#i want to be their friend so bad

[jisungsradio]

i finished rereading radio silence and honestly no matter how many times i read it, it always makes me feel so much comfort afterwards. and it always makes me want to protect aled last with everything i have, he deserves the world. i'm also very grateful for frances for being such a great friend, we all need someone like her. it's one of my favourite books ever and alice's writing never ceases to amaze me 🤍

i mean, look at them, they're the coolest bffs to ever exist and i want to hug them both <3

[fucklife-or-me]

I just broke down while showering. I'll post it here bc I can't scream it to the world.

I don't think I'll ever be able to say-to admit- face to face how much I want to be loved by people who I do not share blood with.

How bad I carve an embrace that will hold me when my bones ache, and will whisper soothing words when my spine breaks by the events of the day. I cannot put into words how much I crave inner jokes, funny looks or gentle words. How my soul aches to be the first option just once. I pretend to not care, but even I can't deny my longing looks when I see a happy friend group chatting amongst themselves, can't deny the sadness and the envy that crawl out making me look away. I want to be on the arms of people other than my kin. I want to be a receiver of the meaningful looks and be the one that understands inner jokes. I want to know what is like to be care about. To have people who will genuinely fight for you, no questions asked. I want to be seen. And I can't help but feel selfish,feel like I'm making myself the victim.

I try and try and try to establish friendships but I can't. In the end I can't. Because it has been so long since I've had a proper one I don't know who to nurture them anymore. Even when I try and even when I'm laughing with them I feel it. In the back of my head, whispers echoing repeating the same thing

It won't last

It won't last

It won't last

Then they became cruel,

They don't like you

Your just a replacement

They will tose u aside, forget u when their finished

And how could I compete with the truth? History repeats itself after all.

How can I want people to like me when I don't even like myself. I don't feel good in my skin in my mind. Perhaps that was the problem, my thoughts, my unsaid words, the words that I did said, what my eyes would say.

Perhaps I am just not suitable for human relations but oh how deeply do I crave to be. Looking for that warmth on words and paragraphs, on books and poems, on scraps.Oh but I don't think they are enough to cure the ache in my soul anymore, perhaps they never were.

[xxselenite]

I know that Little Women (2019) is flawed, but I don't care, it is so comforting and has such a special place in my heart. I wish I could go back in time and see it for the first time again.

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[solitarelee]

East Asian fanartists are starting to migrate back to Tumblr because Twitter is insane, toxic, and dying, and what we're NOT going to do is let the fucking exclusionists get them, do you hear me? We are not going to let a bunch of feral idiots try to apply the most myopic version of puritanism to foreign artists we're not we're not we're not. Form an armed brigade if you have to, do you hear me. We're not going to bully the artists who may or may not even speak English because we have our precious standards of moral purity. If we see art that makes us uncomfy we're going to block the artist and tumblr savior their name so we don't have to see them again AND WE'RE GONNA MOVE THE FUCK ON.

[kavaleyre]

“After 200 years, you can forget how much color there is in the world.”

[birdmenmanga]

I think there's no greater indication that disco elysium is sympathetic towards communism when it literally says "communism is failure" and then the literal gameplay itself rewards trying and failing. The most obvious one being the Shivers check at the FELD mural, which is an Impossible 20 check BUT opens itself up again and again the longer you spend in the world doing things, but even just looking at sheer probabilities, for any given white check, rolling first and THEN putting a point into that skill upon failure is more likely to grant you success than putting a point first and then rolling, but that would require failing first.

Other things too: Precarious world saying you'll 100% fail red checks no matter what (not necessarily a bad thing, btw!! throwing the boule into the sea is a success but like. in some other ways one would want a perfect petanque throw instead. but people wouldn't typically assume that failure is desirable sometimes from the start) persuading you to accept that you'll fail some things that is irrevocable, for a world where everything is just a tiny bit easier.

The faux game over screen when you faint after reading Dora's letter— emulating a sense of failure on the scale of the entire game. When it rolls up most people go "What?? Game over?? No way, what did I do wrong!!" and waking up after that, with no huge or lasting impact on Harry's health or morale really tells the player, "Sometimes things will seem so bad that it all seems like it's coming to an end, but it's not the end, it's really not the end, go drink so water, you can still go on despite this failure"

I'm sure there are other things as well that are eluding me but like. The literal gameplay rewards failing and succeeding far more so than simply succeeding every single time, and I think you get a fuller experience of Elysium that way too

[secretagentspydetectiveninja]

posting this with absolutely no context

[m-r-moth]

- WHO DARED TO HURT MY STUPID BROTHER?!

i want an au where she will protect the crap out of zuko exactly because she is strong and great at bending

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Laios's three Boy Best Friends. And yes, they hate him.

[mugentakeda]

more jetko tomfoolery

[floccinaucinihilipilificationa]

[yardsards]

the owl house really said "familial love is stored in a gifted garment"

EDIT: forgot one! thanks @cat-eared-exam-taker

[ewwww-what]

friendship so strong it grants you a sixth level spell slot. I have words to say.

[truly-sincerely]

Obsessively reading everything in game by and about Gortash and the dude is

On a philosophical trajectory that ends in immortality thru technology / the machine

Doesn't have an original bone in his body, but he can backwards engineer anything

Halfway to being a decent scientist but doesn't have the education and is deeply impatient

Overconfident in the veracity of his own results and conclusions

Accurately predicted that the brain would metamorphose and become more difficult to control and then did nothing about it

Outsources his propaganda / arts and humanities

Charming, but he got there in a Pavlovian way (learned from trial and error and probably doesn't consciously know how he does it)

Vindictive af (learned / reinforced)

Darwinian (in the worst way)

Sociopathic, obviously, but extremely Rationalist about it

Never asks questions he doesn't know the answer to and probably thinks this makes him sound more authoritative

Completely incompetent as a strategist (but doesn't know it)

Not nearly as narcissistic / full of himself as he pretends to be

Thinks what he wants is praise but it's never enough because it's not actually what he wants (he wants to be wanted)

Bane makes him feel wanted (conditionally)

Durge made him feel wanted (unconditionally)

Understands intellectually that Durge got ambushed, but he feels abandoned

See also: thematic parallels between Gortash and

Silouv Yali (the Adamantine Forge & the construct Grym)

Oliver (in the shadow-cursed lands)

Astarion and Gale, obviously

[yudol-skorbi]

this concept is so funny to me like s1 steddie fucking hilarious eddie would have the most embarrassing crush on the worst human being ever (in his opinion) and would be SO ANGRY about it

part 2

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