me: i’m gonna look through this tag to find sm nice Angst yes this will be great :]
me when i find the angst: (sobbing) how could you be so rude op
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meant to post abt this yesterday and ik it’s kinda mean but i think the counselor i have rn is the worst one ive ever had possibly even worse than (or tied w) the one i had over the summer who kept ending our sessions well before the full hour was up when i was going thru a horrible time and kept spending the sessions mostly talking abt herself and her own problems. actually no now that i write that out she was probably the worst (though she was one of the warmest / nicest and our personalities meshedreally well so i feel bad saying that she was the worst). but the one i have now is so…. lke idk. my experience w the worst counselor made me rly want to work w a clinical intern again bc i wanted someone who would like. actuallytake things seriously and give me the time i was paying for and spend all of it talki ng abt the things i was paying to talk abt and draw from the most recent / cutting edge info instead of entirely personal experience (WHICH AGAIN I FEEL SO BAD ABT BECAUSE. my work is all abt healing each other by sharing things like that and i realt did like her but it just wasn’t appropriate i guess bc it was a counseling relationship!) but my current counselor is so… rigid and restrictive. like i think he is trying too hard to apply what he’s being taught and he seems like nervous and talking out of his ass and he masks that by taking up SO much space and spending like 3 minutes responding to every one minute i talk and literally like strongarmimg the convos and deciding what we’re going to talk about and moving us on to a new topic abruptly before i feel ready to move on and like taking time out of our sessions to do paperwork / admin stuff so he doesn’t forget later (and a lot of the time i think he’s doing it while im talking bc i see his eyes moving around his screen and the light on his face like he’s not even listening to me). and it fucking sucks. i want to crack him like an egg so bad and make him realize it doesn’t have to be this way but i know that’s not my responsibility and in our session last night i basically gave up trying to create enough space for myself and just let him steer things bc i was having side effects and it was just rly unsatisfying
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The aph nations are all pathetic ass losers we all know that I've seen yall drag them through the dirt like ragdolls. But let them be cool for once, just let them be downright the coolest people you've ever met. Just an absolute blast to be around. This new years I'm gonna write them some stuff that makes em look so cool you guys just you wait.
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Hey you aren't dumb ❤️ you are carrying a lot on your plate right now and I can't imagine what it's like now having the weight of people waiting for your story I would freeze and not be able to do it ngl. Your best is going to look different from day to day some days you'll get everything you wanted done and some you will get nothing done, regardless you still did your best. The fact you've even been able to kinda balance everything is impressive
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uuauaghh o(T□T)o rose anon..... why are u so kind.... yyeah um. the weight of expectations is killing me just a little. just a tiiiny bit lol. it was definitely easier to write and post before when i was brand new and no one was expecting anything (and there were especially no expectations on like the Quality of my writing)... idk. even like the longer i take it gets worse bc im like.. it has to be Really good now to be worth the wait. imagine i take months to put this out and ppl dont like it. ahhh. and then i get extra nitpicky and change things so it takes LONGER.. a vicious cycle. lolllll but yeahh! ty for reminding me that like it's okay. i super super superr appreciate u ❤️🫶
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