#i will once again say something haters won't like and they will tell me to delete my blog again

[mochinomnoms]

If the year is uncomfortable, I would like to make a request for your 1000 followers event, with Jamil viper prompt 19 (NSFW (if you don't want to do it, it can just be suggestive)) and the song Die For You (The Weeknd, “Starboy” )

jamil viper x gn!reader [tags] - nsfw [wc} - 723 prompt 19: “Can I kiss you again? I promise I won't get carried away.” song: Die For You (The Weeknd, “Starboy”) note - mmm still a jamil hater, but i suppose i see the appeal (i jest); i slep now cause it's 3am. francesca (1k event)

“I try to find a reason to pull us apart / It ain’t workin’ ‘cause you’re perfect / And I know that you’re worth it / I can’t walk away, oh”

“Ah~ Jamil!” You gasped, voice high-pitched as you let out breathless moans. Jamil was no better as he panted, hips still flushed to yours as he felt your walls pulsing, no doubt from you cumming.

He wasn't intending to escalate your make out session this far, especially since there was currently another one of Kalim’s parties happening. How you two managed to escape to his room without getting caught was a miracle.

“Fuck…we…”Jamil exhaled sharply as you moved your hips, his dick twitching at the overstimulation. “Fuck, we should go back. Kalim’s gonna be looking for me any second.”

“Noooo!” you whined, caressing one of the arms caging you to the bed, kissing his arm as you did. 

“Come on, or else we’ll get caught—”

“Is that the reason we’re going with?” A teasing lilt to your voice, you wrapped your arms around Jamil’s neck and soothingly rubbed a thumb against his pulse. “You didn’t seem to mind almost being caught the other day~”

“That was different…”

“Oh?” You let out a laugh, “How? You could’ve found a reason, I’m sure.”

“Mmm, you’re right, I could’ve. But you looked so perfect on your knees for me, it was so worth it.”

Jamil purred as you brought him down, his hair cascading over his shoulders like a waterfall, his lips hovering over yours.

“… Can I kiss you again?” you whispered, like you were telling a secret or asking for something forbidden. Maybe you were. “I promise I won’t get carried away this time.” 

Your lover snorted.

“Sure you won’t, that’s what you said earlier too.”

Despite his protests, Jamil eagerly met your lips with his own, parting as he entered your mouth with a gentle swipe of his tongue. A blissful sigh left your mouth as he shifted his hips, both of you moaning from the intoxicating heat growing again between your legs. You tilted your head to deepen the once chaste kiss, teeth grazing against tongues, wet sounds growing louder in the room as arms wrapped around each other. 

You let out a shuddering breath as you felt his member get hard, still in your heat. Jamil’s hands wandered along your body, sliding down your back to arch you into him and off the bed. Digging your nails into his back to steady yourself, Jamil took control of your hips with his own, hot pleasure spreading over your bodies as he ground into you. 

Gasping breaths and melding bodies, Jamil fervently pressed wet kisses into your forehead, cheeks, and down your neck. 

“Shit, I don’t care. Let them come in and see us.” Moving to sit up, bringing you up with him to hold you in an embrace as he bounced you even deeper on his dick. 

“Ah! Jamil! FUCK! Aaaaaaah~”

“That’s it, that’s perfect, say my name, let everyone know who you belong to.” You cried out as Jamil pulled your head back by your hair, neck now exposed as you felt warm, soft lips pressing kisses into your skin. 

“Look at me.”

Eyes that you didn’t realize were closed, opened to meet your lover’s own dark gray ones. They were looking at you with lust, longing, and fondness that made you melt even more into his embrace. A rough snap of his hips forced a keen to leave your lips, tears welling up as you froze and shuddered, mouth forming an 'o' as you clenched to Jamil like he was your lifeline. 

“That’s it, keep looking at me pretty, keep cumming for me.” His eyes wandered over your form as he kept your hips moving, despite your cries, looking at you like he was revering a deity. 

Jamil was sure that you were one, sent specifically for him to worship. And for you to bless, him, only him. His personal god, his divinity, and he, your personal devotee, worshiper, servant.

How he loathed being a servant. But for you? He'd do anything to keep you tied to him for all eternity, to keep your love for him and to serve only his whims. When you really think about it, who's really the servant when you both live solely for the other?

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[katnissdoesnotfollowback]

For "Never Have I Ever"

...Chef Peeta/Server or Food Critic Katniss? (Or some such variation of this)

Yes chef? 🫦

Madame. You are already on my shit list for the number of fic idea documents I've added to my drive because of you. Clearly you are determined to badger me into writing this one, and le sigh. I like it. A lot. So much so that I have two options for you:

Option A: When Katniss left her home town at the age of eighteen, she had no intention of returning. Ever. Too many painful memories, like a pregnancy at the age of sixteen that ended in miscarriage. Or her father's death while she was still grieving the loss of her baby. Her mother's suicide attempt. The way all of that left her so raw that she destroyed her relationship with her high school sweetheart.

Now Katniss writes a food critique column with her work partner, Gale. They specialize in small restaurants with unique "local flavor." Then their boss assigns them to a newly opened restaurant in her home town, and Katniss begs Gale to do all the work this time. Their boss refuses to let her off the hook once he finds out Katniss grew up in that town, but a last minute family emergency with Gale's mother results in Katniss checking in alone to the only decent hotel in town.

Of course, she didn't do her research and when she calls to make a reservation for that night, she finds out the restaurant she's meant to review closes early on Thursdays. Stuck in town for an extra night, Katniss makes her way to the one decent bar in town. She's already a few drinks in when old news walks through the door.

Despite all the hurt lingering between them, it's clear that the sparks are still there, and Katniss never could resist Peeta Mellark's kind blue eyes or his sweet, shy smile. Which is why, even though a one night stand with her high school sweetheart is a horrible idea, Katniss convinces herself she won't ever see him again anyway.

On Friday night, Katniss eats at what she quickly deems "a hidden gem almost good enough to make me move back home." Enchanted with the food and the ambiance, she asks to meet the chef and is granted her request.

Suddenly, she finds a hundred and one things wrong with the food.

As much as he wishes he had, Peeta knows he's never stopped loving his high school sweetheart. He tried dating other girls after they lost their baby and Katniss left his heart in shreds, but no one seemed able to fill the hollow feeling inside his chest. Which is probably why, when he sees her in Abernathy's Pub, he reverts to his teenage stupidity. Even though she tells him that she's only in town for one night, he still returns flirt and somehow winds up in bed with her.

Of course, it doesn't matter that the sex was incredible, she's still gone when he wakes up in the morning. So he throws himself into his work, the one thing that's kept him sane all these years.

At least until one of his servers bring Katniss into his kitchen, claiming she wanted to meet the chef and introducing her as one of the writers behind the famous Local Flavor food critique column. Small restaurants like his live or die by her reviews, and she's got nothing good to say about his place.

Lovers to haters back to lovers, second chance romance fic. Spicy up front followed by a long, slow simmer.

Option B: For the life of him, Peeta cannot seem to keep a staff in his kitchen. His best friend Delly, the kindest person he knows, has suggested that maybe it's because he's too soft. Too kind, and people take advantage of him. Enter Katniss Everdeen (aka Gordon Ramsey ala Nightmare Kitchen) to whip Peeta's struggling restaurant into shape. Tempers flare and it gets hot in the kitchen until things come to a boil one night while Katniss and Peeta are alone, trying out new recipes. Peeta orders her to do something and she responds the way she's been training his new staff to respond. "Yes chef!" And Peeta discovers that he likes hearing her say that to him... a whole lot more than he should. He wants to find out if there are any other ways he can get her to say it or otherwise moan it...

Spoiler alert. He does find out, and discovers that she likes saying it to him as much as he likes hearing it.

Never Have I Ever

<3 kdnfb

[yellowymellon]

So threshold 4 cooked me good but on the bright side I got to hear Acheron's sped up skill more than I'd like to admit, she says : "everything will vanish some day"

And that sounds awfully like what a follower of finality would say. So it made me think (again) about Herta who wonders why nanook has to exist when finality already does....

we established that nanook is the youngest aeon but SIKE it's terminus. The logic is very simple, terminus speaks of the prophecy of the end, the doomed world of the future, while traversing the past. It's because nanook's ultimate destruction gave birth to terminus to begin with. I think it's further implied by elegy :

And now the question is, what is this importune slug trying to achieve by going to the past if they're not trying to change the future? I'm glad that even the follower's of finality understand how messy their aeon is and question their actions. But if we take in consideration that finality ascends in the future it answers some of elegy's questions, like "why bring the apocalypse if they want to salvage everything"

If you noticed, unlike other aeons, Finality has never even done anything in the "name" of finality. e.g fuli collecting memories, the propagation propagates, even Qlipoth is doing something no matter how stupid it looks. But time powers? HOW IS THAT FINALITY

Part of the reason I'm a terminus bully

I'm trying to say that terminus isn't the harbinger of the apocalypse, they're a byproduct themselves. So wanting to salvage everything is unrelated.

Elegy also says this :

We can interpret it as: amber to rupture (Qlipoth) immortality to wither (Yaoshi) music to mute (Xipe) light arrows to dim (Lan) Dark sun (IX) tavern (Aha) and lastly Nanook (ty user hereistori for ur help!)

I don't think nanook will single handedly kill every aeon, but this implies that finality will at the end. It's also the reason why the equilibrium won't stop nanook because it's an equal clash between them and finality who already knows what will happen.

Imo terminus isn't necessarily good, I think they just tell the future as a matter of fact and let you deal with it however you wish, in that sense they're even better than nous who has caLcULaTeD eVeRyThiNg (not a nous hater they bbg)

But then elegy says that terminus has TB joining them in their journey soon, which might imply terminus is on our side actually. And since we confirmed that SH follow terminus -even if the database didn't update it yet- I can confidently (and somewhat disappointedly) say that Elio is their emanator. Not only that but the favoritism is real, because terminus is close by his side. Elegy (once again) says the TB received their grace, hmmm, this paragraph points at one thing, remember Kafka's truth? An unknown aeon modified TB's body to host a stellaron. Srsly terminus does everything that isn't finality

You know what will be the craziest paradox tho? It's Elio being terminus pre ascension who went back to give human him the ability to see the future (plays 5D chess). This could also explain why elio is focused on killing nanook when he was basically forced into this role. It explains his motivation and his means + his grand plan of making TB in the likeness of nanook for some reason NO IM NOT CRAZY HEAR ME OU-

I mean it makes more sense than elio is akivili or nanook (those are legit ones, I don't agree with)

Anyway, elegy....says "what is the meaning of our existence if everything is bound to be reduced to nothingness in the end" (you can tell I like her and elio a lot lol *bats my eyes cutely*) which sounds awfully similar to Acheron's. Déjà vu? So how do we explain the connection between finality and nihility ? Idk- if you have any thoughts share them pls! I'm chronically obsessed with IX!!!

At least we know that IX existed before terminus did, and I was just saying that terminus will end nihility, so maybe Acheron's answer lies in finality like ppl speculated at first, interesting don't you think?

I've been thinking that some day PLS I BEG Elio would come in touch with Acheron, if she's able to sever paths, she'll definitely come in handy against nanook.

But I gotta say, terminus is a cruel existence to IX, an aeon that believes that the fate of the universe is nothingness, and is proven right.

Also, an emanator is like a mirror to an aeon, we may be fundamentally misunderstanding smth... finality isn't connected to nihility, but it looks like it because we don't have the full picture. Elio believes the book to end, but for the story to have a million ways to play out. He doesn't refuse finally, nor does he think it's worthless to try. Terminus must be the same, they may have nothing to do with nihility, but I know nihilism to be connected to Finality.

THANKS FOR READING! 💟

[satureja13]

The Boys are on their way back from their - more or less successful - trip to the Southern Islands. They'd found the Demon and got back Jack's heart. Greg will have to replace it in his weird Frankenstein Dungeon, so they'd put it in a bucket for the time being. Jack doesn't bother, though. He will delay this 'open heart surgery' as long as possible - stop the ingame time by just not logging in. For the moment he has no use for this heart of his, that only brought him pain. First with Kiyoshi and now with Lou. Of course they also took Skully with them. He's perching on the barrels and entertains them with his wisdom nonsense. And there is the sword Jihovere pulled out of the stone statue of her King.

Even though Jihovere didn't get her feelings back from the Demon - Leander said this is something she has to achieve herself (but he has no idea how-to either...) - she's relieved that she brought back the Heir - her King.

Princess Jihovere not only freed the King out of that statue - she also brought him back into the hearts of their subjects. She posted every stage of their adventure on her Social Bunny and her followers are spreading the word. Leander had been right. Instead of running away and giving the haters fuel for their spiteful comments - standing proud and fearless to what you are and who you love was the wiser thing to do and changed the minds of most of their people.

They were celebrating their brave and loyal Princess all over the land. The King promised to marry her as soon as they returned to the Castle. So the Queen and Greg could finally return back to their Queendom and live openly together. Caleb and Lou might move there too. And even though the statue looked nothing like Vlad (only Leander claimed it would ^^') - to protect the Heir whereever he hid, she somehow felt it only could have been him and wasn't that surprised.

Jihovere looked lovingly over at her friends. From somewhere she heard someone singing. Maybe Skully? (Since he doesn't move his mouth while speaking ^^') It's strange that she's not seasick for once... The Princess sighed. Maybe it's time to log out. Jack is running on borrowed time without his heart and it's better to not log in anytime soon to give him some time to process that he will never be able to go back to Lou again and heal. And Jihovere won't marry the King until she got her feelings back. Ji Ho must find a way in RL then. Probably with their promising Tantra practice - and Vlad.

Ji Ho tried to log out and already felt the disconnection from Jihovere. But somehow he still was ingame - as a watcher ö.Ö' He saw Jihovere jump into the ocean. The others yelling after her... Sai: "Omg Jihovere! What are you doing?! Jack! She swims right in front of the bow! Steer hard starboard!" Jack: "I can't! It's locked!"

Jihovere was too fast to be in danger anyway. She swam to a cliff that had just risen out of the ocean...

After she climbed up, she blew her conge...

And a storm rose! The small ship with her friends on board was heading right towards the cliff!

Saiwa: "Jack! What are you doing!? We're going to hit the cliff!" Jack, already gritting his teeth from exhaustion: "I told you - I can't! Better come and help me move that steering wheel! And Skully - stop singing!" Skully: "It's not me!" But Sai and Jeb couldn't move either. It was just as if they'd been glued with their feet to the planks!

The ship was still relentlessly drawn towards that cliff. Lightning struck. Saiwa: "We're doomed! Ji Ho! Stop it!" Sai screamed: "Out! OUT!!!" But Tiny Can didn't listen either - or couldn't.

Ji Ho tried everything to log out - in vain. This was all too much. He wasn't able to tell anymore what was real and what not. His friends are in mortal danger. Jihovere collapsed - and finally, finally Ji Ho opened the Pandora's Box with all the feelings he'd locked away to survive the horrors of his childhood - the only thing that came to his twisting mind to end all this. Since it already stopped the game last time - when the Demon gave Jihovere a glimpse of her feelings.

The game stopped - and Ji Ho's world went black.

'No more will my green sea Go turn a deeper blue I could not foresee this thing Happening to you

If I look hard enough Into the setting sun My love will laugh with me Before the morning comes

I see a red door And I want it painted black No colors anymore I want them to turn black'

Paint it Black - The Rolling Stones

Outtakes

Lou called Jack! But Jack didn't answer ö.ö

And Francine called her grandson Jeb - to order him to the duelling grounds...

The Therapy Game Master Post with the sessions and places so far is -> here

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[34saveme34]

SMG4 sim review + Idk things funny

this is gonna be. unorganised. witness !

he sleeps with starving pou good for him

dumb hobo knockoff.......... where have I heard that before...........

interesting he's getting called a knockoff though!

some violence today I see!

he barely just woke up and is already going right in to Meme

I mean, I. respect the grind but. damn

one could say.... it's going to be perfect? Huh SMG4?

Hey that's. pretty early! Uhm. wow

he's REALLY going for the grind huh?

Also I posted before the "plan out shit vs make up shit" and man I love it for him honestly, he really does feel like someone who likes to go with the flow

and I'll say his video was pretty charming! Although it is once again Hamburger. saying once again because of his phone apparently like, having a hamburger folder full of hamburger pictures. I don't remember which episode it was at this point

very intensive meme making btw. puts his whole memeussy into it or whatever. sorry I said that, I won't delete it though. you have to read it

HE IS SO INSECURE "it should be funny" BRO, YOU'RE THE MEME MACHINE THE FUCK YOU MEAN SHOULD

CMON

me for real. me when I post something stupid and wonder if people will like it. I'm so SMG4 in this moment

his number 1 hater...... even after all this time..... what is this if not true love?

okay but genuinely so interesting. He was working hard on a video and it got disliked and 3 also called it shit

Idk I'm just, whenever 4's insecurity in his videos come up, I get reminded of his little "nobody loves me unless I am meming good" episode

especially with 3 being involved here

I bet he actually chuckled once but decided to say that anyways because he doesn't want to feed 4's non existent ego

anyways the fact, the FACT that after 3 tells him his video sucks he dies?? I know that they probably weren't going for it but it really does feel like he really REALLY cares about what 3 thinks of his stuff

it's almost like he wantst to prove himself to 3 that he can make stuff beyond 3's imagination, which is, kind of gay

can.... can this be counted as him using his guardian powers? I mean, it IS meme related even if for his video

I wonder what else can he do. I also wish we could see more moves and stuff where both of them are needed. like sure, we got the wotfi 23 fusion move but other stuff we really only saw them working by themselves

forced to hold hands doesn't count because they didn't really. use their powers there so

so disrespectful to his boyfriend..... come on man. you know he is worth millions. and his kisses for you billions

also find it really interesting that he seems to be the brightest here, like lighting wise

I wonder if he got in there because he actually LOVES being involved in 4's videos. Like, nobody else did, all the other stuff were memes

it was only 3 who wasn't, which I think especially justifies his weirdly coloured outline

I wonder, maybe, he was counted as negative points because he's not a meme

or maybe it's a bit of a throwback at the idea that he can't be funny

I just love this shot. this is so me core, I'm so like this, I'm saying this all the time

this looks so cursed

also kinda funny the ice cream seems to replenish him more than a watermelon

I mean- at least his eating isn't complete wack?

into the deep pocket you go, child

Now, let me say something controversial. I think, if 4 got over himself, he would like some fanfics. like ASMRs already like, especially this type of thing he's listening to hold a cringe factor

a cringe factor outsider people also associate with fanfiction. I'm just saying, I think he would read angst fanfics. He would read them and feel really sad but would be too ashamed to tell anyone about it

This is also supported by the fact that he likes dating sims. I don't know what his exact type is in all of this but he definitely enjoys sappy, romantic stuff. All of it. If he wasn't scared of people judging him, he would be so so SO indulgent. I think this is one of the reasons he likes hanging around Boopkins. I think he might even envy his ease of showing his interests in even the most indulgent stuff without caring what others think

you should've comforted him. Anyways why are you here, there's no way that much time passed. you're here at like 7 AM. Do you just live here 3? You also said in wotfi 23 prep stream that you have your credit card linked to 4's pc!!! you're not beating the living together allegatins, 3!!!!!!!!

although really interesting he gets his stuff together over 3's comment

he lost it at 3's words, he collected his shit together over 3's words

again, what is this if not true love in plain sight?

Really loved the fnaf bit, though Mario smashing his PC was kinda Eh

especially cuz he got punished for it

can't even be attention seeking around 4 because he's just gonna freak out and call you a distraction

and he like memes all the time which means you could become a distraction to him VERY often

lowkey makes me think 3 doesn't like to bother with some stuff because of that, like i just KNOW he wants to hang out more

like CMON

hey that's his silly little music player from last episode!

the bootleg 3 plushie in his inventory!!

a little gay I'll say

what ya lookin so crazy for!!!!!!

maybe the only fans option wouldn't have failed you like the sponsorship did

I mean at least the merch worked

which uh.....

not to be like that but my mind went catboy 3

ME !!! ME FOR REAL

by the way this once again shows how fluid and stupid fame is in the SMG4 videos

or this is like a sly sign at 4 falling off again and trying to hide his insecurity!!! I don't want that

I hope that this is just a bit that doesn't get brought up again, we don't need It's gotta perfect 2 I think

anyways that's it for the episode! Overall fun honestly

would be interesting to see videos like this with other characters as well, considering it shows an insight into the character's brain

for example here, I could tell that 4 has problems and is also still quite insecure, though that's not something that can just change so easily soooo

yeah

overall real fun though I'm left desiring a normal episode

[mrs-monaghan]

Thank you for not shying away from discussing Jikook like normal adults or deleting asks or being a coward. You don't hold back and for that you have earned my complete respect. A lot of Jikookers lately can't take the heat. You out here not giving a shit and speaking your mind. Jikook deserve 100% support, even when the hate roles in and the heat gets turned up and you still here. You the real MVP.

This is what I am sick to death of. I am tired of someone posting something Jikook related and so called JKK telling them to delete it because it sets JM up for hate. First of all, fuck you for being a coward. 2nd of all, that is exactly what TKK and Jimin antis and Jikook antis want. They want you not to post stuff related to them. For example, JK brother allowing the photo of Bam and Jikook on his tag. What happened? Cult got mad, started harassing the person, until she deleted the tag. Again, fuck you for being a coward & worrying about being cancelled, instead of proudly standing up for jikook. His brother allowed it. There should not have been any other discussion about it from Jikookers side. Encouraging her to delete it, because it brings hate on JM. Wake the fuck up. Jimin is gonna get hate regardless and so is JIkook. Maybe stand up for him for once and stand up to antis. Setting them up for hate? For what, discussing real moments? real translations? Eat my ass, I will talk about Jikook openly and proudly, because I know even if I don't, they're still gonna get hate and not doing it, gives haters power and I ain't about that life. Jikook doesn't need your fake ass support and coward and run away, the minute you get hate and can't take the heat. You either support them fully and don't back down or get to stepping, they don't need you and we don't either. Weak ass bitches. And no I do not mean posting private stuff and being asked to remove it and you do. That is different. I mean something simple, like take Polyc picture & Jikook on the phonecase. I keep seeing posts today, OMG, delete, delete, Jimin will get hate. You are out of your rabid ass mind if you think I'm gonna put a sticker of Jikook and show it off proudly and you guilt me into deleting. Slap yourself as hard as you can in the face for me, please. You don't fuck me, you don't pay my rent, you are not my mom or my dad. I will do what I want and loving and supporting Jikook unconditionally is what I do. If Jikook still jikook and are unbothered, then I am going to be too and if you are bothered, you are here for you and the clout you receive off supporting Jikook only, esp if you delete cause TKK come after you. Own who you ship or don't call yourself a supporter, its as simple as that. Being a Jikooker is not for the weak or faint of heart. This life isn't cut out for most of you and it shows.

Lack of balls is what makes the vermin run rampant all over twitter. I've noticed Tiktok Jikookers are not scared of them. I've seen a comment with like 50 replies coz a tkkr thought to insert themselves under a Jikook video. YouTube too, Jikookers on YT comments dont seem to be scared of them. Its people on twitter who are so so scared of these people. And now look where we are.

That being said, a Jimin report page recently had to to give up their account because all the Jimin hate was beginning to affect her mentally. So I understand not everyone is as strong. Not everyone can handle confrontation. I totally get that..

But I do feel like if we back eo up, people would feel more confident in not deleting their shit or running into hiding. But we don't fight these people back and so they have gotten over confident. Jikookers need to unite more. Defend more. Like anon, this is how I feel. Tkkrs basically control twitter fandom rn. The few REAL ot7 accounts left that are not undercover tkkrs are terrified of these people. Absolutely terrified. Some translation accounts won't even translate when JK says something about Jimin. That's how bad it is.

Silence is really not the solution here people. I'm afraid its really not.

I am happy though to see them going mental because V is being accused of FS to feed them. They have accused this of Jimin for years but now suddenly they can't take it when its happening to them???

I love it. Get a taste of your own medicine assholes!

[destinyc1020]

These lunatics are question Zendaya her talent as IT girl on twitter again. Bashing her with hurtful comments. Why do they target her so much lately, it is insane. They question her acting, looks everything. So painfull to read. she is such a nice girl. I get why she wants to be behind the camera but on the other hand I dont want her to give these morons their victory for her being out of the spotlight.

sorry for this rant but why is it so hard for people to be nice to other people for once.

Idk why people can't just IGNORE the stuff/people they DON'T like, and just focus on the people they DO like? Like, how hard is that?? Also, don't even get me started on how many mediocre white actresses have been out here and have been "it girls" for years and nobody even batted an eyelash... 👀

I've always said that people who are insecure with themselves always want to tear you down when you're getting some shine/fame/more money/more success, etc. 😒 I feel you Anon, cuz like you said, Z is a very sweet woman, she works hard, she minds her business, she doesn't get into any drama, and you never hear her talking badly about anybody! You literally NEVER hear anyone saying anything negative about this girl, and yet, people just want to hate on her for no good reason. 🥴

It's annoying for sure, but like I tell so many other fans in various other fandoms of other actors/actresses.... Ignore these haters.

Keep this in mind too: When people start to hate you for absolutely NO good reason, then you KNOW you're doing something right. 😏

Those haters don't mean anything in the end. Zendaya is going to continue doing her, and these haters and their keystrokes won't mean a thing in the long run folks. So, there's really nothing to see here other than a few disgruntled bitter people online. 👀

[skaruresonic]

You seem like a very cool friend to have, you have a bigger heart then I, I just can't tolerate death threats and wishes. Offcourse in politics you see it all the time, but people in politics have power over us and sometimes their decisions is a matter of life and death. It's different then someone being involved in comic books and games like flynn.

As someone who was bullied both irl and online, death treats trigger me. I had panic attacks over it. Strangers telling me to die because of how I looked or because of my Sonic opinion. It also made me lash out, and hurt me friends. Not excusing my behavior but I wasn't myself anymore. That's why my tolerance is zero to people like that. I'm just weaker or too sensitive.

I don't think I'm tolerating his behavior by forgiving him, per se. I'm saying, "I expect better of you because you are my friend and I am giving you a chance to Do Better." Because, bear in mind, my first reaction was to unfollow him. After giving it some thought, I realized it didn't really make sense to abruptly cut ties with someone I considered a friend because they said something fucked-up at 3 AM. IDW fans tend to cut ties with no explanation, and upon reflection, I asked myself, "Am I really doing any better if I react first and don't ask for context?" The disappointment I felt was because I'd held him to a higher standard; the reason I unfollowed was because of that. It wasn't like I cheerily condoned it or anything, I really was disappointed and told Random as much. We continue to be friends because he hasn't repeated the offense, but also because we just like each other as people. But, again, because I didn't broadcast my disappointment early enough for the public's liking, people assume I blithely tolerate death threats towards Flynn. I don't. You'd think folks would realize that by looking at how I abide by a strict no-contact policy. (Then again, they may just interpret that as an act of cowardice on my part, so who knows.)

That being said, anon, you shouldn't beat yourself up over your reactions to things no one should go through. That's like calling yourself weak or too sensitive for crying out in pain when somebody punches you in the face. Of course it's going to hurt; of course the natural reflex is to first yell "Ow!" and then "Hey, what the fuck?" People mocking you for doing either are only being sickening and also don't know how psychology works. We're not punching bags, we're people.

And the worst part is, they act like they act like you have a victim narrative, and then turn right around and paint themselves as victims of harassment because you… reblogged a post of theirs. On the Reblogging Site. Forgive me if I don't exactly feel sorry for you, you know?

I was once on Twitter. I can count the number of conversations I've had where people didn't twist my words on one hand. On Tumblr, at roughly the same time, I was receiving harassing asks attacking my character at least once a day. And that was on top of people in general sneering at Le Haters.

They mock us for being part of a clique, but honestly, I feel like my friends are the only ones keeping me sane through all this. At least they won't judge even if I go off the deep end. At least they know where I'm coming from. At least there's someone out there who knows this situation isn't fair or balanced and acknowledges that it's actually kind of fucked-up.

Of course, folks will say "You're only friends with Random because he agrees with you," which... paints a rather narrow and sad view of how they approach their online friendships, tbh. Do you require conformity of thought in your friendships, then?

Imagine months' worth of this. Imagine people attacking every angle of your character, from your intelligence, to your character, to your friendships, to your status as a Sonic fan, to your mental health, and then on top of that the majority of them proceeding to imply what you went through was invalid and didn't happen, and even if it did, that it didn't matter, at least not in comparison to what the people hurt by looking at your blog went through.

In other fandoms, we'd call that victim-blaming, but Sonic is a unique cesspit where a shocking amount of abuse apologia slips through the cracks:

This? Is fine in the mainstream's eyes. Because we "deserve" it somehow.

Legitimately I was afraid when I announced my mom's death online that they would mock me for it. And they did. And they didn't do that to just me, they pulled it with my friends' and their deceased loved ones, too, even when they hadn't said anything.

On Mother's Day, I received a nasty chain of reblogs mocking my mom's death and the language I'm studying, which is very important to me because it is our tribe's language and a language we nearly lost to residential school. I didn't grow up learning it, but I'm learning it as as an adult, filling that void.

What really put the nail in the coffin and made me decide to delete my second blog was when they said, quote, "Maybe she wouldn't have died if you weren't such a cunt."

My fears about being mocked online for it turned out to be entirely valid. Tbf, a few people backed off when they heard the news, but then you had shitheads who just wanted to stir the pot because haha isn't it funny to watch Le Hater suffer. (tw for parent death below)

Truth is, I harbor a great deal of guilt over her death because I had to watch her suffer for a long time at the hands of inept and sometimes abusive hospital staff and was unable to do anything about it. There were some cases where I might have exacerbated her suffering, such as when I cleaned the tub days before her death (with good intentions) and she slipped and cracked her head, got a hairline fracture in her skull on top of everything else.

I don't like thinking about it.

I feel like there's maybe some unprocessed trauma there in that I tend to think about it at least once a day, but I push it into the back of my mind. That's kind of what Natives do: we don't have the resources to deal with our trauma, so our solution is to just stop thinking about things that bother us, like closing a door in our minds. Out of sight, out of mind.

However, it's difficult to close certain doors when people keep trying to push them open. I can handle Not Thinking about That Particular Thing, but how can I avoid thinking about IDW discourse when people in this fandom are constantly reminding me of how I'll never be forgiven my heathen ways? And kicking sand in my face by saying I have a victim complex when I have pulled every stop possible to draw proper boundaries? What they really want is for you to shut up forever, and fuck that.

I won't say I've been perfect, either, but based on the way folks talk, you'd think we want Flynn homeless. And that's a degree of bad faith you just can't work with. You can't work with supercilious centrists who'll sneer "you're just as bad" when all you're doing is posting on your own blog, who act like you getting snarky in your blogging is the equivalent to being told your mother would still be alive if you weren't "such a cunt."

Again, you cannot win in a situation like this. The only solution is to walk away because it's clear they need an eternal scapegoat, and it seems nothing I can do or say will convince those whose minds are already turned against us that we're not terribad people.

[kingmagnificoofrosas]

I'm sorry but I gotta give a little bit of tough love 🥲❤️‍🩹

For my own nerves sake and to once again prove to you guys I always mean well!

Ok, earlier this morning I said, that I hate venting. But I gotta make this little post now because I really don't want to repeat it anymore.

If someone has personal or private questions about me, please, please, please!!! Write me a private message and do not force me to answer through my open ask!! Especially not if I've clearly explained it in a post! 😭🙏🏼

For example, I have in my profile info above that I am christian. I already said that my faith influences some of my opinions and how I see things, and that because of my faith, I won't reply to certain requests. I respect everyone highly and all I'm asking in return is to respect me and my personal boundaries in return. I'm big on forgiving and I always make sure to tell people, even if I don't agree with something, I still love! I'm always loving! I will never hate!

I really don't mean to come off as stern. I've stated multiple times throughout my over 100 posts that disagreement doesn't equal hate! I can love someone even through disagreement.

I don't hate anyone! I do not hate Amaya x Magnifico shippers, I do not hate Asha and Amaya fans, I do not hate people who disagree with me over things, I do not hate the haters, I do not hate people who've hurt me, attacked and accused me, I do not hate the people who sexualize Magnifico, I do not hate disney!

If someone leaves my blog because I don't agree with something, I will not be upset about it. Maybe a little sad. But I won't change my views and opinions just to please someone. That would be unfair and dishonest. And you guys know I'm very honest.

I will keep giving my best to have this blog be the way it has become.

Whew ... now I feel a little bit like crying. Actually, I am tearing up because this is very important to me ... this whole issue just hit my feelings deeply ...

I'm so immensly and indescribably grateful for all the love and support I've recieved these past months and I really hate having to make such posts but I just needed to say this now.

I love you guys! Thank you to every singe one of you! 💙

[thesememesdonotexist]

【Ｃｈｏｎｎｙ　Ｊａｓｈ　 Ｓｔａｒｔｅｒ　Ｓｅｎｔｅｎｃｅｓ】

💠 "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but something will eventually." 💠 "No need to fear, 'cause when it's here you won't be alive." 💠 "My heart's empty and I'm trying to fill it up, but it's not big enough for the both of us." 💠 "I'll admit when I'm wrong, but only to be right." 💠 "He can go fucking die." 💠 "Why should he be any different?" 💠 "Is there cheese in the great beyond?" 💠 "I think it saw my face..." 💠 "Say, doesn’t it pain you to know our fate?" 💠 "Your creator’ll leave you disgraced, babe." 💠 "People who suffer hurt people. I'm a wounded man, so what'cha think I'm gonna do to you?" 💠 "Schadenfreude just ain’t as good." 💠 "You've had your time, now the pulpit and mic is mine." 💠 "Litmus tests show that 7 in 15 men are basic." 💠 "I'm always happy to go into tomorrow forsaking today." 💠 "So let's have some fun while we're here. We don't know what'll happen next year." 💠 "That hit piece you call 'The Bible' was written by the world's greatest hater." 💠 "There are plenty like-minded folk here! Perhaps they might entice you more..." 💠 "I may be drunk but I'm not drunk enough to fight the me that's on this stuff." 💠 "There really must be some way to get high and make this feeling go away." 💠 "I am numb and I feel nothing." 💠 "You owe me a sleep rebate... that I know you will not pay." 💠 "It’s been a while, so let me be myself, complete and sincere." 💠 "The one place I’d like to be most is right damn here." 💠 "Why dwell in the past when this life is so vast?" 💠 "And when I die, know that I’m just a product of place and time." 💠 "Do you think doubt will make it hurt less?" 💠 "Existence is transient. There’s still another sunset to be found inside this tangent, so I will try again." 💠 "This world’s hard to shoulder." 💠 "Won’t they just let me writhe inside and let my sides aside so they can realize to let me die; that that’d be fine?" 💠 "So call me sick or crazy if that's what you'd prefer, but that rotten melody is one I've already heard and you can stick that shit where it can't be harmonized." 💠 "IF GOD OR THE DEVIL OR ANY OTHER ALL-POWERFUL COWARDLY BEING HAS A PROBLEM WITH WHO I AM, THEN I IMPLORE THEM TO TAKE THEIR FUCKING SHOT." 💠 "The coward in question? By now, you know him so well. But then, who am I to go and cluck and tell?" 💠 "And the whole damn point of this experimentation was to avoid that homogenization." 💠 "But how am I supposed to love another when I barely know myself?" 💠 "For a man cloaked in daylight, you sure hate the sun." 💠 "But I won’t let you ruin what we could still be." 💠 "And if you think that you can lie to me, then I think you've made a big mistake." 💠 "And here he is: the piece of shit sitting, seething high atop his stolen throne." 💠 "See, I've been in total agony, relentlessly, ever since you came around." 💠 "If not for you or for him then please do it for me." 💠 "Imprisonment was all that he earned." 💠 "I was in control before, and will be once more when you succumb to the cold." 💠 "And what if I told you, you are not the victim, and just this fucking once you actually heard?" 💠 "Time will move forward, onward without you." 💠 "Oh, so what if I told you, no one here is listening? What if I told you, that is for the best?" 💠 "I'm sick, and tired, of holding fire when all I feel is violence." 💠 "All I know will soon turn to dust. And yet you claim my apathy's not just."

[nityarawal]

11/16/2023

He Stole My Heart- Eloning

Jai Ma

Morning Songs

F.C. '63 - (Dedicated to Claire AKA #Grimesz "F" Tool For Courts-

Covid/Cancer/Corona/Canadian/California/Claire's

3AM Terrors- Inspired By Elon Musk

Harem

Lakshmi Tech Gals'- Still MIA(Breaking: Starter Wives Missing In Action!!!))

He Stole My Heart

He Stole A Lot

Robbers Always Do

When I Was In

Charlotte

I Saw The News

'63 On Anne Heche

Ambulance

FC In Military 

Alphabet

What Does That Mean

I Can Only Guess

What Does That Mean

I Can Only Guess

What Does That Mean

F.C. Is It The "C" Word

We Won't Say

Or Christ

What Does F.C. Mean

Ellen

Why Did Police

Hate Your Lover

Into Her Demise

'63 Almost '69

But It's Not A

Happy Ending

For Moms' In Apartheid

F.C.

Don't "F" C

Please

9- I- Eye

Inversion

Perhaps

I Can Only Guess

What Does That Mean

Did Courts Say

That Because A

Broker Loved Her

Or Did Courts Say

That

Because They Wanted

Her Organs More

Did Courts Say That

They Wanted To Hang

My Star

Because She Was A

F.C.

They Wouldn't Give

Her Oxygen

Did They Want To

Hang Elon June

"Eloning" Him

A Action Verb 

Because His Brand

Is Bigger Than

The Moon

If He Tells Us The

Truth 

Every Day

On X

Than We Can

Protect Him Too

But The Man

Is Bleeding

Into An AI Brand

And Mrs Rahu

Wants His Gene's

How Many Moms

Will Be Able To

Afford

The Medicines

Oils Herbs

And Needing Rescues

I Could Go To Mars

Even I

Fly To A Red Rock

I'm Certain

I Could Learn

Whatever You Want

To Teach

I Could Go To Mars

For The Love Of My Life

I Could Go To Mars

Like I Went To

Bali And Australia

Once

As A Teen

I Could Go To Mars

For A Viking

If He We're Really 

Strong

I Could Go To Mars

Maybe I'm Barren

Now From What

They Done

But I Could Go To

Mars

I Have A Little

Brahman Lad

I Could Go To Mars

I Birthed

A Yogi

Did My Job

I Could Go To Mars

I'm A Warrior Goddess

I Could Go To Mars

Would You Be Happy

With My Face

Forever 

I Could Go To Mars

Make Hot Springs

Agua Caliente

In A Green House

With Waterfalls

Nurse My Babies

And Sing

Somehow Again

I Could Go To Mars

Yes I'd Miss Cats

I Could Go To Mars

But Where Is That Egyptian

Heaven

Romeo's At

I Could Go To Mars

The Ravens Warble

Something Wonderful

I Could Go To Mars

I Might Not

Because Pretty As True

Australian

Rainbow

Parrots

But I Could Go To Mars

I Think You Just Might

Like A Roman

Holiday

With Waterplane

Cybertrucks

Everyone's 

Own

Tesla SpaceX 

Spaceship

Interplanetary

Galaxies

Planets

Discoveries

Just A Pit

Stop

To Greater

Possibilities 

We'd Never Want

To Hold Back

Elon Musk

From Exploring

Or Allow

Any Hoe

Or President

To "F" Him

Into Felon

For 63

Or A Message

In The Night

From A Mom

An Alien

That Wanted 

To Murder

Me

Charge Her With 

Treason

Return

My Kids

Manifest

All Back

From Unified Fields

Of Justice

And Reason

Life

Life

Life

Lalalala.

54321 Whistleblow

Truth Hoe

The Cops Will Be There Soon To Cage You Forever

Bond Girl

Avatar

Lalalala

Eternity

In A Bucket

Grimy Grit

Washing Off

Dirty Brits

Hookers for Hoes 

And

Pos

Hooker for Haters

Not Maters

Hooker With A Hustle

Got No Jobs Left

Cyber Girl

No Soul

To Lend Your

Empty Carcous 

Your Empire Is Over

Your Construct Dead

Like The Queen

Of England

Spin Dr's Declared You 

Messed Up

Brain Labotomised

Dry

Empty

Molding Nation

With

Cccccccccccccc's

We Don't Want You 

Dead

But Boundaries For Life 

Warranted

For "Mitraism"

Tribes

Families

Tehrangles

Princesses

And All Feminine 

Motherly Mysteries

Muses

Will Be Appreciated

RESPECTED

Without

Islamophobia

Probate

Terrorisms

on Businesses

Physicists

Singers

Or Starter Wives

Writers

By Moldy Monarchs

Kings Taster

Haters

You Can Smear Your Smelly Vaginas 

All Over Court

Lilith

They'll LOVE You

They Miss You I'm Sure 

And Can't Wait To Get Even

What Is Fair Is Fair; JUSTICE

Eternal Hate

Bang! 

BAM! 

BOOM!!!!!!

GAVELS SHOOK THE FUCKING ROOM!!!!!

LALALALA

Gavelstones

She Threatens

Gallstones

Rain Beckons

In Your Wombs

She Threatens

But We Sent Her Home

All 

Terrorists

Aliens

Vampiric

Kamala

Politicians

"W" Words

Pole Dancers

Spies

Superstring

Symmetry

Violators

Prego

Merci

Ciao

Bella

Enjoy Eternity

With Your Master

Not Mine

My Love

With Prayers

God Speed

Gracias

Sharkbait

For 

Your Precious

Testimonies

I Promise

To Mother

Your Labs

Like

My Own

Barracuda

Babies

Mamma Divine

Heart Beating In

Time

Find Your Light

Your Shadow

Eclipses

Carnal

Earth

Rahu

Venus

Mars

And All Families

Demons

Be Gone

Claire

Get Your Candy

Elsewhere

America Isn't

Your 

Sugar Daddy

Sugar Pie

Nor Elon

Nor I

@X Has A Better

Destiny

With My Kids

Space X

Peace

We'll Fly

In The Black Hole

Happily Ever After

Sweet Dreams

Grimesz

Mold No More

Bye

Ciao Bella

Forevermore

Karma Cat

Egyptian Heavens 

Await

Us In

Mars

Pyramids

Your Nasty

Cat Claws

Laser 

Threats

Peace

Cleopatra

Astrogyphics

Cons

Mammas Moving On Now

Indefinitely

Infinitely

Eternally

Ecstatically

Eloning 

Jai Ma!!!!

Peace,

Nitya Nella Davigo Azam Moezzi Huntley Rawal 

[lemonhemlock]

omg thank you for saying the oppenheimer bit. it’s literally a marvel movie repackaged, which is very noticeable in some one-liners. wasn’t a fan of barbie at all, but there’s been a lot of dishonesty surrounding this whole situation as per usual

at this point i'm honestly thinking that people are just pretending to have liked and understood this movie because it was on a "serious" topic and they don't want to lose face and have convinced themselves only unintelligent people don't "get it".

it is jumbled, it is 3 movies crammed into 1 (which makes it way too long), it is incoherent in its message because of that. there are no interesting or unique filmmaking techniques nolan is using? and, before anyone mentions it, the explosion was just supremely mid. it was slightly interesting to see how everyone was protecting themselves while viewing it, but it ultimately felt flat because, as always, nolan is not good when it comes to creating an emotional core.

the movie prioritizes white male voices once again, the perspective of the actual victims of the bombings and the native americans whose land was used to design a weapon of mass destruction is sorely lacking, the female characters are laughable stereotypes! emily blunt is one of my favourite actresses, the role of kitty oppenheimer is absolute shit. what is she doing in the supporting actress bracket? ditto for florence pugh (ik she didn't get nominated but her role was equally infuriating)

and, sure, you could say that's not the film nolan set out to make, he wanted to tell the story of oppenheimer and just him. but... why? in this economy? in 2023? and we're fawning over that? he didn't even posit a thought-provoking thesis about the man! cillian murphy is one of my favourite actors but i felt completely underwhelmed watching him work with that script, which was ultimately unconducive to anything

not saying barbie is the be-all-and-end-all-of-cinema, but there's a very distinct whiff of debbie downers that just want to party poop whenever they see people having fun and enjoying something just for the sake of it. and, for a movie that's supposed be 101 feminism that everyone claims to know already, the fact that they chose to nominate the MALE lead and not the female lead or director................. sure, there is the argument to be made that best actress may have been stacked and there simply wasn't room for margot there (shoutout to lily gladstone for her historic nomination), but i'd be lying if i weren't pointing out the annoying tendency of audiences to overwhelmingly sympathize with the kens' plight in this movie. a ton of haters came out of the theatre thinking that greta gerwig is telling them feminism means that men are inferior and should be subjugated, while boohoohooing the poor kens. understanding the male perspective comes automatically, but when it comes to understanding the satire and parody elements, it's crickets! and, idk, acting like that's not the case for large swaths of the population is just disingenuous.

this chorus of "we know this already".... who's we? is the "we" you speak of in the room with us right now? there are so, so many viewers out there for whom just sidelining the male POV is groundbreaking, who go nuts at the slight "woke-ification" of media. and, again, i'm not saying we should be content with the bare minimum in cinema either, but i have to side-eye when this argument comes from the mouths of people who think the oppenheimer nominations are deserved

.............and now it's time for me to shamelessly plug my reviews for oppenheimer and barbie here so that i won't end up repeating myself like a broken record :))

[1d1195]

Girl you can’t help that you’re white it’s literally not your fault hahaha but THERES GROWTH! Very glad that you’ve grown to handle and appreciate a bit more spice because as a “picky” eater that’s like so good! And I love a good spicy Alfredo!

I LOVE the thanksgiving episode! It gave me so much more backstory about the characters and like I loved getting to know their lore lol BESTIE YOURE CARMY AND CLAIRE GIRL?!? Oh girl I’m team Sydney and Carmy😭 I’m not a Claire hater through! (Irl I love both of these actresses!)I was a Carmy hater though for a bit because what he did to her at the end was mean lol I honestly would love to see more of their chemistry together in the new season!

It’s understandable to be overwhelmed! I can imagine that no matter how long one’s been teaching it can be nerve wracking to start a new set of kids or just a different dynamic since it is summer school. Please be nice to yourself though! I’m sure those kids are so lucky to have you!

I’m hoping the finale isn’t horrible lol I need a win for you! And I would say go to the beach if you can! Maybe the vibe of it all can help a bit? Even if it’s like a walk and not a fully on relax at the beach thing! Either I hope you’ll have a little moment to yourself bestie💗-💜

I'm way less picky than I used to be but I def have a texture thing so it deters me from a lot of foods for sure.

I think I'm a Carmy and Claire girl because (as you can see by my writing) I think their history of being friends before he came back is like really cute or whatever y'know? If he ends up with Sydney I won't be mad either! I just think it will make the restaurant awk lolll

I just watched the first episode last night, I was genuinely confused 😂 I couldn't tell if he was having flashbacks or if he was leaving again. I understand some of it was his training but still. I could never work as a chef it seems. I would cry the second someone told me I was doing something wrong.

Thank you! You're very sweet. As you can see from my nonresponse here, I've been very anxious all week (still am). Once I get through Monday though, I think it'll be better. I'm the kind of person gets upset when I don't do something the right way even though I have never done it before 😅 I'll be alright, i just gotta be dramatic first.

The finale was NOT what I expected at all. I'm not mad at it but I don't think I would have ended it that way after all that. I see why they did it, it makes sense, but I would have done it differently I think.

I did end up going to the beach. It was nice. The day I went was a bit windy, but it was just nice to be there.

How was your week? Any weekend plans?

Thanks for being so nice and sweet as always! Love you!💕

xoxo

[creationfathers]

psycho latest..

"@ Misha Collins if you're going to keep ghosting me like this then I won't even try anymore . You treat me like a doormat and I just let you ghost me all these years and walk all over me. I deserve better than this crap misha. Celebrity or not . You call yourself " spiritual " but you're egotistical and feed off attention from your fans. Do you even care about me? Am I even important to you at all? Was the last two years just some kind of joke to you? Posting Taylor Swift content just to bait me.... Typical divine masculine behavior! IM DONE BEING YOU TWIN FLAME!"

"@ misha the INVISIBLE string. The golden cord that binds us. DROPPING THE WHOLE BAKERY NOT JUST BREAD-CRUMBS. Is this KARMA? What am I just around to keep you relevant? Do you actually care about me or do you just like the attention that my “crazy twinflame love” gets you? Sitting under a WILLOW tree not-reading any poetry. When I leave you always bait me. Is it me? AM I THE PROBLEM? Or IS IT OVER YET? and you know how to poke my damn buttons. But maybe… I’m still just a little ENCHANTED, thinking about November… but you leave me with all this KARMA AND ILLICIT AFFAIRS…… but baby…. YOUR LOOSING ME… I can no longer hang on….but even when it’s over… I’ll always call you my LOVER."

"@ misha your forever my... Lover. YOU CAN GROW THAT BEARD TO THE ground. And I would still LOVE YOU."

(after some misha fans told her to stop and seek psychiatric help)

"@ misha these people who “adore you” don’t like the other half of your soul…. Hey SPN haters. You take everything I say and turn me into a monster? Just so you know. I will not tolerate hate on a platform that is meant for my self-expression. You know NOTHING and I mean absolutely NOTHING about my life. I have 3 children that are my entire world, and although i never met misha’s children i would consider them as my own if we ever were to be in a place of a real relationship. (But we’re not and never will be) this account is just for self- expression. This is why I stopped writing so much poetry because I am tired of the rumors, speculation, and “gossip”. Xoxo. Have a wonderful day. And be nice from now on or I will not hesitate to block you from a POETRY ACCOUNT made for POETRY and occasionally talking to @ misha"

"Sometimes I wonder how much we mirror eachother. Do you ever miss me and your tired eyes find my poetry? Do I have to tell yourself “don’t look” because you know I’m only talking to you… do you have to burden of wondering “is he talking to me” life must be so easy knowing how much you are loved… knowing you are accepted with every flaw illuminating your beauty."

"November was 4 months ago… yet I’ve aged like it’s been 40 years. Guess twinflame seperation phase has deemed not-so-great side effects."

(posts a pic of herself dressed like an insane person at the Hawaii convention she was kicked out of) "@ misha this was the last day I saw you. I miss you terribly… we only live once. I want to see you again. But you’re going to have to find a way to prove me that this is real for you… I’m Inlove with you. And I know it’s not the kind of love that will ever fade. I said I am committed to you… which I meant. There’s nobody else I want to spend my life with…. I’ll give you time to show me a decent response. Not through poetry. Or something small. In the FLESH misha. I’m loosing hope in “destiny”…"

"@ misha I love you… am I the one you love? Cmon. Take a risk. Say what you feel in person. I’m home… and I’ll wait for you, but I can’t hold hope forever… and I’m loosing it."

and she's changed her Instagram bio to read "IF THIS IS REAL. Extra bedroom in my 🏠 … take the ✈️ 🌴… come see me…. Before it’s too late…before a “what if”"

This person really thinks Misha Collins, a celebrity who doesn't know her, is going to get on a plane to Hawaii, come to her (parents) house and sleep in her spare bedroom so they can have sex and connect spiritually. She thinks he will fly thousands of miles, confess his love for her and admit that he has secretly been pretending to be a woman on the internet for the past four years and sending her coded love messages via an Instagram account.

She genuinely believes that is going to happen.

And she doesn't believe she is mentally ill. 🙄

(PS - isn't it weird how she completely ignores anything that doesn't fit her delusional narrative? like this latest delulu shitstorm was triggered by Misha posting some jokey nonsense about Taylor Swift and she's convinced that's him communicating with her because she has mentioned Taylor Swift before. But all the Ukraine stuff Misha has also posted? Total silence on that from her. No comment at all. Because it doesn't fit her narrative. So it's irrelevant. She doesn't care at all about that stuff. Even though Misha has spent significantly more time and energy on Ukraine than on.. Taylor Swift. He WENT to Ukraine, met Zelensky, hid in a bunker from Russian shelling, met soldiers, made videos, has raised nearly $300,000 for de-mining efforts, he's posted about it literally dozens of times in the past two years. But to her that's nothing. If she's "the other half of his soul" why doesn't she care about the things he cares about??)

She's so stupid

[frostbite-the-bat]

Okay mayhaps I have a few more

I wanna run (Webkinz)

2-X All the Times (rhythm doctor)

Dreams of our generation (rhythm heaven, English)

Voiceless (siivagunner (ITS A REAL SONG TRUST ME))

I hope I'm getting the right links for this!

(I Wanna Run)

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

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Not a very fun listen, not exactly my type, but it could be the quality doing it. idk. my ears are not enjoying themselves. can see why this was fun to some people, tho!

also made me remember that webkinz songs exist and that someone i used to know said she 'wrote a song' for the haters she had but it turned out to be stay away from me. its tied to kinda some traumatic stuff in my life so i won't discuss it but this part specifically it was funny

anyways these guys want to be dj cadence so badly and theyre failing im sorry webkinz music is NOT IT

(All The Times)

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

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yeaaahh kinda a boring listen at first. i dont like slow sad piano music that's one of my main turn off's unless it then turns Hype or is Nostalgic n shit. for this i had to look up the lyrics to.

it gets better later on but id listen to this maybe only if it was the parts without the sad singing and sad piano im sorry not my thing i really dislike sad piano music. (those parts are head boppy tho!!)

very well made tho and i like the mixing. prolly couldve chosen a better rythym doctor to introduce me with the games ost jshshsj i did wanna play it before after all

(Dreams of Our Generation)

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couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

lil headboppy! pretty gentle and fun! not exactly my thing. can stand thru listening to once or twice (i did lsiten to it twice) but not smthn id be replaying. i like the guy just goin YEA!! THATS RIGHT!!

my ears still are kinda like... mehhhghh.h.bhtzntz i couldnt make it thru a second listen - im veeery picky and slow when it goes to new music so when my brain says no it says no - even if i think this is a nice song. still - not exactly my thing!

(Voiceless)

THIS ONE I SIGHED AS I READ IT but also anticipating i'll like this one the most. (hasnt listened to it yet as i'm typing)

couldn’t listen all the way through | not my thing | it’s okay | kinda catchy | ok i really like this | downloading immediately | already in my library

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ohh right off the bat loving the guitar this may be a banger! like that more. aaand now its slow i like that less (if you cant tell i like higher energy stuff. not always tho)

i CANNOT understand this singing but then again im not reading the lyrics. but it is a bit hard to hear over the guitar i think they shouldve made it a bit louder. its nOT quite there but ALMOST with the singing

but yeah. not the biggest hit at first but its something i could get used to. but seriously the singing being so quiet is putting me off its giving me more sensory issues than im already having right now with these headphones

theres some stops where id typically expect a sick ass guitar solo but its NOT THERE and im falling on my KNEES.

in conclusion: IM VERY PICKY AND HARD TO CATER TO WITH MUSIC. ᶠᵘʳʳʸ ᵇʳᵉᵃᵏᶜᵒʳᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵒˡᵈ ⁿᶦᵍʰᵗᶜᵒʳᵉ ˢᵒⁿᵍˢ ʳᵘᶦⁿᵉᵈ ᵐʸ ᵐᵘˢᶦᶜ ᵗᵃˢᵗᵉ AND I PROMISE IM NOT ALWAYS NEGATIVE LOOOL but if i have a comment on my mind i will say it im just gonna be honest. good music but NOT for me, yknow?

[issabees]

Hii 😍

If your MC / OC could be any song or any movie what would it be and why?

Hiya, hope you’re doing well 💖

I think this is will be the first time I’m posting about my MCs, so thank you for this! Under the cut are a couple of playlists for these two MCs I’m currently writing about ☺️

The Nanny Affair MC: Marina Acuña 🌸

Ride Home by Ben&Ben - "You're all I need, the very air I breathe / You are home" Marina is this person who upholds the value of family, not only by being a warm and kind mother figure to Mickey and Mason and partner to Sam, but also by being a loving and thoughtful daughter to her parents and Ate (older sister) to her younger sister. She loves to be with her family in her hometown and will visit whenever she can, even occasionally visiting her relatives.

Aphrodite by RINI - Not entirely related to her personal life, but this song is one of her favorites as she discovered it by accident online. She has been listening to this song and checking out the artist’s new songs ever since. It also helps that Sam once complimented her by saying that she is the goddess because of her love and beauty, which she found as ridiculously sweet of him to say so.

For Once in My Life by Spiral Starecase - "For once I have something I know won't desert me / I'm not alone anymore" When her father left them, Marina and her family was left devastated at the loss. When her mother met someone new a few years later, this feeling of devastation turned into a feeling of apprehension for the new man. However, he worked hard to earn their trust and be a good father figure to Marina and her sister. For Marina, he bonded with her over music. She learned that he also liked Spiral Starecase's songs, and they would later on have this song as their karaoke pick.

Emotions by Brenda Lee - "Emotions, you get me upset / Why make me remember what I want to forget?" This is Marina’s go-to song when she’s deep in the feels, most often when she…does something incredibly stupid and embarrassing to the point where she cringes at the memory of it! But seriously, she plays this song whenever she feels sad but does not want to feel that way. Despite listening to it whenever she is sad, the song also has another layer of sentimental value to her as it is also one of her mother’s favorite songs, so she holds this song close to her heart anyway.

Fool for You by Snoh Aalegra - "I love you time and time again / I know just how the story ends" This is more in line with her thought process in Book 1, where she was stuck in this exciting but passionate but eyebrow-raising circumstance with Sam. She knows how their relationship would traditionally end, especially with Sam being the billionaire CEO that he is, but she is magically drawn to him that she finds herself falling in love anyway.

Make Me Like You by Gwen Stefani - Not so much that the song's message has anything to do with her personally, but I write Marina as someone who loves Gwen Stefani. Also, the song itself is bright and fun, something she generally gravitates towards to in music.

Queen B MC: Augusta Hughes 👑

What’s New? by Megan Thee Stallion - "They keep comin, telling me these b*tches mad, what's new?" With Augusta's rise to fame, there will definitely be people out to get her and drag her down. So really, what's new? Keep them coming, she would say as she is confident that she will always triumph over her haters anyway.

Pop Star by Coco & Clair Clair - "Doin' my own thing / Mind my business in my Prada" Following her family suddenly inheriting money (thanks and RIP auntie) and her rise to Belvoire stardom, Augusta often finds herself feeling like…well, a pop star! Or you know, a main pop girlie. Since learning that being in her position in Belvoire and having the wealth she now has can open much more doors for her, she learned to enjoy the luxury of being carefree in things such as shopping inconsequentially and attending as much parties as possible. She’s young and she knows that she can, so why not do it?

Twenty One by Khalid - "And all of these memories / Crawling underneath your skin" This song in the context of Augusta speaks more of how she looks back on what life was like when she started in Belvoire. I’m currently writing something about her in the future, where she begins to think about everything that led her to where she currently is in life. 21 is the age when she entered Belvoire, met people that would become her friends or her enemies (or frenemies), and even got together with someone who she’s no longer with (as of the moment). She got to live expensively and party like there was no tomorrow. It’s a whirlwind adventure, but like all adventures, the highs are met with the lows. And it’s the lows that Augusta begins to feel when looking back, so she has to look for that middle ground where she can accept both highs and lows of this period in her life. (got this from the Queen B playlist by PB)

Nothing New (feat. Phoebe Bridgers) by Taylor Swift - "Lord, what will become of me / Once I lost my novelty?" While Augusta always walked the red brick roads of Belvoire with enough confidence to last her multiple lifetimes, there definitely are moments when she wondered what it be like if people stopped caring about her now that she has been in Belvoire for over a year. Does she still have that charm to win people over? Will she still have it once she has graduated? What are her plans for the future? She often ruminates on these questions when she is alone in her room, with her thoughts being her only company.

Selene by NIKI - Not so much that the song relates to Augusta’s life in any way, but this is one of the songs she listens to when she needs that boost of confidence! There was also a time when I wrote much of her character background to this song.

you should see me in a crown by Billie Eilish - "You should see me in a crown / I’m gonna run this nothing town" Of course, Augusta is the Queen B. She is basically tenacious and unstoppable, especially when going after something she wants. This, along with the title as the queen of Belvoire, she will make sure that nothing can get in her in making a mark in Belvoire and (after graduating) in the world. (also got this from PB’s Queen B playlist)

Bonus! While I don't have any particular movie in mind for Marina, one movie I can compare Augusta to is Do Revenge (2022). The entire feel of the movie is something close to Queen B, and I can definitely see Camila Mendes' Drea in Augusta.

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GAAAH sorry this is an extremely long post, but I hope this answers your question! Again, thank you so much for this! I had fun creating these playlists. Another thanks for spreading positivity in the fandom 💖