#im not fucking over this cos the more i think about it the more pissed off i get

[violottie]

dumb fuck man: antagonises lesbians publically for harmlessly calling a female character a lesbian by making a secually aggressive tweet about said character

lesbians/sapphics: are antagonised, accordingly, and call out how weird he's being

dumb fuck man: "omg youre so cringe for being antagonised by my antagonism. i cant believe you guys are so stupid for being antagonised by me antagonising you. see everyone? lesbians are so weird!! this is why everyone hates lesbians because theyre all freaks and (r slurs)!!! they ruin everything for men like me and my chat who just wanna beat off to female characters by saying those characters are lesbians. isnt this so funny how stupid lesbians are for being antagonised by my antagonism?! hell yeah im so based!!! they literally took the "bait" of my lesbophobia by being upset at my lesbophobia isnt that so fucking cringe chat?! and its not lesbophobia to make fun of lesbians liking a female character and calling them slurs on my livestream for liking a female character and for me and all my friends to make the exact same video how it's actually the lesbians who are being weird about this character the lesbians RUINED by headcanoning her a lesbian. what about all the men who like this character?! what about us?!"

[aenslem]

he does look good on his knees 👀

[toytulini]

i made an oc thats at least nicknamed "Stupid" and im constantly thinking about what a power move that is tbh

[love-lilly02]

LILLY PLS IM SUPER DOWN BAD FOR SOME TF141 DRABBLES RN

OK IDEA: HOW THEY SHOW THEIR AFFECTION/LOVE LANGUAGE 💥👊

KEEPING IT BROAD CAUSE I WANNA SEE YOU BE CREATIVE 🤭

MWAH DONT FEEL FORCED EITHER

— 🪿

RAAAA DUCK ANNON IS BACK‼️‼️‼️

i’m so sorry i didn’t see this by the way, i was cleaning😕😕

Anyways we’ll start off with Price, i think he’s definitely a words of affirmation person or gift giving. in the beginning he leaves you small things, a flower (yes, a singular flower.) with a letter saying it’s pretty like you, poems, treats hidden around your room. Once the two of you are together though he’s going all out. Flowers every week (he keeps one so he knows when it’s time to buy more), text messages with poems and paragraphs, date nights, shopping sprees. (emphasis on the shopping, you can look at something for too long and it’s in your apartment the next day.) i also don’t really see price as a touchy person, but he likes when you hold his hand or his arm (imagine period drama arm holding), ESPECIALLY around the boys.

Johnny next, this man is touchy to ALL hell. your on the counter? he’s got your ass. standing there doing ANYTHING? he’s around you, holding your waist, putting his chin on your shoulder, all of the above. In public he’s got your hand, your arm, your waist, any part of you he can grab. he’s also a flirter, to the BIGGEST extent, i mean this man will take one look at you and spew out so many compliments you think he’s got them pre written down. their also never the same compliments, ever. how he has so many you’ll never know. I don’t see him as a gifts person but if you express an intrest in certain things it will pop up from time to time.

Kyle is a bit tricky for me, because i don’t write him often. I think he’s a reassurance person, if you’re not feeling well he’s there or he’ll always say he loves you or something. Definitely someone who believes actions speak louder than words, which means everything in your house is getting done for you. dishes? he washed them an hour ago. trash needs taking out? oh don’t worry love, i got that. He just likes taking care of you, doesn’t really mind the busywork. And don’t you dare feel bad for it, he’s right there scolding you for it, saying that he wants to do those things, that he wants to help you. He’s definitely a clingy person, but not out in public. poor kid’s too shy for that, but at home he’s all over you. his favorite position is to lie with his head on your stomach, watching something on the telly while you read or scroll on your phone. definitely not because he falls asleep easier in that position.

Ghost is my favorite of them all. at first he just ignores you, i mean once this man realizes he has feelings you NEVER see him around😭 and then he gets over himself and somehow apologizes (how he got over himself, we’ll never know) and slowly starts going around you again, but that’s literally it. You don’t think anything else is wrong, wouldn’t even be able to tell something was different if it weren’t for all the people that started going missing. You complain about a co worker? their gone the next morning. some rookie is pissing you off? oddly enough he got deployed and killed in combat. you never understand it, especially when no one questions the disappearances or just where the people went. That’s how ghost loves you, by keeping you happy. Simon on the other hand, takes a much more direct approach with his love. Once ghost is done with his “i’ll kill you if you touch her” bs he’s confessing to you, buying you flowers for the first date (only then, for some reason?) taking you somewhere nice. The whole shabang for his pretty thing. He’s also a nicknames person, some of his favorite being “love, lovie, princess” and sometimes “thing” when you really make him mad. he’s just like kyle, shy in public but a fucking PUPPY at home. you try to get up in the morning, he’s got you trapped under him in seconds. you leave a room, he’s tailing after you, your cooking in the kitchen he’s right behind you, if you don’t yell at him to get off. it’s never suffocating, though. In public he’ll hold your waist or your hand, that’s about it.

i feel like i kind of got off topic at some points but those are hot takes off the top of my head🥳🥳 lmk if yall want an nsfw version

[wannaeatramyeon]

AHHH OMG THAT GUN MASTERPIECE ONE WAS SO GOOD WTF IT WAS SO DWEET A WHOLESOME CAN I ASK FOR A ONESHOT WHERE YN IS GUN'S STUDENT no romance just platonic relationship but instead we're a student who gun is very much proud of but still has room for growth and unfortunately we just don't see our own potential and can't be bothered to exert more effort than we already do even though gun is proud of us and because of this he gets seemingly frustrated like he did with Eli? AND ALSO TYSM IM THE ONE WHO REQUESTED FOR THE BATHHOUSE SEQUEL and it did NOT dissapoint I love ur lil silly fics where u can just see every1 fckn around and I genuinely love ur writing❤️❤️

Ah ty anon! So sorry for the wait cos the Masterpiece fic was frickin ages ago! Here's a... probably much sillier fic than you imagined.

Gun Park with You, his successor

G/N.

Gun's left eye is twitching.

It's twitching and he's staring and silent and you know none of these are good signs. Combined, it may be an indication that the world is ending.

Your eyes flicker back to your phone. Maybe it's best that you ignore him completely. If you pretend he's not there, perhaps he'll go away and you can continue slobbing away your Saturday on the sofa instead of doing whatever training he has asked of you. Seriously, who even has time on Saturday to run laps, especially if there is social media to mindlessly scroll through.

Luck is not on your side today because Gun does not budge. He does not move, he does not go away. He watches you, eyes narrowing more the longer he stands there.

Maybe you miscalculated. Maybe you should have addressed him instead of ignoring him. Has too much time passed? Better late than never.

"Oh, Gun?" You feign surprise, "Didn't see you there. How long have you been standing-"

"Y/N." Damn. He's pissed. You think about your next move and decide it's better you continue down this path you've set for yourself.

"Huh, is that the time?" You peer down at your watchless wrist and the movement does not go unnoticed by him. "Time to get my training in."

You stand and stretch, closing your eyes, hands reaching high over your head and joints popping. You open one eye to see if Gun is still there and, oh shit, he still is.

You bend down to touch your toes- ah well, you only make it to your ankles and that's good enough, then make a show of bending side to side at your waist.

"Stretching's important, right?" You force a grin at Gun and you think you see a hint of a smirk but you can't be sure, "Get those muscles nice and supple-"

"Change of plan."

Oh? You look at him, thinking maybe your luck actually has come in. He's feeling generous and benevolent today and you don't have to do weights or cardio or-

"You'll be fighting me today."

You deflate. Suddenly the previous training plan looks much preferable. Child's play. A walk in the park. You feel like a fool to think Gun Park would be generous or benevolent. "...S-sure you don't want me to just follow our previous plan?"

"No." Now Gun smirks at you and you gulp. "And we only stop when I say so."

Fuck.

[s0lar-ch3ri]

spoilers for ep 107 but im a writer guys

Gillion had expected to have his head hurt a bit when a fountain was thrown at him. What he didn't expect was (from Chip's description) the same void Chip was in when fully petrified. The same darkness Chip felt coursing through his veins from La Alma's boss. The same kind of room as the world of the Pearl, or even the mirror he was in about an hour or so ago.

Jay had expected Gillion to be able to take a small hit. After all, he had a plan, and when it came to fighting, he was a tank for being hit. What she didn't expect was her invisibility spell to be used on a now dead target. Jay's eyes widened, being the only one who was in on Gillion's plan, as she heard the crunch of bones and triton blood too sticky to have been faked by magic illusions. No my friends, this was real. Gillion Tidestrider had died...for a bit.

That was until a special figure appeared in the sky. Those tiefling horns and ever so fancy outfit pissed Chip off so badly. What did that man want now? He just lost his friend for good, was about to be captured and put into enemy hands, and now him? Chip didn't even need anything more to know this was Niklaus Hendrix.

"Well, you Riptide Pirates seem to have quite big adventures." Niklaus had landed and was standing by the rubble. He stood inspecting it. "Yep, he's really died. I didn't think he'd be that easily knocked over, but I guess one of you 3 got lucky." The 3 creatures seemed tense at his sudden arrival.

The chaingel (Chip came up with it himself, so clever) spoke up quickly after the comment. "And who might you be? A child of God too?" (Chip will never get over that he got bible baited).

"Ah, the name's Niklaus, or the Wish Doctor. Desire Daddy works too," he winked at Chip for that one (The fuck kind of fruity tension did these two devolpe? Jay will not understand men's allure to her stinky bastard co-captain). "And I am here because of a special deal I have with the Chosen One here."

"Chosen One?" the minotaur called out (Chip was daming it to hell for what he's done to Gillion).

"He didn't yell out his titles at you? Well, that's a first." He talked, still smirking as he picked up Gillion's body from the rubble.

"What are you going to do to G- our captain, LA-LA?" Queen called out. As Chip looked behind him, Gryffon was getting ready to blast the fucker to bits (that's how he would have said, Chip just knows it).

"Calm down Queen, all of you. Consider this a free favor from me, as a gift for doing what I've asked, and because I still have a plan for you 3." As they all watched, Gillion seemed to have a small glow to him (Jay swore she saw him get remoisted) and soon enough, he was coughing for air.

"Owie."

[mmuffncakes]

Do Dagan/Rayvis, since it’s your fault the tag exists

youre right,... it is. but also your fault cause you wrote it for me <3

but!!!!

so originally i had it as a ship just cause "haha, lorge tentacle man + power bottom twink make brain go brrrrrrrrr" when i first saw them. but the more and more i played, and after playing several times and reading more lore and watching rayvis's reactions, learning his motivations and such (im a whore for rayvis, im not sorry), the more i realized that like...

this is *such* a toxic ship, in the best way possible. i know that sounds fucking whack, it is. but hear me out:

obviously, theres a power dynamic situation going on. dagan has control over rayvis completely due to rayvis's code that he follows through to the end. and rayvis? not happy about it. mans is PISSED that he not only got BESTED, but then got bested by someone who went missing for over 200 years. he could have said "fuck it, dagans dead, im free" but he spends his entire life seeking out what santari hid away because he REFUSES to break his code. and most people would assume death to a humanoid man after so long but he refuses to give up.

now, when we DO see the two together, its not just the code that rayvis follows. rayvis and dagan still share the same goal: tanalorr. but rayvis has just gotten infinitely more tired over the years because he wasted away in a prison for so long and then hunted down a man he could only hope was still alive. so he's just wanting to SEE tanalorr again since he'd first gotten there way back when. but with so many delays (and annoyances: peek cal and bode), the exhaustion is finally getting to him. but he refuses to give up on his and dagans dream.

on top of that, when we see them together, there's still this sort of scorned married couple on the brink of divorce. the lines "say that again and i'll cut out your tongue" "...it'll grow back" lives rent free in my head. rayvis KNOWS dagan can best him, kill him in even. but he doesnt. why?

because dagan likes the power/control too much. he likes it too much when rayvis kneels in front of him, confirming his loyalty and doesnt care that rayvis tenses when he leaves the room. dagan likes it too much that rayvis is still walking on hands and knees for him because of his code that rayvis so desperately wants to break but doesnt because he's too honorable of a man. and dagan uses it to his advantage. but there is, i think, a small amount of him that hopes that rayvis TRIES to break the code he has. dagan wants him to fight back, actually have no honor, break it.

"break it," dagan will whisper into rayvis's ear. "i know you want to." and rayvis wont, no matter how much he wants to. because that would only prove dagan *right*.

this ship is so like, toxicly co-dependent of each other. holding each other over one another in a way that just MMMMMMMMMMMM feeds me in a way i didnt think it could. they are messy, and toxic, and TERRIBLE for each other but FUCK mmmmMMMMMMM do i love it

that answers the first two questions last one is fucking "do i have an unpopular opinion" NO, its MY SHIP i have aLL THE RIGHT OPINIONS

still love your fic thooouuuggghh <3 (blow u lil kiss)

[fuck-customers]

This is one hell of an issue going on at my job, more of a fuck one particular co-worker, this has been going on for a lil while so warning it might be long. TW for a few different things honestly.

So just over a year ago (roughly) we had this new co-worker join us. At first she seemed pretty ok, a bit ditzy but otherwise fine. As time went on though she never really improved (in fact got even worse) and because she is out and proud MtF, she constantly say to everyone that if the boss tries to discipline her for poor work ethic etc she’ll just sue for discrimination. Pisses everyone off that she would try and pull that card when its over legitimate issues with her work but oh well can’t do much. This is just issue 1.

Issue 2. I am friendly towards her, but do not consider her a friend, there’s only one person i work with that i’m actually friends with outside of work. But for some reason she thinks we’re best friends and she has been trauma dumping on me constantly. When i was talking to my friend about the medical shit i was going through she overheard and then proceeded to tell me about all the health issues she has due to her drug usage while i was on break. Saying she knew how i felt and then almost trying to ‘one up’ me by listing all of hers. She overheard me talking to my friend a separate time about how my depression had spiralled and i was ashamed cuz i had relapsed in my self harm (this was when me and my friend had come into the shop to buy stuff on our way to town and this co-worker was working.) Next time i worked with her she told me all about her depression and (without asking me if i was ok with it) showed me all her scarring on her torso etc. it was really uncomfortable for me and was when i started trying to distance myself.

Issue 3. She will go out of her way to annoy people by saying stupid shit and claims that she finds annoying people funny. She’ll start debates and say pretty extreme stuff and when people make it clear they aren’t comfortable with it she doubles down and just won’t shut up.

Issue 4 and this is honestly the worst one. She came in high off of illegal pain meds and was honestly in no state to work, but kept insisting she was fine. She couldn’t walk straight, was moody all night etc. She then missed the next shift, just didn’t show up, phone dead so no one could contact her. The day after that she turns up, again high as anything, only this time she was aggressive to everyone to the point that she apparently threatened to slit two of our co-workers throats for talking about her (out of concern as they are normally friends with her.) Got aggressive with one of them for laughing about something that had nothing to do with her. Just all round being awful to work with. And the worst thing is we’re all sure she’s gonna make up a bullshit story so that she doesn’t get sacked over it.

Im so glad I’m off for a week and wont have to deal with it, but I don’t know how im gonna put up with it if she continues. I don’t want to say anything to my boss in case she turns on me when she’s off her face, its honestly scary.

[foxingpeculiar]

Alright, per Tumblr’s decision, I started Lies of P.

It’s interesting. I had to get used to the combat, which is a little chunkier than Bloodborne, at least at first. And it’s the first Soulslike I’ve played with the Xbox controller, so that took a little adjustment as well. But, once it stopped throwing tutorial UI windows at me in the middle of combat, I started getting the hang of it.

I played the demo, so the Parade Master wasn’t too challenging since I knew what I was in for. I think I got him in 3. The Mad Donkey took 2 tries, but once I figured out how easily he can be backstabbed, it was over. The crawling electric police fella I got in one with the help of a specter. Then I got to King’s Flame Fuoco or whatever and had to stop for a while.

THIS fucking guy. Like holy shit, what a spike/skill check that is. I pissed through my Star Fragments like it was nothing, so now it’s just me and him. The first phase is manageable. I can mostly read his move set and while there’s a couple that give me trouble—I get caught in the backspin in the middle of one of his 3-part combos a lot and his Fury move hammer slam is a matter of luck based on my position when he starts the animation—but it’s manageable. That fucking second phase though. The ass fire gigantic AOE thing is bad enough, but then stacking the range attacks on that is just batshit. And it becomes a matter of endurance, cos he’s tanky as fuck. I can see the path to victory, I just haven’t been able to execute yet. But ima get ‘im.

The regular enemies aren’t bad—some of the heavies can be a little troublesome, especially that robot miniboss in the factory, but nothing I can’t handle. I need to work more guarding into my playstyle though—I’m relying mostly on dodging at this point, and it’s doing me well so far, but I have a feeling it’s not gonna work for everything.

I’ve been rocking mostly the balance weapon, sometimes bringing out the heavy sword. And boosting Vitality, Vigor, and Motility mostly. Got a couple of cool looking fire weapons in the factory, and after a couple of upgrades, the fire axe is doing me pretty well so I’m gonna rock that for a bit and see how it goes.

The level design is mostly pretty good—it feels like a labyrinth while still guiding you forward in a pretty linear direction, with a couple of interesting diversions. I helped the weeping woman (by lying to her about her baby) and met the Riddler fellow, at least via the telephone, and am curious what other things like that the game is going to throw at me.

Story-wise I’m bemused but intrigued. It sounds like the Alchemists did something to the Ergo that made the puppets go all Westworld on everybody, but I don’t have a full enough picture of what’s going down in Krat yet. That Fox/Cat stalker duo was pretty cool though, looking forward to running into them again.

Further updates as events warrant.

[ask-cinnavanillamelody]

So I wanna vent, about something really quick, and then we'll go back to our regularly scheduled programming.

I like, hate. College. I hate it, I hate the premise, I hate that they're bleeding me for money, but most of all I hate the people. If I could do college with 5 other people and we all had our own rooms I think I'd like it more. It started snowing today, and the campus is covered in snow. And if you know anything about me, I hate the cold. I hate being cold, I hate being outside in the cold. Because when it's cold, it's guaranteed I'll probably get sick. I'll get chills, the flu, a cold, something.

I wanted to go to a college in North Carolina, but they didn't accept me for an art program, so I ended up at my current college in small-town Pennsylvania. It's cold here, in the winter. it's so goddamn cold I don't want to go outside. I shouldn't go outside. And lucky for me I don't have to go outside because I have everything I need, inside, where it's warm, and I won't die by slipping on ice.

But apparently, my roommate thinks I'm STUPID for calling one of my co-workers to see if my job on campus would still be open. When I could've just "Walked outside to see if they're open" and "It's not that cold". FIRST OF ALL the air outside has to be a certain degree to even freeze the water in the sky and make it dense enough to fall out of the sky in the form of snow. in other words, IT HAS TO BE COLD, TO MAKE COLD WEATHER, AKA SNOW. And I left my warmest coat back home by accident, so I'm even less guarded against the cold weather. And I'm also anemic, it doesn't matter how many fucking layers I put on, I can still be, (and usually am) cold. She wouldn't let me explain why I don't find it necessary to go outside in the cold when I can just as easily find out the information I need by CALLING SOMEONE ON THE PHONE. Yeah sure she may not be here on campus, however, this probably isn't the first time the school's shut down because of weather, she would probably know if the school job that we both work would still be open. Which she did, and now I know whenever the school is shut down, my job is too.

I started to raise my voice because when someone insults me, the natural reaction is to defend myself. And when someone repeatedly interrupts you in conversation, wrongly assuming you're done and continuing to invalidate your feelings and emotions because THEY think it's STUPID and you're being DUMB AND IRRATIONAL about weather you aren't used to, their argument being "You have to get used to it at some point since you live here now"

Technically, I don't actually live here. I don't have a permanent residency here. I can't vote in this state. I live in a warmer southern state. My home is in another state. I am "living" on a college campus. But in the next 3 years? I'm not going to be able to live here. I don't stay here during the winter and summer. I go HOME. I FLY TO ANOTHER STATE. Technically I don't HAVE to get used to shit. I can get my degree, and move to fucking California where it doesn't ever snow. And I can hate the cold all the same. Because it's my right to not like cold weather, yeah I complain about it, but I know it's something I have to deal with. That doesn't mean I have to "learn to get used to it" right now just because you fucking say so. And you don't have to fucking call me stupid and illogical every time I don't want to go outside. That's rude. You can think it, but you don't have to say it. I'm seriously starting to rethink my friendship with this person because we can be fine and friendly, and instantly jump into an argument fucking 5 SECONDS later. I don't want to even live with this person anymore, I'm just dealing with it because the alternative is living with someone I don't know.

UGH IM SO PISSED OFF

anyway, rant over. Now we return to the regularly scheduled programming. 🍫

[spiderman616]

Scourge Unleashed concept dump

Will preface this i have not played sonic unleashed so this will be mostly gameplay

I think it'd be unnecessarily complicated to make light gaia evil and dark gaia good so scourge can still side with light gaia, but light gaia will be a little evil and dark gaia will be a little good. just a little

plot starts with dr kintobor learning about light gaia, which he is gonna attempt to free ahead of schedule in order to bring peace to the world. scourge takes wind of this and is bored as hell after escaping zone jail (unleashed is post events of archie anyways) so decides to check things out. kintobor has successfully released light gaia up in space (where he thought he could be safe), who then identifies scourge as a threat and blasts him with a gaia gust or whatever, sending him down to moebius like normal.

once grounded, scourge now got a new form like the werehog, but this time think cross between a vampire and an angel. he finds dark gaia (who got forced out of the core when light gaia was released) and is fucking PISSED. they agree to team up to beat the other duo up because they are full of Anger.

However before that, Scourge goes back to the no zone to beat the SHIT out of zonic (no im not salty over lockdown what makes you think tha) but his weird light gaia powers accidentally turn zonic into a ghost. oopsie! so now zonic has to join scourge and dark gaia to merge back with his body since the light gaia energy is whats separating the two. all while complaining about how much paperwork hes gonna have to do. fun!

the goal is to get a shit ton of anarchy beryl and get to each gaia temple, charging up each one to make a mega lazer to blast the space station out of the sky. Along the way, you meet the anti versions of sonic characters that help you along the way, including familiar faces like fiona and the destructix since they stayed in moebius with scourge.

scourges gameplay has emphasis as causing as much havoc and destruction as you can, while getting to the end as fast as possible. you can utilize scourge's new abilities to boost him forward and cause more damage, since him and zonic are in their forms all the time.

zonics gameplay is more puzzle platformer oriented, since he moves slower and can possess/repossess his body to get past obstacles and fix all the fucking damage scourge caused because hes just nice like that.

scourge's new abilities include gliding and concentrated energy attacks (once he gets enough rings), along with normal sonic moves. zonics moveset is completely different, since his top speed is half that of scourges, and he can't spin. he compensates for that with a higher jump and limited hovering, as well as several combat options like a gun, along with regular punching. his main combat utility comes from when he exits his body and can possess enemies to fucking murder.

enemies are light gaia spawn that are just super badniks remade to be more divine/angelic, but for scourge you can also beat up passerby if you so please.

either character can call in for a dark gaia boost once a meter fills up (like the boost meter). this has a pretty big attack range and doesn't halt your speed.

bosses will be two parts (one for zonic one for scourge), along with a side character that can lend you a temporary new ability needed to beat the boss. co-op is also an option, although the game will have minimal changes to accomodate for it.

at the end, its pretty similar to normal unleashed ending where they go super and kill god, but this time kintobor DOES manage to restore peace somewhat. just scourge gets pissed and yeets both gaias into the core again, and zonic leaves on slightly better terms than before hooray.

[taxfraudhousewife]

guys my autistic ass made a post asking pro lifers why they’re pro life and now i regret it cos i can’t look at my notifications cos they piss me the fuck off lmao i’m too pussy to delete the post cos i want it for autism purposes but still i’m gonna complain about their opinions even tho IM the one who ASKED for their opinions even tho I GAVE SOMEONE SHIT for being mean to the pro lifers in the comments IM SORRY OK

like idk wtf i thought i was getting into asking pro lifers on the internet i was literally asking for it and in this instance it is ok to victim blame cos im the victim of my own autism and this is literally my fault

idk sometimes i start to think that pro lifers only exist in the US and like poland cos i never hear express pro life sentiments irl BECAUSE I TALK TO NORMAL FUCKIN PEOPLE and the few ppl i do know who say they’re pro life are actually pro choice but in like a ✨catholic✨way

i cannot shut the fuck up about this but like in my personal opinion if u live in america and are pro life u gotta get ur shit sorted out cos ur opinions r genuinely dangerous for women in that country like u can be pro life when access to abortion is unrestricted that’s fine but don’t go ruining shit for everybody just cos you don’t have common sense

like idc if ur canadian and pro life cos i rly don’t think in my lifetime we’ll lose any abortion rights so u can go off and spread ur weird ideology ur very much a non threat so i accept ur freedom of speech or whatever

also like i went to catholic school (shocker it turned me into a gay anarcho socialist pro choice atheist) and like there was a pro life club obviously and oh my god maybe i’m just triggered as fuck bc of my pro life club trauma (if u had a pro life club at school u know it’s literally trauma)

also this rant happened bc one of the ppl on my post used the word “scientifical” and im sorry but if u say the word scientifical when talking about literal human rights idk honestly ur probably a lot happier and have a more fulfilling life than me if u don’t think too hard about this so like good for u and im jealous

also like i know i never specifically said i only want woman opinions on the post (cos men opinions are what fucked us over in the first place and therefore are important to understand) but the AMOUNT OF MEN IS INSANE TO ME like i think in general abortion conversations im used to men allowing women to have more influence in the conversation because it’s literally about women BUT THE AMOUNT OF MEN TALKING ALL THIS SHIT IS SO CRAZY YO ME WE WOULDNT NEED ABORTIONS IF U COULD TAME UR SKIN SNAKE YOU ABSOLUTE FREAK GET OUT

anyway i think that’s funny

[ultra-deepestbouquet]

10/19/2022

I finally got a job and it's sort of doing what I was doing before. SIGH

I was getting a little bit desperate and you wont believe what happened with all of these other companies - I still cant fucking believe the unprofessionalism and lack of any follow up or thank you or anything. Just so bizarre. Everything has always worked out for me with a job and I really feel like its going to be ok this time. I turned down a job offer that was gonna be 5k more then what I make now because I was trying to move away from sales. My gut was saying I wasnt ready yet but Im still kinda pissed. I have to change my habits- like saying no to people and staying more sober and actually writing and building a network. I just saw a post one of my new work colleagues wrote about her baby going back to daycare and a lightbulb went off. I can start writing little or big posts on Linkedin just being me. My going back to work post got 1300 impressions. Like what? I was always trying not to think that Im just a hot girl in the workforce but now im going to use it to my advantage. Im feeling more comfortable in my skin, in my sexuality. I mean why do I pay so much for my hair and botox and skincare if Im not going to use it? lol My first post will be tomorrow about my first week, the emotions ive had, thanking my co workers, reiterating that I am excited to make an impact and then plug in my business at the end. Boom.

I never envisioned myself as a leader but how exciting and proud will I be if I start killing it and then Adam trusts me and then I get to run the phoenix office and then I have lots of money and then Joel is fawning over me? All these women in the lifestyle are little powerhouses it's wild. I can do that. Im still young. I still have a lot to learn.

I am proud of me damn it. I never say it but I am. This week isn't even over yet and I have a busyish Friday but wow it went by fast. If I cant go to Pride Fest Im gonna be really bummed out but its gonna be like $100 maybe more after tickets, outfit, and drinks and its on a Sunday :( I shouldn't even be drinking anyway because of this medicine. And I just bought my halloween costume and I need the damn devil horns to go with it now.

I need to make journaling a priority - I will!

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i have to come up with a different proverb. maybe a new one. this is harder then i thought. but im really enjoying doing it. it feels like a wrting exercise. shit! it is a wrting exercise and i hate those. i absolutely hate them because they feel gimicky and unimaginative. but i came up with this on my own. so is it unimaginative? wait isnt there something called free association writing? is that what im doing right now? im not sure. i dont think youre allowed to think in that you’re just supposed to write and write and write and write. but how can you write without thinking? okay charger has been plugged back in and i can stop and think again. full disclosure by the way i am cheating to a certain extent because i keep editing every fifth mistake i make. im still leaving a lot in there to make this feel authentic. i felt like adding an emoticon there. cue self loathing. but no wait. old white men dont like emoticons do they? that good we like that. but young white girls do like emoticons. and justin bieber. dont know which way to turn now. lets move on. and i’m blank. i cant get justin bieber out of my head. good thing its not young white girls because that would be creepy. andd liable. is liable the right word. i want to google but i cant. new rule! no googling allowed. just train of…no no no. we cant use that either no trains allowed. old white men use trains. river of thoughts? cheesy. to similar to stream of consciousness, which isnt so bad because Virgina Woolf is a dead white woman. and i hate to love joyce. Love Dubliners. Love the idea of Ulysses, despite never getting past page 50 and not understanding what the hell happened in the forty or so pages i do read. except a young jesuit was or wasnt shaving. no word count either. new rule. im always checking word count to make myself feel good but we wont be doing that anymore. but i cant do this in the mornings anymore. not when i have to write. i mean seriously write because i would like to get published one day. read my name on the cover of a book. a hardback thak you very much because i do still love those (dead white men be damned) even if i dont particulalrly like paying for them. 15.99 for a book is ridiculous. especially when you can get it for 1p plus shipping costs in a few months time. i just cheated again. i deleted a whole paragraph i dint like anymore. its just felt repetitive like i was just telling you the same thing all over again in different word. filler. and we don’t like filler. its something EL James would use. i’m so glad EL James has become the by word for bad literature. she fully deserves it and im not just saying that because shes made a shit load of money. it does help though.it also helps that everyone seems to know who she is. James Patterson is equally shit, actually hes a different kind of shit. those alex cross books werent too bad to begin with. they certainly made good movies. anything with morgan freeman is a good movie. i hope if god does exist he does look like him. i wouldnt mind listening to him for all off eternity then. but then he started buying up unpublished manuscripts, polishing them up and printing them as his own with the real author getting a co-write. that fucking pisses me off. and he has the nerve to defend it by saying that he’s helping young unpublished authors. no you’re not asshole youre just printing money and using struggling authors just like every other arsehole looking to make a quick buck is. but you cant badmouth patterson because most nonreaders don’t know about him. but everybody knows EL James. god bless anal beads. okay im back. its the same day but i just posted this went downstairs to make some more green tea and came back up to add a little more to it. had two slices of chocolate cake too. i thought i was eating more because i was having a hard time writing but apparently i just like cake. and stuffing myself to point of explosion. edited slices and explpsion. there must be a way to switch off the squiggly lines that come up while im wrting this. typing. i’m only typing this.

[stahfakz]

23/4/23

I think im dreaming. This isnt real.

When you met them, you thought they were the shit, but you dont know the pain i went through with her, and shes probs told you all about her drama.

It is fucked.

The way i told everyone to like you, and they followed me, despite the shitty email you sent, and then how you attacked me back over time, shut me down, demanding responses, called me from the goaddamn work phone.

How m just told you everything so easily, like i was nothing to him.

Tbh, he hasnt been the same with me, and he was critical of me after you guys spoke.

What cruel injustice.

That you cant see.

That selfish bitches are out there, when im the one in pain, doing all the work, never getting credit.

Not once did she acknowledge my help publically, just kept shutting me down.

Kept telling me her drama and insecurities and bodily functions. For real?

Makes me want to run away from m.

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Oh but the look on your face when you asked me if dean went into a meeting with me straight away, but i said no, he just let me know when he was available, she was so fucking jealous that I can do this.

Just reach out to a senior manager and chat to them about stuff, cos shes scared to. Because Dean is the way he is, she says, hes "hard to impress." So i guess shes jealous that ive impressed him.

Its like, ppl who are career focused to be managers, doesnt mean they should be.

And the people who should be, arent given the recognition they deserve.

I mean, she kept banging on about leadership, and its like, butch you have no idea what even leadership fucking means.

The jealousy combined with the fact i have real leadership over the team, and im not even trying. Definately not trying to promote myself here, just stating the facts.

But its still some type of sweet justice that that cunt has now fucked off. Fuck you bitch, you dont know shit.

Im secretly glad you're jealous that I have the ability to speak openly with senior managers sbout anything.

Fucking hell.

Thinking about this, has made me cry.

I wasnt able to tell my team mates, cos they all thought she was the shit.

So i have to wait, if m and i are ever together, but i doubt it, im not feeling anything from him right now cos of his judgyness. I mean, maybe they hooked up. Probably.

Who the fuck am i to think anyone could ever be a man and approach me.

I mean, B me more than m at the moment. How fucked up is that, even if B owes me, and thats how im justifying it.

I have to deal with soooooo much shit.

I almost feel like telling him that Deans been the most stable support Ive had for a number of years, just to piss him off. Like he should do better. That maybe that bitch was lying.

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I have to sit away from luke next time in the office anyway, so you can deal with staring at me from a distance and me looking fine af as always, like you cant have me and watch while everyone approaches me.

Cos whilst im humble af and down to earth, i am the queen of that team, even if i dont want to admit it myself or use that language.

They all gravitated towards me, even last year, long before I was point of contact, and none of them knew about my previous roles of team coach, etc.

Even luke s had a glowing report of me, and how approachable I am when helping others especially with emotional shit.

So I've pulled up my big girl pants, and stepping back into my god-given leader role.

Guiding the team on how to deal with our actual tm. Taking on board a lot more than i should, but not complaining.

Messaging the group chat with diplomatic words as well as encouragement and support, well before her farewell email with her shitty five words regarding our actual tm.

And it's showing already, how I live by my words, amazing that Emilie is loyal to me publically, and I don't ask for it.

Just some sweet frosting on that butches cake, as shes constantly refused to ackowledge her success with us was entirely my doing.

I literally cannot wait until she tries another tenured team, and gets slammed. That'll be the real fucking karmic justice.

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Karmic justice how senior managers know how I am, that I just say things out loud that need to be said, without fear (Thanks autism and abusive ex.).

Maybe it really is time to acknowledge that I would actually be a really good manager, and maybe I should apply and start getting serious with experience.

There are so many shit managers out there, and a severe lack of good ones.

Can I be one of the good ones? Kerry is still the best manager ive ever had, with hannah and dan a close second. And while dean isnt actually my manager, he's one of the best people in management I know, and im glad that we see eye to eye on things and that i make sense to him.

Can i break through my own belief-limiting thoughts?

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[wellnesscard]

apparently mine and my across the hall neighbors heating is linked for our apartments its a 4 unit building and were the two downstairs ones. but she keeps calling our landlord to have him check up or remind us this because she is complaining how hot her apartment is, she and the landlord are apparently convinced we keep our windows open and this is making it drafty so the heat works overtime so her apartment overheats or something? anyways we appeased them again last night and went around making extra sure our windows are closed (it has been -4 all week -20 with windchill theyre not fucking have been opened bro). i like it cold so keep the thermostat at 69 or 70 and some of our windows are only single paned glass so like it is drafty its an old building and we didnt plastic wrap them this winter BUT consider regulating the temperature of your own unit by opening a window instead of going a middle man way to tell us to close ours which never opened?? she also called to tattle on us over the summer (while we were staying at the jobsite an hour away) about a piece of dog poop in the yard that wasnt even from our dog. every house on this block has at least one dog and they really dgaf about picking up after them so like it gets nasty yes however youre in your 30s just knock on our door if u think somethings up we live 3ft away from each other why do i keep getting texts from the landlord about this trivial shitttt. we picked the poopy up anyways btw bc apparently were more mature as perma-wasted 20something dickheads than live laugh love doormat lady. idk im siiick of people acting like that like unwilling to just have normal confrontations as people living in the same building. our upstairs neighbors used to always move our laundry out of the dryer if it was there and done when they wanted to do laundry which weirded me out so i asked them the next time i saw them if they could just knock on my door n ill deal with it and they were like yeah sure. simple as! never happened again! i may be socially retarded but at least im direct and recognize pointless bureaucracy and bullshit. idk im mad now im thinking abt other instances where people make things so many more layers deep than they have to like. this is why we have fucking issues wtfyd if ur living close quarters to people n cant even communicate to them. bruh like freshman year of college in the dorms apparently i kept this girl up all night bc i was having a vodka and chappie and candy night w my friend in my room so she was really pissed at me in the morning. i thought we were quiet enough that she was fine cos she did knock on my door at like midnight but apparently not so i was like shit man im sorry if id known u were still awake i wouldve quieted down more or gone to the basement or something i had no idea u were still kept up. so i wrote all my contact info on a note and slid it under her door so she could contact me in the future w/o having to like get up and knock on my door then she was just going around telling people how "passive aggressive" i was for that???? what the hell