#i read all of ur tags and I enjoy them immensely thank you

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you guys are making him blush....

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hey everyone!! so, originally, i wanted to do one of these back when all of y'all were posting your 'follow forever' + favorite blogs lists for new year's eve, but at that point in time i didn't feel like i knew anyone well enough to make a full list. but now, it's been almost nine months (holy shit!!!) since i joined this fandom, and there have been so many people that i've connected with and who have made my experience on here so much fun and so special.

plus...it's my birthday today, so i thought - what better way to celebrate it than to show my immense love & appreciation for all my mutuals, followers friends, and anyone who has ever made my tumblr experience better?

this isn't really in any particular order, and also, i am so so sorry if i forgot anyone. i had to type this out at least six times over the past two months because tumblr kept deleting my progress for some reason, so i'm really sorry if i missed anyone because of it. i recognize the urls of anyone that regularly interacts with my posts, so i promise that if you've ever left nice tags in the reblogs of my gifs or replied to any of my WIPS or tagged me in a gifset or in a tag game or sent me a nice ask or anything at all, really, please know that i think you're wonderful and i love you all so much even if tumblr hates me and decided to erase all of the evidence of it 😅

okay, enough dillydallying!! putting this under a cut so that it doesn't swallow ur dash whole....n here we go :)

@fireplceashes hi jen!! i know i said like. just one paragraph above that this was in no particular order, but i immediately broke the no. 1 rule of law and lied, bc as my very first friend in this fandom you are so undoubtedly so special to me and i'm putting you first just because i Can and no one can stop me. but anyway. where do i even begin with you? you are easily one of the sweetest people i have Ever, ever met - not just on tumblr, but in my real life as well - and i really love talking to you So much. thank you so much for always listening to my rants, and checking up on me, and just generally being there for me. you're just a really soothing person to talk to and i never have to worry about being 'too much' or anything like that when i'm talking to you. and of course - you are also so, so talented, and your gifs are absolutely stunning. they always turn out so beautifully, and i'm so in awe of your editing skills. basically...i'm just Very grateful to have met you, and *mike wheeler voice* all of my other mutuals, they're great, but my fandom experience would not be the same without you ❤️

@basiltonpitch spencer!! i feel the need to echo the first thing i said to you and remind you that i think you're a genius :') fun fact that i haven't told you: when i first found your blog, even before i realized that you were That person who wrote the benvi meta that i loved, the first posts that i saw from you were your beautiful web weavings, and i was immediately like Who is this person??? and Who gave them the permission to stomp all over my heart like this?? wtf?? i just. i love ur brain So so much and i'm so grateful that i get to enjoy your creativity in not one but two of my favorite fandoms (soon to be 3 with 911 maybe?) oh also...this is slightly embarrassing but i've gone back through your blog a few times just so i can read your incredible meta because all of your thoughts are so valuable to me. you are the Only person on this site that i trust to Get devi vishwakumar and one of the biggest reasons why i'm so excited for never have i ever s4 to drop is so that i can experience it alongside you!! and even outside of your creative genius, you are one of my favorite people to talk to bc you're so kind and so supportive and such an absolute sweetheart and i really love hearing everything you have to say. so. um. basically. i am just a Spencer Enthusiast through and through 💖

@padmedala carson!! hello!! first off, i've said this to you a million times, but i want to thank you once again for writing one of my favorite pieces of byler fanfiction. do you know that one post about reading fanfics and having to stop because 'he would not say that?' well, your work is the epitome of reading a fic and feeling wholly satisfied because yes, he would say that - in fact, i would not hesitate for a minute to say that you have the strongest grasp on will and mike's characterization - especially their dynamic together - out of any writer i've met in this entire fandom. like...i enjoy your writing so much that i've read a couple of your pieces for IT despite not having any knowledge of the source material simply because i wanted to experience more of your work. you're also such a deeply kind and supportive person, and you have no idea how much i appreciate every single time you've checked up on me or sent me a sweet message or even just dropped into my inbox to say hello. you make my dash infinitely brighter, and i'm so very glad to know you and have you as a friend on here 💞

@wllbyers dani!! hi!! i have so much to say abt how wonderful you are, and i was struggling w how to articulate this for a while, but then i remembered that you once said to me that you found my presence on the dash comforting, and honestly, that's exactly how i feel about you. forgive me for the awkward metaphor, but seeing you on the dash is like coming home after a long day and having a warm, home-cooked meal. seeing your url and icon always makes me smile, and i'm so grateful that we're mutuals because of how kind, considerate, and utterly genuine you are!! i don't know if i'm describing this right, but you just feel so real, you know? i feel like your personality shines through with every post you make, and i always love seeing it. and i'm sorry if this is weird to say, but your openness and your authenticity about everything going on in your life makes me feel a little bit less alone about my own struggles. also do you remember when you started watching 911 and eventually ended up getting ahead of me, and you tagged each and every one of your posts just so that i wouldn't get spoiled? i know it seems simple, but the sheer fact that you thought of doing that just for me had me melting into a little puddle w my face looking like that one meme of kristen bell. you are just so, so lovely and i'm unbelievably glad we're mutuals 🥰

@willblogger ima i've said this many times before but i absolutely Need to say it again: you are genuinely the funniest person on byler tumblr. i cannot count the number of times that you've made me full-on belly laugh (to the point where my stomach starts to hurt) and completely destroyed my attempts to casually and inconspicuously scroll through tumblr in public places. i dunno how you do it at all but every single thing you say is such an absolute delight and i am always giggling n kicking my feet when i read the tags on all of your posts. the thousands of people on tiktok and twitter copying your jokes could never do it like you. you've also got this deep understanding of the way the text has been written and i really appreciate how your analysis honors the characters as they are instead of trying to make them more palatable them for this fandom. it's just. it's rare to find people that love these characters as they are and understand them as well as you do and i feel very lucky to have found your blog. also this is not related at all but ur plushies are cute as fuck & i love them :) OH!! n thank u sm for being my number one stevebucky enthusiast mutual n partner in rage when it comes to avengers endgame!! can't wait to have a hate party w you (if you'd like) in five days 💗

@willelfanpage SARA HI HELLO do u see me waving at you. this is me holding up a banner screaming abt how much i love you. as the resident fandom cheerleader who gives and gives and gives so much love to everyone she interacts with, you deserve someone cheering YOU back on and that is what i am here to do!! you are so brilliant and you have never made an incorrect post in your life!!! all your fics are wonderful and i've loved reading them!! you are kind, you are smart, you are funny, and you make everyone around you feel so safe and comfortable and welcome here. like. i can't tell you how much i admire how open you are with your kindness and friendship and how you give it so freely to everyone you interact with. i love talking to you so much - whether it's hearing about your life or sharing our ideas with one another or just. venting about anything i want to - and your enthusiasm is utterly infectious and makes me feel more hyped and excited to be in fandom. forgive me for being so sappy on main but i will never not be touched by your endless love for fandom, not only these characters and the works that people make, but for the people around you as well and i hope u know i love u very much too 💞

@jackietaylcrs hii marianne fellow haver of good taste!! i remember you once made a post wondering if your followers would still love you if your stranger posting went down to 0.5% and i wanted to lyk that i definitely would!! i really like reading your commentary on ST and yellowjackets, but even when you're posting about a show that i'm not familiar with, you have this Way of speaking that i find very charming and funny and entertaining, and you bring this inimitable energy to my dash that i doubt i could ever find elsewhere. i like the way you sign off your posts with 'and like i say: brf slt.' i think it’s Neat n it fits you very well. alsooo THANK YOU very very much for being the one to convince me to watch yellowjackets!! people have been telling me to watch it for a long time but in the end it was your posts that made me say, fuck it, and finally watch it. also. um. ur posts abt stephen harrison make me feel very Seen so. thank u. ok bye 💗

@emblazons hello marie my beloved mutual marie!! honestly, out of everything in this post, this message was the hardest to write because i don't even know where to begin with you!! you bring so, so much to this fandom - your thoughtful, entertaining, levelheaded commentary, your stunning gifsets, your logical and witty posts, your incredibly supportive and kind personality, and your endless passion for this show and all that goes into making it, as well as our shared love & enthusiasm for noah schnapp 😅 every time i think you've made the most brilliant observation or put out the most beautiful set, you go and top yourself by finding something new or making an even prettier gifset. if i had to pick one person whose contributions to the fandom enriched my experience of this show? more than anyone, it would be you!! and i could go on and wax poetic about your talent forever (as i have on many, many occasions bc you deserve it 🥰), but i'm gonna end it here by saying that you are a gift to this fandom and one of my absolute favorite people on here, and that i'm beyond grateful to know you.

@mikeandwillel sandy!!!! you are so so smart and your analysis is absolutely incredible. i look forward to each and every one of your analyses because you always find the most clever parallels and your deep dives into each of these characters' arcs are always written with so much care and skill. and of course, i forever have you to thank for writing The ultimate masterpiece (your s4 painting arc analysis) that finally convinced me of byler endgame and thus made my fandom experience so much more relaxing and fun. i also really love & how much you love mike for all that he is -- i feel like it's a little rare in this fandom, so seeing how much you adore his true character and how you Understand him better than anyone else i've ever met makes me really happy. and not to mention, i have no idea how you managed to get so good at gifmaking in such a short amount of time but all your sets are so beautiful!! you're a gem fr 💖

@babygirl-jonathanbyers abbyyyyyy hello!! do you know how much i love seeing you on my dash? i love your pure, unapologetic love for jonathan, jancy, and the byers brothers and it really makes my whole day when i see a post from you appreciating those characters/ships. your moodboards are also So pretty and your presence on my dash is so positive and welcoming. i hope you're doing well on your hiatus rn and i can't wait to see you back on here again 🫂

@elmaxed lumiiiii hi!!!! when i think of you, honestly, the very first word that comes to mind is creative, because you bring so much to this fandom and i'm so grateful for it. i'm obsessed with everything you write because your fics are so lively and fun and make me smile uncontrollably every time i read them, all your headcanons are brilliant and adorable, your moodboards are gorgeous and not to mention, your themes are always so beautiful!! you're just...such a ray of sunshine on my dash and i'm so happy to have followed you 🥰

@mlchaelwheeler sarahhhhh my favorite stonathan pioneer and one of my first mutuals in this fandom!! i think you already know this but your analyses were a huge part of what got me into the byler fandom in the first place and i have never looked back, so thank you for that!! i Love love love ur theories (especially the s5 spec stuff) and i love seeing u in my notifs and reading your lovely and enthusiastic tags on everything you reblog and i love your love for st's OST!! you're a really smart, sweet, and positive person with the best opinions and i am forever rooting for mike to get a sword in s5 just for you 🙏🏼

@bylrndgm dearest elz you have no idea how happy your blog makes me 🥹 you're one of the most talented gifmakers i've ever met, and i always find myself smiling so much whenever i see you've posted something new (especially your byler x TS edits 🥰) because they're always so beautiful!! i've also always felt like your blog and everything you've posted is one of the purest and most expressions of love for mike and will....it's so clear that you love them So much and your blog makes me so happy to be part of this community. you've also always been so sweet to me throughout my entire time in this fandom and you're one of the people that has made me feel most welcome here. also since i never ended up responding to your DM i wanted to say that whatever path you choose, i'm sure that you're going to crush it and i am rooting for your success always 💖

@madcleradin sierra madcleradin byhops finalgirlbyers willcoded!! ok i promise i don't mean this in a weird parasocial way but i kind of admired you from a distance for a while even before we were mutuals just because every single one of your posts that ended up on my dash had me nodding my head and tapping my brain in agreement and clapping for u like this 👏🏼 all of your takes are top tier and i love how passionate you are about everything you talk about!! you're def one of the sweetest, friendliest, and coolest people on byler tumblr and following u has been such a gift ❣

@byclairs hello emily!! your gifs are absolutely stunning and i love following you because i Know i can always count on you to have the most based takes, both on stranger things (especially ur will takes - those keep me sane fr) and on fandom as a whole. also just wanna say that you have the best taste in ships and that you've got a 10/10 banger of a url that always has me mentally giving you a thumbs up whenever i see you on the dash ❤️

@heroesbyler stav!! you're one of the most brilliant analysts on this site and i'm so in awe of all of the incredible theories and analyses you've posted!! i'm obsessed w all of your banger gay mike posts & i'm also both fascinated and disturbed by all of the dots you've connected regarding brenner, henry, & the lab. your posts are so insightful and compelling and you've made me think about so many things that i never would've noticed on first glance. i also love that you're both unflinchingly confident but also insanely kind - a rarity in most fandoms, especially this one, and i love that energy on my dash. i'm very proud to be your grandma (your words not mine -- no i will not let you forget about that 🙏🏼)

@mandycantdecide hiiiii amanda!! i love your blog so much, and even though we don't share all of the same fandoms i love seeing your posts about everything you're interested in because i can always feel your energy and enthusiasm for it no matter what :) in fact, it was actually your posts that made me want to get back into 911, and you have no idea how grateful i am to you for that because being in that fandom is the most fun i've had in a really long time. so thank you, thank you thank you for that, and for generally being so sweet 💕

@howtobecomeadragon ayla!! hello!! i know we don't know each other super well but i Really wanted to let you know how much i appreciate your posts and all of your contributions to this fandom. you were one of my first favorite blogs when i first joined in august and you have no idea how thrilled i was when you followed me back haha 😅 i looooove your theory posts so much and i think your fics are fantastic (and i am Eagerly awaiting the end of come back to me and forgive everything so i can read it). you're also super sweet and kind to everyone around you, and i love seeing you on my dash 💞

@mrperfectlyfinetv hi jake!! as my designated Swiftie Mutual i feel like i should let you know that i don't usually follow taylor swift blogs bc swifties are scary but your gifs are so gorgeous and your takes are so good that i just Had to break my rule and follow you anyway. i really enjoy reading all of your opinions on miss swift even if you are a rep hater asdkjendfcskjflejrf and i adore all of your pretty ST and taylor swift gifsets!! i also love how much you love speak now and you've definitely made me go back and give it a few more listens so that i can appreciate it more & at this point i'm begging taylor to release speak now tv soon just for you 🫶

@magentamee - hi bre :) your art style is absolutely delicious and your writing is so cute and i've always noticed how committed you are to uplifting everyone around you in this fandom. also this is random but your friendship with amanda and @/likegoldintheair is so cute and whenever you guys post about each other i always find myself smiling at how sweet your interactions are. you’re just a person who always brings a smile to my face when i see you on the dash and i want to thank you for that 💗

@paintingformike hi!! i've said this before but i really do think you've always been The strongest soldier in the byler fandom (like, ngl your posts were Carrying byler tumblr for a while there while everyone was still in their debating-over-s5-canon phase). you've always been so levelheaded and astute with your observations, and i've always admired and respected how your posts make it seem so simple and So clear how all of the overarching themes of the show are leading to byler endgame. you've got an incredible way with words and i'm so glad to have you in our fandom 💞

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and now for the creatives in this fandom - some incredible gifmakers whose beautiful sets have been the highlight of my dash, some wonderful writers who have ripped my heart out over and over again only to stitch it back together seamlessly just one paragraph later, and brilliant fan artists who are able to capture so much and make me feel the entire spectrum of human emotion with just a few brush strokes:

@sharpesjoy - em!! you're an absolute sweetheart and such a joy to see on my dash. all of your gifs are so gorgeous and so clearly infused with all of the love that you have for everything you watch and i've added several shows to my watchlist because your gifs have made me want to watch them so badly 💞

@heroeddiemunson - kai!! your creations are so beautiful and you have this unique gifmaking style that i'm totally obsessed with!! your colorings and typography are always so pretty and i Love how special and creative your sets are, especially the D&D character sheets. like.....i have no idea how u come up w all these incredible ideas but i'm so very glad u do bc my dash is better for it❣️

@kaliprasad - hi!! your blog is amazing and i'm so glad that i found it bc all your gifs are fantastic and i love them So much. i think your talent is insane tbh, that byers brothers set that you made for me a little while ago is still one of my favorite things i've seen on this whole site, and i love that you love them just as much as i do 🫂

@kingofscoops - no one, and i mean no one, does coloring like you!! all of your sets are so vibrant and bring so much life to my dash & i think the ST fandom is very lucky to have you ❤️

@aliecenthightower - emilia!! your gifs are stunning and i'm completely in love with your song lyric edits. they're all absolutely beautiful and i'm in awe of how perfect and emblematic the lyrics you choose are, like you just Get these characters, y'know?

@mayahawkins - MADDYYYYYYY you are So talented, and believe me when i say that your gifs have been the Biggest inspiration for my own gifmaking journey. all your sets are so pretty & i love everything you make - including your playlists which live rent free in my mind!! but as a reminder i also love following your blog for You and not just your gifs :) you're an incredibly sweet person and ur presence on my dash is utterly invaluable 💗

@padme-amidala - hi erika!! okay, calling you a gifmaker almost feels wrong because that word doesn't feel like enough to encompass how beautiful your work is...all ur ideas are So amazing and you have such a natural eye for color and detail!! it is so clear that you pour so much love into all of your creations, and if i'm being honest, one of the reasons why i am so grateful to be a byler shipper is so that i can appreciate your craft to the fullest. and you're also Such a genuinely kind person that i always look forward to seeing on the dash!! thank you for being so lovely!!

@wiseatom - hi thea!! your writing is the ultimate definition of comfort. when i read ur work, no matter what i'm doing physically, mentally i am in my cozy bed with the fireplace crackling in the corner, surrounded by twinkly lights and warm blankets, sipping hot cocoa bc that is the kind of emotion ur writing invokes ✨

@byeler - irene!! your fics were my introduction to the world of byler fics and i admire you and your writing so very much 💞 i don't know how it's possible for one person to have this much skill and talent, but you do, and i'm so grateful that you've chosen to share it with us. eagerly waiting on a new heavy hopes chapter was one of the highlights of my fandom experience and that fic is a piece of writing that i will always come back to over and over again 🫶

@astrobei - suni i have been reading fics for over a decade now and i have still never encountered a writer that does emotion quite like you do, devastating me with every single fic you put out. i promise i mean this in the best way possible but you're So damn good at capturing all of that heartbreak and pain and inflicting the same agony on your readers, and it would have killed me by now if not for the fact that you're equally good at writing the sweetest fluff that has me melting into a puddle whenever i read 🫂

@hopelessromanfic - lyssaaaa!!! i've been Such a huge fan of landslide ever since you started writing it - it's one of my all time favorite fics in the fandom and i'm obsessed with the storyline and your characterization in all of your fics 😍

@artistaquinterob - hi!! your art style is so ADORABLE and your use of color in your work is stunning and i just adore everything you draw, especially your will and el art and your jargyle art 🥹

@junkoandthediamonds - your character studies are beautiful and i'm obsessed with your byler comics, your gifs and your ST x DC crossovers!!! i love your realistic style so So much and if i worked for the duffers i would 1000000% hire you to draw the official comics because i can't get enough of your work 🥰

@livsmessydoodles - fun fact: last year, when HSMTMTS s3 was airing, i remember seeing your rina art throughout the season and immediately fell in love with your style and your interpretation of the characters, and the same exact thing happened when i saw your ST work, and it wasn't until you followed me that i put the pieces together and realized that you were the same person 😅 your style is So gorgeous and your art just makes me so happy, and trust me when i say that i am mentally wallpapering all of your work to the inside of my brain so i can look at it forever❣️

and of course, a very special shoutout to all of the people that i don't know too well but are still such a comfort to have on tumblr: @miwism @yearninginblue @kittykat940 @robinsnance @jesper-faheyss @bylersheart @usergabby @achingly-shy @wheelersboy @wontbyers @stbyers @will80sbyers @watpoetry @frodohaven 💝

+ to all my other mutuals: tumblr wouldn't let me link your profiles because of some ridiculous limit, but please know that i see all of you and i am hugging you through my screen rn. thank you!! 👍🏼

[todayisafridaynight]

hi snap ^^ your y3 stream inspired me to also do a speedrun of it but instead i got down the rabbit hole of reminiscing about the game and mostly mine and daigo and minedai and- anyways i went back to ur minedai works bc they're still some of my fav minedai stuff ever TM you just draw a specific flavor of minedai that's just the best

related to that (hopefully isnt a weird question but) do you have any fic recs for them 👀 i trust your judgement on having good taste on minedai fics. it's been a while since ive been to the tag lol and i always like reading people's recommendations (btw nsfw or not is fine. I'm Old)

im so sorry ive trapped you into doing y3 speedruns BUT FR THANK YOU I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN !!! it really is a fun run to do once you get the ball rolling lol...

i sometimes look at my old minedai stuff too i wont lie.... im very good at making things for myself to enjoy woah... but yeah do not be fooled... i still love them immensely.... so im glad those works still hold up for other people, it means a lot that theyre still good to an extent :)

as for fic recs not a weird question at all - happy birthday to this old thing i made back in august last year nothings changed LMAO

[ssahotchnerr]

Helloheyhihih!! I'm so sorry that you've been having such negative thoughts n feelings about ur writing (and that ur getting idiotic anons 😒😒😒).

I can only speak for myself (and I'm terrible about this sort of thing so bear with me, i might lose track of what im saying 😭😭) but plzplzplz know that I fuckin adore your work. Each and every one is awesome, I'm never unsatisfied or disappointed whenever u pop up on my screen (ur one of the authors that I try and make sure to check out on the daily for anything new 😊), so plz don't think that your work isn't good or that no one enjoys it (I know that's much harder than it seems tho).

When it comes to likes/reblogs/messages, I def get the negative feelings that come with the unevenness between likes v. reblogs and I'm sorry that it's hitting u so hard. Although I can't speak for ur other faithful readers (faithful readers, plural!!!), I am dumb shy 😭😭😭 I do my best to reblog every fic I come across, but leaving comments (outside of the tags) and sending messages is a whole other beast but I'll do my best to get better at it for ya (I can't pay ya so the least I can do is lose my shit in ur inbox 😁)

Fuck, Idk where I was going with that, I lost track, but ur work is on par with those other authors u'r comparing urself to, I guarantee it (I've cried to ur stories!! I've gotten giddy and all caught up in ur stories and hcs!!! they make me feel things!!). Ur a staple, a cornerstone of the hotchgirlies!

I forgot what I was gonna say AGAIN (FUCK IM SORRY) lemme finish this before I lose track again - If you have a million fans on this hellsite, I'm one of them! If you have a thousand fans up here, I'm one of them!! If you've only got ten fans, I'm one of them!! And if you've only got one fan than someone's lying to you bc not only are ur fellow authors fans of urs but im def not passing on after death bc then I won't be able to keep reading ur stuff!!! Whenever u see me pop up in ur notifs, know that for each one I'm grinnin and hoppin and squealin and probably doing my best to keep a straight face on register!

Okay that's it lemme leave u be, get some rest luv! Take a break, splurge on something, be a bit of a hedonist for a while! 😚😚💕💕💕

omg ???? thank you so much AH this whole message just exhibits sunshine and love and feels like the biggest hug ever ever ever 🥹🥹🥺 YOU ARE SO SWEET 😭😭😭 i adore you immensely!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 💞💞💕 i'm so glad you're here bestie thank you 😭 <33333

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every time you tag something with batb au i go a little crazy on the inside like. i am so excited for it and these little scraps are absolutely feeding me. thank u for ur service i can’t wait to read more about these freaks

I CANNOT WAIT TO SHARE MORE OF IT, EVENTUALLY. I've been working on it almost every year for NaNoWriMo since 2019 and I made the mistake in 2020 of thinking it probably needed to be switched into first-person/present tense and I immensely regret having wasted so much of November 2020 doing that, only to not even finish it due to other circumstances. I feel like here's a lot I need to rework AGAIN and take it right back into limited third-person (but possibly still present tense), but some day soon I think there will be enough of it that's written well enough that I can start posting snippets.

Honestly, at the end of the day, all I really want it to be is a series of snapshots I eventually commission because even if I never put all the words together, I still want everyone else to be able to enjoy Sister try to cook dinner her first night in the castle, while One, Two, and Three long-sniff over the table and thwap at the bowls she puts out for them. Or the conversation she has the night after what's the equivalent of the Wolf Attack scene that she has with One about how he and his brothers grew up as little stinkbeasts. Or, of course, any number of the "stay?" scenes I was referring to in the tags on that other post, which run the gamut from the cutest shit you've ever seen to maybe one of the most devastating things I've ever written. T__T

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re: ur post abt ooc kakashi, for REAL. granted, it’s fanfic & it exists for the purpose of ppl being allowed to twist canon into pretzels, but even so, it’s funny to me when off characterization clearly has so little to do w/ the the ACTUAL character/story & more abt fixating on a character of choice & freely projecting fantasies using them. it’s like the character is primarily a vehicle to explore fantasies based on surface aspects & very secondarily the actual character? which again, i recognize that’s what some ppl use fanfic for, i just personally don’t find that as interesting as using the character as they are/truly could be & exploring what avenues that opens up, in this case w/in the context of erotic/sexual scenes. anyway, wish i could explain my perspective on this better, but hope this wasn’t too much to dump in ur asks 😅 lol tl;dr: i agree!!!! ((an aside: it’s incomplete & unsure if the writer will return to finish, but besides finding the story super compelling, “as a thing and its shadow” by villavona features imo excellent exploration of anbu-era kakashi or at least intriguing characterization & i would really recommend if u haven’t read it already! tagged as kakashi/obito but it hasn’t gotten to that part yet! which is why it feels also i’d be remiss to not thank u for writing “those sombre dogs of war”!! i’ve enjoyed it immensely so far!!)

Honestly true, Anon. I agree. And yeah, I get it too, you write fic to write something you enjoy and something you find hot if it's smut but there's a point where you're not writing about the character, you're writing an OC that looks exactly like the character. All the personality that made them THEM has been replaced. At that point, just write an OC fic to project those fantasies onto. And this is going to sound really entitled, but I do read fic with characters to read about THOSE characters in unique situations or for more content about them. I think a lot of the time it's just a case of someone who is still improving their writing and doesn't yet understand how to study and apply character motivations and personality but then sometimes you also get blatant caricatures that are more about titillation and sighhhh.

I also agree that it's disappointing with erotic/sexual scenes because there are a lot of incharacter aspects to Kakashi that can be explored. You just... gotta shift through the meh stuff to find people who have done that.

Also I'm glad you're enjoying sombre dogs! And I'll definitely check out that ANBU Kakashi fic.

[sweatertheman]

sorry if this is passive agressive but could you stop saying how bad homestuck is on other people’s posts

sorry, i dont mean it to come off like i think homestuck is some awful thing. i just like participating in discourse about it because i have a lot to say. my take isnt even that homestuck is bad, exactly, moreso that it is its own worst enemy, that the things that make it "homestuck," its smug nihilistic perspective, its ungodly length and confusing lore, these are all things which limit homestuck. if someone says they don't know what homestuck is, im taking that as them implicitly asking what it is. given that its an open question, i feel like i have the right to share my thoughts. its okay for me to be critical of homestuck, and i dont want my thoughts about it to hamper anyone's enjoyment of it. its okay to like homestuck. i enjoyed reading what i read. i just cant say the comic is good. im not going to show up on a post where someone says homestuck is good and say "lol homestuck is bad and ur dumb" because neither of those things are true, kind, or useful for discussion. but if someone is inviting discussion of homestuck, i will feel free to participate, unless they explicitly say they dont want to hear critical opinions about homestuck.

and dont worry, you arent coming off as passive-aggressive. the most i can say is that i dont see how what i did was wrong, but i do apologize if it upset you, since im not trying to upset anyone.

i wouldnt want to tag my posts with like, "homestuck hater" or anything, because that just isnt true. im very critical of it, but i cant deny that it displays immense talent. my only problem with this comic is the world-ending scale and the shitty composition of the elements that make it up. the 8000 pages of clashing tones and ideas and too many ideas. taken on its own, nearly every idea is good. its just too much. also, andrew hussie seems to have a habit of rambling on and on about nothing. he does it in his emails too.

all this to say, im sorry, but no, i dont want to stop. if it helps though, i can try to phrase my rants better so that they dont come across like i hate the comic or anything.

thanks for taking the time to reach out, btw.

[soobasaur]

spent all my love on you

lee!felix x gender!neutral reader

warnings: since laser tag is in this fic theres mentions of shooting and guns, which is referring to the game where they shoot other players in order to gain points, nothing violent

a/n: hey look a felix au finally in your pov! i told you i’d do it hehe,, and if you remember when i accidentally posted this then no you don’t (⊃｡•́‿•̀｡)⊃ i’ll finish ur requests i swear ಠ_ಠ anyways enjoy!

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for the longest time, your lifelong friend jisung had been bugging you to go to this arcade with him

you eventually said yes since you physically couldn’t say no to his puppy eyes and he took you there one weekend

he was practically bouncing the entire way, babbling about all the people you’d meet

turns out he came here every weekend to play laser tag with a couple of friends he made here

this was news to you, but you let jisung lead you to a pool table in the back where six boys were..attempting to play pool?

after several games of game pigeon pool you were an expert !! or at least more then what these guys were doing

the one with long hair was holding the billiard the wrong way (╥_╥)

you could hear the cheerful laughs coming from them as jisung tugged you beside him

“guys, this is y/n, the friend i mentioned! y/n these are the dumbasses i started hanging out with-,”

“if anything, you’re the dumbass!” the one holding the billiard upside down reprimanded, dropping the stick and making his way towards you both “i’m hyunjin, nice to meet you!”

“hi hyunjin—,”

“move out of the way! hi i’m jeongin!” a new boy appeared, shoving hyunjin away as he held his hand out

“oh, hello!”

one by one all the boys came up to introduce themseleves to you, well six of them at least, didn’t jisung say there were seven of them?

“where the hell is felix?” jisung asked, looking towards who you now knew as minho “is he doing the thing again?”

minho solemnly nodded before gesturing to the claw machine a couple feet away from them, and there stood a blond haired boy with his back faced to them as he aggressively tried to win what looked like a stuffed animal

jisung shook his head before gesturing for you to follow him

“is this a normal occurrence?” you asked as you both made your way to the boy

“yeah, last month is was the dance revolution game and this week it’s the claw machine-felix!”

said boy let go of the claw to turn and smile widely at the both of them “sungie! do you have a token i can use to try again? pleaseeee?”

jisung rolled his eyes as he tossed the boy a token before pointing to you

“this is y/n, they’re playing with us now.”

“oh,” felix turned his head to you, giving you a once over before winking “nice to meet you,” before rolling the token in “let me make my first impression winning a stuffed toy!”

“you’ve been at this forever, which one do you want?” jisung asked, waking closer to press his head against the glass

felix solemnly pointed to the chick plushie tucked into the corner, and you admit it was cute so you could see why he was trying so hard

“want me to try?” you asked, stepping closer as you looked over the machine

“go for it!” he smiled, moving out of your way to press himself against the glass next to jisung

you clicked start and took a hold of the joystick

you squinted your eyes and found the same plushie a bit closer, hidden behind another one and aimed for that instead

you heard gasps coming from where the two boys were standing as the claw grabbed the two plushies and dropped them into the box

and since you had some extra seconds left you managed to grab one more

“there you go!” you pulled out the plushies and handed felix the chick one and gave jisung the squirrel one, keeping the llama one for yourself

“wow we all match now!” jisung cheered

“thank you!” felix said, his eyes shining with glee as he looked at you, and you were this close to getting all the plushies out so he could always look this happy

“no problem-,”

“HEY LOSERS OUR GAME IS STARTING HURRY UP!” you heard minho interrupt, as he and the other boys disappeared behind some doors

you guys ran behind him, tucking the plushies away for later

there was another group of people with you and since the teams were randomized, your group got split up after getting the gear on

“prepare to lose!” hyunjin teased, sticking his tongue out at you, chan, seungmin, and jeongin (who were on the same team as you)

“shut up!” jeongin glared, holding up his laser gun and pretending to shoot the other

jisung joined in and started to play shoot you, while you feigned getting shot

before you could play shoot him back the lights went off and the gate opened, letting you guys inside as the game was about to start

you and your team each split up, making plans to shoot at least one member

your ignore the way your stomach fluttered at the thought of felix chasing after you but quickly shook those out of the way, you had to stay focused !

once the bell rang you were off, you hid behind the walls as you shot a couple of the other team’s players

you spotted a familiar pair of shoes and quickly went to go shoot jisung, who gave you a pout as you ran off giggling

you watched your score steadily go up as you got more and more people, and the adrenaline was getting to you, you were motivated to win this thing 〴⋋_⋌〵

you had only been shot a couple of times so you weren’t too worried about getting caught,

you were currently hiding in the corner where no one had found you yet as you shot anyone who ran past

you were just about to shoot a player on the opposing team when you felt a prescence behind you

quickly turning around you were met with felix giving you a sly grin as he backed you into the wall

“your cornered now y/n,” he whispered, pulling out the gun as he aimed it at your vest, “game over for you.”

you ignored the fast beating of your heart as he made his way closer, his free hand coming to make trace its way down your jaw

“you look really pretty under these lights,” he muttered, quirking an eyebrow up and he angled his face a bit closer “lucky i get to see you like this.”

you were too nervous to squeak out a thank you as felix closed the gap between the two of you, but just before he could come any closer you heard the familiar beep on your vest

you look down to see you’ve been shot and felix shooting you a sly grin, the little shit

“distracted by my charm?” he teased, his lips right beside your ear, “am i that handsome?”

you rolled your eyes as he backed away

“i’d love to stay but your vest is charging up so i’m gonna blast, bye sweetheart,” he blew you a kiss before running off

you huffed as you waiting for your vest to reset, following after the blonde boy as you did so

no way you were gonna let him get the last shot between the two of you

and maybe you wanted to be that close again to him...

after ducking behind a couple of pillars you finally spotted him crouching behind a wall as he shot one of your teammates

you let yourself grin in victory as you made your way behind him, making sure you weren’t seen, then aiming your gun at the back of his vest

you shot him and watched in glee as his vest gave out a beep and saw him look around for the culprit before spotting you giggling behind him

“you!” he smiled, geting up from his hiding place on the ground and wagging his gun at you

“you didn’t expect to get away with that, did you?” you laughed, backing away as he made his way closer to you and holding out your gun, “i’ll get you again!”

“cool down time is a minute,” he grinned, letting you back yourself up into the wall, “what do you wanna do with that one minute?”

you let your eyes wander off toward his lips,,but you swear it was cus he was talking!

not cus he looked extremely kissable

perhaps you stared too long cus he took notice and cupped your jaw

“mhm, ten seconds is enough,”

“enough for what—?”

you were shut up with his lips capturing yours, leading you for a bit before pulling back

“sorry babe but my time is up,” he winked before shooting you in the vest and running off

took you a few moment to realize what happened before you were chasing after him

“FELIX YOU MF”

when the game ended you and felix were tied to your immense surprise, while jisung was currently boasting about his first place

now that you were out of the dim lit laser tag room you could see felix in better light,

and god damn

you could see the swear glistening on his face from all the running and his unkempt hair from the humid room

you weren’t too sure if this was a one time thing or he actually wanted to try something with you

you were crossing your fingers it was the latter

you got ur answer soon enough when you felt a tap on your shoulder and an awkward felix made his appearance

it was endearing to see his confident side and nervous one all in one day

“do you maybe wanna, grab lunch after tomorrow? just me and you?”

you played along to being oblivious before you replied,

“lee felix...are you asking me out?”

his cheeks flushed a deeper shade of pink before nodding at you

you gave him a smile before saying yes, the rest was history

bonus headcanons:

apparently jisung had a bet on which one of his friends you would end up dating, ro your surprised he had guessed it would be felix

ಠ_ಠ sometimes you forgot how well jisung knew you

you also found out he didn’t come every week just for laser tag, he also wanted to get close to a specific boy named changbin ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

which was endless teasing material for you

after the lunch date the next day, you both stopped by the arcade again and this time he managed to win you a little prize

since you both had just met one another a good majority of your dates were just you two chatting as you walked aimlessly, getting to know one another

and after about one month he invited you over to his place to cook dinner for you, which is where you shared your next kiss <3

thank you for reading ⁂

[oh-mother-of-darkness]

Asks (10)

Anonymous said:

Hey! How are you?

Being honest, not great. About two months ago, I had a pretty intense stress breakdown that caused me to leave my job, temporarily move back to Tennessee, and enroll in an intensive outpatient program. I finished the program on Friday, and now I need decide what to do next. I haven't been functioning well, and it's all very confusing and stressful. I'll figure it out eventually, but for now I'm fairly discouraged.

Anonymous said:

I hope ur doing okay!! i know things are tough but ur doing well, pls don’t be too hard on urself:) You don’t have to face hardships alone!! God is with you and will work all things for the good of those who love Him! You can count on Him!! Pls know ur loved and appreciated and u matter to this world. You’re doing really well so even if things r difficult pls know ur doing great!! I’m rooting for u:) God Bless always!!!

Thank you my love

Anonymous said:

Hi can I have some advice on eating disorders. I know you probably won’t get back to me but I need help so if you see this I would love for you to just leave a small answer if you can.

Hi anon. I want to be helpful here, but I don't know that I really can be. I don't have any personal experience with eating disorders, and I'm not a mental health professional, so I think the only advice I can give you is to find people that are professionals and follow their instructions. I know that it's difficult to tell people about this kind of problem, and you did do that, even if it was anonymously, to someone random on the internet. That's not a small thing, and I want to recognize that you took action to find help. I would urge you to continue down that path by seeking medical treatment.

All my love,

A

Anonymous said: The Justice League may have rallied to Superman's cause, but they rallied around the Bat

If this is about the Snyder cut, I still haven't watched it, but I promise I will soon

Anonymous said:

are u a weeb?

I'm actually not, but I can see why folks could make that assumption. I believe the only anime I've ever finished is FMAB, which I enjoyed immensely. I've tried out a few others, but typically I don't make it more than an episode or two in before I abandon ship.

@merildae said: what kind of music do you like most? some of your favorite bands??

I grew up with very, very little exposure to modern music, so at this exact moment I'm going through a delayed pop-punk phase. I'm the worst kind of music person, meaning I let spotify generate playlists for me, meaning I don't know a lot about any specific band and rarely know what I listened to on any day.

My youngest brother is a guitarist with a special interest in classic rock, so I end up listening to a lot of that too, though I prefer my rock music objectively a lil shitty and very fun.

Anonymous said: your post about guiding down the dark hallway with lightup sneakers made its way to instagram im crying akdhskshhttps://www.instagram.com/p/CLdvcYfJ-Z3/?igshid=itauye0ioyfulink in case u wanted it

Oh no not again

Anonymous said: Can I use your picture? I have to make a poster, so I want to your picture and to draw up just “lock” and upload my instagram. Can I?

I'm thinking this is maybe a misdirected message? I don't know what picture of mine would go on instagram, but I'm going to say no just in case there's something I'm missing

Anonymous said: Has it ever been said when Damian's birthday is?

To my knowledge no, but I haven't consistently read new comics since about 2016. I did some brief digging while I was putting together the timeline post last year, and I don't recall there being any new information at that time. There are a fair amount of panels that take place on his birthday, but I don't believe any of them give the date.

jillwritesbad said: Hey I just wanted to say that I’ve been following ur blog for a while now and I really love your content and writing! Your style is fun to read and the plot and bonding is literally to die for!

Thank you! I don't know why I'm not being allowed to tag you, but I hope you see the message anyway

[ukeishin]

— HAPPY NEW YEAR’S

happy new year’s! 2020 was eventful to say the least. i’m so immensely proud of you for making it through the year. this year was difficult and the feelings you had and struggles you endured are valid. im really happy you’re here :)

2020 was difficult for me and i’d much rather discuss happier topics so let’s get into that instead lmao. i’ve been reading fanfic since i was 11/12 and i started writing this year. writing/english has always been one of my weakest subjects, but surprisingly i found that i really enjoyed writing (fanfic). i have met so many wonderful people this year that i wouldn’t have if i didn’t choose to start this blog.

— FOR MY FOLLOWERS

im not even gonna lie i have no clue why people follow me when i post such self-indulgent stuff 😭😭😭. however, i am so grateful that people enjoy my writing. every like/reblog/comment means so much to me. jdjdjdkssk i screenshot many of the nice tags and comments because they really do make my day <3 thank u so much for supporting me!!

— FOR MY ANONS

🦢.anon : i truly love interacting with you!! like i don’t even know what to say, i love when we just chat or we’re thirsting or we’re soft lmao. thank u sooo much for being so supportive of my writing (and my self-ships).

tetsuro 😸 : MOD OMFG U MAKE ME LAUGH SO MUCH. u don’t even understand, your responses always make me giggle and really make my day. thank u so much for taking time out of ur day to chat with me :)

iwaizumi.anon : eep i don’t know if mod will see this, but thank u so much for indulging me :) i don’t know what to say, but it really does make my day and I ALWAYS GET A STUPID SMILE ON MY FACE WHEN YOU SEND AN ASK IN JFKDHXXKS

— FOR MY MUTUALS

you all are so fucking talented im constantly in awe of the fact that you follow me. irl i am extremely shy and have a difficult time talking to people and making friends, but you all have been so kind. you all are SO gifted, it actually fucking blows my mind that you follow me. even if we don’t interact (because i am very shy still lmao), i love seeing you on my dash.

@atsutsuki : MY WIFE!!!!!!!!! sab you’re genuinely so sweet and i love u so much even if u do like piss (i don’t kinkshame). like im so happy to have u met u this year through pappy’s server :,) ur so funny and just the best

@velvesagi : jem 😫😫😫 deadass i love u so much and i love our convos. they’re so fucking weird sometimes lmfaoooo but even if u do clown me sometimes im very happy to call u a moot and a friend :)

@tetsurolls : jade when u followed me i was like uhhhhhhhh WHAT?!?!?!!?? i was shocked lol. you’re such a lovely writer, but an even lovelier person. you’re so sweet and nice and ugh u embody best girl >:(

@lovingsuna : clare you’re so talented i just needed to get that out of the way. you’re so kind to your followers and watching you interact with others is so sweet???? you’re just SO nice that it makes me all soft

@kemochie : NEA HOLY SHIT YOU’RE SO FUNNY. i fucking love your themes so much and i think it’s so sweet of you to make @hqpostoffice. i know those letters probably brighten people’s days and for u to just make that account for fun is so nice of u. also we need to thirst about kakashi together soon.

@cafemiya : ISSY BABY OMFG YOU’RE SO FJDJCJSJ I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW TO PUT IT INTO WORDS. you’re so so so incredibly talented and i LOVE talking to you. like the energy you exude is so safe???? LMAO LET ME SHUT UP NOW FJFJSJ but i love u

@bjbex : bae im sorry for cheating on you 😫😫😫‼️‼️‼️ but to be serious lmao, you’re SO FUCKING TALENTED. ur femdom writings fry my brain and simply reaffirm how im not a sub. i go back and reread them all da time. ur so talented pappy ily

@kyovtani : zade baby your brain is so big and sexy. like literally all of your thoughts have me drooling. im not a fan of hard doms because im sensitive as fuck, but you got me thinking like hmmmm ���🤔🤔🤔 maybe that does sound nice lmao. just all of your ideas got me 🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️🏃🏽‍♀️

EEP IM GETTING LAZY NOW IM SO SORRY BUT @ ALL OF MY MOOTS IM LITERALLY IN LOVE WITH YOUR WRITING/ART.

[luvdsc]

first off, that soulmate au abt jaemin was top notch! i loved it so much, i just started reading ur works n they're absolutely amazing 🥺 when i finally caught on to what was going on in the fic, u have to know that my heart began ACHING istg 🗿 secondly, i aspire to be as good of a writer as u are, any tips on how to start off my writing blog?? super sorry to bother u, i just love ur works sm omggg

brb gonna print this out and pin it to my wall, so I can read it whenever I feel sad and instantly feel better because you are the absolute kindest, honey bee, omg thank you so much!!! 😭💘 thank you for enjoying ellipsism and for giving my writing a chance! I don’t write angst as often, so I’m very happy to see that the angst hit its mark :’)

You are so cute omg, I’m positive your writing is already as amazing as you are!!!! 💗 I’m not sure if you want writing tips or tips about how to start a writing blog? So I’ll put a bit of both! And it’s not a bother at all, lovebug, thank you for showering my writing with love 🥺💚 I’ll put the tips below under the cut!

WRITING ;

utilize your own experiences — this is something I do the most with my writing. My blurbs are oftentimes based on things that happened in my life. The reason why I hold tddol so near and dear to my heart the most is because the entire thing is heavily based on my own college shenanigans and each character emcompasses personality traits and quirks of my own irl friends. It makes the fic more believable as well because you can pull from your own emotions and thoughts from that time and put it into words. I gravitate towards college au the most because there’s no research involved when I’m the primary source :)

daydream — sometimes, it’s best to just let your mind wander and conjure up make-believe scenarios at 3 in the morning when it’s quiet and only the moon and stars are awake with you.

draw inspiration from your surroundings and people around you — this might be a little difficult if you’re in quarantine right now, but pay attention to who and what’s going on around you! go to a coffee shop and observe the different people that come and go. is there something going on with the couple sitting the corner or maybe the barista and her obviously favorite regular that she always gives a free scone to? Or maybe there’s something about the cute boy with the maroon beanie who taps away at his laptop, sipping on a hot chocolate. Make up random scenarios and back stories for these people!

dialogue — read what you write for your character’s dialogue and ask yourself, “do people actually speak this way?” People use the same words often in their speech, use contractions, have um’s and ah’s scattered here and there, trail off mid sentence, randomly go from one thought to the next, etc. Make sure the conversation sounds natural and flows well!

detail — detail is something I struggle with writing, but I feel like I’ve improved on it immensely with this little rule I’ve given myself. Each paragraph (?) has to be three to five lines long on a google doc, unless it’s a short dialogue line that I want to pack a punch with. By doing this, I’m making myself stop and think about the surroundings and what’s going on through my character’s mind or what they’re feeling. As the writer, you already know all of this and may not feel the need to write it down, but to a reader who’s unfamiliar with the universe you created, they won’t know any of it at all. So make sure to add in detail!

write when you feel like writing — this is just my personal opinion on this, but my writing comes out infinite times better when I write when I want to and not force myself to word vomit onto google docs. I kinda did that with I Dare You, and it’s actually my least favorite fic I’ve written on here because I’m not satisfied with the forced execution of it. I know some people prefer to set goals for themselves and write 2k a day regardless, which is incredibly awesome and I admire their determination and will power, but that’s not for me. I only write when I feel like it because I want it to be enjoyable and not feel like a job I’m forced to do. Unfortunately, that means I don’t have a set posting schedule, and fics often get scrapped midway when I decide I don’t want to write it anymore.

write what you want to write — I’m a firm believer in this. Indulge in your favorite au’s and tropes! Write a million bff2l stories (like I do lmao) if that’s the trope that makes you happy!!! Don’t worry about the notes, the number of reblogs, the word count, etc. Please don’t force yourself to write something you’re uncomfortable with or dislike for the sake of notes or readers. Your stories are for you first and foremost, so use them to make whatever your heart desires come to life!

STARTING A WRITING BLOG ;

choose a clean blog theme — make sure your blog is easy on the eyes and simple to navigate! You could be putting out god tier writings like Rick Riordan, but there’s a high chance people will give up on reading it if it’s in neon green, comic sans size 7 font on your flashy blog.

create a master list — this goes into the easy to navigate component as well! It’s best to have all the links to your writings and other important info in one post that you can put in your description for others to find.

use tags — I believe it’s only the first five tags that matter, so make it count! for instance, with ellipsism, it’s a jaemin angst, so I used #jaemin angst, #jaemin scenarios, #jaemin imagines, #nct imagines, and #nct scenarios as my first five tags. They’re pretty popular tags that correlate to my fic, and they’ll bring my fic to the attention of new readers!

reblog your fic — people are in all different time zones, so some of your followers might be asleep when you drop a fic and unfortunately miss it. you can queue a reblog of your fic at different time intervals after you posted it, so that your followers who missed it the first time have another chance at seeing it!

open requests / drabble games — i don’t know if this is your cup of tea, but if you’re stumped on what to write or are looking for inspiration, you can open requests/suggestions or hold a drabble game! This also can bring in new readers and allow you to interact with your followers :) but again, please don’t force yourself to write all of them if you don’t want to or if you’re comfortable with a certain request. At the end of the day, you reserve the right to say no to any request.

I hope these were helpful, honey bee, and please feel free to send another ask in if you want me to elaborate on anything or have any more questions! (Or if you just want to talk, that’s a-okay, too!!!) 💓💓

[olivieblake]

... I'm sorry, my message was too long and I couldn't be bothered to split it up LOL.

I just read Paradox and it was?? a masterpiece??? But I saw in the FFN comments that you said on your Tumblr that it was controversial oh yeah a lot of people had a lot of issues with it (the fuck) so I had to come here to (1) see and (2) spread some more love bc YOU ARE TOO TALENTED LMAO

AU Hermione was iconic as hell, and I loved her!! this is a very unpopular opinion and I appreciate it very much—she’s the primary reason this fic got so much negativity; people who chose to see her as purely a romantic rival for potterverse!Hermione decided to be v mean about her I actually preferred both AU characters initially - both Hermione and Draco - but tbf I love morally gray characters in general. Like that scene with her knife to Draco’s throat, can I say sexy??? yes like can you blame him? And the conflict with Voldemort, the fact that she took charge, my god. I am obsessed with literally everyone in your story and that is all I need to say 

You even got me to ship Jilly and while I’m not a Snilly shipper, I literally hate every man from Lily’s time so like. The fact that your writing actually got me to ship Lily with James of all people. I’m dead. Also I kind of loved James. That scene where he talks about Draco. I think I read it like 10 times bc I loved it so much I definitely think that’s one of my most memorable scenes from the fic

Actually there’s like at least 30 subchapters that I read about 10 times in a row, it made me take at least twice as long to read the fic as I normally would have

Admittedly both the originals grew on me, and I ended up preferring them; especially since new Draco was MIA for most of the latter half HA.

And also because – old Hermione did grow a lot more confident, and the fact that she stole the kiss, her entire realization about confidence and seizing what you want, I DIED 

And I also need to add your prose is BEAUTIFUL your dialogue is BEAUTIFUL your banter is BEAUTIFUL your characterization is BEAUTIFUL. I rambled about all this already in FFN comments but just. BEAUTIFUL. I appreciated the comments very much and am very happy to hear it!!

I’ve actually been in the worst reading slump for the past - year, actually LOL. it happens Nothing I’ve read has really seized me until Paradox - and honestly it did, woooo! it grabbed me from the very first chapter, and it was in part due to the hook (“wtf is goin on with hermione”) and in part due to, just, ugh, your writing, delicious. And then it just kept getting BETTER??? I was like “wow how does she do this” and then I was too busy gaping and screaming to ask that question anymore 

And that kiss??? May I say, the kiss at the end, it was. Perfect. I can’t. Not only was it beautifully written in general, but also, the moment with Draco’s recognition - the moment with him going *oh*, xyz, *oh*, that was so rhythmical on top of beautiful and I just. I screamed. definitely one of my favorite scenes I’ve ever written, thank you. writing it was a dream

I’m sorry I turned this ramble into an entire essay but basically

Love

I’m so excited to read Nobility and Lady Vengeance and actually everything you’ve ever written lmfao

Actually I’m pretty sure I slept on Nobility bc it was “eventual Dramione” according to tags but with the way you write Draco (even the original) and his intensity (see below) I just. I am willing to raze my Tomione heart to ashes haha. well, I do think part of the reason you were able to enjoy this fic more than some of the early readers is because you may have come in with a more open mind? certain dramione fans were…. upset, to say the least, about the two being paired up with the “wrong” versions. regardless I’m happy to hear it

I also really love the way you write Pansy based on your Sirius fic so. Ugh. I’m very excited like you don’t even know

Also old Draco’s intensity in the final half/third of the story I can’t

He went from “very canon Draco who works well with Sexy Hermione” to me going laksjdf;asjkdfdjkdskskskskskks 

literally just

Draco: *stares silently at Hermione for five seconds, except written beautifully*

me: *dramatic swooning only it’s bc I actually fainted bc ur draco is a treasure and i am WEAK* wonderful

also the reconciliation scene at the end. so perfectly written; it was inevitable I’d love the one between old draco and new hermione, but I also loved the one following; it was – both meaningful and oddly sweet and – nostalgic, I think, is the word I’m looking for aw that’s nice

and that reminds me

you are SO GOOD at setting atmosphere it’s just – I feel like that’s one of the hardest things to write, is atmosphere, and yet. You do it so seamlessly in such an impeccable way to the point that I just got swept away by the story before I even realized it and just. ugh. thank you! all of this is very nice to hear

Your writing is amazing thank you

Also I’m sorry I didn’t mean to ramble quite this hard LOL it happens to the best of us. thanks so much for reading and reviewing!! I appreciate it IMMENSELY and I’m always especially happy to hear someone enjoys this story in particular

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tbh i’m just ramble in ur inbox for like 4 asks because i’m just so broken but it’s because of ur fics so pls tag miss guyi for me i have no energy to copy my asks to her inbox 💀 anyways- the truth between us. where do i start. it was so gut wrenching and i screamed into my pillow after reading it- and on christmas- ON CHRISTMAS?? idk why i looked at pain for today and said ‘yes i want that’ but i’m very much pain pain pain. yoongles is my bias and honestly your characterization was gold-(1/??)

Anonymous said: I think yoongi is a very loveable character. he’s so interesting, and in yoongi in any au makes me a mess so the synopsis of the story had me reeling. The idea of them in a reality that’s only crafted by oc makes the story so interesting because yknow it’s hard for me personally to come up with these aus and ideas so seeing them all beautifully created with such detail makes me in such awe of the story itself. I think the best part about the series was with the hanahaki because i love angst- 2/?

the story of the android and yoongi really hurt because sometimes you just can’t do anything for someone but you’d be willing to risk it all makes it rlly sad, and the idea was presented so well. What i also really appreciated was oc understanding how her characters felt, because sometimes you add a load of trauma for them and you don’t know how they feel. having Yeonhwa, a branch from oc, act so different, makes me realize how differently we look at who we want to be, then at our own flaws (3/?

Y/N seeing the holes (not because shes is a bad character but just flaws as a person) in yeonhwa was special for me because even if we imaging ourselves to be perfect, strong, and confident, sometimes it doesn’t feel that way, sometimes we face the worse of our flaws in the best versions of ourselves??? it’s really wonderful to see how yoongi and oc find out more about themselves, but also about each other, in the different parts. having oc as an android rlly shined on yoongi’s personality.(4/4)

omg am i rlly at 5/4 asks?? anyways. THE DOMESTIC PREGNANT STORY WAS SUCH A NICE BREAK FROM THE ANGST AND I WAS IN LOVE THE WHOLE TIME- but anyways- the symbolism in ttbu, with the daffodils, the red, just- everything. the story was so intricate crafted to see both oc’s thoughts and how she finally views her editor in a different light, or how yoongi was willing to risk it all, in every world. so thank you for breaking my heart and mending it back together. OKAY THANK YOU MISS KINA AND MISS GUYI

@gukyi oh my lord, this message is so kind. I think I speak for guyi when I say it means a lot to us, thank you :’) I’m glad you enjoyed TTBU so much. It’s been a hot second since we wrote that series together but I’m still immensely proud of it. I’m happy you liked the premise, plot and the characters and all the motifs and symbolism!! I especially am happy that you enjoyed the android!AU so much since that’s actually my favourite one hahaha I just think mixed with the hanahaki, it’s *chef’s kiss. The whole Yeonhwa, if I remember correctly, was actually on the spur thing and wasn’t planned but I’m glad it happened the way it did since it does show character development and explore the OC a lot more. I believe one of guyi’s favourites as well is the domestic!AU so I’m thoroughly glad you enjoyed that part as well. 

Thank you for the kind message :’) and thank you for taking the time out of your day to read our series!!

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favorite books of 2020!

tagged by @kagetatsumis. ily condy. <3 in no particular order! top 10 books i’ve read in 2020 are:

the blade itself by joe abercrombie — hello??? the best written characters i’ve ever read?? the only grimdark i’ve ever loved not to mention liked???? so many shoujo manga tropes (yes, shoujo manga tropes) subverted beautifully?? tbh this just has a lot of manga / video game tropes in general LOL. and i loved every single one of them.

the bird & the blade by megan bannen — the pacing of the plot was SO WELL DONE WITH THIS ONE. SO. WELL. DONE. the characters’ voices were distinct and immersive! the LINGUISTICS, the RESEARCH DONE TO MAKE IT THE LANGUAGE AND THE CULTURE OF THE ERA AND COUNTRY LEGITIMATE??? listen... 🤌🏻 also everyone knows i’m a hoe for family dynamics and the father-son + found family here was just. just!!! choice. ✨

radio silence by alice oseman — hi, i’m no contempoary expert but even i know this is a literary treasure of this generation. hands down best coming of age i’ve ever read AND IF YOU WANT TO a) cry a lot, get attached to and immensely relate even tho ur already in ur 20s or b) educate urself on our generation U SHOULD READ THIS. thank u.

the way of kings by brandon sanderson — if u like epic epic fantasy aka reading a whole ass saga about larger than life things and crying over a precious boy who’s well! the ‘perfect hero’ type of character ngefl! but hey epic highs and lows and the best fight scenes!! well then. you should read this.

the diviners by libba bray — just check out my review. this is definitely one example of perfect storytelling.

shadow of the fox by julia kagawa — i’m pretty sure this is the only book i pulled an all nighter reading this year. it was A WHOLE TREAT to read. i’m not usually fangirling about romance but geez louise this one’s SO CUTE.

girls of paper and fire by natasha ngan — THE BEST WLW IVE READ IN MY ENTIRE LIFE SO FAR. criers war, please get out of the way. ALSO THE WORLD WAS SOOO INTERESTING.

beach read by emily henry — DHDJDKDJD i’ve never enjoyed an adult contemporary ROMANCE so much and it wasn’t even because of the romance (maybe unsurprisingly). it was because of the CULT STUFF. look... all i can say is the healing from trauma here was written soooooo fucking nicely. HELLO! IT WAS AMAZING.

the poppy war by r. f. kuang — i was not a fan of the pacing (especially of the character arc, less so for the overarching plot) and that stuff’s really important to me BUT THE CULTURAL VALUE OF THIS BOOK cannot be ignored. especially since i’m east asian. alsooooo for a debut it’s insanely impressive for what it accomplishes to tell in 500~ pages. like. yes of course i’m fucking taking pointers from kuang.

no longer human + the setting sun by osamu dazai — yes i’m cheating by putting two in one bullet point, WHAT ABOUT IT. these were just so very well written and no other author had made me feel the way dazai has. i doubt anyone ever will. it’s such a unique flavor of EMPTINESS, how can they? ... that may sound horrendous but this guy is a king at symbolism and CLASSY foreshadowing. like if you told me that was the only reason why this is a classic, i would believe you.

tagging! @seomarshalls and @darrigann because i have no other friends.

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Hi! So your writing is super good and I was wondering if you could write something for me? When you have time of course! So I was thinking about how Harry has said that he isn't attractive, that sometimes you can tell when a person is using you (and other times you can't). I think he's really insecure and has been used a lot. Probably cries himself to sleep, jerks off a lot in hotels, spends holidays alone. Well what if he had a new neighbor who is also alone, and though he doesn't talk much to

(cont) her, she does little things sometimes like leave notes at his door with something good about him on them, or gives him flowers from her garden. And, well, what if she comes over on Christmas eve and has a plate of cookies and is wearing a hideous holiday sweater and just says “I thought you might like some company. I could use some.” And they end up spending a great night and he realizes that he’s actually HAPPY for the first time in ages?

UR JOKING this is so cute I hope this does your request justice😍

The idea that with fame comes a maginitude of personal connections and close relationships was something Harry always struggled with. Of course, he had his select close friends and loving family, but there were only so many days that they could take a break from their own lives and jobs to spend time with the lonely rockstar. There were endless amounts of people willing to fill the empty voids in Harry’s life; so many so that he had to mute his phone most days because they wouldn’t leave him alone. It was sometimes difficult for Harry to tell the difference between people he had in his life that had his best interests at heart as opposed to those who simply wanted their own 5 minutes of fame. He’s seen it countless times; someone whom he thought was in it for the long haul, only to be met with disappointment when they leaked a story or left him in the dust. So, he went with the easiest option he could think of -secluding himself. Days spent alone, other than with the soft purring of Evie at his side on the porch swing, just preparing for his next album. Life around him kept on moving, the private streets of the neighborhood were filled with the sounds of children playing in their yards, families walking their dog, and the occasional block party. Yet all of it stayed in the background of Harry’s life. Like white noise fluttering through his extraordinary yet somehow still extremely mundane life.

Except for the girl next door. She was a quite girl, spending most of her time at, what he assumed was her job, and coming home to a corgi he had learned, through playful yells across the yard, was named Bean. Upon waking up one morning months ago and seeing a young girl moving into the house next door, past experiences crept into his mind. Would she be posting everything he did? Would he be able to leave his house without being met with a flashing camera? Would she be crazed and try to break in? But, none of his fears ended up coming true. In fact, it was the exact opposite. She kept to herself, enough that it reminded Harry of himself in the way that he never saw her spending time with anyone. Of course, there was a guest or two every once and while, but she didn’t seem to mind spending most days relatively alone. The two didn’t have many interactions, but when they did, it always brought a smile to Harry’s face. A quick hello here and there. A basket of homemade cat treats left for Evie. Small notes left on each other’s doors, carrying quick and encouraging messages to one another like; “you have a lovely garden” or “you have the most beautiful cars”. Harry found the first note about two months ago, after stepping out onto his front porch, ready to head to the studio. The small creme colored note taped to his front door read “You have a beautiful voice. Thank you for sharing it with me. I hope you never stop finding inspiration.” There was always a risk to sitting outside on his deck and singing melodies to songs not yet written, but for some reason, her hearing them didn’t bother him. He spent hours at the studio that day.

It was now the middle of December, the London air holding a certain crispness that seemed to only appear around the holidays. Like the planet knew everyone was bundled up, enjoying the warmth and company brought to them by being surrounded by their loved ones. Almost everyone. Harry was no stranger to having quiet holidays, but living in a community with many large families and loud holiday parties really had brought out the worst in him. Anne and Gemma had been snowed in by the rogue storm and reluctantly wouldn’t be able to make the trip down to his house this year. So, while everyone else began their festivities, Harry was joined by the flickering light of the television. He was seated in the living room, lounged under the heated throw blanket Anne had gifted him at the start of winter, while Evie rested on his lap so she could soak up a bit of the residual heat, and the unmistakable sound of Bruce Willis echoed through the eerily decorated yet empty room.

“Well, Merry Christmas Eves.” Harry muttered, scratching the back of his cat’s ear and earning a loud purr. “It’s just you, me and Bruce this year.”

Much to his surprise that the device actually works, due to the lack of use, Harry’s doorbell rang. Hoping that the “snowed in” excuse was just that, Harry sprang to his feet, uttering a quick apology to Evie who was unsuspectingly thrown to her feet in the commotion, and ran across the living room to answer the front door. The smile of his face was comepltely forgotten as soon as he opened the door, immediately recognizing that it wasn’t who he thought and his family was, in fact, not just making up an excuse.

“Oh. It’s you.”

“Not quite the reaction I was hoping for.”

Y/N, his neighbor, was stood on his front porch, clad in a pair of Christmas themed leggings, a thick winter jacket, and a matching scarf/hat/mittens set. A large tin rested in her left hand as well as a very large bottle of Moscato in her right.

“Oh, no, um sorry! I didn’t mean it like that! Just thought maybe it was someone else.” his now warm cheeks were a stark contrast to the winter breeze that began blowing through his front door.

“Oh yeah. I had to stand in line behind all your other friends just to make it up to your front door.”

“Like you have anyplace to talk, Miss ‘I only hang out with Bean everyday.”

Y/N threw her head back in an uncontrollable laugh, slightly the sound slightly echoing through his empty yard. There was a soft white glow from the moon illuminating the back of Y/N, creating a full body halo and beautiful aura to his neighbor. As the angelic sound softened and her head came back to it’s natural resting place, she shifted her weight from left to right. “I saw that the driveway was empty and figured you could use the company. I know I could. and I have cookies and alcohol so...”

“Yeah, yeah please come in.” 

It had been a few days since Harry had anyone over his house, the last people being Mitch, Sarah and Clare popping over to discuss steps on the next album. So, having YN standing in his foyer, removing her winter coat to reveal one of the worst Christmas jumper’s he’s ever seen, was a different feeling. The pair made their way into the living, where the television was still shining and Evie was cuddled on top of the heated blanket that was now piled on the floor.

“Please don’t tell me you’re one of those people who thinks Die Hard is a Christmas movie.” Y/N laughed, sitting down on the couch.

“Of course it is! John McClane has to rescue everyone from a Christmas Party! The entire movie is set on Christmas Eve and it plays Christmas music!”

“It absolutely is not! That movie could be set on any other day of the year and still be the exact same movie and the only person wearing any Christmas apparel is a dead guy!”

Easy conversation flowed between the pair, only stopping to refill their wine glasses or have uncontrollable laughing fits. It was fun to have the company, a nice change of pace in the large house. It was easy for Harry to see how kind Y/N was, how her eyes lit up when Evie cuddled closer to her side, how her attention was focused solely on him and not even bothering to glance at her phone (that sat across from her on the small wooden end table). That was something very new to Harry, being with someone who had more interest in what he was saying than the tiny portable screen. It sent a warm feeling though Harry’s body, that wasn’t caused by the burning wood in his fireplace. He enjoyed Y/N’s company, so much more than he thought he would, the two unsuspecting loners seemingly becoming instant best friends. Harry’s life brought him immense happiness; seeing his fans having the time of their lives at his shows, meeting his idols, and getting to live his dreams, but with all of these extreme highs, came the lows. The lows of not knowing your true friends, not seeing your family for long periods of time, and constantly being photographed. But in this moment, sitting in his living room with his neighbor, drinking wine and arguing over the greatest Christmas cookie, Harry had never felt happier.

tag: @emotionally-imbruised and @theasstour cause I sent them so many snaps about this blurb😂😂

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i just went through ur entire oldrivalshipping tag and im living... the ship is kinda dead so seeing people who still ship it is comforting. also i read that one fic u wrote, "i understand", and i rlly enjoyed it!! i feel like in general, there were a lot of places where the writers could've given substantial development to blue and green's relationship like that scene. i love oldrival in theory (like in fics like urs) but its so lacking in canon and it's a shame bc there was so much potential,,

Ugh I understand what you mean :( Although, I do get the feeling that most pokespe ships are like that: lacking in canon but has immense potential, and I see that as an opportunity actually, especially for the fic writers. Like what you said: there’s so many places one can start with, and that’s the most exciting part about this fandom :D

And yes, I get the feeling. Oldrivalshipping seems to have died along the way, especially with the new chapters and all that, but please don’t give up on them :D I certainly won’t ^_^ Here’s to more substantial oldrivalshipping content in the future~

P.S. Thanks for the kind words AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH