soft eyes. He doesn’t look like he regrets his words, nor does he expect anything from you. He just looks so happy. You gently touch his lips with the tips of your fingers and move closer to him. Slowly, your lips touch. It’s a tender, gentle kiss. You break apart, smiling from ear to ear.

“Should I make a dirty joke now or just eat the donut and be happy?” You whisper to him, trying to contain your laughter. You’re feeling all kinds of things from happiness to nauseating butterflies deep in your stomach.

“Now, you eat that freaky donut you dork.” Peter laughs while turning to the lecturer and holding your free hand, lovingly kissing your knuckles.

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- tagging

@im-still-tryin-to-find-it @sapphiccrisis

[yeetlegay]

The gremlin is back with new notes, I hope you don't mind. I'll put a read-more mark in case someone wants to skip them.

Santa Maria we're like 1 minute in and it's already going places

Pete didn't strike me as a tattoo person but it makes sense

I mean I know my man is getting slapped and all but that shirt is fire

"Who's a good boy?" sounded equally terrifying and awfully cute (9 minutes in and I'm already bananas)

TANKHUN YES HELLO OMG YOUR OUTFIT IS LIT LIKE ALWAYS

Tankhun has the best reactions, kicking Kinn with legs included

Porsche is the definition of "this all could've been done without a gun and yes, this all could've been an email"

JESUS that wrench is huge

what if the car accident was caused by Time? In one of the first episode Time mentioned Tay's dad covered up his car accident like nothing ever happened because it was his area. Just a thought.

omg Porchay and his Snoopy hoodie so cute I'll die

as someone who has terrible relationship with my siblings, I'd die for their bromance. Porsche and Porchay might get on some people's nerves in the fandom, but like... They literally only have each other. Of course they'd be super gentle and overprotective.

God that blow-dryer is loud

omg these two babies. Tay and Time are serving looks

OH MY GOD SHE IS SO PRETTY SHE IS INDEED SERVING LOOKS

Love how Tay is manspreading while Time is trying to occupy as little space as possible

Vegas is really reading Childhood's End, a story about literal aliens invading Earth while he has Pete locked up???

No, he isn't. Idk whether I should say God bless or not

I wish Vegas' father a happy burn in hell

Tankhun is such a fashion icon and no I will never stop saying it

I want Tankhun to be kindergarten teacher to my kids so he can teach them basic life rules such as be relaxed and kill everyone who is suspicious immediately and all that while looking so damn fabulous

Sir, uh, that is, um, really creative excuse to kiss someone...

Pete is so good at asking the right questions at the right time

"Have you ever loved me?" no, that's why he Superman-ed those kidnappers and proceeded to enter the warehouse guns blazing... (I getchu tho, Chay...)

Vegas, it's not as bad as before because prior to this you got free Pete therapy session

"If you hate me, you'll have energy to kill me later." or as I call it, positive thinking

Turbulence... noted.

Nope, I don't think my car accident theory was correct. Rest in peace theory, you did your best.

I started to respond to this bullet by bullet but half the bullets were just variations of “AKDHDJNSJSKAJSH SO TRUE” so here is a shortened version lol

THE WHO’S A GOOD BOY LINE REWROTE MY FUCKING DNA ISTG if I ever decide to proceed with my villain era I will be taking Vegas as my manipulate manslaughter malewhore inspo

“This could’ve been an email” LESTAT I WHEEZED

That wrench scared me more than the electric chair (taint edition) from ep 10, like for why is it so ENORMOUS

I live for sibling bonds too ugh. Oldest of 5 here so Porsche’s older sibling struggles resonate deeply. (Also that one post about how Kinn is a middle son but an eldest daughter…math was found dead from the accuracy)

The second I saw the Childhood’s End cover I had to pause and Google lol I’m obsessed with analyzing characters’ reading choices (the Kardashian Konfidential book led to a headcanon that Kinn started watching KUWTK with Tankhun just to feel something and now he’s lowkey a celebrity gossip encyclopedia)

Tankhun kindergarten teacher…WHO’S GONNA WRITE HIM STARTING A MAFIA DAYCARE FOR THE NEXT GENERATION OF THEERAPANYAKUL TOTS

No bc my first thought when Vegas did the pill kiss was “holy shit he’s ballin I could’ve been having my gf give me Tylenol kisses this whole time???” Like absolute legend behavior imo

Kinn walking like that had me thinking Something Else and I was like “surely…surely they wouldn’t have…..not-not on a-a helicopter” so glad we got confirmation of a sky bj to bring my brain back online (sort of)

[chaoticornot]

This is my thoughts about our flag means death. This is just my brain while I watched this show, enjoy.

I adore this episode. Stede was a bad husband. Not Blackbeard sitting on Stede's bedside or in bed. They are so cute. Absolute idiots but adorable. He is not going to betray Stede. They had a picnic, for fuck sake. I am going to love the exchange of teaching each other their ways. I am also loving the Jim and Oluwande friendship/ possible relationship. To be honest, Blackbeard and Stede are the equivalents of the girl next door and the rebel in all famous high school au's. Plus, enemies to lovers who are catching feelings. Ep 4

What do you think the real reason is that Blackbeard wanted to go? Do you think it has to do with never being able to go as a kid? Or that he just wanted to forget himself for one night? Lucius and Black Pete is not the combo I was expecting, but I am here for it. Plus a daddy kink and a bit of voyeurism. What do you think Izzy's face looked like when he saw Blackbeard with bows in his beard? I love that they went in with no plan. The prince, an accountant with bows in his beard, is fantastic. Yes, Lucius calls him out and put him in his place. I love the confidence. That was so romantic. First defending him, then reassuring him, and then staring at each other under the moonlight, walking away, stopping, glancing, shy smiles, walking further, aww. Ep 5

He is seduced by that imbecile. Yes, do start stripping and show off your belly. Haha, this is just a clothed sex scene, Izzy thinks the same. Aww,  why is he so cute? The poor thing. He hid in the bathtub. Look at them comforting each other and being honest. I thought I said fuck a lot, Jesus. You have to win Stede. Concerned boyfriend check. Lucius and Pete are so cute. He made him a finger, aww. The kiss is adorable. Yeah, I get someone for that, hilarious. Of course, he goes to snitch. Ep 6

I love Olu immediately adopting nana, coming nana. Lucius's face, he is third-wheeling. Look at them banter like a fucking married couple. This whole exchange is hilarious. Lucius is like the meddling friend, but he is right. The fondness in his eyes and it was sweet. Stede you couldn't wait 2 seconds before barging in, they were about to kiss. OMG. That is such a husband thing to say. I hope to god that we get a reunion somewhere because I need to know about Jim's adventures and their relationship. Btw, Jim's story plus the oranges remind me of the book, the priory of the orange tree. I love the nana and Olu moment. Co-captains, more like husbands. They are so cute. Oh no Stede, now you have it. This is a problem. "Done something to your boss's brain" is more like your boss has a big fat crush. Ep 7

Stede is jealous, and I don't even know how to refer to Edward's state of mind. He just reverted to a teenager. The hand between his shoulder blades. God Jack is an asshole. I love this truce/ friendship moment between Jim and Jackie. Goof for Stede for standing up as a captain. Not the divorce ark. Sir, you are not allowed to leave. This is hurting me. Unacceptable. Ouch. I am going to guess that Stede cried himself to sleep that night. Not the take care, mate. The look back, those always hurt the most because you can see it is also breaking his heart. This is the I am missing my partner club. I love Julius. The acknowledgement that it is a breakup. Julius is the best friend. The bird speaks. I hate Jack even more now. Edward should apologise when he gets back to the ship. Karma is a bitch. The foot. The look. Awwwwwww. What is going to happen now? Ep 8

Oh no. Stede is a terrible liar. Really, Frenchie? Oh no. Fanfiction, I love that, and fanfiction and the fact that it exists in this world. Edward, you are such a sweetheart and so casual too. Izzy? Wise words but not the crying. This is so awkward. Thank you, Ed, he deserved that. The desperation in his eyes. Two acts of Grace, please. Why does it sound like he is ordering food? Haha. Sassy husbands. I love the horror about the beard being gone. Got to say, I have to get used to it. Stede is so concerned, and Ed is just pretending to be fine and ignoring the fact that Stede is concerned about him. The crew really got the short stick huh. Doing what makes Ed happy huh. So doing Stede, I am sorry, haha, I had to. The kissssss, awwwwww. This is so romantic. I am so afraid Stede is going to say no. Oh thank fuck, he said yes. aw, Olu as captain, I love that. Thye is so supportive. Oh, fuck no. Edward is going to think Stede abandoned him, isn't it? fuck. shit, I told you so. The shock on everyone's faces, I did not expect that one. Lucius do your job and hammer some sense into them. How long has he been away from home? Tell me she is going to knock some sense into him, please. I need a happy ending. Edward's sad face is horrible, someone do something. Ep 9

Yess Mary, girl boss. I love these ladies. Kick him out of bed, if he can't keep to his side. I love her. The kid is savage. Under the weather more like moping. Jimmmmmmmmmmmmm. That is one hell of a kiss, and I am here for it. Oh, blanket fort. He really is not doing well, is he? Seeing him cry breaks my heart, and that entire conversation felt like being stabbed, repeatedly, oh baby, you poor thing. Now Stede has to apoligise. Now he is talking to an orange. These broken-hearted fools, someone do something about it. You voyeur, you are not allowed to be mad though. You tell him, girl. Haha, I love that for them. I love how they are all freaked out by Edward singing a sad song. They are such dorks, a talent show, I love it and how excited they all are. Don't tell me you are now shit-talking your husband over something he is insecure about while he is moping and singing sad songs because you broke up. Btw, I love Ed in that robe. Love Ed for defending them, especially against Izzy, but babe you deserve a little at the moment. Stede don't you dare to ruin Mary's exhibition because I will kill you. And you have drunk. Well, at least he realises that she is allowed to hate him. First of all, I love the murder conversation. Second, Is this Stede realising that he is in love with Edward and doing something about it? Just your husband casually coming out when you're talking about love, and as the awesome human being, you are you hug him. This is tugging at my heartstrings. Oh fuck, he put his walls up again and became Blackbeard, shit. Btw, that was unnecessary. Lucius didn't deserve that, hope he gets back up. Izzy deserved that. This is breaking my heart. I love that Doug and Stede could come to an agreement/ plan. Or fake Stede's dead. They are abandoning them. Not breaking my ships, horrible people you are. That is all three now. Stede hurry the fuck up. Aww, that is so cute.  I have 6 minutes to go, and this is not going to fix itself. I love the whole play, fantastic. Aww, babe. Every time he cries my heart breaks a little. Not the windowsill/ bed. This hurts. A bit too late Stede, at least no one else from the crew is dead yet. I am believing that Lucius is not dead so everyone is alive but not well. And Eds is dying of heartbreak. Fuck, this hurts. I need a season 2 asap.

This show is so good and now I am invested. Why does that always happen to me? I was so happy to find out that Jim is non-binary. Gay pirates are the best thing ever. I was hoping for humour and a love story. We got 3 love stories, humour, and angst. So much angst. And we were heading in the right direction but then crash. Also, I live for the casual stabbing and violence. Bamf characters, whoop. Also, this show made me realise I may have a type. Gray/ salt and pepper long hair with a sword and in leather. Dammit, also in love with their newly made, a bit annoying best friend. I think I have a crush on Jim and maybe a little gender envy.

[cardibgans]

˖ ✹ ˖࣪ 𓂅 𝖾𝗂𝗀𝗁𝗍 𝗆𝗈𝗇𝗍𝗁𝗌 - 𝒑𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒑𝒂𝒓𝒌𝒆𝒓 𖤐

▋peter parker (andrew garfield) x fem! reader

▋summary: where Peter doesn't know what to get his girlfriend for their eight-month anniversary present.

▋warnings: none, just cute

PETER WAS RUNNING AGAINST TIME to think of something to give his girlfriend. Spiderman had several emergencies during the week and consequently Peter had no time to see you and no time to think about what he would give you for your 8 months of dating.

It was a little difficult to give you gifts, since you had almost everything you wanted, whenever you wanted it, being the daughter of one of the most powerful guys in New York. And to make matters worse, Peter was out of money to buy you something that was really enough and up to your standards.

──── Have you ever thought of doing something simple? ──── Gwen commented, tapping her pen lightly on her head as she thought about how to solve a question in her homework.

──── I don't know, Gwen, I wanted to do something that only we both like, something that would show that she is unique to me. ──── Gwen could see Pete's eyes sparkling and smiled slightly.

──── Has she ever commented on a specific thing? Some place she's never visited? ──── Parker's mind flashed in the same instant. Of course! How could he not think of it? It was so obvious. You had commented to him once about never having had a picnic.

──── That's it, Gwen. ──── He quickly got up from his chair, gathering his books and notebook. ──── I'll tell you about it later. Thanks! ──── Peter was gone in a second, leaving the confused blonde behind.

The next day, Peter's afternoon was all about preparing quick snacks and both of their favorites, buying fruit and candy. When everything was almost ready, he told you that he would pick you up at 5:00 sharp.

Meanwhile, he took his shower, slightly tidied his hair, and put on his best shirt. Before he finally left, Aunt May entered his room with Gwen's car key, which she had left earlier.

─── Hey, love... ──── Peter pulled up in front of your house, where you had been waiting anxiously. Your face lit up when you saw your boyfriend.

──── I missed you...───── You said with a cute pout. Peter laughed lightly, before grabbing your cheeks and smashing his lips into yours. You stayed like that for a few minutes, until Peter remembered his surprise and that you would miss everything if you arrived after hours.

──── What have you been doing? ──── He asked, turning on the car radio, but leaving it on low so it wouldn't get in the way of their conversation.

──── Nothing much. I have more fun being with you, and since you were busy saving the neighborhood I had to watch Ice Age alone. ──── Peter laughed shaking his head negatively, her level of drama was incredible, but he loved it all.

──── I'm sorry about that. ──── He whispered interspersing his gaze between you and the road.

──── Don't blame yourself, baby. It's all right. The important thing is that you're here now.

Everything was perfect, the sky was exceptionally blue, the sun was shining strongly, and the clouds surrounded it. You helped Peter arrange the picnic and you were incredibly happy that he remembered that. Peter was an excellent cook, besides.

──── I love you, Pete. ──── You said looking into his almond eyes.

──── I love you so much. ──── He smiled, kissing the back of your hand.

What you loved most about Peter was his way of turning simple things, into something that warmed your heart. You didn't think you could get any more in love with this boy, but that day you found out that you were wrong about all of this.

[poemsforparker]

Stitches n' Patches - Part III | tasm!Peter Parker × fem!Reader

Masterlist

Part One | Part Two

Warnings: mentions of blood and violence.

(not my gif)

What the hell have I gotten myself into? You think when you hear the loud sound of your door being broken. On your couch was his mask you sewed earlier. Peter twirls in the air from where he was to reach up to it and puts it on seconds before two guys walk in. One of them you recognise as the fake officer from earlier and the other is much taller and scarier.

“Two against one? That's not fair!”. Was Peter making jokes at a moment like this? You were freaking out, still at the kitchen and out of their sight. Peter signed for you to hide under your balcony. You didn't think twice. Not even if you tried you think you could be of any help, so you do as he says.

After hearing fight sounds for several minutes, you calm yourself down when you hear Peter’s voice speak as he took his mask off, nearly out of breath “We’re clear”. When you get up you have to hold a gasp on your throat, your apartment was a mess. Besides your door that was now broken, you so beloved book shelf was now on the floor and a couple of them seemed to be stepped on. The sight itself made you want to cry.

Some of the plant vases you were so found of were also broken and your wall had marks of what looked like missed punches from a very strong person. “Fuck.” you say getting one of the books off the floor and sliding your hands through it as if it could repare the damage. “This was a gift from my grandma.” you say in a das whisper and feel hot tears slide down your cheeks.

“Shit. I’m so sorry, y/n.” he says pulling you into a hug.

“It’s not your fault, Pete. I dragged you here, I offered for you to stay and doing it I kind of took the risk too. I’m just glad at least it was my apartment to be ruined and not my face.” you laugh sadly as you part from his hug.

“We’re gonna fix this. I’m gonna fix this.”

“No need to do this now, Peter.” you comfort him. “I’m not a superhero like you but if there’s one thing I know is when they realize these man didn’t come back, more of them are going to come so I’m getting out of here and you go back you your house. This is it.”

“What? That guy saw you.” He points at the blacked out fake cop on your floor. “I can’t just let you part from me like this. At least not now, I have to know if you’re going to be okay.”

“Here’s the plan, Parker. I have to leave this place, at least for now. I’m gonna call my work and the college and I’ll work up an excuse for my absence. Stacy is in med school so hopefully she can help me find a weird unknown disease to tell everyone I have it, she’ll cover me.”

“That’s mean.”

“Maybe.” you shrug, not really caring about moral so much when your life was in the game. “While I catch my stuff to leave you put that door back for me, will you? Tools are under the kitchen sink and if you do want to make me a favor that would be a lot of help. I’ll pack my stuff, get back here, we get out, lock my very in place door thanks to you and decide the rest afterwords.”

“Where are you going?”

“There’s a friend of mine I cat sit for, she lives in Queens, kinda far from here, which is good. She’s out for the whole month and I’m supposed to just go there tomorrow but I’m sure she won’t mind, she’s already out of town. As for you we’ll exchange numbers and you can check on me whenever you want. Sounds good?”

“Yeah. I mean, it’s something.” he stays silent thinking for a while. “Wait, did you just say Queens?”

“I did, why?”

                             . . .

The first day at your friend’s house Peter called about 5 times to check on you. His first plan was to stop by at least once a day but you agreed it would be too dangerous, so set in with the calls. You did think it was a little bit much but thought it was also cute. He was, by far, the most thoughtfull and selfless person you’ve ever met. Which is why you felt so sorry for him. All of these amazing qualities he had were also the reason he got himself and the people around him in constant trouble.

With one single day experiencing his lifestyle you felt like you were about to loose it, you coudn’t begin to imagine how was it he felt that all the time. With the days going by, you started calling him too, you felt lonely and he also didn’t feel safe enough to leave his house yet. So you talked. The minutes became hours. You got to know eachother way better.

You found out he draws, and made him promise he would invite you over to his place to see his work when things got calmer. You told him about your friends, about college, your parents. And so did he. It felt weird at first talking through the phone when you both knew you were so close to eachother, but it was for the best.

The day he told you about his parents you were talking for over three hours, you don't even know where from you got all those weird subjects, but there you were. You felt even more sorry for him. Told him when you met him again you'd give him the warmest of hugs and that you hoped it would be soon.

Peter watched as the streets seemed to get calmer, he didn't see the suspicious men he was watching the earlier days so he figured maybe it was time to get back to action. One way or the other he would have to face the world again some time, and so would you.

It killed him to say so long out of the Spiderman suit. He took the time in his home to improve some aspects in it, he found out you were not bad at chemistry yourself and you both worked out an ever better web fluid formula for him to use. Now he had stocks of those.

Just like that, exactly 17 days after the incident at your apartment occured there he was back on the streets again. Peter must have gotten lost in time because it was already late when he got back home from his night patrol.

Before he slept he decided to leave you a text, warning it all went okay and that he was safe at home. When he woke up and picked up his phone to see if you had answered, his heart skipped a beat with the messages shining on the screen.

< Pete, smeone is at the door 5:51

< I think they're trying to getb in, I'm scared 5:57

< Peter hlep bpls 6:01

3 missed calls from "Y/N ☀️"

“Shit”. he mumbled with teared eyes while he got up to put his suit back on and leave his house again. “Shit, shit, shit, oh my god, please, not again, not her.” he kept leaving out curse words and pleads that you were okay.

When he saw your texts there has been about an hour they were sent. He swung quickly to the house you were staying to see if there were any signs leading to where they took you to.

Once he got there he could see the mess on the entrance of the house, the door was on the floor and the porch had drops of blood going to the street and stopping where they probably got you into a van. It seemed worst than he thought.

He was about to take a step in when he felt a nudge on his hips, scared by the touch he odly didn't feel coming he stepped back in a ridiculous fight pose to look at whatever was it that just touched him. It was a little boy.

“Spiderman, Sir.?” the high voice of the kid said to him. Now it made sense his tingle didn't feel him coming, he was no threat whatsoever. “Are you here to help my friend?”

“ Y-your friend? Do you mean y/n? Do you do you know her?” He says hoping he could get some information. Judging by the kids look he definitely saw something. The kid nods.

“I come by sometimes to play with her and wiskers, today I came and I saw some bad guys taking her so I hid. I didn't know what to do.” He started crying and Peter was quick on calming him down, also remembering time was ticking and he needed information.

“Don't worry, look, what's your name?”

“Jack.” the kid says inhaling deeply for some air.

“Okay, okay, Jack, look, you can be helpful now, okay? Tell me what you saw, anything, anything at all will be useful for me, got it? So tell me what you saw.”

. . .

a/n: I'm a sucker for Andrew's Spiderman interacting with kids 😩. I had to put it somewhere or else I'd collapse. Next chapter will be longer because I wasn't supposed the post this one yet but my dumbass pressed the button without noticing so here it is now.

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