#i should really just wear a mask at all times around people ig

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

it's SO fucked up that im sick.

[starvingmedievalpeasant]

Morning Routine Before & After Prison // Kevin Khatchadourian HC

Important Tags! : Brief mentions of online gore, Porn and violent fantasies, male masturbation ig? Not in a sexy sex way, In a canon to the book way.

Requested by @witch-ren

English is not my first language so please forgive any spelling/grammar mistakes. Always appreciate feedback.

Before prison

Kevin doesn't have a strict routine to his mornings, He's quite impulsive, really, Does whatever he wants whenever he wants. The only thing he does everyday with no fail is clean his face.

His wake patterns are inconsistent but usually go between 5am-7am.

The days he wakes up at 7 are the rare days his mom is responsible for driving him to school, He likes making Eva stressed by being ready at the last minute or just straight up taking his sweet time, Making her late for work and other affairs. He doesn't really care if he's late for school it's usually a bonus for him to spend less time in that cesspool.

He likes to alternate between the two to add to her anxiety of not knowing if she should let her workers know she's going to be behind schedule that day.

On the much more common days when his dad gets him to school he likes to have some alone time before he has to put on the mask for the rest of the day.

He sets a morning alarm for 5am, (Sometimes if he's exceptionally tired that morning he snoozes it to 5:30 or 6) It takes him around 5-10 minutes to fully wake up.

Once he gets out of bed he either goes to wash his face and sit on his computer until his parents call him down for breakfast or immediately grabs his archery gear to practice in the back yard, Still in his pajamas.

He could train from 10 minutes to a full hour, De-stressing before he has to play the irritating game of pretend with Franklin, He often imagines people like his family or classmates in place of the target, Sometimes his teachers if he has a test that day or if they were particularly annoying recently.

Once he's finished his morning training he feels like he can finally truly start the day, He like to take a cold shower to cool off from the session (even in the winter).

I feel like he'd be kind of lazy with his hygiene but not to a disgusting degree, Things that wouldn't really be noticeable. Like sometimes not even bothering to shampoo his hair or only using soap on his armpits or not brushing his teeth, Because his hair isn't oily, He doesn't smell bad and he's going to eat before he goes out anyway so what's the point?

Two things he does bother to do is bare minimum skincare and shave his face.

He does both not just to stick to the uncomfortably not age appropriate look he's got going on with the little T-shirts and all, But also because he just really hates the texture of his face when it isn't smooth.

When he started puberty and the hair and zits came onto his face he went crazy picking at his skin and only made it breakout even worse, So he began taking Accutane and shaving his face. The Accutane made it dry and a little flaky which irritated him to no end too so he started using Eva's face cleanser and moisturizer and it solved the problem right up.

He uses her personal moisturizer and cleanser just to be an asshole and make her have to waste her money and buy it more frequently, But he does have a secret stash of one or two containers just in case she stops.

He does everything in the shower, Piss, Brush his teeth (if he bothers to), Jack off, Shaving and skincare.

Sometimes he likes to leave the door open, lower the water pressure of the shower head so it goes quiet and beat his meat really loud just to bother Eva, Every time he hears her slam the bathroom door shut when he does that he can't help but laugh his ass off.

He takes 5-30 minutes to shower depending on how lazy he is that day, When he finishes he takes a peek outside of the door and if his mom's in view he just walks out butt ass naked to irk her even more.

He doesn't care about what he's gonna wear that day, Not like he has much choice between his like 7 T-shirts he's been wearing since forever and 3 pairs of skinny jeans.

If he has some time left before breakfast he goes online to look at stuff, Usually gore or a news report about this school shooter or that serial killer.

When he's done he goes down for breakfast, He's a picky eater, Usually a plain strawberry jelly sandwich or plain cereal, He adds milk to the cereal if he's feeling adventurous that day.

Sometimes he gets caught up with his computer and misses the time window for breakfast or just doesn't feel like dealing with his family in the kitchen and stays in his room, If he didn't brush his teeth that morning he pops a mint or two and goes down the stairs when his parents call him to get in the car.

After Prison

After 7 years of prison Kevin develops a strict routine, Not out of need or compulsiveness, Rather out of being accustomed with it. He becomes very punctual but still wouldn't really mind if his routine gets thrown off schedule.

He wakes up at 5am sharp, He is no longer allowed to practice archery so he exercises in his room until 5:30, He often reminisces about the early mornings he would train in the backyard, Exhilarated by violent fantasies and the wind cooling down his body. In particularly vulnerable moments he closes his eyes and pretends like he's back to that Thursday, Shooting his crossbow in the gymnasium.

When he's finished he heads to the shower, His personal hygiene has gotten better and more thorough in his method. He uses body soap, shampoo and conditioner everyday and brushes his teeth well.

Although while he was incarcerated he was quick with his showers, When he gets out Kevin takes his time and savors every single minute of it, He hated showering next to other disgusting naked people and he hated having such a short time limit for it.

He doesn't use any of Eva's skincare products anymore, He became even more possessive of his belongings after prison and can't even bare the thought of another person using the same soap as he does.

He doesn't leave the door open anymore either, He always checks that it's indeed locked before he gets in the shower.

Kevin still does everything in the shower with the added task of dressing himself, He stopped prancing around naked as it reminds him of prison like previously mentioned, Sometimes Kevin thinks that it might be karma for what he used to do to his mom in his teen years.

He has a timer set for 6:30am, Plenty of time to wash, Dry and dress himself, He almost always finishes putting his shirt on right as the timer dings, He wishes he could wear the T-shirts to his office job but he also doesn't want to get fired after someone finally agreed to hire him.

He heads back to his room to make his bed, Sits on his desk chair and opens his computer.

Having no internet access for 7 years means he finally has more new content than time to view all of it, He catches up on all of the shiny new viruses, Gore, Porn, True crime and other shock sites and videos he can consume. If he finds something particularly good he saves it as wanking material for later, Some things just never change.

At 7am Kevin goes down to eat breakfast with Eva, His mind is usually preoccupied with his online findings from earlier and prefers to keep quite while eating, Sometimes he does entertain his mother with a one or two word answer to her small talk, And even though he is living at her house, He still feels like every interaction in a closed room with her is like a prison visitation.

He's not as picky with his food anymore, Usually eating whatever his mom has cooked for both of them, Not because he thinks it tastes good or even decent, Rather out of being used to eating whatever is served and not wanting to waste time by cooking for himself.

By 7:30 Kevin and his mom are in the car, Eva is driving him to an office job she helped him score, Some kind of salesperson job. The drives are also quiet, Not as heavy as the silence they usually have at home, but it still feels somewhat loaded.

And every day when Eva drops him off in front of the office building he can hear her say:

"Have a good day Kev, I love you."

And every day Kevin's face darkens as he clenches his fists, Because he knows that no matter what;

He could never bring himself to lie and say it back.

[itsclydebitches]

RWBY: Something that will forever bother me is that I thought they would change their outfits. I dont like v7 outfits too much so wehn I saw they might be on a beach. I thought, 'Cool. Maybe they'll remove some layers of theit WINTER outfits and they might look better.' BUT NO. I thought weiss and blake would lose their jackets, yang gets a ponytail, im not sure about ruby, shes fine ig. But still pretty unhappy. oh well

Yang in a ponytail, my beloved. So near and yet so far 😭

I get that it takes more time, effort, and of course money to create the new models (even overlooking the fact that RT is no longer the struggling startup it once was...) but for me, missing details like that really hinder my sense of immersion. They don't actively take me out of the story, but they don't help me stay tethered to it either, which is much more of a problem when the writing is struggling like RWBY's is.

As I mentioned in another post, I've started Demon Slayer (which is excellent) and little moments with clothing really help the storyworld to feel real. Why doesn't Tanjiro's uniform tear during all those intense battles? Oh look, here's a scene with his mentor explaining precisely how that's possible. Why doesn't Inosuke's mask fall off? It does after a particularly vicious headbutt, finally revealing his face. Here two of the characters are removing their outer layers to give someone a pillow and blanket. Here they are changing into a new set of clothes while their uniforms are washed. Zenitsu hangs onto others' robes when he's particularly scared, pulling them askew. Inosuke wears or doesn't wear a shirt depending on the situation. People comment on the bamboo in Nezuko's mouth. Tanjiro's earrings are slowly being revealed as significant... Clothing is a part of the characters and the story actually treats it as such.

In contrast, RWBY has lost almost all of that work despite starting out as a series built around the thematic significance of outfit colors. Not even their weapons, tools through which the ENTIRE conflict is built around, are given any true acknowledgement anymore, not when Weiss finds hers in a heartbeat offscreen, getting Blake's back becomes fodder for jokes, Ruby shows no inclination to get Crescent Rose back (with, more significantly, her teammates ignoring that uncharacteristic passivity), and Jaune apparently has never tried to mend his sword. Only stealing Yang's arm is even somewhat significant and likewise treated in a jokey, ultimately-unimportant-to-her-development manner.

Now take into consideration everything they DON'T do, including reacting to the tropical nature of the Ever After. Give me scenes where Yang puts up her hair, Blake takes her stockings off, Ruby tears the sleeves off her shirt, Weiss cuts her skirt to make it shorter, and she and Yang both loose their jackets because holy shit it's hot here. Also we're literally lost in a parallel fantasy world, maybe dead, who gives a crap how we look or if we need to buy new clothes later?? Give me the girls pulling off extra layers to cushion Ruby's head after her faint. Let them tear off a strip to bind a wound. Who's going to trade something like their jewelry to gain what they need? (Something we did get with Ruby's rose pendant, but it happened so fast and with no emotional punch it was just frustrating. Great idea, terrible execution.) Who's going to pick up new pieces while traipsing across the Ever After, perhaps visually signifying their acceptance of the place (something we could have gotten with Ren in Atlas)? Who's outfit gets scorched or torn or soiled because unlike Demon Slayer, there's no canonical reason for why these clothes should still be looking pristine after all they've been through?

Obviously RWBY doesn't have to do all of this, but it should do something to sell the idea that these are real people post-battle, traveling a hostile, tropical-esque land after they've been prepped for the ARCTIC. Keeping them exactly the same doesn't help me fall into the fantasy of watching RWBY, it just makes me go, "Oh, they probably want new outfits for Volume 10, so they're not bothering to change anything now :/" The viewer is already well aware that Volume 9 is a filler season that's struggling to be significant in the grand scheme of things. You don't want anything that's going to add to that feeling.

To use an old meme:

[aerodaltonimperial]

(@perhapswhoknowsvamp and I have the best slash worst text threads ever. We realized that Danhausen isn't following Jack on IG today and spiraled.)

Danhausen follows Orange Cassidy. Danhausen follows Hook. Danhausen follows most people on the roster, really.

Danhausen does not follow Jack Perry.

++

Actually, he used to. Danhausen follows and unfollows Jack once a week, just so Jack gets the notifications. Since he’s bored and couch-bound currently, he’s upgraded to doing it every half hour like clockwork. He sends bitchy messages at 3 AM and then blocks Jack so he can’t reply.

Hope Jungle Jack gets some sleep. Would be a shame if someone STOLE that from him.

Jack, whose phone dings for the third time that morning: “THIS MOTHERFUCKER”

++

When he’s on the pain meds, he sends more messages. Has Jack checked his brake lines recently? and This picture of you is quite nice and it’s a cockroach wearing a top hat. (Danhausen doodled the hat on the cockroach.) Behind the cockroach is a jungle, and a large bird of prey with red black and white head feathers.

Jack forwards the message to Hook, with the text: WILL YOU PLEASE JUST TELL HIM THAT WE AREN’T DATING AND ALSO THAT WE AREN’T EVEN TAG PARTNERS ANYMORE

Hook replies with sorry the number you have sent this to is no longer in service R.I.P.

++

Hook sends a follow-up text: the hat does look nice on you.

Jack: “They fucking deserve each other.”

++

Darby eventually slides into Danhausen’s DMs. dude could you stop he is profoundly unsexy when he is this stressed out.

Danhausen: whatever he is profoundly unsexy ALL THE TIME. You should get one that looks sexy more often, then. Darby obviously has poor taste. Perhaps he should talk to Hook. The two of you could become best friends with your new jungle infatuation.

Darby: Is that what this is about? Hook?

Danhausen blocks Darby.

++

Jack finds Hook. He hasn’t slept in days. He is mid-mental breakdown. “PLEASE. I can’t even ask him what he wants! He keeps blocking me before I can tell him that you and I are not a thing. Call him, for fuck’s sake.”

Hook: “I don’t got reception.”

Jack: “YOU HAVEN’T EVEN LOOKED AT YOUR PHONE?”

Hook, cupping a hand over his ear: “What? Sorry. You’re breaking up. They must be updating the towers around here. Anyway, I’ll talk to you later.”

After he walks away, Jack stares. “This fucking guy.”

++

Darby drops down from the fucking ceiling. Jack has a heart attack.

Darby, unaffected: “Sounds like things aren’t going any better on Team Chips. Man, these guys are dense.”

Jack: “….what??”

Darby rolls his eyes. “I’m on Team Teeth, you’re on Team Chips. What, did you think we were going to be on the same side? Over my dead body.”

Jack: “….I—”

++

Darby makes a decision. “Actually…” He looks Jack up and down. “Yeah, I take that back. You can be over me any time you’d like. I’d let you top.”

Jack: “...wha—”

Darby: “I’ll call Danhausen the next time he unblocks me and see what I can do. Again. Idiots.” He fucks off down a hallway on a skateboard that seemingly materialized out of thin air.

Jack: “I…I am so tired.”

++

Danhausen ends up blocking half the roster as they try to get him and Hook back together. By the end, he’s only following a handful: OC (who doesn’t give a shit), MJF (who also doesn’t give a shit but for different reasons), and RJ City (who actually did attempt to get them back together but after he got blocked, he stood crying in Danhausen’s front yard until Danhausen unblocked him. He has not brought it up again).

He also still follows Taz. Taz sent him one message last summer: Sorry. He’s an idiot. He’ll come around.

++

Taz has not been cursed since he sent the message.

++

Jack considers checking himself into the psych ward because they’ll take his phone on intake and maybe he’ll be able to sleep. He walks into the lobby and spots an attending nurse wearing a face mask and hovering nearby, shoulders hunched…and arm in a sling.

Jack nearly cries while leaving the building. He just wants to sleep.

++

Jack, texting Hook: HE FOLLOWED ME TO THE PSYCH WARD.

Darby: sounds hot

Jack: FUCK WRONG NUMBER

++

Jack, texting Hook: HE FOLLOWED ME TO THE PSYCH WARD.

Hook: sounds hot

++

Hook: wait, who followed you?

Jack: DANHAUSEN

Hook: Oh…

Jack: OH? THAT’S ALL YOU CAN SAY, OH? NOT, WHY WERE YOU GOING TO A PSYCH WARD IN THE FIRST PLACE, JACK?

Hook: Sorry

Jack: You’re a shit friend.

Hook: yeah

Jack: He was pretending to be a god damn nurse in the lobby.

Hook: a nurse?

Jack: Yes.

Hook: what was he wearing?

Jack: I hate you.

++

Jack goes to Home Depot. He just wants to sleep. He breaks into one of the outdoor sheds in the parking lot. It’s cold.

++

There’s no cell reception in the shed.

++

Jack is happy.

[paperlovesadness]

i might be delusional because of miles' recent ig story but i just listened to mr schwartz and that got me thinking, what if that song is about miles?

especially the line "having attempted twice, both incorrectly/do we get a third try?" made me think it could be a hint to TLSP...

(and now i'm going to relisten to the song imagining alex telling miles "kiss me now before it gets to cute". i blame miles kane and his instagram stories, that's all)

also, i hope you don't mind that i just randomly sent you this ask but i had to share this thought with someone and i don't follow too many alex and miles blogs on here

Oh I don't mind at all! Really glad you did. I love talking about these things. And even more - connecting with other people here! So thanks for the ask 💛 and do it anytime!

[warning: I went overboard and this is long. Kinda a little Mr. Schwartz analysis? Very chaotic though! ]

I 100% see where you're coming from with that one - I'm not fully concinved if any of the songs on The Car are literal/about anyone/thing specific BUT Mr. Schwartz is the one that struck me as potentially Miles-ey from the very start too.

Or even just as the one that seems most likely to actually refer to something very specific / one easiest to decipher (maybe Body Paint too - as in seems more specific. Not as concinved that it's could be about Miles though)

Like most songs on the album it seems very introspective. Alex figuring out stuff about himself. But the stuff I'd say could very much be centered around a certain relationship.

From what I've seen the attempt twice lyric made quite a few people go "TLSP?" and I get the vibe too. They definitely got closer than usual both of those times. So to me -if we take the 'milex' point of view for the song - I'd think he could be reffering to their relationship taking some leaps and turns and changes (towards romantic?) twice (probably around the recording of both albums. It was very visible they were super close) - they tried working out what they are exactly to each other and how to work with that. But both times they failed. And seems like he'd like to try again.

'kiss me now before it gets too cute' also makes me feel like its said by someone who doesn't fully want to face the depth of their feelings? Like they're head over heels - the kind that just makes you want to love the person and hold them and take care of them and it's tender and gentle. So they run from it like "okay let's just kiss and focus on the physical aspect - I'll just face the being attracted to one another part".

And then the message of the song overall - I see it as a sad analysis of being kind of 'caged in' by showbuisness? Or maybe society in general. Though I'd say the former more.

Having to pretend something, wearing a mask. "Wardrobe" (the business? management?) "lint-rollin' and smudging dubbin'" - helping put on the stage/public persona.

Mr. Schwartz as a potential stand-in character for himself or Miles. Anyway - someone who doesn't fit into the mold they are expected to fit in the business/sorroundings they are in. Asking after all the-wives-and-the-kids-small-talk. Being expected to be a certain way. It's hard, but they try staying strong for the people who depend on them ('the crew'). Still there's no helping it - no way to ignore the norms and expectations - 'it's at the heart of what the business is' after all.

You sharing your thoughts actually popped a new one into my head - which is maybe Miles saw some hints in Alex's lyrics that he's still thinking of them/their past (he'd be able to more than we are with the context). And that got him into this feely-yearn'y memory-lane mood? Cause the timelines of TC coming out & Miles going nostalgic kinda add up

(Sorry for the unnecessarily long response 😅 something I can't help, I always write too much. Should add a warning to my ask box!)

Hope you survived reading this answer!

[dragooned-speaks]

Yay, first ask is exciting!

April Showers and May Flowers is a neat title, it sounds like it'll be a pretty fun one!

Writing for fandoms is hard...I tried a little bit but I never wrote very much because I just wasn't suited for it...I bet you'll do great tho bc I tend to give up too easy sometimes

Also word vomits are the best! Do it some more and talk about whatever you want, it's enjoyable!

I reached out bc I saw you read my Fallen Angel story earlier and I wanna thank you for the like, it was fun to see someone new show up since I'm not popular at all

Tell me about your ocs, if you don't mind!

Hello again! (Big word vomit under cut.) This is platonic ppl.

TWs: Abuse, emotional manipulation (does it count if it doesn't work?), dehumanization ig?, orphans, hybrids, spoilers for a future work?

April Showers should be the angst buildup and healing while May Flowers is the final healing and fluff.

So, there are four characters: Willa, Mina, Retribution (idk what his civillian name should be, so I'm taking suggestions!), and Tao. I have the character's physical traits (and a few more personality traits) and a bit of plot and worldbuilding before I write! So, I'll start with Willa, the protagonist!

Three are orphans and the other's parents aren't mentioned because I am not going through the pain of writing parents. This is a superhero (dystopian?) world about the classic superheroes aren't always good, but I made the villain adopters vigilante friends.

Willa is a she / her female who was born in May (see what I did?). Her power is a healing voice, like a switch when she sings. She's a nightingale avian hybrid and she's really quiet, and when she talks, she kinda half sings because her power works to some degree. Her power's drawback is after healing, her voice will get scratchy and hurt or just stop working, depending on the severity of the injury.

She wanted to help the heroes because they're good! ...Right? Well, they're not, and when she joins the Hero Healing Program (so creative, ik), she is immediantly singled out because she's an avian and her power doesn't have a CRAZY drawback like pain or... idk, so they try to force an imprint. Unknown to them, she imprinted on a certain hero trainee named... you guessed it, Mina. Of course, forced healing doesn't work half as well, but the Hero Corporate doesn't know that!

She's cautious and nervous because she has been punished for breathing too loud. Breathing too loud. Crazy, right? She preens herself, but she's self taught and the heroes clipped her wings to keep her around and a tracker. Later, she and Mina run away to Mina's friend Retribution. Slowly, she heals and we get May Flowers' fluff! They run away to be vigilantes, and she becomes Nightingale!

A background worker helping her friends, she gets a power to force people to dance lol. But she has stage fright.

Anyways, onto Mina! She joined the Hero Program because she looked up to heroes as a kid, believing the world to be black and white, so she joined the hero commitee to join the well, "good" side. Her power is luck bending, and she gives good luck to those she thinks is good and bad to those who she thinks are bad.

She's with Mina because they were roomed together as dormmates (is that a word?) and she's a work all day kind of person, but she will stay up until 4 to be with a friend, so she's pretty friendly to her allies. If you're a stranger, she'll ignore you. They became friends after Willa pushed these guys who were bullying Mina because she's a hybrid (because they were technically insulting her too). Mina's a moth hybrid, and also keeps a little canister of poison gas, hence why she wears a gas mask when patrolling.

She's the quiet, serious girl who always repays debts. At the age of 12, she was enrolled in the program (you can start at 10), and she joined as soon as possible. Around this time, Willa is like 9. Later she becomes Karma the vigilante after pretending to retire as a hero (they were too busy looking for a certain lost avian to notice lol). Also, her hero name was Mothra.

There's Lotl, another orphan, but he's crashing with Retribution. Lotl is a lizard / axolotl creature hybrid. He's based off the Tuatara lizard, the three eyed lizard that loses it later. He has a third eye that can scare most people to the point of paralysis, but that power disappears as he grows older, and subsequently, more human. He gains the power to control celestial matter (stars, nebula, etc) but he's like only a year older than Karma so he isn't able to do too much yet. Mainly using some weak sparks from stars to light up and some wind. He's close buds with Retribution, and he's like that one hero who poses for the news evem if he's illegal. He's chill, he's easygoing, and yeah. Karma tells him to hurry up and kick the bad guy already too often lol. Also, he can slit his eyes because cool stuff right there. His civillian name is Tio.

Finally, Retribution. He actually has parents (shocking I know) but we don't see them. They just kinda gave him a floor of the house and don't interact. His family's rich, but he doesn't really care. His power is emotion manipulation, and he always tries to talk before attacking. He sees enotions as clouds, colored dusty pibk to thundering, and can kinda cover his mind in clouds so mind readers can't read his mind. Speaking of, he can mind read in flashes of the clouds, and kinda paints the clouds to change emotions. He can do this best focusing on one person but if he focuses he can do it on a small crowd before almost passing out. He's scary serious, like way more than Karma, and he's really short, even though he's a few months older than Lotl, he's like 4'7.

[t-urbulence]

tlou spoilers ig idk issssmyopinion cause i cant tell linn about them cause she asked for no spoilers and i already yelled about it to sara and my sister and i dont know any more people.

i dont think there was anything i didnt like tbh. sarah was really gooddddd, the actor nailed that shit on the head. i like how they established more that tommy depends on joel, with the jail thing, and how they shared the job at the start, i think that was really good. there was more set up about the neighbours too, i just think all that was really cool.

none of the direct quotes from the game felt like pandering or fanservice, which i liked, all of them were really welcome for me. (Didnt think i would sob at hearing a teenage girl say "i sell hardcore drugs" as a joke but here we are.)

I liked that it was all from sarah's POV in the beginning. in the game one of the most poignant scenes is trying to escape in the car, how the adults are in the front seat making the calls and everything is happening around you and all you can do is turn the camera and watch. it was nice that you could like, see her interact with the world even if for a short bit. it didnt feel drawn out or unnecessary, it was sufficiently Paced.

none of the direct quotes from the game felt like pandering or fanservice, which i liked, all of them were really welcome for me. (Didnt think i would sob at hearing a teenage girl say "i sell hardcore drugs" as a joke but here we are.)

the worldbuilding was really nice, like im sure it couldve been done more extensively in the game as well, seeing the QZ and how it works and all that, not just through cutscenes but i do get why they wouldnt do it, they did, however, have time for it on the show, which i really liked. the whole circle of trades joel got through to get info on tommy. i love that tommy is more present from the beginning. like in the game we were looking for him when we find him but it comes up as an idea later in the game like "okay what now, ig lets go find tommy" but here he's already established to be. Out There. and something happened between him and joel that we dont know anything about yet.

i am wary of tess a liiiittle bit because annie wersching is just so fucking good. like when they said she walked into the audition As Tess, you just know they mean it. and i only ever saw anna torv as olivia in fringe and shes good in that but a part of her character is that she's a little grey and a little unnoticable and all that so. i was a little afraid. and sure she gives off a different vibe but she has that same gentleness juuust below the surface that game tess did, and i love that joel really is just the muscle, but tess is the brain and the authority in the pair.

so that was good.

marlene is 100%, i really loved her. i dont know why i thought seeing her wear the same simple clothes as game marlene did was such a huge deal that i had to hyperventilate, but you know. like dude, its a tank top, calm down.

anyway. i was fine with all of the changes, i dont think anything they changed took away anything from the characters. maybe i expected them to react to the fungi'd body a little differently. like the spores were already established and seeing a bitch like that should mean its about to start sporing but. maybe its just a detail that theyre. not. supposed to wear a gas mask at that point.

ig thats the one thing that made me go hOL'UP. but nothing else i can recall

the fireflies were alright, like we see the explosion from the game just somewhere else in the game so we see about as much of them in the show as in the game.

obviously, i think ellie's actor has the most to prove which, goddamn, thats gotta be Some pressure eh. but i think she did well. the few lines she had were well written, they got her character through well. but i also loved how once they were outside and in danger following tess and joel, she really was just a scared kid who's really just trying to Appear Big and scary by cursing and yelling and lashing out at new people and being a little brat.

i dont think i have any like, observations about her as of now. i liked her on screen, obviously shes never gonna be the same as ashley johnson ellie but i also dont want her to be? actually there were two lines where i felt like she was imitating game ellie (or it really just came across like that for my ears) and that actually bothered me more than when she was "different". which. she is, obviously x)

so yeah i really like her, to me it all hinges on her chemistry with joel. i think the actor will do a fine job if the dynamic is written well.

joel for now is kind of a blank slate i guess, classic hardened badass that he was in the game as well. so im excited for him to become a real character next to the cast of characters they'll meet along the way and as their relationship with ellie transforms.

for now, the show is really promising, it really got me hyped, i cried, i laughed, i literally screamed out loud when they mentioned riley x') so it had me in my tlou feels, definitely.

but im also wary because of the video game adaptation curse thats been going for centuries x) also for some reason adaptations often love to go tits up right before the ending? like they want to do something else something different and have their own moment. i expect and accept a lot more changes thats not the issue but just dont... steal the heart of the story, okay?

thank.

also i had no idea they kept gustavo for the music so i may have wept when i heard the theme song. i have sooOOO MANY fond memories of playing the game for the first time. it was such a special, special experience with giules in rome, playing a video game for the first time in my life, having so many great experiences just being with her family and all. listening to the OST on the beach together :")

ahh so good.

anyway, feels. yes. good. lets go. i have faith.

[ditloe]

9/365

January 9, 2023

Woke up at a good time today (9:30). Gotta shoot for 8am though so I can feel better about myself. Kona and I went out for a walk today and I went through a different neighborhood which was nice. It was very quiet, probably because it's a Monday and people were at work. I did about 6k steps during Kona's walk and finished up the rest later in the afternoon. I saw the same lady while walking Kona who made conversation with me the other day. She had a different dog with her (neighbor's dog). I really hate small talk especially when I'm just trying to have some quiet time and peacefully walk. San Lorenzo park was actually flooded today due to the rain last night. Kona and I couldn't really go around the park because some parts were flooded. Still had a very good walk though!

I think I have lost all hope in OW. I lost about 10+ comp games today... I think I really am only good with Sartaj or with another person playing with me. With randoms it is very hard to communicate (too shy to really talk in chat). I should also practice other support characters because a lot of people can kill Mercy really easily. Chris, Mikel and I played a couple Valorant games which were fun. I was doing pretty well which boosted my morale a bit. I'll be on break from OW for a bit (especially if no one can play). I'll probably be de-ranking to Gold 1 or something because of all my losses.

My kitchen flooded today... no wonder I was smelling weird things such as sewage. The garbage disposal was also acting funky so maybe that was a warning sign. I thought I fudged up somehow when washing dishes but my parents figured out it was because the previous owners didn't properly seal off a hole. All the sewage came from that hole. Also, our kitchen sink is actually clogged so tomorrow my dad will unclog it. Really hoping the smell goes away soon... it's making me nauseous. Glad we were also able to clean the kitchen fairly quickly. There was a LOT of water. During these times, it's nice having my dad around because he's a handyman and basically fixes anything. Still doesn't make up for his attitude sometimes lol.

I am very excited to finally see Chris tomorrow after being isolated for so long! We're gonna eat really good food and just enjoy eachother's presence. I have to wear a mask still around him but I'm okay with that.

Mandy and I started talking again today. It started with an IG message from me and then we started talking about our friendship. I even told her that I was to blame because of our fallout. She went into more detail about how her and Christian are doing. I'm happg for them and truly just want to forget the past. Not really forget it but just forgive. I'm too young to be holding grudges or letting things get the best of me. I'm glad we're talking again because she really is my childhood bestfriend and has known me the longest. I'd hate to see our friendship go to waste. Hopefully we'll be able to rekindle our bond and hang out more! I want to be a good friend and maybe even a better one to all of my friends this year. I want to set some time to hang with them and really bond with them.

I also have to keep in mind my budget and how I can still spend quality time with friends without spending so damn much lol. I need a better job maybe... that'll solve all my problems. But more work sounds ew and I already can't stand driving so far to work only 2 days...

Steps: 10k

[ebonyslasher]

Hi~! I hope your day or night is going well. I was reading through your slasher xblackreader series on Ao3 and I love it! I was wondering if I could make a request for 1.) A fashionista s/o who likes twinning with her bf making outfits inspired by her bf. And 2.) S/O who likes to do nail art whatever mood

Hey! I hope your day/night is going well too! Mine is pretty ok. and thank you!

I usually do stuff prompts one at a time, so I will mix the two together. 

On Ao3 I think this should be chapter 11!

Now why was it so damn hard to find pictures 😤

Slashers with fashionista s/o who likes wearing matching outfits and does nail art: 

His outfit is pretty basic, but great for changing up to make it look chic asf

Doesn’t really care about clothes, generally

Only thinks about it when they are on you. Esp if it’s form fitting or colorful

You just look super good everyday 

When you turn up with a stylish version of his outfit, he’s amused by how cute you are

Gives you a thumbs up 👍 👍

You buy him outfits to match when y’all travel

Doesn’t really care, so he’ll put on anything

Does like that it’s another way to show that you belong to him and dating him

Thinks your nail art is cool. Watches you work on them sometimes

Will help if something isn’t going on right, like if you’re adding any gems or rings

Loves any design with a blood/horror aesthetic 🩸 🔪

Flattered if you do one’s inspired by him, with his mask painted on one of your fingernails

Loves it, it strokes his ‘non-existent’ ego

Has no drip whatsoever

He dresses like the typical middle class white dad...no inspiration there

I mean he looks cute...but it ain’t cuttin it all the time lol. Definitely need your touch

Daniel adores your sense of style. You always look perfect

He sees the matching outfits you get and his heart flutters

He’s never done that before, it’s so cute to him

Now y’all look like a bonafide couple when y’all step out

And Danny looks exxxxxxxxxxxxtra fine with that fit on

It inspires you to flirt with him by telling him how goodt he looks

“You look so damn good baby, a whole meal 😘 ”

It  makes him so flustered, he can’t take it 😖 😖

Really likes how talented you are at doing nail art

Tells you that you should open a nail bar 💅

Hm might be a good idea

Gravitates to liking the beach themed nails that you do the most, but he really likes anything that looks intricate

Candyman

Mr. Robitaille already knows how to dress 

Problem is...he wears the same shit all the time

You get on him about it, just teasing him

“You can’t get new clothes or something? Those jeans probably had grandkids by now 💀 ”

“Well darling....I have a washing machine and my clothes stay clean. What’s the issue?

😦 

 He gathered you quite nicely lmaoo. You lowkey stopped messing with him after that

You two start going shopping often after that, so getting matching outfits came naturally

He enjoys matching with you and looks forward to doing it. Absolutely loves it when you show up with a coat that matches his famous one

Mostly match on your date nights or at family get togethers

Y’all look cute or whatevaa 🤭

Compliments you on your nail art whenever you do something new

Will suggest certain themes, usually elegant and geometric

Absolutely adored them when you did this:

He’s the expensive version of everyone lol

He has style- but it’s lowkey. He’s the one who’s ordinary t-shirt is like $500 dollars 

He wears a lot of black. It makes it easier for you to match up with him

Y’all brand match too on top of the outfits; Louis Vuitton, Ivy Park, etc

Pretty much the couples you see on IG stuntin on everybody #couplegoals 💯

Can’t deny the drip + swag combo he has already

Try to match whenever y’all are traveling, esp if people will be around to see 

Gotta stunt on these hoes with your girl 💘

Jesse’s the one telling you what kind of nail art to do or try next

Often sends pictures of what he’s trying to describe 

Tries to get you to incorporate your nails to match the outfits as well

You pulled up in a suit like his and he was so smug about it. Big ego boost

[shokobuns]

– VALENTINE’S DATES (JJK EDITION)

ft. itadori yuuji, fushiguro megumi, kugisaki nobara, gojo satoru, sukuna ryoumen, nanami kento, zenin maki (gn!reader)

GENRE: fluffy brainrot/headcanons! (whichever you consider these to be ig)

WORD COUNT: 1.8k

WARNING(S): suggestive themes.

ITADORI YUUJI – he’s the type of person to record your date for memories. he has videos of you looking out into the sunset to you chomping down on a bunch of noodles like an animal. with that, you two would just go around and explore tokyo, taking advantage of any couples’ valentine’s day discounts. he’d probably ask gojo for advice (he hands him a condom), but it’s horrible and he’d probably figure that out from nanami. if it’s the first date, he’d be nervous as hell and it’d be noticeable considering how jumpy he is, but once you start getting comfortable with touching him, he’d relax more and adjust really quickly. if it lasts the whole day, by half the date, he’s kissing your cheek, holding your hand, and wrapping his arm around you. yuuji’s really sweet and he’s also a gentleman, holding the door for you and being mindful of if you’re having a good time or not. when you two finally kiss on the lips, he gets flustered as hell and hides his face into the crook of your neck.

THE GIFT – one of those bead necklaces that everyone makes at home. the colors are irregular and in no particular pattern, but your initials are on it with a heart. he doesn’t have much money with the exception of food, so he can’t afford a super glamorous gift, but you wear it with pride.

FUSHIGURO MEGUMI – would show up at your doorstep with your favorite flowers, but once he gets there, he’s debating on whether he should be there or not. he just wanted to do something nice for you on valentine’s day, but he’s also thinking “what if this is weird?” he’s another person that gojo gave advice to, but megumi tuned him out because he already knows to not trust him for this stuff. he’s all new to this couple type things, but he rings your doorbell anyways and he’s about to put down the flowers at your doorstep and run away, but it’s too late. you answer the door with a sundress on and this man forgets how to speak, so he just holds out a box of chocolates and the flowers without even looking you in the face. eventually, you ruffle his hair and go back into your house to gather some sandwiches, water, and a blanket for a picnic at a nearby park. you’d have to be the one to initiate the hand holding and his face gets so fucking red, too. at the park, he gets more comfortable, talking to you becomes easier and he lets you put butterfly clips in his hair because your face gets really close to his and he likes to give you little pecks on your nose when it happens.

THE GIFT – flowers and chocolate, letting you put clips in his hair without complaints

KUGISAKI NOBARA – she’s also the type to bring you around tokyo and spoil you on valentine’s day and she’s definitely more assertive on the date, too. she constantly has one hand on you, whether it’s on the small of your back or she’s holding yours, and she’s not shy about kissing your cheeks in public, either. nobara makes you try on clothes and if she really likes how the outfit looks on you, too, she’ll have no problem buying them at all. you two do that thing where you pick out outfits for each other and try them on at the same time. for most of the date, it feels like she’s the one with the bolder personality, but as soon as you tell her she looks like “the prettiest girl you’ve ever seen,” she gets really fucking flustered. your classic red cheeks and she can’t seem to stop smiling, but at the same time she’s trying not to seem too embarrassed even though she’s failing miserably. eventually, she’ll get over herself and you guys would find an empty balcony somewhere and make out for the rest of the night.

THE GIFT – an outfit consisting of those velvet track pants that she thinks make your ass look good (the ones that flare out at the bottom), an oversized shirt, and a bunch of scrunchies

GOJO SATORU – the first time he sees you that day, he tosses you a condom with a ribbon on it, does a backflip onto a table, then puts a ribbon on himself. he gets an “i hate you” because he’s dramatic as hell, but he pouts and it makes you feel slightly guilty because he’s just so cute. anyways, for the rest of the day, he wears his glasses because it feels more casual and for the most part, you’re hanging out at home watching movies, making out, etc. there are definitely no more condoms left in the box by the end of the night. although, you don’t stay in all day. he does treat you to a proper dinner where you both are a little more dressier than usual and he makes sexual innuendos in your ear whenever he has the chance which is about every five seconds. you’d also be eating dinner next to another couple and he’d say some shit like “we’re cuter than them” and you would get secondhand embarrassment whether the couple hears it or not. at the end of the night, you two walk to a park at night and there’s definitely a little moment where he goes “hey, can you hold this?” and you hold out your hand and he interlocks his fingers with yours (yes, he’s cheesy like that). you’ve probably had to slap him on the back of the head a couple times. once you two get to the park, he shamelessly does cartwheels throughout the whole space.

THE GIFT – a condom, sex, a homecooked meal, cat ears, and a sanrio plushie that yuuji picked out for him

SUKUNA RYOMEN – honestly, you weren’t even sure if you were even going to have a valentine’s day date with him, but he shows up at your front door at 6 am ringing your doorbell repeatedly with a bunch of flowers and you look like absolute shit when you finally open it. you’re still tired, so you drag him back to your bed for a few hours and sleep a little more before getting ready and going out for breakfast. he’s the type of person to stare down other people for no reason and you have to calm him down during your little breakfast date so that he doesn’t scare people. of course, he eventually gets a little bored and blows your back out in the restroom which has you limping for the rest of the day. he takes a lot of pride in it, too. later at dinner, he tries to cook for you, but this man sucks at cooking and has anger issues which is not a good combination because he’s so close to punching the stove since he somehow ended up burning the pasta noodles? your kitchen is still intact, so you don’t question it, and you’ve already ordered takeout because you’ve already predicted it. sure, he sucks at cooking, but it’s the thought that counts, right? after that, you two fuck, like you’ve already been doing all day, but this time, you give a little manicure after. you teach him how to take care of his cuticles himself and paint each other’s nails black after.

THE GIFT – a vibrator, handcuffs, a dead rabbit he found and stuffed with its legs cut off. he also got you a nice bouquet of your favorite flowers, but he had to bark at someone at the store to get them.

NANAMI KENTO – this man will take you off to your classic fancy dinner date with wine, a box of chocolates, a bouquet of roses, basically the whole cliche formula valentine’s date. although, you’d notice that something seems a little off about him so you kind of just ask “are you having a good time?” and he looks back at you with a blank expression all like “are you having a good time?” that’s when you get the hint that he’s indifferent to the whole thing, so you quickly finish dinner in order to get home as soon as possible. nanami is a little confused as to why you weren’t having fun, but it’s all explained when you head to your bathroom and hold up two face masks. he hasn’t used one before, but you just tell him to relax and “stop and smell the roses.” he’s just like “i already bought you roses?” and you just shake your head and instruct him to lay down so that you can put the sheet mask on his face. the night slowly becomes more of a self care type time where you two take a bath together, wash each other’s hair, and eat cake. surprisingly, he ends up enjoying the whole thing and asks if you two can do the same thing next time. it ends with a peaceful sleep, you head laying on his chest and his arms wrapped around you.

THE GIFT – box of chocolates, roses, and some diamond earrings. the best dick of your entire life, both in the bathtub and in the bedroom.

ZENIN MAKI – this girl gives you a home cooked meal, but she’s actually good at it. for breakfast, she’s making some omelettes and rice and it’s one of the ones where it’s a sanrio character sleeping in a blanket. you’re just admiring her the whole time because she looks really pretty when she cooks. for a valentine’s day date, you two would go on a cute picnic with some bento boxes and eat strawberries while the sun shines. her hair is down the whole time and you play with it because she never has her hair down even though she looks absolutely gorgeous like that. she’s just relaxed the whole time and you’re feeding her compliments while keeps on this cocky exterior, but she’s internally melting. she also lets you braid her hair, so you give her some french braids, but not without adding some pretty flowers to compliment her face. later that night, you two play a movie in the background and you give her a massage because she rarely gets some time to let go and rest and you really want to make her feel good. eventually, this escalated into making out until you two get tired and fall asleep.

THE GIFT – home cooked meals and pair of earrings she saw you eyeing the other day.

[strunglights]

I feel the need to make a quick statement about the party thing because I work in healthcare. just because they followed the rules, doesn't make it safe or responsible. if vidcon happened, that was technically following the rules, yet everyone was very pressed, and the same thing applies. COVID is very much NOT gone. in the US and specifically where I'm from, CA, did lift the mask mandate for vaccinated individuals. what happened after that? COVID cases rose, the mask mandate was reinstated (in a lot of places, not all because white conservative areas don't give a fuck about people). I'm not from the UK, but I've heard people saying that cases are on the rise, and maybe that's a sign that the mask mandate should never have been lifted in the first place. CCs, or anyone for that matter, should not be out partying in large groups without masks. end of story.

CCs don't deserve "hate" but they do deserve the criticism. don't forget about all the neg that came out when American CCs starting doing irl meet ups. it doesn't mean we hate the CCs, but we can be disappointed. CCs are privileged, and they have a platform, they will get criticism when deserved. variants are making COVID much more easily spread, and there is evidence that the Delta variant is more pathogenic (makes you more sick). I've also seen the argument that over 50% of people are double vaccinated in the UK, but herd immunity really starts at like 60-70%, but should be 70+. plus the only CC that really talked about being vaccinated is Wilbur (technically also Ranboo but he's slightly tangential to the party).

we shouldn't be trauma dumping or being overly hateful to CCs (more of a Twitter problem), but they deserve to be under some heat, especially with how they reacted (though Jack reposted it on his IG story or something lol). if anyone thinks that people are overreacting or if you're defending CCs, really think about it. both Minx and Tommy have gotten COVID, probably because they're going around without masks, and clearly CCs haven't learned their lesson.

if we ever want COVID to start getting better (if we ever want US to lift the travel ban against UK lmao, dream team meet up please), we should mask. it's not that inconvenient. I went to Disneyland on a 90+F day, and wore a mask the entire time, except for a couple of pictures. am I perfect? no. but I wanted to do something fun, and I knew that the safest thing for myself AND others was to wear a mask both inside and outside. If I can do that, then most healthy people should be able to mask when indoors, at the BARE MINIMUM.

[lady-literature]

no point wishing on stars

aka the jasonette aladdin au literally no one asked for

This is a great big amalgamation of semi-canon miraculous, batman and a heavy dose of bastardized Aladdin but here we go-

The story goes like this:

Jason is our beloved street rat turned prince Boy Wonder and billionaire’s son (not that he’s gotten that far yet).

Marinette is Ladybug, is the Guardian, is our modern-day Jasmine. She’s next in line after Fu to lead the Order, which, I suppose, is like High Royalty for superheroes/magic users.

But before she can take her rightful place, she needs a partner by her side. It’s so stupid rule that says she, as a Ladybug, needs a Black Cat by her side in order to be properly balanced.

The only problem is, she doesn’t want one. Or, well. More accurately, it’s that she doesn’t like the ones offered to her, and she doesn’t quite like the idea of being tied to someone she barely knows, especially not at fourteen.

There have been many Black Cat candidates to cross her path but there has been only one she did not immediately veto. Adrien Agreste may be a Black Cat, but he cannot be hers. He will never be anything more than her dearest brother, and that is not what Creation needs.

Creation and Destruction—life and death—have a certain type of relationship. They are lovers, mated and married in every meaning of the word.

And, for as much as she loves and adores Adrien as her brother in her soul, they will never be like that. She will never want him the way she must should he take up Destruction.

So yeah. Marinette has a problem. And yeah, she has some time to figure it out, but the Order is looking to have her figure it out sooner rather than later. Adrien is a good place holder for now, but if Marinette doesn’t choose a Black Cat by the time she’s twenty-one, Adrien will either have to do, or she forfeits her crown and the Ladybug miraculous (which she would never do, she loves her people and Tikki too much to ever do that).

(wait? Does this mean I made Adrien the human equivalent of Raja?… yes. Yes it does.)

And, to spice this up just a bit more, let’s say Hawkmoth is Jafar, yeah? This little shit is really trying to push his son to be the next Black Cat because he wants power what’s best for his son. So he be out here sabotaging potential Black Cats because he’s an asshole his son is the best candidate at the moment. He could give less than two shits about if Mari and Adrien actually like each other that way, he will shove his son at her until she has no choice but to choose him.

Anyway, so Mari leaves the temple one day. Which is fine, she’s not trapped there or anything, she can come and go as she pleases! (she may have to normally take someone with her and is currently ignoring that rule perhaps, but that’s besides the point!)

So she’s at a market in Gotham, strolling down the street, having a good time enjoying being around normal people, when she notices a boy getting into some trouble.

(I’ll give you three guesses as to who it is and the first two don’t count.)

Jason was stealing from market vendors because the hubbub of the street is distracting and nicking a few scraps here and there is practically child’s play. Only, he miscalculates.

One vendor was paying more attention than he thought.

Mari’s across the street and sees the whole thing. Sees the vendor grab Jason’s hand in a bruising grip and snarl in his face.

She’s in between the pair before she even realizes it, mouth already opening around some made-up story about ill-advised dares and how ‘it won’t happen again, sir’ and ‘here, I’ll pay for that right now, no harm done!’

Jason stares at her utterly baffled and, thankfully, silent until after she’d already grabbed his hand and pulled him away.

Only, she pulls him away down the wrong alley. (Look. Mari’s a real sweet-talker and knows how to smooth ruffled feathers, but she is hardly street smart.)

Jason swears, and it’s the first words she’s heard him speak, and then it’s him tugging her along. Up a fire escape and over the rooftops because Jason likes to think he’s tough, but there’s no way he’s picking a fight with five guys bigger than him and wearing masks.

He likes to keep his heart beating more than he wants to keep his pride unharmed thank you very much.

They end up on a rooftop, panting and like, seven blocks away. Marinette is now very lost and with a strange boy who she doesn’t know. He seems… nice, and she’s a good judge of character, but that doesn’t mean much when they’re still very much strangers.

But then the two just look at each other and suddenly they’re both laughing.

And that, my friends, is the start of a beautiful friendship.

***

During those first few months, she and Jason just seem to click.

Mari starts leaving the temple more and more to meet up with Jason, and on more than one occasion dragging behind her a picnic basket bigger than her. (it’s stupid to let one of her friends starve just because he’s too prideful to take her food. So she plans lots of picnics for them both, and pointedly ignores the way he eats and hoards most of the food she brings.)

He is her friend—though she would be lying if she said she didn’t like him a bit more than what one would consider friendly.

And Jason, who is funny and kind and made sharp by the life he’s been forced into, likes her right back. She is one of the few great parts of his life, a bright spot in the darkness he has called his world for so long, and there are few things he wouldn’t do for her.

It’s… scary—just a bit—how important she is to him.

He tries not to think about it too much.

And it doesn't really matter anyway, because she is good and bright and amazing and he is… there’s nothing he can give her in return. Nothing good, anyway.

She deserves someone better. Someone who could buy her things as pretty as her and take her nice places.

Someone who isn’t a street rat.

And then he learns she’s Ladybug, right up there with Wonder Woman and Robin and all the other amazing people set on saving the world, and he feels he got that much farther from her. How can he ever compare?

Jason doesn’t wish, because wishing is childish and he learned too young that shooting stars don’t exist and he’s come to terms with the fact that this is his life years ago, all right? He doesn't need the burden of hope to weigh him down now.

(but perhaps, deep down, tucked away in the corner of his heart, there might be a thought. Small and scared and aching, he might think, ‘if only I could be there with her, if only i could fly with her, maybe then I’d be enough’)

Six months after he meets Marinette, Jason comes across the Batmobile.

His first thought is, this can’t be real.

His second is, I could buy Mari a real birthday gift with this.

His third thought is less of a thought because he’s already got two tires off by that point and then suddenly Batman is there and Jason is swinging his tire iron.

This then leads—somehow—to him winding up at Wayne Manor with Bruce Wayne and then he learns about Batman and Robin and he gets to be Robin and-

(and what else is a Robin meant to do but fly?)

It’s too good to be true. Wishes don’t come true and good things don’t happen to him unless their name be Marinette but… but Jason’s here and it’s not a dream. He’s no prince but, well… he thinks this might just be as close as you can get.

And, okay. He really does try with the whole secrecy thing, because he can understand why that’s important but, I mean… it’s Marinette, who is Ladybug. There really was never any chance of Jason keeping that particular secret, Batman or no Batman.

And about,,, two years pass like this ig. Mari is almost seventeen now, and Jason turned seventeen recently and the pair are getting closer and closer every day. They’re toeing the line of ‘more than friends’ but neither have really taken that next step. 

The pressure is on Mari from the Order because she’s getting older and as much as she likes Jason, knows him but he isn’t a good candidate for Destruction and Mari must think of her people first.

Jason doesn’t get to be hers to keep and that aches but what else is she meant to do? She cannot—does not—want to change him in any way. So they stay, in their strange little limbo, with neither making a move.

And then, the unthinkable happens.

Hawkmoth hears of the boy finally, and is, obviously, furious.

He doesn't care if this boy can be a Cat or not, he’s going to ruin all his plans. So, there’s only one solution. He needs to get rid of him.

(i’ll give you three guesses as to how and the first two don’t count!)

Robin—Jason—dies, and Marinette feels when he does. She doesn’t know why or what happened, but the moment he leaves the world her blood turns cold and she feels sick.

Jason hasn’t even looked at the ring and already Marinette could feel the thread that had begun to tie them together. When she hears of his death—when she learns that he’s gone—Marinette shatters.

She shatters and cries and the world tips just a little, with the force of her sorrow, with the agony of her screams.

(justice is blind, yes, but is she deaf? Can she deny the sobbing of such a being as Creation herself? Can she stand, unfeeling, before the agony she has wrought?)

Marinette does not bring Jason back to life… but she has done something close. Has opened the possibility. Is, perhaps, the reason that six months later he screams and claws and drags himself from his own grave.

He is wrong wrong wrong, but he is also alive.

The league finds him, as they must. And Talia throws him into the pits, as she must. And Jason is reborn, screaming and angry and violent, as he must.

Marinette had known, Before, that Jason would not be a good match for the ring. He was tough and wild and willing to get his hands dirty if that’s what it took, but that was not what his core was. He was familiar with the rust and decay of back alley streets, but that wasn’t where he belonged. He would throw a punch but he didn’t relish the blood on his knuckles after a fight.

Jason was surrounded by destruction, but that’s not what he was.

Now… now the destruction he spent so long dancing with has slipped through the cracks in his mind left behind by the explosion. It ripped through his skin and slithered through into his veins until it settled in his heart like an overly smug cat.

Death and Destruction are inside him, woven in his ribcage and fusing with his blood, pumping pumping pumping its deadly rhythm and Jason is helpless to deny it’s tune.

Jason is a being of Destruction through circumstance rather than design, but make no mistake, that does not make him less.

(in fact, it may even make him more. To be remade from one’s own destruction is a powerful thing, and to be remade into Destruction? Well. There are few things more… miraculous.)

And we all know the next part of the story right?

Marinette mourns and grows and lives.

Jason rages and learns and plans. He’s come far from that street rat of a boy, and farther still from Marinette's petite oiseau.

But, two years after he comes back, when he ventures back to Gotham for revenge, Marinette takes one look at this angry, violent man calling himself Red Hood and she knows. He’s too familiar, even as he stands before her, more changed than she ever thought possible.

She meets the Red Hood when he comes for the new Robin, sweet little Tim who Marinette had grown to like despite herself. (He is not Jason, and never will be, but the boy was too shy and clever and earnest for her to have remained cold to him just because he wore the same colors once worn by the man she loved.)

She loves Tim in the same way she loves Adrien, simply and wholly and uncomplicated.

And then she is there when Jason comes for him.

Their reunion is not the stuff of fairy tales. It is not the beginning of happily ever after or true love.

Their reunion is a punch in the gut because it doesn't matter that he’s alive—except it does, because Mari has never known she could be so happy and so shattered at the same time—she is farther from him than she’d ever imagined she could be.

She reaches out for him, voice cracking around his name—because who else could this familiar stranger be?—and something in her shatters all over again when he flinches back from her touch.

“No,” he says, and it is a million things at once. He sends one last glare to Tim, who is still behind her, and then he’s gone.

***

Jason tries to avoid her.

Marinette allows this for a whole month before the whispers in the streets and the stories Tim comes back to her with, become too much.

She knows he is angry and out for revenge and building an empire out of the criminals that infest their city, but she doesn’t care. He was gone for two whole years and Marinette is tired of not seeing him-hearing him-touching him.

She has missed him like an ache in her chest and she doesn't care if he hates her or is furious with her, she just wants to see him. She needs to reassure herself that he’s alive, that he’s real.

And, it seems, the universe is on her side in this. In her chest, nestled there in the space next to her heart, there is what she can only describe as a compass, pointing to wherever Jason is like he’s her own personal north star.

The first few times, she’s yelled at or ran off. Or he runs off. Either way, for a while, the only moments she’s close to him are short and aching.

But she doesn’t let him run for long, and she doesn’t let him scare her off as she knows he’s trying to do.

Marinette had always been the more stubborn of the two.

Eventually, like a feral cat learning safety (like a hurt, scared animal relearning love), Jason lets her get close. He lets her in, lets her get close again.

The first time she sees him, without helmet or mask, she flings herself at him. Arms around his neck and legs wrapped around his waist, clutching him like her life depends on it. He takes her weight automatically, hand beneath her thighs while the other wraps around her back just as tightly. (he longs for touch, she has relearned, but he is also so frightened of it. She will have to be brave for them both)

The second time she sees his face bare once more, he is still thrumming with energy from a fight, is still high on the feeling of broken bones and blood on his knuckles. The force in his chest, the clawing and raging thing settled just off-center of the very core of him, pulls him toward her and Marinette meets him halfway, her own bright, ruthless force like a magnet in her chest.

They meet in a clash of hands on skin and lips anywhere they’ll land.

It is the first time they fall into bed together.

It will not be the last.

Now, you may be thinking, ‘Lady! This isn’t very Aladdin at all!’ and to that I tell you: I fucking warned you. What part of bastardized-Aladdin didn’t you get?

Also, shh. This is my favorite part!

So Mari is in her own personal little honeymoon stage, right? She practically could not be happier because Jason is alive and he’s hers and, even if he’s more violent and a crime boss, he’s stopped attacking his family at least. Which is good, because Mari really didn’t like the sad look Tim wore every time he brought up Jason.

And, oh yeah. Through a combination of her own detective work and Tikki, little Mari realizes that Jason is her Black Cat. Is the only person her Black Cat could be, not because of destiny—though that had helped—but because of coincidence and the bond the pair forged themselves.  

So Mari is, obviously, on cloud nine at the moment and she tells Adrien and Fu who are ecstatic for her, and announcements are going to be made the second Mari tells Jason and what could possibly go wrong?

Well, a lot of things really but the first thing is that, basically, Mari is asking Jason to marry her. Just a bit. And while they both know, in that nebulous way they always have, that they love each other, neither of them have ever actually said it.

And also, they aren’t really dating right now either. Mari’s been too busy trying to just get near Jason again that she hasn’t much been paying attention to normal relationship things like dates or labels.

So when she brings it up Jason is… well, caught off guard is likely an understatement. Which then makes Mari realize what exactly she’s just done and- shit. She’s ruined everything and Jason is going to run away again and the compass in her chest is just going to be a reminder of what she can’t have and-

Jason, who only moments before was terrified and in danger of bolting—because this is a lot and magic-marrying Mari comes with responsibilities and rules and a thousand strings he doesn't know what to do with—now stops and stares at her, babbling and so obviously panicked and something in him abruptly settles.

She starts pacing and he grabs her hand when she passes by close enough, reeling her into his body. She comes easily even in her frazzled state and the vicious clawing thing in his chest sighs contentedly.

“Why?” he asks, and it is a million things at once. Why him, why now, why, why, why?

There are a million ways she could answer, but the easiest? The most important answer is simply this: “Because I love you.”

His breath shudders in his chest at her words and her hands raise to settle on his cheek and the back of his neck, a protection of one of the most vulnerable parts of him, and he leans into her touch like a man starved.

Gods, Jason has loved her for years.

He loved her Before and he loved her in the pits, when all he had was the hate they kept stuffing in his chest, and he loves her now. She is his sun and he will spin around her for the rest of his life. But when it all comes down to it, one simple fact doesn’t change:

“I don’t deserve your love.”

Her hands press harder into his skin, like she can force him to understand through touch alone. “If everyone only got the love they deserved no one would be truly loved,” she counters.

“You would,” he says, quick and quiet and honest. Her breath hitches and he watches her eyes go wide. The hands he has on her hips tighten at the emotions he finds there.

“Oh,” she whispers, already pulling him down to meet her. “Oh you stupid, beautiful man.”

And then they’re kissing and- and it is not the first time they’ve done this, but there is something very different about this one.

They’re kissing, and this time, it feels very much like coming home.

***

And, perhaps, that is not the end.

Because there is still one wish left. 

Because Jafar-Hawkmoth is still there, and he’s still murderous, and there a very real chance he’s going to ruin the wedding somehow.

Because there is never truly an end to a story, it just simply stops being told.

But none of that really matters. Our princess and her dearest street rat are together at last, and together they’ll get through whatever happens after the story stops being told.

They’ve always had a thing for impossible odds after all.

[mevekagvain]

Chapter 239 - Aaaand it's flashback time. Mvp lord is completely right though, he's the only decent conversationalist around.

- I like to think that part of the reason why Ashoka always insists on getting Raizel to spend time with others or to get him out is because his brother is dead. Before it would have been his brother doing all those things so Raizel did actually get out and was somewhat active but ever since he executed him he's been a recluse.

- Ah yes the days when Frankenstein used to experiment on innocent nobles. Nobles really have like 0 reasons to like him lmao. Like yeah I know it was only blood samples but that's still also highly unethical and I'm not a fan. I'm not saying I'm some paragon of morality because I honestly don't care too much about him experimenting on people who could have been gleeful murderers or rapists even though that's also wrong but I do think just experimenting on innocents and any guilty person is bad. Like at least get a death sentence for them and then do it. Ofc I get that the reasoning is he wouldn't be allowed to but still... Gotta love our morally dubious scientist lol

Chapter 240 - You can tell Gejutel's the grandpa because he's all "yeah one day humans will outstrip us lol"

- Roctis, my man, are you wearing a white blouse, a black unbuttoned coat, and a cloak? Or are those just arm warmers with a blouse and cloak. Going insane rn gimme a minute.

- Gejutel being weirded out about Rayga's adoration for the lord makes me happy like yeah that's weird to the most noble noble to ever noble.

- God I fuvking hate it that the mask isn't over the nose like if I was there I don't care if I'd get arrested or killed or whatever. I'd just pull up Rayga's damn mask.

Chapter 241 - Love how Frankenstein thinks that Gejutel and Rayga view humans as inferior since they're nobles but grandpa's just "i don't remember giving humans lessons on noble society". Like yeah there's definitely noble supremacists but it isn't grandpa.

- I think Rayga probably sleeps in that arms crossed, head lowered, eyes closed position. Like does he need to sleep? No because nobles don't aside from kids. Does he do it anyway? Yeah. Gotta escape parenting duties somehow 😔

-PLEASE TUG YOUR MASK UP MORE RAYGA

- Rayga's fighting with his eyes closed ajjsjsks.

-I never get why the artist gives every single character a thigh gap like... with that body? They would never. Also he draws even men with tiny waists for some reason and like... It's unrealistic enough with the women, drawing the men like that is downright confusing. But yeah he isn't a particularly good with anatomy in general so ig this will fall on deaf ears. My favourite thing about said bad anatomy is that no man in noblesse has a dick though. The one upside.

- Ashoka looks so annoyed by Dark Spear being summoned like did it interrupt his daydreaming? Was he thinking about Raskreia? My man has a busy internal monologue that just got ruined and he's very unhappy about it.

- Another thing I find hilarious about Raizel, Ashoka, and Roctis, and so presumably every other clan leader and all of Lukedonia, feeling Frankenstein summon Dark Spear is that none of them went to check it out. I bet they just blamed it on a clan leader or something because most of them truly are overdramatic idiots who cause scenes every now and then and I want to see a scene where they mention it to each other and they're all blaming a different clan leader and realise that it wasn't any of them. And so they get that belated "oh. probably should have went to check it out". Edian gets an excuse because she's drugged.

- Also I think Roctis might be lost in the castle lol. Or doing work or visiting someone I guess.

Chapter 242 - Rayga being impressed that his clothes got torn... love it

Chapter 243 - So how good is Ashoka's hearing if he thinks the fight is loud? Either that or Lukedonia is tiny but lol I'm just gonna assume he's somehow capable of extending his power all over Lukedonia when he needs to even if he can't do it for long. It's nice to think that he might be keeping an eye (or in this case an ear) on what's happening after Dark Spear was summoned so that he can interfere if his clan leaders need him.

Gejutel's lukewarm response to Rayga sjjsjsi. Just "could you stop obsessing over the lord for one second". I imagine Ashoka just went "of course i was right" when he heard Rayga's comment.

- Look Rayga, grandpa just thought you were weaker than everyone thought okay. Frankenstein being strong is truly a surprise to him. Before Frankenstein humans couldn't stand up to civilian nobles, much less clan leaders.

- Imagining Ashoka laughing madly at Gejutel and Rayga being tricked,,, All my fitey clan leader ocs would be so disappointed in the two.

- Tbh anytime a noblesse character says that their body is a 'mess' instead of just saying they've been injured I imagine their insides actually being jumbled up like some sort of capsule toy or custom doll.

- God I hate how Raizel just has a bunch of identical shirts on display like, at least make them different. Also why are they tailored like that, if the waist is gonna be that thin just wear something skin tight like the Kertia 😭

Chapter 244 - Fvck I'm imagining Frankenstein stumbling into the rooms of previous noblesse/Raizel's family while exploring the estate and it hurts even more because the 'I didn't find any trace of residence' line would still hold even if said rooms were furnished and personalised because they'd be covered in dust and eaten through by insects and 😭😭😭

- Raizel hates people wearing his clothes so much that he uses his power to tear the shirt Frankenstein is wearing to pieces while replacing it with different clothes ajjsksksk. Like just magic up the new clothes and ask him to change???

- I bet Frankenstein regrets saying he works there when he learns he'll have to deal with everything himself. Truly pitiful.

- Second time Rayga's lifted his mask off his skin to speak. Does this mean most of the time everyone has to deal with slurred speech from Kertia who wear masks? Is this a recurring problem for him?

- I like to think that Ashoka and Raizel are actually not that far off in age in noble terms. It's like a few hundred years sure but to nobles it's still close in age. Raizel just has family baby energy so Ashoka refers to him as child.

- Aaaaand flashback over

[jumukus]

A3! Translation: Yuki Rurikawa’s R [+3Ghosts!] - The Horses’ Dance Video

In order to confirm whether they have improved in dancing, the Summer Troupe decides to record a dance video and post it online.

Izumi: Well then, do you have any other suggestions or comments?

Tenma: Let's see… While we have practiced the dance parts a lot, it's hard to judge whether or not we've improved.

Kumon: Oh, I actually feel the same.

Yuki: Hmm, I think you guys have gotten used to the movements, though.

Izumi: From my point of view, you guys have been improving steadily; But I've gotta admit I want to hear other people's opinions too.

Kazunari: Oh! In that case, how about we record a dance video and post it online?

I'm sure a lot of people will watch it if we do that, and we'll get all kinds of opinions too!

Tenma: You have a point…

Muku: But Tenma-kun needs to hide his face unless we get permission from his agency.

Tenma: Right.

Kazunari: Ah, why don't we all just cover our faces with something then!?

It seems fun, and I feel like people will be interested as well!

Misumi: I feel like I've seen a lot of similar masks somewhere~.

Izumi: Is that so?

Yuki: In the warehouse maybe?

Misumi: I think so! I'll try searching there!

Muku: Are we gonna upload the video on IG?

Kazunari: Hmm… Posting the vid on IG sounds like a great idea, but--.

I feel like it'll be hard to receive comments from other people beside our fans?

Muku: Oh, you're right…

Kazunari: I think we can get a lot of different comments from different peeps if we post the vid on a place where no one knows Summer Troupe!

Yuki: We can just ask Itaru to upload it for us, then.

Kumon: Oh! I see! Posting it on Itaru-san's channel, huh!

Muku: But his channel is a gaming channel. Will he be okay with it…

Yuki: Well, it doesn't hurt to ask.

Kazunari: I like that idea! If we post the video on Itarun's channel, there will be more people who can't tell who's dancing!

Tenma: You're right. Let's try asking Itaru-san, then.

Izumi: Are we gonna ask Omi-kun to film us?

Yuki: Nope, I'll do it.

I can take it as a role-building, after all.

Izumi: I see. I agree with you.

Muku: We'll be counting on you, then, Yuki-kun!

Taichi: Come in!

Omi: Yuki? What brings you here?

Yuki: There's something I'd like to ask you, mom. You see--.

Omi: Oh, alright. I'll lend you this camera, then.

Taichi: Summer Troupe's dance video seems really fun!

Omi: Agree. I feel like it can brighten up your day.

Yuki: Well, we have someone who can move around pointlessly among us, after all.

How do you use this camera?

Omi: Press this button to start recording, and then--.

Yuki: ...Got it.

Thanks. I'm gonna borrow this for a while.

Omi: Yep. Feel free to ask if there's anything you don't understand.

Yuki: Sure. I'll be going, then.

*door closes*

Taichi: Yuki-chan is so pumped up.

Omi: I know, right.

Kazunari: Itarun let us have the video posted on his channel for a limited time!

Misumi: I also found the masks in the warehouse~! Here you go!

Tenma: Hold on, wait! Why do we have horse masks there!?

Yuki: Lame.

Kumon: Ahahaha! Dancing in these masks sounds really interesting!

Muku: Shall we try them on for now?

Yuki: ...I feel like people are gonna be more interested in the horses than the dance.

Kazunari: BTW, you should put one on too, Yuki! We have six masks here!

Yuki: No way in hell I'm gonna wear that.

Muku: But we can add a sense of unity even more if you put this on, Yuki-kun.

Yuki: Nope. I'm not gonna dance with you guys anyway, so it's got nothing to do with a sense of unity.

Misumi: Here, wear this!

Yuki: Hey…

Kazunari: Wow, awesome! Summer Troupe is turning into horsies!

Tenma: Turning into horsies? The heck is that?

Kumon: I'm getting fired up!

Yuki: Oh my God… Don't blame me if the video turns out bad, alright? It's hard to see things in this.

Misumi: Well then, let's dance!

Kazunari: The music's ready! How about the camera, Yukki?

Yuki: I'm ready.

Tenma: Okay, let's start filming.

Muku: ~♪~♪

Kazunari: Nice~!

Kumon: ♪♪♪

Misumi: Whoosh! Watch this~!

Tenma: ~♪~♪

Yuki: (They look pretty great on camera.)

Kumon: Yeaay!

Kazunari: Even the ending poses were perfect!

Muku: Thank you!

Kazunari: By. The. Way~...

Yuki: Hm?

Kazunari: Our cameraman is also a horsie~!

Yuki: Hey, you, hold on. Why are you filming me?

Misumi: Ahaha.

Tenma: I heard our dance video the other day has been posted on Itaru-san's channel.

Muku: Wow, really?

Kumon: Let's go watch it together!

Kazunari: I'm gonna press the play button! Start!

Yuki: Yikes, just as I thought, the horses stand out so much I barely pay attention to the dance.

Kazunari: Ahaha! I was laughing so hard when editing this video too!

Tenma: That aside, the dance itself isn't so bad, right?

Muku: Yes, I think it looks great!

Misumi: We all look like we're having fun dancing~!

Kazunari: But OMG, you guys! Take a look at this! We've got a lot of views! Don't tell me this has gone viral!?

Muku: The, There's a lot of people watching the video…!

Kumon: Wow! That's Itaru-san's channel for you…!

Yuki: ...Oh. Hey, look at this comment.

Kumon: Huh?

Yuki: "Is it just me or they're giving off similar vibes as Mankai Company's Summer Troupe?"

Kazunari: How come, though!? I've edited out our voices and put in the background song!

Tenma: Well, at least they don't seem to be convinced.

Kumon: But aside from that comment, the others mostly talk about the horses.

Misumi: The horses are so popular~!

Muku: The horses' influence is awesome!

Yuki: Why are you guys so happy the horses gain attention? It's not good, you know.

[soooldout]

200907 Woohyun on Instagram Live

Myungsoo was also in the chat

 Woohyun's MBTI is ENFP-T. 

His favorite number is 7. 

He hasn't tried making Dalgona coffee. 

The musical he will enjoy the most is Kinky Boots. He has been wanting to see the musical, and wil go to see Sunggyu’s performance before it ends.

He is enjoying spending time at home. He watches TV, plays video games and composes new songs at home. Lately he plays the game "FIFA online" and he's now in the top 300 Champions in Korea. His goal is to get in the top 100.

He’ll do his best to get in the top 100 of the game, ”FIFA online” in Korea. He likes to play the game because he cannot play soccer in real life these days. He said you should go to bed if you're sleepy because some will probably share the recordings later.

Woohyun promised he will do IG Live often to take care of Inspirits in these difficult times. He mostly stays at home these days due to COVID-19. He doesn't even eat at restaurants anymore. He hopes the virus dies down by the time of his military discharge. He's worried about us.

Some people he knows also got the virus, so he's worried about Inspirits. He told us to wear masks all the time and stay at home as much as possible. His skin keeps breaking out in the chin from wearing masks, but it’s better for your health to keep your masks on all the time. 

At McDonald’s he orders BTD (Bacon tomato deluxe). When you open the bag BTD starts playing in the background. (pls aslkjfgd) 

When fans asked him to show his face, he said he can’t b/c he’s not wearing clothes. (ok.......)

He wants to eat Bossam & Pho with Vietnamese wraps. He ate abalone porridge last week

He's doing 16:8 intermittent fasting. He has lost 10 kgs and has nice abs. He wants to maintain his current weight. When he was a bit heavier a while ago, it was so much easier to sing well.

He loves Marvel movies, and can't wait to watch a new Marvel movie. He also likes the movies directed by Christopher Nolan. He loves the movie “Inception”. It makes him sad that he cannot go to the movies to watch his new movie “Tenet” due to COVID-19.

Woohyun also recommended the movies “Frequency” & “In Time” and the Korean movie “Tae Guk Gi: The Brotherhood of War.” and  "Knives Out"

He recommended the  k-drama "Signal."

Woohyun also recommended the movie “1917.” He watched “Maze Runner” and liked the 1st movie the most among the series. A fan said his MBTI(ENFP-T) is the opposite of Sunggyu’s(ISTJ) and he said ”Yes, it seems like the opposite just by looking at us being together, doesn't it?”

Woohyun was about to go to bed but thought of Inspirits. He couldn't call us so he started IG Live instead. His voice sounds very soft because he's lying on the bed. He often practices singing after work. He watched the collections of “comments on Infinite MVs” on Youtube.

He played the guitar and sang for Inspirits quietly not to disturb his neighbors.

He's self-teaching the guitar by watching tutorial videos on YouTube. Myungsoo just joined the IG Live. Woohyun will go to the bathroom while we chat with Myungsoo.

Myungsoo just asked if Woohyun went to get the guitar.

Woohyun is singing Kim Gwangseok's "In the Name of Love."

Myungsoo said "You're so great! Next song is Stand By Me." (requested by Myungsoo)

Woohyun sang Stand By Me and Myungsoo said his voice is floating. 

After work, Woohyun usually watches TV, plays the guitar or plays FIFA Online. His cellphone is iPhone 11 Pro. 

He works out by dancing, usually on Wednesdays & Thursdays. Not to forget the choreography, he often dances Infinite & his solo dances. If Myungsoo uploads a video of him dancing, Woohyun will also post a video of him dancing Stranger. 

He doesn't eat ice-creams these days. He doesn't like sweets anymore. He drinks Americano when he's tired. He neither likes nor dislikes mint chocolate chip ice cream. He likes the color of mint chocolate chip ice cream. He no longer drinks Cold brew coffee.

Woohyun really wants to have a concert. That's what he wants to do the most after his military discharge. The word Woohyun wants to say first when he meets his fans again is "I love you." The first song he will sing at his solo concert after the military discharge is "When Fall Comes."

Woohyun wants to try dyeing his hair grey after his military discharge.

He prefers Soju to beer. He wants to perform the musical "The Days" again.

He also plays the game "Battle Ground" It's hard for him to get up early in the morning to get ready to go to work. 

He usually goes to bed around midnight or 1 am.  

It was forecast that a strong typhoon will hit Korea, so he told the fans to stay safe. 

He's not interested in doing Twitch broadcasting of him playing games after his military discharge. Playing games is his hobby and he doesn't want broadcasting gets involved. He also thinks fans will get bored if he broadcasts him playing games.

He got Kartrider Saber but he doesn't play the game often. But he thinks he can still beat the fan who asked him about Kartrider. 

He sometimes eats Mala hot pot. 

He doesn't play baseball games. He prefers soccer to baseball. He likes sports that are more intense & proceed fast.

He shared over a hundred photos from his phone.

Some comments by Myungsoo during the instalive:

"I want to hear the guitar sound too" (as he joined a bit late)

“I didn’t hear the guitar properly can you play it again”

“bring it and play it again” 

“It’s good, (please sing) Stand By Me”

“you’re so great. next song is Stand By Me”

“mint choco is delicious”

“looking forward to the dance video”

“you’re a dance machine right”

“please talk namu-nim”

"Namu-nim please be happy always"

translations by ifntnews on twitter

[sidecarghost]

Suptober20 - Day 21 Fear Part 1

HighSchool!AU with a little bit of Soulmate trope - this AU has a phone app that can tell you the fears of your soulmate

Part 1/2 (part 2 is an epilogue that kind of changed the feel of the story enough that I decided to split into separate post)

Summary: Dean wants to get Castiel on a date and asks his best friend Charlie for help. Charlie tries to convince Dean just to talk to Castiel, but Dean is sure that Castiel doesn't even know he exists.

“Please Charlie, have some pity on me,” Dean laments tragically. He sits at the lunch table across from his best friend Charlie. He attempts his best puppy eyes to help his cause.

“Just talk to Castiel or I can talk to him. Your plan to rig his soulmate app results is so bizarre. I really can’t believe it has any chance at working,” Charlie counters.

“You just need to have faith, and I’m sure you can do it Charlie. Please don’t abandon me in my hour of need,” Dean begs his friend.

“Okay, okay enough with the guilt trip. You owe me after this Dean. But I’m not hacking Cas’s phone. We share a CompSci class. I’ll just ask him to beta test a soulmate clone app that will be loaded with a few random things you can try to be scared of,” Charlie explains.

“Thanks Charlie, you’re my hero,” Dean smiles enthusiastically.

“I’ll work on the app later, and text you after school,” Charlie tells Dean as she picks up her lunch tray and leaves the cafeteria. Dean floats to his next class with complete optimism that this plan will work.

~~ Later on, Charlie texts Dean ~~

Charlie: How is this for the list of your fears for the soulmate clone app?

Clowns

Cockroaches

Opening up to people

Germs

Demonic Possession

Cat jumping out of locker

Dean: Really “opening up to people?”

Charlie: Yeah, you can walk up to Castiel and tell him that you like him, and you were scared to tell him before. And then we can skip the rest of this bizarre plan.

Dean: Not happening.

Charlie: Okay, then back to our overly-complicated and sure-to-fail plan. How about this list?

Clowns

Cockroaches

Public speaking

Germs

Demonic Possession

Cat jumping out of locker

Dean: Okay this will work, and I have some awesome ideas how to pull them off. Cas is in a few of my classes, so I just need to do some prep and everything will run as smooth as a drive in the Impala.

Charlie: So what are you thinking?

Dean: my awesome plan:

When I see Cas at bus drop off area, Garth can help scare me with a clown mask

During our HomeEc class I'll put a cockroach in my pie batter to scare me

Presenting our projects in civics, I can do a mini panic attack or something

During gym maybe I can get someone to sneeze on me and then overreact

I have a charm from my Uncle Bobby that he said would ward off evil spirits according to lore. But since monsters aren't real I'm not sure how that one will work.

Who has cats at school? I don't think this one will work, can you take it off the list?

Charlie: Ok, so 4 is probably enough, but ig wear your evil charm just in case. And you have totally grossed me out with #2.

Dean: hey, the things we do for love right? I do feel bad for the pie batter tho.

***

Charlie makes her soulmate clone app, and she asks Castiel if he wouldn’t mind beta testing it during their Computer Science class. Castiel looks at Charlie with a fair amount of skepticism, but Charlie is his friend so he decides to indulge her request and installs the app. Charlie tells him a story about how she hit the original app with some machine learning algorithms to feed her clone app. So her soulmate app should be just as reliable as the original. Castiel figures they can just test that theory by opening the original app and seeing if the fears listed in both the original app and Charlie’s app match. Charlie sighs, and says that is very sensible, but she thinks her algorithms may have actually found flaws in the original app, so the results could be different because hers are more accurate.

"Really you think your app could be more accurate Charlie?” Castiel asks with a heavy amount of skepticism. “As in, there is actually a chance that a random generator on some server, is in fact not random but knows who we are destined to be in love with. I don't think soulmates are even something I believe in, do you believe in them?"

"Well, I never used too," Charlie replies thoughtfully. "But I have a friend, and he has been pretty unlucky in love. Maybe some people just keep striking out, because they really were meant to be with one particular soul. And until they finally end up with that person, they just have a lot of heartbreaks and casual flings. Seeing my friend struggle, is enough to make me think that sometimes, cupid can be a soulmate app. Or maybe I'm cupid in this metaphor and the soulmate app is my arrow, I'm not sure. But anyway, I guess what I mean is, romance doesn't only have to exist in romcoms. Sometimes we can let go of our fears, and believe in some greater force like destiny or soulmates or a very efficient machine learning algorithm will find us something we never knew we were missing, like the love of our lives."

"It sounds like your friend is lucky to have you," Castiel says.

"Yeah, he totally is," Charlie smirks.

"So what can I do with your soulmate app to help you and your friend's cause?" Castiel asks.

"Just look over my soulmate app results to see the kind of things that it lists as your soulmate’s fears, and I guess let me know at the end of the week if you found your soulmate, potential soulmate, or at least someone worth a date or two," Charlie says sheepishly.

Castiel checks the clone app results and laughs, "Okay, Charlie I'll keep you posted."

~~

Charlie: Castiel has the app. Good luck! Dean: Awesome! Tyyyy!

~~

Dean is not having good luck with these fears, and is beginning to think Charlie may have been right calling this plan too bizarre or complicated to succeed.

The first failure was the clown. Everything was going smoothly. Castiel was walking by him after leaving the bus drop off, and Garth jumped out with perfect timing wearing his creepy clown mask. But before Dean could say a word, Sam started screaming like a kid possessed. It was all Dean could do to calm his kid brother down and show him that it was just Garth playing a prank. Sam gave Dean and Garth the ultimate bitchface, and any hopes of that fear establishing his soulmate status with Castiel were gone.

Then there was the crisis with the cockroaches. For some reason, Garth was able to give him a cardboard box of several large cockroaches. And Dean was feeling pretty good about his chances of success, because Sammy wasn't there to scream bloody murder at the bugs. But when he went to get the cardboard box he found it empty. As the emptiness of that box registered in his brain, the shrieks from Meg and Jo's station gave him a good clue where the cockroaches were. Dean shook his head, and he looked over to see Castiel watching Meg and Jo take their rolling pins to squash the bugs. "Crap, now Cas is going to think Meg or Jo is his soulmate." Dean was definitely going to have to sell some panic for the Civics presentation.

But it seemed that fate was mad about Dean trying to rig the soulmate clone app results because the Civics presentation ended as the worst failure so far. Dean and his Civic project partners Anna and Kevin had taken their place at the front of the class. Dean checked out Castiel, who was seated in his desk and watching him and his partners attentively. Dean ran through in his head how he could nervously drop some things and sell the whole paranoia for public speaking. While Dean daydreamed a bit about Castiel's sexed up looking hair, he was snapped back to reality by the sound of vomiting coming from his left. He turned to see Kevin had upchucked all over Anna. Apparently Kevin was actually afraid of talking in front of people and that stress had affected his digestion. And it turned out that Anna was a bit of a germaphobe, because she seemed equal parts afraid of catching a disease and disgusted that her clothes were stained in barf.

Dean was faced to admit defeat, every fear meant to establish him as Castiel's soulmate had slipped through his fingers. And unless a demon suddenly appeared he was out of options.

Gym class was the last class he shared with Castiel. Dean was not going to bother to try to get sneezed on. Seeing Anna covered in upchuck was enough germs for one day. His gym teacher told the class to run laps around the building, and Dean began to run at a steady pace.

"Hello Dean," Castiel had run up alongside Dean and matched his speed so they could chat.

"Oh, hey," Dean turned to see Castiel had a slight smile and that was enough to encourage him to return with his own smile. Maybe Dean should try Charlie's original advice and just talk to Castiel. "How's it going Cas?"

"Pretty good. How's your brother? I think I saw him get upset on the way in to school today," Castiel says.

"Oh, he's okay," Dean grins sheepishly. "He is afraid of clowns, and I kind of had this prank idea with Garth. But since I can be a self-absorbed, older brother I didn't really think through how that would affect Sammy."

"Yeah, it seems like there has been plenty of weird stuff going on at school today between the clowns, cockroaches, and vomit," Castiel says cocking an eyebrow at Dean.

"Tell me about it. Sometimes I just wish I could hit a restart button, and start the day over without all the weird," Dean shakes his head.

"You know Charlie Bradbury right? If it was possible to program a restart button I would talk to her," Castiel replies. "We are in Computer Science together, and I think she knows more about the subject than our teacher."

"Oh yeah, I know Charlie. We have been best friends since kindergarten," Dean tells Castiel. "And I have no doubt that she is smarter than your Computer Science teacher."

"Do you mind me asking what that charm is on your necklace?" Castiel asks.

"Oh, just this thing from my uncle. Supposed to ward off evil things or bad spirits." Dean tells Castiel.

"I guess that would be a good thing to wear if you were afraid of demon possession," Castiel deadpans.

"Uh..." Dean finds himself at a loss for a response. Dean has the sneaking suspicion that Castiel has figured out everything about “beta testing” Charlie’s soulmate app. He considers changing course from circling the school, and instead running flat out the entire way back to his house. Maybe Charlie can get him an assumed identity.

Before Dean has a chance to flee, Castiel continues the conversation. “Do you have a cat in a locker somewhere?" He asks with interest.

"Of course not," Dean tries to hold back a laugh and fails. "Charlie was supposed to take that off the list. So I guess you found me out." Dean glances towards Castiel to get a read on his expression.

"Well, I did tell Charlie I'd give her app a chance," Castiel replies with a soft smile towards Dean. "Would you like to go on a date with me later? Maybe we can find out if we are soulmates or not."

"Yeah, Cas," Dean says with a dazzling smile. "I really would like that."