#i might literally kill myself

[kittyhazelnut]

guess who just lost another 5% of their professionalism grade for not handing in the papers that I was told we weren't supposed to hand in because they were for our benefit and not for the clinical instructors'? :D

[gardenianoire]

yesterday I spent my last $6 getting dinner from dollar tree (had a really disgusting frozen burrito and junk food) I really need money for my rent because I have been out of work for over a month and I've been desperately looking and having no luck at all and it's really fucking painful to keep asking but I don't have a job my unemployment claim has been "pending" for 4 weeks I don't have any family in a position to help me and it's beginning to look my only options are killing myself or sex work and letting some psychopath kill me 🙃 if nothing else I'd fucking kill for dinner tonight

dinner

0/30

my rent

0/700

venmo: xandrachantal

cashapp: $jocedun94

paypal: xandra.l.duncan@gmail.com

[pixiesnooze]

was it casual when she thwarted 87 of your escape attempts despite swearing that she completely hates you? (harrow)

was it casual when she got worried because she didn’t see you in over 24 hours and went on a mission to find you despite swearing up and down that she didn’t care what happens to you? (gideon)

was it casual when she tried to pry open the hatch you went through with her bare hands even though the cavalier and necromancer of another house have stated that it is impossible to do so without a key? (gideon)

was it casual when she called herself your creature and gave you nicknames in jest and you said she ought to stop lest you start liking it? (gideon)

was it casual when she couldn’t handle all these new expression she was pulling out of you unseen by anyone but her, hidden behind a wall of face paint, that she could catch as easy as it was to breath? (gideon)

was it casual when she agreed to let you siphon her energy knowing it could very well lead to her death? (gideon)

was it casual when despite hating being told what to do she offered to do it just because you asked her? (gideon)

was it casual when she said that she has lived her whole life at your mercy, and that she deserved to die by your hand, that you are her only friend and that she will be undone without you? (harrow)

was it casual when she employed a tradition of the family and told you the family’s deepest darkest secret that no one was supposed to ever know simply because you wanted to know? (harrow)

was it casual when she kissed you on your forehead after you confessed all your darkest secrets to her? (gideon)

was it casual when she forgave you for every transgression made? (gideon)

was it casual when they fought as though they were extension of each other, knowing every arc of a sword, every jostling scapula? (gideon)

was it casual when she said she didn’t give a damn about the locked tomb and only cared about you? (gideon)

was it casual when she said she couldnt do this without you? (gideon)

was it casual when she called you the first flower of the ninth house, the greatest cavalier they have ever produced, their triumph, the best of all of them? (harrow)

was it causal when she said the whole point of her was you, that there was no her without you? (gideon)

was it casual when she said her sacrificing herself for you is going to be the cruellest thing anyone has ever done to you and did it anyways so you could stay alive? (gideon)

was it casual when she sacrificed herself for you even though that would have been the last thing she would have done mere weeks ago? (gideon)

was it casual when she said she couldnt conceive a world without you in it? (harrow)

was it casual when her very soul turned you away from her dead body so you could fight and survive and not let her sacrifice be in vain? (gideon)

was it casual when she said you would work it out when you died, with such a conviction that your fates were intertwined and that you would meet again, be it alive or dead and buried? (gideon)

was it casual when the first thing she did upon waking up and meeting her God, was to beg him to undo what has been done to you, to bring you back to her? (harrow)

was it casual? was it casual? WAS IT CASUAL?????

[gammaraydeath]

"haha insanity is such a cakewalk 2 ez" <- said the idiot who hadn't yet tried for gold in armax

[dirt-str1der]

Im super charmed whenever they include tsukasas corpse inside the freezer its so funny to me ... that man is not in cryostasis he is straight up dead

[antiyourwokehomophobia2]

Man, it is JOEVER.

[running-in-the-dark]

can't sleep (despite new meds + melatonin, boo), so I'm thinking about random shit. like: it's insane to me that I'm totally fine living on the ground floor now. it used to really freak me out. I hated being downstairs when we lived in a house. I always felt watched when I had my room on the ground floor. and every time I visited my dad at his ground floor apartment - where I was on my own except for maybe an hour a day - I had what I now know were panic attacks several times a day. so like, that's pretty crazy.

[thebitchbehindtheslaughter]

One of my favourite things about being an unapologetic Dottore lover is when I mention him outside of my friend groups; people just automatically assume I’m justifying his actions after saying something mundane like “I want him to be playable.” And you know what? If they’re dumb enough to think that then I’m gonna play them for the fiddle they are

[ashmp3]

i had a wonderful coffee date with virgo bestie and we were making plans. she is a scientist always going to conferences you know how it is my busy smart woman BUT we literally pulled out a calendar and went…. Maybe we should go to Milica Pavlović concert together (i already went once lmfao) and yeah i think it’s a plan 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️ aaand maybe some fun plans in august but nothing is confirmed yet 🧿 oh i love summer so much you guys

[putrid-pixie]

WHERE CAN I WATCH ANTHONYS FUNERAL ROAST ITS KILLING ME IF I BECOME A MEMBER CAN I WATCH IT??? SOMEONE PLEASE ANSWER I AM YELLING INTO THE VOID

[thesungod]

19-21 is not the best you’re ever going to look shut the fuck up

[trashcreatyre]

She’s my oc now, sorry i don’t make the rules :/

Some of y’all don’t deserve her tbh

[spocks-kaathyra]

might switch to a bio major. what if I kill myself

[giantkillerjack]

all these urban legends and folk stories of children with all-black eyes are like "THE CHILD SPOKE IN A STRANGE CADENCE!!!!!" with no other details listed, and like,

i guess those folks in those stories just couldn't handle running into an autistic kid with weird eyes at night idk #skill_issue #weaksauce

but if *I* hear a child crying or screaming in the woods at night, i am going into the goddamn woods. I'm really really not gonna like it. But I'm gonna do it.

and if I DO find a child in the woods, and then they look up at me, and they turn out to have demon eyes, WELL GUESS WHAT, BUDDY?!? THAT'S STILL A CHILD.

So unless they change form or like, reveal through dark magics that they are thousands of years old, then that. is. a. bab. And I don't care if it is a fairy baby or a monster baby or a ghost baby! A bab is a bab!

and if trying to return a child to a safe place gets me eaten, THEN SO BE IT. I would rather die young than grow old knowing I allowed my fear of a child with traits I don't understand to cause me to ignore the cries of a kid who might have needed my help!

[milf-harrington]

wanting to brain myself vs. knowing im being dumb

[commandermahariel]

siiiiiiigh