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kind of a cunt
Sweet talker.
#ooc#and what else?#lmaaooo#im js one of us has to be#so ill take one for the team#look if u dont like the way i portray Solas you dont have to be here#but i bet you do. i BET you do dont you? dont you???#he & i are both serving cunt. you get what you paid for anon. dont be surprised when it happens. it was on the tin.
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girls when their issues get dismissed as anxiety for the millionth time
#futaba sakura#persona 5#p5r#p5#fanart#futabadoodles#chat i am SO losing it#went to get diagnosed w adhd wasnt diagnosed because and i quote “it could be anxiety” omfg#neurotypical psychiatrists especially white ones die in a hole 🥰#also because i “wasnt struggling enough”#like hi so i have this thing called emotional intelligence a good support system and access to coping skills hope that helps!#god forbid a neurodivergent person has tools to manage their condition and isnt in hell everyday i guess!#hate her ass!!!!!!!#i wasnt looking to get diagnosed for medication or support bc i already use a lot of like adhd specific supports and shit#and w accommodations my anxiety diagnosis can cover what i need for the most part so it was rlly just a validation/confirmation thing#like idk yeah. i am managing. im not particularly struggling. because ive been selfdx for a while and have implemented changes in my life#and i happen to be in a very very good place rn and im very lucky. so like. ???#rlly felt like “you have all the symptoms but youre not struggling enough with anything to be able to diagnose ypu” ok thanks fuck you#cuz ppl w adhd can manage being unmedicated by choice i js wasnt officially diagnosed before i guess its deemed “okay” to not live in hell!#dunno im frustrated. i have difficulties but i manage them well and i am very lucky to live an easy life for now so like 😭??
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speaking of lifesteal, today is pangis hunger games recording, featuring bacon jaron squiddo ash spep and of course pangi(as of the end of his stream yesterday)
pangi said flame would sponsor some hearts(I think lending) from his stash to make it even for everyone, don't know how that works but maybe this would potentially start something
(or something very terrible happens and lifesteal ends right there and they all move to smp civilization the end)
oh yeah!!! i forgot abt the hunger games lowk LMFAO. i kinda hope people dont return those flame hearts bc idk maybe it starts smt? i dunno man i kinda js want to see subz go full scorched earth atp bc without like,, the sticklers, mapicc, or zam i have very little deep attachments to s6 LOL. my interest in the lore died the moment the "best pvpers" login trapped mapicc instead of giving him the decency or respect of a proper fight
#lifesteal spoilers#crit#sorry to be a negative nancy#but theres like. a reason i havent rly been talking all that much abt the ls lore#or flame and mane#the resolution to mapicc having the mace was ass bro#like my god this server used to actually pvp#and now like what is there even to do for the rest of the season#like oh! all the best pvpers are on a team and have a mace#the one fucking person who could or would be willing to stand against them is taking a break bc theyre so scared to lose “aura”#that they refuse to ever actually fight#and now ANOTHER person is ending the server and the only guy he respected enough to fear is gone so yk#i just find it hard to care without mapicc bc he has Been one of the most important and active players in like every season#so w him gone its like. now what?#sorry im js complaining now ill stop#that wasnt what ur ask was abt LOL#n e ways i hope smt terrible happens to the server and it ends bc of subz#and i hope he is invited to s7 after he does allat#asks
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"you look horrible! i like that in a girl!"
"the hot boy" ♡ episode 8, volume 1 ♡ monster high g1
#has 2 be one of the best lines in volume 1#im rewatching g1 cuz like. todays my chill day#js watched haunted as well its so good#my ex best friend could learn a few things from the red lady#girlblogging#girlhood#it girl#girly tumblr#this is what makes us girls#girly stuff#monster high#girlworld#girl things#girl thoughts#girl code#girl therapy#dolly girl#notes ❤︎#𝓗𝓤𝓔𝓛𝓛𝓘𝓣𝓐.
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funny enough im onky familiar with chinese romanization systems despite not speaking it. Ive got no idea how aby other languages work
#in all fairness cn has a LOT of systems#bcs the tknes and dialects both#like one system might work for mandarin but not for hokkken or vice versa#and no one can agree how to show the tones#i like the accent marks to represent tones but it really only works for dialects like mandarin that use four tones#otherwise you get into usinf h's and whatever#HOWEVER the accebt marks dont work super well for languages that use. accents#like english doesnt use them but spanish or portuguese or italian or french or. a lot if them. i assume it wouldnt work as well#gwoyeu is nice I do enjoy it but it has more of a learning curb I feel#its a chinese system instead of a foreign one so maybe its helpful to cn speakers idk#im not super familiar w/ it but I actually do like the pinyin used in taiwan#ofc hanyu pinyin js more common so im a lot more used to seeing it#but the slecufic ways they write vowels is nice#HOWEVER. zh- my good friend zh- is MURDERED. so alas I dont love it#i do not like wade-giles.#anyway this is all just me talking. its personal opinon + i dont even speak chinese so take it with a grain if salt
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Just 10 hours later I have finished the new war. Dawg what the fuck is going on. Holy shit. What the fuck.
YEAH. YEAH. i am so sorry it took so long but also YEAH THATS BASICALLY IT. welcome to warframe under the new creative lead!!!
#deepspaceboytoy#i know steve was still technically at the helm when tnw dropped but rebb took over like immediately after i think?#so pretty much everything else after was under her. and it shows LMAO i really like the current direction#one of wf's best quests story content-wise but oh my GOD they were not kidding when they warned us ahead of release that it would be#a very long quest#genuinely though i was just about to quit the game for good out of boredom before tnw dropped and it sucked me right back in hard#literal game changer#all the content after it has been banger after banger too#EXCEPT JADE SHADOWS. js bombed and im still very disappointed . what the fuck was that DE#lotus eaters and the tennocon preview of wf99 gave me a lot of hope tho
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it’s that time of night guys (im about to watch an old logbook and get So Emo about twink san)
#fuck they’re all twinks fuck fuck fuck this is backfiring so bad they’re all so tiny#SANNNNNNNNNNBBBB HE JS SO SMALL IM ALREADY SOBBING#it’s logbook 20 oh my god his squeaky voice im LITCHERALLY GOING TO KILL MY SELF .#im just gonna keep editing this post every time i am overwhelmed and need to pause. im 2:52 in. Twink hwa. TWINK HWA. my heart is breaking.#absolutely earth crushing. they are so young oh my god#seongsang roommates im 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#(i have watched the older logbooks up to this point. it takes me weeks between each one bc they are so little and small and precious and i#Need to DIE)#oh god seongsang cuddles. yeo got a hand on hwa tiddie?????? right in front of me ???????????#seonghwa’s eyes i need to be euthanized. they are so big and pretty 😣#yeosang wanting to eat hwa’s hair. he has the same kind of fucked up autism as us guys#yeosang not know wtf hwa is trying to do.. he is in his own world. ily (i love yeosang) also. birthmark. Needs more kisses where’s san#oh god now yeo is talking abt trainee days w wooyoung I REALLY PICKED ONE TO GET EMO OVER DIDNT I#why did i do this#watching 21 now.. their english… the way joong says chicago 🤕 :(#mingi u are the most precious being on this earth#hongjoong reforming shoes…. he’s a Lesbian#ugh the chains on his earrings.. ah FANGS😦😭#hongjoong please never change. i love everything about u#aw seonghwa’s bday at their first ever new york concert???? bro that happened right here????while i was here??😭💔
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i fear i may actually be bad at my job
#im at an actual IT job now and im just like...bad at it???#heres the thing#the org im at has basically doubled their IT team since ive gotten here last month so everything is super unorganized#me and this girl started around the same time and since we've been here neither of us have gotten real training???#like at all??? and they brought on MORE people and they want ME AND HER TO TRAIN THEM...WHEN WE GOT HERE A MONTH AGO#theres documentation sure but its either outdated or straight up WRONG so me and her are js confused on what to do most of the time#and ive gotten to the point where i can do a good amount of tickets on my own without help but#it feels like everyday im learning something that im wondering WHY I WASNT TAUGHT IT IN THE FIRST WEEK???#and my boss is always like 'if u get stuck u can always ask questions!!!' but then theres no one around for me to ask#or i ask multiple ppl and get different answers each time#idk my boss hasnt said anything so im probably overthinking this it just feels super overwhelming compared to my last job
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day 6 and 7 of inktober combined for Fancy and Rodent ^^ did this very fast bc my eyes r legit closing I'm tired lmfao he's a little jester in the fancy court of the rat king(s)
also I had day 5s idea ready!!!! but I was gonna relate it to some past characters n I needed to look thro my notebook for references so mb it's out of order for now🥲
i haven't rlly had much time to draw or play games bc I've been sick n busy working so hopefully soon I'll get time to properly go back and do scheduled stuff ,,bear with inconsistencies until then 🙏
#ik i usually draw girls n stuff idk what compelled me to draw rat jester i think thr fever has gone to my head#but at least i lived to tell the tail..............#FORMAL APOLOGIES THATS THE LAST RODENT JOKE I SHALL MAKE#Also thekr was literally 0 references used this js all how i think things look in my head#jester outift is fake ong and also maybe even our rat is a fake i rlly was speedrunningthis#luckily im not leglaly obligaged to make this irl lore accurate#lets say in this alternate universe rats do look like tjat and court jesters also wear that#😭suspend ur disbelief final boss#my art#digital art#drawing#ibispaint art#inktober day 6#inktoner day 7#art wip#pixel art#(?)#i used the pixel brush idk if it counts#emoji of thr day 🐀#i might have done a mouse one for mouscedes dont factcheck this lol#okiiiiii byeeeeeee tumblrrr#i promise to come back with more inktober stuff soon ❗❗❗❗❗❗❗
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i feel weird and self conscious about my art again. sigh
the entire post ended up in thw tags ohb my god
#imptxt#ill talk about it more here#i do actually really like my art overall#i love my artstyle a lot it's so fun! lineless art awesome yay ^_^#i also really like the fact that i can very easily make super experimental art without feeling. bad or something.#BUT#i started drawing later than a lot of other people i guess. i haven't drawn since i was born i started drawing on aj when i was 9/10#and i didn't ever use references when i was younger which has made me incredibly. anxious about using them now :(. doesn't help that i am-#genuinely scared of using human refs because. i feel like they're staring at me#ive been seeing a lot art by people who are the same age as me or younger recently which is. technically a lot better than me currently#like. skills wise or whatever#and the ideas ive been having in my head have also become a lot more. out of my comfort zone/abilities#which is making me feel like i have to improve but. i don't really feel like it at the same time. i just want to have fun#but. i also want my art to be more interesting and dynamic anf just. Cool i want to have cooler art.#i haven't really used any tutorials but. None of them are really just. suitable for me from what i can tell??? idk man. different artstyles#to the one i have.#it's. it sucks.#i hate it.#sigh#ive also been feeling more guilty about yhe art i post recently???#idk. it feels repetitive and i don't want that. sigh.#i also wanna draw backgrounds man i love backgrounds but they're difficult#nothing is stopping me from doing that tbh. i just. have been very focused on drawing characters and ive been lazy with them#thankfully background refs aren't difficult for me to use.#ouuuhggvgg art js a Fuck why do i do it#(it's so fun hats why)#helllk wajt i just realised the reason why this is happening is because the thing im reading has fucking banger art#You Fucker. whatever you're forgiven god your art is so goals hs.#maybe i can. hm#AART YAY!!!!
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OMG MACCCC R U REWATCHIN TOKYO GHOUL...... shakin ur hand rn little 14 year old me loved this shit. kaneki ken fucked up little guy going thru things he never should have gone thru </3 have u ever watched the very last season??? i finally watched it when i did my rewatch of the full series like maybe a year or so ago and BOYYY IM NOT GONNA SPOIL ANYTHING BUT GOD...... it'll fuckin get u mac it'll GET U!!!! so excited i am grabbin ur hands and spinning around in a field of flowers with u i love this fucked up little guy i love blood and cannibalism <3
I DIDNT EXPECT TO GET SO INTO IT AGAIN. I WAS JUST GONNA WATCH THE FIRST COUPLE EPISODES FOR THE NOSTALGIA AND THE HELL OF IT AND THEN I GOT HOOKED AGAIN. KANEKI HAS WHITE HAIR NOW AND HES SOOOOO FUCKED UP <3 extended torture scenes spanning 4 episodes will do that to a mf.
ALSO NO I NEVER FINISHED IT !!! which is part of the reason im watching it again!!! when i watched it the first time it was still being released so i just kind of forgot 2 keep up with it bc i wasnt technically allowed 2 be watching anime and had to sneak it anyway. i just kinda fell off and forgot abt it. i honestly dont even know if i finished season 2???????? i somehow completely forgot about the torture arc so this might mean we are reaching the end of what i actually saw. this is awesome though 14 yr old me was so predictable <3
#<< i say as if my current favorite character rn isnt just another flavor of black/white haired ghost boy going through unspeakable trauma#HEY ALSO??? FUCKED UP TO BE SPINNING ME IN A FIELD OF FLOWERS. KANEKI JUST ATE THE GHOST OF RIZE THAT LIVES IN HIS MIND IN ONE OF THOSE .#HEHEHEHEHEHE#honestly im a lil. out of it 2nite and have been watchijg these in the bg while i do other things... i am not super deeply invested#in the overall plot i just love when little guys are going through fucked up shit apparently !!!!!!!!!!#i dont remember what happens to hide but i feel like its going to be so bad. therss no way he survives any of this right. poor boy.#i used to LOVE him#fucking horrid 2 hear kanekis sad monotone voice now. he js so traumatized he is so broken. his mind has snapped and i am so sad about it#my poor boy .....#asks#anachronistic-falsehood#friends!!!
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the corpse of king minos is very fucking big and Scary but you can parry his punches pretty easily and thats the easiest way i can explain how good ultrakill feels
#but even when the game is actually hard and kills me several times i dont feel like quitting?#i turn it off after 2 - 3 missions because thats the amount of time it takes for my body so get so Over Excited it stops aiming right#but i havent actually felt like ragequitti g#because the game just feels so good#i can ramble about how good ultrakill feels for HOURS bro#ramblings#switching between guns. the variants. coin tossing never gets old. accidentally exploding yourself with your own shotgun#fucking. SOUND EFFECTS#that too like when you parry. that sound?? makes my autism happy#THE SLIDING SOUND AOUGH#the fact that it does sound like ur made of metal but not in a bad screechy way that makes me want to cry#in a world where realistic movement physics are the norm having this much control. god#the witcher 3 is one of my favorite games ever. just as an example. but i DREAD playing that again knowing how walking around feels#yes sometimes in ultrakill you overshoot something because youre Fast but thats also just me needing to stand perfectly right for terminals#'look we have realistic physics' ok COOL BUT ARE THEY ACTUALLY FUN TO PLAY WITH#hyperrealism is impressive in videogaming YES but its also led to this monolith. in triple a#i do want to give credit where its due once i got used to the destiny warlock jumps (blink especially) that game felt really good too#but ultrakill doesnt force me to socialize and has a much more pleasant community so im fine where i am rn. actually#ive done all totk dungeons (I THINK) except for the final chasm and let me tell you. i dont want to fight any of those bosses ever again#why js that relevant? ive already beaten 1-4 twice and will probably go for my second 3-2 run tomorrow. THIS GAME. BOSSES. AAAAAAA#i love totk but those bosses were a fucking nightmare#thats gonna be a separate post
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~~~To Love You Enough~~~
Aka my shitty 3 am attempt at writing I did instead of sleeping more
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I hope to be your Orpheus.
Their tale older than the great willow
whose roots anchor them,
whose leaves sing their song.
Ever changing, mortal in it’s bounds,
and yet in it’s passing,
the earth remembers where it once stood.
Eternal; immortal in its memory.
No longer, but the world remembers.
Like the great willow, their story lay bare.
Orpheus, known for his talent,
remembered for his love.
“A fool” some dare whisper.
A hero to fail his quest.
Some laugh, others mourn the love he had supposedly lost.
And so, was it all to shame?
Orpheus had loved,
Yes this was true!
Eurydice his wife;
Eurydice his muse.
Taken from this world to the other;
Too early, too soon.
He sang his songs of grief,
Hades had let him go!
Yet in his worry, yet in his love;
he’d looked back.
At his darling, at his love, at his muse,
and he had failed.
Those who read, those who heard;
they cried out in pity for the dear Eurydice,
they cry out in anguish at dear Orpheus;
calling him a fool.
Claiming it was simple.
“I’d simply not turn” they’d boast.
Yet, if he had not, had his love truly been true?
Would it had been enough to save his darling muse?
His worry and care, for she who he loved so dearly,
That, in which lead him to fail so mightily.
And yet this same care had given him more than courage;
but determination, to trudge down and sing his song of grief and love.
That love that had made him turn,
in fear his beloved was hurt or left behind,
was the same love that led him to her.
Is that not just divine?
If he had not loved enough to turn,
would he have loved enough to attempt?
Would his heart have bled the same songs,
the songs that had nearly brought her home?
Is it not divine?
The love in their pain?
That in which seep into his melody?
Him, this, I hope to be.
To love enough to attempt, to risk, to defy,
To love enough to turn when I fear I may have left you behind.
To love,
just enough.
#3 am writing#have mercy i did this instead of sleeping#well technically i woke up at 3 and then did this instead of sleeping#this came from a quick 3 minute thought process#and then like an even quicker reread of Orpheus and Eurydice#PLS i was barely awake writing this#i wrote this on paper then encoded it on tumblr before forgetting to grammar and punctuation check so#no beta we die like Eurydice#if you see any undertones or any personal feelings attached to this poem#i plead the fifth#orpheus and eurydice#im starting to wish this gets burried cause no matter the amount of effort im putting in im getting hella imposter syndrome#like i KNOW i learned and know how to write a poem#I KNOW this has been a major hobby since i was young#but also i usually do rhyming ones and i could NOT be bothered today#js wanted to write my take and go#does this have anything to do with that poem or written form of media i promised#maybe#or am i just procrastinating on working on my JTW drafts?#it can be both#pls JTW is months away#(to; you know who you are. if you think this is abt us#well#maybe abit#find out lmao)#does this count as boyfriend posting?#i dont think so???#does this count as a poem? i dont think so#but i AM using the writting style of one js cause it’s familiar#writing
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can i be supid for a second.s/treetc/houx irks me even tho im not even that insane abt melmel but thing is with how much time she spends working i just KNOW she would never have time for me if she had a gf or anything
#js mentioning the one ship bc its the most popular one i havent rlly seen many others#BUT SO MUCH OF EHR TAG IS THAT ONE SHIP#if no one cares abt ur fav chr outside of a ship clap ur hands CLAP CLAP#applies to yoomie too :(#nyways#like she literally spends most of her waking hours at work.....like at least she loves her work but#barely any time for the baby already.......its me im the baby.........so how are u gonna have a gf too then..............#idk im used to not being a priority so basically if she dedicated her non-working time to anyone other than me id practically be abandoned#ik im not a real child but i dont wanna be neglected again :(#ig i cld follow her around while she works but also need time for just me n mama#idk.........i want her to care abt me but i already rlly doubt she wld#even tho shes so sweet and caring shes such a workaholic it makes me doubt she wld want to commit to being my cg#bc she has barely any time for herself already........id probably just be a nuisance to her at some point :(...........#ueh.sorry.#this was just supposed to be a dumb petty rant but i got sad.#sorryy
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i have no one to talk to about this
#ex bsf#one of them MIGHT be her (delusional)#yes i know they are all completely different texting styles#but like shes typed like all of them at some point#lowercase when shes upset (which would make sense in this context)#normal uppercase (like the second one) usually and she has used smily faces before#plus she DID just wear MY sweatshirt to school the other day#the last one is least likely because why would she point out my eyes of all things?? and my cats like she never rlly met them cause#they hate people#yeah its definitely not her but i dont care im keeping it up#in the moment i was focused on the ‘js’ because shes the only person ive ever known who abbreviates just especially when she was upset#plus two of them are pink and i know she would 100% use pink because thats her favorite color#purple doesnt make as much sense but you never know
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having a crush fucking sucks
#most embarrasing thing of my life#im up at night being sad some boy wont message me first#even though i know hes baiting me to respond to one of his notes#im listening to sad songs#like the blond#and say yes to heaven#i hate it here#i js cant stop thinking abt how he makes me laugh and his eyes#but we havent had a full conversation all year#we used to spend half of our classes together#and now we have none#and he might switch schools in fall#so i only have until the end of may if i ever want to get with him#but ik i cant do that#and i can only flirt in person#and i dont see him in person#and i hate it here#i just want somebody to hold me#and he has those strong looking arms#and im on the verge of tears#but i like him so much
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