#i'm just having cravings but like rly bad ones

[rnaeborowski]

i want burger :(

[berrieluv]

could u write a fic where peter and reader r having sex and he s rly rough but at some point he hurts her bc of his powers he got after the spider bite? and then he just takes care of her and its cute n soft <3333

Peter Parker x fem!Reader

cw. mentions of sex.

It didn't start as it usually did. Peter seemed eager, in a way he always is, but he's usually soft, gentle, your skin could burn for the way his body craved you.

Now it was burning because of his not so gentle touch. His fingers were now marked on your hips and his movements were faster, rougher.

You were enjoying yourself at the beginning, you really were. You liked this animalistic side of Peter, you liked the way he entered your through your room door, he tossed his backpack to the floor and got rid of his jacket, his glasses ended on your desk and now you were here.

Reaching what you thought was your third orgasm of the night? You couldn't keep track of it, not when your body was shaking and your pussy aching. Peter was usually good reading you, he knew when you wanted something and when you don't.

"Peter?"

You tried calling him, you wanted to tell you that the tears weren't from the pleasure, you wanted him to understand that the way that he called you a 'whore' made you so sad. You definitely weren't in the mood for any of this.

"Peter..."

You stay quiet for a few minutes until you felt him pulling out, you felt a weird relief, it was when he broke back that you felt you had enough.

You flinched at his touch, you pushed him away with your hands and pushed him further with your legs, he looked at you confused and he started to feel the guilt eating him alive when he saw your face.

"Baby..." You look at him, waiting for him to talk. You weren't mad at him, he may misread you but it wasn't like he purposely ignored your wishes. "Baby, what's wrong?"

You wanted to talk, to tell him what was wrong, that it was too much, he was too rough, he went too far.

"When did you get so strong?"

Of course the last thing you wanted was to make him feel bad, so you tried a subtly way. Peter froze, because he knew why he was rough, everything seemed to be too much, being Spider-Man, school, his only safe place in a whole city was you and he just wanted to forget.

He didn't address the question, instead he answered with another one;

"Did I hurt you?"

You nod slowly and watch as his face decomposes. He looks so sad and you feel so guilty, he just wanted to have a good time with you, with his girlfriend, and you were ruining everything.

"I'm sorry" you say first and he frowns.

"Sorry? Baby, no, I– I'm sorry, I'm the one who's sorry, I hurt you and I– God, I don't think I could ever forgive myself... I– " He opened his arms and you smiled lightly, finding your way to his chest "I'm usually so good at knowing when you want thing"

"It was one time"

"Never again, baby" He kisses your head "I'll be double checking on anything, and I swear... anything"

"S'alright, Pete"

"Kissie?"

[dynamightimagines]

May we have some hc's for Bakugo with a flirty s/o?

I rise from the dead to post this and probably disappear for like another two years LOL but it's ok I'm rly into Bakugo rn :)

Bakugo with a flirty! S/O!

When he first encountered you, he thought you were utterly annoying

Especially since this 'encounter' was just him overhearing you flirting with damn near everyone in class

"You always make my heart float, Uraraka!" "Kaminari, you are electrifying"

"Anyone tell you that you are smokin'?" now they were directed at him, and if they were gonna be, atleast pull a good one out

But unfortunately like every other dimwit in class, you stuck to him like glue

and the flirts kept coming

"You really blow me away" "C'mon, just one date, I can feel a real spark between us!"

Your advances were frequent and terrible, but he learned to tune it out like he did with every other idiot he hung out with

Until he overheard Kaminari and Kirishima complaining one day at lunch while you were discussing an assignment with Aizawa

"Man it's not fair! She used to love me, now she's only all over Bakugo!"

This made him perk up, you only now did it to him?

He started paying more attention to your flirts, and realized they had become solely for him, and much more serious

"You have the most intense motivation, can I motivate you too?" "Eyes like those should be allowed to rest once in a while, don't push yourself too hard~"

The sudden attention and seriousness of it all slowly broke his walls, until you finally woo'd him into a date that he swore was out of pity

but that was seven months ago, and your relationship AND flirts are still going strong

"Babe, let's go out! I promise to keep my hands off of you~" "You look so amazing in your hero costume, I wonder what it would look like on the floor-"

Those ones get you a hand over your mouth as he drags you away from everyone else, his entire face steaming with embarrassment

But he won't admit he secretly craves your jabs, the confidence and pride he gets in knowing that you really think all of those things

And that you only say those things to him

He knows you will never stop saying them, he just hopes your wedding vows are somewhat appropriate

He loves all the flirtatious comments you make, the winks you send across the room

Until everyone makes fun of him for it, and he has to blow them up.

Gah I feel like this one is SHIT but in my defense I haven't written anything in like two years-

I realize I write in a weird mix of HC style and story style, my bad it's weird :3 Goodnight!

[t-a-k-a-k-o]

Heyyy can I ask for weight loss tips ?

Yeah! I have a few but idk if they work, it's just a couple things I have done, so yeah (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)

Log ur food BEFORE eating, it is easier to stick by that way

Walking is SO much better than running, it's low impact (so it's easier for injured ppl :D) and u can keep it up much longer than a run

A brisk walk can burn more than a run, my favorite (on a treadmill) is ~4.0 mph (~6.4 km/h), it is pretty easy to stick to, you work up a light sweat, and it burns abt 250 cal per hour

Take SMALL sips of water between each bite of food, like hold a cup with a straw, take a bite with one hand and sip with the other, if it's in ur hand (or at the edge of the table) it makes it easier, at first I would take like gulps but even just enough to wet ur tongue works

Portion ur snacks, if u have a big bag of like veggie chips portion it into the recommended serving size or whatever amount u want, otherwise u might eat more and it's harder to control urself, if it's in containers or little bags whatever, just portion

Eat ur healthy food first, if u have a balanced meal eat ur vegetables and fruit first, then move up for calories, so eat ur food lowest cal to highest bc u might get full from the lower cal stuff first, save some fruit for the end of ur meal tho so ur mouth feels clean and the reason why ppl eat dessert/crave sweetness after eating is because their body is craving fruit to aid digestion

Try little workout apps (yk the stupid ones like "lose weight in 30 days) it may not be much but it gets u to burn a few extra calories in a short time if ur busy, they are fairly easy and beginner friendly, and depending on which one u can actually feel them work if u want to burn more than just a bit, it also holds u accountable

Adjust ur calorie limit by weight, if u lose like 10 lbs (4.5 kg) u can't consume the same amount of calories bc ur maintenance amount is lower now and u will plateau

I recently started this, but have a weight tracker on ur body, I have a chain that I put on like permanent jewelry around my waist, it's like African waist beads or I think in Latin America they use like a string, it makes it so if u don't know when to stop eating it will tell u by the way ur stomach expands

DRINK DRINK DRINK WATER, I try to drink at LEAST a US gallon (~4 l) every day

OMAD is one of the BEST things if u live with family, skip ur insignificant meals and the one ur family most often sits together/finds "important" is the one u eat

If ur at home and ur craving food, take a shower, take a shower, take a couple hours for self care, pamper ur skin a bit, by the time ur done u will feel fresh and the craving will probably be gone

Try to not "give up" like if u have eaten like crap and u want a cookie try to not be like "oh well I'm doing bad enough today anyway" personally that just leads to more guilt and purg1ng

Ok this one may sound a bit weird, but gaslight urself, after eating some and the feeling in ur stomach changes be like "omg I'm so full" and keep saying it aloud, and if u eat more u will lowkey be shamed by others bc they will say stuff like "I thought u were full", gaslight urself into being like "I don't feel hungry" I do those two a lot but, gaslight urself into liking things, disliking things, putting in effort, etc.

This one rly made me work out, if I am laying in bed and I am a bit (even just a teeny TINY bit) restless I tell myself "if I'm just gonna scroll [Tumblr] I might as well walk while I do it" and then I consciously get up, walk into my basement, and on this treadmill we got (it was free from a friend and the middle is broken but it functions enough, and it's still snowing where I live), it doesn't matter what u wear, as long as u can make urself get up u and exercise it's a win (esp with depression lol), I have worked out in nice little workout clothes to rly give the vibes but I have also worked out in pajamas, my 16 km walk for my birthday I did on the treadmill in fluffy socks (I got rly bad blisters so I don't recommend it but it turned out fine, I was planning on a short little walk but it just extended a whole lot) just getting urself up is a win so whatever it takes, do it

If u have workout equipment at home, u don't have to raw dog it, listen to music, read a book, scroll on Tumblr, etc. no one says u can't

In my experience eating even a bit during a fast just leads into temptation, I do better when I don't eat at all than eating a bit bc after I eat a bit I see how hungry I am

That was a lot but those r the ones I can think of off the top of my head, if I remember more I can post more if u want, but yk what? Don't feel bad, ik it sounds stupid but it rly is the best thing u can do, if u binge move on, it's in the past, if u r not able to get up and exercise that's ok, just by being ur beautiful self u burn calories, if ur exhausted and u need something to run on eat a snack, it's better to be able to keep going than drown

I don't know if anyone will rly make it all the way down here but I just want u all to know u r loved by sooo many ppl no matter what u look like, every single one of u are art and art is in the eye of the beholder, I hope ur fast goes easy and u lose a kilo before u step on a scale again

Ily all and stay safe ♡♡♡

[chaostudee]

kiss me more ; rafe cameron

pairing : rafe cameron x female reader summary : you and rafe are in a secret relationship. words : 1.6k warnings : none? a/n : im down so bad for this man it is not even okay at this point tbh. btw this is rly rushed so ye excuse the spelling.

at first you didn't mind. sure at times the sneaking around could be fun and yeah those stolen glances across the room made your heart race. although you were satisfied with your relationship with rafe you craved more.

you wanted him to kiss you in front of your friends. you wanted him to introduce you as his girlfriend. you wanted to meet his parents. you wanted it all.

yet there was an underlying issue. nobody would be surrportive of your relationship with you being a pogue and him being a kook. along with that John b( your brother) would never forgive you considering what rafe hade put him through.

you could understand your brothers hatred towards him but rafe had changed, for the better. he had promised that he would be better for you and he had kept that promise.

"hey pretty girl" rafe rasps as he pulls you closer to him, his hands held firmly on your hips and with that placing a kiss upon your forehead.

you cherished the mornings spent with rafe. it was the only time you could truly be intimate with one another without the pressure of hiding your love for one another.

"hey baby" you whisper tracing your finger up his chest. he smiled down at you his hands combing through your morning hair.

"you look so beautiful"

"shut uppp". secretly you liked the attention and rafe knew this but he'd never adress it.

"never".

you roll over,, pulling from his grasp to check the time. you had a miny panick attack when you remembered that you were due at work in less than an hour.

"shit shit shit" you murmur quickly sitting up and swinging your legs out of bed.

rafe groans when he feels your presence leave his grasp. "baby whats wrong?" he asks, sitting up when he sees you pacing the room looking for your shoes.

"im going to be late for work.....do you know where my shoes are?".

"baby just call in sick please come back to bed".

you scoff. rafe had been given everything to him. he never worked a day in his life. it annoyed you at times that he didn't understand that you came from different backgrounds.

"i have to go in today, you know some people don't leave off there dad's money". you muttered your words but someone rafe still heard them.

it hurt like hell to hear those words, especially from you. he knew that money wasn't something that you took for granted on the cut.

you pick up your shoes from under the bed and sit down on a nearby chair to slip them on.

"your right i'm sorry". rafe is leaning on one elbow on the bed his body facing towards you. god he looked good. but that wouldn't distract you from your values.

when he doesn't get a response to his apology rafe takes it upon himself to get out of the bed and walk over to you. just as he was about to kneel to meet your height on the chair you get up heading towards to door.

"wait y/n please".

you pause at the entryway and look back at him.

he walks over to you, placing his hands on your arms.

"im sorry my love, please forgive me because i cant spend the rest of the day knowing that you hate me"

"i dont hate you" you whisper.

"Okay....."

"im sorry too i maybe overreacted"

rafe displays a small smile.

"so i'm forgiven?"

you roll your eyes but can't help but smile back at your beautiful boy.

"i guess" you say sarcastically.

"kiss me" he instructs.

you step onto your tiptoes before planting a soft kiss on his lips. you pull back but his hand takes your waist and pulls you back to his lips.

"Rafe-"

he cuts you off with another forceful kiss.

"I gotta-"

rafe pulls back planting one more kiss on your cheek before letting you leave.

"see you tonight yeah?"

"yeah of course".

"do you want me to pick you up"

"rafe...."

"oh yeah sorry...."

"it's okay baby i appreciate the gesture"

"y/n i don't know if-

"what?"

"nothing nevermind"

"love you!" he calls after you.

"ditto".

you can't stop yourself from smiling to yourself. how did you get this lucky. but then you were brought back to reality. nobody knew that he was yours.

:::

you wanted nothing more than to be held in his arms right now. you wanted his jacket around yor shoulders, you wanted his hand caressing yours but all you got were stolen glances and small smiles.

you had only been here an hour but it was becoming torture. even sarah sensed there was something up with you

"hey you okay?" she asks giving you a nudge bringing your attention away from him.

you nod nervously, drumming your fingers on the beer bottle.

"really? you know you can tell me anything right?"

"i'm sure" you say more confidently this time.

she clicks her tongue and opens her mouth as if she is about to say something but she is stopped when she hears a scream to her left.

you both look over in the direction to find someone had gotten into a fight. everyone at the party had begun to gather around causing you and sarah to do the same.

you gasped when you saw two familiar faces. rafe stood with his fists bared with john b reciprocating his stance. your brother took the first punch but rafe was too late to swerve and john b's fist collided with his jaw.

you shuddered. rafe lunged at john b, pushing him down to the ground.

"don't you ever speak about y/n like that again".

at the mention of your name your heart clenches. you didn't want to be the cause of this.

before you knew what you were doing you ran up to john b just as he was about to get another punch at rafe.

john b immediatley steps back when he sees you. you have anything to say to him. not now anyways. turning away you look up at rafe. god he still looked gorgeous even with a bloody nose.

now suddenly aware that everyone was watching you took rafes hand and pulled him through the crowd. you walk past a confused sarah and an even more confused jj. pope and kiara gave you knowing grins.

you halt to a stop when you are out of earhsot of everybody else.

"i'm so sorry baby" you whisper as you trace your down the back of his neck.

"for what?" rafe asks carressing your cheek. you pull his hand away.

you gesture to his nose and then his bloody wrist.

"baby no that's not your fault" rafe reassures you as he takes your hand in his.

"so that fight was nothing to do with me?".

rafe sighs and runs his hand across his face.

"fuck y/n i couldn't just let him say those things about you"

you gulp. ".....what did he say?".

"y/n....."

"rafe tell me".

he sighs. "he said that you were nothing but a burden to him and that you acted like a slut-"

he stops talking when he sees a tear fall on yoir cheek. god it broke him to see you like this.

"baby no please don't cry he was drunk he didn't mean it".

you laugh. "john b always means what he says".

god you hated him. you know what fuck this you thought.

you gesture to rafe to follow you. he does.

the boneyard is near empty except for the pogues. rafe is hesitant in following you when he sees john b stand up at your arrival.

you glare at your brother but don't speak until rafe is stood beside you. you look up at him and smile, slipping your fingers through his as you do.

sarah gasps and then jj and both point at you and then one another.

john b scoffs. "are you being so for real y/n, this kook, i don't approve".

rafe's grip tightens around your hand but you put a hand on his chest to sooth him.

"let me handle this" you whisper to him.

he was reluctent in obeying but when those eyes made him somehow nod in response.

"i don't give a fuck if you don't approve john b, i never asked for your approval, all i ask is that you respect my decision and that you respect rafe".

"GET IT IG" kiara shouts and you give her a wink.

"oh fuck this" john b says in response before turning to walk the other way. you know he had been depressed lately because of your dad but that gave him no right.

"did you just win that fight?" pope asks.

"i think you did babes" rafe says and he smiles. he smiles so wide that you can't stop yourself from smiling back.

for now this was enough. john b knew and the pogues knew and it wouldn't be lomg before eveeybody knew.

"kiss me" you tell him.

he hesitates knowing that there are people nearby.

"KISS HER" jj and sarah say. they were definetly now your no.1 shippers.

at that rafe did exactly just that. you pulled you close and set his lips on yours. the kiss was lustful and slow and you wanted to stay like this forever. it was like it was just the two of you on that beach. but you were glad it wasn't. you wanted everybody to know that he was yours and you were his.

pulling away rafe kisses your forehead before resting his head against your own.

"you okay?".

"never been better".

[reimissme]

Y'all if someone acc reads this, i just hate that i don't give a f●ck abt being hungry like it's not the reason i eat sm candy/other unhealthy stuff but it's the cravings like looking at that drawer in my room where i know there is snacks and then trying to say no is so hard i don't know if anyone has this same problem and i can't just stop buying it bc it is my bad habit to go to the store and see other ppl buying stuff knowing i'm the only one who'll not £@t it and like watching other ppl £@t are just things that are part of me and i would lose w£igh+ so much faster if it weren't for these things and like ig i can say no to food but bc i live w my parents i usually have to eat or make them think i'll eat atleast one meal a day and like the only thing i just wanna eat are those snacks in that mf ing drawer i rly need help woth this like i'm going crazy rn

[mystic-headcanons]

mystic characters + what taylor swift album i'd think they'd like

what's up gamers it's been like two or three years since i've touched this blog but i'm hyperfixated on mystic again and taylor swift, so. heeeeere we go. under the cut because this became a lot longer than i actually wanted it to T_T

i think zen's favorite album would be 1989. i literally don't have any reason other than style has the cuntiest opening out of any of her songs and i think zen would obsess over it for weeks. you could find him humming it in between rehearsals and throwing it on repeat while he works out. along with style, he'd love clean, this love, and bad blood the most.

yoosung's favorite album is fearless, hands down. he has a very fairytale-esque view on love, and songs like love story and today was a fairytale and untouchable fit that view. while they're not on any of his main playlists, they are on all of the playlists he's made for you. if he's missing you especially hard, then he likes to listen to those specific songs and just. lay there and think about you. he rly is just a teenage girl in a twenty-something year old body.

saeyoung's favorite album would absolutely be speak now. it's whimsical and fantastical and just a little melancholy and sad, and i think it fits his vibe perfectly. he'll put on innocent when he needs to be reminded that he can change, that he can be better than he has been; he'll play castles crumbling when he's in a particularly self-loathing mood. and enchanted gets played on a loop the first time he meets you-- it got so bad that vanderwood threatened to tase him unless he shut it off.

jumin's taste in music is sophisticated and, often times, just straight up classical music. he wouldn't have sought out her music on his own-- maybe he became interested because you listened to paris, or perhaps he heard anti-hero on the radio in one of the rare times that driver kim has the radio on. whatever the reason, it was enough to pique his interest in her. midnights would be his favorite album- and the only one he'd listen to in its entirety. you're on your own kid would be his go-to song, but midnight rain, would've could've should've, and dear reader are all tied for second.

jaehee would love folklore. she'd be a casual taylor fan- not really fond of the singles or the hits, but would enjoy her deeper cuts. folklore would be the first album where she loved every song. this is me trying would play on a loop if jaehee was stressed or had a particularly hard day. the lakes would be her all-time favorite song, but mad woman and cardigan would be close. invisible string is near and dear to her heart because every time she hears it, she can't help but think of you.

saeran's favorite album is reputation, but not for the obvious reasons. while he does enjoy it for its darker sound, reputation is his favorite because it's about finding love in the middle of all the darkness and anger. new year's day would be his absolute favorite song- and the one that he associates with you the most. the 'i'm there through it all, through the good and the bad, and i'll help clean up any metaphorical mess you make' message is what had set it aside from any other song, and saeran listens to it on repeat on all of his bad days. he also really enjoys ready for it, don't blame me, and dancing with our hands tied.

jihyun's favorite album is lover. while he'd really enjoy her other albums, lover spoke to him in ways that the others didn't. the archer and afterglow would be tied for all time favorite song- the archer because it speaks to his generalized anxiety, and afterglow because he especially has anxiety within romantic relationships- always had, but it became intense after rika. he craves a love that is soft and delicate, so daylight would absolutely be up there with the archer and afterglow. daylight gets played often once you and him start dating, and he can and will listen to it for hours while thinking of you or cuddling with you. (you've listened to it so much that you could probably play the entire thing by ear.)

[droolysub]

afternoon babbles! this post will be all over the place and mostly talk about my day so far

so this morning i refilled the bird feeder (by request of my landlord) so now all the birds have something to eat! 🐦 i was a little reluctant because she was the one who asked (maybe that goes to show how bratty i am) but it feels good seeing the hungry birds come by for a meal in the middle of winter. i feel like snow white~ kind of. i'm just wearing cute panties and a plush robe unlike snow white

rn i'm enjoying leftover soup that a wonderful, amazing daddy was sweet enough to order for my dinner last night 💞 it's so spicy and making my nose all runny 🤧 but warm and nutritious which is exactly what i craved/needed for my tummy

after i do all my dishes, i plan on bleaching my roots later today so that tomorrow i look ultra cute going back to school

i doooo have a few stationary items and a backpack that i rly would like to have for school on my wishlist if anybody is interested in helping me prepare (edit: still need this btw) 🥺

i'm happy i took as many cute pics as i did this morning

i even uploaded my first video on here. it's a shame tumblr is so strict otherwise i would've posted something naughtier for you guys. hmmmmmmm.... i do have a bad dragon that i could drool on instead........ dang that's a good idea write that down write that down!

living here is pure hell but i'm doing my best to make it work and romanticize it when i can 😩 it's the little things that keep me going... things like warm meals and being able to take care of myself when everybody leaves for work. when it's just me at home and passive aggressive texts can be blocked out 💖

playing with horny daddies as a treat tonight sounds like it'll be well earned. not sure when i'll get around to it but i need to soon 🥵 i'm in the mood to be a mindless little fcktoy... it's too much to think today

[mac-and-thefox]

HA here is the daily check-in !!

wasn't able to leave one yesterday since, you know, i'm freaking sick and yesterday it was rly bad the whole day -.- but eyyy i'm definitely getting better, i was able to get out of bed a lot earlier this morning and my head doesn't hurt anymore yayy ^o^ my throat still fucking aches tho, i literally don't have a voice and i can't breath trough my nose rly well but its a LOT better :3

so how are you? i hope your day was wonderful so far ^-^ did you eat? don't forget to do so and also stay hydrated !! do u like pancakes? i'm rly craving some pancakes rn wtf

i also had an idea for a fic earlier, gotta tell u about it cuz i'm not sure if it's a good one 👀

lemme leave u this cutie here, it's a Snow Leopard, my spirit animal :3 https://pin.it/2hUfTON they're my fav animals i LOVE them (besides bats, dogs, hawks and rats and i mean i love all kinds of cats)! their tails are super long (it can be longer than their own body) and fluffy af! they often carry it in their mouth and also sleep on it so they don't get cold at night it's so cuuuute (Phantom does that to ngl) i think if i would be an animal, i would be either a black cat, a snow leopard or a bat XD whats your spirit animal?

anyways, feel hugged, don't forget we all love you and appreciate you being around <3

~yami

Sorry for answering this so late....

My day was good, it was okay. I forgot to bring my earplugs on this trip and the plane for both of my flights were very loud and then with work after getting home I might have overdone it energy wise because now i just feel drained.

I'm so excited for your fic, I think it's going to be so good💙

Thank you for the snow leopard. It's so cute 💙💙

I have been told that my spirit animal Is a cat.

I appreciate you and I'm grateful for you.

[jeansyvesmoreau]

hi! this is your secret santa from @ithinkheknowss Swiftie Secret Santa 2023!! i hope you are having a great day!! as for yesterday, I'm so so so sorry you had a bad day, I'm glad it's over, the wcs breakdown is so real tho ngl.

I do have Spotify and I just looked up the GO audiobook and OMG that's so cool, I'm definitely going to start it soon!

I'm glad! I love sending them, especially for stuff like this, I've had alot of fun with it so far! But if I need to miss I day I will!

Yeah I got TBOSAS right after it came out too and I reread the Hunger Games before I read it and then halfway through Mockingjay I discovered fanfic and so... I kind of never got around to reading it. But I read it recently before the movie, and as good of a movie as it is, it doesn't do Snow's unhingedness, judegyness, and horribleness enough justice. I just feel like a lot of that stuff rests in his thoughts yk? Like how he talks about how amazing Tigriss is but then immediately says she isn't that pretty, and other stuff like that yk?

I love your music taste, I rly love Taylor (ofc), I also really love Hozier, Noah Kahan, Gracie Abrams, Olivia Rodrigo, Sabrina Carpenter, boygenius, I love them solo too but out of the three I mostly listen to Pheobe, and kinda out of left field but The Weekend. The kayne hate is real, me too!

ANYWAY, as for today, I was wondering what your favorite non-taylor song?

✨❤️🎄

xoxo,

your secret santa

hey! I'm better today dw, hope you're doing alright as well <3

yeah a lot of time the monologue gets lost onscreen, he's literally such an unreliable narrator in the book and all his self-contradictory thoughts make him a good villain because he has a certain level of self-awareness that he craves the power and control but the next thing you know he's talking about rejecting it and running off with lucy gray, but the thing is that without all those thoughts he can seem redeemable you know? except that it's clear that in the book from the first chapter that he is a dick and will continue to be a dick after that

oooh I've listened to some noah and hozier as well! not like a massive amount, but a fair bit. I've largely been listening to julien's solo work these days (and I'm a bit of a slut for her arms but that's unrelated ahdjkhkjhads) but I love all three of them individually and together.

hmmm that's a tough one since there's a huge amount of choices lmao, as of now it would probably be tough act by maisie peters or the grudge by olivia

[22degreehalo]

eugh and I am STILL struggling with what to do with fandoms on this tumblr

I know that everyone reblogs that post about how if your moot changes fandoms that's a-okay and you'll either accept or block this new spamming of some random character you've never heard of before. But I can't help feeling a bit bad about it.

TBH secretly, and I feel rly bad about it, but... I actually don't like it when people spam stuff I don't know anything about on tumblr. (Or reblogging the same post 5 times. Sorry.) It's just... empty clutter on my dash, which I too often use as a sorta dopamine IV for if I'm in desperate need of brain stimulation. (Not as much as I used to but still.)

But maybe that's just because I'm too hesitant to block tags. I'm finally starting to block fandom tags now and like at first I felt really bad like 'of all the fandoms you chose to block, that one?!' but now that I've done a few it's easier. It's not that I hate to see it it's just it interrupts my dashboard's flow.

But also just. I really do think that compared to most people the fandoms I go between tend to vary REALLY widely. Most people will go from e.g. fantasy video game fandom 1 to fantasy video game fandom 2 or whatever and there's a good chance fans of one will like the latter. And I know this sounds very 'I'm so quirky lolz' but just. objectively. I am pretty sure that Star Trek TOS -> Homestuck -> Little Busters! -> Supernatural -> American Revolution RPF -> Ensemble Stars! -> Fire Emblem (especially Genealogy of the Holy War) is. an unusual list of Main Fandoms.

And partly that is my brain's inherent craving for novelty. I *need* a certain level of Different Things, vaguely defined. Which explains why I tend to gravitate towards fandoms with a lot of different quirky characters (like Homestuck, Ensemble Stars! etc.) or Visual Novels, where each route registers as a Different Story in my brain so it's like I get five Different Things for one.

So I'll have, like. ONE fantasy game I play. But then I need to mix it up with other really different things. So I can get a multitude of vibes. Same thing with my fanfic: I'm constantly trying new things, and can't really get motivated to write something unless I feel like I couldn't easily read it somewhere (thus my total lack of creative motivation while I was into Supernatural).

Anyway the point of it is. I'm just too aware that my followers are real people, who presumably followed me for something they enjoy seeing on their dash. Probably just agreeing with my opinions in general. And in general I like to reblog things that I think people will. Like. Not in a 'This'll Do Numbers' way but in a 'I like contributing positively to a community' sort of way I guess.

But it's also a matter of post type. I mind much less when people write heaps of text posts or whatever about their stuff; sometimes it's fun to see analyses even of things I know nothing about, and I can feel their passion shining through. It's much more cluttery when people do heaps of e.g. fanart reblogs without commentary.

But then that's what sends me into stasis whenever I see a post I like and want to reblog but I feel like I have to Write Something Good Enough in the tags. Which is an inherently very very silly idea I know lmao. But it was honestly a bit freeing several months (years????? timye.) ago when I allowed myself to just hit reblog with no tags at all.

IDK like look I want to just be free and make my blog filled with nice things that I like but just like with masking I can't divorce myself from the context that these are things I'm sharing with real people. And maybe it's just a loneliness in me that because my tastes are so absurdly specific and radically Different it's hard to find other people who'll really relate to more than one or two of them.

Anyway thanks for coming to my TED Talk, this one's called 'thoughts about this blog I've had variously for the last five years or so which is funny because at some point that'll be more than half the life of my presence on tumblr lmao'

[brattyandwhorrible]

sept 26, 22.. Monday ~ Documentation..

Got in trouble today..

Was a bad girl, and messy girl according to Bannah.

I've switched up my usual daily substances.. so im feeling hella weird too.. the kind of Lockjaw high, the one where you have social anxiety or whatever and just don't want to be around anyone else....

I'm procrastinating calling my grandmother..

Haven't talked to Tristan..

Didn't report last month..

Don't know my date to report to my parole officer for october neither.

I am losing all of my weight.

I have been drinking daily since i got out damn near on aug 29th.

Being in pcola in this environment reminds me of nola and it makes me want to get high on what i want to get high on. I keep trying everything to curb those cravings that I'm having for this specific kandi and chopsticks I'm talking about but nothing feels like it's enough.

Am i moving to pcola?

Sav is mad bc i was going to meet up with her " 'Ex??' Best Friend " tonight with Kayla and just have some girl time, that was IF my savvy went back to pcola.. only bc she'd be gone and i just thought id get out so i don't fall asleep. ~~~~ Plus, i thought you expected me to say something to her about this bc you didn't wanna freak out.

Thats one of the issues right now is that i dont know what your expectations are of me... or if you even have any at all..

I feel like we need to be boo'd up asap and pillow talk while we stay vibed tf out.. we need to get on the same level yeah.

I'm feeling a slight tension thats getting thicker in the air and it's got to be fixed!

I know I'm a POS and i rly can't get off my mind how bad i rly just want rest. 💀

Ok now i been high and stuck af in the room for a minute now. Like couldn't get up if i wanted to pretty much, i mean I'm like super litty rn.. and a lil paranoid too I'm not gonna lie. I keep thinking I'm hearing cops outside and blue flashing lights in the window..

I rly need to go collect my Savvy from the outer areas of my comfort zone.. ~~~ I'm just too mf tense, socially awkward, delusional, and delirious, plus my senses have been taken from me ever so slightly..

I'm pretty sure i seriously need my keppra and Effexor back ASAP

[rebornologist]

i am craving kinky headcanons for the varia main team so bad.. pleaseee? :3

♡Kinky Varia Headcanons₊⁎⁺˳✧༚

I like to think that they're usually too busy to/are usually uninterested... but also... I crave the spice... sooo let's gooo

nsfw under the cut

WARNINGS: 18+!! blood, bdsm, knives, substance abuse (smoking, alcohol), asphyxiation, necrophilia, degradation (use of terms like sl*t, wh*re) dubcon undertones, somnophilia, etc. these ppl be messy broe

Xanxus

He has a lot of drunk sex, it helps him forget all the scummy things in the world that annoy him, until the sex also annoys him

He soaks in the squeals and cries of his partners, until he doesn't

And then he'll roughly shove his fingers in their mouth, or gag them with his tie (or their underwear if he's feeling particularly mean) and grumble that they "shut the fuck up like a good little slut, and don't cum until I say so"

Super rough, will pull hair,.. say goodbye to your scalps homies...

He doesn't canonically smoke, but he definitely seems like the type to need a smoke after the first one or two rounds,

If he's particularly interested in who he's with, he'll gruffly instruct them to turn their ass around and present themselves to him, even slipping back in while he's finishing his cigarette and continuing to fuck their brains out, a tight grip on their hair at the nape of their neck or curled around over their throat

If they cum before he tells him to, he'll even tap off some hot ash on their back, and deliver a hard spank to their reddening ass

He loves when they dress up in uniforms for him as well lolol and a bit of a thing for dumbification, what's the point of fucking if he's not going to fuck them silly

Superbi Squalo

Okay this isn't a kink but I'm convinced this man likes hitting it from the back, and isn't as loud as he usually is in public or else all his partners would be suffering hearing loss after the fact

He hates having his hair pulled or messed with in any way, and ties it back for sexy time hehehehe hot

A little bit of impact play helps him blow off steam after his usually stressful days, he likes smoothing his hand over the flesh of his partners, noticing the tremble in their thighs in anticipation

And he's cocky about it too, teasing them about how much they like being spanked by him, being such a greedy little whore

Okay this may not be his own kink but like, I'm sure all his partners are into leather just look at his pants lol

It doesn't help that he's willing to use a riding crop, even teasing about the lewd noises that the instrument elicits after each smack

He usually doesn't have that much time for these activities though, and finds the most fulfillment in just some really passionate, rough fucking

Which is why he likes mirrors

because he's hot as hell duh and he thinks it's so sexy to watch him plow into his lovers, their faces when they hit certain spots and the flush in their face as he mumbles about how well they take him, how much of a dirty slut they are, etc.

Belphegor

I pray for his partners and hope they aren't anemic because he's set on cutting them up and making them look nice and pretty, all marked up in red (with their consent of course)

No Bel without knifeplay, he makes sure that they're cleaned and sterile for safety, but once he starts seeing red he gives in to the (unsanitary) primal urge to lick up all the fresh blood and suck greedily at the wounds

He also loves the way it smears over his lover's skin, picking up fresh drops and prodding his fingers at their mouths to open them up so they can taste the metallic liquid

He's a mean dom, gagging and tying their hands and instructing them to bounce on his dick, punishing them for any disobedience

And then having the audacity to complain that he's being forced to do all this work, including the punishments

Buuuut, with a rly obedient and proactive sub, he'll have so many sweet words of praise for them, all about how his sexy little prince/princess is so good for him

A bit of food fun in the bedroom just if/when someone is not down for him to feast on them like a vampire, he's got a bit of an oral fixation and loves kissing and nipping and sucking every inch of exposed skin, so having some honey or sweet cream on their lovers body just adds to the experience

Kissing isn't really a kink, per se, but it's in line with his oral fixation. He expresses himself with his mouth frequently, whether it be laughing and grinning, or searing hot makeout sessions

Esper Mammon

Their kink is money, duh

Actually lolol bondage, they like stringing up their partners with elaborately tied ropes, illusionary restraints, and blindfolds and gags

Their victims lovers, when gagged and bound, will hear nothing but the wetness of their own sex, and the sound of Mammon's honeyed voice mocking them for how pathetic they look and sound, whimpering and whining for more or less friction, or to be released from their binds so they could reciprocate the touches

Being representative of greed, Mammon is relentless when it comes to wringing orgasm after orgasm out of their partners, they love the thrill of bringing them to their peak, similarly to the joys of watching the numbers go up in their bank account

And they definitely want the same for themselves, Mammon doesn't have the best stamina when it comes to their own physical exertion, but will take all the pleasure they can get, even if it means multiple orgasms until they're at their limit

When their partners are an overstimulated mess, they're careful enough to unbind them completely and have some serious cuddles and wind down time

Fran

Fran is... a switch and a total brat

He usually puts up a good front, being all stonefaced and quippy, but a good dom will have his knees buckling from under him with enough teasing and taunting

Even if he says he isn't interested, the tent in his pants will pitch itself, and the slightest touch and squeeze will have him flinching and wincing

Also, light petplay, he's much more obedient when he has a collar around his neck and a leash tugging him into the exact position that his partner wants him in

I also think Fran has beautiful hands, idk why but he's just such a soft pretty boy, his lovers appreciate his hands when they're between their legs or pinching their perked nipples, or when Fran dips his fingers into their mouth for a little taste

and Fran similarly enjoys people with pretty hands, running up and down his skin or gently wrapping around his throat

He's also into taking advantage of his partner when he catches them bent over or preoccupied with something, because prone boning is fun duh, he just can't help himself when he sees how vulnerable they are, and he also thinks their reactions are funny, deadpanning that he just can't help himself and that they were bent over or displaying themselves so nicely for him

Sleep play also! It’s also pretty much the same when his partner’s asleep (with their consent beforehand), and he can’t help but rub himself between their plush thighs or sneak a hand between their legs, letting out soft groans as they wriggle and squirm under his touch

Levi a than

Two words: praise kink

He gets flustered and blushes around pretty ladies, so someone please peg this man, show him the wonders of having a prostate

It's probably so satisfying to bring him down to his knees and to straddle his face (if you're into that lolol)

and his lovers moaning out words of praise about how good he's being, it shoots straight to his nether regions

Sometimes a little bit of degradation is mixed into it, because getting his dick stepped on kind of exhilarates him, just the thought of a hot mistress in a tight little pencil skirt and office uniform, heels clacking as she steps into the room gets him going

Also a size kink lol he's a huge man and the way that his partners struggle to take all of him in their hands or mouth or anywhere else..

Lussuria

okay so we know that mama Luss is canonically gay and a necrophiliac.... bro pick a struggle /j

Kinda into asphyxiation and pretty intense breathplay, he gets off on the thought of how delicate his sexy time partner's life is, flickering right in front of him and able to be extinguished any second

Roleplay lol with lace and latex costumes and everything, he loves the drama of playing a character and acting out the scenes

Sooo he definitely likes being called mommy/daddy, and he coos so meanly at his partners when he's making them feel so good

BUT ofc his murderous tendencies can't make it into the bedroom fr fr bc I like to think better of him ;; He's 1000% responsive and always on alert for the safeword/gesture, his sun attribute makes him an excellent healer if his partner gets injured enough to require some medical attention after the fact, and his care and concern really shows in the aftercare

Gola Mosca

he's a robot

[baekhvuns]

First of all, why did wake up to Miss Baekhvuns plagiarism era. 😭

Second of all, I had a dream that you might find interesting, don't remember the details but it involved Hwa singing my fave Baekhyun song - UN Village. Safe to say I have lost my mind...

Oof, that edit hurt a bit. And please, post all the Seonghwa WIPs, I crave death. Doom at Your Service is too good, really took me by surprise. 💔

Stop, because I also had Maid Sama in mind, hahaha (I'm re-watching it rn 👀). I'm a greedy Shinestar, but I think Yunho would be interesting as Usui, one of my friends is YunHwa biased and she told me there are not enough Yunho fics. Btw anime, I watched Fena the Pirate Princess last year, it was so-so but I need Seonghwa as Yukimaru.

Another anime that is kinda similar to Kamisama Kiss and dear to my heart is Kakuriyo Bed and Breakfast for Spirits but I actually re-watched it recently and now I like Ginji (he's like Tomoe but not a tsundere just good boy vibes uwu <3) more than the main guy Odanna, oops. Not surprising, cause me getting older is like that Drake meme: bad boys 🤚🏻 good boys 👍🏻lol - DV 💖

First of all, why did wake up to Miss Baekhvuns plagiarism era. 😭

LMFAOOOO FHWKHFKWHFKE IT WAS SO MUCH FUN but a few ppl grrrr THE WAY EVERYONE WAS LIKE “BESTIE U MADE IT” “FIRST CONTROVERSY LESSGOOO”

Second of all, I had a dream that you might find interesting, don't remember the details but it involved Hwa singing my fave Baekhyun song - UN Village. Safe to say I have lost my mind...

excuse me. ur making me loose my mind in my uni rn WITH THAT SCENE IMAGINED u would never hear from me if hwa ever dropped a un village cover, ill deactivate.

no but hear me out, fashion designer hwa x assistant or rival fashion designer reader 😭😭😭😭🔫 with that song playing in the back FBWNBFENFHKWHDKW

Oof, that edit hurt a bit. And please, post all the Seonghwa WIPs, I crave death. Doom at Your Service is too good, really took me by surprise. 💔

IT HURT ALOT 😭😭😭😭 esp the “even if we are in different worlds, i will wind you…my soo” 😭😭😭🔫🔫

BRKWHDKEBM ill disclose like two of them bc the rest r a surprise

1. do u rmr the romcom movie “the proposal” with sandra bullock + ryan reynolds HRKWHDKW the fake dating 🤌🏼🤌🏼✨

2. tutor hwa x senior reader ofc ofc we love to see it

RIGHT DOOM AT UR SERVICE WAS RLY GOOD but u know what was even better the “m a n e r” and the response from joo ik (soohyuk) WHERE HE PURRED

Stop, because I also had Maid Sama in mind, hahaha (I'm re-watching it rn 👀). I'm a greedy Shinestar, but I think Yunho would be interesting as Usui, one of my friends is YunHwa biased and she told me there are not enough Yunho fics. Btw anime, I watched Fena the Pirate Princess last year, it was so-so but I need Seonghwa as Yukimaru.

FBANDBMSDBMS PLS MR USUI 😩😩 king,,, i am also a greedy shinestar and wanted to do hwa but i think ill go with yunho too 😭😭

👁👄👁 OH ILL WATCH IT AYO omg have u watched pretty rhythm aurora dream + yumerio patisserie????? they’re sO good and u can bet ur ass hwa watched them too <3

Another anime that is kinda similar to Kamisama Kiss and dear to my heart is Kakuriyo Bed and Breakfast for Spirits but I actually re-watched it recently and now I like Ginji (he's like Tomoe but not a tsundere just good boy vibes uwu <3) more than the main guy Odanna, oops. Not surprising, cause me getting older is like that Drake meme: bad boys 🤚🏻 good boys 👍🏻lol - DV 💖

RHWKHDWK THANK U FOR THE REC BC I NEED THEM IN THIS 6 HR BREAK 😭😭😭😭 tomoe is like hongjoong in a nutshell towards seomghwa ☺️☺️☺️ LMFAOOOO NOT THAT MEME FBFBFBFB

[k-dokja]

ah, sorry this is late-- i thought of the same signs for kayden too!

i rly like the idea of him having earth sun + aries moon because while he’s always ready to throw hands (lmao), he's rational and knows when to back down. kayden's cautiousness and attention to detail reminds of a virgo, but he has capricorn traits too, so i’m still undecided 🤧

i also considered earth/scorpio for his moon sign. he seemed comfortable with jiwoo bc he never asked too much from/about kayden and let him remain private without judging, giving him space, etc... but idk, i want to know his backstory and why he became so strong in the first place.

no need to elaborate on scorpio ascendant LMAO yeah, he appears mysterious, intimidating and powerful-- those are typically scorpio's influence. i thought of aquarius somewhere in his chart as well! aloof and rebellious, HATES groups... but other than that, i don't see him having those idealist qualities usually attributed to air signs? like you said, he's more concerned about his own self rather than using his strength to change the awakened world into a more welcoming one like maaaybe someone with aquarius in their chart would be inclined to do. that sounds more like jiwoo actually lol

i could just be saying shit too tho, i'm no astrologer so pls don't take me seriously 🏃🏼‍♂️💨

Update: My final answer is Capricorn Sun, Aries Moon, Scorpio Rising, and Aquarius Mercury for him. Unless the author said otherwise, I'm sticking with this. My final selection for his Sun is based on my observation of his Mercury sign.

I want to figure out his ascendant first because that's the one with the most source materials to figure out. I'm leaning towards Scorpio for his Ascendant because it fits his personality more.

I know Scorpio for this man would sound very sexy but he reeks of Aquarius in his chart because of how weird he is and I don't know how to explain it better than him fitting the outcast and his personal freedom craving.

His Aquarius might be in Mercury, which is the planet for communication. This probably explains how he comes across as Aquarius in his speech instead of his appearance.

Charismatic and possessing a special magnetism, Scorpio Rising natives easily make themselves noticed. They have an air of mystery and seem very strong, no matter what they may be doing. No one can push them around because they know how to hold on to what they have and their abilities.

Kayden mentioned before that he had enough admirers to get annoyed about it. We also had seen he had enough egoism that he'd boldly boast about his capability. Kayden is not arrogant about his ability, he's confident about them because he had tested it times and times again.

He knows of his attractiveness, too, it's not something he flaunts. In fact, he looks very bored while retelling his admirers to Jiwoo. However, it is something he's conscious about, even if he doesn't act openly smug about it.

Usually, what Scorpio Ascendant people do doesn’t go unnoticed because their actions cause strong reactions. Having a strong intuition, they immediately sense people’s hidden motivations and bad intentions.

Kayden mentioned before that there were people hoping to follow him and even people wanting to be his subordinate, but him choosing to be alone is by choice. He doesn't trust these people and believes they only want to use him, leading to his self-imposed isolation from the rest of the community.

As for the Aries Moon, here's the overview of an Aries:

People born under the Aries zodiac sign don’t only think they’re the best, they know it and others believe the same about them. [...]

Besides, they’re always ready to fight for what they believe in, not to mention they’re never ready to give up on making their dreams come true. When competing, they’re fierce and all about winning. However, this also indicates they would do anything in order to succeed.

Being fighters is what they know best, which means they should pay attention to the means they’re using in order to obtain what they want, especially since they have the tendency to hurt others and to act out of impulse.

The rest of the Ascendant article fits Kayden pretty well, so I'm leaning heavily towards his Ascendant being Scorpio. So for now it's Capricorn/Virgo Sun, Aries Moon, Scorpio Ascendant for me.

[ariesbilly]

screaming thinking about how fp didn't take it for granted necessarily that fred saw and loved him but he'd never known a life without freds support he literally couldn't have known what life would be without it cuz he had that person for so long.... he didn't know how rare it was to have that bond cuz fred had always been there. Since they were in the sandbox in kindergarten literally...and then when they had their feud he lost that person who could really see him who would look out for him and comfort him and understand him and he had to face life without that and it was just this dark pit everything was so unstable and he was lost in the dark..... like he did have gladys but I'm sure things were not good with her at that point either and no one was in his life saying oh shit you're in so much pain let me help you.... he burned those bridges and maybe on a subconcious level he kept on sabotaging his life more and more cuz he was searching for and craving that attention.... going further and further until someone would HAVE to see him in the gutter and say oh this is rly bad actually you don't deserve all THIS.... but it was too late he turned down help so many times and it finally stopped being offered and that fucked him up being left alone like we all heard him yelling at jughead about how fred ruined his life.... idk just thinking many thoughts this got so long rip

i always felt like the difference between gladys and fred was gladys wasnt gonna put up with fps bullshit lmao like... certainly not to the extent fred did. because freds easier to walk over... no disrespect to him but ya know... 😂 whereas with gladys she has empathy but to a limit. the minute shit starts affecting her personally its like no, we’re not doing this. like truly had it not been for the kids i believe she wouldve left his ass so much sooner. hell, maybe the kids had nothing to do with it maybe she had just been waiting until she had enough manner gathered to get the hell out of there. 

not to be dark but i do think there was an element to fred and fps relationship where fp knew he could play at freds emotions in a way he couldnt with gladys like he knew from years and years of fred wanting to protect him that he had that card in his back pocket.... messy