#i’m gonna give myself a few days and see if i like how my hair looks

[creaturebehavior]

trimmed my hair again

added more layers and again, it looks better than it did last time

[kitten4sannie]

ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏʙᴏʏꜱ4ʏᴏᴜ.ᴄᴏᴍ

ᴘᴇᴛ ᴘʟᴀʏ/ᴘʀᴀɪꜱᴇ ➠ ʏᴜɴʜᴏ

pairing: camboy! yunho x fangirl! reader (fem)

genre: camming au, fluff (lowkeyy), humor, smut

summary: dedicating your hard earned money and free time to your favorite camboy goodboy_99 comes with a lot of perks.

w.c: 3.9k

warnings: switch! yunho, switch sub leaning! reader, there’s some sub 4 sub vibes in this, monster cock yunho, yunnie’s got piercings, exhibitionism/voyeurism, masturbation, edging, use of a cock ring/golden retriever butt plug >:3), teasing, pet names (baby, kitty, kitten, etc), reader calls yunho puppy/pup and he loves that shit, dirty talk, lots of praise, some degradation, kissing, toy usage, nipple play (f/m), squirting, breeding kink, rough unprotected sex, cumming in mouth, snowballing, these losers lowkey fall in love <3

a/n: shoutout to felix @yourfatherlucifer for allowing me to build on your camboy yunho fic idea :3 you're such a genius for that concept <3 so yeah there’s not enough whimpering baby boys with monster cocks in fics i swearrr (if you know of any pls send them my way ><) so i decided to offer my contribution,, more like cumtribution am i right?? *crickets* anygays i had way too much fun with this one skjdhf you'll see what i mean >3< i hope you enjoy ~~

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ᴘʀᴇᴠ | ꜰꜰꜰ ᴍᴀꜱᴛᴇʀʟɪꜱᴛ | ɴᴇxᴛ

You've never missed a single stream from your favorite camboy goodboy_99, always willing to pull up his stream after a long day at work no matter how tired you were, never opposed to cranking one out in his honor. You sent him a countless amount of coins throughout your obsession, picking out new options from his personal menu, never tired of seeing him act them out with a cute little smirk on his face and your username gracing his pretty pierced lips. 

At first, you were a silent viewer, just concerned with getting yourself off, but then somewhere along the line, you began to leave lots of comments in the live chat, though they were more akin to sexts, and for some odd reason, Yunho paid more attention to yours, instead of the numerous other ones. Maybe it was because you were his number one fan, or perhaps, just perhaps, it was because he was into you too, but you assumed that was just your delulu mind at play. 

Regardless, here you were, sitting with your legs spread in your computer chair, a vibrator on your clit, and your eyes glued on the bright screen that was showcasing your beloved camboy in a similar position: his thighs spread open in his gaming chair, his pretty flushed face contorted in pleasure, fucking himself dumb with a purple pocket pussy, the base of his thick cock constricted with an even thicker cock ring. 

“Aaah, haaah…W-who made me put on this cock ring, huh? It won’t let me cum, guys, c’monnn, lemme cum,” Yunho whined out, a few beads of sweat dripping past his dyed black and red bangs down to the leather dog collar around his neck, giving his webcam a small pout, begging his viewers with his big brown eyes. 

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ʜᴇ'ꜱ ꜱᴛᴀʀᴛɪɴɢ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴏᴜɴᴅ ꜱᴏ ᴡʜɪɴʏ ᴏᴍɢ

➵ ʜɪᴍʙᴏ4ʏᴏᴜ: ʟᴏᴏᴋ ʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴅʀᴏᴏʟɪɴɢ. ᴍᴜꜱᴛ ꜰᴇᴇʟ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ɢᴏᴏᴅ ꜰᴜᴄᴋ

You brought one hand to your keyboard, pressing the rounded side of the large vibrator directly into your clit with the other, making you shudder and jolt, your fingers rapidly pressing into the keys. You’ve been in this exact position so many times before, you knew you couldn’t possibly cum until you saw Yunho fall apart in front of your straining eyes. 

➵ ᴜʀꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇᴋɪᴛᴛʏ: ᴅᴏ ᴜ ᴡɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀᴋ3 ᴜʀ ᴄᴏᴄᴋ ʀɪɴɢ ᴏꜰꜰ ɴ0ᴡ ʙᴀʙʏ ʙᴏʏ?

Yunho giggled softly at your typos, running a hand through his sweaty hair, causing it to fall back down onto his forehead, spreading his thighs just a little wider. “Yes, fuck, I’m going to cum all over myself for you, baby.” He pressed his fingers into his aching balls, feeling how sensitive they were, before he slowly slid the cock ring up and off of his leaking cock. “I’ve been edging myself for so longgg, god, it's gonna feel so good.”

➵ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏʟᴜᴠʀ: ɢᴜʏꜱ ʜɪꜱ ᴄᴏᴄᴋ'ꜱ ꜱᴏ ʀᴇᴅ ʀɴ ʜᴇ'ꜱ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʀᴇᴄᴏʀᴅ ᴄᴜᴍꜱʜᴏᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ꜰᴏʀ ᴜꜱ

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ꜰʀ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ᴀᴛ ʜɪᴍ ʟᴇᴀᴋɪɴɢ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ꜰᴜᴄᴋ,, ʜᴇ'ʟʟ ɢᴇᴛ ᴄᴜᴍ ᴏɴ ʜɪꜱ ᴄᴇɪʟɪɴɢ ʟɪᴋᴇ ɪɴ ᴅᴇᴠɪʟᴍᴀɴ ᴄʀʏʙᴀʙʏ

Yunho arched his back off of the chair, holding the vibrator near the base of his cock, the vibrations sending endless waves of arousal through his jolting body, the silver chain links hanging from his collar rattling against his drool-stained chest, soft, staccato moans echoing from his drooling mouth, on the edge of ecstasy, but not quite getting there. “Fuck, m’ so close, so close, so close…”

About to catapult into ecstasy yourself, you found it in you to help Yunho reach his much-needed orgasm, rapidly clicking a few options on the webpage. It was the least you could do after watching him edge himself in various ways for your own entertainment. 

Yunho heard a familiar jingling tone emanate from his computer’s speakers, preventing his eyes from fully rolling back into his skull, instead bringing his attention to his bright monitor, his cock beginning to pulse, a few more beads of pre-cum spilling down the shiny, bright red tip. 

➵ ᴜʀꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇᴋɪᴛᴛʏ ʜᴀꜱ ꜱᴇɴᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ¹⁰⁰⁰ ᴄᴏɪɴꜱ

➵ ᴜʀꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇᴋɪᴛᴛʏ: ᴘʟꜱ ᴄᴜᴍ 4 ᴍ3 ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏ 

Yunho received a hefty dono from his favorite viewer, got a cute request from them, and got called puppy all at the same time? It was simply too much for a baby boy like him to handle, especially after being teased and edged by his dear audience for so long. “Cumminggg, oh my god, m’ cumming so hard,” Yunho moaned out, dropping the vibrator from his cock, just letting it hang at his side, his thighs jolting each time his veiny cock twitched up into his heaving abdomen. “F-uuuck…” Long spurts of milky liquid splattered onto his straining abs, some shooting across one of his pierced nipples, some of it even gracing his pretty, glistening parted lips. Yunho didn’t even realize he managed to cum inside his own mouth until he tasted the bitterness on his tongue when he swallowed his drool down. “Holy fuck, you guys, I just swallowed my own cum…I should’ve just aimed for my mouth the whole time…Mm, remind me next stream.” 

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ɪ’ᴍ ɪɴꜱᴀɴᴇ

➵ ꜰᴀɴʙᴏʏ4ᴛᴇᴇᴢ: ᴄᴀʟʟ ʜɪᴍ ᴘɪᴄᴀꜱꜱᴏ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ʜᴇ ᴘᴀɪɴᴛᴇᴅ ʜɪᴍꜱᴇʟꜰ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴄᴜᴍ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴜᴄᴋᴋᴋᴋᴋ

The visual and physical stimulation you were providing yourself proved to be almost lethal, dropping your now silent vibrator onto the carpet below, hunched over in your chair, resting the side of your sweaty cheek on your cat paw mouse pad, your twitching, tingling fingers gently pressing into your keyboard. “He looks so pretty…” you whispered to yourself, hearts forming inside your glistening eyes.

➵ ᴜʀꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇᴋɪᴛᴛʏ: ʟᴜᴠ ᴡᴛᴄʜɪɴɢ ᴜ ᴄᴠᴍ ʏᴜɴɴɪ3 ,, ᴜʀ ꜱ0 ᴄᴜᴛᴇᴇᴇᴇ

Yunho slid his long, slender fingers through the puddles of cum splayed across his chest, bringing them up to his lips, sucking it off of them, his hooded eyes accompanying his curled lips, looking like a mischievous puppy. “If you love seeing me cum so much, Kitty, then you should see it in real life, doncha’ think?”

“Huh?” you reacted, suddenly sitting up straight, your eyes and mouth wide open, wondering if you had nutted so hard, you were having auditory hallucinations. 

While licking the remaining saltiness from his lips, Yunho’s smirk grew wider. “You heard me. Since you’re my biggest supporter, I thought I’d fly you out to join me in a stream. Whaddaya think?” He just sat there, looking smug as hell, confident in himself and his decisions, his heart pounding away inside his chest. 

As you sat there in disbelief, factory resetting in silence, Yunho turned his attention to the rapidly moving live chat, giggling a bit. “That's a pretty hot idea, huh, guys? Wanna watch us fuck each other stupid?”

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ɪᴍ ɢᴏɴɴᴀ ʙᴜꜱᴛ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴛʜɪɴᴋɪɴ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ɪᴛ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ɪᴛ ʜᴀᴘᴘᴇɴ

➵ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏʙᴏʏꜱʀᴜɪɴᴇᴅᴍʏʟɪꜰᴇ: ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴡɪʟʟ ɪᴛ ʙᴇ ᴍʏ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴛᴛ

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ᴋɪᴛᴛʏ ɪ'ʟʟ ᴘᴀʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴜɢ ᴏɴ ʜɪꜱ ᴄᴏʟʟᴀʀ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ ᴘʟᴇᴀꜱᴇ

The rest of the chat had an overwhelmingly positive response, further egging on Yunho’s insane idea and your urge to pack up your bags right then and there. You still weren’t sure if you had fallen into a coma or if this was your reality, but regardless, you hit enter on your poor keyboard. 

➵ ᴜʀꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇᴋɪᴛᴛʏ: ᴜ ʙᴛʀ ɢᴇᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏ 

➵ ᴜʀꜰᴀᴠᴏʀɪᴛᴇᴋɪᴛᴛʏ: ɪᴍ ᴄᴏᴍɪɴɢ 4 ᴜ ♡

You landed a critical hit on Yunho’s heart when your highlighted comments popped up on his screen, causing him to cover his face and spin around in his chair, tiny giggles escaping his throat. He peeked at his webcam through his fingers, whining, “Hurry up, Kitty, I'm waiting!”

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Taking a flight over to him wasn’t too difficult, but what was incredibly difficult was standing with your luggage outside of Yunho’s apartment in an outfit you took hours deliberating over, left to your own devices, which meant that your brain would go over all the reasons why he would send you home as soon as he opened the door. 

Before you could get even more sweaty just from standing there, the door swung open. Yunho’s face suddenly froze, his eyes growing wide, resembling marbles and beginning to sparkle. He just stood there staring at you, taking in all of you, wanting to etch it into his memory. 

“H-hi, Yunnie, I’m Kitty, well, Y/N, heh,” you squeaked out, dropping your bag on the ground to give him a shy wave, your lips quirking up into a nervous smile. “Y-you look even cuter in person.” 

“You’re the cute one here, silly.” Yunho giggled softly, immediately stepping past his doorframe to pull you into a hug, burying you in his oversized dual-colored sweater. “I’m so happy I can finally meet you, Y/N,” he whispered near your ear, rubbing your lower back with his large hand. “We’re gonna have so much fun together…” 

Once he pulled away, you almost melted into the floor, your knees feeling a bit weak, still able to give him a big, goofy smile. “So much fun,” you echoed, your flushed face matching Yunho’s bright red ears. 

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After spending a bit more time together just hanging out around Yunho’s apartment and taking time to talk about whatever, including a discussion about your sexual experiences and limits, your walls seemed to drop all together, realizing he was just as chill, and just as perverted, in real life as he was during his streams. Your heart still raced over the smallest things, but that was for a different reason. Your body was practically vibrating as well, but that also had a different cause, a far more explainable one. 

“So,” Yunho began, gently running his thumbs over your knuckles, licking at the piercing on the side of his bottom lip. “Should we go live now?” He squeezed your hand slightly, leaning in to drown you with his intense gaze. “Are you in the mood to play, baby?” 

You couldn’t possibly tell him that you were essentially the human embodiment of Niagara Falls, having to squeeze your thighs together as much as you could to keep your arousal from dripping down your inner thighs past your short skirt. “I really wanna play with you, Yunnie,” you replied, gently placing your hand on his knee, your fingers moving past his ripped jeans to make contact with his warm skin. 

“Then, let’s play, Kitty.” Blushing and returning your sweet smile, Yunho reached up to caress your cheek lovingly, before standing up to turn his webcam on and start up a new stream. 

Yunho sat down in his spacious chair, making sure his pretty guest of honor stood in front of him for the time being as his faithful viewers showed up in the chat in large waves, eventually holding his hands out near you like he was presenting a prize. “Here she is, everyone!” He gave the webcam a playful smile past your shoulder, coaxing you to sit comfortably inside his large lap, his hand going up to pet your head, which you nuzzled into, the small bell collar he put on you earlier jingling a bit. “My Kitty finally arrived for playtime.” 

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ᴛᴡᴏ ʜᴏᴛ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ɪɴ ᴏɴᴇ ʀᴏᴏᴍ ??? ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴡɪʟʟ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏ???

➵ ᴘᴜᴘᴘʏɢʀʟ: ɪꜰ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ꜰᴜᴄᴋ ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ɴᴇxᴛ ꜰɪᴠᴇ ꜱᴇᴄᴏɴᴅꜱ ɪ’ᴍ ꜱᴜɪɴɢ

“Now, c’mon Kitty, show everyone how excited you are to be here,” Yunho purred near your ear, reaching around you to grab your thighs, gently pulling them open as you spread them fully out yourself. 

With your thighs trembling, you revealed the bright pink vibrator you’ve had lodged inside you for the past hour, your cunt already so slicked up with arousal that the toy threatened to slip out of you if you didn’t keep clenching around it. “So full…” 

“Do you see, everyone? See how good I treat my guests?” Yunho asked his audience, making a downwards V over the top of your cunt, rubbing his fingers along your folds, making sure to stimulate your clit at the same time. “I watched her shove this toy up her cute little pussy earlier…She’s been walking around my apartment with it inside ever since like a good little slut.” 

➵ ᴅᴏɴᴛʟᴏᴏᴋᴀᴛᴍᴇ: ᴛʜᴀᴛ’ꜱ ɪᴛ ɪ’ᴍ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘɪɴɢ ᴏɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʜɪɢʜᴡᴀʏ ᴛᴏɴɪɢʜᴛ

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ʜᴇ’ꜱ ᴘʀᴇᴘᴘɪɴɢ ʜᴇʀ ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴏɴꜱᴛᴇʀ ᴄᴀᴡᴋ ᴏꜰ ʜɪꜱ ᴍᴍᴍᴍ

Moaning at the feeling of Yunho pulling the toy out and slipping it back inside your hole, you leaned your head back into his chest, his stiff cock pressing into your ass, your hands moving back to play with his hair. “Wanna touch you too, puppy…” 

“I know you do, Kitty. You’ll get to put your hands all over me in a second, I promise.” Yunho nuzzled your cheek, giving it a gentle lick that made you shiver, pulling the toy out agonizingly slow, inch by inch, drawing a long moan from your lips. He slipped both of his arms around you, bringing his hands down to spread you open with his thumbs, your clenching cunt on display for every single one of his viewers to drool over. “Look at this pretty kitty’s hole, everyone. So pink, so wet, so ready to use, huh?” 

His follower and viewer count hit a sudden spike, making the both of you giggle to each other. Yunho then lifted one of your thighs up onto the chair, spreading his own thighs open a bit just in time for a golden retriever tail to become visible fo his viewers, his ass comfortably filled with one of his favorite plugs. “Kitty watched me put this in after she filled herself up. It slipped in so easily too, and my sweetheart got so wet, but I told her she couldn’t cum until you guys got to see. Aren’t I the best, guys?” His chat sped up a little faster, the majority of people talking in all caps, making Yunho chuckle.

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ɢᴜʏꜱ ɪ ᴄᴀᴍᴇ ᴀʟʀᴇᴀᴅʏ ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴅᴏ ɪ ᴅᴏ 

➵ ᴅᴏɢʙᴏʏ: ʜᴇ’ꜱ ᴇᴅɢɪɴɢ ᴜꜱ ᴛʜɪꜱ ɪꜱ ᴛᴏᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ

When you whimpered and nudged him for his attention, Yunho nodded knowingly with his cheek against yours, nuzzling it. “Oh, I know, baby. You’ve been so good letting that toy fill you up for so long, but you need more. Is that right? You need puppy’s cock in your breeding hole, don’t you?” he teased you in a low, pouty voice, rubbing your wetness around your clit with one hand, using his other hand to push the vibrator in and out of your clenching cunt, going faster and faster until you began to cry out.

“Yes, puppy, please, I can’t take it…!” you voiced desperately, jolting against Yunho’s body, about to scream when he pressed the rounded end of the vibrator to turn it up even higher, your thighs beginning to shake. “Oh my god, i’m gonna…”

“Cum for me, Kitty, cum for everyone….” Yunho squeezed your clit roughly, simultaneously jamming the vibrator into you at such a velocity that you screamed, your arousal starting to pour out of you, the clear liquid getting onto Yunho’s thighs and the chair below. Yunho groaned at the sight, using his hand to rub your juices around just to hear how wet it was, moaning, “Oh, fuckkkk, look at that, Kitty’s making such a mess for us.” He brought his dripping fingers to his drooling mouth, eagerly sucking your cum off of them. “Did that feel good, kitten?”

“So good…” Feeling Yunho’s rock-hard cock throbbing against your lower back, you squirmed around against him, turning your head to look at him, still panting softly from your ear ringing orgasm. “Wanna make you feel good too, pup, with my breeding hole…”

“Oh, yeah?” Yunho nosed your neck, licking a stripe up your neck past your collar to make you shiver, looking you straight in the eye afterward. “Wanna squeeze around me, baby? Feel how big I am inside your tiny little cunt?”

You reached up to caress his hair, gently tugging on it, your eyes full of desperation for your favorite streamer. “Please. Want you to stuff me with your cock. Wanna make you cum from how tight I am for you.”

Yunho unknowingly began to rut against you, leaving streaks of pre-cum on the small of your back. “That’s my slutty little kitty…so eager to be filled by her puppy…” He reached back around you to spread your hole open once again for the camera, looking at his webcam with hazy, hooded eyes. “What do you think, chat? Should I fuck this kitty full of my pups?”

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ᴅᴏ ɪᴛ ᴅᴏ ɪᴛ ɴᴏᴡᴡᴡᴡᴡᴡ

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ꜰᴏʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴏꜰ ꜰᴜᴄᴋ ɢᴇᴛ ɪɴꜱɪᴅᴇ ʜᴇʀ ʙᴇꜰᴏʀᴇ ᴍʏ ᴅɪᴄᴋ ᴇxᴘʟᴏᴅᴇꜱ

Unable to take Yunho’s teasing anymore, you quickly stood up, wobbling slightly, before you sat back in his lap, this time facing him, the both of you struggling with his joggers to pull his cock out, already grinding yourself along it when it was finally free, the slippery ridge of his silicone cock ring supplying you extra pleasure. “Need you, Yunnie,” you whimpered, pulling at his collar to bring his parted lips onto yours, your tongues joining in the middle. 

Yunho moaned into your mouth, swiveling the chair to the side so that his viewers could still get a good look at your shared desperation, his cock starting to throb steadily against your slick cunt when you began to suck on his tongue — though the whining and whimpering noises Yunho was known for didn’t start until you began to rub and flick at his pierced, hardened nipples from underneath his sweater, his hands diving underneath your own sweater to grope and pull at your tits, eventually moving to your ass to squeeze it, your hips lifting up slightly so that he could tease your entrance with his leaking cockhead. 

You moved your hips back slightly so that you could reach down, grabbing at the base of his tail and moving it around experimentally until Yunho began to gasp for air, figuring you were rubbing against his prostate. “Does that feel good, puppy? Am I hitting the right spot?”

“S-so good, makes me wanna fuck you, kittennn, wanna fuck you dumb on my cock. Can I, please?” Yunho suddenly begged you, fucking himself back on the plug that you continued to maneuver around inside him, not hesitating to give you the most adorable, lust-drunk pouty face you’ve ever witnessed in your life. 

“Yes, puppy, please, please, please fuck me,” you answered just as desperately, ruffling his soft, slightly damp hair, letting go of his tail to wrap your arms around his neck.

Yunho quickly swiveled the chair back to its original position so that your ass and throbbing cunt was on full display from behind, using two fingers to spread your open for him, slowly guiding his thick cock inside you inch by inch, until he completely bottomed out, resulting in a blissful sigh from the both of you. “Look at you, kitten, so fucking full of my cock. I’m gonna fuck your brains out,” he groaned, his large hands encasing your hips, immediately jack hammering himself into you like he was using a fleshlight, your joined bodies creating a lewd symphony of slick sounds.  

Yunho rammed himself into you so roughly, you couldn’t do anything else except take it, bouncing on his monstrous cock over and over again, the tip of it repeatedly forming a bulge inside your stomach that only Yunho could see, throbbing inside you from the sight of it. “So good, it’s so good, Yunnie, love your cock…!” 

“Love your wet cunt, Kitty, love how tiny you are, like you’re gonna break just from getting pounded into by my puppy cock,” he moaned back, gripping your ass so hard, your flesh squished through his strong fingers, still driving you down onto his cock like you were made for him, for his pleasure. “Makes me wanna stuff you full of my litter….”

“A-aaah, but puppy likes being edged with his cock ring, doesn’t he? It feels so much better like this, yeah?” you huffed out, reaching behind you to squeeze one of his intensely swollen balls, receiving a high-pitched, pleasured moan from your playmate.

“Feels so fucking good, Kitty,” Yunho agreed, mindlessly kicking the speed of his thrust game into hyper-drive, mindlessly fucking himself into you so roughly, so sloppily, his cock almost slipped out a few times, requiring him to hold you down by your hips. “Your pussy’s clenching so hard around me, baby, it’s so tight for me…Feels like you’re gonna cum…”

“Yeah, gonna cum, puppy, feels too–aaah-good…!” 

Yunho locked his arms around your waist, his hips never faltering, his veiny length rubbing along your inner walls in just the right way, making you cry out. He pressed his lips onto your ear, slipping his hand in between your sweaty bodies to rapidly rub your stiff clit, purring, “Good girl, cum for me, kitten. That’s right, baby, squirt on my cock…” 

When you came, you came hard, your arousal leaking out around his slippery cock, your body jolting as each wave of pleasure coursed through you, resting your head on his shoulder, his sweater slipping down it. Once you recovered, Yunho pressed his lips against yours, whispering words of praise, among other things that his audience couldn't hear until you slowly lifted yourself off of him. 

“I think it’s time to make our good puppy cum, don’t you think, guys?” you asked his webcam, walking around Yunho’s chair to stand behind it, running your hands down his body, reaching for his twitching cock, slipping your closed fist up and down it until you made Yunho whimper pathetically, tears forming inside his eyes, causing the already rapidly moving chat to go completely ape-shit. 

➵ ᴡʏɴɢ: ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ᴇᴅɢᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴍᴏʀᴇ, ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ʜɪᴍ ᴄʀʏ

➵ ꜱɴ: ɴᴏᴏᴏ ʟᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴏᴏʀ ʙᴀʙʏ ᴄᴜᴍ ᴀʟʟ ᴏᴠᴇʀ ʜɪᴍꜱᴇʟꜰ ʜᴇ ᴅᴇꜱᴇʀᴠᴇꜱ ɪᴛ :(

You continued to pump his reddened, leaking cock, replicating his incredibly needy facial expression, pouty lips and all, murmuring, “Awww, poor puppy wants to cum so bad, huh?” 

Yunho bucked his hips up into your hand, trying to fuck himself into your closed fist, his abs and muscles straining from his desperation, his ass clenching around his favorite plug, more drool beginning to leave his lips and dribble down his neck to his dog collar. “Please, let puppy cum, wanna cum inside my mouth like a dirty boy,” he babbled out, tears overtaking his vision once the pain of edging himself for so long began to overtake the pleasure on his almost orgasm. 

“Mm, then be good and cum, puppy,” you replied sweetly, suddenly slipping the pre-cum drenched cock ring off of Yunho and bringing it up to his mouth, watching him lap up the clear liquid off of it without you even having to ask. “Such a naughty boy, so good for us, aren’t you?”

“So good, Kitty, m’ so good,” Yunho echoed, running his hands up and down your forearms for his own comfort, practically panting like an actual dog would, his bangs plastered to his forehead with sweat. “Gonna cum so hard…” 

“Cum so hard for us, Yunnie, come on, that’s it….” Leaning yourself over his shoulder, you used both hands to milk his long, heavy cock, driving loud, whiny moans out of him, along with spurt after spurt of milky cum, watching the way he caught the stream of it on his lolled-out tongue. Yunho tilted his head back, looking up at you with teary, glazed-over eyes, making a small noise, clearly wanting to share himself with you. 

Without hesitation, you pulled him by the collar, pressing your mouth onto his, his tongue slipping inside it almost instantly, lazily swapping his hot cum and saliva with you, the both of you swallowing the combination down with ease afterwards, your hands caressing one another’s sweaty faces. After a shared gaze of affection, Yunho pressed a kiss onto your nose, making you blush harder than you had the whole night. 

When the post-nut clarity hit him, Yunho sat up a bit in his chair, giving his webcam a variety of hearts using his hands. “Thank you all for tuning in for this special stream, everyone! Love you!” 

➵ ᴀɴᴏɴ: ɪ ᴛʜɪɴᴋ ɪ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ꜱᴀᴡ ɢᴏᴅ

➵ ᴘᴜᴘ: ᴍɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴇᴇᴅ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴀʟᴋ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴛʜᴇʀᴀᴘɪꜱᴛ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴏɴᴇ

➵ ᴡʏ: ʙᴇᴀᴛ ᴍʏ ᴍᴇᴀᴛ ꜱᴏ ʜᴀʀᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ᴄᴀɴ ᴄᴀʟʟ ᴍᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜᴛᴄʜᴇʀ

➵ ꜱɴ: ɢʀᴇᴀᴛ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴀᴍ ᴀꜱ ᴀʟᴡᴀʏꜱ ʏᴜɴʜᴏ ♡

As soon as Yunho turned his webcam off, he brought you into a tight, comforting hug, nuzzling the side of your head with his own. “You did so good, Y/N…That was amazing, this is amazing…” 

You hugged him back just as tight, your heart fluttering, wondering if it was all just physical between the two of you or if there was something else blossoming behind the lens of the webcam. “I think so too, Yunnie…I just…” You began to pull back, causing Yunho’s happy expression to drop a bit. 

“What’s wrong, Y/N? You didn’t have fun?” he murmured, his bottom lip jutting out slightly. 

“No, it’s not that! I had tons of fun, Yunnie, the most fun I’ve had in a long time…” you reassured him, ruffling his damp dyed hair as gently as possible, smiling at him with your eyes. “I just don’t want to overstay my welcome, you know? So I should probably–”

“No, no, noooo,” Yunho repeated whinily, pulling you back into his arms, nuzzling your neck this time, enveloping you in his comforting scent and warmth. He eventually pulled back, just enough to rest his forehead onto yours, gazing at you, as if he was letting you take a peek at his beating heart through his eyes.  “Stay…?” 

You swallowed harshly to keep your heart from bubbling up into your throat, warmth searing into your cheeks, murmuring, “Are you sure?” 

Yunho bit at his bottom lip, lowering his head slightly so you didn’t have to see just how red he had become, though his bright red ears betrayed him. He eventually looked back into your eyes, swallowing down his nerves. “Y/N, what if…what if told you I was your number one fan too? What would you say then?” 

With your heart hammering away inside your chest, you pulled yourself together just enough to softly press your lips against his. You smiled up at him afterwards, caressing his cheek, your eyes twinkling with adoration for your favorite puppy boy. “Does that answer your question? Or do you need another?”

Yunho pouted cutely, just about ready to melt inside your arms. “Another.”

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The Three Times Natasha Proposed to You and the One Time You Said Yes

pairing: Natasha Romanoff x reader

summary: your girlfriend has a habit of proposing, and you have a habit of saying no.

a/n: I was gonna do this with katniss but decided it worked better with my favorite spy and also its been way to long since I wrote for herrrrrr ahhhh anyway, I LOVE HER YOUR HONOR

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The first time Natasha proposed to you, you had only known her for 18 hours.

You were new to the team. So new in fact that you only knew three people’s names at a table with eight people since the other five were too busy all day to introduce themselves. Dinner was awkward, for you at least, as everyone else was busy chatting about their days with each other. They’re laughing, the bond they all share clear as joy feels the air.

You don’t feel that joy.

It’s not like you’re not happy to be here; you’re insanely grateful that Fury was willing to see past your history and allow you to join forces such as the incredible ones around you, but you just don’t feel very welcomed.

You don’t blame the team. After all, it’s only the first day, and Fury already told you about the fact that most of the people on that team aren’t very warm and friendly. It does kind of bug you though, how now the people you’re not familiar with even seem to notice your presence in the group.

It’s just the first day. Things will get better. You repeat for the 100th time, eyes trained on the table as you spoon some more of the food that was in the kitchen when Jarvis called for you into your mouth. It’s chicken over rice, a simple recipe, but the chicken is covered in some type of delicious sauce that you can’t get enough of.

“Is the food okay? It’s my family's recipe.” A girl with brunette hair and jade colored eyes sitting across from you speaks, nervously smiling as she pushes her fork around the food on her plate. She’s young, younger than everyone else on the team, and it makes you feel a bit better about being new as you remember what Fury said about her only joining about half a year ago.

You give a hesitant smile, answering honestly; “Oh…yeah. I love it. It’s delicious.” 

The girl smiles brighter, reaching across the table to hold out her hand for you to shake. “It’s nice to officially meet you. Fury’s told me alot about you. I’m Wanda.”

“All good things I hope.” You giggle before introducing yourself, and she laughs along with you before you both go back to eating. The rest of the team slowly introduces themselves, and out of the corner of your eye you go see the way Wanda cringes when they only do it after she gave an example.

Even if they only did it once the girl made them realize, you still feel a bit more comfortable here then you did a while ago.

You notice Wanda eyeing your rings as you guys continue to eat, so you put your hand on the table in between you too. Her eyes shoot up to you in surprise, clearly not knowing that you noticed it. “Sorry for the staring. I just…I really like your rings. I love wearing them myself and I’ve never seen any like that. They’re beautiful.”

That’s how you guys start up in a conversation about rings, and then a few minutes later you’re sliding off one of your rings to give to her. She seems like the nicest person here, and you can already tell you’re going to be great friends. When you get it off, it accidently flies out of your hand, bouncing on the table before it falls off and lands somewhere on the floor. You turn red in embarrassment at the way everyone falls silent, staring at you in amusement before a redheaded woman slides out of her seat and kneels down on one knee to search for the item.

You met her earlier when you went to the gym to train, and she even helped you learn a few awesome fighting moves before she left to let you do your own thing. You can’t deny that Natasha is beautiful.

The woman smiles when she finds it, grasping the metal in her hand before she turns to face you, still on one knee as she holds it out for you to take as if she’s proposing.

If she notices the way it looks, she doesn’t say anything until Tony, the man you met when he blew up a lab earlier, laughs and mumbles under his breath, “I’m not paying for that wedding.”

You giggle, watching as Natasha stands up and turns to glare at him before facing you once again and putting it on the table near your plate. “Shut up Tony.” She mumbles before sitting back down in her own seat, and you say before shoving food into your mouth when the embarrassment sets in, “I’m not ready to settle down. Sorry Nat.”

Everyone just chuckles, and you are left with a small smile and new found happiness.

The second time she’d done it, she’d almost had you fooled that it was real.

You and her had been dating for three months, and you guys were absolutely inseparable. You’ve learned a lot about her in the year you’ve been an Avenger, and she sometimes opens up about her past. Her little sister, the red room, Dreykov.

Anyway, Fury had sent you on a mission with her, your best friend Wanda, and Steve Rogers to go and steal a flash drive from a destroyed hydra base then find some place quickly to look at what's on it. He said to find the nearest place as people would already be on the search for us, so that's why you got Nat to pull over at a mall. Not for clothes or a new pair of shoes, but to go into one of the electronic stores and use one of their computers to read what's on the file.

It was easy until Natasha noticed one of the workers looking at Steve in suspicion as they see him inserting the drive into one of the computers, and you’re about to abort the mission before your girlfriend grabs your hands and tugs you to the middle of the store, dropping into one knee and glancing at Wanda. The witch seems to get the hint even though you don’t understand what's happening, but you do when the young girl uses her magic to make a ring appear in Natashas hand. It’s beautiful, but you can tell it’s just an illusion to fool the people around you as small red whisps surround your best friend's hands.

“I’ve loved you since the day I met you.” The redhead starts, loud enough to attract the attention of everyone in the store but too loud as to not seem unusual. “I know you’re having my brother's baby,” She continues with that most serious face you’ve ever seen, and you have to try your hardest not to burst out laughing. “But I can treat you better than he ever could.”

The whole crowd of people in the store are now focused on you, even the workers which gives Steve the time he needs to enter the hard drive into one of the computers and read what's on it.

“So what do you say hottie? You wanna do this or not? Marry me?” You stare at her for a few minutes, eyes glancing at the blonde haired man who silently laughs at the scene in front of him before sending you a thumbs up to show he’s done and you guys can go.

“No!” Everyone quietly gasps, all looking away as Natasha fakes offense. “No! What the fuck? What kind of proposal is this? I’m just trying to buy a new phone, Stacy! And you’ve got a huge barbecue stain on that sweater. This is truly the best you could do?”

You're having way too much fun with it as you scoff before gently slapping her, trying your hardest not to laugh at the way everyone gasps even louder while you storm out.

Your friends and girlfriend quickly catch up with you, and you all finally burst out laughing by the time you’re getting in the car and driving away from the mall right as some scary looking military vehicle pulls up to the building. “Did you have to slap me?” Natasha laughs out, the ring box Wanda had magically created is now gone as she sits next to you in the back seat. “I feel like you enjoyed that way too much.”

“I did enjoy it. I’m also just practicing for the day you do propose to me.” She lets out a fake annoyed groan, slinging an arm over your shoulder as she pulls you to lay against her side.

Despite the playful mood, you can’t help but feel a fluttery feeling in your chest and a warm blush coating your face at the thought of being married to this girl. Little did you know, she was feeling the exact same.

When she did it a third time, it almost seemed like it was second nature for her to pull out a ring box and propose to you. 

You had just got back to the Avengers tower after a lunch date, and she froze on the doorstep when she realized you were no longer beside her. She turns in circles, panic filling her when she doesn’t see you. She’s a spy for fuck sakes, how could she have not noticed something happening to you.

 Her panic fades when you pop out from behind a thick tree, a snowball made from the small amount of snow on the grass in hand as you send her a mischievous smile. She doesn’t have any time to move before you’re launching it in her direction, practically falling over with laughter as it hits her forehead and then breaks into pieces.

The redhead still seems a bit shocked, but she quickly gets over it as she groans with a grin and runs over to harshly tackle you to the ground. It knocks the wind out of you, but you’re both still laughing so hard your stomach hurts as she grabs some snow from beside your head and then lets it fall onto you. “You wanna play that fucking game? Oh we can play that game honey.”

You shake your head, but the bright smile on your face tells her that you’re not actually scared. “No. I’m sorry Tasha. We can talk this out.” When she makes a, “tsk…tsk” noise with her mouth, you use all your strength to push her off of you, sprinting towards your home even though you can hear the sound of Natasha’s boots hastily crunching the snow beneath them as she runs after you.

She wraps her arms around your waist, easily picking you up off the ground and spinning you around. As cringy as it is, your laugh makes her laugh, and the moment is so perfect as she slowly lets you down so she can look you in the eyes.

“Wait a second.” Natasha mumbles, before grabbing something from her pocket, telling you to turn around for a minute while she makes you a surprise. You draw shapes in the snow in the meantime, your fingers practically numb but by the time you’re done, every planet is drawn into the frozen canvas. “Alright. Turn around.” She speaks again, and your smile grows- if possible- at the sight.

She’s messily formed a ring with the wrapper from a straw at dinner, and now she’s balanced on one knee in the icy snow as she grins up at you. “Will you marry me, and be mine forever?”

You pretend to think about it for a moment, finally holding at your left hand for her to put the ring on as you yell out, “Of course I’ll marry you!”

The russian girl laughs, once again picking you up to twirl you around before she sets you down to kiss you easier.

From a window high up in the Avengers tour, Wanda watches the interaction while drinking her tea and then closing her curtains. “When is she gonna do it for real?” She whispers to herself, already so done with the fact that Natasha has proposed to you three times, and yet she hasn’t been able to wear a pretty bridesmaid dress in her whole live.

The day Natasha proposed in the privacy of the cabin Tony’s letting you borrow for a weekend, twinkling lights dressing the living room and the dining table decorated with candles, rose petals and fancy wine that’s probably from Pepper, was the time you know she wasn't kidding.

As the sun sets behind the clouds, you and Natasha sit across from each other with your free hands hooked together beside your plates. The setting sun casts gentle rays upon your face from the window, illuminating your features with a golden light. You two share a quiet, comfortable silence for a moment before she looks up from her plate to you, a smile gracing her lips. You look at Natasha, heart beating softly in your chest from the soft, gentle atmosphere of the moment. She lets go of her fork to use that hand to grab ahold of your other hand, your fingertips intertwined gently. Your eyes meet across the table, and for a second it’s just you guys in the world. 

The girl then speaks, her words sincere and clear, as she makes her proposal. "I want to spend the rest of my life with you; I’ve wanted to since the first date we went on. I was scared though…..scared of finding someone I love in a world that could take it away so easily. But now….now I realize. It doesn’t matter. As long as I get to be with you for what time we have left, it’s worth it. So," she says softly, tilting her head to the side and smiling as she grabs a ring box from her pocket and opening it so you can see the diamond ring inside before standing up from her seat so she can get down on one knee next to the table. 

"Will you marry me?" 

The question hangs in the air as you gaze into the girl's eyes and processes the words. Your mind reels from the unexpectedness of it all, but you also can't help the surge of joy welling in her chest.

“Yes. Yes of course I will!” Her grin brightens, and she’s still kneeled as she wraps her arms around your waist to hug you as tight as she can. You join her on your knees so you’re on her level, grabbing her face with both hands and pulling her into a passionate kiss. You would’ve married her the first time she asked, but you’re somehow glad you waited until now to say yes. This is perfect.

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[only-luce-the-goose]

Heeeey pookie!!

i loved your Arthur fic too much, the man deserves to receive more love here🥹🫶🫶 I have two ideas for you, which in my head make more sense. I will try to explain myself as best as I can but in reality this is not my strong point LMAO

If you want and can write something about loving every little thing the reader does, such as the habit of brushing his hair behind his ears or, for example, when he reads a book that she cries, smiles or curses as if he LOVES that about her. 😮‍💨💗

Or maybe something about him being a little jealous and possessive not in a grotesque sense like I had to defend her from someone in a bar or something, like her being too nice by not wanting to walk away so as not to hurt the other person even if it's bothering her (that happens to me often haha😅)

Maybee some of the care for her when she's sick 🥹🥹

Of course, only if you feel comfortable with these ideas, which were more than two, I apologize for that, I'm a little excited.🧍🏻‍♀️🫶🫶

(I hope I have made myself understood, also English is not my first language, I am sorry if this is complicated when read or understood, also sorry this was so long :(, anyway much love to you 💗💗💗💗)

Little things

A/N: I am going to write all of them, they're so cute. Arthur absolutely deserves more love, he's underrated. Don't worry btw, your English is fantastic. I'm actually Australian so my spelling of certain words are different to everyone else's 😅. Keep an eye on my page for the next few days, I'll release them soon (I just need to finish my uni assignment first, whoops 🤷‍♀️). I hope I did what you were thinking 🫶🫶

Arthur Leclerc x reader

Warnings: Fluffy/Simp Arthur

Synopsis: "If you want and can write something about loving every little thing the reader does, such as the habit of brushing his hair behind his ears or, for example, when he reads a book that she cries, smiles or curses as if he LOVES that about her. 😮‍💨💗" - This part of the request.

You and Arthur were lying on the couch watching a movie after a long day. You propped up my pillows with Arthur on top of you, head resting on your chest. Your fingers started to scratch the back of his scalp, slowly worth their way up. He sighed as he pressed himself deeper into you, nuzzling his face into your skin. He lifted his head up and pecked your lips. You look down at him and giggled, “what was that for, baby?”. He looked up at you with a peaceful smile, his eyes brimming with love as he replied “just appreciating the small things” before resting his head back on your chest as you kept scratching his head.

The next time it happened, you guys were cuddled up in bed and you were reading a book. It might be one of the saddest books you had ever read in your life (for this I’m gonna use “Bridge to Terabithia” cuz I feel like everyone read it for school). You got the the chapter where the girl fell into the creek and drowned. The pure amount of detail broke your heart and sent you into a sobbing mess. Your sniffles caught Arthur’s attention, he looked down the see his shirt beginning to get wet. He pulled you up to face him as we wiped your tears. “Hey hey hey what happened mi amor?” He rushed. You explained what happened, causing Arthur to give you that look again. A peaceful smile, eyes brimming with love, he pecked your lips, “how about we read a happier book?” He suggested. “No” you said as you made eye contact again “I just wanna cuddle”. He grinned and settled down, pulling you into him “that is something I can definitely do”. You smiled as you tucked yourself into his side.

Another instance was when you and Arthur were walking through the paddock. The crowd was pushing and shoving, sweeping you away with them. Arthur quickly realised you had gotten caught up, jogging back to guide you again. You think your right hand to his left, your left hand coming up to hold his strong bicep on the same arm, basically wrapping yourself around his arm. You have his hand a little squeeze, leaning your head on his shoulder when he squeezed back. You made it to the Ferrari garage and you knew you would need to let go but you didn’t want to, do you didn’t. Arthur planted a kiss on your forehead and gave you that dopey, in love look he gives you in moments like these. “What?” You laughed. Arthur pecked your lips “nothing my love” he mumbled against them, “just admiring” he winked. Just like a school girl, you giggled and then cuddled into him, are grip still tight on his arm.

What really stood out is when you were cleaning your shared apartment. You were going through your shared closet when you found a brown leather book. The title on the inside of the book, in Arthur’s unmistakeable handwriting, was “those moments”. You flicked through the book and saw dates and times, which matched to all the moments when Arthur gave you the look. Scratching his head on the couch, crying at a book, being clingy at the paddock, it was all there. What you didn’t know, was that Arthur was leaning on the door frame, watching you read his little things journal. “Find something good, amor?” You jumped at his question. “I’m so so sorry. I shouldn’t be snooping but I’ve never seen it before, and I had no idea what it was for. I’m sorry, I should’ve given you your privacy an-” Arthur cut you off with a kiss. “Im glad you found it. Everytime you ask about this “look” I give you, you now know what I was feeling and thinking. Is that ok amor?” He has a glimmer of home in his eyes as he asks you. You put the book back where you got it from, wrapped your hands around his neck and kissed him deep “of it is, I love you Arthur” “I love you mi amor”

[klovesyall]

Oh my. My brain is full of ideas, but I can't write.

Spencer, but it's his first time showering with his gf? Either she casually invites him to join her, or maybe she's also a member of the BAU and was injured and needs some assistance?

AN: oh absolutely hun. I wasn’t sure if you wanted nsfw or fluff so I went with fluff for a safe option. Also I’m so sorry if this lowkey sucks. This is definitely my first rodeo with writing and I know it’s not perfect but I hope you kinda like it?

OK MORE RECENT AN: im sooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry this took so long. I don’t even have an excuse. And I’m so sorry because this is ASS. But I feel bad not giving you anything so here you go

Warnings: Fluff, swearing? , talk of nakedness and stuff idk

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Spencer had been extra protective of you ever since you got hurt. He didn’t want you to lift a single finger, even though you were perfectly capable. He made you food , carried your bags, hell- he even offered to carry you if your crutches got too annoying. All of this to say , he was willing to do anything to make you comfortable.

“Spence, I’m gonna take a shower.” You say with your back turned as you grab some pajamas out of the dresser drawer.

“What?” His voice was filled with concern, as it often was. When you turned around toward him he had the same amount of concern written on his face

“I have to shower Spencer, my hair is so dirty it looks wet.” You haven’t washed your hair in a few days, relying on dry shampoo and braided hair to get you by.

Spencer was thinking for a moment , you could tell by the way his brow furrowed slightly. He finally answers “Let me help you.”

You were slightly taken aback by his response. Spencer wasn’t usually confident enough to initiate or out right suggest anything intimate. And taking a shower together was definitely intimate. Not to say you were opposed to the idea though

“Are You Sure Spence? You do know I shower naked right?” Your tone was some what joking but also kind of not. Regardless you hear the little chuckle you love so much

“Yes I know. I dont want you to fall and get hurt any more than you already are. If you don’t want me to thats fine I just-“

You cut him off

“That would be really helpful, thank you.”

You see Spencer’s worry ease from his face and it’s replaced with a little curve of his lip

You give him a little smile before returning to grabbing your pajamas and walking to the bathroom. Spencer graciously follows you inside, locking the door behind him. When you turn to the counter , Spencer is quick to slip past you, turning on the shower for you.

“Do you take your showers warm or hot.” Spencer asks as if it’s so incredibly normal

“Uh hot I guess? It’s ok I can-“

He stops you when you begin to walk over

“Let me Take Care of you. Please.”

You sigh “you know I can do it myself.”

Spencer takes a step toward you, placing his hands on either side of your shoulders

“I know, but I don’t want to risk anything. You do so much for me and you deserve to be helped as well, especially when your injured. So please let me do this for you.” His voice is soft but you can tell how strongly he feels about this

“Ok, I’ll let you handle it.” I say

He smiles “can I take your clothes off?”

I Nod “You don’t have to ask.” You said that a lot, and it didn’t matter how many times you did. Spencer always asked

He grabbed the bottom of your shirt and you raised your arms. He pulls the shirt off your body and folds it before placing it on the counter. He does the same with your pants. Your standing only in your underwear now

“Do you want me to do the rest?” You ask

He shakes his head “turn around for me.”

You turn so your back is facing him and he unclasps your bra, sliding it down your arms until it hits the floor. He hooks a finger under your underwear on either side of you, pulling them down and helping you step out of them. He smiles when he meets your eyes again

“See something you like pretty boy?” You raise an eye brow in a teasing manner.

“Always.” He replies before walking you over to the shower. Holding his hand, you slowly take a step inside until your under the water. Once inside , Spencer takes a step back and sheds his clothes as well before joining you in the shower.

Spencer had ensured that you had a shower bench installed into the bathroom you shared when you moved in together. He said it was for safety reasons but, you still wondered if it might be for other things.

“Sit.” Spencer says, leading you to the bench.

When you sit down he detaches the shower head and wets your hair. When it’s what he considers wet enough, he lathers shampoo into his hands and begins to massage it into your scalp.

This man has very capable hands, many uses. And washing your hair just got added to the list of them. You close your eyes from a moment letting out a contended sigh

“Feel good sweetheart?” Spencer asks gently

“Mhm, definitely.” You reply, barely opening your eyes.

Spencer rinses out the shampoo and conditions your hair. He helps you wash off and when you finally stand , you wrap your arms around his neck. His hands lace around your waist

“Thank you Spencer, you’re an angel.” You say pressing little kisses to his jaw. You can see the blush creeping on Spencer’s face.

“You’re welcome, I’m always happy to help you.” He says peering down at you.

The two of you exit the shower. Wrapping towels around your selves and getting dressed- well Spencer refuses to let you dress your self so he helps you. He even blow drys your hair for you because he knows you don’t like going to bed with it wet.

————————————————————

You lay in bed on your side facing him as he looks back at you. You reach out and brush a strand of his hair out of his eyes.

“You should stay home tomorrow.” Spencer says breaking the silence.

“Absolutely not. I’m perfectly capable of going into work. Plus Hotch would have my head if I didn’t go.” You say and Spencer sighs

“I don’t like the idea of you out on the field” he says once again with concern

“You’ll be with me. I’ll be fine.”

He sits up “I don’t want you to be fine I want you to be healthy.”

You sit up and scoot close to him “Spencer I’m going to work. If it makes you feel better I’ll stay back with Penelope and help her.”

Spencer relaxes a little “yea. Ok that makes me feel better. But don’t go doing anything stupid. That means no trying to entertain Penelope with” Spencer throws up air quotes “crutch tricks”

You groan and lay back down “whatever you say.”

You can hear Spencer’s little laugh as he turns off the lamp.

[elsfairy]

sitting on Abby's strap while she reads, that's it

oh, so true

This wasn’t how you had planned the night to go. In fact, you had planned it so much differently in your head. It first started with you making something you know your girlfriend liked to eat, and you know she would appreciate your hard work on something that has taken you countless few tries to make and get it right. She’s worked hard the past week, of course, you would make her dinner. Then you planned to make the entire night about her, maybe watch a movie she loves, or braid her hair the way you know she likes it, or better yet, run her a bath, and give her the best massage she’s ever had. But it always changes when she finally gets home. Her hair always loose in her braid, the wispy strands stuck to her sweaty forehead, her clothes looking even tighter than usual on her body and you simply can’t stop drooling because she’s so effortlessly beautiful that you don’t ever have time to think until you’re following her around the second she walks through the doors like a lost puppy. Helping her take off her jacket, throwing her bag god knows where, and kicking her shoes under the shoe rack while she’s oblivious to your sudden hunger for her. 

Dinner was fine, she praised and praised that you always make the best meals for her until your cheeks started hurting from the smiling and obvious shyness to her words. As usual, though, she was quick to disappear into the bedroom for her shower, while you, the goddamn brat you are couldn’t handle her being so far away when you hadn’t seen her all day, so you followed. Like you always do. Even if she did need 5 minutes alone after a hard day at work. Maybe that’s why she was so adamant to make you listen.

It was indeed not the night you had planned. You did want her to take a nice relaxing bath, you did want to watch a movie with her and you did want to make the rest of the entire evening about her and what she wanted to do but the second she walked out that bathroom, droplets of water running down her body, hair sticking to her face, you simply couldn’t fucking do it.

She could always see through your little facade.

And that’s how you somehow ended up in her lap, strap so deep in your cunt, and your soft little moans filling the silence of your bedroom. To make it even worse? She wasn’t even paying attention to you. You’re literally cockwarming her strap, hips trying their best to move, and it’s failing miserably because she has one hand gripping your hips, holding you down and the other holding her book. Seriously? you’re a whimpering mess above her, and she’s caring more about that stupid fucking book than you? Her girlfriend? “What’s the matter, baby?” her voice stoic, eyes flicking over the words on the page slowly, lips quirked up just slightly at the whines you’re letting out. “I told you to give me 5 minutes after my shower, but being the brat you are, couldn’t wait for me to get myself together could you?”

Your bratty whine in response was an answer in itself.

“So while i read the last few pages of my book, you’re gonna sit there, make it nice and wet for me and maybe, just maybe i will give you what you want. hm?”

“No— need you now”

“Brats don’t get what they want. be a good girl— my good girl. just sit there and look pretty until I’m done”

[gh0stsp1d3r]

you know it’s for Luke 🤭 but pls if you could write one for him where he’s dating the reader and it’s like that one scene from El Dorado (https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSFjVAEDA/) where responsible Luke needs to do all his counsellor stuff but flirty teasing reader wants to swim so he says they could swim later but flirty teasing gf just removes her clothes in front of him and in her bikini just tells him “too bad, I’m free now” 😫😫😫

𝒯ℯ𝒶𝓈ℯ…

𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐓

A/n: stop I love this sm, and I loveee el dorado so this is the perfect req. no warnings

Today was a lovely today. It was sunny, and it was the perfect time to go swimming in the lake. You decided to eat lunch before, and making your way to the Hermes cabin after.

“Lukeee.” You sung, he was stuffing his things into a bag when he heard your voice. He whipped around and smiled at the sight of you coming over to him.

“Hey, baby.” He spoke, standing up and greeting you with a hug and a kiss.

“Hi. You weren’t at lunch. Why?”

“I was training with the new Athena kid. She’s nice.” He said simply.

“Oh, that’s nice.” You nodded, he nodded as well.

He turned around again and began stuffing things back into the bag. You sat on his bed, in front of him.

“Well, I was thinking we should go for a swim in the lake.” You swung your legs. He thought for a moment.

“I would love to, baby, but you know I have too much on my schedule right now. We can go swimming later.” He said.

“You’re too busy for your girlfriend?” You said with a slight pout on your face.

He sighed, looking up at your now. “Never. But you know I have to just do a few things. That’s it. It’s still early.”

“Fine. We can go later.” You said, slightly upset but you knew exactly how to win him over later.

You walked with him to his sparring place, and then said goodbye. You made your way back to your cabin, a smirk on your face.

—————————————————————

With your bikini underneath your clothes, you went over to where you knew he would be. It was his spot in the forest, probably teaching some kid.

You watched closely, sitting on an old rock. You watched him correct the campers stance, and showing him some techniques.

He glanced at you from time to him, a small smile slithering on his face every-time he did. Finally, after what felt like forever, he was packing up his stuff again. You came up and wrapped your arms around the boys neck, littering kisses onto him.

“So, can we go swimming now?”

He sighed, and turned to look at you now.

“I’m sorry, baby. It’s late and I still have a few more classes and- tomorrow, I swear.” He said, cupping your face and giving you another kiss.

“Alright. Fine.” You said, turning around and making your way into his field of view. Slowly, you reached for your shirt. He watched in confused.

“Sweetheart, what are you doing?” He said, eyes widening and the rest of his words catching in his throat as you moved your hair out of the way, and the way you batted your eyelashes at him as you looked over your shoulder at him made him melt.

“I’m going swimming by myself, I guess.” You shrugged as if you weren’t doing anything. Your shirt was on the ground.

He stays silent for a while, his mouth practically watering as you pulled off your shorts and he saw your bottoms. You knew exactly what you were doing to him.

He swallowed the lump in his throat, frozen where he stood. Sweat beads formed as he looked at you, you were gorgeous, like a Goddess. Better than one.

“You’re gonna kill me one day.” He mumbled under his breath.

“Hm?” You asked, turning around now.

“Nothing.”

“Mmm. Well, I’ll see you later, babe.” You said, and began to walk away before he came over, peeling off his shirt as he walked, throwing it somewhere as you smiled and giggled at him.

“You’re such a tease, you know that?” He spoke, you grabbed onto his hand and you both walked towards the water.

“You’re the one who didn’t wanna go swimming, Mr.” You said, poking his chest.

“I’ll tell them classes are cancelled later.”

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

the brie

buttercup, chapter two

a/n: i was originally gonna go into more detail and dive into and actually write the traumatic moments, but i decided to go a little bit more easy on myself, just focus mostly on the healing part and regaining the good.

summary: “well, we’re going out to our usual watering hole, or it’s not just us, Karen, who works with us, is also tagging along. Would you wanna join? Might be fun… might tear the city up, dance all night and watch the sunrise or whatever kids do these days.”

warnings: matt murdock x baker!reader, neighbours to lovers, rape recovery, ptsd, wingman foggy, reference to croissant theft, alcohol consumption, drunk munching on cheese, kissing, crying, retelling of trauma (if it gets too much for you, then please feel free to just skip the last part of this chapter)

word count: 4978

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Scooping one divided lump of dough closer with the bench scraper in your grasp, you put it down before first folding the bottom of the blob over itself, then the sides and then stretched the top down as well before you rolled it all up to create that much more tension in the loaf. As you plopped the soft mass into one of the nearby dusted bannetons, nippily pinching the seam and giving it a few stitches, the ingrained dance only kept on as your fingers moved on to shape the next loaf of sourdough. 

To your left, not at the central table where you worked, stood your uncle Howard, a piping bag of vanilla-flaked cream in his grasp as his rotund frame bent over rows and rows of delicate, flaky little pastries, filling the sunken centre up before he could top them off with little chunks of crimson berries. 

“Are you alright, cupcake?” you glanced up to see Walter leaning against the doorframe that led directly behind the counter, “you look like you’re about to nosedive into the dough and use it as a pillow.”

“I’m alright, just didn’t sleep much last night,” you blinked back down at your work, noting how your weary eyes stung slightly from the lack of rest, “I had a nightmare that was really, really not fun, and immediately when I woke up I started crying and shaking, like instant panic attack, so I couldn’t really fall asleep again after that,” you glanced back up at him and offered a tight-lipped smile. 

“Oh, I’m so sorry.”

“I just don’t get why it has to feel so real,” you let your hands halt their waltz as you shared, Howard too glancing over in your direction, “why my body needs to remember it so vividly when I fall asleep. It hasn’t forgotten it while I’m awake, so I don’t feel like I need the reminders… sorry…”

“Don’t apologise, it’s–…” instead of uttering the painful truth, Walter instead let a heavy sigh flow and offered, “…do you want me to make you a cup of coffee? Maybe that could be nice, just a little bit?”

“Yeah,” you exhaled, “thanks,” before clapping the worst of the flour off your hands, briefly wiping them against the chocolate brown apron that partially covered your t-shirt and jeans, and wandered around the table, shadowing Walter as he fiddled with the espresso machine, making it hum and puff, till he handed you a steaming mug that had a little heart in the frothy foam floating on the top. 

“Here you go.”

Bringing it up to your lips, you offered him a genuine smile, “thank you, Walt.”

Staying behind the counter as Walter disappeared into the back, the chime of the small bell above the door brought your attention to the pair that then strolled in. Setting down your latte and expecting it to be just any other customer, your eyes instead went wide as you saw who it was.  

“Heya, neighbour!” 

“Y/n, hi,” Matthew smiled as both he and the floppy-haired man beside him came to a stop on the other side of the stocked display case, “uh, Y/n, this is my friend Foggy Nelson,” he gestured to the friendly looking fellow, “Foggy, this is my new neighbour Y/n.”

“The pastry goddess!” Foggy exclaimed excitedly, “I bow to the.”

“Goddess?” you giggled, feeling the heat rise in your cheeks as you glanced over at Matt, secretly in hopes that he’d gotten that nickname from him, “oh, I don’t know about that. My uncle’s the one who oversees most of the pastries. He studied in Paris back in the 70’s, so in other words he’s a bit of a control freak. But, he is getting better! Slowly letting me take care of more things that I’m more than capable of doing… I’m talking a lot, aren’t I?” you sucked in a sharp breath as you noticed 

your rambling, “I’ll shut up. The point was just that he is the one who makes most of the pastries here, not me. He’s the goddess.”

“Well, I tasted one of your croissants the other day–”

“Actually,” Matt raised a hand and interrupted his friend, “you stole it.”

“I did not–”

“You came over and I turned away for two seconds and the next thing I knew you’d obliterated the entire bag.”

“That sounds more like your problem,” Foggy joked, managing to keep a straight face as Matt chuckled, “you’ve known me how many years now? You should know not to trust me with baked goods unless you mean for me to enjoy them,” turning his attention back to you, he leaned his folded arms against the tall section of the counter, “anyways, Y/n, that croissant was properly one of the best things I’ve ever tasted.”

“Really?” your face lit up with a bright grin. 

“Yes, it was so buttery and flaky and urgh!”

“Well, if you liked that, you might like today’s special…” your feet began to carry you further to the left to the very far side of the counter. 

“Oh, please do tell me,” he followed along like a magnet.

Pointing down to the pastry row on the other side of the glass, you explained, “it is this rhubarb danish that also has a little base of pastry cream at the bottom to balance out the tart compote.”

“Oh… my… god…” Foggy nearly salivated, his hypnotised gaze never straying from the treat, “you gotta be some angel sent from above.” 

Busting out a laugh, you grabbed a brown paper bag, “should I take that as confirmation?”

“Yes, please,” he nodded as you plucked one up with a set of tongs. 

“Will that be all?”

“I don’t know if it ever can be all, but slowly but surely I’ll get through your spread, and that is a promise,” Foggy accepted the bag into his waiting fingers, “but for now, yeah.”

“Matt, do you want anything?” you asked, feeling the flutter of butterflies wake up within your stomach as you returned your attention to him, “do you want me to describe the options for you?”

“No, I’ll just have the same as Foggy, as well as–, do you sell coffee?”

“Oh,” the scent wafting off your half-empty mug probably caught his attention, “yes, we do.”

“Then I’ll have a cup as well.”

“Oh, one for me too,” Foggy interjected. When you’d packed up another pastry and filled up two to-go cups, the shaggy-haired man pipped up as they were paying, “hey, what are you doing later tonight?”

“Uh, I don’t know. Properly just head home and rewatch some series for the billionth time,” you said, putting the cash they’d handed you away in the register, “why?”

“Well, we’re going out to our usual watering hole, or it’s not just us, Karen, who works with us, is also tagging along. Would you wanna join? Might be fun… might tear the city up, dance all night and watch the sunrise or whatever kids do these days.”

A laugh then rumbled within Matt’s chest, “we’re not gonna go dancing, Foggy.”

“You never know,” Foggy sang, “I’ve got moves like you wouldn’t believe!” he snuck a small sip of his steaming coffee before meeting your eye, “so, Y/n! Please tell me you’re coming?”

“…and then Karen was like what’s that? Turns out a giant piece of glass had stabbed my side,” Foggy clutched onto his drink as he told his dramatic tale, “I nearly died.”

Cutting her sip of beer short, the golden-haired woman sitting beside him at the round bar table objected, “you did not nearly die.”

“Oh yeah?” Foggy squinted light-heartedly back at Karen, “says the person who barely got a scratch. I single handily rescued both you and Mrs. C from that building and got a sick ass scar to prove it.”

Their voices faded away like grown-ups in a Saturday morning cartoon as you glanced back down at your drink and let the radiating heat of the man next to you seep into your bones. As your fingers brushed down the sides of the glass and played with the condensation, Matt suddenly reached out for his own, though in his search for the stout glass that stood ever so close to your own, his touch briefly grazed against your skin. But if that wasn’t enough to spike your heart rate, when his long fingers enveloped his short glass, the back of his hand pressed up against yours at the proximity.

You weren’t sure how long it persisted before he raised his dark drink up to his lips, but it didn’t seem like he was in a rush to let the contact fade. Your breath managed to grow ragged in the chunk of time you got to stare down at his hand, it looking so massive up against yours. Though the light in the dingy bar was low, you could still manage to make out the dizzying pattern of prominent veins that cascaded off the back of his hand like a calm rainfall rolling down a windowpane. 

For a moment there, assisted by the few drinks in your system, you let yourself dream, just for a little while, just until Foggy’s voice cut through your haze and stirred you from your fantasy. 

“… I mean, am I right? I’m right. Come on, Y/n, back me up here!”

“Huh? I’m sorry, uhm…” you blinked, in some ways feeling more drunk than you had a minute ago, “wha–what did you say?”

As Foggy then began to explain what you’d missed, Matt leaned down close to your ear and whispered, his hot breath tickling your skin and causing goosebumps to erupt. 

“You okay?”

“Mhm,” you hummed fuzzily. 

“You sure?”

“Yeah,” you glanced down and noticed how rapidly your chest was rising and falling. 

“Do you wanna go home? I can walk with you if you want,” he offered quietly. 

“Uhm…” you blinked up at him before uttering, “sure, but I don’t wanna end your night before you want to.”

“No, you’re not,” he reassured you, “I’m ready to go home myself.”

“Alright then,” you nodded before Matt turned to the others. 

“Guys, we’re gonna head home.”

“No!” Foggy boomed, “really?”

Throwing her hands up, Karen added, “but we haven’t even gone dancing yet!”

“Sorry,” Matt got up from his tall stool, “another night.”

“Thanks for inviting me,” you tugged your jacket back on, “I had a lot of fun.”

To your surprise, they both got up and hugged you in return.

“Thank you for coming!” Karen gave you a tight squeeze before Foggy took over. 

“And we’ll be seeing you for the next one, right?”

“Uh, sure,” you gave his back a light pat, “if I have time and stuff the day that it happens, then I’d love to tag along.”

Casting his glance upon the other lawyer, “bye, Matt,” Foggy then yanked him into an embrace, “I love you, you know that?”

“Yeah,” Matt chuckled, clapping his friend’s spine, “I know, buddy.”

“You love me too, right?” Foggy pulled back, though still kept his hands fast on Matt’s broad shoulders, “don’t leave me hanging, it’s bad for a man’s health.”

“Foggy, I started a firm with you. Of course, I love you,” Matt smiled back at his sloshed pal, “good night.”

“Night, night,” Foggy patted his scruffy cheek before letting him out of his gasp, though adding as you turned to exit the bar, “night, Y/n! I love you too! I just met you today, but I love you!”

Soft giggles bubbled out of you as the door slammed shut behind you. 

“So, those are your friends...” you smiled into the night, “I like them. They’re nice.”

“Yeah,” the corners of Matt’s lips turned further up till dimples bloomed, “they’re good eggs.”

As the two of you began to move along, the silence didn’t last very long at all. 

“This is really nice of you, walking me home like this,” you uttered, “I know it’s just because we’re neighbours and headed in the same direction, but–”

“It’s not.”

“What?” your eyes found him.

“It’s not because we’re neighbours. It’s just, you know, the decent thing to do.”

“Right,” you exhaled, casting your glance back down onto the sidewalk as you momentarily got your hopes up. 

“And you know how this city can be,” Matt went on, “it’s not smart for anyone to walk alone at night.”

“Yeah,” you nodded, trying to keep your tone nonchalant, “of course.”

When a street then appeared before you, slicing the path you journeyed on, and even though there wasn’t any traffic in sight, your hand still instinctively shot down to grasp Matt’s forearm before the two of you could cross.

Realising what you’d done, you quietly muttered, “sorry,” though couldn’t find the strength to withdraw your touch just yet. 

“It’s okay,” his low voice slid from his lips like silk. 

“I just didn’t want you to walk straight out into ongoing traffic...” you tore your gaze away from him and forced yourself to look at the road before you, “but there aren’t any right now, so we can cross the street…”

Guiding his palm up to the curve of your elbow, he accepted the gentle aid as you began to cross the lane. 

Once you’d reached the other side and his grasp slowly began to drift back down. When his palm reached the height of your own, you softly caught it before timidly testing, “…do you mind if we–…”

“Hold hands?” with a gentle smile, he filled in before you might wonder if he could even sense your shy touch at all.

“Yeah…”

“No,” you felt him weave his fingers with your own, “not at all.” 

His touch somehow felt even better than you’d imagined. Though surprisingly gruff, with harsh calluses all throughout, he cradled your palm with such care, like he’d held it a thousand times before, occasionally swiping his broad thumb over your knuckles, presumably just a subconscious gesture from his end that still caused shivers to trickle down your spine every time he did so. 

You wanted the latter part of your walk home to last forever, engulfed in the comfortable silence of endless possibilities. But alas, when you did reach your building’s front door and then climbed the steps all the way up to your respective apartments, you couldn’t get yourself to let go just yet. 

“Are you hungry? Because I kinda am,” you weren’t really, but anything to just stretch the night a little longer, “or maybe it’s just my subconscious taking care of me and lessening my hangover by giving me a sudden craving for cheese.”

“I don’t think I have any cheese.”

“I do,” you said maybe a bit too fast, “do you want some?”

Exhaling lowly, a soft smile twitched at his lips as he then uttered, “sure.”

As you unlocked your door, you finally let go of his hand, “make yourself at home!” you placed your keys down on the slender entry table before kicking your shoes off and peeling off your coat, hanging it up on the row of hooks, “oh, do you want me to, uh, describe the layout for you? Or just plant your down on the couch?”

“Just tell me the direction and I think I’ll be fine.”

Facing him, you haphazardly explained, “alright, the hallway goes on for a few steps and then it’s to your right–, no, wait, my right, that’s your left. It’s to your left.”

Whirling around, you delved deeper into your home till you reached the kitchen. Ripping open the fridge, you snatched up a block of half-eaten cheese before seizing a clean butter knife from the dishrack and a roll of seedy crackers from a cupboard. 

Matt was already comfortable on your sage couch as you laid the humble spread out on the coffee table and joined him. 

“I hope you like brie because that’s what I got. Unless you want a single slice of american cheese, then this is all the cheese I have to offer.”

“Brie it is then,” he relaxed into the cushions as you unwrapped the snack. 

“Here, let me make you a bite,” slicing off bits of soft cheese, you spread it both on a cracker for him and one for you. Gently picking up his hand to place his snack in his palm, you then popped your own in your mouth and nearly melted into the couch next to him, “yep… that’s the spot…” you grinned hazily out the tall windows at the night sky as you chewed, “there’s just something about eating cheese when the moon is out that’s just so right in a way I can’t describe…” 

Your murmuring conjured a light chuckle to rumble within Matt, one that swayed your gaze to train on him. Resting your head against the back of the couch, you watched as the moonlight reflected in his tinted glasses. 

When the silence stretched on, Matt eventually cocked his head, “…what?”

Not tearing your eyes off of him, you breathed, “nothing…”

“You’re quiet,” his dark brows furrowed gently, “what’s going on?”

“Nothing,” you repeated, feeling almost like you were floating in a calm sea. 

“You tired? Do you want me to go so that you can go to bed?”

“No, please don’t, I–…” you reached out and grazed his arm, “could–… do you want to go?”

Letting his body relax once more, he breathed, “not particularly…”

Gazing up at him, your bottom lip snuck its way in between your teeth, “Matt…”

“Yeah?”

“You–… you’re–… I–…” your pulse pounded in your ears. 

“Mhm?”

“I really, really wanna kiss you right now…” you uttered thickly before you had the chance to chicken out. Like a wave crashing a shore, you didn’t even think as you let yourself dive in and press your lips to his. The kiss however didn’t last too long as you swiftly drew back as soon as your brain turned back on and you realised what you’d done, an apology hastily rushing out of your lungs, “Oh my god… I am so sorry.”

“Y/n,” hearing your name on his silky tongue did not help matters. 

“I didn’t mean to just–”

“Y/n,” he repeated, trying to cut through your fog. 

“We can just forget any of that ever happened, I totally get it if you don’t–”

As he brought his hands up to cradle the sides of your face, your nervous ramble fell short. When he ghosted his thumb across your cheekbone, you swore that you stopped breathing entirely. 

“…can I kiss you?” he slowly asked, leaving you utterly dazed. 

“W-what?”

Drawing in a breath, he repeated for you, “can I kiss you, Y/n?”

Blinking back at him, you hazily hummed, “mhm,” before he leaned in and brushed his lips against your own. The kiss was soft, just as your shoddy attempt had been, but it made your limbs feel like they morphed into jelly. When the pecks soon departed, you filled your lungs with a shaky breath as you gazed back at him in total awe, “holy shit…” only staying there a moment before you had to have another taste. 

Slowly growing more confident, the intoxicating kiss gradually grew more hungry. When his fingers then weaved into your hair, you realised that up till now he’d been holding himself back, gatekeeping a kiss that caused your frame to crawl into his lap, starving for more. Your little whimpers vibrated against his tongue as he danced it against yours, growing dizzy as you melted into the heart-stopping sensation. 

But suddenly a tormenting flash stabbed your being, and you abruptly tilted your lips away from his, breathlessly uttering, “wait, wait, there’s-, there’s-, uh…”

“What,” he breathed thickly, nose grazing yours before you retracted further, “are you okay?” 

“I’m…” carefully crawling off his lap, you kept going till you were a safe distance away on your own side of the couch, “Matt, there’s something I need to–, uhm, tell you…”

Staying silent, he patiently waited as you gathered up the courage needed to jump off the cliff and tell him.

Casting your gaze up to the tall and dark ceilings above, you felt your limbs begin to tremble, “okay, alright… I have no idea how to, uh, say this, so I’m just gonna do it,” and like a band-aid, you uttered, “I-, I was raped,” your eyes squeezed shut, not daring to risk glancing at his reaction, “a little over a year ago… and I haven’t–, uhm, done or tried anything with anyone since… so yeah, I just thought that was a good thing for you to know since even though I hope for there not to be any problems, I just don’t know, I don’t know what it will be like for me, if my body will suddenly freak out, but I just wanted to tell you so that in case something does happens, that you know not to automatically take it personally...” drawing in a shaky breath, you fluttered your gaze open and waited for his response, “Matt?”

“Yeah?” he answered carefully. 

“Please don’t say that I’m scaring you away right now…” you shifted your position, turning to face him once more.  

“You’re not, you’re not,” his head softly shook from side to side, “I just–… I really, really sorry.”

“Yeah…” you exhaled slowly, feeling tears sting the corners of your eyes, “me too…” staring at him a moment, you then bared your all and uttered, “I really like you, Matt,” a faint smile accompanied the declaration, “I think you might be the only guy in all of New York that I’m not scared of,” every other man you could think of had all had at least a second, a little flicker, of something that over the past year had terrified you, “and I don’t want you to think that I’m made of glass, that’s not what I want, that’s not why I’m telling you this. Please trust me when I say that I want to, I wanna do–…” a weighty exhale flowed from your lungs as your lips remembered his taste, “I wanna do everything with you… if–, if that’s something you’d like as well… but if we do, even though I really, really want to, I think it’s probably smartest to go slow, no pressure, you know, just in case, so that my body doesn’t freak out. Also, I’d really appreciate it if I at any point indicate for you to stop or even just pause a moment, that you’ll do that, that you’ll listen to me,” you briefly glanced down at your fiddling fingers, “and you know, I’m not saying let’s only do PG things, there are so, so many wonderful steps on the way that we can have fun with… I just–, I wanted to let you know now, before, so that we wouldn’t potentially have this conversation when something did happen.”

Only parting his lips when he was sure you were done, he uttered, “thank you for telling me. Are you–… are you okay? Was what happened before too much?”

“No…” you shook your head gently, “no, it wasn’t,” taking his hand in yours, you shared, “and I’m okay, I think… I mean, some days it still feels like it just happened, and others I notice something, something small, that I’ve gotten back, that I’ve regained…” absentmindedly tracing the lines of his palm with your thumb, you asked, “do you–… do you have any questions? Is there anything you wanna know?”

“No, I–… I just want you to tell me however much or little you feel comfortable with sharing.”

“…can I tell you? About it?” you asked slowly and he swiftly offered you a soft nod. Drawing in a deep breath, you began, “It, um, it was a Saturday night… I’d just gotten back from the bakery super late, maybe close to midnight… and when I was getting ready for bed, my roommate came home, he’d been out drinking as he usually spent his weekends. I remember we stayed up a while, just talking about the mundane stuff we always did. It was like any other Saturday, really. That was until I got too tired and went to go to bed, but he didn’t wanna stop talking, so he followed along into my room while I got ready and stuff,” averting your gaze, your bottom lip began to tremble, “we were just talking, it wasn’t anything special and then the next thing I knew, he was kissing me. It just–… it happened so fast… his hands were all over me… I remember he pushed me up against my closet so hard that my back was bruised the next day, and I don’t bruise that easily. He was just so wasted that I don’t think he realised or maybe even cared what he was doing. I tried to say something, tried to make him stop, but he didn’t listen to me. If he heard me, then I don’t think he understood what it was that I was saying… I would have pushed him away, slapped and hit him, but I couldn’t, I couldn’t move my body, not even a little, I just froze…” 

“I can still feel what he felt like… like my skin won’t let go of the memory…” tears rolled down your cheeks as you squeezed your eyes shut and tried to ignore how your palm tingled with recollection, “how he forced me to touch him and held his hand over mine, making it move as if he just thought I didn’t know what to do… he was my friend, you know? He wasn’t just some stranger who dragged me into an alley and held a knife to my throat. He was my friend. He would always make offhand jokes about seeing me as just a little sister and how he wasn’t attracted to you at all. Made such a big deal of it that I never thought he’d try anything… I have no idea how long it actually went on… I don’t even remember when it was that I landed on the bed, if it was before or after he–… after he–… did stuff, t-touched me… I just remember I was laying there when it happened. The masked man, the devil of hell’s kitchen, he ripped him off of me…”

“He’d somehow heard… I think maybe if I hadn’t opened the window that night to air out the room, he wouldn’t have saved me… he beat him up... knocked him out… he told me to call the police, but I couldn’t, so I instead asked my uncle to come get me… my body’s never shaked the way it did that night… I remember I was so confused because I wasn’t cold, didn’t get it till the masked man said I was in shock… it didn’t stop till the next night… when he was about to leave, I asked what if Mi–,” you couldn’t get yourself to utter Michael’s name out loud without feeling as if your whole world would crumble around you, “what if he woke up before Howard arrived, and so he just stayed there with me, right till he somehow heard my uncle walking up the stairs and then he slipped out the way he came in, right before I heard the front door unlock.” 

Letting out a long and unsteady breath, you raised a trembling palm up to wipe your cheeks. 

For a while, the silence got to encompass the space completely, your left hand still shaking in Matt’s as you eventually heard him ask. 

“Did you ever go to the police?”

“No. In the small window that I had to do one of those kits, I was just way too overwhelmed and confused and I just couldn’t think straight, I couldn’t do anything but relive that moment over and over again, so I didn’t do anything in time. But the longer time that passes and the more it sinks in what he did and the ways that I’m still paying for it, the things he ruined inside of me that I’m not sure if I’ll ever be able to get back, the more I wish that I had gone to the police. But it’s too late now.”

“No, it’s not,” his fingers squeezed slightly around yours, “I could help you, I’m a lawyer after all.”

“No, Matt,” you said firmly, “it is. I don’t wanna sit there and hear them go oh, it’s your word against his, sorry, and have them think that not enough happened technically for them to take it seriously. Enough happened, trust me. I’m eternally grateful that Daredevil saved me from whatever else he could have done to me that night, but enough happened. Just because he didn’t stick it in me doesn’t mean nothing happened. That is the kind of belief that only belongs to people who think that the only sexual act that counts as sex is when a penis is in a vagina, and that is just so incredibly wrong,” an enraged laugh tumbled out of you as you fumed, “they are the kind of people who think that someone queer, disabled or just someone who isn’t into that sexual act isn’t actually having sex when they are. Sex is about connection, it’s about pleasure and there are endless amounts of things that can give a person pleasure,” clenching your jaw, you let out a heavy sigh, “I wish it could be different, I wish many things, I wish it hadn’t had happened at all, but it did, and I hope that at the very least he learned something from it, that he changed, that he wouldn’t do it again to someone else.”

© 2024 thyme-in-a-bubble 

[zer0wzs]

𝙨𝙖𝙩𝙪𝙧𝙙𝙖𝙮𝙨

[ gn!reader ] "practice it, even once a week," it even works with sleep—especially you have something motivating you. based off of this classic reddit post. wc: 1521

AN: not at all proofread my apologies lol

There have been a couple of changes in your life since the first month that Jason moved in with you.

For one, the little trinkets that were scattered everywhere seemed to be a little more neater, a little more lined up. You’ll find that your small figures were playing out a scene. You don’t know why they’re like that, but Jason seems to know. 

Your apartment’s been plenty more storage-efficient. This was largely to help Jason store his expansive collection of books, but it helped you, too. The drawers, shelves, and cabinets the two of you have thrifted and renovated together make it seem more to both of your liking—rather than it just being yours.

Above these small things, though, you two seem to always never have enough time with each other, even after the move.

Needless to say, time isn’t always in your favor when you’re vigilant or with the Red Hood. Date nights are suddenly postponed or canceled, patrols keep him until the early hours of the morning, and—at worst—missions have you two apart from one another for weeks, maybe even months.

This makes you two take pleasure in the small things. Whatever little thing you two can keep to yourselves, whatever fragment of time is offered to you two, you will selfishly hold onto. It's the only thing you can ever hold onto.

That’s why you always hold onto Saturdays. You can wake up as late as you want and still know that he’s probably there. You’d find him cleaning his guns, cozied on the couch reading a book, watching a cheesy romcom, or cooking you breakfast. That’s how it's always been when you spent time at each other’s apartments, and the same thing has happened until now.

That’s your first thought as you wake—or, well first few thoughts. Checking the time on your phone, you see it’s 11 AM. Earlier than your usual time of waking, but you should still probably get up.

There isn’t much noise ringing through your ears, save for a few footsteps you heard through the ajar room of your bedroom. Still a little drowsy, you made your way to the bathroom to tidy yourself up.

After rinsing your face with soap and getting the grime out of the crevices of your skin, you grabbed your toothbrush and pumped your toothpaste on it. As you brushed your teeth, though, your mind better register a faint humming—no, singing—from down the hallway.

Well, it can’t be anyone else, no?

After freshening yourself up, you go to your living room only to be greeted by tranced Jason—fixated on his slightly worn copy of All The Lovers in the Night. There’s some old dad rock music playing softly by him. You stand there, leaning against the edge of the hallway, before your presence is acknowledged.

“Good morning,” he greeted, using a random receipt he had to bookmark his page before the book aside. “You’re up early.”

“I know.” You hummed, finding a place beside him on the couch and giving him a good morning kiss on the cheek.

You find him smiling at the action, ruffling your hair and pulling you closer by the waist. “Are you up for any particular reason? Miss me?”

“Mmh, sure.” You grab his coffee perched on the table and take a sip. “Ew.”

He laughs. “What do you mean ‘ew’? Baby, that’s always how I’ve made my coffee.”

“I know, I know,” you rolled your eyes. “I thought that was gonna be the new three-in-one packet we got.”

“I don’t like three-in-one,” he hums. “Or at least I’m not in the mood for it.”

“Guess I’ll have to brew a cup for myself. I really wanna try it out.”

“Can I have a sip?” He asked, leaning into your shoulder.

“No.” You half-jokingly replied, snaking your hand up his hair to ruffle it.

“Come on.”

“Let’s see.”

And so that’s how Saturdays would go for you two. Jason would usually start his day at 7, 6, and sometimes even 5 AM, depending on how hectic his workload was. He’d freshen up, brew some coffee, and then usually get to his work.

If he did work, he always took a short breather between 10 to 11, usually spending the time to read. If he didn’t, he’d spend the morning cleaning the apartment or making breakfast.

You find yourself stirring awake. What time is it? It feels too early to be up right now.

You check the time on your phone. 10:42. Never mind.

You stretched out, basking in the sun that escapes through the fabric and small gaps of the translucent curtains. You blink a few times before deciding it's time to get up and freshen up. Grabbing a change of clothes, you head to your bathroom.

As you continued your morning routine, you could hear music ringing softly throughout the apartment. Along with that, you hear Jason singing along to it. With that, you open the door a little wider while you brush your teeth.

Before you can even process that your feet are carrying you outside the bathroom, Jason’s already greeting your presence in the dining area. “Good morning,” You wave in return. “You want anything for breakfast?”

You shake your head in reply and find your place beside him by the table, reading a book. You lean your head on his shoulder, trying to follow whatever he’s reading. The fast reader he is, he flips the page before you can even get a full sentence in.

In the corner of his eye, he can still see how drowsy you were. He checks in. “Are you okay?”

“Mhm,” you hummed. “Still a little sleepy.”

“You know, you can still go to bed if you want. I’m not sure why you’re up earlier than usual.” He pouted, craning his head to look at you. “You’re not pushing yourself for whatever reason, right?”

“No, I just…woke up,” you reply dryly. “Like I woke up and thought, ‘might as well,’ you know?”

“Okay, okay,” he smiled, placing a kiss on your forehead. “You want a coffee?”

“Mmm, sure.”

“Alright,” he nods, kissing your forehead before getting up to heat up some water. “The three-in-one?”

“Yes, please.”

Maybe it's your way of saying that you miss him. Between the night patrols and days-to-months-long missions that he goes on, you find yourself waking up a little earlier. 11 AM turns into 10 AM turns into even 9 and 8 AM on the weekends.

It’s 7:51 AM. Last night may have been hectic, but you got some sleep in. A few weeks ago, you would’ve slept in and woke up at 1 PM, but god doesn’t grant you enough time to hit your napping time and spending-time-with-Jason quotas. You have to sacrifice one, and your body knows which one you’re choosing.

“Morning, babe,” Jason greets from the kitchen, cooking up a breakfast for the two of you.

He doesn’t tease you any more about waking up so early. In fact, he doesn’t even push you to go back to bed anymore. He knows it only really makes you feel bad for getting some sleep. He’s more than picked up these changes in the morning and accommodates you to his schedule with ease. 

You feel more than love. You feel his affection wholeheartedly. It’s almost overwhelming, but you figure you’re never getting enough of it anyway.

“Hello…” You mumble from behind him, sliding your hands up his chest. You smell the spicy scent of seasoning from his cooking. ”Missed you.”

“Missed you too.” He smiles, pulling you to his side. 

You stand in silence for a bit, too sleepy to continue the conversation sensibly and letting only the sound of the searing pan fill the room.

Yet you start. “Are you doing anything or going anywhere today?”

“No, not really,” he answers. “Why? You wanna do something?”

“No, not really,” you copy his tone, not really implying any sort of mocking. “I just wanna spend time with you.”

He laughs a little. “Clingy.”

“Thanks,” you roll your eyes. “Do you need help with anything?”

“Hmm,” he pauses for a split second to think. “Set the table for me, won’t ya? I’m almost done.”

“Alright.”

Warmth is the first thing you feel. A great, weighted warmth encasing you in your sleep. It wasn’t too early, as you felt the bright rays of the sun shine down and pierce through your closed eyes. Clearly, Jason should be more than awake by now.

Eyes closed, you whisper to the big bear of a man holding on to you for dear life. “Mmh, what time is it?”

Nothing from him in return. You lay a few kisses on his arm, hoping to wake him up, even a little.

“Love?” You hummed, reaching out for your phone to check the time. Your phone’s brightness blinds you, but as long as you can sleep in peace after this, you’re fine. “It’s 7:32. Shouldn’t you be up by now?”

You hear him mumble a few things, mostly incoherent, but you can at least make out his little, “Mmh, five more minutes.”

[un-love]

— afternoon | kmg

mingyu x f!reader

a/n: i wrote this last august and forgot about it. self indulgent asf bc my period is a horror story 💢

“good game, guys. i’m gonna log out now.” putting his headphones aside, mingyu was greeted by complete silence in the house. it had been an hour since he left the bedroom to let you sleep in peace. the week of your period was always a hard time for you. hard is an understatement, really. he couldn't physically understand how you felt but the first time he saw you cry out in pain and struggle to walk yourself to the kitchen, he had decided to be there for you without you ever having to ask for his help; that’s the least he could do after all. the little widgets on his phone notify him of the approaching doom every month without fail, and one might even say he’s as prepared as you now (maybe more).

as he approaches the living room, his ears perk up. he opens the door carefully, and catches you wincing as you try to sit up. you look even worse than how he left you, somehow. sunken eyes and disheveled hair, there really wasn’t any way to romanticize this pain. “why didn’t you call me?”, he whispers and immediately springs into the practiced routine he’s got down. you're too far gone to protest as he props up your pillows, gets you a reheated hot water bottle and orders you to open your mouth as he makes you take your prescribed pain meds. regaining some consciousness after feeling the burn of the hot bag on your skin, you can’t help but smile at the concerned expression on his face as he assesses you. the way his brows furrow and a little pout appears on his soft lips soothes some of the ache in your body.

“what are you smiling at?”, he asks. “you’re just so cute like this. worrying about me and all.” the look he gives you is one of fondness. it’s somewhat relieving for your boyfriend to see you talk like this, despite the state you’re in. he could tell how disoriented you were by the way you hadn’t met his eyes the whole day. “who said i’m worried?”, he says cheekily, before disappearing into the kitchen again.

“i don’t feel good; i think i’m going to throw up”, you call out from your new resting place on the couch, chewing on scraps from the kitchen for lunch. mingyu had asked you to move to the couch (read: carried you) so he could change the sheets and clean up the room a little. it still felt embarrassing to have him take care of you like this, but his kind eyes and kinder hands made you go along with whatever he said.

thinking back, you had tried to avoid seeing him the first few months after you started dating, for this very reason. he knew you were having a hard time with your diagnosis, so he never wanted to push you too much; until the day you had woken up in a pool of blood with him next to you on your bed. you had sobbed endlessly (from frustration, pain, embarrassment) before threatening to poke his eye out with a butter knife if he ever made fun of you for this. this was all very bizarre to your new boyfriend, who grew progressively more concerned for you after that. had someone made you feel bad for something like this before?

a head pokes around the door with a determined expression you could read extremely well. another wave of nausea rocked over your body. “don’t come close to me, kim mingyu. i haven’t showered since yesterday. i stink.” “but you don't know what i’m going to s—” he tries to go on but you cut him off. “the sound of the air conditioner is making my skin crawl.” “but-” “the fabric of my tshirt is touching my skin in the worst ways and the birds won’t stop fucking chirping outside the window and you- you’re here seeing me like this. i want to dig a life sized hole and bury myself in it right now. just go away, please.”

he’s careful when he comes closer to you and stops right before sitting on the couch. “baby, i promise you, nothing about you can disgust me. unless you do something unforgivable like putting milk first in my cereal bowl”, he says, and you finally look at him. success. “and i’ll leave you alone, if that’s what you want. but can i get you something else for the pain or a hot drink first?”

how could you say no to him when he looked at you like that? with those big brown eyes, trying his best to read your face. freshly washed bangs falling into his eyes, and his pretty hand outstretched towards you. your eyes get distracted by his tongue coming out to wet his bottom lip, a nervous habit of his you found adorable. in the split second between his question and your response, you imagined pulling him by the shirt and kissing him breathless. swatting away the (welcome) visual in your head, you let yourself fall against the soft cushions, the fight leaving your body. it's time you let somebody love you.

fin.

[janeyseymour]

Personal and Professional- pt 3

Part 1. Part 2.

An anon asked for this! There's a backyard barbecue being held, and you're a bit hesitant because no one has seen you as the alternative woman that you are outside of school. They also don't know about you and Melissa.

WC: ~2.3k

Janine is organizing a backyard barbecue at Barbara’s house for the Abbott crew- and you are less than thrilled to be excited. It’s not that you don’t like your work crew, because that isn’t true; you’re dating one of them. It’s that you really would rather not have everyone commenting on your body and your… tasteful markings.

“C’mon, hun,” Melissa says softly as she lays with you that night. “I think it’ll be fun to let our hair down.”

“I really would rather not,” you sigh. “No one knows about my tattoos, and no one knows about us.”

“The tattoos aren’t a big deal- I think they’ll like to see that you aren’t as buttoned up as you like to play. And they don’t have to find out about us,” she smirks. “I can keep my eyes and my hands to myself when I want to- just like I do at school.”

“You came into my room today and ate me out during prep because you were too horny to focus on grading your kids’ last assignments,” you tell her.

“It takes two to tango,” she shrugs. “It was good though, wasn’t it?”

You push her off of you. “Shut up.”

“All I’m saying is, I can control myself if that’s what you’re worried about for this barbecue,” your girlfriend tells you.

So begrudgingly, you find yourself at this barbecue for the fourth of July. The redhead and you drive separately so as not to give anything away, and you arrive there far too quickly. When you pull up to the kindergarten teacher’s house, you’re impressed. You can smell the food cooking, you hear the music playing from the backyard, and you can hear your boisterous girlfriend already laughing it up with her work wife. You head into the fenced area after taking a deep breath.

“About damn time!” Melissa teases you as she winks from the pool. “I was starting to think you weren’t gonna show!”

She’s saying this to you playfully, but she really was worried you weren’t going to pull up to the party, especially since you’re arriving an hour later than her.

“I’m here, I’m here,” you chuckle nervously as you wrap your thin cardigan around your body subconsciously.

“Well what are you waiting for?” the redhead heckles you. “Grab a drink, and come on in!”

You know she absolutely loves to see you in your bathing suit, and she’s going to drool when she sees the tattoos that dance around your hips and ribcage. She won’t be able to contain herself.

“I’m actually good right now,” you chuckle. “But I’ll grab a drink. Mel, you want anything?”

“Just another beer,” she tells you.

Everyone else looks at you like you’re crazy for only asking the redhead. “Uh… anyone else?”

And that’s how you essentially become beer girl for the day. Finally, Barb has had enough.

“For the love of all things holy, Y/N,” she throws her arms in the air. “Let loose a little and show some skin! You have to dying in all those clothes!”

“I’m really okay,” you say softly as you wipe a bit of sweat from your brow.

“Sweetheart, if this is about body insecurities,” the kindergarten teacher tells you, although her words are a bit slurred at this point. “No one is going to care what you look like in a swimsuit.”

“I bet yo’ tasty ass looks a lot better in a bikini than it does in all your buttoned up outfits that match Barbara’s energy,” Ava comments.

“I’m not always buttoned up,” you roll your eyes. “I just like to maintain some sense of professionalism when I’m with coworkers.”

“You think we give a shit about professionalism?” your boss smirks. “I go out clubbin’ every weekend and see half the Abbott parents out too. Janine and Greg were out at a hookah bar and were grinding up on each other. I’ve seen Barb and Melissa get absolutely hammered at PECSA!”

“And I am known to have a few too many aperol spritzes from time to time!” Jacob cuts in.

“Come on, baby boo, show us what youse made of!” Ava goads you.

You take a deep breath before opening your eyes again. “You really wanna see what I look like outside of school?”

Melissa’s eyes widen and her brows creep up her face. You don’t shed any clothing, not yet- but you do open your bag and pull out your different jewelry. You expertly take out the clear stud in your nose to exchange it for a hoop. Your earrings are all put in. Even though it’s just a small change, you look like an entirely different person to them- all except Melissa, who loves seeing you like this. She licks her lips subconsciously.

“Damn!” Ava grins. “We got ourselves a hot little alt girl!”

You roll your eyes at that comment. “Give me a few minutes to go change, and I’ll come in the pool.”

The hostess gives you directions as to where the bathroom is, and you thank her before heading inside to change. You do before throwing your big ripped up band t-shirt overtop of your figure. If you’re going to stun them all, you might as well go all out. You tie your hair up into one of your messier buns before making sure that your ‘slut strands’ (because that’s apparently what the baby hairs that don’t make it into the bun are called) look as though they’re supposed to be there before heading back outside.

Your secret girlfriend’s eyes go wide as you make your way into the fenced in area. You swear you see the smallest droplet of drool escape her mouth as her eyes stay trained on you. 

“Happy?” you ask your work friends.

“We’d be happier if you took off the hot t-shirt,” the principal smirks as she sips her seltzer. 

With a roll of your eyes, you peel off the shirt, revealing all of the tattoos that you have.

“You have tattoos?” Janine is mesmerized.

You shrug as you slowly start to make your way into the pool. “Young Y/N mistakes.”

“They look amazing though! I’ve always wanted a tattoo, but I’m too scared that it’ll hurt or get infected or that I’ll-”

“You just have to find something that means something to you and brace yourself. And then it’s just simple aftercare. Not too bad at all.”

“Are we really gonna ignore the fact that our good little teacher is secretly an alternative hottie with a body?” Ava gestures to you wildly. “Like, damn girl. I knew you were fit, but I didn’t know you was gonna look like-”

“Enough,” you cut her off as you grab a float and situate yourself on it. You push yourself so that you’re close to Melissa, and she hangs off of your raft. “I don’t need my boss objectifying me.”

But she doesn’t get the hint- she never really does. And you can see the way that your girlfriend is getting more and more aggravated. Silently, you nudge her with your foot and shoot her a look, telling her to cool it.

You spend the afternoon in the pool before it’s time to start cooking some more food. Gerald comes out to take everyone’s orders, but you absolutely insist on helping to cook with him. It only seems right since they’re hosting, and you quite like to barbecue.

So you climb out of the pool. You can practically feel Ava’s eyes on you as your sun kissed skin glows. You wrap your towel around your body, and she’s immediately booing.

“Show that body, girl!” she tells you.

“I’m going to be grilling,” you roll your eyes. “I ain’t trying to barbecue myself.”

When you’ve deemed that you’re dry enough thanks to the sun still out and your closeness to the grill, you unwrap yourself from the towel. Ava cheers. Why is she always around? Her applause quickly dies though when you reach for your t-shirt and pull it over your head.

You continue to help Barbara’s husband, making small talk with him, when he asks you something that entirely throws you for a loop.

“So, you and Melissa?”

You look at him as though he has four heads. “What about it?”

“The two of you together or what?”

“What are you talking about?” you feign shock.

“I see the way she stares at you,” he shrugs. “And not the way that Ava is… there’s something there, even if you don’t know it yet.”

“I think you’re crazy,” you lie through your teeth.

“Barb thinks there’s something there too,” he tuts. “And that was before you revealed yourself to be little miss alt girl. Funnily enough, that’s exactly Melissa’s type.”

You roll your eyes. “We’re coworkers.”

“That ain’t stopping your boss from flirting with you,” he chuckles. “All I’m sayin is-”

“Is the food almost ready yet?” Melissa calls from her place in the pool. “And will you grab me another beer, hun?”

You don’t make a move, and Gerald laughs. “She ain’t callin’ me ‘hun’. That one’s all you.”

“Almost,” you call back. “And you just want another Yuengling?”

“Please!”

You grab the beverage, opening it up for her before making your way back towards the pool. She’s in the middle though, so you peel your shirt off again and make your way in to deliver it her.

“Body-ody-ody-ody-” the principal starts dancing, making quite a few splashes in the water.

“Ava!” Barbara tuts.

You roll your eyes as you climb back out of the pool and make your way back over to the grill, not wanting to hear how your boss will respond to being scolded. 

Dinner is wonderful, it’s cleaned up, and then you find yourself back in the pool as the sun starts to go down and the moon starts to rise. Gerald comes out to light up the tikis that they have around the outside, and he waves.

“Alrighty, I’m heading in for the night, but it was wonderful to see you all again.”

“Thank you, dear,” Barbara blows him a kiss.

That leaves you and the rest of the Abbott crew to spend some time in the moonlight together. Somehow, the conversation leads to you and the less professional side that you’ve now shown them.

“So, when did you get your first tattoo?” Janine asks you.

“Three days after I turned eighteen,” you laugh as you float alongside your girlfriend. “Got my nose pierced the first weekend I went to college. My mom was so pissed.”

“Why?” Barbara of all people asks. “It’s an expression.”

“She hates them,” you roll your eyes. “Told me if I got tattoos and a nose ring, she’d kick me out of the house… she never did.”

Melissa chuckles. “Sounds like-”

“Sounds like what, Melissa?” Barb cuts her off with a raised eyebrow.

“Sounds like our generation,” your girlfriend states quickly. She’s thankful it’s dim, or everyone would’ve seen the panicked look on her face.

“Who carees?” Ava asks. “It’s fuckin’ hot. If I had known that you were hiding all of that under your stuffy attire, damn… I would’ve been hitting on you way more.”

“Which is why I wear what I wear at school,” you deadpan.

“I mean, really… my boyfriend and I would love to-”

“Enough,” your girlfriend practically hisses.

The entire crew looks to the redhead. “What’s got your panties in such a twist?”

“Just shut up. Stop talking about her like that,” Melissa tells your group. “Or else.”

“Or else what, Melissa?” Ava presses. 

“Or else you’re gonna have to deal with Y/N’s girlfriend,” the redhead snaps. “Who just so happens to be me.”

You press your lips together in a fine line as you look anywhere but where your friends are floating around the pool.

They all immediately start questioning both you and the second grade teacher.

“What do you mean she’s your girlfriend?” a chorus of voices ask.

Only Barbara smirks. “I knew it.”

Melissa looks to you as she pulls you and your float in tight. “That’s right. Y/N is my girl, and y’all better stop ogling her before I throw youse in with the wolves at the zoo.”

“Mel,” you roll your eyes at her threat.

“I’m serious!” she hisses as she points a finger at Ava. “I know a guy who can make it happen, and I won’t hesitate to use him if you don’t stop drooling over my girl!”

“Since when has this been a thing?” Jacob asks. “If I had known you swung that way, Mel Mel… we would’ve been at Woody’s this whole time!”

“And that is why no one knew,” she rolls her eyes. “I’m past my days at Woody’s.”

“Well what about you, Y/N?” the middle school teacher asks. “You and me? Woody’s?”

“In your dreams, Hill,” you tease. “Maybe a more low key gay bar though.”

“So, when did this come about?” Barbara asks, quite interested. “I’ve been telling Melissa to go after you since you sauntered your way in- and that was before I knew you were a little alt girl- exactly her type.”

“Caught her at the grocery store one day,” Melissa shrugs. “We went out the next Monday… been together since.”

“It’s been, what? Four months?”

“Four months, two weeks, six days,” the redhead says casually. “And enjoying every moment of it.”

“Good on you,” Barbara cheers as she holds her drink in the air.

“So stop all your flirting with my girl, or there will be hell to pay, and I’ll make it look like it was an accident,” Melissa pointedly tells the group.

Ava puts her hands in the air in surrender before pursing her lips together. “What if both of you-”

“Ava!”

[lilgarbitch]

Running in Circles- Four

Pairing: Noah Sebastian x Reader

CW: Slight dom!Noah, oral (f receiving), a surprise piercing, unprotected p in v (don’t be them), angst (like i might piss you off with this one😘)

Word Count: 13.5k

Author’s Note: Don’t hate the player (me), hate the game (my mind coming up with all of this)  Also, sorry not sorry but I did add so much more to this than I was planning to. I’m a yapper and the word count just kept going up and up and I didn’t want to be done yet.

Reader discretion is advised. 18+

Part Three

Y/N

I threw on the random hoodie I brought and my slippers and took a quick look at myself. Ugh. I had no make-up on, my hair looked insane in the bun I put it in, and it looks like I’m not even wearing pants. I took my hair out of the bun and shook it out, parting it so it didn’t look bad, and hoped it would curly nicely and not look unruly over time. I mean, everyone was bound to see me without makeup at some point, so I might as well get it over with now, right? Plus, if any conversation goes south- actually, never mind, I hope I don’t cry in front of him. He’s allowed to see me without make-up, but I almost never cry in front of someone. 

With one last sigh, I grab my keycard and phone and head out the door. After a quick elevator ride, I end up in front of his door. I knock on it softly, not wanting to bother anyone else in the hallway. I hear movement behind the door before it finally opens to a bare-chested Noah. I do my best not to gawk and keep my eyes on his face and smile. He looks a little shocked, but it’s instantly replaced with a grin. 

“Hi,” I say.

“Hi.. uh. Come in,” he walks away from the door into the room, and I follow him, closing the door behind me. I kick my slippers off and set my phone and keycard down on the TV stand before turning to him, seeing him sitting on a bed. I sit down a few feet from him, look up at him, and do my best to give him a confident smile. 

“Sorry, I look a little crazy. I got ready for bed but couldn’t sleep, so I’m not necessarily the most appealing right now.” I laugh out, looking down at myself before looking back at him. He smiles and shakes his head. 

“No. You look good. It’s nice seeing you like this. And I’m glad you’re comfortable. You had a long day.” I blushed, sadly not having anything to hide it this time, making him chuckle softly. “And it’s nice being able to see that, too.”

I shake my head at his comment with a laugh. 

“So..what did you want to talk about..?” He eyed me, slightly nervous. I scrunched my face and looked down, debating whether I wanted to outright say it or not. But after spilling my guts to the boys, I definitely have a little more confidence left in me to be able to. 

“So..this is gonna be crazy to hear, especially out of nowhere..” he looks at me intently, so I continue, “You know how we talked about that festival..?” He raised his eyebrows at this, confusing me a little, before nodding.

“Okay, so…well.. I actually don’t know how to explain this without you thinking I’m a complete freak.” I laugh. 

“Just say it. I might know where you’re going with this.” he rushes out. I give him a suspicious look but continue.

“So..at that festival, something really weird happened. Like, ’I can’t even explain’ weird..” I trailed off, but his attention stayed locked on me like he knew what I was going to say.

“I just remember seeing you..and it was like...I got lost? I don’t know. It was the first time I ever even heard of you guys. Tommy made me join him because he had been listening for a while. And the second you walked out on stage..something came over me. God, I honestly don’t know why I’m even telling you this..maybe because I feel like I need to give an explanation as to why I’ve been acting so weird?” I was now looking down at my hands, fiddling with my nails.

“Go on,” he said more seriously this time, making me more nervous. I chewed on my lip, trying to force myself to open up more.

“I don’t know...I just..got locked in some type of trance? As weird as that sounds. It was the craziest thing that had ever happened to me. Something just shut off my brain the instant my eyes landed on you. I definitely looked like a freak, just standing there, unable to move. I..don’t know why it happened. I don't even know what happened. It was honestly kind of scary.” I continued, shaking my head with slight frustration. I was about to say more, but he cut me off.

“Imagine how it felt being on stage as it happened.” I heard him say, barely above a whisper, making my head snap up. 

“What?” I watch as he rubs a hand over his face and groans, falling back onto the bed.

“Imagine that exact thing happened, but you’re the one performing. You’re just singing and trying to connect with the crowd, and all of a sudden, a magnet pulls you into a pair of eyes, locking you in. And you’re unable to pull away. Thousands of people watching as you lose all control of your mind and body.” he says, and I couldn’t tell if he was irritated or relieved by his tone, but I didn’t care because I just stared at him in complete and utter disbelief. 

“So you’re saying..” He lets out an airy huff of a laugh before answering.

“Yes, Y/N. Somehow, who knows if… it was the gods above? Or the universe itself? Something gave us the exact same experience. And oh my fucking god, am I relieved to hear that. “ He finally looks over at me as I stare down at him, still shocked. 

“Then would you judge me if I said that you have plagued my every waking thought since that day..?” I ask, slightly embarrassed but also trying to get more information. He sits up to rest on his elbow and face me, staring deep into my eyes as if to see if I was telling the truth. It was almost like we were having a deep conversation about a crazy interest we just discovered that we had in common. Intrigued, yet incredibly shocked.

“How can I judge when the exact same thing has happened to me? Is happening to me. God, Y/N, I can’t even sleep at night without thinking of that day. I don’t know if it’s me dwelling on the insane feeling I got or what, but you haunt my fucking dreams.” He confessed.

“Fucking tell me about it! At least you don’t see my face plastered on magazines and online almost every day. “

“Yeah, but at least you knew who I was for those first few years. You were just some girl in the crowd. The day I found you and your band, I thought I officially lost it and started hallucinating." He fell back onto the bed after speaking, and I did the same. I just stared up at the ceiling, thinking about everything. I couldn’t even think straight. The same thing happened to him? Was it actually affecting him as badly as it affected me? 

“I think you’re why I passed out earlier,” I softly confessed after about a minute. I heard shuffling and turn to see him flipped over, now closer to me with a concerned look, so I continued, “ I don’t know what happened. You complimented me, and I don’t know if it was the fact that we almost… kissed earlier, the rush of all the memories coming back, everything I did on stage, or all of the above. I just got so in my head that I just fucking passed out.” I finished, chuckling a little at myself at the end. He dipped his head so his forehead touched the mattress as he laughed with me. 

“What the fuck is happening?” he said, muffled into the mattress. 

“I don’t know, man, but I fucking passed out because of it,” I responded, making both of us laugh harder. I watched him as his head was dipped, making his shoulders even more pronounced as they moved with his laughing. I let out a loud groan and dropped both hands onto my face. 

“Dude, I’ve written songs about you,” I whine out, slightly muffled by my hands. He continued to laugh. I was just confessing everything now, wasn’t I?

“I got yelled at by the guys because I tried making a whole album about you.” That brought back my laughter. But only for a few seconds before I dropped my hands in realization. 

“Noah..which songs are about me?” I ask, possibly a little too sternly. His laughter died down, but a half smile still stayed. 

“Uhh…” he trails off with a sheepish grin, not wanting to answer. I roll to my side to lay against my elbow, using my other hand to reach out and grab his hand with a gritted smile.

“Noah. Which. Songs.” I try to force out of him. He looks down at the grip I had on his hand and chuckles. 

“At this point, you should ask which songs aren’t about you.” he tries not to answer fully. I roll my eyes before staring back at him.

“Goddess is about you. Tommy made me change it because he thought it was good but was concerned about me saying all those things about a guy.” I confess, waiting to see his reaction. He looks up at me in shock before dropping his head back down and letting out a groan, louder this time, with his face pressed against both of our hands.

“You little shit.” He growls into the mattress, a little too serious. 

“What..?” Was that a bad thing to tell him? Suddenly, he looks back up at me with a mischievous, almost evil look in his eye, making mine widen. 

“You sly little thing,” he says through a gritted, evil smile as he sat up, his hand now grabbing the one I put on his, as he moved to tower over me, grabbing my other hand and raising them above my head. I looked up at him, shocked.

“Do you understand what you did to me yesterday? When you stared me down as you sang those lyrics so beautifully? God, you’re like a fucking siren, Y/N.” He stared down at me with dark eyes, and I stared back at him, stunned. 

“I’m sorry..?” I squeak out. He shocked me with the sudden movement and change of tone, but I was a little too stuck on how fucking good he looked towering over me. His head drops with a hiss as I answer, I guess it having some effect on him. I took that moment to stare at his chest, which was now right in front of my eyes. The intricate tattoos scattered across it, covering it entirely. I wanted to touch them. God, I wanted to touch him. 

“You don’t understand how badly I want to make you beg for forgiveness right now.” He finally looked back up at me, his eyes now absolutely shot with how pitch black they were. I stare deep into them, feeling heat travel through my body, hitting me right in my core. I opened my mouth to speak, but no words would come out.

He drops down and lets his head fall in the crook of my neck, forehead resting against me. I bite back a gasp, feeling him so close to me for the first time. My stomach tightens as my head is running with thoughts I couldn’t take control of. His scent infiltrates my nostrils as he lays against me, reminding me what was actually happening. This wasn’t another dream.  I hold my breath to fight the groan wanting to escape my throat.

“You knew exactly what you were doing when you eye-fucked me as you sang those words. Fuck, I wanted to pull you off that stage so bad, you don’t even understand. I couldn’t even watch you perform it today, knowing how little control over myself I have when you’re there.” He spoke into my neck, then lifted his head to stare deep into my eyes, “And then you show up at my door, wearing my hoodie?” he practically growls. I glance down at the hoodie I threw on earlier, seeing that it was, in fact, his, before looking back up at him with my mouth gaped. 

One of his hands lowered to my head, sliding behind as he gripped the side of it, my ear sitting flush between his thumb and forefinger, forcing me to hold his gaze. The other large hand held both my wrists above me with such ease, and I was both terrified and incredibly turned on by how much power he had over me. And he could absolutely sense the effect he had on me.

“You have no fucking clue how badly I’ve wanted to do this since I first saw you,” he spoke in a hushed growl before finally bringing his lips to mine. I was shocked at first, but instantly melted into him. There was a mix of hunger, passion, and outright lust in the kiss. As cliche as it was, electricity shot through my body, and I think I saw sparks behind my eyelids. My hands strained against his, desperately wanting to touch him. He finally let them go after a weak whimper slipped out of my mouth and into his. They immediately attached to him, one slipping around the back of his head, holding him closer as it gripped the hair at the nape of his neck. The other moved to his chest, finally feeling a bit of relief as I touched his bare skin. He felt hot to the touch and incredibly toned as my hand traveled across every inch of skin I could reach. 

It landed at his side, and I subconsciously pulled him closer, causing his hips to fall into mine. We both let out a groan as I felt him growing against my core. He pulled away from the kiss, panting as his hands flew to the bottom of my- his hoodie, and he looked down at me with a pleading look. I nodded, and within an instant, both the hoodie and shirt were pulled over my head and thrown across the room. His breath hitched as he stared down at my now bare chest, trailing over every inch of my skin. 

“You are a fucking work of art,” he gushed, his hands now traveling across my skin. My hair was now splayed above my head, so every tattoo from my neck to my waist was on display. His hand reached up and gently trailed over my neck piece before traveling down to my chest, his eyes taking in every single detail. His fingers grazed down my sternum and onto my stomach, shaping out each line of ink scattered across my skin. Once he reached my lower stomach, the touch became too much as my hips bucked against his, causing a low growl to erupt from deep in his chest. 

In one quick motion, he lowered himself back down and smashed his lips back into mine. Slowly, he started trailing wet kisses over my cheek, across my jaw, and then down my neck. I tilted my head, giving him more access. He reached my pulse and bit down softly, making my back arch as a whine escaped my lips. I felt every inch of my body start to heat up against his touch.  He began grinding his hips against mine as he nipped and kissed across my neck, leaving marks I’ll definitely have to cover tomorrow. My hand on his neck gripped harder and I let out a loud whimper, overwhelmed with the feeling. It felt so good, but was both too much and not enough at the same time. 

“Noah..” I begged. He instantly bit down harshly in the crook of my neck as I spoke, I guess as a reaction to hearing his name. A gasp escaped my lips at his actions.

“Yes, sweetheart?” he growled, causing an ache in my core. He laid soft kisses against the bite mark, almost as an apology.

“Please..” I softly whined. He slowly started trailing kisses further down my body, leaving an occasional mark. Once he stopped at my breasts, his mouth hovered over the hardening bud, causing me to shiver at the feeling of his breath hitting it. A hand traveled up and rested on my jaw as he looked up at me.

“Use your words, Darling.” He took the bud into his mouth, flicking his tongue against it. My breath hitched as his hand slid down and took the other into his grasp, his thumb gliding delicately over my nipple.

“Noah… please. I need something. I need more.” I spoke, barely above a whisper. Keeping a playful gaze with me, he raised his lower body ever so slightly and moved the hand on my chest down until it reached the waistband of my shorts, hooking a finger under them. His teeth grazed against the sensitive nub for a moment before biting down, causing my back to arch and hips to press against his again. He took that opportunity to slide my shorts down as far as he could, leaving me just in my underwear. 

He pulled his head from my chest with a soft ‘pop’ before grazing his lips down my stomach, leaving kisses every few inches. He slid himself down the bed until he was now standing at the edge, leaning over me, softly placing kisses along the waistband of my underwear. I was a whimpering mess as his lips slowly trailed lower and lower until he was leaving sloppy, wet kisses against the insides of my thighs. His hands held a strong grip on my hips before hooking a finger into my underwear, about to pull them down. But then I sat up onto my elbows, remembering something.

“Wait!” I rushed out, causing him to look up at me, worried like he had done something wrong. He went to stand up, but I held my hand out to stop him.

“No, it’s just… I don’t want it to.. surprise you.” He looked at me confused for a few moments, ready to ask me to explain, but realization washed over him. His eyes darkened even more, if it was even possible. He stared into my eyes as his hand traveled between my legs, a finger grazing my slit through the fabric, making my breath pick up. He let out a groan, feeling the metal brush against his finger. He applied more pressure, causing my head to fall back with a whine. In the blink of an eye, his hands ripped my panties down my legs, making me gasp at the sudden cold. I watched as he trailed his eyes down between my legs, licking his bottom lip and then biting back an even louder groan. 

“You’re gonna be the fucking death of me,” he said before kneeling down on the floor, roughly pulling me towards him. His hands now grasped against my thighs, rough enough to leave a bruise, as he took one and rested it over his shoulder. I watched through half-lidded eyes as he got closer, staring at me like I was a dessert he was dying to taste. I felt his breath against my heat before he started leaving soft kisses over my mound, getting closer and closer to where I desperately needed him to be. He took one look at me before licking a stride through my slit, causing my breath to completely leave my body. He groaned as his tongue grazed over the piercing, sending a shock through my body. 

“F-fuck,” was all I could get out before he attacked the bundle of nerves. He didn’t ease into it for a second, instantly flicking his tongue over my clit, applying a beautiful amount of pressure that caused a loud moan to escape my lips. One of my hands slapped against my mouth, trying to silence the noises, not knowing who could possibly hear us. His hands gripped even harder as he absolutely devoured me. He licked long strides up and down before paying close attention to my clit, licking and sucking on it, leaving me a whimpering mess. He groaned into me as his tongue played with the piercing right above my clit, causing me to arch my back and bite back the loudest moan. My other hand reached out, gripping the bedsheet, needing something to hold onto. I feel a hand lace in with mine and look down to see that he was now holding onto it as he stared up at me from between my legs. The sight was like none other. I see his other hand slowly trail down from my thigh. He lifts his head and looks up at me, mouth glistening as I feel his finger slowly rub up and down, collecting my slick. 

“I wanna hear you,” he growls before sliding a finger into me. I gasp at the sudden feeling and squeeze his hand tight. I move the hand from my mouth and hold it above my head, gripping at anything above me as the pleasure courses through my body, and I let out a loud moan. He pumps the finger into me, slowly picking up speed, before adding another and hooking them up into that spot with ease. My eyes rolled back, and I couldn’t control a single noise that left my body. His lips attach themselves to me again and I could instantly feel my stomach tighten. After a few moments, feeling the cord inside me tighten as it was ready to snap, he stops. I let out a loud whimper at the empty feeling once he removes his fingers and unhooks my leg from his shoulder. I look down to see him stand up and pull down his pants and boxers just enough that his cock has room to spring up. I bite my lip to hold back my gasp at the size. 

“I can’t go another second without feeling you,” he groans out, crawling over me, hooking my legs around his waist as he leaned down. His hand comes up and settles back to where it was before, holding the side of my head. He leans down and kisses me, hungrier than before. I feel him brush against my opening, and it makes me gasp, which he uses to his advantage and deepens the kiss. I taste a mix of mint and me on his tongue as my hands wrap around him and hold him close.

He reaches a hand down between our bodies to line himself up with me, never stopping the kiss for a second. I feel him slowly ease himself into me, and my eyebrows furrow at the stretch. The thumb of the hand that held my head softly rubbed against my cheek, trying to soothe me. Inch by inch, he slips deeper and deeper. My brain battled between the pain of the stretch and the pleasure of the fullness until he bottomed out. He pulled away from the kiss and dug his head into the crook of my neck, not moving so we both could adjust to the feeling. 

“You okay?” he asked softly as he left kisses over the love bites he left earlier. I waited a few moments until the pain finally dulled before nodding. And with that, he started moving his hips. Slowly at first, but soon picked up a delicious pace that had me squirming in his grasp. He dragged in and out of me so beautifully that we were both whining messes. The noises he made in my ear could’ve sent me over the edge alone. He lifted himself so he could look into my eyes as he continued pumping into me.

“Fuck. You feel so fucking good,” He moaned out, sending waves of pleasure through me. I had no control over myself, moaning and whining every time the head of his cock hit against the spot perfectly, pushing me closer and closer to the edge. Tears brimmed my eyes as the pleasure almost became too much. 

He slowed down his movements ever so slightly just to change pace and start ramming into me. His hips would pause for a second, then slam into mine, shooting electricity through my nerves every single thrust. My eyes began to roll back at the feeling, but his grip on my head tightened as he lifted slightly, forcing me to look into his eyes.

“Eyes on me, angel.” he sternly spoke, his tone sending an ache right to my core. I felt like putty in his hands. I kept my eyes on him the best I could, my eyebrows burrowing slightly as he repetitively hit the spot that was sending me closer and closer to the edge. My eyes kept fighting to roll back, but the last thing my brain wanted me to do was disobey his orders. Soon, the pleasure became too much. I felt the knot in my stomach get tighter and tighter. 

“You gonna cum, pretty girl?” he whined, almost like I was pathetic. I bit my lip as a loud whine escaped them. Fuck, he knew exactly how to get to me. 

“I can feel you squeezing me.” He sat up more, now hitting me at a new, more mind-blowing angle. He put one hand on my thigh that was wrapped around him, and he rested the other on my stomach, right below the navel, making me gasp at the new feeling. I knew he could feel himself slam against his hand the second he did that, just by the moan he let out. “ Go on, angel…I wanna feel you cum around me.” 

After a few more debilitatingly good thrusts, each hitting right where his hand was, I completely came undone. My back arched, and my eyes squeezed shut as the cord inside me finally snapped. I let out the most unholy sound I had ever heard, and I didn’t care because I felt so fucking good. He kept pumping into me, riding out my high and searching for his. I feel his hips start to shutter, and I look down to see him watching where our bodies met. After a few more thrusts, he pulled out and began pumping himself, releasing over my stomach with a few curses and a loud groan. He looked so fucking good in a state of bliss. The sweat running down his glistening neck as his chest heaved. I was already turned on again just by looking at him. I watched as he tried to catch his breath for a moment until he finally looked back into my eyes. I know I probably looked insane, utterly fucked out, with a grin on my face. He matched my grin before tucking himself back into his pants and turning around to head into the bathroom. He returned a few seconds later with a wet hotel towel and cleaned me off. 

I gave him a small ‘thank you’ before he tossed the towel by the door, which was now the hotel’s problem to deal with. That made me laugh, him joining in as he turned and rustled through his clothes. He grabbed a pair of shorts and changed into them before turning back to me. He began to walk over to me, but groaned as his eyes raked over my body, before rushing and grabbing my clothes, throwing each piece at me as he found them.

“Put those back on before I ruin you,” he growls, making me giggle. I put my shirt and shorts back on, leaving the panties off since they were going to be too uncomfortable to wear again, and the hoodie because who knows what he’s going to do if he sees me in that again. 

“I think you may have already ruined me,” I joke as my legs shake when I try to pull my shorts up. He huffs.

“You just surprised me with a fucking piercing and then proceeded to squirt on me. If anything, you ruined me.” He huffed out as he tossed his, I’m assuming wet, pants next to his suitcase. I looked up at him, shocked. 

“I- what?” I ask, staring at him in disbelief. He looks down at me and bites his lip before rubbing his face and crawling onto the bed, shoving his face into a pillow. 

“Yes, but please change the subject before I get hard again.” he laughs out. 

“I- I’ve never done that before,” I said, mainly to myself, in shock. He looks up at me and smirks. 

“I’ll pat myself on the back for that later, but unless you’re ready to go again, get your ass over here.” He says, beckoning me to lie down next to him on the bed. I laugh and follow his orders. We pull the blankets over us, and he turns off the light. He turns over, gives me a fat, sloppy kiss, and wraps an arm around me.

“It’s nice to know that you like following orders,” he mumbles, making me smack his shoulder and laugh. If only he truly knew what that does for me. I scooch in closer to him, wrapping an arm around him, and try to relax. My body was so tired from today and all of that, but my mind was still racing. I tucked my head into his shoulder, hoping his presence would ease my mind, but thoughts still ran. I barely got to talk to him about anything, but that will be a tomorrow problem. Plus, I am not upset with how our ‘talk’ went at all. Then, a thought popped into my head, making me giggle. 

“So, how’d you like the opal?” I teased. He let out a guttural groan before sitting back up and attacking me once again. I laughed as he dragged me closer to him, attacking my body with kisses. 

“You just don’t know when to stop,” he growled before kissing me, this time a little more sloppy from being tired, but still filled with hunger and passion. At least we’re off tomorrow because I don’t see us getting sleep anytime soon.

I woke up to knocking on the door, causing a soft whine to rumble in my chest as I tried to get up. But something held me down. I slowly open my eyes and turn to my side and see Noah, absolutely knocked out, making me giggle. I managed to lift his arm and slide out without waking him. I felt a chill the second I got out of the covers but realized it was because I was once again naked. I let out a soft snort and quickly tried to find clothes as whoever was at the door knocked again. I found one of Noah’s shirts and my shorts from last night, slipped them on, and walked to the door, opening it. It was Jolly, who was slightly annoyed, but a smirk formed on his lips once his eyes dropped onto me, realizing that I was still here. I stepped away from the door, letting him back into the room.

“Sorry, I just really needed to change because the guys and I are about to head out for breakfast,” he spoke in a soft tone after noticing that Noah was still passed out. He moved towards his belongings, stepping over random scattered clothes, shaking his head as he saw them. 

“You stayed on his side of the room, correct?” he teased, making me give him an embarrassed smile and nod in response. 

“I would leave, but I also feel bad if he woke up and I wasn’t here,” I mentioned after a few awkward moments of standing there as Jolly grabbed a change of clothes and his toothbrush. He glanced over at the large man sprawled out on his bed, blanket just covering the important parts, before looking back at me.

“Is he naked under there?” he asked bluntly, to which I nodded, chewing on my lip like I had been caught, “Then I’m just gonna get ready in the guys’ room. He’s your problem to deal with.” And with that, he patted my shoulder and left again. 

I turn back to Noah and let out a small giggle. He was dead to the world in this moment. We passed out after who knows how long. All I knew was that I needed to shower again. 

I walk over to the TV stand and pick up my phone, seeing I had a few texts from the boys. I rolled my eyes before checking them.

Tominic- I just woke up and you’re still not here👀 

Tominic- Hope you had fun😘

Tominic- AND STAYED SAFE!! NO BABIES ON TOUR!!

I held my hand over my mouth to hold back my laughter. 

Camela Anderson- DON’T BE A FOOL, WRAP YOUR TOOL

Camela Anderson- sorry Tommy stole my phone. BUT WHAT HE SAID!! I SWEAR IF YOU GET PREGNANT I’M GONNA KICK HIS ASS

Camela Anderson- okay but seriously i love you, be safe and ill see you later❤️

I shake my head as I continue to hold back my giggles. Thank god I wasn’t actually related to these fuckers, because they know too much. I see that Tony also left a message, and I fully expected it to be the same thing, but I absolutely lost it when I read his.

Bologna- WOOOOO🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻YOU FINALLY GOT LAID🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

I toss my phone after reading his, snickering as I shook my head and rubbed my face. I love them with my whole heart. They’re the closest thing I have to a family. But oh my god, they’re going to be the reason I go grey. 

I continue to laugh to myself before seeing Noah shift in his sleep. I look over and see him rub his eyes and roll over. He was now covered only by the corner of the blanket, and I didn’t know if I wanted to laugh more or attack him. But the soreness made the decision for me, so I just giggled, causing him to finally open his eyes. He looked around, confused at first, before his eyes landed on me. The second he saw me wearing his shirt with probably the worst bedhead ever, you could see last night's memories flood back into his mind as he let his head fall back onto the pillow with a smirk on his face. 

“Good morning,” I said, still giggling. He just responded with a groan and lifted an arm, signaling me to cuddle. I walked over and laid next to him, and he rolled over and flopped himself onto me, resulting in a small ‘oof’ and a laugh. He dug his head into my shoulder and let out a tired groan, which reminded me that I should check the damage he did. If it’s as bad as I think it is, I’m going to need to go buy more concealer. 

“What time is it?” he groaned out, it being muffled as he spoke into my shoulder. 

“I think close to noon, but the boys are just now heading to breakfast if you wanna join them.” He let out a deep sigh and cuddled into me more. 

“I just wanna stay here for today,” he whined but was almost instantly interrupted by his stomach growling. We haven’t been eating the best the past few days, so I knew a large breakfast would do us both good. I reach my hand up and run my fingers through his hair, him instantly melting into my touch. 

“Come on, let’s go get something to eat,” I said softly. He let out another groan before pushing himself up and off the bed. He stood up and looked at me with a tired look, before switching to a smile. I sat up and smiled back at him, but my eyes immediately traveled down his body as I remembered that he was fully naked. 

“Like what you see?” he tiredly slurred out, causing me to laugh.

“I mean, we were up until probably four A.M. because I enjoyed it, so yes.” I teased, making him laugh. He started walking to the bathroom, not even caring that he had nothing on him. I stood up as he stepped through the door.

“I’m gonna run to my room to shower, okay? I’ll meet you downstairs.” I said from behind him. He looked at me with a pout.

“We could shower together?” which made me laugh.

“If we did that, we’d never make it to breakfast. I’ll see you in 20 minutes.” and with that, I grabbed my things, or at least the things I could find, and headed back to my room. 

Once I walked in, I immediately walked to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I was sticky with sweat and body fluids and needed to feel clean again. As the water warmed up, I took off my shirt...or I guess his shirt, and assessed the damage. Thankfully, if I just wore a t-shirt the next few days, I could cover the rest with some makeup. But then I saw that he had left one right on my tattoo, making me groan. Unless I wanted to cover my tattoo, which would be equally as obvious, there was nothing I could do about that one. 

After my shower, I just grabbed Noah’s shirt again and threw it back on. It was clean, I had only been wearing it for barely an hour, and it was just to breakfast, so who cares? I quickly did some light make-up, threw on a pair of loose pants since it was really starting to get cold, and made sure my hair looked semi-okay before heading downstairs. 

After reaching the lobby, I see my bandmates and head towards them. Tony saw me first and instantly held his hand up to give me a high-five, making me chuckle as I gave him one. The sound of it made Cam and Tommy turn around, and suddenly, I didn’t want to be around them anymore. 

“Well, well, well, look who finally showed her face,” Tommy said, propping his hands on his hips, “Someone didn’t come back to the room last night.”

“You were literally the one who told me to go ‘talk’ to him,” I teasingly retorted, making him pause, like he had been caught, before laughing. I just shook my head as he came over and wrapped an arm around me, leaving a kiss on the top of my head. 

“So…how was it..?” He moved his head so he could look back at my face, but his eyes trailed down to my neck, and he let out a loud cackle before pulling me closer and turning to Cam. “God, they grow up so fast.” 

I smack his chest and unhook myself from his grasp, “Where are the other guys? I don’t like you three anymore,” which made them all give me a fake offended look. 

“I didn’t even say anything!” Cam whined out. I gave him a fake pout and patted his shoulder.

“You’re always gonna be guilty by default, my love.” And with that, I began walking out the doors of the hotel. I look around for a second before seeing the rest of the gang waiting by their bus. Jolly sees me first and waves at me, almost like I hadn’t already seen him today, but I’m also completely fine with us pretending that it never happened. I head over to them and greet them all a good morning. I give Noah a small smile before turning my attention to the rest. 

“So our buddy- well, manager- Matt is actually on his way. He wasn’t supposed to join us until our show in Dallas, but I guess he wanted to surprise us by driving up.” Jolly informed me. 

“So we’re gonna make him take us to breakfast,” Folio added with a cheeky smile. I chuckled and nodded, before thinking.

“Uhh, so is it just you guys heading to breakfast? I mean, if so, that’s cool, but I just don’t know if we’d fit the whole group in a single car.” 

“Nah, he has a van, we can pack everyone in there if we try hard enough,” Ruffilo answered. I raised an eyebrow but just went with it, assuming it was a good-sized van. 

My boys came out a few minutes later, and Tommy came up behind me and tiredly wrapped his arms around me, resting his chin on my shoulder before asking us about the plans for breakfast, to which I just repeated everything to them. I look back at everyone and see Noah raise his eyebrow in the corner of my eye, but I just ignored it. 

Soon, we see a van pull up to the hotel's parking lot, which caused the other group to cheer as they saw it. They ran towards it before it even stopped moving, making me laugh as I saw Nick have to jump out of the way at one point not to get run over. Ruffilo popped his head through the driver-side window, speaking to Matt for a moment, before turning to the boys and me with a smile, waving his hand to beckon us to get in the van. The four of them made their way in immediately, Ruffilo sitting passenger and the other three packing into the middle row. Since I was surrounded by giant men, my boys used their long ass legs and took off, getting in and taking up all the seats in the back row before I even got there. I groaned as I walked to the open doors and saw that I had to choose someone’s lap to sit on. Noah and I make eye contact, and bite my lip at the thought of being so close to him again. 

“Oh, come on, stop being so weird. You act like we didn’t hear you both all night,” Ruffilo teasingly groaned, making me blush. I went to open my mouth to retort but just lowered my head and crawled into the back, sitting on Tommy’s lap since I knew nothing weird would happen. They close the doors, and I get situated, sitting on his thigh and leaning against the wall of the van. I see Matt look into the rearview mirror at me with a raised brow, and that just made me lower my head once again, not wanting to make this car ride awkward. 

We drove for a while because, of course, Nick gave Matt the wrong directions, but we finally ended up at a cute local diner. We all hopped out of the van like it was a goddamn clown car before filing into the restaurant and finding a place to sit. Matt, Ruffilo, Nick, and Cam sat at one table, so Tony, Tommy, Jolly, Noah, and I packed into the one behind them, Noah sliding into the seat beside me. I gave him a soft smile before looking over the menu. 

After chatting with everyone about what looked best and what we would get, I felt a knee bump into mine. I look over and see Noah giving me a small smile before leaning into my ear.

“You alright?” He asked. I sighed out a laugh.

“Yeah. I just should’ve realized how awkward this was gonna be,” I replied. He chuckled and bumped his shoulder with mine, about to speak again, before the waitress came over and took all of our orders. I felt so bad. I thought it was bad enough going out to eat with three boys, but eight was absolutely insane, and I saw the waitress have to use multiple pages to write everyone’s order down and go over it twice to make sure she didn’t get anything wrong. Welp, food probably won’t be out for a while. 

Tommy turned to me and started chatting about possible ideas for us to do today. He mentioned maybe checking out a specific art museum nearby, just the two of us, because it was something we both liked and then ran off a few more ideas that either involved just our band or the whole group. I told him that we could ask everyone else later what their plans were before he turned to the rest of the table to talk. I felt Noah lean down to my ear once again.

“So, I’m not sure how exactly to approach this..,” he trailed off in a hushed tone, making me turn to him, waiting for him to continue, “But have you and Tom ever..?”

I stared at him in shock for a few seconds before bursting out in laughter. I instantly covered my mouth when people started looking and waved them off. I gave Noah a few apologies before my giggles finally died down.

“Noah, he’s gay,” I responded with a smile, making him drop his head in embarrassment as he chuckled to himself. 

“Also, I could never even think of any of the boys that way. Yes, we’re probably a little too close, but I can tell you for a fact that they’d rather give me a swirly than ever look at me like that,” I continued with a small giggle. He looked up at me with flushed cheeks and laughed. 

“Good. Good. I mean, I didn’t think so, but I was a little confused with the dynamic of it all.”

“These boys are my brothers, just like yours are to you. I mean, yes, it’s a little different since I’m the only girl in the group, but we’re strictly family here.” I smile as I look at the boys. Tommy and Tony were bitching at each other about who knows what, always fighting like a married couple, and Cam was making his whole table laugh at one of his infamous stories he loved to tell. While I did have actual family and other friends at home, those boys were my found family. Being there for me when no one else was. Always understanding me even when I didn’t understand myself. 

“Don’t worry, I get it. I don’t know what I’d do without those guys,” Noah said, pulling me out of my thoughts and looking at everyone in front of us with a smile. “They got me through a lot of shit over the years. They always knew how to put a smile on my face no matter what I was going through.” 

Our food came surprisingly fast after that. Even though I had to stop and yell at some of them like I was their goddamn mother multiple times, it was a nice breakfast. If anyone did recognize us, they let us enjoy our peace. Or they just enjoyed watching the show, as I literally threatened to get out of my seat and watch the other table many times because Nick and Cam being together, while being instigated by Ruffilo and Matt, was like having to control toddlers. At one point, I looked over and saw Nick ready to launch a piece of pancake at Cam, who was sitting back with his mouth open, ready to catch it. I see Matt and Ruffilo with their phones out and childish smiles on their face like they were watching their favorite sport, and almost in slow motion, the pancake flies off Nick’s fork, past Cam’s head, and smacks Tony right in the face. This made both tables erupt in laughter, bringing even more attention to us. I didn’t know if I wanted to force them back to the van or just leave and pretend I never knew them. It was funny, trust me, but the last thing we needed was to get kicked out. 

Finally, we all were ready to leave, but not before Tony and Noah fought over the bill because, of course, we didn’t ask for separate checks. Noah finally won, saying it was going on the business card. While they did this, Matt, Ruffilo, and I snuck out to the van to claim our seats. The three of us chatted for the few minutes of peace we had, and I got to know that Matt was actually a really cool guy, us having a lot in common when it came to our home lives and being raised in the south. After finally noticing that we were gone, the other boys rushed out and fought each other over seats, none of them wanting to be the one to sit on someone’s lap. I got multiple whines and complaints, saying that I was the smallest, so I should give up my seat, but I just shook my head and buckled myself into my seat in the middle row. Noah, of course, managed to slip in next to me, but that resulted in him being pushed into me more as Nick tried convincing us that we could fit four people in our row. Finally, with a huff, he ended up sitting in the back on Cam’s lap. He even suggested squeezing into the trunk, but Matt immediately shut that down, knowing he was probably going to fuck around and mess with anyone driving behind us. From the way he said it, I'm assuming that he was speaking from experience. We eventually hit the road and drove back to the hotel, all of us spewing ideas of what we could do for our free day. 

We were now back at the hotel, and I was getting ready. We couldn’t decide on what we all wanted to do, so we settled on just taking a walk around the trails nearby, it being secluded enough that we wouldn’t have to worry about fans, and so we had longer to decide if we wanted to go somewhere fun tonight. 

Even though we were in Georgia, it was still autumn, so I grabbed a turtle neck, tossing a random graphic tee I stole from Tony over it, and comfortable shorts. Listen, I didn’t spend all this money on these tattoos for them to all be covered, plus I knew that I would end up getting warm on the walk anyway. 

After doing my hair and makeup, I headed back down to the lobby to wait for the rest of the boys. Folio had run out and got a rental car for the day, pretending he just wanted it to be easier for us, but I knew he was scared he would be forced to sit on someone’s lap again. 

Eventually, all the boys came down, so we packed into both cars and headed off to a trail Matt had found. I drove with Matt again, wanting to get to know him more since it was always nice meeting someone so easy to talk to. Funny enough, Jolly, Ruffilo, and Noah packed into this one, and all my boys joined Nick, almost like we just switched groups. I was really happy that all of us were getting along so well and so fast, most of us meeting just a few days ago. We finally made it to the trail, of course, having to wait a good ten minutes for the other boys to arrive even though we left at the same time. I knew Cam was probably helping Nick with directions, and that was just a disaster waiting to happen.

Once everyone was together, we started off on our walk. I thankfully didn’t need to watch over the group too much. Yes, they were reckless and dumb at times, but someone was always there to pick someone else up if they goofed off too much and fell. Matt was a really nice addition to the group. He was like the other babysitter, but also always had something to talk about, and he got everyone more out of their shell, both being a nice touch of normalcy to the other band and just riling up my boys enough to get them to have fun.  

We walked for a while and just had fun. Jolly and Tommy found sticks and started a sword fight, but that eventually ended up with them trying to smack everyone else in the group, making all of us find our own sticks for defense. I couldn’t help but smile the whole time. I already had a lot of fun over the years, spending my time with three large idiots, but now that I had eight, laughter never settled. We all got to talk about random shit, someone always asking the group a random question, so the conversations never died. I even got to have some nice chats with the other boys, already feeling closer to them. I could feel my family growing the longer the day went on. 

Eventually, we realized we should probably head back so we didn’t get stuck out here in the dark. It wasn’t as insane as the walk up, but we spent this time actually enjoying the scenery.  We finally talked about what we were going to do later, trying to think of bars or somewhere fun to keep the night young. A few boys were on their phones, trying to look for something near us that looked like a good time, throwing random ideas out until we could all agree on something. 

“Yo! Is this you?” I heard, snapping me out of my gaze at our environment. I see Matt turning around and facing his phone to me. I squint and see that someone had recorded a video of me last night, making me blush. I nodded sheepishly in response. 

“No, dude, Will Ramos reposted this on his story!” He said back. I paused for a moment. I know we were getting bigger, especially now that we finally had a larger band to tour with, but getting recognized was still very new to me. Especially by one of my favorite vocalists. I scrambled to get my phone out of my pocket and opened Instagram, typing in Will’s user and watching his story. I finally landed on the video and saw that he wrote, “This is sick! Who is this girl?” I looked at the boys around me, shocked, all of us now paused on our walk. I look back down at my phone, about to click on the story again to reply, before seeing that I already had a DM. I clicked it and saw that it was indeed him. 

Will- Hey! I saw a video of you covering our song and I just had to let you know how insane that was. I even checked out your band’s music and I love it! You have to add more vocals like this! 

I look back up at the boys in complete shock. 

“He DMed me… Will Ramos DMed me, telling me he liked it,” I managed to get out. Tommy rushed over to look at my phone and gasped when he read the chat. He turned to Tony and Cam.

“Well, per the orders of Mr. Ramos, we gotta get Y/N into the studio and get her recording some of these vocals.” This caused the two boys to run to me, cheering and giving me a group hug. I couldn’t knock the stunned look off my face as I stared at everyone, who was giving me a proud look back. Tommy pats me on the shoulder.

“Come on, let’s get back to the car, and you can freak out there,” He said. All I could do was nod in response as we continued our journey back. I got a few pats on the back from the other boys and a ‘Congratulations’ from Noah as we made our way back. I couldn’t even think right now. So much has happened in the past few days, I wouldn’t be surprised if I passed out again. 

We made it back to the cars. They all chatted about where we were heading next and decided to stop at the hotel one last time to change since we were probably going to head to a bar. I ended up riding back with my boys and Nick, just so we could talk about everything and what I should even do now. Nick gave us a lot of amazing advice on where to go from here, helping my stress a little, but I was still freaking out. 

When we made it back to the hotel, I snuck back onto the bus to look through my nicer clothes, and maybe stealing a few shots of the alcohol in there. I just needed something to take the edge off if I wanted to continue having fun tonight. Plus, it was just pregaming, you know? 

I found a cute dress that would fit for going out tonight and a cute pair of platform heels. It was a velvet mini dress that hugged me in all the right places and showed off all my favorite tattoos. The only problem would be how much concealer I was going to have to use since the neckline showed everything off. 

I headed back up to the hotel room and finished getting ready. I just added a little more makeup to my face and spent a good twenty minutes covering my neck. Once I was done curling my hair, I took one last look at myself, the liquid confidence pumping through my veins, making me feel good. All I grabbed was my phone, knowing that with how hot I looked right now, I wasn’t buying my own drinks tonight, before heading to meet up with everyone else. 

The second I stepped into the lobby, a wave of whistles and ‘damns’ went around, making me laugh and look down to hide my blush. 

“Y’all ready to go?” I ask them.

“Girl, what the fuck? You make me wanna change. I feel like a bum next to you,” Tommy teases, making me shake my head, laughing. 

“You all look as hot as you usually do, now let’s get our asses in gear!” I say, slurring slightly. I may or may not have taken the Fireball up to the hotel room and drank more while getting ready. Tony gives me a comical look after I spoke.

“Are you already drunk?” he laughs out. I give him a bright smile.

“You were the one who taught me to pregame. I just wanted to get the party started already,” I leaned my head against his shoulder as I spoke, “And I’m still freaking the fuck out about earlier.”

“Y/N, you’ll be fine. Forget about everything and just have some fun tonight.” Tony rubs my arm as he spoke.

“Exactly what I’m trying to do.” And with that, I started walking to the hotel doors, not waiting for anyone else. I wanted to speak to Matt more tonight, so I walked to his van and waited for him to reach it to unlock it. We all piled into the two cars and made our way to the bar. It was more of a club type bar than a dive bar, and I was excited to dance to music and let off some steam. Noah sat next to me and glanced at me occasionally the whole ride there, making me giggle. 

“Do you have something you’d like to say?” I finally asked, which made him smirk.

“Just that you look absolutely breathtaking right now.’ Then he leaned down until his lips were right by my ear. “And all I wanna do is rip that dress off you.” I laughed and smacked his chest. He smirked at me before turning back and looking out the window. 

We finally pulled up to the bar and made our way in. It was slightly packed and kind of in the middle of the city, so we were definitely going to run into some fans, but it was small enough that we didn’t have to worry about getting bombarded. A few of us headed straight to the bar while the others went to find a table. 

I stood there for about a minute, not ordering anything. I didn’t actually need a drink, as I was still tipsy, but I wanted to work my magic. I just moved my head to the music for a bit as I waited, until I felt a hand touch my back. 

“Let me buy you a drink,” I heard an almost fake deep voice from behind me say. I turned and saw that it was Matt, making me laugh. He gave me a cheeky smile. 

“Seriously, let me get you something. Help you start off the night of free drinks,” he said, leaning against the bar next to me. I put on a thinking face.

“Hmm. Fine. I think I want a Manhattan.” He nodded and turned to flag the bartender.

“Manhattan, please.” The bartender nodded and started making them for us. He turned back to me and smiled. I gave him a confused look.

“You’re not getting anything?” I asked.

“I don’t drink, but I know you wanted to take the edge iff a little more, so I came to help,” he answered with a shrug. I just giggled in response.

“You look amazing by the way. I’ve seen pictures and videos of your outfits on stage so I knew you could dress well, but this just proves it,” He said, his eyes trailing up and down my figure before pausing at the bat on my chest, “And I think that might be my favorite tattoo of yours.”

“Yeah? Have you seen this one?” And I turned, lifting my hair to show him the Baphomet piece on my upper back. I heard a low whistle and laughed before turning back around. The bartender set our drinks in front of us and I took mine with a small ‘thank you’ before facing Matt again. 

“Okay, now I can’t choose.” He said. I just shook my head.

“You are such a flirt, did you know that?” I giggled out. He matched my smile and just shrugged his shoulders.

“Hey, I just like making people feel good,” He teased with a wink. I smacked his shoulder, laughing. Then his eyes trailed past me, seeing something behind me. 

“Alright, I better stop before the big one rips my head off.” He laughs out. I turn around and see Noah practically glaring daggers at him. I rolled my eyes and patted Matt’s shoulder, thanking him for the drink, before walking over to Noah. I sat down beside him and just looked at him with a smirk. 

“What?” He asked.

“You are one scary motherfucker.” I joked, making him drop his head and chuckle. “You know Matt’s harmless.”

“I know…It’s just…” He trails off with a sigh as his eyes travel across my face and down my body. They land back on my neck and he reaches a hand to touch something on it. He grazed his thumb against one of the hickies peeking through the makeup before continuing. “I’m just a little protective.” I roll my eyes and chuckle.

“Oh, so since you marked me, I’m all yours?” I joked. He smirked at me.

“I mean, if you wanted to be.” I side-eyed him and laughed.

“Noah, we just met a few days ago,” I said before taking a sip of my drink. I turn back to him and see him looking at me, a little confused. 

“What?” I asked.

“I mean, yeah, but we’ve both technically known each other for a while now.”

“Yeah, but that doesn’t change the fact that we only first spoke to each other like three days ago.” I tried explaining. He stayed silent for a moment. 

“I just thought that’s why you came to talk last night..” He finally said.

“I came to talk to you about all the weird shit that has been happening, mainly to clear the air of any confusion. And then we both…let out a lot of pent-up emotions afterward. It’s not that I don’t like you, Noah. Trust me, I do. But I don’t jump into relationships.” He rolls his eyes as I speak.

“But you’ll jump into bed with someone?” He spit out. I looked at him shocked. Is he calling me a whore? 

“You initiated it, asshole.” 

“So you still went along with it, knowing that you weren’t looking for anything more?” He said, making me scoff.

“I never fucking said that. I just said that I need time.”  I spit back.

“How long were you gonna drag me along? You know how much I like you, and you were just gonna make me wait, even though you reciprocated those feelings?” 

“That’s not what I’m saying. I just don’t immediately jump into relationships!” I’m really starting to get pissed off. He’s putting words in my fucking mouth.

“But aren’t I different? We literally talked about this being some crazy ‘universe pulling us together’ shit. And you can’t see me any different than the other guys you’ve dated?” I looked at him like he was insane. 

“No, Noah. Because I’m realizing you’re no different from them.” I scoffed before grabbing my drink and walking away. 

As I stormed past some of the guys, I felt someone grab my arm. I look and see that it was Tommy with a concerned look on his face. I just shook my head and pulled my arm from his grasp, continuing to try and get away from everyone. 

Once I was far enough out of sight, I just leaned up against a random wall and let out a large sigh. Of fucking course. I don’t know why I even tried talking to him last night. I should’ve just fucking dealt with my feelings by myself. Because, of course, he’s gonna act like every other fucking man that I’ve talked to. I know that the alcohol was making me loose-lipped, but if I didn’t have liquid courage, who knows how I would’ve responded. The last thing I need right now is to date someone in the band I’m touring with, especially after only just meeting him. We both need to think about this more. Have conversations about what we want in a relationship. And I’m not a woman to be claimed. I want a fucking partner. Fuck, my thoughts are running rampent.

I open my phone, hoping to find something to distract myself with. After scrolling for a while, I remembered the DM. Obviously, the alcohol is letting me speak my truth today, so fuck it, let’s get this over with. 

Y/N- I’m honestly shocked you saw that. That was my first time doing anything like that in front of people, so it may take some time to build the courage to do more. But I can’t lie, you’re really convincing me :)

I went to exit out of the chat after sending it, but then I saw that he read it almost instantly, so I waited for a response. 

Will- Your first time!? You must’ve been practicing like crazy then. 

Y/N- Well, I’ve always loved vocals like that, especially yours, so listening to your songs enough meant singing along the best I could😂

Will- Then I’m honored to be considered something of a teacher for you;)

Y/N- Probably the best teacher I could’ve asked for :)

Will- Maybe one day we can meet up and I can give you some personal coaching! If that was all self taught, I’m excited to see what lessons could do for your vocals. 

Y/N- Really? I’d love that! And I really do appreciate all the praise! You’re truly convincing me that I could do this❤️

Will- We can discuss a day soon:) And of course! I can’t wait to see what you do in the future.

I’m definitely feeling better now, speaking to someone who wasn’t an asshole. And talking to him is surprisingly easy. I’m not sure why I was so nervous, well, other than him being someone I‘ve looked up for years. And honestly, he’s making me realize I should just be focusing on this. My vocals are my job. My band should be my life. Me and the boys, getting better every day. I’m living out my childhood dreams but all I’ve been thinking about was some stupid boy. 

I was about to text Will back, when I saw Matt walking up out of the corner of my eye, bringing back the anger I had before. I turn to face him, giving him a slightly annoyed look. 

“Y/N, what’s going on? You disappeared and now Noah’s being an asshole to everyone. What happened?” He asked me. I rolled my eyes and shrugged.

“I tried talking to him and he just kept putting words in my mouth, making me seem like I was some slut, so I walked away.” I scoffed. He gave me a confused look. 

“What do you mean?” 

“I swear I don’t just sleep around, Matt. Yes, I’m surrounded by men all the time, but that’s just how this industry is and who I end up being friends with. He’s literally the first fucking person I’ve slept with in years, yet because I don’t immediately want to start dating, I apparently just fucked him to drag him along.” I answered. I couldn’t quite understand the look on his face after I spoke. It was like he was contemplating something. 

“Matt, you don’t have to be a problem solver here. I just need a break from him. Honestly, I just need a break in general. I came here tonight to have fun, and I’m over here, hiding on my phone.” I say to him with a sigh. He nods, yet still deep in thought, but after a few moments, he spoke. 

“Here, let me take you to the dance floor. And then, if you’re still upset, I’ll drive you back to the hotel so you can be alone. Does that work for you?” He suggested, holding out a hand. I couldn’t help but chuckled at the fact that he still decided to try and come up with a solution, but I guess that’s just how he is. I reached my hand out to his, accepting his offer. 

We make it to the dance floor and I try to have the best time that I can, Matt really helping me do that. I finished my drink and felt it ease my stress a little more as I enjoyed the music. For the more upbeat songs or just ones Matt and I both liked, we sang along with smiles on our faces, making me understand why he became a tour manager and not a singer. For the slower songs, I danced with him. He was a surprisingly good dancer, but I also wasn’t that shocked. Flirtatious men always know how to move with a woman on a dance floor. It felt nice, though. He respected me and kept his hands away from places he knew he shouldn’t touch, yet still moved with me sensually enough that I could get the full experience of dancing with a nice guy. A few other men tried asking me to dance, but I turned them down, either when the first place they looked was my chest, or the first place they touched was my ass. Matt chuckled every time I turned one down. 

I also liked knowing that we could do this as friends. We both had flirty personalities, mine just coming out more as I drank, but it was never anything too serious. His hands moved over my body with experience, holding me in the right places as our bodies moved together with the music. If anyone was watching us, they’d probably think we were actually together. But in reality, we both laughed if my ass accidentally touched his crotch or if his hand slipped too far down. We were cracking jokes the whole time, giggling to each other as we danced. There was no attraction between us, just two people who had so much in common that we both understood that dancing, even this close, was just another fun thing to do.

After many songs, he leaned down to my ear so I could hear him over the music and asked if I was ready to get off the dance floor. I nodded, so we walked back to the bar, him leading me with a hand on my back. I can’t lie, I think he was putting on a show, probably to show off that he was with a girl, but I didn’t care. Because I knew that Noah was jealous. I know it was childish, but he pissed me off. So if a whore is what he thinks I am, a whore is what I’ll pretend to be. 

“Another Manhattan?” Matt asked once we made it back to the bar. 

“I think I want something sweet..hmm.. I want a Sex on the beach,” I answered, giving him a wink. He rolled his eyes and laughed before ordering me one and getting himself a soda. 

“So…” I said, filling in the silence as we waited. 

“So?” He asked

“Was it just me, or are you showing me off?” I asked with a teasing smile. He pursed his lips, realizing he had been caught. 

“Hey, it’s not everyday you get an attractive girl to flaunt at your side. And it was really funny seeing those guys’ faces when you turned them down to dance with me. So can you really blame me?” He defended, holding his hands up. I giggled. 

“Don’t worry, I’m flattered. And it’s not everyday you get to make someone who insinuated that you were a whore upset, so I’ll go along with this as long as you need.” I joked. 

“I really shouldn’t be teaming up with you on that, but I won’t lie and say that hearing that didn’t piss me off. I get people say dumb shit when they’re mad, but calling someone a whore, no matter the situation, is a fucked up thing to do.” He said. I leaned my shoulder against his and smiled.

“You’re a good guy, Matt. I am sorry you’re getting in the middle of all of this, but I really appreciate everything you’ve done, even though you literally met me this morning.”

“I have to deal with the bullshit those four boys do all the time. This is nothing. It’s honestly worse when they fight and make me pick teams. And I really like you, Y/N. I’ve gotten to know a lot about you today, and hanging out with you has been really fun, so of course I’d help. You’re literally me, just with boobs.” I let out a loud laugh when he finished. He wasn’t wrong. 

Our drinks came, so we grabbed them and sat down at a table nearby. I was surprised I hadn’t seen anyone else lately, but maybe a few people went home already. I checked the time and saw that it wasn’t even eleven yet, and we weren’t leaving for the next show until the morning, so I definitely had time to have more fun tonight. 

“So, what’s on your mind?” Matt asked, making me turn my attention to him.

“Just that the night is still young and I wanna do something fun.” He thought for a moment. 

“Finish your drink and then we can get out of here. There’s definitely fun stuff to do around the city.” He said, making me raise an eyebrow. 

“You drove multiple people here, we can’t just ditch them.” 

“Hmm, you’re right…Wait, I have an idea.” He pulled out his phone and started typing. I assumed he was texting someone, the way he paused for a response between typing. I took that time to drink my drink, ready to get out of here since I already did everything there is to do: drink, dance, and argue with someone. Finally, he looked back up at me with a smug look. 

“So a few guys already went home in the rental car, and I told the rest of them to use the card to get an uber back.” He finally said. I gave him a smirk. 

“And no one got suspicious as to why you couldn’t drive them?”

“No, they did, but I’m on a fake date, remember?” He answered with a cheeky smile, making me laugh. Who knows what he told them, but who cares. 

I pulled out my phone and texted my boys, letting them know that I was staying out with Matt and would be back later. I closed it before I got a response, not wanting to deal with the questions.

Matt and I were now walking around the city. Even though it was nearing midnight, there were still some things to do. We found an ice cream shop that stayed open late and stopped there. We both realized how funny it would be to keep the act going, so we kept taking pictures and videos of the things we did, posting them to our stories. Some to our main stories, but most to our ‘close friends’ story, so fans didn’t get weirded out. 

We took pictures of our ice cream and posted them at the same time. We both recorded videos of each other goofing around. We found a playground and hung out on the swings for a while. I managed to catch him falling off the swing in a video, instantly saving it so I could use it against him in the future.

I was having such a good time. It’s so weird how much has happened lately, especially just in the last 24 hours. But right now was probably my favorite. Matt and I were just sitting on the swings, chatting about anything and everything as we swung back and forth like children. We, of course, tried seeing how high we could go, but after a few creaks of the swing set, we remembered that we were indeed adults and too big to be doing any of that. 

I do my best to enter my hotel room without waking Tommy, knowing we had to get up super early to pack up the buses. I close the door and sneak to my bed. I sit down, about to take off my shoes, when the light gets turned on. I look up and see Tommy looking at me like a parent catching their child. 

“Now what in the hell was all of that?” he asked. 

“What do you mean?” I don’t know why I was playing dumb, knowing I was gonna tell him everything anyway. 

“Girl, shut up. It’s three in the morning and you posted like a million things of you and Matt. What’s this evil scheme you have going on?” I couldn’t help but giggle. I know I was angry, but after spending time with Matt, I could leave the anger alone until I have to face Noah again. 

“Okay so, Noah’s an ass. And Matt and I went on a fake date to piss him off.” 

“Woah, hold up. Rewind and explain.” He said, shaking his head in confusion.

“Okay so Noah and I talked at the bar. He was getting all jealous that Matt and I were talking, so I teased him about it. Then he was talking about us dating, so I was like ‘I don’t wanna jump into a relationship, I just met you’ and he was like ‘well you jumped into bed real quick-“ Tommy gasped once I said that, and I just nodded before continuing.

“So I tried defending myself and he just kept putting words in my mouth and saying I was dragging him along, and THEN he was like ‘but aren’t I different than the other guys you’ve dated meh meh meh” I used a funny voice to mock him. Tommy facepalmed as I talked. 

“So I just left his ass and then not too long later, Matt found me and we went and danced together and realized it would be funny if we pretended like we liked each other to piss him off. So then we went and hung out downtown for a while, taking a bunch of pictures and videos together, mostly for Noah to see, but also because it was a really fun time and I wanted to take some pictures.” I finally finished and just watched Tommy process it all. 

“And you two don’t actually like each other, right?” He finally asked.

“Nope, not at all. I practically grinded on him on the dance floor and nothing weird happened.” His eyes widened when I said that, before he laughed. 

“Damn, girl!” He exclaimed, now making me laugh, “Well, I can’t really say anything other than fuck that dude and I will always support you.” 

I giggled as I started getting ready for bed, wanting to at least get a nap in and then sleep more on the bus. 

“I love you, Tommy. I’m so glad to have a friend like you, always supporting my reckless decisions.” I giggled out as I crawled into bed. 

“Always, love. Because you do the same.”

Part Five

[swappingforgood]

Missing it Already part 2

Still enjoying the effects of my orgasm, I go to Larry’s bedroom to see his large mattress and lay down. Letting my hands explore every inch of my new form. I’m still in shock, and honestly, being Larry for a week is not the worst thing ever. Day Three was not bad as I went to work and saw Larry in my body who was wearing gym clothes. "Oh, hey Boss,” Larry said as he greets me. I couldn’t help but notice how clean my house was, but I mean it would make sense since Larry is a cleaner. “Did…you clean this up by yourself?” I asked as I sit my larger frame on the couch. “I sure did. I had time after work and honestly figured you could use the break, so I decided to do both of our jobs,” Larry said as he walks around in my body. It’s kinda weird to hear my body sound so happy and cheery and full of energy. He then joins me on the couch and holds my hand. “Boss, you have been so kind to me that I really hope you get to relax in my body. Take the next few days off. I’ll see you on day 7; where will we swap back, okay?” Larry said as he ushered me outside my own home, but I didn’t think too hard about it. Honestly, he is right; I deserve a break. After going to my apartment and feeding my hungry body, I used my typical gay dating apps, but the only people who were interested were guys who looked like me, well, Larry. Bummed out, I didn’t let that stop me as I met up with this one twinkling only for him to ghost me and call me a fat slob. It made me upset because obviously I’m not a fat slob; Larry’s body is fat, not me. However, I find personal pleasure with myself, and on day 7, I go to my mansion and I’m greeted by Larry, who was wearing a robe and underwear. Showing off my hard-worked body and salt and pepper hair. “Hey boss, come on in, let’s celebrate,” Larry said as we share some drinks and discuss our weeks. I couldn’t help but let the alcohol talk for me as I mentioned his choice of attire. “Larry, why do you have my body dressed like that?” I said with a drunken slur as he moves closer to me and puts his hands on my belly. “I’m going to miss this body, so I figured, why not, and plus, you like what you see?” Larry said with my voice, which turned me the heck on, and he noticed it. Next thing I know, he is between my larger legs and we are grinding our cocks together as he whispers, “Do you miss this body?”. I moan in response, “I do; I missed it every day. I loved being in your body, but I miss mine,” Larry chuckles as he lowers our underwear and places his cock against my fat ass. “Let’s have sex as each other, please?” He said with a grin that I didn’t notice due to being drunk. I moaned as I felt my fat ass getting fucked by my former cock and Larry moans. “Can I call you Larry while I fuck you?” He says, and I nod in approval, giving into my desires. “Oh yes boss, fuck my fat body,” I say in a desperate tone as Larry grins and whispers into my ear. “I’m gonna cum inside you, Larry,” and it drives me over the edge. I feel my small cock spurt all over my stomach as I feel the warmth of the seed of my former cock filling my ass. As we lay down together and catch our breath, I ask. “That was amazing; you did good using my body like that, but can we swap back now?” Larry stays quiet as he gets up and grabs the amulet he kept by the bedside, and in a dark tone, he told me to touch it just like before, but nothing happened. I looked in utter shock as I noticed Larry had a massive grin on his face. "Whoops, did I forget to mention? If the swapped people have sex, then the swap would be permanent." I hold onto the amulet tightly and plea. “No, this can’t be happening. Larry, why didn’t you tell me?” “My name is not Larry anymore, you fat loser. It’s Michael, but to you, it’s sir. Now put on your clothes and get to work.” 

[starswguru]

❝ message in a bottle ; 마크이

𖥻 pairing: college!mark lee x female reader

𖥻 contains: college!au, fluff, slight angst, second chance romance

𖥻 warnings: swearing, marijuana & alcohol consumption / english is not my first language and this is my first work ever on tumblr so i am sorry if there are any grammar mistakes or misspellings

word count — 4.06k

synopsis — you and mark were in a situationship for a few months before things ended poorly when you got too scared of your feelings and he had to leave the country for an exchange program in london. now, six months later, you were at a party with your friends and discovered mark was back in town.

🎀

AND just like that, your whole world stopped spinning for a long and torturous minute. in the blink of an eye, you went from being over-the-moon excited — and slightly intoxicated — with the idea of partying with your friends during the first summer night before heading to your hometown in the next couple of days to being paralyzed, feeling all your blood get drained far away from where it should be in your body. in the blink of an eye, you went from being a happy girl with the arrival of the last member of your friend group to someone terrified with the sight of a ghost from the past. a quick glance, unintended by all means, in mark’s direction was all it took for the memories from that previous year to come flooding back to hit you like a lost train.

“hey, princess,” he said. his cheeks burning in a shade of shameful red, but something stronger than him was preventing his stare from going anywhere else other than your eyes. there was a blunt hanging between his teeth. “how you doing?”

“that’s it, guys; i’m done with this. i’m just gonna change my major or something like that! everything’s going terribly wrong, and i can’t keep torturing myself by studying this shit.”

you dropped your head and rested your forehead on your arm that lay on top of the desk in front of you right as the confession slipped from your lips like a dangerous poison that you should not have taken. it was the first time you’d ever said it out loud to someone else to hear — other than the mischievous voice inside your head — how you truly felt about the english major you were pursuing. the fear of judgment and of being too hasty about this decision was corroding every last bit of your emotional health, and because of it, you could sense that a storm was coming. what if you did change majors and ended up not adapting? how would you find a job, or better yet: how would you support living all by yourself if you couldn’t even pick an undergraduate academic path? time was running out, and the unbearable clock inside your mind wouldn’t give you a break. the tick-tacking of the goddamn thing was going to drive you to insanity at any point soon.

“hey, chill for once, okay? it’s normal to feel like that and to want something new. hell, i know i had to change my major twice before finding out what i actually wanted to do. jae did the same thing. you’re not alone.” jeno offered you a small yet reassuring smile or someone who didn’t quite know what to say but still wanted to see his friend more relaxed.

“exactly! take a deep breath and think things through with an easy heart. if you need help, we’re here to help you." swallowing the last bite of the sandwich he had bought earlier, renjun tapped the notebook in front of him. “how’s that linguistics project going?”

as you raised your head, you shook your head in a negative sign. “i mean, it’s good. too good, actually… and that’s sort of the problem. like, the dude i’m working with is super sweet and really fucking good at this class and so he’s kind of doing the whole thing by himself and dragging me along with it ever since we started. i feel terrible, even if he says it’s all good and stuff, but it is what it is, i guess.”

before either of the guys could express any opinion about what was just said, a guy with freshly cut black hair — it was even possible to see the drawing of a spiderweb on the left side of his undercut —, earphones in and a large yankees shirt approached the desk, more specifically you, and offered a genuine smile that wasn’t common to see between two colleagues who were only working on a school project together at you. the unknown man squatted so he could be at your height and unlocked his ipad’s screen to the word document the two of you were using to write notes together, or at least that was the initial idea because the reality was that mark was doing all of it alone, proudly.

“oh, hi, y/n, you good? just wanted to ask you a quick question… have you taken a look at this topic right here? i know we’re only supposed to work on it in two weeks but i was wondering if maybe you’ve come up with the same conclusion as me.”

feeling a thousand times more embarrassed than if a professor asked you to present a thirty-minute seminar alone in front of the whole class, you felt the tip of your fingers getting cold and a thin droplet of sweat rolling down your temple. “uhm, hey, mark. yeah, about that… look, i didn’t really have a chance to look at that yet, i’m sorry. i can barely manage this week’s assignments, let alone two weeks from now. i- i’ll text you when i read it, okay?”

you didn’t know it at the time — or if you did, you had an enviable ability of discretion — but every single time mark heard his name escape from your heavenly drawn lips, his heart would skip a beat or two and he felt like he was about to combust at any second. it was the first time in his whole life that he had ever felt that way about someone and dealing with feelings of that magnitude was both weird and extraordinary, which meant that the ravenette wasn’t completely aware of how to process them. mark’s solution for his overwhelming thoughts whenever you were around was to take charge of everything he could in that project, to make you feel relaxed about that one particular class. the canadian was terrible at linguistics, for his skills were much more reliable during literature classes: he could interpret and internalize poetry from the eighteenth century like it was nothing, and plays written in latin during the roman empire were of natural understanding for him; and yet, ever since the first day of that semester in which it was requested that both of you joined efforts to build the complicated assignment, it was impossible for mark to not pull all-nighters reading texts and more texts, watching one video class after another that broke down the subject of that class just so he could give his absolute best when the time came to work alongside you and you didn’t find him an idiot, as most people in that university usually did after meeting him for the first time.

mark just wanted to impress you and the last thing he could be worried about was doing all that alone, as long as it meant that he could still have the minimum interaction with you.

“yeah, sure, that’s cool. if you need anything let me know, alright?”

you were still in a state of complete shock. no words would come out of your mouth, making it impossible to answer properly the question directed at you by the boy that a year before was the reason for many sleepless nights and therapy sessions, through no fault of his, which was even worse, because mark was perfect and you hated yourself for how everything ended.

a cold breeze, too cold for a summer night, hit the both of you with enough strength to make you shiver and it was only then that you realized that none of your friends were around anymore. you were alone again with mark for what had felt like a lifetime since he left the country for an exchange program in london and with enough unspoken words to make the whole situation a million times more uncomfortable than it needed to be. what were you supposed to say right now? “oh, hi, mark, long time no see! listen, i’m really sorry for being horrible to you last year, i’ve spent the last six months torturing myself because i only woke up to the fact that i had let the perfect guy for me get away too late to try and fix everything”? you ran your fingers through your hair, knowing that there were no words of your knowledge that could make it easier, that could put together again the pieces of what had once been something magical that the two of them were building.

you couldn’t care less about all those times your therapist tried to be kinder to your heart than you had ever been, or how your friends always tried to distract your mind from the constant haunt of self-collection and, to be honest, didn’t really mind that yes, after all the effort and studying, you had managed to change your major to something you actually enjoyed if the price for it was to drop the perfect crystal piece that was mark’s precious heart. there were no words that could take that back, and going against every piece of advice that was given to you, you had imagined more times than you’d like to admit how this encounter would play out: what you would do, what you would say or not say, how it’d feel… but none of those scenarios inside your mind was anywhere near to the real sensation of being in front of him again.

mark looked taller — or maybe it was just the feeling of missing him crushing your soul and clouding your judgment —, the slim body now gave way to the body of a man who went to the gym and tried to truly take care of his health, his hair that previously used to be as dark as the t-shirts he used to enjoy wearing was now covered in a shade of red so bright that it reminded you of his favorite superhero’s suit. even still, the one thing that caught your attention the most were his eyes. before mark left, before the whole chaos, they were always big and full of life, like those of a curious cub and you could always feel a cozy warmth travel across your body when mark looked at you with such brightness; however, it seemed that ever since the canadian got back in town, they were opaque, closed off to the outer world as if his eyes were now carrying some kind of intense melancholy behind them. the familiar redness in his sclerae, months ago, used to always be accompanied by an excited and smiling version of mark lee, but that night the only thing apparent to you was that lee was holding on to weed like some kind of way to numb the break-up pain.

the redhead had lived a thousand different lives during his exchange: saw and learned things that he knew he would never have achieved if he hadn't accepted the opportunity to go to england and yet, his mind couldn’t recall any of those experiences with the genuine happiness he should’ve felt like any other normal and grateful person would if they were on his shoes; to mark, ever since you left him all alone, he had turned into nothing but an empty shell of what should’ve been the real mark lee. what were his experiences, his learnings, his funny stories if, at any moment, he was allowed to at least call the person he loved and share all of that with her?

“yeah, i guess i’m okay.” you answered, holding back a cry that was stuck in your throat before looking away. “you?”

a shiver went down the english student as he waited for his project partner to arrive at the coffee shop you two had agreed to meet at to finish for good the agonizing linguistics document. it didn’t even seem real that you were finally concluding the most stressful and endless project of your university career until that moment and despite the sweet taste of reaching the finish line, mark had on his lips a bitter one, because he knew that the very instant you pressed “send” on the body of that e-mail to your professor, all of his excuses to talk to you would come to an end. it was only the beginning of november, you should spend at least a few more weeks studying together if said professor were to follow a normal academic calendar like the rest of his fellow colleagues of the department.

mark would only have one last chance of making this work out and that chance was right there and then. anxiety and fear were destroying the boy with more strength than he himself was biting through his nails waiting for you to arrive.

“gosh, mark, i’m so sorry!” you said in a panting tone when you finally managed to get to the coffee shop and met the guy that, by that point, had already become your friend. “the bus took forever to get to the stop i needed and then the subway was also chaotic… anyways, i’m sorry that i’m late.”

the both of you stayed a long time in that coffee shop, not only finishing the assignment but also laughing together and watching a few episodes of modern family on his computer as a way to relax after all the constant flow of negative emotions the both of you were facing during that semester due to not only that particular class but also all the other ones with their enormous reading load. by the time you had indeed finished what you were supposed to do, you were feeling so comfortable in mark’s presence that you didn’t even notice when you heart started to race faster and faster before the mundane things the lee did: the way he smiled from ear to ear, or how kind he was to everyone around him. you were starting to fall in love with how mark explained all the different concepts he used to build his arguments across the paper like someone would explain the most basic things to a child, and you thought it was sweet the way he would say “dude” and “no way” every couple of sentences that fell from his lips. but, above all, unconsciously, the way mark seemed to glow every time he looked at you was ethereal to your eyes.

as soon as you sent the hated file, it started to rain on the outside of the coffee shop, but contrary to the ideal scenario, you couldn’t stay in there just waiting until the climate conditions became more favorable because the two of you had places to be at, on opposite directions. there would be no other alternative but to run to the nearest subway station, or in the brunette’s case, the bus stop.

mark immediately took off his hoodie to shield you as best as he could from the rain, in exchange for you protecting his backpack that contained his computer as if your life depended on it, the moment you two stepped outside the establishment and something of a thunderstorm was taking over the avenue. mark couldn’t help it and ended up laughing at the situation you two had found yourselves in, thinking about how he wished he was a little less broke and had a car to take the girl of his dreams back to her place without having to worry about the rain, or how he wished he was stronger to pick you up and carry you to the subway station and, with that, spare your shoes from coming in contact with the soaked surface of the sidewalk. before you could notice, you were right in front of the stairs that led to the station.

“bye, i think.” you said, giggling along with him while you tried to fix your hair that, despite mark’s hoodie’s protection, still got wet from the rain.

the lee was going to answer you like a decent and proper person, he really was, but in that very moment, a raindrop fell from the marquee above you and somehow managed to hit you right on the forehead, which made you close your eyes, but mark kept his wide open. with an automatic reaction of his body, almost like an involuntary movement that he was incapable of controlling — such as the beats of his accelerated heart — his left hand traveled to your neck while his right thumb was busy drying the solitary raindrop slowly, to give his mind time to analyze every little inch of your face so close to his. mark tried to respond with words to your farewell, but his impulse to kiss you was far stronger than any cohesive phrase that his brain could formulate in that moment.

the literature student, now in his final semester, nodded as he bit his lower lip and those opaque eyes fell to the floor beneath his feet after stepping on the remaining of his blunt. mark didn’t even know why he started that conversation in the first place, it was obvious that it was impossible for him to stand close to you without it affecting some part of him — whether for good or for bad — and even still, there he was, not managing to say a single word to you, nor being able to get closer, just feeding that giant gray and terrifying cloud that grew over both of your heads due to the impasse of what this was and what it should have been.

unlike his mind, that was only able to repeat tirelessly the day he finally built the confidence to kiss you, yours was in a hurricane of terrible memories that involved the brief, yet intense, relationship you two shared — or whatever the hell one could call it. how was it even possible that something that lasted only four months could leave such deep scars?

if mark was trying to hold back a smile remembering how it felt to have your lips on top of his, you were only torturing yourself with the replayed image of mark being crushed in front of you, by no fault other than your own. it was your fault that fear was allowed to consume every single good thing that the lee had ever given you; it was your fault that you’d thought that whole thing was a sick and sadistic joke from the universe and that, in reality, there was no way someone like him could've ever fallen in love with you. in the deepest, darkest, cruelest part of your soul, you were convinced that everything was your fault and not your mind trying to destroy you before something so pure and happy.

you were a sinking ship, navigating towards a port with not a single sight of a lighthouse’s spark to help you, not knowing how to reach the treasure that awaited your arrival because other people had already destroyed the lighthouse. the ability to grope around, trying to find yourself in the darkness you’d placed yourself, was stripped away from you the second you gave in to the bruises that were caused by third parties, and mark knew it wasn't your fault, although it was still difficult to try and be the guide to someone that wouldn't allow them to have access to the heat and light from the fire he tried to offer.

without even realizing it, the silenced cry stuck in your throat for months on end started to escape, not giving you any power to control it. you felt anger, sadness, frustration and you were missing mark… all at the very same time, in an endless swirl triggered by the mere vision of having mark back into your reality.

just like the first time you kissed, the unconscious answer of mark lee’s body to the sound of you crying after such a long time being away from you was to wrap his arms around your body without allowing himself to give too much thought to the action that just took place. if it was even possible, noticing you needing him in any way, shape or form was a true calling for him and it didn't matter how much time could've gone by, the lee couldn't ignore it. to love you and protect you was just as natural as breathing.

between the supplications for your tears to stop and hair strokes, mark then began to feel something that he thought was dead coming back to life inside the hollow box that was his chest. for months now, the redhead just knew that his heart was no longer there. instead, it must've been put inside a bottle and thrown away into the ocean that separated his emotions from his rational mind, as if he wasn't even the owner of his own feelings.

“please, princess, don't cry. i’m begging you.”

the cruelty of your mind wouldn't give you a break for not even a single second ever since the last time you've heart mark’s melodious voice so close to your ear, and the fact that it carried the same heavy tone of request didn't help with your genuine desire to stop your sobbings as your face was pressed against his chest. in that moment, the last thing on your mind were the looks that other people could be directing at the two of you; you could only see the desperation all over the face of the only man you've ever truly loved. he was in such pain that day — the day you told him you didn't want to see him anymore. soon, though, that image was replaced with the memory of the gut-wrenching feeling of chronic emptiness that filled your chest the following week and you came to your senses that you had make a mistake, but that it was also too late: mark was in another country, it was far too late to ask for forgiveness.

“i know you probably hate me right now. i shouldn't have done that, i shouldn't have said that, i was such an idiot, stupid… i'm sorry, mark, i don't know what was going on in my mind to treat like that, i-”

that sobbing wouldn't allow you to form coherent sentences properly and the way you were crying so helplessly was becoming melancholic instead of just sad to the man holding you. if only mark could get into your merciless head just how he would never be able to hate you, not in a million years, not when there was so much love, desire and adoration intrinsic to the image he had of you, then maybe that big gray cloud would disappear forever and the two of you could just live like he hoped for. all mark wanted was to have the privilege of loving you again.

“y/n, look at me” mark held the red and tear wet face of his beloved girl with kindness while his tone of voice was filled with all the firmness the moment could ask for. “for christ’s sake, y/n, i love you. i could never hate you. dude, really, for once just keep your head out of this and focus on what i’m telling you right now. i love you and this whole time i was thinking of you. only you.”

even if he knew you wouldn't answer anything for a few seconds, or maybe even minutes, mark just allowed a sweet smile to appear on his lips while he delighted himself with the feeling of being allowed to hold your face once again, to stroke your cheeks and to place small, delicate kisses all over your beautiful face — which he knew would force your breathing to slow down, giving you the chance to calm down again. the canadian was smelling like the combination of weed and beer, but somehow, your body knew how to identify the familiar and characteristic smell of his cologne; the same smell your searched for and ached for during the coldest nights, when missing him was too overwhelming it almost felt like a hole was being digged up in your chest. that familiarity was the reason for the shy smile that took over your lips, that opened a breach for light and happiness after all those tears while mark traced your lips with his thumb, admiring you like you were some kind of artwork created just for him.

“i was made to stay just like this with you, princess. and i’m not leaving this time.”

[razorblade180]

9 days of Lancaster Day 9: Firsts

Ruby:(Don’t over complicate this. Don’t do it. Just relax… relax…)

Jaune:Uh Rubes?

Ruby:Y-Yes!?

Jaune:Are you gonna hit retry or…

She turns her head and notices they’re on they’re on the ranking screen. When did the match end!? Ruby finally hits continue. Jaune can’t help but chuckle a little as he leans back against Blake’s bed.

Ruby:What’s so funny?

Jaune:You seem a little lost in thought. Thinking of a way of outplaying me?

Ruby:I introduced you to this game. I know your skills.

Jaune:And yet I out rank you.

Ruby:Because you’re such a try hard! I’ve been busy on missions.

Jaune:Yeah that’s fair. It’s nice that you finally have time off. I would’ve thought your team would be knocked out for days. I was little shocked when you said you planned an all day video game date.

Ruby:I begged a little. Also called in a few favors. Weiss just needed a nice place to sleep, Blake is flexible and I became a pouty little sister for Yang.

Jaune:Qualities of a true leader.

Ruby:Shut up! I’m just happy you didn’t procrastinate on any assignments.

Jaune:Pyrrha said she’d add Nora to my training if I did.

Ruby:Yeah that would get me moving too. Soooo you’re really free ?

Jaune:Yep, I’m all yours for the day. Any game you need a partner in, I’ll help you see credits.

Ruby:…And if we get tired of games?

Jaune:We got movies. There’s a couple good ones that came while you were away. Or ones you’ll force me to watch.

Ruby:Stop acting like you don’t like horror.

Jaune:It really isn’t an act. But you planned all this and who am I to not appreciate that.

Ruby:So you’re done for anything?

Jaune:Yep!

Ruby:*red* Even…oh I don’t know, sleeping together?

Jaune’s hands stopped pressing buttons and Ruby managed to send him to the loser screen. It wasn’t intentional but a small boost of confidence as she turned her head right to see him looking at her with a flushed red face.

Ruby:Don’t make it weird!

Jaune:Me!? What!? You just- context please! Was that a ploy to win!?

Ruby:I’m not that petty! Look I just…. *plays with hair* thought maybe we should discuss that idea. We’ve been together for almost five months and it’s been really great! It’s felt a little weird though that you never seemed to make a move or bring up “that”

Jaune: Do I really give off that sorta vibe? I had no idea.

Ruby:I’m not saying you do, but between how you used to try flirting with Weiss and our casual conversations, it didn’t feel like you weren’t into more intimate things. Ugh, I really don’t know what I’m saying at this point! I guess a part of me felt a little confused and worried if you weren’t interested in me in that way at all.

Jaune:Oh I have had thoughts, but i know how to keep them to myself.

Ruby:….

Jaune:*blushing* That’s normal and decent behavior! Why, are you interested?

Ruby:Of course! I organized I room date to give you the opportunity to-

Saying it aloud made it sound way more embarrassing and forward than Ruby meant for it to be. And pulled her hood over her head and huffed in defeat as she stared down at her lap.

Jaune:….Does your team know about this?

Ruby:Blake does. She said her bed is fair game. Those are actually my sheets right now. As far as Yang is concerned, I asked for privacy so we can have our first kiss.

Jaune:We’ve made out a bunch of times.

Ruby:I’m very sneaky when I want to be. Look, I get this is a lot I’m dropping on you and we don’t have to do anything today. I just…really wanted to know where I stand with you and to let you know that…I’m okay with going further with you. *crimson* I really like you. A lot.

Jaune:…This question may sound a little dumb all things considering, but I have to hear it. I get that you’re okay with it, but do you want to have sex with me? As in your are looking forward to it?

Ruby:…Very much, yeah.

Jaune:….Hold on just one moment.

He took her scroll and walked out of the room. Ruby wanted to scream until she passed out. Why did she start this conversation!? Was it too forward!? They were having such a good time before this moment. Why did he leave!?

So many thoughts bombarded her brain and they didn’t stop when she heard the door unlock again. Her scroll flew into her lap so she knew it was him. Seconds later, a box of condoms fell into her lap. Her brain took a moment to process what she was looking at then her head immediately jerked up to see Jaune bright red and also avoiding her gaze.

Jaune: Nora may have helped me find female ones too, as well as emergency pills.

Ruby:Ah, I see. How proactive. Well…*twiddles fingers* Weiss may have helped me find a pay for some quality meds awhile go.

Jaune:Huh, imagine that.

Ruby:Yeeeep. Jaune, can you look at me?

Jaune:*makes eye contact*

Ruby:Soooo are we…still playing video games right now?

Jaune:…..

xxxxxx

Blake:*eating noodles*

Yang:You think the date is going well?

Weiss:Yes. *eating cake*

Yang:Really think she’ll go for a kiss?

Blake:Ruby can dive into a Nevermore’s mouth. She’ll find the willpower to kiss a boy.

Yang:….Maybe I should call t-

Weiss:Yang, as a younger sister myself, I appreciate my older sister. However, if she interrupted me on a date with a call or coming home early, I’m going to be mad for a very long time. Eat your burger and relax. Ruby will be fine.

Yang: I know, ugh! It’s like I’m antsy for her. Gods, if I’m like this now then I don’t know if I can handle her asking about sex.

Blake and Weiss:Don’t worry about that now.

[daddynattt]

“I’m not cut out for this.”

Nat x Reader

Better off without you

Summary: When you confront Natasha for being distant, she says some things that she can never take back, causing the two of you to go your separate ways.

Pairings: Natasha Romanoff x Reader / Future Wanda Maximoff x Reader

Warnings: angst, Natasha is an ass, hurtful words, insecurities, one brief mention of cheating, fluff with happy ending

Word Count: 1.1k words

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“Nat? Can I talk to you for a second?” you couldn’t hide the nervousness in your tone, your question instantly alerting Natasha. For the past couple of weeks, Natasha has been distant and quiet, and it has gotten to the point where you can’t take it anymore. You’ve asked yourself questions like “Does she not love me anymore?” or “Is there someone else and she’s cheating on me?” These questions have been running through your mind all day every day for the last couple of weeks and it has been driving you up the wall. You don’t believe either of them for a second, but you know it will only get worse if it doesn’t get resolved.

“Of course, is everything okay?” you laughed to yourself, the confusion on her face causing you to shake your head in disbelief. How clueless can she be? “Is everything okay? Is- of course everything is not okay! You have been cold, and distant, and you’re never around anymore! I stay up late every night, alone in our bed, wondering what I am doing wrong or if you don't love me anymore or if you are cheating on me, so no! Everything is not okay!” Natasha frowns as she properly looks at you. You have bags under your eyes, you look slimmer and overall, you just don't look happy or healthy.

“Look Y/n I-” you cut her off, the anger from the last few weeks that’s been bottled up inside you, coming out full force. “No! Do you know how worthless I feel? How many times have I asked myself what I did wrong, or what I am doing wrong? And you just don’t care! You’re never here! You-” “I don’t love you anymore!” your rant is cut short at her outburst, your heart dropping at her words. “W-what?” Natasha sighs, and runs her hands through her hair as she looks at you. “I don’t love you anymore okay? I thought… I thought I could give you what you wanted and what you were asking for but I can’t. I’m not cut out for this” you wish she didn't get the satisfaction of seeing you cry, but you can’t help it and here you are, looking like an idiot, crying in front of the woman you love who you thought loved you back, but turns out it was all a lie.

“You knew all this time that you didn’t love me anymore and you couldn’t say anything? Yet here I am looking like a fucking fool in front of our friends, crying myself to sleep every night wondering what I did wrong, and you couldn’t say anything? You’re such a coward Natasha!” Natasha scoffs, raising her hands in the air as she paces around. “I can’t say anything to you! You’re so sensitive and emotional all the time and I didn’t know how to tell you! I don’t love you anymore because you bring me down! You’re weak and… I am not cut out to be with someone like you” her words cut you deeper than a knife, your heart breaking at the reality of it all. She thinks you’re weak. She thinks you’re just a useless civilian dating an Avenger. All you’ve ever done was be there for her through every battle, you were patient and understanding, showed her the love she deserved, but to her it wasn’t enough.

“Y/n I-” you put your hand up to cut her off, a sad smile on your face as you look at her. “Don’t. It all makes sense now. But you know what Natasha? I am not weak. I am better than you will ever be. You’re an asshole and you will never find someone like me. Don’t ever speak to me again” you grab your keys and make your way out of your shared apartment, getting into your car and driving to the Avengers compound.

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“She said what? oh I am gonna kill her when I see her!” you grab onto Wanda’s arm to stop her movements, looking up at her with sad eyes. “Don’t Wanda, It’s not worth it. She said exactly how she felt and all I can do is move on” Wanda wraps her arms around you, holding you close to her body as she hugs you and lets you cry into her chest. “Shh it’s okay sweetheart, I won’t let her or anyone hurt you again okay? Let it out I’m right here” You let all your emotions out as you cry into Wanda’s chest, feeling a sense of comfort being in her arms as she says sweet nothings into your ear and runs her hand up and down your back as she slowly calms you down.

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“Hey! Oh you little shit!” You giggle as you run around the kitchen island, going the opposite direction from her each time she moves, the flour in your hand gone as you threw it onto Wanda as the two of you make cookies together in the compound's kitchen. Months have passed since that day you and Natasha broke up, and you and Wanda have grown closer each and every day since. She helped you move on from Natasha, but now you have a new problem on your hands as you caught feelings for her. You will never tell her though, the words Natasha told you that night lingering in your mind each time you think of Wanda in that way, as you believe that Wanda wouldn’t like a regular civilian like you either. So lost in your head, and oblivious to the grin on Wanda’s face as your thoughts were so loud she couldn’t help but hear them, happy to know you feel the same way and that you are more than just a regular civilian, and she is going to do everything she can to show you how special you are and how you deserve to be treated.

She grabs onto you as she catches you, wrapping her arms around your waist and pulling you into her, rubbing her flour covered face and hair all over you, laughing as you squeal and try to get away. Her grip on you is strong, and you admit defeat, a light blush on your cheeks at your close proximity, you look up at her and smile, the two of you looking into each other's eyes as you both slowly lean in, her lips meeting yours in a soft kiss.

As you and Wanda share a soft, passionate kiss, you fail to see Natasha walking away as she sees the scene unfold in front of her. She can’t help the tears that fall, realizing that she has truly lost you for good, and she will forever live with the regret of all the things she told you that she didn't mean, and that you will never be hers again. Because at the end of the day you were right, she will never find someone like you again.