#idk if this is necessarily what you asked for but you gave me a chance to word vomit about one of my favourite series of all time

[alloutofgoddesses]

I've not read that series, can you tell me about the wingfeather series, as for making stats for creatures, a quick fix is taking their closest analogue from the monster manual :)

There is nothing I would love to do more than tell you about this book series!

It’s written by Andrew Peterson, who on top of being an author is a Christian musician which is how my parents found him.

There are four main books in the YA saga with the first one being ‘On the Edge of the Dark Sea of Darkness’. The series follows the Igiby family, which is made of a grandfather (Podo), his daughter (Nia), her three children (Janner, Tink, and Leeli), and a dog (Nugget). The overarching theme is about transformation and of course, defeating Gnag the Nameless and his evil Fangs of Dang. There is also an animated series, with one season out on Angel Studios.

(I have realised that this is gonna get long so, more under the cut)

There are some spin-off books, such as the Creaturepedia which is going to be enormously helpful in making a campaign setting because something Peterson has done extremely well is the world-building and various creatures. My personal favourite is the Toothy Cow.

Given that it’s written by a Christian author it’s creation story is One Man, One Woman but other than that and the characters ‘thanking the Maker’ it doesn’t really have all that much overbearing religion in it, at least in my opinion. The series also has heavy influence from Celtic cultures, especially in the third and fourth books. There are also some really great songs due to Peterson being a musician.

The reason I personally love these books so much is because while yes, there’s an Evil to be defeated it is mostly a tale about overcoming and learning to love yourself and the strengths you have. The youngest of the main characters, Leeli, has to walk with a crutch, but that doesn’t change anything about her and she’s never left out of anything because of it. Every main character, as well as some ancillary characters, is fully fleshed out and given wonderful arcs that lead to a satisfying conclusion. I can’t read any one of these books without crying at least once because of how well-written it is.

Lastly, the plot twist in the first book broke my brain apart when I read it for the first time but when re-reading as an adult I feel like one could put the pieces together before the characters in the book do. It’s still pretty amazing though.

[quarterprioritymidnight]

what are your thoughts on the new twenty one pilots album?

oh i bloody love it thank you for asking anon. i didn't listen to anything else for like three days straight lol. honestly as soon as id heard it the first time i wanted to listen to it again straight away i just think its so impressive.

i also think they did really well with the singles kind of bridging the gap between the trenchy/blurryface sound to the new sound. backslide took a while to grow on me, but i think that single is a really good introductory into this albums sound and if i hadn't been drawn back in with overcompensate i might not have given it a chance so much?

i know i probably sound like im overdoing it, but honestly one of my favourite albums from them and i wish i could hear it again for the first time. that feeling of expectations not only being met but fully exceeding and going places i never thought they would brO. i am so so so excited for tour lol

[creepling]

hii idk if you’re comfortable but could i request just any headcanons of stockholm syndrome johnny slaughter x fem!reader? would he ever come around to being “gentle” after corrupting the reader of a relationship? would he ever let the reader see her family? just give me any details you brainstorm 🫣

this became more of a drabble but it encapsulates everything i'd except from johnny with a captive with stockholm syndrome. he'll be overthinking, he'll be insecure, and he'll take it out on you. then act all boyfriend material so you don't question it. he's such a joy to be around lmaooo

tags: can be read as gn. stockholm syndrome, knife as threat, near death experience, abusive relationship

Johnny’s tactics proved to be worthwhile the more you eased yourself into the role of a captive, viewing your surroundings as a home since you had no escape to go to your own. It surprises him how quickly you succumbed to it, offering to take up chores. He was suspicious of you at first until he let you out in the junkyard to gather scraps. The cattle grid off, the gate open, you had every chance of escape. Your footing stayed planted on the soil, bare feet in the dry dirt, humming a tune as the sun beat down on you. You acted as if you were at home, taking your time, comfortable in your surroundings. You were the first of its kind in Johnny’s eyes.

Sometimes he caught you gazing at the pressure gate. Looking beyond the road to the horizon, deep in thought. Johnny would keep his eye on you, his hands busy with the car he was fixing up. Then you would sigh and look away, getting back to work. Johnny needed answers, he had to know what you were thinking. A dream, an opportunity? Are you kidding him?

“You ever thought about running away?” He would ask. You never gave a direct answer, your words were always like “I like it here”, “I have everything I need”

It did not calm his nerves. You can’t leave, you can’t defeat him. You cannot be convinced of anything except your devotion to him, otherwise all his work has gone to waste. He had to test you again, break any thought that crossed your mind.

He ambushed you in the quiet of the night, snuffling your screams with his hand, and pressing his knife to your neck. You only screamed once, resting when you saw Johnny, calm under his knife as you gazed into his eyes.

“If you ever think about leaving,” Johnny warned, “Goddammit- I’ll kill you. I’ll fucking kill you.” His words were insecure, his vowels broken. Masking his frustration with fury.

He shifted his hand to grip your hair, giving you a chance to speak. Your docile face gazing up at him, forcing a smile to appeal to him.

“I love you, Johnny… I do, I really do,” your calm words failed as he tensed his shoulders, pressing the knife closer to you. “But… I have a family. They’ll be worried sick about me. At least let me write to them, I’ll tell them that I found you, and I’m happy here. Please…” You weren’t necessarily lying, but there was still an inkling of what life was like before. Your whole life was ahead of you, letting you navigate the paths of life. You went down this one, longing for the possibilities there were before. You refused to admit defeat, mustering a fond smile.

It seemed like Johnny was thinking about it, but he was only steadying his knife, debating on slitting your throat. The spill of your blood flashed before his eyes before he made the split decision to replace the knife with his hand, closing your airflow.

“You have a family,” Johnny spat, “We’re your goddamn family. Got it?”

You nodded to the best of your ability, gripping his wrists, calling surrender. He lets go, scoffing at your pathetic coughs for air.

“You’re smart, so I suggest you start thinking smart thoughts,” Johnny’s remark was worse than his knife. You turned on your side, burying your face into the pillow to get back to sleep. Your eyes are wide open, tense under Johnny’s arms wrapped around you. He kisses your temple, soothing your head, as if nothing happened.

[beanghostprincess]

Any comprehendible thoughts about Bruno’s and Leone’s relationship ?

By "comprehendible" I'm guessing you mean "coherent" and not "they make my skin crawl and my organs twist in a way that not even throwing up would be enough to get them out of my system they make me completely ill to the point of insanity and I would sell my soul to see them together again and happy". So I will try for you and write some thoughts you can understand instead of this being me sobbing over them for a whole year--

Part 5 has some incredible JJBA ships (I know you said relationship and not necessarily in a romantic way but it's impossible for me to see them platonically, I am sorry), I've realized, and maybe it's because they are all wayyyy gayer than usual and extremely more poetic. Araki went hard with the symbolism here. I missed it (he does this a lot idk what I'm saying) (but I missed the feeling part 2 gave me because it's my favorite) (well actually my favorite is part 4 but Battle Tendency will always be important to me and I'd choose it over anything else) (I forgot what we're talking about) (I apologize I never talk about JJBA here and I use every chance I get to mention everything I can).

So Bruabba (I believe the ship is called) wasn't my favorite ship in the beginning. It's kind of like that one thing you already just assume so you don't go that insane over them? They're so in love it's sickening and almost canon to me to the point that I often forget they are... Not canon... Wild. Honestly wild. In my mind, they kissed. But yeah, they were just there and I thought "they're gay and married. Good for them". Abbacchio's beef with Giorno is so funny to me, too, because God forbid Buccellati gives attention to someone other than him for two seconds 💔💔💔 (no but seriously I actually love Abbacchio and how protective he is) (his dynamic with Giorno is something that I love too but that's for another day).

But oh......... Then they show Abbacchio's flashback and how he is only at ease whenever he's with Buccellati... They trust each other so deeply and would not hesitate to do anything to save the other?? Something about Abbacchio hitting rock bottom and Buccellati saving him from his desperation and showing him another path. Something about Abbacchio going "The only time I'm at ease is when I'm following the orders of something great and absolute" vs "The only time I'm ever at ease is when I'm with you, Buccellati". Something about Buccellati seeing Abbacchio as not only someone he can rely on but someone he can lower his guard down around. Something about Buccellati being so protective of him which, you know, he is protective with everyone but it hits differently with him (he did something to me when he went "The moment you stab Abbacchio, I will end your life" like damn, they're not taking him away from you, soften your grip sweetie) (they're indeed taking him away though) (I am very sad). Something about Buccellati having to deal with the weight of leaving Abbacchio after his death and being the one to make the decision while Narancia sobs.

In general their dynamic is just insane to me because they both respect each other in different ways but so deeply. Buccellati will forever be Abbacchio's capo and light and savior in a way that is almost religious devotion. And Abbacchio will forever be Buccellati's most trusted person and he was just so proud of him and of choosing him. Like, if fate is a thing (which it is because it's the main theme in this part) these two are definitely soulmates. Not to mention that there's just something so beautiful in Abbacchio following orders but choosing to go with Buccellati knowing it'd probably get him killed. And Buccellati seeing so much potential and humanity in Abbacchio and someone to call home, too.

They're not even my favorite ship but yesterday I read so many... So many fanfics of them... This ask is the perfect timing, honestly. They've been on my mind lately. I literally woke up today after a nightmare and INSTANTLY went here to look for fanart of them.

Basically, coherent comprehensible thoughts, I love them an abnormal amount.

BONUS! Yesterday I asked my fiancé (who has not watched JJBA) their thoughts about part 5's characters and this is what they said about them:

[graciehart]

Top 5 Jisbon scenes from each season !! 💚💙

fkdajf;ja;fa thanks for asking me this 😭 I've been so excited about this and I love that you gave me 35 chances LOL (and I'll still agonize over leaving out some)

it's going under a read more because this is gonna be loooooong hehe

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Season One

1x04 Lisbon teasing Jane — EPISODE!! FOUR!!!!!! I love how she teases him and he just looks back with such a soft smile and she's looking at him and fdkjakf;ja;a gaaaaaahhhhh

1x10 the Truth — This scene is so so so so personal (the whole episode, really) because of my own experience being hospitalized. And all the emotions! The way they look at each other! AAAAH!

1x17 trust fall — I've tried doing trust falls before and have never been able to do it, so the fact that Jane and Lisbon/Simon and Robin can do it? The TRUST!! But also it's the way he's so upset she doesn't trust him and the way he lowers himself to look her in the eye and she can see it's so important to him that she do the trust fall so she gives in!!

1x19 what are you thinking? — This has always been one of my favorite scenes because they just make eyes at each other for literally 30 seconds???? 30 seconds is a significant amount of time for a show!! And she finally gives in and asks him what he's thinking and 😭

1x23 choosing life — Lisbon telling Jane that people need him, Jane saying he should've been dead so that they could get Red John AND THEN SHOOTING THEIR ONLY LEAD to save Lisbon. All of it. SOOOO important. He chooses life, over and over and over. And he chooses her life, over and over and over.

also I just have to mention them in the rain. they are holding. hands. come ON.

Season Two

2x03 tears — Honestly all of this episode, but it's so heartbreaking the way she's trying to hide it and he notices and you see him soften. Like he's always loving with Lisbon but he becomes so gentle when he sees how upset she is. Also the end scene is so cute ("hush!" and Jane peeking back in 😭)

2x06 prison visit — The "I can just hit you with my chair" "I think you'll find it's bolted to the flooooor" exchange is just so them and I really love it LOL

2x09 tiara — Another scene that is just so them. The way she just ignores him, the way he dresses her up... it's such a sweet little moment.

2x11 dance — Listen. I've danced with people before and I have never wanted to be that close to them. It is so unnecessary how tight she's holding him AND YET!!!! Like she's fully resting on him!! GOD!!!! (Also the Caskett parallel 😭)

2x16 if I were dying... — Okay, I have mixed feelings on the whole situation because yeah, he shouldn't have lied, but the way she's so surprised and touched that he wanted to call her (whereas it's obvious to literally everyone else). I wish he had been able to answer and tell her what he would've said... although it probably wouldn't have been the truth

Season Three

3x01 sheep dip — Everything about this little clip. The way Jane turns the tv on over and over. The way Lisbon gets frustrated with him. The way Jane mimics her. It's just so good and I always laugh when I see it.

3x08 crime scene — When Lisbon makes that comment about "if Jane were here, he'd make some snarky remark." Like... the way they influence each other! The way she knows what he'd be doing! The way you know she's missing him and worried about him! Also Lisbon knowing they're his family.

3x12 IT WAS A RHETORICAL QUESTION — Idk why but this has always been one of my favorites, like her exasperation just makes me laugh so much! But this whole episode is so fun, like when he makes fun of the rhyming/rhythm 😂

3x19 ...she was — I love Lisbon watching Jane's tape. I love that it's something I'd expect Jane to do and not necessarily Lisbon and I love the way it can apply to Lisbon as well... but also the "she was" absolutely destroys me every time.

3x23 bomb — There are lots of moments in this episode I want to mention (the dress!!!! angry little princess!!!!) but I think Jane finding Lisbon is my favorite because it shows how much she trusts him. And I love that she tells him she doesn't need him to come but he eventually needs to check on her 🥺

also I just have to shoutout the pocket rocket introduction because it's just sooooo funny the way he says that right after introducing Rigsby so plainly

Season Four

I've basically decided I'm not stopping at five because season four is one of my favorites lolol

4x01 picking Jane up — I just... I love that Lisbon is waiting for him. I love the way they look at each other. I love that Lisbon is literally injured and still picks him up.

4x09 ice cream — they're so 😭

4x10 saving Jane — This is honestly one of my favorite scenes of the whole series. The way she drops the flashlight and just sprints in (think about how FREEZING she must have been, the water was cold and then after she was wet and it was night), the way she's crying, the way she's saying "please..." and the fact that she's his most important person, the person they ask these questions to... AAAGH (also the way he tugs on her jacket when he asks what her name is in the hospital)

4x10 other scenes — Her calling him Paddy 😭 Sitting by the lake 😭 The hospital scenes and then when she challenges him and says "take a drive with me" (also it literally made me spiral thinking about how many places they drive together because I know how far apart these cities are and like... THEY SPEND SO MUCH TIME TOGETHER)

4x15 in the car — I laugh EVERY. TIME. At how she can't just let them go, she has to get in herself, how she just shoves Jane to the side... I love that scene. I love jealous Lisbon so much (I love jealousy in my characters, it's just so funny...)

4x17 I missed you — ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!!! (also that one tmsource set that is like them after being apart for like... a day)

4x18 tiger — It's just such a cute moment, I can't not mention it.

4x20 pervy perv perv — the way she's called to pick him up, then the way he says pervy perv perv, the way she says that is "profoundly" illegal, and then at the end when he wants to keep it quiet and in the most petty way possible, Lisbon goes, "no." I love this whole episode, it's so funny. I love that she's amused by him joining the play. She's come to just adore all those annoying, pain-in-the-ass things about him <3

4x20 ending — Lisbon is the only one who hears the pain in Jane's voice and she looks up and watches him walk away and I just 😭

4x24 — I'm not even gonna specify for the heading lol this whole episode is insane!! HAND. HOLDING. HAND HOLDING!!!! "Love you." ???? But mainly the church scene. It's so beautiful and also so funny ("I hate you Jane. I HATE YOU." and "okay we are in a church."). When Lisbon says "I have not been sleeping, I've been—" like you can tell how much she cares about him and how worried she is and I love how the rest of the team knows too and are careful about it with her.

Season Five

this has devolved into me not narrowing down... makes me want to go back and add to the other sections... but I won't... lol I truly am trying to keep it to five but some I just have to do more.

5x01 car ride — Okay, I say car ride, but this whole episode I love. I love how jealous Lisbon is. I forgot how mad she is until I went back and rewatched it and it's just... so funny how angry she is. I love her so much, she's so unaware 😭 Also the car conversation. Them dancing around the topic and Jane making fun when she hints at it. GAH

5x02 hospital — it's the way she just automatically goes with Jane. But also them being silly together 😭

5x08 car crash — Lisbon is SO. SOFT. The way you can see how worried she is. The way her voice is so gentle and soft. The way she comforts him. GOD I DIE

5x12 Lisbon's office — The way Jane just automatically sits down and stays with her and helps. The way they know each other so well.

5x13 partners — Another all-time favorite. The way he pulls her in and the way she's so upset and the way he has such a soft spot for her 😭

5x14 poker — I love the way Jane teases her (and that it's Simon and Robin playing). I love these moments of their friendship and all the time they spend together.

5x17 Kansas City — fkjda;fja I just. They're so. I can't. The way Jane smiles at Lisbon as she's singing and how Lisbon forgets herself for a moment. I can't!!!!

5x20 I need you — It's the way he hears it and immediately comes. The way she admits it. How happy and reassured she is when he comes because she knows that she's important, she's his person. (Also I know you love this episode so I don't need to tell you why I think of so many other scenes to include too!)

Season Six

6x02 cleaning Lisbon's face — I mean, the whole thing, but the way he just runs out and is shouting that he needs water, that's the most important thing, and then he cleans up her face... knowing what that must have been like for him... fjdajf;a my heart is exploding.

6x06 saying goodbye — This one's pretty self-explanatory. It's painful but also so important.

6x07 in the hospital — Her saying she wants to stay with Jane 😭 The fact that she would never be anywhere else. GAH

6x08 phone call — Again, all of the episode, but especially the phone call. I love that she has the recording, I love that all he wants is to talk to her (if I were dying I'd want to call you...) and I just... gahhhh.

6x09 Jane's letters — It hurts my heart, but it's so important to me. The fact that he writes her all those letters. That she has a special box for them. That she takes it out like a treat and reads it and is comforted by it. Lisbon's life is so clearly lonely in 6x09 and it breaks my heart and I just love her so much... and it truly does not seem like she dates anyone or anything like that in those two years. She reads the letters and holds onto them and she can't send anything back but the fact that he sees so many things to remind him of her... I could go on and on.

6x09 hug — Her voice is soooo soft when she says "I missed you too" and also she's literally smushed into him!!!! The "nice beard" comment!! The way they hold each other so tight!!! GAH!!!!

6x16 blanket — I have such mixed feelings about 6x16... but I love so much of it. I love that she looks at him and smiles and puts the blanket over him.

literally all of Blue Bird, of course.

Season Seven

I'm excluding "White Orchids" because I'm pretty sure it would be my whole top five. And I'm going to try to keep it to five... gaaaah.

7x06 gift — She kept the pieces. She. Kept. The. Pieces. She put it back together. I think she looked at it and held it and maybe even used it when she missed Jane. She held onto it until it was right to give it back to him. His love language is gifts too so you can see it means so much to him. (Also, again, my love language, so I melt)

7x07 — I know it's cheating but... like... all of their scenes. I love that he asks her if she wants him to come and I love that she wants him to come. I love that her first "I love you" is so her. I love that Jane immediately goes to her old room. I love their talk in the trailer.

7x08 come to bed — I mean. As much as I wish we had like ooooone bedroom scene, I love that we see them in bed together multiple times. It's just so sweet and so significant that Jane is in pajamas and in a bed. Ugh. I can't.

7x09 conversation — I love that this is Lisbon's first casual "I love you." I love that she's stroking his arm the whole time. I love how hard it is for him to say what's going on but that he does it anyway. I just love it so much.

7x12 ring — I love that Lisbon asks about the ring because she's the only person who really can ask about it, but then she apologizes later because she realizes she shouldn't have asked about it (which is exactly why she's the one who's allowed to ask). I love how Tork's comment is what makes her apologize, and I love how protective she is. The way she instinctively straightens up when he starts talking, the way she angrily goes after him and says "yeah, the wife and kid." The way it sort of stops her in her tracks when she thinks about what the wedding ring means for Jane. And then I have to just mention the way she says "don't you ever do that to me again ever" after she got so mad at Jane for not wanting to lose her/interfering with her job. The way she interrogates and says "I don't think you understand how important this is to me" and how much you can see Jane has influenced her. How Jane is more important to her. How fiercely she loves him and is afraid of losing him, the way you just see it so plainly.

okay... that was a lot and I know I left out a bunch, but I really did try to keep it to 5 (mostly). Anyway. I look forward to your comments as always! <3 Thanks for letting me cry about them! (also I think I literally spent over an hour writing this fkjdkal;fj;)

[fizziepop]

*it is me hiiiii* *open ni nooorrrr*

this makes me wondering. Does kalon has a type? Or loving isn’t in his language? Vehdushdkdjs I need soup Gala. I NEED SOUPPPPP

hmm, kalon soup for ruirui. I might be able to conjure up something.

I'll be honest. Beyond the fact, Kalon is my villain. I've never actually thought about his details. They're all up in the air for the moment. I didn't think I'd love his concept as much as I do now and I'm surprised that I haven't given him any meat to his story.

Kalon...well, Kalon I won't say he has a type. Growing up, all that matter was his mother's approval, the empire's welfare, and of course, the definite choice of him becoming the emperor one day. Once his dear mother stepped down.

I find it difficult to say whether he had a type or not. The opinion and favor of the ladies and gentlemen irkens was actually affected by the fact his mother was the Empress. They wanted her favor and what better way to get to her if not through one of her offspring. So, he was never alone. Every day, every hour, it could be someone different. He had everything. Looks, prowess as a conqueror, the approval of all eyes, and again, the certainty he would be crowned the next emperor. So, he never had to fight for their approval for the longest time.

Until, everything changed. He was the son that was put aside and he realized that no one actually wanted him for him. All they wanted was power and that damn crown. So, ultimately, he felt jilted and it makes it rather difficult to earn his trust much less affection from him. His view of love would be skewed for the longest time. He may have seen the love his mother and father shared but it was never extended to him or his siblings and all the romances that went bleh probably didn't help. So, someone would have to put a lot of work into this boy but trust me, once you're in. You definitely have someone who will love you to the end.

I imagine he would need someone who's strong. Not necessarily someone who is strong in strength. It could be one's person and the ability to survive hardships. He feels like he's been dealt a losing hand and I think he needs someone who feels the same or is living a similar situation. IMO though, makes me wonder if this would be a toxic relationship...maybe. It could go either way. This person might make him spiral more into some super dark thoughts OR they may heal and find some semblance of peace together. 'Cause, isn't that what everyone wants in life. Some love, peace, and someone(s) to share it with.

So, yeah, I think he's capable of love and I think he's looking for it even if he doesn't realize it yet. His story and his ending hasn't been written so anything is possible for Kalon. If only someone (romantically or platonically) gave him a chance. The question is, "does he deserve one?" idk He keeps asking himself that one. Over and over. Its become a mantra almost to him.

Hope that was some okay soup for you, RuiRui. Thank you for loving and designing, our favorite boy. <3

[i-think-were-alone-n0w]

ill speak my fucking truth, the TUA s4 ending was BULLSHIT.

alright alright, i get yall's issues ab five and lila, but i also understand it to some extent.

but one thing we can all agree on is how full of plot holes, unanswered questions, and how shitty of an ending we've got. also, it was so fucking rushed! hell.

to address the ending; why the fuck? why? why would our comfort characters cease to fucking exist? in all timelines, they've fought so hard to build good lives. it was bound to be ruined, but them to fucking cease to exist? thats wild!

and alright what about the other kids with marigold? (?) there were about what, 40+(?) born, right? where are they? this cant be real.

to address some other plot holes..

ray: what do you MEAN he just.. walked out on allison? they loved each other dearly, we sidnt get a fucking explanation?

sissy, SLOANE??: what, did these characters just disappear into thin air? if ray is alive, why couldn't sissy be, too? mostly after the big part harlan played in the third season. also, where the fuck did sloane go? so ben survived, but sloane just, what? disintegrated??? turned into pure marigold? hell.

ben?: why is no one talking about him? his love story was rushed, his motives were a bit stupid (not entirely, so i could excuse this), also he just fucking died and nobody seemed to actually care? klaus had little to no reaction and he was the closest to ben? what the hell is going on?

viktor: we ve gotten none of his backstory. we see a supposedly ex gf of his at the start, and they say he s getting every girl in town. what is he, afraid of commitment? a player? not able to sort his priorities? also, how come he didn't suffer any consequence after literally sucking those particles out of ben!? i mean, his body's got a fuck ton of marigold, and in theory when coming into contact with that bs particle; he should've what, exploded!?

reggie: how and why is reggie for once, supposedly nice? until now he played a role snd at the evnd revealed a facade and it being some evil plan. this time over though, what we see is what we get. he trusted viktor, he followed up on his word, gave him time, gave him chances, called so many times, and in the end, told his wife that he wishes to save it and couldnt believe it was her behind it. so why is he no longer evil? what's up with that?

jennifer: soo why was she inside a squid? what happened to her parents? how did she get that power? why is she destined to meet ben? erremmm.. so many plot holes w her.

commision: (i might be very wrong here and not remember the past seasons, feel free correct me if im wrong.) but ure telling me, that in NO timeline the commision still exists? lila and five have managed to travel through hundreds of them over the span of 6.5 years. and all of this, none of those timelines were helpful? or.. anything at all? i wish their arc wasnt so rushed, maybe more ppl would see through it. it didnt feel like 7 years. it felt like 2 months.

diego: throughout the season we see him getting clowned on for being a "failure" and being "fat" only for him to look the same, fucking ripped too, and be normal, react like a normal person would. he was a good, hard working father and good husband with pure intentions. what was all that for?

claire: i need to see more of her. we know klaus' been sober for 3 yrs, but its been 6. which menas that claure has seen that "bad, sick" side of klaus. we see her know how to recognise that he was relapsing. i wish we saw more of her childhood, her with allison and how she got so closs to klaus.

it all was so rushed. idk ill add more if i remember more chat.

if any of you want to see me address lila and five, i've made other posts. i think their arc was important, not necessarily asked for, but justified, too. i'll folloe up with more posts and answer questions. no hate here.. js opinions:).

[livvyofthelake]

fuckass book u say… what goes on…

hii abby i don’t even think you’ve been here to know what book i’m even talking about so i’m imagining you seeing that vague ass post and being like hm wonder what book beth read… only for me to tell you it was just call me by your name, known movie nobody on tumblr likes other than me <3 and i understand that no one here likes timmy due to the overexposure or whatever but you’re all really missing out because he really is that good. sorry i know this is the hates popular opinions website but sometimes an opinion is popular because it’s just right idk man….

ANYWAY. so we loved the book… well ok loved is a strong word. we had a fun yet tense time with the book… as we all know i like the movie a lot (clearly enough to put it in the timeless video twice never forget… and i stand by it i’d do it again and more) anyway so i am a big supporter of not getting to have real concrete opinions on things you haven’t seen/read/heard whatever. so my ass READ the text!!!! and i’m going to get into the adaptation process with helena’s ask later which none of you have seen but like. well it’s in my inbox and i’m going to talk so much about it i <3 discussing the adaptation process! i digress. the book was really good elio is SUCH a fucking freak to read about i adored him… he is literally like if nick carroway was alina starkov. he is utterly insufferable and also obsessed with that man. but in a way that is so teenage girl bipolar… the entire beginning he’s like UGH oliver is the WORST man on planet earth and he HATES me and i HATE him and somehow i’m still HORNY about it but he’s AWFUL and MEAN. and then he’s like oh wait actually i realized he’s just shy lol omg he’s just like meeeeeee fr!!!! it was crazy. And he really had me there for a minute i was like damn oliver sounds like he sucks remind me why this is a love story?…. i was like andré what are we doing… of course ultimately what he was doing was taking the reader into the character’s mind so we could experience the worst of what elio felt as well as the best. which was crazyyyyy you had to be there!! not that i’m recommending this book. well maybe i am. idk it’s hard to say. abby you’d probably like it actually i think you’d respect elio’s ever present horniness and loser energy about it. that was meant to sound friendly and loving i didn’t mean to insinuate that you’re a horny loser… but well i mean. um love you 😁🩷

i think overall i liked the writing and the only major things against it are that well. andré is still a man and as we know i rarely fuck with male authors. feels like every time i give a man a chance he lets me down and frankly. it happened again :/ must every fictional character going through a sexuality crisis get misogynistic with it? to be fair it wasn’t THAT bad i just didn’t like what he was doing with the female characters. it felt very like. you know how men just don’t see women as human beings? yeah. which is crazy because i looked it up and andré aciman has a wife. girl you HAVE to leave him i’m sorry but you need to there’s no way he’s the best you could do dear god… i understand that an author making certain characters less in a narrative doesn’t necessarily reflect how they feel about an entire group of people in real life. but i mean. i fear i just have very little faith in men. ALSO he wrote a sequel to this book. which first of all, call me by your name was published in 2007. and it’s sequel wasn’t even planned to be written until 2018. you’ll note that the film came out in 2017. capitalist ass…. anyway i read the plot summary of the sequel and it gave very Hates Women so. i’m sticking with what i feel. it also gave fanfiction a little ngl. it also made me hate elio’s dad more than i already did, which has always been a fair amount. but we mustn’t get into all that we don’t have the time. btw you’re not supposed to hate elio’s dad he’s supposed to be the jennifer garner love simon of this story. but i don’t like him and i never have even in the movie… but i do like him a bit more in the movie i’m mostly ambivalent about him in there but in the book i really didn’t care for him much. it’s not really hate so much as just dislike. but it’s enough to be worth noting!!

but i think the strongest thing about the book that really made it good was that it wasn’t so much a “love story” as it was one character’s reflection on intimacy in his life. a narrative being a Romance sort of posits that there are two characters of equal importance, but this is really just elio’s narrative and oliver exists only as an extension of elio. especially when you consider that the core part of their dynamic is that they’re so similar the edges between them blur. in a way you could read it entirely as a story about self respect and self love

but i digress. very jumbled ass post but what do you want from me you sent me a vague statement/question…..

[sinigangsta-ao3]

Hi! I’d like to begin by saying I never read these types of fics, but I gave Mother! a chance because of the prompt and absolutely devoured it. I loved the whole implicit background and their feelings. Idk how to explain I don’t usually like things with monsters.

Could you talk a bit about this fic, how you came up with it, some headcanons? And what you think maybe happened after

omg thank you so much for this ask!! It came at a good time bc, admittedly, I was considering hiding this fic a few days ago: I was very much in my head of whether or not this fic is “me” (which is a silly thing to think bc of course it is, I wrote it 😅). BUT ANYWAYS! receiving this ask prompted me to go back and reread “mother!” — and I felt really proud of it!!! lol. So I know this wasn’t your intention necessarily, but thanks for reminding me of this one.

I digress!! I’ll answer your questions below bc I (unfortunately) will share a lot lol:

Ok, so I wrote this fic for a multifandom dead dove event that was hosted on twitter: monsterfcking march lol. I don’t actually do too many events, even though I’d like to, bc they make me anxious about meeting deadlines. But this dead dove one I really like bc they’re usually prompts that make me think and write outside of my comfort zone — which I really like to do!

I was definitely still in my house of the dragon era when I wrote this, I’m sure lol. But in truth: I am a big fantasy buff. I really love stories with rich world building and magic and monstrous creatures. So I don’t ever know if I have the discipline to go and create a whole fantasy world, but I figured this one-shot would be a good way to try my hand at it.

So here are some headcanons that went into the “world building” of this one-shot (tw: mentions of incest, cannibalism, gore/vore ahead):

The Ackermans are the dominant power in this world, mainly because of their ability to bond with and control dragons (yes, they’re very much a Targaryen parallel in this one-shot’s universe).

They each have a dragon to which they’re bonded since birth. They’re given eggs as infants, and their body heat helps the eggs to hatch. As the dragons grow, the Ackermans are supposed to take care of their dragons and train them. They feed their dragons bits of their flesh and blood as they both grow to help with the bonding.

This whole bonding ritual creates a “parent”-like relationship because the Ackermans basically train their dragons to recognize them as their sole means of survival (I guess kinda like how you train a dog to recognize you as the “alpha”). There’s very much a dom-sub / extremely codependent relationship that is nurtured. An Ackerman and their dragon rely on one another for each other’s survival.

Eren is Mikasa’s dragon (obviously). He was extremely violent, and there were concerns about whether or not he could be tamed. The dragon keepers wanted to execute him when he was younger as a precaution, but Mikasa intervened.

Eren disappeared when he found out that Mikasa was betrothed to her cousin Levi. (Yes it’s because he was jealous and petty lol) Because of their bond, Mikasa feels chronic, physical pain during their separation.

The Ackermans have a history of marrying one another in order to keep their blood pure and ensure power over dragons (yet another Targaryen parallel).

Levi and Mikasa’s marriage was arranged since Mikasa was a young child. It is definitely a political move: Levi is heir to the throne, and his marriage with Mikasa is to solidify Ackerman strength and produce more heirs.

Levi and Mikasa are friendly with one another, but don’t have romantic feelings for one another. Levi is closeted and has been having a secret affair with Lord Erwin Smith, a noble who serves in his family’s court.

Mikasa is not excited about her marriage because she doesn’t like feeling like she has no control over her life and future (but she doesn’t realize that’s what’s bothering her until Eren returns).

For recent generations, the Ackermans have been overseeing a kingdom in relative peace and comfort. While they have a history of violence and conquering, they’ve become complacent and have resorted to a life of luxury and parties.

In terms of what happens next: I envisioned that Levi and Mikasa do get married — but that Mikasa uses her new position as queen to get some agency back in her life (i.e., keep Eren as a lover and do whatever the hell else she wants) and usher in a new conquering era for the Ackermans. She’s a young girl who’s been sheltered. So when she recognizes how much power she holds when she literally dominates a dragon (lol), I like to think that it gets to her head a bit. And she starts to do more than what people tell her to do. 💕💕

Okay, I’m sorry for the info dump. But thanks again for the ask!! Always happy to share my thought process when it comes to my fics hehe

[sibylsleaves]

idk if you're still interested in doing that commentary thing, so feel free to ignore if you're not, but this bit from things you don't say reach me somehow anyway (i love that whole scene when he goes to shannon's grave, and that you included her in his list of people to talk to in the first place)

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“I’m here because you were…you are important to me,” Eddie says. “You always will be. You…you gave me the most precious thing in my life. Christopher. And I’ll always be grateful for that. But I’m also…I’m also grateful for what you said the last time we talked. At the time, it tore me up, but…I know now, that you were right. Ending things—that was the right thing for us. So thank you, for letting me go.”

He takes a shaky breath. “After you left, I spent a lot of time wishing you’d been better. And then after you died, I spent a lot of time wishing I’d been better. A better dad to Chris. A better partner to you. But I learned, when you left, how to be a father. And in the years since you’ve been gone—really gone—I think I’ve finally learned how to be a partner, too. Mostly because there’s someone who taught me how.”

He breathes in the morning air, tipping his head back to the gray sky. A tear slips down his cheek.

“I wish you’d gotten the chance to meet him, You would’ve liked him, I think. Chris certainly does. And I…” His eyes close. “I’m in love with him.”

His breath leaves him in a rush of air. It’s the first time he’s said it out loud. And the world didn’t end. He’s still standing here. 

It’s a cold, quiet morning in June, and Eddie’s in love with his best friend.

Now he just has to tell him.

I am & thank you for sending something!!! I really just love talking about writing so I appreciate you indulging me 😊

Full answer under the cut:

I knew from the minute I had Eddie make a list of people to show his appreciation for that Shannon had to be on it. I mean, that's the mother of his child, and no matter how complicated their relationship was, she's still the reason he has Chris, the reason he wound up in L.A., the reason for so many things in his life.

A part of me felt like Eddie just needed this moment to look back on how things ended up with Shannon from a new perspective--because basically she asks for a divorce, then immediately dies, and then we know Eddie is still upset about that and then.......we don't actually know how he feels about it now. Does he still think it would've worked out between them if she'd lived? Or does he recognize that she made the right choice--that they wouldn't have worked and that walking away was best for all three of them?

We don't really know, and it felt important for this fic to lay to rest the question of Shannon before Eddie moved forward with Buck.

And what's clear is that Eddie is able to be the partner to Buck that he wasn't able to be to Shannon. And it's not necessarily a matter of loving her less or Shannon being less worthy of that partnership, but more a matter of Eddie just not being ready for that commitment at that point in his life under those circumstances (not putting all the blame on Eddie--I also don't think Shannon was ready under those circumstances!)

One of the things that's beautiful about his relationship with Buck is that there's no pressure on either of them to be this perfect partner to the other. Not the way that Eddie felt that pressure with Shannon (and where that pressure came from is another story). And the absence of that pressure gives Eddie the room to actually fulfill that role in a way he couldn't for her.

"And in the years since you’ve been gone—really gone—I think I’ve finally learned how to be a partner, too. Mostly because there’s someone who taught me how.”

I think that he and Buck taught each other. They both have a past with someone where they tried to give them their all (and for Eddie that's a little more complicated) and ended up hurt. I think Abby taught Buck how to be there for someone, how to step inside, but it wasn't until Eddie that he actually learned how to be someone's partner. Because being someone's partner doesn't just mean stepping inside with them, it also means having them step inside with you. And that wasn't something Abby was ever prepared to do for him, so no matter how much Buck tried to give her, they were never going to be real partners in the way he and Eddie are.

And similarly with Eddie and Shannon--they just couldn't seem to be what each other needed. And I think they did both try their very hardest in their own ways. And I think it wasn't until Buck that Eddie realized it didn't have to be such a trial. Letting Buck into his life was almost effortless for Eddie. Becoming work partners after the grenade, telling him about Christopher, letting him come in and fix his childcare problems, leaning on him and opening up to him...I think these things came shockingly easily to Eddie because Buck made them easy. And I think that's part of his struggle in this fic--that everything with Buck has felt so natural and so effortless that it's hard to look at it and see it for what it so obviously is.

“I wish you’d gotten the chance to meet him, You would’ve liked him, I think. Chris certainly does. And I…” His eyes close. “I’m in love with him.”

Once I realized I had to write this scene of him talking to Shannon, I knew that was also going to be the first time he's able to actually say the words I'm in love with him out loud. This line kind of just came out as-is. I like the idea of Eddie thinking about Shannon, and that if she were alive she'd know Buck because Buck would still hold the same place in Eddie and Chris's life. (And side note, I never actually went back to double check that Buck and Shannon canonically never met--they for sure didn't, right??)

It’s a cold, quiet morning in June, and Eddie’s in love with his best friend.

Now he just has to tell him.

Originally I think the scene ended on the line "and Eddie's in love with his best friend." I debated adding the final line because I really did like that as the end to the scene--it feels a little poetic in an understated way, the same way Eddie's ultimate realization is understated. Also I just love the juxtaposition of a "cold, quiet morning in June" because June feels like it SHOULD be warm, but in L.A. the mornings in June are often quite cold.

Ultimately I added the final line because I felt like I needed a little propulsion into the final act.

Thank you for the ask and letting me ramble about this fic, which gave me SO much grief while I was writing it. It's nice to look back and see that I am actually quite proud of it!

send me an ask about any of my fics

[pop-punklouis]

Hi Hope! sorry for all the text, I need to vent because what was supposed to be a nice experience turned into hell for me and other fans who are going to attend the premiere in Mexico.

Context: First of all, even though there were a lot of dynamics for fans to win their pass to attend, it only guarantees entry to see the documentary, not to the red carpet. And I would be fine with that if they had specified that from the beginning, which they didn't and haven't, only knowing this because fans have asked. Not to mention that if the people who won can be on the carpet, it would be a bit more controlled because normally at the premieres, the press and ticket winners are on the side of the carpet, and those who didn't are on the balcony. Anyway, that said, it means that the red carpet will be public ANYONE can stand there and stay.

Secondly, there are already people there YESTERDAY. I think they're being very unfair about it by camping out. Considering that a lot of people from other states (who won and who didn't) are spending their money to come for one day and if they're lucky to see Louis up close, this takes away all the chances.

Honestly, I think it's foolish to camp out for this, and I'm not mad just because I can't do it or anything, but it's too normalized in my opinion. Why not just get there early?

This has nothing to do with anything, but to no one's surprise, the people in the plaza right now are the same ones who were outside the concert venue in Mexico City a week earlier. I mean, why are they starting this? What's the need to try to organize on their something unnecessary?

Thirdly, I don't know if you've seen pictures of the place being set up but the thing is that this time they made it very small and I'm worried that the organizers are not aware of the impact that Louis has and the people that are going to attend.

And I just want to cry because I don't know if I'm being selfish for thinking that only people who won passes can be on the red carpet, but if it wasn't going to be like that what was the point of it? just to see the documentary two days before? like I said, people are going to come from other states, and if they're not going to get a chance to see Louis up close because of the people who organize other things they just came to see the documentary two days before? It seems kind of pointless to me. But the cinema just gave mixed signals from the beginning and that's why the whole thing is a mess.

This situation was so weird and caused me so much anxiety from the beginning that I'm seriously considering not attending even if I won ha. But what do you think?

everyone knows how i feel about camping lmfao but yeah, i think it would benefit from the organization that took place with both the london and tokyo premieres. especially if the location is much smaller than the two others. i haven’t paid too close attention to how these events were put together, but yeah. i think it’s more than understandable for you and other fans to be frustrated about the lack of info given about what the tickets gave access to if you won. it would’ve definitely been smoother if those who won tickets to the premiere also won red carpet tickets or there were two separate ticket accesses given so more fans could take part. i don’t necessarily think the public shouldn’t be able to come and experience it if they wanted, but i do get the anxiety and frustration due to the size, lack of communication, and camping. does the ticket fans won have a Q&A with louis like the other two premieres did? because i know that was a huge highlight to being chosen. idk babe it does seem like all of these feelings could’ve been avoided if the event and cinema had been more organized and forthcoming with info about the event etc. i’m sorry :( that really does suck and i hate that it’s given so much anxiety to so many fans going tomorrow. imo i would still go because it’s still a really cool experience regardless of what the ticket includes or not. you’ll be around other louies and feed off the energy of the environment. and that’s fun, in itself!! but yeah i hope things run smoothly tomorrow and you guys have a blast if you win 🤍

[nerves-nebula]

yaya I completely get having those few memories of adults who were kind and everything like those moments stick with you. It's kinda sad in like, knowing that these treasured memories are other people's normal, ya know? but usually it's great knowing that at least there were those moments of kindness.

I almost had the chance to feel like what it's like to get a new parent so to speak when I temporarily moved in with my adoptive aunt, but idk i guess our trauma trigger each other so she ended up sucking too lmao. I'm kinda over it now but damn it makes me wonder how some people are allowed to be like that without anyone doing anything. I'm now considered a devil child by her and other family members because of her so that's fun haha

I have one memory of being in the early middle of grade 10 and meeting a friend after they finished robotics (I wish we had been able to stay friends -_-) and my friend was stressed about homework or something but we ended up hugging. And that moment stays in my head rent free because that was the first time I actually felt 100% safe, like idk it sounds really cheesy but it felt like it lasted forever and I still think about that moment when I'm feeling down. I've never felt like that before or since.

Not exactly what you were talking about but that's the one I remember the most (tbf though some of my trauma realized itself into a fear of adults so my entire childhood (especially when I was younger) I thought all adults would kill you if you didn't follow their orders so like there's that lmao)

anyways I'm glad you at least have some people in you're life, that's really good! Even if there's gross history, as long as you're in healthy comfortable relations with them now that's what matters

funny thing, i didnt think my parents/adults necessarily WOULD kill me but I was always acutely aware that they COULD kill me, if they so desired. sometimes i would have breakdowns cuz i was afraid an adult would kill me or hurt me if I didnt do what they said, but I also was thought that maybe they were just trying to get me to do what they said because it'd make me EASIER to kill/torture/etc. Like how supposedly strangers will ask you to come with them in order to get you to a secluded place.

and yeah for a few years there my relationship with my siblings was pretty rough, but it turns out if you set solid boundaries then the people who are worth it will listen and stick around. So thats actually really cool hah.

sucks about your aunt, though. like, a lot. I had issues with a few of my aunts too, I think one of them called CPS on us but not because she gave a shit about our well being. Which is probably one of the worst things a person can do imo.

That's always how it was, they hate my mom, which made me defensive about her, because they'd treat her really bad and i didnt know why. TO BE FAIR though just because you don't like someone doesn't mean you should do shitty things to them, so, I'm not letting them off the hook just because my mom actually does suck. They are still unrepentant assholes, just like my mom but a different flavor.

anyway sorry for my ranting, I hope your extended family does not know peace :)

[softgrungeprophet]

a few days into this game and i understand the jokes about not wanting to disappoint kim, now

[americancowgirl19]

Nobody to Somebody

Summary: You started in Riley’s newborn army and now you’re moving up to Volterra, Italy.

Warnings: violence, hints of possessiveness, fluff, 

Reader: Female Reader

Pairings: Felix, Demetri, Jane, Alec Volturi x Female Reader

Word Count: 3,114

A/n: Might make more parts to this, idk. Also, I know that Alec and Jane are supposed to be really young but I imagine them as older teenagers. Also, Alec and Jane are not mates. The guard are not mated together they just share you, the reader, as a mate. So, no incest.

Masterlist

You were a nobody. Honestly, you had nothing to do with the drama of the supernatural world yet you were still pulled into it. You were innocently driving through Seattle to Mount Vermont when you were killed. 

Riley had dragged you out of the motel parking lot and bit you in the neck. The pain is indescribable. You screamed so loud yet nobody came to your aid. When the torment stopped a different pain started. A hunger that could only be satisfied with the blood of humans.

You turned into a completely different person within a span of a couple hours. You were stronger, faster, and deadlier. You were put into a group of others like you. It was a constant battle for survival. Everyone fought for their food. Everyone fought to be higher on the pecking order. Everyone fought you.

You were at the top, just below Riley. You weren’t in charge of anything but you certainly were the strongest. Those with the balls to go up against you found themselves dismembered before they could touch a hair on your head.

You were one of the few that were gifted. You had the ability to control people. You couldn’t control their thoughts. No, you controlled their bodies. You could force anybody to do anything and they couldn’t fight against it. At least you haven’t found someone who could fight against it. 

You could make them rip off their own arms, bite off their own tongue, set themselves on fire and burn to death. You could force two or more of them to fight themselves if you so pleased. Your ability to control made you valuable. Riley did everything in his power to keep you. 

You loved the power you had over everybody. You loved the pampering Riley gave you. You were arrogant but not quite ambitious yet. You were satisfied with the way things were, for the moment. You didn’t think about the future, you didn’t think about expanding your power. You just lived in the moment.

You were also the only one who met Victoria. She had a special plan for you. She whispered promises of grandeur that you couldn’t deny.

No longer were you the family girl that was content with a normal life. No longer were you the girl who was satisfied with being in the background. No longer were you the girl who wouldn’t harm a fly.

No, now you were the girl who killed anybody who got in the way of what you wanted. You were the girl with power and riches. As far as you were concerned, you were on top of the world. You could take anything you wanted and as the months passed, your ambition grew. You were beginning to want more.

However, you felt obligated to help your creators with their Cullen problem. You vowed to help them. Once they were taken care of you would move on to grander things.

When the time to attack the Cullens came, Victoria kept you by her side. You knew she had a vendetta against someone specifically and you were chomping at the bits to tear someone apart.

“They’re not here,” Victoria growls loudly. You growl as well wanting to join the fight but loyally stayed by her side.

“Where could they be?” You ask her. Victoria huffs racing through the woods. You pursed your lips but quickly followed after her. Riley joined up with the two of your as you made your way into the mountains.

Riley steps into view of the Cullen and human first. You observe them from the cover of the trees. The Cullen stood protectively in front of the human. She shared the same scent that had lead the other newborns into the clearing. Had all of this fighting been over this human?

“Riley... Listen to me. Victoria is just using you to distract me. She knows I’ll kill you. In fact, she’ll be glad she didn’t have to deal with you anymore.”

“Don’t listen, Riley,” Victoria pleads standing on a rock to the side of Riley. You slowly make an appearce behind your creator. The Cullen’s eye moves to you as does the humans. “I told you about their mind tricks.” 

“I can read her mind. So, I know what she thinks of you.” He tells Riley.

“He’s lying.” Victoria insists.

“She only created you and this army to avenger her true mate, James.” Your eyes go to Victoria. “That’s the only thing she cares about. Not you.”

“There’s only you. You know that.” Victoria vows him but you can tell that she’s lying. You smirk enjoying the show unraveling before you.

“Think about it. You’re from Forks, you know the area. That’s the only reason she chose you. She doesn’t love you.”

“Riley, don’t let him do this to us. You know I love you.” Victoria promises. You watch Riley curiously. You could sense the doubt in him but then he goes to attack. You flinch and move away when a wolf comes and chomps on Riley. Your eyes scan the area for more wolves not wanting to fall victim to one of them.

“You won’t get a chance like this again!” Your head turns back to the Cullen and Victoria. He continues to taunt her while you turn your focus to the human. You take a few slow steps toward her until her eyes catch yours. Your gaze hardens as you try to control her. Your intrigued when you find her just standing there when she should be choking herself.

You step back into the tree when the human moves with her vampire. You wanted a good fight but you also wanted to observe. Everything made sense now. Victoria wanted revenge for the death of her mate while the vampire tries to protect his. I guess even as a deadly vampire you’re still a romantic. You weren’t quite sure who you wanted to win.

Riley came back into view, you briefly wonder about the wolf. He and Victoria gain the upper hand until the human cuts herself with a rock. Your eyes instantly go black and all you can think about is the blood. Before you know it you’re running for her but her mate grabs you and throws you into the woods.

By the time you return you gain control of yourself. You had been working hard on control when you found out you were stronger and more dangerous with a clear head instead of being controlled by animal instincts.

“Victoria!! Victoria!” Riley screams, breaking your concentration. You felt bad for Riley and took a few steps toward him before you stopped yourself. 

Riley and Victoria knew you wanted to branch out on your own but that didn’t mean they would let you go without a fight. You knew how valuable you were to them. Nobody gives up their strongest player. 

You didn’t want to be the one to kill him, you still felt the slightest connection to him for turning you. However, while the connection makes you not want to kill him it doesn’t necessarily compel you to save him.

You smirk, stepping back from the scene. You would let the wolf take care of your problem. You hoped that the other vampire would take care of Victoria as well. Then, you’d be free and could do whatever you wanted.

You look away from Riley and back toward Victoria. You were pleased to see her losing the fight. Only when you stopped hearing Riley’s screams and saw Victoria’s head on the ground did you turn to leave the scene.

“Wait!” The Cullen calls after you. You turn your head ever so slightly.

“I have nothing against you and your family. I won’t cause any trouble.” You promise him.

“I know,” He nods, stepping closer but keeping his body between you and his mate. You smirk slightly knowing he could stop you from getting to her if you truly wanted too. “I can help you.”

“You help me?” You tilt your head. “Oh? How so?”

“You want power, you want to be at the top. Have you heard of the Volturi?” He asks.

“No.” You answer, your eyes narrowing.

“They’re vampire royalty. They’ll be at the clearing to assess the damage. You can leave with them, join their coven.” He tells you. You stare at him.

“And what do you get out of this?” You wonder.

“Time.” He says, turning his head toward his human mate.

“I’ll stick around, doesn’t mean I’ll go with them.” You say before leaving them on the mountain. You find the clearing and unsurprisingly see all the newborns dead.

“Wait! Don’t hurt her!” A woman with short hair shouts when you walk out of the forest. You eye the wolves and the Cullens cautiously. “The Volturi will be here shortly.” You slowly nod. Eventually The two from the mountain join you. You watch as a stray newborn almost kills a wolf before the drama seems to end.

The Cullen clan stand together. You notice Bree standing behind them. She had been in the army. She was one of the lower vampires, a vampire that didn’t do much. You’re slightly surprised that she survived.

You don’t have much time to dwell on Bree when something catches your attention. Four distinct yet mouthwatering scents. Scents that tempt you more than any amount of fresh blood. You can just feel your eyes darkening even more.

Four figures in cloaks enter the clearing. The two in the middle wear midnight black ones while the outside two sport charcoal grey robes. They lower their hoods and their ruby red eyes fall on you at the same time.

Your instinct is to move to stand by them, your body even shifts toward them but you’re hesitant. You don’t know how to act. You don’t know what to do. Logic tells you that your scent appeals to them as theirs does to you but you hesitate nonetheless.

Seeing the conflict in your eyes, the furthest from you, the shorter of the two in the grey cloaks, holds his hand out in your direction. There’s a sly yet inviting smirk on his face. Your body reacts before your mind. You rush in front of him, your hand instinctively falling into his gloved one. He yanks you into his chest, his arm snaking around your waist.

Both of your heads fall into each others neck. You both breathe in each others scent but he’s the only one brave enough to place a gentle kiss on your marble skin.

“Impressive,” A melodic voice reaches your ears. You pull from his neck to look at her. He refuse to release you forcing you to shuffle around in his arms. 

When you’re settled, his grip tightens forcing you impossibly close. With your back pressed against his chest, you watch the exchange between the Cullens the the cloaked vampires you assume to be the Volturi. Any anxiety that may have been present disappears the longer you’re in his arms.

“I’ve never seen a coven escape an assault of this magnitude intact.”

“We were lucky.”

“I doubt that.”

“It appears we missed an entertaining fight.” Your eyes shift from the blond girl to the one beside her. You wanted to be closer to them but you didn’t want to leave his arms. You didn’t understand and the unknown was frustrating you.

“Shh,” He whispers in your ear as he senses your growing distress. “Just a little longer.” He promises bumping his nose against the side of her head.

“It’s not often we’re rendered unnecessary,” She mentions.

“Had you arrived a half an hour ago you would have fulfilled your purpose.” You glared at him as he spoke to her rudely. Before another work could be exchanged you broke his arm without lifting a finger. He tries to hold in his groan but everyone picks up on it. Naturally, everyone looks to the blond on your side of the field but you just stand there with a satisfied smirk.

“You missed one,” The attention turns to Bree.

“We offered her asylum in exchange for her surrender.”

“That wasn’t yours to offer,” She tells him. “Why did you come?” She asks but Bree doesn’t answer. Your eyebrows instantly raise when the newborn falls to the ground screaming. You look to the blond beside you and realize why the all mistook the vampires pain to be her doing instead of you. “Who created you?”

“You don’t need to do that, she’ll tell you anything you want to know.”

“I know,”

“I-I don’t know,” Bree whimpers. “Riley wouldn’t tell us. He said that our thoughts weren’t safe.”

“Her name was Victoria, perhaps you knew her.”

“Edward, had the Volturi had knowledge of Viktoria they would have stopped her. Isn’t that right Jane?”

Jane. A name so simple yet so perfect for the beautiful blond. You found yourself desperate to know more about her. To know more about all of them.

“Of course,” Jane assures them.

“Whatever Bree doesn’t know, Y/n will. She was in the thick of it with Victoria and Riley,” Edward tells them. The cloaks look at you but you keep your hard stare on Edward.

“You wouldn’t be suggesting something about our mate, would you?” The man equipping the midnight black cloak questions Edward, his voice edgier than before. As he spoke, the man holding you tightens his grip even more.

Mate. Of course the logical part of you knew but to say it out loud and to accept that it’s real is something else. You wanted to feel relief that they acknowledge that you’re their mate but you can’t help but to feel tense. They’re weren’t reacting to Bree very well and you had done more damage than she ever has. How would they treat you?

“No, of course not.” The leader of the coven promises before sending Edward a look.

“Felix,” Jane says, turning her head slightly toward the tallest. 

“She didn’t know what she was doing!” Jane stops Felix. “We’ll take responsibility for her.”

“Give her a chance”

“The Volturi don’t give second chances,” Jane states causing your body to go tense. The man holding your nuzzles shamelessly into the crook of your neck. You can hear him purring quietly. It helps calm you down but the anxiety in your chest lingers. “Keep that in mind, Caius will be interested to see that she’s still human”

“The date is set.”

“Take care of that Felix. I’d like to take our mate home.” Jane says. Felix glances at her then to you before moving to take care of Bree. You flinch when Bree’s screams abruptly stop.

“It’s alright,” The man holding you whispers. “Come on.” He grabs ahold of your hand and leads you out of the clearing. You follow them, leaving the Cullen’s behind without a second thought. They don’t stop until you reach an airfield where a private jet is waiting for you.

You take a moment to stare at it. You’ve never been on a plane before. You wonder where they’re taking you but you keep your questions to yourself. You figured you could count your lucky stars you didn’t end up like Bree, now isn’t the time to push your luck.

You knew that if you needed too you could destroy all of them but the thought of putting them through any sort of pain is displeasing to you. In fact, you hated the thought of them in pain. You knew you would destroy anybody who harms them. Though, this meant you wouldn’t be able to defend yourself against them should they decide to tear you apart. You’d much rather choose death.

“You’re thinking very hard,” You turn to look at Jane. You hadn’t even realized that the five of you had boarded the plane. “You must have questions for us.”

“Umm... Names would be a nice start,” You say, surprised by how quiet your voice is. The last few months you’ve had to be authoritative and demanding yet now you’re quiet and walking on egg shells.

“Of course,” Jane says giving you a gentle smile, a complete contrast to the girl you had seen in the clearing. She still seems reserved but she’s also more relaxed. “I’m Jane and this is my twin, Alec. That is Demetri and Felix.”

“Y/n,” You introduce yourself.

“You’re still tense,” Demetri notices. He sits beside you and rests his hand on your leg. “What worries you?” You look at him for a moment debating if you should keep your worries to yourself.

“No harm will come to you,” Alec promises. Your eyes turn to him. He notices the subtle relief in your posture. “We would never allow anything to happen to you. You’re safe with us.” Demetri leans over and kisses the side of your head as Felix sits besde you, the twins occupying the seats across from you.

“I thought you didn’t give second chances?” 

“You’re special,” Jane tells you. “You’re our mate. Our masters will be forgiving toward you.”

“Masters?”

“How much do you know?” Demetri questions.

“Up until yesterday I thought we burned in the sun,” You tell him. “I don’t know much of anything and I’m sure whatever I do know is most likely wrong.”

“When were you turned?” Felix asks. “We’ve been watching the army for a few months but we never smelt you.”

“Victoria and Riley liked to keep me separate from the others. I’ve only been a vampire maybe 5 months? I was only allowed with the others if they were getting too rowdy and needed to be knocked down a peg or two,” You tell them with your naturally cocky smirk.

“Oh? And what did you do?” Demetri questions.

“I can control people. I can make you do whatever I want,” You tell him.

“So, you could make someone shut up when they talk too much?” Felix smirks sending a look at Demetri.

“Well, yes but I normally just make them bite off their own tongue,” You state. Their eyes return to you and you suddenly get the feeling you spoke out of turn.

“Beautiful and deadly,” Demetri hums rubbing his head against yours as if to scent you. “Perfect,” He growls.

“Completely perfect.” Jane agrees. Your eyes turn to her. “You’ll fit right in, my love.”

“And where are we going?” You ask her.

“Volterra, Italy.” She tells you. “It’s where the Volturi reside and where you will live with us.”

“Sounds fun,” You smirk, holding her gaze feeling completely unintimidated by her despite knowing what she can do.

Volterra, Italy. Sounds like the perfect place to satisfy your ambitions with your mates by your side. 

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hello! can i request the "is she really just a friend" and "trust me on this" with Namjoon please. maybe joon idol au where he gets into another scandal with an idol he's collaborating with? thank you!

For @sweetjellyfishland and @blxckswxnxge since it was similar

rumor has it | kim namjoon DRABBLE

summary | you’ve only been seeing him for a year, was it necessarily a serious relationship? nobody knew about you two and it made it that much harder to watch him be shipped with other idols.

Disclaimer: it’s a namsoo ship rumor (I literally don’t know any ships and that was the first non-bts one I found lol

warning(s): jealousy. angst. secret relationship. idk. insecurity

You felt stupid, so unbelievably fucking stupid. He told you so many times how much he loved you, called you every chance he could and you just couldn’t believe it. And it wasn’t even that you doubted that he cared for you, but it was just the nature of your relationship. Maybe this was all your fault, you’ve never been with anyone with his circumstances. You didn’t know how to act like this so sometimes it really did feel like this wasn’t for you.

As selfish as it sounded, you liked being shown off. You liked the idea that someone was proud to be with you, who wanted to let everyone know you’d chosen them. Or maybe you were just used to that. So used to past partners holding your hand in public, posting you on their story, bringing you up in conversation. It wasn’t even that you were asking for much, but you always were apparently.

And God you were so fucked up. You know how much Joon loves you. He shows it in every way you can, searching for you at concerts where you’d hide in the back. Play with the bland brown bracelet you gave him once that matched yours while he was in front of a camera. Everyone just thought Hobi got it for him. He’d wear the sweaters and shoes you’d get him and bring you back something anytime he went out of the country.

But that’s the thing, you didn’t want those small little signs that he was thinking about you when he was away. You were a clingy brat and wanted to be able to go places with him, see the world him… not watch some stupid hosts in this stupid ass variety show talk about how good their guest stars, Kim Namjoon and Kim Jisoo, would look good together. Hear them talk about the chemistry they had in front of a camera and how their looks matched too. Because of course when you’d go to Twitter or WeVerse, Instagram, YouTube, anywhere, it’d now be filled with ships of them.

Your phone dinged drawing your attention away from the tv, Namjoon’s name on display.

joonie <3: are u busy love?

joonie <3: wanna hear ur voice

joonie <3: k gonna call

And there was the ringing, his cute face on display as he tried FaceTiming you. You fixed your hair quickly, answering and see his big smile on the screen, “Hey.”

“Hello my beautiful girlfriend,” he chuckled fixing his hair as he pushed his glasses up his face, “Sorry if you were doing something, we just got done with practice and I wanted to call you before bed.”

“That’s fine, I wasn’t doing anything,” you licked your lips nervously looking back to the tv. You exited out of the call so he’d only be on the corner of your screen and scrolled through social media.

‘BTS x BLACKPINK [Namjoon and Jisoo]’

‘Namjoon falling for Jisoo in 3 minutes’

‘ARMYBLINK’S dream: Namjoon and Jisoo’

You wanted to chuck your phone across the room. Namjoon was watching you, the way your brows knitted slightly or how your jaw would clench, “What’s wrong?“

“Nothing,” you told him blandly, exiting out and clicking on his spot to make it full screen again. Namjoon hated when you did that. He needed you to know he was here for you, no matter what, and when you’d close yourself off from him he never felt more distant.

He’d been the one to seek you out. He was the one who first went up to you, asked you on a date, and just because you were waiting at the bus stop in front of the convenience store near his apartment. Of course you couldn’t tell who he was, you’d be surprised what a good disguise a cap, sunglasses, and a mask was late at night. It was beginning to rain, and unlike him you didn’t have an umbrella. In your defense, you hoped to be back home when the rain started but with the bus being late that wasn’t happening. Long story short, he’d gone to give you his, the sound of his voice as he spoke immediately familiar to you and when he took the sunglasses off and that was it.

He let out a sigh, a sign for you to know he felt distant again. This was a constant battle between you two, who could push the other away. “They’re right, yknow?”

His brows furrowed, “Who?” “Everyone, you and Jisoo look good together.” He shook his head, another huff in annoyance as he sensed an argument creeping on.

“Please don’t start with this, she’s a friend,” he tried telling you but you just looked away from the camera in thought. It’s like you knew that, you knew he loved you but god did you wish he could show it. Just so that you wouldn’t have to sit through an interview or scrolling through social media filled with edits of him and all these pretty idols with perfect bodies and visuals. You were jealous because he was yours.

“Is she really just a friend?” You asked, feeling stupid and insecure but you just couldn’t help it. You were insecure and self conscious and part of you hated yourself and couldn’t see why he was still with you when there was not one special thing about you. You weren’t ‘different’ from other girls, you were just the same.

“Baby please look at me,” he drew your attention toward the screen again, “Trust me on this, there’s no one else that I love like I do you. You know that, I try and show you every chance I get. And I know, I’m shitty, I can’t take you out like you want me to or talk about you to everyone and I’m so sorry about that, but I never want you to doubt how I feel for you.”

You looked away again, not because you didn’t believe him or because you were mad, your brain just played tricks on you to make you think nobody would ever want you. “I’m,” you opened your mouth to speak, “I know. I know you love me, I’m, I’m trying I really am, to be better and more trusting.”

He shook his head, “Don’t blame yourself, this isn’t easy. I don’t like being away from you either,” he looked to the time on the top, biting his lip, “Fuck it, I’m coming over. I want to see you.”

“No you don’t have to, it’s late, you’ve got a bus—“

“Baby,” his voice was calm and deep, “I wanna see you, now.”

You nodded, knowing you couldn’t change your boyfriend’s mind. And you didn’t really want to.

Not when he came over, engulfing you in his warm hugs and sleeping in your bed at the end of the night.

::.

ok I’m sorry this wasn’t that good but honestly I legit don’t pay attention to ships so I really didn’t know wth I was doing 💀💀💀💀

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Cramps. | N.L. (+ D.T & S.F.)

in which the reader is having a really bad period, so her three best friends come and check up on her.

warnings: pain, periods, bleeding, swearing, we know how it is.

i’m on my period rn, & these three boys are my fav characters so this is mostly to comfort me (and idk if you guys can even relate, but my periods get THIS bad) (edit: this was NOT supposed to be this long but oh well i love these three)

gryffindor reader! (but anyone can read obv)

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somehow, you had managed to make it through the previous school day. but, the whole time your stomach felt like it was completely turning on you, and with every step you took, the bleeding was so heavy. you couldn’t even remember the last time you went through so many pads and tampons in one day.

on top of that, you were an absolute emotional wreck. and, that became apparent to neville when seamus laughed over tripping over your shoe lace, and you looked up at your three best friends with tears in your eyes.

“merlin, y/n! i was only messing with you! what’s wrong?” seamus furrowed his eyebrows at you, only for you to bend down and groan in pain as you attempted to tie your loose shoe laces.

“i can’t do it!” you whined, a tear finally escaping your tired eyes. you stood up, and sniffled, not noticing the genuine concerned looks plastered across the three boys’s faces.

and then, if things couldn’t get any worse, you felt someone tap your shoulder. you turned around to meet a terrified looking ron and harry, staring down at your legs,

“y-y-y/n... blood! t-t-there’s blood running down your legs!”

you looked down, and sure enough, there was a bunch of it. you automatically began to cry, and the sobbing only got worse as you realized that this was happening in front of not one, not two, but five boys.

“nev—neville... p-please give me your jacket...” you choked out, rushing as the blood seeped between your thighs. he did so quickly, tossing it to you, and your tied it around your waist before running into the nearest bathroom.

“why would you point that out?” dean asked ron, eyeing him,

“what?! would it be better for her to stay like that the rest of the day?” the ginger snapped back, still not putting two and two together. ron wasn’t exactly wrong, but his execution was awful.

the boys sighed, deciding that maybe waiting outside the bathroom would do you some good. but, unfortunately, as 15 minutes passed, you never came out.

“m-m-maybe someone should go and get hermione. or lavendar. or one of the parvati twins?” neville suggested, scratching the back of his neck. seamus shrugged, honestly clueless on how to handle the whole situation.

luckily, a saving grace skipped by, grabbing the attention of all of the boys,

“ginny!” ron called out, and she stopped in her tracks, “thank merlin you’re here!”

the look on her face was questionable as harry, ron, neville, dean, and seamus all stared at her.

“w-what?”

dean spoke up first, more than concerned, “y/n went in there. she—she had—blood running down her legs. and, she started crying...”

that’s all it took for ginny to nod her head, “okay. you guys go ahead. i’ll take care of her!”

they did so reluctantly, more so your three best friends. as ron and harry wanted to be away from the whole scenario as soon as possible.

and, that was the last they heard from you yesterday. today, they waited for you to come down from the girl’s dorm, but you never came.

they waited for you in the great hall, but again, you never came.

little did they know, you were curled up in a ball on your bed, sobbing from the excruciating pain that filled your whole body. this cycle was hitting you like a truck, and you’d wished that somehow you had been more prepared for it.

hermione had left you reluctantly that morning, never seeing a fellow girl having such a bad period before. you had cried all night, and you and her both had barely gotten any sleep. so that’s why when neville saw hermione drifting off to sleep during a shared class, he was absolutely baffled.

as that same class ended, the three boys caught up with hermione,

“hey, granger! where’s y/n?” seamus asked, and she rubbed her eyes.

“she—um—“ a yawn interrupted her response, “she’s in our dorm. she doesn’t feel well.”

neville’s mouth went agape, and he finally put two and two together.

“i wouldn’t go and see her, though. you guys embarrassed her yesterday. she told me all about ronald, and ginny, and seamus. she’s really upset, and... she’s just in a lot of pain. so, just let her be for a while.”

and with that, she left the three boys. they gave each other weird looks, mentally questioning each other.

you on the other hand at this time, were crying as you changed out your bed sheets for the second time that day. it wasn’t necessarily the most comfortable experience to have to explain to a house elf why you needed a bunch of new clean sheets.

dinner soon came, and even then, the boys expected to see you sitting with them, eating and laughing. but, you still hadn’t left that dorm.

so, neville packed some extra food, and the three made a journey to gryffindor tower, just to see if they could break the rules to make sure you weren’t dying. (of course, all three of them were convinced that you were on your death bed.)

they slipped past the prefect, climbing up the stairs to your dorm.

dean was just about to knock when they all heard your voice,

“stop, hermione! please! i don’t care that i missed my classes! i’ve been puking all day, bled on my bed, almost shit my pants four times, so, i really don’t care about snape and what he said about me! piss off!”

seamus’s lips curled, and the sound he let out could only be described as pure disgust. but, neville nudged him,

“she can’t help it. don’t be like that...” he whispered, still not sure if you were alright with visitors at the moment.

“well, i’m sorry! but, dean, neville, and seamus are all worried about you! they—“

that’s when they heard a blood curdling scream, and it sounded exactly like you. it made them jump,

“I WANT TO KILL MYSELF! FUCK!”

“don’t say that! it’s only for a few days, y/n! i told you i would help you with anything you needed!”

“then you can start by fucking off! go away!”

the boys looked at each other,

“maybe—“

“yeah—“

“later.”

they all mutually agreed, and ran down the stairs before hermione had the chance to see them.

they settled in the common room, deciding to do their homework until they knew it was a safe call to go and see you. they all worried about you tremendously, as they had never heard you talk to a fellow friend like that. you simple weren’t that type of person in their eyes. you had always been patient with people, so it was a wonder to them how you loved them so much.

they spotted ginny, walking up to the girl’s dormitories with a glass of ice cream in hand. they naturally assumed it was for you. and truth be told, when ginny entered with a sweet smile on her face, holding the cold treat, you realized you had never been more happy to see a weasley before.

as pathetic as it sounded, you cried to ginny while eating the chocolate ice cream. you sobbed to her about all the events of that day, and the day before. your crush on neville and how you believed he didn’t feel the same, the way that seamus chewed too loudly, and how hermione was too uptight sometimes. she simply listened, knowing that’s all she could really do.

finally, the three boys saw ginny coming down the the glass now empty, and they ran up to her,

“is she okay?”

“what’s happening?”

“can we go and see her?”

she chuckled and shook her head them, “she’s fine, you guys. calm down. i’m not so sure if she’ll want to see you guys, but you guys can sure try.”

they all three looked at each other, slightly terrified.

but, they sucked it up and made their way up again. of course, seamus couldn’t hold back from making a snide comment,

“i swear, if i get a book thrown at my head and end up in the hospital wing with a concussion, i’m blanking it on neville.”

“why me?!” neville scoffed, throwing his hands up in the air,

“because! you fancy her and are the most worried about her! she’s just on her period! is it really that big of a deal?”

before neville could answer, dean cut in, “yes, seamus. it is a big deal. maybe not to us, but to her it is. try bleeding out of your dick for a week while your inside are ripping apart!”

if you would’ve been present, you definitely wouldn’t hugged dean for that one.

they finally arrived, and they argued for a moment over who would be the once to knock on the door. it felt like they were stepping into a death trap. finally, neville agreed to do it.

he did so gently,

“what?” you asked, “who is it?”

dean and seamus eyed each other, definitely panicking.

“erm—it’s... us...”

you groaned, and looked down at your state. you were only in your bra and underwear, trash bucket in your lap, nausea getting the best of you... again.

but, you figured seeing your three best friends would bring you some comfort. this wasn’t their fault, and you didn’t want to take it out on them anymore.

“um... you can come in, but warning! i’m—“

before you could warn them, the door flew open,

“naked...” you breathed out, looking down at the trash can.

they all went wide eyed, and neville covered dean and seamus’s eyes with his hands, and closed his own.

“close the door, you gits!”

neville did so with his foot, still covering everyone’s eyes. you let out a small chuckle at the fact, and shook your head.

“you guys can look, you know. you act like we haven’t been best friends since first year.”

“b-b-but you’re—naked!” dean responded, through neville still keeping his own hand over the boy’s face.

you pursed your lips as you felt vomit climbing it’s way up your throat, “who—“

that’s when they heard it. the violent sound of puking. neville thanked merlin that his eyes were closed, because he probably would’ve puked too.

“who cares?” you breathed out, wiping the slobber from your chin. that’s when seamus took neville’s hand away from his eyes, and realized how you looked.

you looked unrecognizable almost. you looked exhausted, pale, and like you had just been hit by twenty cars at one time. your eyes were all puffy and red from crying, and your hair was definitely not put together like it usually was. makeup was smeared all down your face, makeup from the day before that you simply didn’t have the motivation to get up and wash off. but, seamus couldn’t help but notice your bra and underwear.

“you—“ he chuckled, “you have teddy bears on your undergarments, y/n?”

you clenched your jaw, and tightened your grasp around the trash can, narrowing your eyes at him. his eyes widened,

“kidding! i was only kidding! they suit you well!”

finally, dean shoved neville’s hand off as well, and neville opened his eyes back up reluctantly. neville and dean took in your state, much less of a laughing matter to them, as they were more of the calm friends.

“merlin, y/n... are you alright?” neville asked, approaching you slowly. you shook your head,

“i’m dying...”

the three boys gasped, and you looked at them funny, “i’m kidding... but i feel like i might...”

that settled their nerves a bit, the theory of you dying slowly fading away. you spit in the trash can, and set it back down on the floor. of course, seamus being the curious cat he is, looked in the trash can.

“don’t look at my vomit, finnigan! don’t you have any manners?”

he jumped back, and nodded his head.

“what are you guys doing here, anyway?” you asked, laying down fully on the bed, stomach and legs exposed.

“well—we know—you—you sorta—“

neville sighed at dean’s awkwardness about the whole situation, “we know you’re on your period. and, we know that you’re in a lot of pain. and, we just wanted to come and check up on you.” he glanced at the other two boys, “right?”

“yeah, definitely!”

“totally!”

you giggled at seamus and dean, “oh, what gentlemen. how could i ever thank you?”

seamus couldn’t hold it in. the comment just slipped from his lips,

“well, seeing you in your bra and underwear is thanks enough in my book!” he joked, nudging dean.

surprisingly, the only one who laughed beside seamus... was you. this surprised the boys, as you were sure that would earn seamus that book to his temple, or at least a smack to the face. but, it didn’t.

“see? i told you guys she’s fine! she’s laughing like she always does!”

neville seemed to look over at you for reassurance, just to make sure that seamus hadn’t crossed a boundary with one of his crude jokes. it was something that seamus had done quite a few times, without even realizing it, but it was simply because he didn’t know how to put a filter on. you knew at the end of the day that seamus wasn’t trying to disrespect you. plus, it was something you had go get used to, being one of his best friends and all.

at one point, the boys had eased into the floor, getting things for you if you needed it. seamus even asked why exactly girls even got periods, and you explained it to him in full detail.

“so... like—the inside of your uterus is actually tearing? i thought dean was joking about that!”

you shook your head, “unfortunately, it’s not a joke, finnigan. it’s very real...”

“well, is it this bad for all girls?”

“no, actually. some girls only bleed for a couple of days, and it’s very light. they can go without cramps, puking... lucky bitches!”

that’s when the boys fell silent, even seamus himself. until he raised an eyebrow,

“is it bad that i’m kinda curious? you know—to see how it feels to... bleed... down—there...”

dean furrowed his eyebrows, but neville nodded his head in agreement.

“well, boys... i can’t make you bleed out your dick for seven days straight... but, i can punch you guys in the stomach with full force and show you how cramps feel!”

collectively, they all disagreed, which caused you to fall into a fit of laughter.

“but—it can’t be that bad, right? i mean, everyone can get a stomach ache...” dean questioned, but unsure of what he had just said.

“let me put it to you like this, thomas. imagine the weasley twins sneaking a muggle laxative into your morning pumpkin juice...” you started, “but that stomach pain for a whole week.”

dean put his head down, finally understanding. no wonder you had talked about almost shitting your pants.

that’s when the door swung open, revealing a surprised hermione,

“y/n! where are your clothes?! boys are in here! and plus, they’re not even supposed to be in here, anyway!” she snapped, immediately storming over to your closet, and pulling out a random shirt, throwing it at you.

“but, it’s too hot! and, any tightness hurts!”

“i don’t care! i couldn’t imagine sitting around with ronald and harry with my—lady parts hanging out!”

you chuckled at her hidden shaming, quite used to it by now. “oh, whatever, granger! it’s the same difference as a bathing suit! lighten up!”

seamus and dean snickered at the look on her face, and the way she stormed out.

“she’s right, y/n. not about—you know, we don’t care... but, just—seamus will be talking about it for the rest of his natural life if you keep your clothes off any longer.” neville stated, standing up and taking his sweater off. he passed it to you, making sure not to touch you in anyway that would make you uncomfortable.

you smiled at the kind gesture. sure, it was a sweater, and you probably should choose the lighter t-shirt that hermione had snagged out for you. but, it was neville’s sweater, so, how could you refuse?

you slipped it on over your head, and pulled your hair through the hole. it was quite comfortable, and you were just the right amount of warm and cool. so, it worked out in the end. “thank you, longbottom. that was sweet.”

his face turned red at the small grin etched upon your face, but he shook it off and sat back down on the floor.

you all began talking again, not even noticing when seamus had gotten bored and ancy, and started snooping in your drawers. but, his eyes went wide at the sight of something in your drawer. he picked it up, and stared at it for a moment.

“uh... y/n...” he started, voice a bit shaky, “what’s this?”

he held it up, and you, dean, and neville all looked over.

“that’s a tampon, finnigan. i use it when i’m on my period so the blood doesn’t leak out.”

he took a beat of silence as he connected the dots, and his eyes seemed to widen even more,

“and... you have to put this where exactly?”