#i really do like toujou

[valkyrietookmoved]

Sorry for thinking about himeru and making it everyone's problem</3 i love them a lot, i was wondering if u have any headcanons or observations?

Not particularly right now my brain has been very fried recently... I did notice that Himeru takes the dark chocolate if you have him in your office with the little Dars table out though. I thought that was interesting, he seems to enjoy the bitter taste of the cocoa a lot judging from the lines. He also chooses to pick up the plushies which not everyone does (like for example Tsumugi refuses to do more than just reach down and pat them)

[inocitron]

The team enjoying a small watermelon break in the summer !

(This was my piece for the Four season zine, you can check out all the other people who contributed @daiyanozine !)

(This was drawn in November 2019)

[nebulainatree]

I need to speak Japanese right now. Just found something and I can't tell for sure whether or not it confirms agent eight is the octoling in side order because I don't speak it well enough and can't read Japanese kanji at all . God damn it

Edit: By the way no it doesn't confirm it. Forgot to mention that outside of tags because I'm inflicted with the status condition "insane" rn. Holy shit I hit tag limit I didn't even know they had a tag limit.

[kaibutsushidousha]

Kodaka April Fools tweets 2024

Lying just because it's April Fools' is so dull. Honestly painful to watch. Lying in general doesn't do you any good. In my younger days, I told every lie I could, saying some genuinely insane stuff about being a supreme leader of evil and whatnot, and thanks to that, now that I'm in my thirties, I got famous for all the wrong reasons and can't find a stable job because people think I'm associated with the yakuza... Sigh, I wanna deck my cringe younger self's face. Quit lying for fun while you can.

My classmates aren't doing great either. Thinking you're hot shit during your school days always comes back to bite you... My advice to my past self: slow and steady effort is worth more than any talent. Also, the part of life you spent larping with that silly horse laugh is not going to be one you'll want to remember later. I wish I could make that clear to him. White lies aren't a thing. Talent is never enough. My class is proof of that. Wanna know what my classmates are like now that we're in our thirties?

Akamatsu became a piano teacher. Her player skills capped off in her teens, it seems. But she's not that good at teaching so she's considered kinda mid at her job. And now she's struggling with the father of a student incessantly hitting on her. Tough world to live in.

Toujou opened a housekeeping company but she was too strict with her employees so everyone quit. And now she's doing everything on her own. Sucks to be in your thirties without any successors or employees. She's a prime example of how being so much better than anyone else doesn't do you any good. Well, she's always working for celebrities, so she's doing well financially, but I heard about some major court fight about a missing item under suspicion of theft from one of her clients. That can't be nice.

Yumeno got to her thirties still saying magic is real, so she's past the point of no return. She agrees that's an unhinged way to live, but she's too old to suddenly change gimmicks. Work takes her all over the country, but her gimmick doesn't allow her to publicly drink, so she has to get plastered alone in her hotel room after shows. I wish she could fix her life with real magic.

Harukawa? ...Haven't heard that name in a long time. Now she was a living edgy fantasy. The past tense was because I hadn't heard of her in a long time. I don't know the details, but apparently, she went to some war zone outside of Japan because her first love didn't want to date her. Takes some real edgelord to react to a broken heart like that, but if she's still alive, I have no idea how her thirties are treating her. My personal guess is that she's a mother of many.

Chabashira opened her Aikido school but is having a hard time attracting students. So she had the idea of starting an anti-sexual-harassment campaign that could double as advertisement, but thanks to her cluelessness when it comes to romance, she got canceled for mistakenly tossing men in regular couples. She's still doing the "degenerate males" bit in her thirties. Girl really needs to get on with the times. Rumor goes that she still downs huge packs of tequila bottles with Yumeno every now and then. Really don't think there's any salvaging her reputation.

Shirogane is an office lady still continuing her cosplay hobby on the side. She could be doing well if she knew how to keep her mouth shut but frequently rambles about cosplay history and etiquette, so no one likes having her around. Stay emotionally dependent on a single hobby long enough and your passion starts to close you off to others. That's her problem.

Angie was the most successful in the class! She made big money both on the art and the religion fronts. However, there were some controversies about her devotees selling counterfeits of her paintings at exorbitant prices and one magazine made a huge news coverage of it, which resulted in her catching the police's attention. She's been recently untraceable, with the rumors saying that she'll never be back to Japan.

Oh, and Iruma... Up until some point, she had the best life of all of us. She made big money off of her inventions' patents. So far so good. Things only started going off-rails after she married an ex-stripper. The two started a YouTube channel together. And later, her husband ran in last year's elections and lost big time. They got an awful debt from his election campaign and she had to get into side jobs to pay it off. And her husband? Disappeared. No word from Iruma herself about what happened. Tough world to live in.

No further updates from Kodaka in the past 3 hours, so I assume he went to sleep and will come back to tweet about the 7 remaining boys in the morning.

[evercelle]

i’m falling down the V3 pit again myself so i have to ask, do you have any other ships or faves from V3? (also i thought you might like to know that my headcanon for kokichi and tenko is that they are terrible terrible petty besties)

other than saihara & ouma, my favorite characters are toujou (rip queen) hoshi (rip short king) and gonta (rip tall king)!!

i don't really have v3 ships aside from saiousai, but i also like saimatsu...! i think they're sweet, though i like it best when it's really emotionally complicated haha. if akamatsu lived, i think there would be MUCH more complicated feelings for saihara to unpack with regards to a person who gave him so much courage also betraying his trust... but they can work through it!! ougoku friendship is also VERY important to me A++

[kingarubin]

Motive Videos in NDRV3 working as flashback lights is really weird and confusing

Toujou outright says that she didn't "remember" before seeing the video. And is not just that she didn't know about the crisis - Saihara later mentions her not knowing that she used to serve a country.

The problem is that while it works for Toujou, it doesn't really work for other cases we know of.

Let's take a look at Ouma's video. We learn from it about DICE, his organization. Which would mean that... he didn't know about DICE until seeing his video in the second chapter?

So what memories did he have? He knew about his talent so he must have known that he has an organization. Did he just know that there was an organization? Maybe knew something about what they are about but no details? What did he find out from this video? Did he learn about things like the rule that forbids killing from it?

We know nothing. It was never explained. It was never even something that characters would think about.

Things are even weirder with Momota... his video is about his grandparents after all.

He never watched this video which would mean there was something in it that wasn't in his memories. Something that would not be in his mind before watching it. And looking at Toujou's situation, the most likely answer would be his grandparents. Does he have any memories about them? Do they just not exist for him?

Once again, Saihara not even once thinks about it despite knowing what Momota's video is about. He could try asking Momota about it. Try to learn how much he knows. Try to learn more about how Flashback Lights work. But he never does anything (which isn't really out of character for him, but let's save complaining about how passive Saihara is for another time.)

There is also a case of Harukawa, but since we don't know what exactly is there besides her talent it's hard to tell. But if the video is about her orphanage then that would leave a huge plot hole because well, she DOES remember it very clearly. The only explanation would be if Hoshi let her watch the video.

When it comes to Hoshi... we never had a chance to ask him, but since his video was "nothing" then maybe it had no memories. Or maybe he just learned more about how lonely he is. Either way I can't say much more about it without knowing his reaction to it.

I'm also very dissapointed we never got to see Saihara's video. Not only that would be interesting but we would know more about how they work.

Unless the creators themselves don't know that is...

[chickenmetenders]

👉👈 if you're taking natsumiya requests... Yumehisa comforting Natsume after the ">Take his hand" ending in DF?

>Take his hand is such a bad end for me that I never even considered a hurt/comfort scenario for this ending LMAO only hurt/hurt. BUT NOW THAT YOU'VE ASKED I AM THINKING ABOUT IT... I hope this is comforting enough?? I am so unused to writing comfort, so it was really fun to try!

[Full game spoilers]

He finds Natsume standing outside a familiar church.

Honestly. Mamiya had looked away for one second, and when he'd turned back around, Natsume was gone. Just up and disappeared. Poof. He was like a child at the playground, wandering off without parental supervision. It would've been funny, if Mamiya didn't have severe abandonment issues.

"There you are," Mamiya huffs out as he approaches Natsume. He tries not to let his voice waver, tries not to let it show that he'd spend the better half of the day panicking as he'd near turned Tokyo upside down trying to find him.

Mamiya spent the past 3,000 years alone; he absolutely refuses to go through that again.

Especially now that he's here with him now.

Mamiya easily slips his hand around his other half's elbow. "What are you doing here, you silly little Spectator? Awfully rude of you to leave me without saying anything, you know."

Natsume doesn't react. He's standing on the steps of the church entrance, staring through the propped open double doors, and when Mamiya follows his gaze, he sees--

Mamiya's heart, if he had a heart, drops to his stomach.

Inside the church are Kikuchi Ryou, Morichika Haruki, and Toujou Minato, talking in hushed tones. All of them look clearly, obviously, blatantly upset.

And Keito is nowhere to be seen.

Mamiya feels himself moving before he can even think, wedging himself in front of Natsume to blocking Natsume's view of his friends.

That finally gets a reaction out of him. Natsume makes a face of confusion. "Hey--"

"Nope," Mamiya says. He puts his hands on Natsume's shoulders and pushes him back, forcing him to stumble backwards down the steps. "Don't try to look."

"Wait--Mamiya--" Natsume makes a sound of protest, attempting to crane his neck, to catch a glimpse of what his friends will do or say about his lack of presence, but Mamiya grabs his head and forces him to look away.

"Stop. Just don't."

"But I--"

Mamiya's mind is dizzy with panic. "Look, you've already given up on them," he says, and the fight seems to just drop out of Natsume's body all at once, his shoulders slumping. "You don't need to know what they'll do without you."

You don't want to know what they'll do without you, Mamiya doesn't say. Because Natsume is soft, has always been soft, and he doesn't need to see how grief can warp the people he loves.

Mamiya takes his arm and leads him away from the church, and this time, Natsume doesn't protest it. He doesn't even try to look backwards at the friends he's left behind, and for that, Mamiya is grateful. Keito's absence in that church claws at Mamiya's heart, but it's okay.

It's okay.

Natsume chose to give up. That means the Spectators will leave them alone. That means Mamiya can have as many chances as he needs to fix this mess they've gotten themselves into.

Because if there's anything Mamiya isn't lacking, it's time.

Mamiya leads them down roads and sidewalks, not really sure where they're going, as long as it takes them further away from the church. They walk until they reach the ocean, and Mamiya thinks of a fateful morning thousands of years ago and sighs.

He turns and grasps Natsume's hands in his. Natsume' looks sullen, and he avoids Mamiya's eyes.

"It's okay," Mamiya reassures him. He squeezes Natsume's hands a little tighter. "You were right to give up on them. There was nothing you could've done," he lies.

Natsume finally meets his gaze, and Mamiya feels some sick satisfaction when he sees that his red eyes, normally so alive with love and hope and passion, are now utterly desolate. "I shouldn't have left them," Natsume mumbles.

"Maybe," Mamiya says. "But you did. So stop worrying about them. I told you, I'll take care of everything."

Even if it took Mamiya years, or centuries, or millennia. It's not like he had anything better to do, after all. What was another thousand years if it meant that Keito and Osamu and Mayuri and Touma and Satoru could all live long, happy lives?

Natsume's gaze drops to their joined hands, as if he doesn't quite believe Mamiya's words. His voice is tiny when he asks, "Really?"

"Yeah." Mamiya smiles bitterly. He brushes a lock of golden hair out of Natsume's face, and those red eyes flit upwards, and Mamiya thinks he sees a tiny pinprick of light returned to them. Mamiya hopes, desperately, that he can live up to his expectations. "You might have left them, but I'll never leave you, Natsume. Because you chose me."

[seaorchid]

Omegaverse with the Toujou Brothers || NSFW ramble

T/W: incest | 3P | omegaverse | Breeding kink | Futanari! Alpha! reader | I do what I want.

Character: HiMERU | Kaname Toujou

In which your a futanari Alpha. Your fucking the older Toujou in his ass. Him moaning as he hug his adorable younger brother. His dick inside of his precious little brother ass pussy.

Moaning little kaname as he want to cum but cannot, he wanted to get his turn yet his older brother refuse to share and says kaname only need his dick. Merumeru refuse to cum unless it's inside of Kaname or inside you.

When your dick cum loads inside of him, he too would cum inside his younger brother asspussy Creaming his balls out. With his eyes showing heart shape as he love the feeling of his inside being field and that his dick and ass felt so good. He refuse to part from such feelings.

"ahh~ ngh~ fill me with you seeds... ~himeru wanna be pregnant the same time as my brother~ ah~ "

He moaned like a bitch in heat. His mind already full of being breed till his perfect sexy image of an idol is turning to nothing but a slut for you, a breeding tool for you, a cock loving cum dumb. Maybe this is what he really is as you held him up and shove your dick inside his ass. Giving you a sloppy kiss while holding onto your boobs, his pouting younger brother who have cum spilling out from his asspussy barely stood up and went behind his older brother.

"agh~ brother ~ your so unfair...."

He whisper to him before joining you fucking HiMERU, causing the older Toujou to whimper in delight as his younger brother cum inside of his ass through he quickly put a plug to not let a single drop of his precious older brother love juice to be waste, very well taught by him to never cum outside unless it's inside of him or you, to not waste such delicious and warm sperm.

"ahh~ aghmm. HiMERU love you! HiMERU loves you two!"

HiMERU moaning as his tongue sticking out, his totally gone now. Nothing but a fuck toy who will have your babies~ so breed him and his brother well ok~?

[bogbees]

i think Oga's reaction to Furuchi getting killed before his eyes is very... not much of anything, especially when compared to how Toujou reacted (disbelief then going straight to killing)

like, once Oga saw Furuchi lying near dead on the floor, and then Takamiya stepping on his head, Oga went STRAIGHT IN FOR THE KILL

but then, he watches Furuchi get killed before his very eyes and he just sorta just stands there screaming for like, the first few pages of chapter 208

like, he doesn't start acting until he figures out how to solve the problem: get back the pieces of Furuchi's soul before sunrise.

and like. tbh. based on everything we know by this point, how Furuchi is the closest friend Oga will ever have, how Oga tends to drag Furuchi with him, this moment could have been idk written with a bit more... ooompf??

Like it makes perfect sense that he'd react this way! That's his best friend! his partner! the guy he's spent 5 years with through thick n thin! They're always together! And he's dead!? Because of Oga!? Is there anything Oga can actually do to help this situation??? And like, This has happened before, Furuchi getting used as bait!

but it's never gotten Furuchi REALLY harmed. Furuchi has always scrambled away from harm the moment things start going sideways. He's there, supporting Oga by just being there.

just. idk maybe

[honeybeewhereartthee]

MY DARLING DOLLS 37

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You stared at the diary entre you made and stared at the two people out in the garden. It been a while since you arrive at this time period.

You don't count the days that passes by as if the concept of time doesn't matter to you at the moment.

"heyyy get out of the house and have some fun outside!" The old tojou called out to you. You put down your pen and stood up to go to them.

There some questions in your mind that seems to run again.

You forgot why you wanted to go to this place again. But you really need to find a way back before people gets a wrong idea of you not aging even a day in this time period.

...

-PRESENT-

"wow your friend sure kinda w--aw." Jun was smacked before he can comment about you after reading how you start to forget about some stuff. Mainly your obsession to go to that place from of place. It's not even Disney! Kaname cannot help but sigh after he look at the hand whiting of yours.

"it's been a while since we start this project and theres no sign of them returning yet." Hiyori began as he sip his drink.

He don't want to break it to his new friend who's his very close with about how hopeless the situation is.

He don't know what's up much with the dollmaker and darling doll business the idols that close to you are busy with since you were gone for almost a year now.

"No. Theyll return." Kaname gives him a determine look.

Hiyori can only sigh as he look at Kaname looking at the entre again and remember a few months back certain Sakuma have left to who knows where and the information about it is only been told by ibara.

...

"those problematic dolls and idols are not taking their job seriously as long that dollmaker did not return. So I taken it my own hand to fix it."

The so called evil vice president says as he fix his glasses. "Oh my how kind of you." The green haired idol tease.

"of course not." The vice president denied as he show a map to Hiyori. "It's just a deal to be made."

"deal huh..."

"exchange for me to tell that young Sakuma, I'll get full right to access a certain land." He point a red circle marked in the map. "It's fair trade."

Hiyori wonder what's up with the mind of that dollmaker, planning something that far off yet did not come home yet.

Within few days the young Sakuma left to somewhere again.

...

-THE PAST: MC-

"hiii." You look at the young child that's pulling your cloths. You give her a look to shoo her off to her father side but she just giggle and hugs you more. "Don't be rude." You were told off by The old tojou when you pulled thr child off you, leeching on you like a koala. And went outside.

"I dunno what ya mean. That child is being too close to me. It's a bad thing cause she'll get nothing but bad influence from me." You commented as you held out your hand to the fluffy souls that quickly rest in your palm. Purple-blue and blue-green one is the first to rest in your arms.

"I wonder what's going on the other end..." You mumble as you stared at the fluffy balls thats surrending you. All familiar yet not. "Mmmccccccccc...." The little lady of the estate called out to you, running toward you with her little legs can do.

"Ah... Your daughter kinda weird." You mumble as you dodge the attempt of human interaction with the child making her trip to the ground. It was already kinda weird when that kid been attach to you since day one. Toujou sure are one of a kind.

"wahhh... Wahhh." The child cries and you look at her and her father who's giving you a look. You sigh as you reach out to held her up and dust her face. "Don't cry little one." You tries to comfort her, she look at you with tearful eyes and slowly reach out to held your hand. Pulling her up she looks at you up close and cannot help but awe.

In her eyes, you seems like a beautiful mystical being that never age even a day. Yet in her young mind she felt she will see you leave one day. Tears began to fall from her eyes and you were concern for a moment cause maybe you look scary to her now. You put her down but she did not budge and hugs you securely.

"you sure have some charisma to some insane level." The dad said hopeless as he realize his daughter is hopeless and have a crush on you it seems. What a bad taste. He thought as he look at the souls around you who seems to adore you very well, some seems to be more than others.

"I have been told..." You mumble. Through you forget who. Ah. Your memories is getting hazy.

Who was the one telling you have too many flings again...? Who are the fling.... Your eyes widen as you realize your slowly forgetting something. Where they important?

Snow fall the nth time, you stared at the white fluff and wonder.

The longer a soul is out of its body, the more they'll lost their own sense of self...

[iamgrape]

FOR ROZE

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Chapter One: Part One

Request/gift : @rozestears

Characters:

Tatsumi Kazehaya , Kaname Toujou, HiMERU

Warning: drama pt 1 ( your Welcome)

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"Hm..." You hummed as you walk down the usual path you take home.

" ~ 🎶 ~ "

"???" You look around as you hear someone singing but saw no one is around and the voice stop.

"Was I imagining it?" You wonder before you continue to walk to the small auditorium hidden in the park, you wanted to play around in the swing before going home since you don't want to hear endless BS at your place.

"~~ 🎶 ~~"

Your eyes widen as you realize the voice is coming from the small auditorium as you once again heard the beautiful and gentle singing voice that seems like a voice of an angel.

You felt your ears being bless each step as you gotten closer to the place where the person is.

The moment the stage come into view, you saw a sole person standing on the stage singing to the heaven with his gentle and beautiful voice.

As if his praying for something as he sing his heart out. His face is turned from you unabling you to see what he look like but you felt you saw mirage of beautiful pure white wings on his back that seems to flatter in the wind but when you blink it's gone.

His unusual mint green hair seems like mint candy in your eyes and purple eyes looks like jewel---

Wait what.

"... Can I help you?" You felt your cheeks warm up as you realize you were caught red handed shamelessly eyeing him like an eye candy.

Ah his voice sound so gentle... I wonder if his an angel... ' your thoughts once again distracted when you get hypnotized by his voice.

"Are you ok?" He slowly approaches you with a gentle smile. His worried face made you realize, that you might seems like a weirdo in front of him.

When his a few step away from you. You somehow don't know why you become so emotional and suffocated by something.

"S-sorry...." You don't know why you felt guilty like his presence is too Divine and holy that your whole life bad deeds is being judge. Tears fall in your eyes as you slowly back away to create distance from such out of this world stranger.

"Ah..." He seems to realize there something is up as he stop approaching you. When the suffocating gap between you two is finally far off to felt such odd pull. You take the chances to flee.

You quickly run away leaving the stranger to watching your retreating figure going further and further away from him. His gentle smile in his face disappear as it turn into a frown. He look at his hand as if in deep thoughts.

"I thought I could get to know you this time around... Yet I'm still unable to go pass the boundary..." He sigh and the little animals that was watching from afar all shed tears as if they were effected by some unknown force.

"Oh father... Is it really a crime?" He look up to the heaven above. Single tear drop fall down along side what you thought is pure white feathers but those feather have tainted color of a fallen.

What you saw was not an illusion. What you really saw is possible what your human eyes can take in his fallen angel form. Humans aren't able to take the presence of an angel. Much less a fallen angel that Is under a punishment.

An angel banish, for his unable to do his duty of a guardian angel properly. his suppose to protect you and held no earthly desire or emotions toward you other than priority your safety. He should have agreed to choices for your eternal pair since long ago yet he can never agree and keep postponing it. Even how fate and how creator ask him his choice so many times, as they wanted to see be happy with your eternal pair, your soul mate.

He can't bare to watch someone else protect you, care for you and watch over you or love you more than he is let by the creator. And only able to be the unknown person that watch over you, nameless and unimportant to your lives.

"There always a loophole... I'll find it one day." He swear before he turn around and disappear from where he once stood. The feeling that suffocated all living beings around the area finally find relief as the source of their torment is gone.

...

Knock. Knock. Knock.

You knock on your noisy neighbor door. They don't seems to be able to hear you as you still able to hear some very unappreciated sounds coming inside the apartment, the same sound that bothers your sleep schedule. Unable you to get proper sleep for days!

*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

you slam your fist at the door, to get attention of your neighbor. Soon the sound stop and sound of someone approaching the door is heard by you.

You swear you could hear someone swearing and the other one is crying... In a very lewd way.

"Yes?" The door open to reveal your neighbor, who's wearing a comforter around them. You swear you saw nothing beneath it. "Oh... Are you going to ask to keep it down again?" The moment they realize it's you, they sigh hopelessly.

"... Ah. It's not that your going to do that even if I ask you again today." You look down at your leg as you become a very frequent visitor at this specific neighbor of yours.

You held the Plastic containers with the extra dish you made at class today. Since your doing a cooking class and made too many cookies. You thought you could give them to your very noisy neighbor and maybe they would be nice now to shut up for the night.

"Lol so it's a bribe to shut the noise?" They seems to realize your plan. You fidget and held the container tighter. "No..." You denied. "I'm very sorry, a certain companion of mine won't shut up or lower his voice." Your ears turn red as you realize they are talking about lewd stuff.

"I-its ok... I j-just want to ask cause I haven't sleep well those d-days..." You start to felt suffocated talking to stranger this long. No, it's more this neighbor of yours scares you to no end for some reason.

They have this weird aura around them that seems like they been through a lot of years of hardship and knows more than the usual people at their age. You could swear they Either be robotic or like a pirate at times.

You just want to beg them to 'please let you sleep this one night because you have a long day tommorow and next couple of days.' but talking to people who's very open about certain topic is your weak point. You can't continue to chat without getting embarrass and wanting to run away.

"Ahaha.... I'm really sorry. Don't worry I'll fix the problem later." You saw your neighbor kick someone you can't see and you heard someone whine and moan.

"!!!???" Your face become bright red and quickly back away. " I--... Here. Please. Bye." You shove the container and run away before they could call you.

...

When you arrive at your place, you sigh in relief as you lock your door and lean your back at the door and slowly fall to seat in the floor.

"They probably think I'm weird... I can hear them better than normal people... I wanna change apartment so bad..." You tearfully whimper a sob.

Later that night, it seems that your neighbor really manage to stop the noise and you manage to sleep well like a baby.

...

The following day, you were out of your apartment because your going to do field work and it would take couple of days of you being out of your apartment and secure of your bed.

You look at your team mates who all happily dancing around the bonfire. You have earplugs on yet you could still hear them happily jamming like people who never been in the wild.

"Ah... Everyone is so happy today..." You mumble as you lay on your back at your camping bed. You look at the sunset as you get ready for the activity for the night.

Ghost and supernatural haunting.

You wonder why you join such agency that is looking for creatures that isn't real but they paid great amount of money to anyone who's going to tag along with them. The boss of yours is pretty rich young master who don't know what to do with his money and love supernatural things.

Beside you choice the job since it only happens once every two weeks or a month yet still get paid well. Since you guys research at your office when there's no place to visit.

You also enjoyed camping outside since it's far off from the cities and the sound of nature is more appealing than sound of cars and your neighbor moaning and groaning pass the walls.

"Ok! Folks let's go ghost haunting!" Your group leader says and everyone happily prepared to match to the abandoned asylum.

You all went to the front gate as your leader have ask permission to enter the place today from the owner and all come inside with either fear or thrill in your vines.

"Let's catch some ghost!"

"Aye!"

"Ghost shall fear us!"

"Aye!"

"Let's run away if they did show up."

"Obviously."

You all laugh and chuckle at the fun interaction with one another and lighting up the mood.

While walking in the hallway of the asylum with your flashlight on. You heard something.

'there some human lurking in the place again.'

'Oho? Shall we scare them? Kyahhaha...'

'ah... Why do they even visit this place?'

'haku don't know that human takes it as a challenge and thrilled at the thought of the unknown!'

'shut up. Ya know I was being sarcastic.'

'kyahahaha. I know.'

"...ah." you pause and stop following your friends when you hear someone speaking somewhere in the building.

"What's wrong?" You heard your friend ask you in worry as she notice you stopping in the middle of the hallway.

"Sorry I thought I heard beehives and bees buzzing." You lied, not because you don't want to warn your coworker but because your aren't sure what you hear just now is a real ghost or not.

"I'm going to get a look, maybe they are honey bees." You wanna run away since it's your agency moto to run away when if there's a ghost around.

"Oh! If you say so!" Your friend wave you off and continue to join the rest of the group that happily wave you off and bid you goodbye to your honey searching.

"...I'm going home." You mumble as you turn your heels and walk away from the building.

'oof. One run away. How sad.'

'at least there some sane human in the group.'

'you sound like we're going to do anything to them. They going to danger themselves with their own stupidity.'

"...ah man." You sigh in relief as you manage to walk away from that place and walk toward the river bank you saw earlier that day that is close to the asylum.

" ~ 🎶 ~"

"...it's you." You once again hear someone singing and when you found the source, it's the same person from yesterday. You cover your ears as you felt it becoming warm.

He stop singing and look at you and softly wave at your direction. You look at him again as you realize your really like some weirdo yesterday. And thought you could try to change your impression on him.

"Hello!" You happily wave at his direction with a wide smile. "Sorry about yesterday! I swear I'm not that emotional all the time!" You added.

You notice him looking at you in surprise before he stare at you with soft smile that seems to be full of happiness. "It's fine. I am glad your fine now..." His gentle melodic voice made your ears tingling and warmth start to corrupt your cheeks.

"Oh! Nice to meet you! My name is --(f/n), (L/n)." you introduce yourself feeling that you can trust him to chat with him even through both of you are a river apart.

"My name is Tatsumi... It's nice to meet you too..." He felt happy as he look at you.

"Tatsumi?! Your name is very pretty! Like your voice~" you complimented him which leads him to be taken back as pink tint appear in his cheeks. Since you two are far apart you can't see it.

"I-is that so? Thank you very much for the compliment...." The smile on his face seems to glue as he felt so happy right now. He felt crying from happiness but that won't lead to anything good.

"Are you a singer perhaps?" You ask him curious why he seems like someone who sing for a living.

"Singer? No... Maybe back at my home before... I always sing for father along side my brothers.... I don't have any job related to singing now..." He doesn't have a job, cause he get banished from being your guardian angel. Period' He replied as he don't want to end the interaction with you anytime soon.

"Ehh... But thats a bit sad if you no longer sing ~ through I thought if your a singer I would go buy all your album and be your fan~" you giggle as you already plan up a head if he did say his a singer. You have a paycheck coming soon, it be a good sacrifice for heavenly album with all his songs.

"Is my voice really beautiful for you?"

"Yup~ I could listen to it and sleep peacefully ~ " even with those noisy neighbor of yours fucking across the walls. "Oh! Oh! I don't know if you trust me but if you don't have a job would you like to be hired by me to just sing me to sleep?" You felt your pushing your self and your being too open or is your neighbor really bothering you to the point your going to hire someone to sing you lullaby to sleep.

"Eh..." Tatsumi don't know the fast development of the topic but he quickly agreed even through he don't know how he would sing to you if he cannot approach you in a certain distance or else you'll going to 'melt' by his presence.

"I would glad but don't you need to take precautions with strangers ? What about... I... Use this 'phone' to 'call' and sing for you?" He take out the modern phone he never understand how to use even aira offer him one. His still living in the old age and not use the modern things.

But it seems he needs to learn the basic today just to continue to stay in touch with you.

"Ooh! Your right! Sure! Ahm... This is my mail--" you told him your email to call and he note it down In his mind as he try to look how to unlock his screen. He seems to forget how to unlock it.

"-- and that's it! Do you want me to repeat it? Since your aren't tapping anything on your phone." You can see him pretending but your hearing says otherwise.

"Ah..." He look at you in surprised.

"Sorry. I'm still new at using phone. I forget how to unlock it... But don't worry. I have a good memory. I already memorize your email." He don't want to hide the fact that his bad using technology after been caught faking tapping his phone.

"Ehh... Just swipe up." You look surprised that someone is still not use to technology but you happily tell him. Through you guys still a quite have a distance between you two. He seems very trustworthy

Hearing him swiping his screen and the sound of being unlock.

"Ooh..." He look at his home screen that is the default wallpaper of his phone brand and thought about what app aira tells him before but he accidentally turn off his phone from clicking random app and buttons.

"You can describe them and I'll tell you what it is~"

"Won't it be a bother?"

"It's fine! I am still waiting for my group to finish exploring that place so I can spend time with you till they went out."

Soon the two you chat for a while, your instructing him how to use his phone . Through it's really odd chat since both of you are far distance with the 10 feet (?) Running river in between of the of you two.

You wanted to approach him closer both him who said it's fine and the river flow seems dangerous to cross at night-- you aren't even sure how deep it is.

Time passes by your friends come around with spook out and scared look they gotten from hearing some ghost at the asylum--mostly them scaring themselves than 'ghost' did.

"Yoo" your leader called out to you as they notice you from a distance. You already say your farewell to Tatsumi and awaits his first call once your back home to meet up with your friends.

"Ara, ara? Your talking to someone just now?" One of your close friend jested but you nodded your head causing her to pause. "... In the middle of the forest?" You nodded your head once more. " There's no houses or compound near here through... Are you sure you chatted with someone normal and not a murderer?" She start to shake you for answer out of worry.

"I don't think someone angelic like them would do that!" You resort back. Tatsumi is nice and gentle person with a very beautiful voice you would like to listen to for a while.

"Oh man. Psychopath always look mental fine but aren't." You pout as you realize they are all too judgemental for your new friend...

'Ah I wonder if it's fine to call him friend.' you pause and wonder.

"Oho. Maybe the suspicious person is your soul mate that's why your fine how sus the situation is~" she finally realized your not going let her words get some sense in you with the high possible reason to why that is the case.

You look at your friend with soft smile.

"A match maker who can see soul mate thread once said to me I have no such thing as soul mate. " You reveal.

In this world where one can find their soul mate much easily and be happy with the right person fated by the heaven for them than make awful mistake for a partner-- their are some rare cases like you who were born without one.

"...h-huh... S-sorry...!" Your friend quickly apologize as she realize it most be a bad topic to talk about.

"It's fine. The idea of someone deciding my own fate and who to be with sound like a pain. I don't want think me having none is a bad thing. One can live without a love interest partner. I have my friends like you all after all~" you happily says, you really aren't bother having no soul mate but glad you could decided your own fate!

"*Hic... UWAHHH. WE LOVE YOU TOO F/N!!" all your friends become emotional and give you group hug, they all heard what you say and they forgotten the spook they went through.

"Ahaha ~ I love you all too~" you felt warm being surrounded by your friends and coworker who are bunch of oddballs in such odd job but you all close.

Later on while walking back.

"Hey did you get some honey?"

"...no I run away I thought I heard some non human people speaking earlier."

"......."

Your group all linked arms robotically like the usual thing you all do when you all realize you could been a horror movie victim-- and run heck out of the forest to the car you guys brought with you.

"AHAHAHA" through ya guys laugh when ya all in the safe distance in the car

...

You slept on the building your agency for ghost and supernatural haunting inc. instead of going home since you have some food with you and your group decided to watch some romcom in the lobby of the agency. Your not planning to go home because your sure you won't get sleep from the noises from your neighbor. Your coworker would be knock out cold before the introduction anyway so it's all good.

Through you look at your phone, waiting for someone to call or notification from certain someone. Waiting till you slowly slept.

...

Couple of days passes by Tatsumi don't reply to you yet making you felt that he wont plan to do so because who would want to be hired by someone you met in the forest.

Currently your in the mall, going to a supermarket to buy another stock of food for your cooking class this week.

While walking you bumped to someone as your busy looking for possible notification. You did hear someone walking in the same aisle with you but pay no mind to it.

"Oof...." You landed on you bum. "Aww..." You run your head that receive a smack from an unknown object.

"Ah....sorry." you heard a familiar voice, causing your to shudder out of fear. You don't dare look up as you look at the item that is dropped on your head and it was a very concerning lewd book with what seems to be an succubus in the cover.

"S-sorry....!!!" You felt your cheeks warm as you held the book to the person to give it to them, you stood up so fast you lost balance so quick. "I--..." You were caught by chuckling neighbor of yours and they helped you back to your feet, your hand felt like burning as you continue to held the book. "H-here....!!" You shove the book to them which made them laugh even more.

" You dont have to shove it to me like it's a bomb it's only a reference book." They very amuse by your action.

"R-reference??? But isn't that a H book?" You fidget as you start a conversation with someone that intimidated you to no end with a topic your not comfortable with.

"Oh. Ye I guess it is for others." They look at the book in front of your eyes, showing you a very pornographic scene of a woman taking control over the submissive male. You felt your heart going to jump out of your chest and your face would probably be so red your going to beat a chili in redness.

"I--... P-please... D-dont... S-show...." You cover your face and your hand felt being burn by how warm your cheeks are.

"Lol ya sure is interesting. Anyway I'm saying this a reference since I'm researching anything related to lust demon." They finally put away the book back to the cart they have.

"O-oh...?" You sigh in relief but you look at them when they mentioned lust demon. "Y-your researching about incubus and succubus???" Since your working under the agency haunting one, you did read some books about those kind of stuffm your boss have bunch of old books containing facts, theories as well sighting of real supernatural creatures living among us from old age to current time.

They nodded their head.

"W-why would you look for details about them in a H book?"

"Don't know where to find a book that isn't for rent for hundred dollars. And it's a open source for me." They shrugged their shoulder as they never went far with their search.

"...I ..." You wonder if it's a good idea to help them out but thinking that your neighbor probably reading Porn out of public just to search about the lust demon fill you with dread. Being helpful to them might guilt trip them to shut up again tonight.

"I have a book for those. Y-you can borrow them..." You could always take home some book from your work place since no one really read them as much as you guys research for buzzfeed video.

"Oh? I thought your going to be hating me or something. Never thought you'll go out to help me." They pause as they look at you with genuine smile "your going to use this to make sure the noise is muted isn't it?" They laugh but is happy your going to lend them a proper book.

"N-no..." You once again denied. "I-i will give them to you later... BYE!!" The pressure have taken over you and you flee the scene yet again.

...

You went back to your work place to get the book after you ask permission from your boss who look at you in the eye and said:

I know you don't have a soul mate but please don't summon a demon just to have a healthy adult life--

You slapped him across the face with beyond red face because of his assuming thoughts! He only laugh as he leaves you be.

"Ah... *Sob." You cried out of being too emotional yet again. You don't know why you suddenly felt crying because of the whole ordeal about being open to a topic about sexual thing.

It's not that your pretending to be innocent angel by not liking such topic. You just don't like how open people are and it make you felt guilty for your also interested more about the topic yet keep it inside. Growing up in a home where your thoughts such sexual desire and wanting sexual desire before marriage is a sin and if you were to engage even to tackle it in open you will get sermon and be told about stuff that can traumatized a young child.

They even made it worse as your parents discovered that your not only lack soul mate, you also lack a guardian angel to help you. They said if you sin, there's no redeeming for you because even your angel have abandon you.

You thought they are over thinking about things... It's a silly thing that you hatefully gain a bad habbits from. You can't be open even if you wanted too. Well it's not like your going to do such thing because your going to be single for life.

' I wanna be able to be shamelessly tackle such topic with someone too....' your Lay your head at your lap while holding the book about [ angel and demon ]. Years fall down to the cover that have a magic circle in it. It glows but you don't notice it as you calm yourself down. When you finally did, you decide to go home.

...

Knock knock knock

You knock on your neighbor door, you know there someone inside because you can hear someone talking inside. Fortunately you don't disturb anything today.

"H-hello...." You great, looking down at your feet. Holding the book tightly. "It seems that you have a visitor, honey~" you heard someone that is clearly not your neighbor spoke.

You froze. You arent looking at the person but somehow there voice have an effect. Not like tatsumi gentle voice but somehow that person voice is too sinful. Like something that would cause someone to sin.

"........" You grip the book in your hand tightened and start murmuring some bible verse out of habbit and cursing something about your neighbor have someone weird with them. Tears forming in the corner of your eyes as you stay each second alone with this sinful person.

"Stop calling me something cringe. Smh." When you heard your neighbor voice, you almost sigh in relief. How much intimidating they are too you, you would rather endure to stay alone with them than this person.

"--...why are You bullying my neighbor?" You hear your neighbor clicked their tongue in dismay. "Sorry! No I don't think I did anything yet to be called a bully?? Wait maybe being with the likes of me in the same place is insulting to her...?! SORRY YOU COULD TREAT ME LIKE A AIR OR A TRASH--" the companion of your neighbor start to downgrade himself each time he continue to speak, you start to felt guilty.

"S-sorry! Y-you don't do anything! I'm not use to strangers...." You resort back tearfully.

"NONO! CLEARLY I AM THE ONE AT WRONG HERE! *sob."

"Oh goodness.... I'm surrounded with cry babies." You hear your neighbor sigh. before laughing. Somehow it made you and the stranger stop trying to take fault with something you clearly cause if your not being too emotional.

"I--.... Brought the book you wanted...." You finally gain courage to look up and hand them the book. At that very moment, you saw the person they are with.

You almost dropped your book when you see that very person with a horn on top on their head and some feature that clearly under the category of a demon.

You know about it because you thought learning about demons would make you free from your parents shackle on you, yet it only cause you to remember it and asking for forgiveness afterwards.

"D-demon..." You fearfully called almost inaudible to hear but you close your eyes to blink what you saw but you still see the same feature on the person.

"Y-your friend.... H-here... S-seems..." You take a deep breath trying to compose yourself as you don't understand why your seeing things and it won't disappear even how much you rub your eyes. You wanna cry each time.

"...oh. usually people would start looking at him with lust after gazing on him and I have to threaten them to stop them from staring... This is very new. AHAHAHA." Your neighbor don't seems to hear your first words as they only saw how your looking at their companion with more fear and shaking form. Like a pitiful chick left in the rain.

"M-master...." The demon tagged your neighbor in worry because he clearly hear what you just said first. He don't know how your able to see him through his disguised.

"... What the. Lmao, so your calling me master again?" Your neighbor is awfully enjoying the whole thing. "I... Should leave..." You backaway. Not wanting to spend more time with the demon.

"Don't go yet~ you give me cookies before. I felt I should offer you some treats as well. Come inside~ I can make some coffee and chat with you~" you neighbor stop you. You wanted to reject their offer but they grab hold of you and dragged you inside.

"Hey! Help me close the door ok?" They ask their companion who nodded his head before they pulled you to their living room.

"--???" You heard the demon being surprised by something at the door. He start to speak in a language you don't understand with someone.

You fidget in the sofa as your neighbor went to make some coffee in their kitchen. Leaving you alone.

"...iwannaleavesobad." you cried as you held the book tighter. You suddenly felt the warm atmosphere that the demon made you felt when his around and notice someone take seat in front of you. "!!!" You back away in the far end of the sofa, trying to make some distance between you and him be far as possible.

"Goawayfiend...." You sobbed as you try to pray your way out of this situation. You remember reading about how exorcist demons from reading the book in your hand and start mumbling the words.

"Ah... S-sorry... Your effort to try to exorcist me is p-pointless..." He apologize as he realize your trying to exorcist him because only certain people can do such thing. "!!!" Your eyes widen and cried even more because your plan have been discovered by him.

"Y-you don't need to be that scared by the likes of me..." He tried to reassure you but his a demon. Demon cannot be trusted.

"Imnotgoingtobetemptedbyafiendihaveinnerpeaceandidontneedsuchthings..." You start to proceed yourself. Covering your ears as it's very sensitive to the sound of the beautiful temptation in front of you.

"Here's the coffee.... Lol what's going on here." Your neighbor finally come back and place the coffee on the table. You who is push by freenzy and they are the only safe place even how scary they are to you before. They are like beacon of light in the dark tunnel. You shamelessly leech behind them while they stood confuse what's going on.

"H-help..." You cried as you hug your neighbor. "Eh... In what?" They seems confuse why you need help and being too touchy now. But they dont really mind it since you look like a scared baby chick trying to find safe shelter.

You could feel the demon gazing at you as your hugging your neighbor quite shamelessly. It's burning a hole in you and it made you more uncomfortable.

"Y-your... Companion is a d-demon..." You cried out. Their eyes widen at your words yet instead of fear they only giggle as they pat your head comforting you and calming you down from your dreaded state.

"Oh? Yes he is indeed a demon." Your eyes widen as you realize they know what kind of person they are with. "W-why are you not scared t-then...." You don't understand how your neighbor mind work at all. "Why would I? His my soul mate."

You suddenly don't know what to say but their soul mate seem to fan boy like crazy the moment your neighbor happily introduce them.

"Y-you don't need to say it s-so o-openly...... Ahh... I'm so happy...! Through you can call me your toy for others t-too!" You never know demon can have a soul mate nor they react that way like a fool in love. But clearly this demon on front of you is so smitten and enamoured by his soul mate.

"Ahmm.... Your seem to be forgetting how to breath..." You saw worries in their eyes as your too shook at everything you learn from neighbor today. You start seeing dots and don't understand what they mean your not breathing -- yourtotallyfine (lies)

"Calm down. Take a deep breath and exhale...f/n" you heard a gentle voice guide you as your pulled away from your neighbor. The moment they held you, you fainted.

Maybe your too emotional again and too stress today, you can't take it and have a break down. But your were safely caught by the secure and safe hands of the fourth person.

....

In a dream state, you remember that time when your parents taken you to a guide that would tell you what's your possible future would be and where you could find your soul mate.

You were to happy that day because you were hype by the thought of someone waiting for you one day. But that very day your parents who treat you lovingly change when the guide have told you what they see in you.

"Oh how terrible... This poor child. Not only your fate is not destined to anyone but your own angel have long fallen in in​iq​ui​ty. Banish from the heaven they once live because of you."

You understand what he meant but your parents looks at you like your some monster. Who can make a holy being such an angel sin against the almighty.

"I... Don't anything wrong..." You don't understand why they are blaming you. Your so young yet those gaze made you want to throw up. Why is your parent looking at you like that? Do they not love you anymore? You wanted comfort yet they flinch the moment of contact.

"Am I bad child?" You cried as that day your parents treated you change so drastically. Your parents worries that you will not able to redeem yourself because of awful thing you did to your angel. They said it's Cause they love you and want you to be cleans but it's not they are Terrible.

Those years... You wonder why would an angel who is supposed to guide and protect you would leave you or fall from grace because of you.

...

"-- oh. " You heard someone speaking as you slowly open your eyes that seems poofy cause of tears as you cry when you slept.

"Good evening f/n." You heard a gentle voice of Tatsumi whos brushing your hair and humming a tone for you while tou slept earlier while laying in his lap-- wait tatsumi? Your eyes widen as you look at the person who smile down at you.

"The difference of an angel and a demon. One is fine to stalk cause they are 'guarding' the person while the other is terrible bad cause they are known to only does so cause they wanted something from you." You heard your neighbor reading something.

"Basically they are both stalkers. This books Just label one being good and the other bad. Lol-- oh your awake." Your neighbor realize your awake as they notice you looking at them reading the 'angel and devil' book you brought with you.

"H-hi..." You mumble as try to stood up from laying at tatsumi's lap. But you seems to weak.

"Be careful...." He helped you seat properly against the sofa. You thank him. But you wonder how his in your neighbor place.

You unconsciously look at your neighbor who look up from the book.

"No I don't know that person." They shrugged.

Tatsumi might be a gentle person. But why would they let someone they dont know inside????

"The incubus with us, do know him. His the one letting guest I don't know about inside my house." You watch your neighbor smile as they reach out to pinch the side of certain demon beside them. "S-sorry... I'll ask permission next time.."

"... Next time huh...?" Your neighbor clicked their tongue before they rolled their eyes and went to lay their head in the demons lap. "Do as you please. I don't care enough to bother who you invite inside."

"..." You become silent when you realize your still looking at a demon. Your not seeing things earlier nor was it a dream.

You start to hyperventilating at your reality.

"Calm down... It's fine... Mayoi is a good demon..." Gentle hands pats your head, comforting you out of your discomfort. You look up to Tatsumi who you just notice have feather wings on his back. A black hallow that seems to dripping or melting down and black two horns on his head.

Your eyes widen and you froze under his securing arms. " I--.... "

"What's wrong? Don't worry no one would harm you." The fallen angel in front of your eyes softly smiled at you, reassuring your safe as long you with him.

Yet something dreadful creeps in your mind at the sight of the fallen angel.

"~ 🎶 " seeing your still cover with fear tatsumi start to hummed and sing you a song to help you calm down faster.

"~ 🎶 " mayoi who is the demon seems to know the song and sing along with him.

The room become silent as the two sing a song. You give a side view to your neighbor who just read the book in silent. They don't seems to worry about the situation at all. You take a deep breath and calm yourself down. Tatsumi pat your head softly as he realize your comfortable now yet he still sing.

...

"You two going to leave ? Aww. I was enjoying having someone else in my house~ except this almost free loader here." Your neighbor look at you in disappointment as you decided to go back home after haft an hour, they give a side glance to the incubus who flinch being mention.

"..." You remain silent as you look down at your hand. You don't talk at all after waking up. You don't know what words or what words words you night say if you speak. "Well. Thank you for having me in your humble home. I'm glad to get to know a precious friend of mine's most precious soul mate." Tatsumi give a kind smile.

Your neighbor mind seems to think something and and pulled the incuby to whisper something.

"There's nothing intimate between you and Tatsumi right? Why do I sense you guys aren't in a normal relationship?" You clearly hear your neighbor says. "H-huh... Why would you think that --" "when I think about it more. If you ever did an ntr on me. I would allow it. ONLY if it's a good looking demon and send me pic and video for reference afterwards." Your ears almost bleed out of embarrassment when you hear them whisper such thing. The incubby who slowly process such words have a mental melt down and trying to say he won't do such thing

"*Cough. Thank you for the compliment. But we'll be going now." Tatsumi seems to hear the whisper too and cough to get the attention of the two. He held your hand and you both run away before you two could hear more of the topic.

He seems to know your discomfort. The two of you arrive at your apartment door and he was about to let go of your hand when you unconsciously held it tighter.

"S-sorry..." You apologize and let go of his hand. Not realizing how he look at his hand that once hold yours in a sad gaze. " Erm... " You don't look up to him because you fear what words would come out of your mouth if you see his non human feature your eyes keep letting you see.

"You seems alarm around me... " He mumble before he sigh hopelessly and chuckle. " I thought I can finally chat with you about the job offering... Or maybe you wanted me to chat you Vai phone?"

"Ah... I t-thought you don't accept it since I been ghost by you for days..." You mumble while playing with your fingers. "Oh, I apologize for making you think that. I was busy with certain things and I was asking a room mate of mine to teach me how to use mobile phones in his free time." He apologize.

"O-oh...." You felt happy he dont ghost you on purpose but still. Was it safe to hire a supernatural being or a once a divine being to be your personal singer to have a good sleep? Can you even afford to hire one?!

Many questions floods your mind.

"Do you not wish to hire me anymore? I felt bad if your not comfortable with me, to be force now to hire me. Maybe I should go before you start hyperventilating again... Such thing would worries and sorrows me." He was about to leave as he wish to not make you hate him or hate his presence even how much he wanted to spend time with you like this.

"I-- I... I still want. S-sorry there's a lot in my mind today.... " You grab hold his hand again to stop him from leaving. You finally look up to him, eye to eye.

"I still want to hire you! Please don't go..." Don't leave me. If your really who I think you are... Even so if it's really the case of my guess being wrong... that your not that angel... Still, Your presence give me comfort. Even how dangerous you are being shown in my eyes right now.

His purple eyes widen before a gentle smile slowly appear on his face. His hand sheepishly held your hand back.

"You have a lot in your mind it seem... You need a good we'll deserved rest.... Shall I do my first day duty today?" He ask you giving you a close eyes smile.

"Y-yes! Your right...! T-then come inside!"

You invited him as your mind internally scream at your action as if there's many sides in your head debating.

...

Logic cell#1:WHY WOULD YOU INVITE A FALLEN ANGEL AT YOUR HOME? WHAT IF HE DRINK YOUR BLOOD-

Logic cell#2:FK YOU! THAT'S A VAMPIRE NOT FALLEN ANGEL

Logic cell#3:THAT LUST DEMON SAYS WE CANT EXORCIST DEMONS WHAT TO DO!

Logic cell#2: IF WORSE COME BY WE CAN JUST KICK HIS WEAK SPOT... WAIT DO ANGEL HABE GENDER? HOLY WHAT IF IM USING WRONG PRONOUN AND GET HANG BY SOME FOLKS?

Inner desire: Isn't he kinda seggsy. What if we--

Logic cell#1: SHUT THAT INNER DESIRE CELL! LOCK EM UP! LOCK EM UP!

...

You want to hit your head against the wall so bad. "agh..." You silently scream to your hand before you turn to look at your visitor who look at you in worry. You lead him to your sofa beside your bed to seat comfortably.

"S-sorry... Anyway! I'll take a bath first since I'm going to sleep anyway!" You hurried to go to your bathroom but you did offer some magazine you have from your work place and some snack so he won't get bored.

While your busy taking a shower and cooling your head down from thoughts

tatsumi reach out to read some of the magazine and covering his face but if you look closely you can see redness in his ears as you only have a apartment that is straight to your bedroom and only have side kitchen in the side and the door of your bathroom in the other. He can clearly hear you showering.

"Ah...she really need to take precautions..." He gulped as he try to distract himself by reading.

...

"I'm done!hehe!" You somehow manage to relax yourself to be not so guarded with him. You thought about how he is an angel and he only use or look someone of male sex.

Since you clearly read angels don't have such thing sexual desire, they won't have have urge at all or organs needed for that matter! AHAHA. AT WORSE HE WOULD KILL YA SINCE HIS A FALLEN ANGEL.

Your only worried about other thing than dying in his hands. That's why your so scared of the incubus earlier. His mare presence can cause distraction to your maintenance of your inner desire.

"Oh? Then are you ready to sleep--" he pause when he saw you only on your towel. "w-why are you only wearing towel???" He quickly turn around and over his face. His face so warm and his already chanting some prayers of forgiveness for he have sinned.

Even so his a fallen angel, he still have a mindset of an angel. That's why he don't fully fallen to the category of a demon like other fallen angels.

"What's wrong? " You ask confuse as you move to the closet of yours. Usually you would be embarrassed by what your doing but since his not human and an angel. He aren't included in norm of human way. So his fine. You thought while changing your cloths.

"Do you not know your with a guy? Please remember we're still strangers what if I did something unthinkable to you?" He give you a side glance before he quickly turn away when he see skin.

"Eh... But your aren't human. Why would I be worried." You mumble.

He froze. He remembers clearly you manage to identify his friend being a demon. He never thought he too would be one who'll you'll seen through the disguised.

"... You can see that I'm not one? Even so I'm wearing charms and disguise... "You heard him utter in surprised."Right. That person said so that this might be the case..." he mumble his last words almost inaudible for others yet you can clearly hear it as you close your closet and done changing cloths.

"At worse you could kill me." You jumps on your fluffy bed. You turn to look at him as you hug your pillow. "Isn't death like a long slumber without waking up? Dying is just sleeping--"

"Please dont think that way." He stops you in your sentence with genuinely worried look. " Death shouldn't be taken lightly... Even how much tiresome the challenge in our lives are. Please don't lost the will to live." He walk towards you as he was in the sofa beside your bed and seat in the bed to reach out to you for a hug. He pat your head comforting you. Your eyes widen as you felt something wet dripping down to your cheeks.

You do love to sleep but your aren't that depress to wish for eternal slumber. You just wanna lighten the atmosphere with a dark humor joke. You were going to add something but he reacted so quick you already forgot your next response.

"..." Silence once surrounded you two. "My hair is still wet, your going to get wet." You mumble your worry as much as his hugs are comforting it's not a good time for hugs.

"Dont worry such simple matter is not as much as important to proceed you to change your ways and your thoughts about your prospect and view about life." He brush off your concern as he softly place you in his lap to seat and made you lean against his chest and he hummed as he babied you.

You wanted to complain but he start to lecture you about important of life and how it's a gift. Listening to his sermon and his gentle voice. You felt drowsy and held one of his hand and slept. You won't let go of him even how deep sleep you are in.

That night you don't remember what kind of dreams you have but it seems like a happy dream and made you relax even more.

...

The next day, he still hold you in his arms as he lean his back to your bed and slept while seating up with you still being held dear in his arms and holding his hand.

You look at his beautiful face that is sleeping peacefully. You wonder about something as you look at the black halo on top of his head.

"..." It won't be thay bad to touch right?

You thought out of curiosity as you slowly reach out to touch the halo. The moment you touch it with your finger tips--

"Agh...ahh...~" You jolted as your body just went for a very odd sensation of being electrocuted but instead of pain that jolt all your nerves it's very very overwhelming pleasure. "What was that.... " You mumble as you calm yourself down.

"...don't you know curiosity kills the cat?" Purple eyes slowly open to gaze at you in solemn look. "You really shouldn't touch an angels -or fallen angel at that matters- halo's." He sigh hopelessly as he look at your bashful state who is caught red handed.

"S-sorry... I don't mean to make you mad by doing that." You fidget and unable to meet his gaze out of guilt.

"I'm not mad. I will never be mad to you." He did the unthinkable act for an angel for you, yet he still willing to do such thing over and over again. "Just don't do that again or else simple charms of mine cannot help once your deep in the well..." His words is full of ambiguous and enigma but remember what happened to you just now makes you realize it could been worse if you held it with your palm.

"I will..." You nodded your head. "Good morning." You greet him. "Good morning to you too." He smiled gentle. The topic just now have been change. "You slept like cute little chick when I'm having a sermon." He don't realize your already asleep in his arms not until he hear your soft snores.

"....sorry... " You scratch your head in apology. He let you off as the two of you went to your mini kitchen in the corner to make a coffee.

You held two cups in question, wondering if he can drink one but he accepted one and drink it like a normal person would. You stared at him in fascination.

"Whats wrong? You want to ask something?" He notice how you stare at him questioningly. "Ahm... N-nothing particular... But it's probably going to offend you..." You sip your coffee to calm yourself.

"I won't mind entertaining your question..." He watch you seat in front of him across the small table you have. "Do ... Do you ahmm.... " You can't find the right word to explain your question as you look at sipping his coffee. "Hmm? Go on." He proceeded you. You sigh and finally ask.

"I thought supernatural like Angel? Or what you call yourself a fallen --would be a hallow inside. No organs and all. You know like living dolls...? Because base on what I read in the book, supernatural beings dont need to sleep, to drink, get tired or something a human felt... Except it depend which category your in. Like lust demon lives for lust, gluttony never satisfied their endless hunger and surely eats. And some other stuff. But " you pause as you made eye contact with his beautiful purple eyes.

"Y-you... As someone in an angel category... are described as neutral-divine supreme being that won't usually take human form but a form that no human cannot gaze upon without wilting or melting beyond comparison to all the feelings they felt in one lifetime..." you notice him looking at you with slightly narrow gaze as if questioning where you gotten your source of knowledge. Yet never stopped you from your speech and let you continue till you finished and finally ask your question.

"Clearly you don't need to drink coffee, sleep or a job. And I probably should be in the same state as I was when I first seen you... You see I just connected the dots when I realize your someone none... Human. " You look down to the mug and at the reflection that show a human like person in front of you. Yet his not.

"So ...Why are you pretending... ? Or maybe there's some facts yet to be updated." It's an old book after all. There might be details that's change since time passes and many could change.' you thought as you sip your coffee.

"Also I wonder if .... Your that angel that is once upon a time task to guard me." Your voiced trailed off almost voiceless as your not even willing to learn the fact or the answer. You live your life without one, so why would he appear before you?

"Ahaha... You are very smart child." He felt hopeless as you throw facts after facts. He almost choke on the coffee that you made for him each time you speak another information you know.

"...all what you state are correct. But you lack some certain facts. We can still eat, sleep or get thirsty. Or do what normal human do as we are trying to coexist with you all. Through as an angel... Or once an angel. I'm far from needing to do such things... Before I taken a human form..." He lock gaze with you.

"Someone like me shouldn't show favoritism or favor to my precious human that is once under my care yet I watch over her life, lifetime after lifetime trying to redeem herself from a pass karma she was destine to make by fate. She have no will of her own... No one does. Everyone is control by the so called supreme beings, father and fate... Being demon is more nice than what I once am. " His hand fisted in agony of bad memories of the past. His halo on top of his head start to drip and static.

"..." You keep silent as you bite your inner cheek as you don't like what your hearing right now. Yet you hear him out like he did to you.

"That's why when I was chosen to live among human, to help them, to guide to what is dictate as the 'right' way.... I instead of focusing in my task, to help people... I instead only help her. I was sermon by father... By my brothers because my stupidity to helping someone who's fated to ruined fate. But how can I..." Tears fall from his eyes.

" How can I watch in the sideline as she try to continue living her best among others with ill fate.... That all her efforts are for a knot. Because she was made to be made an example. An example that no one. That...No one are always fortunate... Because she is fated to make a mistake to sin a long time ago... Yet only then when I help her she finally gotten a rightful rights on her life. That she could be happy in her next life." He smiled as he was fond on the memories after many tragedies.

"Father thought I was stupid but change his mind when I start a debate of what system he have. He soon let me be. Yet... He realize that I'm not doing it just because I thought it's unfair... It's more than that. He can see through me... Yet I am willing to show the truth. But he task me something as a punishment..." he held the bat charm he have in his neck as he felt horrible.

"..." Good gott. The atmosphere is suffocating you and you felt tears building up in the corner of your eyes the moment he start crying. You want to comfort him. Yet you cannot move from your spot. You cannot even say anything at all.

"Ah... I'm such a horrible angel. I fight for her happiness yet when father made me choice who to pair her soul with. I refuse each time and postpone it." His face look comical. As if his shading false tears. He cover his mouth as he cried with no sincerity.

"Ahaha.... Father was right. It's indeed a punishment to me. How can he make me suffer by making me choice someone to her that could never be... Me." His eyes darken almost as if his purple orbs become pure darkness.

"Ahm... P-please calm down..." You finally found your voice but you gasp for a breath as simple effort cause you to lost your right breath.

"Oh no! I'm sorry... " He realize his being emotional and that the things that the charm supposed to hide is leaking out. Out of unconscious response, he wanted to rush toward you.

"Ag...!.." you held you throat that felt being choke out air. You collapse to the ground as unbelievable pressure press you down. "I-its ...o...k...." You don't understand anything but as your vision start to blacken you saw worries in his eyes yet he cannot come closer to you. He will cause you more harm than good. He suddenly Sense someone familiar approaching.

"H-hiiro????? N-no...i-its not her time yet --!" He disappear as black chains that seems to come up from the abyss fragged him to the pit of oblivion without a word more of goodbye and next thing you know, you start to fade off reality and just heard your door is slam open and Someone running toward you.

"T-tatsu...mi..." You hopelessly call before that demon from last night with your neighbor rush toward you before a red haired in a hood to skip toward you. "hey! I'm here to take the soul--"

"No. It's false alarm hiiro..." You heard the demon says as he start to talk to the red haired who listen to his words but before you can ask more. You were out cold.

...

A blurry image of two people meeting in front of a huge farm land, the first wear pure white long sleeve dress while the other is barely sewn cloths. Yet the later person smile so happily as they great the other.

"... It's nice to see you again!"

"Likewise, i'am also very glad to meet you today."

"Are you free today? Would you like to join me harvest some herbs in the mountains?"

"I would gladly...."

The two then disappear as they walk into the distance. You watch the scene in third point of view and confusion as the scene once again change. The two people are now in the top of the hill side and viewing the beautiful scene.

"Hey.... Do you have a soul mate?" The unfortunate one ask their companion who is in a trance gazing at them.

"Oh... Someone like me aren't given any..." He apologize to his friend.

"Oh...? Then it be a tragedy for someone good looking and gifted as you are to be lonely.... " They can't help but sigh but then pause.

"Oh, I know! Since I'm someone who is yet to get one... We can accompany one another so two of us won't be lonely. I'm willing to held your hand through thick and strong even as friends-- as our only connection we both have and aren't strong as others share..." They smile so happily as they offer their hand to him.

His eyes widen yet his reluctant to held their hand. But he still slowly reach out to them.

"Come on now... Don't be shy~" seeing their friend being slowpoke they reach out to held his hand and the moment they held hands his eyes can't help but felt enchanted at their two hands linking each other hands.

Their hands together felt likes its made to be that way and that it felt so right

yet he knows it isn't.

It can never be.

He shouldn't even think such thing.

Such thoughts would not lead to anything good...

Yet even so he knows all the awful things that is creeping and sin is whispering to be done in his mind.

He softly held the fragile hands of his most important and precious human.

And slowly he lean down to give a kiss on the back of the palm.

"If you don't mind my boring companionship then... I am willing to share your burden." He smiled as his purple orbs gaze in your (color) eyes. your no longer in the third point of view but rather your in the view point of someone else that is you yet not you.

You look at him who you now discovered as Tatsumi. Who look at you in a loving and adoringly.

Yet you are frozen and cannot speak as wind blow strong and you close your eyes to only see everyone stare at you unmeasurable loath and everything is burning around you.

"P-PLEASE S-STOP. FALSELY BLAMING AN INNOCENT IS WRONG-- PLEASE..."

You saw tatsumi trying to stop them yet it was too late, you held something precious in your hand as you once again close your eyes as if you have succumb to your fate with soft smile pasted in your face.

He watches in horror as tears hopeless falls down and everyone in the surrounding all kneeled as sheer pressure and agony he felt as he watch life left you again yet they all cannot felt the pain as as intense as he did.

He felt his heart broke, he doesn't care how he should act in front of fragile humans.

He is too hopeless and succumbing to painful emotion that are forbidden for all angels to felt.

"P-please..D-dont take her..." He begged the person that slowly walk to the lifeless corpse as a soul slowly appear before the dead body, the stranger reach out to the soul who is needed a guild to the afterlife, that person is a soul reaper, that is destined to take your soul.

"But won't it mean, she would have to endure this lifetime of hate longer?" Soft Golden gaze stare at the angel and the scene of all people crying blood and moaning in agony around him. His wings seems to slowly dread red in color.

"Supreme being like you should know what you should or shouldn't do. There are order in this world. That even us have to follow..." The young reaper can't help but felt sadness for the hopeless humans who have to bare the out come of a mourning angel.

They did such thing yet it was something that was meant to happened... Not until the angel cries and agony befall earth.

They did say once angel sigh, you'll start begging for forgiveness on your knee. What more if an angel mourn and cries?

The mortal humans can never take such beautiful catastrophe to befall them. Not only they well feel undescribable agony one can never handle but their soul well tire apart.

"Please stop crying... The poor humans..."

"Poor? Or Unfortunate? They are all unfortunate puppets who cannot even change or see what's wrong with everything!" He protested. The reaper can't help but be hopeless as he held your soul.

He look at the dying people and crying souls around them. He felt guilty yet the sadness he felt to see such kind of people all over again and again each time, each ending.

It leave him to feel numb to their pain, rather he felt it's karma. He just given them karma for falsely accusing and believing lies.

"...I... Please stop crying. I will not take her soul today... But she no longer have a body to live. So it's a hopeless case." He offer a soul for thousands. He knows its not something without drawback yet he cannot let others pass on before their due.

"Brother I'm sorry... I'm a bad reaper." The young reaper felt hopeless as his fate yet he look at the angel who happily held the soul with a smile.

"D-dont worry it be fine." He heard the angel says, he look at the beautiful being that lives in the heaven, a place someone like him cannot go.

His mother often says angels are very beautiful, like his father. But his mother died when humans cannot accept a human loving an angel. Yet he is a child of two.

Maybe that's why he is hopeless at the sight of another tragedy like his parents have. How his haft brother would be so disappointed at him.

"You...." The angel remember him. He don't know the name of reaper but he wish to thank him so much. The smile on the angel made him froze.

"It's kaname..." He Introduce himself. Tatsumi and him went to a different place away from human still holding dearly your soul. "But call me HiMERU!"

"Thank you very much HiMERU... I promise I'll take all the blame in account instead of you." He swear as he knows he just broken a taboo.

"D-dont worry too much about it. Ahaha..." The soul reaper felt embarrassed and overwhelmed being thanked by a supreme being.

"S-so what are you going to do now?" After a long silent, he look at the angel who still holding the soul.

"People fate are tied in each souls. I will try to purify the ill fate and karma bounding her lifetimes. So in her next life. She would be able to finally be happy." He smile as he can finally share your burden.

The reaper never understand, neither do you, who once again force to watch everything in third point of view.

Why would he go that far for a human. What's the point?

The scene disappear and you can no longer watch what happens next.

...

"...agh..." You felt drained when you wake up. You look at the ceiling and realized your in your room.

"Ahmmm.... This is weird..." You mumble as you realize something is a miss. It seems you forgetting something and don't know what happened in the past few days.

You have so many questions like your crying when you wake up when you don't even remember your dream.

Yet you continue to live your life like you usually do. Do some ghost haunting, research some stuff and just live for another day again with a very noisy neighbor of yours

....

"Yo~ you wanna go to a double date?" Your neighbor who you are sure aren't close to come to your door one day and give you ticket to a amusement park.

You at them in confusion but start to fidget at their intense gaze is starting to scare you again.

"C-can I reject ?" You mumble. You don't like crowded and Noisy places.

"Hmm... Oh, right! That person said you'll be dumb about some stuff after that accident! Don't worry, I'll make sure it be a fun time!" They dont give you a choice. There were never a yes or no.

They are just letting you know in advance so you could prepare.

So in the day where the invite supposed to happened the moment you hear someone from your neighbor apartment about to leave. As you tried to flee yet fate seem to stop you from doing so as you bump to someone in the staircase.

"S-sorry!" You apologize as you step away but lost balance and almost fall down the stairs when the stranger circle his arms around your waist and save you in the neck of time.

"Careful." A gentle voice whisper as he pulls you toward him and adjusted where your footing are. "There you go." You felt your ears burning by just hearing his voice. You slowly look up to meet purple gaze.

"What's wrong?" He ask you in confusion. For the pass few months you felr something is missing yet when you look at him you felt your eyes water and tears fall from your eyes.

"I...*hic..." You hopelessly sob. Not even fully knowing why. "H-huh don't cry!" He start to comfort you and whisper sweet nothing making you cry even louder.

"Oh father...." He felt hopeless and doesn't know what to do.

"Ah.... Your making your date cry it seems. " You hear a third person mumble and it was no other than your neighbor. "What a kind of (first) meeting do you kink to always make her cry? Whatever I dont care. Do your kink or whatever.... I won't judge...." Your neighbor rolls their eyes as the stranger who don't felt like stranger pat your back.

"Time to go." Another person come and reach out to held your neighbor hand. Your eyes are cover before you can gaze to the person face. "Don't look to a temptation. It's bad for you." He advice you solemnly.

"H-huh...?! I-- I don't do a-anything through?" The forth person can't help but gasp at tatsumi description of him.

"His not wrong. Your a living and walking temptation. I have to remove parasitism of leeches before they could torment you with their flirting. ONLY I can do that." You heard your neighbor says in a matter of fact tone.

"May you not be tempted by evil." He trace your eyes before he let your go. You look at the stranger in question but soon realize you can no longer escape!

And so you were hopelessly been dragged along by the three to go a very noisy place, your ears is about to bleed out from the noises the screaming kids are making and adult being such a pussycat in the rides.

"Agh... I wanna die instead of this torture...." you grumble as you felt your head ringing from the noises around you. "Here..." Someone put an ear plugs on your ears to lessen the noises your hearing like a ultra mega phone around you.

"Thank you." You smiled happily to the person who give you the earplugs. The stranger with purple eyes nodded his head. Before he offer his hand to you.

"I don't want to lost you in the crowd like we did to the other two. Would you mind holding hands with me?" He ask you with gentle smile. You suddenly realize the other two is no where to be found around the crowd.

You don't even know his name yet you not even that reluctant to held his hand.

While walking around the place, holding hands and going through booths and looking for a game that could fit the two of you.

Even Through the place isn't your liking, you somehow start to enjoy yourself and start smiling.

At the end of your dare where the ferris wheel is the last stop. You look at him and wonder.

"Do I know you?" You finally ask. You felt you know him yet no memories comes in mind. The familiarity is only cause by certain feelings that made you comfortable with him. "But I can't seems to remember what's your name." You look at his purple eyes who giving you odd gaze.

"...my name is Tatsumi." He finally introduce himself. "As for your first question.... We acquaintaned sometime ago... But things happened in between. Maybe you forgotten... Since there's nothing in my plate right now. I still want to be acquaintance or be friends with you again..." He look at you with soft and loving gaze. You hear people preparing to launch and start the fireworks but you continued to look at him.

"Because I realize, I fallen for you... Before I could ever " meet " you..."

His gaze that look at you with Loving and adoring gaze as he say his confession. The fireworks starts to cover the sky with it's beautiful and loudness that could been a good excuse to not hear him. Yet you cannot say, you miss out his confession because you clearly can hear him!

But he never seems to care if you hear him or not. He still acted the same, he held your hand to escort you back to your place and waved him good bye as your back to your apartment.

Confuse with all that happened. One thing you are sure off. His not your soul mate but why does he still fallen for you? What if it's just a passing feelings...

You tried to think he would move on but each day, he come to visit you to give you flowers and gifts. When you ask why his bothering to do such thing he answer you:

This country is a free country... In this era. We can express what we want right? Since I said what I felt for you. I don't need to hide that I'm around you because I have bad intentions but rather I wish to court you in a proper way... Unless of course you don't hear what I said. Shall I repeat what I said, I fallen for you--

"S-STOP! I HEAR IT AT THE FIRST TIME." your face felt start to burn up because he openly says his confession to you again in front of you and your coworker. This person is shamelessly come to your place and even deliver flowers and gifts to you there too.

"I'm glad then... I always heard that people won't hear people confession when there's a fireworks, ferris wheel and in a date." He laugh that seems to make the atmosphere light.

"... Isn't that classic shoujo manga " you heard one of your friend says.

"Hmm. A friend of mine likes to read those." Tatsumi seems very open as he start to chat with your friends and slowly gaining their side and trust. You can't even do anything as now they all root for him.

You rolled your eyes as you left the room as they all taken his attention. Going out of the building you sigh in relief.

"Ah... I should get something to drink." You mumble as you went to a vending machine. You have enough to buy one drink.

"Cola.... Coffee.... Juice ... Water... Ahm... What's should I get." You read the item that is on the vending machine.

You already taking some time to think you hear someone approaching you from the sideline but pay no mind until they stood beside you. You step a bit to the side as your still thinking what to get.

"Hm...." You hummed as you tap you feet in the ground. "Hmm..... Nevermind I'll just choice by random..." You sigh as you decided to just close your eyes after you enter your money and spin and press the first button you touch.

"Oh... Cola." You take out what you get and was about to leave when you now pay attention to the stranger with you. "...??? Ahm yes?" You look questioningly at the person, you look up and saw a tall handsome stranger with shoulder length blue hair and golden orbs that is looking at your cola.

"HiMERU cannot buy cola anymore it seems. You brought the last cola before HiMERU can. HiMERU shouldn't watch your clowning yourself out in the public first than buying cola even how hilarious it is." He felt dejected yet he still smile. And continue to eyeing your cola.

"Ahm.. I see..." You look at your cola before you give it to him. "you can have it then. I'll just drink water in the office." You don't know what to felt when he called what you just said being a clown because your pretty sure what you did is pretty random and a nutcase act.

"HiMERU would pay you then. "

"No need." You says and flee away before he could shove money to your hand. You really don't want to embarrassed yourself to a stranger more than you already did.

...

[pleuvoire]

words: glistened, pondered, glamor, despair, aware

Oh, dear. Kenzaki ducked behind a tree as soon as he caught sight of it. That was a monster, all right. Humanoid in shape, but insectile in composition, with antennae that trailed on the ground and vestigial jointed legs sprouting out of the sides of its torso, curling weakly in the air. It was lying on the ground, braced on one elbow, the other curled around its midriff; green blood glistened, pooling from gashes in its abdomen and sides, turning the fallen leaves wet.

kenhaji fairytale au my sweet sexy i need to get back to you it’s been a year. probably won’t use this version though cause i realized pretty quick i need to adopt that more concise telling-not-showing fairytale prose style where they say things like “and then he journeyed for many days until he came upon a castle and in the castle there lived a queen” if i want this to not be a million bajillion words long

don’t got anything for pondered (or ponders, etc) but i do have this

He knew Shinji was part of it, too. The gravity well of it pulled ponderously down around them both. In another moment, the aftermath of the dream would be gone, and Tezuka would not be able to chase it until next time.

from my tezushin good ending domestic bliss wip. this sounds ominous but it’s just from the little epilogue where tezuka goes “damn i’m getting some visions that there’s some freaky past life shit going on here. do i want to investigate? …nah i like our life as it is i’m good”

nothing for glamor or any of its variations!

no way i have so little for despair i thought for sure i would have something. all i have is this from an old attempt at writing v3 fic before i had a solid handle on kazami’s personality so i’m embarrassed of my mischaracterizarion -3-

“Well, it doesn’t really,” said Ichimonji with undue cheerfulness, sitting back down. “You still have to deal with the feelings, and there’s no easy answer for that. But having some perspective can help keep you from spiraling into despair, yeah? I’ve had to do this song and dance with Hongou all the time, I know how it goes.”

and lastly we got

He suspects from the blandness of his smile that Sano retains none of his own memories in that department, and that suspicion is all but confirmed when Sano slides into the seat next to him and says, all business, “There you are! I’ve been making the rounds introducing myself to all the other contestants, but I thought there was someone I was missing. Sano Mitsuru, pleasure to make your acquaintance. Here, my card—” And he reaches into the inside pocket of his suit jacket—Toujou becomes aware he himself is wearing a stained hoodie, which is perhaps fitting for a university student but downright pathetic for a man in his forties—to pull out a sleek business card case.

rider time satosano au i miss you so bad it’s also been a year. i want to finish this one no matter what but the amount of rewriting i would have to do at this point is daunting

thanks for playing :) hope you enjoyed

[x0401x]

Is that Shuu's little sister on the new Tsurune PV? Why does it seem she comes from VE? I'm really happy to see that they improved the art but I'm also disappointed to see that she has a moe design. It doesn't fit with Tsurune... and she doesn't look like Shuu...

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it's Sae! And the guy sitting next to Ryouhei in that scene must be Toujou.

She actually reminds me of Matsuoka Gou from Free!, tbh. Originally, she really isn't supposed to look like Shuu. One of Shuu's internal struggles stems from the fact that he doesn't look like anyone from his core family, because he takes after his English grandfather. That aside, Sae was supposed to look like a zashiki-warashi, but turns out she's basically little Gou with black hair, lol. Her design is pretty generic and it doesn't feel like there was much thought put into it.

Speaking of which, I don't get what's up with the character designs for this season. It feels like KyoAni is half-hitting and half-missing (no pun intended). Overall, I think Touma and Toujou are on-point. It's hard to get them wrong. I don't know how to feel about Ken'yuu and Reiji because they look almost right but not quite. Like, the designs do capture the essence of their personalities, but on the other hand, they simply don't look like normal people, and that makes them stand out in weird ways that simply don't fit into the picture. Eisuke and Koushirou, though? I still don't understand how this happened at all. Their original looks were completely fine. I'm iffy about Koushirou in particular because it seems his personality was changed in order to fit the anime's re-design. I just hope this doesn't mean that his dynamics with Eisuke will change as well. *knocks on wood*

[tracingdreams]

This week’s chapter...

Actually made me conflicted. 

On the one hand, I’m really angry that sensei didn’t let Miyuki hit that ball and get on base. I feel like it’s a wasted final encounter, if that’s how it’s going to end up. I want Miyuki to be able to prove to Mei that going to Seidou wasn’t a mistake. And I wanted him to do that by his own bat. So it’s far too meh to have Mei get the better yet again. I didn’t like that. I didn’t like it at all.

I get that the focus is on Eijun and if he can weather the storm and get the batters that traumatised him last summer out. With the pressure of one run as well. And I suppose Miyuki getting on base but not scoring would have wasted Maezono’s bat and potentially then those following up - I think next is Furuya, then Toujou, which is a quite strong batting lineup.

But given last chapter bigging up the Miyuki vs Mei thing, I feel like we needed Miyuki to get one over on Mei in a proper sense. One on one. 

ALL OF THAT SAID.

I’ve been talking lately a lot about teams vs individuals. There’s Shirakawa at the plate internally muttering about how the Seidou team haven’t bested Narumiya yet. All that pressure and reliance on Mei as the easy option, without whom they’d be pretty average among the good teams, rather than the favourites. 

So although I’m not happy about this week, Miyuki isn’t playing the game on his own. He doesn’t have to face down and defeat Mei on his own in a one on one confrontation, because he has the rest of the team to help him try and do that. And even if the runs are scored by another person’s bat, it doesn’t matter - because ultimately, Seidou operate as a unit and help each other, they don’t just rely on one person (any more) to win. (They got over that in the autumn tournament, when they had to find a way to win with a broken Miyuki, and then in Jingu, where they had to find a way to win without him).

Maybe that’s the real message from this chapter, even though it leaves a very bad taste in my mouth. Hopefully, if Seidou go on and win this fixture as a team, it’ll feel less frustrating. Because then at least Miyuki will have answered Mei’s challenge, with his so called ‘weaker team’, even if he couldn’t do it entirely on his own.

(And I haven’t forgotten that Miyuki has already hit off Mei in this game, to good effect, so maybe I should just be happy with that).

[hirokiyuu]

5, 8, 11 for meme?

5. Which WIP is first on your list to complete this year? Will you post a snippet?

HMMM tbh mamiya is giving me such massive brainworms i would really like to do some kind of good end haruki/minato thing abt like........ minato relearning how to touch people u kno. i think they are good together and i think this would be a fun character piece wwwww

It had been a bright and lovely shock to discover that being touched did not always make Toujou Minato want to die. When Haruki elbowed him with a grin, he elbowed back with a scowl; when Haruki took her wrist and led her along, she complained and did not pull away. When Haruki grinned at him and relaxed so their knees touched, Minato relaxed too, resting his body against that tiny point of warmth.

^is the vibes. i want them to kiss and i want them to laugh about it and learn to love each other. u kno how it is. ALSO I HAVENT FINISHED MAMIYA YET SO IF THERES NO WAY THEY END UP HAPPY DONT TELL ME I DONT CARE I DONT WANT TO HEAR IT (HADNS OVER MY EARS)

8. Is there a story idea in your mental vault that you’ve never been brave enough to try writing? Is this the year? Can you tell us about it?

in general i want to write at least one (1) thing thats even seminsfw. if i finish the above it will be that. even ONE thing for ONCE in my life

11. Would you like to try any new fanfic genres or tropes this year?

hmmmmmmmm nothing i can think of off the top of my head............ in general i feel like even tho i dont Post all of it ive written a Lot of things at least privately. oh i would like to finally post at least Something soulmate au given how many soulmate aus ive written w/o ever publishing them gLKHDLAKSHGDS

[aseriesofunfortunatejan]

Per the straightjacket thing- maybe? I know that information is from the artbook (about 'feeling fake' or... something like that), though it's weirdly cryptic about how it's written, can be unreliable too, so I take it with a pinch of salt personally

Like I stated in my post I don't really remember V3 or know that much about Ouma, so you're sort of just... throwing information at me, referencing stuff I'm not really sure about. "That information" > which? "From the artbook" > which?

What I interpreted was what's written in the "Day One Dossier" Art Booklet. "Designed like a straitjacket." I feel like this implies directly that it is not in fact a straitjacket. I would say so because the other profiles don't really use such wording for the characters' clothes - like for example, Himiko's profile says "wears magic hat". Not "designed like a magic hat". Toujou's uniform is a "classic maid uniform" not "designed like a maid uniform". The choice of wording seems rather specific to me.

That being said, I don't claim to know the truth. Those mentions aren't very precise otherwise. I'm tempted to theorise that those notes are Shirogane's (being that her profile doesn't have any), in which case it could still be that they're written in a way that would make sense to her, as the costume designer - in which case the word "design" would have to do with her involvement, not "Ouma's".

Either way, even in the event that those are Shirogane's, this phrasing strikes me as pointing to the item not being for a fact a straitjacket. There would have been many more obvious ways (in my opinion) to put it across if it were a modified straitjacket, taken from a straitjacket, or something similar to that.

Then again, I'm not an expert by any means. This is just how this comes across to me.