#i love this song it's cheesy and cute and i want kevin to be cheesy and cute with his lovers kthx

[aliciaphen]

☆ ALICIA’S MONTHLY MEDIA MENTIONS: DECEMBER `22

Hi. I've consumed more media this month than I have this entire year. Happy New Year everyone - I hope we all make the best of what's to come.

Visual:

Guillermo del Toro's Pinocchio (2022) dir. Guillermo del Toro, Mark Gustafson: I was really excited to watch this after seeing the trailer but I wasn't expecting it to be a musical. I loved that they used a biblically accurate angel for the Blue Angel rather than the traditional look. I can't believe it took like 15 years to make it.

Split (2016) dir. M. Night Shyamalan: I rewatched this because I needed Anya Taylor Joy content and I couldn't get through the first episode of The Queen's Gambit. It's still a pretty great movie, but I hate that cheesy ending line lol.

Anastasia (1997) dir. Don Bluth, Gary Goldman: I grew up watching this movie throughout my childhood, so I already have a huge bias toward it. It's so great. The characters and their dynamic is so likable and the songs are so GOOD.

The Mummy (1999) dir. Stephen Sommers: Another film I grew up watching. It's a lot more problematic than I remember T_T. Also cheesy but it was the 90s so you could kind of get away with it.

Emily, The Criminal (2022) dir. John Patton Ford: I was surprised by how much I liked this one. It's fast-paced, which is good for my pea brain. They make the character Emily easy to empathize with. Especially now when it's hard to afford to live, vulnerable people are targeted for these "get rich, quick" scams. I remember seeing so many of those ads whenever I went on YouTube for quite some time. Idk, I liked this one.

Bo Burnham: Inside (2021) dir. Bo Burnham: I always heard people talking about how great Bo Burnham was. I remember seeing his vines, but I never got into watching his stuff. I feel like the humour doesn't quite suit my taste, but I appreciate his work ethic and his capacity for making such a high-quality musical comedy. He's pretty fucking awesome.

Dreams (1990) dir. Akira Kurosawa: In a quest to research the Japanese folklore of fox weddings during sun showers, I watched this movie. It's just so pretty. I love the last story, where it's the small village and the funeral is more of a celebration. Just a gorgeous film.

Incantation (2022) dir. Kevin Ko: Heard from my roommate that this film was really scary. And I can confirm that it was. I watched half of it from between my fingers. Story wise, though, it was quite interesting. It’d be a fun watch for a group.

Atonement (2007) dir. Joe Wright: Another gorgeous film. I’ve always seen screen caps of it and have even watched Mina Le’s breakdown of the costuming from the film. I think the visuals are stronger than the story. Emotion wise, it feels like a less hard-hitting titanic.

Extreme Job (2019) dir Lee Byeong-heon: I watched this with my roommate! It’s a fun, chill watch. Just overall a good time.

The Volcano: Rescue From Whakaari (2022) dir. Rory Kennedy: Some time earlier this year I remember seeing volcanic scarring that looked like the most intense, painful thing someone could ever experience. And I read up about the victim and they were hurt during the volcanic eruption in New Zealand a few years ago. The documentary is quite tragic, and interesting if anybody is up to watch it.

Klaus (2019) dir. Sergio Pablos: Such a cute movie. The scene where the mailman is giving paper and pencils and stamps out like it’s a drug deal actually made me audibly laugh. I’m surprised its 2D animation. It’s a really great Christmas movie for the whole family.

Brave (2012) dir. Brenda Chapman, Mark Andrews: AH. I still love this movie after so many years. I first watched it when I was in grade 5 as an “end of year” trip. It’s so good, story wise. As a young adult, I feel like I can’t relate to it as much - to my surprise. I think my older sister could probably relate to it more. I have a good relationship with my mom, which I’m super grateful for. I want to make a film about ME. Lmfao.

The Wonder (2022) dir. Sebastian Lelio: I wasn’t as interested in this film. It’s rather a frustrating watch to be honest. If you want visuals of Ireland and Florence Pugh, I’d give this one a go.

Marriage Story (2019) dir. Noah Baumbach: Ever since watching this film I’ve been seeing Adam Driver everywhere, it seems. I didn’t expect to feel for this movie as much as I did. I think the pacing was done very well. The letter reading at the end is what got me. :’(

Alice in Borderland, Season 2 (2022): Season 2 was better than season 1. Because this world and its rules are already established, I think the show got to focus more on the characters and their relationships. The action sequences were quite fun and I am SO surprised that they didn’t end it in a shitty way. I’m happy the characters got their happy ending but that there’s still room for exploration into this world. The last challenge, though was a little TOO LONG. DAMN.

Avatar: The Way of Water (2022) dir. James Cameron: Okay so I wasn’t excited or looking forward to this sequel at all. I was quite indifferent toward it and wasn’t planning on watching it in theatres. But I ended up watching it with my family and it’s literally my new hyperfixation. I’m actually listening to the original motion picture soundtrack as I’m writing - and that’s not a joke. I’ve heard people say that the story is simple, and I suppose I can agree - its basically the family having to escape from the war and a revenge plot from the enemy side. And I’ve seen people wonder why its 3 hours long. And, it definitely felt like the film would never fucking end but, then again… did I really want it to…? In that time, I felt like I could actually get attached to the characters and this new family. I often really like media that makes me go through a lot of emotions and this was one of them. I need Avatar 3, 4, 5, & 6 and whatever else James Cameron is planning. I need to go visit Pandora in Disney World, even. Zoe Saldana, I love you.

Avatar (2009) dir. James Cameron: I ended up rewatching Avatar right after coming back from watching The Way of Water. I first watched this when I was 8 years old. I never really got to appreciate the absolutely insane world building that was put into this film, but now, as a student that wants to try pursuing film and maybe (?) visdev, I’m just astounded by the creatures and the religion and the plant life of the Na’vi people and how it’s been expanded on in Avatar 2. Again, a simple story, but I felt all the emotions so I love it.

Logan (2017) dir. James Mangold: Probably one of the best superhero movies I’ve seen. It still holds up today. Another emotional ride, so I’m inclined to say it’s a favourite. It’s almost… quiet. Like - it doesn’t do too much. All the marvel movies these days are doing too much. It’s kind of embarrassing. Can you tell I’m getting a little tired of writing about all the things I’ve watched? And I’m only on visual media. Anyways - this, the original Spider-Man movies, the last Spider-Man movie from MCU, and the Spiderverse movies and maybe Winter Soldier are the only superhero movies I have the patience to watch anymore.

Knives Out (2019) dir. Rian Johnson: It was so fun! Something I don’t have to pay that much attention to because I know I’ll likely never be able to solve it. I know they spent most of the budget of this film on the cast because everyone in there is fucking crazy.

Glass Onion: A Knives Out Mystery (2022) dir. Rian Johnson: I think the first one is better.

Lead Me Home (2021) dir. Pedro Kos, Jon Shenk: It’s only about 40 minutes, so it’s a quick documentary. It’s eye opening. Makes me feel bad because I’m one of those people that don’t look homeless people in the eye when I walk past them. But I don’t think that’s the point of the doc. There’s obviously something very wrong with the housing system and to see that anybody could end up in such an unfortunate situation is scary. It’s especially sad seeing the people who have family that could help them, but I also understand their point of not wanting to be a burden on their friends or family.

Music: December 2022 Spotify Playlist

Selfish - YooA: I saw people making fun of this song but I’m actually addicted to it. YooA in that one stage where she’s wearing that fringe shirt and pink pants with her hair in a bun looks so good.

Blood Moon - YooA: I feel like I’m in a mystery movie?? Like I’m a detective trying to solve a mystery.

In My Dreams - Christy Altomare: One of the best things to come out of the Anastasia Broadway production.

Ditto - NewJeans: The girls have done it again. This time, enjoy three minutes of teenage loneliness.

Nothing Is Lost (You Give Me Strength) - The Weeknd: I wasn’t joking when I said I’m listening to the Avatar: The Way of Water soundtrack.

Into the Water - Simon Franglen: SO BEAUTIFUL. If you’re going to listen to any song from the soundtrack listen to this one.

Avatar: The Way of Water (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack - Simon Franglen, The Weeknd: Linking the album for good measure.

Books:

Steal Like An Artist by Austin Kleon: I’ve finished reading this book and it has inclined me to be better at consistently drawing in my sketchbook and journal.

Howl’s Moving Castle by Diana Wynn’s Jones: I plan on finishing this book this month. I’ll update you at the end of January.

[fromkevinwithlove]

Please take a moment to imagine this song with any of your heartwearming Kevin ships because my heart bursts every time

[moonandsunwoo]

tbz reaction to you calling them wonderful - Hyung line

they turned out to get longer and longer oh my god this was supposed to be ONE (1) post help I think I lost it at Juyeon

No warnings ♥︎

【♥︎】 Sangyeon

“Hey you?” Sangyeon looked up, eyes heavy of tiredness and probably stress. His laptop was opened up and sounded like it was on the brink of overheating. After those hours Sangyeon had spent typing on it like a madman, that wasn’t a surprise however.

“I think you’re really wonderful.” He blinked one, or two times without saying something, just staring at you.

“I love you.” You decided to add, trying to sound as sincere as possible because you really wanted him to understand. And finally Sangyeon got shy, eyes sparkling of pure fondness for you. There was a small smile he gave you, barely a curl of his lips when he motioned you to come closer, patting his lap impatiently whilst closing his lap top with a determined thump.

“I love you too.”

【♥︎】 Jacob

“Jacob?”

He looked up, curious about the reason behind your serious tone. You held eye contact for a few seconds before leaning closer, just a bit, until he was all you could see.

“You’re so wonderful.” Jacobs eyes widened a little bit before they creased in a beautiful, surprised smile that spread over his whole face.

He opened his mouth to reply, but you shook your head, bringing both hands up to cup his cheeks before you spoke again.

“Jacob Bae, you’re the most wonderful man I’ve ever come across. I love you. Really.” He seemed to be at a loss of words for a few seconds, lips parted in surprise at your sudden shower of affection for him.

“Thank you Angel.” Was all he managed to whisper after pulling you close, just for a quick peck before looking at you again. “I love you too.”

【♥︎】 Younghoon

“Young man...pardon but would you mind taking a picture of my niece and I...” Younghoon carefully let go of your hand as he took the camera from the elder woman, flashing her a quick smile.

“You don’t mind babe, don’t you...?” He asked, pecking your cheek softly even before you could reassure him that of course you were fine with it. Why wouldn’t you be.

So you stepped back and just watched him, quietly humming the tune of the first song that came to your mind.

“You have that look on your face.” Kevin said quietly, stepping next to you from out of nowhere.

“That Look?” He nodded amused, subtly hinting towards where your boyfriend was still occupied with trying to take the best ever picture of the lady and her niece.

“Yeah, you always look at him like he is some kind of...treasure you found. All bright eyes and smile. It’s really cute.” You huffed quietly at his words, shoving his shoulders softly.

“That sounds so cheesy though.” Kevin laughed before shrugging lightly.

“Sorry. But it’s true...look there he is, your prince charm-“ you hit his chest before he could finish the sentence and Kevin ran off giggling.

“What was that about?” Younghoon asked, intertwining his fingers with yours again.

“Kevin came to tease me. Because apparently I have a certain look when I look at you.” Younghoon only crooked his eyebrows at you, expectantly waiting for you to continue.

“It’s probably true. But...like I refuse to take any blame, you’re so wonderful, and kind and I love you...” Younhoon let out a panicked giggle before shushing you with a kiss.

“I love you too but I’m going to blush in front of everyone oh my goddess...” you just laughed.

“Oh no...would be a shame...”

【♥︎】 Hyunjae

It was already dark outside when you opened the door for him, arms immediately wrapping around your waist to pull you into a tight hug.

“I missed you.” Was the first thing he said and “I also have food and I broke my phone today.” Was the second thing. You giggled against his neck before cupping both of his cheeks with your hands and pressing a kiss against his pouted lips.

“I missed you too. And oh dear, how bad is it? Your phone?” He moved back, fumbling for his back pockets before fishing out a very damaged smartphone. The screen was split into two sections, one almost whole and the other a spiderweb of cracks.

“Oh damn. Does it still work?” Hyunjae sighed before nodding, fingers brushing over the un-cracked side of his device.

“I think it’s only the glass that broke, the LCD is alright. It just sucks how it happened.” You shot him a questioning look whilst carrying the bags with food into the kitchen, Hyunjae right behind you.

“So you see there was this squirrel and I whipped out my phone to take a picture and then accidentally let go of it when I pointed at it to show Chanhee......” you couldn’t help but laugh as you turned around, arms wrapping around his waist. “Pointed at it with both hands..?” He nodded shamefully, a small gin on his lips.

“Hyunjae you are so wonderful. I love you so much.” He giggled shyly before leaning down for a kiss.

“Because I am too dumb to hold a phone when I see a rodent?”

“Because you can get so excited over a squirrel that you forget to hold your device, more like.” You mused, kissing him a second time.

【♥︎】 Juyeon

You loved evenings like this. The boyz little balcony hideout with their couches and fire bowl in the middle always guaranteed the comfiest of evenings, especially in the position you were in at the moment. Your legs were draped over Juyeons lap, his hands resting on your thighs whilst he was busy laughing at Chanhee and Sunwoo bickering.

From your leaned back position - Sunwoo had already complained trice about you taking up the whole couch - you had a perfect view on his side profile. Every now and then he glanced over, giving you just a small smile before continuing siding with Chanhee.

At the soft tug on his shirt he looked over at you, immediately leaning towards you. “Yes?”

“I just wanted to say,” you sat up and lowered your voice a bit, “that I think you’re really wonderful Juyeon. Did you know? I like you.” Juyeon stared at you in surprise before pressing a quick, almost aimless kiss against your lips.

“I- thank you and oh...I- I like you too.” You grinned a bit at his taken-aback stuttering before leaning back again.

“Hey Ju, what are you so blushy about?” Kevin teased, shoving Jacob playfully until not only Jacob but everyone else had their full attention on him.

“Can’t y’all just...keep talking, what the hell is this.” Juyeon pressed out, eyes glued to the ground whilst his red neck gave him away completely. You just grinned quietly to yourself, closing your eyes with a satisfied little smile.

【♥︎】 Masterlist

[parcoeurs]

thank u to @shinyfakehard for the tag hehe these are always so fun <3

Favorite piece of clothing you own?: tempted to say my leafs crewneck just because b said a sabres item but probably an old sweater vest of my dad's!

Favorite time of the year?: ever since i moved to canada, it's definitely summer. like june-july when my seasonal depression is replaced with the regular ol thing.

Favorite song?: one??? favourite?? i can't do it sorry but the last song i listened to was silver soul by beach house.

Comfort food?: kofta with rice and raita.

Do you collect something?: nope :( i wish i did!

Favorite drink?: i love a good cold coke. white wine or anything with vodka too.

Favorite fanfic?: here's a couple off the top of my bookmarks list. but i'll truly read anything as long as the writing is good and/or i'm desperate.

and then such happiness

f1. wedding fic... THE fic. i roll myself up in this like a blanket.

that thief that delays

hockey. so silly and funny. two guys who love each other what's better than that!

careful the tale you tell

raven cycle. i've literally never read this book series but i love this fic. the banter is so cute and the accidental shared parenthood! so good.

i won't say i'm in love

spider-man. also haven't seen the movie this is an AU of but it does not matter! the premise fits so perfectly and the flirting is like. incredible. the conversation at the start has some of the best pick up lines without being cheesy or weird.

tagging @thepavementsings @collarboen @lewishamiltongf @pierrelli @piarles @des-iderate @kevin-durant if u want/haven't already :))))

[inadaydream99]

Singing their s/o to sleep with The Boyz

Requested: Yes

A/N - thank you for requesting, I had the best time writing it! I really hope you enjoy! Stay safe 💕

Sangyeon

The first time he hears his s/o’s request he becomes immediately flustered

Like it’s so unbelievably obvious

But, of course, he could never say no

Soon enough it becomes a regular occurrence for him to sing his s/o to sleep

It just gets to the point where they can’t relax unless they hear his soothing voice

Not that Sangyeon minds at all

In fact, he absolutely loves it

It brings him so much joy to know that his s/o loves his singing so much

He definitely gazes at them so lovingly when they have their eyes shut and a contented smile on their face

Becomes one of his favourite parts of the day

Jacob

Being the sweet guy he is, Jacob would want to do anything he can to help his s/o

He finds it adorable when he is first asked to sing them to sleep

His soft voice and gentle nature instantly calming

Will sing anything his s/o requests

Is also very affectionate towards his s/o because he is overjoyed by the idea

Cuddling or just holding them close is a must

Will tuck them in once they are asleep

Whispers how much he loves them as he wishes them goodnight (even though they can’t hear him)

And leaves a delicate kiss on their forehead before settling in bed himself

Younghoon

His s/o wants him to sing them to sleep? Queue the brightest smile

Will instantly take their hand and pull them into his embrace

“What song would you like?”

It honestly melts his heart to know how much his s/o depends on him to help them relax

Literally basks in taking care of them

Everything has to be perfect for his loved one

Right down to dimming the lights and possibly even lighting a few candles to add to the ambiance

Adores when they bury their face into his chest, or neck, or anywhere on him tbh

Hyunjae

His first response is the cutest giggle ever

It honestly surprises his s/o a little because where did that come from???

Though his laugh is just so precious

He’d become so mushy just at the idea of singing his s/o to sleep

So they better be prepared for this to become a regular thing

Likes to keep it a secret, something that only him and his s/o share

And will sulk if anyone finds out about it because it’s something that feels so intimate to him

Juyeon

Juyeon strikes me as being quite shy about this sort of thing in front of his s/o

Purely because it’s not something that he’d ever imagined they would want

But he will happily comply

At first he feels quite vulnerable about singing them to sleep because he’s not used to the idea

But, don’t get me wrong, he revels in knowing his s/o loves his voice (and how could anyone not???)

Would definitely go bright red in embarrassment when he is first asked

And when he notices his s/o has fallen asleep he will take a moment to admire them before finally getting some rest himself

Kevin

Is flattered by knowing that his s/o wants him to sing them to sleep

Will sing to them for hours on end if it makes them happy

Literally, he will sing his heart out

And each song will be so meaningful to the both of them

Will occasionally be goofy and sing them something random

Which will make them burst into laughter

Definitely makes him elated seeing them become so relaxed by just his voice

The sight alone is enough to make his chest fill with pride

In general it’s just such a heartwarming moment between them

Chanhee

Timid

It makes him so flustered

Which I don’t know if that’s his s/o’s expected response or not

He genuinely thinks it’s the most adorable thing he’s ever witnessed though

Honestly, he had no idea that his s/o found his singing so soothing (but seriously, his voice is just incredible)

Takes the situation very seriously and by that I mean he pours so much emotion into every note

Will stare at them with so much affection

And will most definitely have them cuddled into his chest with his arms securely wrapped around them, swaying them side to side gently

Changmin

Will coo and make such a fuss over his s/o

Finds it incredibly cute and won’t hesitate to make that known

Literally brings out his softest side

And will be smiling giddily the whole time

I can see Changmin feeling a little self conscious at first because after the initial excitement has gone it dawns on him how vulnerable he feels

Will have his s/o sit between his legs with their back against his chest and his arms wrapped around their front, hands intertwined

And he’ll rest his chin on their shoulder so he can softly sing next their ear

Finds the whole ordeal very romantic

Similar to Hyunjae in the fact that he likes to keep it a secret between him and his s/o

But if anyone was to find out and tease him then he’d simply get revenge on them, rather than sulk about it

Haknyeon

Did I hear Rock version of every song???? Because that’s what will happen

Will probably wake up his s/o rather than send them to sleep

Makes up songs or changes the lyrics

So many inside jokes come out of this as a result

Both of them cry laughing together

And in those rarer moments when things are settled and they both feel more tired, Haknyeon will sing to his s/o whilst holding their hand

Always ends with leaving a kiss somewhere on their face before finally allowing himself to fall asleep too

Sunwoo

Will struggle to hold his s/o’s gaze after they asked him to sing them to sleep because it makes him so shy!

Like, he’ll glance at them and then look away instantly flustered

He’s still got a pleased smirk on his face though

Overwhelmed by how much it makes his heart race

Instantaneously loves the idea

Wants them in his arms so he can run his fingers through their hair

Sings so softly it’s practically a whisper

But that’s ok because his face a millimetres from his s/o’s

Likes to receive lots of encouragement, so I can see his s/o having to ask for just one more song

“Only if I can get a kiss.”

Of course they comply

But they both know he’ll do anything to make them happy

Eric

He’s never smiled so much in his life

I mean, he’s generally a very happy, bubbly person but, oh, this fills him with joy unlike no other

Cheesy and owns it

Clingy (in the most adorable way)

Likes to make his s/o laugh before becoming more serious

Most likely only after they’ve playfully scolded him because they want to rest

Won’t admit it out loud but comes home everyday hoping that his s/o will ask for him to sing them to sleep

And when they he do wastes no time in snuggling up with them in bed

[readingonpluto]

RENE-GHOULS SHIP WEEKS - Day 7!

Thank you to @renegades-ship-weeks for hosting and keeping track of this event!

Spooky Free Day

Happy Halloween Rene-ghoul fans! For the final day I wanted to give my costume headcanons I’ve had for the characters for Y E A R S! So! Here we go! 

(There are a lot, so buckle up!)

Adrian & Nova: Corpse Bride, Victor and Emily

It seems like Nova’s type of movie, which she later shows Adrian and he too falls in love with it.

Just imagine Nova buying a second hand wedding dress and just throwing it in the dirt and making it dirty.

Even so, when she comes out in full costume for the first time Adrian tells her she is beautiful and she looks him over telling him he isn’t too bad himself. 

They would just be so iconic! 

Plus, Nova would rock Emily’s look!

Simon and Hugh could even by Nova a little spider and worm plush to complete her costume. 

Later, Adrian gives her a ring (he does the whole vow thing and placing it on her finger like in the movie) which she ends up wearing all year round. 

Danna & Narcissa - Nightmare Before Christmas, Sally and Jack

Danna wearing Jack’s suit and super awesome skeleton makeup! 

Narcissa wearing Sally’s dress and epic doll-like makeup! 

Do I need to say more?!

Power couple man! 

I can totally see the recreating iconic scenes from the movie and singing the songs, because A E S T H E T I C S 

Ruby & Oscar - Howl’s Moving Castle, Howl and Sophie

I just think they would be so creative in dressing up in costume! 

And it seems like they’re type of thing!

Nerdy enough for both of them yet cute enough to show their couple status!

Ruby look beautiful in Sophie’s dress and Oscar would pull off Howl perfectly! 

They would quote all the cheesy lines to each other and all their friends would roll their eyes at their cheese levels.

I can only imagine the amount of photos they take during the night.

Simon & Hugh - Beetlejuice, Lydia and Beetlejuice

I can’t really explain this one, but I think they’d just have so much fun as these characters. 

It just feels like a movie they would watch every year on Halloween!

I feel like Hugh would be Beetlejuice and Simon would do a version of Lydia. 

Like he’d could have a cool red tux or even a nice long red skirt combined with blouse. (Idk, but he’s look amazing!)

Speed Round!

Winston - Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, Willy Wonka

Leroy - Frankenstein, Victor 

Sampson - Ghostbusters (2016), Kevin

Callum - Edward Scissor Hands, Edward

Tina - Ghostbusters, Annie Potts 

Nova, Leroy, and Winston - The Nightmare Before Christmas, Lock; Shock; and Barrel 

Ace - The Nightmare Before Christmas, Oogie Boogie

Danna (again) - Princess and the Frog, Dr. Facilier

Maggie and Max - Kiki’s Delivery Service, Tombo and Kiki

AND FINALLY!

Nova, Callum, and Tina - Corpse Bride, Emily, Maggot, and Black Widow

(I just have this vision in my mind of the singing “Tears to Shed”.)

Happy Halloween everyone! Enjoy your night and be safe <3

[sannieboy]

the kinds of kisses i think the boyz would like most

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i know i know i know, i never update. especially with writing works. but, i suddenly got inspired bc thrill ride and they all look phenomenal, and decided to write about my boyz and what sort of kisses they would like. so, i hope you enjoy my blatantly obvious touch-starved self and her writing :D

if you do end up enjoying this, maybe consider checking out my masterlist for similarly sappy pieces of writing

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sangyeon: a kiss given after being swept off of your feet

sangyeon gives the big sweetheart vibes. he’s a romantic, he’s strong, he’s gonna sweep you off of your feet. his favourite part about kissing you as he’s holding you from falling is the sweet noise of surprise that escapes your lips before he captures them in his own, followed by the way you can’t help but smile into his kiss. there’s just something so sweet and homey about sangyeon. sangyeon feels like dancing with your significant other in the lounge to your favourite songs, stepping on each others feet in the process, but there is nothing but smiles and eyes filled with adoration. sangyeon wants to do that with you; he wants to twirl you around the house and dip you in his arms, looking at you with warmth in his eyes before pressing his lips so sweetly against yours, sharing with you all of the love his being is capable of producing.

~

jacob: a kiss pressed to the crown of your head

anything relating to jacob bae instantly entails warmth and comfort; and i feel that a loving kiss pressed to the crown of your head conveys exactly that. these sorts of kisses often happen as you stand, swaying back and forth embraced in each other’s arms. he’ll kiss the crown of your head softly and slowly, lips gentle and full of love. jacob loves giving these kisses to you, mostly because he adores being the recipient of them. he finds that a kiss to the top of his head manages to fill his whole being with a sense of home and surety, so he gives them to you in hopes that they give you the same, tingly feeling (they do). so please, give this man a kiss on the top of his head, it’ll make his whole day.

~

younghoon: kisses shared in a stairwell, creating an artificial height equality

when i think of younghoon, i think of his playfulness, his soft and gentle nature, and how much of a hopeless romantic he is. younghoon is a cheesy man; he’ll never admit to it though. but you can see it in the way that his ears will turn a rosy red whenever you give him a kiss as you stand on the stairs above him, allowing you to hold his face and kiss him from above. younghoon relishes in the way it feels to look up at your face instead of down, and how nice it feels when you hold his face so tenderly in your hands. moments like these make younghoon feel as if he’s been cast in a sappy romcom, one that he would pretend to cringe at but would secretly make his sweet heart flutter. kisses like these make him glad that you’ll indulge him in the cheesy little moments he so deeply adores. kissing you like this makes him fall in love with you all over again.

~

hyunjae: kisses shared whilst you’re sitting on his lap

hyunjae lives for having you perched upon his lap, and will take absolutely any opportunity to have you there. watching a movie together? pillows litter the other couches, and he insists that you MusT sit on his lap because there’s NO room anywhere else. walking past him as he’s sitting? you’re always yanked down onto his lap. so it makes sense that his favourite kisses would happen in his favourite spot to have you. hyunjae loves having your body weight and warmth on him, he likes feeling how real you are, and how you are really his to embrace and love. these kisses can range from needy and rough, to slow and sanguine; more often the latter. hyunjae is a romantic lover, although he tends to keep that part of himself hidden. but it’s not hard to tell that he is one from the way he kisses you when you’re settled on his thighs :D

~

juyeon: pulling away from a kiss, whispering confessions of love against your lips, before reconnecting them

juyeon is spontaneous. sometimes, he is a quiet, more reserved lover. whereas other days, he wants to do nothing but smother you with love and affection. whenever he’s smiley and happy and just full of love for you, he likes to kiss you softly yet deeply, lips moulding against yours as he sways back and forth. he tends to pull away early, enjoying the way you chase after his lips, and rest his forehead against your own, whisper a sweet confession of love before reconnecting your lips. juyeon likes feeling the way your lips curve upwards as you kiss, and the way you push yourself further into his being. juyeon loves that even though he doesn’t show you affection all of the time, that though these kisses, he can make sure you know just how hard he has fallen for you, and that sometimes, you’ll do the same to him.

~

kevin: small, quick kisses littered across your face

kevin moon is a playful man, and that is present in both the way he loves his friends and family, and in the way that he loves you. even though he’s constantly joking around and making everyone around him light up with laughter, he still wants to make sure you know how much you mean to him. smothering you in quick, little pecks makes kevin feel as if he’s covering every part of you with his love. when you’re both snuggling in bed and he starts pressing kisses all across your face, you giggle at the ticklish nature of his lips’ feathery touch; but you can feel flowers of warmth blooming wherever his kisses land, his warm, passionate love for you seeping from his lips onto your skin.

~

chanhee: slow, draw out kisses in which neither of you want to let go

chanhee is a man of quiet passion. he has a lot of emotions, but the way in which he shows them is more discreet. now don’t get me wrong, chanhee loves a passionate, steamy make out session, hands in hair and bodies pressed close, but he prefers to show his love through a different sort of kiss. chanhee adores kissing you whilst holding you close to him, his arms hanging daintily around your waist, bodies pressed tenderly against one another. like this, he’ll press his lips against yours softly, slowly, yet wholly. with kisses like this, where your lips move in tandem languidly, chanhee feels as if he’s showing you the utmost sincere affection and love he has for you, and that he feels yours for him too. kisses like these make chanhee feel so warm and loved, taking immense pleasure of the feeling of your fingers toying with the hair that rests at the nape of his neck whilst his hands wander the expanse of you back, your waist, and sometimes coming up to cup your jaw as he kisses you with his whole being.

~

changmin: a small, hesitant kiss, proceeded immediately by a passionate, hungry kiss

ji changmin is a cheeky man; a trickster, if you will. he’s a very playful and lighthearted person, these personality traits translating into his relationship with you. whenever he goes to kiss you, he’ll hold your chin softly before sweetly pressing his lips against yours, nothing but the warm feeling of lips against lips. these kisses are quick and leave you wanting more, he knows this because of the way you chase after his lips once he’s pulled away. he’ll giggle at your desperation before holding your face more securely and truly connecting your lips together; full of ardour that his innocent kisses simply lack. changmin likes to catch you off guard, whether that’s by giving you a spook or by surprising you with a passionate kiss proceeding a soft and airy kiss. he revels in the way that you take a second to process what’s happening before you reciprocate his affection. changmin loves the reactions you make when you’re caught by surprise. he thinks that you are devastatingly cute, and finds that he doesn’t want to stop kissing you.

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haknyeon: morning kisses before either of you have opened your eyes

haknyeon treasures the moments of solitude he spends with you, the fragments of time in which he feels as if there is no one in the world but you, him, and the feeling of the sun streaming through the window. waking up in bed next to you is one of these times. haknyeon loves to love all of the parts of you that you feel insecure about, such as the drool-stained face, tousled bed hair and groggy expression that you wear just upon waking up. the way he kisses you groggily when you’re both half asleep is filled with such raw, unadulterated affection and hearth-like tenderness; the feeling of your lips and his melding together under the eyes of the rising sun fills you with a tingly warmth, kisses sharing unspoken confessions of love.

~

sunwoo: tracing your lips with his finger before tilting your chin up for a kiss

sunwoo, much like a few of the other members, is a hidden romantic. sometimes he acts as if he doesn’t like being showered with affection; typically in the physical sense, but he truly loves the feeling of being loved up by you. he loves giving you these kinds of kisses, because they usually only happen in a more intimate, romantic setting where the two of you are alone. sunwoo loves tracing his finger around your lips, adoring the soft warmth of them. he hopes that you can feel his love for you in the tenderness of his thumb brushing against your bottom lip, and in the way he looks at you before he connects your lips; eyes becoming doe-like with affection. these kisses are so so special to sweet sunwoo, and he hopes that you hold them as close to your heart as he does :)

~

eric: hugging you close before passionately kissing you on the lips

eric is a man filled with passion that just bursts at the seams of his being, and this passion transfers over to the way he loves you. eric always wants to show you the fierce love he holds for you, whether that be through his words, or through his actions. he often uses these types of kisses as a greeting and a goodbye to you. it’ll happen when eric stumbles through the door, having just returned from practise. he finds you, wherever you are, pulls you into a tight hug that lets you feel his heartbeat against your own body, chins buried in each others neck. he’ll then pull back, just a smidge, and smash his lips onto yours, communicating the passionate adoration he holds for you through a sweet kiss.

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i’m sad and lonely :D

[chichyunjae]

🖇 back 2 u ; lee juyeon

— angst, fluff

warnings: mentions of alcohol and cheating, cussing/foul words

` song recommendation: drunk // keshi

-

you stood still outside sangyeon's apartment, contemplating if you should press the doorbell or just head back home. the street light was illuminating your figure, making your skin glow by the yellow hue.

jacob called you earlier while you were about to finish your night routine. the background noise from the call was really loud and you immediately assumed that the boys came over, planning to get wasted since it's only saturday. 

"juyeon has been crying for 10 minutes and your name has never left his mouth since then. we need you here, y/n, please. thank you."

as soon as the call ended, you just found yourself getting ready to go out, not minding the ticking sound of the clock. if it's for juyeon, it's always a yes.

and now, eric found you at the front door. you figured that he just came back from the convenience store since he was holding a black plastic bag while munching on a pack of marshmallows.

you waved a little while the latter only smiled at you. he just twisted the doorknob open instead of talking to you, holding your wrist to pull you inside the apartment they're currently occupying.

a mess; that's how you could describe the scene.

chanhee and changmin were fooling around, hyunjae stole eric's marshmallows, haknyeon was laying on the floor, sunwoo spilled a bottle of beer and kevin is trying to clean it, sangyeon is scrolling through his phone, younghoon is standing at the kitchen and jacob? who knows.

then there's juyeon, your ex boyfriend, sitting at the corner.

your heart ached in seeing him like this. you would be lying to yourself if you say that you no longer care for him, because you do. so much than he'll ever know.

"hey, ju." you tapped his cheeks.

"if it's not y/n, i don't want it." his voice suddenly got loud, making the other boys stop in their own tracks to look at the both of you.

“it’s me.” after you said that, he wasted no time to pull you by your waist and bury his face on your neck, catching you off guard.

“do you wanna go home?” you asked, wiping his tear-streaked cheeks. as if nothing happened. as if you weren’t apart.

you felt him nod through your neck and you looked at the boys to silently ask for help in carrying him.

"it's too late, let's just go to my place."

*

you placed juyeon at the bed and went to the kitchen to get water. he's mumbling something incoherent so you sat beside him to listen.

"where am i? y/n will be mad if she sees me in someone else's house. i don't want us to argue, please let me go." he shouts, his eyes closed.

a relationship with juyeon is something that any woman could ask for. he's sweet, he's caring, he's considerate and your favorite thing about him is his innocence. to the point that it devastates you how other people can take advantage of him in some ways.

"it's me, y/n. i'm not going to be mad at you." you tapped his arm and brought the glass of water on his lips, careful not to spill it on his face because of his movements. he gulped all of it in one go.

his head fell on your chest, "i want you back, y/n. i didn't cheat on you. that's all a lie because i still love you.", you didn't notice that there's a tear that slipped your eye.

back then, there were rumors circulating that juyeon was in a relationship with a senior who was actually one of your friends that you consider as a big sister. you honestly didn't fall for it at first because why would you believe rumors about your boyfriend? you trust him so much.

soon after, you began doubting him. he started going home late, leaving you no choice but to understand him with whatever shit he's taking care of. dates would end up with him always apologizing. you've just had enough so you decided to call it quits.

"it's just the alcohol talking. i don't wanna talk about this while you're drunk. sleep, ju. i'm not going anywhere." you whispered, pushing his body to the bed. you got up and fixed the blanket before sleeping at the other side, leaving a gap at the middle.

*

you shifted in your bed when you felt an arm over your waist. you removed his arm and got up to prepare breakfast for the both of you. 

you watched the bacon sizzle over the pan while your mind drifts off to what happened last night. juyeon being loud about his feelings for you? no fucking way.

"i thought you don't like eating burnt bacon?" you almost screamed when someone spoke, revealing a groggy juyeon at your side.

"oh shit..." you quickly turned off the heat when you realized that the food you were supposed to serve looks inedible.

"i'm really sorry if i've caused you problems last night, y/n.."

"...but i want you to know that i mean all of the things that i've said." his hands suddenly gripped yours, not trying to make you uncomfortable by the sudden touch.

"you're drunk last night though, you still remember what happened?" you asked, looking directly at his eyes to search for any emotion. he just nodded at your question.

"let me explain," he took a deep breath before proceeding, "there was no relationship, the rumors weren't true. i started hanging out with her because i'm trying to look for ideas on how to ask you to move in with me in the sweetest way possible. i chose her because you told me that you trust her with almost everything." you softened at his explanation, once again acknowledging how precious he truly is.

"do you really think i could replace you? you're like my most favorite person ever, the love of my li—" you cut him off with a kiss.

"you're so cheesy, i love you— uhh i m-mean.. uhm..." you looked away when you struggled to form words, feeling a little embarrassed with what you just said. he doesn't seem to complain though.

"so does this mean? uhm... you know." he shyly nudged you, making you coo at his cute expression.

"it's always a yes, juyeon."

-

[ requested by anon ]

[outofbodyinjury]

drivers as 2010s hit songs

(at least on north american radio stations)

Lewis: Daft Punk - Get Lucky keeps bopping for longer than you'd expect. unironically very good whether you'll admit it or not. you get bored when you're not paying attention, but it's worth it to listen up.

Valtteri: Avicii - Levels nordic. makes me cry. just keeps going, and the good feeling is dubious. they talk about it so many times you wonder when you’re getting that good feeling. foundational to a genre, a stepping stone for many more great things.

Sebastian: Coldplay - Every Teardrop is a Waterfall old. very important. vocal haters but overall very palatable. it makes you wistful more often than you'd like to admit.

Charles: Lil Nas X - Old Town Road horses. little kids love this one. absolute simple mastery in its field but damn there’s a lot of discourse. horses again.

Max: DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What irritating, goes too hard just when you don’t want it too, but don’t tell me you’ve never gotten hyped. it’s not that deep and that’s kind of the allure. 

Alex: Lorde - Team the prospects are grim but the essence is hope. you like this one, something about it is very fundamental. it’s thoughtful vibes all the way down and everyone else you love likes it too.

Carlos: Robin Thicke - Blurred Lines  did it sort of slap, for a pop song? ʸᵉˢ did it actually need loads of side-eye? yeah, that too

Lando: Carly Rae Jepsen - Call Me Maybe  overplayed, but you'll play it again because it's unironically good. rated by people who know their shit, like KOAN Sound and Jenson Button. too cute to be true.

Daniel: Post Malone - Congratulations makes for terrible instagram captions, but people do it anyway. 

Esteban: Luis Fonsi - Despacito  earworm! never goes away when you want it to. shows up whenever something bad happens, to the point where it’s funny. this... is so sad. alexa,

Daniil: AWOLNATION - Sail is it just me, or was this one always intimidating? you laugh a little nervously when it comes on the radio, and it’s either an acquired taste or you’ve always slept on it. maybe a bit too raw for its own good.

Pierre: Tame Impala - The Less I Know The Better oooh you’re so special for liking this one. did you know he’s actually just one person? everyone knows this one, deserves all the airtime it gets, would deserve any more it got. even the haters have a spot of affection.

Checo: Ylvis - The Fox (What Does the Fox Say?) had a pretty fuckin terrible time in 2013. not taken as seriously as it perhaps should have been. 

Lance: twenty one pilots - Stressed Out incredibly divisive! people who hate it think they’re so cool, but they’re missing out on a fair bit of fun. everything’s cute and nothing’s too serious

Kimi: Pharrell Williams - Happy is this stopping soon? lots of old fucks like this one. dubious congratulations for your fortitude!

Antonio: Capital Cities - Safe and Sound cheesy but cheery, the sound of the summer. no one hates it. terribly endearing if you pay a bit of attention, but at the end of the decade it’s still a one-hit-wonder :(

Romain: PSY - Gangnam Style you probably don't understand but you get hyped anyway. you don’t need to understand. more important than anyone realises. good times all around and very unnecessarily hated.

Kevin: Foster the People - Pumped Up Kicks hoes mad! edgy shit has arrived. keeps getting in trouble for it. if it hadn’t taken off, mark foster and kmag would be in much humbler circumstances right now. 

George: Mark Ronson - Uptown Funk (feat. Bruno Mars) you like it. it probably likes you too. unrealistically charming, didn’t have to do a lot to convince you of that. cooler than you will ever be, but you don’t mind. 

Nicholas: Drake - God’s Plan money money money 🙏🙏🙏 this is pretty self explanatory. the vibes are good and so are you

[angeltears-writing]

The Brother’s and movies

Lucifer

v  Lucifer tells anyone who asks that he enjoys serious, dramatic movies set during the wartimes the type that get Oscar nominations but are quite intense and a little dull.

v  Lucifer however holds a dirty little secret that his prideful nature will not allow him to outwardly share.

v  He LOVES Christmas movies.

v  The end of year holiday movie’s just alleviate all the stress in him. He is so happy while watching that he can barely keep the grin off his face.

v  DO NOT watch Home Alone with him and Mammon. Lucifer every 2 minutes is mouthing off against Mammon stating that HE is the Kevin of the family.

v  His favourite holiday movie is the Santa Clause.

v  The holidays are so special to him and the movies just capture the atmosphere and joy he feels.

v  He loves Christmas because he finally gets a break from his duties, he can have a fun little party with his beloved brothers and friends, he receives and gives meaningful gifts and even Satan is nice to him on Christmas.

v  When you come to the Devildom you bet Lucifer is watching Love Actually with you and every single romantic Christmas movie so he can feel enjoy the warm fuzzy feelings assiociated with his favourite holiday with his beloved Y/n.

Mammon

v  Before you came the Devildom Mammon solely watched hardcore triple X action movies. Unless on movie night with his brothers, then he’s forced to watch some boring artsy flick or some anime junk movie .*cough cough Levi*

v  He was a total dudebro and loved PointBreak.He owns the full collection of the Fast and the Furious. What’s not to love with the live fast, die hard law breaker lifestyle?

v  The man also lives for heist movies, Oceans 11? He has it memorised! He thinks about how HE would be a huge asset to the team and dreams about pulling off some high action super cool heist with you.

v  When Y/n comes to the Devildom it is like a flip of a switch for Mammon.

v  He says he can handle horror movies but you both know that’s a big fat lie so only insist on watching them if you wish to torture him.

v  He will complain and insult your choices of chick flicks and romantic comedies but he is enraptured.

v  HE LOVES it, he watches a couple of them in secret and daydreams about you and him as the main couple.

v  This man wants to pull a Heath Ledger and serenade you to “Can’t Take My Eyes Off You” in front of his brothers, Diavolo, RAD, heck even the whole Devildom.

v  He is living for these romantic comedies and constantly tries to recreate his favourite cutesy moments with you. (Did he get you “special wishing sparkles” and told you to close your eyes and make a wish? Did he then give you a shy blushy kiss when you opened your eyes and say wish granted? Who knows that’s between you and him.)

v  Oh and you bet he’s crying when the couple’s fight and cheering so hard when they finally get together. He can’t help it he’s a secret romantic. Don’t be so loud about it Y/n! He has a tough guy attitude to maintain.

Leviathan

v  Anime movies. Need I go on?

v  He has the Blu-ray special editions of Studio Ghibli movies and he loves watching them on rainy cold days snuggled under a blanket with you.

v  He loves Ponyo for obvious water and fish related reasons. You guys have defiantly done cosplay photo shoots, he was Ponyo, you were Sosuke and Henry was the fishy sisters.

v  Other than anime movie’s Levi is a 80’s movie aficionado. He has seen every 80’s movie. He particularly relates to the high school movies for the theme of the awkward nerdy guy getting the super cool, popular girl of their dreams.

v  He does enjoy the nerdier comic book, big budget action movies, like Kick-Ass. He and Satan have faced off against each other regarding whether DC or Marvel movies are better. (He prefers the funny antics associated with Marvel plus he’s a Peter Parker fanboy)

v  He also is a huge fan of any Edgar Wright movie since seeing Scott Pilgrim vs. The World. (He let out a Woaahhhh when he saw the comics)

v  May Lord Diavolo have mercy upon you if the movie is a book or tv show adaption because Levi will not shut up during the movie. (He will pause the movie he’s not THAT inconsiderate.) You will not have a moment of peace after the movie has ended. He simply must share every single thought he had on what the movie did right and what the movie did wrong. Then he has to show you his fan casting list of who would better fit the roles and then just when you think it’s over he pushes you to re-watch the movie with him to listen to the director commentary.  

v  Levi will generally save his commentary for after the movie if you got to the movie theatre with him. Something about the change of atmosphere and the excitement that comes from the movie watching experience just puts him in a calmer less frantic mood and you can enjoy a simple quiet movie date for an hour or 2 before your ear will be talked off.

 Satan

v  DO NOT WATCH BOOK TO MOVIE ADAPTATIONS WITH HIM! HE IS WORSE THAN LEVI AND TWICE AS BRUTAL IN HIS CRITICS.

v  Now that that fact is out of the way Satan is a mystery fan. He enjoys the cheesy who dunnit type movie’s especially if the detective solving the mystery is very cool and charismatic with a fun catch phrase.

v  One that caught him of guard and quickly became his favourite was Knives Out. A clear mystery with a wacky bunch of characters all with misleading facts and motivations. Additionally he was thrown for a loop on the ending so he really enjoyed it for its unpredictability.

v  Of course Satan enjoys DC movies I mean he and Levithan read the comics and he is a clear believer that the serious tone and consequence from DC makes them the far superior super hero franchise.

v  Contrary to popular belief Satan does not like documentaries, he gets restless and bored watching them, but you keep putting on those boring long documentaries because it leads to a very steamy make out session with a slightly huffy Satan who had been complaining that his movie choice would have been much more enjoyable. Hush hush Satan we are not watching the Blue Planet to sate our curiosity of the inner workings of the environment but rather to quiet your adorable little tuts and huffs with soft sweet kisses and gentle touches.

v  The double edged sword that comes from picking a documentary is that Satan will indeed make you suffer by making his pick a terrifying horror movie since he thinks you are oh so adorable when you’re frightened. He thinks it’s really cute when you ask him to walk you to the bathroom because you’re afraid of the big scary monsters and it’s even cuter to him when you throw your face into his chest and refuse to look until the scary scene is over. Haaa he cannot resist and must pat your head and give you a small peck.

Asmo

v  When one watches a movie with Asmo, one does not simply see it, one lives it.

v  Asmo loves 90s and early 2000s movies about the pretty popular girls because he lives to see their fabulous closets, outfits and their dewy supple skin. He’s a huge fan of Clueless, Legally Blonde and Bring It on.

v  He also simply dies for those cult classic like, Mommie Dearest, Troop Beverly Hills, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Marie Antoinette, Death Becomes Her and many more. You guys put on face masks grab a couple of tasty cupcakes and start reciting the movies line for line bursting into giggles every time, that’s how many times you’ve seen them.

v  Asmo gets the appeal of campy movie’s that have not been appreciated for their odd charm so when you come along you bet he’s going to be shouting out his favourite one liners and you fire the responses right back. He’s in love.

v  What he loves most about the campy movies is the fabulosity and authenticity that comes from the movie’s just wanting to tell a great story and celebrate the oddities and dramatics of the characters. His favourites are the ones with drag queens particularly Priscilla Queen of the Desert, To Wong Foo and The Birdcage. How is he not meant to simply adore the beautiful wigs, costumes, the attitudes of the queens and the sharp, dry, witty humour.

v  Big blockbuster wise Asmo is inclined to see any musical, and yes for 3 weeks straight he will sing the songs of the musical, much  to the displeasure of his brothers but to the delight of you and Solomon who cheer him on and request encores. (Yes you all went to see Cats together, yes you dragged Satan along. Yes everyone but especially Satan was traumatised and yes Asmo did drape himself across every available surface in the House of Lamentation and belted out Memory for practically the whole Devildom to enjoy. Enough with the questions!)

v  Asmo’s favourite musical is Rocky Horror Picture show, you have monthly viewings where Asmo dresses up as Frank en Furter and performs…well not for you more on top of you.

v  Movies with Asmo are always fun treats, you both have a great time with each other and walk away from the movie’s feeling more emotional and closer with one another.

Beel

v  Beel’s taste in movies is similar to his taste in food he is not picky and enjoys a wide variety.

v  He enjoys mafia movies of any variety He likes the familial bond and the trust between members but does not enjoy the double crossing, it makes him feel sad.

v  Other than that he lives for the lively mood, the Italian food, the dramatic situations and the action sequences.

v  He has seen a few animated movies and his favourite is Brother Bear, it reminds him of him and Belphie and makes him soft.

v  He does actually does like twin movies because the plots are always outlandish and funny to him at least.

v  When it comes to movies where food is central to the plot, do not get him started. The amount of times you had to pause Ratatouille so he could get his 20th snack in the last 10 minutes was astonishing. He get’s extra hungry watching the movie but generally enjoys chatting to you about the food making process of each dish rather than paying attention to the plot. (You: Would you prepare food made by a rat? Him: Well I ate Solomon’s cooking once so even a rat’s cooking would be better than that)

v  He loves to ask which dish would you eat when restaurant scenes come up because he’s curious of your taste while watching the movie and sometimes he’ll stop paying attention the movie and instead just watch your reactions.

v  Generally speaking any movie suggestion he’s fine with as long as he gets to spend time with you and can binge on delicious movie snacks.

Belphie

v  The total opposite of Beel, Belphie is a total film snob and will harshly berate your movie choice and say ‘You really made me stay awake for this crap fest.’

v  He doesn’t mean to be mean (yes he does but he doesn’t like making you sad) he just has a very particular taste for movies and if he’s going to extend the effort to stay awake and pay attention he wants it to be worth his time.

v  He is actually the one in the house who does enjoy documentaries. What can he say some habits die hard and he’s still a total Earth nut even though he human-phobic.

v  Not to mention the gentle voice of David Attenbourough soothes him until he is just barely awake so when he finally drifts off he dreams of the wonderful parts of Earth and the miracles or nature.

v  He is a fan of Shakespeare movies particularly the rich dark one’s that are a bit more violent. The atmosphere surrounding them just fits and the plot is a classic so why watch a cheap knock-off of what he has dubbed perfect writing.

v  This man is an emo so of course he’s going to watch the slightly pretentious movies with poetry, his favourites are Dead Poets Society, The Crow and V for Vendetta.

v  On movie nights he is selfish! He insists that you watch his movie first then he immediately falls asleep after it ends. He feels no shame over this.

v  He hates twin themed movies, he thinks they’re cheap and over use the same gag of ‘Whoa they’re twins.’ (Sorry Mary-Kate and Ashley Belphie does not like you guys at all)

v  He watches brother themed movies with Beel and gets really soft because he loves his twin so much.

v  If you truly force him he will relent and watch your movie with you but he will make fun of it and bully you every second he is awake and the only way to silence him is to cuddle up close, let him lay his head on your chest or shoulder, massage his head or give him tons of kisses.  

v  Generally speaking a bad movie buddy but a great cuddle buddy for movie nights.

[gideongrace]

The Pandemic Survival Guide

The world feels like it's going to hell, so here is a list of cute, dumb, happy, fun things to cheer people up so we can try and survive this disaster.

Youtube:

-Jenna Marbles - Cute craft projects, weirdness and dogs.

-Julian Solomita - Jenna's boyfriend Julien has a cooking show and it's adorable.

-Wood Hawker/beat em ups - Wood is the cutest goober of all time, he has two channels, one is beat em ups, where he talks about nintendo switch and one is Wood Hawker where he just does goofy, fun stuff.

-Monster Factory - So these guys, the mcelroy brothers, make monsters in games like Fallout and WWE Wrestling and name them stuff like Snack Braff. It's hilarious.

-MEF (Movies Explained For) - This guy named Jeb does comedy reviews of movies with titles like "Back to the Future part 2 explained for realists!" and "Overboard explained for rich folks!"

-the try guys - Four guys try out all different sorts of stuff, from lie detectors to wearing corsets to baking cakes without recipes.

- unraveled - One of the greatest dorks ever BDG (Brian David Gilbert) does videos like "every sonic game is blasphemous" and "which dark souls boss is the best manager?"

-Satisfying slime video

-Hot knife cuts through stuff

-The lockpicking lawyer - This guy teaches you how to break any lock. It's oddly calming.

-kinda funny's internet explorerz - Basically the best of the dumb stuff on the internet packed into an hour long show every week.

-Markiplier doing a clickhole quiz about fucking rl stine.

-That time on murder she wrote - A comedy review show of the show murder she wrote.

my favorite asmr channels:

-raphytaffy - Lots of noises and whispering.

-shadowywhispers - Soooo many rps from overwatch to batman to captain america sam falcon to stuff like werewolf boyfriend, demon knight boyfriend and the android chronicles: syndicate.

-gibiasmr - Lots of sounds and whispering and clicking noises.

-jojoasmr - Really visual asmr.

-heatherfeather asmr - She does lots of roleplays and has a very soft voice.

-asmrdarling - Lots of different sounds and roleplays.

-dr. t asmr - This one is weird in the best way. He does like sci-fi asmr and calls viewers "the tingledroid army".

TV Shows:

-Lois and Clark - A cheesy 90s version of Superman that focuses more on the relationship between Lois Lane and Clark Kent as reporters while also having goofy villains every week.

-Golden Girls - Do people exist who don't know what Golden Girls is? Sophia Petrillo is the best, fiestiest little old lady ever.

-Brooklyn Nine-Nine - This show is the funniest, nicest, best, most diverse show on tv.

-Schitt's Creek - This show is just so gay.

-Yuri on Ice! - Gay ice skating boys fall in love! That's it. That's the show! Really, though.

-Jane the Virgin - A virgin gets accidentally inceminated, the girl (who is engaged to somebody else) falls in love with the guy whose kid it is, the kid gets kidnapped... this is an english language telenovella.(With voiceovers!)

Movies:

-Evolution - David Duchovny, Sean William Scott and Orlando Jones fight aliens with head & shoulders shampoo. No, really.

-Clueless - 90s LA retelling of Jane Austen's Emma.

-Blockers - Three girls try to get laid on prom night. (And one of them is queer!)

-Street Fighter - Um, this movie has this scene in it.

-Knives Out - The best modern whodunit about rich people getting what they deserve ever.

-In & Out - 90s gay film that's about an adorable gay english teacher coming out.

-Tucker & Dale Vs. Evil - Two backwoods dorks rent a cabin in the woods and a bunch of teens mistake them for serial killers.

To All The Boys I've Loved Before - This movie is one of the cutest rom-coms I've ever seen. A teenage girl's sister sends out all her sister's unsent love letters.

-French Kiss - So a french thief (Kevin Kline with an accent) hides a necklace he's stolen in the bag of this American girl (Meg Ryan) and has to follow after her as she tries to get her boyfriend back and of course the thief and the girl fall in love.

-You Should Meet My Son! - A super cute movie about a mom realizing her son is gay and trying to find him a boyfriend.

Short, Sweet (Harringrove) Fic:

-rockisdead by flippyspoon

Billy is an instathot and Steve is into it.

-boldly go by tracy7307

Star trek but harringrove and Billy is a betazoid.

-homemade by lazybaker

So basically this one is like a Miyazaki movie, but Harringrove.

-starry night, portrait hung by lucdarling

Billy is a painter and he wants to paint Steve.

-I'm Falling Again (But This Time It's In Love With You) by greyspilot

The boys are just really sweet in this canon fic.

Stand-up comedians:

-John Mulaney

-Jim Gaffigan

-Trevor Noah

-Gabriel Iglesias

Music:

-chilledcow lo-fi - youtube

-chilledcow lo-fi spotify

-notice my lo-fi, senpai playlist by be_honest on spotify

-night runner - magnum bullets music video

-dance music - playlist by bree_cheese

-exciteable music - playlist by bree_cheese

-pretty - pretty songs playlist by bree_cheese

podfics/audiobooks

-audiobooks for the damned - A whole bunch of people did audiobook recordings of movie novelizations.

-the art of running by pprfaith, read by reena jenkins - The fast and the furious if Brian was a girl and gets together with Dom.

-dilf by twentysomething - teenwolf podfic read by rhea314 - Scott and Jackson are Derek's sons and Stiles is Scott's kindergarten teacher.

-drop dead gorgeous written by maya, read by heatherifics - The harry potter fanfic where Harry and Draco are Aurors and Harry is part Veela.

other stuff:

-The original script to the movie The Room.

-i write like - A website that allows you to put in bits of your writing to see what famous author you write like.

-squishables - Giant, spherical plushes.

-Not without you: a big, massive, hardcover stucky anthology.

I'll also be making other lists and tagging them #thepandemicsurvivalguide.

If you have anything to add to this list (fics, art, comics, shows, books, whatever) please reblog this and add it!

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Kiss the Girl || S.H.

steve harrington x henderson!reader

(second part to “Can You Feel the Love Tonight?”)

Summary: Timing is tough, especially when you aren’t good with words. Steve can whole-heartedly second to that. Dustin, Steve and Robin have a talk about this and Robin calls for an intervention... Of sorts...

A/N: y’all already know. This was requested by @addictwithaheavydirtycheetah - I honestly wasn’t even thinking of making Can You Feel the Love Tonight a two-parter, but I credit you for giving me that inspiration do so. This two-part series is kind of O.C. in the sense that there isn’t really any mention of the Upside Down at all, everybody’s happy, everybody’s alive: just let me pretend. The name of the roller skating rink in this is an actual place, I’m just using the name though. Enjoy, y’all!

Warnings: possibly super duper cheesy? Swearing?? (But like it’s me, it’s expected by now)

Song Inspo: Kiss the Girl (The Little Mermaid Soundtrack) and True (Spandau Ballet)

•••••

“Okay, Max. Truth or dare?”

“Neither! I’m not falling for that shit!” Max laughs, shoving you playfully to the side.

With a gentle laugh you sit back in your original spot on your bedroom floor. Crossing your legs, you force yourself to sit upright more so you can look the redhead in the eye. “It’s part of the game Maxine.” You enunciate her name slowly in a sing-song voice. A voice that makes the two young girls chortle with laughter. Max giggles with her knees pulled to her chest and El full on snorts as she rolls around haphazardly on the ground. Her brightly patterned romper a stark difference compared to the dull taupe carpeted floor. You smile at the young girl; happy that she’s having fun.

You had only met El last week when Dustin brought you along to the movies with the party. They hadn’t known you were returning home, and so when they did see you none of them could control themselves. Afterall, you were the cool older sibling. (Dustin prided himself on this fact.) Especially since (according to Mike) Nancy wasn’t cool anymore and Jonathan was more reserved and didn’t make much conversation with them. But you, on the other hand, were a bright, bounding ball of energy; constantly having to be moving or talking.

The party had the most fun when you were around. You joined and encouraged them with their campaigns, but you also were able to get the young boys outside of the house once in a while (thus making you Mrs. Wheelers favourite).

Everyone was elated to see you again. They were all smiles and long warm hugs, and hushed sentences saying they were happy you were home. You were pretty sure Lucas even started tearing up, but he had quickly (and suspiciously) denied your claim when you approached him about it. You were ecstatic to see all of the familiar faces that were quickly getting way too old for your liking. However, the only faces that weren’t familiar were the two girls that hung closely to Lucas and Mike. The redhead you learned to be Max; a young girl who ran on loads of energy and sass primarily shot at Lucas (which you later learned they were dating). And the other girl, the one tightly holding Mike’s hand and the one who hadn’t said anything to you that whole night aside from hello was El.

Although you could tell she had a hard time warming up to you (and most likely people in general), you treated her with the most kindness and made multiple attempts to slowly initiate your relationship with her.

Over time though you two became really good friends through your mutual taste in clothing.

If you asked El, she’d say you were her favourite. She looked up to you (although she was too shy to tell you that). You were funny, caring and free-spirited. She had also come to the conclusion that you were attentive and you were really good with people.

Oh, yeah...

You were definitely her favourite.

You look back to the redhead with the big blue eyes; eyes that were darker in the partial dimness of your room (screw you terrible lighting) but still just as large.

Max is up against the edge of your bed attempting to fix her breathing and to calm herself down. You decide to seize the moment as you quickly reach over to the girl and begin tickling her. Max moves around violently, her laughter only increasing the more she shakes. El looks at the two you inquisitively. Her head is cocked to the side and her eyebrows are raised. You glance at El and nod your head to Max. El hesitantly crawls up beside you and reaches her hand out to Max’s side where you have her pinned down. You’re laughing and so is Max, so El figures you aren’t hurting her. But the act is...weird.

She’s self-conscious. She’s not completely sure what to do, but she doesn’t want to seem like that in front of you, so she looks over at your hands. She then begins to copy your ministrations; her eyes intently switching from her hand to yours.

Max hiccups and convulses, grabbing her stomach with a loud cackle. El sits back stunned, but soon, begins laughing along with her two friends. And soon, all three of you are rolling around on the floor like the giggly, energized messes you are.

Max is able to push you and El away as she inhales deeply and coughs. “Do I seriously have to pick?”

“Yes!” You and El shout in unison; erupting in another bout of laughter.

Max shakes her head and hops up off the ground to sit on your bed. She tucks her hair behind her ears and huffs. Her cheeks are almost as red as her hair and you assume she knows cause she tries to slink away, hiding beneath the curtain of wavy strands. After composing herself, Max shows the fact that she’s contemplating her answer by making animated features and biting her lip. You and El shift closer to her; both of you sitting below and in front of Max. “I guess...” she hums loudly. You smack her leg as she continues to do the annoying act. Max chuckles and places her hands behind her body as she leans back on your pale pink comforter. “...Maybe...” She’s dragging it on. You find it to be slightly humourous—the way she’s doing it.

You roll your eyes anyway because Max’s antics are proof that she’s still a young teenager, and you suddenly finding those antics to be annoying means you are getting old.

You wait patiently for Max to stop her teasing and just pick either truth or dare, but El seems to be sitting on the edge of anticipation. She’s curious, but you can also tell she’s getting antsy because her friend simply won’t talk.

“Okay. I got it! I choose Truth.”

You direct your gaze to the smiling brunette beside you. “El, would you like to ask?”

She nods eagerly with a smile and shuffles closer to you. She thinks to herself for a moment before she perks up.

“...Who was your...most recent kiss?”

“Ooh! That’s a good one!” You reassure her. She smiles proudly and the two of you look at Max expectantly.

She smiles shyly. “Well, obviously Lucas. We were reenacting a scene from the Karate Kid and before I left I kissed him.” She looks away, her smile still there.

“Awe!” You squeal teasingly. “That’s so cute!” She grabs one of your small throw pillows and whacks you with it. You laugh and turn to El. “What about you El? Who was your most recent kiss?”

“Mike.” She says quickly and assuredly. Your eyebrows raise with surprise at her quick confession. But then again, you note, she’s obviously been dating the kid for a bit now.

“And you?” El asks slowly.

Your mouth opens in surprise. “And me?”

“Yeah!” Max cuts you off and moves closer to the edge, your bed creaking with each motion. “Who was your most recent kiss, Y/N?”

You laugh nervously. The two girls are looking at you obviously expecting something a lot more exciting than their confessions. You assume it’s because since you’re older, they think you have more...interesting kissing stories.

“Well...I haven’t had a most recent kiss. My last kiss was with Kevin Miller in the twelfth grade. That was prom night though, nothing exciting happened with him after that.”

“What?” Max asked in shock. “Come on, you must’ve had a recent kiss. You know, with a certain fluffy haired dork who works with your friend at a certain video store downtown...” she smirks knowingly.

You snort and hop up off your floor. You stride over to your stereo in the corner of your room, leaning down a bit to properly see the switches and buttons. “No, nothing exciting like that girls. Steve and I haven’t kissed yet.”

“At all?!” The two girls shout in tandem.

You look to the both of them. They’re in pure disbelief and you can’t help but roll your eyes. “Yeah. At all. I don’t know, just hasn’t happened yet.”

“H—how? I mean, don’t you want to kiss him?” Max inquires.

“Yeah, don’t you want to?” El parrots.

You simply shrug your shoulders and flick the switch. “Well...yeah. I—I do. Of course I do. It’s just...it’s a matter of whether or not he wants to kiss me.”

Max looks at El with a shake of her head.

The pair shrug at the same time, both sharing the same exact thought.

How has Steve not kissed you yet?

The two girls knew Steve well. Or at least, well enough to know that he really liked you, and he sure as hell wanted to kiss you. So why hasn’t he? Max makes a mental note to give the boy shit later. But right now it’s hard to stay confused when you’re happily cranking up the sound on your small white stereo.

“Who’s this?” El questions immediately after hearing the unfamiliar beat. “Who’s...singing?”

“Uh...only one of the greatest female singers of all time!” Max and El stare at you awkwardly. You scoff in surprise. How they don’t know who Whitney Houston completely baffles you.

“You two girls spend way too much time with those boys.”

You start dancing. Max giggles at how awkward your movements are, and even though she notes that you can’t dance for shit, you’re still having fun.

The happy feeling in the room increases as you pull the two girls to their feet. You, Max and El bounce around your room, the swell of How Will I Know only encouraging you more. You grab your hairbrush off your dresser and throw it in front of your mouth as you fist pump the air. “How will I know if he really loves me! I say a prayer with every heartbeat!”

The girls are stunned at your knowledge of the lyrics. Clearly, you really like this song. Watching you twirl in the centre of your room (tripping over yourself a little because it’s hard to twirl with socks on a carpeted floor) Max attempts to sing along with you—she definitely has heard this song before but it was always turned off before it could finish (thanks to Billy). El on the other hand didn’t know any of the words, but she just smiles in response to your singing and dances harder and sloppier than you and Max.

•••••

“I still can’t believe you did that, man.” Steve shakes his head with a groan, remembering the earlier event with some girl he vaguely recognized from school and Dustin.

“She was flirting with you!” Dustin yells attempting to throw his hands up to advertise his annoyance. Granted, throwing your hands up in a car with a roof is quite difficult.

“I wasn’t flirting back!”

“Still! She was flirting with you and she had to be removed from the situation.”

“She was a customer!” Steve’s voice grew louder with each syllable. “Customers bring in money for the company, meaning I get money!”

“You’re dating my sister, dude!”

Steve’s head snaps to the passenger seat. His eyes wide and his hair flying all over the place. “I need money to take your sister—my girlfriend—on dates, Henderson!” Dustin stares blankly at his screaming friend.

Steve’s hands were gripped around the steering wheel; knuckles turning paler in colour gradually.

It was true.

The girl Steve vaguely remembered from high school had walked in to Family Video and immediately struck up a conversation. He could tell she was flirting right away. How could he not? She was extremely open about it as she stayed in the store for more than half an hour (which no one ever did), and she always called on him to help her find a movie even though Robin was more available than him most of those times. However the situation had remained decently calm. She’s wasn’t touching him and he didn’t flirt back, so he wasn’t entirely bothered by it. Not enough to piss him off existentially.

Afterall, she was still a customer.

It was only when Dustin Henderson walked in that the situation had escalated.

Dustin had seen the girl shuffling ever so slightly closer to his best friend and even though Steve wasn’t paying any attention to her, Dustin felt like he had to do what a good friend, and brother of his friends girlfriend would do.

The girl was holding Sixteen Candles and had asked Steve if the movie was any good. Steve couldn’t help but roll his eyes at the sight of it. It’s not like it wasn’t a good movie, it was, but he couldn’t count how many times Y/N convinced him to watch it with her. The poor boy had seen it so many times he could recite the first 45 minutes of it perfectly.

But still, he faintly smiles at the memory of Y/N being completely lost in the events of screen. The look of pure excitement on her face and the way it affected her whole body was something he had actually memorized. In fact, he was very fond of that memory. The curl of your lips, your eyes wide and bright as they took everything in, your hand that always, always found it’s way in his or gently grasping at his shirt. Even the way your head would find its place on his shoulder; the scent of your favourite shampoo—a wonderful concoction of coconut and jasmine—wafting in front of him as your hair would rub softly against his cheek. These were all things that were (most likely) forever ingrained in Steve’s memory.

Which was the exact reason why he could never say no to you (in a good way, of course).

But...if Steve were to be honest with himself, how could he say no to you?

The second you’d look at him with doe eyes and a shy smile—your hair always seemingly bouncing lightly in your face as you called out Stevie—he knew he was a goner. Steve was convinced that you could honestly persuade him to do anything.

In that empty moment however, Dustin took the opportunity and bounded up between them and with a slightly aggressive tone said to the girl, “it’s his girlfriends favourite.”

Her face had turned red instantaneously as she meekly slid the movie back in its place. Muttering something about how she wasn’t going to rent anything she had skittered out of the store leaving a highly annoyed Harrington and a happy Henderson.

The two boys were now sitting in silence in Steve’s car. The tension from their little exchange long gone as Steve followed the familiar roads to the Henderson home. “Is Y/N home?” Steve asks out loud.

Dustin nods his head although Steve isn’t paying attention to him. “Yeah she is, but she’s hangin’ out with Max and El. Something about a girls night?”

Steve nods and turns onto your street.

The red BMW silently pulls up in front yours and Dustin’s house. The street is relatively dark, save the two porch lights that are on and the faint glow from the streetlight at the corner behind them. Steve turns off the car, a silent signal to Dustin he intends on joining him inside mainly to see you one last time today.

Dustin leaves the car first; slowly making his way up the driveway. He does find it sweet, that every time Steve drops him off he always takes time to say hi to you. At first it seemed stupid (it began a little after he had warmed up to the idea of you and Steve), but after Steve had pointed out that if Suzie were in Hawkins he’d do the same, Dustin had shut up about the subject.

Steve’s long legs allowed him to join his friend on the porch in just a few strides. Opening the door, Dustin was about to announce his arrival until he heard the all-too familiar pop-y sound of your Madonna album. And he knew exactly which album it was because you played it...

All. The. Time.

Ever since you bought it for yourself with your well-earned babysitting money last month, that’s all Dustin had heard.

And what’s worse? His least favourite song just had to be playing as he walked through the door.

With a groan he turns to Steve who’s silently laughing because he is also completely aware of your Madonna obsession. “You can handle that.” Dustin walks off through the living room and opens the door to his room. “See ya’ tomorrow, Steve.”

“‘Night, Henderson.” Steve counters as the door to Dustin’s room shuts.

Steve pops off his shoes quickly—fully aware that your mom is not a fan of shoes in the house. He skips through the house and down the hallway. Your door is at the very end and it’s decorated with mini posters of your favourite albums.

Steve smiles at the sight because although he’s seen it before, everything about your room is always changing, and it’s just so reflective of your personality. In fact the first time he saw your room he instantly felt jealous because your room was just so cool. It was so cool, and he was so envious because his parents would never in a million years let him decorate his room that way. Or, at all.

Twisting the door handle slightly, he peeked in through the open space and came face-to-face with a sight that made his heart jump into his throat excitedly.

You, Max and El were jumping around, dancing and singing very poorly to Like a Virgin bleeding through the speaker of your record player.

“Gonna’ give you all my love boy!” You sing loudly, bouncing with your legs still and your hand up in the air.

“My fear is fading fast!” El and Max yell shaking their heads.

The imagery before him is a mess of colourful clothes, hair and Madonna; it seems so fun and free and almost...psychedelic. In a way... And seeing you in the centre of it all dancing like a complete idiot elicits a loopy smile out of Steve as though he is on psychedelics.

He nods to himself slowly and shuts the door. You, Max and El are clearly enjoying yourselves and although he really wants to talk to you for the sake of seeing you smile adorably at him (a smile that he’s willing to do anything to see), he leaves you three to it.

•••••

The bell above the door rings suddenly, prompting Robin to lift her eyes out of the magazine she’s skimming through. But upon seeing who the individual is she smirks, puts the magazine down and leans across the counter.

“And what can I do for you on this fine morning, Henderson?”

“Is he here?” Dustin questions with a loud voice; his eyes wide and serious. Robin frowns slightly. Usually Dustin jokes around and actually competes with her antics. But this? This was new.

“He’s out back. Why? What did he do this time?”

Dustin rests his palms on the counter and stares Robin dead in the eyes. “Get. Him.”

Robin nods slowly, twists around and angles her body. “Hey, dingus! You’re in trouble! Better get your ass here real quick!”

Almost instantly Steve trips to the front holding a huge box with the words, “NEW RENTALS” largely printed on its side. His eyes dart rapidly around the room, hands slightly shaking in fear that he screwed up once again.

But then he sees Dustin and his shoulders fall as he places the box on the counter. Patting his hands on his jeans a few times he looks up at his friend. “Hey, man. What’s up?”

“Is it true that you haven’t kissed Y/N yet?”

Robin coughs, hand slapping against the counter. Her eyes direct themselves to Steve. He sees her stare and he shrivels up beneath it. Robin looks at him with crazy disbelief and wild curiosity. Steve looks to his younger friend, which isn’t much better or safer than Robin’s gaze because Dustin’s glare is far more menacing and accusing.

The room is silent, aside from Steve’s rapid heartbeat—which he hopes is only something he can hear. “Who—who told you that? Was it Y/N?”

“Max and El.” Dustin replies blankly.

Steve gulps. “I—uh...I just, um... I just haven’t...yet.” Dustin stands up straighter and Steve feels his shoulders shrink. His throat goes dry and he drags his hand through his hair. He’s already embarrassed from being a complete chicken-shit and seemingly never having enough confidence to go for it when your around him. But he knows it’s not his fault. And it’s not yours either! Steve simply thinks it’s just you being you and it’s completely unintentional, but god do you do things to him. However, now that Dustin is confronting him about it, and now Robin (of all people) knows about his nerves, he can feel himself rapidly unravel.

“But I—I’m going to alright! I am. I really, really am, dude. It’s just—“

“Awe, somebody’s nervous.” Robin purrs. Her lips are curled thinly into a smirk. A facial expression that Steve knows very well and hates very much.

“I’m not nervous.” He quickly counters his friend.

Robin shrugs her shoulders and leans back against the wall. “Whatever you say, Popeye.”

Steve’s jaw clenches with a roll of his eyes. He hates that nickname but he chooses to ignore his friend. He lifts his hands up—almost like in mock surrender—as he moves closer to Dustin. “Look dude, I’m going to do it. I want to! Believe I really, really want to. I just can’t find the proper timing.”

“Timing? What the hell does timing have to do with any of this?”

“Everything, dickwad.” Steve adds.

“Okay, okay.” Robin has suddenly moved from behind the counter to between her two idiot friends. “Relax you two, okay? It’s not the end of the world.” She turns to Dustin. “Also dude, timing is a thing.”

“Ha! Eat that, Henderson!”

“But!” Robin shouts back, turning her head to the taller boy behind her. “There are some cases where you just have to take timing into your own goddamn hands, okay, dingus?”

“It’s the not easiest fucking thing, Buckley!” Robin raises a ring-clad hand in front of Steve’s face while she breathes in slowly and deeply. The act imitates meditation which Steve finds pointless but he refuses to say anything. He simply just huffs passively; eyes boring into Dustin’s.

“I have an idea...” Robin begins. Dustin’s face quirks into a confused state. As does Steve’s. The two boys look at their friend expectantly. “But you two,” she sharply presses a single finger in the middle of Steve’s chest. “And especially you...need to listen to me and everything I have to say. Got it?”

Steve nods slowly although he’s not quite sure what he’s even agreeing to. All he knows is that the green in Robin’s vest brings out the specks of green in her eyes which, accompanied with her pointed stare, makes her look slightly devious; sending chills down Steve’s spine.

Dustin on the other hand seems to care less about Robin’s calculated glare and pipes up. “Now exactly what is this plan of yours? And what is it for?”

Robin groans audibly and strolls over to the counter. Reaching underneath it on the opposite side she pulls out a piece of paper. She plucks a pen from the pencil holder to the right of the chipped, sloppily painted counter and puts it down to the paper. “It’s a plan, shitbird. We’ll call it...” she hums. “I don’t know, “Operation Kiss the Girl”.”

“That sounds like a dumb name for an operation of this magnitude.” Steve slaps Dustin on the shoulder, earning a high-pitched, ragged “ow” from the young boy.

“Anyways,” Robin’s voice is sharp as she continues. “The plan is to get him,” She lazily points the pen to Steve. “To finally kiss your sister.” With as much annoyance as before, she points the ball pen to Dustin.

Steve’s jaw drops comically as he shakes his wild head of hair. “No, no. N—no way. That’s—that’s not happening. No!”

Robin crosses her arms across her chest and looks up at Steve in tandem with Dustin. “What’s wrong, Harrington?”

“I don’t need your help to kiss a girl, okay? I’ve had plenty of practice. I know what I’m doing.”

“Then how come you haven’t done it yet?” Dustin interjects. It’s a sudden, sharp stab in Steve’s ego but he doesn’t let it faze him as he walks back to the box and places it on his shoulder.

“Because, my strange little childfriend, there are such things in this world called nerves. And we tend to get them when we really like someone... Especially when we really want to make out with them. Which,” Robin smirks. “Is what Stevie-boy here, wants to do with your sister.”

“Ew! You want to make out with Y/N? Do you even know what that leads to?”

Steve glared at Dustin. “Where are you learning this stuff?!”

“I’m fourteen not an idiot, dumbass!”

Robin laughs snarkily and pulls herself up on the countertop. Tucking both legs beneath her, she begins writing.

“Okay! Okay! Regardless of the fact that yes, I have thought numerous times about making out with your sister, this plan of yours Buckley, is absolute shit.” Dustin pauses suddenly and Steve internally freaks out. Because if he’s learned anything in the past two years he’s known Dustin Henderson, it’s that when he pauses, he thinks. And when Dustin thinks, the whole world is at stake.

“Not entirely.”

Steve frowns and opens his mouth to ask. “Not entirely what?”

“Uh, the plan?” Dustin looks at Steve like he just said the earth was flat.

“This plan?”

“Yes! Operation Kiss the Girl!”

“Operation Kiss the Girl is not entirely what?”

“Bullshit!” Dustin shouts, taking off his baseball hat like it’ll alleviate his stress.

“The Operation’s bullshit?” Steve says the words slowly while he looks at Dustin with an equal amount of confusion.

“No, Steve! I mean the plan isn’t entirely bullshit! Meaning the operation name is absolutely shit but the actual plan might be good!”

“Thank you, Dustin!” Robin says from her seat. She’s scribbling quickly, her gaze fixated on the paper.

She’s actually serious, Steve thinks. She can’t be this serious.

Steve lets out a guttural groan. “What’s the point of this plan, anyway? Aside from me “gaining the confidence” to kiss my girlfriend?”

“Because, dingus, Y/N wants to kiss you; and you are dying to kiss her. But she hasn’t said anything and she won’t ever say anything until you just...kiss the girl!”

Steve looks at Robin dumbfounded. The box is long forgotten as Steve grew tired of it on his shoulder and left it on the floor. Robin sighs and tucks a strand of blond hair behind her ear. Steve stares at Robin and Dustin; his two friends who are too emotionally invested in this plan. But then again, Steve knows intuitively that they’re both right.

He is dying to kiss you.

He had been since your first date.

Seemingly however, his confidence had long since been lost. And now he’s here. Stuck between two options. The one, taking his own time to kiss you (which he doesn’t have a clue when he’d man up) and possibly not kissing you for a while; or the second option. One that involves him following the plan Robin is formulating, which will result in him finally being able to feel the intoxicating feeling of you fitting perfectly against him and for to him to find out if you’re lips do really taste like the strawberry lipgloss he always smells on you.

The entire room is silent. The tension is laced with jittery expectancy. So much so, that Robin continues to click her pen. She hates the quiet. Despises it. She looks down at her paper as Steve rubs his temples in concentration. Dustin just stands there; hushed and still as he stares blankly at the two teenagers.

Steve inhales sharply and spins around. “Okay! What the hell.”

Robin smiles. “Holy shit, this is gonna’ be the most fun I’ve had in weeks.” She hops off the counter, grabs the pen and paper and slips past the shelves of movies and out through the dirty brown door at the very back.

A moment passes and she pokes her head out; thin golden strands of hair frame her features rather messily. “Are you two gonna’ help me out, or what?”

•••••

“Hello! Welcome to the SkateDaze roller skating park! How many in your party?”

Steve turns his head sheepishly at the large group behind him. He was originally embarrassed for the practical entirety of the friend group to accompany you and him tonight, afterall this was supposed to be a date for the two of you, but Robin and Dustin’s reasoning was that they had to be there in case he fucked up. (Dustin’s exact words.) He just wasn’t expecting the rest of the party to also be there when he parked.

You however didn’t seem to mind; completely oblivious to the plan shared amongst all of your friends. So, Steve just kept quiet and let it happen.

“Nine.” Robin perked up. Steve shot her a sly glare. “There’s nine of us.”

The young woman—Jennifer, from looking at her nametag—smiled awkwardly at the group. “Al...righty then. Follow me.”

Jennifer glided over the shiny hard floors to a booth in the back and smiled (once again quite awkwardly) at the group. “There you are! Once everyone’s ready just go to that counter to get your skates!”

The young woman seemingly flew away as fast as she had came. Everyone hadn’t bothered to pay attention to her departure but El had. With wide eyes, she watched the waiters and waitresses dodge and swerve seamlessly around the large groups of people along with the tables and chairs placed randomly.

The neon and disco-oriented lights shone brightly as they moved around the rink dizzyingly. El hadn’t seen anything quite like it before, but she wishes she had.

“You excited?” You appeared to her right. She looked up at you and smiled softly. Your hair was twisted into loose, delicate curls that shone pink and yellow from the lights behind you.

“Pretty.” El mumbled.

“Yeah, she is.” Steve hugged Y/N from behind; arms wrapping around her waist as his chin rests on top of her head.

El looked at the couple for a moment, completely enamoured with the romance of it all then turned to Mike suddenly.

“Why don’t you do that with me?”

Max erupted into laughter.

Mike stood there, eyes and mouth wide open in shock. “I do! I’m always affectionate to you, El!”

El shakes her head and points to a laughing Y/N and Steve. “Not like that.”

“W—what? N—no, no. El...”

“Come on kiddos lets get our skates already. It’s why we’re here.” Robin chimed in, leading the group to the counter.

Soon after the group had sputtered out all their skate sizes, they slowly made their way to the rink; albeit, a few falls from the inexperienced members of the party.

Max and Robin seemed to get a hang of it rather quickly. They said they hadn’t roller skated before but you knew, deep down, they probably had. But surprisingly, you and the rest of the group had actually started out pretty well.

Granted, you were going slower due to the fact that you’d only ever roller skated once in your life and that was when you were visiting your cousins in Montana two summers ago.

The only ones, however, who were having an especially difficult time skating around the rink were Lucas, Steve and El.

El you understood; she seemed to be extremely sheltered, confused with quite a lot of things. You had actually expected her to have a hard time with it, so you told her on the way to the rink that you’d help. Your promising words caused her to smile widely and her eyes to sparkle.

No one really offered to help her do things with the promise of her being able to one day do them on her own, so for you to ask her if she’d like your help was definitely something she cherished. You found it sweet how she was surprised with the simplest things.

Although, Lucas and Steve on the other hand were a bit of a shock.

You had assumed the two boys knew what they were doing; afterall, they were quite confident earlier in their skating skills (Steve had told you he was going to show you how to “skate like a pro”). But watching the two of them fall repeatedly on their asses was a hilariously funny sight to witness.

This time though Lucas’ hand was gripped around Max’s—much to her chagrin—as he attempted to follow the moves you showed him to keep himself up on both legs.

Except the boy got so caught up in trying to copy his form that he didn’t see Will in the blue pot-light emanating from above them until he had bumped into him, sending Will down to the ground.

The boy fell right in front of Max and Lucas with a thundering clap of his skates and a subdued thud from the ground coming into contact with his side. Max instantly turned her feet to the side in attempt to stop herself—already foreseeing how this would go. But Lucas hadn’t payed attention and tripped over Will, causing him to keel over, dragging Max aggressively down with him.

The group was silent as they looked in partial shock at their fallen friends. But of course you and El had to start giggling, prompting Robin to follow suit. Soon everyone was cackling at the three earning multiple glares directed by Lucas. Will had gotten up off the ground, dusting himself off with his hands as he stood there, looking down on his friends. And Max has immediately whacked Lucas on the arm as she asked, “What is wrong with you?”

“You guys fucking suck!” Dustin shouted at them over his ragged, broken laughs.

“Language!” Everyone yelled at Dustin simultaneously.

Well, everyone except your boyfriend who was currently clinging to the wall on the opposite end of the rink; daring not to move. With a laugh you take El’s hand and pull her with you through the crowds of brightly dressed people towards Steve.

“You havin’ trouble over there, Harrington?” You taunt. A knowing smirk on your face with your arms crossed over your chest.

El looked at you for a quick second before copying your actions. “Yeah!” She piped up, letting a pesky piece of brown hair fall in front of her face. “Are you having trouble, Harrington?”

Steve looked at El and pointed a finger at her. “You... Be quiet.”

You laughed loudly, although over the loud music it sounded like nothing. The way he was pointing a finger at her really made him look like a parental figure and you couldn’t help but make a mental note of mocking him about it later when all was said and done. You turned your head to El and bent down so you were closer to her to ensure that she could hear you. “Why don’t you go with Mike and them; I’ll handle this dork.”

She nodded enthusiastically and slid over the multi-coloured floor with ease.

“How come she’s so good at this all of a sudden?” Steve pouted, blowing his hair out his face. His hands were gripped around the railing on either side of him as he kept his feet in the same awkward position. Even through his white and red-striped wind breaker (which he wore a lot more often when you made a comment about it being your favourite jacket of his) you could see his arms were taut and strained.

Steve looked genuinely nervous... And you were genuinely excited because this moment was too good to pass up. You honestly wish you had your Polaroid on you for the sake of never letting Steve live this down.

Steve on the other hand was very glad you didn’t bring your Polaroid.

You shake your head lightly and propel yourself a little towards him. Your hands rest on top of his as your fingers gently curl around them. You smile up at him sweetly as your eyes, subconsciously trace over every curve, every dip, every freckle and every mole that paints his face with love and adoration.

He’s gorgeous.

It’s like a constellation lives on his face; weaving every piece together intricately to create him.

And, if that was the case—if that was what whatever higher power intended when they came across Steve’s creation, then that constellation will forever be your favourite.

In fact, it already is.

His hands are lifted off the railing with ease as yours begin to guide and direct him. Your skating backwards and your hardly trying. How? Steve couldn’t say.

Part of him was nervous about who you were to inevitability bump into or trip over as you weren’t looking behind you at all. But the rest of him—the part that was so focused and trained on your inquisitive eyes, your curious stare and your gleeful smile weren’t at all thinking of who’d you bump into. Instead, he was happy every inch of you was directed to him.

How someone like you could even ever consider looking at someone like him with that much affection and fondness was beyond his comprehension.

Steve used to think he wasn’t deserving of much—to the point where he actually believed it. But somehow, in someway that completely baffles him to this day, you showed Steve that he was deserving of everything that life had to offer him.

Sometimes he still thinks he isn’t worthy of anything, but ultimately he knows that just his dad talking. Because somehow the boy who wasn’t deserving of anything, deserved you. He found you.

Now how could he pass up that opportunity?

You had stopped gliding over the freshly polished rink, pulling Steve with you as well. The two of you standing perfectly still in the centre of the floor, directly beneath the disco ball and in front of the DJ.

The kids and Robin were still skating; enjoying as much of this night as they could. Their laughs a decipherable echo in contrast with the music so loud you felt the bass in your chest. Both of your hands (still intertwined with Steve’s) fell to your sides; lazily but in the most comforting way possible.

The loud blaring of Duran Duran had seemingly come to a crashing halt. People slowed down or stoped in tandem with the quiet air. But then the DJ bent over and adjusted the microphone standing on the corner of his setup.

“This next requested song is for all the couples here tonight, so, all of y’all have fun. But not too much fun.” He winked at the crowd eliciting a blush from you at the knowledge of his innuendo. It took Steve a minute, but when he got it, he began to snicker. You shot him a playful glare when suddenly the first few familiar soft, electric notes played through the speakers.

Instantly you knew what it was. With a gasp, you jump up a bit and squeeze Steve’s hand as you look up at him. “It’s the song from Sixteen Candles! You know when they’re in the school gym at the dance?”

Steve nods his head slowly with a chuckle. “Yup, I remember.”

You flash him a grin and pull him along the line of people you quickly decided to join. Steve turns his head away from the back of yours to across the rink where he sees Robin and the party at their table. Except Dustin. The young boy is looking at him intently from behind the railing as he’s...mouthing something? Is he talking? Steve can’t quite tell.

As the line turns sharply to the area where Dustin is standing, Steve lets go of Y/N’s hand and effortlessly slides over to his young friend. A bright lime green light is shining directly onto Dustin, whereas a contradictory pink light in small circular shapes placates itself on Steve. “What?” Steve asks, earning a loud groan from Dustin.

“Now’s your moment!” Dustin tilts his head over to Y/N spinning around slowly in the centre of the rink as she laughs. It’s in that moment where Steve’s theory that his girlfriend is the cutest thing on the face of the earth is confirmed.

But soon Dustin’s hands are on Steve’s collar and he’s looking him directly in the eye. “You better do it now, Harrington! There’s no better time!”

Steve shakes his head at the young boy. “No, Dustin, n—not...not right now. Okay? Not right now.”

“Steven!” Robin thunders up beside Dustin, kneels down to Steve’s eye level and breathes deeply.

“Look, dingus you want her. I mean look at her, you know you do.” Steve gulps visibly as his eyes travel nervously all around him. Somehow...even with all of Robin and Dustin’s pep talks, he’s genuinely not ready. He’s scared. And Steve hates being scared.

Robin places a warm hand on Steve’s shoulder and smiles softly at him. The act stuns Steve because it’s so unlike Robin. It’s so unlike her and yet, she’s so serious about this. “There’s only one way to ask her, Harrington. And if you don’t do it, you’re gonna miss her.”

Steve nods slowly, every memory and feeling he’s had of Y/N flashes before his eyes and all at once he feels a spike of confidence creep up on him.

He nods more aggressively now, in a way that ensures himself that he’s really going do it. He’s going to finally kiss you.

And so without a second thought he pushes himself off the railing and towards the middle of the rink where you are still dancing. He gently bumps into you which forces you to spin him around.

“What’d Dustin want?” You ask softly, giving Steve enough time to look directly into your eyes.

He sees a million galaxies and lifetimes behind them. He sees emotions and memories and colours that are so breathtaking they won’t settle for anything less than interstellar. You are so beautiful to him. Everything about you is just...perfect. Your so perfect for him, in fact, that Steve’s pretty sure you’re it for him. He feels it deep in his bones; hell, he even felt it when he first met you. But he wills himself to take it one step at a time because he’s not a big believer in higher powers or energies or karma; he doesn’t really believe in the stuff you believe in. But he’s convinced that whatever he’s feeling now—as all of those galaxies and all of those lifetimes look back at him and only him...what he’s feeling is nothing less and nothing more than pure pre-planned love. The type of love where he can feel whenever you look at him that’s he’s been searching his whole life for those eyes... And that smile...

And simply...you.

He’s feels as though he’s spent a million years looking for you and finding you. And he hopes, as he leans in and feels the soft press of your velvety lips against his, that he will spend another million more searching, and ultimately loving you.

Again. And again. And again.

For all eternity; and more.

You.

Him.

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Also heads up I won’t be writing imagines/one-shots for a while cause I’m working on something bigger right now. (Obviously it’s still Steve Harrington x reader) But yeah, I’m super stoked to have you guys see what I’m planning. I will say keep a look out for something I’m posting soon about this new “project” that’s similar to a preview for it!

Catch ya later, babes x

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mod a’s lgbt musicals

Hi there! I’m a big theatre kid so I thought for pride month I’d put together a list of LGBTQ musicals. Despite its association with queer people, musical theatre is not known for its amazing representation. I’ve put together a list here of musicals I know of with queer characters. I’ve tried to avoid those where the queer characters are incredibly minor roles or those where the representation is just not good enough to be salvageable (*side eyes Legally Blonde*) I know there are many musicals I will have missed out but these are the ones I am most aware of. Feel free to add more! So without further ado, here it is.

Fun Home

The big Tony winner of 2015! Based on Alison Bechdel, a butch lesbian cartoonist. At the age of 43, she looks for new material by trying to explore her past and her relationship with her closeted gay dad. Looks back at a version of herself when she was 10 and a “tomboy” and at 19 when she came out and got her first girlfriend. Has very cute lighthearted moments as well as very sad moments. Has a beautiful song where small Alison sees a butch deliverywoman. Problems in that since the original broadway cast, Alison’s costume has got less butch. Content warning for suicide.

Here’s their Tony performance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMAuesRJm1E

The Color Purple

Based on Alice Walker’s novel about black women in the 1930s. Follows Celie who has been abused by men her whole life who discovers she is a lesbian but also makes a journey of self discovery and learns to love herself. Her love interest is a bisexual woman. Won best revival at the Tonys in 2016. Content warning for discussion/implied sexual abuse.

Here’s their Tony performance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3k2xzQyT2bk

Everybody’s Talking About Jamie

A teenage gay boy in Sheffield wants to be a drag queen and go to prom in a dress.Also a nice touch that is does not focus on him having a relationship (since he is sixteen) and him having to come out as he is already out. Focuses on his close relationship with his supportive mother. Has a diverse cast. Jamie is currently played by a black actor and his best friend wears a hijab and has a very diverse ensemble as well. Unfortunately has a part where Jamie responds to a homophobic bully by calling him a bunch of ableist and classist slurs.

Here’s a clip of the most popular song: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M7C3FuFWDdw

The Prom

Emma is a lesbian teenager in Indiana whose prom is cancelled by the PTA after she requests to bring her girlfriend to it. A group of Broadway actors come down to help her campaign to be allowed to attend prom, as well as styling her, helping her work on her confidence and educating the town’s people. What ensues is basically a two hour musical episode of Queer Eye. Cheesy and fun with so many musical theatre references crammed in. My one issue is that the show is rather harsh on people who are closeted since Emma has conflicted with her girlfriend Alyssa because she is not ready to come out.

Here’s a clip of their Tony performance: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGcG_r5xv3E

Rent

Probably the most well known on this list. Artists in New York during the AIDS crisis. Two of the main couples featured are queer: Maureen is bisexual and in a relationship with Joanne who is a lesbian, and Angel is a transgender woman of color in a relationship with Collins, a presumably bisexual man. However, she tends to be played bi cis men and there are instances of her being misgendered by the main characters uncritically. In Rent Live (2019), all instances of her being misgendered were removed and her gender identity was confirmed. She was played in this by Valentina, an nb drag queen and has also been played by Pose’s MJ Rodriguez, a trans woman. Very diverse with Jewish characters and people of colour and in the live show, only 1 of the 8 main characters was white. Has been criticised over the years, mainly for its biphobic portrayal of Maureen who is promiscuous and implied to cheat, but in the 90s did a lot for the LGBTQ community and is more progressive than a lot of media even now.

Here’s a clip of Maureen and Joanne from Rent Live: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06oCfKYYPTY

And here’s some Angel and Collins: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hl-M94o_x8

Falsettos

Marvin comes out as gay in the late 70s but decides to move his ex wife and son in with his boyfriend. Addresses AIDS crisis in Act 2. Has “lesbians from next door” in act 2. F Revived on Broadway in 2016. All of the characters are Jewish. Unfortunately, in revival casts, very few actors tend to be Jewish.

Here’s the trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjnAHOdMQVk

Come From Away

In the aftermath of 9/11, 38 planes are diverted to a small town in Canada called Gander. Shows people of different races and nationalities bonding in a scary time. Addresses Islamophobia. Has one song called Prayer where prayers from different religions overlap. Has an interracial gay couple called Kevin and Kevin. They break up in the end but are very important characters. Won best direction of a musical in 2017. The Broadway production starred Jenn Colella who has referred to herself as ‘mostly gay’.

Here’s a clip of Jenn Colella singing a song from the musical: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8ukgH6U-d0

Head Over Heels

Honestly I don’t quite know what this musical is about, even by reading the plot summary and listening to the soundtrack. I know it’s set in a Tudor fantasy world and that there are wlw couples as well as an explicitly non binary character, played by Peppermint, a trans woman, and that there are interracial couples and plus sized actors. It is a jukebox musical using songs by the Go-Gos and yes the wlw anthem that is Heaven is a Place on Earth is one of them. The soundtrack is fantastic even if you can’t follow what is going on.

Here are some show clips: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wx2qQ7QAPm0

Spring Awakening

German school kids in the 19th century discovering their sexuality. Two of the schoolboy supporting characters, Ernst and Hänschen, have a romance when they have a reprise of an earlier song in Act 2.  A BIG content warning as it has graphic discussions of rape and songs about it and a sex scene with very dubious consent. However there was a very wonderful 2016 revival using deaf actors and sign language.

This is another one you can very easily find the full show of on YouTube which I won’t link. However here’s the Tony performance for the revival: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSagsMcak4Q

If/Then

A woman named Elizabeth (originally played by Idina Menzel) moves to New York after a divorce and contemplated how different her life would be if she took two different paths. Four supporting queer characters. Her ex-boyfriend is bisexual and played by Anthony Rapp (who is bisexual in real life) and he gets a boyfriend in one timeline. Another of her friends is a lesbian called Kate who marries her girlfriend in the musical. Problems occur as in both timelines, cheating goes on in the lesbian relationship although they stay together in one. Elizabeth also says she doesn’t believe in bisexuals, a view no one ever challenges her on, however Lucas is very clearly bisexual which is some proof for the audience that she is wrong.

I’m not going to link it here but there are many very high quality bootlegs on it on YouTube if you want to watch,

Ghost Quartet

A bit of a weird one. This is more of a concept album. There are four performers who each play instruments and they tell the stories of many interconnected timelines. It is very hard to explain but there are souls travelling through time who keep being reincarnated as different people with different relationships to each other which usually end with one woman killing the other. In the song Soldier & Rose, the ghosts Rose and Pearl are lovers as Rose seduces the soldier for her honey.  In the song Four Friends, for one chorus the men sing “I like to put my hand on a pretty girls’s knee” and the women sing “pretty boy’s knee” and then they switch for the next chorus so they’re all bisexual. In general, a lot of fun if you like weird musicals and I mean really weird.

The full show is online: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dJSaEJm8pCE

Mean Girls

Yes there’s a musical of it. I was not looking forward to it when it was announced but have actually grown to quite like it. It’s hardly lyrical genius but the songs are fun and a lot of the problematic aspects of the film have been fixed. Damian is more explicitly gay in the musical and sings about an ex boyfriend in one song. Janis is heavily implied to be a lesbian (confirmed by actress offstage) and she doesn’t end up with Kevin Gnapoor. She is played by a queer actress in the tour cast. Both queer characters are much bigger roles than in the movie and get several songs each. I’d consider the musical to be quite white feminist but it does address issues such as the sexualisation of teenage girls and the notion that to be ‘sexy’ is ‘empowering’.

Here’s a clip of one of Damian’s songs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-zM6QKkxEQ

& Juliet

An English jukebox musical about what might have happened to Juliet in Romeo and Juliet if she had not died at the end. I haven’t seen it but I’ve listened to the soundtrack and it is mainly comprised of 21st century songs by women. One of Juliet’s best friends is non binary although is played by a cis man as far as we know. Also I went to the same school as one of the actors which is a bonus for me. Very diverse cast.

Here’s a trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dm2k9nS3o20

In Transit

A capella musical about several people’s adventures on New York public transport. Two of the main characters in this ensemble cast are an interracial gay couple where both are pocs. They are engaged but one of them is having trouble coming out to his mother. I found it refreshing in that his fiance for the most part was not upset with him at his struggles in coming out and they were both able to live fulfilling lives despite this. I am always astonished by the talent of a cappella singers.

Here’s a trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhvik6qoass  Another one where the bootleg can be found very easily on YouTube

Firebringer

Remember A Very Potter Musical? Well, the company that did that are still putting out new pieces of theatre on their YouTube channel. In 2016, they put out their ridiculous comedy musical Firebringer, about a group of bisexual cavewomen. I won’t spoil the ending but trust me, it’s great. You may know it from the viral clip of one of the main characters singing ‘I don’t really wanna do the work today.’

You can watch the full musical here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmVuNlu0LCk

Special Mentions

Company

Musical by Stephen Sondheim about a man unable to commit to a relationship, surrounded by his friends who are all in couples. However, the award-winning 2018 West End revival chose to change the genders of some of the characters. The main character Robert became ‘Bobbie’ (although all of her love interests were gender-swapped as well). One of the originally M/F couples became an M/M couple. It opened on Broadway for about a week before the Covid outbreak so that will be one to look out for.

Trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtDK03y4gT0

In the Heights

A musical by Lin-Manuel Miranda about the Latin American community living in Washington Heights in New York. The original theatre production has no explicitly queer characters. However, in the upcoming movie version (that was meant to be released this summer but has been pushed back to next summer) it has been confirmed that the characters of Daniela and Carla (Daphne Rubin-Vega and Stephanie Beatriz) will be explicitly a couple.

I absolutely love this musical and the trailer for the movie looks beautiful check it out: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U0CL-ZSuCrQ

[johnny-and-dora]

may your days be merry and bright

"So many of her favourite Christmas traditions have had to be put on hold this year, and she needs this one night just so she can feel like her old self again."

or, a grumpy, tired and extremely pregnant amy learns she can always rely on her weird work family. (merry christmas/happy holidays everyone!) thank you @fourdrinkamy for a wonderful prompt & @amyscascadingtabs for her infinite wisdom about pregnancy!

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Amy Santiago has always adored Christmas.

The annual, extremely chaotic congregation of her ever-growing family, the twinkling lights, the festive cheer. The spreadsheets and planning that goes into choosing the perfect gifts on a strict budget. Her mom’s cooking and the way that everyone always acts a little kinder, a little merrier. The movies and the songs and lately, the privilege of sharing it with her favourite person in the entire world.

Next year, they’ll be sharing Christmas with their baby. Next year there will be unfairly adorable Santa themed baby clothes to buy and cheesy family Christmas card photos to pose for and new traditions to make, and Amy is beyond excited for that – but this year, the whole being eight months pregnant thing has inevitably put a bit of a damper on her usually thriving holiday spirit.

The swollen feet and the constant hunger and crippling fatigue and the Braxton Hicks contractions are bad enough, but it’s the endless anxious waiting that’s slowly killing her – the crib is assembled and the hospital bag has been packed and repacked and the binder is done and she’s read every single pregnancy book available to her cover to cover, so thoroughly that according to Jake she’s been reciting facts about infant care in her sleep.

They’re ready, or as ready as they’ll ever be, but now it feels like all they can do is wait.

Amy hates waiting.

And now the most wonderful time of year suddenly feels a lot less wonderful, because she can’t go home for the holidays and enjoy Nochebuena with her family like she has every single other year without fail. She can’t enjoy getting absolutely wasted dancing to Christmas music at Shaw’s or even lure her husband into a supply closet with some mistletoe.

Coupled with her early maternity leave (doctor and captain’s orders, much to her disappointment) meaning she’s stuck at home all day every day with her FOMOW at an all-time high, she feels like she’s at breaking point.

Amy frowns at herself in the mirror, adjusting her dress again – it’s a simple red one that Rosa helped her pick out, neither of them particularly enamoured with the bedazzled maternity pants Gina sent her. She tries to take a calming deep breath, forcing a smile before letting her features fall back into place. It’s the first time she’s bothered to put make-up on all week, but the dark bags under her eyes still seem to taunt her.

Not for the first time, despite how badly she’s been looking forward to this Christmas party, she considers just giving up and staying home.

Luckily for her, Jake chooses this exact moment to appear smiling in the mirror beside her.

“You look beautiful, Ames.” He says fondly – he’s taken to telling her that every single day now that she can barely recognise her own body anymore. Though she finds it hard to believe him, each and every time he says it with the exact same reverence that he did on their first date, and each and every time she can barely suppress a soft smile.

“You’re biased.” She pokes him in the shoulder fondly - he comes closer, wrapping his arms around her in response, swaying a little as they look at each other in the mirror.

“You know I mean it, right? I love absolutely all of you. You could grow an extra head or swell to the size of the moon or shrink down to the size of a mouse and I’d still think you’re the most beautiful woman in the entire universe.”

“Even if I were the size of a mouse?”

“Definitely. I’d carry you round in my pocket and everything. Stuart Little-stylez.” She laughs, shaking her head, but now carrying a lightness in her chest that’s hard to come by these days. He’s been the most supportive partner she could ask throughout these last eight months, although really that’s also true of the last five years they’ve been together.

“Thank you. You’re not bad, either.”

“Oh, I know.” He grins with a familiar bravado that puts her at ease, kissing her cheek. “You ready to go?”

She assesses her appearance in the mirror again, but this time she doesn’t need to force a smile. “I’m ready.”

***

Being thirty-six weeks pregnant, on top of all its other less than desirable side effects, cruelly makes Amy’s devotion to punctuality far more difficult to maintain – she counts it as a victory when they arrive outside the Holt-Cozner household merely five minutes late. The engine sputters to a halt and Mariah Carey is sharply cut off, but Jake doesn’t move, instead fixing her with a meaningful look she knows all too well. She knows what’s coming.

“We don’t have to stay long.” He blurts out. “We don’t even have to go in, if you don’t wanna – I mean, I can turn the car around right now and we can go get polish food and watch Jeopardy and I’ll give you a back massage or something.”

He’s giving her the look again - the soft overprotective one she’s always been fond of but has undoubtedly increased in volume and intensity tenfold since the start of her pregnancy.  

He’s cute when he gets all worried – and he clearly has the best intentions, but little inclination of all the fears she fought to make it this far and all her determination to enjoy this night. Not that she’s told him; Jake has seemingly infinite patience with all her complaints and worries, and she feels a pang of immeasurable guilt about burdening him with any more. Musing this, Amy takes his hand from the steering wheel, thumbing intricate loops over his knuckles.

“You’re sweet. But I want to be here, okay? I want to see everyone! I’ve missed Charles bursting into tears and gushing about the miracle of life every time I walk into the room.”

“Say the word and we can go, okay?”

“Okay!” She squeezes his hand. “Stop worrying, babe. Stress is bad for the baby.” She parrots the saying she’s heard about a billion times in the last eight months and feels satisfied when she finally earns a snort from him. It’s not lost on her that this kid has already turned their entire lives upside down to the point where she’s the one telling him to relax.

A couple years ago, she’d have retched at the thought of being one of the girls in Jake’s beat-up old Mustang. It’s immensely strange and wonderful that now there’s no one else that she could imagine having this baby with. They share a tender smile, and she knows what both of them are thinking. Soon. Soon we get to meet our baby.

Jake grins, placing a light kiss to the back of her hand and pocketing the keys.

“Let’s do this.”

***

It takes a momentous effort for Amy to waddle up to the house despite Jake supporting her the whole way – she has to take a moment to catch her breath back once they’re both welcomed inside, already fighting a familiar creeping fatigue from settling in and stealing the whole night away from her. So many of her favourite Christmas traditions have had to be put on hold this year, and she needs this one night just so she can feel like her old self again.

As usual, the decorations are tasteful and sophisticated, worlds away from the various novelty Christmas items and abundance of tinsel that clutter their home. There’s a pleasant warm atmosphere that instantly relaxes her and she smiles brightly at Jake, who mouths ‘second honeymoon’ before cheerfully greeting Holt with a six-pack of orange soda and launching into an animated conversation about his latest case.

“Amy.” She’s startled out of watching them by a gentle Kevin, who is as gracious of a host as ever. “It is wonderful to see you. Please, make yourself as comfortable as possible. Is there anything I can get you?” She smiles gratefully, already hyper-aware of the dull ache of her swollen feet but determined that her remaining holiday spirit will not be quashed by any means.

She instantly finds a perfect spot on their couch, accepting a glass of water from Kevin before he excuses himself to go and greet more guests.

Despite the lack of any alcohol in her system, it’s all too easy to space out; it’s also all too easy to feel like everyone is merry and bright except her. She bites her nails, frustrated, deep down knowing that she’ll probably spend the whole night intensively snacking and talking to no-one.

She already loves her baby more than anything else in the world, but that doesn’t stop it from sucking that this sad, lonely feeling budding in her centre is her current reality.

One of Kevin’s colleagues tries to start a conversation with her but quickly excuses herself to get more food once she realises Amy isn’t a professor of any kind. Jake or Rosa or anyone she knows seem absolutely nowhere to be found and she’s quick to admit total defeat as she feels herself sinking into the couch, steeling herself for the long and torturous night ahead.

***

At least she can take some comfort in how nice Holt and Kevin’s guest bathroom is.

Cheddar is, blissfully, nowhere in sight. She takes a minute of peace to compose herself, grappling with all her dread and doubt about returning to the party clashing with feeling like a failure if she doesn’t enjoy herself.

She’s about to make her way back into the living room when she catches her name in a passing conversation – Amy pauses, lingering in the doorway, suddenly aware of two very familiar voices speaking in a soft tone down the hall.

“...I just…I worry, y’know? She’s so uncomfortable all the time now and we’re both going a little crazy waiting for the baby to arrive and…I don’t know. I just want to help her, but I feel completely useless most of the time. Especially because she’s this freaking superhero who’s been growing this human being for almost nine months and I’m just this guy that couldn’t even assemble the crib.”

“Jake, I assure you that you are far from useless, and I don’t doubt that Amy has assured of the same thing. You are doing everything you can to support her.” Holt says in his usual authoritative baritone - Amy feels her face burn red, aware that this isn’t a moment she should be trespassing on but unable to walk away.

These are fears that he’s voiced to her before, and she can only hope that the more the people he cares about affirm their belief in him, the more his confidence will start to grow.

“I know. I’m just, uh, scared. And scared that I’m never going to stop being scared.”

“If I may speak candidly, I trust that the very compassion, thoughtfulness and fear you are currently displaying that will make you a great father.”

“You think…you think I’m gonna be a great father?”

“Kevin and I are certain that you will both be excellent parents.” Holt says it like it’s a given, just as water is wet or the sky is blue, and Amy glows with pride from her secret hiding place, praying no one else needs to use the bathroom before this conversation ends.

“You really think so?” She just knows that he’s grinning that bright, shining Peralta grin that she just couldn’t help falling in love with.

“Indeed. In fact, we are very proud of both of you. And – well, you already know, but if there is anything you ever need, we are more than happy to support you.”

“Thanks, Captain. Amy’s going to be so psyched when I tell her that.”

She spends another five minutes in the bathroom sniffling before she can compose herself well enough to return to the party – once she does, she can’t help watching Jake all lit up from across the room, and her eyes immediately well up as her heart just soars leaps and bounds.

***

“Hey.” Rosa slumps down next to her on the sofa while she’s still drying her eyes, nursing an empty wine glass – there’s a softer look in her eyes than usual, an echo of Jake’s increased protectiveness, and Amy is undeniably grateful to see her. “You okay?”

“Yeah. Stupid hormones. What’s up?”

“Eh. I’m fine. Not drunk enough to enjoy talking to these nerds.” Amy scoffs, feeling a slight sting of jealousy that she can’t get drunk with her friends or even attempt to have an intellectual conversation about art history with Kevin’s colleagues, though it’s muted now purely through love for her husband. She twists the ornate silver ring on her finger, aware of the piercing stare her best friend is giving her.

“Are you really okay?” Rosa asks, and Amy’s face crumbles.

“I’m just…really tired of being pregnant. I want to enjoy being here, y’know? I want to enjoy these last few weeks of peace, but I’m bored out of my mind stuck at home just waiting for this kid to pop out of me. And I can’t enjoy being anywhere else because I can’t drink or hold a conversation without immediately falling asleep.” She stifles a well-timed yawn to punctuate her point and Rosa hums in sympathy.

“I feel like I can’t even complain about it to Jake anymore because he’s so damn considerate and kind and he’s trying so hard and I don’t want to burden him with it and I can’t even enjoy Christmas anymore and everything just kinda…”

“Sucks?” Rosa finishes for her and she nods, hands coming to rest naturally on her bump. They’re both quiet for a moment, watching Charles gush about some obscure Latvian festive dish he’s making for Nikolaj to a helpless Terry, but it’s not long before Rosa speaks again.

“Look, I have the day off tomorrow. I’m coming over and we’re making mocktails and watching The Holiday and you can bitch and complain to me about being pregnant as much as you want, guilt-free. Sound good?”

“Rosa, you don’t have to-“

“I know. It’s not a perfect solution or anything but...I want to help. Any way I can.”  Amy gets the feeling that’s the final word on the matter, and she feels gratitude for her best friend rising to a crescendo in her chest. Rosa winces, no doubt recognising the way her face scrunches up when she’s trying not to get emotional, and pats her on the shoulder uneasily. “Please don’t start crying again.”

“I can’t help it!” Amy half-laughs, wiping away a stray tear and pulling her into an awkward yet loving hug. “You’re being nice.”

“It’s not long now, Amy. And…your kid is really lucky to have you guys. You’re both gonna be great.” Rosa smiles a genuine proper rare Rosa smile, before looking down at her empty glass wistfully. “Maybe I’m drunker than I thought I was.”

Amy laughs again, this time bright and shining and full, and the longer she spends here, the more the lightness in her chest she’s spent so long craving simply grows and grows.

***

The rest of the party passes in a blur; a moony-eyed Charles sits beside her at one point and she braces herself for the worst, but finds herself touched deciphering his rambles about how great her and Jake are going to be (and impressed that she only has to veto one invasive question regarding her uterus). She gets to rant to a highly empathetic Sharon for ten minutes who invites her over for lemonade and assures her that she can ask her or Terry any & every parenthood question she can think of.

Holt even shakes her hand as they leave the party, personally thanking her for coming, and Amy beams as she spots the novelty Father’s Day card Jake got for the both of them still taking pride of place on their mantelpiece. Her family may be miles away in New Jersey, but her weird work family are right here, celebrating with her and supporting her and lifting her up in every way they can.

For the first time all month, Amy feels at peace with missing out on a traditional Christmas this year.

She falls asleep in the car before they’ve even left Holt and Kevin’s street - Jake gently wakes her once they arrive home, clearly cautious of an extremely tired and grumpy pregnant wife to placate and clearly surprised at the positivity with which she handles slowly waddling to their apartment.

“It was just really nice to get out of the house and see everyone, I guess.” She offers breezily as a brief explanation, sighing with content as she can finally take the weight off her feet and indulge in the comfort of their bed. He hums before disappearing to make tea for an inconspicuously long time, eventually returning with a mug in one hand and an envelope in the other.

“Here.” He says, setting the mug down on her bedside table, handing her the envelope and flopping down on the bed beside her. “I wanted it to be a surprise, but I just realised it should be something you can look forward to.”

Amy narrows her eyes. “Jake, you know what we said about gifts this year…” She frowns disapprovingly, but all he does is laugh.

“Just open it, babe. I promise it’s nothing taser related.”

Her curiosity easily overpowers any objections she might have and it’s not long before she’s carefully ripping the envelope open - inside is a piece of paper, which she unfolds as he watches her expectantly. Her heart all but lights up as she slowly realises what it is.

“Is this…”

“...A print screen of a booking confirmation? Yep. Sorry, I wanted it to be vaguely more of a nice romantic gesture than just forwarding you the email.”

It’s a booking for a room in a fancy hotel upstate, one she’s always coveted but never been able to convince herself that they could practically afford.

And it’s for a two night stay, starting on Christmas Eve - a simple but heavenly upgrade to their holiday plans. She looks at him with big, shining eyes.

“I’ve always wanted to go there.”

“I know, because every time we drive past it you mention extremely subtly that you’ve always wanted to go there.” Jake grins teasingly, and she can tell he’s proud of himself for this one - he definitely should be. Once again, tears already threaten to spill and blot the paper because he knows her and he loves her and he’s the right person for her and that’s all in the world that matters. She couldn’t ask for anything more.

“I just knew you were missing having a traditional Christmas this year, and I thought we deserved something kinda...nice? And I know it won’t compare to being with your family but we can order as much room service as you want and just spend the whole day lounging about in fluffy robes watching Christmas movies and just doing whatever you want. You’ve earned it, Ames.”

The soft earnest nickname is what breaks her in the end - her face completely crumples as she tries to stammer her gratitude while ugly crying at the thoughtfulness of her husband. Luckily, he’s used to riding an emotional rollercoaster along with her by now and has the common sense to pass her some tissues and rub her back soothingly until she’s all cried out.

And then Amy kisses him, with everything she has left to give, her thankfulness beyond the clumsiness of words. Suddenly the insurmountable obstacle of waiting out these last few weeks doesn’t seem half as daunting.

Her vows ring powerful and true, now more than ever; as long as she’s with the people that she loves, she can handle anything. Tonight has reminded her that she’s surrounded with so many of the right people that, with their help, even raising a child now seems possible.

“This is so thoughtful - thank you.” She holds the paper close to her chest, still sniffling. “I love you so much.”

Her eyes are red and puffy and there’s somehow phlegm everywhere but he still looks at her like she hung the moon anyway and it makes all of it, absolutely all of it, worth it.

“Love you too. Merry Christmas, honey.” He kisses the top of her forehead before gently pressing his hand to her stomach, clearly not over the delightful novelty of instantly feeling a kick there.

“And Merry Christmas to you too, peanut. I know you must be pretty comfy in there but you better not keep us waiting too much longer, because we’re super psyched to meet you.” Amy hums in agreement, absolutely exhausted but completely overwhelmed with joy, her holiday spirit alive and thriving.

And at the end of the day, if it means a few more precious weeks of keeping her husband all to herself, she supposes that maybe she can handle waiting just a tiny bit longer.

[deanie1987]

THE WEDDING POST!!!!!!!

Okay, I have now watched the episode in full like 8 times and it has been absorbed into my bloodstream and I feel stable enough to finally comment on it. For the most part I loved it and it delivered nearly everything that I wanted, even if it was delivered differently than I hoped for/imagined. There were definitely some missed opportunities I thought, but there really was nothing that I outright hated and I was pleasantly surprised for the majority of the episode. Here are some random thoughts as I was watching:

- I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again - Lip chewing gum is hot as fuck

- I knew I was in for a special episode when Ian showed up in a towel followed shortly by Mickey in a towel. They have been hiding Mickey’s thicc sixpack all season and unveiled it here as wedding gift to the viewers.

- Cam’s line reading of “Mickey” when Liam asked who was going to wear white, sweet baby jesus. Why does it always sound so good coming out of his mouth?

- I love all the brother scenes. Carl clipping his toenails, Ian griping and then Carl wiping them on the floor was hilarious. Although considering it was his room, what does Ian care? But I love that he did. Very anal (no pun intended) big brother vibe there. Liam hightailing it out of the room the second Mickey walked in and headed toward Ian was a mood. The shit this poor boy has seen.

- I also loved everyone asking Ian about his meds, especially Carl. That really got to me for some reason, as did everyone giving the reason that it was going to be a stressful day. Like they weren’t asking to be assholes, they were just concerned and wanted him to have a good day. Little did they know how stressful. I liked that Ian didn’t get made, but you could still sense a tiny bit of annoyance.

- My second notice that this would be a different kind of episode was Mickey asking if Ian took his meds and then touching him gently under the chin and saying “good” in a very, very deep and low voice. Um....holy shit that was beyond sexy to me for some reason. Like I almost felt like I was intruding. The way Ian’s eyes were fixed seemingly on his chest/tattoo and then the way Mickey forced him to look up at him.  Wow. Ahem.

- Ian obviously thought it was sexy as fuck too because he yanked him by the hips and grunted and pulled him in for some more caresses. So yeah, this was a lot different than the “hey what’s up bro?” scenes we had been getting. I mean there wasn’t a tongue kiss, but I appreciated it. I also appreciated that Mickey and Ian had no problem not only seeing each other before the wedding but showering together and messing around too. Poor Carl, he needs to take not of Liam’s reaction. 

- Along these sexy lines, there is no way that anyone should find the violent biting/hitting scenes sexy. Like no way that Ian saying “you gonna make me hit you again?” and manhandling Mickey’s wrists to the ground and saying “you done?” in a softer voice while straddling him and then throwing the gun to Carl and telling him to get the cuffs, was sexy. And it definitely wasn’t sexy that Mickey finally calmed down and looked right into Ian’s eyes and nodded. Like, no way, we shouldn’t be romanticizing that shit. Okay? Ok. Ahem. Ha Ha 😅

- I could not survive Kev’s keg boot camp, but I will take his comment about Depeche Mode-loving Gen Xers” as a personal shout out because I put their song “Somebody” at the very top of my Gallavich playlist. It is the cheesiest, sappiest song known to man and my girlfriends and I would play it on repeat and get weepy in high school. And it fits Ian and Mickey perfectly and even out cheeses that Ed Sheeran song. See Gen X can do more than irony.

- Obviously I loved Mickey’s handcuffed speech, but I wish that there had been a reference to that terrible cursed episode in season 3. Not the rape, but the fact that Terry forced Mickey to marry a woman and that it basically ruined their lives and set Ian and Mickey on a destructive course. Nearly everything that they went through started with that terrible day. It was definitely subtly reference and I definitely think that Ian was thinking of it, but I wish it had been stated more clearly.

- I love that Sandy was wiling to go to jail to get Mickey his wedding. I love that Debbie was possibly willing to marry Mickey to get him his wedding as well. I definitely loved all of the Gallaghers rallying around to help.

- The tie scene was beyond cute and this was the kind of scene we have been waiting for and both Cam and Noel delivered. I love how sincere Mickey was in this episode and how straightforward and reverent this conversation was. The kid conversation, Ian telling Mickey exactly what he wants and Mickey revising his statement in response. It was a perfect statement and this scene was so intimate. I truly didn’t think we would get this before the wedding so I’m thrilled that we did.

- Why does everyone keep referencing the combination of Mickey and Ian’s genes? Do they know where babies come from? Have they read too many Mpregs? 

- I loved the shot of them first arriving and the mention of the chairs. Mickey’s “I like how the gold captures the light” made me giddy. Then the long shot of them sort of taking in their surroundings and the impact of the day. The other shot I liked was them at the alter with a bit of the “deer in the headlights” look. You got me John Wells, you sneaky bastard.

- I loved everything about Kevin this episode even if it is beyond tacky to propose at someone else’s wedding.

- I had to mute the Gay Jesus crows singing “We Shall Overcome” because ugh and cringe, but Ian having a cult at his disposal may come in handy someday. I hope he thanked them and let them glory in his presence for a little bit. I also liked that Carl and Geneva were so familiar with one another. Lol.

- All of Ian’s interactions with his siblings were perfect. I wanted but didn’t get a scene of Ian asking Lip to be best man and also a best man speech (or any speech for that matter) but the “soft motherfucker” scene was adorable and very moving. I love that the only person besides Mickey that we have every seen Ian say ILY to was Lip.  That is pretty appropriate and the kisses were sweet too. I, too, am a soft motherfucker and that swell of music to At Last got me. 

- I liked how nervous Mickey was walking down the aisle, and I was happy that Sandy was there for him. But I sort of felt that him walking down the aisle on someone’s arm was a little too “bride” for me and I think I would have preferred to see him walk down the aisle by himself while grinning and walking his patented BDE Mickey walk. But his solemnity and serious was an unexpected choice and I appreciate them going with it.

- FRANK!!!!  Oh my god that’s where my tears started. I was really hoping for a Frank/Ian scene but his tears will have to do. Wow, I just wish that Ian could have seen them. The utter disdain the two have for one another usually makes me laugh, but it felt wrong to me in this episode, at least from Frank’s side, so I was glad that it seemed that Frank’s emotion got the better of him. I definitely think that the spectre of Monica had something to do with it, but it was there.

- SPEAKING OF MONICA...wahhhhh!  My favorite scene I think. It is no surprise that it comes when Ian is watching Frank and is sitting next to Debbie. I”ve already said this before but Debbie was the perfect person for Ian to talk to about this. I love how Ian still calls Monica “mom” and Debbie still called her Monica. And she was right, Monica would have loved everything about that day. Emma Kinney did a remarkable job in that scene, and she looked beautiful. The chemistry of the actors was palpable and it was just so nice to see. I also loved Ian’s slight laugh as he felt himself tearing up and then his choked voice as he said he should dance with his husband. Waahhh. Followed by Debbie’s sweet, sweet smile and then Ian finding Mickey, who had been dancing adorably and looking around for his boy. Then the way that Ian clung to him and collapsed into him, while the perfect and cheesy song played.  WAHHHHH!!!

- Also can we give it for Debbie yet again. Not only did she miss the ceremony in order to save the day, but she missed Franny walking down the aisle.  That is commitment and sacrifice and we appreciate it!

-I had hoped for personal vows, but I am at least glad that they recited them and didn’t just say “I do.” Once again, Mickey’s earnestness and seriousness surprised and delighted me, 

- I loved Ian grabbing Carl on his walk down the aisle. As I mentioned, every scene of Ian and his siblings was character appropriate and I loved this one too.

- Them having 120 people at the wedding was kind of dumb and ridiculous, but I did appreciate how true to life the variety of outfits was at such an event. From ripped jeans to gold lame dresses LOL. 

- That last scene of them was cute too. The hand holding, the nudity, the TATTOO again and Ian’s hand hovering near it. Mickey caressing and pinching Ian’s arm, their TWO rings, the hideous room and their tired, happy, sleepy voices. Perfection. I don’t love how Terry’s murderous rage is somewhat played for laughs, but I admit that I did kind of chuckle at their expressions when they heard the tires screech and then the last shot of them looking at one another while the jaunty music cut in. It was very, very, very much like a rom-com.

So there was a lot to absolutely love this episode, but there were a few missed opportunities as well.  I mentioned the lack of personal vows/family speeches and lack of any significant Frank/Ian interaction, but other than that the only thing that really bothered me was the lack of any Fiona or Mandy mention. That was actually a huge missed statement and it would have been easy to do. I find it more believable that Fiona would miss the wedding than Mandy, but to not mention either of them was a bad move, IMO. I liked Sandy and the role she played, but she doesn’t make me forget Mandy, show. And the lack of Fiona mention just makes me think JW was being petty toward ER.  But beyond that, THEY ARE MARRIED AND HAPPY AND SUPPORTED BY A LOT OF PEOPLE!!!  HALLELUJAH AND PRAISE GAY JESUS!!!

[fank0ne]

Okay, I'm mad. I was supposed to post this waaay earlier but Tumblr fucked it up and here we are. My anxiety's tryna crawl back to me and I have to deal with it too, so, ugh, bear with me.

Anyways, this whole thing is gonna be messy af, you've been warned.

FIRE:

Cruz and Chloe. What did Joe do in his previous life that the universe wants tries to fuck up any tiny bit of happiness? The poor guy just lost his best friend and now the person he wants to spend the rest of his life with ditches him? Great timing, by the way.

C'mon, give him a break. He's suffered enough and certainly doesn't deserved. Joe is literally a sweetheart.

Severide and Stella. Did Kelly (I hate his first name so much, you have no idea) really say "(...) with our kids and grandkids surrounding me"?! Stellaride are so cute, it's like they live in their own bubble of happiness and, ugh, they've matured so much and to hear Severide say that he wants to grow old with Kids (we already knew that, but to actually hear it gives it another effect)... it just warms my heart.

I hope Stella gets to choose some cool badass names for dem kids.

Jay and Adam partnering up and doing Mouse's work?! Dope.

I've got something to confess: I don't know why or how, but I recently entered the Halzek spiral and so whenever they're around one another I literally freak out. Can you blame me, though?

MED:

Who is this Andrea girl? Is she an angel sent from above who's gonna help us associate the word end to Manstead? Has that moment finally arrived? Sarcasm aside, I'm curious! I wanna know what was/is the nature of her relationship with Will. They definitely fucked at least once -- I'm not saying it, their faces were saying it. Sorry, guys, I don't make the rules.

Dr. Marcel. I can't call him Crockett because in Italian it sounds like nugget. Like, you say chicken nuggets, we say crocchette (Crockett-e) di pollo, and it's just weird lol.

That look on his face he had every time he had to announce the time of death of one of his patients honestly broke my heart. He felt so helpless and, I'm not gonna lie, I wanted to give him a big hug.

I don't really know how I feel about his character, though... sometimes I like him, sometimes I don't. I just feel like he has a big, kind heart underneath that cheesy and cocky surface and I know he'll eventually grow on me.

Also, does he have a crush on April or is he just being, you know, himself..? Because I'm not a huge fan of love triangles and I think Chexton is endgame, but I don't know??? I don't wanna see what could happen with the three of them, but I also wanna see it. It makes no sense, good.

William and Natalie (≠ Manstead, careful there). Did you notice how cool it was without the two of them causing unnecessary drama? They suddenly became almost lovable (I actually would die for Will, who the fuck I'm kidding lol) when they're not near one another. Seriously though, I liked them in these episodes (yup, Natalie too, unbelievable!)

Okay, I'll stop with this shitty type of sarcasm. It's not even funny LMFAO.

I am so into this intelligent, witty and super capable version of William Halstead and, yeah, I know the emergency situation required him to be, but I feel like maybe Andrea's presence spurred him a little bit? I'm just randomly guessing here.

And Natalie too! I loved the interaction between her and Hailey, I think they never ever spoke to each other before, so it was cool to see them together. 

About Hailey... the promo pictures truly misled me (and my fellow Upstead shippers) and now I feel stupid for believing they were gonna feed us with some juicy content. I mean, I wasn't expecting Jay to confess his feeling to Hailey (even thought, in my - not - humble opinion, he already did in 6.22), but damn bro!!! He didn't give two fucks about how she was doing. He literally only went to Med to update her on the investigations and that's all. I feel betrayed. Not only by Jay, but by the whole unit, except for my giant teddy bear Kevin and Voight (he cares in his own way). What I'm saying is, of course the squad was concerned about her (I hope so?), it would've been cool to see it (I'm a chaotic bitch, leave me alone).

Maggie and Sharon. You’re telling me that Maggie needed Sharon to force her into going home, otherwise she would’ve stayed at the hospital? I love Maggie, she’s my favorite character in Med, but that’s just dumb. Periodth. I’m glad Sharon sent her home... the fuck?

PD:

Good Lord, Jay Halstead really seemed to be concerned about his brother well-being. That's a first! I bet they read the post in which I was ranting about him not giving a damn whenever Will gets injured. The definitely read it (yup, sure honey).

The scene in which he was being held hostage by that scien-terrorist (Hailey thing her hair up was super sexy to see, by the way)... Jay, did you really had to make that long ass cut on your arm? I swear to God, he's so extra sometimes (6.07!!!), he could've just cut the tip of one of his fingers. Like, hello?

I know y'all kinda hate him, but can we protect William Halstead forever and ever? Cutie wanted to follow Voight to wherever Jay was.

Will is dumb af (like dumb dumb) but he's a sweetie.

Rojas and Atwater go get drinks together. I see y'all, that's what I want to hear. But how come Trudy Platt, queen of roasting people, didn't tease Vanessa about it? She's must've been really exhausted, that had been a hell of a day!

Adam and Kim. Are they forreal? I mean, their scene lasted, what, 1 minute max, and it was the ultimate hottest thing. And they were only looking at each other and their fingers were touching. That's all. They're driving me insane already, good. I like it. They got some beautiful round asses, both Marina and Paddy. Congrats. I guess Grandpa Hank is gonna have another grandchild (Ruzek is basically Hank's son, we all know that).

Jay Halstead smiling at life for once... it makes me smile too.

I always love me some Halstead brothers scenes, it's always good to see them together.

________________________

The plot idea was cool, very Halloween-esque, and it made me think of Justin Timberlake’s song Supplies (the world can end now, baby, we’ll be living in The  Walking Dead).

I absolutely loved how everything had been so smoothly done: Brett and Foster at Med, Kim at the crime scene, Boden’s phone call, Voight driving the car, and I could go on forever with examples... what I’m tryna say is that the interaction between the characters was portrayed super well. Whoever edited the crossover certainly did their part, but I think all of this is also due to the fact that the cast members are friends in real life too and, yeah, it was super cool to see them all together.

Sounds superfluous to say it, but I loved this crossover. It’s definitely my favorite one, hands down.