#i love asa sm he’s so everything

[echo-writes-things]

There’s not enough asa emory fanfics and I’m thinking I need to fix that wink wonk

[lace-coffin]

Ughhh i love all ur asa things they make me so happy to read!!!!(the ughhh in a /pos way)

But could you do something maybe if u want of asa headcannons where the reader cant sleep without a stuffed toy because it just comforts them to feel safer and they ask him for one over and over and refuses to sleep without one (literally me fr) and they would be violent snap back at him or ignores him till he gets them one and when they do they would become the nicest person ever and start obeying again and snuggle with it all the time AHHHH also the reader would be a house pet if u write about them being at his home instead of the hotel

sorry for the rlly bad grammer or whatever im writing this ask on phone+im trying to be specific because you said it’s easier but im not that good at being specific😭😭

(even if that’s childish to refuse to sleep without a stuffed toy i rlly relate to it so💔)

Thank u sm for the compliment omg!! Don’t worry about being specific if it’s hard for you, feel free to request in any way that makes you comfortable!

It’s not childish at all to sleep with a stuffed animal so don’t feel ashamed, I sleep with my stuffed lamb “lamby” every night and have since I was like 2, she also travels with me!

Asa Emory x gn!reader! Who needs a stuffed animal to sleep

Requests are closed (for now!)

“Please..I’ll be good”

“We’ve been over this, you’re not having her back until you can redeem yourself. End of conversation.”

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Usually you were a relatively behaved pet, well maybe Asa was more lenient on you than has other “projects” back at the hotel, but well behaved to your standards. You had the privilege of being your masters house pet and significant other, love and submission were intrinsically connected for both you and Asa.

More lenient or not, Asa would be sure to let you know when you were in trouble, and you fucked up. Bad.

You’d been in a sour mood all day, nothing particularly bad had happened to ruin your day however it was like you were itching for an argument, nit picking everything and back chatting your owner, flat out refusing orders just to be a nuisance. It all came to a head during bed time, after squirming whilst being dressed and refusing to get into bed, Asa had already lost his patience with you. Taking it out on your phone that Asa had recently gifted you was the last straw.

During your struggle you’d grabbed your phone, using it as a projectile to ward him off, not only had you missed, you’d watch it hit the mirror, smashing both the glass and screen. After a moment of shock you retreat back into the bed you were vehemently avoiding the minute prior, tail between your legs in panic.

He understood sometimes it can be a lot in this dynamic considering how it came about from less favourable circumstances but today you’ve been pushing him to breaking point. Pushing his buttons on purpose and running from the consequences.

Asa stares back at you from your place in bed, hands flexing and unflexing. He pauses, taking a deep breath and holding for a few seconds to ground himself before releasing and addressing you.

“Sweep it up” he says sternly, gesturing to the dustpan and brush stored in the corner. You grimace but comply, not wanting to make things worse. You clean silently and efficiently, returning to your bed once you finish.

“Better. Now, I don’t know what has gotten into you today and I’m more than happy to talk if you need to but we both know you’ve been deliberately disobedient and destructive. So, I’ll be taking this-“ Asa grabs your stuffed toy sat beside you “until you can learn to behave and treat your things with respect”

Your eyes widen in shock and your fingers twitch with the need to grab it back, you refrain and lace them together, instead settling to give your owner a pouty pissed off look. You knew that having your belongings taken away was an agreed consequence for bad behaviour but it didn’t mean it sucked any less.

“Don’t give me that look doll, you can have her back when you show me you can behave ok? Until then she’s safe with me.” His voice is stern but soft enough to be reassuring, you know he’s not angry at you and he only wants the best for you.

After placing your plushie into his office and locking it he joins you in your shared bed, letting you cuddle up to his side.

Unsurprisingly you ask for her back the next morning despite literally only sleeping between then and last night. Also unsurprisingly he says no. “It’s only been a few hours cricket, you need to show me how you can be good for me, I know you can be such a sweet pup if you try” you huff but agree.

After two more attempts in the span of three hours you declare war. You can’t and won’t wait. In reality you’re afraid, you know you can’t sleep without her, last night was restless and anxiety filled, you didn’t wake Asa because you didn’t want him to think you were being a baby…

Just like that you’re back to being snippy with him, rolling your eyes and talking back. Pretending not to hear him when he calls for you, making everything difficult out of pure spite. You need her back or you know tonight is going to be just as horrible as the last.

“I’m not doing shit until you give her back!!” You bite at Asa, stomping your foot for good measure. All he’d done was ask you to prepare for a bath…

Pinching the bridge of his nose, Asa relents.

“What is this all about puppy? You’ve been touchy since yesterday and somehow even worse today, I understand you aren’t happy about being punished but you’re supposed to be showing me how much you deserve her back.” He pauses for a moment, taking your hands in his and connecting eyes. The look on his face is taut but not angry, unsure of what the issue is but concerned with your distress.

“There’s more to this isn��t there pet. Tell me.”

“Can’t sleep” you mumble, eyes darting down to stare at your socked feet on the hardwood flooring.

“Speak up please”

“I can’t sleep without her! I couldn’t sleep last night and I won’t be able to sleep tonight unless I have her back! I know it sounds childish but she makes me feel safe, I-i can’t do it without her” you sniffle

Asa’s face softens, hand cupping your cheek and wiping away a stray tear. “Oh pet, thank you for telling me, I wasn’t aware confiscating her would distress you this much. I know we both agreed to this in the rules but it seems to have touched a nerve and for that I’m sorry. We’ll iron the rules out and then she will be returned to you, sound good?”

You sniffle and nod, leaning into the warm touch of your masters palm.

“I still expect you to take your punishment but we will discuss it later and make sure we’re both comfortable with it” he tacks onto the end.

Sure enough you update your contract and your fluffy friend is returned to you with another hushed apology from Asa and even one to your plushy, making you giggle.

The day finally feels normal again, tears are dried and you’re back to obeying and being your cuddly usual self, practically hanging off your master as he works or cooks, nuzzling into his neck contently. Mistakes are bound to happen but you always figure it out in the end, only wanting the best for eachother, there’s no one you would rather make mistakes with than Asa.

[my-fancy-hat]

it's been a year since chapter 100 came out, and it's still one if not my favorite of all part 2 so far. This chapter changed everything at least in my opinion, sedimenting the change of tone between the two parts. The pace will be slower, I thought, it will put emphasis on build bonding moments between characters, making every panel they share together meaningful to both parties without said characters saying out a thing, just silence and the freezed moment of such endearing frames:

...and I think I was kind of right. However, the truth is that this chapter is so special to me is because it remind me of my first best friend I made in middle school, years have passed and I remember her with terderness and gratitude for have teached me what friendship is, and have read Yuko and Asa running away from where they were unhappy, shoeless, took me 12+ years back in time. Walking shoeless hurt your feet, but despite the pain pressing your skin against the hardness of the pavement, the room to find and experience joy still exists, to find good people who may know how does it hurts and hold your hand to affirm your existence in here, to make you feel safe, understood.

I love how Fujimoto potrays the teenage girl struggles thought Asa and how he wrote girl friendship. I miss Yuko sm but my hopes are now on Asa to find another friend to rely on, because she's so alone right now. Same on Denji. There is so much love in friendship, people tend to forget that.

[softpine]

hi, i always sent my thoughts after posts, but now i'm off anon, so nice to meet you <33

COCO!! everyone cheers i love all the posters and notes, their door is.. very them lol the fact that cara and beth didn't mention xena the warrior princess to casper at least ONCE worries me, this xena is adorable though and the idea to text mikaela is sort of genius? there are so many parallels with how danny and mikaela met vs casper and coco i love it sm

i loved this post as always, hope you have a wonderful day and please share all the behind the scenes details!

omg hi!!! i love anons but there's always something special about someone coming off anon too ;-; thank you so much for reading!! and lmaoo beth and cara would absolutely find out casper is bi and go "sit down. queer history class is in session."

i loved the text to mikaela, because obviously it proves that casper is not, in fact, a "pro" with babies, but it also draws the parallel between casper and danny, like you said! casper says he's just babysitting xena to impress coco, which is somewhat true, but we also know he's been so homesick lately. he's especially missing sadie (she's his phone lock screen, there are pictures of her all over his room, her drawings and stickers are on his dorm door, and he brings her up unprompted, along with a mention of when asa was a toddler), so this is also a way for him to feel closer to home. he got so excited when he heard baby noises because he literally hasn't interacted with a baby in months 🤧 anyway, the point is he's homesick! and the same can be said for when danny met casper & mikaela. he was also living across the country from everything & everyone he knew, and he and caroline were not doing so hot, so he couldn't always rely on her for comfort either. in both cases, being able to take care of a baby was a way for them to feel useful and grounded. it just helps that it also would impress a pretty girl :P

[linabirb]

👀👀👀 For the bingo, I'd like to hear your thoughts on Aki (csm just to be safe because its quite a common name haha), Makima, Isagi, Kaiser, Reo, and Mikoto.

.. OH BOY I HOPE YOU'RE READY TO HEAR SOME OF THE WORST TAKES EVER

.. i'm going to be honest. I GENUINELY FORGET AKI EXISTS SOMETIMES. like my brain just goes "uhhh remember denji and power's big bro" and im like "OH". if you remember my akutagawa bingo, i think you can see a pattern which can only be described as "i am so sorry but i just cannot make myself care about brooding dark-haired anime boys" 😭😭 (dan heng from hsr is one of the few exceptions) idk i really do think his story was sad but i'm also kinda like. i was too focused on other things when i read and watched csm JSKDSLASLSL. "what things" well.. let's talk about the next character on our list.

feel free to shoot me or stab me for this. but yes, THIS WOMAN IS ACTUALLY MY FAV CSM CHARACTER 😭 (along with kobeni and asa) i just love evil women! and i love well-written evil women! and i have so much to say about her. i genuinely love the way she was written and she's a very realistic character, but i am not a fan of how the csm fandom just. doesn't care about her character at all and cares only about her crimes and i'm not even talking about her basically destroying the whole world and killing SO MANY PEOPLE, i'm talking about her relationship with denji. which is, OF COURSE, bad and extremely toxic and unhealthy, especially considering that denji is a minor. however, i think seeing that as her only "personality trait" is so.. it just doesn't sit right with me. like i would be okay with people talking about everything she's done and analyzing it and going "yeah she's still a bad person even if she's well-written and deep" but i am NOT okay with people going "yeah she's a groomer and also she killed my faves :(" like. i don't know. if you don't want to interact with such "problematic" content just don't read it? though i'm gonna be honest i'm pretty sure most csm fans are very young and from what i heard, a lot of them haven't even read/watched any "dark" content before csm. me picking "they are innocent if u ignore their various crimes" is obv a joke, i definitely agree that makima is a terrible person, but also. i can't deny that she's pretty <3 and also the fact that she just needed a hug breaks my heart every time i think about it. i actually have a plushie of her too! one of the best purchases i've ever made, she stares at me with her big ol' yellow eyes and i do everything she says. thank you for motivating me to do my hw, queen.

but enough talking about my faves. honestly.. i don't really care about isagi? which actually makes me very sad bc i found him very relatable at first but then i kinda got bored? like i can't even describe his personality, i can only say "uhhh he's friendly with other guys unless he's playing football and also. uh. he likes football"? and ig that can also be very fun and i'm usually a huge fan of characters that usually act nice but also have a very rude and mean side, but isagi is just. idk, i don't really find him that interesting and those moments when he's like, busy analyzing everything and coming up with strategies.. honestly, i just skipped them JSDKSLSLS. I WANTED MORE ACTION OKAY. i think his relationship with bachira is cute though!

BACK TO MY FAVES. i would bite kaiser's head off if i ever got the chance but he's also one of my fav characters. yeah. he's so cool, i love his design sm, i need to look like him. i want to get into his head and figure out what's wrong with him. i want to squeeze him and crush him and tear him apart, but i also love him so much. tbh i don't know anything about the new chapters, but i'd love to learn more about him, it's like, at the same time, i want him to have a backstory that's a little bit (or maybe VERY) sad, but i also kinda want him to be like that just bc he can (even though i'm pretty sure it was implied that he does have a reason for acting like that). and yes, i love his relationship dynamic with ness. yeah.

reo. another fave of mine. though i actually didn't like him that much when i first saw him, but. i knew deep down that a purple boy will become one of my faves. love this gay disaster of a man, everything that happened between him and nagi was more entertaining than every single romance movie that i've ever watched. i want him to get better and realize that he's capable of doing great things without him. i also want him to become even more dependent on him for angst reasons. it's hard. and i honestly both love and hate that moment when he decides to return to nagi right after he finally started to get some character development, because YES I WANT HIM TO GROW AND I WANT HIS PERSONALITY TO BE SOMETHING OTHER THAN "if i spend at least one day w/o nagi i will die", but also it's very realistic and as someone who was in MULTIPLE (platonic) relationships that were exactly like his relationship with nagi.. that moment was very painful. in a good way. and again, i wanna look like him.

my relationship with mikoto is very hard to explain bc it's like. in theory, i'd love to learn more about him. i'd love to stan him. but also.. i'm not a fan of how the fandom pretty much makes his DID his only personality trait? maybe i'm just on the wrong side of the fandom, but i rarely see any posts about his other traits? again, i'd love to learn more bc i have a feeling that we have a lot in common, but. but yeah. i'm a huge fan of his minigram version though <3 so silly. so squishy. so funny. (honestly, me being salty that almost all convos about mikoto usually discuss his DID is so funny to me now that after three therapy sessions i've found out that i'm most likely a system SJHSJDKDLSL like bro THAT IS YOU) about "i would push them down the stairs" i mean it in a silly playful way :) like i want him to fall down and scream in a very cartoony and funny way.

[illholy]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.      (   REPOST DO NOT REBLOG !  )    tagged by.    @alvcrd  ,   luna beloved.  thank you for tagging me.  i love the just here to vibe energy sm. more power to you !  tagging.   @spiritpyro , @unladielike  ,  @dis--parity,  @royaletiquette , @fenixias​   &  the rest of my mutuals who i wish to tag so desperately but i am a limited little boy, weak and disappointing.   

NAME    :    Asa , formerly  Jojie.  PRONOUNS   :   none    or   choose whatever suits your fancy.  PREFERENCE OF COMMUNICATION  :   none,   I’m terrible w/ consistent chatting.   I primarily use  LINE  but no one ever has that  &  is often reserve only for my most esteemed ones.  NAME OF MUSE(S)   :   Shoichi Irie ( khr ) ,  Judith ( oc )  ,  Sucrose  ( genshin ) ,   Riruka ( Bleach )   &   a basket of shitty originals.      

RP EXPERIENCE / HOW LONG (MONTHS/YEARS)  :  I have no memory, one day I just woke up a loser. :( 

BEST EXPERIENCE  :   ( micro dosing ) Being part of a  ‘ community ’  is neat,  you know for as long as it’s a good circle.    

RP PET PEEVES / DEAL-BREAKERS  :  as a general rule, ignorance and bigotry is a no go.  for  personal preferences,   I am inclined to ask that individuals who are not suited or have considerable discomfort for most themes within the bounds of horror, to avoid me.   I’d say I’m pretty tame,  but I do still get utterly confuse when people who seem to dislike ‘dark’ content still choose to follow me.    

 Another one,  and likely,  most importantly,  are those  ‘ he said, she said ’ callout post with zero proof or evidence of culpability.   

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT  :   wouldn’t dream to choose,  if possible,  I’d love to write all sorts of things ranging from serious to silly.    I  very rarely write smut,  but lately,  I’ve been thinking, it would be nice to write explicit things again just for the sake of it.   

PLOTS OR MEMES   :    memes !  it’s a wonderful way to get a feel of the characters before hand -  which in my case,  required  before I can properly plot.  ( I need to get to know your character within your writing in itself !  conversations are fun, but threads gives so much life to the relationship, not to mention, I adore the unexpected ! )

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES ?   :  I love long threads,   often times my replies malforms into word vomits.    I also just love, love, love,  reading my partner’s replies.  In the end of the day, I’m weak for details !   Show me their thoughts,  how they interact with their surroundings,  the weather, the voice, the everything ! 

BEST TIME TO WRITE ? :    When I  WANT  to write,  I’ve resigned to the fact that I’m a creature of whims and won’t force myself to write if I don’t feel like it.  It’s frankly, very liberating ! 

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S)  ?  :   No.  I’m just a normal dude.  Send me to prison if I ever start acting like any of these sickos tbh. 

[evilvvithin]

💔💘🔪🎧⚔️

💔 The slasher you’d LEAST like to meet IRL. Hard one because I'd love to meet them all yk... as much as I love Jesse Cromeans, probably him because the man got no mercy AND he doesn't talk AND he's just brutal af

💘 The slasher you’d MOST like to meet IRL. (answ alr so i copy it) Asa Emory. The man just has special place in my heart

🔪 If you could own one slasher weapon which would it be? Bubba's chainsaw without a hesitation

🎧 A song you associate with a slasher. Headache by Motionless in White i love the song sm and it just fits for everything

⚔️ What slasher do you think you could beat in a fight? (answ alr so i copy) Jason Voorhees, I'd just show him pic of his mom and he'd go in trans

slasher ask game

[simply-breeee]

a VERY long catch up

June - June was really a transitional period in time. My niece was released for the hospital and I was officially n at home auntie now! I love her so much my baby my baby 👩🏽‍🍼 I also started tapping into my it girl energy and realizing that I am exactly who I always wanted to be through Christ. I worked on my self image as well as my relationship with God. Other than this life was pretty low key. 

July- July was another month filled with just working… nothing exciting to write about or at least nothing notably exciting I remember. I got a spider bite perching on my cartilage but other than that nothing really. 

August- It was SM birthday! I installed a wig for the first time in a few years and it looked really cute. So we went out with her family for dinner that food made my head and stomach hurt so bad after that I went home and took off that  wig because I ad a hair appointment the next day! My blonde and brown bee braids were soooooo cute and they did the thing for our trip back to Texas. This trip was mostly her birthday celebration with a little bit on looking at places. While here she disappeared for the day with irrelevant and Tornado ended uo in the mix with his gf who brought me up in conversation .. it’s giving fan club. All the while I took the rental car and sight saw. Went to a campus out there and just spent the day alone. I felt at peace as if this was gonna be my life and from November’s section yk how that went. I enjoyed my day alone and I finished it by getting really high and watching HBO Max. When SM did come back she was basting break up music as if something happened with irrelevant even thigh they had called it quits in May im pretty sure but whatever. I got some pretty bad news while there but I won’t harp on that because God worked it out and everything is much much better now. When we came back I was already planning my next trip to Dallas and I was so excited to go again. I LOVE TEXAS like it just makes me feel so little with so much to do and so many places to explore ❤️ 

September-September was slow and boring, classes , work and tryin at the YouTube thing again. So at the end of sept. I went to Dallas again mostly just to get away and while there on the first day we (me and SM) went to a water epic water park… yall on the first day there tmw my phone gone jump in the pool with me and broke. Spent the second day if he trip going to apple in the yt people area just fro the dude to talk to me like I was slow and made me walk out. Went to my phone store and had to get into a lease to get my new phone 😭. I was not in the mood to be paying monthly fro no Rangoon phone but whatever I was still in Dallas fro three more days so I NEEDED a phone. Went to Olive Garden asa. Comfort place and called apple and went OFF bc how yall advertising the phone is water resistant and can last x amount of minutes under water just for my phone to be in for 30 seconds and break… yea no. I got transferred 3 times to finally get to someone who said they will pay for my phone to get fixed so that was that. So that trip stared off really poorly AND the 🍃 man got locked up so we had nothin. Ended up going to a shop and getting some really overpriced 🍃 that did the job ig. So the rest of the trip was cool. Went to church with my aunt and really enjoyed being in a community Christ again. Following that my flesh wont and I decided to be messy giving into my flesh… so Tornado told SM he has a pick up bball game that night which ofc made me wanna go. I had to go see him play in real life and the opportunity presented itself. 

He said no at first bc his gf was gone be there as of that meant anything to me I just wanted to go to a game. YALL why this boy stare me down the I walked in and kept looking at me every time the game come close to where I was sitting and whole time his gf is there and I know she could tell what was happening. I started rooting of the other team so. Are it a point I was not there for him and SM gone say im petty… NO im trynna save face bc aint no one gone say im here for him. He played good enough still needed work on somethings I pointed out before but whatever. When the game was over he said sum to me that I didn’t hear (SM later asked he said Hey) and we left that was that… some time later they broke up hope to wasn’t bc of me but let my man be staring down his ex I would leave him too 

We went to a (Mexican) farmers market and yall was sooo fun they had chickens and goats and horses everything! Plus hella clothes and food. I really enjoyed that. Me and SM looked a two or three moths laces and that was the end of September 

October- Honestly this month was a filler month … nothing really happened I mostly just played in my hair  October was a month of great hair styles 

November- Boy oh boy November really showed upend showed out. So at this point me and SM had not found a place yet and was still on the fence about a few places so I had decided I was going to back to Dallas (alone this time) to mostly get out of indy but ofc go look at more places. While there I did reach out to Tornado and we had planned to go look at these places together for two reasons - 1. I didn’t want to rent a car 2. I wanted to be there with someone. YALL this goofy boy did EVERYTHING to annoy me and at a point just came out and asked to hump on me as if we hadn’t been or terrible terms for the past year. So being someone who JUST got off my cycle and was practicing abstinence again I was like nah. So me turning him down really set it in his mind that it was f me and he aint wanna help me out . Coo whatever if im just choochie to you then you nothing to me and I hit up his friend for some 🍃. We ended up smoking in his car and just chatting which let his friend now that im really that girl. He ended up texting me on snap about when id be back out there/when im officially moving so we can get some food. So yea that just reassured me that I was that girl and Tornado RUINED it for himself. Also while out there I decided to follow my spirit and trust God. So irrelevant told SM a week before my trip that his dad had been diagnosed with cancer again. And as b-made he is I was like nah he NEED his Deddy so by happenstance in bible study we talked about this book on unlocking you relationship with Christ and healing. I ordered the book and got in by Saturday with my trip on Tuesday. I first asked Tornado to deliver it for me and he was asking like a scared little kid “ion wanna get in trouble… if you want him to have it you should talk to irrelevant bc that got nothing to do with me” yall would think im trynna sell a dying man health insurance 😭 so I said whatever and mailed the book to his house the day I left. A week later tornado, irrelevant, and irrelevant Deddy BLEW UP SM phone on Thanksgiving goin off about ME sending a book. Just fyi SM said I shouldn’t have done it and I told her its beyond me im doing something with the Lord. I tell you bout niggah  bc why irrelevant Deddy talmbout this isn’t my religion, it makes me uncomfortable that she would send this and all this other childish stuff TO A TWENTY YEAR OLD sir you’re 50… and from this yall can see I wasn’t EVER pinned into this call that was all about me… weirdo behavior. *at work* So the following Tuesday SM gone say she wanted to talk to me after we haven’t spoken in an entire week so im like okay whatever. She gone try to make it seem like it’s my fault this boys called her. First of all everyone has my number and if its as really that much of an issue why didn’t you add me into the call? Exactly you just wanted to freely talk mess and THINK I was gone be okay with it because they stressed you out oh so much blowing up your phone. The phone you pay the bill on and if you didn’t want to talk you wouldn’t … remember you aint say nothing to me all week and im your best friend weird. So I tell her about herself because wheat you not gone do is try to play victim and she gone come out and say “you have a lot of drama its just always drama with you” HOW when I do all I can to not be in mess. So I told her if thats how you feel dont be coo with me she gone say “no I still want to be friends” *why would you want to be friends if I just bring drama to you?* so I say well ion wanna be your friend and left it at that. She huffed her breathe and walked out the room and I listened to my music and finished eating my lunch. So November ended on a sour note and I continued looking for a place in Texas for me now. Everyone I talked to said she did all this because she was scared to move and didn’t know how to tell me. Girl you could’ve said something when I was out there and I could’ve looked at one bedrooms but whatever. 

December- For December I spent my days looking and applying to new apartments in Dallas and Houston now. This was such a LONG and drawn pout process again but it made me feel better to know I was going to be alone not having to worry about anyone at all. Since I was still in indy but not working my mom asked me to come help run breaks for a day I said sure. So im running bathroom breaks first in order of who got there. So the girl who she was in a room with came in first and (SM now named scary)Scary was one of the last people on my list so I go ask the girl if she needs a break she say no and I start to walk out as I get out the door Scray gone say “raggedy Bitch” girl now lets be for real… you had to wait till my back was turned to you because you and I both know you couldn’t say it to my face… was it for laughs? So yk what I did went and told management… now you gotta go home for verbally assaulting a coworker who was simply doing what the list said… goofy

AND when I went back in for her break oh girl she was with was hush quiet bc I really wanna know who THINKS they can really step to me. From how it all happened ik that oh girl charged Scary up bc when she talked to the manager she said that oh girl said I wanted to fight her… if I wanted to whoop you I would’ve said from my mouth I wanted to dog walk you I dont need no help talking for myself and I thought that was clear to her by now. Oh well more money in my pocket 🤷🏽‍♀️ December went and now its time to move!

January- I moved two days after my birthday which made me a little sad just because I wanted to be in my own place by my birthday but now that I’ve been there for a while im glad everything went he way it did. I spent my birthday with my sister(s), cousins and a few friends getting high and eating some good food. The move was hard on me, trying to pinch pennies I rented a mini van instead of haul and drove those 15hrs. The trip itself wasn’t bad it was just sooooo boring because it was just me and my thoughts. I got soooo tried by the time I ht Arkansas so I stopped and ate which made it so much worse, ngl I almost ran off the road bc I was so sleepy. BUT the Lord had me so I made it safely to Houston! The place I moved to was my first time ever seeing it and I got to Thank God because he made sure I washing in no rat hole I returned the rental and ubered to a car dealership where I was turned down. I knew this much God had a plan for me because I was supposed to start working that Wednesday and it was Monday. So in Tuesday I called around and a dealership ubered me to them in Northern Houston 45 min away. We went though all the steps and I got approved for my Nissan ✨ yes im a Nissan girly now lol . January was mostly me learning what was around me and getting to and from work which was in Deerpark Tx. If you know Houston then yk Deerpark is 40 min away. I didn’t realize where I was applying until I was already there with the job. So this was a hurdle I had to work around but with God I prevailed. 

February- So February… the shortest month and the longest at the same time. On the first a coworker hit my car as she was pulling out of the parking lot and dented the mess out of my rear passenger door (its still not fixed 4 months later) being a good Godly woman I said I dont want to get the people involved and she can just get me a new door and have her husband install it. Sometime is think I should’ve involved the people but whatever shoulda coulda woulda whatevers. So that started off my black history month but the storm was still in store. So there was a literal tornado that came so very close to my job which made me just want to got out of there. The girls I was in a. classroom with didn’t know how to react under pressure lookin out the window at the sky and said “the sky looks green thats weird” girl that means the nado is close get these kids in the hall. The lights went out and its thundering just a mess. Since it came so close to us the power was knocked out for a few days and I got paid time off to sit at home and plan my break to a new job. So now it’s valentines day and im at work minding ym black owned business and Tornado text me on some BS like the biggest BS he could’ve came up with 

*in invisible ink* So we f*ckin 

*reg text* naw im jp but happy valentines day 

Me very confused … marks it as unread and doesn’t reply until March (said I need a plug when I was stuck out there for a night at the end of Feb he read it like a bitch)… so later that night I talk with ym cousin she was reading instagrams saying men who text their ex on valentines day are criminal and if God dont talk LOUD then idk what he does because that was all him. I was debating tectonic him back something slick but God shut me up through her. So I fihsish washing my dishes and get in the shower and bed. February was boring. Me and my other cousin started going on nature walks on Sunday as a way to walk her dog and catch up (see how I arranged that… its about the dog the catch up is just because we are both there) So we did that a few times but around April we stopped honestly I think its because I kept having reasons not to go that it was more effort to see if we were going or not

March- So march was really so slow nothing really happened… I texted tornado 

Hey so I feel like we should clear the air since we are so close now… lets talk 

Huh no

Ion except that

I feel like you got some stuff on yo chest 

Im in a relationship nigga tf (me hearts the message)

Im so happy for you…. No no more valentines texts? Coo coo thanks 💋

Wym (deletes message)

Not to be mean 

Just sayin 

Why you delete yo other messages… yk I already seen it

But any the ways I aint take nothing w offense it aint mean shit its a good thing… good for you imhappy for you go be happy for yourself and not be in my phone… (he questioned the message)

Bc tbh when you sent m that all I thought was he aint got no one else to say that shit to 🤔…

I gotchu 

So that was the beginning of March… shortly after this I transferred to a new daycare center which just let my know I never really wanted dot work with kids. The director was not the best at her job and it showed with the staff so I got a job for a daycare temp/ substitute. I still dont like working with children and am trying to get out of it day by day. 

April- In April I went back to Indy for a week or two for my dads birthday and by the end of it I was OVER it all. Me and my dad swapped some words which ended with him saying “its fine shell be gone in a. Few days” which really drove into me that ion need to be around this energy. I was so excited to return back to my place 1000 miles away and told myself and mother that I will not be coming back for his birthday any more. 

May- May was like every other month but on the 21st it was my nieces first birthday! So ofc I had to come back to indy for that yall I came May 20th and im still here… its June 25th and my flight back isn’t till July 7th😭 I miss my bed so bad. Since being here nothing really has been happening just working at the daycare tryna get them kids back together. Scary messed them kids up real good because they are and asf now. Most of my first few weeks was just getting back into the mindset that I am the teacher and they have to listen to me. We just now getting back to being fun with each other

June- Quick add on From the end of December to the first week of February me and FWB were on regular speaking terms and that whole thing is a story in itself but its comes back this month… alright so now June. It hasn’t really been all that as you can see fro the last post I been bored so chose to be messy but other than that nothing really. So FWB reacted t my story on some flirty vibes which I steered into hyping my head up which he did. He trynna come see me in Houston but boy ik you just wanna hump me and im on my abstinence journey until I get my ring. We stopped talking in Feb because I flat out told him ion care about his situationship with his ex and that I wanted to get otp to talk about a show. If anything I was being a stingy friend but whatever.

[animebixches]

How the GOM w/ Kagami would react to you in lingerie

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Akashi

He’d honestly love it

He’d treat you like the queen you are, and ravish when you would take the time to wear fancy clothes for him

“Darling…”

He would slowly strip you, making sure to touch every part of your body

“Do you love how I touch you?” He’d smile when you’d shiver at his words

After fully stripping you, he’d make you spin around so he can admire your body

Expect PRAISE PRAISE AND MORE PRAISE

Midorima

He would most likely act indifferent towards it

Even still, he can’t deny the bulge in his pant as he stares at you

He’d silently thank Oha Asa because it IS Cancer’s lucky day

Let’s be honest, Midorima is a textbook lover, he’d spend so much time trying to think about how to pleasure you, he’d get too much inside his own head

But seeing you like that…he would act purely on instinct

He’d be careful not to rip your clothes off, but once they’re off, it’s a different story

Modorima would DEFINITELY eat you out until you couldn’t take it anymore, but once you think he’s done…

“What’s wrong (Y/N)? Whoever said I was done?It is us Cancer’s lucky day, might as well use that.”

Aomine

Mans would literally tear the lingerie apart as soon as you walked in

“Aomine! I really liked those!”

“Do I look like I care? You should know better than to tempt me with that shit.”

Aomine will literally fuck you right then and there

He’d be slightly cocky about it too

“You’re already wet for me, hm?”

He would fuck you literally any and everywhere in the house

“I love how you look when you scream my name baby, you love this dick, huh?”

Expect praise but a LOT of degradation

“Fucking slut, you can’t even take all of my dick? Fucking pathetic.”

He’d have you trembling and unable to walk for at LEAST a few days

“Don’t wear that shit anymore.”

Kise

Kise would LOVE it

I honestly think he’d spend more time trying to take pictures of you in it, than actually doing anything

“Y/N-chii, you look so beautiful!”

He’d prolly make one of the pictures his home screen

You’d probably have to initiate the first move because he’d be too consumed in pictures and selfies

As soon as you do though…

Kise would most definitely love to fuck in front of the mirror

Nothing but praises

“Pretty baby…fuck…you’re so fucking beautiful Y/N.”

He’d definitely go faster when you’d call him daddy

Kuroko

Honestly? I have no clue

He’d probably just flush and refuse to make eye contact with you

Kuroko is definitely a sub, you can’t tell me different

You’d have to initiate everything and even still, he’d be shaking the entire time

All in all, the lingere would make it out safely

(I’m so sorry, I don’t know what Kuroko would be like sexually 😭 He’s too precious for that)

Kagami

MAN WOULD GO CRAZY

He would try not to hurt you or the lingerie, but he’s still probably accidentally rip it

“I’m sorry Y/N, I’ll buy you new ones!”

Kagami’s favorite position is 100% doggy

He lovessss to see your ass bounce on his dick

“Fuck baby, stop trynna run away”

He would 100% moan, groan, let out curses…this man has no shame, and wants you to hear how much he loves your pussy

He loves to see the ring of cream around the base of his dick, it almost pushes him over every time

“No one takes me as well as you do…no one makes me cum like you do…”

He’d roughly rub your clit while he’s fucking you

Expect multiple rounds, man has a lot of built up energy

Murasakibara

SAVED MY MANS FOR LAST OMG I LOVE HIM SM🤧🤧😩😩

Murasakibara would hate it honestly

“Y/N-chinnnn, you look beautiful but now it’s going to be even more work to get what I want…what a pain in the ass.”

He would literally rip it in half like it was a piece of paper

“Mukkun!”

“Sorryyyy…”

Murasakibara is a lazy lover, he doesn’t need to do much after all

Man 100% has a size kink

Nothing makes his harder than to see you struggle to ride him

“Need some help?”

He’d force you down, causing you to scream out in pleasure and pain.

His tip would absolutely bruise your cervix

Eventually he’d just pick you up and fuck you while standing up

PRAISE

He loves when you beg him to cum but he’d always edge you so he’s able to see you become more and more desperate

Definitely has a breeding kink

Loves to see you filled with his cum

Would make a game out of it for himself, tries to see how many times he can make you cum in an hour

LOVES TO EAT YOU OUT

He loves eating in general, can you really blame him?

Also loves to see you struggle to try and give him head, loves that you can’t fit all of him in your mouth

Says you’re his favorite snack, he can’t ever find something that tastes better than you

Definitely gets pussy drunk

All in all, an amazing experience

[hooman4ever]

ok sorry another one, also rough

just anything with maybe (kinda angsty I guess) a trans woman just not feeling very confidenglt or like a "real woman" (either just in general or maybe due to physical reasons)

ooor, more happy - maybe being gifted a dress, or make up, or just dressing up somehow, and being very happy with her slasher partner ^^ and being showered in compliments

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Did a mixture of both ideas! Tysm also I loved these ideas sm <3

Also, I didn't do the mini scenario I usually do with headcanons since I am trying to get these ones done quickly!!!

Contains: Mentions of Dysphoria, Mentions of Murder, MTF Reader, Trans Reader, Fluff & Angst, Comfort, Bo Being a Ass but a Loving One

Michael Myers

As soon as you had come to Michael questioning yourself and your womanhood Michael would be awkward about it but he would be quick to do his best to reassure you that you were a valid and wonderful woman whom he cares deeply for.

When Michael sees you having bad days with your identity he would offer head pats and some physical comfort but let's be honest, this man isn’t big on emotions. His affection would be more in the way of gifts and small acts of kindness.

Michael would be out on a kill and see a dress or skirt that he thinks you would like and snatch it, only to leave the item sitting in front of your bedroom door for you when you leave your bedroom next. Also, expect some half-dead questionably sourced flowers to be left half haphazardly on the dining room table. Just ignore the roots still attached for Michael’s sake.

God forbid someone was responsible for your sudden dysphoria. If Michael even catches a whiff of someone misgendering or belittling you he’s going crazy dog mode right away. You wouldn’t even need to tell him who, Michael will find them.

Asa Emory

He will shut down any attempts to belittle yourself and your identity. As soon as you question yourself or start to feel invalid this man will be swooping in and grabbing hold of your shoulders. “Don’t say such things, my dear.” he would say before finishing with– “You’re the most beautiful woman in my life and I wouldn’t have it any other way.” all while rubbing your arms itching to simply pull you into a hug.

Asa doesn’t put up with any hate towards you whether it be from you or others. As soon as the words tranny, he/she, or not real woman are muttered Asa is losing his cool and cutting them down. This man is more than happy to also lock you away keeping you in his home to ensure no one hurts you with their invalid outdated opinions.

This man loves to shower you with the finest gifts, if you try to deny anything he will simply brush your words off saying “I will pamper my beautiful woman when I want to.”

He also loves doing your makeup if you let him but you’d need to teach him a thing or two if you don’t want it to be a disaster.

Bo Sinclair

I could see him getting angry if you try to belittle yourself, not at you of course but at the people who instilled “such idiotic thoughts in your head” according to him. Bo will be sweetly aggressive with his comfort saying things like “Last I checked I had a girlfriend, [Y/n].” and “Stop spewing that bullshit, you're my woman, and I ain’t toleratin’ it.” along with other things along those lines.

When you get super bad dysphoria it tears Bo up and this man will be the equivalent of a puppy dog staring from afar just wanting to make everything better but not knowing how. He will try his best though, dropping in random compliments and such throughout the days to try and make you happy. Before locking the both of you away in your shared bedroom and cuddling the pain away.

Bo would often snatch things off of tourists passing through town he thinks fancies you before not so slyly putting them in your wardrobe and acting like they were there since the beginning of time. Occasionally he would check out the luggage collected from the tourists but that's mainly when he feels bored or you ask him to.

If anyone coming through town even tries anything with you they’re being locked in the basement of the gas station for some personal lessons on respect from Bo.

Vincent Sinclair

He hates to see you down and as soon as Vincent sees any displeasure he will be strolling up to you and questioning you on what’s wrong just wanting to remedy whatever it is. When he learns you don’t feel like a real woman Vincent will be so confused before signing how “I don’t understand” and how “You’re my woman no matter what,”.

Vincent has no qualms with instantly cuddling you and giving you whatever you need till you feel better.

This man regularly rummages through the tourist luggage/bodies to find things you would like before presenting them to you like they were the best thing in the world, well almost, I mean you do exist after all, and nothing can trump how much Vincent values you. You will 100% be posing in everything Vincent gifts you as he whips out his sketchbook.

Vincent doesn’t like you being far from him ever so you will practically have this man with you at all times, or he’ll be hiding and watching you from afar if tourists are about. Due to this tourists who dare talk down to you will lastly see a raging Vincent charging them at full speed from the treeline.

Lester Sinclair

Lester is happy to have any good company in Ambrose, but when he gets you? The most beautiful woman he’s ever seen in a relationship with him this man is over the moon, absolutely head over heels in love. That’s why Lester is even more baffled than usual when you start down talking yourself.

This man will talk in a hushed voice, reaching out to you and soothing away your worries as soon as they come with an overload of kisses and words of affirmation. Lester will constantly gush about his “Pretty girl, and how he “Wouldn’t trade ya for any other woman,”

When you’re having bad days dealing with dysphoria Lester will stick by your side getting you anything you need and doing anything to comfort you. Even if Lester must resort to absolutely suffocating you in his affection this man will make you feel better all while making you feel like the most beautiful woman in the world.

Now Lester is one of the more tame Sinclair brothers, he really only chooses violence when needed. So let’s say you were accompanying him on his usual roadkill sweep when tourists are spotted that need a ride into Ambrose, as soon as any of them are uttering anything slightly transphobic Lester will do two things. First, he will slam on the breaks demanding they apologize, if they don’t he’s killing them. If they do apologize Lester is kicking them out of the vehicle and calling up Bo to get them, either way, same result.

Lester will also rummage to look for clothing for you. Since he is usually the one to pick up tourists and drop them off at Ambrose I like to think he has a big part in moving whatever vehicles/stuff they brought with them and had to leave behind. In other words that would mean that Lester would get first dibs on anything brought into Ambrose. This means you get your pick of clothes before Vincent can snatch stuff for his wax statues.

Instead of just bringing you just clothing though Lester will bring you anything that looks remotely interesting no matter what it is. One day this man will be bursting into your shared home clincking metal in his hands as he presents you with handfuls of shiny jewelry and odd-looking trinkets.

[chescaneo]

BLOG POST: “When A Dream Finally Came Into A Reality”

Life is full of uncertainties. We will never know what’ll happen in the future and that is why the saying “Expect the unexpected” was known by many. We never know if dreams will be just dreams. We never know if our dreams will come true someday… But one thing is for sure, God is there. He will make it all possible. He’s with us, always… He always listens to our prayers. Even if we don’t say it through prayers, He knows what our hearts desire, deep inside us He knows what we needed, wanted and longed for. He knows what’s best for us, even if it means we’ll be broken along the way.

Dreaming is easy but making it come true is hard. Challenges are along the way, testing you if you could make it ‘til the end and it’s your choice if you’ll give up or continue your journey. Thing is, if you wanted something, work for it. If you got tired, take a rest.. But never stop, NEVER give up. Just like what I did.. I never gave up and did my best to make it happen.

So yep, here’s my Coldplay story:

At a young age, all I dreamt was to have a complete family. But while I was getting older, I found it impossible. I got broken, of course. I was sad, hopeless, and felt really empty. Who wouldn’t? Family is everything and knowing that mine was broken made me feel broken inside, too. I lost myself.. I was so broken that all I thought was, “Don’t I deserve to be happy?”

I start questioning God and whenever I remembered that moment, I felt really bad. Because who am I to question Him? Who am I to question His ways, His plans? When all He did was to give what’s best for me?

Time passed and the pain inside me grew even more. Every night I was crying, wishing and wondering when will this pain end. I sought God and asked for help. I wished for something to ease the pain. That’s when I met Coldplay.

“The Scientist” was the first song I discovered. That time, I felt that it really was for me because of its lyrics. “I’m going back to the start” was the line that made my heart fell in love with their music. Then I found myself listening to that song on repeat. I then started listening to their other songs and “Fix You” was the song that made me really cry hard. It was like Coldplay was telling me through that song that everything’s gonna be fine.. That they’ll fix me pieces by pieces. That was when the time that I promised myself that I’ll watch them live, I will hear their songs live and thank them for inspiring me through their songs.

2016 when Coldplay started touring for their new album “A Head Full of Dreams”. August 2016 when I heard that there will be a livestream of their concert in Rosebowl, L.A. on Youtube by Globe Telecom. While watching it, I cried and promised myself that one day, I’ll watch them live.

April 4, 2016 when Manila badly wants Coldplay. Filipino fans, including me of course, were hoping that Manila, Philippines will be included in their tour.

November 2016 was when I got the news that Coldplay will be having a concert here in the Philippines on April 4th, 2017! Unfortunately, tickets were too pricey and the bronze and gen ad section were the only sections that I can afford since I’m only a student. The worse part? The concert will be held in the SM Mall of Asia Concert Grounds, which only means that it will be hard for me to see them properly since the venue was not elevated.

As a super fan, I was so excited to buy their concert ticket. But here comes the worst part.. There was an announcement that Globe users can reserve tickets during the pre-sale. So when that day came, I immediately sent a text message to reserve two gen ad tickets. Then, I received a text message informing that gen ad tickets were sold out already and I was like “What? Wala pang 5 minutes, sold out agad? Seryoso?!” Then I saw that “#ColdplayManila” was trending on twitter and found out that I wasn’t the only one who got that text message. There were also a lot of disappointed fans tweeting their complaints. But some still scored tickets despite what happened, lucky aren’t they? I had no choice but to WAIT for the public selling and I was REALLY REALLY hoping this time, I’ll score tickets. November 24 came, the day every Filipino Coldplay fan like me have been waiting for, our last chance to score tickets and finally make our dreams come true — in short, the public selling of tickets. HUHUHU. (Yaw q na, magtatagalog na ako. Super nose bleed. I ran out of English na HAHAHA) So yon nga, nagkataon na we have a school project na gagawa kami ng news ganon. Kunwari we’re news reporters and news anchors. Intramurals that time and na-assign ako as sports reporter so ico-cover ko ‘yong intramurals. Sa sobrang focused sa project, I forgot na 10:00 AM nga pala ang open ng SM and I have to go there early as possible if gusto ko agad makabili. But grabe, I didn’t know na madami rin pala fan ng Coldplay dito sa hometown ko. Kaya right after matapos ko ‘yong sa project namin, I think that was 10:45 AM dumiretso agad ako sa mall. Thankfully, malapit lang ‘yong university na pinapasukan ko sa mall. I ran fast as I could simula ground floor up to the third. Then boom, ang haba ng pila! HUHU. Nawawalan na ako ng pag-asa non but I still managed to think positive pa rin. ‘Yong nakabili na girl, nagtatalon pa while saying “Yes, nakabili na tayo!” That time, I really wish that it was me who’s jumping out of joy! Nakapila ako for almost 3 hours then suddenly, sabi nong staff ng SM tickets, “Silver, bronze, gen ad, sold out na po!” To tell you the truth, hindi sa pagiging OA, napatulala na lang ako that time. I can’t think straight. Umalis ako sa pila at habang pababa ako ng escalator I’m fighting the tears in my eye. “No, don’t cry. Don’t cry” was all I can say to myself that time habang paalis ako ng mall. I was alone pa non kaya super pinipigilan ko umiyak. Ayaw ko pagtinginan lalo na’t wala akong kasama. I was thinking “Is this the end? Hindi ko na ba sila mapapanuod live?” Funny part? Nong nakasakay ako sa jeep, may katapat akong girl. She’s wearing shades and namumula mukha niya. Sumisinghot siya, akala ko may sipon lang but nakita ko medyo tinanggal niya 'yong shades and pinunasan niya 'yong mata niya. I realized na she was crying pala and I wanted to cry, too. Inisip ko, umiiyak kaya siya kasi naubusan din siya ng ticket? Dahil nga hindi pa tapos 'yong sa project namin, kailangan ko ulit makipagkita sa groupmates ko. Kahit nanghihina ako, pinili ko pa rin makipagkita. Nasa iisa kaming group ng best friend ko kaya nong makita ko siya and when she asked me if nakabili ba ako ng ticket, umiyak lang ako sa kaniya. I can’t speak. Sobrang broken hearted ko that time na parang gusto ko na lang umiyak all day. My group mates were telling me na 'wag mawalan ng pag-asa kasi who knows? December came and I tried my best na kumpletuhin ang “Simbang Gabi.” Sabi kasi ng mga matatanda if nakumpleto mo daw 'yon, matutupad ang wish mo sa 9th mass, meaning sa Christmas. Minsan inaatake ako ng katamaran, minsan ang lakas ng ulan, gabing-gabi na, and to tell you, mag-isa lang akong sumimba. 3 days lang 'yong sumimba ako na may kasama. That time parang may nagsasabi sa'kin na “Ano, kaya mo pa ba?” Sabi ko sa sarili ko, nagtipid na ako para makaipon pambili ng ticket, pumila ako, nasimulan ko na ang simbang gabi, ngayon pa ba ako susuko? This is for my dream and I know God knows how much I wanted it to happen. Fortunately, nagawa kong makumpleto ang siyam na gabi na 'yon at sinabi ang hiling ko. Yep, hiniling ko na mapanuod ko live ang Coldplay. This was the first time na ang winish ko ay parang hindi worthy. I mean hindi health, peace and more blessings. But this is my dream.. after all the struggles I’ve been through, don’t I deserve the best? May nakilala akong seller and she’s selling gen ad tickets for Php 3,500. Sakto lang sa pera ko since ang balak ko nga bilhin ay alin man sa Bronze (Php 3,500) or Gen ad which is Php 1,800. Pinatulan ko na. Doble ng original price but wala na ako pakialam, desperada na ako e HAHAHA. Super nag-thank you ako kay Lord non kasi He granted my wish. Pero hindi pa dyan nagtatapos ang lahat. Hindi porket may ticket na ako ay makakapanuod na ako talaga. There were guidelines posted regarding the concert, ang problem is minors are not allowed to enter unless may kasama silang ticket-bearing guardian. 17 na ako, isang taon na lang e! Super na-stress ako on that part kasi solo ako manunuod. Sinong guardian ko? HUHUHU. I travelled from Lucena to Manila ALONE. Wala e, solo nga di ba ako. Super kabado na ako while I was on my way to MOA. I was thinking, papasukin kaya ako? Wala akong guardian, wala akong kasama. 'Yong supposedly kasi na kasama ko na mag-aact as guardian ko hindi ko na macontact kaya SUPER KABADO na talaga ako. Baka masayang ticket ko HUHU. Luckily, during the concert I met two Ate’s na super bait and maalaga. They’re sisters and feeling ko kapatid rin nila ako. Binigyan nila ako ng snacks and water habang naghihintay sa pila. Hindi nila ako pinabayaan mapahiwalay sa kanila nong nakapila kasi kagulo na non e. And I was really thankful that time kasi I asked God na sana may makasama ako sa concert and He listened. *tears of joy* May Kuya rin akong nakasama which is friend nila kaya ayon tatlo na 'yong nag aalaga sa'kin since minor nga ako. Tapos after the concert, sinigurado nila na safe ako makakauwi. But eto ang nakakainis, HINDI NAMAN PALA TINITINGNAN SA ENTRANCE KUNG MINOR O HINDI E. Or mukha lang talaga akong 18 years old na HAHAHAHA! So during the concert, umiyak ako. Because after all the struggles, sabi ko sa sarili ko, “Nandito na ako, pinapanuod at pinapakinggan na sila LIVE.” Sa wakas, napakinggan ko na ng live 'yong mga favorite songs ko. I cried my heart out, I sang along, nakitalon at nakisayaw and I lived the moment. Until now, it felt surreal. I never knew that day will come but then naniwala ako e, hindi ako nawalan ng pag-asa. I stayed positive and look where it got me. “I tried my best and I succeeded.” In life, no matter how tough the challenges are, you have to be strong and ang kailangan lang ay HOPE. Kahit minsan we’re getting hopeless, don’t think na wala nang pag-asa kasi palaging may paraan. Challenges make life interesting. They are made to make us strong. They are not an excuse to quit following your dreams. So NEVER give up on your dreams.

[arielblue]

Know Jesus More!

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 I have an object here that I need to explain and convince you that I really know this thing and you must believe on it.

1. This is made of fresh ingredients.

2. We can use this in every meal.

3. Your food will be tastier.

4. It has vitamins.

5. You can have this in department store with an affordable price.

6. Limited stocks.

7. Hurry up and grab this item now!

 Are you convinced? No! Why?

Because it does not connect of what I am saying and the item here that I am trying to explain to you.

 What’s the problem here?

The problem is I do not see and I do not know this thing. I am just pretending in myself that I really knew this thing, but in fact I do not know!

 The solution is I need to remove this cover and set it aside so that I may know of what I am saying.

 What I am going to share this morning is what I had experienced and maybe you experienced also this before. How would they know that I am telling the true God?  

 1 John 3:1

“Behold what manner of love the Father has bestowed on us, that we should be called children of God! Therefore the world does not know us, because it did not know Him”

 It is so interesting to know that the Father in heaven bestowed (grant/gave) his divine love and adopted us to be his child.

 It is through His love for us that considered us to be called children of God if we abide in Him and practice righteousness, does the things that please Him and according to what the Scripture says.

(v28-29)

God has called us because He has a greater purpose in our lives so that the world may know that there is a true God who created everything, only God that can save us from eternal death and give us eternal life. We could be part of His master plan in fulfilling his very ultimate desire for the entire humanity.

 No matter how dark our past lives and lives that was so broken into pieces, lives that we do not want anymore, but He found us , forgave and able to understood His very own grace and still God can use that to proved that He is the only One that can change a life, and there are so many things that confirmed that He is existing.

 When CC Guam team (Garrett & Dominic) had the opportunity to go to Oslob, Cebu for a whaleshark experienced I saw the excitement of Garrett & Dominic even though we wake up early so that we can come back early in cctc. They took pictures while riding the fastcraft and the pedicab going there because they want to post it in their SM (Social Media).

 While the two of them were busy looking outside, I tried to ask the driver, probably his age around 55-60 years old.

I asked him, “kami ba ang unang pasahero nimo kuya?” (Are we the first passenger as of today?)

He replied, “Oo, kamo jud dong? Taga-asa man diay mo?” (Yes, you do. Where do you come from?)

 I told him that we are from Dumaguete and I just tour my friends. But before going to that place I already told Garrett and Dominic not to talk so much because the pedicab driver will think they are balikbayan (daghan kwarta) because they seems look like Filipino and would probably charge us higher from the minimum payment .

 As the driver continue to tell his story, I observed that every time he spoke, his pointing finger of his left arm will always touched his neck and he sounds husky & rough.

“Kuya, naa ka ubo?” (Do you have cough?)

He replied, “No, I have a whole in my throat because I was shot in my neck during the time I worked in Manila as Brgy. Tanod”

 As he continued again telling about his sad story, it immediately prompted in my mind to pray for him. I could not explain the feeling inside in my heart at that time, but it always prompted in my mind to pray for this man, pray for this man, pray for this man.

 We hire him from going to Oslob and going back to the port.

Before I step out from the pedicab I quickly told Garrett and Dominic, guys let’s pray for Kuya!

Dominic went out and touch the driver’s shoulder and me and Garrett touched his arm. Then I started to pray in Cebuano language and as he closed his eyes I saw a tear coming out from his eyes.

 At that very moment, my heart felt stable and fulfilled. I knew and believe that it was the Spirit of God who spoke to us to pray for this old and suffering man. And I gave all glory to God.

 It is not about being proud because I am able to pray for this person. It is not about I am a good Christian because I pray in public, but it is a matter of obedience of the Holy Spirit. We are just his servant and his instrument for His glory.

 Instead of paying of what the minimum fare, we decided to double up the fare.

 How do this spiritually blinded people will know that the Father in heaven loves them if we are not sensitive of the work of the Holy Spirit and doesn’t care the very important need of this world which is salvation of souls?

 I was convicted at that time because I want to ignore it, yet the Holy Spirit started to speak at that time.

 In verse 17-18

“But whoever has this world’s goods, and sees his brother in need, and shuts up his heart from him, how does the love of God abide in Him? My little children, let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth”

I believe this verse would encourage us to continue to share the love of Jesus wherever we are in spite of our situation. God can use us in so many ways just to let this people know that He is real God.

This world is blinded, confused and doesn’t know from their very heart that we have a loving Father in heaven.

 For all of us here, STUDENTS do not make your studies to limit you but instead allow that God will speak to you through daily reading  and in charting and even in your class, take the most opportunity in here to know God because your time in here is very short, let us not just limit to the work assignment that we have, but if we have ministry or opportunity to share the love of Jesus then let us do that.

 I really appreciate those students who have time in sharing Jesus to others even they are busy in class and take every opportunity to do it.

 If we want to know God is to love him more and more everyday. We cannot pretend that we love Jesus through our words, because our action, every decision will prove and will confirm on it.

 “let us not love in word or in tongue, but in deed and in truth”

 Before I end my devotion, I will leave you this question that only our self could answer.

 How far and deep we are in knowing and loving Jesus in our lives?

 “Unsa na kalayo ug kalalum ang atong pagpakahibalo ug paghigugma diha kang Hesus sa atong tagsa-tagsa ka kinabuhi?”

 Let’s pray!

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[softpine]

"She can’t get kidnapped tonight. The optics would be terrible." BRANDI!!!

love this sm <33 the contestant push and pull between elaine's expectations and gut (literally) feeling about the engagement was something we knew was coming, but actually knowing exactly how she's processing this is so interesting!

asa bigfoot loml

i'll reread this tmrw, but i'm having a hard time picking up on how austin's feeling about the engagement rn

the glasses thing is so specific and universal and perfect and aaaa

i'm honestly a little surprised asa wasn't being judgemental considering how he was when he met alisa

if he's looking for a big fight does he think finn is stuck there rn? or maybe willingly? or maybe i'm just wrong idk lol

anyways i loved this and your writing and as always i won't stop thinking about it for days <33

i hope you know i LIVE for these messages 💖💖💖

elaine's internal monologue about being kidnapped is something personal to me. after a horrible experience i had while jogging one day, i started consuming true crime content 24/7 because i thought it would help me regain some control, but in reality it just made me SO anxious about everything and distrustful of everyone. not only that, but the truth is that violence happens whether you're prepared for it or not. basic knowledge of self defense & safety is great, but letting fear rule your life is not!

i know puking is gross to read about but it was so necessary to show how, like you said, elaine's gut feeling is at odds with both what she's saying out loud AND what she's thinking in her head.

elaine has been calling asa bigfoot for forever, and now it's finally canon fjskdjs

i liked the part about the glasses because it's something i wouldn't be able to portray easily in a normal story post. and i definitely wanted austin's feelings to seem more complicated than he lets on! elaine wonders if he's worried about the same things or if he would even talk to her about it if he was. so even she can't pick up on his true feelings right now.

the reason asa reacted the way he did here is because he knows that elaine is going to be inundated with people judging her soon, so he felt no need to pile onto that. with alisa it was different, because everyone else seemed to like her uncritically, so asa felt like he needed to be the person to look out for jada. i also think it's easier for asa to give austin the benefit of the doubt, because austin seems to have good intentions even if his execution doesn't come across that way, while it seemed to him that alisa is just playing games with people's emotions for the fun of it. in general, asa tries to give everyone a chance, alisa just pushed his buttons tbh

"if he's looking for a big fight does he think finn is stuck there rn? or maybe willingly?" <- i looove that you said that. i can't say anything about it but i love that you said it :P

thank you for such thoughtful comments, i can't tell you how much i appreciate them!! 💗

[softpine]

what are everybody’s favorite parts about being a parents? (danny, beth, caroline, mikaela)

ooh i love this question so much!! 💖💖

danny: casper is basically his mini-me, so he loves the feeling of having someone look up to him and admire him. asa will too when he's older, but he has his own interests that aren't so much about danny. he still loves danny sm though!!

beth: being a parent was something she never thought would happen by accident, but she's surprised in a good way by how much she loves it. it also helps her chill out and realize she can't control everything and that's okay

caroline: being a parent has been sooo gratifying for her. she never thought she would enjoy it but it's the little moments she loves most. like just watching asa learn new things, and realize that this is a tiny person who she created and is shaping into a full human being. that's a little scary, but mostly fulfilling!

mikaela: she loves being loved completely and unconditionally; she's never been loved as deeply by anyone as much as casper loves her. and more than that, she's never loved anyone as much as she's loved casper :')