#im new to drawing anything from gravity falls be nice

[sharkphobicz]

bipper pines or whatever people call 'em

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.ᐟ 𐰁 𝗓 ᶻmasterpost timeeeeeᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

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✰ sup im lee/stb but u can call me whatever you’d like. And welcome to the disaster team, nice to have ya ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹ i am a minor so pls, do not be weird to me. i go by any pronouns but id prefer if you’d use they/them on me, thx

✰ i really, and i mean REALLY love tmnt & monkey wrench at the moment but i also like splatoon, dunmeshi, tf2, murder drones, class of 09, gravity falls, and a lot more…

✰ go ahead and feel free to ask questions abt me or my ocs. i rlly like yapping so it would be great if u did that _(^_^)_

✰ askbox/art requests: open!!! i would love to draw for you guys!

✰ status: semi-active. i won’t post original stuff that often anymore due to school so plz be patient with content.

✰ here r some of my rp accounts:

@c0m1c-c0llecter (odyn from tmnt: tlr)

@n0-1sc0ttp1lgr1mfan (ml my tmnt oc)

@s3a-sc3n3-k1ng (akira my tmnt oc)

@s0ur-fl0wer (mina my tmnt oc)

@th30r1z3r (rae my tmnt oc)

@gradient-orange (my version of tmnt mikey)

@wing-wave (wingnut from tmntmm/tottmnt)

✰ some of my au’s:

splat wrench: mw boys + other characters r in splatoon

turtle wrench: rottmnt boys get transported to the mw universe

new generation: rottmnt fan kid’s r in the bad future and they go thru some stuff

✰ websitez:

pronouns page

✰ writing stuff:

ml’s backstory

how the mad dogz met tlnd

turtlewrench plot

✰ main tagz:

#stbyapping💥

#stbreblogs❕

#stbwriting💌

#stbart💣

#stbaskbox⭐️

#stbrp🌀

#stbfanart💤

✰ old tagz mention

✰ au tagz:

#turtle wrench

#N3W G3N3RAT10N

#splat wrench

✰ mutuals, mutuals, MUTUALS!!!:

#myc the bat🦇 ( @in3fin , pookie bear ^_^ )

#karkat♋️ ( @garfunkopop , the creature… )

#turtletempura🍤 ( @tempurafied , older sibling >_< )

+ idk who else to add (mutuals if u wanna be added, lmk!)

!!boundaries, bfyi, and dni!!

⇩(PLZ READ)⇩

✰ i do oc x canon & f/o content. i will sort of avoid other ships with these characters (im not mad at u for shipping the character I like with another, im just trying to protect my sensitive heart)

✰ im sort of sensitive so clarify things 4 me plz so i do not overthink ^_^

✰ im ok with u dming me, just state ur purpose and there will be a 50/50 percent chance I’ll respond

✰ for art requests, i will draw anything EXECPT NSFW. remember i am a MINOR and I don’t draw stuff like that

✰ idk if I’ll start commissions soon since I’m pretty busy at the moment

✰ I will accept art trades! I like doing them :p

✰ you can use my art as a pfp/banner (credit isn’t forced, but appreciated)

✰ do not repost my art and/or claim it as ur own on other platforms. I find it very disrespectful since I took my time making it

✰ do not copy/edit my art

✰ ok time for dni:

tcest/incest, proshippers, lgbtq+ phobia, pedos, zoos, ableist, racism, sexism, heavy nsfw, weird fetishes. all of this makes me very uncomfortable. if you interact with me in any way, i will block you.

✰ in rottmnt, i do not like casey jr x turtles, kendra x turtles, cassandra x turtles, and april x turtles. I ship april with sunita & cassandra, I ship jr with my oc, and kendra is my wife. i will avoid content containing these ships.

✰ i will call my f/o’s wife/husband/bf/gf/lover/partner so if ur uncomfortable with that, sorry!

✰ im not that great of an artists so expect some mistakes in my artwork

✰ i do not have a schedule 4 posting art and chapters of my aus/stories so pls be patient with content!

✰ my phobias:

trypophobia. just seeing pictures make me shiver and scratch my skin a lot.

trypanophobia. i don’t hate seeing them but being injected with a needle freaks me out.

nyctophobia. im not that scared of the dark, only what’s in it.

claustrophobia. seeing pictures are ok but being in the situation makes me panic.

acrophobia. picutres are ok as well, it’s the situation i hate.

anddddd… that’s all i got 4 now! cya around ^_^

[fictionfixations]

man im gonna miss the owl house.

its a fucking masterpiece. that ending. Its all wrapped up in a nice and pretty bow and im so happy and im actually crying its precious to me like how gravity falls was, and amphibia (i admit im not the biggest fan of amphibia, with as fear of bugs and also holy shit thats a lot of 'filler' thats technically not filler because they DID have to wait like months to be able to venture outside but eHHH) gravity falls and its entirety was precious and nothing can match watching it for the first time amphibia was pretty and quirky with characters i genuinely cared about and the world building was cool and the owl house is a whole... IT HAD GAY, it had magic, it hAD BOOKS, it had so much stuff that i really liked and im so happy about it. and all of their endings made me cry and im still crying shut up oh my god and i didnt watch the episode like yesterday because i forgot and got distracted (haha sorry) and i want to make something to never forget but i already have the amity necklace, the season 1 poster (because season 2 had sold out by the time i checked sob, huNTeRRR) AghH but its in a pretty bow now and i have nothing to write about it. the perfect show honestly has to be the one that there's nothing that you can add to it because its perfect.

theres nothing that makes me want to add on to it, nothing to build out angsty and sad scenes (i mean it had everything i wanted LMFAO. anything else would have to just be like either a drabble, or like canon divergence and therefore hunter pov. because i am the writer who mainly writes male pov, clap clap) AND IM HAPPY FOR HIM HE HDWUISAHDIUA oh my god i just saw the flapjack grave oh my god it just spawned a new set of tears (I HAVENT FINISHED WATCHING THE CREDITS I HAVE WORDS TO SAY)

OH MY GOD AMITY (THEY ALL LOOK NICE. also can i backtrack and talk about how gus reunited with his father, with the illusions of multiple hims and then his dad was just hugging them all and that made me so happy??) also back track further LUZ WAS ROCKING THAT TITAN STYLE and she still has the litlte marks on her eyes (it was probably makeup though maybe? i dont remember if she had that after she turned back i dont think she did? idk) OH OH OH DARIUS (thats abomination coven guy right. oh my god i forgot what their rank was already LMFAO) NAD AND AMITYS DAD ?????? RAINE YOU LOOK SO PRETTY EM(ira? I FORGOT HER NAME. I JUST REMEMBER ED AND EM NAMES ARE FAILING ME RN) OH MY GOD THEIR DESIGNS next thing you know on youtube: nolstalgic the owl house lofi HOLY SHIT IS THAT GUS?

YEAH THATS HIS PALISMAN- HOLY SHIT ??? OH MY GOD EDA. AND SHES WEARING RAINES EARRING THING *SOB* AND HER ARMS A HOOK. OH MY GOD I LOVE HER /P AND THE LIGHT GLYPH im rewatching this so many times im so happy, this is like a literal timeless show in my eyes (like how you can watch gravity falls over and over AGHHH)

OH DEAR STEVE--- its just so perfect and im repeating myself and AGHHHH also can we talk about how they taught the collector what mortality was? i think thats the right word (i was about to say morality haha) LUZ JUST BRRR but like halfway through i remembered that papa titan (like the one from. i think it mightve been the first of season 3...? like when they go through theres that waving guy who sounds like hes running and panting and yelling 'hey' in the background, and i remembered 'OH IS IT HIM') and just oh my god *exaggerated hand movements*

oH MY GOD (and i know thats not the actual light glyph we had before- i know this because i tried drawing it once)

LOOK AT THE LITTLE HORNS AND THE DIAMOND SHAPE ADNWUIAS HDAIUD YEAHHHHHHH MORE LEARNING

i need to take a moment before i cry again my hands are shaking. im going to miss this show. i really hope i can find out what to write in the future (AHAHA unintentional pun to the episode 'in the future') EDIT: NO ITS FOR THE FUTURE, IM SO DUMB ahhh i want to immortalize it. i have this bad habit of forgetting things easily (on the plus side, YEAHHHH i can finally put my half a semester of spanish classes to use for luz!!)

[therainroguefanfiction]

🔥 ℝise Ⱥbove I̾t ◈ Chapter 011 [A Hero’s Style]

📑 Table of Contents | ◂Backward

Word Count: 2,490 ☁

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〈“It’s the very first breath, When your head’s been drowning underwater, And it’s the lightness in the air when you’re there.” Logic ft. Alessia Cara, “1-800-273-8255″〉

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The door to the nurse’s office slid open and the boy with the messy green hair stepped inside. He was cradling his right hand, the index finger swollen and badly bruised. I sat up on the bed, rising a brow at him. “The fuck happened to you?”

His gaze shot up, a blush covering his freckled cheeks and nose. “A-Ah, it was n-nothing, really!”

My eyes narrowed at him. “Pretty sure a broken finger ain’t ‘nothing’, but okay.”

“W-What about you?” he asked, softly, shifting his weight from one foot to the other. He refused to meet my gaze. “A-Are you okay, Winchester-san?”

The door slid open again and Granny stepped inside. “Can I help you, deary? What happened?”

He handed her a slip of paper, his green eyes trained on the ground. “I, umm… I got hurt…”

“Well, I can see that.” She brought his hand to her lips and gave it a smooch before having him sit down to wrap it up. He thanked her before swaying out of the room, tiredly. She glanced over at me. “Feeling better?”

“Define ‘better’,” I scoffed, swinging my legs over the side of the bed. “I could go for some tacos, if that’s what you mean.”

“That’s the best I could hope for,” she smiled, patting my arm. “You’re free to go.”

I gave her a lazy salute before leaving the room. I stopped off to change back into my uniform before heading back to class. A couple students still lingered inside, turning to look at me when I slid the door open. Didn’t anyone ever teach these brats it’s rude to stare? I scowled, grabbing my bag from my desk before leaving the room.

“Young Jen!” A woosh of air rushed past me before Toshi appeared in front of me, his large hands on my shoulders. “I was looking for you!”

“Well, you found me. And you know where I live, so.”

“Come with me, please!”

It was a bit hard to avoid drawing attention to myself when I was being dragged along by the most attention-grabbing hero in the fucking world. He led me to a small room with a couch and coffee table, where three cups of steaming tea sat. Aizawa was sitting in an armchair with his eyes closed and arms crossed.

“Please have a seat,” Toshi held out his arm toward the couch and I plopped down on the end closest to Aizawa. He sat beside me, angling his large body, which slowly fizzled out to his skeletal form. He coughed a few times before speaking. “Will you tell me what happened today?”

“With the green-haired kid? Yeah, I was wondering about that, too. A broken finger is pretty crazy, huh?”

“Jen,” Aizawa shifted, giving me a pointed look.

I shrugged a shoulder. “I don’t fucking know. One minute I was fine, the next I’m being subdued by Magic Eraser over here.”

Toshi put his hand on my knee, giving me a kind look. “You know you don’t have to keep secrets from us. You can be honest, you can trust us, we won’t judge you. We just want to help you.”

I clicked my tongue, lifting my leg to rest my ankle on my knee to remove his hand. “That’s pretty unfair, Toshi, when you have so many secrets of your own. Trust you? That’s rich considering you won’t even trust me.”

“What are you talking about, Young J -”

“You know a shit ton more about my dear old mum than you’re willing to tell, aye?” I forced a smile, standing up and shoving my hands in my pockets. “Probably about me, too. And this damned quirk. But that’s fine. I really don’t remember anything that happened so can I go now?”

The two of them exchanged a look.

“This isn’t over,” Aizawa responded, but his voice was softer than it had been earlier.

“Sure, sure.” I waved at them over my shoulder before closing the door behind me.

As I walked home, my phone started to buzz in my pocket as a new message came through. Another a few minutes later. And another. My eye twitched, already annoyed. I swear to god if Murder is spamming me again… but I knew it could only be him. I only have three contacts in my phone – Aizawa never texts me and I knew Toshi would be giving me some space for a while before trying to talk things out.

At that moment, I was overcome by a loneliness fiercer than I had ever felt before.

‘Oi, extra’

‘Dont ignore me’

‘I want a rematch’

The hell is this kid on about now? I replied, ‘U won last time bro…’

‘Its not a win unless i destroy u completely!’

I rubbed the back of my neck, ‘Im really not in the mood for this’

‘Che what crawled up ur ass and died?’

I hesitated, stopping to look up at the sky. The blue was replaced by hues of orange and red as the sun sunk low on the horizon. We’ve only talked a few times, but I felt… a bond with Murder and, right now, he’s the closest thing to a friend that I’ve got. ‘Hey… I wanna tell u somethin’

‘Oh god i dont want ur nudes’

This fuckin’ brat… ‘I said tell not show dumbass’

‘The fuckd u just call me bitch?!’

I slid my key into the lock, stepping into the silent apartment. I kicked my shoes off, pushing them against the wall so Toshi wouldn’t trip when he finally returned home. Falling onto the couch, another message came through.

‘Well r u gonna tell me or nah’

I smiled, sadly and began to tell him my story. I told him about how I got here and about the shadow man with his weird-ass warp quirk, about Gramps and how my mother was apparently a hero. I left out names and key details, of course, but I told him mostly everything that had happened over the past year. He would chime in with some smart ass remark every now and then, but I ignored them and continued to pour my heart out to this guy I had only just met a few days ago.

It felt so goddamn nice to get everything off my chest. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.

That night, I slept better than I had since I arrived here.

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“I am… HERE!” The door to class 1-A slammed open and Toshi leaned into the room, standing on his tiptoes and holding the outside of the doorframe. “Coming through the door like a hero!”

If that’s how heroes make an entrance, count me out. It seemed to impress the other students, though, as a murmur of excitement filled the room. God, these kids are too easily amused.

“I can’t believe it’s really All Might!”

“So he is a teacher! This year is going to be totally awesome!”

“Hey look, is he wearing his silver age costume?”

“I’m getting goosebumps, it’s so retro!”

I fell onto my desk with a sigh. It’s like a bunch of little kids meeting Santa at the mall. I guess I could kind of understand it if he had powers but they didn’t, but they do. They’re no different from him, they’re just younger. I was thankful to be sitting behind Big Boobs – between her tall frame and gravity-defying hair, I was completely hidden from Toshi’s line of sight. We hadn’t talked since yesterday. I was asleep by the time he came home, and he was gone before I woke up.

“Welcome to the most important class at U.A. High – think of it was heroing 101!”

I don’t think ‘heroing’ is a word. Or is it? Scratching my cheek, I pulled out my phone, hiding it under my desk as I typed the word into the Goggle. Oh my god, the first result that comes up says the word ‘heroing’ means the opposite of being a hero! There’s also a mention of something about heroines. I scoff, earning a glare from the Peppermint that sits beside Big Boobs.

“Here, you will learn the basics of being a pro! And what it means to fight in the name of good. Let’s get into it! Today’s lesson, we’ll pull no punches!” He held out a card that said ‘battle’ in large, bold letters.

“Fight training!”

“But one of the keys of being a hero is~” Toshi pointed to the left wall as thin shelves emerged from it, holding numbered cases. “Looking good! There were designed for you based on your quirk registration forms and the request you sent in before school started. Get yourself suited up and then meet me at training ground beta!”

“Yes, sir!”

I waited until he left the room before standing up and grabbing case number twenty-one, following the throng of students as they rushed to the locker rooms to get changed. I went to the back of the room, hoping to avoid the other girls before sliding my shirt off.

“Woah, you have a tattoo? That’s so cool!”

I glanced over at the Punk Girl, earphone jacks hanging from her ear lobes. I grunted in response, turning my back to her. She muttered something about being rude before walking away from me. I glanced over my ‘costume’ before grunting in approval. Honestly, I had expected them to fuck it up, especially since Midnight didn’t approve of it, but I was surprised that they had kept it just as specified.

Black, steel-toe combat boots accompanying black baggy cargo pants with plenty of pockets for knives. A black belt with a silver skull buckle. A white wife beater, over which was a white overshirt, the sleeves stopping just past my elbows. I glanced in the mirror, putting my pendant under the tanktop before tucking the front of it behind the belt buckle. Damn, I really like this look.

I stepped out of the locker room ahead of most of the girls, seeing a few guys leaning against the wall outside, waiting. Fumi was among them, dressed in a black cloak that completely covered his body. He glanced at me when I approached, red eyes scanning my body.

“You look nice, Winchester-san.” He said, politely.

I chuckled. “You can use my first name, it’s easier. And you don’t look so bad yourself, Fumi.”

“Fumi?” he mused, following in step beside me as we headed down the hall.

“Don’t like it?” I asked, glancing at him.

“I don’t particularly mind,”

I hummed.

As the group reached the end of the long hallway, I could hear Toshi’s booming voice before I saw him.

“They say that clothes make the pros, young ladies and gentlemen. And behold – you are the proof! Take this to heart, from now on, you are all heroes in training!” His shadowed eyes scanned the crowd. “This is getting me all revved up! You look so cool! Now, shall we get started, you bunch of newbies?”

My eye twitched. Who the fuck is he callin’ a ‘newbie’? Didn’t that insult die like five years ago? We’ve talked about this, man, don’t try to be hip, you’re just gonna embarrass yourself, bro. I sighed, shaking my head. This is gonna be a long-ass day.

Footsteps came from the tunnel and I glanced over my shoulder. Is that… a green bunny? No, no, no, there’s something familiar about that costume, but what is it? Ugh, this is gonna bug me.

“Now that you’re ready, it’s time for combat training!”

“Sir!” Prep was encased in a suit of armor. “This is the fake city from our entrance exam. Does that mean we will be conducting urban battles again?”

“Not quite!” Toshi held up two fingers and at first, I thought he was flashing us the peace sign. “I’m going to move you two steps ahead! Most of the villain fights you see on the news take place outside. However, statistically speaking, run-ins with the most dastardly evil-doers take place indoors. Think about it! Backroom deals. Home invasions. Secret underground lairs. Truly intelligent criminals stay hidden in the shadows. For this training exercise, you’ll be split into teams of good guys and bad guys, and fight two on two indoor battles!”

Good guys and bad guys? That’s such a gray area, ain’t it? I leaned my arm on Fumi’s shoulder, scratching my cheek. Is anyone truly ‘good’ or ‘bad’, really?

“Isn’t this a little advanced?” Frog-girl asked.

“The best training is what you get on the battlefield! But, remember, you can’t just punch a robot this time. You’re dealing with actual people now.”

Actual people, huh? Should I avoid using my quirk? If I lose control again, there’s no Aizawa around to stop me. Someone could get seriously hurt or… I shook my head. Come on, don’t think that way. Just take a deep breath, you got this.

“Sir, will you be the one deciding who wins?” Probably.

“How much can we hurt the other team?” How villainous.

“Do we need to worry about the losers getting expelled liked earlier?” No, ’cause Toshi ain’t Aizawa.

“Will you be splitting us up based on chance or comparative skill?” Should be obvious it’s gonna be random.

“Isn’t this cape pre chic?” What the fuck is wrong with you, French Fry?

I sweatdropped. These guys are really fucking nuts, aren’t they?

Toshi held his head back, his voice strangled. “I wasn’t finished talking…” He reached into his costume, which I didn’t know had pockets, and pulled out a small notebook about the size of his palm, flipping it open as he held each side with one hand. “Listen up!”

Oh my fucking god, he wrote a script for this? “This class is a hot fucking mess…”

“The situation is this: The villains have hidden a nuclear missile somewhere in their hideout. The heroes must try to foil their plans. To do that, the good guys either have to catch the evildoers or recover the weapon. Likewise, the bad guys succeed if they protect their payload or capture the heroes. Time is limited and we’ll choose teams by drawing lots!” He held up a bright, yellow box.

“Isn’t there a better way?” Prep asked.

“Think about it,” Green Bunny responded from beside him, holding up a gloved finger. “Pros often have to team up with heroes from other agencies on the spot. So maybe that’s the reason we’re seeing that here!”

“Yes, I see. Life is a random series of events… Excuse my rudeness!”

I should really learn these guy’s names, but how can I do that without actually having to interact with them? I wonder if Aizawa or Tosh would let me see the student files… that seems pretty doubtful. Plus, Tosh hasn’t looked at me once so he’s probably still upset with me.

“No sweat! Let’s draw!”

Yup, this is definitely going to be a long-ass fucking day.

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Commision Offers

Im gonna be blunt. I need money, theres a couple of things I need to pay off. Badly. And being suggested this and not knowing of any other way right now to earn, Im gonna try my hand at commisions. As a special beggining offer, Im offering full coloured pieces for 10 pounds a pop. Addtional characters 2 pound, a detialed background? A Fiver. Full Colour Drawing: Ten Pounds Additional Characters: Two Pounds Detialed Background: Five Pounds So heres a list of things I can, and wont do. Fandoms: Gravity Falls, Star Vs The Forces of Evil, Gorillaz, FNAF, Thundercats, The Last Unicorn, Disney, Pixar, Ghibli, Cardcaptor Sakura, Camp Camp, Sailor Moon, Biker Mice From Mars, Steven Universe, Legend of Zelda, Alice in Wonderland, Bendy and the Ink Machine, My Little Pony, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, Sonic Ideally I'd rather draw fandoms Im familiar with but this seems a pretty big and common list of whats popular, so hopefully it'll reach quite a few of you out there. Things I will do, include ships, slash, AU's, tickling art, etc etc.  Preferbly yaoi, thats just my preference.  I usually prefer drawing certain characters as human also. Funny enough the onyl ones Im happy to draw as there anthro selves are Biker Mice. Things like Sonic or Ninja turtles? I go human. As in make the character human not just draw the humans in there world. So if your happy with that you can certainly ask. Things I wont do: Gore, Violence, Incest, anything gross. I will hear out any possible commisions, but I also reserve the right to refuse. Which ones I take on is my decison. I dont always know what to draw, so I admit, sometimes its nice to be given something to do? Especially fanart. Hopefully you get something new to try, a little challenge. So you'd be doing me a favour on both counts. Lets give it a go shall we, and see what happens? I'd like to try. Slot 1: quillsman Slot 2: shaolinbynature Slot 3:

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[martinlomax]

ok um. thiz iz gonna be a really zeriouz pozt from me and uzually i dont make theze but ive been meaning to get it off of my chezt for a while and AH! cw for lotz and lotz of abuze and ztuff

uhm ok. ok im gonna talk abt my abuzer

i firzt met her when i waz @mad-scientist-kidd, around the beginning to middle of my lemon demon hyperfix. i quickly became friendz w her - conzntantly zent her mezzagez abt my ocz, abt how my day waz, etc

then we exchanged dizcordz and we talked and i got into gravity falls, and then i joined her dizcord zerver. i quickly became friendz w the other ppl there, and i am ztill in contact with a good majority of them! it waz a zmall zerver with cloze friendz of herz btw

we talked often, but i quickly got emotionally attached. zo emotionally attached that within 1-2 monthz i already waz prepared to tell her abt how i waz groomed in the vent channelz. i truzted everybody in that zerver with my life, zo i juzt wanted to get that off of my chezt

bc of that, she knew i waz emotionally attached. and i think she took advantage of that

within 3 monthz of me being friendz w her, i felt like i had to ztep around everything i zaid to make zure i didnt make her mad. she made me zo anxiouz conztantly and i waz terrified of her, but i ztill cared for her. i didnt want to leave her

another few monthz later and she getz into zome new ztuff, which if i werent zo emotionally attached i wouldnt have felt genuinely fucking left out. i didnt know anything abt whatever she waz into and i forced myzelf to get into the thingz she waz into. i only liked it bc she liked it

then came the day she got into hades and i got into it, and then that waz when i realized she waz only really enthuziatic abt my art when it waz abt her or her favez or zomething. everybody elze'z art she complimented everything, but with mine? all i got waz a "nice!" i know thiz zoundz ztupid but ztill, it hurt

the day i realized that, when i told her i waz gonna draw her fave from hades she told me she loved me, knowing full well i waz (and ztill am) a child, and she waz an adult. even though it waz platonically, i ztill felt uncomfortable. i didnt zay anything though bc i didnt want to loze her, i wouldve ruined everything if i did

i got blocked by one of her friendz, i left the zerver bc of that, and we ztayed in contact. i waz ztill extremely emotionally attached to her and i didnt want to leave her. we talked zometimez, albeit rarely

and then came another day where i realized zomething, thiz iz fucked up! the fact that she conztantly made me anxiouz for no reazon and the fact that she told me she loved me - everything ztarted to add up

i waz terrified to do it, but i kicked her from my mutual zerver zince she waz ztill in there. then i blocked her and havent talked to her zince. i feel zo guilty abt it though - she waz my friend, after all

even after a few monthz after the abuze i ztill feel like it waz all my fault, that i dezerved it. all of the red flagz were right in my face, but i ignored them all bc i didnt want to loze her

anyway yeah i got that off of my chezt. um mutualz if youve gotten to thiz point congratz!! we're cloze friendz now. #bffz (half joking)

[drillbeeautomaton]

rules: answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

tagged by @writerofberk ((thank you darling <33))

LAST:

drink: technically water, but i also had a capri-sun very recently

phone call: i think it was my aunt??

text message: my dad

song you listened to: the finale song of pirates of penzance

time you cried: i cannot recall, tbh 

HAVE YOU:

dated someone twice: no, haven’t dated anyone yet

kissed someone and regretted it: haven’t kissed anyone yet

been cheated on: nope

lost someone special: yes

been depressed: no, i don’t think so

gotten drunk and thrown up: no, and i don’t think i ever will

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

black, green, red

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

made new friends: yeah, i’m pretty sure!

fallen out of love: no

laughed until you cried: i don’t think so, i can’t rlly remember

found out someone was talking about you: no

found out who your friends are:  i.. don’t understand this question  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

kissed someone on your facebook list: honey, i don’t have facebook

GENERAL:

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: i. don’t. have. facebook.

do you have any pets: yes!! two cats and a bunny :D

do you want to change your name: nope

what did you do for your last birthday: spent time w/family and opened presents. well, technically nothing on my actual birthday, but that’s what we did to celebrate the sunday after.

what time do you wake up: around five thirty or six on school days, and around nine normally

what were you doing at midnight last night: i can’t remember if i was sleeping or listening to the TaZ podcast

name something you can’t wait for: to finish a few drawings i’ve been working on, and perform the play my school’s been rehearsing!

when was the last time you saw your mom: like, half an hour ago

what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: i wish i didn’t take so many things so hard when i know i shouldn’t. i’m working on it though, so that’s nice.

what are you listening to right now: my laundry machine is being all clanky and i’m watching youtube

have you ever talked to a person named tom: i've talked to someone named thomas, but i don’t think that counts

something that is getting on your nerves: umm, not really anything at the moment

most visited website: either this, discord, or Ao3

moles: one on my left cheek, and one largish one on my left arm. there are lotsa small ones everywhere

marks: scars on my arms that i can’t rlly remember getting, though it was probably from cats, and two burn scars on my left hand. there’s also a reeaaaally hard to see scar on my chin.

childhood dream: i wanted to be a zookeeper so i could play with tigers and take naps with them. 

hair color: kinda dirty blonde? 

long or short hair: long! it’s just above the small of my back

do you have a crush on someone: not right now, i’ve only had one real crush

what do you like about yourself: i looove my hair. and my singing voice is nice, i think.

piercings: just ear piercings! i don’t rlly want any others

blood type: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

nicknames: jess, drill, honeybee, J, and jessie

relationship status: single

zodiac: pisces 

pronouns: she/her

favorite tv show: over the garden wall, my hero academia, gravity falls, psych, and miraculous ladybug

right or left-handed: right!

surgeries: none

hair dyed in different color: nope!

sport: when i was younger i was an awesome soccer goalie. not so much now, but it’s still a cool sport. i like playing mini-golf, if that counts

vacation: ummm, i have no clue. im gonna assume this means where/what i want to do for a vacation? just take me somewhere that’s nice and has rlly good wifi, i don’t know.

pair of trainers: ???

MORE GENERAL:

eating: nothing at the moment, i just finished a bowl of cheeze-its tho

drinking: water

i’m about to: go on discord and catch up on stuff

want: food, cause it’s 8:09pm and we haven’t had dinner yet

get married: yes! i’d like to get married someday :D

career: currently unemployed

hugs or kisses: huuugs <333 tho kisses are nice too

lips or eyes: eyes for sure!

shorter or taller: i think i’m average? tall compared to some, and short compared to others

older or younger: younger

nice arms or nice stomach: stomach, mine is all gross and bleh i’d love a nice stomach

sensitive or loud: sensitive..? i guess?

hook-up or relationship: r e l a t i o n s h i p  please

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant most of the time i think? i don’t really cause trouble

HAVE YOU EVER:

kissed a stranger: no, never kissed someone period

drank hard liquor: nope

lost glasses/contact lenses: yeesssss, but i found them soon enough

turned someone down: i don’t know, i don’t think i have. if i did, it twas unknowingly

sex on the first date: no, of course not. im not about that

broken someone’s heart: i rlly hope i haven’t D:

had your heart broken: no, not really. i had a crush, but it ended more cause i grew out of it, than him doing something to hurt me

been arrested: nope

cried when someone died: well, i don’t really cry when people die and i feel kinda bad about it. i kinda just... think about it in shock till it processes and i can let it go. but i haven’t really lost someone who was close enough to me for me to cry about, i guess

fallen for a friend: ye, when i was a teeeeny tiny little girl and thought he was the cutest thing in the world. i freaking wrote him a love letter, i rlly hope he just destroyed it tbh, it was awkward

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

yourself: mostly yes, sometimes when i’m in that mood no

miracles: yeah

love at first sight: no, love takes time

santa claus: when i was younger, absolutely, but now not so much

kiss on the first date: ehhhhh it depends

OTHER:

current best friend: a girl named chloe, she’s been my best friend since kindergarten <333  

eye color: green with some brown! some days they’re more one than the other

favorite movie: hnnnnnnnnnn i have to say spiderman: homecoming. i love my boy somuch <3333 

i tag @razorkillrabbits @theresadunn @aliciarosefantasy @chiquitagoosita i love y’all <33 ((remember you don’t have to do it if you don’t want to!!))

[brufterfly]

Tagged by @britishteeth

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag people

THE LAST:

1. Drink: technically the last thing i drank was the milk from my cereal bowl

2. Phone call: my mom

3. Text message: roommates group chat

4. Song you listened to: Looking Glass by the Birthday Massacre

5. Time you cried: I think it was the night i came home from college

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: yikes, no

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: eh

8. Been cheated on: no

9. Lost someone special: my cat

10. Been depressed: lmao is that really a question

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: never

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14. hot pink, black, and that really nice shade of grey that i can never get right when im trying to draw

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: of course

16. Fallen out of love: i wish

17. Laughed until you cried: i think so

18. Found out someone was talking about you: probably?

19. Met someone who changed you: yeah

20. Found out who your friends are: of course

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yeah but one of them was before he was on my facebook list

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: fuck idk

23. Do you have any pets: 2 dogs, 2 ducks, and 2 many chickens

24. Do you want to change your name: i just want to spellcheck it

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i went swimming and had like a brownie cake thing

26. What time did you wake up: 9:00 but only because i missed my first alarm

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: tryna sleep

28. Name something you can’t wait for: the last day of my summer vacation

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: fuckin like two hours ago

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: too many things

31. What are you listening to right now: Looking Glass by the Birthday Massacre

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: i…. dont think so

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: love

34. Most visited website: probably tumblr

35. Mole/s: uhhhh idk

36. Mark/s: i have a scar on my left temple but most of it is hidden by my hairline also a couple stretch marks

37. Childhood dream: i remember i wanted to be an astronaut but then i settled on a creative writer ive since stopped writing creatively

38. Hair color: black with reddish tips

39. Long or short hair: i cant decide

40. Do you have a crush on someone: more than a crush

41. What do you like about yourself?: fuck man i i dunno shit

42. Piercings: i have a mole on my ear that looks like a piercing?

43. Blood type: shit idk, is this something i should know

44. Nickname: a friend of mine in high school called me b-ri, ive picked up one or two in college, and theres a ton of them based on my various online usernames

45. Relationship status: kill me

46. Zodiac: ♈

47. Pronouns: he/him, they/them

48. Favorite TV Show(s): Rick and Morty, Star vs the Forces of Evil, Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, How I Met Your Mother

50. Right or left hand: right

51. Surgery: i think i had a root canal once, does that count is that a surgery

52. Hair dyed in different color: hot pink but its since faded to a blondish orangish color

53. Sport: ew

55. Vacation: San Francisco, planned one to Michigan but it ended up not happening

56. Pair of trainers: i have like, three, two of them were 5$ each

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: i ate some reese’s puffs earlier

58. Drinking: soda mostly

59. I’m about to: sleep restlessly

61. Waiting for: the sweet release of death

62. Want: his lips on mine

63. Get married: ideally

64. Career: i just want to be financially stable

WHICH IS BETTER

65. Hugs or kisses: fuck man theyre both so good, but i guess it depends on who theyre coming from

66. Lips or eyes: again, theyre both so good, but i do tend to focus on lips more,,

67. Shorter or taller: taller

68. Older or younger: older

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: bOTH SO GOOD

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive

72. Hook up or relationship: hookup :U

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: uhhh

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: lmao i only kiss strangers

75. Drank hard liquor: yeah

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: yeah and it sucks because i cant find them without my glasses

77. Turned someone down: not as many times as i should have

78. Sex on the first date: no

79. Broken someone’s heart: yeah

80. Had your heart broken: by my family, never had it broken in any romantic sense though

81. Been arrested: no but i did ride in the back of a cop car once

82. Cried when someone died: no…

83. Fallen for a friend: lmao is that really a question

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: lmao no

85. Miracles: eh

86. Love at first sight: no

87. Santa Claus: no

88. Kiss on the first date: absolutely

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: in no particular order; Nick, Zara, Meagan, Monica, Jocelyne

91. Eye color: black

92. Favorite movie: anything Disney honestly

i tag uhhh whoever wants to do it im too tired to actually go and list off people

[mrsashketchum]

Send me a character Ask Game: Maka Albarn.

Thank you for sending an ask! Sorry this took a while ;;

ALL THE PEOPLE I SHIP WITH MAKA:

1. SOUL EATER EVANS

im not even gonna explain myself, but i will definitely ship this for the rest of my life tbh. gotten more into drawing cuz of this ship. made new friends with this ship. so proud of this ship. so proud. like a proud mom. aaaa

2. Death the Kid!

this may come as a surprise (or not? idk). if you’ve followed me long enough i may have drawn one MaKid art and requested some from other artists. like im down for soma and makid. like they’re just so cute??? idk??? especially in the manga tbh

3. Black☆ Star

hell yeah they’re my brotp!!!!! childhood friends!!!! i just love their dynamic?? buff friends who just want to arm wrestle and punch each other for laughs. they’re probably sparring partners sometimes too

4. Tsubaki ❤

GIRLFRIENDS FOR LIFE

guys, tsu-chan is the mom-friend we all need in our life. i absolutely love her motherly friendship with maka too! and they’re both so sweet aaaaghh im filled with feels~~~ brotp!!

5. Liz (the rockstar of the series, let’s be real)

i kinda accidentally shipped them while coming up with my plot for the gravity falls AU (picture has nothing to do with the AU– it’s just maka and liz chatting over lollipops), and i really wanna show the AU to the world someday!!!!! also she’s almost like female soul? which is kinda why i see the dynamic work. but either way, she’s reallyyyy cool. like seriously. maka would be game.

6. CRONAAAAAA

OK MY CHILD I LOVE CRONA

this was the ultimate brotp. i want to hug them both. maka’s done so much for crona and crona would do anything in return. just- so caring!!!!!! hugs forever!!!!!

7. Akane Hoshi (???)

ok this was actually accidental as well. i made this fic out of a prompt i found on tumblr, and while i was writing i was like omg what, no it cant be…. it’s… shippable???? (if that’s even a word) idk man i mean, look at akane. bishounen alert

8. Jack Frost

and this one definitely needs context. uhm, im not sure when exactly it started, but blame it all on my sister (lol no dont) for making a Guardians AU where maka shared a similar wavelength to nightlight (this was before jack = nightlight), and well, yeah. it just went downhill from there.

also jack has white hair. similar to soul… there might be a pattern…

(please read the au it’s actually quite good. i also helped in making the SE characters seem more canon/believable. and there’s soma so why not)

and lastly… my OT3:

9. SoMaKid (*insert air horn noises*)

i am in love with this okay i will fite for the three of them. if there’s anything i love other than soma, it’s somakid, for reals. idk where i started with this ot3 tbh. it just happened. i also saw a few fanarts and some parts in the manga and anime were very nice, and they were the top three most popular characters in the second popularity poll in the manga? but im not entirely sure why i shipped them and what made me ship them.

they just work??? i love them. till this day. (although i’ve been more of soma lately… must draw kid more.)

anyway, that’s all! thank you for seeing my list of ships!!!!! i would love to do this again ♡♡♡

Let’s play the “Send me a character and I’ll list who I ship them with” game!

[geek-ology-blog]

Well it’s been quite the year and well all lot of bad things happened (for me most were very personal) there were good things. And when I say good things I mean good people. Scratch that amazing people! These people helped me get through the year so that I would see this new one (even if the year is already starting bad for me). And even though I may not know a lot of them personally I still want to personally thank each and everyone of them. (Also I can draw better than this sorry)

@srpelo - Thank you for making me laugh till my stomach began to hurt. Every “shitpost” be the best post. And I will never stop slamming my desk and saying “OH BOI” thanks to you.

UltimaAlmighty - The only reaction channel done right. You are a such a positive person in a negative world. When you smile I can’t help, but smile back. Your sincerity won’t go unnoticed. (I know you will probably never see this, but I couldn’t not include you.)

@vadeva - Thanks for being the British man of Starbot Dubs. Your voice is so much fun to listen to and makes me wish I had a low awesome voice too. I can’t wait to see what you and Stephanie do next! (I also really wanna see your audition video).

@rahafwabas - Thanks for filling my dash with angst! You are an amazing artist. You taught me how bad and angst life can be, but to every bad side there’s a good that’ll be worth the pain. (Also short people for life!)

@jakei95 - Thank you for your creativity! You are such a nice and beautiful person. (Sucks that I couldn’t draw you like that… I can draw better I swear!) Cross and Underverse is just too awesome not to love. You taught me that making something new out of other’s ideas and turning it into your own can lead to finding your own new thing! You have encouraged me to do a lot more with myself as well as my art.

@jokublog - Thank you for sharing your hopes and dreams! Every time I see a picture of Dream I always smile (same is for Nightmare, but it’s an evil smile). Your art is so beautiful with its colors and flow. And even when others put you down you scare them away by getting back up again doing what you love. (Also you and Jakei be adorable together)

@loverofpiggies - Thank you for your amazing comics and snazzy pink hair! I love Aftertale and Geno since I connected to him in a sad way that Geno actually felt to be a real “person”. You also taught me that even if you’re known for one thing it’s good to make your own thing. And that being Gloomverse. One of the greatest things I’ve ever read in the entirety of one night (I was that hooked). In fact it encouraged to to start my own comic and punch anxiety in the face!

@hawker-rawr - Thank you for making me laugh at a drunk man (and questioning what kind of drunk I’d be)! You are such a cool artist and I love your take on Chara and Asriel. I fell in love with them all over again. So excited to see whatever you do next. (StarHawk ftw)

@camilaart - Thank you for playing with my emotions! I love GlitchTale so far and am pumped to see what happens next. You are an amazing storyteller and an awesome nerd at heart. I so happy that everyone got together when things got tough. Me from being from a poor household myself I know what it’s like. May all good things come to you and your family. (I also just wanna point out that I totally called Betty, like I screamed at the school computer when Sans died like my gosh I hate-love her!)

@starbotdubs - Thank you for sharing your beautiful voice (and face). You are an amazing voice actress and introduced me into so many comics I’d come to love so much. I’m so excited to see what 2017 brings for your channel (especially you guys dining Gloomverse, like I screamed that my dog jumped 2 feet into the air I was so excited). May you, Vade, and your channel become greater than it already is. (DEUS VULT)

@popelickva and The Real-Time Fan Dub Cast - Thank you for making me giggle like a baby during class. Your gravity falls series and dubs never fail to make me smile. And even though I miss nearly every stream because of timezones, I can’t help but feel determined to try and watch it. (You guys also got me into Voltron and made me obsessed)

@manontheinternet - Thank you for the music! Music has always been apart of my life, especially musicals. I play a couple instruments and like to sing, but not a lot of people even know since I have a literal panic attack whenever I try Iin front of people. So turning a game I’m still obsessed with into a musical which I’m already obsessed with is amazing! Every singer/actor is superb and you feel what the character is feeling. I can’t help, but to always sing along. I’m stoked to have found you so that I may be able to listen to greatness. (Listening to you guys sing seem to always calm me down)

@nekophy - Thank you for being so adorable it’s adorable (which is weird to say since you’re older than me)! You may, if not are, the biggest Poth (and/or Geno x Reaper) shipper I have ever seen. Your art is so cute as well as your reactions to every piece of art you receive. You are a fantastic stick cat Miss Nekophy. And an awesome mother to a certain Goth. (Also tried to draw a kinda “human” you but looks bad so I’m sorry!)

@knittinggiantbeanies - Thank you for being a source of positivity! You as well as your following feel like a safe warm hug. You are so beautiful (much more than me by an immense amount because you’re so gorgeous). I’ve been here ever since Bill’s birthday video and am glad I stayed. You even introduced me to some of my now best friends in your Undertale stream. And I’ve never felt so close to those who are so far. I cannot thank you enough for that.

@chongoblog - Thank you for filling my dash in memes and references I still don’t understand! Never stop because you’re an All Star.

@superyoumna - You are a literal wizard with a mouse! You’ve showed me that even with limited resources you can still make something great (heck all I had to draw on was napkins and printer paper till this Christmas). Your art is almost as beautiful as you are. But your talent is so great I don’t think anything can compare. (I just now realized how many Undertale blogs I have on here)

@thatsthat24 - Thank you for being the king of 6 seconds. You spread positivity like a wildfire and smiles like a tsunami. You have an amazing voice and proved to all parents out there that watching cartoons is not only for kids, it’s for child-like adults as well. I love how you can turn my most depressing day just a little happier. (All the guys, gals, and non-binary pals love you bro)

The rest of these people are not in the drawing because I don’t know what they look like, forgot to add them, was lazy, or are personal friends:

@linnttop - You are an amazing artist and goofball. Im so happy I met you and that we made our friendship work despite the 11 hour time difference (Living on the other side of the world sucks man). But the fact you even tried to stay with me is truly inspiring. I shouldn’t even be worth your time, but you still do even if it’s short and sweet.

@straberrysoup aka Hotdogs - The oldest of the group yet you never act like it! She’s the yin to my orangutan. Your art is adorable as well as your face. I hope your glasses come in soon!

@mclov3ly101 - Such an amazing artist all around always getting better and better. No one in our group (or probably ever) will ship more people than you do. You have the look that turns girls lesbian and gay guys straighter than a stripping pole. I can’t wait to see what your Reaper comic has to offer. (Sportarobbie)

@chariskreplies aka Sans - Always in the shadows watching and sending things to the wrong chat. You’ll pop in and everyone’s happy when you do. Never stop punning EVER. 

@shitpilot and every other Voltron blog I follow - Thank you for helping keep Voltron on my dash so that its not entirely Undertale and TF2.

@comyet - Thank you for creating my favorite Sans of all time! Ink is my spirit skeleton and I love it. Also your art is incredible! I would totally buy your stuff if I had the money. NEVER stop doing what you do because you’re just too awesome to stop now. ( I can’t wait till you come back from your hiatus.)

@kenzykills - The one always asking me to draw yaoi for her shrine. You are the pervert yaoi shipper we all know and love. Thanks for making Japanese and science more “interesting”. (Stop asking for smut)

@quelloz - Thank you for making sure I don’t get too out of control. You are beautiful and an awesome friend. And I won’t rest until I get you with your lady love! I’LL HIT HER SO HARD WITH YOUR LOVE SHE’LL NEVER SEE IT COMING! (Raquello Raphaelo Ze Bastard Ze III :) Elizabeth Gurrrrero)

There’s no way I can thank all of you enough.2016 wasn’t the best year for me. Due to anxiety, depression, numbness, and a family member rushing in and out of the hospital. I doubt myself a lot saying I’m not pretty or my art is trash when i should have more of a positive outlook on myself, but it’s hard to when your parents tell you stuff like that every day. If it weren’t for every single one of these amazing people I don’t think I’d be alive today. I may not know all of them personally, but without them even knowing they helped me a lot. Even some of my friends that I mentioned are so close to my heart, but so far away for a hug. I love each and everyone of you and am looking forward to everything you do from here. Not just because you’re all amazing and talented, but because you give me something to live for. Thank you.