#im gonna dissociate for a little while

[ninoochat]

see i usually thrive on troubleshooting bullshit like this but today? nah

[wackywatchdotcom]

one of the first few things i remember noting about the show when i watched it all for the first time (i dont quite count when i initially watched the pilot a yr ago cus i dont think i was giving it enough attention) was the idea that a person adapting fast to the circus is Weird. like it doesnt mean that the person likes it so much as it implies the person either 1. is just adaptable, thats a factor, or 2. they already are used to awful situations and adapting to this one IS still likely a challenge, but their ability to slot into the setting can sorta imply a person was already used to despair or fear, potentially to an extreme. and i remember noting how pomni adapted fast. like she definitely hasnt fully gotten used to it and i think that will take a Long While. but i think her ability to treat it as Life, her ability to give up on leaving so fast speaks to the idea that i feel like she gives off that she was absolutely miserable or had a history of being absolutely miserable before the circus....

[gemharvest]

felt like someone else for a little bit there. which could mean nothing

[byanyan]

writes one tiny thing and fucks back off

[scivors]

Andre Nikto head canons

We have little information about Niko but here's what I've gathered..

((Also I'd like to kindly add, hi, hello, my name is Mika and I am a Bosnian. The chances of me adding some accurate slav head canons are always high but never low!!🙏🏻 ALSO IM TERRIBLY OBSESSED WITH NIKTO SO IF ENJOY THIS AND YOU WANT DATING NIKTO HEAD CANONS PLEASE LET ME KNOWWW))

Genuine head canons:

Andre Nikto (Никто) is a (scary) Russian military man, roughly 193/194 centimetres (when you compare him to Simon's height) He suffers with acute dissociative disorder (better said DID) yet is still serving the military cause of how he preforms during battle.., so the military still views him as a ideal soldier for combat despite his disorder..

No hate but from what I've seen in some art works claiming it's his "face reveal" you people have to understand that under his mask, his face is disfigured.. so, no he won't be an attractive super model under that mask of his..

I don't think you people are aware how badass Nikto is as a character, almost SIMILAR as Ghost who's in the military for the same reason as everybody else, to risk their life.

Although judging by Nikto's voice lines, he doesn't care who he's killing..if it were up to him, if his teammates serve him zero purpose he'd care less if they die..(after all, you're just a target..) but being a professional, he can't allow that to happen to his teammates

If you look up closely, Nikto wears a military uniform that is different from everyone else with MP-0 written on it. Now if you don't know, MP stands for Military Police (enforcement agencies connected with, or part of, the military of a state.) and zero next to it meaning "nothing" and this is important which is what Nikto refers himself as..

Yeah so about that..

I have a theory about Nikto's nickname

After being captured and brutally tortured with whatever sick tendency mister Z had in store for him. It was Mister Z that couldn't really get much Information about Andre.

They would start torturing him while repeating to Andre that he's nothing, he's no one, what he is is nothing but what he is is everything. Those words play in the back of his head and they never seen to go away.

(This is extremely relevant cause Mister Z tried to get to know a bit of Andre by looking through some research come to find his citizenship and language are censored making him a nobody. Keep in mind, if he found any information about Andre viewing from personal life etc. it will be used as blackmail..)

After recovering his scars and taken to therapy after 7 years he was diagnosed with DID

NOW moving on to the DID part

(What I said about the fact that people overlook Nikto's disorder, I mean it..

Some don't really write about his disorder which is fine but when someone does it gets messy. )

Alters aren't easy to deal with, it's actually gonna haunt you till the day that you die cause there's no cure for it. And in Nikto's case it's from PTSD and Nikto is very aware of his alters..

Let me tell you how Nikto's disorder affects him. Switching can be consensual, forced or triggered, Nikto values silence as much as the next person cause he's dealing with much inside his head already. The kind of guy that would "watch TV" while dissociating with a 100 yard glare with very slow blinking and a slight headache..

There are times where his personalities would correct him when hes referring to himself (example: I'm up..(his personality correctes him) WE'RE up..)

"He made us do this" (and other voice lines I can't recall..)

Maybe cut bits of an apple with a knife and eat it while watching TV..

He has medication prescribed for him but he didn't wanna depend on medications cause they're just drugs..they're nothing to him but just drugs..

He has dissociative amnesia too, sometimes he would wander around confused maybe even annoyed. The amnesia appears to be caused by traumatic or stressful experiences endured or witnessed..Although the forgotten information may be inaccessible to consciousness, it sometimes continues to influence behavior

Like I said he likes quiet people, someone who doesn't waste their air on small talk..

Example; don't really talk to him about the weather, unless you have something interesting to say but if the conversation is gonna go nowhere , don't talk..he finds that a waste of time

People assume just because he's Russian that he likes vodka, he doesn't like vodka...-He doesn't like any alcoholic beverage cause it makes his problems a lot worse,...maybe If you were lending him some as an offering, he'll take it but he has SOME self control, he's okay with coffee, though..

It's relevant cause he stays awake at late hours since he finds it difficult to sleep, he'll stay up late with no music, nothing, just a silent room. It doesn't matter if he tries the military tactic where you just close your eyes and turn off your thoughts, it's very different when you have voices screaming inside your head...

Despite everything he's still intelligent, so being smart + strength + sharp reflexes and you got yourself a criminal

Death doesn't phase him, but to him death is like sleeping, he's not scared of death considering that he's been through hell those past few months.

He likes the simple things, don't complicate anything..because he's quick with catching an attitude..be blunt and forward and stumble over your words..

Nikto shows confidence in the battlefield,just like König, except he has a high rush of adrenaline and will laugh at the enemies death.

Fun fact: in this one comic Price calls Nikto "psycho"

And it's without a doubt that he is one.., a sadistic, sociopathic, psychopath

After splitting, his alters can and will get more aggressive and do more harm and damage to others cause they're doing the most at protecting the host.. (depending on the alter, some wanna protect him while some wanna hurt him)

Oh by the way about the intelligence part, I mean he has a good good memory with remembering faces..

He doesn't like people looking at him funny, he'll get angry really fast and annoyed at the same time.., he won't show hesitation when it comes to approaching you and asking you what are you looking at (it's like trying to avoid eye contact with a homeless man Infront of a store, that's how scared you would be)

He's slow with jokes or any form of humor that you throw at him??? You'll be excited to tell him a joke, and when you do he just looks at you and tells you never to do that again..,or just straight up tell you he doesn't get it...??? and probably trying to explain it either he gets it or not he'll still tell you that it's not funny

He doesn't argue, or he does? Arguing with him will costs you avoiding getting objects thrown at you so you can get out of his sight..tragic, now you have a teammate that hates your guts and won't apologize for it.

[smallpwbbles]

ngl as someone with d.i.d. (dissociative identity disorder) the tiny jax au is really, comforting? honestly? even tho thats not at all whats happening and the situations are completely different its kinda nice seeing something similar being portrayed where the "second personality" isn't "evil".

the fact regular jax causes all the issues because hes a little bitch™ and tiny jax is just along for the ride (while being scared) is just a really refreshing take on this sorta idea. regular jax may be a victim to the circumstance hes under, but so is tiny jax. neither asked to be in this situation, and whether regular jax likes it or not he's stuck with a second person in his body. he's gonna have to adjust to it if he wants things to stop getting worse (even if adjusting to it is only temporary since in doing so might cause it to go away).

it is stressful to deal with sharing a body with even just one person. communication is key to make things work without causing a massive headache. it is scary to suddenly black out and not know what happens when you aren't in control. it is also terrifying to be threatened and yelled at for existing when you didn't ask to. the only way to get better is to communicate and accept the situation you're in instead of fighting it (more of a lesson regular jax needs to learn then tiny jax. especially since tiny jax is literally just a kid who did nothing wrong).

even tho its all unintentional, a lot of stuff just kinda hits. ofc this isn't me claiming this situation is d.i.d., im very aware its not. just wanted to share how despite it being a completely different thing, it's still relatable. really good au 10/10. my bad for the accidental mini essay. i'd be doing our english teachers proud right now with this shit.

skibidi toilet ohio rizz fortnite battle pass or whatever the kids say

- @carnivalcentipede

Yoo, I really appreciate this, like I defo don’t wanna dismiss the themes of DID I may have accidentally put in this AU especially if yall see it that way. So I’m glad I haven’t done anything disrespectful in how I portray Jaxs inner turmoil of having a part of himself be open and vulnerable with the others

I hate that I’m becoming so old that I only get half of the references kids be making nowadays

[haveihitanerve]

Priscillas Final Petal Commentary because one of you lovely children requested i do more of my comments and this was the first video i came across anyway-

(ok i came back afterwards and like good gods its a lot so umm, yeah if you dont care, dont click more bc its a lot to scroll past otherwise)

Luke giggling from the get go at Tom struggling to understand the word Petal

Tom getting the audience to agree the title is pretty good- meanwhile AJ and Luke making eye contact like 👀 you gonna be Priscilla or??? And then AJ nodding. So im pretty sure Luke was just like “you're gonna be her” 

Luke zoning in to Tom’s speech to give a laugh and then immediately moving on to contemplate- meanwhile sam has been dissociating for like a few minutes already- looking to the cosmos for inspiration

All three background boys immediately tensing up when tom says applause bc the scene is starting- are they about to battle over who gets to be Priscilla???? We shall see…

Oh Sam made it there first but AJ was crawling so he's obvi the young girl- and Luke lost he has to stay seated :(

Tom’s little half chuckle at AJ’s “mummy” a split second before it registers with Luke that Sam is, in fact, not AJ’s mummy and cackling

AJ needing to physically touch Sam to be like “that's my bad dude” while grinning

Aj’s weird laugh at “just as cute as you” and then not letting the mummy thing drop bc ofc not why would he XD

“Wide girlish hips” Sam building himself to be the mother lovely lovely pre-planning

“Its a buttercup” beat of surprise because wow Sam didn't expect AJ to know a flower type

Luke’s neck stretch when Sam says “they’re magical” like oh really sam, are they?

“No could you tell… me” idk why he stuttered over that but very interesting and it got a luke laugh and AJ smile so no complaints

Aj complicating things as always, love our confused king

“....” AJ contemplating how he’s about to say this while still being a child.. “.... its magic” Luke and Tom losing it quietly in the background

The way Tom and Luke genuinely look when he holds up the NONEXISTENT FAKE FLOWER TO SEE IF SAM LIKES BUTTER

Also idk if it was intentional or not- but if Sam really is lactose intolerant, AJ just casually knows that he doesn't like butter and actually incorporated it in which is really cute actually- anyway-

“Or a- sandwich!” yes brilliant counter Aj, no one butters a sandwich-genius!

“I spent a lot of time making sure this garden looks lovely” as much as I appreciate the thought sam- hes already picked the flower. Its dead. it doesn't matter what AJ does to it now- its important to the plot moving on..

Aj once again trying to think of something clever to say- “why are you being weird?” nailed it!

“Ey-ey priscilla” yes tom, thats exactly how a mother speaks to her child in this- idk victorian era 

“Is that my mummy this time?” just checking for the scene

Sam once again pointing out story flaws rapid quick- “no time for flowers” “why do you have me?” Luke laughing at it as always- also Tom i saw the flower movement- good stagecraft

Tom contemplating murder. “Because we don't have time.” 

“Not anymore” very nice setting the tone for a plot i can feel it…

“Not.     anymore.” yes it was necessary a second time… 

Those english degrees coming in clutch “ivories tinkling” 

AJ loves being a child character because it means he can ask questions to stuff he doesn't know in the scene lol

“When you get an elephant.” brilliant way to speak to a child again Tom, 10/10 mother

“And when you kill it reaaaallly good.” brilliant- got Luke to clap laugh, lovely

Sam working on stagecraft, good good

“Awww. No.” 

“Can i take this?” “My pen?” for once its not AJ’s fault that the story breaks for a second! victory!

“Her stagecraft is remarkably weak.” oooohhhh shots fired

Tom tensing up like he’s about to jump back into the scene at that second to restore his honor

Yay luke made it into a scene!

Aj’s almost spit take- dude ur the main character you don't get breaks cmon!

Ok but seriously- they were all just going to sit there and watch luke sit in a chair on stage by himself and deliver a monologue or smth??? Like tom is completely at ease, hand propped on his leg watching him, sam is chilling, and aj is drinking- not one of them wanted to join/help him in the scene???? Anyway-

“Um.. da-du-de-” Luke cuts him off- Aj: oh thank god-

For a dude renowned for his lack of skill for remembering names he certainly picks very dangerous ones i gotta say

Luke attempting to make it easier for him. Helga

Luke's massive grin making Tom laugh- bc seriously what does that mean- “sense of familiarity with my students' with the creepiest smile??? Luke what-

“Four hours straight” gorgeous- we got a sam laugh

Why does luke look at the camera like he's in the office???

Luke is struggling to maintain the accent but its good, its good, you got this

“Perhaps selling her body” oooh were gonna have to rewind four times to see everyones reaction- number one- sam laughs loud in shock and surprise and then crosses his legs and covers his mouth- luke i sense a disciplinary meeting in your future- number two- AJ claps a hand over his mouth like a victorian widow learning shocking news(my personal fav of Aj’s laugh tendencies) number three- Tom actually laughs at that- mouth open in surprise, and we get a delightful little “oh wow” look/grin and number four- luke knows the words before they exit his mouth and he is enjoying it- recovers wildly quickly but that's our out of pocket king

“What’d you mean “selling her body”” oh now AJ is using his child question asking for evil hehehehe

And luke shutting it down.. Sigh

“Don't change my name.” oh AJ you were so close!!!

Tom’s mounting amusement as Luke says “jingle bells” 

“Sometimes when im sad I tear off a petal” Tom laughing at the audacity but also- aj- thats terrifying- tf- imagine a little girl looks at you, pulls a flower out of her pocket, and rips off a petal. Like god damn im having nightmares ok-

“WHY ARE YOU SAD HELGA!” um- his name is priscilla, ur helga, also- also terrifying thanks

“No- i-im having a really good time.” uhuh yeah. Me too :) *afraid*

Idk if AJ actually forgot or just wanted to be annoying but how do you forget jingle bells-

“Darling.” *shuffle shuffle* “hi :)” oh sam is afraid- that smile- tom is gonna get him back for the stagecraft comment now, i can feel it. Ohhh sam can too

“Such a shame we couldn't send her to boarding school the old fashioned way.” “..??” “paying for it.” thats actually brilliant- im stealing that for everyday use-

While Tom is speaking about Priscillas talent- AJ watching from the corner with his tongue in his cheek- just waiting for his musical talent to be insulted lol(also very attractive look gotta say-)

“Earl of saxony.” idk why this made luke laugh but its such a delight to see him slowly spiral into heavier laughter

Also- he snaps out of it so fast- immediately joins the scene- brilliant

AJ amused because Luke’s getting yelled at and not him

Poor luke cant even sit down because theyd still come after him lmaoo

“I hope your kid dies of tuberculosis” damn! Again, stealing that

The really awkward Tom reach forward to put his hand on Sam’s shoulder kills me every time. Especially because his arm flexes like a beat before he does it- should i, should i not- before going for it lol

“Garden.” oh rumpled has some feelings he’d like resolved…

“We used to go through strolls…” “we did used to go through strolls, i cant go through any more of them.” This entire scene kills me so much i adore it yes Tom, preach. Sam always gives everyone else so much shit- uno reverse baby!!! XD

Luke and AJ loosing their minds is also my life blood

Sam confused as to how its wrong- but wants to correct “You didn't let me finish.” 

Tom put his entire cunt into that leg cross and perch of his fingers against his chin, slay king

“We used to go through strolls through the orchard.” Oh- now tom seizes the opportunity to do some stage craft just to add extra salt on the wound-

Tom’s disappointed head shake as Luke and AJ explode with laughter is my everything

Sam’s angry rant of “is that not correct?? No- no- no- because you've got two english degrees” idk but the fact that he just knows that so quickly is everything to me

AJ and Tom are enjoying this far too much- both arching forward to listen because they're little shits :)

“It is both incorrect and Im busy on my stagecraft right now so-” (ok to anyone who is just as confused as sam- the correct terminology would be “we used to go for strolls” not through or “we went on strolls” etc etc)

“Darling borrow my newspaper.” Oooh sam I see you- trying to mess with Tom’s stagecraft make him seem like its so poor he’s “reading newspaper” when hes clearing eating… smth, idk but very clever, very clever

Also- pointing it out- firstly its probably because they know the other person would never let it go- but secondly, they're so dedicated and such good actors to their craft that Sam literally reaches over and removes the nonexistent newspaper off the nonexistent food- idk it just makes me happy. Also they do it so well

‘WHOS STAGECRAFT IS WEAK NOW DARLI-” yes tom, get your revenge lol

“...doesn't it?” oh yes sam, create a new plot point and then require Tom to expand upon it and create the actual story. Brilliant thinking and a dick move but its so funny

Shit eating grin the whole time too

“It. does.” tom said calmly

“Why are you laughing at me now, i cant fire you.” lol tom never change

Ok Tom didn't like Sam’s interruption so now he's changing the plot and making it a horror story- we love, we love

Aj’s hand covering mouth laughter again, love it sm

“That should be quite obvious. The fact that were having to discuss it at all is inane and foolish” ok so tom is still not over the stagecraft comment- got it

Luke's laughter from backstage- still not sitting down because hes afraid

“This is the prettiest i ever saw her.” SAM HES STILL MAD ABOUT STAGECRAFT NO- “WOW.” aaand there it is. ofc tom is now an ally of the dead wife just to spite sam lmaooo

“A girl like me-” AJ’s hand laugh again <333

“Selling your body.” smooth tom, smooth

“No more violence” veryyy smooth sam

“That bitch.” he had to- also, Tom, where’d the cigarette come from- when’d you light it- stagecraft people!!!

“I lit this cigarette on a candle.” ah- there it is “what wonderful stagecraft-” and AJ ends it because otherwise they’d keep it up forever i just know. Entertaining- but not very helpful to the story sadly lol

Luke pointing out the flaws, “which is a region in germany, despite half the workforce being english and the other german” slay king slay

Excellent stagecraft AJ, 10/10 of opening the window

Excellent voice acting, all around- Sam’s… owl hooting thats the one, perfect- and Tom’s really creepy “come to the garden” is top notch- so thats why he was so insulted on… Annabelle's behalf- he is her

“Buttercup im a little bit scared” why is he talking to the flower now- this wasn't in the trailer-

“But ill use you to- *breaks* shine a light- *laughs* so i can see*grinning*” everyone breaks and its beautiful

Wholly shit- AJ understanding immediately and perfectly that Sam standing up and going “fwoosh” was him pretending to be the owl and not being confused like “tf are you doing” is such good subtle accuracy and just shows how long they’ve been together and- i need to calm down 

“Strange mound by a tree” subtle aj, very subtle

Oh!- oh!- oh, nope Luke, sorry, Tom beat you to it again. Damn. now he gets to be the dead wife- not you. (as much as you want to be sam’s lover- who said that?)

Pointing the flower like its a glock… very nice stagecraft aj, wonderfully done

“I cant see, I don't have my buttercup with me” brilliant work luke, smashing really- call back and humor, all in one five stars 👏

AJ being taller than sam- randomly standing now also, instead of kneeling like before, Priscilla had a random growth spurt- anyway- and not making a single effort to even pretend be shorter for the crying scene gives me life

AJ DOING BETTER MATH THAN SAM!!! YAY!!!

“Why are you speaking in the third person?” good recovery sam, now the attentions back on AJ

“What will really happen?” “you'll become lactose intolerant.” AJ side eyeing Tom, currently sitting with the audience like, “you sure? Thats all thatll happen?” 

Whoever was sitting in the audience and did a dramatic inhale when Sam went “and you'll break the c-” i love you

“You were going to say break the curse.” AJ's so proud he managed to piece that one together

“No thats not- no!” AJ let himself come out a lil- sweety, baby, you're supposed to be a three foot tall little girl, not a six foot tall man, he is towering over Sam, thats not how Priscilla works- moving on

“Y'know before i was a groundskeeper here…” “oh boy.” yeah aj, you regret tempting him now

Assassin was the last thing on my bingo card of things i thought sam would say but ok

“I feel like this is above my paygrade.” so now luke is trying to weasel out of a scene instead of into it… hmmm

“Im part of the yorkshire reserves.” idk what kinda inside joke this is, but it took luke out, dude literally did a disappointed tom dad head shake and covered his whole face with only one hand, goodness sam

“You say ‘would you like a nice cup o’ tea?’... and then you stab ‘em.” Sam i love you, never change

“When i went over to that buttercup… nest.” Ig AJ doesn't know the name for flowerbed but okay(even tho im pretty sure he said it earlier but wtv) Luke’s laugh literally gave me chills, firstly it was delayed, secondly its the deepest its ever been and just like-wow

“I have a real mum!” “no!... no.. no.” so i guess everyone is taking their cues from Tom and repeating things more than once to highlight the importance. Also Aj barely holding back a smile is so cute- especially since Sam can smile at him bc hes not facing the audience

And luke loosing his mind to laughter again, always a classic

“Uh i went scottish there-” just amusing to me

“But luckily im also a wizard.” very very very smooth sailing sam, classically done, nice way to round out the story

Luke loosing his mind, AJ almost breaking on stage, and we cant see Tom but im pretty sure hes losing it as well

“Magic!” I just adore every time AJ says magic in his little girl voice, its so precious

“Leave it. Or I’ll bleed you.” well thats a threat if i've ever heard one oh my gods- AJ looks terrified

“I will protect you with the best stagecraft you've ever seen.” Ahh good ol tom with the one liners who breaks everybody

(sam and aj leaning against each other with their laugh ahdtbdjhfgtgewbsdc- too cute<33)

“Don't bitch out on me” -luke moved too fast, AJ broke before he was sitting back down XD

“What are you sinking about?” ok idk if Luke knows or not, but thats a common german meme, im not gonna write it all down rn but no one laughed so im assuming he doesn't know, anyway made me chuckle, moving on

Sam losing his mind at “i called you helga” as he should

TOM HOPPING ON STAGE FROM WHERE HES SITTING IN THE AUDIENCE TO JOIN THE SHOW- i cant with this man seriously XD

“With you two bvitches!” you tell 'em Aj(also yes the v is intentional, he said with with pizzazz and thats what the v adds)

“I don't like music it sounds the same!” as a person who pursues music- y'know what ill let it lie nvmind

“You always make me playing fffff-fucking jingle bells” y'know what its understandable now, carry on,

“Whos annabelle.” ok screw this audience- no one gasped dramatically or ooohhhhed- HE JUST REVEALED A MAJOR PLOT POINT GUYS SHOW SOME EMOTION- i need to calm down

Ok Tom chuckled in the audience and its redemption enough for me- he even moved his shoulders with laughter- ok im back in it

Sam’s forced smile at “rumple told me” is so iconic he did that so well omg-

“GET PLUCKING!” might be the scariest thing i've ever heard- but it was accompanied by a lovely luke laugh so its balanced

“She was not… well.” “OH. WOW” tom can be offended on his own behalf this time

“She was cruel, she was cold… and her stagecraft was terrible.” YES SAM- SNAP SNAP- SLAY DIVA YESSSS

Also everyone breaking on stage is lovely, always love the shared laughs

“I will accept two of those three criticisms.” how gracious tom

Complaining about past skits/productions, sam is just airing out all his grievances i love them so much omg-

Luke literally folding from laughter

“Well if you bury all your women..” Sam’s hand snapped up so fast. “One. I've only buried one.” ☝️

AJ SINGING!!! YESSSS

The utter chaos in this scene is the best thing in the world, all four of them on stage at once is always a treat

… is tom sucking Luke’s soul out of his body through his face using his hand? I have so many questions...

…why did it make him snap his own neck????

Why are they harmonizing?!?!?!

Sam literally she hates you because you always insult her stagecraft and when she digs her way out of hell the first thing you do is insult her stagecraft??? I mean, it is, admittedly, confusing stagecraft… but THATS NOT THE POINT!

“Oh i don't like this at all!” nor do i sam… nor do i… *the writer is horrified… and very amused*

THEY KILLED SAM?!?!?!?!?!?! 

Also AJ casually successfully mouthing every word Tom says is insane skill and very well done

“Mummy…” ok.. And aj takes the most terrifying person crown again…

“Piano lesson.” yeah im sensing a lot of pent up anger…

"Plinky plonky. Every day.” sounds like a legitimate reason, but if she thinks plinky plonky is the sound a piano makes then i understand why shes in lessons-

Also- aj successfully made tom crack a smile on stage, well done

Also aj- made eye contact with luke off stage and made him fold again

“You look different.” Ok but Tom’s hand raised and like, little crimp is so totally a mom move his stagecraft is excellent-

“Have you had your-*stutters* first period?” now thats class A humor, and im so glad it broke aj and sam

AND IT MADE LUKE DO DISAPPOINTED DAD HEAD SHAKE AND HAND OVER FACE. good work tom

“Is it a light, medium or heavy flow?” y'know what im so fucking glad he knows what those all are, and i know the others do too, love them all truly

Tom having to run back and forth as both mothers… ahhhh i love when they play two interacting characters its so funny

“Get out of my daughter” careful word choice tom… yep- sams exploding with laughter, luke is dying, and even AJ is blinking at you in concern(tbf tom immediately regretted it, but it was worth the laughs)

“Mummy help!” “can you clarify which one you're talking to?” Tom never change, i love you. “Im talking to my mummy!” im assuming he means the one thats not possessing him, and honestly thats so cute, aj knows what the people want, and the people want priscilla to love her adopted/found family?? Mother- anyway keep watching to see..

… what is it with them breaking Tom’s fingers??? 

… did sam just “rumple” charge his wand by like..  Loading it like a shotgun??? stagecraft…

Oh ok they're two separate things…

The slow mo i adore these idiots omg-

“You're only making our bond stronger-” before he even finished AJ is pulling closer again, damn to have that instinctual friendship is insane

AJ SINGING!!!!

“Shut the fuck up” aj hes trying to further the plot- shhhh

Quick thinking Luke- Priscilla, Queen of the Dessert, real song, totally real, good good great, you could've said literally anything else, but ok

Tom switching to the adoptive mother because thats the one who really knows her is honestly so sweet- my heart

Sam getting to shoot Tom is always great. Working out their anger in a calm, reasonable manner

“Wow.” tom is really milking these wows huh

“I mean she did raise you.” Tom just cause he doesn't know the word “biological mother” doesn't mean- y'know what whatever- Aj i understand what you mean- you're a good daughter !

“No don't fuck with me like that okay?” yes aj! Fight back(casually drops the girl voice to become AJ to actually yell at Tom, ugh i love him)

“Ill be seeing you… ill be seeing youuuu” again with the repetitions goodness

“Byebye.” damn it tom he almost made it without breaking!

“AND SCENE!” From both Sam and Luke. perfect ending. 

Tom finally rejoining the stage and exiting the audience

Anyway thats all, thanks for reading this entire like book worth of comments, lots to say and lots of it is meaningless but anyway hope it added a dash more humor to their brilliance and yeah… my thoughts 🙂

@dawn-speckled you said you wanted my thoughts and damn do i have a lot of them lol, anyway hope it brought you some joy:)

[atzhrts]

GIRL whoever that anon was about eunseok moaning is so real for that tbh..

My personal headcannon is that eunseok is actually lowkey a loser. I feel like everyone writes him as this hard dom, brat tamer, with a daddy kink? And i mean im probably biased a little because im actually not that into that stuff BUT..

In every video ive seen of eunseok that man is giggly, goofy, and so a little bit empty in the head (and i say that with love), have you seen that clip of him like dissociating while munching his food? No thoughts. But so quickly as soon as he realized hes showing his silly side he always like forces himself to look cool and mysterious you know? Like he cant let anyone know his true self. Hes cool and mysterious! He swears by it!..

Eunseok i feel is a bit of a loser, has quite a few nerdy hobbies and interests, hes so cutie secretly and i feel hes the same way in the bedroom. Hes not dominant. But maybe not necessarily submissive either, but hes a little pathetic, he typically fucks girls doggy so he can almost hide, puts on a brave front where he PRETENDS to be super dominant like that because he thinks thats what girls like? Hes just a little insecure maybe..

I feel like if he actually got comfortable enough with someone to show his true self i feel like his fav position would be missionary, he likes cowgirl too, but he likes to press his body as close to yours as possible, hes lets out small gasps, moans, and whimpers, holds your hands tight, his thrusts probably dont have much rythym? He doesnt have much control so he just lets his body do so his thrusts are like messy, passionate rather than hard, fairly quick thrusts, like he cant stand to even pull out to far for too long because he NEEDS you squeezing around him at all times. When he gets close he probably gets more desperate maybe even letting out little plees and thanks..

i think his orgasm would hit him so strong like, he’d gasp and push himself as deep inside as possible, hugging you as close him as possible, and when he finally remembers to breath hes gasping a little while starting to give a few small thrusts to keep the feeling a little longer, and he’d never admit it but i think he might even tear up and have to stop and gain control of himself before he starts sobbing..

I think hes just a sweetie idk, what are your thots?

this is a masterpiece and i agree!! personally i think he’s a dom and kind of freaky but only once he really got comfortable with you.

in the beginning he’s such a looser and he’s so down bad for you, having to look away every time you jerk him off, so that he doesn’t cum from simple eye contact.

gonna talk about cowgirl because i have nothing to add to your doggy thoughts 🤌🏻

eunseok is so gone, his fingers digging into your waist as he helps you move your hips against his. his head is slightly turned to the side, trying to a valid eye contact and also trying to muffle his moans in the pillow.

“you don’t have to do that” your sweet voice reaches his ears as your warm hand cups his cheek, slowly turning his head into your direction. eunseok nods desperately when you tell him he should just let out all the noises he wants and that it would be hot. i think once he gets more into it, he would wrap his arms around you, pulling you down against his body as much as possible, groaning when your nipples move against his with every thrust and he has to hurry his face in your neck.

“so good” he’d whimper softly, slowly getting more comfortable with voicing his needs and pleasure as he feel you clench around his length.

he definitely begs you to cockwarm him a bit after he came, not wanting to part with your warmth just yet. (holds your hand in missionary you can’t convince me otherwise)

[vinestaffery]

Scythe X cop or detective reader where Scythe kidnaps reader to join her cult or somthing

of course!! im a bit tired atm and my schedule bursted up again, so the other people that have requested, i will be taking a bit of a while to post them fully, but i promise i am working on them!! sadly this is gonna have to be a drabble, im so sorry </3

Characters: Scythe, GN! Reader Prompt: One-sided Romance I think???, Small Drabble Warnings: Usage of (pet) names; Mentions of murder; Slightly descriptive but vague of how Scythe killed civilians; Religious themes; Kidnapping; Drugging; Scythe being a literal serial killer; Indoctrination(?)

Days were never suppose to be this harsh. You were always looking for new angles for the strange disappearances of many civilians in Lost Temple, yet it seemed like every new case was to mock your work.

Someone was watching you, for all you know.

Days were becoming longer, more dissociative then regular. Someone was watching you, you could feel it. It was like being played with like prey, if anything, a piece of meat in the claws of a carnivore.

But, it didn't let you shoot you down off your pedestals. You still, somehow, no matter what found a way to link to your suspects. White, gold and teal clothing, and the way the victims were left.

Cut, bloodied and garnished. Ripped apart in one slick-move, a slice. Head, shaven off of it's horns before being squashed like a tomato with a heel.

You were connecting up the dots to your very last suspect; Scythe.

You met her a few times, once at a bar, another when you had nearly gotten into some beef with some stragglers late at night. She was somewhat always there to support you, but would be never seen again. You took note of this.

When the investigation was left up to you, the police huddling outside for their break; the sun blared down below the alleyway. The shadows were your spectators, witnesses to a brutal massacre of several.

It was her. It was her, how she always disappeared, how everything seemed to become more of a blur. She was always there.

All she had to do, was find her, or catch her in the act.

"I'll get you, one way or another," you whispered to yourself.

"Well, you've bet to get on wit' it, don'tcha?"

A voice seemed to silence all thoughts. You didn't turn to face the new opponent.

You readied your hand-gun that was strapped to your left thigh, hand hovered cautiously over it.

"You and ya littl' ol' brain, finally come to make senses haven't cha? Fufufu..." Scythe laughed, a claw raised and a large weapon rested on her shoulder.

Your heart was thumping, you had no clue what had happened to the people that were here before; blood leaked across the floorboards.

"You must watch yourself, Snake, or else," you threatened, vile in your throat and hatred in your words.

"Or else what, my fine sheep, you goin' to do something?" Her name-calling was getting on your nerves. "The sheep, the one who follows, threatenin' big ol' me? Why, what a show."

"You best watch your tone, or else I'll get those men to take you away-" "And do what? Shoot me with this?" She plucked a gun from her pocket, you could hear it fall and chatter on the cold, hard ground. It rung in your ears.

"Say, maybe if you are ta hear me out, I'll leave ya' be!" Scythe snarled in a smirk, eyeing at you as you gave a small turn. Your hand still readied by your waist.

"And what must that be?" You questioned.

It took her seconds before she was up close, hand over your prepared one as she pulled you into a hold. Your hands, crunched in her soft leather glove while the other one, outstretched and squished by her metal.

"Scream, and everyone in this town's blood will be on your hands, rabbit," You were petrified but held in your sounds, clogged in your throat. You could just throw up.

She took notice, and started dragging you away. In a sorts of type of kidnapping, it was uncomfortable. She caressed your cheek, holding you close as she kept viable eye on you.

Everything started to become fuzzy, did she slip a drug into you by chance? No, she couldn't have. That's not her sense of style. But, everything and everywhere became unrecognizable.

"That's it, we're nearly there, my sweet," Scythe was astonished at how you were still able to walk, to even keep yourself up with her as you seemed to become tired and unable to respond.

Her scorpion tail came back close to her once more.

"Fucking- scorpion.." You pointed out, the tip of her stinger dripped a certain chemical before you fell into the warm-heated sand.

Light's blared into your face as you suddenly awoke. Your back was in pain, brain spinning and pleading to be free from it's coffin.

"Fuck-.. where?"

"Ah-ah ah! Don't want the doctors hard-work to be demolished shall we?" Scythe's voice rung through the room. It echoed in your ears.

"Where am I!" You screamed, but it seemed no use as she walked over. Her heels clicked to the solid, clear marble ground.

A hand reached over, two clawed fingers pinched at your chin and made her look up. God, she was tall, and quite beautiful, for a serial killer. "Wouldn't wanna wake up the others now, do we?" Her scorpion tail threatened as it reached in view.

Eyes widened, and a simple nod in command. She let go in a rough manner.

"Now, you best listen to me, or else you'll end up the same way those people ended up," Your ears wanted to close, but you made eye-contact with her.

She took it as an agreement.

"You've rose quite an interest in me, my sweet. I wouldn't think such people like ya' would be so heavily fascinated in my work of art," Work of art? What is she talking about? Those were never work of art. Those were polished crime-scenes of horror. Onslaughts.

"Now, I wouldn't want my favourite detective, my favourite sheep to be close to finding out about me now do I?" You shook your head.

"Good. Now, if you want to live and make it out of this room alive, you best follow my words," Alive?! "What do you mean 'make it out alive'? I have no deeds to share with you!" You spat.

"Oh, but you mustn't think of it that way. Think of it as a way of... saving you and mine's life. You see, I work for someone quite special deity," Special? Who could be anymore special then the SfOTH? The respected deities, gods if you will?

"There's no one as special as the SfOTH, those deities would crush someone as despicable as your boss."

That struck a nerve.

"You best keep that mouth shut, or else I will do more damage then what my boss would do to you and everyone in this god-for-saken town," Her weapon in hand, you squeaked. You stayed quiet once more.

"... Now, where was I? Ah, yes. I want you to join me, in order to protect you from the harms that might come your way for your... case," "Work with you?" "Yes."

You could nearly laugh! But you couldn't, you'd die.

"...Any benefits?"

"Oh, darling. Benefits were already arranged the first time we met," You snarled. Of course, she was planning this all along at the very start.

"Now, do we have a deal?"

Silence.

A long, period of silence.

"Well?"

You couldn't stop thinking about your family. Your friends, people you considered close.

"You best answer me, clock is ticking."

Your father, mother, what about your pets? What about, what about, what about?!

A slam of the chair, and a rising heat of pain strucking your face as you cried out.

"I've given you one chance at this, now you best answer me! Yes, or nay?" Scythe knelt down to face at you.

"One."

No Answer.

"Two."

No answer.

"THREE-"

"I ACCEPT! I will join your stupid- fucking team!"

...

"Good."

[kiththecat]

GOD. JESUS CHRIST. okay im planning to write a full comment on the actual chapter but i had to come here about this specific bit of symbolism because i need to COME TO YOUR FRONT DOOR PERSONALLY AND SCREAM

the motif of branzy shaking when he is in true, genuine fear. such a little thing that you wouldnt notice if you didn't know, but when you do, you can't unsee it. how easily it gives away that he isn't actually scared, even when he's acting like it.

he shakes out of his skin when he first meets clown, only to slowly stop the more they interact, and clown can only get him to tremble again by doing shit like dipping him over the side of the ferris wheel cart.

he shakes after leo's visit. you literally wrote the line:

"The corner of Branzy’s lip turns up. His hands are involuntarily shaking. That’s normal and fine. He still feels betrayed by his body."

IM GONNA KILL YOU /pos

HELL, CLOWN EVEN POINTS IT OUT!!! branzy WASN'T shaking during the confrontation with minute, and it's what makes clown figure out that branzy's patheticness is all an act!!!

“You didn’t seem as scared as you were when we met either,” Clown observes. “You even slipped up out there, didn’t you? If you weren’t thinking things through, you wouldn’t have been nearly as calm. You used to tremble, Branzy.”

AUUUGHHHH.

SO THE FACT THAT BRANZY HAS BEEN SHAKING SO MUCH DURING THE HOMESTUCK ARC.

he shakes when he sees the magician's body right before he and clown sleep together, and later when he sees her in the bathroom mirror. he shakes while drinking the laced water. he shakes while playing cards with rek, after being told the park might reopen without him. he shakes when the magician's assistant implies he should kill himself.

he's genuinely, truly terrified. all the time. he isn't just acting anymore. how can he, when he's lost all but one of his marbles. he's so distraught with everything happening to him lately, i'm surprised his body doesnt feel like a live wire 24/7.

(honestly, it might be. his hands are shaking during the meeting at the end of the chapter. even when he's fully dissociating, he's still scared. fuck, man.)

but what got me to really put all of this together was THIS bit in the most recent chapter:

A pair of hands darkens Branzy’s world, and a chipper voice calls out, “Guess who!” To which Branzy yelps, heartbeat skyrocketing. In the half a second it takes for him to scramble away, his body has already decided to quiver.

he's started to shake around clown again. and not even just because of an upsetting conversation or action. all clown does is sneak up behind him and surprise him as a silly joke, something he wouldn't even have blinked at before he came to this house.

it's uncomfortably similar to the start of chapter 5, where he trembles in response to clown sneaking up behind him. the difference is that at that time, clown put a SCYTHE to his throat,

(oh my god. in the middle of that, i was going to write that another difference was that branzy hadn't seen clown in two weeks because he had disappeared to go try and kill parrot, minute, and leo. but that's not a difference. it's not a difference at all. clown confirms that he had been gone nearly two weeks in the bedroom conversation. because he was busy dealing with work. killing people. hell, possibly even trying to kill parrot, minute, and leo specifically! GOD i'm going to fucking KILL YOU. PARALLELS.)

anyway. my point is is that branzy responds to clown coming up behind him and putting his hands over his eyes in the same way he responded to clown coming up behind him and putting a goddamn scythe to his neck; by shaking. with genuine fear, because he can't PRETEND to shake. he is just as scared by his partner(?), a man who he has MADE OUT AND SLEPT WITH, now, as he he was when they were still barely more than acquaintances AND HE PUT A LARGE BLADE TO HIS THROAT. DOES ANYONE HEAR ME!??!?!?!?!?!?!?

he's regressed. he's actually, fully regressed. we're in chapter 18 and im drawing parallels to an event that happened in chapter 5. holy fucking shit, things are dire.

i just... god, and the fact that clown doesn't even notice? the fact that HE was the person to call branzy out on not actually being scared of minute because he wasn't shaking.... and he doesn't even recognize branzy is doing it towards him now. fuck, man. i know branzy is employing an advanced tactic known as "make out with my boyfriend so he doesn't question all my strange behaviors" but... FUCKING HELL, CLOWN. STOP THINKING WITH YOUR DICK, YOUR MANS IS GOING THROUGH IT RIGHT NOW.

(btw i'm probably gonna go into it more during my actual comment on the chapter, but i have an entire thing written in my head about the parallel of both the magician's assistant and branzy being terrified and in danger, but none of the people watching them realize it. none of them saw the signs, even when it was all right in front of them. god.)

it just... it tears me up inside. out of everything that has happened during this arc, the fact that branzy has become scared of clown again breaks my heart the most. it feels so wrong, especially the fact that i don't even think branzy realizes it. i know if clown realizes, it's going to destroy him, and honestly? highkey want it to. get fucked, jester boy. it's your turn on the angst.

i don't know how to end this. just.... motifs good. i love it.

i dont even know what to say this is the kind of insight that hurts me back. like i've read it like ten times and im still like "why would i do that to him:((" buuuuuuut if branzy didnt want to be tortured he shouldn't be so torturable <- lines that both the author and the titular jester of the work would say to justify their horrible treatment of branzycraft. also im so so patiently looking forward to hearing more of your thoughts im gonna be so normal about it :3

[bitterrfruit]

im writing this right after reading the epilogue. my brain can’t comprehend that houndtooth ended.

it felt surreal. i was so used to them being in the same situation the entire story, and the scenery change really made it feel like i was reading something else. like that was mia and i knew it was her, but it really felt like another life, while being conscious of the previous one. sorry but i’m not the best at expressing how i feel and english is also not my first language. also the fact that you didn’t put those delimitation thingies or whatever they’re called with the hare and the wolf helped making it feel so so different.

before getting into the epilogue i read your last post saying you’re planning to do an anthology of some sort of what happens after, so i knew simon couldn’t be dead hehehehe. but this epilogue left me empty (not because it was badly done no!!) i guess i just can’t do endings. i always fear them, if it was up to me then everything i love would just go on and on. i noticed that i do this a lot of times while reading, no matter how emotional that book makes me feel, i always dissociate when it ends. but enough about me, i NEED TO KNOW EVERYTHING. what happened when simon woke up? i’m sure he asked about mia right away. but did he want to go after her and was stopped, maybe by price or because of the time he had to spend in the hospital for healing? or did he try to keep out of her life for a while? i don’t think so. did he go straight to her after leaving the hospital? with his injuries i imagine he had to spend a long time there, a couple of months maybe. but idk i’m not a doctor. or did he watch her from the shadows for a while? did he make gaz tell him every single detail about her while they were away from each other? did he know she was asking about him constantly and thought he had died that day? did he not know they changed her name or just didn’t care? i remember in one chapter him saying something like wanting to help her use her birth name again, but i might be wrong (i’m in full exam session so my brain is kinda fried) so i thought he might use that name, but reading that he called her mia warmed my heart 🥺 oh how i’ll miss them. it’s gonna hit after a while tho 🫠

i’ll probably have many more questions after i reread. and i also want to say that i love how you always make that little collage (if i can call if that) with aesthetic photos, different for every chapter. i stalked your pinterest and i love it!!

houndtooth will remain in my heart forever. i got so attached to them. i always reread that scene when simon is being his nosey self going through her things and is looking at that pic of mia and her friend, wondering if he’ll ever get to see her simle like that. now he will 🤍

OMG babe holy moly i love you so much. thank you so so much for reading it and i am ecstatic you enjoyed it!!! <33

i want to answer all of your questions so bad but i might be including most of them in the post-epilogue snippets!!

i'll say that Simon wanted to see her immediately after waking up (which would have been at least a month after he was recovered), but wasn't able to - practically, he was stuck in hospital and immobile for a good few months - but also because he didn't want her to see him that wounded and incapacitated, because he would have known how guilty it would make her feel.

He would have got details from Gaz, who he would have kept on a tight leash lmao. Better Gaz than Johnny at least, to be the one to keep an eye on Mia. In any case, he would have heard that she was recovering, would have got the update about her two-week, three-month, six-month chips. Her volunteering, her new apartment, etc.

He didn't know her birth name, and didn't know that Mia wasn't her birth name! He'll know by now, though. But to Simon, she is and always will be his Mia. She will probably resent that, might consider Mia and Amelia to be different people - but Simon only sees the whole picture, only sees the one girl, dark past and all. He'd call her whatever she wants him to, though, if it makes her happier <3

thanks again for your messages and your questions bestie, love you lots <33

[goomyloid]

Do you have a dream kriselle scene you would absolutely love to see in any of the upcoming chapters? Doesn't matter how realistic, just like, your most ideal as if you were being targeted specifically

firstly thank you for asking me this. This is like the number one question to ask me ever

secondly... i have some ideas, but theyre more of just vague interactions id like to happen rather than full blown scenes. also this will all be weird route. if that needed clarification . It is always weird route always

one of them, if im gonna skip ahead a little bit to the festival chapter, is i want kris and noelle to ride the ferris wheel together... ive said something similar in a previous post, but i think it would be a really dark juxtaposition to the ch2 ferris wheel ride with susie (if it happened, but im thinking it most likely didn't) where we're almost tying noelle down to stay with us, in reality with kris, in the top car of the ferris wheel, just like when they were kids. it might be an interesting commentary on giving in to nostalgia, returning to old times with kris by her side, and this time they're not leaving her... for better or for worse (shudder) (shiver)

i dont even know what would happen in there, maybe just the scene happening at all would be enough, or noelle can monologue or something and i have to drop everything and listen to her life changing lines. while kris is like... empty at that point. if they're already 'dissociating' in chapter 2, how much of them will be Left by chapter 5(?)...

the other is... well i keep saying to people "i hope kris and noelle die at the end of the weird route" and its not entirely a lie.... i have no idea what will actually happen at the end obviously, so maybe this would work for like, The One Ending being that Everyone Dies The End or some shit .... which i guess ties into it being targeted towards me? (NOT THAT I WANT THAT TO HAPPEN. I dont want my deltarune to die) but a story concept that always interested me is like, when things get so horribly bad that theres nothing left to do but abandon it (or perish). i guess kind of like the end of the no mercy route in undertale where the world gets completely erased because everyone's dead, but i also think of ghost trick where the "ending" (before the final scene/chapter) is so hopeless (sinking to the bottom of the ocean and everything) that the timeline is basically abandoned altogether.

i guess what im getting at is that it would be incredibly interesting if something similar happened with the end of the weird route, where everything is so irreversibly fucked up forever that there's no hope of fixing anything at all. its only then that -- and this is the part that's entirely tailored towards me -- it becomes hard to comprehend how bad things are, so your brain short circuits and settles on a kind of fuckedup contentedness with the whole situation. being happy to die at the end of the world if it's next to your best friend, bound together by the soul... aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............. I started thinking too fsast and got nauseous . But when i say i want them to die together i ts like. that. there's nothing left for them here. bound together forever in death. tengoku he ikou tengoku he ikou

Iiuiuuuiooouohhhhh my god these characters. Sorry its hitting me all over again. clutching my head in pain ohhhhhhhhhh ohhhhhhh Oh i need the full game right now plea.we please

[qoldenskies]

thoughts on how each of the brothers comfort cc! Donnie when he's having a panic attack in private?

Thoughts on cc!brothers playing board games?

Thoughts on these questions because I suck at this

this is an old question but its midnight so im gonna take it im VERY bored and need an excuse to yap. on the second one ive answered smthn similar before (itd be relatively similar to what they did before) but for the first i CAN speak on it a little, going off cw and things ive just kinda instinctively known

leo is ultimately the best at it. donnie's the most comfortable around mikey, but if leo isnt actively having a flashback he's the fastest to act and most competent-- he's quick to be able to identify his triggers and he's rational enough to follow donnie's logic and work on his terms. he's usually the first to suggest and think about grounding techniques, which is something he mostly got from april who put a lot of time into researching it, but also just because he understands that donnie handles cold, hard fact better. eventually i think he'll be the quickest to employ the 5-step exercise over time. i think it'll work well when donnie's particularly dissociative.

^^^ this is also partially because he's experienced with him at. well. his worst. when he was having night terrors he was the one helping him through it for a while. after a while it becomes a song and dance. he really only feels out of his element if he's caught off guard. with leo, self-shame spirals are usually caused by a feeling of i should have known, i should have seen this coming. it means he keeps a close eye on things in order to prevent that, but he cant always see past himself and its inevitable there will be situations that blind-sight him. although it also means he's the most nosy about donnie's business which is not always a good thing, take that with a grain of salt. most surprising character to turn into a borderline helicopter parent lmfao

anyways. for mikey. he does his best 😭 he's out of his element and he's quick to feel frustrated with himself, especially because while he tries, and he cares, and that shines through with everything he does, it doesn't make him not a kid. a lot of the time he'll flounder and trip over himself or say something stupid and impulsive. he cant always properly read the situation and it leads to some misunderstandings, especially when he's already scared on donnie's behalf. i do think he is empathetic (in the way that he'll feel upset when someone else is) but that doesn't mean he's good at identifying reasons, or putting those feelings into words, or etc. sometimes he feels like donnie just freaks out on him and he cant do much but freak out about what he's doing wrong in the aftermath.

but i do think he's the best in like,,, he knows how to respectfully ask for donnie's boundaries, and he's always the first one to think about it. raph and leo will sometimes ask questions when they're already expecting a certain answer, and will get pushy if they think donnie is lying or cant actually handle things that he says he can. mikey's never that way, there's this surface-level respectfulness that can be really helpful in more complicated situations, because it means he'll be the fastest to break up a fight if its getting too heated or drag them all out if donnie needs personal space. he waits for donnie to express his boundaries, and then shouts them for him when he cant do it for himself. he leaves overthinking at the door and then spirals later, which is something that is new for him. he's gotten a lot better at compartmentalizing. not a good thing, not a bad thing. it's just his way of coping now, although i do think that sometimes it leads to him having delayed responses to triggers.

anyways raph is,, the worst at it, but that doesn't mean he's bad. he's just completely incapable of taking his own feelings out of it, because he has the worst ptsd from the curse to the point where just the sight of donnie panicking will put him on edge. soothing donnie is a lot like self-soothing as well-- it's desperate and afraid and guilty. he gets a lot better at appearing calm, by the end of cw even, but there's this emotional proximity to it that the others dont have, and they can all tell. when donnie's triggered, raph is triggered, and there is genuinely no way around it, especially if they're caught off guard. sometimes he can keep it together when he has a good sense of what he has to do, but he's always shaken. he always takes it so personally, even when it isn't his fault.

it means his way of handling it is usually mindless. he's not going to jump to count him through his breaths or ask questions or go through grounding tactics. he'll take any excuse to hold him close and keep it that way, as long as he's sure it wont set donnie off, rock and shush and soothe him and remind him over and over again that he's here, that everything's going to be okay, that raphie's never going to hurt him again, never ever-- (and he's convincing himself, too. he has to remind himself of that a lot, because he's so terrified that it could come back at any moment. even if he logically knows that isn't true and kitsune is dead. i think a lot of the time he struggles to process that he took part in killing her at all.)

also it wasnt mentioned in the question i would like to give a shout-out to cc!splinter; just as complicated as his canon counterpart, if not more so, but i think he does a really good job now. his focus wont always go in the right direction especially when he's panicked or run ragged, but when he's present he's usually very helpful. i'd honestly even say that he does a better job than mikey at the "it's not a bad thing that you're different" thing, because there is this edge of humor that peeks out pretty early on, when donnie's present enough to be able to handle it. he lets him be in on the joke without being the center of it, which is comforting.

but tbh it makes sense. splinter is haunted by many ghosts, including his own. it's not exactly a secret how much he yearns for the strength and notoriety of lou jitsu, and i dont think that's purely a physical body dysmorphia thing-- he's come away with a lot of ptsd. that effortless faux-confidence isn't so effortless anymore. every time he fakes it he only feels shame, no matter how hard he tries to push to make up for it. i think he'd understand donnie better than anyone, with feeling like you'll never go back to who you were. seeing this old visage of yourself only in recordings and the reverence in the voices of others. donnie's old self was never an idol, obviously, but with the way they speak about him now, he might as well have been. in CL donnie's experiences were implicitly paralleled with splinter's experiences with big mama, too. when you think about it, they've got a lot in common!

[rueclfer]

Don't correct me on medical terms idgaf but you ready for this

Touya with congenital dissociated hypertropia (no idgaf that it's crazy rare he has it) but those angles in the manga be making his eye look lazy

One eye that drifts downwards when the other eye is fixated on something

Him staring at yn with a major crush and his eye just drifting whenever he stares at them

Him with prism glasses to correct it but he hates his glass because they make him look nerdy but being called out on the lazy eye is even worse

Sees double on bad days and has walked into more walls than he cares to admit

It runs in the family and Enjis dad also had a lazy eye (just because I said so) and Enji hating looking at Touya's lazy eye growing up and telling him to fix his face because it reminded him too much of his own late father

Touya getting so embarrassed when anyone mentions the lazy eye before he catches it and fixes it he can and has gaslit people into thinking they're seeing things

The only time he actually likes it is scaring little kids

Canon conversation

"LOOK ME IN THE EYES WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU!"

Natsuo/shoto/toga/literally anyone sobbing hysterically: WHICH ONE!?!?!?

He can never stare at anything too long before that eyes starts to drift and his eyesight is SHOT in that eye but he refuses to admit it, nah gang I have 20/20 vision wym while squinting like a mf to see something two feet away from him

I love making him the sickly child of the family because I was the sickly child of my family like yes you're gonna have all MY issues and MORE <3 🎃

i love sickly child projection onto him as long as he gets to live in the end so therefore i say postwar he gets his lazy eye removed bc it was damaged in the war and replaced with a glass eye or nothing at all bc he feels freeeee from his matching lazy eye with his ugly ass dad <3

[rottkitt]

this was originally a shitpost but ykw? paco headcanon and interaction dump. mostly season 1… paco warning obviously scroll if uncomfy

paco but it’s just pickle getting cuteness aggression and squeezing taco’s face because he physically can’t take how fucking adorable she is.

i like to imagine he cups her cheeks and just affectionately bullies her like she’s a fat kitten.

“do you know you exist? you don’t. you’re dumb. you’re so stupid— no thoughts, the only thing in your head is lemons. why are you like this. little dum dum idiot i hate it die die die i love you” and taco’s just like “ooohhhhhh my goddddd he’s touching my faasccceedee,,,,,iioihhhhhmy god” like the dumb bisexual she is.

he rubs her cheeks with his thumbs and kisses all over her face and shes just dying. she dies. like she actually stops functioning because she cant handle the affection…

they sleep next to each other. it gets really cold at night and they’re both practically cold blooded so they have to cuddle up just to stay warm.

pickle’s the only person taco will sit that close to, he makes her feel safe and loved which means he’s automatically touch safe in her eyes

more of an au than a headcanon, but very covert system pickle X very obvious system taco… he’s spaceheaded and dissociated unless he’s with taco because she unkowingly helps him keep his identity grounded (perfect for angst)

they can both purr… and they’re the only ones that know except for mic and knife who discovered it unintentionally

if they were bugs taco would be a spider, most likely a brown recluse or black widow, and pickle would be a leaf bug. no questions asked

pickle has a box of art and projects taco made in season 1. when he “spitefully” gives it back to her post-finale there’s verg obviously several drawings missing (he kept them)

taco finds pickle’s voice very soothing. in season 1 when she woke up from nightmares he’d lull her back to sleep by rambling about random stuff, and in post-finale she just gets really sleepy when she’s around him and he’s talking a lot

pickle holding taco’s arms and mindlessly running his fingers over any scars……. taco letting pickle touch the slight scar left on her face post-finale because she trusts him.. ough…

taco sits upside down in chairs a lot, and pickle unintentionally picking up that habit. he plays games upside down

pickle sometimes wakes up confused why taco isn’t next to him then remembers.

cat taco and bunny pickle. no questions.

(cw suggestive) taco’s favorite candy flavor is, unfortunately, green apple. and she really likes lollipops. she can’t eat any around pickle because of it

pickle has to carry taco around in season 1 if she just woke up because she’s too tired to do anything

pickle accidentally falling asleep and slumping over onto taco’s shoulder (or lap) and wrapping his arms around her on the couch of hotel oj and taco just being like “oohhhh.. hes gonna kill me when he wakes up but i cant walk away because hes clinging onto meee…” (taco plays with his hair while he sleeps) (mic has photos and bullies taco with it)

they LOVE messing with each other’s hair

they’re both sleepy little thangs…

taco’s chubbier in season 1 but definitely loses more weight than healthy and pickle just stares at her sometimes thinking “i wish i didn’t hate you so i could help you heal.”

taco’s scared of being around or interacting with pickle after watching him literally die and almost not come back

taco can’t drink coffee because it makes her cough a lot and get sick, but she lurks around the coffee table anyways because pickle can’t live without caffiene and she’s trying to get used to existing around him again

pickle used to call taco “my angel” in french. he still cringes any time he hears someone use angel as a nickname or petname

okay i think that’s it for now…. you should totally reblog with your own paco headcanons…… /nf

@loveableliquid ykw here im tagging you come get your food you paco loving FREAK /sil

[toxycodone]

genital headcannons for :

Falin

Laios

Chilchuck

Toshiro

Namari

Venery

Thistle

Falin definitely has a penis, I think hers is probably the biggest out of Laios' party? Namari definitely packs, I would let her peg me for hours omg..... she could ruin me. Ermmm.. Chilchuck probably has a big cock for a halfling, he's fucking TALL !!!! bro has to be packing something. Also shaved or not shaved... Namari body hair everywhere OMG I need her to shove my face into her bush I need to smell her. Sorry I'm being a little too straight (? I am a man but this feels gay idk) ... anyway chil, Namari, and Falin are unshaved, full bush down there. I feel like Toshiro at his best keeps everything trimmed !! but when he can't even shave his face when he's at his lowest... bro wouldn't have the energy to take care of it. Hmm and then Laios could be either way..?? We know he shaves his face and keeps his hair short bc he doesn't wanna look like his dad, but would he even think of shaving his pubes????? Idk. Wait is this a weird thing to think about? Oh wait do elves grow body hair??? I feel like thistle would have some body hair if it's possible, I feel like they can't... unless my DND 5e knowledge is getting mixed with uhmmm. What is it called... DUNGEON MESHI I think I'm starting to dissociate I'm going to stop typing lmfao

FALIN - GIRLCOCK. Whether you are a trans!Falin fan or what, in my eyes after the red dragon thing. She gets girl cock. I can see this as either like, a penis or like T-dick. Whatever you decide. But whatever it is her situation is definitely unique. Also she got a bush frfr

Laios - COCK. (I am also a trans!Laios fan so like. He can have anything in his pants it don’t matter imma eat it but usually when I write him it’s cock). His dick is as painfully average as he is. Not crazy length wise but he got some girth to it. I’m thinking like. 5 inches frfr. Maybe 6 but that’s generous imo. No manscaping just vibes he’s full bush down there. And body hair on his chest/legs/arms and around his groin

Chilchuck - OKAY. His dick is probably like more similar to an average tallman penis. Which is remarkable considering he’s like half their size. I’m gonna give him four inches and he’s breaking other halflings in half with it but with other races. He’s learned how to use it. Chilchuck is a real one. Light on body hair, but would keep it tidy when he’s not in the dungeon (I think he likes to manscape and like. Appreciate himself in the mirror lol)

Toshiro - He is ALL length and so embarrassed about it. (Def afraid he’s gonna hurt you.) He could learn to love it with a supportive partner though. I think for a while he’s rocking bush because like, yknow. That stuff isn’t really talked about…but he figured it out for himself that when he takes his time and shaves and stuff after a anything or whatever he’ll do some trimming down there because he likes the neatness. I like to think he grows body hair but it’s not super dark for some reason (besides on his face people get jealous at the beard he can grow)

Namari - SHE IS JUST LIKE ME I GET HER VIBE SO WHAT IM SAYING HERE IS CANON: SHE HAS CRAZY PUSS BUT IS ALWAYS ROCKING THE STRAP. Namari doesn’t let anyone fuck her hole unless they’re in a committed relationship (she does not play about that either if you insert anything in her sex is over). Insane with the strap too. She’s someone I can genuinely see breaking the bed with her strokes. Also she’s got body hair for days. Like other Dwarf women she can grow a beard too but she usually shaves. (Namari with stubble…I’m bout to go feral.)

Venery - Started off with a human vagina. Now it’s some weird mix between that + hyena + dragon cock. I think he’s canonically intersex due to the ancient magic. But he’s happy about it. Also UHHHHHH…..HE LAYS EGGS. JS.

Thistle - Okay Thistle is so trans to me I think he gives himself top surgery when he’s getting older with ancient magic. He leaves the downstairs area alone because he’s fine with just presenting masc that’s good enough for him. Very low body hair he just sits in the middle of gender ambiguous for REAL.