on top of this being the anniversary of the most traumatic day of my life which was followed by 6 weeks I was homeless and had a variety of traumatic things happen, we also got
me being due for my depo shot which means I will cry over things that are not worth crying about (the best example is probably the time I thought we had a frozen spaghetti meal in the freezer and started sobbing when it wasn't there)
finding out my estranged sister violated her probation (it's a long story) and even though I wouldn't have expected to have strong feelings about it it's still somehow like
my mom's dad might be dying (I haven't seen him since I was very young so I don't view him as much more than "my mom's dad" and saying he's my grandpa wouldn't feel right to me even if it's technically correct) and it's like the thing with my sister where it's not something I would expect to have feelings about but still do
We went into our apartment complex's office to renew our lease and they said they'd email us all the lease stuff to sign online earlier this week and it's probably nothing but anxiety brain go brrrrrrrr they're not going to renew it and you'll be homeless again!!!!
I truly feel like Luis Serra in this moment:
the bear trap is last years trauma, the ganado is everything more recent
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i rewatched snw s1ep10 earlier and i had completely forgotten that hemmer only gets the gorn venom/eggs sprayed on him bc he literally jumps in the way to protect uhura :'-)
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It's my aunt's birthday tomorrow, and I'm watching her birthday mass through a live stream just wishing I could be there for my cousins, Nan and Mam, and even more so that she was still here and I could hug her again
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i know it's not like i'm the most affected by the situation, but i wish idk i wish that i didn't have to direct my whole behavior to be my mom's emotional support dog so she can feel she's a good project manager and at least someone understands her side and listens to her good advice. which admittedly my uncle is being particularly difficult in this whole situation, bc it's always complicated, but also christ maybe it was your mom but it was also my grandma. one day you tell me "what you two had was really special" and the next you don't even let me have a moment alone with her. like god. you saw her yesterday. you could've left me a minute with her or something. you could've refrained from putting your gross ass arm around my shoulders like why do you absolutely cannot resist ruining every important moment in my life? i want to be as helpful as possible for her in this very difficult time, but NOT EVEN FIVE MINUTES. not even five minutes could she stand letting me handle how I want to grieve MY own grandmother.
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I'm so serious when I say that 110% of the reason I sometimes think I should pick up Wrath again is to continue to feed the delusion of the beautiful Meet Me in the Woods video in my head I have had since September 2021. I could do it I'm fully capable of doing it there's no reason I couldn't do it if I tried <- the delusion talking
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