#i've been building alot lately

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min yoongi fic rec list (Ⅵ)

she's back bet you didn't think i'd post another list this quick but since they've been building so much i figured why not soooo this week is yoongs and next week with be taehyung i've been reading alot lately so i wanted to share them asap so before my week gets hectic again i thought i'd post it, i honestly loved these ones i am exploring a little bit for with certain genres and i must say it like a whole new world i'm enjoying it and i hope you like them too. remember too always show lots of love and support to these amazing writers they dedicated so much time to writing these fics and they are absolute geniuses and deserve the world for sharing them with us so please follow them and take a look at their masterlists cause i will 100% guarantee that you will find your very own favourites there as well, leave the a little comment i know they will appreciate it so much and send them all the love in the world... i will reblog these through out the week and as usual minors do not interact i will block those who do.... happy reading everyone see you next week with taehyung's list and if you have anything you would like to share with me or you just wanna ramble about a fic you loved my asks are always open i love hearing from you🖤✨

a- angst s- smut f- fluff

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stalemate by @shina913 f s a

↬"The truth is, I'm not afraid to take that gamble anymore...in the off-chance that I get lucky again and feel the way I felt when I was with you. I'd happily make that bet over and over."

oh, my darling by @yoongiofmine f s a

↬ starting your second semester at one of South Korea’s most prestigious universities should be stressful enough. Between juggling classes, good grades and a social life, your plate was full. Hoping to spice up your academic career, you thought it was a good idea to enroll as an assistant for your literature professor, whom you've held a very secret and very forbidden crush on for the past several months. What will happen now that you’re forced to work closely together? And what if your crush isn’t as one sided as you thought?

little bit of your heart by @/yoongiofmine f s a ft. jjk

↬You had everything you could ever dream of; the career of your dreams as a music producer, the best friends you could ever wish for, and a exes-turned-friends-turned-fuck-buddies relationship with Min Yoongi. You knew you and Yoongi would never move past that and you were okay with it. Until a friend from your past comes back into your life, offering to give you everything you deserve, everything Yoongi couldn’t. Will Jungkook show you what you’ve been missing? Or will the new guy threaten Yoongi enough to do something about it? 

sinful lust by @oddinary4bts s a ft. jjk

↬ in an attempt to spice up your bedroom life with your boyfriend Min Yoongi, you suggest bringing another man into the action. Yoongi seems reluctant at first, but when you mention his friend Jeon Jungkook, he can’t deny his attraction. All that’s left to do is to convince Jungkook into participating...

after hours by @archivedkookie f s a

↬ staying after hours with Yoongi for months proves to be a mistake when your heart falls for him.

Vows by @hamsterclaw f s a

↬ You're five years into your arranged marriage with Min Yoongi, and he's never once retaliated for anything you've done to him. One day you realise you've lost your appetite for provoking him, and you set about trying to win his heart instead.

sutures by @farfromsugafanfic f s a

↬ There was only one thing you and Min Yoongi had in common that night. You were both brokenhearted. You only intended to be together for one night, but when you both end up in the hospital the next day you discover that you are soulmates. It could kill you to be apart. As you and Yoongi attempt to sever the bond between you, will another be formed?

and so it goes by @prodagustd f s a

↬ You and Yoongi have been hooking up, having dates and spending most of the week together for almost seven months. He was comfortable without a title, until the last two weeks, when you couldn't see him because of your busy schedule, Yoongi can't understand why he misses you so bad if your relationship is just sex to him. Or maybe he does, but he's too much of a coward to admit it.

collateral by @theharrowing f s a ft. jjk & knj

↬ Your ex-boyfriend gets in over his head working for the local mafia, and Boss Min has come to collect his payment: You.

till death do us part by @colormepurplex2 s a

↬ Marital bliss isn't always a guarantee, especially when you find yourself marrying into the family responsible for your own family's demise. Sometimes, marriage is just a game of kill or be killed. Even when there is love involved, bullets still hurt.

grey area by @blushoseoks s a ft. jhs

↬ you spent the days staring at your wrist and tracing the skin where your soulmate’s name would one day appear. the nights were for telling your wrist about your day, as if the person whose name would one day stain itself there, like red wine to a dress, could possibly hear you. for years you thought up countless scenarios, imagined numerous possibilities, formulated conversations and rehearsed them over and over, until your mouth ran dry. outcomes and conclusions performed in your head on a repetitive loop. but out of everything you thought up, out of all of the time spent towards thinking about your soulmate, about what could possibly occur, none of it could ever prepare you for what would actually end up being. none of it ever came close to the way it happened when you finally met him. and now, after it’s all been said and done, you were left asking yourself one thing, and one thing only: “was it really worth all of this in the end?”

isn't it romantic by @jeonqkooks f s a

↬ Many things in life have a polar opposite: left and right, night and day, yin and yang, you and Min Yoongi... Hopeless romantic meets gloomy cynic. The only thing you seem to share is a magazine column but even then, you still can’t seem to understand how Yoongi can be called ‘The Love Doctor’ when he is the antithesis of everything love represents.

Flux by @yoonia f s a ft. jjk

↬ One of them is your longtime secret crush, while the other is the man with whom you had shared many heated nights filled with lust and forbidden desire, forever kept as your biggest secret of all time. You had sworn that those sinful nights would end, and that your secret crush would remain a secret. (poly au)

mean yoongi by @jjkpls f s

↬ Min Yoongi asks you to take care of his plants when he’s gone. It doesn’t go as planned and well, he has to deal with your misbehaving ass.

pretend by @gimmesumsuga s a

↬ “You know what they say: the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else, right?” idol au infidelity

naughty little kitten by @jungkooksxo s a ft ksj

↬ Jin figures out that you’re super into the idea of Yoongi listening in on you two having sex. Yoongi is super into listening to you and Jin having sex. Jin invites Yoongi to come play with his naughty little kitten.

babydoll by @jungcock s a

↬ Your childhood crush, now famous and successful, comes to visit you while you’re drunk and have a lot to prove.

eleven months by @bratkook f s a

↬ it’s been years of yoongi living his routine life, accustomed to his pace of living, going with the flow and simply existing. until you come along. yoongi absolutely can not see the logic in the way you live, but he weirdly craves it. craves the feeling of not being afraid of not knowing what's coming, being able to just let the cards fall wherever they land. and maybe you can help with that.

pause by @whatifyoulivelikethat s a

↬ Life is like a cassette tape. It seems like it’s constantly repeating, flipped from side A to side B, and the songs can’t be skipped. You can only pause, rewind, fast forward, play after you’ve already heard the song. After you’ve already lived it. All Min Yoongi knows is his own tape, until it smashes right at his feet, and then he has to learn to dance to a different beat.

darksided by @eoieopda f s a

↬ It all started with a bad joke and a bottle of Tanqueray.

three squeezes by @nomnomsik s a ft jhs

↬ Yoongi is notorious for his grumpy and emotionless behavior as director of an upcoming company. Yet, it’s a mystery to everyone how manager Hoseok always seems to soften him up. The truth is that the two are actually engaged. Unknown to this fact, you happen to take an interest in Hoseok… and he does too. 

one-shot

bad decisions by @jjungkookislife f s

↬ Jimin is desperate to get his apartment back to himself. He’ll move hell and earth, and even drop to his knees to beg you to take his brother, Yoongi, out of his hands. Who are you to say no to that pretty face and sinister grin?  

breakfast in bed by @joonbird f s

↬ “Min Yoongi, a grumpy Ikea employee, is wondering who you are and why exactly you’re sleeping in the display bed at his Ikea.”

Tricks of the Trade by @stutterfly f s a

↬ The convenience store across the street from your apartment carries your favorite energy drink. That's why you frequent it. It's definitely not because you have a big fat crush on the owner you've been flirting with for the better part of a year. Of course your brand of flirting can also be misconstrued as bickering. When a strange man wanders into the store, he thinks you need a little nudge to embrace the strings connecting you. Next thing you know you're waking up in a body that definitely doesn't belong to you. You can't decide if it's the best or worst thing that's ever happened to you.

threads by @yoonia s a ft. knj

 ↬ Life is full of surprises, just like how people are full of secrets. Just when you had thought you have been lucky enough to have your life figured out, life decides to throw you a curve ball when you least expect it. And there is nothing you could do to avoid it, except to hope that you could hold your secrets as tightly as you possibly could before everything blows up into smithereens.

under the willow tree by @orchidyoonkook f a

↬ The town outcast shows up in the one place you find solace from it’s residents. The people you force yourself to fit in with, even though you never want to be anything like them. Will he ruin your only place of salvation, or become the most unlikely friend?

mami by kithtaehyung s ft. knj

↬ you somehow have a conversation with yoongi, and you tell your roommate about a date date.

the devil wears valentino by @orchidyoonkook f s a

↬ Having known him for years—from a small mistake on your behalf, and a favour on his—you’re one of the only people he seems to be able to put up with for company. Certainly the only one he’s half-way decent with. But what’s more surprising to you is that despite his name, reputation, and the fact he’s always joked he’d have killed anyone else by this point, is that he’s never once tried to cause you harm. 

angel by @sailoryooons f s

↬ Yoongi never meant to keep coming back. You never meant to become Yoongi’s favorite. Being Min Yoongi’s favorite has dire consequences

a boy like you by @cinnaminsvga f

↬ for whenever you are feeling low, always remember that there is a boy you know who would lift the sky for you. {or alternatively: Min Yoongi loves you, though he never says it. He’s always been a firm believer in that actions speak louder than any words ever could.}

last nite by @tayegi s a

↬ This is a zombie apocalypse AU based on The Walking Dead, The Stand, World War Z, and elements of Attack of Titan

zombie bites by @luffles424 f s a

↬ Your friends have always been willing to assist you when you need a model to practice makeup on. And with the upcoming zombie film on campus is no difference. But something feels different this time, can a zombie movie be more than just a zombie movie? 

heaven's winter by @jksangelic f s a

↬ your duty as the village daughter places you in line for the season’s Offering; a tradition not to tread lightly upon. as the snow falls slow and heavy, and the seraph awaits in the shallows of the mountain, you fail to realize what the winter has in store for you.

heavy sugar by @kinktae s

↬ The Roaring Twenties were a time of great economic wealth and social change. But beneath the jazz music and colorful speakeasies were mafia led organized crimes and bloodstained cash. You knew this well, but try as you might, you just couldn’t ignore the dark and enigmatic gangster whose eyes lingered on you from across the room.

all that holly, jolly shit by @daechwitatamic f s

↬You haven’t seen or heard from Yoongi since he broke your heart five years ago, laying out a logical list of reasons why you were better off breaking up. When a Christmas Eve blizzard traps you together for the night, you have no choice but to examine how few of those reasons are still true. And if they’re not… where does that leave you?

calling the shots by @chans-room f

↬ College basketball captain Yoongi

until death by @kpopfanfictrash s a

↬ Jade has always shaped the island of Kekon. Mined from the mountains, it enhances the abilities of Green Bone warriors who wear it and allows them protection from outside harm. No one understands these threats better than you do, second-in-command of the mighty No Peak clan.  When a new danger appears, seeming to come from within, everything you once took for granted is called into question. Including the bonds you’ve made, some more dangerous than the others. None more so than Min Yoongi, head of No Peak and the only one capable of destroying your heart.

whatta catch by @aredheadedmess f a

↬ One, two, three strikes you’re out. When opposing opinions find you roughing it up with the university’s star pitcher, he makes it his mission to show that you’re wrong about college sports—and maybe your feelings about the player himself.

shatter me, embrace me by @95rkives s

↬you longed for him, yearning for love, yet all that awaited you was heartbreak.

you're losing me by @/archivedkookie a

↬ ❝ He’s losing you, and yet, he lets the flower die in front of his eyes instead of doing everything to save it. Alternatively, Yoongi and you are losing your love toward each other. ❞

spotlight by @back2bluesidex f a

↬ No matter how much you run away from Yoongi, Yoongi always comes right back to you.

all the wrong places by @mrworldwideshoulders f a

↬ After getting separated from your friends during a night out, you get stuck with a hefty bill – one that you can’t pay. So when a handsome, emotionless stranger covers your tab in a random act of kindness, you’re determined to track him down and pay him back. inspired by 24K Magic by Bruno Mars.

now we reign by @/oddinary4bts f s a

↬ when working on a collab together makes you and Min Yoongi seek comfort with the other, you discover there’s more to life than loneliness. Only, hurdles mark your path in Min Yoongi’s life, and it’s unclear what the outcome will be. Will you be destroyed by him and his world, or will you learn to reign over it, together with him?

stay by sugarwithtea f s a

↬ what happens when you get stranded in a remote town with no place to live except for a lodge owned by a dangerously handsome but annoying man? yeah, a lot.

when the stars align by @itskimtaehyung f

↬ With cuffing season approaching its end, you thought you had escaped the pressures of finding a boyfriend for the holidays. That is, until your friends set you up on a blind date that goes horribly wrong. This prompts you to enlist the help of your roommate, Yoongi, to fake a relationship so your friends will stop meddling in your love life. And it turns out Yoongi is a lot better at this romance thing than you originally thought...

egotstic by @pasteljeon s a ft. knj

↬ The timing was never right. He loved you when you were kids, knees scraped and cheeks red. You loved him when pimples bloomed across his skin, voice cracking and he found solace in the scribbled lines in his notebook. The stars never seemed to align for the two of you, but perhaps it was because you were meant for someone else.

on the court by @centerhaechan f

↬ As captain of your school's winning women's basketball team, it is only understood that you despise the men's basketball team and their captain. Your main rival, Min Yoongi, enjoys testing your patience while he attempts to lead his own team to a championship victory. Your coaches believe you both have problems with teamwork, and insist that working together will produce a promising solution.

sugar by @zehakoo f s

↬ desperately in need of sugar to make coffee in order to ease down your headache, you find yourself knocking on a strangers door who happens to be your best friend’s friend and the finest man you’ve ever encountered.

from the ashes by @fortunexkookie s a

↬ Someone is sobbing ugly, wrecked sounds that shatter the silence in the room. You need them to stop; it’s distracting and you need to focus. You need to clean the ash from his skin. You need to comb the knots from his hair. You need to dress his beautiful body in something befitting the king you know he is… but the sobbing is too loud, and your vision is blurry. It takes Yoongi wiping your tears away for you to realize that the gasping cries echoing off the stone are coming from you.

the dark by @/bratkook s

↬ your small town thrives on the occult, luring tourists in with endless themed festivities, but the only place you’re determined to see is the mysterious club that comes to life the week before Halloween. what makes The Dark so exclusive, and what secrets are they hiding behind closed doors?

Triplicity by @kainks ft. jhs

↬ Distance is a cruel thing, and when you find yourself going astray, they are there to help remind you of just where exactly you belong.

fermata by @jeongi f s

↬ fer·ma·ta: from fermare, it means to stay or to stop. min yoongi teaches you exactly how to let go.

private lessons by @dntaewithluv f s

↬ Your little sister finds it odd how you’ve been taking private lessons from her piano teacher for over a month now, but she hasn’t heard you actually play even once…

first love by @geniuslab f s a

↬You learn a lot of new things in your first year of university, including what it feels like to fall in love.

↬looking for other myg fics or the other bts members check out my library

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Bee-men Stuff

Hi Everyone! So I've been getting alot of attention for the bee content I was making! I just want to thank you all for reading! However, it looks like my fanfic might have made the original author uncomfortable, so I was thinking of just making my own universe for bee monsters and other things! If I'm honest, i’m more into world building, and fluffy stuff anyway. So, if I do write anymore stuff, just assume its this new universe! Here are some thoughts I've been having!

Bees have long had spiritual associations with life and even being messengers to the gods. Because of this, you will find that most Bee-man have a grasp on certain magics, especially when it comes to making honey. This universe is set in a world where monsters are the norm, and often live in colonies in forests or their natural habitats. Humans can be found anywhere as we are a pretty sturdy species and there is often mingling of the species. While there are mostly human cities, there are some that are filled with monsters or other humanoidish creatures. 

Bee-men are pretty rare, as insect monsters usually have to be imbued with sturdy magics to survive out in the wild and upkeep their large physical forms. Its how they are able to fly and be light, while also having some strength!

Bee-men are kind of seen as an endangered species by other beings, due to their rare essence, so there is rarely an overlap of territory between monsters. This also has to do with their honey making skills.

Bee-men are very good at making honey, and do so in a similar way to normal bees. Their territory is often filled with huge flowers, often magical ones that like to travel about. This is how they evolved some of their magics. Their song, difficult to hear for most humans, has been known to calm the rogue nomadic flower into compliance. 

Bee-men are also known to keep normal bees! They often mix their own honey with theirs to form certain concoctions, or just food variety for daily life. Bee-men love sweet things, though cane sugar itself has been known to give them indigestion. Give your local Bee-man jams, or fruit tarts and he will be so happy!

Honey has also been associated with mead, an alcoholic wine made from honey. Irl bees are very stern about drunk bees entering the hives, and contaminating their own honeystores. They've even been known to tear limbs off! But Bee-men have a sort of complicated history with alcohol. In old times, when Bee-men didn't have to worry about their numbers, their would be long, three day festivals, usually on the Queens birthday, where all bees of every class would take shifts working or partying it up on their special mead with their Queen. Their meads natural magical properties also help the drinkers with better speech(Think Kvasir of norse mythology), where Bee-men would take turns telling their Queen and the crowd stories, or share in musical song. There have been times in the past where other beings have broken into the hive to procure this magical mead, in hopes of hitting it rich. For this reason, many hives don't make much mead anymore.

Much like normal bees, Queens are usually made within the hive by feeding an egg Royal Jelly. However, the hive that I will be focusing on has had issues being able to secrete Royal Jelly, as they have been so long without a proper Queen.  

The hive has been able to survive due to surviving off of human product, since honeystores have been low lately, but this has weakened the hive considerably.

Hives are able to take a human queen only if they have the proper pheromone type to interact with the hive. Bees communicate through pheromones, which is why Bees are often covered in a lovely lemony scent. Thats there pheromones and them talking to each other!

Bee-men in the hive are constantly aware of each others emotions, and it is not uncommon for them to be able to use their magic to sooth each other. Their pheromones can make eachother(and humans!) Very calm and relaxed(Or excited… we will get to that later:)). If a Bee-man is around a human long enough that he is acquainted with most of the behavior of your pheromones, he can somewhat talk with you telepathically! Although the most this can do is share emotions, and occasionally images. This isn't very efficient, so many bee-men have learned how to speak human language. 

Bee-men actually have a really interesting origin! Like how I mentioned before about Bees being messengers of the Gods, their was one who loved bees so much he fell in love with one. He gave it human form and their children became Bee-men, hence their innate magical abilities and somewhat humanoid appearance. 

Bee appearances can vary alot! A bees appearance can often effect their skill, and a lot of worker bees or drones share similar features. They have human like faces and are covered in fuzz! Some have several sets of arms, and all have long wings. They can get mistaken for fae sometimes, but the yellow and black fuzz gives it away. Also, their skin has varying textures per where you touch them, some parts are hardened, while things like their inner arms and palms feel more like skin.

Bee-men tend to stay together but there are times that bee-men will leave the hive willingly, or be exiled. In this case it is very important they find a mate or family unit. Much like bunnies, they die easily of broken hearts, and need to have their daily cuddle sessions! They also need to share their pheromones, so it is more often that they create mate bonds with humans. This can be difficult for our little bees, because very few humans are compatible with their type of magic. Its even harder to find a human who is compatible to be a queen.

Thats it for now! I might make a post about their hierarchy and some more stuff. Anywho, if you want more bee media(more smut focused), go ahead and check out @bunnis-monsters ! Also, again I am creating a wider universe of monster and magic stuff through here so if you have any questions, i'm open to it! 

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Beautiful Catalog Vol.3 ft. Kamen Rider Ryuki Cast Members Takashi Hagino x Ryohei Interviews & Photoshoot (translations below)

Publication: September 30, 2003

Takashi Hagino (Takeshi Asakura/Kamen Rider Ouja)

-I no longer make impulse purchases, like when it comes to snake print clothing (laughs)-

With a bright smile on his face, Hagino-san entered the studio. His pure white, rough style was perfectly balanced with the grass zori (sandals) on his feet, which was a unique choice! At first glance, it looks loose, with only the innerwear fitting to his body, but, it gives off a masculine feel. Against the natural materials, his silver accessories stand out.

Hagino: Fashion…..I'm not too picky about it~

He mutters to himself. His style is modest, contrary to his seemingly carefully coordinated choices.

"First off is the staff's favorite, here he is wearing a fluffy knit sweater."

Hagino: Uwah, who's that, me? My hair's all curly (laughs).

"We were most interested about this one. The growing reactions from those around you saying, "Cute~!," caused you to look nervous, which in turn made you look even cuter."

Hagino: During the time of that shoot, I was asked, "Please hold this plushie." Do I have to? It seems that stuff like that is becoming pretty common these days (laughs).

"What's your favorite fashion to wear?"

Hagino: Last year, all I wore was black. Black tanktops and such. Right now, I really want to wear whites. It's nice isn't it~? White! The other day, I saw Beckham wearing white on the cover of some magazine. He was also wearing pants like the ones I wore today. I thought, "Let's do this! I have the same fashion sense as Beckham" (laughs). From now on, I want you to call me Beckham (laughs).

"B-Beckham?? You want us to…..? Next, a jacket with fur that gives off an affectionate big brother feel. It's a very refreshing look!"

Hagino: I feel like I've never worn something like this either. It has a natural feel, like when you go out to walk your dog. By the way, the other day, for two days straight, I went to this pet store and was obsessed with this half chihuahua and papillon breed. When I looked at them, they hid in embarrassment. It was so cute! I was really hesitating whether to buy them or not, but the price for such a small and cute dog was 380,000 yen ($2,500)! The store is open until late in the morning, so I spend alot of time there. The shiba inu's and all the other dogs are just so cute to look at.

"Do you ever make impulse purchases?"

Hagino: Not anymore. Due to the "advice" of some store employees, I no longer buy snake print clothing (laughs). At the time, clothing with snake patterns were hard to come by, so when they saw me looking they said, "That'll look good on you~." They said, "We'll lower the price (alot)~." I thought, "Alright then~," and bought it. If you go shopping with friends, you'll have someone to stop you, but if you don't and go alone, you'll end up getting stuff that you can't afford. It's dangerous (laughs). I had to learn that recently.

"I'm not very particular when it comes to brands, but, the ones I like are Jil Sander and Dolce & Gabbana."

Hagino: I can't afford to buy all that because it's expensive, but, I do think it's really cool. Lately, I've been thinking that it would be nice to dress in a more formal way for such occasions. Wouldn't you want to try it? A dinner party on the roof of a building with a swimming pool. I'd even prepare business cards with a alot of lies on them (laughs).

"With fashion, Hagino-san says, "It's fun, it's like playing a game." What do you wear when you go to bed or to just relax?"

Hagino: It's either denim shorts or cargo shorts. I'll wear a T-shirt or tank top on top, which I'll take off when it's hot. The rest of the time I wear tracksuits (laughs). When I go to work, I'll wear either a T-shirt and jeans or tracksuit. I like to be able to change into my costume quickly and then take it easy.

"Finally, this last outfit is a multi striped suit with a strong sense of personality. With his hair up, he's transformed into abit of a bad boy. The manager said he looks like, "A respected elder brother." Hikawa Kiyoshi-kun from our office wore a similar suit for his "Zundoko Bushi" MV, but the vibe is totally different."

Hagino: It's so cool, the look reminds me of Lenny Kravitz! He's fashionable and looks good in fur, T-shirts, and all kinds of strange stuff. Compared to when I was first wearing the knit sweater, I feel like I've relaxed abit. It feels like I'm back (laughs).

"By the way, I hear you're very particular with your eyebrows."

Hagino: If I forget to draw my eyebrows before going out, I feel very uncomfortable (laughs). When I draw it myself, it's like a straight line. I'm not improving at all. I don't check my whole appearance in the mirror before going out, but I always pay attention to my eyebrows (laughs).

-I'll be a prince! But before that, I'd like to play a dirty role-

"He started doing karate about 3 years ago because he was attracted to the civility of the sport after playing many detective roles in the past. He takes time out of his busy schedule to attend karate, which he says helps him maintain his health and improve his voice for stage plays."

Hagino: I'm currently a yellow belt (6 kyu). I hope to be green this year, and brown within the next two years. Even before shooting for the photobook, I ran a marathon, went to karate, and did push ups when I'd wake up in the morning……that all I keep doing (laughs). Surprisingly, I don't mind doing these things.

His photobook, "Actor, Takashi Hagino," is filled with emotional and sensitive words that resonate with the heart.

"You say so many wonderful words."

Hagino: I wondered, "What can I do with this photobook?" I thought maybe I could include some words or afew sentences. But, it felt like, "As soon as you add color to a painting, it's ruined." I thought it'd be more interesting to write down what I was currently thinking, like a time capsule, so that later on I can say, "This is who I was!" I personally really like the poem "Confirmation."

"What's your favorite outfit in the photobook?"

Hagino: I liked the denim jacket~. That guy near the swingset, he may have been more offended by the unlikely setting of swings, rather than the fashion I was wearing (laughs).

"How was the stage play, "Yokosuka Dobuita Story," in which you played the leading role?"

Hagino: I really enjoy the stage experience. I also like the live feel of it. Since the foundation of a play is the stage…..I fully felt the determination of everyone around me, and while it was fun, I also fully enjoyed the live conflict that only a stage play can bring. I thought that as the rehearsals continued, I could feel so much of the warmth, cheerfulness, and sadness coming out of them.

"What do you think of Joji, the role you played?"

Hagino: In the beginning, he wasn't a nice guy…..but, he was a good guy. I think I was able to show him having fun and being sincere, so I'd like to add more variety if I ever play a role like that again.

"What scene was most memorable?"

Hagino: In the proposal scene with Kaori, played by Junko Mihara-san, she changed the way she spoke each time we performed it, and did so with different tricks, such as sulking or teasing. Gradually, our rhythm and breathing become the same, and my lines came out without being conscious of it. The scenes with Mihara-san were alot of fun to do.

"It's been announced that you'll play the role of the prince in the Cinderella musical. A bad prince…what's that about?"

Hagino: Quiet! (laughs). I don't think that's it, I think it's just a regular prince, but the script hasn't come in yet, so I don't know all the details. I am looking forward to the dancing in the musical. Although, I'm worried about singing. You know how the dialogue suddenly flows into a ballad like song with, "Why~"? I become nervous the moment, "Why~," comes up (laughs). But. I'll keep practicing and show you the fairy tale prince in all his glory.

"Will the prince's costume be……white tights?"

Hagino: My manager told me that if I wore white tights, right here (his crotch), would look really cool (laughs). No, rather, it's a wonderful fairy tale like costume. The show will be held in more than 20 locations across the country, so please look forward to it!

"What kind of roles do you want to play in the future?"

Hagino: Since I've already decided to play a prince, I'd like to play a serious and grim role before that. Something like a dirty role.

In his photobook, Hagino-san affirms that he loves humans, as he wrote, "Are you a human being? If you're a human, then you must be a wonderful one." This love for people is what makes his acting so refined, as he focuses on the essence of humans. We're really looking forward to seeing him as a fairy tale prince and in serious roles.

Ryohei (Shuichi Kitaoka/Kamen Rider Zolda)

-Is this too subtle? When it comes to this coordination, I think I should do my best.-

In a quiet studio located in a certain part of Tokyo, the sound of a camera shutter clicking resonates. The sounds are followed by rhythmical changes in facial expressions, poses, and overall atmosphere, creating the rich and colorful, "Ryohei World," almost like a perfectly beautiful picture were being painted.

Within the light, he strikes perfectly balanced poses that'll take your breath away, while occasionally trying to make us laugh by crossing his eyes and saying, "This is what real coordination looks like!"

While casually flapping his white coat, he says:

Ryohei: About 2-3 years ago, I used to wear clothes like these all the time during the Fall and Winter, but now, I don't wear them anymore. It's exhausting to wear them all day, don't you think? These days, I think it's better to dress comfortably. I wonder, have my shoulders become more relaxed as I've gotten older? Well, it's nice doing something like this once in awhile! It makes me feel motivated to strike the perfect poses.

"You picked out that coat."

Ryohei: The length is perfect! This half coat actually is a half coat. For some reason, usually, a half coat is a short coat, and a long coat is a half coat (laughs).

"Were there any problems with the size?"

Ryohei: No matter how big the clothes are, when I wear them, I always think, "These are way too small!" I do adore more loose fitting clothes. I can't pull off the look though (laughs).

"While not being particular about brands, Ryohei-san says, "I don't think something being expensive makes it better." He enjoys buying secondhand clothes, with sneakers making up half of his collection. He also claims to have about 50 pairs of unopened shoes. Today, he's wearing stylish leather sneakers."

Ryohei: I love sneakers. I sometimes think, "Even if they last a lifetime, I wonder, do I have enough?" I'll also put them in their box and stack them, it's really cool to look at (laughs). I don't really do it anymore, but there was a time when I used to pick out clothes that matched my shoes.

"Do you check your whole appearance in the mirror before going out?"

Ryohei: That's essential. Sometimes I'll dress in a way that makes me think, "Is this too subtle?," Although, I'm usually pretty ok with it. Fashion is like an extension of my hobby, so I think I should be doing my best at it. During the times I go on a date with a girlfriend, I think I should only make decisions when I really have too.

"Do you make snap decisions for a date??"

Ryohei: It depends on how long we've been together, but in the early stages of a relationship, a man wants to make a big impression (laughs). Well, if you've been together for 3-4 years, I think, "Alright, who cares~."

"That's terrible?!" (said by the entire female staff)

Ryohei: I don't think you have to be so cool in front of your partner all the time……I think it's okay to just look natural. So, it's not terrible, it's really not (laughs).

"What if after 3-4 years, she's wearing something she doesn't really care for?"

Ryohei: Well, that's exactly who I am. That's why I think we'd be compatible (laughs). You do your best at first, and once you're familiar with them, it doesn't matter what you look like.

"Do you care about your hairstyle?"

Ryohei: For me, I'm not particular with hair, so everyday my hairstyle is slightly different. When I go for a straight perm, my hair loses all its volume and flattens, regardless of how thick my hair is. A tip I can give, is to only use your hair dryer on areas that are particularly annoying and have strong frizz. It's easier to set up the look that way.

"Your eyebrows have a nice shape to them."

Ryohei: I don't do anything with my eyebrows. I don't want them being thin. It makes me lose the "impact" of my face and causes my appearance to change (laughs).

During the chair sitting shoot, the chair was too low compared to Ryohei's height, so he brought out a stepladder by himself, making it a very interesting shoot. Wearing a knit hat, Ryohei's beautiful face looked even more attractive, and he looked like a European college boy with an unfamiliar expression on his face.

"What is key to dressing well?"

Ryohei: I don't have any particular stances…..but, I don't want to be outdone by clothes. I want to make an effort to wear them, and even if I think they don't look good on me, I'll try and find a way to make them look good.

"You seem to be very good at posing."

Ryohei: During my time staying at motels, I studied my poses by looking in the mirror, so I wouldn't have to do them on set and feel embarrassed. It's like it's already been ingrained in my head. If I don't do them properly, the photographer won't be able to take any photos.

"While at Hagino-san's house, the two of them once practiced posing together while looking in the mirror. During the shoot, Hagino-san laughed and said, "Posing by Ryohei!," and he did the same pose Ryohei did, showing that they seem to get along really well. What advice do you have for for making your appearance look more beautiful?"

Ryohei: Pose standing slightly diagonal…doing so will make you look thinner. Always think of ways to make your appearance more slim (laughs).

"When did you first discover your style?"

Ryohei:…..I still haven't found it (laughs).

"Normally, wouldn't you discover fashion in the same way a girl would?"

Ryohei: Hmmm……It think it's alittle different from that (laughs). Rather than about clothes, I was thinking more about how to make people laugh and how to entertain them. When it comes to the clothes I'm wearing now, I don't think I can say whether they're good or bad. I might say later, "Why did I think this was cool to wear?" Fashion is an indifferent thing for me, but it's like a time capsule that reflects that moment in time……It's something that reminds me of who I was at one point.

-The action was difficult. Since my reach is different, it's difficult to get the timing right.-

"How was it working with veteran actors (Natori Yuko, etc) on "The Woman Prosecutor of Kyoto"?"

Ryohei: There was alot to learn just by listening and watching. The way they said their lines, it was so natural, me on the other hand, I'm still trying to perform well. In my head, I can see it all very well. But, it's hard to actually do it. On set, we called her "Professor Natori," since we had alot to learn from her.

"You made your first attempt as a voice actor in "Mobile Suit Gundam SEED," correct?"

Ryohei: Actors can make facial expressions while speaking, right? It's easy to tell when someone's "angry" because they speaks in an angry tone and has an angry expression on their face. I looked at the voice actors and thought that they're skilled at manipulating their voices. They do whatever they want. The way they react, the way they breath…..as an actor, I've learned alot from them.

"I heard that the shooting for the upcoming film, "Bird's Eye," in which you play the lead role, was difficult due to wire acting."

Ryohei: It was quite difficult. But, it was something of a challenge for myself.

"Please tell us some highlights of the film."

Ryohei: It's an action film. But, I only had 3 days to practice. I couldn't even meet the person I was going to be working with until the day of filming. Being so tall, I had a different reach from my partner, so it was very difficult to find the correct timing. When you punch, you take a step forward, right? But when I step forward, I get too close, so I end up performing a limp punch (laughs). I'm sure there must have been a better way to do it, but unfortunately, I didn't have time to do any research.

"The way you beat them up was impressive though."

Ryohei: I was mostly on the receiving end (laughs). RIKIYA-kun (Kawaguchi Rikiya), who played Tsuyoshi, used to box, so as expected, his punches were excellent.

After the photo shoot, Ryohei-san went to the waiting room. Among the outfits there, he found a pair of yellow pants with purple square patterns on it, and his eyes started to sparkle.

Ryohei: This, it's amazing! I want to wear it right now! Can I try this on?

Just as Ryohei enjoys fashion with a carefree attitude, and takes on challenges with an open mind, while also exploring new areas as an actor one after another, absorbing them naturally and without hesitation. His sincere attitude to cherish every moment and his mischievous spirit of challenge expands "Ryohei's World" endlessly, by giving off a refreshing charm. We won't take our eyes off his future challenges.

[melanieph321]

Ruben Dias x Reader - City Girls Part 5/8

The plot is twisting is all I can say about this chaotic chapter. 😮‍💨

Reader plays for the Man City girls academy. She struggles a bit but gets Ruben to mentor her. The the two don't hit off despite having many things in common. It all gets worse when Reader eventually catches feelings for Ruben.

Enjoy!

"You did what, with who?"

"Sshhh! Can you be any louder?"

You peered down the long line of girls before passing Ester the ball. She passed it on to the next person since coach had the team playing tiki taka for today's morning session.

"But Y/N, isn't Ruben...?"

"It doesn't matter what he is." You whispered. "He freak out on me right after and told me to leave his apartment."

"Well, can you blame him? This could end his career."

"Don't be so dramatic. Yes I'm in the academy but I'm not a minor."

"Does it matter? It's inappropriate. People might think he's been taking advantage of you since you met through the private lessons he's been giving you. Ruben could be suspendend from his team and so could you Y/N."

"I dunno." You muttered. "It seemed like something else was bothering him. Maybe I did something wrong?"

"Did he enjoy it? You know...until he kicked you out?"

"I think so."

"And did you...enjoy it?"

You thought back to that night. Ruben had seemed hesitant at first. And the ointment...so awkward.

"Y/N?"

"But then it wasn't...awkward. It was nice, just the two of you, kissing and humping.

"Y/N?"

Ruben seemed so eager to please you, not giving you a chance to return the favor.

"Y/N?"

"Yes!" You blurred out. "I enjoyed it."

Taken aback, Coach looked to Ester then back to you. "Well I'm glad you enjoy my training session Y/N, but that's not what I asked you?"

"I'm sorry coach."

You hadn't notice him blow the whistle. All the girls except for you and Ester had scattered from the line, leaving the field. Training was over.

"What was it you asked me, again?"

He sighed. "I said, it's best you head to the cafeteria and get yourself a snack before the first team start their session."

"I'm training with the first team?" You gasped joyfully.

"Yes, now go on. I've been putting in a good word for ya'. They won't like it if you're late."

"Thank you, thank you, thank you coach.

I won't disappoint you."

He laughed. "I am as hopeful as you are. Good luck."

"Can I come too?" Ester asked.

"I'm sorry Hofman, not this time?"

You looked at her remorsfully. "I promise to bring you som eggs on toast from the cafeteria."

Her smile was crooked. "Thanks Y/N and good luck. I'll see you back home."

You went your separate ways. By the time you got to the main building your stomach was aching for something to eat. To your luck the cafeteria resembled any five star hotel with a continental breakfast. You rushed to grab a plate since you didn't have much time. You piled on all your favorite foods and extra portions of protein. Ruben told you that it was possible for coach to let you play football the way you wanted to, you just had to get bigger and stronger. That starts with upping your calory intake.

"Slow down Rio or you'll choke on a sausage."

The mountain of food on your plate turned alot of heads as you made your way through the cafeteria. Not to mention the banter it caused when you joined some of the girls on the first team at their table.

"Are they starving you at home?" A girl joked.

"Chloe, be nice."

"The food here is just so good." You said, which was half the truth. Somthing told you to keep you intentions of gaining weight to yourself.

"Are you jokin'? No one fancies british cuisine. What do they serve in Brazil, cockroaches?"

The girls laughed.

"Chloe." The captain groaned. She was nice. Stephanie was her name. She always made sure that you felt included the times you played with the first team. She had been the one to wave you over to join the girls for breakfast. However, at the moment, you regretted not having ate before you left the house this morning. Now you had to hurry, doing so by stuffing your face with food before heading back out. But as you went to dump your tray, you bumped into something solid on your way out of the cafeteria.

"Sorry." You blushed, but quickly stiffened seeing who you had bumped into. "Oh, Ruben. Hi."

"Hey."

"H...how's it going?"

He was accompanied by a friend, perhaps his teammate. Either way, Ruben didn't find it necessary to introduce the two of you. Fortunately his friend was raised well enough to greet a stranger.

"Bernardo." He shook your hand. "But you can call me Ruben Dias personal wingmam."

You smiled. He was funny. At least he had more humor than Ruben, who looked to want to be anywhere else but there, with you."

"We should...." He muttered, pointing somewhere towards the foodline in the cafeteria.

You were disappointed. And you wanted to ask Ruben if you were still training later this afternoon, or had what happened between you change things?

"I'll see you." He said, which practically answered your question. The two of you went your separate ways. You had a lump in your throat stepping back onto the football field.

"Pass the ball Rio!"

There was a clear differences in quality when it came to playing with the women's first team. They trained with a higher tempo than the academy and included more drills during their training sessions. It was a slight adjustments for you, but not too difficult.

"Come on Y/N, at least keep up the pace!" Their coach shouted.

"Uh-oh." You stopped running. A twinge in your stomach had you place a hand to your belly as you stood in the middle of the football field.

"Come on Y/N, keep it moving!"

You tried to move, but every attempt to take another step seemed to trigger something from deep within. Somthing on the verge of erupting. The pain was sharp and intense, and it all seemed to be spreading throughout your entire body.

"Y/N, you okay?" Their coach blew the whistle, pausing the game.

You tried to shake off the pain, but it was no use. You doubled over, clutching your stomach, letting out a bubbly groan. The players gathered around you. "Um, I think she's gonna...."

Hurl.

Throw up.

Vomit.

Whatever word best described what came out of you. It was warm, blending easly with the grass on the pitch. The other players ran away, screaming in terror. Their coach was the one to help you back to he main building, to the infirmary where you now sat in shame, waiting for Ester to come and pick you up. Your head banged against the wall as you sat on the sickbed, almost tuning out the sound of a light knock on the door.

"Ester?"

"It's me?"

Your back left the wall, seeing Ruben appear in the door. He stepped into the small room, shutting the door behind him.

"I heard what happened. Bernardo and I were just on our way out when..."

"Great." You sighed. How would you ever live this down?

"What happened, were you sick?"

He was truly concerned. Strange, you thought, since Ruben had given you the coldest of shoulders for days, not responding to any of your calls or text messages.

"Can I get you anything, water, ice...?"

"How about a toothbrush and a mint?"

He frowned.

"And a rocket. Yes." You smiled. "Something to take me off this planet immediately."

"Come on, Y/N." He approached where you sat on the bed. You hated yourself for making him room to sit down next to you. Nevertheless, that's what he did, sympathetically bringing his hand to your back, rubbing it. "Anyone can get sick." He said.

You squinted your eyes in pain, his sympathy along with the embarrassment, was all too much. "The first team are never gonna let me play with them again."

"Come on Y/N, don't say that."

"But it's true Ruben and it's all your fault."

"My fault." Ruben sat back, eyebrows furrowed. "What did I do?"

"You told me to get bigger so that I could dribble." You hissed.

"And what exactly did you do to achieve that?" He asked curiously.

"I stuffed my face, of course."

Ruben threw his head back, laughing.

"It's not funny." You groaned. Although the crinkle that appeared in the corner of his eyes when he smiled was simply a sight for sore eyes. He wiped a tear. "Y/N, I never told you to stuff your face. Do you know how dangerous and damaging that could be for your body. There are far more healthier ways to gain weight."

"Well, how was I supposed to know that? You're the expert and wouldn't even return my texts."

"Y/N." Ruben's hand got off your back, leaving a missing feeling. He stood. "I never meant for any of this to happen."

"What exactly? You giving me the greatest orgasm in my life, just to show me the door right after?"

"Y/N."

"What Ruben? If you don't have anything else to say to me I suggest you leave." You lowered your head. "Maybe then you'll know what it feels like."

"I'm sorry." A set of warm hands went to tilt your face. Ruben's brown eyes were staring back at you with the deepest sincerity. "Like I said, I never meant for any of this to happen. I was never meant to fall for you Y/N."

"What?" You must have been mistaken.

Ruben smiled. And for a moment he looked hesitant but then his lips grasped yours in a soft yet exciting kiss. You grinned once his face pulled away from yours.

"What?" He asked.

"Do it again." You whispered.

He chuckled, but leaned in to peck your lips once more, planting an additional kiss on top of your nose.

"So...does this mean we're still on for this afternoon?"

Ruben sigh was heavy. "Like I said Y/N, I'll gladly help you become a better football player, but whatever you and I have ends here. I have a girlfriend and she can't find about what happened between us."

You felt cold, drained from all the warmth in your body, including the blood that paled your face. "Y...you have a what?" His hands still held your face, but with a swift tugg you had him remove them.

"A girlfriend Y/N. I'm sorry to have to tell you like this but like I said, what happened between us was never supposed to be. Besides, I could get in alot if trouble with the club, not to mention the media if they ever found out."

"I can't believe this." You sighed. Ester was right. You were such a fool.

"But don't worry. If we keep things professional between us I can still...."

"Get out."

"What?"

You spoke too low. Ruben didn't hear you. And so you took a deep breath. "I said, get the fuck out of here. Out of this room and out of my life."

"Y/N?"

"Now, Ruben, I mean it. Get the fuck out!"

"Y/N, let's not....we can still be together just not...."

You hopped off the bed. Furious that Ruben would get to see you cry. "OUT!" You shouted, escorting him towards the door. Unlucky for you he didn't get far. In the doorway as the door came ajar, stood Ester, her head turned to the side, flashing you an eavesdropping ear.

"Ester?" You frowned. "What are you..."

She perked up. "I'll tell coach."

"Ester?" You said, with a graver tone.

"Don't try and make excuses, I already know that the two of you are sleeping together." Her voice was unsteady. Ruben looked to you, rightfully confused. "And who are you?" He asked bluntly.

"Your worst nightmare." Ester said, with a glare you had never seen on her before. It was eveil, desperate and deceiving.

"Ester please, you don't know..."

"Schluss mit der Scheiße, Y/N." (Cut the shit Y/N.) "I already know that the two of you are fucking, you told me so yourself."

"Why are you doing this?" You asked,  desperate to know how Ester, your friend,  could dare threaten everything your family has worked so hard for you to achieve.

"I deserve to play with the first team." She said. The words sounding childish and timid coming out of her mouth.

"But..." You stuttered. "If that's all it is..." Why hadn't she spoken to coach or simply work harder, you thought.

"Don't you see." She laughed. "With you on the team, the brazilian football protégé from the streets of Rio, I'll never get a chance." To your suprise Ester was crying. "I am already overseen by coach simply because I got stuck with you as my roommate. Now I've got to hear about you going on and on about some guy who clearly is only interested in fucking you."

"Okay, that's it. I've heard enough." Ruben had thought to do the right thing to let Ester explain herself. But the more he did, the  more he let her talk, the more he saw how much it hurt you, and so he put an end to it. "Let's go." He said, grabbing your hand, leading you out of the infirmary. Ester was left behind, along with her half hearted threats.

"Ruben whatta....Where are you taking me?" You felt like vomiting again and you had a throbbing headache.

"Minha casa. Você vem para ficar comigo." (My place. You're coming to stay with me.)

"What?"

"I'm not letting you stay with that girl, whoever she was. She was clearly out of her mind."

"But Ruben I can't." You tried to tugg your arm free, however Ruben was way too strong. He barley budged.

"Y/N, please don't fight me on this one. You can stay with me, I have a spare bedroom."

"What about your girlfriend?"

He froze. In the midst of pulling you out of the main building, Ruben froze. The grip he had around your arm loosen a little. He ran his free hand down his face, tired, perhaps of arguing. "Like I said Y/N, I'm partly responsible for this mess. Just trust that I'll take care of it. I want to take care of it. But for now let me take care of you."

[raventarnished]

Early sunsets over Monroeville is my favorite song of all time. And I don't think that will change. The build up is amazing it's literally prefect. Every lyric idk I relate to alot . There's something about songs that use shooting someone for a deeper meaning. (Demolition lovers. And a couple of fall out Boy songs I can't think of the name cause I eepy) it's so raw but it's not literally about shooting someone it's deeper then that. I take it as the main character is tragically losing someone and is thinking about killing them to release there pain. It's raw and I've been in situations like that so many times. I watched friends and shit go Through rough patches I've been through rough patches were I want to die. January was awful for me so I get it. But the whole point of it is that the person is already dead. Probably a metaphor on how depression eats u up and makes u hollow. Idk this is just what I got from it:3

(Also im gonna get a tattoo of the lyrics late dawns and early sunsets!!! Someday)

[justsomeoneintoomanyfandoms]

Hey! I got a matchup a while back, and lately I have been craving another one😭 so if it's alright could I get romantic matchups for tears of themis, genshin, and atla? If not that's fine ofc💕

I use She/her pronouns but I've never really cared very much, I'm Bi but I'd like Male matchups for this one if that's alright (I love women but idk none of the women in these fandoms are like my type??? Idk)

Not sure if you use looks to pick, but I'm 5'7, longish brown hair and brown eyes, kinda chubby I'd say, and I wear glasses!

Ok so for the good stuff, I'm an enfp and a virgo and I have gad and adhd so I am very all over the place lol, I'm usually very energetic and loud (got called a human pep rally once) but every once in a while I take a hard turn the other way and do absolutely nothing lol.

Taking thing seriously is kinda hard for me, idk why but I'm very much the deflect and cope using comedy kind of person.

Personal life wise I'm the oldest of four (love my siblings) so loud is kinda the default in my life so I'm pretty comfortable in loud environments, but if I get a chance at peace and quiet I am JUMPING for it.

I have a few plants, I bake quite a bit (I make BOMB brownies), I'm very much a nerd lol, I love comics (fandom request gave that away tho), I play dnd, I love video games (rdr2, mk11 and mass effect are the current ones), I watch cartoons and build legos, and I'm learning how to draw.

I'm big into flowers and flower language, and I play guitar, alto saxophone, steal drum, and I have a violin I'm gonna start working on soon.

This turned out alot longer then I thought so the speedrun of the rest is although I dont often, I really like putting work into how I look (I just got a treble cleft claw clip with some dangly thingys and I like it I just wanted to mention that), no clue how to to makeup tho, I'm planning on going into communications, and uhh my favorite colors are pink and blue.

Thank you so much if you get to this

Hi Abby! Thank you for your request! Sorry it took a while. I hope you like your matchups!

In Tears of Themis, I match you with...

If there’s one thing that drew Luke to you, it’s the fact that you enjoy peace and quiet. He loves being in your presence when it’s quiet around. He just finds it soothing.

Definitely understands you using humour to cope. He does the same so he knows when it turns from just making jokes to coping and will check in when needed.

Please invite him to do gardening together some time. He likes being able to do something where he’s creating and nurturing life. It’s a good change from what he usually does.

Flower language is a big part of your relationship. I see Luke as someone who’s well versed in flower language so every bouquet he gives you has a hidden meaning behind it.

He also enjoys drawing so it’s not uncommon for you to find a sticky note beside your bed with a little drawing on it when he has to leave early in the morning. If you return the gesture, he’ll keep all your drawings in a safe place so he can look back over them.

In Genshin Impact, I match you with...

You and Itto are both the definition of human pep rallies so when your powers combine, no one can stand in your way. You can both be a lot sometimes but you get along well.

He also struggles to take things seriously so he’s a lot more understanding in that regard than others are sometimes. You just get each other.

In a modern au, Itto would be a huge fan of cartoons. He’s a firm believer than cartoons aren’t just for kids and still loves watching all those “childhood” shows.

In the same vein, he also loves Lego. I can’t see him being a big fan of tricky sets but he enjoys all of the bright colours. He’d love to make a set or two with you sometime.

I can see Itto being a fan of D&D as well. I think it might take him a bit to get his head around the different types of rolls and doing so much maths but he loves the roleplay elements and thinks it’s great fun. (I actually wrote this while playing a D&D session!)

In Avatar: The Last Airbender, I match you with...

You’ve got to be a certain level of energetic to keep up with Sokka’s plans. And you certainly meet that criteria. Sokka loves being around someone who can match his energy.

In a modern au, he’s definitely a fan of comics. He’s the type of person who buys two of every comic, one to read and one to keep in pristine condition.

For all his self-awareness, Sokka does have a tendency to deflect so he can easily recognise when you’re doing the same. He hopes you know you can rely on him if things get too much.

When he does run out of energy, there’s nothing that Sokka loves more than relaxing while listening to you play music. He finds it soothing both because of the music and because of your presence.

Please do lots of baking for him! Sokka will never admit it but he does have a soft spot for snacks, especially if you’ve made them.

[skullinahat]

some long-ass thoughts on watcher and dropout

for the record, i've enjoyed both of their work. i won't talk abt it much in this post, but it's very interesting how people kind of view shane's performative anti-capitalism making their consumption of ghost files a reflection of their own politics. then, a business making a business decision feels much more personal, because an aspect of your morals has just betrayed you. instead of just losing access to media you enjoyed, you just lost a reference point for your identity. Dropout is very mildly more aware of their function in capitalist society when they make anti-capitalist jokes, but the effect is still the same. the concept of supporting small business being an effective political action has obviously fed into, or perhaps came from, consumer culture. there's been a lot of "disappointment" in shane specifically, which is why i bring this up.

this post is a mess and i definitely used some of the wrong words, but i hope it makes some sense.

Watcher and Dropout have been compared alot as of late, of course both being attempted independent subscription based streaming services with a small host of content. dropout is cast as the good guy, the thing that watcher is striving for and failed at. I've seen several people joke about subscribing to dropout instead as a little fuck you to watcher.

A lot of people have genuinely asked what the difference is. Why is watcher bad and dropout good?

The most common answer i've seen is that dropout was pitched as a last effort to save a dying company, instead of the greedy money grab that watchertv feels like. dropout also offers a much larger cast, and many more shows, releasing new episodes monday through friday. Both of these things, however, are only true of dropout as of now.

Dropout was started two years before collegehumor's death, and it was only able to release as many shows as it is now very recently. It also didn't originally advertise itself as a final resort, rather "netflix- but worse!"

It didnt begin as a hail mary for a dying platform, just a new branch of an old one with no ads and more freedom. (Though it was a final resort later.) i think the biggest material difference between the two is that dropout always felt like an addon rather than an ambush paywall. later when it did become an ambush paywall, it felt justified. there was complete clarity over what would be on dropout and what would remain free on youtube.

this clarity was never present in watcher's announcement. I personally don't think watcher was ever planning on removing their free content from youtube, and they just worded it really poorly in their original video, but keeping new episodes behind a paywall is still enough to alienate their fanbase. the concept of them removing everything from youtube has stuck around despite their assurances against it.

the rest of the reasons why watcher went over so poorly is audience trust, yearly context, and marketing.

People had already followed ryan and shane from buzzfeed to watcher, so their trust had been tested before, resulting in them being more loyal, but still. I've seen a lot of people discussing their disappointment with watcher's content compared to buzzfeeds, which, everyone hates change so on and so forth, but most people are pointing specifically to the overproduction and the awkwardness. I had the same expeirence. I specifically remember watching an episode of too many spirits and realizing i was forcing myself to continue. It just felt like lipstick on a pig, hours of animation work on top of an awkward joke. I think there's been frustration with watcher's content building for a long time, and this poorly worded announcement is the straw that broke the camels back. i also don't think there was as much streaming service fatigue back when dropout was started as there is now.

It is entirely possible, given that they were spending hundreds of thousands of dollars on post-production per video, that watcher needs more money to continue. I, as many do, would attribute this to poor financial decisions. However, i think they could've framed watchertv as a last resort for a company that fiscally couldnt continue on youtube and gotten away with it. they still would have gotten some flack for steven's tesla and gold-leaf pizza, but it wouldnt be the total takedown it is now.

Instead, in the video they simply talk about being to big for youtube. No stressing about money. It feels entitled. even in the apology, where they claim that watcher couldn't continue on youtube, the overt focus is not placed on money. Wether this was a decision to try and not sound too whiny and pandering, or it's that they genuinely could continue to work on youtube but want more freedom on watchertv, i'm not sure. either way, it worked out horribly for them.

[bangtailshortfilm]

Visualizing the story

Now with character designs out of the way, we can start working the story boards and making that sweet animatic!

This was by far my favorite part of the film making process, making animatics is always so much fun!!

I first started by making thumbnails, these are small and very rough drawings that focus on the main idea of the scene rather than showing movement and backgrounds and editing like you would in the boarding and animatic process.

This was my first pass of thumbnails, the over arching story was spot on when making these, my instructors were very pleased with what I had come up with and only had a few critiques, mainly about consistency.

Though few changes were made, the next batch of thumbnails still felt alot better, more solid and consistent. Something I do struggle with is keeping things properly fleshed out, like the character's size compared to a building or where they are in relation to certain props and characters.

Now you may notice that the designs don't match with the final designs I've been showing off, and that's because these thumbnails were made much earlier. I made these while I was still working on the script - I'm a visual learner and find it easier to show what I'm thinking rather than explain it. This worked in my favor, my instructors were having issues visualizing the story, bringing them thumbnail much earlier eliminated that confusion so we could effectively work on the script and story.

Even in the final animatic some designs have variances. for example, Annabelle went through a redesign late in the game, and Lila's final design was still being put through the washer during this process. However designs don't quite matter during this stage, as long as basic proportions and size of the characters, sets and props are close to what the final design will be.

With that, I am excited to show off the Animatic for my short film! may I present to you, Bangtail!

You can also view the animatic and more of my work on my youtube page!

[spacecadet-ticklesinspace]

Im so excited prompts are back open! I've been thinking about this alot lately!

Basically, Peter 1 and 3 are watching a movie and Peter 1 doesn't like the movie! He just keeps sighing and asking to watch something else and Peter 3 just gets fed up and is like "okay, lets do something else"! Then the tickles ensue!

This came to me watching TASM when Peter kept sighing everytime aunt may suggested something and he would always respond "you serious"?😂

Tickle Comfort

Summary: See prompt above ❤️

(I loved this prompt so much Anon ❤️ Thank you for sending it in :))

Peter 3 clutched his pillow tighter as he watched the action unfold on screen. A good old fashioned horror movie always made for a great Friday night in his book. After all of his adventures as Spiderman, the movies were kind of funny based on what they perceived as scary or intense. However, his movie companion didn't share his his sentiment.

A tug on his shirt pulled Three from the movie to his younger brother. "Yes?"

"Three, the movie's so boring."

"No it's not."

You know exactly what's going to happen."

"Yeah, and it's hysterical. As if what they're showing us is actually terrifying."

"Can we switch it?" One fidgeted. "Since you know what's going to happen?"

"No way!"

"But Three---."

"Come on One, it's still such a good movie!"

"It's boring though."

"Look, if you don't like it, you can go. But I want to finish this movie."

One huffed as he flooped against the back of the couch. "Are you serious?"

"Yes, now shush please."

Things became quiet once again and Three returned his attention to the movie.

And felt another tug to his sleeve five minutes later. "Three."

The older brother groaned as he turned back to the youngest. "What?"

"If you don't want to change it, can we do something different?"

"What do you mean?"

"I'll play any game you want. Or we could build with legos or something like that."

"If you want to build with legos, you can build with legos."

"But---."

"I don't mind if you want to bring them in here and build on the floor Bug, but I'm finishing this movie."

The youngest let out another groan as he flopped back into his position on the couch. "Forget it."

Peter 3 gave the youngest a look. "What about your legos?"

"I said just forget it." One looked back at the screen. "It's not important any way."

Three gave One another look before turning back to the screen. He couldn't understand why One was so insistent on turning off a movie he was clearly enjoying just to do something else. It just didn't seem like him.

However, the older brother chose to let it be and actually enjoy the rest of his movie. "It's getting to the good part."

Less than five minutes later, there was another urgent tug on Three's sleeve. "Three."

Peter 3 sighed, he wasn't going to let this go. So Three scooped him into his lap. "What is it One? Do you need attention or something?"

"N-no."

"What do you need then?"

The youngest fiddled with his fingers. This was going to be difficult.

"I'm not mad Uno." Three held him close. "I'm just trying to figure out what's going on."

The youngest cuddled into Three's chest without giving an answer.

"Come on Tickle Bug. I can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong."

Peter 1 didn't respond.

"Alright fine." Three paused his movie. "You want to do something else, let's do something else."

The youngest Peter peeped out from his hiding spot.

Three smirked. "Oh Peter. A friend of yours wanted to come for a visit."

Peter One's eyes widened.

The older brother lifted his hand up then wiggled his fingers closer to the stubborn teen in his lap. "A special monster who wants all of your attention."

Peter 1 buried his face back in Three's chest, but the older brother could feel his smile starting to form.

"And he's gonna . . ." Three sing-songed as he continued his descent before digging into his brother's tummy, "Get you!"

The youngest jumped and let out a stream of light giggles.

"Not going to show your face hm?"

A head shake was his response.

Three grinned. "Alright little Tickle Bug, you need to show the tickle monster your face before he reaches your armpits, or he's going to tickle them."

"Eep!"

The grin on Peter 3's face grew even more as he slowly spidered across One's side before moving toward his ribs. "I'm a little pitty bug."

One giggled.

Then Three spidered up higher. "Pitty bug! Pitty bug!"

When the older brother's fingers started tickling along his ribs, One squeaked.

Then Peter started spidering even higher until he was just under his armpits. "I'm a little pitty bug and I love . . ."

One stayed firmly in place.

So Peter 3 wiggled his fingers into One's armpit. "Pitties!"

The youngest squealed and finally came out of hiding, curling into a ball of giggles in the process. "IHIM HEHERE!"

"There hehe is." Three spidered around One's armpits. "However, the bet was before I get to your armpits. Now I have to tickle them."

"NAAAAH! MEHERCYHY!"

"Well, the tickle monster might be willing to give you you mercy." Peter 3 paused. "In exchange for your tummy."

Peter 1 wrapped his arms around his middle. "Nohoho!"

"Why?"

"Yohou're goihing to blohow raspberrihies!"

Peter 3 put a hand on his hip. "So you think hiding him is going to stop you from getting them?"

"Yes!"

"Tsk, tsk, tsk." The older brother readjusted his hold. "You underestimate my range."

A moment later, Three nuzzled his face into the youngest's neck and blew some raspberries there instead.

"EEEEEE! THREHEHEE!"

"Omnomnomnom!"

"NAAAAH! THAT'S WOHORSE!"

The way the youngest had himself curled up made him look even younger. He genuinely looked and sounded like a little kid giggling himself silly in his older brother's lap.

After a moment longer, Three switched to the other side of One's neck. "Can't leave out your good side."

"AH! HEHEY!"

The older Peter nuzzled, nibbled, and berried all over Peter One's neck including the sides, front, and back. He only meant to go from side to side, but the youngest looked so carefree laughing so he prolonged the tickles a little longer to hear those sweet giggles.

By the time he was done, the youngest was a blushy pile of residual giggles who cuddled into his arms.

Three pulled him close. "There we go. Is that what you needed?"

Peter 1 shrugged. "Aha littlehel."

Three raised his eyebrows in surprise. "Really?"

The youngest buried his face in Three's chest.

"Hey now." Three nudged One out of hiding. "What's going on with you Bug?"

"N-nothing . . ."

Peter 3 shook his head. "I don't believe that for a second. This isn't like you."

Peter 1 fiddled with his sleeves. "You would---would---."

"I would what little Pete?"

". . . Make fun of me."

Three's eyes widened. "What?"

One didn't respond.

Peter 3 gently lifted his chin up. "Why would I make fun of you?"

The youngest Peter looked away. "Cause you like it."

"Like wha--?" A light clicked on in Three's head. "Is it something to do with the movie?"

The tiniest nod was his response.

"Do you not like it?"

"I--It's just . . ."

"Scary?"

The youngest Peter turtled into his shoulders. "I'm sorry."

"I'm not mad at you Pete." Three rubbed One's back. "You tried to tell me you didn't like it and I didn't listen."

"You gave me the option to leave."

"Why didn't you?"

Peter 1 glanced up the stairs and Three followed his eyes. Three had turned off all of the lights before setting up the movie. It was pitch black up the stairs.

"I'd--I'd go if---Two was there . . ."

"But he won't be back until tomorrow."

The youngest nodded.

"How about this?" Three shut off the movie, sending the living room into pitch blackness for a couple minutes.

Peter 1 took in a sharp breath and his heart beat escalated.

"It's okay." Three switched over to the app he needed. "I just had to switch over to a different app."

Immediately, the room filled back up with light that allowed One to relax.

Once Three had the app he needed, he pulled up a different movie. "Whenever I need to relax after an intense scary movie, I watch one of the movies I loved when I was kid. It helps get your mind off of it."

"Atlantis?"

"Have you ever seen it?"

Peter 1 nodded. "This one and Iron Giant were my Uncle Ben's favorite to watch with me."

"That's another classic!" Three readjusted the youngest in his lap. "I love that one too."

Peter hesitantly looked up at his older brother. "Thank you, but don't you want to finish your movie."

"I can finish it later."

After a moment of stunned silence, One settled back into Three's chest. "Thank you Three."

"Of course." Peter 3 wrapped One in a hug and playfully shook the youngest. "I love you so much Tickle Bug."

The youngest giggled. "Love yohou tohoo Giraffe."

"Come on." The older brother held the youngest close. "Let's watch."

[mousecry160]

Some stuff to get off my chest,

I deleted Instagram. I have never posted there for a while cause I'm super duper busy(well almost free from it). I had plans for it but I deleted it cause I am pissed. You don't have the right to get our info, yes of course, but you don't have the right to make us opt in to your stupid ai program and hide away the option to opt out by looking for it in your privacy section. It took me a while but I gave up and just deleted it entirely.

I'm so pissed at two of my 10+ year old accounts getting deleted just cause you want to destroy us and make us obsolete just so you could get 15 minutes of profits. For now I just feel like I'm going to start building my portfolio for my job instead of worrying about what I've lost even if it hurts me. Some stuff is lost cause I keep jumping from the computer to another, now dealing with issues of my current one, so i compiled stuff of what I can reach.

For the meantime I'll just be posting more art and maybe animations since I've been studying it and this month will be my assessment to get some paper that may prove I could animate cause I was trained. I made a new account in blue sky( bsky.app/profile/mousecry160.bsky.social if interested) and soon a Cara app(though I heard some problems lately im not sure.)

But that's it, I don't usually do this, if I do I would blurt out heated stuff. But yeah that's all. Y'all have fun, but not too much.

And screw you meta

Tldr: deleted an old insta account, lost alot of stuff but made new accounts in other places and I'll be posting more art and maybe animations soon.

[alliesweetsong]

LFRP: Allie Sweetsong

Face/Voice Inspiration: Gal Gadot

SERVER: Moon Guard

-BASICS-

Full Name: Allisel Sweetsong though most just call her Allie

Pronunciation: Alley-sell

Name Meaning:  The meaning of Allie is “noble kind”.

Age: Adult (Elven Equivalent of late twenties)

Race: Quel’dorei turned Ren’dorei

Gender: Female

Sexual Orientation: Straight

-PHYSICAL APPEARANCE-

Hair: brown 

Eyes: Sky Blue

Skin: fair, warm toned

Height: 5'7”

Build: Athletic, toned

Clothing Style: Out in the field: Light, leather armor, something that allows for swift movement but doesn’t skimp on protection Off Duty, lounging about: Casual clothing usually something to support a pistol holster.

Jewelry: Ear Piercings

-PERSONAL-

Class: Hunter

Profession: Allie has served as a bodyguard and bartender. During the 4th war she served as a combat scout where she came into her own. Though officially discharged from Active Duty among the 7th Legion, post war she maintains relationships with those she needs to, should they have need of her once more. 

Exercise Habits: A Morning Run to the range, A run back to her home and weight training

Diet: Mostly high calorie stuff

Physical/Psychological Ailments: None that any see.

Birthplace: Quel’Thalas

Residence: Duskwood

-RELATIONSHIPS-

Father: Taimal Sweetsong (Alive)

Mother: Eona Sweetsong (Alive) 

Siblings: unknown

Relationships: Happy with @theron-valteric

Children: A son named Coron

(Art by @art-zoratrix ) 

-SKILLS & ABILITIES-

Talents: Superb Aiming and weapons discipline. Trained in archery, but has since picked up a rifle instead.   has the ability to read a given situation and analyze how to approach

Shortcomings: Can often misjudge people and their intentions, (Seeing them as a friend when really an enemy etc) “Loyal to a fault” is known to lose her temper rapidly if arguments escalate 

Languages: Common,Thalassian

-MINDSET & MANNERISMS-

Temperament: Mostly warm, outgoing, friendly. Has a sunny disposition. 

Speech Style: Eloquent though she still gets hung up on common phrases that humans use. 

Hobbies: reading, making explosives and munitions, relaxing beachside

Habits: Drinks socially

Drive/Motivation: Literally to help others. As cliché as that sounds. She enjoys helping others complete menial tasks or large missions. She doesn’t do it for money, nor notoriety, in fact she tends to get embarrassed if people recognize her. She does it to make Azeroth a better place. 

Fears: Being surrounded, fire, has underlying abadonment issues, doesn’t enjoy super large crowds, Warlocks

OOC: 

A bit about me i've been roleplaying for a little over a decade. From WoW to Star Trek to FF14. These days I don't have alot of time for super long rp arcs in game but i do still enjoy those. I mostly enjoy writing slice of life, atleast right now while im getting reacquainted with Azeroth after 3 years, but i enjoy a wide range of rp too. Will mirror most people. Im super outgoing and pretty reasonable. I do have anxiety so if you see me huddled in a corner somewhere don't hesitate to walk up! Im usually just to nervous to start the interaction.

[lover-girl-estxx]

Nick having some mental health issues, he has these bad nightmares and rarely sleeps good till he meets the reader and falls deeply in love with her and he finally sleeps a bit better when she stays over.

Angst with a lot of fluff

Thank you 🙏🏻

Nightmares

not my gif

| Nick's POV |

I've slept about four hours since Y/n left two days ago, she had a lot of writing to do for her book. It was the third day of no Y/n and every time I close my eyes I wake up in a cold sweat having horrible dreams about I don't even now what.

6:32pm.

M: Mamas?

Y: Nicky?

M: could you come stay the night?

Y: I still have a bit of writing or I would

M: Please? I miss you bring your stuff do it here

Y: I can't when you're cute face is looking at me the whole time

M: Y/n please :(

Y:i'll be there in 30, want me to grab food or us go?

M:Thank you! go

I opened the front door to her bag over her shoulder "hi" she smiled wrapping her arms around my neck kissed me my hands on her waist, she lightly put her hand on my jaw getting my face lean down "did you still up last night?" she asked "yeah playing COD" she pecked my lips "you have to to stop staying up so late" "I know" "i'm so hungry in 10?" I nodded letting her go past me before shutting the door.

| Y/n's POV |

"could you drive?" he asked I nodded he handed me the keys and opened the door for me "thanks!" I smiled. On the way to the taco truck Nick fell asleep in the front seat, I lightly shut the door behind me and went and and got same as we always did. I opened the door "you got food already?" he said running a hand over his face "yeah it was quick today" he nodded "wanna eat here" I nodded.

I was sitting with my back on his headboard his head on my ribs arm around my waist asleep, I couldn't write i'd stop to run my fingers through his hair and rub his back. I only had to write for one hour more so I slowly got up and went to the dining room. "what are you doing?" Nate said coming out of his room to grab a soda "writing I have one more chapter" "thought you only wrote at home?" he took a sip "you're brother really wanted me to come over and I missed him" "he's not been sleep well" "what do you mean?" "his nightmares are back I think heard him yell the other night," he shrugged "got them alot in high school" I closed my laptop "i've stayed here a lot think i've only had to wake him up once" I shrugged.

I set my laptop on his dresser then grabbed my skin care bag getting in bed next to him starting to put it on. his chest started moving up and down breathing heavy sweat building on his forehead, he started to make small noises and moving around. "Nick?," I rubbed his shoulder "Nick!" he sat up gasping "shit," he ran both hands down his face "i'm sorry" "it's okay Honey, Are you okay?" I pushed a piece of his hair "yeah i'm fine i'll be right back" he stood up fixing his basketball shorts.

I sat on the bathroom counter next to him, "what's going on?" I asked pulling him in front of me "just a bad dream happens sometimes" he shrugged "Nate said you've been having bad nightmares...That why you haven't been sleeping?" "no.." "nick?" I cupped his cheeks "..I have nightmare's sometimes..I don't really get them when you're here that's part of the reasons I wanted you to come here" I kissed his collarbone "come on" I grabbed his hand.

His head was laying flat on my shoulder I ran a hand through his hair "what do you dream about?" I asked kissing his forehead "I don't even know" he shrugged "i think it may be from my pills" I nodded.

"sleep baby I know you're tired....I got you" I said, he pulled me in tight "i'm about to be," he looked up at me "thanks for laying with me" he said half asleep "don't even" I pecked his lips "love you" he whispered "love you Nicky". I was up a little later than Nick and through the time I was he'd pull me closer or dug his head into my neck. I could tell something change in Nicks breathing, I rubbed his back kissing his head "it's okay" I whispered into his hair, he slowly opened his eyes looking up at me before pulling the blanket up to his chin "thank you" he rasped closing his eyes laying a light peck on my shoulder "yeah bubba" I laid my arm over his as he started falling back asleep.

[crazy-lazy-elder-sims]

Honestly i've been thinking lately alot about what my "character development moment" is and what changed from my teens and how my younger teen self would react would she hate me or love me

And untill yesterday i didnt really have a solid answer maybe its this maybe its that alot has changed yet im still the same idk

Then it hit me that the biggest character development i went through is going from hating watercolors with a passion and prefering acrylic paints to them being my main and favorite method of painting.

If you know anything about either you know the drastic change this is

In short going from an impatient Person who doesnt care about layers details blending or anything just wants to color the thing with the colors i see infront of me and define the shapes i see using bajilion brushes to get details doen quickly and ruining brushes because i dont clean them and i dont use them with the correct medium they are made for finishing everything in 2 hours max to taking my time with things noticing undertones reading moods layring colors and details building up to details trying to have a cohesive transition and good blending that makes sense using 1 or 2 brushes max that are tiny for everything to the point that it takes me over 12 hours to even get to a point where i start to be happy with the painting.

This ofc reflects in all my other behaviours and shit.

Truly nothing says alot about me the way this does.

[quinloki]

👋🏼 hello, Silk here~

Not meaning to infodump here, but my friend helped me make up ALOT of new lore for my OC River last night, and the most hilarious part was when we were done he looked at me like:

“You know, I hope Oda doesn’t come out with anything that contradicts everything we just came up with bc we’ll be screwed xD”

And I just look up from where I’ve been furiously writing it down like “Oh. OH you’re right >.<“

Does that ever happen to you, when you’re writing for fandoms that are unfinished?

Anyway, hope you feel better soon 🙌🏼

I actually never made an OC before Quill - At least not one for a show. I've had plenty of D&D PCs, but that's not - to me - the same thing. I usually don't build anything for those characters so much as letting the campaign they're in shape them.

But! Keep heart about AUs and such possibilities, if you really like something you've come up with, there's no reason to abandon it if the canon world changes in such a way that it doesn't fit anymore. You can try to think up ways to help make it fit, or just keep it in regardless.

Sometimes it's the exception that proves the rule - like how I made a devil fruit that's smooth and tastes sweet xD I have no reason for doing so, I just wanted to. Fic and Art and OCs are fun like that.

And thank you, I'm looking to turn in early tonight and sleep in late and that should help put Saturday back on track for me.

[flower-dagger-gay]

ruby, brick red, blood!

ruby: favourite pre-2000 song?

This is so difficult bc most songs I like are before 2000- I've been listening to Dreams(1977) by Fleetwood Mac alot lately.

brick red: have you ever been in an abandoned building?

No but I want to so badly. I was going to break into this abandoned supposedly haunted mansion but then I learned it's been un-abandoned(?) and they're now turning it into a high class hotel (idk why tf this small ass town needs a high class hotel but whatever 💀)

blood: which of your family members is your favourite?

I was going to exclude pets bc that's too easy, but I genuinely don't love anyone more than my cat.

This is her <3

[simpingcowboy]

Never-ending

Pairing: None, solo Marcus Moreno

Warnings: angst with a sweeter ending, lengthy discussions of grief/grieving, nightmares, death related guilt, widowing, loss of a parent

Word Count: 730+

Summary: On the week of his late wife's deathday, Marcus comes to an important realization in therapy.

A/N: I've alot of personal things going on this week, so enjoy my projecting onto Marcus Moreno. Inspired by this drawing! This quote has taken me a long way.

The grief was never-ending.

Marcus would roll over in the too big bed. Eyes still closed. Arm outstretched, reaching for a woman. His woman. He'd reach and reach. Frantically patting the bed. Searching for her. Frustration growing in his mind. As if he'd misplaced her. It's all your fault Marcus. His dream would taunt. Find her. He'd reach and- before his eyes even fully open. Marcus Moreno would find himself on the floor. Having rolled out of bed.

He'd sigh. Void of sorrow. Void of feeling. Just out of sheer exhaustion. A stinging reminder that he never got over her. That he likely never will. Marcus gets up from the floor, marking the occurrence in his journal. He's sure his therapist will ask why. Why four times this week has he woke up on the floor? To which Marcus will shrug. The answer is always different anyways. It does no good to ask why...

"Mr. Moreno, I think it'd be helpful to discuss why these events are happening. Are there any triggers? Are you stressed? Is something going on with Missy?"

A flower he thinks to himself.

I saw a flower Sunday. A flower she'd never see.

And then a tree with its autumn leaves on Tuesday. There'd been more Autumns without her than with.

Wednesday Missy laughed the way she did. And Missy didn't even know. She never heard her laugh.

Friday his hands felt cold. And there was no one there to warm them.

"I don't know exactly why." Marcus lies. He turns to look out the office window. "All I know is that it happens."

"And it's about her?"

"It's always about her." Marcus confirms. Everything was about her.

"And the rest of your week?" The therapist interrupts his train for thought.

"Sorry?"

"Outside of the events, how was your week?"

Marcus has to pause the scoff that threatens to leave his lips. It all seemed so frivolous without her and yet- "Monday…" On Monday, there was a potluck held at the PTA meeting. An unofficial tradition done on the week of her deathiversary. The smell of homemade tamales filled the air as long time friends reminisced on the early days of their children's youth. "Monday was nice." Marcus murmurs, an unrecognizable feeling building in his throat.

"Any other days?"

For a moment again, Marcus is silent. Mind shifting through the fog for an answer. "Y-yeah. Thursday I-" A young intern. Sweet, pretty thing. Ran into Marcus in the break room and said they'd noticed him looking down lately. And in a not so subtle manner offered him a box of burnt cookies and a card with their phone number on it. Told him to call if he's ever feeling lonely. Marcus chokes on a chuckle as he recalls the look on HR's face when she'd overheard the whole thing. And the hollar Miracle Guy let out when he recounted the story to him. 'at least you still got it!' Miracle Guy teased. "Thursday was a funny day." A small smile cracked on his face.

"And Saturday? Your wife's deathday?"

Marcus bites his inner lip. Eyes staring out the window, unable to bring himself fully into the room. "Saturday…" Saturday, he and Missy headed out to visit her grave. A tradition they'd done since the start. As they walked up over the hill, Marcus's sorrow was replaced with warmth. Warmth and love. Quiet tears escape out his eyes. Hot on his cheek. He reaches for a tissue from the table. Her grave had already been tended to. A ring of flowers encompassing her headstone. Various kinds, some in vases, wrapped in paper, placed in boxes. Cards scattered along the front. Missy's eyes went bright with joy, witnessing all the love for her mother. And Marcus? Well, "Saturday, I felt love. So much love…" he sniffles, just letting an odd kind of relief wash over him. The tears continue traversing down his cheeks as Marcus chases them with a tissue.

The therapist leans back, giving Marcus the space to cry.

Marcus looks up at his therapist through red glassy eyes "The grief doesn't end…does it?"

With a gentle smile, his therapist shakes their head. "No. Not always."

"But love…" Marcus crackles a smile. "Love doesn't end either?"

"No. The love never ends, Mr. Moreno."

Yes, the grief is never-ending but so is the warmth of breath and so are the strange ways love will find you again, again, again…