#idk maybe it’s me going insane😀

[filmbyjy]

TWITTER SUCKS! > seventeen! us when-

a/n: I may have snorted while making the thumbnail for the fake youtube video but that’s bc I laugh at stupid things. i’m also easily entertained…man, I am really childhood deprived huh.

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synopsis > who knew you could become famous overnight for paying $8 for a single blue checkmark? however, it does come with consequences…what happens when the actual BELIFT Lab comes knocking at your door. all because you simply impersonated your bias.

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[midnightmah07]

bare with me 😍-

in idia’s vignette, ace 100%, played “20 questions” with her awhile grim was away. And one of his questions were “do you really want to leave twisted wonderland?” Like 😀 girl couldn’t answer she froze but anyway i am going to do a scenario later on

MOVING ON

this song is so bluecherry, like they like each other, but do they LIKE LIKE EACH OTHER???

“And maybe we should stay friends” i think Ace doesn’t want to go out with Winnie bc he thinks that he may screw up and make her sad and making her sad would make him sad and they would part ways 😔 DID YOU GET IT?!?!

Okay onto the next thing:

HIM WAITING FOR HER TO CONFESS BC HE IS KINDA SCARED

bonus points, bc he kissed her to shut her up after their show in VDC (before they lost lol), BUT IT WAS SO IMPULSIVE THAT WHEN THEY NOTICED JAMIL, GRIM, KALIM, DEUCE AND THE OTHERS JUST STARE AT THEM LIKE 😦 and then when Ace was mad bc they lost, she takes his hand and just “^^” WAITING FOR HIM TO CONFESS ANDNTHEN HE FINALLY SAYS IT.

ANOTHER SONG THAT IS SOOOOO THEM CORE

i just imagine ace’s head being this as he finally realizes he likes winnie hehejdgjwhdjsm

they are cute

also small hcs, maybe ooc, but who cares is bluecherry:

Winnie would write small love letters to Ace, before they were dating. But the love was so subliminal that he couldn’t figure so when she asked him if he read her letter he said “yeah, cool poem. you should show malleus.” AND SHE WAS LIKE “:(“

Ace would give her his jackets bc when he gets them back has her smell. Which is fresh fruity scent with caramel notes.

WINNIE ALREADY SLAP ACE, IDK EXACTLY WHEN BUT ITS FUNNY SO SHE DID LOL

she knows how to sing and loves story telling, so ace when ace cant sleep he asks her if he either can come over or she can try to send an audio (she is like an old lady trying to do so)

he doesn’t like pda, surprisingly but he is the type of guy who screams “THATS MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!” Everytime she does something badass 🥹

Ace keeps demanding Whitney could be allowed to join a club instead of cleaning the school with the staff.

HE LEARNED HOW TO BRAID HAIR FOR HER 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

i do think ace ask help for his big brother but he uses “a friend of mine” “you mean you, ace?” “A FRIEND OF MINE😡”

Double date daiggie and bluecherry would be iconic tho, like imagine Whitney and Daisy forgetting they have boyfriends in the middle of the date and start walking alone together awhile talking

@justm3di0cr3 ALSO WE COULD DO A POPEL AND BLUECHERRY DOUBLE DATE

BLUECHERRYYYYYY

*ahem* ok I'm fine I'm normal. ((I'm not

THEY'RE SOOOOOOOO CUTE AND WHOLESOME AND ADORABLE AND ARGH I NEED TO KISS THEIR FOREHEADS. THE HEADCANONS MADE ME GO INSANE. HER SINGING HIM LULLABIES OR TELLING STORIES FOR HIM TO GO TO SLEEP. HER BEING SHY ABOUT PDA. HIM BEING SUPER PROUD OF HER. DAIGGIE + BLUECHERRY DOUBLE DATE WHERE DAISY AND WINNIE FORGOT THEY'RE WITH THEIR BFS BC THEY'RE HAVING SM FUN TALKING.

THEY'RE MY EVERYTHING

[mamadarama]

OH MY GOSHHHH I LOVE RAMBLING ABOUT MADARA WITH YOU!!!!!!!!! SOMEONE AS INSANE AS I AM!!!! SOMEONE WHO WILL HIT ME WITH THE ANGST TRUCK!!!!!! CAN I KEEP THIS UP OMG ANYWAYS THE LAST PART IS SO REAL LIKE... I thought "maybe they were just fuckin like why did you need to go to his house for that—— 😀😀"

anyways my Madara yes I love him so much it hurts (autism) can I ramble about my yume lore to you omg only if you'll let me cuz I wanna hear your thoughts! I'm still new to ES and my knowledge is limited to EN release so idk much about him!

- Madara yume anon 🍀

I COUKD TALK ABT HIM FOR HOOOUUURSSSS

and ya sure lets hear it!!! im not a yume and im not too familiar w it as a concept so i prolly wont have much to say but im curious what yume specific lore would entail

[whatsnewalycat]

Hello friends! I’ve been in my hidey hole working on writing things and coping with stressors in my life. It’s been a busy couple of weeks for me lol.

I’m hoping this weekend I can put out something I’ve been working on that’s profoundly fucked up but will maybe resonate with my fellow comrades with daddy issues 😀 idk idk we will see.

Also i might try going thru my ask box but talking to people has been unreasonably difficult for me this past week lmfao. It’s not personal, I’m just insane, this is a me problem. Ok love u, have a great day 💝

[taegimood]

(edit: pls send me requests omg give me something legit to write about 💀🙏🏼 help)

ok literally no one asked for this but i’ve been asking my moots these questions, so i figured i might as well answer them myself too lol

which member's type do you think you'd be?

which member is closest to your type (bias or not)?

which member do you think you'd be closest with platonically?

which member do you think you'd be the least close with?

1: i think i’d be closest to yeonjun’s type, at least visually.. my primary fashion is grungy street style so i think we have a lot in common style-wise and would vibe hard tbh :3 (but personality-wise..? idk i haven’t thought that far ahead lmao what do you guys think?? would any of them like me o_o)

2: oh man.. this is hard cuz visually i don’t really have one set type, i’m attracted to several different vibes.. but yeonjun cuz of the fashion and fox features, and soobin because ??? look at him ?? kdrama first love coded, periodt. (but they’re all so stunning that if i saw any of them on the street without knowing who they were i’d definitely want their numbers and also their [redacted])

personality-wise… RAHHHH why are these questions so hard i literally suck at making decisions- i’m the one that made these questions too ffs- ok sometimes yeonjun makes me want to shove my hand into his face and PUSH (lovingly. respectfully.) because he’s so Frat Bro Coded sometimes LMAOO 😭 so i think soobin or beomgyu. gyu is INSANE but i think we’d have so much fun together and he can be soft and serious when the time calls for it. i rlly want someone i can be goofy as hell with and gyu def fits the bill. and soobin……. oh, my sweet soobin……. dream man…. he’s so 💖💕💝💘💗 ……. (not me clowning matcha for being biased for gyu in her response while soobin is living rent free in every single one of my answers 🤡) soobin is the Actual Love Of My Life™ and i think we could fit well together in so many ways but 3 things that DEPRESSINGLY make me wonder if we’d work:

i’m also an introvert so i need someone more extroverted than i am to get me out of my shell 😖 biggest one is he said he doesn’t lead in the relationship and lets the girl make all the decisions (i prefer a guy who leads and wants to make decisions together) and he loves physical touch but only when he’s the one giving it 🤨 IM SUCH A TOUCHY CLINGY BITCH SOOBIN PLS LET ME HOLD YOU-

3: this post is so fckn long for no reason why am i such a verbal processor this one is ALSO hard cuz not to sound like a pick-me but i feel like i could be pretty good friends w any of them?? 😭 maybe gyu ??? i’m an introvert so he definitely might get too overwhelming for me at times but i also become a crackhead when i’m with friends i can be myself with who share my humor, so i think when i’m in the right headspace gyu and i could just go crazy together and be goofy asf lol. we could also game together and i could run him into the ground in victory 🫶🏼

but ok yeonjun and i would be such bros together plus he knows what it’s like to live in america so there’s that and fashion to bond over… i could be total gym buddies with taehyun and we’d bounce that dry humor off of each other… just like soobin and kai, i’m a huge anime and video game nerd (could do show and tell w kai and all our plushies too 🫶🏼) so i could game and binge anime for hours and be totally content especially if i’m bonding over it w someone else o_o SOOOOO i feel like i could be friends with all of them but as for besties? not me wanting to pick soobin again i don’t know 😀

minji do you literally know anything

4: honestly i think taehyun :((( i just think i have the least amount of things in common with him, that’s all !!! no other reason i still love him sm although i’m also a singer actually (fun fact) so i think we could do such pretty covers together 🥺

anyway this is LONG AS ALL HELL for literally no reason other than the fact that i talk too much lmao so here are the answers that no one asked for 😍

[moonjxsung]

star bby 🫶 it's been a while from me since i've been so busy with school and life in general butttttt ive missed you sm and ive seen all the shit going down with wattpad thieves

i really don't understand these thieves cos all throughout my educational career i've always been told that plagiarism is wrong and not to do it. so even as a 10 year old child it was drilled into my brain that stealing someone else's work is wrong and you shouldn't do it but idk… apparently it just isn't common sense and that's annoying as hell

anyway, on a lighter note, i saw the solar eclipse earlier and i was reminded of you because moonjxsng, so i decided to pop in and say hi 🤭 i also wanna say that i love going back to your fics and reading them again because they're so beautifully written and i love them so much. sometimes i wish i could wipe them from my memory, so each time i revisit your work i can read them and experience them as if it was my first time.

ily and i hope you're doing well outside of the wattpad thieves 🫶

~🌸

HIIIII MY BABYYYYYY I MISSED YOU SO MUCH ☹️🫶🫶🫶🫶💝💞💘💖💕

genuinely at my limit with the plagiarism on here that just funnels straight to wattpad 🤕 I’m mostly sad that I won’t be able to provide you guys with shorter pieces in between long fics but I just don’t have it in me to be chasing it anymore and begging people to at least give me credit. Maybe one day the drabbles will return but I’m far too exhausted right now ☹️

STOPPPP your message about the eclipse genuinely made me tear up that’s so sweet 😭 sadly I missed it because I was in a 3 hour business meeting (😀😀😀😀) so I’ll just have to wait 20 years for the next one LOLLLL but my colleagues who work on different time zones got pics for me which was really sweet 🥹🫶

I’ve been doing okay for the most part, insanely busy at work and back and forth with my mental state so I’ve been a little absent from my phone. But I’m still living my life off here and going out and eating good food and I’m surrounded by so many amazing people so I’m quickly healed when I feel down ! how are YOU doing my angel? 💘 you’re the absolute sweetest 😭 I will have something published for you very soon (👀) and I hope you love it just as much as the other stuff !! Sending you all my love sweet angel I love you so so so much. I hope you never forget it ⭐️💘

[webslingingslasher]

“hey, i might not wait til marriage but you are and that's fucking cool”🥹🥹🥹 this is so cute and made me feel so good AHHH <3

okay I need to SPILL.

first I wanna say i know this isn’t a big deal and when I eventually talk to him about it, he’ll be reassuring but I’m freaking out first and i wanna talk to the girlies first instead, but I do feel like I can tell him (bc if u can’t talk ab these things w someone, you shouldn’t have sex w them in the first place)

but bro I am FREAKING out HDNDNDND. we’ve been looking at rings. he hasn’t proposed because he said he still wants me to be surprised and stuff but we got carried away talking one night and he let it slip that he wants to marry me and somehow we started looking at rings. we went to a couple shops just to get general ideas bc I have no idea what I want!!

ANYWAYS. I was super excited and I had a full blown freak out earlier😀 I’ve been waiting til marriage my whole life (I’m 23) but he hasn’t, he had multiple sexual partners in high school and college and a couple before he met me. I was just thinking ab our future wedding night bc it’s getting super real now and I don’t think it’ll be that far in the future and I was like omfg. this whole wait and it’ll be over in one night. like “that’s so exciting, FINALLY” type thing bc the wait has been hard😭 I’m just a girl and he’s soodkdjdkskskksskso sexy😭

and then I was like…. It’s all over in one night

and I was like, wait. I’m a virgin virgin. he isn’t. even just fingering/head (which I literally cannot WAIT for😭) is gonna be new bc I’ve never had another guys fingers in me and whatever. and I’m not nervous at all, I’m so excited, I’ve waited so long as u can imagine JDJDKDK but I was like realistically, it’ll probably be overwhelming. and then ur meant to do everything in one go? even in most ‘normal’ relationships where people aren’t waiting till marriage, you don’t usually go from 0-100 in a single night😭 that’s kinda insane. like ‘oh you’ve only kissed a boy? well here is literally everything under the sun!”

and I think I just realised today, for the first time, that maybe that wont realistically be what I want. like doing some things and then the rest after. like we’re gonna be married forever (that’s the plan😭) so we have all this time to go it yk. not that I’d necessarily wanna wait super long after we’re married, but I just feel kinda… bad. like, he’s waited this whole time, just for me. imagine we get married and he’s super excited to finally get to hit and in like “actually……..🤣”

idk. I just feel a little alone because even the religious/non-religious ppl I know (who decided to wait just because), none of them felt this way. they were so ready to just jump in and start boning (as they should bc the wait hasn’t been easy😭) but idk I feel… idk. I feel like that might not be me, like I feel like I might need a little more time just to get used to like, everything in reality yk. bc it’s all fun and games saying it rn but I realised earlier, when I started really thinking about it, that I haven’t done anything and realistically, even ppl that don’t wsit need more time yk.

he obviously won’t make me feel bad for this either, he’s not a monster & he’s very understanding but I’m just spiralling.

this might not even be a problem, realistically the second we’re married I might not even make it to the after party and just be like “dick in me now pls” but… ifkdjdjddjdjw

I’m thinking too much lol. I’ve waited 23 years and it’s so real now that my mind is spinning. I’m sorry for the ramble but thank u for listening & for the girlie talk JDJDJDX💗💗💗💗💗💗 i love u so much

(I am sooo ready to get married tho😭💗)

i am so happy for you both!!! i really wish you the best of luck!

i think him being experianced will help out so much in the long run, but girl, there's nothing to worry about! if he's waited this long, what's a little more? like you said, you may change your mind but you said you wanted to wait until marriage. so i'm with you, why does it have to be your wedding night?

it sounds like he's going at your pace and he's in no rush to bed you either. you already know you're gonna talk to him about this so kudos! and coming from me, it sounds like you're ready for sex and that's awesome.

you're excited and that's the most important. (after loving and trusting your man.) trust me, it'll be worth the wait and i can't wait to hear about the proposal!

[ssamorganhotchner]

I'm normally quite a silent tumblr user but I felt it was important for me to tell you how much we all value your talent and appreciate so much that you choose to share it with us. It truly is a privilege to read, and yours specifically is a blog I come back to when having a shit day knowing that even your silly little horny on main posts about Aaron are enough to put a smile on my face and cause me to giggle. I'm hesitant in writing my own content but you and the community are inspiration enough to maybe start. Both your writing and personality are so enchanting, NEVER CHANGE BABE XX

Lots of love from a proud anon, sending you all the love i can possibly hold !!! xx

ps no one else's writing turns me on like yours.

oh my goodness anon 😭🩷 stooppppp i don’t even know how to respond to this. the love and encouragement you all have given me is insane & idk how i’ll ever be able to thank you properly for it.

i started writing for a smut prompt one day for kinktober and had so much fun i never looked back. it is a blast to write and share with all of you. i don’t think I’m the greatest but y’all’s compliments and encouragement go such a long way. im still writing though i haven’t published in a while, but im close to being done with one now so it’ll be out soon ◡̈

i am so glad y’all love the ‘horny on main’ posts bc I swear i thought people would hate that & be so annoyed. I have an nsfw hotch blog for that reason alone (@hotchners-sweetheart) but always forget to post my ✨thots✨ on there 😭🤣 so thank you bc you’ll be seeing more 😀

if you feel comfortable one day, you should absolutely write something, but remember only write for yourself and no one else. if you choose to publish it and let us read, by all means we will eat it up. writing is super intimidating at first but if you’re writing for yourself, i promise it’s worth it in the long run. 🩷

AND WHAT YOU SAID ABOUT MY WRITING TURNING YOU ON?! plz there are so many talented hotch writers out there that is such a compliment to me 🥺 we do not slut shame around here, we encourage it 😈

thank you again for your kind words, i really have no idea what i do for this but you all are so sweet and kind to me 😭🥺

[zero-braincells-left]

ship opinions 🤡

disclaimer these are my opinions

ur opinions are also valid unless it’s adult/minor in which case I respectfully ask you to go jump off a bridge <3

david x gwen:

oooohohoho I used to love gwenvid so much

they,, they’re so cute together

but I don’t feel as strongly abt it anymore

overall I’ll give this an 8/10, I love it both as romantic or platonic :)

david x daniel:

0/10 booooo 🍅

daniel is a literary cultist and I hate him </3

(this applies for david or gwen x daniel or jen as well)

(ffs jen was a one-off character made for a joke. why do y’all even remember her 💀💀)

(daniel x jen I think is dumb and I couldn’t care less abt)

david x jasper:

9/10 jasper survives au or when they were both kids, I love them anyways

I can’t describe why. its just. a great ship

david or gwen x literally any other adult I didn’t mention is 0/10 and irrelevant

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oh god. it’s camper time. time to be controversial :)

max x neil:

7(??)/10

i used to love this so much and I’m currently unsure as to where I stand on this ship

rn I think they’re just friends but

still cute

max x nikki:

0/10. they’re friends

i can’t describe why I despise this ship as much as I do but alas it just is this way

nikki x neil:

??/10

idk man

on the one hand. sibling dynamic my beloved

but i 100% did have a phase where i decided the sibling h was stupid and instead decided to ship them, and that little voice in the back of my head still likes the idea

but I also know everybody doesn’t like this ship and I too am prone to peer pressure (by online strangers)

so currently I have no strong feelings on this ship at all ig

max x nikki x neil:

1/10 maybe?? but they’re better as a friend group

..harrison x nerris:

do I even need to say it

10/10 I love them 😀😀

the lake lilac dance episode still drives me insane. they,, they 100% wanted to dance together you can literally tell in the episode shhduhdbhudbhudnjisnjisnjienjienjis

“they certainly are standing next to eachother” hell yes they are. all the time. nneuindhubehuhhrbugrbsiuhbhueinuhebeuhubsiuhbsyugvsyugvsgyunrnunrijhen

ok next

presner, harriston, and nerriston all get a solid 7/10 they’re pretty nice but nerrison is still my favorite

max x harrison:

0/10 no thanks

ok moving on

neil x harrison:

0/10 this is,, no,, I don’t like it idk why

I don’t.. no

max x nerris:

🤷/10

i don’t care for this one at all tbh u do I ig but

meh

Nerris x nikki:

1/10 cute in theory, I have no real complaints about them, just don’t ship it or see it happening

max x preston:

augh. I’ve been dreading this one because,, idk actually

i used to hate this one bc i just didn’t see it and I’ve felt that way for basically as long as I’ve been in this fandom but recently

I can.. sort of see it? a part of me does things it’s kinda cute, age hc (or in max’s case, just canon) is 10 & 12 which isnt horrible but do with that’s what you will

i give this one a solid 6/10 for now, maybe 5/10

ered x nikki:

0/10 nikki def has some sort of ‘crush’ on ered but I don’t ship it and it’s more just like younger kids idolizing older ones

also. ages in my hc is 10 & 15 so,, yeah no.

Ered x dolph:

0/10 no no and no. age hc is 8 and 15 no.

space kid x dolph:

5/10, could be cute but I prefer them as friends

max x space kid:

3.5/10

i think it’s kind of cute but I do not see it at all and don’t really ship it

nurf x anybody 0/10

i keep forgetting Nurf exists and I don’t like him so fuck off

ok I did it

[meiozis]

jdlakdlakfd peach!!! i missed you toooo ive been really inactive on here cause school just started and it was all a rush and NOW IM SICK…….. idk if its covid and i dont wanna find out i just want it to be over 🧎🏻‍♀️ but whenever im on here again i always scroll thru ur blog to make sure to catch up on what i’ve missed ….You are like the weekly newspaper to me .! if u ever get around to doing the fanart and u post it pleaaaase tag me id love to see!!

ur hyuckisms are truly so real to me i saw haechan and then i was like 😀☝️ i need to hear what peach thinks…. HSKAKDKSK but also re: halloween asks i think it wld be super neat if u did a game or smth !! id love to participate and send smth in hehe u know i am ur biggest fan i have a Go Peach!!! banner under my bed ….Trust .

cat!!! hi!!!! i've barely been on here too since school started so i feel you </33 but im so sorry about the sickness, i really hope u feel better soon and i hope u can have some tea and get some nice rest 🥺🫶 but pleeease you're literally way too sweet </3333 im really running the silliest goofiest little blog on here, the fact that you scroll through my little posts is soooo 🥹🥹🥹 it always makes me so happy to see u on my dash and in my notifs <3 and if i ever bring myself to draw outside of school i'll def tag you hehe

i had so many more thoughts abt hyuck ngl but i held myself back to not seem Too Insane vsjvfvdvf but really my brain is a windows screensaver on 100x speed whenever i see him lately, its getting out of hand fr........ 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻 i might end up doing a little writing ask game bc idk when i'll finish my long fic, and i miss writing sm so that would be a good compromise until then :') maybe i'll post smth abt it next week-ish???

[halfblood-princes-crown]

There’s no point in anon anymore since I already revealed myself

but I liked the vibes of ELA anon so like idk 🤷‍♀️ Call me ELAMAN

SO LISTEN I THOUGHT IT’D BE A SIMPLE BOOKS RIGHT LIKE MY OLD COPY BUT NEW BUT HOLLLYYY SHIITIT MY TEACHER WHIPS OUT THIS

the wolf in the front and the rat in the corner and the fucking dementors jsedndnjsjsksllsksnsjsjjsjsjdjjwnwnsnsnnsnammmannsjsj THE SUN AT THE TOP AHHHHHHHH

not me analyzing the characters signatures too 🫣

I do believe you btw, tumblr is a hellsite too never forget

On chapter idk 7 or 5 whenever the other schools come in

Besides that, the hate on Cedric hurts it hurts my lungs and my eyes and my heart

and the elves THEY DESERVE BETTER

I HATE RITA SEEKER Æ

I was never one to read the news sample and so I’d skim it and then I was really confused throughout the whole book, but finally I have a chance to understand 😎

and like yeah okay Harry didn’t put his name in everyone agrees on that but the rules are literally from a rule BOOK??? I think that it can be overlooked for a teensy bit y’know get Harry off the dangerdeath competition

And like not the Neville and Professor Moody (Barry Crouch) friendship 💀

…

Is it bad that I wished that Draco got his head bashed in till it bled so Moody (Barry CrouchJr) would go back to Azkaban since it’d be funny

And then he like fucking turns back and they find him like that and 💀

Baby Voldemort insanity I’ll tell you, and BOT FUCKING TRELAWNY

the foreshadowing with her 🫣🫣🫣🫣

Have a good day!!

*GASP* an anon revealed themselves! Pleasure to meet you 😌

*GASPS AGAIN* THAT BOOK IS SO PRETTY OMGGG 😩 I’m literally dying. The details, the color, the fact that it says Slytherin 🤩 I want it but I refuse to buy it

Can you send a pic of the signatures? 👀

Cedric hate…😢😔 I never understood why he was hated, like cmon now! He was great

And YES! #FREETHEELVES! (Now I’m thinking about Dobby 🥺)

I don’t HATE Rita but I see why one would…she’s overdramatic and the biggest liar ever 💀 her personality fits the job description tho🤣

And I thought the rules were bound by a spell…like he LITERALLY couldn’t back out at that point…maybe I’m wrong…I’m probably wrong, ignore me

Neville and Moody…tell me why I almost forgot they existed 😭 (I should put them in my fic). That friendship was wholesome tho, but then it had to get ruined ☹️

😀 what was that about Draco!?

👀👀👀

The foreshadowing with Trelawney was pretty good actually. I love some good foreshadowing and that hit the spot. Same with Sevs foreshadowing

Have a happy day! 💚

[seongminiz]

ugh the jungmo thing u said.. so real (but yeah i’m also over here thinking hyunjae brainrot<333 i would say i have a love hate relationship with him he and juyeon are my twin bfs hyunjae is my devil n juyeon is my angel ummmm that sounds (more) insane (than usual) but i hope u get me 🫣😔)

nd thank u for ur support! i need to keep drabbling in my notes until i have smth concrete enough i could post 🥴🥴

so just for u.. jungmo hate-fuck brainrot?? <333

he gives me major loser perv vibes too but like imagine he’s like.. a guy u need in high school or smth. maybe u had the same friends but like u two weren’t besties or anything. he’s a bit of a loser. u all thought he was a virgin for most of high school (and most of college too?) but he’s definitely trying he just doesn’t have the best luck :( poor fella.

so as you’ve been two of the only ppl to stay consistent in ur friend group, you’ve gotten to know each other a bit better and often tease/make fun of each other and usually it’s light but u can cut a little deep but normally ur both fine with it and go back n forth. but maybe one day he says smth way off n maybe it’s about ur sexual history don’t ask me for specifics cuz i can’t think of it rn but yeah he pisses u tf off!!! and u say smth nasty back about how he’s a loser virgin and that’s it. u don’t talk to him for a while after that.

but then u meet again at a party. blah blah blah (sorry i’m typing this really fast) he’s being nice (enough) and then maybe after a couple drinks nothing too crazy he’s on u and proposing to “kiss n makeup”. whoever cums first has to admit they’re wrong and forgive the other one but at the end u both have to move on anyways. don’t ask me why it jumped to this i’ve been to like 1 party idk what goes on there. this type of shit i think.

so then ur in a spare bedroom or worse. a closet. touching up on each other and ur trying to make him cum as fast as possible n he’s trying to do the same to you. so it goes crazy, you try to get his pants off to suck him off but he like doesn’t want that?? cuz he knows he’s going to explode all over ur face if u do that so… <33 he’s slapping ur hands out of the way to dive his hand under the waistband of ur shorts, pushing ur underwear aside to insert a finger into you, finding you already wet so he mocks u of course “this is just business.. why’re you soaked..” and then would mock your moans when he adds another finger, beginning to pump them in and out, holding his breath so you can hear the way ur arousal squelches around his digits.

- 🧁 anon

yes i completely get u‼

N OMG WHERE DO I EVEN START WTF DID I JUST READ /pos 0-0

(side note i've never been to any party so ik even less than u do abt them ! 😀👍🏻)

jungmo literally making it his life goal to make u cum first aaaaaaaaaa fingering u so good until u almost froget what started all this in the first place , until u r abt to cum n jungmo (being the little shit he is) makes u beg for it just to feed his ego a little more </3 ofc he won't tease too much bc he doesn't want u to try n retaliate against him so it wont take long before he gives in to ur pleads n lets u cum :3

(once again this isn't written half as decently as it was when i thought in my head idk the thoughts r not thoughting n the english isnt englishing tonight 💔💔💔)

[jayflrt]

no because jay im so ready to defend you but what the hell ???? What the actual fuck 😀 HE DID NOT JUST OMG I DONT KNOW HOW HE WILL GET AWAY FROM THAT BECAUSE I JUST KNOW UNKNOWN WILL USE THSI AGAINST HIM AGAIN along with wtv he has done in the past. im I WQS GASPING I WAS SCREAMING I JUST WHAT THE HELL ?$38,!&: HE DID NOT OKAY PAST THAT YUNA AIRING OUT EVEDYONES BUSINESS LIKE THAT AND JUST ??? also can we talk about yeonjun im sorry but he’s so suspicious IN THIS WHOLE UPDATE WHY IS HE SO CLAM AT THE SAME TIME NOT??? IDK JUST. the whole jayn things and just this is so insane she really made the whole friend group look like a messy bunch (which they but still) Oh god how are they going to ever make themselves look better for krypton 😀 OKAY NOW IM SO IMPATIENT FOR NEXT UPDATE BUT I CAN WAIT

theory anon

🤭🤭 HAHAH reading this after the latest chapter makes me glad that i set it up to look like jay posted it (i was lowkey worried it wouldn't seem like that LMSOFGHSJ) 🤝 also yeonjun is suspiciously chill !!! 👀 i personally would be freaking out a bit more if all my business was aired out like that ESPECIALLY THE STD 💀 but maybe that's just his personality or ....???!??? 🤨

[television-pil0t]

Unsurprising I went to the mental hospital. The Carolina Center for Behavioral Health. I stayed 2 almost 3 days.. maybe 3 almost 4 days idk. Idk time blindness is a bitch but whatever. I’m back so I’m gonna talk about it because.. GENUINELY what the fuck.

So I was having a episode odviously. Full out psychotic ass bitch. Voices, believing I was god, thinking there were tall black people in my room (shadow people I just like sounding racist) like the whole nine yards. After I got off I’d tumblr swing “I keep hearing shit” or “seeing shit” or whatever I said I’m not gonna check. I called my friend queenie. She was asleep.. of course. Like no duh it was late.

I’m talking to her and I have her my account so know she knows about my awful bad boy tumblr account but I wanted her to understand what was going on. She dead ass is like “daemon this is really bad. Like your not thinking straight.“ I’m like “whatever whatever I do what I want.” I hang up and sleep like nothing happened.

Next day hits me like a fuckibg truck. I completely convence myself to go to the FUCKING AIR FORCE! LITERALLY LIKE

BRO WHAT LMAO!! I GOT IN CONTACT WITH A FUCKING SARGENT BRO!! AT MY SCHOLL LIKE!! ?!?? So I clearly had no intention of.. preserving my life. I get into a PHYSICAL fight with one of my DEAR FRIENDS and tell him to FUCKING KILL MYSELF. Like.. basically pushing everyone away as fast and aggressively as possible so.. as I told my psychologist ”If I say something or do something so bad then I won’t be tempted to come back to them. And they will hate me to much to come back to me.” 😀? What was I on? Nothing MOTHERFUCKER AND THATS THE PROBLEM.

So after that I go home. I told queenie I was going to the military. She’s like “literally don’t cancel that. Like your not doing that. That’s as never in your plans. Your going so far off the rails rn. What’s up with you. You had a whole plan and you’ve gone so far from what you wanted to do like.. your so creative you can really do something with all this..” blah blah blah saying every true stuff but I was insane so I didn’t care. Hung up. Blocked her in everything. Said fuck her she doesn’t undersand me 🥺 and.. she called the police telling them I need to be taken to the hospital..

LMAO I DID BUT I WAS ODVIOUSLY MAD

THEY HAD EVERYONE OUT THERE BEO. The cops were farther down but they were making sure I didn’t try and kill myself or something so they brought everyone.

So I go to the hospital and I’m out of it at this point I can’t lie I barely remember this shit. Straight up. I don’t remember a lot of this whole.. few months because I’ve been stirring up a episode but like.. I really did good on dissociating the entire thing.

I do remember them giving me apple juice but it was open. I was like “can you.. give me another one I’m not happy that it’s open.” And they were like.. :/ and got me another one but THAT ONE WAS ALSO SLIGHTLY OPEN?! SO I WAS PISSED OFF. Because I was like?? ARE YOU TRYING TO DRUG ME LIKE?? WHY IS IT FUCKING OPEN CUNT?! I eventually just said fuck it and drank it and it did have meds in it because I was knocked out in a matter of a few minutes but like.. if they just told me I’d drink it?! I just don’t like they were like.. hiding it.

So some shit happened. At night they would watch me and I’d be like :/ and they would be like 🤨😦😑🫤 and I be like ☹️🥱😴 and that was that. So then..

This nurse?? Come in. It’s like 8 in the damn morning and I’m tired as fuck and she gives me breakfast and asked if im ok. I’m like “yeah whatever”. She’s like.. “do you know why your here” im say “because im a bad person.” He’s like “can you explain to me how.” I’m like “that would be to long and you have other patience and I’d rather just talk without a time limit.” She looks at me with the most.. “damn.. you right but shit” look I’ve ever seen and then leaves after writing something down on her little tablet.

I stay in the room almost all day. They keep checking in me. I keep responding the same.

So at the end of the day.. bout.??? 9 or 10 idk they didn’t have a clock in there. That nurse came back and sat down in a chair. She was like “would you like the light on” I was like “nah it’s better it adds dramatic effect when it’s dark” I make her laugh at this point I’m like “Hehe I’m in baby!” In where idk but lord knows I was fucking ovulating so nothing I was saying or doing was making since. Thinking with my dick and shit or something idk idk.

So we have a long conversation.

She gives me my phone… and I show her my tumblr..

She looks at me with the most 😐😧😦😬😨😰 look I’ve ever fucking seen. Like bro was SCARED.

She sets my phone down.. DOESN’T TURN IT OFF BTW. And goes “so you think you have aspd. You know you have bpd right.” I was like “very aware.” She was like “well.. I think you have some define characteristics of both.” I just kinda was like thinking ok the worst that could happen is that I stay here for like.. a month if I tell the complete truth. So I go all out. Say fuck it. Tell my whole ass truth because I’d im gonna be here im gone leave with a correct diagnosis and help that I need. I’m like “I feel like I’m constantly in conflict with myself about caring and not caring. Like I know I have abandonment issues but I broke up with my bf out of pure anger and then did shit just to hurt him and I did that to my friend when I got into a fight with him and I did that to my mom when she was still alive.” She as like “do you feel bad?” I was like “I don’t know.” She put her tablet down and it felt like she was just taking to me and not working. I know that’s literally just a ploy. She way probably recording the conversation but it felt nice. “Do you know what it feels like to feel bad about something?” I’m like “I think I remember.” And that goes into my emotional blindness and perception. After a while of not feeling a emotion I forget what it’s like and it feels like I’ve never experienced it before and I tell her that and she’s like “well that sounds like both disorders working together pretty well. Do you ever feel like your fighing against someone else in your head” and I’m like I don’t have DID but.. sometimes sure I do. Because it’s hard to keep both feeling in check. I don’t wanna be reckless but the more I think about something the more in convence myself what I’m doing is right.

So we start talking about people. We talk about the first and I admitted it was a bit irrational (now I know it was very dumb but I wasn’t there yet) and we talk about my mom because I just kept being her up and then she looked at my phone again and asked me how I felt about my ex. I was like “I feel like I did the same thing to him as my friend except I feel like I lost feeling.”

This woman said something that ripped my apart. “Did you lose feelings or did you just not remember them once he hurt you.”

Bro I’m gonna throw up at this point. She goes on because I’m completely silent because I never thought of that but she was completely right. “you wanna feel better than everyone else because that’s how you think you deserve to be treated. Do you treat others like that?” I’m like “yeah I treat all my friends well.” She looks at me and she’s like “do you? Do you treat them and say things you’d like to be said to you? Or do you stop being nice once you realize you can’t control them.” And I’m like “I think I’m nice.. I think I say nice things.” And then I remember again.. she was right. I’m just kinda a asshole. Once I realize I’ve lost someone’s “undying loyalty.” I stop caring for them. Happened with my mom. With Mali once he got a gf I almost completely treated him like a completely different person. Happened with khye. And we didn’t even talk about the “others” until the second day but..

I’m like at a lose. I’m really sad because I realized how bad I fucked up and I start feeling empty and like shit. Idk if it was guilt but.. it all made a lot of since

I felt like I couldn’t feel love for a very long time because I just forgot what it felt like. Not that I want loved by my bf I was. And I loved him. It was just I was having a episode and genuinely couldn’t see it or feel it at the time because sometimes in her words “when your long distance it’s hard to hold someone with your words. You seem to crave that. Even if you don’t want the physical affect do you think he hugged you with his words enough.” And I’m like “I think so. He wrote me letters and gave me gifts” and she as like “ok.. did those make you happy or did they make you feel warm. Did they remind you ‘oh yea this person loves me’ or was it more if just.. this is how I should be treated.” And I was like :( because damn girl this hurts. Your hurting me. She was like “did you stop loving your mom when you realized she didn’t do anything worth loving.” And I was about to fucking kill myself because as much as I saw her struggle.. in my mind the bare minimum was her feeding me and giving me a house and shit. That’s all she COULD do. That’s literally it. She could only do a little bit for me and I didn’t feel love for her when I realized that’s all she could do. That’s.. awful. I feel so fucking bad that I thought like that.. and that I thought like that too late before I could change it and be better. Yes she fucked up. We would fight and argue and she would say some awful shit but she also tried so hard to give me a good life with the best possible education and food on the table as often as she could and the fact that I didn’t see that as enough.. that sucks.

She basically kept going on for about an hour or 2 until I was like.. “damn. I’m tired.” She gave me my meds and I went to bed and the next morning I went out and talked to some people.

Met this guy that was pretty neet. I got called into the office and they talked to me some more this after noon. It was basically just “you have very conflicting mental illness and we’re surprised you haven’t ended it all yet. Here have meds.” Lmao

Fr tho. I have autism, bpd, adhd, and some kinda aspd (not officially diagnosed.. or maybe I am but they gave my paper to my parents and I never saw it.) but they were like “Your listed here as a self centered .. extremely selfish narcissist with paranoia, social anxiety and general psychosis or schizophrenia (like all of it delusions, hallucinations, disorganized, thoughts and behaviors etc I was fucked up yeah I know.)

So paranoid schizophrenic with narcissistic personality disorder and religious psychosis. (Supernatural reference) and I was like :/ damn son where’d you find this.

They gave me some meds to take and the. Kinda watched me for a while.. I have to go back and be watched a few more times cuz ya know but I’m not excited about it.

My meds definitely work. I’m not like.. batshit insane anymore but I still have my symptoms because they didn’t cure me. I still have to go to therapy and shit for a while. I feel bad because my friends fucking hated me for a while because queenie told them what happened and tbh I’m surprised I was even slightly forgiven. I don’t use my mental health as like a “sorry I did that” moment but literally they was no other explanation for what that happened. It was straight up I thought I was god full on insane mode and then basic “your think in a shitty way and that’s not your fault but you still have to work on changing it.” Therapy.

Am I gonna apologize. Yeah. When.. idk. I pissed off so many people I’ve the past couple of days including my parents. They didn’t believe me at first but now they feel really bad for everything and shit.

[pepprs]

straight up haven’t done homework in like 2 weeks (and then 2 weeks before that too) and I know i need to do it right this second i can’t afford to not do anything but i can’t even move off the ground rn mentally or physically. god fucking help me

[opia-tarot]

Hey queen I have a request for you. so I have a Capricorn moon and mars but I have a PISCES VENUS that DRIVES ME CRAZY WHEN FINDING A BF 👹 I don’t know if that has anything to do with me not flirting but being a hopeless romantic at the same time 😀🔫pls help I’m going insane 🥴 anyways I love ur blog so much especially the nsfw parts 🤭😩 have a good day or night! 💗💗

Hi hun. I love your vibe, the energy here is just immaculate. I’ve noticed cap mars people who like men have a difficult time navigating the whole dating process. Hmm you’ve sparked an idea, maybe i should start an advice series idk, anyway😂 ahahaha the not flirting could definitely be an issue, but idk without knowing the other components in your chart it’s a bit tricky. The capricorn placements u have, create a tendency to withold or be a bit closed off in regard to showing interest. Honestly, you should use this to your advantage. I’m giggling because this energy is really showing me the 9 of wands and 7 of cups. Idk if you’re into tarot or anything, but the 9 of wands imagery is such typical cap mars and 🌛 and then the 7 of cups really reminds me of your pisces venus. But anyway i digress. I think you can try tweaking your technique slightly. Your placements remind me of pandora’s box, it’s like the cap placements are guarding what’s inside, and that pisces venus in your chart is bursting to get out. It’s difficult to have such juxtaposing energies in your chart, but not impossible to figure out. I assume because of your capricorn placements you have a sense of realism to some degree. But my advice would be to stay grounded and to take action rather than romanticise. Idealising what could be will cause stagnancy, stay present. I always say subtly is key. But of course this depends on what sort of man you are wanting to attract, i would assume you are attracted to more dominant, self assured men. You don’t have to blatantly flirt to attract someone, because honestly this isn’t pisces venus or capricorn mars style. Keep it subtle, it’s also about what makes you comfortable. By subtle i mean, maintain eye contact, cute glances here and there. A little 😏 not 😵‍💫 or 😳. There’s confidence in eye contact, and assuming you want to attract a more dominant, in control sort of man, this is your best shot. Open body language and smiling too. Because i’ll say capricorn mars people tend to have an intimidating energy, even if they’re not. Take the tendency of withholding or concealing how you feel, and tweak it to become more mysterious. A subtle but noticeable difference. This is important so a guy can be curious, but still feel like he has a chance. Does this make any sense or have i been rambling on?😭