#im so tired..

[doukeshi-kun]

hello :3 the third/final part is here! it will be up on tomorrow (saturday)!

as usual, please dni if you are uncomfortable with the themes/contents. this is a dead dove fic! do not report it too. additional cw: nikolai might be OOC here, all characters are fucking freak and has issues, this fic is quite dramatic ngl

as some of you may know, my tumblr is crashing when i try to put all the fic contents in the post. so, i decided to put 3k words of the very beginning of the fic and at the bottom i put the ao3 link. you guys can read the rest in AO3. the whole fic is divided into two chapters in AO3 version to make it easier for you guys to read and come back (uhh i hope, lmao).

i am sorry for inconvenience! i did try to work it for hours but it's really not working. it worked for like the first half but it started to get wonky and then crashed on me. this is the best solution for all.

as always, thank you so much for reading and enjoying this AU! i got a lot of nice comments in AO3 and if any of you are from there, thank you so much ❤️ thank you for the wait too.

do reblog the tumblr post too! it'll help a lot for the fic to grow <3

[marsbarlikesruffles]

SHES SO KOOKY I LOVE HER!!

[sleepysnail6]

o o

[keroa]

i hate to rattle my little cup but im trying so fuckin hard ive been working on commissions for 3 days and im still short almost 300 dollars on my rent if anyone wants to toss me a couple bucks it would be super appreciated.... paypal keeps taking a chunk of my money, and then transfers take a chunk of my money, and then payment fees take a chunk of my money, it just kinda never ends,,,, i’m going to be trying harder to find myself an actual job when i come back from my grandfathers funeral this weekend. but until then i’m broker than dirt. https://ko-fi.com/keroasfund

[dayz-ina-daze]

Why am I not able to feel safe in my own home

Why do I hate it here so much

[p0tat0-g0ddess]

(lays listlessly in the middle of the floor [again])

[skyniii]

I..I've done something to the game and..game maker just doesn't open the files? I was able to return objects and sprites, but rooms, scripts and fonts aren't importing? I tried everything I could find on internet but nothing worked.. I really don't want to redo them..ugh

[mainfaggot]

also this morning on the train I saw a trio of middle school (?) (at the very oldest like 10th grade) boys who were poorly dressed for the weather and they seemed so excited to be hanging out together bc elementary and secondary school students in my city had a day off tdy. i felt so envious of how casually they were laughing and trying to stay warm together. one of them tried to use a bar on the inside of the train to do a pull up and failed miserably which was quite funny. I felt so alone all over again. I wish I didn't spend my high school years (or even now) being so afraid all the time. afraid of not getting the highest grades, afraid of not looking perfect, afraid of my sexual orientation because of the people im surrounded by. I wish I skipped class to go to the lake shore instead of skipping class to go home and study harder. I wish I hadn't been so anxious. I wish I wasn't so scared of being found out. I wish I could be around my friends without hating myself or wanting to push them away out of guilt or old residual resentment over stupid shit. I wish I did things spontaneously and didn't feel like shit even after trying my best.

[aurischolar]

[cw: racist ffxiv players]

i think that as a brown person i should be entitled to financial compensation every time i see a player who made their character a brown woman in a bikini whose last name is a racial slur

[kibumkim]

Shit starter and a cunt server!!!

[paperconsumption]

professor was like heyyy not criticizing america or anything but it is kindaa maybeee a little bit like an empire.. and like five people in the class immediately started arguing it

[p2ep]

auuu i dont want to work today i need a chance to recover from yesterday...,

[vamptits]

I can't keep having the same conversations about love languages, mbti, iq, bmi, "brain fully formed at 25" and shit over and over again...

[sillyguy-supreme]

white americans when you tell them that the idea of climate change as an impending disaster is a reductive first world perspective because it’s a tangible reality for many in the global south already:

[swanstiel]

Man, I haven't been able to sleep at night for the past 2 days

What the fuck is up...

[artstetic-real]

happy pride. or whatever